#homesick but not for home

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

With you at my side, I've forgotten my homesickness.

[scolo-evil-centipede]

Hetalia posting in 2024? Perhaps.....

[elibvn]

[hingubingu]

No one ever expects me to hunt, I'm indigenous, but Im also a very flamboyant person. People expect me to faint at the sight of blood. Meanwhile, I helped my mom process her turkeys this past fall.

I've shot birds and trapped rabbits, I go moose hunting yearly with my family on our traditional hunting grounds. I fish there in the summer. This summer, I'll be taking my partner there for the first time.

I look forward to bringing any hypothetical kids there some day, for them to scramble over and scrape their knees on the same rocky islands I did. Too often, I take for granted the beauty of my home. Others tend to overlook it, too.

A nondescript road off the highway to a reservation with just over 500 people, a gas station, and a corner store. You have to drive a half hour up the highway to the nearest town if you want groceries.

And yet, its beauty cannot be matched, past the rez down a dirt road you'll see the powwow grounds and the mouth of the river where it turns into lake superior. Further down still, and you'll see the dunes and the beach that seem to go on forever when you're a kid.

Driftwood lines the shore bleached white by the sun, black coals in places where the fishermen got cold, or some kids got bored. Paw prints from dogs and seagull prints mark the wet sand, and if you catch the sky on the right day, you can't tell where the water ends and the sky begins.

[kil9]

salt marsh

[marsfish catch fish]

[batwynn]

Everyone always talks about soulmates and the person you’re meant to be with, but all I can think about is my soul place… the place I’m meant to thrive in but can never get to.

[4ranghaes]

myung jaehyun x reader [fluff, fem!reader, reader can speak english and korean -> italicised speech from reader is english, rest is assumed to be korean]

a/n - this is COMPLETELY self indulgent cause i feel the most homesick today that i have since arriving in korea

22:42 - “where’s y/n?” sungho asked, tapping jaehyun on the shoulder as the six boys got ready to have their usual weekly movie night. they’d now got used to having your presence beside them too, so as the movie had been decided already, they were wondering where you were.

“i called her. i think she’s in bed still,” jaehyun hummed, already getting up to enter his bedroom, “i’ll get her.”

he opened his bedroom door slowly, wondering if you were asleep still. he saw your figure in the dark, your phone screen lighting up your face between the blankets.

“hey my baby,” jaehyun smiled, walking in and sitting on the bed, flicking on one of the side lights as he did so. he stroked some hair out your face as you turned to look at him, “we’re starting the movie now.”

you sighed, mustering up a smile before responding, “okay! i’ll be out in a second.”

“oh?” jaehyun paused, looking at your melancholy face with concern, “what’s wrong, my love?”

“nothing,” you shook your head, sitting up. your phone fell on the bed beside your body, jaehyun looking at the old pictures of your home country open.

“talk to me,” he murmured, holding your face in his hands, lowering his eyeline to meet yours.

“house-illness,” you spoke, the new language coming across broken as you tried to translate directly, especially with the lump rising in your throat.

“huh?” jaehyun asked, looking between your eyes with worry.

“homesick! jaehyun, i’m homesick!” you cried, tears beginning to fall from your eyes as you chuckled despite yourself, “i love it here so much and i love being with you, but i just– i can’t help it. i miss home so much.”

jaehyun nodded, his learnt english ability carrying him through your words, “i know, my love. i wouldn’t expect anything else, to be honest.”

you nodded, head falling onto his shoulder as he pulled you into his arms, beginning to let it all out. your body shook with sobs, his white t-shirt staining with makeup and tears as he rubbed your back soothingly.

“do you still want to do movie night?” he murmured, kissing your head supportively, “i could get them to change the movie to something you love.”

you drew in a shaky breath, not responding as you dried your tears.

“love actually?” jaehyun offered, “reminds you of home, too.”

you laughed, nodding as you dabbed your face with a tissue before scrunching it up in your hand. you both stood, jaehyun wrapping his arms around you from behind as you shuffled into the living room where the boys cheered at the sight of you, presumably having been pre-warned of your tears from the loud sobs that had come from jaehyun’s room.

“noona! finally!” woonhak smiled.

you chuckled, smiling, “sorry, guys.”

“she’s homesick,” jaehyun said, a sad smile on his face as you finally learnt the word, “so… i was wondering if to cheer her up, we could change to love actually?”

“of course!” taesan exclaimed, “i love that film!”

“me too,” sungho smiled.

“we already got your favourite snacks too,” riwoo said, motioning to the display of various snacks on the table, your new favourites among them.

“wow!” jaehyun gasped over-dramatically, moving the two of you forward, “go on, sit, i’ll get you a drink.”

“it’s okay, i’m going to the kitchen anyway,” woonhak shrugged, already stood up as he pushed jaehyun to sit next to you.

jaehyun chuckled, as you laid your head on his shoulder. you watched as taesan held the remote, changing over to netflix and queuing up love actually.

you sniffled, “thank you, guys. it means a lot.”

jaehyun’s arm wrapped around you as he pressed a kiss to your forehead, woonhak returning with your drink and taesan pressing play.

[fromdarzaitoleeza]

{Quote: English literature word/ Sarah Addison Allen, The Girl Who Chased the Moon/Melissa Cox/Taylor Swift my tears ricochet/Fatimah Asghar, from “How’d Your Parents Die Again?” published in The New York Times Magazine /Clementine von Radics, Mouthful of Forevers/Richard Kadrey/morning in burned house Margaret Atwood /Maya Angelou/Abraham Verghese, Cutting for Stone paintings; pinterest }

[shirleyjacksonism]

I am living on the moon, I told myself. I have a little house all by myself on the moon.

The Haunting of Hill House, Shirley Jackson // The House on Mango Street, Sandra Cisneros // Head Home, Midlake // The Lover, Marguerite Duras // We Have Always Lived in the Castle, Shirley Jackson

[petaltexturedskies]

I'm homesick all the time... I just don't know where home is. There's this promise of happiness out there. I know it. I even feel it sometimes. But it's like chasing the moon. Just when I think I have it, it disappears into the horizon.

Sarah Addison Allen

[playdate-for-our-demons]

[poet-guy]

I'm searching for any webtoon recs since I tend to finish them fast, if anyone has any pls tell me !!

Some of the stuff I've read include:

School Bus Graveyard

Homesick

D!ckheads

Codename: COLORS

Marionetta

Nevermore

Clinic of Horrors

Our walk home

PIGPEN

[motions1ckn3ss]

there's something really comforting about being a huge les amis fan in my early twenties. in practically every fic they're in their twenties too, and school aus seem to be very rare in this fandom. idk it just makes approaching adulthood much less scary

[kindrehd]

homesick

[crabussy]

I’m the happiest I’ve ever been in my life and. I just feel like crying over that fact. a few years ago I was sure I’d be an anxious miserable wreck for my entire life but now I wake up and I love the world and I promise one day you will too. please keep going please hold the world tight. you will giggle at something silly with a stranger. a staff member at a place you frequent will smile when they see you. an elderly person will look at you gratefully for helping them. you’ll cry about stupid stuff and laugh about it later. you’ll drink cold water during a hot day and it will be the best sensation ever. being alive is the best thing I’ve ever experienced.

[embeccy]

“I want to go home, I want to go home, but what I mean, what I'm grasping for, is not a place, it's a feeling.”

- Julie Buntin