#hope everyone enjoyed the roller coaster XD

[tmwcs]

Myyy loveeeee, i just read the Heethan imagine withe period on the Bed. What would heethan do if we got a period stain in public? (It happend to me in 8the grade, i didnr go to school for 3 days cuse i was sooo embaressed XD)

Love youuuu❤️🫶🏼

“Sorry about that babe…”

Warnings: Some minor fluff, reader has her period unexpectedly, public humiliation, think that's it really.

Hope you guys enjoy this Drabble. Ngl I think this happens to the best of us, so my dear @lisaaannna, you aren’t alone in this.

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“Pretty baby! Are you ready?” 

“Coming down!” 

Responding to Heeseung’s call, you make your way down the stairs hastily, phone in hand, and a soft smile on your face to greet him with. “Sorry, babe.” 

“No worries, are you okay?” His voice published a sense of concern after noting that you took a bit longer in getting ready, yet you weren’t elaborately dressed or decorated. Donning a simple sundress with subtle low heeled sandals, you nod in reassurance as he receives you in front of the last step. Quietly, you inform him of the false arrival of your time of the month. “Yeah I’m fine, I had some minor cramping and figured it was…you know– but it ended up being a false alarm. It will probably hit later this week.” 

Raising his hand, he delicately cups your cheek and stares intently into your eyes. “You sure you feel okay going out today?” 

Eagerly, you nod once more as you give your answer, expressing an adorning look from his affectionate sense of concern. “Yes, I’m fine. I’m excited!” 

His eyes shift low as he gives a single nod with a faint smirk. Taking you by the hand, he kisses your forehead and leads you out the door. The group had planned well ahead of time for this day to come, the opening of a new theme park. Everything had been coordinated months ago, and the tickets had all been pre-bought to secure everyone’s attendance at the festive opening of the new resort. It wasn’t a day that you could possibly give up, not after waiting for so long, especially since you had been looking forward to going with Heeseung, considering you both had yet to attend such a fun-filled event. Though he displayed his usual reserved and stoic countenance, he was just as eager to take you out. Any moment where he found himself spending an entire day doing everything with you, became the highlight of his life. Even though he prefers to stay at home with you, he realizes that taking you out on recreational dates was something you desired and appreciated, and he was happy to oblige so long as you met his demands to remain by his side, never to stray off, and to not associate with anyone. All of which was non-negotiable of course, yet you didn’t mind. 

The drive was long, nearly three hours. You and the crew headed out first thing in the morning to avoid traffic, and just as planned, you all arrived at perfect timing. Parking wasn’t an issue, the lines were short, and everyone was able to dip into the food stands before the area became too crowded. Taking a map, H/Nl suggests starting at Harry Potter’s World, and migrating to all the other regions from there on. 

The clock strikes noon and everyone had already been having a blast. Exploring the mapped out regions, hopping on one ride after another, you and Heeseung partook on the park’s more thrilling rides. You swore, this man was not afraid of anything, for even the most intimidating roller coasters had barely caused him to blink an eye when reaching the peak of its enthralling feature. You couldn’t say the same for yourself since you had grabbed onto his arm and buried your face into his bicep at the start of every ride. Nevertheless, you both were having a great time. 

“Anyone else hungry?” One of the boys vocalizes, to which everyone agreed and opted to go back to the food stands to grab lunch. Finishing up, you guys went back into exploring the remainder of the themed regions in the park, walking from one area to the next. The resort became overbearing as more people started to show up, causing the park to become overcrowded. Still, everyone was determined to explore the rest of the area, and so, you all headed towards the next themed region. While walking, you held hands with Heeseung, often glancing over to take in the sight of him sipping on his rather large drink. You chuckled as he puckered his lips around the straw, and were about to ask him if he was having a good time when unexpectedly, you felt a familiar sense that leaked its way out and started to flow from in between your thighs. 

A sudden rush of warm liquid that dispensed all too quickly, and even though you came prepared with the necessities to contain it, there wasn’t a restroom station nearby for you to tend to the matter. It wouldn’t have made a difference anyhow, much to your despair, since the flow was constant and already dripping down your legs. In a sudden notion, you reached out and grabbed onto Heeseungs arm while your steps came to a halt. He was in mid step when he felt you abruptly grab onto his arm. Turning half way around, he notices the wide eyed stare you dispelled onto the ground, along with the quiet burst of short gasps that escaped your lips. Something was wrong, and he didn’t need to stare at your face long for him to see it. Just as he was about to ask, a crimson trail making its way down your leg catches his eye, in plain sight for the world to see. Moving the slightest bit didn’t help, the movement caused the blood to seep out faster, you were helplessly frozen and didn’t know what to do. 

A large group from behind walks in your direction, and you begin to dread the humiliation that was forthcoming once they take notice of the stains in your dress, and the bright red coating of your legs with the blood pooling in the heel of your sandals. If that wasn’t bad enough, the crew that you came along with turned around after noticing that you and Heeseung were behind, and began to retract their steps to see what was up. A string of individuals and couples pass by and take notice, already making whispering comments that drowns you in a whirlpool of embarrassment. Trapped in between the oncoming crowds, you closed your eyes as your lips began to quiver, when suddenly you felt a cold splash hit you. 

Gasping at the brusque sensation, you look around to find that you were covered from the waist down in red fluid, one that was not leaking out from in between your legs. The ends of your hair had become drenched from the splash, and you look up to see Heeseung standing before you with his cup in hand, completely emptied. The scent of a cherry flavored punch hits your nostrils, you stood confused and stunned upon realizing that he had poured his entire jumbo sized beverage all over you. “Sorry about that babe.” 

You uttered your soft whimpers, trying to formulate words but nothing came out. H/N and Jake arrive with the rest of the group behind them, all in shock at the sight of what looked to be a freak accident. 

“Oh my gosh! Y/N! Are you okay? What happened?” 

H/N assesses the damage, and takes note of the empty cup in Heeseung’s hand, with hints of the juicy residue decorating the rim and dripping on the sides of the container. The plastic lid and straw lay pitifully by your feet, and you remain in shock as you feel yourself bleeding out. 

“My fault, I spilled my drink on her by accident when she asked for a sip.” Heeseung nonchalantly tells the group as he tosses the cup into a nearby trash bin. “Let me take you home, yeah? We should get this off before it ruins your dress.” Taking you by the hand, he walks you to exit the theme park and leads you back to his car. Everyone looked and stared for a moment, remarking how there must have been an incident that resulted in someone obviously spilling their drink on you. Thanks to the red coloring of the juice, every one you had walked passed on your way to the exit wasn't able to notice the blood that continuously dripped from beneath your dress. Opening the door for you, Heeseung sits you down, not at all concerned about the juice–or the blood getting on the seats. “Don’t worry about that babe, that can be taken out.” 

As if he read your mind, he comforts you by expressing his lack of concern for the stain and instead looks at you, flaring a soft smirk. “Seatbelt, beautiful.” 

He gently shuts the door and walks around to the driver’s seat. Starting the car, he doesn’t say a word and acts completely neutral, leaving no hints of intention in explaining the reasoning behind his actions, even though by now it became obvious to you. With your eyes becoming shiny from the tears that were forming, you felt overwhelmed by his quick reaction in saving you from the humiliation that was knocking at your door. But it wasn't just his instinctive reaction, it was the careful and considerate measure of preparations that came along with it.

You had to hear him say it. You had to hear him tell you in his own words why he did it. Why he got cherry flavored punch in a large size, knowing full well that he didn't like fountain drinks because they were too sweet for his liking, especially flavors with red coloring because they contained the most sugar. Yet he had purchased it and took minimal sips as he carried it along, stating that he didn't mind holding onto it even though you offered to take it off his hands, especially when you felt how cold his skin had become from single handedly carrying it during the lengthy walk. You had to hear him tell you...because it was moments like this that reminded you why you fall for this man every day, despite suffering his abrasive sense of love and affection, all drafted by the heavy flaws of obsession, possessiveness.

“...Did…”

“Hmm?” he looks up, slightly raising a brow as he maintains that soft and gentle smirk. “Yes baby?”

“Did you…was that because…”

“What are you trying to say pretty?”

Looking at him with glistening eyes, a single tear escapes your ducts and travels down your cheek. 

“Oh you must be sad because I spilled my drink on you. I’m sorry about that, I had a moment of clumsiness.” Putting the car in reverse, he smoothly backs the car out of the parking space, and maintains his focus on the road as he switches back over to drive. “Tell you what kiddo…” 

Heading towards the main exit, he keeps his eyes on the road as he vocals out his resolve. 

“Why don’t I make it up to you by taking you home, and while you clean yourself up, I’ll get your favorite pastries and make you some tea, and we can sit in and watch some movies. Hmm?” 

You softly smiled as the downpour of tears took over your expression. You quietly mouthed out “thank you” and watched as he let out a faint chuckle while staring down at the steering wheel, waiting at a red light with an expression on his face that was most melancholy.

“For what? It was my fault that we had to leave early, the least I can do is spoil you for the rest of the evening…and tomorrow…maybe even for the next few days.” Looking back into your eyes, he nearly whispers as he raises a hand, and gently drags his finger up along your cheek, collecting the tear drop against his knuckle. “At least let me take care of you for a little while…to make up for my dumb mistake.”

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[psychosistr]

Worth It Chapter 15- Worth It in the End

Summary: Joseph wakes up alone and goes to find Caesar, leading to a much needed exchange of words.

Notes: Whoo! Final official chapter! There’s an edited out sex scene in this chapter, but I’ll link to that once I have it up on AO3. There’ll be an epilogue after this, but that’s just me being self-indulgent.

Edit: Here’s the full finale on AO3, enjoy :)

Joseph yawned and rubbed his eyes as he woke up. “Mornin’, Caesar…” When he didn’t receive a response Joseph sat up in the bed and opened his eyes, suddenly aware of how cold he felt with a distinct lack of body heat anywhere near him. “Caesar?” Seeing the empty bed around him froze Joseph’s blood instantly. Caesar was nowhere to be seen. Joseph quickly got out of bed and looked around for any signs of the blond, but all he saw was the barren chain on the floor. “Shit!” He swore at his own carelessness and rushed out of the bedroom.

His heart raced and he internally berated himself. ‘Damn it! Why didn’t I check the other one?! Why didn’t I chain his leg instead?! Why didn’t I get the lock replaced?! He’s gone now! He’s gone and could be anywhere! Did he take my car keys when he left?! I can track it if I need to, but I have to find-!’ He reached the living room and was about to go out the front door when he realized it was still locked. ‘Wait..why is it..?’

It was then that Joseph noticed a faint humming from somewhere in the house. His body moved on autopilot towards the sound, his brain not yet catching up to the situation. He soon found himself at the doorway to the kitchen. The light was on and the air smelled like hot coffee and fresh baked bread. He stepped through the doorway and there, standing by the oven, humming softly to himself while slicing up an apple was-

“Caesar…?” Joseph questioned aloud, his voice breathy and barely audible. His chest felt tight, he couldn’t believe what he was seeing- was too scared that he was just hallucinating.

“Hm?” His voice seemed to be just loud enough for Caesar to hear him. He looked up from his cutting board and saw Joseph standing by the doorway. Caesar smiled at him, a bright, genuine smile that Joseph had been longing to see for so long now. “Ah, buongiorno, Jojo.” He greeted Joseph easily, looking so natural and at ease as he set the knife down and walked over to him. “You’re up earlier than I thought you’d be. You were so dead to the world, I thought I wouldn’t see you ‘till at least noon!” He chuckled a little. “I hope you’re at least hungry- there’s biscuits in the warming drawer, and I’m working on some fruit sal…” He trailed off when he ended up right in front of Joseph, looking up at him with a confused frown. “Jojo? What’s wrong?” He reached up and touched Joseph’s face, brushing away some water there.

Joseph was crying. He knew he was, even if he couldn’t feel the tears on his own face. Reaching down, Joseph wound his arms around Caesar’s waist and held him close in a tight embrace. He buried his face in Caesar’s shoulder and choked back a sob as he all but clung to the smaller man. “I…I thought…I thought you’d left me…” He whispered, his voice shaking when his breath hitched.

Caesar stroked his back gently with one hand, bringing the other up to run his fingers through Joseph’s hair. He pressed tender, sweet kisses along Joseph’s head as he stated in a firm but caring voice. “Why would I leave? My home is here, with you.”

Joseph turned his head to look at Caesar out of the corner of his eye, sniffling a little. “You-You really mean it, Caesar?” He felt so hopeful at that moment, like he was waiting for the culmination of everything he wanted in life to come true all at once so he could let the emotional dam in him burst and be washed away by the happiness. If Caesar truly felt that way, then maybe he actually felt the way Joseph had hoped for all this time.

Caesar’s reply was a soft smile as he looked down to meet Joseph’s gaze. “Yes, Jojo, I mean it.” He pressed a kiss to Joseph’s cheek. “I’m staying right here with you, caro mio- I’m not going anywhere. Ever.” Joseph saw only pure honesty and joy in Caesar’s beautiful eyes. He had meant every word he just said.

“Caesar…” Joseph held Caesar against himself and lifted his head back up to kiss all along his face. “Thank you. You-You have no idea what that means to me. I promise, I’ll work hard to make you happy here the rest of your life!” He pressed his forehead to Caesar’s and closed his eyes as he smiled contently. “I love you, Caesar. I love you so much.”

“I love you too.” The reply was unexpected, to say the least. Joseph’s heart stopped for what felt like a full minute (in reality it was only a second) as his brain tried to absorb those words properly. Had he really heard that, or was it just wishful thinking?

He opened his eyes, looking at Caesar with what must have surely been shock on his face. “What….What did you just say, Caesar….?”

Caesar simply continued to smile up at him with that same look in his eyes as he brought one hand around from the back of Joseph’s head to cup his cheek. “I said I ‘love you too’, Jojo.” He kissed the corner of Joseph’s mouth and Joseph could feel the smile against his skin. Caesar whispered softly against his lips, looking Joseph dead in the eyes as he spoke. “I love you, Joseph. I love you and I want to be with you forever.”

That did it: The dam had officially burst.

“Cae…sar…” Joseph’s voice trembled around Caesar’s name, but it was all he could get out before he was surging forward to claim Caesar’s lips in a hungry, passionate kiss. “Mhh! <3” His tongue breached Caesar’s mouth easily, earning muffled moans from his lover as he eagerly explored and claimed his mouth. He pulled back a little, just far enough to pant against Caesar’s now kiss-swollen lips. “Say it again! Please, Caesar!”

Caesar gazed up at him with a coy smirk, amusement clear in his eyes as he looped his arm around Joseph’s neck. “Well, I suppose I owe you for all the times you’ve already said it..” He leaned close to Joseph’s ear and kissed the shell of it before saying softly. “I love you, Jojo~<3”

Joseph felt heat lighting up every nerve in his body while a shiver simultaneously ran down his spine from Caesar’s words. “O-Oh my god, Caesar..” He moved his hands to Caesar’s lower back and lifted him up, Caesar reflexively wrapping his legs around Joseph’s waist and bringing his other arm up to wrap around Joseph’s neck too. Joseph’s chest rumbled with something akin to a growl as he began biting and kissing at Caesar’s neck, earning plenty of gasps and moans from the blond in his arms. “Mhhh…keep saying it, Caesar- and don’t stop any time soon~<3”

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“Caaeesaaaarrrr~” Joseph said in a sing-song voice as he cuddled closer with one arm around Caesar on the bed, the blond laying on top of him while idly playing with Joseph’s hair as they just basked in the warmth and contentment of the moment. “Say it again~ Pleeeeeaaaseeee? <3” He said in the same tone of voice, leaning into Caesar’s soothing touch on his head.

Caesar sighed in feigned annoyance, but the amused smile and soft look in his eyes gave him away easily. “Fine- I suppose I did say I had some catching up to do.” He kissed Joseph’s forehead before smiling down at him. “Ti amo, Jojo.”

Joseph’s grin was practically ear to ear as he pressed a kiss to Caesar’s cheek in turn. “Again?”

Caesar rolled his eyes, but the smile never faded. “How many times are you going to make me say it, Joseph?”

“As many times as I can get away with!” Joseph proudly declared before holding up his hands to do some quick calculations. “You said you wanted to catch up to me, and I’ve said ‘I love you’ at least three to five times a day MINIMUM every day since we moved in! That means you owe meeeeee…” He did the math in his head before smirking up at Caesar. “At least 1,020 more ‘I love you’s/‘ti amo’s. And that’s me going easy on you!” He winked at the end of his statement, still smirking teasingly up at his lover (he could finally call him that out loud now!).

Caesar chuckled and shook his head. “I do love you, Jojo.” He mussed Joseph’s hair playfully. “But I hope you don’t expect me to meet that quota in one day. I don’t want to lose my voice.”

Joseph let out a long sigh, pouting up at Caesar. “Aw, fine, you don’t have to say ALL of it today…” He wrapped both arms around his blond lover’s waist and smiled brightly up at him. “I’ll be generous and let you spread it out till you’re caught up- sound fair?”

Caesar’s smile matched Joseph’s own as he gave him a peck on the lips. “Hm, I suppose that’s fair…is what I would say if I didn’t know you so well and knew there would be a catch.”

Joseph chuckled and kissed Caesar back briefly. “What? Would I REALLY do that to YOU, Caesarino?” At the deadpan look from Caesar, Joseph just laughed more. “Aw, c’mon!” After his laughter calmed down, Joseph grinned at Caesar. “I’m serious about you paying me back- you can take as long as you want! Of course…” His grin turned into a smirk. “I’m not going to stop saying I love you every day, so that debt will just keep growing. Soooo, I guess you’ll just have to spend the rest of our lives paying me back~<3”

Caesar flicked two fingers against Joseph’s shoulder. “I knew something like that was coming. Also, what kind of half-assed proposal was that?” Though he tried to look annoyed, there was the slightest blush across his cheeks that highlighted his birthmarks adorably.

Joseph couldn’t resist how cute that looked and pressed several kisses to Caesar’s cheeks before pulling back to smile at him again. “It’s not like I haven’t said it before tons of times: I finally have you and I don’t plan on letting you go. Ever.” He brought one of his hands up to cup Caesar’s warm cheek as he gazed into his eyes. “I love you, Caesar. I’m going to spend the rest of my life with you- if you’ll have me, that is. And if you don’t feel like you’re ready yet, then I can wait my entire life till you are. I don’t want anyone else but you, Caesar.”

Caesar gazed back into his eyes and placed his hand over Joseph’s on his cheek. “I don’t want anyone else, either, Jojo. No one out there could ever love me anywhere near as much as you do, I know that now.” He closed his eyes and squeezed Joseph’s hand. “I’ll gladly be yours and you can be all mine in return. That’s all I want for the rest of my life.”

Joseph felt his heart swell with emotion at Caesar’s open and honest words. He had just the thing for this moment! He rolled over, keeping one arm wrapped around Caesar’s waist to hold him close, until they were laying on Joseph’s side of the bed. At the confused look Caesar gave him, Joseph just grinned more. “Close your eyes- I have a surprise for you!” Caesar reluctantly did as he was told, apparently curious what Joseph was up to. Joseph placed a kiss just above one of Caesar’s eyes before leaning over to his nightstand and rummaging around in the drawer before finding what he had been looking for. He opened a small box and grabbed Caesar’s left hand, carefully sliding something onto one of his fingers and then his own before sitting up with an excited smile. “Okay, you can look now!”

Caesar opened his eyes and held up his hand to inspect what Joseph had done. He gasped softly, a look of surprise and awe coming over his face at what he saw on his left ring finger: A gorgeous golden men’s wedding band with wide stripes of peridot running vertically down the front. Together, the colors resembled Joseph’s favorite striped scarf that he wore in almost every season possible. Joseph proudly held up his own hand to display the ring on his own finger:  A matching band in more of an orange-tinted gold with triangles of purple tanzanite lining the bottom to create a triangle pattern with the metal. The color and pattern strongly resembled Caesar’s headband that he often wore when he went out.

Caesar gazed at the rings before looking back up at Joseph. His cheeks were slightly flushed and he looked awe-struck. “Joseph..you..”

Joseph just smiled, pleased to have left his normally articulate lover speechless for a change. “I had these custom made a while ago. Figured I’d hold onto them and pull ‘em out when you were finally ready.” He gently held Caesar’s left hand with his own and laced their fingers together, the two rings pressing together perfectly. He looked down at them as he spoke. “I came up with the designs and thought ‘hey, this way we can wear each other’s colors and make it obvious to everyone we’re together’. Also, I think it’s kinda nice, y’know? It’s like we’ve each got a piece of the other with us, even if we have to be apart.” He looked back up to meet Caesar’s gaze. “So, what do you think? Do you like it?”

Caesar stared down at their entwined fingers for a while before a soft smile spread across his face. “…..” He surprised Joseph by pulling him down onto the bed next to him by their joined hands. After Joseph adjusted himself to lie on his side and look at Caesar in confusion, Caesar just smiled more and moved closer so he could wrap his arms around Joseph’s neck and kiss him. The kiss was slow but passionate, communicating so many emotions through the careful movements of their lips that Joseph felt a bit breathless by the time it was all over. Caesar was the one to break the kiss just as suddenly as he started it, moving back just enough so Joseph could see his smiling face again. “I love it.” He stated simply, letting his left hand rest over Joseph’s cheek. “I love it and I love you so much, Joseph. Promise you’ll never leave me?”

Joseph smiled back at the love of his life and placed his own hand over Caesar’s to squeeze it gently, never breaking eye contact with him as he spoke. “I’ll never leave you, Caesar. I love you. You’re all I’ve ever wanted and I won’t let anyone ever take you away from me- anyone who tries WILL die.” He felt that possessiveness tugging at his heart, making the last of his words sound almost like a growl from a beast.

Caesar’s smile shifted into a coy smirk. He lightly glided his fingertips from his free hand up along Joseph’s arm to his collar bone and back down as he spoke. The action and Caesar’s seductive tone of voice made goosebumps rise on Joseph’s skin “You know…it’s kind of hot when you talk like that. It makes me want to hear more about what you’d do..maybe even see you do it..perhaps even..participate a bit myself..if you’d be interested?”

Joseph’s own smile turned predatory as he snaked his free arm around Caesar’s waist and held him close. “Oh my GOD, you are PERFECT! How did I get so lucky to have someone like you?~<3”

Caesar chuckled and hooked a leg around Joseph’s hip, clearly ready for yet another round. “You drugged my coffee and chained me to your bed, if I remember correctly.”

Joseph chuckled too, bringing his hand down to squeeze Caesar’s ass teasingly. “Well, I guess you’ll just have to chain me to the bed to make up for it sometime, eh, Caesarino?”

Caesar’s response was a lick of his lips before he captured Joseph’s mouth in a much more fierce and wild kiss than before. Joseph eagerly reciprocated the kiss and silently thanked anything in the universe that was listening for his current happiness. It had been an emotional rollercoaster for both of them to get to this point, but, all of the blood (of others), sweat, and tears had been worth it in the end. His hard work had finally paid off and won him the heart of his beautiful, precious, beloved Caesar.

‘Yes,’ He thought as he embraced and made out with his sweet fiancé. ‘I knew it would all be worth it in the end. After all, it WAS for Caesar- and Caesar will ALWAYS be worth it.’

<-Previous Chapter Epilogue->

-From the Beginning-

[nilotheberryboy]

Oh wow a choice, I am bad at these but I will try my best, a lore question sounds good, and I'm not too sure what else to ask for so I'll go with that. But what specifically to ask? Hmm.. how about, maybe what four is doing by the time the squidbeak notice their fellow agent is missing? If that's too big a lore question maybe instead what is four thinking during the point they find out? Like main thought process, in the part we're seeing I think it might be something like "I need to keep going to find the others, and then this can get fixed" or something like that, I hope that's good I am very bad at this and I hope I didn't overcomplicate all the words I have a tendency to do that

oh don't worry about it, and that's a very good question, let me answer it in the most confusing way :D

let's remember the timeline, 4 coming to Alterna is way before the incorporation of the new agents, the SBS is investigating all the furry stuff around, and so is 4, just, in another server xD

now for the weird part

oh boy did I hate the rotation of weapons in salmon run, like, Grizz, my guy, after all those power eggs and money(whatever currency you have) you can give more options for weapons, come you and get in front of 20+ salmons with all those light bugs going around you, you wouldn't see another day. Also another thing, I'm the only one who did a salmon run during splatfest? It's pretty anti-climatic to do so, everyone is putting their hearts out in the party, and you are just like, getting killed over and over again, I mean, when more than two Big Shots appear that can count as a party itself xD, everyone is jumping right and left and everything is an emotional roller coaster. I always have those moments of giving up when I just shot at the sky and let myself get splatted by whatever salmonid is the nearest

Anyway, I hope you enjoyed your win, win! Don't forget to like and subscribe for more-

*Nilo passed out, it's 1:35, he had too many grapes*

[jippy-kandi]

Digimon Adventure: 2020 – Episode 41: Mon-Mon Park In The Fog (Review)

Thoughts on the forty-first episode of the Digimon Adventure reboot series.

I got back on schedule! Yay. And I loved this episode a lot! To everyone’s surprise. :D

Wow, narration, SPOILERS! :P

Gomamon is way too good for Jou. XD;

Yamato and Takeru go looking for food . . . I really think the writers of this series simply cannot handle more than two characters at once for more than two minutes. XD

Opossummon is voiced by the same voice actress for reboot Sora and LOL, her giggle is so creepy. XD; Good job!

OMG CHIBI YAMATO AND TAKERU FLASHBACKS! They are so cute it hurts. ;_;

Takeru: “We didn’t go into the haunted house because Big Brother said he was scared.” Gabumon: “What? Is that true, Yamato?!” Yamato: “Whatever! Takeru was crying because he was scared of the roller-coaster too!” Patamon: “Is that true, Takeru?” Takeru: “Oh, was I?” Yamato: “Yeah, you were!” *Pause.* *Everyone breaks out into laughter.* OMG THESE BROTHERS ARE SO PRECIOUS. I need more moments like this, please. <3 The reboot also “stole” another thing from tri. for Yamato! He’s scared of ghosts here, too. XD;

Takeru dragging Yamato by hand to the merry-go-round is so freaking cute! I feel like this episode will be cuteness overload. I’m totally OK with that!

MORE BABY FLASHBACKS! I don’t get why Yamato didn’t want to ride the merry-go-round with Takeru, though? Was he scared? Or embarrassed? I think embarrassed is more likely . . . but hey, he could be scared of fake horses too, lol.

Also, WHY ARE NATSUKO AND HIROAKI’S HEADS CUT OFF? I want to see the sexiest parents alive! :( (I know, I know, of course - because Toei doesn’t want to develop them/the children’s family backgrounds . . . SIGH. Such a shame. I’d prefer to get to know the Takaishida parents over Yuuko Yagami!)

Awww, Xiaomon is a cutie. <3

Gabumon: “So you [Opossummon] were a bad Digimon after all!” Yes, Gabumon, please take note - any villain who says they’re not bad . . . is bad. :P

I still don’t understand why Toei chose to cheap out on the evolutions of six out of eight of the kids . . . why would you do it just for Taichi and Yamato? Surely you would sell more toys of the others by giving them proper evolution sequences as well . . .?

Garurumon: “So this is the haunted house you two were talking about earlier.” Yamato: “Who would’ve thought I’d have to enter one like this?” LMAO the way he delivered that line was PERFECT. He earns his money. :P

OMG the voices of Balloon!Takeru were so creepy. I love it! XD;

I can’t believe Takeru just went into Warumonzaemon! THAT’S SO GROSS! XD; And this kid continues to be way too brave. :P

There is an entire theme park inside Warumonzaemon, lol. And so many cute Digimon are being forced to ride the rides endlessly! Puroromon especially is so cute. Awww!

OMG the Takaishida flashback where Yamato promised Takeru they’d ride the merry-go-round together “next time” . . . it’s super cute! But also LOL at Yamato’s “little kid” voice, hahaha.

ANGEMON! I wasn’t spoiled about this at the start of the episode at all, Toei, well done! :PPP

OMFG CAN SOMEONE PLEASE FIRE ANGEMON’S VOICE ACTOR? It’s so awful. X_x

The cute tiny Digimon randomly blowing bubbles was pretty cute? lol

Yamato: “Now, let’s continue our search for food.” Oh, right, I almost forgot this was the reason for their “convenient” detour into conflict. XD;

Another pretty basic episode, but it was filled with great character moments plus I’m Yamato biased so I loved it! The Takaishida brothers continue to be the best siblings in the show. I loved all their brotherly moments this episode and enjoyed seeing their flashbacks. If only their parents were fleshed out, too . . .

I don’t know why Toei is making better episodes now? It’s a little too late to turn the series around! But hey, it’s very welcome! I much prefer these last several character-specific episodes and not the endless action that was The Taichi Show. I hope it continues!

[bluemoonbeam15]

Do you ever wonder how Flik and Atta made up after the rebellion night, and how they admitted their feelings for the other? Cause I’d like to see how your picture that scene. :O

I've thought about it quite a bit. Honestly, the way Flik and Atta's dynamic work prior to that night is something that could easily be torn down once the confessions came into play on Atta's part.

I need to stop trying to explain things and just write XD I can usually get my point across through story-telling better than analysis anyhow

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Flik struggled to gather his bearings. Once the screams had finally muted, everything came rushing to him at once. He had forced himself to keep a strong composure while Hopper aimed to strangle him to death. Now that the danger was gone, his mind was running rampant on trying to process everything.

He barely noticed the hand on his shoulder until she spoke, "Are you okay? I can't believe you did that." Atta seemed stunned as she regarded his bruises. "You could have died."

Something about the way she spoke made Flik furrow his brow, "Yeah, I know...b-but it was the only way...to save the colony." He gave a mirthless laugh while trying to rub the tremors out of his hands, "You'd do the same thing."

Her antennae twitched, but the details were blurred from the adrenaline coursing through him. She didn't respond to his comment, though, which was something he managed to take note of. "Are you alright?"

She smiled small before it faltered, "Yeah, I'm fine. You shouldn't worry about me, though. Look at you! You've got bruises all over you!"

He didn't reply right away. It was hard enough already to even his breathing. Images kept replaying in his head while still trying to come to terms with what transpired. One image lingered a second longer than the others.

"Thank you."

Atta gave him a quizzical look, "For what?"

"You came back for me," Flik met her gaze, "if it weren't for you, Hopper would've flown off to God knows where with me. You saved my life...so, thank you. A-And before that, too, when you stood up to Hopper. Thank you for that." He gave a small laugh and looked away shyly, "I have a lot of things to thank you for."

She pulled her hand away and stared down at her lap. "You're the one I should be thanking. We never would've made it this far without you. Actually...we'd still be serving the grasshoppers if it weren't for you."

"Well, you put a lot of faith in me to go find help. I don't think you understand how much that encouraged me, Princess."

Atta bit her lip, not able to meet his gaze. The rain was still coming down hard and the bird was still a threat to take into consideration. "We should head back to the colony."

He watched her stand, puzzled. The princess lifted him by the arm and draped it around her shoulders. Flik desperately wanted to say something. Anything to make sure he hadn't said something wrong. But Atta had closed herself off now if her expression was anything to go by.

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They sat in silence in the infirmary. Dr. Flora was too busy tending to Flik's wounds to notice the tense atmosphere in the dugout. The two had barely spoken to each other since leaving the bird's nest. Luckily for them, the Circus Bugs had continued their pursuit once they got themselves unstuck and with Slim in tow again. It made getting back to the Island much easier since Atta didn't have to carry Flik.

"I'll have to get some more comfrey root from storage," she patted Flik's shoulder before hurrying out. "Keep that foot elevated!" she called behind her.

He laid back on the rock. Why wasn't Atta talking to him? Did he do something wrong? Was she hurt? That raindrop hit them pretty hard--

"I'm sorry," came her meek response.

Flik blinked over at her. She kept her head bowed, the crown laid beside her. He didn't know what to say, so he remained silent in hopes that she'd elaborate on her apology.

Eventually, she spoke up again, "I'm sorry I lied to you...I didn't send you off because I had faith in you. I...I did it to keep you from making things worse around the Island." She squeezed her eyes shut, "I'm sorry."

It would be an understatement to say that hurt. And for a moment he couldn't wrap his head around it. Out of everything that had transpired, finding out his endeavor had been supported by ill-will was devastating.

Flik struggled to speak, "You...you didn't have any faith in me at all? Not even a little?"

A few heartbeats went by... "I'm sorry," she repeated as tears streaked down.

To his surprise, the devastation morphed into a small flame. "So...what? My idea...my...m-my bravery--I actually stood up to Hopper, Princess. I-I risked my life for this colony and you're telling me that throughout all of that not a single one of you had faith in me?"

"Flik--"

"No, Princess, please, let me be heard for once," Flik wished he had the strength to pace and get his thoughts together. "I finally did something right for once in my life," his voice caught in his throat. "A-And now...do you still not have faith in me? Am I still nothing but a screw-up to you?"

"Flik, you've done something amazing--"

"Oh, so that's how this works, now," he was scaring himself by how much heat was building inside him. This entire night had been nothing short of a roller coaster that he just wanted to get off of. "As long as I keep proving that I'm not a piece of dirt, you'll appreciate me. I...I-I'm only worth as much as I can do." He gave a mirthless laugh, "I guess Hopper was onto something...I'm lower than dirt."

Atta finally walked over to him, "Flik, please, that's not what I'm saying. You...you saved this colony! We're all proud of you! You...you..." she was at a loss for words.

Flik gave her a knowing look, "I proved you wrong," he supplied. "Maybe I'm just overthinking, but I don't feel very heroic knowing that even my success was a mistake. For the first time, I felt like I was a part of something when making that bird. Everyone accepted me. And none of you were even expecting me to come back to the Island.

"What if I had died, Princess? Out finding the Circus Bugs? None of you could've cared less. The Queen even said it was a suicide mission and you barely hesitated to send me out there. I thought you had that much faith in my capabilities." He scoffed and looked away from her, "I was an idiot to think you actually trusted me."

Dr. Flora came back into the room, slowing as she took in their expressions. "Do I need to step out?" she backed up a step.

Atta looked a Flik a moment longer before standing, "No, I have to make sure everyone's alright." Without another word, she left the infirmary.

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Okay, so I'm gonna write a part 2 to this since there's just a lot XD

For something like this, I really can't see them having instant forgiveness. Flik poured his heart and soul out to the colony and is finding out that the same people he fought for didn't even believe he could do it.

So, I'll write a second part that (might) have the love confessions. If not, then be ready for a series XD

Thank you so much for the amazing prompt! And I hope you enjoyed this part and the ones to come!

[kitkatopinions]

I saw that you said that you don't care about winter in one of your posts, may I ask why? O.o This isn't confrontational or anything, I'm just genuinely curious since her character is generally well liked as far as I've seen (maybe I'm biased since her and whitley are the only two characters that I care if anything happened to them lol)

My experience with Winter has been... A bit of a roller coaster. XD

When she first showed up, I had very little to go off of, as she only had a couple of scenes, but tbh, I didn’t like her because of how she acted towards Weiss. I saw the two of them interacting and I thought “Ohhh, Weiss makes more sense now.” Like, I knew that Weiss had a terrible home life mostly because of her father, but watching Winter’s ‘tough love’ approach, insulting Weiss, hitting her... They had some softer moments too, admittedly, but it just wasn’t enough for me to think of her as a good sister. She only had a couple scenes of like two episodes, then outside of one trailer (which didn’t reflect well on Winter in my opinion) she was gone for three other seasons. There were only a couple of mentions after that, including Weiss’s devotion to her, but also including the nugget of information that Whitley never liked her (according to Weiss.) I totally admit that part of my early dislike towards Winter had to do with me ‘filling in the gaps’ myself lol. I’d figured that Winter was at least a decade older than Weiss (who I had thought started the show at sixteen XD) and when I wrote my own fan fictions and Whitley was involved, I wrote in that Winter had spent a lot of time with Weiss and training her but hadn’t ever paid much attention to Whitley and that was partially because of Jacques, but partially because he’d never gotten a semblance.

In volume seven, however, I really liked Winter’s interactions with Weiss and Penny, I really enjoyed seeing her as Ironwood’s right hand woman in action, and I just... Actually liked her, and I was surprised about it, but yeah. In my experience, when a minor character that I dislike gets brought back in media, either I start liking them so much more, or I start hating them so much more. XD Winter was the former. Of course, she still hadn’t expressed much care towards Whitley, but I was mostly happy with Winter. Then the mess with season eight happened.

Her standing by Ironwood seemed good, her becoming the head of the Ace Ops was a choice I didn’t like, she was caught up in the whole ‘Ren reading everyone’s emotions,’ which was stupid as hell, and I guessed right then that she and Marrow would both defect, and then they’d both be easily accepted into the group, and everyone would forget the fact that Winter had been the one to first suggest martial law before the stakes had got overblown, and she and Ironwood would have some face off... What I wasn’t anticipating was them making it seem like Ironwood had just been manipulating her and that she was a victim of his mistreatment. Winter having broken away from her abusive father, joining a profession she wanted, deciding for herself that she was willing to take the Maiden powers, choosing her own path, being determined to blow up the whale even if there were people still inside of it because it’d save the most people and she believed in that... That was interesting to me.

Now they’re reducing her relationship with Ironwood to him being manipulative and controlling, having her seem less responsible for her own choices, having her be just another person on Team RWBY’s side that can act morally superior, having her act completely lacking in sympathy or understanding to Ironwood... None of that is interesting to me. It makes Winter feel less real, it makes her feel like she’s just another plot point. Honestly, it’s the unfortunate timing, I think.

She’d been frustrating for me in volume three and I didn’t really like her based on her interactions with Weiss. She’d started getting more interesting and likable in volume seven. But volume eight is my least favorite volume as far as the writing goes, and Winter really suffered for it, as well as it tainting the good things about Winter in volume seven. Unfortunately, unlike the main characters who arguably all annoyed me way more (with the exception of Oz,) Winter didn’t have much good previously for me to focus on or hope there’s more of later. The things that made me interested about Winter’s character don’t interest me anymore. I no longer dislike her like I did before volume seven, but I just don’t personally... Care about what happens to her after this volume.

In the words of Taylor Swift: “It isn’t love, it isn’t hate, it’s just indifference.”

[birdsong-warriors]

as someone who has watched you post redtails choice since the beginning i just want to say it was fantastic and im so proud of you for finishing it. i got literal chills from the last two pages it was amazing 💓

💚💚💚🐦

It's been a bit of a roller coaster. I need to go back and reread the whole thing, but I also don't want to because I'll see so many mistakes. XD I'm so so honored people actually liked it, though, my main thought through the whole thing was just "this is so stupid", so I was pleasantly surprised at the overwhelmingly positive response. ;v; I can't wait to move onto the next adventure with everyone!

(Speaking of, all the pages of the epilogue are sketched, it comes to a total of fifteen pages! I realized if I treat it like an actual end of Redtail's Choice, it'll come to over 250 pages, so I'm doing it in full color, lol! I hope people will enjoy it. ^^)

[hanamuranobuyuki]

About the Theater fic

Today I thought it would be nice to give people some background information about the theater fic I recently published, which I affectionately called the “My dream fic, but Jiroshi flavored” while writing it. For those interested in reading this background to this fic, you can read it after the line break^^

A short summary of the theater fic, which I titled An Outrageous Circumstance: Jyushi accepts a bandmate’s offer to go to a university to attend a free lecture on the immersive world of cinema. The reason is because he gets to see one of the bands his former band director worked with before he had passed away. While that short reunion made it worthwhile, the actual lecture was not when all who had attended somehow got trapped underneath the university in this strange theater-looking structure. Add Jiro and romance to fill in the holes I had from my dream, and that’s basically it?

For those interested in reading the fic, you can read it here. Hope you enjoy!

So first off, people will probably think this when they read the beginning of this.

1. Amanda is human?!

And my answer will be yes for this fic. I said that this fic was based off a dream that I had, and in said dream I had some sort of friend. Because I was just putting Jyushi in my position, I gave him a human companion, his closest friend. They were crafted to be about the same age Jyushi is, with similar styles of clothing and makeup. And of course, the complete opposite of Jyushi when it comes to socializing with people. They took over and did things that Jyushi couldn’t, but not sheltering him all the time when they know something fruitful and important will happen.

2. Jyushi’s past with symphonic band?

The reason for this is because, again... I put Jyushi in my shoes. Like Jyushi, I was a flute player who did band for all of my high school career. However, I kinda just left the band and music making sphere entirely when I moved on to higher education. Sometimes I do think about playing the flute again for old memory’s sake. But I haven’t really made an attempt to do it. Instead I end up getting these vivid dreams about my former band director, who passed away a few years ago. I thought I wouldn’t be able to fully visualize this without adding this important aspect from my dream...

3. Why a roller coaster?

Answer: I have no excuse. Because this was a fic interpretation of my dream I tried to maintain as many details from this as possible, which meant adding what I could remember. Which meant... adding an indoor roller coaster? That (seems to be) the only entry point to the underground facility, but as you can tell, even I’m confused as to the roller coaster’s existence lol... I’m sorry XD

From here, I tried to make it as fluid as possible I guess I’d say. Without many strange details and whatnot. I didn’t know just how long I could drag this out, when all I had on hand was one Jiro on his rebellious phase, being gloomy and fighting with Ichiro, and one vivid detail of holding Jiro’s hand. And to think I didn’t even add the rebellious phase Jiro XD I figured Jyushi’s problems were enough to put into this. And because this was mostly in Jyushi’s general point of view, I thought adding more of his... hurtful experiences was more important I guess....

Which I guess leads to another detail.

4. The cinematic worlds?

This was kinda inspired by Persona Q2. I didn’t really know what to do with these theaters, and I didn’t want to use the idea from my dream, which was schoolwork. I thought that maybe it gave them “hands on” experience with immersive cinema in the most literal of sense. The thing playing would change throughout the day, with almost everything playing that you could think of. There are probably around 10 theaters in this underground facility. But they all never showed anything after around midnight or so, to give people time to rest. Since... there weren’t beds. And there were bathing/sauna/self care documentaries on at random parts of the day for people to freshen up.

5. A missing scene.

After I had written the final scene in the underground facility, I had actually decided on removing one scene from this fic. It was a sensual scene, set in one of the shower documentary worlds. Jiro and Jyushi stand in the same shower cubicle and let the water come down on top of them. They would go into a more explicit side of their relationship at that one moment, which would be mere days before they’re all found from this underground prison.

But as I said, I removed it. Why? Because I’m repurposing this scene for a genderbent Jiroshi fic XD. I couldn’t stop thinking about it when it came into my head so I decided on that XD do let me know if you’re interested in this story!

And then finally....

6. Dream or reality?

That... is for everyone to think about on their own lol. I left it open with Jiro’s point of view, but it’s still somewhat unclear. I think if it was real, then someone held them hostage to experiment with sending people through media like never done before. . . And then when the police caught them, they triggered some memory altering function to run away and whatnot. I thought that leaving it as an outrageous dream made sense though XD

Because if you think about it... Jyushi forgot about his first fruitful love then!! And that kinda hurts me lol.... I just want Jyushi to be happy you know? QuQ but I made it happy with Jyushi and Jiro married and happy and that happiness was my happiness QuQ.

So I think that’s all I have to say about An Outrageous Circumstance. I hope that you enjoyed learning about the backside of this fic! It is something I plan to do for all works that have interesting tidbits of information so keep an eye out if you’re interested!

Thank you for reading! Until next time~

-Hana

[kenyizsuartblog]

Three Years of Diablo fanfiction

Hi, everyone!

So, yesterday was the third birthday of my biggest project yet, That First Spark, and well... it kinda got me thinking and reminiscing about the road up to this point. I know most of my Watchers aren't reading the story, or aren't into Diablo in general, so feel free to skip this journal, you won't miss anything. :)

Not gonna lie, I did not realize for the longest time that it has already been three years since I uploaded Chapter 1 onto Fanfiction.net - and back then, it was supposed to be a oneshot! I just had this idea of “wouldn’t it be interesting if Lyndon found Inarius and rescued him somehow?”, and that was it. But right after I’ve uploaded this oneshot, I began brainstorming. Could I spin into an actual long story, was there enough material to do so? Behind the scenes I wrote scenes for practice (some actually made it into the story proper later, if edited), I was trying to map out the general flow of the first arc, and just generally conducting scientific experiments over it. While I am a Discovery Writer, and thus work with the most basic planning possible, I did not want to actually start a story, if there was no viable path for it.

But… there was a path. And here we are now, 3 years and 55 chapters later. 3 very, very weird years.

I branched out to new sites because of this fanfiction, including Tumblr and Archives of Our Own. On Tumblr, I’ve done and still doing my best to create and maintain a well-organized blog with all the necessary information, and I hope to improve on this field down the road. On AO3, my fanfic inspired another writer to make their own story, which makes me so happy and proud I cannot put it into words, honestly! I would have never imagined my work would have this effect on anybody.

I’ve got dragged into a hidden hive of scum and villainy that masquerades as an “accepting and inclusive Diablo community” on Tumblr to this day. They are lying. Go figure. They backstabbed me for no reason (none they bothered to ever mention) at my lowest and left me to bleed out – that almost killed the fanfiction. But I have also met a single virtuous person in that very same ”””community””” who actually practiced what he preaches, and listened and talked to me when all the others were busy conspiring against me. I still consider him a good friend, and I hope he does the same of me. If not, well, that is his business alone. But that experience taught me some very valuable lessons and shaped my worldview to what it is today. And for the record, no, thankfully my worldview is still very far away from “everything sucks and everyone is an asshole”.

My nephew was born in 2018 and he is the cutest kid you can possibly find! I became his godmother too!

I graduated from my architecture university, after 6 years, and began looking for a job. That in on itself had been one hell of a roller coaster. But I’ve settled down in an office and stayed there for over a year now. How long will I stick with this job, and this profession? Hopefully as little time as possible. Architecture did not become my calling.

Diablo 4 was announced in Blizzcon 2019, and I basically went batshit insane when it turned it Lilith will be the main antagonist. There are no words describing my hatred towards that bitch, I cannot wait to wipe the floor with her for good!

I’ve celebrated my 4-year-anniversary with my boyfriend this year. <3

And most surprisingly, this fanfic taught me to maintain my focus and motivation better. In March of this year, I have decided to no longer excuse my truly horrendous uploading schedule away with “shifting inspiration and focus” and other such nonsense, and aimed to have a new chapter out every month. I’ll be honest, I had my doubts if I could have stuck with it, but here we are more than half a year since then and I’m still going strong! This was actually a revelation to me. I’m quite the opposite of the “Unorganized artist” archetype, I live for organization and good day schedules, but for the longest time I had difficulty to stick with a topic for long, or have an actual framework for it. I’ve still not fully knocked this bad habit yet (why hello there, Megaman fancomic I really need to finish…), but just the fact that I could manage to pull it off in one project’s case boosts my confidence in it.

I have improved a lot as a writer, and I cannot wait to continue improving and put all of my experiences from this endeavor to future stories, including DuatStories, and even my own fantasy novel one day, hopefully. Of course there is still a lot for me to learn. The monthly updates and my Discovery Writing style together mean the pacing isn’t all that spot-on, there are important details and information that gets forgotten or come up at a much later time than it was first supposed to, and of course the usual grammatical errors and misspellings. Maybe my next goal should be to learn to plan a story out more in advance! Wouldn’t that be nice. XD

And, well, I know That First Spark is not a super popular story, most of my Watchers don’t read it. And that’s okay! Diablo has a large community but most of it focuses on seasonal plays and builds, so the fanart section gets left behind. This is a fact I have accepted a long time ago and have no real qualms with it. I have fun creating it, and apparently, some people really enjoy it, even if silently. One to the point of being inspired by it! Of course the followers of Belial who cause further division and isolation with their venom do not improve things in this part of the fandom, either. There is no helping that part, all I can do is keep doing what I love doing, and what I love doing is basically drown myself into the lore and use it for a ridiculously long adventure story.

So for everyone who reads this fanfiction, even if you leave no trace behind, I thank you. For your attention, for your time, for your patience. Here’s to years more of running around in Sanctuary like a headless chicken, almost dying every other week and saving the world on the side once per month! Let’s hope I’ll finish this adventure before Diablo 4 comes out ;) I might have a chance for that!

Thank you for reading! And remember, guys.

Everything is going to be alright.

2020.10.16.

[diablo-that-first-spark]

Three Years of Diablo Fanfiction

Hi, everyone!

So, yesterday was the third birthday of my biggest project yet, That First Spark, and well... it kinda got me thinking and reminiscing about the road up to this point. I know most of my Watchers aren't reading the story, or aren't into Diablo in general, so feel free to skip this journal, you won't miss anything. :)

Not gonna lie, I did not realize for the longest time that it has already been three years since I uploaded Chapter 1 onto Fanfiction.net - and back then, it was supposed to be a oneshot! I just had this idea of “wouldn’t it be interesting if Lyndon found Inarius and rescued him somehow?”, and that was it. But right after I’ve uploaded this oneshot, I began brainstorming. Could I spin into an actual long story, was there enough material to do so? Behind the scenes I wrote scenes for practice (some actually made it into the story proper later, if edited), I was trying to map out the general flow of the first arc, and just generally conducting scientific experiments over it. While I am a Discovery Writer, and thus work with the most basic planning possible, I did not want to actually start a story, if there was no viable path for it.

But… there was a path. And here we are now, 3 years and 55 chapters later. 3 very, very weird years.

I branched out to new sites because of this fanfiction, including Tumblr and Archives of Our Own. On Tumblr, I’ve done and still doing my best to create and maintain a well-organized blog with all the necessary information, and I hope to improve on this field down the road. On AO3, my fanfic inspired another writer to make their own story, which makes me so happy and proud I cannot put it into words, honestly! I would have never imagined my work would have this effect on anybody.

I’ve got dragged into a hidden hive of scum and villainy that masquerades as an “accepting and inclusive Diablo community” on Tumblr to this day. They are lying. Go figure. They backstabbed me for no reason (none they bothered to ever mention) at my lowest and left me to bleed out – that almost killed the fanfiction. But I have also met a single virtuous person in that very same ”””community””” who actually practiced what he preaches, and listened and talked to me when all the others were busy conspiring against me. I still consider him a good friend, and I hope he does the same of me. If not, well, that is his business alone. But that experience taught me some very valuable lessons and shaped my worldview to what it is today. And for the record, no, thankfully my worldview is still very far away from “everything sucks and everyone is an asshole”.

My nephew was born in 2018 and he is the cutest kid you can possibly find! I became his godmother too!

I graduated from my architecture university, after 6 years, and began looking for a job. That in on itself had been one hell of a roller coaster. But I’ve settled down in an office and stayed there for over a year now. How long will I stick with this job, and this profession? Hopefully as little time as possible. Architecture did not become my calling.

Diablo 4 was announced in Blizzcon 2019, and I basically went batshit insane when it turned it Lilith will be the main antagonist. There are no words describing my hatred towards that bitch, I cannot wait to wipe the floor with her for good!

I’ve celebrated my 4-year-anniversary with my boyfriend this year. <3

And most surprisingly, this fanfic taught me to maintain my focus and motivation better. In March of this year, I have decided to no longer excuse my truly horrendous uploading schedule away with “shifting inspiration and focus” and other such nonsense, and aimed to have a new chapter out every month. I’ll be honest, I had my doubts if I could have stuck with it, but here we are more than half a year since then and I’m still going strong! This was actually a revelation to me. I’m quite the opposite of the “Unorganized artist” archetype, I live for organization and good day schedules, but for the longest time I had difficulty to stick with a topic for long, or have an actual framework for it. I’ve still not fully knocked this bad habit yet (why hello there, Megaman fancomic I really need to finish…), but just the fact that I could manage to pull it off in one project’s case boosts my confidence in it.

I have improved a lot as a writer, and I cannot wait to continue improving and put all of my experiences from this endeavor to future stories, including DuatStories, and even my own fantasy novel one day, hopefully. Of course there is still a lot for me to learn. The monthly updates and my Discovery Writing style together mean the pacing isn’t all that spot-on, there are important details and information that gets forgotten or come up at a much later time than it was first supposed to, and of course the usual grammatical errors and misspellings. Maybe my next goal should be to learn to plan a story out more in advance! Wouldn’t that be nice. XD

And, well, I know That First Spark is not a super popular story, most of my Watchers don’t read it. And that’s okay! Diablo has a large community but most of it focuses on seasonal plays and builds, so the fanart section gets left behind. This is a fact I have accepted a long time ago and have no real qualms with it. I have fun creating it, and apparently, some people really enjoy it, even if silently. One to the point of being inspired by it! Of course the followers of Belial who cause further division and isolation with their venom do not improve things in this part of the fandom, either. There is no helping that part, all I can do is keep doing what I love doing, and what I love doing is basically drown myself into the lore and use it for a ridiculously long adventure story.

So for everyone who reads this fanfiction, even if you leave no trace behind, I thank you. For your attention, for your time, for your patience. Here’s to years more of running around in Sanctuary like a headless chicken, almost dying every other week and saving the world on the side once per month! Let’s hope I’ll finish this adventure before Diablo 4 comes out ;) I might have a chance for that!

Thank you for reading! And remember, guys.

Everything is going to be alright.

2020.10.16.

[redglassesgirl-maruma]

Live reaction/post to the new Drama CD

 I decided to listen to it and live-write in a post with whatever I’m thinking XD 

For the ones who want the general summary of this new CD, here’s marumafan post. You can get a good idea of everything that happens in it from the summary alone and skip this post if you’re not interested, there’s nothing new and I don’t have the japanese level to explain anything, I’m just doing this for entertainment purposes ^^

Aw, I missed the voice actors, they’re great as always <3 I understand like 20% or less of what I hear but it doesn’t matter haha.

That first reference they do is killing me, I strongly believe the “hot limit/revolution” thing Yuuri says about Wolfram’s costume is related to TM Revolution’s song Hot Limit, a video that was very sexy for his time and the costume the singer is wearing resembles the designs for this Halloween CD. Video here in youtube, I feel so old watching it again xD The dictionary Wolf’s using is making things worse but I love it, I hope they keep it as a running gag.

Anissina’s costume is super sexy, and now I see her voice in the CD is pretty sexy too. The whip and all, dominatrix style like Cherie. And I’m dying with Wolf crying and talking about Günter’s fate hahaha, so dramatic. He rolls back pretty quickly to “Sorry Günter, I’ll save myself” haha, same as previous CDs where he wouldn’t even sacrifice for Gwen. Hahaha they drop the CD name so casually, like “ah, here I have to say the title...” xD I love these funny details when they break the wall.

Oh man I couldn’t recognize Conrart’s voice at first, until he calls Gwen aniue I was wondering who was this. I had to go back here and listen to their scene again. Aw so cute when Conrart says daisukidayo to him, loved that. Specially because I always remember from the special The Maidmer Princess and I and the way Conrart thinks about Gwen there, so cold and distant, like they’re not even friends. I would like it so much if they maintain this development where they’re all close.

Ahhh, my Jozak xD I love to hear his voice, and he’s arriving with Mura. The “gaooo” Mura does is so cute, Gwen I feel you hahaha. The changes in Jozak voice are always amazing, the voice actor is so versatile, but Anissina in the first part also impressed me with her voice acting. Mura always breaking the 4th wall, that’s his thing . I’m sad I don’t understand some parts I was interested in detail from the summary haha, my second OTP being Jozak and Mura wants me to understand more moreeee.

Poor Gwen being whipped, but he seems to be enjoying it? XD so M, your Excellency. Jozak calling her Anissina-chan, he’s the only one that dares, hearing him is great.

Hahahhaa, the censored word Anissina is saying makes everyone loose their mind. And she keeps repeating and repeating, this part is hilarious. Excuse me, what did you say girl? XD

So, in this part in the summary she’s basically saying “pussy juice” and I just can’t when Yuuri ends up drinking the morning dew (aka the juice) and faints. Boy so gay he can’t stand anything related XDDDDDDD And he’ll end dreaming sad things, but also being married to a guy with an adopted daughter and enjoying his happy gay family hahaha. There’s so much to analyze about Yuuri here but it’s also very self explanatory.

Anissina goes from sexy queen to a lolicon voice in a split of a second, calling Yuuri-kun and all in a childish singing voice. Hhahaha, when Yuuri drinks the juice, Wolf screams “Yuuuuuuri” (Nooo, don’t go to the dark side of heterosexuality! xDDDDD Can’t help it).

So, now Anissina is just a chibi or something, her voice is 1000% loli. I applaud this woman with that range of voices and that control. We have the best seiyuus and I’m so glad. Everyone has been amazing so far, not just her, but I’m just impressed hearing Ani for so long this time.

Now the dream is happening. Gwen really sounds calm and happy, I’m so glad. I can’t say much about this part because I don’t understand much of what they’re saying, now Jozak is at his bar and all. Same as Apollo but hearing it makes me feel way less depressed than the written version. The Apollo ending made me so sad, so I don’t re-read it as other specials and parts of the novels. I think now Jozak is complaining no one comes to visit him and yeah, that’s sad. Yuuri is not having a good time, every time he steps in and out of some sort of room while seeing these dreams he’s like living a nightmare. Chibi Anissina is there to guide him trough the changes.

It’s Conrart part now. Well, it starts cheerful, then romantic and then they end things very badly. A roller coaster that I’m not a fan of, specially because I don’t like this ending for Conrart, I think he deserves better than “repenting” alone and nothing else. Like, let the man be happy for once. Yuuri’s even punching his clothes or something, and Conrart drops a sayonara there, so cold man so cold.

Now is Wolf time! Yuuri summarizes everyone’s situation to Wolf very quickly and they sound super casual with a romantic jazz music as OST xDDD Then the music turns serious and kind of epic when they speak about Conrart and also Shin Makoku, the decision to come to Earth, it’s quite nice. Wolfram’s always wonderful when he’s prince like. The wife/husband discussion again hahhaa, but so SO casual~ then they just talk about Greta with more slow music. So the topic about hey we’re newlyweds is very cute and super mega casual with no tsundere attitude at all.

They’re so married~ I can die happy now, this is enough for me specially because the dream is a about the actual future Yuuri shouldn’t have seen. It’s something that is actually true, and that’s sad because some characters endings could be better, but at the same time I’m so glad they’re fucking married, finally xDDDDD

And this ending just happens in two years, we can calculate thanks to Greta’s age, and I think Yuuri just said it to Anissina, that she’s 10 now and she was 12 in the dream/future. Now Mura calls by phone to wake him up, and Yuuri is sad about everything except Wolf and Greta. Now Yuuri must forget the spoilers xD Mura special powers/knowledge no one understand but are very convenient.

Yuuri wakes up, Murata says the prohibited word and the biiiip keeps being a great gag for me, with a 5 years old sense of humor. Jozak making Wolf calm down is great, let’s be zeeeeen. I think I understood Jozak said he likes Anissina because x and x reason. And now we go to another pairing, with Yuuri trying to remember the good part of the dream, but Wolf’s too excited and mad for his back and forth, some sort of hilarious discussion and misunderstanding I’m not getting XD

Something about Yuuri and Greta haha, and Wolf saying he’s not forgiving him. Nooo, the OST is the marriage song. Wolf’s voice when Yuuri actually explain they’re both dad and daddy, awn. The dictionary again haha, Wolfram keeps using it and making everything worse. Marriage fanfare again hah, but I don’t understand what’s happening here, there’s Jozak and Conrart commenting too. Then, something about Anissina torturing Gwen a lot aaaand... the end.

The rest of the CD is the freetalk with the seiyuus, and this is a challenge because even if I listened to it fully, I don’t get what they’re talking about. I’ll just leave this at a one time listening and go back to my favorite parts to listen again and again and practice my hearing skills xD

 So, I really enjoyed this CD. My way of listening to it has been messy, a little bit here and there over an enteire week when I had the time and wasn’t dead tired. Slowly trying to understand but replaying and going back and forth. I have to listen to it again just in one go without stops, but I’ll not do the live writing again, it’s just pointless, once is more than enough!

[sakurasakiyama]

Personal: Happy New Year!!

Happy New Year from Australia! Let’s hope that 2020 will be an amazing year! :D

I also hope everyone had a good Christmas as well! I was a bit busy during that time so I wasn’t able to say ‘Merry Christmas’ here. But even so, I hope everyone enjoyed the day with their families :)

Looking back through 2019, for me it’s been a roller coaster of emotions, but it’s also been a good year overall! As of course, it had it’s ups and downs, but I always managed to keep a smile on my face no matter what :D

So here’s a few little things I wanted to reflect on for 2019 xD

I came back after a 5 month hiatus and felt like myself again. I felt so welcomed by those around me when I came back, it was such a warm feeling that I missed. Because I have made a lot of friends over this time, I’m glad to be in the Touken Ranbu fandom & a Sakiyamania (Sakiyama Tsubasa) fan ❤

I decided to reach out to some Sakiyamania fans from Japan on Twitter, even though I’m not confident with my Japanese. They were really nice to me, and I want to be able to talk to them a lot more next year. And I want to start talking to other Japanese Sakiyamania fans that follow me! Including people here on Tumblr :D

This year for Tsubasa has been a year of firsts. He’s accomplished so much this year and being able to support him as an international fans makes me happy. I can’t wait to see what next year brings for him and I hope to be able to meet him one day ❤

My fangirling (on Twitter where I mainly fangirl) did drop a bit as I was quite busy towards the end of this year. I faced some struggles and stresses but I would always try to find a small amount of time to be here on SNS. As I’d feel refreshed being here  But next year, I’ll try to fangirl more over Tsubasa!

I know that I wasn’t on here very much as I wanted to be this year, but hopefully next year, I will be able to find the time to be here and post what I can to spread and share the Sakiyama Tsubasa love that I have deep down inside ❤ 

Overall, I want to say thank you to everyone who I’ve talked to, built friendships with & reached out to. You’ve been patient with me & nice to me. I can’t thank all of you enough for it. As well as for making 2019 a good one. Let’s hope 2020 will be even better!

オーストラリアからに明けましておめでとうございます！！よいお年を～

[gimme-more-caffeine]

This is from my old blog, I honestly LOVE lists (and writing in bullets for some strange reason). Random and sporadic on topics and the numbers have NO MEANING. I'm NOT ordering them from most fave to least fave, just how they come to mind.

Also keynotes: Favorites doesn't always mean Favorites just what I enjoy the most. And there will be duplication at times

(Side note: Let's update this list from before as it's been two years and see what has changed. * means updated)

-Me- (Just little stuff I figured I'd do. Wasn't even supposed to be a list XD) 1. I'm a Major Introvert, I don't like to socialize with others in real life and prefer to do so online 2. I'm a major procrastinator 3. I mainly work nights so I get to sleep during the day 4. I want to make more friends online yet I have a hard time reaching out. The last time I interacted online was on DeviantArt and FFN years ago 5. I'm pretty much online all day/night on my nights off 6. Eye doctors have told me I have a rare blue-grey-green hazel (Is it true that it’s rare I don’t know) eyes so they tend to change between these three colors or be a mixture at times. Lately I think my eyes are just grey which takes on different green and/or blue shades

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-Books-

Favorite Authors 1. Nora Roberts/JD Robb 2. Jayne Ann Krentz/Jayne Castle/Amanda Quick 3. Gena Showalter (I mainly read her Lords of the Underworld series and only read one book that wasn't part of this series so she's not getting a Favorite list sadly) 4. Anna Windsor (I've only read one series of hers so I'm not including her in the books list) 5. Christine Feehan* (I mainly only like one of her series so she's not listed)

Favorite Series from Nora Roberts 1. Bride Quartet 2. McKade Brothers 3. In the Garden Trilogy 4. Dream Trilogy 5. Three Sisters Island Trilogy 6. Key Trilogy 7. Cousins O'Dwyer Trilogy 8. The Donovan Legacy

Favorite Books from In Death (Limiting myself up to Ten) 1. Divided in Death (My first ever In Death book so it holds a strong place in my heart) 2. Innocent in Death 3. Memory in Death 4. Visions in Death 5. Imitation in Death 6. Conspiracy in Death 7. Strangers in Death 8. Treachery in Death 9. New York to Dallas 10. Creation in Death

Favorite Books from Nora Roberts (Limiting myself to Fifteen) 1. Black Hills 2. The Obsession 3. The Witness 4. Carnal Innocence 5. River's End 6. Tribute 7. Carolina Moon 8. Birthright 9. Three Fates 10. The Liar 11. The Search 12. The Villa 13. Angels Fall 14. Time Was 15. Times Change

Favorite Books from Jayne Ann Krentz 1. All Night Long (The first I ever Read and thus holds a special place in my heart) 2. Sizzle and Burn 3. Running Hot 4. In Too Deep 5. Copper Beach 6. Trust No One 7. River Road 8. Witch Craft 9. White Lies 10. Light in Shadow

Favorite Books from Amanda Quick 1. The Third Circle 2. The Perfect Poison 3. Second Sight 4. Crystal Gardens 5. The Mystery Woman 6. Quicksilver 7. The River Knows

Favorite Books from Jayne Castle 1. Obsidian Prey 2. Dark Light 3. The Lost Night 4. Midnight Crystal 5. Canyons of Night

Favorite NON-Romance Books 1. Hope was Here 2. Z for Zacharia 3. Lord of the Flies (Yes, I actually like the chaos that happened. I'm probably messed up for that) 4. The Other Boleyn Girl 5. Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban (The ONLY book I like from the Harry Potter series) 6. 13 Reasons Why (I deeply enjoy the book and read during my teens) 7. By These Ten Bones 8. The Giver 9. Lovely Bones

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-Disney/Animated Movies-

Favorite "Popular" Disney Movies 1. Mulan 2. Zootopia 3. Big Hero 6 4. Tarzan 5. The Lion King 6. 101 Dalmations 7. Bambi 8. Pocahontas 9. The Princess and the Frog 10. Frozen 11. The Little Mermaid 12. Lilo and Stitch 13. Lady and the Tramp 14. The Hunchback of Notre Dame 15. The Nightmare Before Christmas (Yes this is Disney as Tim Burton worked for them during this time. I checked to make sure)

Favorite "Underrated" Disney Movies 1. Treasure Planet 2. Oliver and Company 3. Atlantis: The Lost Empire 4. Home on the Range 5. The Black Cauldron 6. The Sword in the Stone 7. Hercules 8. Meet the Robinsons 9. Emporer's New Groove 10. Robin Hood 11. A Goofy Movie 12. The Fox and the Hound 13. Aristocats 14. James and the Giant Peach (Yes this is considered Disney, I checked) 15. The Rescuers 16. Descendents 17. Brother Bear 18. Dinosaur

Favorite Sequels 1. Mulan 2 (Yes I like this when everyone seems to hate this) 2. Lion King 2 3. Cinderella 3 (I consider this to be an actual sequel, the other one felt more like short stories) 4. Beauty and the Beast: An Enchanted Christmas 5. Bambi 2 6. The Fox and the Hound 2 7. The Rescuer's Down Under 8. Aladdin and The King of Thieves 9. Pocahontas 2 10. 101 Dalmatians 2 11. Lady and the Tramp 2: Scamp's Adventure 12. An Extremely Goofy Movie

Favorite Series (Expect this one to be long and I'm including Jetix too) 1. The House of Mouse 2. Dinosaurs (I never even knew this!) 3. Bill Nye the Science Guy (SERIOUSLY, This guy was DISNEY?!) 4. Duck Tales 5. Gargoyles 6. TaleSpin 7. Darkwing Duck 8. Quack Pack 9. Timon and Pumba 10. 101 Dalmations 11. Recess 12. Hercules 13. PB&J Otter 14. Teacher's Pet 15. Filmore! 16. Disney's Mighty Ducks 17. The Legend of Tarzan 18. Kim Possible 19. Pucca 20. Lilo and Stitch: The Series 21. Super Robot Monkey Team Hyper Force Go! 22. W.I.T.C.H. 23. American Dragon: Jake Long 24. Yin Yang Yo! 25. Descendents: Wicked World

Favorite NON-Disney Movies 1. Anastasia 2. All Dogs go to Heaven 2 3. Spirit: Stallion of the Cimmaron 4. American Tail 2: Fivel Goes West 5. Prince of Egypt 6. The Last Unicorn 7. The Secret of NIMH 8. Wakko's Wish 9. Quest for Camelot 10. Balto 11. The Pebble and the Penguin 12. South Park: Bigger, Longer and Uncut 13. Scooby Doo on Zombie Island 14. Scooby Doo and the Witch's Ghost 15. The Land Before Time V: The Mysterious Island

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-Youtube-

Youtubers/Channels I mainly watch (Limiting myself to Ten): 1. MLP-Silver-Quill 2. Night Mind* 3. Rekaita Law* (Hey it's entertaining as hell and I love watching him rant) 4. FoundFlix* 5. joshscorcher 6. FOB Equestria 7. That Creepy Reading* 8. Top5s 9. The Theorizer 10. SuperHorrorBro*

Generalization of what I watch on Youtube 1. Let's Plays 2. Song Covers 3. MLP Analysis stuff (NOT the series, only the analysis community) 4. Horror/Paranormal/Urban Legend stuff 5. Movie/Game Theories 6. Anime/Movie parodies 7. Horror Explanations (Movies and video games lately)* 8. Abridged Shows/Parodies

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-Music-

Favorite Disney Movie Songs/Scores (As in IN the movie, Credit songs don't count unless they're the same song as in the movie. LONG LIST AHEAD) 1. Hellfire - Hunchback of Notre Dame 2. Why Should I Worry - Oliver and Company 3. I'm Still Here - Treasure Planet 4. Colors of the Wind - Pocahontas 5. Savages - Pocahontas 6. Make a Man out of You - Mulan 7. What's this? - Nightmare before Christmas 8. This is Halloween - Nightmare before Christmas 9. Court of Miracles - Hunchback of Notre Dame 10. You'll be in My Heart - Tarzan 11. Son of Man - Tarzan 12. Strangers Like Me - Tarzan 13. Farewell - Pocahontas 14. Short Hair - Mulan 15. Eye to Eye - A Goofy Movie 16. Stand Out - A Goofy Movie 17. After Today - A Goofy Movie 18. Topsy Turvy - Hunchback of Notre Dame 19. Try Everything - Zootopia 20. I Wanna be Like Other Girls - Mulan 2 21. Good Doggy, No Bone - Fox and the Hound 2 22. Lesson Number One - Mulan 2

Favorite Disney Covers 1. Hellfire - Jonathan Young 2. Can You Feel the Love Tonight - Elton John (Yes I see that as a cover as it's not the one from the movie but the credits) 3. Can You Feel the Love Tonight - Sara Paxton 4. Hawaiian Roller Coaster - Penicillin 5. Heigh-Ho - CASCADE 6. Supercalifragilisticexpialadotious - THE KIDDIE (Hope I spelt the song right... It's too damn long) 7. This is Halloween - Marilyn Manson 8. Kiss the Girl - Ashley Tisdale 9. You'll be in my Heart - Celtic Woman 10. Be Prepared - Jonathan Young* (Jonathan Young covers a lot of Disney songs I like so I'll leave it at that instead of listing all the covers I like)

Favorite Parody Songs 1. Brooklyn Rage - YGOTAS (Yu-Gi-Oh: The Abridged Series) Parodying: Poker Face by Lady Gaga 2. Pharaoh's Throne - YGOTAS Parodying: Telephone by Lady Gaga 3. Make a Man out of You - DBZAbridge 4. Leather Pants - YGOTAS Parodying: Bad Romance by Lady Gaga 5. U Can't Touch Lani - Lanipator Parodying: U Can't Touch This 6. Without Yugi - YGOTAS Parodying: Without Me by Eminem 7. Paraboss - YGOTAS BBT Movie Parodying: ??? by ??? (Someone told me it was Lady Gaga's Paraboss song but I can't find that) 8. Stronger - YGOTAS BBT Movie Parodying Harder, Better, Faster Stronger by Daft Punk 9. It's Your Move - YGOTAS Parodying: Tik Tok by Ke$ha

Genres I listen to 1. 80s 2. Different forms of Rock (Alternative, Symphonic, Metal, etc) 3. Anime Music 4. Disney Songs (Usually more from the movies) 5. Dance/Techno 6. Covers/Remixes

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-Movies-

Favorite Movies (Limiting myself up to Fifty) 1. Titanic 2. Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban (Again, the only movie I liked from the Harry Potter franchise) 3. Avatar (Yes I know this was like 95% CGI but it still had physical people in it so I'm not putting it in CGI category) 4. Jumanji 5. Fluke 6. Godzilla (98. This is my FAVORITE Godzilla movie. I just loved the design of Godzilla and the animated show that came as a result) 7. Alice in Wonderland (Tim Burton's version. I'm probably one of the few who enjoyed this) 8. SPEED 9.  13 Ghosts 10. Ghost Ship 11. Poseidon (The one from the 2000s) 12. Flight 93 13. United 93 14. World Trade Center 15. Iron Jawed Angels 16. How the Grinch Stole Christmas 17. Matilda 18. Mighty Morphin Power Rangers (A classic that shall never die) 19. Beetlejuice 20. The Dark Knight 21. Home Alone 3 22. Deadpool 23. Casper 24. Addams Family Values 25. The Hollow 26. Jurassic World 27. Dragon Heart (I cry like a bitch during the ending) 28. Angels in the Outfield 29. The Mask 30. Hocus Pocus 31. Mortal Kombat 32. The Grinch (2018 version)*

Favorite CGI and Claymation movies (Because I can't tell the difference between the two. And the CGI is for ALL Computer generation and WITHOUT physical people. This includes DreamWorks) 1. Rise of the Guardians 2. Megamind 3. Corpse Bride 4. Final Fantasy 7: Advent Children 5. James and the Giant Peach 6. Nightmare Before Christmas 7. Coraline 8. Dinosaur 9. Shrek 2 10. Kung Fu Panda 2 11. Sherman and Mr. Peabody

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-Anime-

Animes I like before finding out they were Anime 1. Oban Star Racers 2. Shinzo

Favorite Animes (Limiting myself up to Thirty) 1. Kuroko no Basket 2. Fruits Basket 3. Yu-Gi-Oh 4. Yu Yu Hakusho 5. Samurai Deeper Kyo 6. Bleach 7. Gravitation 8. Junjo Romantica 9. Sekai-Ichi Hatsukoi 10. Princess Tutu 11. Slayers 12. Supernatural the Anime 13. Free! 14. Persona 4 15. Digimon 16. Inuyasha 17. Pokemon 18. Case Closed

Favorite NON-Animes (That can pass for anime style, at least what I think could pass) 1. Teen Titans (Not that shit Teen Titans Go) 2. Avatar the Last Airbender (I have not seen Korra. Also on a side note, this used to be in the anime section on Fanfiction.net when it first came out) 3. Samurai Jack 4. Ben 10 - Ben 10 Omniverse (Basically I mean anything BEFORE Ben 10 Omniverse) 5. Generator Rex 6. Powerpuff Girls Z 7. Code Lyoko

Favorite Voice Actors (Doing Japanese and English since I know very few XD Forgive my spelling errors) 1. Todd Haberkorn 2. Dan Greene 3. Johnny Yong Bosch 4. Vic Mignogna 5. Daisuke Namikawa 6. Konishi Katsuyuki 7. Romi Park 8. Yuri Lowenthral 9. Steve Staley 10. Cam Clarke 11. Greg Ayers* 12. Jerry Jewell 13. Eric Vale 14. Dave Wittenberg* 15. Tara Strong

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-Mythology/Supernatural

Favorite Myths 1. The Jersey Devil 2. Hades/Persephone Myth

Favorite NON-Humanoid Magical/Mythical/Supernatural Creatures 1. Unicorn 2. Qilin/Krilin 3. Dragon 4. Cerberus (I can't find the official name) 5. The Jersey Devil 6. Perryton 7. Pegasus

Favorite Humanoid Magical/Mythical/Supernatural Creatures 1. Mermaid 2. Harpy 3. Centaur 4. Siren (Both winged and finned kinds)

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-Random/One Category stuff-

Favorite Comedians 1. Gabriel Iglesias 2. Jeff Dunham 3. Bill Engvall 4. Jeff Foxworthy

Favorite Animals 1. Cats 2. Foxes 3. Wolves 4. Dogs 5. Ferrets* 6. Stoats* 7. Bats*

Favorite Foods 1. Buffalo Chicken Pizza (No Bleu Cheese, ONLY RANCH) 2. Beef Fajitas 3. Crunchwrap Supreme (I love Taco Bell!!) 4. Triple Chocolate Cake

Favorite Drinks 1. Peach Tea Snapple 2. Cherry Coke/Pepsi 3. Shirley Temple 4. Pure Leaf Unsweetened Tea 5. Strawberry Lemonade 6. Cherry Lemonade 7. Pure Leaf Peach Tea 8. Pure Leaf Fuji Apple Ginger Tea 9. Pure Leaf Cherry Hibiscus Tea*

[smuttymochi]

Morning with the Prince

Summary: Beauty comes in different ways

Word count: 1,309 words

Member: Jin from BTS

It was chilly; it was winter after all, and not having anyone to lie down with was even colder. You snuggled in your fuzzy blanket, feeling the soft strokes of your blanket running through your skin. This was nice, but very lonesome. It was everyday you were alone in your apartment, but you had friends come over on occasion, but even then it was rarely. Your friend Hana was currently on a date since you remember her telling you last night that she won’t be able to sleepover. She was very happy about it, and you wished her luck on it as well.

‘Text me when you are home, and tell me everything!’ You told her through the phone as she chuckled. You heard the excitement in her voice because you knew who she got a date with. It’s a group of boys who everyone in the school knew about. She was going on a date with Hoseok, the dance machine of the group. They all sing and dance after school, and they even preformed on small stages at music cafes and such. It was amazing to see them live, and just dancing, singing and rapping.

You sat up, grabbing your phone as you saw how a few messages popped up. They were all from Hana. Looking at the time it read ‘12:33′, and for sure you knew her date was around 11. They should be spending time together right now unless something happened, but you really hope nothing did. You clocked on her messages, and saw that her messages were just of her enjoying her date. It was very cute to see her happy, but once you looked at her last message, you realized that the reason she messaged you was to invite you too.

‘Hey, so.. Hoseok brought a friend with him, I’m not sure why, but I think he thought I was scared to be with him unless he is XD’

‘You should come meet us at Lotto World!’ You were narrowing your eyes at your phone because even if it was true, you were in disbelief. Maybe it wasn’t planned, but why you? You two are best friends, but having the chance to go on a date with one of the members of the group at school? It was like a dream come true, especially if it’s the prince of the group, Seokjin. It would be great, so you got up and showered. You put a nice dress, a dress your friend Hana got for you because she wanted you to look so nice to a date, but as you looked at yourself in the mirror, you wondered if it was too much for just accompanying them, and being the date to one of the members. You decided to go with it, but used black tights so that the cold breeze doesn’t freeze your legs, and used a fluffy leather jacket. You were out the door in a few minutes as you got your keys, phone and purse.

It didn’t take long for you to get there. Since you have no car, you took the bus, and that alone took about 20 minutes. Once you were at the Lotto world, you saw your friend waiting at the entrance alone. You walked up to her as she returned a smile.

“Hey! Hurry up and pay your ticket! Me and Hoseok paid ours, along with Seokjin.” You froze, and it was evident that Hana knew you would as she pushed you towards the ticket counter. You paid your ticket, and went inside with your best friend as you also saw Hoseok and the handsome Seokjin just waiting for the two of you. It was a sudden rush of happiness, or just of nervousness, but you knew just seeing him, or even being next to him made you nervous. You weren’t sure if you could even talk to him.

As you two approached the two men, Hoseok happily went up to Hana with such a big smile on his face that she felt like maybe they have been seeing each other for a while now. She didn’t say anything, but she turned to you and Seokjin who were awkwardly standing next to each other.

“Seokjin, this is Y/N. Y/N, I’m sure you know who Seokjin is,” Hana said, emphasizing Seokjin’s name, making the aforementioned boy to look over at you.

“You know me?” He asked you, making it sound as if he was glad you knew. Maybe you heard it wrong, but you couldn’t help but notice how cute it sounded.

“I mean, everyone in the whole school knows you guys,” You said, as a matter of fact. “You all are very talented, especially you Jin.” It was silent for a bit, and you realized you rambled on, and even complimented Seokjin. You even shorten his name to ‘Jin’ as if you were that close to him. You froze, not knowing what to do. “I- I- mean..” Not even words could come out, and save you from this embarrassment.

“Someone thinks you’re talented, Jin,” Hoseok poked, making you blush even more as you shyly lowered your head.

“At least someone sees my talent,” Seokjin retorted. You looked up at him, a smile plastered on his face. It’s such a sweet smile. You’ve seen him smile to his friends, and even laugh. Not to say that you stalk him or anything, you just so happen to be around when he was. It’s very cliche for sure, but you always passed by him in the hallway when you went to class. Usually it was in the mornings before lunch. After lunch he would disappear, but it was only because his classes weren’t in the main building of the school. Hana told you this when she had to deliver a paper for a teacher. Hana was never really never fond of going to the building, their school being huge for the amount of kids they taught. She would complain she had to go until that one day she saw them in an English class, and from that day forth, she continued to volunteer to go.

After that moment of just seeing Seokjin’s smile, Hana decided to move on ahead with Hoseok who happily agreed. Seokjin huffed at nothing as he complained about Hoseok. He knew why he left with Hana in a hurry, but he didn’t want to say anything to you, so he suggested to get on rides. You agreed, and after that, the day was a blur. You remember smiling, and enjoying your time with Seokjin. He was scared on some rides just like you were, but other than the roller coasters, you two couldn’t stop smiling to each other.

It was like something out of a movie, or fantasy. Why did it happen to you? You're happy it did, but it was strange. You were able to hang with someone who many girls were going after. He was considered so handsome and beautiful that you weren't even sure why he was here with you, and you basically consider yourself average, but compared to him, you felt so much uglier. You weren't, but he made you feel that way, and he made you know it.

"Y/N.." Your eyes opened up, looking at a handsome face in front of you. It felt so weird again. You knew you were dreaming, but you were dreaming about back then. It's been years since high school. You'll start college soon and the man in front of you will be going to acting school for another year. Everything that happened went by so fast, and this dream made it seem as if it happened yesterday. It gave you a warm feeling that you smiled to him. He smiled back as he brought you close to kiss your lips.

"Good morning, Y/N."

"Good morning, Seokjin."

[crazyfanoffandom]

Hello everyone!

I’ve been attempting Fan Fiction since 2010. In these eight years, I’ve seen my writing grow. However, about ten months ago, a situation occurred. As a result, I hit a major stumbling block and stopped writing. I wanted to share this experience with you, and how it’s opened my eyes.

Some fan fiction readers define lines for themselves. Lines they feel Fan Fiction writers shouldn’t cross. For every reader, the line is different, and for many, there are several lines. A few popular examples include that writers shouldn’t “write a canon character in a non-canon voice” or “write a non-canon relationship.” 

Not everyone does this. Some readers don’t have any lines, and read everything. Some have several lines! Neither is wrong. Readers are free to decide how many lines as a kind of guidelines to decide what they’ll read. It’s, in a way, similar to how some people decide what books to read! And some people will read whatever they get their hands on! It’s the reader’s choice.

However, this in and of itself comes with it’s own “line” so to speak.

Back in November, I started updating a story I entitled “Sage” for the How to Train Your Dragon franchise. The story was/is about a teenager who inches her way into the lives of the dragon riders on Berk to spy for Viggo at the end of Rider’s of Berk, and eventually transitions into some of the events during RTTE. It was an idea I went with because I thought it was interesting. I didn’t care if Viggo never heard of the riders that early on, or if it didn’t make sense with the original timeline. I felt I could sell it well enough, and that if I really liked the story, I could pull it off.

So I set to post the first chapter, then the second and the third. I was proud of the story and ready to set a course. Several chapters in (I can’t remember how many) I received a nasty surprise on fanfiction.net.

The story, and it wasn’t the first, broke canon relationship. How to Train Your Dragon pairs Astrid and Hiccup. I’ve showed courtesy to people who ship it, but I’d never been a fan of Astrid and Hiccup for my own reasons. This isn’t a post to start a debate about what’s better. Honestly, I know some of ya’ll like it and i think it’s absolutely wonderful! 

This wasn’t the first story. Another one, The Bridge Between Worlds, explored the possibility of an OC x Hiccup relationship.

The "review” was really really frustrating.

My response was like a roller-coaster. I was literally like:

And then:

To add a little more detail, I’m a very very sensitive person (working on that, i was worse as a child omg LOL), empathetic and compassionate to the point where I literally take on other people’s stresses, I get anxious if I think I’ve upset someone and I’d never gone through something like this before. So, summary: I care wayyyyy too much about other people’s thoughts.

I really didn’t give two craps about whether I could create someone for Hiccup that worked well. I was more concerned with enjoying myself through the process, but the little greasy wheels started turning and turning. I got upset briefly, shrugged my shoulders and kept going.

But it didn’t stop there.

This kept going when I updated again a few days later. I got more “reviews”. Someone (i’m not sure if it was the same person) went as far as stating that I “didn’t care about HTTYD because I didn’t ship Hiccup and Astrid” and that “without Hiccstrid there was no story” twice. (I mean, c’mon guys. It’s a story about a guy and dragons and Hiccstrid is a small sub-plot. To make that claim is to ignore 95% of the franchise content xD). I received more reviews like those, and some leaked on to the other Hiccup x OC story I wrote. By this point I’d had enough. So I stopped updating, ticked the option to moderate guest reviews and took Sage off of fanfiction.net. I feared if I continued, the same person would continuously post big bold reviews. I went as far as trying to like Hiccstrid, and for a while I might’ve a little. But I never did. And I felt somewhat dirty for liking something other people didn’t, and for having the “nerve” to post content that went against the canon grain.

My brain is starting to fade because it’s late, so I’ll wrap it up. People have a right to not ship canon just like people have a right to ship canon. The professionals have created solid foundation for the canon, but fan fiction exists as an endless extension of the canon. And it doesn’t always have to make sense. It’s unofficial content; stuff not officially part of the franchise. Just people’s imaginations, driven by that person’s desire to write or draw or create. If someone is posting content for a non-canon relationship, or perhaps for canon relationship and you don’t like it, if you’re going to act like a bully, please don’t comment. We’re all free to express opinions, but writer’s have feelings too. Some people handle this crap well and others don’t. Some author’s like CC, but comments meant to bash the writer or hate on the pair they’re writing about? No. Please don’t hate on people who, as creators, choose to write something out of voice or pursue a non canon relationship. 

However, this has opened my eyes a little. As I mentioned, this situation is nearly a year old. I’ve spent the last year writing a little. But, only recently did I discover a few things. 

First, I rely too much on other people’s opinions of my stuff, and cling too dearly to the negative. 

Second, not everyone is a jerk. Since the incident on fanfiction.net, I’ve posted both Sage (I did change it to Snotlout x OC because later, I guilted myself into doing it during a convo with a friend) and A Bridge Between Worlds, plus other stories, on Quotev and have received a lot of support for both stories. If I ever receive CC, I’ll be happy too! And i have received CC for other stories. But the fact remains that not everyone is going to deliberately go to a story that pairs people they don’t like and write REEE NO LIKEY YOU NO GET IT REEE.

Third, and this is recent, I shouldn’t allow other people to take my writing joy. If I want to write non canon stuff, I should feel content in the joy. It’s nice to get comments, of course, and subscribers, but I should remind myself daily why I started this story and that I love to write.

I’m hoping that, eventually, I remember why I loved fanfiction. I’ve been updating my stories off and on, but one never knows what the future might hold.

[kerushi-fanart]

Very late Fannibal Appreciation post below~ 

I know I missed appreciation day, and ack! I can’t believe I did! First off, I just want to say a huge THANK YOU to those that tagged me, either here or on my main account ( @sinsational ). I can’t believe I was tagged at all, and thank you so much to those that did. 

This is literally in no particular order. I’m very scatterbrained. xD 

@miasmatik : Your art is FUCKING AMAZING, first off. I love seeing everything you’ve put together, and seeing your art on my feed is always a huge treat. Your colors absolutely amaze me, and I still adore my cutie Beverly sketch (currently set as my phone wallpaper. ;D). I appreciate you not minding my random annoying messages. I know I can be a bit much with some of my hyperness. You are also UNBELIEVABLY supportive. You have no idea how much that means to me both as someone who follows me, and as an artist I respect and admire. (I’m totally making that stupid HanniSnail into a button/sticker thing because of that conversation, btw. Something I wouldn’t have done otherwise.)

@felidfannibal : Again, HOLY SHIT DAT ART. I’m really happy that I found your stream, as I plan on watching as often as I can. Your art is a goddamn treasure. The Greek Marble Master of the fandom. It’s absolutely inspiration and I cannot wait to get your art tattooed on me. <3 (You will probably get flooded with pictures. xD) You’re also totally sweet and kind and I adore annoying you. 

@le-wendigogo : Soft colors of adorableness~ First off, omg I can’t wait for the cover to my fanfic (that I really need to get back to writing). You are another poor soul that I have inflicted my hyperness upon, and I’m glad I randomly reached out to you. Thank you for being so supportive and allowing me to gush about your art~ 

@jadegreenworks :  I want to say, I absolutely LOVE Overcoming. I’m looking forward to seeing how everything is going to unfold and it’s like a friggin roller coaster. *w* I love it~ You are also incredibly supportive of other artists/writers, and thank you for helping me by reblogging my stuff. I am overwhelmed by your support and I’m so happy you’ve enjoyed the silly fanarts I’ve done for you. I also greatly appreciate the patience you’ve had with me on your winning piece. Once work and the move are complete, I can put a lot more time into it and get it to you ASAP. I’m really happy you’re enjoying it so far, though! 

@fragile-teacup : Another incredibly supportive Fannibal and writer~ I read the first part of your The Spaces Between series, and I need to read the rest. (Definitely enjoying it so far. ;D) I really wanted to give you a shoutout for reminding me of cool events going on in tumblr, sending me screenshots (please keep doing so), and generally just being really kind and friendly. You’re another person who reblogs me frequently, and I consider both you and Jade as these big players in the fandom. Every time you two reblog a piece of mine I wind up with more followers, so huge, huge, huge thank you to you both. 

@vulcanplomeeksoup, @h4nnibalism,  @matildaparacosm, @amutantandproud, @azuresky2011, @hannigram-hell, @the-winnowing-wind, @electrarhodes : This group happens to be amazingly, wonderfully supportive. Matilda and Mutant have both given me amazing screenshot projects that I absolutely loved doing. (Please send me more D: ) and dealt with my very spazzy weirdness. xD I appreciate your sacrifice and time. I’m incredibly shy and awkward and you both were so very sweet to me. These guys are like -- my always rebloggin’ team. I constantly have reblogs from all of you, and I can’t tell you how much that means to me. As an artist, while I love <3s on my stuff, reblogs helps get my stupid little doodles out there. I see all of those reblogs you guys have been doing and it just -- warms my heart endlessly. You have no idea how much your support means to me. Literally. 

@radiance-anthology : Thank you for putting together such an amazing book. I cannot wait to hold so many artists and writers in my hand. That kickstarter was an amazing, wonderful project and I am so excited to read through everything. While I missed the deadline by returning to the fandom so late, your reblogs have really helped spread my art through the fandom when I was still brand new here. I’m so happy to support your project, and I’m so very thankful for the support in turn. 

This is such an amazing fandom to be apart of. I’ve written before about how supportive this fandom is, but literally I would not be drawing at the rate I do without you guys. It’s even inspired me to actually do more artwork again that isn’t just a half hour doodle, and I never thought I’d do that again. I would not be here, I would not be drawing, without you all. 

Thank you so much for all of your support. It really does mean the world to me. <3 <3 <3 

I am sure I missed a lot of people, especially those followers who are newer as I haven’t been able to check my notifications as much these past couple of weeks. The move is FINALLY JUST ABOUT DONE. My unpacking should be done as well by the end of the week. I’ll be producing more artwork soon that I hope you all enjoy, and hopefully some pretty stellar pieces for the winners of my giveaway. I’m also looking at opening up a Redbubble here around Halloween. So stay tuned, everyone. <3 

Love,  Kerushi