#holidays always make me sad
Explore tagged Tumblr posts
Visit Tumblr Blog
Explore Tumblr blogs with no restrictions, modern design and the best experience.
Last Seen Tumblr Blogs
Fun Fact
In Q3 of 2020, 31% of US users access the Tumblr app daily.
Text
i wish to have friends and to enjoy life and to find love and to feel pretty in a dress and to be able to smile without feeling sad for the times when i won’t be able to and to be invited to parties on holidays and to have somebody to dance with in the rain and to live life free of the expectations of someone else and the required stress of simply existing
#holidays always make me sad#nobody will probably read this#but i hate the feeling of being happy but unable to escape the fear of the happiness fading#i’m constantly worried about feeling bad that i’m basically never happy#i don’t even have a friend to invite me over to sit on their bedroom floor and watch austin moon edits to#i dont have anybody#and it feels really shitty#and i promised myself i wouldn’t let myself feel this way this year#2025 was not supposed to start mourning the life I can never seem to obtain#but here i am#sad because i went another winter break without an invitation anywhere#alone on my couch#watching bridgett on and crying#because i genuinely don’t think ill ever find happiness and love#i think i’m annoying and unloveable#and i can hardly blame people for no wanting to be my friend#or invite me anywhere#because i’m positively dreadful#i’m too loud and too quiet simultaneously#i want a partner but i’m too reserved to attract anyone#i’m gonna die alone in my twenties never having dated a soul#because who would ever want me
4 notes
·
View notes
Text
Just a bit of lore relevant vent art (with terrible proportions bc apparently I mess that up horribly when I'm tired ugh. Watch me regret posting this tomorrow. The head size is already driving me mad bc it's too big, and I can feel myself wanting to abort this mission already) of Mourynn just, lying down on top of one of those large elevated Pale Tree roots far above the Grove (and far away from everyone else), and during the time between the early years and before the Personal story. Caithe is gone (Destiny's Edge), Wynne is gone (bc well, y'know...), even Faolain is gone (bc of Caithe in DE), and she's just feeling miserable, lost, and alone. (Her hair is in between her sapling hair and the Zhaitan hair, so it's grown out a bit bc she's depressed, and she's meant to be in the new outfit she designed, but I'm in the process of redesigning it a bit, so I've made a few tentative changes for now. Her collar is now just an extension of her clavicle leaves which can be put up like a collar, or can be draped down over her shoulders or back)
#gw2#sylvari#artgallery#mourynn#mourynn art#I've just been so tired lately bc of work#also just going a bit stir crazy with the silence (lonely; but alas I unfortunately suck at starting convos bc I have nothing interesting t#talk about and work has been draining my social energy; making it even harder :( (I'd rather burn the social energy with friends yknow?)#it's getting a wee bit better; but I haven't had much time or energy to even game while we're in the midst of our busiest season :(#I miss hanging out and chatting with my buds; but the universe insists on keeping us apart :(#just miss having something to look forward to throughout my day. Been trying to fill it with other things; but the depresso is overriding i#Mostly just been me with my thoughts and that is just bad bc I got so many horrors in there lmao.#I wanna at the very least; draw more or game more to distract from it; but work is sapping all my time and energy from it.#but also it's very quiet on my end and it's kicking my overthinking into overdrive so I#Ive just been fighting with my mind lately lmao#hopefully this will all pass soon so I won't obsessively keep thinking about it loll#lol I'd post this in the servers but it's vent art so it feels a bit weird to do; so it's going straight to home video w/o a theater releas#hopefully once work calms down it'll help#(I have so many long shifts makes me so frustrated bc I hate them and I run out of steam half way through)#other than all that I'm doing fine lol. My brain's always been like this; But I usually only get like this during the winter season#(bc of the holidays making everything quiet and also the SAD) so it feels weird having this exact same feeling happen to me in July lol
79 notes
·
View notes
Text
I will make a cup of hot chocolate to lift my spirits up I guess
#admittedly I am a bit sad#it does not feel like Christmas at all :(#my brother isn’t here even tho he almost always is here during the holidays#my parents are sick and are not in the mood#I didn’t even ask for anything tbh…I kinda just bought my own stuff that would make me happy#not to bring the mood down but idk#I’m happy that everyone else is excited but I still feel a bit empty#my posts
17 notes
·
View notes
Text
the reason the queen was so fixated on noelle was because she wanted to find someone with determination to be the new knight and she knew how determined noelle was to find her sister because of all her searches!!!!!!. AAAAAAA
#something thats ALWAYS bugged me why was the queen is so obsessed with noelle#she says its ''because [noelle] is strong'' but what does she mean by that#how would she know if noelle is strong or not?#the obvious answer is the only way the queen knew noelle before the dark world: via her search history#but then how does her search history make her strong?#we dont see exactly what noelle's searches r like like we do with kris and susie#but we do know she looked up her sister (first name december last name holiday. december holiday. she was a calendar in her room in the#mansion where ''every month is december and every day is the 25th''‚#so. she looked up ''December Holiday'' a lot and the computer interpreted that as christmas)#a lot. so thats probably what caught the queens attention#at first i was like. the queen cleary cares about noelle like a misguided mother would so maybe she feels pity?#she felt bad for noelle and her ''strange sad searches''? but she specifically mentions noelle's strength#so thats why. noelle so determinedly searching for her sister caught the queens attention bc the she was looking for someone determined#did i do it toby fox did i get it#deltarune#noelle holiday#queen deltarune#dess holiday
12 notes
·
View notes
Text
.
16 notes
·
View notes
Text
christmas, also known as the one (1) time of year where i become a little girl who misses her daddy and wishes things could have been different
16 notes
·
View notes
Text
delaying removing minshan’s dapper little christmas hat in my avatar the same way i am currently delaying taking down the christmas tree
husband is like “don’t you think it’s time to take down the—“ “no, don’t say it. not yet. i’m not ready”
#ray.txt#taking down holiday decorations always makes me sad don’t ask me to explain why#i have no idea why my brain makes me respond emotionally to half the shit i get weepy over
31 notes
·
View notes
Text
"For a self-proclaimed researcher... I thought you'd know by now that Psychic-types are weak against Ghost." "Morty-ehehe! B-But I'm nohohot a type specialist!" "Maybe should've thought of that first before deciding to wake me up so early."
A spiritual successor to this lil doodle of mine 🫣💖💕
#sacredshipping#morty x eusine#morty/eusine#gym leader morty#morty pokemon#eusine#mystery man eusine#eusine pokemon#pokemon tickle#'tis the season to be giggly or however that song goes askjdasnd//////////////////#pretty much a self-indulgent treat for myself this holiday season SDKJFSNKDFNS it's been real quiet this time 'round#I honestly don't usually look forward to christmas anyways since I have some bad memories tied to it :'D though it has been exceptionally--#--all over the place this year; partly on the busyness and errands being run on my household's side--#--though mainly on my own headspace and how I haven't.............. been great- these past few months#December in particular has been a time of reflection for me and it's just--been a lot - to grapple with#I needed to distance myself from things to try to make sense of myself---and still - I'm not quite sure where to go from here just yet#but I'll figure it out - one day. I finally do have a schedule with that new psychologist so that's something to look forward to#and I'm trying to get my bearings where I am now so--that's at least something to be grateful for I feel ❤️#got a bit sad there so I deserve to draw my sillies being tickly as a gift for myself yes yes akjsdajsknd#I've always wanted to draw a lee!Eusine ever since he's been implanted in my mind graaaaaaAAAHHHHHHHHHH /affectionate#let them be soft and sweet and domestic and silly with each other it's what they deserve 🫵🫵🫵
44 notes
·
View notes
Text
ayyy
#winter holidays ^^#i need this#i will finally have some time to do things i enjoy and see people again 🥹#normally i'm always a bit sad almost when uni ends because i'll miss it#the rhythm of it and all the classes there and people#not that i don't like the winter break#well this year i'm more glad than sad i still like uni but i'm just sick of telling people off bc i have no time#and also i miss some of the people i had classes with last year and also my sleep schedule is sooo bad#i'm so looking forward to sleeping like a normal person again#i will still have to study for exams (and also train) but i will try to fill my time with things i enjoy#like playing tennis 😍 i would play everyday honestly if i could#and i want to catch up with friends from uni i just hope they#*they're still in the city during the holidays bc often that happens that no one is there anymore 😅#but on monday i still have uni football but without the uni 😂 it will be a relaxing and fun day and i will buy some christmas gifts :))#altough now i'm on the way home to my parents and i will probably spend most of the time there#even though i like living in my uni city it can get lonely especially in winter and i realized i much prefer living with others#and right now my relationship with my parents is better than ever which makes me so happy 🥹 because it was rough sometimes when i was young#and i especially want to catch up woth that good friend of mine who left uni unfortunately 🥲 i will text him if we want to meet#anyways i also think i will feel better during the holidays being active and nature usually helps in winter#aaand it's only 2 more months until february and the days will get longer so i will get through this#honestly kinda sad but hey one day i plan on moving to a place with longer days and warmer weather hopefully that will help 😅#like i was so happy in summer i still remember ... like once spring comes around i operate in a good mood again#nevermind#rant
3 notes
·
View notes
Text
“It’s the holidays! You should be happy!”
#my art#a girl said this to me once#when I was visibly miserable in choir#holidays have always been rough#I have so many bad stories#and so few good ones#but more than making me sad#these memories make me feel really hollow#I don’t remember being a child#cause I can’t remember their face too well
19 notes
·
View notes
Note
For the askbox meme-- 7, 12, and 19!
(Ok yes I totally asked myself questions since I wanted to do this and in the end, nobody asked anything...😭 But I'll still do it!💪)
⭐️7. Show us at least one picture you drew or sketched recently that you did not put on a public site.
↑ I posted these sketches of Concept Art Walter and a quick painting practice of the Law Boy on twitter, but not here on tumblr!
↑ Here are some more super rough/unfinished sketches from late 2022-2023. Truthfully, I hold back on posting a lot of my drawings LOL... As a harsh self-critic, it's hard to let loose and have fun, but it's something I'd like to remedy this 2024! → A lot of it is WalterJonathan/ワルヨナ related, and it's a pairing that truly means a lot to me! (and perhaps it can explain my hesitation in sharing 99% of my OTP art with the world LOL)
⭐️12. Have you ever considered taking commissions?
→ Yes! I have absolutely considered taking comms in the future! Chibi commissions only, (for now) though! I feel confident quickly drawing dynamic chibi poses at this time💪 (the Clip Studio Paint timelapse below is def related LOL)
⭐️19. What medium/program do you use the most in your art?
→ I heavily use Paint Tool SAI 2 for everything! But for more elaborate backgrounds and pictures, I flip-flop between SAI, CLIP Studio Paint and Photoshop.
⭐️⭐️⭐️As a bit of an aside, I recently changed my blog theme! It feels much easier to navigate through past posts now + read their tags🙏
#askbox#shin megami tensei#megaten#walterjonathan#ワルヨナ#posting this on christmas! merry christmas everyone!!! and happy holidays!!!#stay warm and stay safe out there!#this is a really huge post wowie LOL#I always wonder what people think about my art...not many people tend to leave comments or reach out to me so it always leaves me guessing#as to what people actually like about my work and etc...!#NGL it also makes me a bit sad to rarely receive askbox messages whenever I reblog askbox memes (or in general) but ah well
16 notes
·
View notes
Text
rant unrelated to fics in the tags ���✨
#im so Lonely!!!#i came home for the holidays#and none of my friends and family have time to hang out with me :/#idk how much longer i can pretend going outside alone for a walk and buying little treats makes me happy#im also gonna be celebrating new years alone too#its really just me and sukuna in my head isnt it#i didnt bring my journal here so the world has to hear about this :)#the facade of a fulfied life really falls apart when you arent constantlybusy#i always look forward to vacations and then they happen and i wish they were shorter#how sad
9 notes
·
View notes
Text
just realising I won't have silly meowing conversations with the cat anymore, or scritch her stupid lil head, or be greeted by her and let her in when I come home from work late at night, or give her food when she loudly demands it.
damn. lots of things to get used to.
#i spent several years trying to acclimate her to pets and scritches after her first traumatic vet visit...#at least i got her to trust me enough to let me pet her sometimes#not explicitly mourning or suffering from painful grief#but it's more a disconnected distant sadness.? like i'll miss the little everyday moments#kinda how i miss the holiday lunches at my late grandma's place#and all the little things she and my grandpa did for me and my cousin whenever we stayed over at their place as kids#grieving is almost too nebulous to grasp for me. idk if i'm doing it right#i don't really feel anything. it's always been like this. just makes me feel so alienated from others. idk.
2 notes
·
View notes
Text
had a good 24th now spending the holidays in a dark pit unpacking decades of old family bullshit
#suddenly uncovering the cause of why the holidays always leave me all grug gonna do it for real#like - yes very useful glad i know this now#but it's not exactly solving anything or making me feel better so#now i'm just sitting here hyper aware of the building blocks of Why I'm Like This while feeling profoundly sad about it#ANYWAY#lets post about wrestling#any day now i'll either meet up with friends or just do the craziest workout#and then all will be well#or i'll have another randy orton dream and wake up so annoyed that i forget that i was sad at all
2 notes
·
View notes
Text
Wendy 💥
#rat rambles#starve posting#thinking oh so hard abt my terrible son#god dont starve is so messed up for giving every character heaps of examination quotes to sift through I love it sm#its such an agonizing but delightful experience to scroll through heaps of dialogue thats just a character going yep thats a rock#only to get absolutely sucker punched by the random like super impactful piece of dialogue that ruins your life#or just the event sections where we get to see them be silly billies for a bit and it just makes me so happy#like wendy's cawnaval and hallowed nights candy dialogue make me so happy and sad at the same time#along with winters feast but mostly just because of the holiday cheer dialogue#the hallowed nights candy dialogue is my personal favorite tho simply because wendy is so silly#I love watching this kid get more and more excited abt the events throughout each ones dialogue its absolutely delightful#I also like wendy's general soft spot for food and its funny to me that this sad wet british boy actually likes spicy food#abby doesnt tho another tick to add to the shes just like me fr list#I sometimes wonder what abby's favorite food would be in a world where she was playable#realistically probably also banana pop but I think it'd be fun if it was smth different#in particular my personal hc is that her favorite food is jerky partially cause she just likes jerky and partially because her dad would#sometimes buy jerky for the twins and abby would always try to get wendy to give her half once she was done eating hers#I also wonder the same abt charlie and the og ds exclusive characters but thats less important to me#Ill have to go read through wheeler and walani's food dialogue for inspiration at some point tho I think thatd be fun#I know wheeler like scrambled eggs but thats not an option so rip to her#not a clue abt walani tho Ive only read like half of her dialogue#I should read all of it tho I like her a lot I just forgot where I left off#and the rest of the gang can explode ig idk#idk I might read through wilba dialogue at some point and I might reread wagstaff dialogue too but theyre not top priority#I think the next character I wanna do a proper sit down and read for is wickerbottom#Ive read decent chunks of her dialogue already but pretty scattered chunks#but yeah Ill probably not get to that for a lil bit since Im in too much of a wendy mood rh#Ive also been thinking abt roleswap wendy a Lot lately I need to design him soon#mostly because I need to one up that w3n-d concept design because I am. not a fan lol.#I will be taking inspiration from the almost bug like eyes tho its kinda ugly but I also kind of like it at the same time
2 notes
·
View notes
Text
…
#my mum came to visit on Thursday for the weekend#I haven’t seen her in a little over 3 years#I was in the hospital and she flew over to be with me. so. I was in pretty bad shape. not prime interaction there either#and THAT was probably after a 2 year gap? idk anymore#but she visited and tonight she went to her hotel and I won’t see her in the morning bc work so. this was the last night#and it was a fantastic visit by and large. complaints are for things that aren’t her haha#but she left bc the trip is over of course. I’m an adult and I still can’t get over it#I’m happy - seriously so grateful bc her life is very busy and my stepdad picked up a LOT to make it happen#but I guess there’s always going to be that empty wanting for my mum like I’m 4 again and she had to go off to college never REALLY returns#summers off and then occasional holidays and then maybe once a year and. idk I guess you don’t get over some things. I know that! but#I suppose it’s a good thing that when she leaves I’m sad for it#complicated relationship still but. she’s my mum.#no worries I’m just going to be a sop for the next Whenever. needed to jot it down. explain myself haha#payslipgig talks too much#I need to fucking change playlists tho jfc I’m listening to my bloody valentine and expecting a chipper mood?? like babe come on
3 notes
·
View notes