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Danyal- or well, Daniel now he supposes, seeing as none of these ākindā strangers can pronounce his name right. Has found himself a golden opportunity to hopefully get back to where he actually belongs.
His current predicament was anything but what he could have ever imagined happening to him. He remembers an attack, an assassination attempt on him and his twin. He remembers taking a hit meant for Dami, he remembers the electricity coursing through his body from the weapon the assassin used and so graciously left in his abdomen, meant to make his body seize which would make attempts to keep him from dying just a little bit harder, and his death just that little bit more painful.
After that he vaguely remembers falling, and then burning green.
Next thing he knows heās in a foreign place with foreign people trying to āhelpā.
Wherever he is heās certainly not anywhere near Nanda Parbat.
But heāll get back, and the easiest way to do so is to secure transportation and funding.
Which shouldnāt be hard as soon as heās āconvincedā this random rich guy to adopt him.
āā§ļ½„ļ¾: *ā§ļ½„ļ¾:*---*:ļ½„ļ¾ā§*:ļ½„ļ¾ā§ā
Oliver is starting to regret the brilliant PR idea of sponsoring and supporting the new improved Star City foster care system.
In and of itself thatās of course a very good thing, and absolutely something he cares about and is happy to spend his money on, but these things should just be a given, just a thing thatās done because itās the right thing to do.
Canāt just do that of courseā¦ we have to make a huge spectacle about it, showcase some poor but very adorable kids in need of a loving family. make a big party about it.
Oliver is vaguely reminded of pet adoption days that some animal shelters do. Also a good thing heās in full support of, but thatās animals, and these are actual children.
The thought is making it rather hard to keep a pleasant smile on his face. Thankfully heās very effectively being distracted by the little guy who somehow managed to attach himself to his leg and refuses to let go.
Oliver looks down.
The boy with the biggest most blue eyes looks up.
There are cameras and reporters and Oliver can feel the bad decision creeping up and the voice in the back of his head screaming, ādonāt do it. DONāT DO ITā
Oliver lifts the boy up, āhey there little man, what is your name?ā
He gets a big smile in return and the bad decision suddenly doesnāt seem so bad anymore, weird.
āā§ļ½„ļ¾: *ā§ļ½„ļ¾:*---*:ļ½„ļ¾ā§*:ļ½„ļ¾ā§ā
Roy had been talking, or well, it was more like venting to Dinah about something Oliver had done, or said, maybe both, probably bothā¦ When they heard the front door open and was quickly followed by a āDinah I have a surprise but first you have to promise you wonāt get madā
Whichā¦ bad sign, very bad sign, terrible sign.
āOliver what have you doneā
The man walks into the room and proudly shows off his latest impulsive decision, āCongratulations, itās a boy!ā
ā¦Thatās a whole ass kid.
āOliver Jonas Queen! you did not!ā
But he did and that choice changes everything.
#Danny actually already is a halfa cause of the electricity that killed him and the pit healed him and then spat him out near Star City#So no Fentons here But Danny gets a red head older sibling anyway#Roy thought he'd be more upset with a sudden new ''sibling'' but he's actually kind of okay with it#probably cause Danny is very young#Dinah doesn't know what to do with this idiot of a man#Things are going to get really complicated later down the line#cause you know... Batman#dpxdc#dcxdp#danny phantom#danny fenton#dp x dc#dc x dp#dp x dc crossover#green arrow#oliver queen#dcxdp fic idea
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haiii question,,,, sorry for being kinda dumb here but what would be the point of sending emails to hapiele? the story is written already and akatsuki redebuted (???) so what Will they do then? would they just take back the things that happened in the event? sorry again for the bother! i dont go to twt or social media that much so im lost,,,
Thank you for asking, and this isn't a dumb question at all. Of course, contacting HappyElements has been quite the undertaking, so it's only natural to want to know what we should expect. This is a bit lengthy since I wanted to put as much perspective as possible, and as always, I do not mind if others wish to add to this.
The most important thing to acknowledge is that this is an unprecedented scenario, so we're making estimates about how HappyElements will respond. At best, we hope that HappyElements complies with the requests made in the emails and nothing less, with these requests being a) the removal of Ibuki from AKATSUKI since this plays into the existing discrimination and Japanization of Ryukyuans and b) the careful consideration of how Indigenous characters are written going forward. Other additional goals may be added at individual discretion, but in relation to AKATSUKI and Ibuki, this is our main focus.
There is a chance that Enstars can edit or change the story. For example, in Izumi's event, "One Drop * A Specially Chosen Mad Party in UNDERLAND", fans raised concerns about how Izumi and Leo's backstory was mischaracterized in the story, and the line was later changed. However, when it comes to AKATSUKI and Ibuki, we should acknowledge that our concern is with the story as a whole, not a few lines, and so this is not likely. Should HappyElements decide to edit the story, they would likely be attempts to soften the blows that they dealt - but especially for a subject matter like this, it most certainly does not change the fact that the blow is still being dealt.
Another hope is that, even if it does not change AKATSUKI's event, it will push HappyElements to be more considerate in the future with regards to discrimination and characterization. We know that Enstars has been able to change its trajectory with how it approaches topics. For instance, Arashi's earliest stories contained both homophobic and transphobic stereotypes (specifically, she had many stereotypes associated with gay men, which is why the earliest translations of !-era stories tend to use he/him pronouns exclusively. At the time, her gender was not explained.) However, as years passed, the quality of her stories has noticeably improved, with a greater emphasis on her relationship with her gender. Hopefully, pressure from fans will encourage HappyElements to consider the racist, anti-Indigenous message that its pushing, and reevaluate how to approach Ibuki and other marginalized characters.
Some fans are also taking the angle of focusing on mischaracterization as a sort of "foot-in-the-door" technique. Again, as was the case with Izumi, if we can argue that certain things are out-of-character and that the continuous mischaracterization will be a threat to HappyElements' profits, then we might be able to use that momentum to target the racism in the story, since for AKATSUKI, the mischaracterization has been done to facilitate the discrimination that we see, and thus is not wholly separate from the issue. (Though on that note, fans have been asked to emphasize the treatment of Ibuki, since we must not treat occassional mischaracterization as comparable to active discrimination rooted in prejudices that continue to affect Ryukyuans in the present.)
At the same time, we must acknowledge that HappyElements has not made any efforts of note regarding other concerns raised by fans. Most relevantly, the event "Answer * Matrix of Stars Drawn Towards One Another" contains racist, anti-Indigenous sentiments in its depiction of the Amagi village. Instead of taking inspiration from Ainu culture as has been the case with the Amagis thus far, they made the Ainu village a sci-fi setting. Japanese imperialism has worked tirelessly to erase the culture of the Ainu in order to assimilate them. By making the Amagi village less culturally rooted and more fantastical, Enstars erases the presence of Ainu culture from their world - likely because it wasn't deemed interesting enough, since Enstars does value its shock factor - which is insensitive to the plight that the Ainu face to this day.
With all this in mind, we have to remind ourselves that this situation is still developing. The reaction to fans' emails has been mixed in the past, and the response to concerns of discrimination especially has been disappointing. Though, we also need to acknowledge that this is arguably the strongest, most concentrated reaction of the fans towards HappyElements, and we cannot allow them to intimidate us, nor can we allow them to forget that they are enabling dangerous anti-Ryukyuan sentiments that are not without real-life consequence.
Lastly, as I personally see it... even if "nothing" happens, I still ask that fans continue to pressure HappyElements. If HappyElements cannot treat marginalized people with respect, then at the minimum we should do the opposite and show marginalized fans that we stand with them. As I've mentioned time and time again, what we have seen in Enstars is reflective of real-life prejudices that are actively harming people. Even if HappyElements' mind does not change, other people observing the situation may reevaluate their own biases, and we can counteract whatever harms could occur as a result of HappyElements' lack of care.
#asks#enstars boycott#enstars#ensemble stars#akatsuki#ibuki taki#I understand that this isn't very conclusive. however both realism and hope are essential to deciding how we move on from here
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I would like to apologize if you did make a post about this and I missed it (I am honestly not on social media a whole lot) but, out of curiosity, has your video upload schedule for 2025 changed slightly? I am okay with it if it has, I just wanted to make sure. Thank you!
Hello hello! Thank you for this question!
You are very correct! I maybe should have made an announcement m(_ _)m My apologies.
YouTube uploads have shifted from every-other-day to once every three days! I appreciate very much everyone's understanding ā”
I usually try to avoid posting personal information to this blog as it is for Twst, not for me, but just for the curious there are details under the cut ^^ Thank you again!
A local company recently launched a new community outreach project and I have been brought on as translator and interpreter! š„³
This is in addition to my full-time job, and while the income is very much appreciated (I was able to upgrade twstnote.com's storage limit for 2025 š) it means that there has been less time for Twst-related research and video-making š¦
October to December was particularly hectic and burned through almost all of my stock content. I was able to mostly catch up again during New Years holidays, but as this new job is project based I never know what is going to be needed or by when. Sometimes I receive three sentences to translate, sometimes I am needed three days in a row for on-site interpretation.
It is exciting but makes me nervous about being able to meet my twst-content deadlines, and something needed to be cut back. Am currently experimenting with every-3-day uploads and hopefully will be able to keep that schedule! If things calm down then I would love to return to every-other-day, but if things pick up then I might need to cut back again somewhere in order to balance m(_ _)m
And that is the situation! Thank you very much for your understanding ā” Will do my best to have quality improve, even as quantity may go down a little!
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ćć The LUMEN M-AHA-sterpost ćć
It was a-BAM time.
Hi hello there, fellow Life Series enjoyers! Arto, Pinkish and Kori here, live from our Game-Making Void bringing to you our comprehensive list of resources in one post for easier access and navigation!
Here you'll find our current status, some important links to other posts, as well as an overview of our tags and a handy F.A.Q. section :3
Without further ado, thank you so much, all info is under the cut!
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Date Format: [DD/MM/YY]
Current mission: [01/01/25-10/01/25] Accepting applications
Next up: [10/01/25] Reviewing applications
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First announcement: Applications
Meet the team!
Second announcement: Our official art guide
Essential info
Arto's lore scraps
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#projectLUMENasks : For every single one of the questions we have answered so far!
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What is this?
Project LUMEN is an effort to bring the Life Series to life in a brand new way, in videogame form! A RPG of sorts with battle mechanics, interaction with npcs, our own unique spin in Watcher Lore, changing art styles and multiple endings with a bunch of mechanics we need to keep secret for now but we know you all will enjoy, at least we hope so.
Cool, how can I contribute?
We want LUMEN to be a game by the community for the community, a tribute to all the wonderful artists, writers and creatives of all kinds. And it is a HUGE project, as such, all help is appreciated. We plan to open applications from time to time to recruit people as passionate as us into our little team. But everyone can lend a hand if they so desire, all ideas, all likes, all reblogs, all comments, all art, is truly, genuinely appreciated. Project LUMEN is completely non-profit, a passion project turned group effort that we are willing to pour our heart into, and we want to be as transparent as possible with it.
How will development of the game itself go?
As for specifications, Kori is the one in charge of the coding department, we are going to use Unity and C# to program everything, Arto will manage music and Pinkish will be in charge of the Martyn and Ren section. But once we review our first batch of applications, we will contact our chosen ones with more details, either for character sprites, script or any other miscellaneous things. We will all be working together as a team, each contributing as much as they so desire.
We will then take to developing our early alpha build including our very first couple of chapters, and release it for playtesting, then we will take all the feedback and make the pertinent changes. We will improve the game and continue developing until we have an almost finished beta build that we will then publish for testing. Take all the criticism again to finally reveal our finished product. Releasing first on itch io and then hopefully ported into Newgrounds for mobile compatibility.
Is there a release date?
As of now, we'd rather not promise anything. But we are actively working on development, and we hope to, at the very least, have a playable alpha demo at the end of this year.
#trafficblr#mcytblrsource#projectlumen#mcytblr#life series#third life smp#last life smp#limited life#3rd life#double life#life series smp#wild life smp#traffic smp#wild life#secret life#third life#last life
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Forcing myself to do yoga because I am far too sedentary and my body is rebelling.
Stupid human bodies and their stupid exercise requirements. And eating requirements. And drinking requirements.....sleep is ok tho. Sleep can stay.
I want a refund
#moving enough was so much easier as a kid#i had way more space to move around cuz i was small#i want an exercise ball#my moms used to just be in the living room at all times when i was a kid so i would just roll around on that#and try to balance on it while watching tv#could just roll around on the floor#its 6 am#didnt sleep cuz the back pain was causing me anxiety#i think it had been improving a bit but then i had like 5 days of minimal movement due to the cold#so ive backtracked a bit#my doctor couldnt get me in til april#hopefully by then things will have improved#unfortunately im impatient and also dont like changes in routine
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Pt 2 and the final part of LL Megatrons conversation with an aware G1 Starscream
this one wasnāt as dramatic as the first part but thereās only so much emotional vulnerability Screamer can do with his new free will heheh, thanks for all of the comments encouraging me! Iāve never drawn longer comics like these before and itās pretty fun so hopefully I can improve with the next comic I make!
#Starscream doesnāt completely trust Megatron at the end of this comic but he will eventually#if he was that possessive over og Megatron heās NEVER letting this one leave#btw that decepticon logo on Megatron is actually just stickers#if it gets damaged he sticks another one on#heās kinda attached to his autobot badge cause itās the only thing he has other then his weapons from his og world#he gets them commissioned on Etsy because they need to be so big and itās been draining the decepticon budget for a month#or whatever the 80s version of Etsy is#starscream finally makes him an official badge and he finally lets go of the autobot one#he still keeps it somewhere#transformers#transformers lost light#megatron x starscream#transformers fanart#transformers g1#starscream#megascream#megatron#megastar#edit: I fixed a grammar mistake hopefully no one saw that#OK THERE WAS A COUPLE OF TYPOS WHOOPS Iām not used to typing on my tablet rip#i cant wait to look at this in the future and hopefully by then i would have improved#i mean this entire blog is me tracking how my robo art improves +some official content but specifically for comics#G1 x LL AU
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Valkyr Prime No Forma Queen Steel Path Circuit Armor Strip Deluxe Build AKA Can We Get Much Higher
There's room for improvement (like adding forma and maxxing out the other arcane), but I don't feel like it right now.
Here's the Valkyr Prime mods & arcanes setup. Use Terrify (Nekros helminth) over ability 3 for armor strip ability. Use these archon shards to get the 100% armor strip too and good energy economy. Feel free to ask about any of these mod or build choices, this build is from like 2 years ago that one of my partners helped me set up and still going strong. Delusion helmet and Gersemi skin for appearance.
Prime Talons mod setup. Blast damage is the current meta as of December 2024 so you can see the original before Damage whatever number update point 0 we're at now compared to the original build.
Equip Naramon, it's extremely important for power scaling and end-game level damage.
Fully ranked up Power Spike is the only focus school stuff you need, but having the waybounds unbound is always good for operator/drifter survival, combat, and movement.
Manage your energy economy by getting parazon finisher kills on eximus units if you start running low, just edge the health bars until you see the prompt and your energy will shoot up to almost max if not max. More than half the time arcane energize should kick in and give you a boost on top of the archon shard energy boost (not sure if the effects of the shards and energize multiply/stack or not as I'm not a build math gal but it feels like it does).
Here you go @issilya and anyone else wanting a no forma Valkyr Prime that scales well into higher levels.
#oh and obviously put a potato on her too but that should be common sense... hopefully#I think i covered everything; literally equip anything in steel path circuit even if you get bad weapons; all you need is hysteria & talons#this is a build where Valkyr herself is the weapon itself and you can just get good at bullet jump and spin melee if there's air enemies#a few minutes in you should be at 12x combo multiplier and you should be able to upkeep it at around 11 or 12 as long as spawns r good#I'm aware of how specific a build this is but one of my friends also uses it and improved upon it so like its pretty reliable#as long as you avoid the nullies you'll be okay and the newest updates don't have any nullifiers so its extra good lol#also the can we get much higher meme was more popular when this build was made so like that's why its called that#and the fact that you can reach HIGHER end content by just being in hysteria 24/7 and upkeeping your talons and combo multiplier#big investment if you don't have these potentially but super worth it; at least 3 of us use this build frequently; good for netracells too#you can use the arcanes and mods for other builds on other frames too so useful resource#steel path circuit entrati labs 1999 this thing can do whatever you need done well... except the secret bosses bcuz magnetic dmg#but hey you can probably build her up for that or tweak it to adapt to the magnetic damage but there are better frames for those#I like shards :) they give more build flexibility same with helminth abilities; Valkyr's 3 feels just eh to me I don't utilize it at all#I used that one image just to show off my drifter fashion a little bit too yes UwU#mod rose#not a confession#warframe#valkyr prime#valkyr#warframe builds
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what do people usually share about their ocs ?? Sometimes there's things I wanna say about mine but yeah I don't know what's worth sharing : -(
#personal#I don't think I've ever posted that much text about any ocs I've ever had; so this is like a new thing for me#I guess what stops me really is that I always wanna make comics; so I don't know what would be considered spoilers#I never end up doing either thing tho : -((( annoying#most of what I have rn is planning stuff that I'm not sure if I'll change or not. throwing ideas at the walls and whatnot#I'm not that good at planning or storytelling..... YET! (hopefully I'll improve as I go)
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#uploaded this the first time but where is it???#myart#my art#loner vociferation#me things#art#fanart#arcane#jinx arcane#i have to see arcane... but im lovin her alr#HER CHARACTER IS JUST. SO COMPLEX I LOVE IT SJDJDBD#jinx#jinx league of legends#jinx fanart#procreate#experiment#quick sketch#doodl#def need to improve a lot in terms of proportions but hey!! i drew#hi pookies#im crusty and drawing from cosplays...#ndjdhdhdhbdbf hopefully im consistant!!!!
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I guess I feel kinda chatty since I haven't many chances to post on here in a little while (besides just screencaps and reblogs.) I have a lot of thoughts but unfortunately not enough spoons to get them all written down asap. A lot of them are about Amber-- I've been rotating her and Thirteen as inverses in my brain. She is so under-appreciated. A lot of thoughts re: 'House' and its portrayal of disability and chronic illness, too. Something something this show has been so important to me while being sick/dealing with this chronic illness, and I love it even more now.
#slowly but surely seeing health improvements#just got set up with pt and ot and i think that will help a lot!!#and waiting on genetic test to come in the mail#also finally have a diagnosis for one of the underlying issues#so now hopefully the rest of the drs i see for all the shit the mold made 10x worse will take me more seriously#and hopefully i get to visit my fiancee soon omg#despite being very sick things are going pretty okay and i can definitely feel/be happy#and there's more new things and adjustments coming on the horizon#anya shush
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Iāve been really thinking of reopening my art shop soonā¦ Iāve been taking some practice doodles (hence all the posting lately) while I shake off my rust and Iām finding things I enjoy working on again. I miss trying my hand at more dragons/OCs and colors. my shopās so broken rn lmao but thatās a problem for a later date itās just nice getting back into art
#my mental health is starting to improve a bit#took a couple years but I found some meds that finally work better for me#ofc things arenāt 100% but I was really in a pit for a while#like ādid not leave my house in months and slept 14 hours a dayā kind of pit#so. any improvement is better lol. but nah Iāve been making real improvement and im doing better. a lil shaky sometimes but thatās expected#diagnosed with chronic fatigue too. which is unfortunate but not unexpected. i am indeed godās sleepiest soldier#i feel like a raisin slowly rehydrating but considering i was in a desert before any hydration is welcome#just learning how to enjoy things again overall#one thing I just couldnāt get myself to do (and enjoy) was art. doodles here and there but nothing to post#and itās kind of funny because I feel like that downtime actually gave me a chance to think about what I wanted to work on#even when I wasnāt actively practicing#just paying attention to things I guess. enjoying art styles#i genuinely think my experimenting with stained is helping me learn colors#i spend hours in the scryshop im glad itās paying off lmao#i want to tackle bigger things but i just gotta ease myself into the hang of things again#for now im having fun and thatās coooool. thank you all for your nice comments#i read all tags while kicking my feet and giggling. thank u all#thatās the update on Me tho. more to come hopefully#starting next month/julyish I will have a significant amount of time to dedicate to drawing which i intend on doing#so who knooowwwsss#rambles#funny enough coloring has become my favorite part of the process now. it used to be lineart. now lineart annoys me LOL#i also feel like i kinda lost my ability to write which has been frustrating but im focusing on art first#anyways thatās a whole different tangent rant over
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#my photography#nothing special#trying to stay alive#about to sign the lease for this apartment... 1 month and i've got my own place#hopefully it improves things for me. at the very least i'll have more privacy
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i unraveled half a dishcloth about 3 times because i was having a toxic man-refusing-to-ask-for-directions moment and kept telling myself "nah you've knit stacks of these and it's literally the easiest pattern" and ignoring the fact that i've been crocheting for 3-4 years and could really spare 5 seconds to google a pattern as a refresher
#pickle pontificates#i was overthinking it and doing like. stockinette stitch. like hm this is probably fine#and you know it is fine but not for the pattern i was trying to do#which is why it took me so long to realize anything was wrong#and the conclusion of the story was that yeah. it did take about five seconds to look at the pattern#and NOW i can go back to knitting without thinking about it#would have been nice if I'd done that in the first place#the other thing I should really be doing is manifesting beano... found some leftover fabric so I could totally start that now#also I started midnight burger this morning. i've listened to 4 episodes and it's really fun so far#seems up my alley!#some of the acting is a teeeny bit stilted but totally enjoyable still#definitely within quality podcast range#i'm also right at the beginning#and i'm also acknowledging that I'm coming off of improv to a scripted thing so it probably stands out more#although the last two before zyxx were scripted and i was raised on audio dramas with slightly awkward voice acting so#who knows how my calibration compares to other people's#those radio characters are freakin funny and probably the most instant favorites#''married couple who's super into it'' is one of my favorite bits that i don't see enough#hopefully that doesn't age poorly for any reason. we'll see in a few days#and i'm interested in finding out more about all the characters and exploring the world. promising start!
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any zelda fans out there?
#the legend of zelda#the wind waker#zelda fanart#windwaker link#toon link#tloz fanart#tloz wind waker#went back to my roots and opened up my zelda artbook and copied the first thing i saw#i seen him and was like YES#iāve always struggled drawing toon link#i could never get him right#but i think i got possessed last night#bc iām so so so happy with this one#iāve never been able to actually FEEL movement in my art before#hopefully this is improvement going forward#also keep your eyes peeled iām gonna become a box master#iām gonna have boxes coming out my ears#wind waker link is my baby boy#wind waker is my baby#i say as iām the same age as it lmao#i love the wind waker so fucking much#itās such a wonderful game
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#Grim draws stuff#Grim's characters#spooky month#spooky month oc#fan character#OC: Mortis Grimm#ohhh Mortis lore finally#only took me 9 months since his creation and a good 50 rewrites to get to this PFF#can't believe my boy already has 100 images on toyhouse too??#I don't have a fave OC istg#anyways#lore crumbs :3#I changed some stuff from his backstory like 90% of anything I've written/drawn about him in the past is outdated#those were warmups guys I swear#I swear I wasn't super committed to an old idea that highkey sucked pff#but hey#I improved I learned#now I think I got a solid story#more coming in the future hopefully#I won't be doin things in order it's either lore bits or I'm committing to whole comics maybe but never in chronological order#maybe even stories too (like actual written stories)#you gotta guess what goes where /hj#also I better be stickin to this story now cuz those rewrites weren't for nothin#I love that he started as a silly guy that hunted ghosts now he's a fully fleshed out character and he's an exorcist instead#I originally intended on him being just a silly character with no super deep story but here we are :3#I think this all started when I decided to make him lose an eye#from that point on I was like 'okay but how did he lose it?'#and then the illness began /silly
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ngl gamers, I think I'm gonna inevitably lose to the hormones and depression in the near future XD
Can't bring myself to be active cause I'm using a lot of energy to not vent post all the time. But fuck it, into the tags I go!
#I want NO MESSAGES regarding this. let me just be upset and alone#you spend most of your life trying to not succumb to sick brain but honestly I don't think it's worth it in the long run#my life is for better or worse....decent. but I've lost the drive and happiness to really DO anything a long time ago. like whats the point#the only reason I havent killed myself yet is cause Im too lazy (and dont have access to a gun for a quick getaway)#and I'm saying all this DESPITE having stuff to look forward to in the near future. it's like AUGH whats the POINT IM always gonna suffer#why does mental health take such a toll on ppl. this shit sucks ass. and I still feel excited for things in the future too? somehow?#but I also really want to die so. idk man. idk. maybe if I fall in love with someone then I can be distracted but all my walls are up#what's the point in anything anymore. *I* have to take the steps to improve myself and my situation#and I'd rather die. anyways who wants to make a pact that once we reach 40 we will marry each other#that might be fun#also my brain has gotten so bad that I am literally considering joining a hiking club to get out more and I FUCKING HATE HIKING#but I should probably do something out of my comfort zone to push myself and who knows maybe I will find a new passion#but let me tell you about the anxiety - oh BOY it's starting to act up again. hahahha#ah well sometimes you just need to scream your feelings out in the tags to get a lil clarity from the brain fog#one day I will fucking die/kill myself but for now I'll just try to make the best out of. whatever the hell this stupid life is. *shrug*#(but hey if any professional hitmen are reading this. feel free to. heh. you know ;) )#also I need to get back to art#gotta do my paid work and that one pic I lined months ago. and clay stuff *continues to bed rot another week because hahahahahahaha*#ah I wish I didn't fail all those years ago. then I would be free. I wish I was free#ok goodnight I promised myself that I would do paid work when I wake up tomorrow so hopefully no more migraines -pray emoji-
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