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Artfight against @ejsuperstar ft. The Mad King and Chip. They're both so evil. I hope they have the most extravagant downfall of any onscreen villain.
This interaction is based on a little fic writing >:)
#For those who are reading the tags- Chip is ejsuperstar's Cookie Clicker OC. LIKE- COOKIE CLICKER. FROM DA GAME. IT'S FUCKING BRILLIANT.#Okay now to talk in the comments#first of all. The fic is literally so good. I had the privilege to read it uwu#These two are literally so evil. They just show it in different ways.#Bravus in intimidation and cunning And then Chip with his manipulation and deceit.#Also the âMagicâ vs âScienceâ motif here is so đđ€âšđ
#i mean. Bravus is from medieval times so of course he thinks anything like what Chip has is magic. But ALSO Magic 100% is real in his world#I think it'd be neat to keep my human's slitted irises. They look human- but just slightly off to make anyone in your AU notice#forgive my human facial anatomy *cries*#the *Poof* is a reference to fairly odd parents. LMAO#I'll post the speedpaint later if ur down! Videos always take so long for them to upload here#The Mad King#I am so happy with how this turned out. Like seriously. Took me about 3 hours???? idk i need to check#hope you like it. *bonks you*#I love how Chip is still intimating with a fricking cookie in his hand. Man looks so silly#art#my art#chip#deltarune#deltarune chara timeline#cookie clicker#cookie clicker oc
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heyyyyyy if u didnât notice Iâve been thinking about the tadc puppeteer au a lot haaaaaaaa
#im sorry itâs just#i canât stop thinking about it#like what if gangle doesnât just start out possessing Jax every day?#what if after the first time she just starts doing it randomly no matter what Jax does?#what if she starts threatening Jax to not ask for help?#what if the tadc crew minus Jax and gangle obvs start out thinking itâs a slightly creepy but mostly harmless way to get back at Jax?#what if they donât listen when he shows just how violated he feels cause âitâs Jax and heâs just embarrassed from getting his karmaâ#and they slowly learn how wrong they were?#what if Jax starts locking himself in his room so she canât get to him as everyone gets more concerned & gangle gets even more exited?#what if gangle lies to the tadc crew that sheâs just moving jaxâs sleeping body and not actually possessing him?#what if Jax tries to weaponize this by taking revenge on her in front of everyone so she cant posses him without revealing her secret?#what if it backfires?#what if gangle decides to take control of him anyway?#and he just removed his only security from her?#what if I cried?#puppeteer au#tadc au#tadc art#tadc fanart#anyway I hope my tags donât disappear
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Thereâs no way Jayce came out of the fucking Infection Dimension perfectly healthy except for his leg (and his mental health)
He had an open wound on his back before he even went in!! and then the one we saw on his leg! (which was broken in fucking half!!) like did yâall see how thick the fog was?? He was breathing that shit in for months!! That man was probably dying!!!
#we should have seen him take a pause in his speech to cough for like thirty minutes#what kind of fucked up cocktail of gas was in that fog bro#like The Gray and every other drug smog gas from the factoryâs mixed together with fucking magic#how much crazier would the Jayvik parallels be if Jayce had coughed up blood at some point#still crying over how much weight he lost#my babyâŠ#did he even get to see his mom before he and Vik disappeared?#did he get to hug her?#tell her he was sorry and that he loved her?#did she get to make him his first hot meal in months?#did she hold him while he cried?#did she even know he was back before he was gone again?#imagine being Ximena and your son shows up at your door after being missing for months over half a year#and heâs lost weight his hair is grown and unkempt and heâs covered in scars and he has a brace on his leg which is clearly injured#and he cries in your arms when you hug him like he hasnât since he was seven#and you tell him to come in to eat to tell you what happened and if heâs okay and he tries but none of it really makes since to you except#the grief. the grief you can understand you lost your partner after all you know what that kind of grief looks like#and after youâve feed him and held him and took care of him he leaves again to try and save his partner and then you never see him again#and youâll never know what happened to him and his partner#but all you can hope for was that he was able to save him and where ever they are their together#I am spiraling over Ximena Talis right now in the tags of my mostly jokey post#I love the Talisâ so much#jayce talis#ximena talis#Iâm tagging her because of the tags#it is 11 at night I have a cold and I am spiraling about the Talisâ right now#and just like Jayce should have been I am coughing like thereâs no tomorrow
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now there was no reason for lucanis to be given purple johnny silverhand as a plot point and then never have the purple johnny silverhand utilized except for maybe 3 or 4 times in the game (if you saved Treviso, otherwise it's twice) and dialogue. Dialogue where he pretty much just says weird and funny things and occasionally gets scolded like a dog which is entertaining sure but there is Literally A Demon In One Of The Companions Why Is This Not A Bigger Deal
#i think i've pinpointed what annoys me about the treviso vs minrathrous thing#it's not that neve or lucanis get mad at you but that you can't like. fix it. or talk about it.#you get 'punished' for picking one and it feels like it should be Worse#lucanis Especially winds up suffering in content bc of it and he's already hurting with content as it is#but apparently according to m kirby he never stops feeling betrayed which is valid#but why can't we fix it? or confront it? Why can't we have a rival situation? or see the effects of spite bc of it.#bc the Hardened thing is literally Nothing on both of them lmao oh no they wont heal me i guess#this man should be pissed at me and apparently he always was? despite us being friends? sort of? by the end?#like it's not even that Lucanis gets Mad at me (wish he'd show it) it's that this is a bioware game and i should be able to confront this#but no. just a choice where ultimately nothing happens but a map change and you don't get a mission/certain cutscenes#and lucanis or neve will go 'i'm doing this and you don't get a say' like ok that's fine and deserved#i just think spite should've potentially taken over lucanis more in a rival situation bc he's so hurt by the worst year of his life#and spite should be gnawing at the bit because this and the rest of the horrors pisses lucanis off#i also think neve should've tried blood magic for funsies esp if she becomes super determined to protect Dock Town but whateverr#i know these tags are slightly off topic but the point is SPITE SHOULDVE BEEN USED MOREEEE i'm so mad#honestly in my deluded hopes that this was going to be truly Bioware i thought Lucanis was going to have an anders situation#and spite would be more in control even if it's still Lucanis. just more volatile and sad.#and maybe it was going to be difficult but the idea that you could've potentially saved him by proving you were going to be there for him#ughhhh it's so annoying and depressing. I do like veilguard i do but this is the moment my love for it waned a bit#like sorry i think Lucanis/Spite should've turned Illario's head into wine if you didn't save Treviso. I think he should be that messed up#but i also thought this was going to be a thing that was going to happen with more companions lol cries for what should have been#prawn posts#veilguard critical
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Day 223 | id in alt
Maki thinking some very unsorcererly things over a piece of damn cheesecake.
(Read from right to leftđ„)
#dailykugisaki#jjk#kugisaki nobara#itadori yuji#zenin maki#inumaki toge#its always the cheesecake tbh#cheese cake isn't bad i think it depends on the type for me tbh sometimes it takes too....cakey....???#fuck i dont even know#ive had some very good cheesecake in my life and man im trying to rob a relative of her recipe#anyway. Maki had a strict diet because of the clan but because Kugisaki showed up and found out her love of junkfood....#it all came crashing down VERY quickly#Kugisaki indulges Maki and vice versa. its kinda funny how they're both violent enablers of eachother#Not pointing fingers but if you're gonna be vauge in the comments then get out or post up in the asks#tell me what ails you#for the other people#these two are fucking deranged idk what their issue is but im sure ill figure it out sometime#im getting there nobamaki enjoyers im getting there TRUST TRUST#time to get hysterically distracted while i write the description of the images#suddenly everything turns into cocomelon#i fucked up the placement but yknow my ass#Kugisaki and Maki are just too silly they're trying to exist but they're so fucked up#my silliest silly#Maki has only the faintest idea of fucked up connections and nobody talks about how shes absolutely abysmal at it#my brain is envisioning Kugisaki with a brick and that's it rn#Beyonce songs are playing#am i hallucinating#the fucked up spoon....lordt#thought about those wack bitches with those wide ass necks and cried#i hope you all imagine everytime i type shit in the tags that its of those stressed ass evangelion screams
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MISS SCARLET AND THE DUKE 3.04 - Bloodline
#miss scarlet and the duke#msatd#UNHINGED COMMENTARY BELOW ->#okay so first of all i just had to gif this scene because i really almost cried watching it the first time#i feel like the collective Fandom Hivemind was so busy being annoyed that william was gone for two eps and annoyed at william for the#arabella debacle (which is understandable) that a lot of the really amazing details from this episode especially#this scene got overlooked a little#this whole show just makes really good commentary on feminism#it repeatedly makes and demonstrates the point that true feminism is supposed to uplift *everyone*#this scene being one of many cases in point#i could ramble on about that concept forever but i should make another post for that#also this is my first time trying my hand at making gifs with words involved so i hope they turned out alright !!!#i had to brighten and recolor this SO MUCH dude i love this show but it is. a bit shadowy sometimes#but anyways !!! hereâs my little contribution to the fandom and i hope to make more in the future :D#iâm planning a fanfic as well but well. who knows how long that will take me to write lol#donât look at me i always write SO MANY TAGS on my posts lmfao
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I donât think Iâve cried/have wanted to cry this much over a show/movie in my life watching s2 ep4 of House of the Dragon
#raineyrambles#usually when I say this Iâm just teary eyed and not actually crying#but there are very much real tears coming out of my eyes rn#spoilers after this tag btw#the moment I knew we were losing raenys and maelys was when the first showed vagar in the woods#* rhaenys and meleys#and then there was a moment of hope when aemond stood down for a moment#but the tears started when the sun fire and meleys started clawing at each other#and sunfyer#crying out made me start skipping 5 seconds over and over again because I couldnât stand hearing it in pain#and then after sunfyer went down thatâs when I knew it was definitely over because there was no way rhaenys would stand down#it was just a matter of when#and oh god what made me start crying the hardest was meleys last look to rhaenys#like you canât not only kill a beloved character but you also killed a beloved animal??#how am I supposed to go in watching this show when thisâll be happening every week lol#you know I think I cried harder for this then luke but I think thatâs cause I knew it was going to happen#I didnât know this was#hotd#hotd spoilers#house of the dragon#house of the Dragon spoilers
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PLAYED ALL OF SOULSCAPE LAST NIGHT...... RAMBLING SPOILERS IN THE TAGS...... :D
#spoilers in tags#BRO THE FUCKING MEMORY SCENES TOOK ME OUT#Chase deserves SO MUCH BETTER than that woman. Im so glad they've separated. i feel so bad for the kids holy crap#i hope they get a happy ending with their father.#Jackie my sweet boy. the dysphoria battle made me cry. those bullies are shit and beating them was SO GOOD. hero boy deserves confidence#MARVIN THAT SASSY CATBOY OH MY GOD...... his memory was such a fun segment to play but ABSOLUTELY painful otherwise#I LOVE HIS FRIEND THO OMG??#hate those three money obsessed guys tho. would fight them again#honestly i have no words for Henriks memory. that was absolutely heartbreaking. i cried the entire time#the baby crying. the visual of his grief. how shattered and vulnerable he behaves the entire time.#the distorted bloody hospital was such a good representation of that mental state. the graves were so sad#joline showing up was the most heartbreaking and somber thing ever. doc needs a big hug#that was distressingly amazing.#Also cried over Bings memories. that was beautifully done and terribly sad#i understand deleting that memory. and the dialogue at the cabin door absolutely broke me#i knew that forest grave was important. the connections were so obvious.#ROBBIE MEMORY WAS ADORABLE THO. love that empty room scene#true anti also made me cry a little. poor kid just wanted a life. he deserves that so much#the ending did feel a little rushed though. like.. not satisfying in a way? there wasn't enough done it feels like.#the endings always feel rushed tho i guess?? just more with this one. im excited to see if anything ever has a satisfying conclusion#LOVED playing as cat Marvin. vent maze was good#i liked getting a whole map of the place as well?? but sometimes it feels like easter eggs over power plot#they're so fun and so good but also bro im here for story and the amount of things is overwhelming lmao /j#amazing plot and game overall#absolutely stunning
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WHAT
#I just FINISHED supernatural and have about FOURHUNDREDMILLION FEELINGS#WHAT#WHAT WAS THAT IM#I#WHAAT#I thought it ended at like 5 different points and cried SO MUCH????? I didnât expect to still care so dang much but I guess they still#own a piece of me oh god#spn spoilers#from now maybe idk but I donât want to spoil anyone and idk if anyone will read the tags but JUST IN CASE#âCas helpedâ well see that means Cas is in heaven too and that makes this so much easier I was so scared#for a second I thought Dean is in heaven Cas is in the empty and Sam is on Earth but no#now theyâre all in heaven and you betcha Cas is hanging out with Dean now aww now it is kinda cute#I got some spoilers (because ofc I did I went on tumblr again without finishing the show I was basically asking for it) but#all I knew going into s15 was âDestiel goes canon Cas goes to the empty and Dean diesâ so just thought naturally#thatâs exactly how supernatural has always been but I also wasnât sure if that actually would happen???#and Iâve seen that I love you news meme so gosh darn many times that I didnât know what to expect but THAT WAS HEART WRENCHING#Finally someone told Dean what he deserves to hear but why not let him keep Cas ugh this is so sad#Feels a bit odd that Sam got a son and named him Dean though like that sounds like it would be more painful than anything but oh well#oh and Jack!! aww Iâm so happy about him#I just hope theyâre all happy in heaven and I wish I knew more about more characters but tbh#I just want to know that Cas is happy#I was so angry halfway through this episode thinking they murdered Dean and left SAM alive like what#Sam is left on Earth to do his thing and Dean just gets offed????? luckily it ended a lot better than that#my god I need to process this for a long time#oh and now I also want to rewatch the whole show but letâs be real it is 15 seasons I have NO time for that#Anyway Iâll go back to playing Zelda now#I have too many feelings about Spn#itâs time to have feelings about something else and though I have blocked zelda and totk EVERYWHERE to avoid spoilers I am so emotional#but I have lots of feelings about Zelda too oh my god how can I fit so many feelings at once Iâm-#help I didnât know there was a tag limit wth
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the spectrum
#venting#what is that photo. boy where is your hair#oh my god the first image on the blue tag#<- me when i dont want to show up in the tag#anyway. thats so real#me when im a teenager choosing my addiction#fun felix facts: i used to watch my weight but i was too scared to do anything about it so i just cried and hurt myself when it went up#more facts: i most definitely had (have..?) an addiction to p orn đ i didnt watch any but i did read stuff .#i shudder thinking of that one website i found. it was so terrible for me#and i dont have a smoking addiction thank god but technically ive done all of the things on this list hashtag took one single hit of a vape#4/4 by a technicality#im still overweight so lets hope i dont start watching it again
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.â đđđđđđđđ. toji canât get his deserved rest due to his baby boy keeping him awake.
wc. 707
tags. dad!toji x female reader. nothing else to add; just pure fluff.
âheâs kickinâ me again,â toji complains with a deep sigh. tiny feet keep patting his back, not allowing the man to sleep at all. the culprit is none other than megumiâhis beloved, yet bratty, son.
the little boy lays between you and your husband. you figured that this was best since megumi kept wailing each time you put him back in his crib.
you chuckle at tojiâs groans of annoyance. your son is still full of energy, even if itâs already super late at night. your hand brushes against megumiâs chubby cheek and you canât help but squeeze it lightly.
that action gains you a high-pitched squeak. you sigh and keep your child occupied with the movement of your finger against his face, âitâs his way of asking for attention, honey.â
toji grumbles something under his breath and scoots away from the both of you. megumiâs head turns towards his dad, his attention caught by the rustling of the sheets. you raise an eyebrow in response to toji putting distance between you both.
âpapaâs mean,â you huff, talking to your baby. you canât see tojiâs face since his broad back is obstructing the view, though you can easily guess that heâs frowning.
maybe even secretly sulking about the lack of sleep. you do understand, however. heâs worked hard all day to provide for both megumi and you.
âpapa,â megumi speaks up with an adorable pout on his lips. he crawls over to toji before you can stop him. the little boy taps at tojiâs back again, tugging at the fabric of his shirt.
megumiâs need for attention and affection from his father is heartwarming to see. you reach out towards your son in hopes of picking him back up. toji needs his rest after all.
a deep sigh escapes tojiâs lips. not one of frustration this time, but rather one of defeat. he opens his eyes and turns around to face megumi. the manâs stoic face softens the moment he sees those cute doe eyes staring up at him.
âcâmere,â toji grumbles and lifts his childâs tiny body up without any effort. megumi giggles instantly and reaches his hands out to hold his dadâs face. your husband playfully bites your sonâs tiny fingers instead, ânot gonna allow yâr dad to sleep, huh? tsk tsk.â
you watch the scene unfold with a tender smile. toji lowers his head and starts blowing raspberries against megumiâs tummy. the baby squeals and giggles uncontrollably, writhing around in tojiâs embrace.
âthis is what ya get for being a brat,â toji mumbles and switches to leaving kisses along the little boyâs belly. that makes megumi laugh as well due to the ticklishness.
toji grins. his earlier drowsiness and annoyance have vanished into thin air. he canât possibly stay mad at his son. not after seeing megumi happy. and especially not after seeing your content smile too.
âmama! mama!â megumi laughs between cries of help. his tiny hand reaches out to you whilst toji continues the little attack on his tummy. you chuckle and decide to intervene.
you scoot over to the other side and shield megumiâs tiny body from your husbandâs tickles. you frown and playfully scold him, âstay away from my baby, you big bad guy.â
toji raises an eyebrow in amusement. he bites back a laugh before cocking his head to the side, that familiar smug expression appearing on his face.
âoh yeah? âm the bad guy now, eh?â the dark-haired man rolls his eyes. he towers over both you and your son - whoâs giggling and still holding tightly onto you, âall right. iâll show you just how bad i can be then.â
your eyes widen the moment you feel tojiâs fingers land underneath your shirt, touching your bare skin. not a second passes by and heâs already tickling you. his other hand reaches for megumiâs tummy againânow making the both of you squirm and giggle loudly.
the happy sounds echo throughout the room. perhaps even loud enough for your neighbours to hear at four in the morning. but, you donât care about any possible noise complaints. not during this cozy family moment.
plus tojiâs fond smile as he continues torturing you and your son is definitely worth all of it.
#sttoru writes.#jjk x reader#toji x reader#toji fushiguro x reader#jjk fluff#toji fluff#jjk x you#jjk x y/n#toji x you#toji x y/n
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How to write angst ?
@urfriendlywriter | req by @everynowandthenihaveacrisis @aidyaiden :)
know your character. from their deepest fears to what they cherish the most. know your deepest fear, ask yourself how you will react and feel at that moment. "oh shit, if this happened to me I'll lose my mind" what's that type of scenario for you? write it. :)
decide on the type of angst you are going for!
major, minor, physical, emotional, paranormal, spiritual, verbal, abusive, quarrel, misunderstanding, etc.
and then, decide on--what reaction you can take out of your character by doing what to them.
are they gonna be, held at a gunpoint to give something up? or have their soul wrecked by whom they thought were close to them? or is it going be horror, or etctec, decide on it.
moving on to actually writing it-
Tip 1 - Use sensory details.
her eyes brimmed with tears
his chest heaved
pain clawed at his heart, as his face twisted with hurt
his scream pierced my heart
her lips quivered
she dug her nails into her palms (to distract herself, to stop it from shaking, etc)
show what is happening to ur MC, instead of telling it.
Tip 2 - how to actually write it.
If they're panicking, make them notice too many things at once, show every detail that they're seeing, feeling, from touch, to that burning sensation on their eyes, the blood on the ground, that dryness of their throat, the buzzing in their head and their parted lips unable to trust their own sight, and--and, boom! have them register that they're really really in trouble. and that they've to act fast.
use short, very minimal type of writing for this. make it long, but not long enough that it feels like it's being dragged.
the readers should hold themselves back from skimming the page out of curiousity, they should be in their toes to find out what happens next.
what does your MC do in times of panic? do they chant calm down to themselves, do they get angry, or start crying.. or?? what makes your character genuinely feel an emotion so hard that they'll burst?
there's always something, someone that'll always give them love and easily can be that something or someone to take it away. yk.
Tip 3 - crying.
what is close to your character that u can deprive them of? will it make them cry? beg for it?
what will make ur character cry so hard, that their scream fills everyone's ear, stays in their minds like ghosts and always haunts them?
make a character who never cries, burst out with tears.
while writing crying, focus on the 5 senses, one after the other.
focus it on their breath, make them run out of breath, gasp for air, feel like they're being choked, cry so scrutinizingly. it shud punch the reader's gut.
have them replay what had just happened over and over again in their head
best books and writing styles (for angst) to analyse and learn from (in my opinion);
3rd book in the AGGTM series (yk it hit hard like a truck. it got me depressed in bed the entire time lmao)
Five Survive by Holly Jackson. The moments of red outside of the truck, and moments leading to it.
there's this book called " Warm by @untalentedwriter127 " in wattpad. the author served angst for breakfast, lunch anddd dinner.
and if there's more angsty ones, drop em in the comments! :)
Hope this helps, tag me when yall write a masterpiece! ;)
#writer prompts#otp prompts#dialogue prompts#imagine your otp#writeblr#writing prompts#urfriendlywriter#writing inspiration#angsty dialouge prompts#angsty romance prompts#angst starter#angst prompts#angsty prompts#how to write#how to write angst#writing tips#writing inspo#writing ideas#tips to write angst#asks are open#otp drabble prompts#writing drabble#drabble ideas#writing#prompts#prompt list#otp dialogue#otp writing#otp things#otp ideas
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bury me beneath the basswood tree
pairing: ghost/soap/reader [12k]
rating: 18+ only. minors donât interact.
tags: non-con sex, kidnapping, stockholm syndrome, size kink, forced fellatio, forced cunnilingus, impact play, brief watersports, double penetration in two holes, forced breeding, implied hybrid/shifter au
Needing time away from her humdrum life at home, she ventures into the woodland for respite. Little does she know, straying into that cabin in the woods will be the worstâor bestâdecision sheâll ever make. Depending on who you ask.
all my thanks to @/ohbo-ohno! thank you for being the best beta reader and sitting through my abhorrent typos <3
AO3 MIRROR
The mountainâs breadth of trees and foliage are written with prose.Â
Itâs repetitive. Mind-numbing. Sheâs already passed this necrosed tree stump five times before. On the sixth circle, she treks through the undergrowth like itâs curdled milk, the tiny scythes of branches whispering against her arms and slicing her open the same way thumbs tear into oranges.Â
Dehydration crystallises like sediment in her mouth. It makes her bones heavy, bending against her flesh as if theyâre groceries about to tear through a plastic bag. The balls of her feet are calcified, her thighs chafed. They rub against her threadbare jeans the same way a match reacts with red phosphorus to produce a flame. It burns, and so do her muscles. They feel moth-eaten and spent. Hung out to dry.Â
The stench of damp soil and sugar maple impairs her like an opiate. The peal of idle birdsongs grate against her ears. Sheâs sick of itâsheâs been here for three daysâand already, sheâs sick of it.Â
She tries her phone again. Itâs unresponsive, no signal. She unfurls her map but itâs mottled with rainwater and mud. Her lungs feel dry, pruney, as the dew drops slipping off fern plants seem to replicate the tears thawing in her eyes.Â
Evening mist hangs over the ground, and the sky turns red-bottomed as it progresses into nightfall. Itâs as if the mountain is sentient. Nocturnal. Stirring from a torpor once the sun sets and awakening all that lives within it.Â
A sob wracks her ribs. It has the same effect of a bullet, ricocheting. She keeps moving even though she doesnât know where sheâs going. She believes that should she continue walking, nothing will be able to catch her. Not the spindly tree branches that take the shape of arms or serpentine shrubbery. She wonât give the mountain any time to fossilise her, if only she keeps moving. Â
Her movements are clumsy though. Her eyesight is hindered by panicked tears, turning everything shapeless and blurry. She keeps tripping and skinning her knees like the hide of a pomegranate, her flesh peeling back to show the red pulp of her innards.Â
It was a rashly undertaken lapse of judgement that brought her here. To a conscious mountain that lives and breathes and feels her fear. It was her heart, empty, carved out and replaced by brutal loneliness. Her friends back home are heedless and her parents are never satisfied with what she does. She figured that if none of them would listen, the woodlands would.Â
And listen, they did.
When she cries out, the wind howls. When she changes her direction, pivoting on her heel, the soil rumbles. She sees thingsâa shadow spotting her vision, not composed of matterâpeeking from behind a tree trunk before quickly slipping away. She witlessly calls out, asking if anyoneâs there, and is met with the forest's silent presentiment. She feels the stark pressure of piercing eyes sprawling down her dewy neck, sweeping over her body.Â
The longer she spends lost, the more she sinks into Appalachia.
It pulls her down like molasses. Like sheâs an innocent fly trapped in glue. Soon, she knows thereâs no hope. She knows her scent is written into the bark of treesâsupple, sugary. A treat for whichever predator finds her first.Â
A brown bear, swinging its claws at her until her entrails are threadbare and striated. A snake, injecting venom in her blood. A bobcat if sheâs lucky. It would be a quick deathâsinking its loose jowls into either side of her neck until it snaps and she goes slack.Â
Sheâs apt to let go. Sheâs keen to yield to the alluring call of the woodland to let go, to fall to the forest floor and sit there until she rots. Until the roots worm into her breathing wounds and branches start growing out of her mouth. The urge to stop moving and become one with the mountain is suddenly cogent, leaves no margin of doubt. It comes with the promise of eternal respite and divine mercy. Sheâs about to find a cliff to jump off of, but before she can, something catches her attention.Â
A plume of smoke curling in the air.Â
Whorls of slate-grey soot thinning and disappearing into the sky. She looks for the source and follows it blindly, shouldering past pine needles and hawthorn and all but sobbing as a cabin comes into view. Itâs made of wood and the tufts of wildflower that sprout from its thin fissures. It looks neglected and eaten by the elements. Its vaulted roof is stained by the off-white assault of bird droppings, discoloured by acid rain. Some of the windows look covered with dewy newspaper, but still, she knows it canât be vacant. The smoke undulating from the chimney tells her that.
She staggers onto the porch. Her fist rasps against the door, clippings of wood burying itself into her skinned knuckles as she wildly knocks. Silence. Not even the leaves flutter against each other. Fleetingly, a stint of panic seizes her. What if nobodyâs home? But sheâs twisting the knob and pushing herself inside anyway, dropping her bag to the floor with a thump, stepping inside.
The cabin makes for a liminal space, smelling of sawdust and pine. Thereâs a layer of dust on every surface, making the air thick. All the furniture is carved from wood and a couple taxidermied deers are mantled above the stone fireplace, looking more like warnings than decoration. The pelt of a black bear is unfurled across the floor, and a few trinkets are strewn aroundâa bookshelf of spine-cracked novels, dead plants hanging from the ceiling beams. A mountain of used cigarettes, but strangely, no ashtray.Â
Thereâs everything but picture frames. Nothing she can use to humanise the cabin nor the people supposedly living in it.
She guides herself to the kitchen by feeling the walls. Thereâs a piped stove in the corner and cast iron tools hanging above the counter. Her stomach bubbles, and immediately, she starts scouring for food.Â
Thereâs three barrels by the door, and upon popping them open, the stench of brine sprays her in the face. Itâs fish with a crust of salt, preserved. In the other barrel is meat buried in shelled corn, and fermented poultry in the last barrel.Â
Itâs all raw and bloody. She steps back, gagging, turning her attention to the shelves that line the faraway wall. Jars of pickled cucumber and carrots. Garlic braids hanging from the edge. Rusty milk churns nestled in the corner.Â
Thereâs a galvanised tub full of ice on the floor. She digs through it and almost moans at the jars of jam. She untwists one, sticks her fingers in it, and wipes it clean with her tongue and teeth. Itâs tart and tangy but itâs food, sticking to the walls of her stomach, satiating her. And once she starts she canât stop. She goes back to the wall and finds a stained jar, fishing out a handful of fermented cabbage, stuffing it in her mouth, her face tightly puckering at the sharp sourness.
The juice of the food goes spilling past her lips, sluicing down her chest. It sticks to the chasm between her tits and mixes with sweat, making her shirt cling to her skin, revealing the barest outline of her nipples. Sheâs so engrossed in keeling over the counter and stuffing her face that she doesnât even notice the pointed shift in atmosphere. The deer outside stopping their rutting, the trill of birds ceasing. The leaves stilling, as if holding their breaths to hide. Thick, silvery clouds nestling together and eclipsing the sun, casting a thin overcast over the woodland, darkening the already-dim surroundings.Â
Sheâs too preoccupied to recognise the tell-tale croak of the door swinging open. Itâs tinny, but bullied by the sound of her smacking on marinated cabbage. She doesnât notice the dull, throbbing footfalls. Pays no heed to the stench of blood invading her senses because she believes itâs coming from her dry, leathery lips that split open as she widens her mouth to fit the cabbage inside.
Itâs only when the room darkens, a box-shaped shadow sweeping over her vision, does her blood run cold. She freezes with a handful of vegetable raised halfway to her lips, the brine rolling off a cabbage leaf like itâs an awning, dropping to the floorâdrip, drip, dripâthe rapid succession of shedding liquid hitting the floor sounds similar to the beating of her heart against her fickle, feeble ribs.Â
The saline spray in her mouth gets soaked up by her tongue, making it puffy, too big for her mouth. She turns around clementlyâtreating the shadow like a wild animalâno sudden movements. She goes rigid.Â
It canât be human.Â
Itâs huge. Bigger than anything sheâs ever seen before. Sweeping shoulders, broad thighs. Its neck is bent uncannily because itâs too big to fit in the doorway. Its chest rises heavily like a bull.
She tries to find a face, and when she does, the blood is drained from her.
It just makes her feel⊠uncomfortable. Its face is the poor imitation of a human, as if someone tried drawing one from memory but scarcely failed. Failed to capture the humanity, the animation, leaving it looking like a half-convincing resemblance. Its tapetum lucidum glows yellow, burning in the thin mist of moonlight that penetrates the newspaper sticking to the windows.Â
It stares blankly at her. The hair on her arms stick up, a bead of sweat slices down her neck.Â
âIâm sorryâŠâ
The creature raises an arm and pulls on a hanging bead-chain, tugging on the light, which is simply a naked bulb in the middle of the kitchen. The kindle is weak but does more than the delicate moonlight. Just barely illuminates its face. His face.
She tries not to let her fear show. Tries not to preen under his depthless eyes, the mean twine of his lips. His hair that seems to have been shaved too closely to his scalp, if the nicks and small cuts on the shells of his ears are anything to go by.Â
He grumbles an idle prusten. He rolls his elbows backâhis shoulder blades unfurling like folded wingsâand twists his thick neck.
âWhatâre you doinâ in my home?â
âIâm so sorry,â she repeats, her words stifled around a wad of cabbage. âIâ Iâve been lost for three days. I came up for a hike but lost my way and I saw your cabin and Iâm sorry, but Iâm just so hungry andââ
A deep, guttural voice peals from the living room.Â
âSimon!â It says. âWhere should I chuck the deer? Itâs too big for the livinâ room.â
The aforementioned Simon, she presumes, doesnât answer the unobserved voice. He keeps his eyes on her, face twisted into a puckered, mean mug.
A string of footsteps precede the face that appears behind Simonâs shoulder. A rounder, ruddier face. A salt-and-pepper stubble and eyes so blue they glow like bioluminescence.Â
Johnny acts surprised as if Simon hadnât smelled her from miles away. Her honeyed scent roiling off of her, curling into the air and thinning between the trees. Her sweat pooling in the gusset of her panties, raw and pungent.Â
Heâs purposely coy. Itâs written into the furrow of his brows and the caper of his cupid lips but the girl is too disoriented to catch on. She looks at him and beseeches, but almost faints at the deer hanging limply over his shoulder. He holds it like it weighs nothingâa sack of sprouting potatoes.
He coos. âWhoâs this?â
âLost bird,â Simon grunts. âFound her digginâ through our food.â
âOh, poor lassie,â Johnny hums. More so to Simon than the girl, which makes her squirm. âShe didnae mean any harm, Simon. Sheâs just hungry⊠thaâ right, lass? Are ye hurt?â
She stutters out a nod, gesturing to how her jeans cling to her knees, sun-bleached and darkened with blood. She rolls her shirt over her ribcage, showing them her wounded torso. How her skin sticks to her bones.
Johnny bristles.Â
âThe lass needs a place to stay, Simon,â he whispers. âAnd sheâs hurt. Bleeding.â
They talk of her as if sheâs advertised merchandise in a magazine catalogue. She squirms.
Simon turns to look at her. The depression in her cheeks due to her hunger and the split skin of her mouth. The pert curve of her breasts. The desperate look in her eyes.Â
He grumbles, looks over his shoulder at Johnny. âIâll start the fire. You take the deer out back and drain it âfore it hardens.â
âAye,â Johnny says. He thumps away in clunky boots and a thin t-shirt and jeans. The deer sways with his gait and disappears behind the screen door when he steps outside.Â
She redirects her attention to Simon, whoâs already looking at her. More specifically, at her pulsing neck. His jowls are slightly unfastened, his pupils blown out and eclipsing his irises.Â
Presentiment settles in her stomach. She blanches.Â
Suddenly, Simon is grunting and gripping her arm, heedless towards her whimper of fear and fleeting stint of resistance. His nails are sharp, digging sickle-shaped impressions into her arm. He drags her down the hallway and into another roomâa bathroomâand tugs the flickering light on. It lacks sheen, barely illuminates the room from its moss-covered nooks to the tiled floor caked with crusted dirt.Â
(The lightbulb is so dull. It doesnât reach the farthest corner of the bathroom where the radiator is placed. The radiator bathed in black, hidden beneath the lip of shadows, so she isnât able to see the forgotten handcuff hanging limply from one of the pipes.)
Simon works his heavy body around the bathroom. He leans over the clawfoot tubâwhich he dwarfsâand twists open the spigot, watching as brown-coloured water slowly ripens into something clear, gushing out of the faucet. He stuffs a plastic plug into the rust-ringed drain.Â
He straightens back into his full height. All-encompassing, panoramic. Simon is so impossibly large that itâs a wonder he has so much muscle packed under his skin. Rustic, hard thighs. A shirt that bends against his arms, about to snap.Â
âTake a bath,â he commands. âGet yârself cleaned up.â
Simon shoulders past her and ducks to exit the bathroom. Thereâs no door separating it from the rest of the house, but a multitude of beads hanging above the threshold to imitate one. She keeps her eyes trailed on it while she stripsâpeeling off her jeans, pulling her shirt over her head. Rolling down her panties and consciously hiding them beneath her other clothes.Â
She clutches the lip of the bathtub for leverage and dips her toes into the water. Immediately, she melts. The hot water swallows her foot and travels like a spool of thread to the rest of her, weaving itself into her wounds, licking her open like the first thaw of spring.Â
She submerges herself fully, bringing her knees to her chest. Her neck hoists backward and into the water, soaking all the grit and dirt knotted into her hair. Itâs like plying through syrup as she lifts an arm, retrieving a homespun bar of soap, clutching it to test her grip. Thereâs coily hair knotted into it and sticking to the dried bubbles. She brings it up to her nose, sniffing. Hesitates before rubbing it into her skin and around her throbbing wounds.Â
The water idly sloshes as she cleans herself. Itâs a hollow sound, amplified by the echoey room. She trails her hand below her waist, slipping her sudsy fingers between her lips and stroking, rubbing herself clean.Â
Beneath the tinny sounds of water surrounding her like a petticoat, something else peals out. Something like a whine. Her fingers cramp above her warm cunt and she goes taut. She turns her head to the threshold of the bathroom and nearly screams but her throat puckers before she can, blocking it, her mouth hanging open in a soundless screech instead.
Itâs Johnny. He stands in the middle of the hallway, peering into the bathroom and staring at her, half-obscured by the bead curtains. He looks like a sit-and-wait predator like thisâsilent and unassuming, if not for his blindingly-white smile shining through the curtain like strobes of sunlight breaking past trees. He steps inside now that heâs been spotted, and that causes ice to lick her organsâshe sinks her breasts below the waterâs surface, squeezing her thighs together. She bristles as Johnny strides impossibly close, the lip of the tub cutting into his thighs.
He stinks of sweat and iron and wood. His t-shirt clings to his skin, darkened with deer blood, outlining the barest hint of his bulky chest.
He grins. âBrought ye some clean clothes.âÂ
âOh. I⊠thank you,â she mumbles. âYou can leave it on the toilet if you donât mind?â
Johnny sets it down. A folded flannel and a pair of sweatpants. He idles a little longer, still smiling, before leaving the bathroom. She counts the minutes in her head and tries to find the right time to leave the tub, outstretching her hand for the towel once it comes to her. But the towel is just scarcely out of reach. The terrycloth grazes her fingertips, teasing her. Itâs like it was methodically placed there. Bait at the end of a fish hook to ply her out of the water and stick her ass in the air, reaching over to grip the cloth and tug it over her breasts, stepping out of the tub.
Her eyes stay locked on the crude door while she changes. She buttons the flannel up to her neck and takes heed of the pointed absence of any undergarments, slipping her legs into the gauzy sweatpants, tying them at her waist.
Johnny bursts in as if on cue. Heâs still slick with blood, his mohawk odd-angled, spun-thread and matted to his head with sweat. His cheeks bulge around another grin.
âToo big for ye, is it?â He pants. âMight as well take it off. Might trip and hurt yerself again. Wouldnât want that happeninâ, right honey?â
Johnny shortens the space between them in one stride. His fingers, thick and jaded, are already fumbling around the knot she tied, pulling it out of its bow and letting the sweatpants fall, pooling into a crimp around her ankles.Â
The flannel is big enough to reach her thighs. Still, she clenches her fingers around the hem and tugs it lower, preening under Johnnyâs smouldering gaze. Itâs almost paradoxical how it worksâhis eyes are icy blue, yet they have the same effect as basaltic molten. Burning hot. Heâs fixated on her skinned knees, gnawing on his bottom lip.
âSimonâs got the fire goinâ,â he says. âLetâs go get yer wounds cleaned too, aye?â
Johnnyâs walking out before she can blink. She follows after him, flustered, stumbling into the living room lit by a dulcet fire. Simonâs kneeled beside it, sticking his hand in to adjust a lopsided stock of wood, unaffected by the flames that eat away his arm hair. Johnny takes the girl by the scruff of her neck, guiding her to a hand-crafted chair placed conscientiously in front of the fireplace. He presses on herâthe sensitive divot between her shoulder and her neckâand pushes her into the seat, unzipping a first-aid kit.Â
Johnny takes her feet and pulls them into his lap. The angle makes her flannel hitch up, exposing her bare cunt to the hot embers of the fireplace, and the equally hot embers of Simonâs prying eyes. She squeaks and covers herself, averting her gaze as Simonâs stare darkens into the colour of midnight splash hanging over the sky.
âYouâll feel a wee sting,â Johnny warns. He rips the corner off a rag and drenches it in vodka, poising it over her flayed knees. âShould probably give my hand a squeeze or somethinâ, ye ken? To lessen the burn, oâ course.â
She hesitates but slips her hand around Johnnyâs all-encompassing one, her fingers barely meeting whilst wrapped around his palm. She winces when the ethanol meets her wound, shooting through her veins, and tries recoiling into herself.Â
But the amplitude of her pain swells, and her muscles girdle.Â
Itâs Simonâs massive hand splitting itself across her thigh that keeps her pinned to the chair. His fingers bite rivets into her skin, the pinch overriding the sting of her tissue soaking up the alcohol.
âStay still when he tells you to,â he grumbles. âOtherwise itâll hurt.â
She wriggles uncomfortably. Tries not to flinch when the rag meets her knees again and burns her wound. Simonâs hand doesnât leave her thigh until heâs throwing another block of wood into the fireplace.
Johnny hums. âSo, whatâre you doinâ up here? Religious retreat? Mental health?â
She smacks her lips, unsure if she should answer that. She chances a glance towards Simon and bristles because for some reason, she just knows that if she lies, somehow, heâd tell.
âUm. Just stepping away from home, I suppose,â she mumbles. âFriends. Family.â
âOh. They dinnae care about you?â
She flinches. Not because of the vodka against her skin, but Johnnyâs implications.Â
âNo,â she says. Her words are so fickle, so distorted by misery that not even she believes it. âThey do care about me. I just needed space.â
He nods. Slowly, his eyebrows press together. âI donât remember much of my family. Itâs a wee bit odd. Canât say if they liked me or notâŠâ
Simon squeezes the back of his neck. âEnough of thaâ. Pay attention.â
Johnny makes a sound like heâs humiliated. Itâs only when he unrolls a spool of gauze, wrapping it around her kneecaps, is he afforded mercy when Simon changes the topic.
âWhereâs the bird gonna sleep?â
âWeâve still got a cot in the root cellar, aye?â Johnny replies. âFor hurricanes and thaâ. Figured she wouldnât mind it there. Wouldnât ye, lass?â
Clemently, she shakes her head.
Simon grunts. He stands up, towering over them both. âThe deerâs there, Johnny. What kind of hosts would thaâ make us? Puttinâ her up with a corpse?â
Johnny blushes as if heâs been scolded. His bottom lip curls out, petulant, a waspish colour flooding his cheeks.Â
âAyeâŠâ he grumbles. âThaâs right. The livinâ room, then?â
The girl is sitting, her head oscillating between the two men like a pendulum as they talk.Â
âNo,â Simon says. âWeâll move the cot to our room.â
Johnny nods. He scratches his stubble, pretending to think. âItâs important we keep an eye on her wounds, too.â
âExactly,â Simon says, petting Johnnyâs head. âSmart boy.â
He clicks his tongue and Johnny shoots up, scurrying out of the living room to retrieve the aforementioned cot. Muffled sounds peal out from the root cellar below them. Johnny comes stumbling back up in mere minutes with a rickety cot fitted under his armpit and disappears into a dark room.
âBest get to sleep before itâs too late,â Simon splays his hand over the small of her back. âYâmust be tired.â
She submits to Simonâs touch, letting him guide her through the cabin and into the darkest room lit only by a lone oil lamp.Â
Johnny is finishing up the cot when Simon releases her. He drapes a cable-knit blanket over the surface, fluffing up a pillow. She doesnât point out how close it is to their bed, the lip of her cot almost touching their rickety mattress.
âFair warninâ lass,â Johnny begins, peeling off his shirt, kittening into bed. âSimon snores quite a bit. Dinnae be feart to smack his gob if he gets too loud, aye?â
She stiffly nods. She climbs into the cot and bunches the blanket around her, making a conscious effort to hide her bare legs. Simon crawls between them, the mattress sinking with his weight, and throws their whisper-thin blanket over his legs.Â
Darkness penetrates the room when he blows the lamp out. The only smoulder is the silvery glow of moonlight invading the curtains and the reflective light in Simonâs eyes.Â
He sits up impossibly straight, staring at her like a cryptid caught on a trail cam. It causes discomfort to congeal under her flesh, but slowly, the longer she looks, a bristle of sleepiness lays hold of her. She closes her eyes and falls into limbo. Her breaths thinning into a short, even pattern.
âââ
Sheâs between the threshold of awake and sleep when she hears it.
She canât tell if itâs a dream or the amplified sounds of Appalachia. She feels as if sheâs underwater or stuck in syrup, able to hear the rushing brook of her blood against her ears but unable to distinguish the sounds around her.
Thereâs a grunt. And a moan. The wail of the bed next to her snapping then creasing. Heavy breathing. Sprinting hearts.Â
Her head is so muddled she canât register anything. Her mind tells her that the violent slapping of skin against skin is the crack of thunder. That the strangled whimpers are the call of a cottontail.Â
âRight there, Johnny?â A voice asks. âTakinâ my big cock so fuckinâ well. Greedy lilâ bitch, you are.â
A long, drawn-out whine chases after it. A choked-out scream as if something hurts, succeeded by a wet squelch.Â
âLook at âer,â that voice jeers. âThink sheâd take it? Better than you? Think sheâd bleed all over it likeâ fuck⊠how I smelt it on her?â
The other voiceâbroken in, wispyâchokes on a response. It sounds a little stifled, as if speaking through something shoved in its mouth.
âNo⊠nae better than me,â it mumbles. âNae better than meâŠâ
Itâs like sheâs drowning in purgatory. She canât move, canât speak. Sheâs caught in a phantasmagorical limbo between reality and fantasy. She can feel the serpentine hands of something with no material existence wrap around her and stain her slick with sweat, sweeping over the space between her legs, licking a wetness up her pussy.Â
A dewy sound peals out. Itâs a predator loosening its jowls, stringy and frothy, flaying its lips to bare its teeth. A rumbling roar rips out of its throat, animalistic. She can hear the popping of teeth sinking into flesh. The dull sound of skin breaking.
âAh!â A squeal. âSimon, thaââ it hurts.â
She feels a vortex in her belly, an ache in her clit.
Itâs like she resurfaces the water. All at once, she hears clearly. Itâs a lone word whispered in a guttural cadence so close that she swears itâs mumbled against the hot hull of her ear.
âGood.â
âââ
She wakes the next morning with her tongue sticking to the roof of her mouth and a damp heat between her legs.
Sunlight filters through the gauzy curtains, hitting the bed next to her. The bed is starkly empty she notes, as she crawls out of her cot and pops the stiff muscles in her back, stretching.Â
She pokes her head out of the bedroom and tiptoes around the cabin as if avoiding a barrage of landmines. Thereâs a downward force in her bladder that tells her sheâs been in torpor for the better half of the morning, and a heavy crust in her eyes that shifts when she blinks. She finds her way to the bathroom and shucks the flannel over her hips, lowering herself on the toilet seat, emptying herself.
Itâs the only stint of respite. The closest thing she can get to calm since losing her way in the mountain three days ago. She relishes in the idle birdsongs outside and the sound of overnight frost melting into the dew that slips off tree leaves, pitter-pattering to the ground. Listens to the stream of her pee peter out, and the ruffle of folding fabric as she tosses the flannel back over her thighs. She listens to theâ
âHowâd ye sleep, pretty girl?â
She flinches at the gruff voice. Itâs written with sleep, barely lucid under a Scottish lilt. Her hands freeze under the running water of the tap as she watches Johnny waltz inside the bathroom, shucking his pants to his thighs and pulling out his cock, pissing in the toilet.Â
Sheâs stiff. Fixed to the cold clay tiles of the floor, unable to be bent. She tries not to let her eyes wander, tries to block out the chubby mass of muscle swinging between his legs.Â
âOhâŠâ her words are stifled by shock. âF-fine. I slept fine. Thank you again for opening your house to me.â She thinks back to last nightâthe whimpering, the croakingâand rashly decides to tack on, âBut I did hear some weird noises. I could have been dreaming though.â
Johnny chuckles. â...Aye, itâs almost matinâ season âround these parts. I think youâll be hearinâ more of that. Itâs best to ignore it.â
Her body girdles when he sways his cock, shaking away the liquid on the tip. He stuffs himself back into his pants and pulls the flush, grinning.Â
âBet youâre still hungry. Simonâs wrappinâ up breakfast. Letâs go.â
He pats her bum and makes her squeak. He grips the hem of her flannel and reels it around his knuckles like a leash, tugging her into the dining areaâwhich is more of a nook nestled into the living roomâand pulls out a seat.
âHope ye fancy porridge,â Johnny chuckles. He splits his palm across the top of her head, pushing her into the chair.Â
She huffs and hoists her neck up, grimacing at the acrid scent of animal hide burning against the base of a cast iron pan. It takes a conscious effort to not crinkle her nose in disgust.
Simon ducks as he emerges from the kitchen threshold. He wields two bowls of food. One for her and the other for Johnny. She takes heed of howâdespite his statureâSimon doesnât have anything to eat.
However itâs a cursory thought, because sheâs quickly pulling her lips into a weak smile and examining the bowl in front of her. Food is a generous word, since it looks more like coagulated milk than porridge and smells sour. Simon places a chipped plate of bacon alongside it. Itâs curled because itâs overcooked, crusted with charcoal.
She swallows as Simon takes a seat next to her. Johnny, on the other side of her.Â
âLooks delicious,â she hums. She turns to Simon, âAre you⊠not eating?â
He picks an off-white tendon from his canine tooth, flicking it away.Â
He answers in a rigid tenor. âDonât hurt your head over me. You eat your food.âÂ
She marginally shrinks into herself, embarrassment licking up her spine. She feels like a chided puppy, but perhaps thatâs the sentiment.Â
When she opens her lips and raises the spoon to her mouth, her flannel curls like a wisp of hair off her shoulder, baring her bruised albeit supple skin. She hastily pulls the sleeve back up.Â
She speaks around the stale porridge and her rising apprehension. âUh, do you have my clothes from yesterday?â She asks, squirming as her sweat glues the back of her thighs to the chair, sticky. âItâs just, uh, they fit me better.â
âOh,â Johnny blinks, âoâ course.âÂ
She watches him stand up and slip through the backdoor. He walks towards a clothesline hitched between two trees and retrieves her clothes, returning with them tucked under his arm.
âHere ye go sweetheart,â he grins, setting them on her lap. Petting her head.
She slowly peels through her clothes. Her fingertips drag against her threadbare jeans, her overripe shirt, but never touch the sweat-imbued gauze of something more⊠intimate. Her maw tenses around the hot porridge.Â
âWhere are my⊠umâŠâ she lowers her voice even though itâs redundantâJohnny is leaned in close, practically huffing against her ear, sniffing her neck. â... Undergarments?â
Johnny tilts his head, puckering his lips in confusion. Heâs written with the innocence of a puppyâwhether itâs real or fabricated, she canât tell. The words have begun bleeding together, blotchy and unintelligible.Â
âPanties, ye mean?â He laughs. âYe never had any of those.â
She swallows thickly.Â
âNo, I⊠I did. I wouldnât go hiking withoutââ
âYe must be goinâ crazy, lass,â Johnny says. âThis was all you gave me. Nae panties.â
He stares at her with large, intercosmic, unassuming eyes. His gaze flickers towards Simon. Itâs so fleeting that she almost misses it. The sweep of his blue irises widening, eclipsed by his pupils. She tenses. Omniscience hits her like a brick.
Her tongue goes heavy in her mouth, melting her words. The porridge turns frothy in her gut, nausea sticking to her organs and presentiment curdling in the air. She tightens her throat around a gag.
â... When can you drive me into town?â
Johnny reaches over and grips her thigh. He digs divots into her flesh like a fish hook caught in a flayed gill.
âYouâre welcome to stay as long as ye want, pretty. Thereâs nae rush.â
She feels bile crawl up her throat.
âOh, well, I just donât want to overstay my welcââ
âHeâs excited to play host,â Simon growls. His words are marked by firm determination, leaving no room for objection. He leans over the table, his wifebeater clinging to his muscle, his wiry chest hair pressing against the soft cotton. âWe rarely get visitors âround here and heâll be upset if you leave. Yâwanna make him upset?âÂ
Finally, warnings blare like strobe lights in her mind. She fidgets in her seat, sweating, shooting a cursory glance to the backdoor. Calculating her chances of survival should she break through the mesh and make a run for it.Â
âO-of course not. Not after everything youâve done for me,â she stutters, feeling a bead of sweat travel down her neck. âIâm sorry. Iâm sorry for asking.â
Simon settles back in his seat. Johnny, too, frowning around his porridge.Â
âGood,â Simon grunts meanly. âNow shut your gob anâ eat.â
She clemently chews away at her breakfast, preening under their smouldering gazes. Throughout her polishing off her bowl, sheâs reminded Simon doesnât have one. Itâs unseemly for a man so sturdy to not be eating, but as Simonâs lips peel back, sated while he watches her take her final bite, she spots a spray of red liquid washing the spire of his fang tooth, glistening in the sunlight.Â
âHowâd you like thaâ, pretty?â Johnny asks. He collapses whatever thoughtsâwhatever inklingsâbegin to seize her about Simon as he smiles and their bowls, disappearing into the kitchen.
Right away, Simon is hooking his foot behind a leg of her chair, using it to pull her closer.Â
Heâs centimetres away from her face when he says, âHow âbout you start pullinâ your weight?â
Her eyes flicker up to see Simon hovering over her. Heâs dewy with sweat, big and burly and drifting above her like the closet-dwelling monster from everyoneâs childhood.
âYouâve caused enough trouble in my home,â he continues. âAte a lot of our produce. Itâs time you make up for thaâ.â
She resists the urge to snarl. She doesnât even want to be here yet Simon is insisting she fill her roleâwhatever that role may be.Â
But as she hoists her neck up at him, she gets skittish and looks away, her tongue knotting. She knows it isnât smart to upset Simon again. Heâs a beefy man with sharp canines and vertical pupils, with more hair sprouting from his forearms than whatâs considered normal. A man who expels deep tonal flutters instead of regular breaths. Whoâdespite his sizeâcanât ever be heard approaching.
So she smiles instead, asking, âWhat is it you need help with?â
âFloors need scrubbinâ.â
He shoves a rag in her hand and holds out a bucket of sudsy water she hadnât noticed before.
âKitchen, livinâ room⊠just get to work.â
The water sloshes over the lip of the bucket when he sets it down. Simon stands to his full height and stalks out of the room, leaving her alone with her multitude of thoughts.Â
Slowly, she stands up. She hauls the water bucket to the middle of the living room and is starkly reminded of her strengthâor lack thereof. Simon had picked the bucket up so naturally, but with the weak tendons lacing her arms, she struggles. It doesnât help that her vision is still spotty.Â
She lowers to her knees, wincing at the chord of pain beneath her bandages. She awkwardly drenches the rag in the water and wrings it dry, poising herself above the floor, working the rag into the floorboards.Â
She tenses when Johnny walks back in. Heâs behind her. Unlike with Simon, she can feel him creeping up. She can feel his eyes on the lips of her pussy where her flannel hitches up while sheâs bent over, scrubbing the floors.Â
Her cheeks burn. She blindly reaches behind her to tug the hem down, covering her warm cunt.Â
Johnny chuckles. âThis is whaïżœïżœïżœ Simon has you doinâ out here?âÂ
She looks over her shoulder, her skin prickling when she sees an axe in his hand.Â
âWeâre goinâ to the yard to chop some wood,â he says, âbut I see youâre already busy beinâ our bonnie housewife.âÂ
She stutters. That operative word, housewife, burns a hole in the snail-shaped cochlea of her ear. âNo, Simon j-just asked me to. He asked me to.â
âI know, sweetie,â Johnny replies. He squats next to her and rubs her back in slow circles, trying to hike up her flannel again. âSimonâs just takinâ the piss. Heâs a meanie like thaâ.â
She tries shouldering him away but Johnny only holds her tighter. Simon reappears in the doorway, watching with his arms crossed.Â
Johnny clears his throat. âThought weâd spend time in the yard today. Doesnât thaâ sound sweet?â
She looks at Simon whoâs already looking at her through hooded, brutish eyes. She realizes that her autonomy is divestedâthat she has no choice but to follow what they say because something is very, very wrong here.Â
Perhaps this is what the mountain had warned her of. In all of its howling and breathing, the branches gripping her and the delirium written into her psyche, maybe, it was all a warning.Â
She hangs her head. âMhm⊠sounds great.â
She has no time to process whatâs happening before heâs folding his hand into the cavity of her armpit and dragging her up and out of the door, into the backyard.Â
Itâs more of a cleared grove than a yard. Dead tree stumps litter the small expanse, grass the colour of ripe lemons because itâs been seared down. Thereâs a block of wood sitting on a stump, split down the middle. Sun-bleached clothes hanging over the clothesline.
âYâcan watch here,â Johnny says, gesturing to one of the tree stumps. âWeâve got to chop wood for dinner tonight.â
He pulls her down on the makeshift seat, finally letting her go. And just as Johnny pivots, slamming the spire of the axe into the block of wood, she sees him scrunch his nose as he sniffs his hand, drinking in the sweat from her armpit. It goes up his nose and through his nasal cavity, making him quiver as if her sweat is an opiate. Disgust slams into her, sinking in her stomach and settling there like sediment. She doesnât even notice Simon walking out of the cabin and reaching for the axe, raising it over his head, until the resounding sound of wood snapping peals out, and sheâs jumping in her skin.
âNo need to be feart,â Johnny laughs. âJust his usual routine.â
She watches Simon work. He looks like a beast on its hind legs like thisâimpossibly large and splayed out with his arms over his head, growling whenever he brings the axe down on the tree stump, splitting it in two. Sweat burns through his wifebeater and turns the fabric translucent, revealing the barest outline of his chest. His chest hairs are matted with sweat, his sinews straining with each chop of wood. His face is curled meanly into itself, his trimmed hair nicked in different places from at-home shaving and washed with sweat.
Every time he brings the axe down on the wood, expelling a guttural groan, something stirs in her. He does it with such force, such strength, it makes her wary. He fractures the wood along the grain without so much of a blink, without any stifling in his muscle.
All those horror films she watches aloneâwhen her friends say theyâre too busy to join, when they lead her on after planning a get-together that doesnât come to fruitionâfinally catch up to her, sowing the thought in her head that if she stays, sheâll become the tree stump. Impotent beneath Simonâs hacking and eclipsed by his behemoth-like body.Â
Her missing panties. Johnnyâs sticky hands. Simonâs less-than-human behaviour. It all slams into her like whiplash.Â
Her fear rears its head as a rashly undertaken announcement tumbling out of her mouth.
âI have to pee.â
She ignores the way Johnny perks up, as if that activated something in his brain. His ocular vein goes large, rapt, his pupils blowing out as he looks at her and then her navel where her bladder sits, suddenly grinning.Â
âI can come withââ
âIâll go in the woods,â she says. âBehind a bush or something, okay?â
Simon grunts. Itâs a deep prusten sound as he splits another block of wood. Johnny pouts but lets her go, watching with those imploring eyes as she disappears behind some foliage.Â
Itâs now or never, she decides.Â
She makes sure sheâs concealed by the flowering of a tree before speeding up her walk. She moves like an unoiled machine, rusty, as her walk ripens into a run.
She doesnât know where sheâs running. She doesnât know how far the nearest town is or how to find the trail she lost herself on, but she knows she needs to get far away from here.Â
The woodland is labyrinthine. Everything looks the same. She hopes she isnât sprinting deeper into the heart of Appalachia and straight into her new grave, but still, she doesnât stop running. Not until her lungs wilt into themselves and turn pruney, not until her heartbeat plateaus.Â
Itâs as if sheâs working against a rip current. She feels as if a part of herself is already woven into the woodland soil, feels herself written into the rotting, wet trees. Itâs like sheâs treading water instead of sprinting. And itâs like a supernova has erupted in her ankle as it gets caught under a root, sending her face first into the dirt.Â
She reorients as quickly as she can. She raises to her feet but winces at the flaring nerves in her foot, and looks around for a stick she can use as a crutch.Â
But something else catches her attention.Â
A dog-eared paper taped to a Basswood tree. Itâs been eaten by the elements, mottled, barely hanging on. She steps closer and reads the blocky letters across the front, her blood running cold in her engorged vessels.
MISSING PERSON
Fleetingly, hope seizes her, but she soon remembers nobody back home is heedful enough to report her missing, let alone realize sheâs missing in the first place. Additionally, the year suggests that the flyer is three years old. Her eyes slink down, trailing over whatâs still intact.
LAST SEEN: CLIFF TRAIL
$3,000 REWARD FOR INFORMATION
Foreboding clings to her flesh. She quivers, her knees weakening.
FIRST NAME: J-
The tail-end of it is smeared, the ink bleeding and thinning into the paper. Itâs unintelligible, so she trails her gaze lower, heeding the victimâs last name instead.
MACTAVISH.
âSweetie!â Peals out from behind her before she can read any more. âWhatâre you doinâ all the way here? Had me and Simon thinkinâ ye ran away or something. Hah.â
Johnny hurries close and swallows her flinch with a tight hug. He frowns at the flyer.Â
âWhyâre you readinâ this silly stuff?â He asks. He tears it off the tree and crumples it up, tossing it away. âThat shite gives yânightmares.â
âJohnny, Iââ
âYou went pee?â Johnny asks. Nearly makes her screech when he dips his hand low and cups her cunt, feeling around for any dregs of liquid. He buries his fingers unnecessarily deep between her puffy lips, blindly massaging.
âNoâŠâ he clicks his tongue. âNo. You didnât. Did ye lie to us? It dinnae matter, sweetie. Here. Do it here, pretty. Iâll wait.â
She musters whatever pluck she has left to shake her head.
However her spine is fickle. All it takes is Johnny glowering, his eyes darkening, his pout upending and curling into something meaner, to force her back into submission.
âSimonâs already angry ye pulled this stunt, sweetie,â he says. âIâm helpinâ you out.â
A tear escapes her. It rolls down her gaunt cheek like the dew that dribbles down trees. Sheâs quickly crying, expelling howls that burn her energy. She trembles as she squats to the forest floor and pushes pee out of her. She sniffles as she stands back up and lets the liquid sluice down her thighs.Â
âGood girl,â Johnny hums. âYouâre so much sweeter when ye listen, ye ken?âÂ
She sobs into her palms, her ribs so brittle they rattle together. Johnny coos vacantly at her, rubbing her all over the same way one rubs stone fruit to test their ripeness, and croons at her swelling ankle.
âSee what happens when youâre naughty?â He asks, picking her up, carrying her close to his chest. âLetâs get you home, honey. These woods are no place for a bird like you.â
She hates how she curls into him. Itâs her repressed underbelly fighting its way to the surface because the accumulation of neglectful family and friends has soured her, carving a chasm in her heart that forces her body to respond to Johnnyâs affections. Heâs a warm body for her, a pair of listening ears. Itâs scraps, but itâs more than sheâs ever gotten.
They make it back to the cabin in what feels like minutes. Simonâs waiting next to the door with his arms tightly crossed, his face meanly pinched. He growls like a provoked animal. He hovers like an executioner. Heâs the living antonym of light at the end of the tunnel, huffing like a bull as Johnny carries her inside.Â
âHow about you rest?â Johnny asks. He sets her down on her cot and pulls the blanket to her quivering chin, tucking her in. âWant some tea? What kind do you fancy?â
She purses her lips, trembling. Johnny sentimentally hums as if heâs sorry. As if he isnât a part of her plight. Her piercing fear and deep-seated fatigue.
âGarden mintâŠâ he says to himself. âIâll be right back, bonnie.â
He disappears and returns a few minutes later with a cup dwarfed in his hand. Steam curls over the rim, thinning into the barren bedroom. He tilts it into her mouth, nursing her.Â
With every sip she feels herself slip more and more back into the familiar territory of limbo. Her eyelids become heavy, her cognizance slackening.
She peels her tongue off her gums to muster a whisper. Itâs so weak. Barely audible.Â
âI wanna go⊠homeâŠâ
Johnny croons. He cups her cheek. âHoney, those people dinnae care about you. Not how me and Simon do. This can be your home.â
He raises the cup to her mouth again, stifling any protests on her tongue.
She hiccups around the drink, her eyes warm and wet.
Thatâs how she falls asleep.Â
With hypnotic tea invading her bloodstream, turning her eyelids heavy. Turning her helpless.
âââ
She wakes with a start.Â
Itâs a crack of thunder that had stirred her, she realizes, instead of the enigmatic sounds of bed springs snapping.
The bedroom is dark and bathed in midnight light. She can barely see anything, save for the barest outline of Johnny in the bed next to her. When lightning strikes, illuminating the sky with a blinding impact crack, sheâs able to see the swell of his body beneath his sheets and the shadow of his spun-thread hair. His chest rising and falling steadily.Â
Sheâs caked with sweat. Her perspiration soaks her flannel and makes it cling to her flesh, which is flared up as if she rolled in a pile of poison ivy. Her mind is so cluttered she almost folds over as she stands up, testing the grip of her toes on the wooden floor, testing her ability to balance herself.Â
Sheâs in limbo. A border space between heaven and hell, awaiting her execution. Thatâs how it feels as she tiptoes her way out of the room, reaching for an oil lamp, holding it out in front of her.Â
Itâs almost worse like this. A weak flame that barely illuminates her peripheral. She fears that should she turn too fast, an aberration will materialize from the margins of her view and tear her to ribbons.Â
At this point, she supposes thatâs a kinder fate.Â
She slips into a pair of large boots because she canât find her hiking shoes anywhere. She opens the door and pokes her head out, immediately met with the spray of rainwater on her face, the wind running through her ropes of neglected hair.
Sheets of heavy rain fall from the awning, creating another divide that keeps her trapped inside the cabin. She steps onto the porch, listening for any incongruous noises. Even if there were any, they would be bullied under the assault of rainfall. She canât hear her own thoughts like this, canât formulate a plan to get away from here once and for all.
So of course she doesnât hear the floorboards settle behind her. Of course, she doesnât hear the heavy drumming of feet closing in on her.
She doesnât heed the body behind her until Johnny is sniffing up her neck and snuffing out the oil lamp, laying hold of her in a grudging grip.Â
âYou just dinnae listen, do you?â
He takes her by the scruff of her neck and pulls her back into the cabin, knocking the lamp out of her grip. It falls to the floor and flares into a crash, louder than the rain. Almost louder than her sprinting heart and the blood rushing to her ears.
She wrestles against his grip. âFuck you bothâyou sick fucks!â
She almost vomits when her insults make Johnny moan, his cock fattening against her back in a crude Pavlovian response. Each time she struggles against him, his grip tightens. It reminds her of the mountain itself. The more she tries escaping its soporific arms, the deeper it drags her down. Itâs fruitless for her to fight itâthe whistle of the branches, the tight sinews of Johnnyâs grip.Â
He swings his arm around her neck, pinning her against his chest in a headlock. Her lungs stutter and her eyes turn dewy, her deep-seated fear ripening into paralyzing terror.
A web of lightning shatters the sky, and she almost dies right there.
Itâs Simon but worse. A mutation gone wrong. A changeling, perhaps. Heâs squeezed inside the threshold, breathing wildly. His wifebeater is torn in different places across his body, split around tufts of fur. Fur that is matted with thick ichor, wiry and sprouting from the spot behind his ears.
Another flash of lightning ignites the cabin, revealing the shaggy coat of hair on his chest. The sheet of fat over his stomach that flutters when he puffs, growling under his breath. He clenches his jaw because he canât clench his hands, because his thick fingers have turned into claws, sharp spires covered in gore.
Simon snarls. Blood and spit drip from his bloodied teeth as if heâs a rabid animal with a limp maw. He rolls his shoulders and cracks the cartilage in his neck, the sound pealing out so loudly, itâs more like the popping of bubble wrap in rapid succession.Â
She can barely see him through her tear-filled eyes. Itâs the epilogue to her life as he strides in close, biting his talons into her hips and drawing out blood. A snarl of satisfaction escapes him when he smells itâher blood, sweet, albeit stale due to her dehydration.Â
âAnyone ever told you youâre an ungrateful mutt?â He growls. âI give you food to eat anâ clothes on your back but here you are, tryinâ to sod off.â
Her cheeks dimple when he grabs her jaw. She opens her mouth to protest, but her grievances get smothered beneath Simonâs claws. He stuffs his fingers down her mouth, stunting her complaints. She gags and coughs around the taste of metal and mire crusted under his claws, bile shooting up her throat.
âDogs donât talk,â he tuts.Â
He hoists his arm back and she puckers, preparing for an attack. However, instead of her cheek, Simonâs hand slices against her shirt. He tears her flannel into ribbons, making the fabric slide off her like water from a milk bath.
She stands naked, her skin pocked with fear. She shivers despite being pressed between Simonâs furry chest and Johnnyâs warm arms.Â
ââBout time someone taught you some manners,â Simon mumbles. âI was in the middle of my dinner you know? Fuckinâ rude to interrupt.â
She blanches when she sees a limp coyote behind him, splayed out on the porch. She recognizes it as the orpiment-coloured fur to the hair flossed between Simonâs teeth.
She screams as he wrestles her from Johnnyâs grip, pulling her towards the bedroom. Simon throws her onto the stiff mattress, her spine shuddering from the impact. She tries covering herself, tries wrapping her arms around her body, but Simon is having none of that.Â
He pounces, taking her hips and pinning them to the bed. He hovers over her, rainwater dripping from his broken nose, impossibly large as he makes up her whole world. Simon swallows her entire view, leaving her with no chances of escape.Â
Her gaze flutters down to the chub outlined by his sweatpants and decides sheâs left with no chances of survival, either.
She flails her legs as Simon slithers low, flattening his nose against her cunt. She lets out a protracted cry as he hitches his lungs and inhales, breathing in the musk of her bare cunt. The sweat stuck between her fuzzy hair, the sticky arousal that spreads as he forces her legs open.Â
Simon hisses. It rides the ruck of his throat, expelled from his nose. Itâs not in any capacity a human sound. It seems more like a bear flaring its nostrils, poised for attack.
Johnny notices the confusion between her eyebrows because heâs leaning in and murmuring against the shell of her ear, licking it.
âRemember whaâ I said about matinâ season, kitty?â
Johnny leans away, leaving it at that. Equivocal and cryptic and calcified into the furrows of her brain. She isnât allowed to wade in her confusion though because Simonâs tongue is lolling out, sweeping a fat stripe over her pussy.
Itâs like the first thaw of spring. Simon licks her open, spreads her out on his tongue. She canât help the immediate warmth that courses through her, swathing her in silk.Â
She cries out. Her back bends off the mattress when Simon pulls her lips into his mouth to suck.Â
She looks to Johnny for help. She twists herself and tries reaching out, tries crawling off the mattress, but Simon is gripping her ankle and popping the gauze of her bandage with his claws, pulling her back down, wrapping his lips around her engorged clit.
Johnnyâs face doesnât show contrition, but is pinched in jealousy. He watches with a fat mass growing in his sweatpants.
She splits her hand over Simonâs shaved head, using the cauliflowered shell of his ear to try pulling him off of her. That only makes him growl, the vibrations quavering up her spine, his claws digging into her flesh.Â
She folds her arms over her face, sobbing. Simonâs tongue is wet and hot against her pussy, lapping between her soft folds, slurping her juices. She flushes at how wet she is. At how pleasure leaks through the cracks in her resolve and spreads all over her, reducing her to a panting mess.Â
Simon releases her clit with a pop. He raises to his knees, towering over her, and now sheâs unsure if his glistening chin is because of the rainwater outside or her arousal.Â
âHold her down, Johnny.â
Her heart drums against her chest. Johnny crawls onto the bed and kneels behind her head. He pins her wrists down with his kneecaps, keeping her from squirming.
âWill ye let me put my cock in âer mouth?â Johnny asks. âSimon, will youââ
âShut it,â Simon snaps. He shoves down his sweatpants, his cock springing out. All of her nerves bristle like rope, her heart sputtering to a stop.
Simonâs cock is fat and heavy. It droops between his thighs, drooling with precum. Itâs stiff but hangs because heâs so large, the engorged tip angling downward, his balls plump, ruddy.
He chokes his hand around it, tugging it. Her throat closes in on itself but her legs instinctively peel apart. Her puffy lips spread open and she flushes at the sticky sound, hoisting her neck back to look at Johnny.
He has his cock out too, pumping it. He grins when they lock eyes and smacks his dick against her cheek. Johnny presses his cockhead into the corner of her mouth, using it to tilt her lips into a repugnant curl. Itâs reminiscent of a smile, but it isnât one.Â
She wails.
They both make up her beginning and end. They trap her between themselves, leaving her with no escape. Simon at her feet, Johnny at her head. Each of the men are more intimidating than the other, both inspiring fear in her feeble heart. Both inspiring unwanted arousal between her legs.Â
Simon slaps his flaring tip against her clit. She mewls and hates herself for bucking her hips into him. Sheâs dew-skinned as Simon pushes her knees to her ears, thumbing her clit.
He deeply inhales.
His chest expands, tugging at the steel-wool hair felted against his big chest. He quivers as he expels his breath, his mating call, and finally feeds her his cock, pushing past her first ring of muscle.
Her body tries curling in on itself like a Venus flytrap, but Johnny is quicker. He bites his fingers into her wrists and pins her to the mattress, keeping her still while Simon stuffs himself deeper. Johnny kisses her tears away while he does it. Itâs oxymoronic and itâs betrayalâa Judas kissâwhile he wraps his lips around sweet encouragement against her cheeks.
âGot so much fight in ye, sweetie,â he whispers. âJust stop strugglinâ and itâll feel good.â
Simon leans over her, his cock slipping deeper into her warm cunt. The blood and saliva from his maw drips onto her chest, the blood is so fresh thereâs still steam, hitting her like scythes.
Johnnyâs getting restless. He watches raptly as Simon starts slamming his hips into her. Johnny ruts against the chafe of her brittle hair and hopes it will give him satisfaction by proxy, but it does little to offset the ache in his balls. His lip warbles.
âSimon, please,â a voice crack, âcan I put my cock in âer mouth?â
âFine,â Simon growls. His hips are piston-paced against the girlâs skin, unrelenting and uncaring to how her nails scratch striated lines down his chest in her struggle. âJust stop interruptinâ us.â
Her jaw cramps when Johnny cups her chin. He puppets it open and forces his fingers down. Theyâre caked with dirt as he swirls them over her tongue, coaxing up the warm spit from the furrow of her throat to be used as a natural lube.Â
The only mercy she gets is the stint of time between Johnny pulling his fingers out and gripping his dick, laying it on her tongue. He forces her lips apart with the tip of his cock, smearing himself all over her.Â
âSo pretty like this sweetheart,â he hums. âSimon smelt it on ye. Hundreds of klicks away. How sweet yâare.âÂ
She doesnât have the energy to decipher that. Most of it is being wrung on trying to fight the two men off, but itâs fruitless. Johnny is already slipping into her mouth, and her cunt is already stretched around Simonâs plump cock.Â
Johnny starts pumping in and out, his cock embroidering a burn in the hinges of her jaw.
She lies there limply, but as Johnnyâs wiry hair meets her nose, she realizes thereâs one thing she can do. In her thrashing, she undertakes the lapse of judgement to clamp her teeth together, sinking them into Johnny.
He yells and pulls himself out. Johnny wraps a hand around himself, squeezing, placating the sting. A warm wash of tears twine his eyelashes together, long and babydoll-like. He looks to Simon, preening, imploring.Â
âShe bit me.âÂ
Simon slows his hips, only scarcely so. Only enough for her to fill her lungs halfway before heâs dragging himself out agonizingly slow, burying himself back inside.Â
His eyes, hungry, flutter down to her. His lips wind back, revealing his sharp fangs. He snickers.Â
âNow youâve pissed him off, hm? Dumb girl. This is why puppies need owners.â
He pinches her clit, softly tweaking it between the pads of his fingers. He looks at Johnny and condescendingly smirks.Â
âCâmere, boy. If she wonât suck you off, why not take a go at her other hole?â
She tenses. Fear washes over her like a rip current, all the way down to her ass that squeezes in protest. Her heart feels too big for her chest suddenly. She canât even see Johnnyâs blinding grin through her cloudy eyes as brine tracks down her cheeks, mixing with her sweat.Â
She whimpers. âNoââ
A palm whistles through the air, exploding into a crack of thunder as it breaks against the skin of her cheek.Â
She lapses into silence. Little hiccups escape her while she peers up at Simon, sniffling.Â
âYes,â he says.Â
He grips her by her hips and flips her over. This way, Simonâs on his back and sheâs on top of him, his cock digging deeper. The position is etched with a degree of intimacy that causes heat to pool in her bellyâshe can feel his hot breath fanning over her face, she can see his feline-like eyes better. Â
She almost jumps out of her skin when Johnny presses his fingers into her ass, trying to break her in. He thumbs at the puckered muscle, chuckling when it tries squirming away from him.Â
âCute little thing,â he says. âShe ever been fucked?â
The way she sobs when Johnny forces his forefinger inside gives him his answer. He almost comes right there. At the sound of her slick lubing her up, at the sound of her being torn open like a stone fruit and her pitiful cries for mercy.Â
âStopâŠâÂ
âStop?â Johnny repeats, âSweetie, if I stop itâll hurt when I fuck you. Ye need prep, silly.â
That only wracks her ribs harder. The patrionizing lilt in his voice, the way he pats her bum like sheâs nothing but a dumb puppy. Johnny sinks another finger in, knuckle-deep, and curls himself into the walls of her ass, massaging it.
Simon starts thrusting again. He takes one of her tits in his mouth and tongues at her nipple, snapping his hips into her. It only adds more pressure to her other hole, the one being fingered open by Johnny.
âYâthink sheâs ready, sweetie?â Johnny asks. He slaps his cock against her hole, teasing her. âI think sheâs fuckinâ hungry. Look at âer winkinâ back at me.â
Johnny collects the saliva moulded into his gums and sputters out a wad of spit, wetting her tight asshole. He presses his cockhead against her opening, pushing himself inside.
She buckles, doubling over. Her cheek falls on Simonâs chest, chafing against his coarse hair. Sheâs never felt so full. Folded between the men and being fed two big cocks, left with no space to breathe. She isnât given respite. No mercy. No time for her to stretch around their cocks.
Johnny splits his hand across the divot where her spine begins and shoves her into Simon. Her jaw hangs loose, her lips parted dumbly, her drool trickling onto Simonâs chest. Sheâs limp. Letting them have her way with her. Letting them brand her with their fingers digging sickle-shaped scratches into her skin. Letting them break her open with each of their jackhammering thrusts, letting their pants of encouragement and degradation swirl around her like whistles from the woodland, causing goosebumps to arise and her head to pound.
âDo ye feel it, Simon?â Johnny pants. âIs it cominâ on?â
His words sprawl by like a lazy river in her mind. Desultory, like lukewarm water. They donât click into the empty chasm of her cognizance until something else happens. Something inhuman. Something that has her choking on the raw bile that scratches her throat and the spit coaxed into the rivets of her tongue by Johnnyâs assaulting fingers.
Simonâs ramming gets shaved into stunted thrusts. It isnât due to a loss of energy, but is due to something else keeping him from slipping out. A balloon pushing against the walls of her pussy, swelling inside her. It isnât fat but is chubby enough for her to feel it, flutter around it.
The knot snarled into Simonâs cock plugs her up. She canât pull herself off him because itâs puffed up past her cunt, keeping her stuck on top of him. It doesnât help that Johnny keeps slamming his hips into her, riling the thin skin that separates her cunt from her ass, bending it to the shape of Simonâs cock.
Johnny gasps. âIâm closeâ shite, Iâm close.â
She doesnât want to admit it, but she is too. She feels her nerves begin to fray at their edges, her stomach wearing thin. Johnny slips his hand low and blindly sweeps at her clit, nibbling on the husk of her ear.
He only gets three more pumps in until heâs emptying his balls in her ass. He grabs her hair when he comes, puppetting her head back so her mouth falls open and he can spit inside. His thrusts are slow and deep and peter into something calm, his cock softening inside her. Johnny grins.
âSay thank you, kitty.â
It crosses her tongue as an unintelligible mumble. She canât speak properly with Simonâs cock still in her.
Johnny chuckles at that. He wraps his arms around her and pinches her nipples. Twisting them, pulling them.
Simonâs so big beneath her, lounging like a bear. He fucks into her, his thrusts curtailing into sloppy snaps of his hips.
âHeâs close, bonnie,â Johnny says. âKiss âim when he comes. Itâs what he likes.â
Finally, Simonâs knot unravels, his thick ropes of come sticking to her walls. He makes sure that the warm come dressing her is so deep, itâll have no choice but to take.Â
Her body betrays her when it crests and crashes into her orgasm. Sheâs flashbanged with blinding light, gushing out an off-white liquid that coats Simonâs thighs. It seizes her so deeply it hurts, the panoramic pleasure. An orgasm that makes her brain melt, makes her feel otherworldly.
Belatedly, she remembers Johnnyâs order. She leans down to kiss Simon, her lips leathery against his. She only wants a modest peckâsomething to sate Johnnyâbut she canât pull away because her bottom lip is caught between Simonâs teeth, pinched, and being sapped of its blood.
He laps it up before letting her go.Â
He slips his softening cock out but keeps his come inside her with two fingers, his claws having retracted.
He huffs like a bull. He presses his heavy paw into her abused cunt, palming it. He reeks with a carnal musk, the aftertaste of his rut heavy in the air.
Suddenly, it all makes sense to her.
Simon is the crux of all cautionary tales. The mountains arenât sworn off because of rabid raccoons or feral fishers but because of something eldritch, whose reputation and folklore precedes any proof of its existence. Whatever Simon is, it canât be put into words or into anything material, so heâs condensed into the urban legends that have haunted the woods for centuries. The stories that keep hikers off needle-covered paths and unmarked trees and make them carry crucifixes in lieu of bear spray.
She doesnât even realize sheâs softly sobbing. It feels like thatâs all she does these days.
Johnny hugs her as if he hadnât taken a part of her dignity.Â
He kisses her, kittening into her so that Simon is able to wrap his arms around them both, hugging them.Â
The calm that lolls after the storm only bruises her further. They act so normal after theyâve stripped her of everything. Johnny massaging her thighs, Simon igniting a cigarette between his lips.Â
âWill you ever let me go?â She mumbles against Simonâs chest.Â
He exhales the smoke. âGo where, love? You came into my house, remember?â
Johnny wonât stop kissing her. Heâs a pest thatâs attached itself to her dewy flesh, trying to lick her clean. Simon curls his fingers in her and makes sure thatâs where his come stays.
Simon takes another drag of his cigarette. âNot like anyone back home would miss you, anyhow.â
âââ
She watches with a smile on her face as Johnny roasts the flank of a moose on a homemade grill and as Simon chops some more firewood.
She lounges in a chair, swathed in her caribou-hide coat. Winter is at its height, laying a skin of pillowy snow across the mountain.
The cubs wriggle in her lap, pawing at the loose tendrils of her hair and trying to pinch her nose.
âLookinâ so pretty today, mama,â Johnny hums. She giggles when he kisses her, scratching at the cubsâ bellies.Â
âAinât she bonnie?â Johnny turns around and prompts Simon, âOur wee looker.â
Simon pauses his wood chopping and nods. He grips the hem of his lumbermanâs jacket and raises it to his forehead to wipe his sweat away, revealing his chest and his hair that disappears into the waistband of his jeans. The cubs yip when he resumes his chopping, splitting a tree stump in two.Â
She grins.Â
She loves her family. Her providers and the offspring of their seed. She loves the cubsâ fine hair rubbing against her cheek when they jump on the bed to wake them up in the mornings, their blunt fangs biting her when theyâre hungry, and the tiny chines on their back where their sharp spine will eventually grow in, just like Simonâs.
Briefly, she tries to remember her other family. The one that came before this one. But all that encompasses her mind is a supermassive black hole in place of memories. For some reason she canât delineate them. The face of her father is blurry and the features of her mother fit together like a crudely sewn patchwork quilt.
She doesnât remember much of her family. Itâs kind of weird. She canât remember if they liked her or not.
But she knows that doesnât matter. Not when she has doting men around her and their litter hanging off her hips, another one currently swelling under her belly.
She pays no heed to the missing person posters taped to the fringes of the mountain that look eerily similar to her. Not to the K-9âs that try tracking scents but fail because sheâs written with Simon and Johnnyâs musk. She ignores the odd helicopter passing through each month, scarcely flying past their ramshackle cabin.
None of it matters because she knows sheâs where she needs to be.
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maybe im just a terrible miserable cunt idk
#once again. all of this is so stupid#i know 'feelings are valid' yada yada but it just feels so fucking shit#meaning that i feel like shit cause i am shit so idk man#it just fucking hurts. all i wanted was one thing and if this really is it it just fucking hurts#thats all. i wont talk about this again. sorry im just miserable enough that i actually cried lmao what a fucking loser#okay bye#night is an absolute mess on main#i cant even do and post edits i really wanna do rn cause my shit doesnt show up in tags so like#whats the fucking point. nothing fucking matters#im just gonna eat cookies feel gross and idk hope i die or whatever i guess
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At work today a guy asked where our travel guides are. I was carrying a bunch of things & on my way downstairs so I could only point with my elbow but basically "that door & then straight to the end of the room, my colleague is there if you need help"
that worked out fine but when i was back upstairs at the library & sat down to continue placing orders he asked again, or rather "I can't find the region I am looking for" & honestly our traveling guide section can be a lot. Also if you don't know that we put some places together, it gets even harder. He was looking for some maps about Bosnia so I showed him.
That's when he saw my star of David necklace & complimented it. I said thanks & got ready to return to my spot. All of a sudden, as I am already halfway across the floor, he yells "Oh & I need something else. I need books about the Nakba. You know what this is, right? The ongoing genocide committed by the Jewish people"
I told him I know what he means & if he could wait a moment. I told my co-worker to please take over as adviser for me, told him what the man is looking for & that we definitely have books about the topic.
It honestly was the right timing because my shift would end in 10 minutes & two girls needed help with books about a topic I just had training for so I knew I could help them real fast.
The man ignored my co-worker & proceeded to follow me, shouting. I informed him that I am currently helping other people & my co-worker can help, he is actually in charge of our history & politics section. I got a "I don't want him. I want your help. You know what is going on, don't you?"
It took me somewhat snapping & more rudely informing him that I am currently busy helping other people & getting a bit louder myself. It also took my co-worker putting his body between the guy & me for him to go quiet & then mutter "so you're fucking busy" & leaving.
This isn't okay. This is antisemitism. I do not wear a name tag that shows I have a name more commonly found in Israel. I do not speak with an accent - yes I grew up the first years of my life in Israel & I have dual citizenship. But he does not know that. All he saw was a visibly Jewish person.
My co-worker had me go to our office & informed me I could leave once he went through our library & made sure the guy wasn't outside. Like sincerely this is fucked up. I want to wear my Star of David, I want to be visibly Jewish. I don't want to put myself or my co-workers in danger.
I didn't realize how much this fucked me up until I arrived home, sat down & suddenly just cried.
EDIT 31.10.24: I want to say even if I was visibly Israeli, even if I wore the Israeli flag THIS WOULD NOT BE OKAY . I need people to know that I actually love my home country - I hate the government but I love the place - I have family there, October 7th was a horrific massacre & my family lost friends that day .
While we still lived in Israel my father often took me along to discussions between Israelis and Palestinians, I was raised to hope and believe in a two state solution in which both Palestinians and Israelis can live in safety and dignity. I still hope in that.
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đđ Theoretically Yours.
Spencer Reid x Fem!reader
Summary: After a series of murders at your university, the FBI has decided to give you a bodyguard. The problem is that he is extremely cute and can hardly protect himself, especially from you and your charms.
Words: 1,9k.
Warnings & Tags: mentions of murder, crime, blood. spicy insinuations. spencer from the first seasons with GLASSES meow. english isn't my first language (sorry for my mistakes, be kind please).
Note: I'm really excited about this, I love Spencer Reid in all seasons, but in the early ones he had something different that drove me crazy.
Also, this is the first time I write here and I'm nervous.
It was supposed to be a normal day, but agents showed up at your door to stop you from going to class and left you under the watchful eye of the youngest of them, Dr. Spencer Reid. It was a precaution to protect you from the killer who has been stalking the campus, killing girls with similar profiles to yours.
You weren't afraid and insisted that it wasn't necessary until you saw him. The mere thought of spending time alone with the man made you more excited than you would have liked. He was very tall, skinny and could barely look you in the eye for more than five seconds without looking away absolutely blushing.
You had decided not to talk to him or act suspicious, but for some reason you liked the idea of him helping you with your biology homework. You were studying pre-med at the behest of your parents and were having trouble understanding some of the material. Spencer saved your life when he offered to help you and told you about his multiple doctorates.
âYou are amazing, like a genius.â You said in surprise when he read the big book you had on the table in just five minutes and left a bunch of notes in it.
He blushed again, trying to adjust his glasses to hide it so it wouldn't show. Reid was doing his best to be professional and not let his guard down, he had to be vigilant in case you were in danger.
âIt's nothing. I hope it helps you.â He said, giving you a little smile.
You nod and look at the television behind him. They were airing a new report on the latest murders, showing photos of the victims and interviews with family members. Everyone cried and repeated how unfair it was to lose their prodigy daughters to a madman. You thought about how they made such a simple TV show about spilled blood without thinking about it, just trying to paint the girls who had tormented you for several years as white doves.
âDon't worry, you're safe here. I can promise that.â Spencer spoke as he followed your gaze. He was trying to comfort you and take away any fear with his presence.
âI know.â You smile at him with innocence. You were more than capable of protecting yourself and you knew it.
There was an awkward moment of silence, so you offered him coffee to break it. You went to the kitchen and poured two cups, watching from afar as he talked on the phone in the meantime. You couldn't help but notice the nervousness in his voice as he repeated to his colleagues that all was well with you.
âShe's pretty, isn't she?â Penelope's voice rang through the phone in Reid's ear and sent shivers down his spine. âI saw some pictures in internet.â
âI...maybe...yes.â He mumbled, trying not to let you hear him. "How does that matter or help the case?"
As you used the coffeepot, Spencer looked you over from head to toe. He couldn't deny how attractive you were and how much his heart raced when you were around. His extreme lack of flirting skills and his clear differences with you saved him from the temptation you were.
âJust have fun, lover boy. You need it.â The woman smiled proudly and hung up the call before he could answer.
The two poured cups were already on the table, you sat down on the sofa by the window to start reading the notes he had left in your medical book. His impeccable handwriting made you shudder, it was unbelievable that someone with so much knowledge would waste time trying to take care of you from yourself and not even realize it.
âYou're okay?â He asked with a soft voice, sitting in front of you.
âYes, just reading your notes.â
âSorry, I put too many. But I can mark the important ones for you.â He gently took the book from your hands and began to place himself between the paragraphs with one of his fingers.
Your eyes fell on his hands, the way he moved them over the pages of the book bringing inappropriate thoughts to your mind. You hadn't noticed before how perfect every part of him seemed, especially now that he was spouting complex biological terms without even flinching. You were aware of your own intelligence and proud of it, but you would have liked to be like him...or at least have him around.
âIs something wrong?â He asked confused as he noticed how you had been watching him.
âSorry. I was thinking of biology...nothing better to look at to understand the theory.â You said to justify your indiscretion.
âOh sure, it helps. According to several studies, the human being has three main systems for perceiving information: visual, auditory and kinesthetic.â He began to explain quickly. âThis theory was put forward in 1988.â
âMaybe that can help me.â You suggested, trying to look away from him.
He nods and start to talking again.
âYou were watching, that was visual. And you heard me talking before, that was auditory.â
âAnd what is kinesthetic?â You asked, even though you knew what the answer was.
Spencer swallowed before speaking, trying to hide his nervousness at the sudden change in tone of the conversation. He was glad to know that he had been able to turn the situation around and put the recent crimes out of his mind, he had been worried that they would affect you.
âIs what is learned through sensation and movement.â He finally said with his voice trembling slightly.
âCan I...?â You try to ask, but he nods before you can finish the sentence.
You stop looking into his eyes and take his hand, put it on your legs and start tracing lines with your finger over his scarred veins. You could feel him shudder every time you touched him, and his mutterings about the technical names of each became inaudible.
âThis is the radial artery, provides oxygenated blood to the hands and fingers.â You start to talking, looking him to the eyes again and letting your hand enjoy the softness of his.
âYes...yeah, it is.â His voice came out as a whisper, as if he was losing control of the situation. No one had ever touched him in such a way before.
The smell of coffee mixed with his cologne is almost addictive and begins to drive you crazy. Just touching his hands was not enough, something inside you wanted more and the ideas running through your head began to torment you. You knew it wasn't right and that your own sanity was in jeopardy, he was one of the good guys and you not so much. It just wasn't right for you to mix, let alone under the current circumstances.
âI should check the perimeter.â Spencer rose from his seat and slowly moved his hand away from yours. He need to go away before something incorrect happened.
All the words were caught in your throat at that moment. You didn't want him to walk away yet.
âIt's not necessary.â You got up after him, preventing him from walking to the door and being able to leave. âEveryone is in their classes now, the residence is empty and your coffee is going to get cold.â
Spencer knew you were right. He couldn't go against logic, so he sat back down on one of the couches and took a sip of the coffee you had poured for him. He did his best to avoid your gaze, but it was impossible when you were looking out the window and absentmindedly sipping your coffee.
âDo you think they'll find the killer?â You asked, trying to make conversation after watching through the glass as police cruisers drove around campus.
âOf course, no one else will have to get hurt and everything will be back to normal for you.â He replied without taking his eyes off you.
âI don't think you get to decide that.â You blurt out without thinking.
The phrase and your tone were enough to make him stand up and walk towards you. He put a hand on your shoulder out of inertia, to give you support and reassure you a little.
âYou don't need to be afraid.â He gave you a small reassuring smile and you felt the warmth of his touch.
You took a tentative step toward him, shortening the distance between your bodies. You raised your gaze to meet his, feeling at his mercy because of the difference in height. You weren't thinking too hard and didn't hesitate to put your hand on his cheek, caressing it.
âWhat are you doing?â He asked, trying not to get carried away by your touch.
âTo thank you for being here and helping me.â You had a burst of courage and stood on tiptoe to give him a resounding kiss on the cheek.
Then you moved your face far enough away to look at him and see his blush. He looked so affected by a simple kiss on the cheek that you couldn't help but move closer again, this time with his fingers on your chin.
âYou can't. We can't.â He stopped the approach just a couple of inches from their lips colliding.
âWhy? Because I'm part of your job?â You questioned in frustration, unable to tear your eyes away from his mouth.
âI'm here to keep you safe.â He tried to sound calm and professional, though his voice trembled.
âI'm very safe now.â You assured him, grabbing his arms and wrapping them around your waist. âNo one can hurt me here.â
Without Spencer being able to notice, a small moan escaped him at your action.
âThere's a killer on the loose.â He insisted, trying to be the voice of reason even though he couldn't look away from your lips.
âTrust me, a kiss won't bring him here. I'm sure of it.â You replied as you noticed him slowly pulling away from you.
A curse tried to come out of your mouth at the rejection and lack of his touch at your waist, but before you could finish it, his lips were on yours and his hands were pressing you against him.
His lips were as soft as his hands, but the way they moved over yours was not soft at all. At first, even his tongue seemed to ask your permission to continue. It took several seconds of clear acceptance before the uncertainty of his kiss disappeared and was replaced by need.
You took advantage of the fact that you were in front of the big couch to push him off and you both fell on top of him, having only a few seconds to catch your breath before continuing. He gave you a quick, tender kiss before pulling his hands away from your back to remove his glasses, which were already fogged up and out of place. But your hand stopped him just before he could put them down on the table.
âDo not take off your glasses. I really like them.â You whispered still over his mouth.
âAs you wish.â He said before kissing you again and letting himself enjoy himself under you, without thinking about anything else.
At that moment you knew that maybe committing a few more murders to keep him around wasn't such a bad idea.
#spencer reid#spencer reid x reader#criminal minds#spencer reid x fem!readr#criminal minds x reader#matthew gray gubler#criminal minds fandom#criminal minds fanfiction#spencer with glasses x me forever & ever <3
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