#hope that was helpful and dont worry it wasnt a weird question at all

[violentviolette]

sorry, this is kind of a weird question. Do you think it's important for teens on the internet to have healthy friendships with adults and/or vice versa? I spent a long time completely keeping myself away from anyone under 18, and I've only recently begun to hang out in places not strictly for adults. I feel like a villain for even talking to teens, even though I'm not doing anything wrong.

short answer is history, sociology and behavioral science say absolutely. while I dont think any adult is obligated to be friends with teens if they dont want to or dont feel comfortable or have their own issues preventing that, I do also believe that its important for people of all ages to interact with and learn how to have healthy relationships with people of all ages.

we are a social species and community is very important for both our survival and our mental health. getting to know people who are different from us and having meaningful interactions with them and building relationships across all demographics will always be beneficial to everyone involved. ideally, a healthy individuals social circle includes people from young children all the way up through to the elderly.

I think its important for teens to be able to have a wide support network of adults who they can come to for support, guidance, to model behavior, and to overall give teens positive examples of what their futures as people can and will look like. I think this is important for many reasons and has many benefits to both the teens and the adults

because I also think it's important and beneficial for adults to interact with people younger than them. to be introduced to new ideas and new ways of thinking and keep themselves from getting stuck in old ways or becoming too jaded. I think its important for adults to be able to remember what it was like to experience things for the first time and maintain compassion and understanding for people who come after them

again, this doesn't mean adults are obligated to do this and I dont think someone is a bad person or doing something wrong if they can't or don't want to, but I do think it's important and beneficial and I do think that society suffers when people become too isolated in their own age brackets

I also think things like the youth liberation movement are extreamly important and bring a lot of these conversations to the forefront in breaking down how adults oppress children and how our unhealthy attitudes, which include avoidance due to fear of being predatory for even talking to teens, negatively affect both minors and adults. I think if ur looking to get more comfortable having teens and other ppl of varying ages in ur social circle then reading thru youth lib stuff is a really good place to start in changing and unpacking how u view teens

[jubiilee13]

hi babes I saw you begging for requests for mike schmidt so I decided to send my own request to you… as cliche as it is, could you write an angsty misunderstanding fic where basically mike is over-working himself to death and barely making time for you and you think you did something wrong but it turns out mike was just tired af. It can be smut or fluff since I don’t know what you really like to write. Sorry if this request is bad I’m not good at asking for things😭😭

-anon

anon ily ty for the request 😻😻

this may be a lil bad bc I’m sick rn but I hope u still enjoy 🫶

warnings: tiny mention of blood, angst, angy mike, sad reader, alludes to a little smut at the end but yeah

lets just say for this abby is at a um... sleepover or smth idk i forgot to include her

didnt check this for grammatical errors so my bad if it sucks lmao

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you and mike didn’t fight often

i mean you never really had reason to

but lately mike had been weird, he had been… distant.

mike often had his rough days, as did you, but this time was different.

every morning when he returned home instead of his usual warm embraces, you’d been receiving the cold shoulder, at most a few sentences spoken between the two of you before he dragged himself off to bed.

you were worried to say the least, you knew you had done nothing wrong, yet something in your gut made you wonder if you did.

so you decided today was the day you were going to talk to him about it.

boy was that a bad idea...

the moment mike stepped out of his bedroom he spotted you, anxiously fidgeting as your eyes met his own

"we need to talk mike" you mumble, clearly not looking forward to having this conversation.

mike rolls his eyes, "what y/n" he replies, attitude evident in his tone, yet the attitude is weak, and you note his face is just a bit paler than usual, the bags under his eyes more evident, something was off.

"whats been going on with us mike?" you ask, voice trembling "did... did i do something? you- you've been so distant..."

"its nothing y/n, stop worrying" he says with a scoff, and you bite your lip.

"mike you dont have to lie to me" you say softly, extending your hand out to him to soothe him.

Then something inside him snaps, that movement- that feeling. he couldnt take it.

"God damn it y/n i said nothing is wrong! you never listen! just leave me alone! you clearly only make things worse!" he cries out, and your body freezes.

"o-oh" is all you can say, retracting your trembling hand, clearly in shock

"o-okay um... um i-i'll leave you be..." you mumble under your breath, trying to hide your emotions until you were out of his sight.

you scurry away, biting your lip so hard it draws blood, and the moment you enter your bedroom the tears escape.

you shut the door behind you, leaning against it and sliding to your knees, hand reaching to cover your mouth to hide the sobs.

what had you done?

did you upset him?

is he gonna leave?

so many questions flooded your mind all at once

it was so overwhelming, all you wanted was him... but right now that was the one thing you couldnt have.

so you sat there, leaning against the door of your room for god knows how long.

eventually when no more tears could fall, you lead yourself to your bed, a bed that had been untouched for a few months now due to you always sleeping with mike, and after a few more shaky breaths, you slipped into a uneasy slumber.

As you slept, mike took himself for a drive, his hands gripping the steering wheel so hard his knuckles faded to white.

he was angry

he was tired

he just wanted to be home

it slowly started to dawn on him that upon his arrival home earlier, his anger had been misdirected.

he wasnt mad at you

he loved you

god- you just wanted to help

why couldnt he see that?

he lets out a shaky sigh, punching his steering wheel as he lets out a few grunts of anger (much to the dismay of the car infront of him)

he decides to leave you be for the time being, and he leads him self on down the winding road, until he comes across an empty parking lot.

he lets himself settle there for a while, staring into the dark abyss in front of him.

eventually he decides to call you, and when you dont pick up... he calls again.

and again.

and... again....

and 12 more times.

he was worried to say the least, what if you left him? what. if you didnt love him anymore?

after the final call he places his phone in his pocket, running a hand through his hair as he starts up the car again and heads home.

in the meantime you were at home, tossing and turning, unable to find a true sense of saftey in your own sheets and god was it horrible.

you didnt notice the buzzing of your phone, nor the vibration any time left another voicemaiil.

so you lay on your back, your teary eyes staring up at the ceiling.

thats when you heard the front door open, the jingling of mikes house keys alongside his work ones

maybe he didnt leave

did he come back for you?

maybe he-

your thoughts are interrupted however by a gentle, almost silent knock at your door. you want to open it, you really do, but you're scared.

for once you put aside your fear and you sit up, quietly tiptoeing over to the door and cracking it open just enough to meet mikes eyes.

both of your teary eyes meet one another, and something snaps within both of you

your grip on the handle goes slack as mike gently pushes further on the door, and the moment it opens enough for him to enter, youre surrounded by him

he kisses you gently, his hands wrapping around you, and you two hold the kiss until you eventually pull away to gasp for air

"im so sorry- i never meant to snap at you baby- i-i- im just so exhausted- work is so hard- i-i never meant to take it out on you- i love you so muc y/n- i"

you cut him off by kissing him again, this kiss growing more heated, your body pressing against his

"its ok" you whisper when you pull away, your foreheads resting against one another

"we'll be ok" you whisper

those 3 words are repeated for the rest of the night, along with other words of praise and affirmation.

the two of you love each other, and tonight it shows.

just as youre about to fall into a warm, peaceful sleep, mike presses a kiss against your damp forehead.

"i love you"

that was all you needed to hear in order to slip into slumber in his embrace.

--

yayayayya mike

i hope that was good

ok ily

bye pookster

[exmeowstic]

hii bastion !! can i pls ask to learn more abt ur ship with graha ? :o is ur insert the wol, or some other role in ffxiv, what were ur first impressions of each other and how/when did they shift into smth more? (u dont have to answer all of these, im just shooting questions out !) id love to learn more!! (@dmclr)

HIHII I HOPE YOUVE BEEN WELL <33 ive been dead from work but i finally managed to type out words from my brain. readmore bc its more than i expected and im embawassed a bit 👉👈 (also obligatory warning for spoilers thru endwalker)

SO. MY WOL AND GRAHA. truthfully,, there is still a lot of thinking to be done in terms of my s/i bastion and how things play out for him/how he fits into the story/how he acts and thinks and feels about things! esp as i approach the end of endwalker, it seems like dawntrail mighttt give me a bit more breathing room to actually think abt stuff

i do have him as the wol, i just feel like theres a lot i kinda missed out on/would like to review bc i Tunnel Vision Focused on msq to the exclusion of almost all else lol (and it doesnt help that my progression thru msq had been Very on and off until now bc i would put the game down for months due to social anxiety. frankly anytjing before like. mid stormblood is a biiiit of a blur)

though its extremely funny because i think during the crystal tower questline first meeting graha he did not make. a Particularly Big Impression on me. i was just like "oh cool another friend!" and then moved on once that was wrapped up and he kind of stayed in that default area of "nice new friend" that 99% of people fall into for bastion for a while..

AND THEN SHADOWBRINGERS HAPPENED. (admittedly i did go in pre-spoiled on the exarchs identity long before i even properly got into the game period, but just Knowing the thing and playing through it all myself are two Completely Different Feelings imo and everything about the reveal and the expansion just wrecked me it was so goodddd!!!) this is where i became crazy in the head about graha and started truly thinking abt him and bastions relationship specifically...

mm like i said i am still very much thinking about/putting pieces in place regarding bastions feelings and relationships with various characters and things, but as of endwalker things are in a weird spot with him and graha :3 specifially in the way of like... bastion is having a hard enough time just trying to come to terms with the fact that he has any sort of feelings for graha (or anyone, really) in the first place.

with the amount of things that happen to/around/because of him, he kind of blames anything happening to anyone around him on the fact That he is around, and is. overly worried with the idea that the people he cares about may get hurt because they get caught up in the mess that is His Entire Life. as much as he wants to spend more time with graha and just go on adventures with him and Not Worry, it all sits very heavily in the back of his mind.

that being said, while theyre definitely still dancing around the finer points of their feelings through endwalker, bastion and graha are undeniably close. there is no way bastion could see that an old friend waited and hoped and worked for an entire century for the sake of him and his future and Not try to match that dedication. bastion wouldnt say hes in love if you asked him, but he would say hes determined to do everything in his power to fulfill his promise to graha, to stay by his side through adventure after adventure and see the world as soon as theyre able.

on grahas side it probably seems like hes had. a Lot more time to think about things, but in truth i think hes still very much putting together the pieces. between all but abandoning who he was for a hundred years to take on the role of exarch, and then getting his soul and everything merged into his old body in the source and having to process all that, especially when he was so sure he was gonna sacrifice himself during shb and wasnt really planning on surviving up until now its. it makes me ill to think abt everything hes been through. so for sure he is also still working through his feelings. even if theyre both in a weird uncertain position about it as of right now, they both know for certain that they would like to stay by each others side.. we will have to see where dawntrail takes them ^_^

tldr lotta stuff is happening right now for the both of them so my wol and graha are not 100% a thing yet. though i can certainly think about them kising catboy yaoi style <3

bonus Image Of Them if you read this far i thank you for your time <333

[pikslasrce]

hiii sorry if this is a weird question or too personal or anything I'm a little drunk but how do you find the courage to start dressing differently 😣 I wanna look cool but I'm worried about going against people's expectations of me and it becoming A ThingTM. anyway I love your style and I think you look dope <3

oh well. see my courage to dress differently was instilled in me at a young age by my dear mother (#individuality complex) so i dont have like.. good tips for that

as for the clothes themselves basically you just have to start doing it. make an inspo board on pinterest and analyze what elements you like, be it colors, accessories, makeup styles etc.

rome wasnt built in a day and neither will your wardrobe. once you've figured out a direction in which your style should go through your existing wardrobe and identify which items fit your target style and whether they can be styled or altered in some way.

after youve done that its time to rebuild your wardrobe, go thrifting.. a Lot. the most important thing is to have staples that look interesting on their own, as well as accessories that youd use regularly to spice things up

(for example i hoard blouses/button-ups with interesting patterns, bc even if im having a low-effort day i know i can just wear them w some pants and have an outfit, and i have a necklace w some teeth on it and an anatomical heart pendant that i wear w almost every outfit + a lipstick that i wear all the time)

as for other people and their expectations... fuck them!! their world wont crumble if you start doing something different! and if the way they act towards you changes... well, send them off!

and for it becoming a ThingTM its just enough to have like. low effort shit. dont have a wardrobe that only looks good if its styled (as mentioned a few paragraphs back)

last but not least, in fact the most important thing. you WILL have flop outfits. believe me, ive been there. dont despair when it happens though! its all a part of the process

thats it! i hope you find this helpful!

[toruro]

HI!

How are you? I saw that you were exhausted in one of your latest posts so just wanted to come in and distract you with my Mingwoo thoughts, i hope it helps you a little bit (also i sent you some asks about threesomes i dont remember the details but i think dumblr ate them😭)

Lets talk about royal aus and soulmates and a little bit of fate-magic (@wonusite knows how much obsessed i am with royal aus + soulmates so i thought why not let you know about it too)

So lets say Minghao is the crown Prince of china and Wonwoo is the crown Prince of korea, you are the princess of another country that was given the power to see scenes from future and make desicions accordingly

(i am from europe so i cant say an exact country name because it would be geographically unreasonable and i dont wanna say a country like japan or Taiwan because it will be weird for me and probably for whoever is reading this lol so i just made up a whole new country because 1) i can 2) this is a magical world so it doesnt have to be realist at all and 3) its way more fun this way)

When your eighteenth birthday comes all of the other kingdoms' magicians becomes aware of your power, which leads to them informing their kings. Now, the kings of the two most powerful kingdoms want you to marry their sons so they can be superior to the other. But your mother, who leads your country, knows better than to trust these greedy men who just wants to use you.

So she sends you off to a mountain with your trustworthy guard Lee Chan, who was saved by your mother when korea was in a war and his vilage was destroyed.

But there is something none of those magicians nor your parents know about, you are already destined to rule three countries by both of the princes by your side. You saw it one night, after three whole months of living in a cabin placed on the highest mountain in your borders you started seeing more of these dreams where you learned more about the future. You saw yourself looking lovingly at a man, who was looking (and feeling) oddly but not unwelcomingly familiar.

The man was tall, broad shoulders and piercing but worried and caring eyes, his eyes never left yours while he was talking about how you should drink the tea he was holding to get rid of your sore throat. But all you could do was just scanning his features while trying to memorise every detail like this was the last time you would ever see your soulmate.

Just as your lover was about to pour down the drink from your throat the door to the bedroom you were resting in slammed open by another male who was looking worried sick. As soon as your eyes met he ran to your other side that wasnt occupied by your other lover and cupped your face lovingly with both of his warm hands.

He cooed and whined about how the love of his life was feeling ill and there was nothing he could to about it. You could see that he was actually concerned about your health but you couldnt help laughing at one of your lover was mumbling about your "poor healt" while the other was about to throw hands at the fact that he was literally holding a cure for you but being ignored by his lovers

You woke up just as Wonwoo was shooing Minghao away and trying to get you to drink the tea.

As you opened your eyes you met with chan's knowing look. You made a questioning head movement as you realized he was smiling almost too sweetly to you. Throughout the years you spent with him you learned that you could never trust him and his intentions if the smirk like smile was stretching his lips. And you were right when he said "what were you smiling to in your dreams? Did you see your soulmate? Or should i say soulmates?"

This is so long already and i just wanted your opinion about this concenpt, so if you like it i might make a part two where they finally meet but if you would like to you can continue this yourself

Have a good day (⁠◍⁠•⁠ᴗ⁠•⁠◍⁠)⁠❤

THIS SEEMS REALLY INTERESTING?!? magical aus are really cool to me and props to anyone who writes them because that takes a lot of effort wow ... this idea seems really cool and if you can flesh out the magical aspect of the story really well it'll be super unique ^-^ ALSO i'm doing pretty good, thank u for asking! currently trying to figure out how to text this man i met yday bc he was so my type my brain short circuited ... also i don't see any minwon thots in my inbox :/ maybe if u send them again i could write a lil something >_<

[traumasurvivorshelpingsurvivors]

hello. im not sure what im looking for, i would say advice but for what exactly, i don't know. i guess just a place to vent.

trigger warning for suicidality, existentialism (? dread), derealization

im not sure where to start. ive felt alone for a long time, have been for what feels even longer. even when i had people around me and with me, ive always felt alone. ever since i can remember ive felt like i wasnt meant to be here. more recently ive been wishing i was somewhere else, not dead but somewhere easier. i wish i was never born and that my soul stayed in the stars.

i feel like alone doesn't begin to describe what im feeling. doesn't even come close. i feel like im finally letting go of my longing even just a little. im beginning to find comfort in being all alone in the world. im accepting that ive never been important, because nothing is. no one is. nothing even makes sense and it never has to me. ive never understood god or why im here. why i can think and feel. i don't even really believe anything is real, because how could it be when in millions of years from now, we wont exist anymore? when all everythings ever been is lost to space? when we dont even come close to mattering in the universe? so i don't think its real. there are no answers to the universe to be found. i just hope that when i die i can be up there in the nothingness.

Hi anon,

It makes sense after these experiences to want to embrace the loneliness, but while it's important to be independent and self-reliant, its also important to consider the unity, solidarity, and belonging that can come with having someone beside you. Humans are social creatures, and in a lot of ways it's necessary to survival.

It can be easy to slip into nihilistic thought patterns when you feel so isolated and alone. There are also a lot of bigger existential questions that are either impossible for us to answer or comprehend as human beings, and it can be hard to make peace with that.

As someone who experiences existential dread, please know that you're not alone in having these thoughts about the bigger picture. If it might help to mention, I try to reframe "everything is fleeting" as "meaning is made in moments that only happen once." Instead of worrying about things like the end of the universe, you can use that to develop a renewed perspective on how precious the present is.

Anthony Hopkins once said, "None of us are getting out of here alive, so please stop treating yourself like an afterthought. Eat the delicious food, walk in the sunshine, jump in the ocean, say the truth that you're carrying in your heart like hidden treasure, be silly, be kind, be weird, there's no time for anything else."

It's worth keeping an eye on any suicidal thoughts, and reach out to crisis resources if you need it. If you can access or afford it, a mental health professional such as a therapist could help you navigate these existential and suicidal thoughts, and process the feelings surrounding them. Please know that, while we are not a substitute, we are here for you in the meantime.

If anyone has any comments or suggestions, feel free to add on. Otherwise, I hope I could help, and please let us know if you need anything.

-Bun

[auror117]

FORGOTTEN MEMORIES PART3

Forgotten memories part 3/4

Hongjoong pov

The decision to go to the reunion wasnt an easy one. I thought again and again about it and my parents werent happy at all. Mom tried to stop me for whatever reason, but deep in my heart i felt like i had to go no matter what. Now that i'm here and now that i've seen my friends i have no regrets in coming here.

It 8am when Seonghwa knocked on my door. I was barely awake but he was good and ready to go. He was always a morning bird, the responsible one.

Now we are walking to Jieuns cafe. A million thoughts run throught my head, how is she now? Is she the same? Did she miss us? Did she miss me..........

Hwa; " Isn't it weird, walking this path after so many years " he asks while looking around. It was weird, our childhood was filled with this town until we left and now that we are back the feeling is unfamiliar but familiar in a way.

" Yea it is weird but it also brings back some memories" I reply

Hwa; " You remember getting beat up in that alley by those boys from our next class " he points towards an alley with a smile. I laugh at the sudden rush of memories.

" You mean the time when Jieun had to save us from them. I still remember her running towards us holding her hockey stick and just swinging it around with her eyes closed " I chuckle while speaking.

Hwa:" And she almost hit us with that stick too" he replies with a wide smile. " Do you ever wish that you hadn't left?" He turns to look at me.

I didnt know how to answer that question, did i regret leaving?. If i hadn't left how different would my life have been, but at the same time i cant seem to regret because of how much i've achieved.

" At one point i did but then i never really though about it" i reply, not looking at him.

He was silent for the rest of the journey. As the cafe came in site i couldnt help but get nervous, my heart started beating fast and it felt like i was taken back in time.

Seonghwa's POV

He was different now, much different but i cant help but identify some similarities of his old self. He still dont make eye contact with me and he still holds much in his heart but speaks less. But hearing him say that he doesn't regret leaving made me think, maybe he is different now.

The cafe looks the same as it did in the past. It looks so alike that i felt like time reversed. The memories that this place has holds endless meaning but instead of looking forward to recall those memories i see myself searching for something else.

Before we could enter the cafe Jieun comes out and walks towards us with a bright smile, i felt like time froze. Seeing her now made me realize how much i missed her. Hongjoong rushed forward and hugged her tightly but i couldnt move, it felt like my feet were stuck in the ground.

I just stared at her without a word unable to process whats happening until she pulls me into a hug. I found myself tearing up while inhailing her scent, its the same her smile, hair, scent its all the same. For a minute i hoped that time would actually stop but i know its a hopeless dream to want this moment to last forever and to want her.......

Jieun; " You both have no idea how much i missed you two, look at you both gosh i'm so proud of you" she breaks the hugs and looks at us with a teary smile.

Hongjoong; "You haven't changed at all, still a cry baby" he says with a small laugh

Jieun; "Oh shut up its been years since i've seen you both let me be emotional" she wipes her tears as she speaks.

" And the behaviour is the same too, it truly feels like nothing has changed" i pat her head with a smile.

Hongjoong; "So what are we doing today?"

" How about we visit our hideout?" i suggest

Jieun; " Great idea! I looked after it after you both left, dont worry i didnt change anything its still the same" she says as she leads the way.

Our hideout was situated at the top of our school, a small room we decorated and used as our safe place. It is filled with sad and good memories of ours.

Hongjoong's POV

She looked so beautiful, so unreal that it feels like a dream to see her but when i hugged her i realised that this is not a dream. She is really here in front of me, the familiarity fills my heart with warmth. This is not like the countless dreams i had of her, she's really here.

At the mention of the hideout i cant help but feel anxious, the last memory i had of that place wasnt pleasant. Looking at Seonghwa it feels like he's forgotten everything that happened that day ofc he has, he had nothing to lose, not then and not now.

Thinking about it, this is a journey to uncover forgotten memories even the cruelest of them all. Maybe recovering them will lead to some mystery and maybe just maybe this time i may win.

[1-800-c0sm1c]

Hey!! Sorry if I’m doing this wrong I am new to this kinda stuff but do u mind writing headcanons on how the p5 phantom thief boys would take care of the reader when they’re on their period? If not it’s fine!

꒰baby im yours !꒱

p5 boys when their s/o is on their period headcannons !

character x afab!reader

includes joker, ryuji, yusuke, and akechi !

warnings : mentions of periods, obviously lol

a/n : its shark week for yours truly so i thought now is the best time to write this :D i wasnt sure what gendered reader you wanted, so i just decided to leave it as afab, hope thats alright :))

JOKER // REN AMAMIYA

maybe this is biased, but i feel out of everyone on this list hes the most prepared.

like, hes not overbearing but he knows just enough to spare you both any awkward conversations.

he doesnt have any feminine products in his bathroom since its technically shared with leblanc customers and he doesnt want to embarrass you or anyone else, but you know theres always a few of whatever you need in his school bag or his dresser!

hes a very calm person, which can be very relieving, especially when you accidentally bleed on something.

you both were hanging out one day after school, and when you got up off of his bed to go make some food, you noticed a red spot on the sheets.

you were internally freaking out, trying to figure out what to do knowing how some guys tend to find it gross, while ren literally just comments "dont worry about it, i needed motivation to do laundry anyways." and asks if you need anything.

you feel like youve just been given whiplash, no way thats it, hes so cool with it?

he even gives you a pair of his boxers and sweatpants since you bled through your clothes, and when you come out of the bathroom hes got a steaming hot cup of coffee and some chocolates on the counter all ready for you. <3

SKULL // RYUJI SAKAMOTO

confused, embarrassed, and a little bit (a lot) dramatic. he tries to act like its not a big deal, but in reality he doesnt really know anything about periods, and hes convinced youre secretly in a lot of pain. (which i mean, you could be depending on cramps… but you get what i mean.)

hes horribly uneducated on this topic, and definitely the worst person to be stuck with when you start. 

hes calling ann asking her to explain what to do with the reddest face youve ever seen. 🧍

ryuji definitely thought it was a little gross at first too, but once he understood it was just a normal thing your body did he felt more okay about it.

hes trying super hard to be a good boyfriend, but hes stuttering over his questions. barely able to ask you if he needs to get you anything.

i swear his eyes almost popped out of his head when you said all you wanted was for him to shut up and cuddle with you. 💀💀

he tries to be there for you as much as possible, but if you tend to get more angry, just note that hell try to stay away a bit. 

he has issues keeping his temper under control, even when it comes to you, and he doesnt want to start any unnecessary arguments.

at the end of the day, communication is key when it comes to you guys relationship, he just wants whats best for both of you!

FOX // YUSUKE KITAGAWA

yusuke has probably never felt the touch of another human being before you so hes very… confused to say the least.

what do you mean youre bleeding? and its normal? this happens monthly? his mind is blown.

i dont see him being weird in the way he wants to use your period as inspiration for a painting, but weird in the way that hell track it.

maybe this just a personal thing who finds it weird when a guy wants to track when your on your cycle, but it seems right up yusukes alley 😭.

hes a little strange, and he just wants to help! but he also doesnt really know what hes doing, so his presence can be a bit overwhelming.

gets pouty when you end up snapping at him, but once you explain why hes a lot more aware of how much hes bothering you.

hes also willing to get you whatever you need, as long as youre buying.

one time you had asked him to get you pads/tampons, and he called you 30 minutes later saying that he didnt have any money…

however, unlike someone else on this list, hes not embarrassed about it. more so genuinely curious, as he loves learning about you and he thinks its important to know how your body works!

hell probably draw you something nice as well if it makes you feel better. :)

CROW // GORO AKECHI

oh boy, akechi sure is a character. and i think with him it depends.

usually though hes just a pretty average guy. hes not stupid, but he also isnt the best at understanding your emotions, or his own, for that matter.

youre in public, akechi talking to one of the tv hosts after hes finished appearing on a show, and you gently tug on his jacket to let him know you started your period, and need the restroom. 

hes conflicted, whats supposed to come first, you or his reputation? when it comes to him, he makes any simple situation way more complicated in his head.

he makes an eternal sacrifice to shoo away the people talking to him, and he quickly takes off his jacket to wrap it around your waist. you both find a bathroom nearby and he paitently waits for you outside.

when you walk out, he offers to pick up whatever you may need (including some food) and take you home.

at your front door, he kisses your cheek, but cant help but noticed the nervous expression on your face.

its only then when you mention that akechis jacket is, in fact, a light color, and is most definitely stained now with bright red blood. his face goes blank, and youre worried for a second he might be mad.

he only shrugs at that, same detective prince smile as always, and jokes that youre paying for his dry cleaning.

[the-record]

loverboy <3

pairing: eddie munson x gn!reader

warnings: school (yuck) otherwise none i think?!!

summary: eddie falls for his tutor

a/n: idea from > @upirs i hope i did ur idea justice it was too cute not to write !

the last person eddie wouldve expected to tutor him would be you.

you were smart, he knew that. but you never payed any sort of attention in class and we’re constantly late. but your math teacher had assigned you to help him.

so you started meeting up at the library after school.

“this is fucking impossible.” eddie whined, banging his head against the table.

“i promise it’s not.” you took the pencil from his grip, showing him the steps one more time. “then you just have to find x, which is easy.”

eddie wasnt paying any attention though. well, not to the math.

“eddie?” he hummed, sparking back up. “you listening?”

“of course i am.” he defended, sitting up straight. you gave him a look, doubt covering your features. “i have to find x now, right?”

you just nodded and handed him the pencil.

eddie loved you tutoring him. you explained in ways teachers didn’t, getting him to understand things he never quite got all through middle school and highschool.

“so, you’re saying all i had to do, was subtract the first number from the answer?”

you laughed, nodding. “how did you pass middle school?”

“i almost didnt.”

youd been tutoring and studying with eddie for weeks now. spending nearly every monday and wednesday after school with him. even sitting with the hellfire club at lunch most days.

eddie had shown you his favorite spots when he needed peace and quiet. the woods. his van. a nook in the back of the library only he and the librarian knew about.

“do you wanna come over?” he wondered suddenly. you immediately closed your book, looking up at him with bright eyes.

“really?”

over the weeks spent with him, you had grown to have a massive little crush on the boy.

“absolutely babe.”

babe. jesus, he needed to shut up.

the ride to his trailer was quiet but comfortable, some random music playing softly as eddie hummed.

you jumped out the van when you got there, eager to see eddie’s place.

eddie led you to his room and you got to snooping right away. he flopped on his bed as he watched you read spines of books, study photos and and trinkets. he watched as you smiled at his guitar, asking more about it.

you finally reached his cassettes. there was tons, a couple bands you didnt know but most you did.

“oh i love iron maiden.” you told him excitedly.

“huh?”

“i said i love iron maiden.” you turned to him, one of his cassettes in your hand and a smile on your face.

“i love you.” he whispered it softly, but you still heard.

“i- you what?” your brain short circuited as you stared at eddie.

“oh god, i said that out loud didnt i? i’m so sorry, thats so weird. oh god youre gonna hate me now arent you, i cant bel-” he rambled but cut himself off when he saw the huge smile on your face.

“you love me.” you walked forward, taking a seat infront of him on his bed. “you love me.” you giggled tossing the tape to the side. “holy shit eds i dont think you know how long i’ve been waiting to say that to you.”

“youre not weirded out?” eddie questioned as you took his hands in yours.

“jesus, eddie no!” you sat forward a bit, leaning closer. “not at all. im just like in shock.”

“thank god babe i was so worried.” he reached out and took your face in his hands. “can i kiss you?”

“get to it loverboy.”

[bahngray]

LIMERENCE

Disclaimer This work is for mature audience.

Pairing hyunjin x reader x felix

Parts: Chapter 1

Synopsis - because loving does not need reasons

Some questions dont have answers and I've never gotten the answer to why Hyunjin wasnt letting me in. Why he was being so stubborn and keeping me away when he wanted me, when he knew we would be happy together. I have loved him all my life and let me tell you when you love someone, you are ought to get hurt by them.

Chapter 2 : But I wanna hold you

He picks me up and makes me sit on the nearby bench. He doesnt ask me anything but rather when he sees me break down again he hugs me tight.

I should have pushed him away, he was a stranger but I didnt, in that moment I just let him hold me and for a moment I thought it was hyunjin, it was him who ran to get me, it was him who was holding me, comforting me, telling me it was alright. But it wasnt him.

"Heyy its okay, its alright, come on lets drink some water okay?" He said. I sniffed and rejected the waterbottle he gave me but he made sure I drank the water and said, " I definitely think you need these tissues, u dont want to go around with snot in your nose do you?"

And I laughed, I was trying to calm down and he laughed along with me.

"BTW, Hi I'm Felix, I'm the new transfer student from Australia, hope we get along, oh right can u show me the path to the office I was told to drop by there today" he said.

I nodded and sniffed before I finally spoke, "walk straight and then take a left and you'll find the office"

"Thanks" with that being said he didnt leave to go but rather he sat beside me and after a while he finally spoke, "Hey do you mind if I take you home or wherever your going?"

"No no no you don't really have to, it's not that far I can go myself plus it's not that late" but he didn't listen, he grabbed my arm and took me to his car.

"Wait here I'll be back in a few mins, okay?"

I nodded, not quiet sure why he was doing this. Normally this would mean something was up but some part of me wanted to trust him. So I waited in the car.

He came back in a few mins as he had said and started the car. We sat in silence while he drove the car. He finally breaked the silence saying, "So you haven't told me your name yet, or do you not want to tell me?"

"Oh right, I mean I'm sorry for causing all this trouble to you but I'm Y/N, ask me for help whenever you want cause there's a lot to learn here haha" I said to lighten the mood.

He was unreadable, I couldn't understand why he was doing this, the not so good thoughts started to spin round my mind, so I blabbed out like an idiot, " Honestly its kinds weird, cause I really dont know why your doing this or whether your normally like this uhh-"

"Dont worry I'm not a bad person just know that" he laughs.

He looked beautiful when he laughed.

Embarassed I didnt say a word the whole ride home. When we reached at my apartment he quickly got off his seat and rushed over to open the door to my side.

Cute. Thats the only thing I could think.

"Well then I'll see you tomorrow!" I beamed loudly.

"Arent you way too happy to know the fact that you'll be seeing me again tomorrow?" *smirks*

"Yahh I didnt mean it like that" I yelled at him.

"Yeah okay" *smiles* he said. "Anyways I'll see you tomorrow"

I waved him bye and watched as he left.

And the anxiety of hyunjin leaving me filled me up, the fact that he was never willing to love me as much as I was left me broken. Because loving hyunjin wasnt like just loving him but it was like walking into a house and realizing that you were home.

But all I could do was deny and tell myself that all of this was a lie, Hyunjin just needed more time and in order for us to be happy I could give him that time.

And there it was denial to the truth, to the reality of us. Denial was like an old blanket I loved to get under that thing and curl up and go to sleep.

*The Next Day*

I wasnt in shape to meet hyunjin today and do our assignment so I decided to ignore him. I entered the building and froze when I saw hyunjin. I wanted to run but it was as if my feet were stuck on the ground.

Just as hyunjin started walking towards me I felt a tap at on my shoulder, I turned around to see felix and let me tell you I dont think I was ever happy to see a person this much as I was to see felix.

"Hi-" before he could say anything I took hand and dragged him to my locker.

"whoa whoa wait up" he said gasping for air, "what is going on why did u drag me here?"

"Umm I wanted to talk to you in private" he gave me a perplexed look, "You call this private? Y/N there are people here and there, cant you see?"

Like an idiot I just laughed, " Oh guess it wasnt a nice private spot to talk haha"

*A Month Later*

Felix and I, we got along really well, we had similarities as well as dissimilarities but he understood me well. I liked him that way. I always shared my concerns with him except the hyunjin part but he was always there when I needed him. When I needed hyunjin he was always there beside me, making me forget the dreadful memories.

Its been a month since hyunjin and I last talked, we didnt do the assignment together he changed his partner and I was left alone when felix offered to be my partner. I never spoke to him, he never called, never texted, it was as if we didnt know each other. We ignored each other as much as we could but i couldn't take it any longer so I decided to talk to him one afternoon after class.

He was as usual in his spare room working on his assignment with his new partner who was just a disgustingly flirty girl called Mia. I walked in and he didnt even look up, "Hyunjin we need to talk" I said.

"I'm working cant you see?" he said annoyed, I grabbed his arm and dragged him out of the room to our empty classroom.

"What? what is it?" he said. "What is it? Do you even know we havent talked for a month and we have been ignoring each other? Why are we doing this hyunjin? Why?" I said my voice a little shaky.

"We should just ignore each other its for our best. We cant go back to how we were, you get that, I cant go back Y/N its hard for me" he said looking me in the eye.

"Do you think I'm a joke? Hyunjin I love you, is it so hard for you to understand that? I know you love me back then why are you hesitating? Why?" I said as tears started streaming down my face.

"I dont love you y/n, I'm not capable of loving you. I'm afraid I might hurt you and I cant bear that pain to see you hurt because of me, so please stop, we can stop this" he said as his eyes started to turn red.

"I...I hate you, all this time I waited for you like a fool thinking you just needed time, that after you were fine we could love each other sincerely, truly, but you, you proved me wrong you never really truly loved me, your disgusting hyunjin, your just scared of loving the women you love. Is loving me that hard? Am I not your type?" I rushed to get out of the classroom, tears falling down my face.

As I walked out of the building I saw that person I shouldnt have. Felix. When he saw me crying he rushed over to hug me tightly in his arms.

"Its alright, its okay I'm here"

With Felix there were no lies he knew why I was crying, he knew what was going on and he knew why I hadnt told him abt hyunjin. This is one of the reasons why I liked Felix.

After I calmed down he took me home and stayed with me. "I should go home now" he said breaking the hug, "No' I said, "Stay"

With that being said Felix kissed me, he smashed his lips on mine and I know I should have moved away, I should have stopped him but I didnt I let him love me.

His hands moved down my body and within a few secs he got me on his lap. While one of his hands gripped the back of my face and the other was around my waist he bit my lower lip asking for permission. I gave him what he wanted. His tongue explored my mouth and it felt like heaven and I felt the most pleasure I had ever since hyunjin touched me.

I moaned feeling his hands on my breasts. Felix broke the kiss and looked up at me, "Fuck your so beautiful" he exclaimed.

He smashed his lips again with mine and kissed me more passionately this time, he carefully lifted me up and placed me on my bed asking, "Can we do this? We dont do this if you dont want to, okay?"

"We can do this" I said, he hovered over me kissing me for what felt like the thousandth time and I started to unbutton his shirt. He pulled my croptop up and helped me take my leggings off. When I was just in my undergarments he stared at me and whispered,"Your so fucking gorgeous"

He licked his lips as his hand touched my almost bare body. He slipped off his shirt and revealed his toned abs, he unbuckled his belt and took off rest of his clothing and all I could see was a naked felix standing infront of me. Felix was beautiful, despite him as a person his body proportions were heavenly.

He kissed me as he took off my bra and he stared at the sight of my breasts revealing themselves. He kissed my breasts, licking my nipples, as a result getting a soft moan out of me. His hands soon made their way to the elastic of my underwear.

He looked up at me for permission and I nodded. He took off my black underwear and was drooling at the sight he saw. His mouth made its way from my chest to my inner thighs and lastly at my wet clit. I moaned at the amount of pleasure I was receiving. His mouth was doing its job eating me out, sucking my tensed skin.

"Felix I think...I.I.I'm going to cum" and without a warning I released all the hot liquid from inside of me. Felix sucked on my fluids and his mouth was on mine again, kissing me as hard as he could and me gasping for air.

His hands squished my breast ever so lightly while kissing me it felt as if I was flying. Without any warning he thrusted into me, the feeling of his length sending me over the moon. "Go faster" I whispered.

He gripped my hands and relentlessly thrusted into me, I rolled my hips to feel his full length inside of me. The bed made creaking noises as moans kept spilling out of my mouth, Felix was losing his mind, thrusting into me slowly but deeply and hitting me in the right spot.

At last he filled me with all his essence getting one last moan from me, as he fell on top of me. He soon got up gave me a peck on the lips and washed up. He bought some white towels to wash me up and then laid beside me putting his hands on my waist while dozing off to sleep.

I was awake, ruining myself at the thought of how all this pleasure that I have received wasnt from Hyunjin. I knew I couldnt hurt Felix and play with his feelings, I knew that. But even though I had spend the night with him my heart still longed for Hyunjin. I still wished it was Hyunjin who made love to me.

I felt ashamed that I had used Felix but I wasnt going to anymore, I am going to love him. I am going to forget Hyunjin for the better. I am going to try. Felix was an amazing person and I'm not sure whether he deserved someone like me, he deserved someone far better.

But starting from now I am going to love him and I'm going to forget Hyunjin. With these thoughts I soon dozed off to sleep.

[retracexcviii]

this may be a stupid question but I cannot find what chapter it was in jkdshfkdj I'm assuming Vanitas mentioned "wanting to be set free" or freedom before, hence Noe said what he did in chapter 53? but maybe I'm wrong and this is the first time the topic of freedom came up? thank you for any help regardless!

Hi there, dear anon.

Dont worry about the question, I find it easy to get lost in Jun's stories sometimes too XD

This is not difficult to answer but has a complicated background tbh. If you look the images while Noé is thinking about Vanitas in memoire 53 you can see he connect what Vanitas said in memoire 50 (where all went to hell T.T) about "setting" Noé free by killing Dominique with Vanitas wanting to be alone. But there is no past reference in Noé's mind about Vanitas saying he want to be free so we can assume there is not other moment in the manga in which Vanitas has said something like that (not in front of Noé at least).

So the fast answer: no, there is not mention to freedom before memoire 50.

But well, even if I am 99% sure it is the first time Vanitas uses the word "free" to talk about this he, in fact, has talked about "freedom", "being alone", "dont have anyone to be worried about", etc. a lot of time in the manga before.

The first time we saw him showing his lonelly side was in memoire 4 just when Jeanne asks him not to do anything to Luca in exchange of her surrender. In that moment Vanitas reacts weird, very, very weird (damn forced kiss) but what he said it is interesting since lets glimpse how he sees affective relationships:

Having something to protect makes you weak.

After this we have some different moments in which Vanitas assures it is better to be alone or simply he says he doesnt want somebody that could fall for him + Vanitas tried to separate from Noé on several occasions when he was annoying or was not careful when it came to staying alive (again being alone makes you have no worries).

Vanitas seems to think that being alone makes you free. He never said it loud before in the manga but he has made it clear on several occasions talking or in his way of acting.

Not having friends or a family to be worried about/to take care makes you objectively "free" from distractions in your goals.

And here comes which seems to be the other part of the background in Vanitas "freedom": the goal. Vanitas left it very clear in his speech memoire 1:

"... I will save you... Without fail!!"

I used the word goal but I prefer to use will here to explain Vanitas reactions because every time somebody has questioned his will Vanitas went reckless, with Domi:

We know the speech that followed this.

And with Roland:

Every single time somebody mention or doubt he is doing things by his own will he get mad/angry and feels the need to demonstrate the opposite, that he does what he does because it is what he wants.

We dont know where this exactly come from but I think it started with his time with Luna:

The first time I saw this chapter I found this panels very, very shocking. We see a young Vani being totally confused when asked what he wanted to do (what was his will), that confusion followed of all the memories of his past where he had no choice, not answer, without reason. Because we have seen Vanitas and how he thinks about himself: it wasnt his choice to live but he could have change himself for his mother, it was not his choice to be saved by his father but he could have die protecting him, it has not his choice to be recruited by the chasseaurs and it has not his choice to become Moreau's ginea pig. But, for first time in a while or in his whole life, somebody asked him what was his will: to stay and face whatever was coming or to run with the person that had asked him to do whatever he wanted. And he chose.

Since then we dont know what exactly happen with Vani and Luna but Vanitas' problem with his will seems to be very primitive so maybe it is a childhood trauma before his times with Luna or something strong happened while being with Luna.

Whatever it was, Vanitas decided long time ago that his goal its to save all the vampires without fail and to make this he will do whatever he pleases using the methods he choose. And to be able to achieve this goal he has stayed away from people for a long time (for Dante's flashbacks when he met Vanitas) because Vanitas thinks tie yourself to people, have somebody to protect, makes you weak.

This empty stares, this tired eyes that time to time Vanitas show in the manga are not much more than loneliness. Noé has seen this faces, that looking Vanitas has sometimes so when he thought about what he knew about Vanitas in memoire 53 and all he remembered were Vanitas' lonely eyes, he connected that loneliness with with the meaning of being "free" that Vanitas was talking about.

I hope this helps and it was not lengthening too much XD

[peachiikawa]

Tradition | Route: Seijoh

a/n: here the first route my new series! hope you all enjoy it!

summary: getting taken before a game always seemed like something out of one of those high school sport movies where the opposing team kidnaps the mascot out of tradition. who knew kidnapping the manager was the new trend.

genre: choose your own adventure, fluff, manager au

warnings: mild violence, reader injury

word count: 1.0k

tradition masterlist

“y/n! Can you refill the waters?”

You dropped the ball in your hands back into the bin beside you and nodded your head

“Sure thing iwaizumi!”

He handed you the bottles one by one

“Do you need any help filling them up?”

You just shook your head with a smile

“Nope! You just focus on warming up ive got this!”

He smiled back at you but before he could say anything he was rudely interrupted

“Iwa! If you keep flirting with y/n theyre gonna lose brain cells!”

“What did you say shittykawa!”

You just laughed as maki and kindaichi held iwaizumi back and walked off to the nearest water fountain

It was just outside of the gym and down the hall a bit so you didnt feel any reason to feel nervous

But the moment you felt someone grab you from behind your anxiety skyrocketed

“Get them to shut up! We gotta move fast!”

You had heard about this happening to other managers in the area

Getting kidnapped right before a game

It was almost a sick joke at this point

You just brushed it off your shoulders though, what were the odds it would happen to you?

Apparently, they were very high

You kept trying to get out of their grip and finally opened your mouth wide enough to bite the hand of the person holding you

“Mattsun! Kunimi! Help!”

You called out the first names that came to you but were met with silence as you were dragged away

“Did you guys hear something?”

Kunimi looked towards the door of the gym and got a weird feeling in his chest

“Guys y/n’s been gone for a while. Maybe we should go check on them?”

So a couple of them went off to go see what was up with you

And when kunimi and yahaba saw the water bottles spilled all over the ground they knew something was wrong

“Oikawa! Somethings wrong!”

Kunimi and yahaba explained what they found and everyone immediately fell into a panic

“Coach! We’ll be right back!”

They all ran out of the gym in hopes of finding you

“Tie them up!”

Meanwhile, you were being thrown into a closet, a blindfold tied around your eyes as they bound your hands too

“Please… whatever you want ill give it to you”

You could hear snickering coming from all around you

“Oh we dont want anything from you...we just wanted to have a bit of fun and freak seijoh out a bit. Wouldnt hurt if they all missed their match too”

God what even was this situation

And knowing seijoh, they probably were all looking for you

So you gave it one last try and yelled as loud as you could

“Kindaichi! Kenta! Someone, please help me!”

“Shut up!”

You felt a sting on your face as they knocked you to the ground

But at that same moment, you heard the door open

“y/n!”

You felt tears come to your eyes as you recognized those voices

“Guys please…”

Now they were pissed

“Oh so you wanted to rough up our manager? Is that how you guys want to play?”

Iwaizumi and kentarou cracked their knuckles and took a step towards the men who captured you

But before they could do anything you heard someone else approaching you and gently take off your blindfold

“Come on y/n lets get out of here”

Oikawa helped you up to your feet and usually, his presence was a pleasant one

But at this moment...you felt a cold chill go down your back as you looked at his face

“Dont go too hard on them guys...you need your hands for the match later where we will also crush them”

His voice was void of emotion

“Dont worry we’re just going to scare them a bit”

The door closed behind you and the rest of the team took you back to the gym

Kunimi came up to you with a fist aid kit and gently started to treat the wound on your face while mattsun wrapped his jacket around you and patted your head

“You gonna be okay y/n?”

Maki handed you a water bottle and kneeled down in front of you to try and get a good look at your injury

You just nodded your head, still too shaken to say anything

Oikawa stood off to the side with his arms crossed

He was utterly pissed and couldnt even say anything at the moment that would be coherent

Iwaizumi and kenta came back shortly after with no visible injuries and just gave a thumbs up to everyone

Soon seijoh was up to play against the team that had taken you and you could feel the tension in the air

It almost suffocated you

“Lets go everyone. Im trusting you guys”

The mood with everyone became even more serious at oikawas words

And by the end of the match, it wasnt even a question as to who was going to win

Seijoh completely annihilated them

And as soon as they were done for the day they led you back to the bus and made sure to have someone on either side of you at all times

Oikawa kept his hand around yours the entire bus ride, squeezing your hand throughout the ride while kunimi napped on your other shoulder with a looser grip on your other

You let out a small breath and looked up at everyone with a smile

“Thank you guys”

They all stared at you with wide eyes, these were your first words since it all happened

Even kunimi had woken up

“Don’t worry about it y/n we’ll always come looking for you”

The smile on kindaichis face sent a calming feeling through you

“Yeah we wont let this happen ever again”

Kenta left you at a loss for words he usually never cared about anyone here

You could feel oikawas hand tighten around yours even more though

“Never again”

And from then on seijoh no matter what always made sure to have someone with you at all times

You dont even want to imagine what would happen if this happened again

taglist: @babyshoyo​

[artreider]

Station 19 rewatch: 4x14

Going to try to do another rewatch before my family wakes up. We have a lot to do today and there is a dark cloud over the house after loaing our cat this week. Here's hoping i can get through one of my favorite episodes before they get up.

Surrera is so cute here and the whole food thing, like girl where is our payoff on this baby that was so clearly teased. Or is there another medical condition that could be blamed on her excessive eating.

Im so glad maya and andy are friends again. I loge their friendship.

I'm glad andy acknowledges that getting married doesnt fix things; but i worry that if maya and carina hit a rough patch, andy will remind maya of this conversation or use her own issues with sullivan and their marriage as an i told you so.

Danielle is beautiful but does anyone else think she lost weight, random question but just looking at her in her uniform there she seems smaller and it worries me. Didnt really notice last time i watched this episode but am i alone in this.

Oh carina baby you so dont want to go. I just want to hug you.

Jack is so cute, he deserves a family so much but i really do fear he'll be killed off.

Im surprised ben reached out to Sullivan instead of dean.

I love this outfit on maya. Carina your girl is flirting with you and thinking of happier times, engage with her.

I love that maya opens up with carina about her dad and the protests and the happenings in the world with him. It shows so much growth and im here for it. Also anyone else annoyed that one carina answered gabriella's phone call when maya is opening up to her and two that she didnt turn it off for their last few hours together.

The look of like disappointment/devestation on maya's face when carina answers the call and walks away from her is too much hurt.

So sad that bailey isnt there and that ben is alone for even a second of this.

I'm glad andy and sullivan came to be there with ben. Like i get why they wanted andy but im sad after ben and Dean's episode dean wasnt there.

Oh jack, i dont even know what to say besides oh jack lol.

The drama with trash girl is too much lmao. I know its important for jack/inara but its just too much.

Carina packing up her knives being a trigger for maya like she's leaving forever is heartbreaking.

Carina snapping at maya hurts, dont be mean to baby. Also the kitchen sign is totally carina's doing and though she hadnt confided in maya yet that she is her home its a dead giveaway.

I really need screen grabs of the changing words on the sign.

The kids talk, the coming out talk and the marriage talk are all things that should not be done while packing or doing anything else.

Wait it totally sounded like she said "it felt pregnant" lmao or i just have babies on the brain.

Now carina being flirty and maya not reciprocating.

Maya you shouldve pushed the marriage talk now if it was what you really wanted. Instead of letting carina drop the i never wanted to get married bomb and walk away.

Andy and ben together, this friendship is beautiful. I feel like it took several seasons for ben to really get in good the team. Im trying to think of other moments besides the prt support and such when he really connected with folks before this season and none come to mind. He has been an outlier from my memory, tell me im wrong with examples please.

Lmao "you slept with my wife which means we are in a pod", things a pandemic makes funny.

Thats just wrong, giving gibson shit still. Dont hit the puppy with the newspaper when he's doing nothing wrong.

Once again with gabriella, seriously carina turn off your phone and be present with maya and maya alone.

Maya's jealousy is everything. This argument ugh, so good and just the tip of the iceberg.

I hope that maya does take the month break and the months after to really get to know the us immigration system and what it will take for carina to become an american citizen as well as learn more italian. I dont need her fluent but id love to see her use some italian with carina. She lost her brother who she spoke to in her native tongue itd be nice for her to gain that in her wife.

I love how carina stops herself as she raises her voice at maya, like she realizes it may be triggering to maya. I really do think the show and actresses put in a lot in this episode to show how well they know each other and have grown. I feel like they talk more even if we dont see it and maya is working on her issues with carina's love and support. I also do love how this argument ends though ;)

Once again maya opening up and finally carina is there and not sidetracked. And its nice carina opens up as well.

Ben's dream with the different versions of himself and his mom is funny and heartbreaking.

Joey in the dream lmao.

The nice thing about ben is if he gets hurt on the job and cant be a firefighter anymore he has other professions to fall back on.

Oh jack. I just want you to get your happy ending.

I still think its so weird to be talking about jack after they had sex but im glad they are in a place that is so comfortable and can laugh about him.

Once again another bomb dropped, kids. This is something that needs to be discussed properly.

Oh maya dont drop the marriage bomb like that. And i guess i dont underatand the outrage of the "just because", like why would carina think it was anything but that when it was dropped on her like that and after she said she didnt want to get married. This fight is so much about misunderstandings and hurtful comments.

I get how maya's fear gets the best of her here especially after carina said they just moved in together because they didnt want to be apart (asif that is a bad thing) and it was bureaucracy.

And i can understand why maya's fear hurts carina but they both needed to take a minute to breathe and try to talk it out.

I do like when carina tells maya to breathe, again like she knows her triggers and feels maya is on the verge of a panic attack.

If carina felt she married maya when she moved in i really dont see the harm in making it official. Would her having been moved out in italy for 6 months or more have felt like a divorce. I really need to know more about her logic here.

I agree why not just do it.

You've both said enough carina. I hate that she just walks away, so un carina like.

How did jack end up at the hospital? Was he called or what?

Andy is such a good friend this episode, checking on everyone.

Gabriella is so right noone wants to be proposed to the way maya kind of did. Like i cant help but wonder how carina would've taken a true proposal.

Im so glad gabriella spoke some truth to carina and turned her around on the marriage idea.

If we let the wrong decisionss rule how we live our lives things in the world would be so different. Less babies possibly and fewer marriages among other things.

Once again andy being a good friend this episode.

If carina hadnt shown up im curious what maya's next move wouldve been after talking to andy.

Love the proposal and love how its carina who announces they are getting married.

[heyitsyn]

HALLOKNEE

Manager!Seijoh

a/n: a halloween special with our boys and the mess it is

summary: lets just say,, things get weird during halloween

okay so first of

halloween isnt a favorite holiday of most of the boys

like they all ltr are towers and skyscrapers but these kids are absolutely terrified of it all

but you just really like the holiday bc of yanno, candy, scary stuff, and omg costumes!

so you were basically very hyped and excited about it and you were excitedly humming to yourself as the date grew closer

the boys were confused as to why you were actually happy and in a good mood but they didnt complain bc they love seeing you happy

the flowery aura makes them heart eyes

HEART GOES DOKIDOKI

oikawa ran over and he stood behind you as you were distractedly humming to your clipboard

‘watcha doing, y/n-chan?’

he whispered to your ear

normally, you would shriek or flinch but you didnt and instead, turned and flashed him a grin

‘checking our schedule! i have a surprise for you all and i want to make sure theres nothing happening to stop it from happening!’

the boys grimaced and held a hand to their heart at your joy and they didnt even question what was going on or why you were so excited

all they know is you were happy

lmao oikawa got the hardest shot to it

he was front seat and his eyes widened and he froze

then he pulled you to his chest and nuzzled his face into your neck

‘aawwww~~!!!! youre so cute y/n-chan!!’

these idiots are so whipped and simp for you so hard that they completely forgot everything

your happiness continued for another week and my god that was probably the best week of their life bc you were just fluttering and giggling and skfjdslkjfdlflfkjs

to be fair though, you mentioned halloween being close and you were looking forward to a family night of watching scary movies in tv and duh these boys were already arguing with each other on who would protect you

‘I WANNA SIT NEXT TO  Y/N-CHAN!’

‘WHY?! SO YOU CAN HAVE AN EXCUSE TO HOLD HER?! YOURE A PERVERT SHITTYKAWA!’

‘AS IF YOURE NOT ANY BETTER IWAIZUMI!’

‘HANAMAKI STAY OUT OF THIS!’

ltr its just a big warcry between the third years while the second and first years already were getting head pats from you for being brave boys and were comfy right next to you

‘my boys are so cute~’

ITS A LOVE SHOT! NAAA NANANANANANANAANANAAAAAA

by then, the surprise was getting closer and you were already jumping in your toes

the night before, you texted the group chat to meet you at the school by 8 pm tomorrow

they all sent replies saying okay with no questions

‘okay love you y/n-chan! <3′

‘got it! good night!’

‘sweet dreams darling!’

at around 7:30, you were standing by the school bus since coach mizoguchi omg bless his heart was going to drive you all

the boys were all dressed in warm clothing and my gosh they all looked like models what the heck

we’re just going to ignore and forget that hideous infamous oikawa outfit

but you didnt focus on that and instead waved at them happily

‘you guys!’

oikawa jumped joyfully at your voice before naruto running over to you and scooping you in his arms

‘y/n-chan!’

he shouted and you didnt mind being twirled around since you were giggling and laughing

after iwa punched his head, oikawa had to let you down and they continued bickering so you took this chance to go over to the others by the side

‘are you all excited?’

you asked and they smiled softly

kunimi ruffled your hair and you grabbed his hand

‘it’s really sweet you planned something for us, y/n’

watari reached over to pat your head and you wholeheartedly accepted the affection

‘oi, just tell us’

kyotani grumbled but you cutely smiled and held a peace sign

‘nooo~~!’

you checked your watch and you jumped

‘oh my! we need to hurry on the bus now!’

you herded everyone to sit in their seats and oikawa raised an eyebrow at the driver

‘oh? why is-’

‘your dear manager wanted to have a bonding exercise for the team. how could we refuse? oh, coach irihata said to make sure you know how to breathe and calm down’

the last sentence made question marks appear on everyone’s heads but you waved it off

‘oh come on, mizoguchi-san! dont ruin the surprise!’

you whined from your seat and the elder caught your eye at the rearview

‘just making sure to warn them, especially oikawa’

‘me?’

but he went unanswered 

the team gave up trying to ask you bc you would just mischieviously smile and shake your head cutely

‘nope~! not tellingggg~!’

but oh my they were answered

mizoguchi dropped everyone off in front of a building where there was also other people at

owo the people just simply stared bc omg like 12 boys? thats freaking great and i have finally lived and can die peacefully now

the team blinked as they got off the shuttle bus and they were so confused that you waved mizoguchi off to make sure the boys wouldn’t run back to the bus if they figure it out

ofc our ever smart baby kunimi was the first to figure it out and his mouth opened

‘why,,, do you hate us, y/n-chan?’

slowly the light bulbs turned on in everyone’s heads and they all had the same shocked look

DKFLSJDKFJLDKFLJ LIKE IN OHSHC WHEN THEY FIGURED OUT HARUHI’S A GIRL OMG I MISS THAT SHOW

‘nope! im going home!’

kindaichi started to walk but you hurriedly grabbed his arm

‘nooo yuu-kun!!! noo!! please stay!! i worked so hard!!!’

you looked up with your puppy dog eyes and kindaichi scrunched his face up

no no no fight it kindaichi

but ofc hes weak to you so he sighed and went back with the group

‘oi, are you insane or what?’

kyotani, despite his tough facade, wasnt exactly the greatest with any jumpscares in movies so having a jumpscare in real life wouldn’t exaclty be,,,, not violent

but you trust he can handle it and leave the place without a charge for assault

it was clear the others were already regretting it and you got sad bc you did work hard on getting a reservation since this haunted house was the most haunted in this part of japan

your figure in front of them made them tear their eyes away from the scary windows which they swore had someone staring at them

‘come on, you guys! we’ll have fun! i promise! its not that scary!’

you assured but they still didnt look convinced

‘you know, i just,,, i wanted everyone to,, bond and,,, have fun,,,,,, and because halloween is my favorite holiday,, i thought i could share it with you all. but im sorry that i was selfish and,,,, did it even though you guys dont like it’

not at y/n being totally manipulative and using their affections and attraction to her to help her case

your downcast expression and sad eyes snapped them out of it and they just sucked it up and they all shared a look that practically meant

‘suck it up, and make sure y/n is having fun. forget about us, its her time right now’

this led to you guys standing in front of the door guy and he cracked up at the sight of this cute little girl bouncing in her shoes with a group of guys who looked pale and nauseous

‘reservation name?’

‘seijoh!’

you exclaimed and he looked in the list before nodding

‘okay. so first, the rope is what guides you all. make sure, whatever you do, never lose grip on it bc you might get lost. keep in mind, this is an actual abandoned hospital and is known to actually be haunted so unless you want to go ghost-hunting and meet unknown people or spirits, dont stray off’

that warning should’ve scared you like the boys but you just agreed with a bright grin

‘yep!’

the doorguy chuckled before reaching into the box beside him

ngl oikawa was already so scared that he flinched, not knowing what was inside of it

‘a flashlight to help you guide yourselves’

you held it tight and yahaba was already holding on to your jacket sleeve

‘also, phones in the bin, please’

‘hah?!’

iwaizumi started but you placed a hand on his chest

‘its to make sure no one films anything and ruins the surprise’

you assured and he stopped but continued glaring

everyone hesitantly placed their phones into the bin where they saw it being locked into a locker and the key was given to you

‘you can get it back when you exit so dont worry’

you nodded and the team rolled their eyes but nodded anyways

brats

‘all set? okay! go on in! happy hunting!’

omg you were slightly regretting it already

kyotani refused to not be away from you so he was holding your hand while yahaba remained clutching you

the third years wanted to appear all tough so they took the lead but oikawa was screeching and screaming at the littlest things which caused makki to scream and mattsun to also scream and then iwa and everyone else

it was like a screaming train

you even heard kyo gasp multiple times and you tightened your grip on his hand to assure him he was okay and you were right there

everything was going smoothly excused the screaming and everyone was actually having a little bit of fun since it was funny watching everyone scream at the littlest things

‘NOOO!!!!!!’

‘WAAAAHHHH!!!!!!’

the many rooms had the actors and dear god they should be emmy winning by how they just stared at you all and still sent shivers down your spines

then the unthinkable happened

the flashlight that iwaizumi was holding started to flicker and eventually died, leaving you all stranded in the pitch-dark

there wasnt even any light above you so everything was just black

everyone stopped, your breathing being paused and no one made a sound

‘RAAAA!’

someone from beside you shouted in your ear and you screamed so loudly and in instinct, everyone bolted forward with no direction on where to go

kunimi and kindaichi were holding each others hands and ran also dragging along watari since he was holding kunimi’s sleeve and also yahaba and you and kyo

‘IWA-CHAN!!!’

oikawa instinctively shouted and they all held on to each other

mattsun expected to catch ahold of watari’s hoodie since he was behind him but there was nothing but air

‘uh, you guys?’

he wished and prayed and hoped your voice would answer back but there was silence

‘oi! l/n y/n!’

he shouted and makki trembled in fear

‘iwaizumi? oikawa?’

‘h-huh!’

iwaizumi grunted and my goodness was this really happening

everything was going too smoothly that something bad happening shouldve been seen from the get-go!

the 4 third years were thankfully with each other since they were already huddled up at the front but their kouhais were nowhere near them

‘iwa-chan! what do we do!’

oikawa cried and iwaizumi hit him to keep him quiet

‘shut up shittykawa!’

‘oi! stop fighting and think about this!’

mattsun quieted them down into shaking forms

‘the team is gone. theyre somewhere in this hospital and there’s a chance theyve strayed off the path’

makki shakily breathed

‘so what should we do?’

iwaizumi bit his lip to think of a plan

‘should we just go around and shout and scream for them?’

oikawa suggested but makki turned it down

‘no. that would ruin it for everyone else. we’re not the only ones in here’

oikawa blanched

‘i dont care about the other people! who knows what happened to y/n! i give no fck about strangers when she could be lost somewhere in this big ass hospital!’

they were stumped with no solutions so they just agreed to iwa’s suggestion

‘lets just hurry and get this over with and meet the people outside and get their help’

‘or! we can ask the staff in here, the actors, to help us! this is an accident’

‘you stupid or dumb? you think they would help us? its an us problem, not theirs, so theyre not going to abandon their post and look for them’

ltr maybe its the panic thats making them all crazy but they just settledon hurrying up and finishing the maze so they could get help

but the moment they turned to what seems to be a corner, they already managed to get themselves lost

iwaizumi felt around for the familiar texture of the rope which is supposed to be at his right but in the end, his hand reached nothing

‘fck!’

he shouted and scared the other 3

‘WHAT?!’

makki yelled

‘the rope. the rope’s not here anymore’

silence

then oikawa sobbed

‘oh my god im going to die’

he whimpered and makki sniffled

‘i wanna go home’

mattsun and iwa were the only at least stable ones and they finally resigned to defeat and grabbed their friends and walked to nowhere

on to your side!!

you and the others finally stopped running but the beating of your hearts still pumped at a fast speed

‘are we safe now?!’

kindaichi shouted and there was a chorus of confusion amongst the others

‘iwa-san?’

you checked and usually he would grunt but there was just silence

it was quiet and the familiar voice of oikawa was nowhere in sight

‘i dont know about you guys but my oikawa sensors just shut off’

yahaba pointed out and you gasped

‘where are they?’

kyotani refused to let go so you felt around with your left hand for the rope

to your relief, it was still there but the feeling of the missing boys outweighed it and made your anxiety levels spike up

‘should we call them? lets call them’

yahaba started but kyotani bonked his head

‘baka. they took our phones earlier’

the reminder of the confiscated form of communication meant that there was no other way you could contact the others

panic bubbled over kindaichi watari and yahaba while you kunimi and kyotani were busy thinking of something

‘i think theyve strayed off. if they didn’t, they wouldve heard us from up there’

kunimi mumbled

‘but where else could they have gone to?’

you asked and kyotani huffed beside you

‘we cant see anything. hell, i cant even see you. obviously theres probably a hallway they ran down to without even knowing they went there’

‘so youre saying theyre lost? without any way to contact us? what do we do?’

you whimpered, finally realizing and the idea of the others being gone settling in

‘this is all my fault. i shouldnt have dragged you here. i made a mistake-’

‘hey, dont freak out. im right here’

even though you couldnt see him, kenta maneuvered his way to cup your face and you felt his forehead press against yours and his nose nuzzling your cheek

the smell of cherry blossoms and vanilla with the slightest hint of sandalwood

kyotani’s scent comforted you and you were able to calm down 

‘we’ll figure this out. its okay, you got me’

he whispered and you nodded 

‘youre right here. we’ll be okay, okay?’

you giggled a little bit at the repitition of the word but smiled when he pulled you close to his chest

ugh i mightve already written a kyo route but that doesnt stop me from putting in kyo moments :”)

the other 4 were figuring out a plan that was eerily similar to the 3rd years

‘lets just finish this and ask the staff for help later’

they all agreed to kunimi’s idea and hurriedly gripped the rope to start going back to the path

you were in between kindaichi and kyotani with the former in front and the latter behind you

‘im right here. you got this’

kyotani would occasionally whisper and you were so grateful to have someone to be there

then the lights flickered and your eyes caught sight of something down the hallway to your left and you noticed a shadow 

a shadow of a tall figure that was kinda familiar

‘y/n-chan~’

you flinched and the voice of your blocker filled your ears

‘mattsun-san?’

you were too focused on the voice to hear the others questions of what was happening

‘over here, y/n-chan~’

there it was again

‘mattsun-san!’

you shouted and bolted to the hallway where you were sure the voice was at and you were ignoring the shouts of the others and kyotani hurriedly ran after you

‘mattsun-san!’

you shouted again and you ended up at the hallway, with the lights still flickering but there was no one

kyotani panted as he caught up to you before snatching your hand

‘oi! dont run off like that!’

it seems the others were too scared to let go of the rope that they were fine if kyotani went after you bc he was strong so he could protect you both if needed

right?

kyotani is a bark bark woof woof boy not a priest

you felt his warm hand grip your again as if to signal that you werent running off alone again

‘i heard him i swea-’

‘to your left, y/n-chan~’

ok ngl im getting chills writing this

the flickering lights allowed you to see the shadow again and yep there it was

it was at the end of the hallway to your left and once you turned and saw it, it ran to the right

‘mattsun-san! wait!’

as you were going to run, kyotani refused to let you go

he placed strong hands to your shoulders and you looked up at him, your eyes manic

‘listen to me, y/n. youre hearing things’

he firmly said

‘i dont hear matsukawa or anyone’

you started breathing heavily, the air seemingly getting colder and thinner

‘you dont understand! he was right there! his shadow-!’

‘let her play a game, boy!’

matsukawa’s voice this time took a harsh tone and even kyotani jumped, holding you to his chest protectively

‘oi! matsukawa! its not funny anymore!’

your eyes looked over kyo’s shoulder and you saw the shadow again from behind him

‘please trust me, kyo! hm?’

you begged and he sighed

‘im holding on to you. im not letting you go again’

this wouldve been romantic if you werent in an actual paranormal story

you chased after the ghost and it would occasionally whisper in your ear to keep your attention until you ran into a pitch-black hallway

‘what do we do now, y/n?’

kyo whispered and you trembled

‘mattsun-san!’

you weakly cried, knowing there was a strong possibility he wouldnt answer back

but a loud screech from the far right brought hope into you

‘Y/N-CHAN!’

is that-

‘oikawa-san?!’

you shrieked and there was a trample of footsteps running over to you and naturally, kyotani pulled you behind him

then a hand made you shriek 

‘relax. its just me, y/n-chan’

mattsun’s voice sounded clearer this time since he was right beside you and you hugged him

‘come on. everyone hold hands so that no one will get lost. we’ll take about this later’

iwa commanded and as the true leader of the gang, everyone followed his lead

there was a red sign with the most amazing word on top of it

‘EXIT’

it looked like a door that was only meant for staff but at this point, you all were desperate to just leave

as you reached the handle, the voice came back

‘aw~ leaving so soon?’

you turned around, halting mattsun and kyotani as they held your hands and felt you stop

‘show yourself. i know you’re not mattsun-san so stop using his voice’

you demanded and you turned, feeling a chilly air rush behind you

‘boo~’

it whispered to your ear and you eyes widened at the sight from further down the hallway

you could make out a mass of a body and at the top, there was bright red eyes and white teeth smiling menacingly

‘oh my god’

you whispered and the boys saw exactly what you were seeing

‘what is that’

oikawa whimpered

its mouth obviously moved as it spoke

‘are you leaving me, y/n-chan? so cruel~’

its voice was sickly sweet and sounded like a teenage boy’s but was so mean and hate-filled

you started sobbing and oikawa turned the door to run but it stayed put and didnt budge

‘you were so fun to play with~ are your friends fun too~?’

it looked like it was coming closer with a hand outstretched and you started shivering and your voice ripped into a scream

‘stop! go away!’

iwa mustered all his strength and ran against the metal door but it opened on its own, leaving the boy to land on the grass from outside

you were pulled by the others before it could touch you and you were already hysterically crying before the first and second years ran over and engulfed you to a hug

you were being hushed by the them and you tightly held on to someone’s arms

‘sshhh its okay, we’re right here’

you reduced to hiccups before looking around

‘w-where’s the other people?’

you asked, taking notice of the empty field

‘are we at the back?’

the boys shared a confused look

‘huh? what are you talking about, y/n?’

you looked at yahaba like he was crazy

‘the other people! the other people wanting to go in! and the doorguy! the haunted event! the haunted house!’

their eyes flickered everywhere to try and make sense of what you were saying but in the end resulted to just pure confusion and fear

‘y/n, we’re not at some event’

iwa started and your eyes widened

‘w-what?’

makki shakingly placed a hand on your shoulder

‘y/n, you dragged us here to go ghost-hunting. and there’s no doorguy’

your eyes flickered down as your mind tried to wrap itself with what was going on

‘what do you mean? i took you here for a haunted attraction! the doorguy took our phones and locked them in a locker, remember?’

you wildly waved your arms around but they still didnt understand

‘and the flashlight! and the rope! w-we had to hold on to the rope! the rope made sure we didnt stray off the path! bu-but the flashlight! the flashlight died!’

kunimi noticed the beginning of a panic attack so he pulled you close to him and made sure you could feel his heartbeat

‘listen to me, y/n. you took us here because we all lost a bet with you and this was what you wanted since its halloween and we trespassed to go here and there was no doorguy who took our phones because all our phones died the moment we got here and we saw a rope hanging from the ceiling and we had no flashlight in the first place’

he whispered to your ear and you pushed away from him, curling your arms around yourself

‘no! what bet?! i took you here for bonding time for our volleyball team! you were getting busy for inter high so i figured this could help you have fun!’

now that took the cake

‘what volleyball team?’

your eyes finally settled on your ‘captain’

‘what do you mean, ‘what volleyball team’, oikawa-san?’

totally disregarding the fact that you just called him by his last name instead of his first, he focused on what you were talking about

‘if you wanted to bond with the volleyball team, then you brought the wrong sport team over then’

oikawa scoffed, feeling rage bubbling inside him at the familiar players of the volleyball team

‘you shouldve brought over nagisa and rin and them, then, y/n’

makki bitterly mumbled and you were just so exhausted and tired and confused

‘WHAT ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT’

you bursted and started crying which ofc prompted the others to calm down and focus on you

‘y/n, love, we’re the swimming team, not the little ball playing game’

mattsun reminded and you shook your head, disbelief and utter fear present in your face

‘then-then! oikawa-san! give me your right knee!’

you ran over and he questioningly raised his leg

‘uhh,, what are you doing, y/n?’

kunimi asked but you waved him off, determination in your eyes

‘this should prove hes a volleyball player’

then you punched it really hard which resulted with a sickening pop

oikawa screamed

a/n: idk if the concept is clear enough but uwu send in a guess and ill answer if you got it right

[lissalizzie]

AS I PROMISED

CHISHIYA X READER - A SOFT ONE ( +18 because of some words I used)

It is really cute I promise, listen to the song while you read... It will give you the vibe

Sorry for any mistakes

You were so tired of waiting...

When you first felt your heart beating faster for Chishiya after one of your first games your never imagined it would be so hard to deal with being in love with him.

The problem was... That guy seemed not to care about a thing... He didnt have friends, he didnt talk about any person in the real world... It was like he was born alone and that scared you as hell cause that made the job of getting to his heart kinda impossible...

It was a little dumb and silly to be worrying about a love in a world like that one... In a reality like that one...But you just couldn't help that... Everytime you saw him it was like you wanted so much to be his... Like you wanted him to saw you too but he never did.

And the days passed, the months passed. You weren't a girl, you were a woman... You didn't like playing more than you were already pushed to...

At some point it started to make you cry to see him because you wanted him to notice, at least, which he didnt seemed to... But that time you were wrong.

The thing was Chishiya was feeling something for the first time in his life, and he wasn't even recognizing it because it was a first time experience.

Seeing you was like another kind of pleasure, a sweeter one, some kind one soft sensation. It wasn't like when he won a game or a card... It was peaceful... Being with you didn't make his body felt like all the adrenaline in the world was in his veins... Is was like... Home... Like he didn't want to run, or hide, or plan anything, or talk... He just wanted to listen to you and watch you... Because you were such a great view for him.

Chishiya was used to paying attention on everything around him, and  of course that included you... But at some point your eyes started to be the focus... Because they were like a big, deep and beautiful ocean... And your lips...Do they supposed to shine like that while you talk? Chishiya always catched himself asking those questions.

He was confused, so he kept even quieter than he usually was...

But when he couldn't hide it anymore...He felt like something was exploding inside him. Maybe it was on your birthday when everyone tried so hard to make you happy but he just... didnt show up on that little party cause he was trying so hard to deny his feelings for you like a dumb guy would do... And then when he was coming back to his room late at night he heard you cry... And he knew it was you because he would recognize your voice even at hell after listening to you talking about everything for so long...

You were alone at your room, Kuina had left after talking to you for long hours trying to convince you that... You should only love people that are capable to value the intensity of that love... And she was so right and you were feeling so dumb.

When you saw his cold eyes in the room you almost felt like punching him in the face cause you were so angry. Not cause he didnt come to your birthday party, but because he was acting like a fucking teen and he was a man... How could he manage all those feelings about the games and could not deal with the fact that another person... Liked him? That made you feel like giving up so much, because what was the point of keeping a feeling for someone that made you cry more than made you happy ?

- You know... Looking at me like that wont help anything.

- Oh it will... It will help you to stay alive

Chishiya was smart, he was fast but one of the reasons he liked you back was... You was just as good as him... If not better.

- I didn't even know it was your birthday, y/n

- Don't you dare try playing dumb to me - You was so angry you felt like you were burning. You were so tired of suffering for someone else.

He breathed in and out as he was looking at the ground.

- Okay... I...

- No... This is not about you, there is nothing about you here, Chishiya. If you didn't want me you just had to say no and we would move on. You treated me like a child, you treated me like a girl that would follow you around like a psycho, you didnt respect me . ...because I can deal with anything but I will not accept a fucking man or anyone here looking down on me just because I'm in love... - You words were so heavy it was like anyone could actually touch them. It was clear it was not just because it was in love with him you were gonna give up on who you were or on your well being. - I fucking give up, okay? - You just threw your hands in the airs with sad eyes, you didnt want to but you also didn't see any hope on that cause he never really showed anything to you.

At that moment Chishiya felt that if he didnt make any move he would lost the one thing... He really felt that he wanted and it wasnt artificial and automatic...

We walked till your faces were really close and, for the first time, you saw an expression on his face... fear.

- I... Please, please dont leave, y/n

- Why? So you can still doing what you're doing? I'm not here for you to use me

- Can you just... Let me talk ? I... I'm afraid... Okay? I'm afraid, y/n. I never felt anything like that... I never was afraid to lose someone... I never... - He touched your hair, his eyes passing through the details of your face. - I never felt like my world was about anyone else other than me... And now it seems like it is... And I'm so afraid cause I feel vulnerable like I never did in my life... it's terrifying. - He confessed. - I'm not the kind of guy who talks... I'm not the kind of guy who knows how to... you know... expresses himself... This is me, y/n. But somehow I... Let's say... the thought of losing you on game is even more terrible as the one of... me dying on a game... And it's weird but when I think about something... You... - He closed his eyes... he wanted so much to talk but it was always so hard... like something was there trying to stop him.- Just dont leave... Because I am here waiting for you to come back everytime you leave... You matter to me... And I want to know how it is... To matter to someone else too... and to do it together. I'm sorry if I hurt you... I never meant to, and I'm sorry I acted like a jerk cause I really wasn't paying much attention on my behavior... You didn't deserve that... But please... If you could give me a chance... To show you I'm not about... what you saw

You were do shocked you couldn't even say a complete word. It didn't make any sense... Why was he being like that? It was so... dreamy it almost didn't feel like reality and that's what you were so afraid about.

- You know I'm not like those idiots you try to confuse, right ?

- Oh, for god's sake - He took your hands and  you both sat down on the bed. - If I was trying to confuse you I would be using your weak points... Like the fact you didnt had sex in like a year and you're physicall as hell... Or... I would be using that perfume you told Kuina you liked so you would be considerably distracted cause you already have feelings for me... Yes you should be more careful who you tell your secrets to, by the way... - He laughed - I wouldn't be showing you all my weaknesses if I wanted to do something to you, y/n

Well... You knew him enough to sense a little bit of sincerity there... And you felt like you could trust him... As risky as it sounded... But falling for him was already risky.

- So why are you telling me this ?

- Cause I can't take this alone anymore... And I really feel something about you... And it is good I guess... so...

You just smiled and, softly, you kissed him. He touched your face and... You thought it would never gonna happened but it was and it was just right.

[jennrypan]

I rewrote the part where Scourge and Sonic have that "Just like me convo" so it can fit my au of them.

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Fiona cheating on him with his anti didnt make Sonic angry..

Fiona actively lying to him didnt piss him off, maybe annoyed him..but it didnt piss him off.

What did piss him off however was how she antagonized Amy and Tails, and how she seemed to preen at the slightest attention Scourge gave her..because she wanted someone to protect her..someone to care about her, he didnt know..and what set him off was how she slapped Tails away, mocked him for crying and all to impress his anti! 

"What the hell Fiona!?" 

Sonic snapped, though this just caused the vixen to roll her eyes before she looked at him..god her attitude was grating his nerves,

"What?" She mused as if she didnt just slap his best friend for no reason,

That ..that made him scowl, and without warning he moved- he wanted to actually..throw her, her attitude annoyed him, her disregard for his friends pissed him off- he hadnt accounted for Scourge actually protecting her, as when he moved..so did the green hedgehog and before he could touch Fiona a fist crushed into his cheek causing him to let out a sharp grunt and lose his footing for a brief minute, instantly turning his attention towards Scourge..he still had that same sleazy smile..taunting. 

"Bad move, blue." 

Scourge drawled out, and Sonic just clicked his tongue watching as Scourge slowly paced around him..hes been itching to fight him for who knows how long..that much Sonic knew, but Sonic just hummed,

"Oh so you can help other people besides yourself, I was beginning to worry you had no redeeming qualities!" He stated sounding visibly amused, 

Scourge just scoffed lowly, "Please, thats not a redeemin quality, raise your standards." He sneered, and without warning he ran forward..and the fight began.

Amy had since charged at Fiona but Sonic could barely focus on that as Scourge kept matching him blow for blow..only thing was Scourge was a lot more violent..a lot more aggressive.

It wasnt everyday Sonic worked up a sweat fighting an opponent as not many people matched his speed..Shadow and Metal were the only ones..now Scourge had been added to that list of people that seem to want to kill him for no reason.

"Jeez its hard to believe someone so bitter could be me, like damn dude, did your favorite jacket get discontinued?" 

Even during this fight Sonic didnt stop being taunting, as he landed on top of a rock- narrowly avoiding being kicked into a tree, watching as Scourge turned towards him, his eyes were surprisingly still shielded by his shades but Sonic could still feel him glaring at him, 

Scourge moved again and this time he successfully swiped Sonics legs from underneath him and when Sonic fell the blue hedgehog instinctively moved to the side as Scourges fist came crashing into the floor were his head had previously been,

"Lets see you keep makin jokes when I break your fuckin legs." Scourge hissed- despite his words he sounded delighted by the thought, pleased with the thought of hurting him and hes use to this from Shadow and Metal, they were both assholes who worked with Eggman on their worst days and they just genuinely didnt like him that much but Scourge? Theyve only met three times before this and he didnt remember antagonizing the male enough to make him want to hurt him that much-

Scourge charged forward once more and Sonic quickly moved to the side, arm pulling back before he crashed his fist into the side of Scourges face as he had done to him earlier..knocking the shades from his face which caused his anti to pause briefly, glancing down at the shades for a millisecond as they landed on the floor, cracked and lopsided.

That millisecond was soon forgotten as Scourge retaliated..his body moved lower and his leg rose before he kicked Sonic straight in the chest causing the male to grunt, stumbling back at the force but the kick wasnt enough as Scourge had soon punched him in the stomach,

"God- I still got a few more jokes- first, those shades were lame anyways- not a joke but a fact!" 

Sonic stated quickly, jumping out of the way from Scourge once more as the male just growled,

"Im not takin shit from someone who thinks 'Way past cool' is a thing people actually say!" Scourge retorted, 

"Hey people said it before!" 

"No ones ever said that shit before!" 

It went on like this for what seemed like a few minutes with both of them arguing with each other, Sonic just wanted to see exactly why Scourge was going out of his way to hurt him- even trying to actually break his leg if he was given the chance..the rage was so weird..he knew antis were different but he didnt expect his anti to be so..angry,  so violent- his anti seemed more like a very verbal Shadow with the way he kept attacking him, 

"Ya know being an asshole isnt as rewarding as ya think it is right?" 

Sonic questioned- grunting when he got into a tree, thankfully avoiding Amy as she chased Fiona around still, she had tried to help but Fiona kept distracting her.

"Pfft, its more rewardin than wastin my time saving a buncha useless dicks who dont deserve it!" Scourge replied, sounding amused by the sheer thought of saving someone else...Sonic couldnt imagine not wanting to save people..yeah sometimes he thought some people didnt deserve it but still, 

"Youre still a Sonic! Still me- you should want to at least try and help people!"

"Why? Cuz thats what you do?" 

Scourge just laughed and without warning he moved forward..punched him in the stomach, then his chest- he didnt wait for a retaliation as he kicked him into a tree, he found with the purpose to bruise and scar while Sonic fought to distance and distract-

His head spun for a split moment, the wind knocked out of him, 

"You dont get it! Rulin people with fear and hate, is soo much better than tryna be some glorified saint!" 

Scourge stated, his eyes were blazing..the rage was back..he looked nothing like him right now..something was off, Sonic didn't like how unhinged he was,  how cruel- 

"That isnt true, and it never will be."

Sonic declared and Scourge just sneered at him, laughing, fist pulling back as Sonic quickly moved from his spot, his knuckles slammed into bark instead of Sonics nose,

"When you finally realize not everyone deserves to be saved, when you see how much more freein it is to be above people than to depend on them- you'll be like me, all it takes is one bad day, one bad situation and you'll see that." Scourge hummed out, side stepping as Sonic went to kick him, only to have his leg grabbed and he was forcefully thrown down, causing him to grunt lowly, and without warning Scourge stepped on his chest, Sonic could only stare at him for a brief moment before he just grinned- 

"Thats where your wrong dude, a bad day doesnt just make someone a villain..but a good day? A good day could change a lot, all it takes is someone showing you an ounce of kindness, someone showin you the love you never got and you'll be like me, a good person..maybe even a hero." He stated, grinning.

He expected another mocking laugh instantly, expecting Scourges foot to press down but for a brief minute..the green hedgehog paused, eyes widening ever so slightly, and for that minute Sonic was sure he got to him..he knew deep down Scourge wasnt evil, he could just show him he didnt have to be like this, he could help him..he didnt know anything about his anti besides the fact something was severely wrong with his mental state and he took too much enjoyment in hurting him but he knew he wasnt evil.

Then.. the green hedgehog just smiled, his expression hardening as if it hadnt changed in the first place, 

"How naive." 

He sneered and that slowly shattered Sonics hopes of getting through to him..he just dismissed his words-

"Not naive..hopeful." Sonic retorted, moving his arm to grab his ankle but his foot had moved towards his neck and Sonic jolted- the malice in his eyes was so..floundering..he could never imagine that look on his own face.

"Same thing." Scourge stated dismissively, and Sonic didnt get the chance to reply as a blur of yellow and brown crashed into Scourge, pushing the older teen to the ground successfully allowing Sonic to sit up instantly,

"Get away from him you bully!" Tails screamed, Sonic heard Scourge cursing and soon Tails was thrown back, causing Sonic to quickly move to catch him.

"Thanks bud." Sonic murmured, staring at Scourge who just fixed his jacket- appearing inconvenienced as Fiona neatly landing besides him as Amy ran up next to Sonic, "Stop running you coward!" The pink hedgehog hissed, Scourge just plucked out a warp ring from his jacket, just smiling at Sonic.. His smile was so..mean looking, it was too sharp..too fake,

"Til next time blue."  

Was all Scourge said in a sing song like voice as he let Fiona into the portal first and he followed quickly after just as Amy chucked her hammer in their direction, who she was aiming at specifically he had no clue.

"Dammit! Stupid! Assholes, ugh!" Amy screamed, storming over to snatch her hammer up,

"Theyre such bullies! Why did I even like her!" Tails exclaimed, Sonic just frowned before he sighed quietly, glancing from Amy to Tails. 

"Lets just go, theyre gone now, might as well enjoy the peace." He stated with a simple shrug, giving them a small smile, the smile made Amy visibly melt while it comforted Tails slightly, the young pink hedgehog was at his side instantly, clutching his arm- which he allowed for the time being while Tails was a little slower to approach him, still dejected.

He knew his anti despised him but he'll never get the reason why, and unfortunately..Scourge was too far gone to talk down from whatever path he was taking..the friendly route was no longer an option.