#his voice just works so well with EDM!! and ok yeah every other style but im biased so

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More Than Friends ||

Chp. 33

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CEO!Jaehyun AU x Reader

College Student!Jaemin AU x Reader

Summary: After a complicated relationship with the infamous CEO, you want nothing more than to live your life as a normal college student; however, Mr. CEO just can’t let you go.

Warnings: good old angst

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You felt odd and attentive as you stepped out of Jaehyun’s car. Straightening the new dress out, you stood up and prepared to separate from Jaehyun. He walked up to you, nonchalantly swinging the car keys around his fingers. Checking you out, he smirked, “See? This dress looks so much better on you.”

You scoffed, “Yeah. Thanks for ripping my borrowed dress and spending four thousand on a new one.”

You were about to leave for the entrance first, but he pulled you back to his side. Confused you tried to squirm out of his hold, “What are you doing? I need to go first so people don’t see us walking in together.”

He stared at you, dead serious, “Who cares. We’re from the same company, people will just assume you work for me and that’s why you’re by my side.”

His words made your heart hurt a little. You wondered if that was what he really thought of you as-- just his worker. You know he didn’t mean it, but you couldn’t help but feel used. You shifted uncomfortably in the expensive red dress, feeling absolutely foreign in such expensive material and going into such a high-class event.

Jaehyun noticed your change in behavior and placed his hand on your cheek, “Hey... I didn’t mean that. You mean so much more to me and I really do wish I could just tell everyone that you’re the light of my life.”

You pressed your lips together and smiled, “Nothing’s wrong with what you said, don’t worry. I get it. We can go in together but,” you pushed his hands off your cheek, “No touching.”

Before overthinking even more, you proceed forward to the entrance. Immediately, the ballroom’s attendees all turned to the two of you. The attention too much for you to handle, you stepped away from the spotlight to look for Mark and Soyeon. Jaehyun went to greet other people and naturally, the distance between the two of you grew further and further as the night unfolds.

This kind of setting wasn’t usually your scene, but having Mark, Soyeon, and Lucas keeping you company, made the night so much more fun. Endless waves of laughter and champagne kept you alive. Suddenly, Lucas excused himself saying that Johnny had arrived. As he left, your two friends sandwiched you, making you set your champagne down on the glass table.

“So girly, what took you so long to get here?” Soyeon smirked. “Also, YOUR DRESS??”

You almost choked when she brought up the dress. Her eyes filled with curiosity as she kept on asking you questions, not giving you a break to breathe. “Did you hate my dress that much? I mean yes, I get that it was a bit on the ‘hoe’ side but it looked cute on you.” She then snaked her hand to the back of your neck, “Wait a minute. This dress.” She slightly pulled the back of your dress down to reveal the label and her mouth was left agape with shock. “Holy shit Mark. This is it. We can happily send our love away.”

Mark looked at her with a raised eyebrow, “What makes you think that?”

Soyeon smirked, “Because our little baby bird here is wearing a 4k Alexander Wang dress.”

Now, it was Mark’s turn to open his mouth wide. “Holy shit. Our love has a sugar daddy now.”

You rolled your eyes at your dramatic friends as they continued to make exaggerated reactions, poking you here and there, feeling the material of your dress. “Shut up you two...” You stared down at your sparkly, black heels and told them softly, “I only let him buy me this because the previous dress kind of ripped a little...” You looked up at Soyeon with guilt, “Sorry for ruining your dress.”

She waved her hand, “Please. That dress wasn’t even that much.” She then wrapped her arm around your shoulder, forcing you to get closer towards her, “But the real issue here is, why did my dress rip hm?”

Panic rushed over you and you turn to Mark for help but he simply responded, “Yeah, I agree with Soyeon. What the hell happened?”

You stood up and said with embarrassment written all over your face, “Nothing! I have to go to the restroom. Bye!”

As you got ready to leave the table, Jaehyun towered over you and placed his hands on the back of your waist. He smirked, turning you around to face your friends, “How are you guys enjoying the ball so far?”

You thought you noticed a sly glint in Soyeon’s eyes as she replied, “Oh just great and it’s all thanks to the powerful Jung Yoonoh.” She exchanged a knowing look with Jaehyun as you and Mark stared at them with confusion. 

Mark spoke up, “Wait, hold up. When did you two get so close?” He pointed to both Jaehyun and Soyeon as they burst out into laughter.

Jaehyun answered sarcastically, “It’s pretty hard not to know the neighbor who blasts EDM music until 2 in the morning.”

Soyeon scoffed jokingly, “Please, my party’s are the best and you know it.”

You and Mark just stared at each other and then back at them while they exchanged a conversation the two of you thought you’d never hear. You became skeptical and asked your boyfriend, “You’ve been to one of her parties?”

He leaned in closer and whispered to you, loudly enough for everyone to hear, “Don’t worry baby, her parties are trash and I won’t ever be those people,” he motioned his head towards Soyeon, “who grinds on sweaty bodies and calls it dancing.”

As he finished talking, Soyeon gasped and chucked a name tag on the table towards him. She dramatically exclaimed, “How dare you! I disapprove of this relationship! You and y/n is a big no from me.” 

Jaehyun was avoiding her dramatic outburst playfully but suddenly tensed up at her words. He got closer to her and whisper-shouted, “Keep your voice down, unless you want the whole world to know about our relationship.”

You felt something ache in your heart as he told your friend those words. Mark caught your sudden change of expression and shot you a sympathetic look. You brushed it off and chugged the champagne Jaehyun held. His sudden empty hands stopped him from conversing with Soyeon. Just as he was about to say something to you, Lucas approached your table, slightly covering the tall man behind him, “Whoa there little one, slow down on the drinking or else you won’t even remember Johnny over here,” Lucas stepped aside and gestured to the tall man by placing a firm pat on his back.

You choked a little on your drink. As Jaehyun pat you gently on the back, he asked with concern, “Are you ok baby?”

Setting down the glass, you wiped the corner of your mouth with your thumb, “Yeah I’m ok... It’s just-” You looked at Johnny with confusion, “Aren’t you Mark’s friend?”

He chuckled deeply, “So you’re the famous y/n.” 

You stared at him for a second and then broke out into a huge grin, “Oh my god, it’s so nice to see you again!” You ran towards him and gave him a tight hug. Your arms were still wrapped around his waist as you pulled your head back to stare up at him, “So you’re a model huh?”

Gently ruffling your hair, he replied with a sweet smile, “Not by choice babe.”

“Hey! Don’t mess up my hair!” Pouting, you attempted to fix your styled hair.

The two of you forgot about everyone in the table who was now staring with a variety of expressions. From a smiley Soyeon, a smug Mark, a confused Lucas, to a very pissed off Jaehyun, you and Johnny cleared your throats and separated from each other. Jaehyun walked forward, fuming, and connected your hands together, protectively pulling you to him. Johnny chuckled and placed a hand on his shoulder, “Calm down Mr. CEO, y/n is the photographer I was talking about. Mark introduced her to me.”

After hearing Johnny’s words, he loosened up and glared at him, “Good. Because I would’ve killed you right here.”

You stared at them with confusion and Johnny rolled his eyes at Jaehyun, “Stop being so possessive bro.”

Lucas sat down beside Soyeon, with his arms wrapped around her. They whispered secretively and suddenly announced, “OK! Since there seems to be a lot of misunderstanding and secrets going on here. It’s confession time ladies and gents!” Lucas continued, “Johnny you go first.”

Everyone stared at Lucas like he was psychotic, but he only smirked as he edged Johnny to speak. Giving in, Johnny cleared his throat and confessed, “So... I always wanted to be a photographer instead of a model, so I secretly went to y/n’s photoshoots to help her. BUT I swear,” he turned to Jaehyun, “I did not know she was the y/n. I just assumed she was Mark’s friend with the same name.” He sighed and everyone stared at him. Suddenly, you burst into giggles. “It’s not that serious you guys. And Jaehyun over here,” you placed your hands on his shoulders and told everyone, “is just a hothead who loves me too much,” a smile left your lips as you gazed up at him sweetly, “Right love?”

You wrapped your arm around him and he playfully rolled his eyes, “Yeah whatever.”

Just then Lucas’ phone rang causing him to momentarily leave the area. When he came back you heard him whisper to Jaehyun. You caught him saying, “I got some information from the investigator regarding him. This is some big news.”

Instantly, Jaehyun���s eyes flickered with curiosity. He was about to tell you he had to go, but an unfamiliar voice called him. Both you and Jaehyun turned around to see a well-dressed, middle-aged man. Almost immediately, he took your arm off his and straightened up, “Mr. Na, what a wonderful charity ball.”

You felt a sharp pang strike your heart. Although you knew this relationship had to be kept a secret for the best, you couldn’t help but feel heartbroken at how fast Jaehyun can distance himself from you. Your friends all felt the same tension and stayed silent as Johnny and Lucas, too, walked forward to greet the man.

Lucas gave you a small pat on the arm as he walked forward. “Mr. Na, you surprise me every time! You really outdid yourself with this ball. Our interns really enjoyed it as well,” he gestured to the three of you. 

The man gave us a polite smile and went back to conversing with Jaehyun, “As always, SM Management has never let us down. Your stocks are impressive and I will be glad to introduce you to our guests here tonight.”

Jaehyun disguised his excitement with a polite handshake, “It would be my pleasure, Mr. Na.”

He laughed shaking his hands, “Let me introduce to you my wonderful son and the heir to Starship. I hope he and you will be working together quite often in the future.”

Just then, a person dressed in a very classy and expensive suit walked in. Your eyes widen in both panic and shock as he shook hands with Jaehyun. Jaehyun pressed his lips together and formed a forced smile as he shook his hands with great strength. You slightly tap Jaehyun’s back, scared he was going to break the poor guy’s hand. When he let go of his hand, the man turned to you, staring at you with soft eyes, “Y/n.”

Everyone’s attention was now on you and the man. You froze not knowing what to do with this unexpected situation. He smiled brightly and said, “I’m glad I get to see one person I like here.”

His father gave him a quick glare as he said such an inconsiderate statement in front of everyone. You finally got the courage to speak up, “Jaemin I-”

Before you could say anything, Jaehyun protectively stood in front of you and said, “I’m looking forward to working with you, but unfortunately our interns will not be working as closely with you as you’d like.”

The two exchanged firm eye contact with each other, neither one budging to cut the tension. Jaemin’s father then spoke up with a chuckle, “So son, you know Jaehyun’s intern?”

Jaemin broke the intense stare-off and put on a smile again, “Y/n is my,” he stared at you and stood beside you, “y/n is a very close friend of mine from university.” He then continued, ignoring Jaehyun’s fuming expression, “I actually know Jaehyun too, but I’ll save that story for another time,” he chuckled. Placing a hand on your arm, he gently said to you, “See you next time?”

You managed to place a smile on your face as your only response. You weren’t aware of why Jaemin was so happy before he left with his father to the podium, but what you were aware of was Johnny and Lucas rushing to hold your boyfriend back. You snapped out of your thoughts and rushed to Jaehyun. Grabbing his face, you forced him to look at you, “Don’t cause a scene Yoonoh. You’re here to impress them, remember?” His blood was boiling, but as you continued speaking to him softly, his eyes softened and focused on you. You let your hands fall down to his arms as a precaution, just in case anyone walked by and saw you. “Jaemin was just happy to see a friend. There was nothing more to that.” You then connected your hands together, “I love you, and only you, Jaehyun. Don’t ever forget that. No matter what happens, I love you.” 

You smiled at him as he slowly returned a small smile. You poked his dimple and grinned, “There’s my cute boyfriend.”

He rolled his eyes at your compliment. Just then, Jaemin’s father announced from the stage, “I will like to welcome a great friend of mine, who will help in building a fantastic foundation for the partnership between Starship and SM Management. Please welcome, Jung Jaehyun!”

A round of applause was heard throughout the large ballroom. You gave him a subtle wink as he went forward to the stage. 

From the moment he told you his company was struggling, you felt a large amount of guilt rush over you. You often thought that if you hadn’t met Jaehyun, he might not have so many problems to deal with, especially ones that involved Emily. Tonight, however, you were beyond happy that he had found a way to jump over that hurdle and stay strong for his company. You felt a wave of relief wash over you as he started his speech. Although the ballroom was much larger and fancier than your lecture hall, you couldn’t help but think back to when you first found out his true identity. You laughed to yourself as you realized that he, too, was giving a speech that day. However, your thoughts were interrupted when the lights of the ballroom shut off.

Suddenly, the projector screen on the stage lit up and a light was shone on Jaehyun. The audience seems to be relaxed, waiting for a special video to play on the projector, but you knew something was wrong. Your eyes laid on Jaehyun’s face and his expression was one of utter confusion. 

Everyone’s attention faced the projector screen as a video started playing. You watched in horror as the screen displayed a videotape of you and Jaehyun in the conference room. As the video came to an end, a light shone directly on you. You could see your friends walking towards you in an attempt to divert the attention. You could also see Jaehyun and Jaemin frantically discussing with the security team to find out who did this. However, the only thing you felt was everyone’s stares. The audio system suddenly boomed with a mysterious voice.

This is the true identity of the person you plan on working with. An office romance with an intern? How can someone be so unprofessional... I am hugely disappointed and so should you.

The warped voice played on loop as it rang throughout the ballroom. You felt everyone continuously staring at you with looks of shock, judgment, and disgust on their faces. You suddenly felt dizzy, the memories of your childhood came rushing back to you.

At this very moment, you felt like your 3 year-old self who stood in the middle of the customer service of a department store. Crying for your parents but was only met with odd glances from customers. You remember how vulnerable and guilty you felt. You remember how you thought to yourself: Why did my own parents leave me? Did I do something to upset them? Why won’t they come back to me??

A loud boom brought you back to reality. You turned towards the entrance doors and found reporters swarming in, attempting to run towards either Jaehyun or you. The ballroom security guards tried their best to keep them from intruding, but you had enough of the chaos. You rushed to the nearest room and found yourself in a fancy restroom, decorated with mirrors.

You tried to get a hold of yourself but was met with your own appearance in the mirrors surrounding you. You thought it was impossible, but it was as if your own appearances were laughing and scolding you.

Look at you, getting caught with someone way over your league.

Look at the mess you’ve caused!

Jaehyun’s career is ruined because of you!

This is why your parents left you.

You can’t even behave properly!

At this point, your mind was a mess. You couldn’t get the voices out of your head and tears started rolling down your cheeks. You slid down on the floor, cradling yourself as if it will help you calm down. You felt dizzy and missed your brother so much. He was always there to comfort you. He was the only person who took care of you when no one else did, not even your parents. But this time, he wasn’t here. No one was. You felt so useless and scared.

Pictures of your parents leaving you, the reporters flooding into your apartment, and the ruckus right outside you all came crashing down on you. You couldn’t handle the stress anymore. Feeling a little lightheaded, you looked up and started seeing a white light that kept expanding bigger and bigger. Slowly, you fell into a visionless, dark tunnel, no longer aware that you weren’t conscious.

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NonIdol! AU

Lee Know | Lee Minho x Reader x Platonic! Hwang Hyunjin

Genre: Angst, Crack, Tiny bit of fluff if you squint

Trigger Warnings: Somewhat graphic descriptions of death

Word Count: 4598

A/N: #NotProofread #WeDyingLikeMEN

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Dancing was always your passion. For as long as you remembered, you enjoying moving your body to rhythm of songs. The way you felt when the music flowed through your body was exhilarating. You hummed to yourself, nodding softly to the beat of the bassline reverberating through your ear drums from your earbuds. 

It is in the late hours of the afternoon and you were dancing on stage in the empty auditorium. It became a habit of yours to come by afterschool to just dance. Little did you know, you had an admirer from afar.

You jumped a bit on the spot feeling the stage floor colliding with the balls of your feet relaxing your muscles and loosening your legs. The old stage creaked and moaned under your warmups.  Heavy edm and bass were vibrating in your ears. You were in a mood for a more arduous routine. Once your joints and limbs were loosened up, you went at it. Fast and precise movements, intricate and hard hitting footwork, even some acrobatics. The worn wood of the stage struggled to hold itself together after years of use. After a heavy landing, the wood frame and support finally snapped and splintered under the impact. Instinctively, you let out a scream when you felt your foot and ankle become swallowed by the floor and feeling yourself collapsing through the weak wood. You hit your head in the process as you land flat on your back under the stage. You let out a loud groan of pain as you felt your limbs burn and throb from the impact.

"Wow, that was a nasty spill," a male voice chuckled out.

You jolted in surprise from the sudden voice. The action sent you groaning in pain. You felt your head sting and throb from where it impacted with the stage. 

"Did it hurt?" the man smiled with a gummy smile.

You cracked an eye open to meet the dark haired man before you. He smiled at you wholeheartedly as he sat there cross legged.

Your head throbbed in protest as you press a palm to the forming bump.

"Noooooo," you responded sarcastically. "I don't know what you're talking about."

"I meant when you fell from heaven?" The male smirked.

"Very funny," you huffed. "Who the fuck are you? And why are you sitting beneath the stage? Are you a troll?"

"I prefer a being from the upside down."

"Nerd," you huffed. 

"I'm Lee Know. Now," he paused, perking up a bit and pulled his crossed legs closer to him with his hands. "I gave you something of mine, now you have to do the same in return."

"You're not getting my name that easily," you stood up slowly and dusted yourself off. 

"How about you give me your heart?" He smiled. The smile he gave was genuine with no signs of ill intent or mischievousness. Even so, you can't help but deadpan at the male.

"I don't even know who you are," you pulled yourself out of the hole and hoisted yourself back up on the stage.

Men.

~

"Did it hurt when you fell from heaven?" Lee Know smiled fondly at you.

"Again, Lee Know? How was the crawl up from hell? Because you are insufferable," you grimaced, walking away.

Lee Know smirked at your turned back and he followed close behind joining you at your side. 

"What do you want?" you rolled your eyes at the man.

"Just wanna talk," he grinned.

You scoffed in response.

"Do you like raisins?"

You stopped in place and faced him with your eyebrows furrowed in confusion. 

"What kind of question is that? That isn't someone you would ask for small talk."

Lee Know shrugged. "Guess raisins isn't really your style. How about a date?"

"Oh. My. God!" you exclaimed annoyed. "I can't believe you."

"Ok ok, I'm sorry," Lee Know laughed, his eyes crinkled from his large smile. "On a more serious note though. My phone's being a spaz lately. Can you check it out?"

Lee Know rummaged through his pant pockets to pull out the mobile device and handed it to you.

"I guess, what's your problem?" you examined the phone front and back. It didn't look to be too too damage save the one long thin crack that traveled from the bottom left corner to the top right corner. It didn't look to be too serious where it affected the screen. His lock screen display of 3 cats also proved the screen was functioning perfectly fine. You couldn't help but crack a smile at the adorable furry displays.

"I think it's broken because it doesn't have your number."

You dropped Lee Know's phone on the spot without hesitation.

~

"Dude, check out this new shirt I got. It was on a nice hot sale of like 5 bucks," Lee Know laughed.

"Nice," you replied monotonously without sparing him a glance.

Now a days, you've been spending more time with Lee Know. It turns out that the empty auditorium was both your escape from the stress of life and school. You would mind your own business dancing with earbuds in and Lee Know would sit in one of the many rows of seats, lounging his feet on the seat in front of him and typing away at his phone.

"Dude, seriously check out the material. I had really low expectations due to the price."

"What is it made out of?" you asked, taking a bite out of your apple.

Lee Know set aside the lunch tray to give you a clearer view of his shirt. He looked down with a slight pout as he pulled at the material. He let out a stifled laughed as he looked up to you.

"Boyfriend material," he grinned, obviously proud of his pick up line.

"Ah, I see," you paused momentarily. "Clingy and annoying to deal with."

"Have you started on your computer science project yet?" Lee Know asked, taking a bite out of his macaroni and cheese, totally ignoring your remark.

"Not yet, I was going to do it tomorrow."

"It's due the day after." Lee Know frowned, crossing his arms.

"Procrastination at its finest," you shrugged.

"You want to work on it today at the library then? Like after lunch?" Lee Know offered.

"Yeah, sure. Because I know I'm not going to do it when I get home. Hopefully a computer would be free."

"You could rent out a laptop," Lee Know informed.

"You could do that?"

"Yeah, you just need your library card."

"Oh, dang. I don't have mine on me," you sighed, your shoulders slumped in defeat.

"I have mine. Thank god I do, because I need it to check you out."

"You're seriously annoying, you know that right?" you spat, glaring at him.

"But you love me," he hummed, smirking at you and rested his chin in the palm of his hand as he leaned forward to look deep into your eyes.

"As if. What do you want, so you can shut up," you grumbled.

"A date. Just one. That's all I ask for," Lee Know looked at you with pleading eyes.

You let out a dry chuckle.

"As if. I wouldn't go out with you unless you were the last person on Earth," you glared at him. You grabbed your backpack, slinging it over your shoulder and grabbing your lunch tray before turning to leave.

Lee Know gazed at your turned back with a prominent frown on his face. His eyes held a deep sadness and a familiar clenching pain bubbled within his chest.

You sighed to yourself. You almost felt bad rejecting him in that manner in the canteen in front of other people who probably witnessed your outburst. You weren't entirely opposed to the idea of going out on a date with him to get to know him better. Something about him was alluring. Maybe it was his perfectly styled black hair and parted bangs. Maybe it was his cat like features and a feline like gummy smile. Maybe it was the sound of his laughter and the sight of him doubling over in laughter as his eyes squinted shut and tear up.

Not only that, Lee Know was actually pleasant to talk to when he didn't use bad pick up lines every other sentence. You found out that you both share the same interest and passion for dance. Like you, he had been dancing ever since he could walk. You enjoyed the random freestyle dances you both would do almost everyday. You were impressed at his skill. Never would you have thought he would be a dancer as well.

If only he wasn't so damn annoying with his pick up lines.

A car pulled up in front of you and rolled down the passenger side window. Within revealed a casual dressed man with dark locks looking at you questioningly. 

"Uber for Y/N?" the dark hair male asked from the driver seat.

"Yea, thanks," you smiled politely.

The male smiled softly in return and briefly stepped out. He did a light jog to your side and opened the door for you in the back and gestured for you in.

"Thank you," you bowed your head in thanks, stepping into the car.

"This address, correct?" the male showed you the display on his phone after he returned back to the driver's seat to double check that the address you inputted in your request was correct.

"Yes, that's correct," he nodded in response and started heading towards your desired destination.

"Thank you so much," you stated stepping out of the car and gathering your material.

"No problem, if you ever need a lift, feel free to call again," the man smiled.

Pulling out your earbuds and inserting them into your ear, you played a random song from your playlist. Suddenly, you heard loud tire screeching and honking. You let out a sudden yelp when the loud familiar sound of impact ripped out through the air. With your heart hammering in your chest, you whipped around. The sight before you were two cars that were totaled, one of which was your Uber driver's with the driver side of the car extremely indented in. You could see faint trails of red seeping out of the impact. The other car who had ran the red light had the front of the car done in. The driver of the car was slumped over the wheel. It appeared the airbag hadn't gone off so his head was split open and bleeding. His dull dead eyes seemed to be staring at you as you let out a loud scream.

Suddenly, you were pulled into someone's arms as they turned you away from the sight and clamping a hand over your eyes.

"Shhh, don't look. Don't look," Lee Know's comforting voice whispered into your ear. He pulled you closer to his chest as you heaved and sobbed. The last thing you heard was Lee Know dialing the authorities to report a car crash before you were lost within your sobs.

~

With a protective arm around your shoulder, Lee Know led you into a cafe that was quite a bit from the crash. You were still sobbing and shaking in his arms. He held you up as your knees occasionally buckled and your legs gave out. 

"Move," a gruff voice rang out as he shoved your shaken form into Lee Know.

"Hey, asshole! Watch where you're going!" Lee Know spat at the man. The man turned revealing him to be none other than Han Jisung with a scowl in his face. He and two other practically ruled the school. They were called 3RACHA, they were practically untouchable and every lady wants them and every men want to be them.

"Then don't stand there," Jisung mockingly remarked and waltzed into the cafe without another care in the world.

"Asshole," Lee Know grumbled under his breath watching the jock head into the hallways leading to the back.

Lee Know fished out his wallet and pulled out a couple of bills and placed them into your shaking hands.

"Buy yourself some hot chocolate, ok? Find a seat for the both of us too. I need to use the restroom real quick," he said in a soft voice.

You sniffled and nodded slowly. You watched Lee Know for a bit as he walked off to the back towards the hallway with a hanging sign labelled restrooms.

"Hey, welcome to Yellow Woods… cafe. Y/N?" the sound of the barista's voice saying your name made you jump for a bit. You turned to him and it was Hwang Hyunjin, himself. He was your dance partner for your dance classes every other day, but worked part time as a barista after school. He mentioned he worked part time after school a few times when you tried to set up a convenient time for you both to practice your dance routine or just to dance in general, but he never really said what his job was.

"Are you alright?!" Hyunjin ran around the counter to hold you steady by the shoulders. "Y/N talk to me, you're pale as a sheet and you're shaking so much."

"I'm not… I'm not ready to talk about it," you whispered out, your voice betraying you. The image of the impact and the two dead drivers were still fresh in your mind. You couldn't help but feel that, if you decided to go straight home, you would've in that crash as well. You could've possibly died. Your eyes welled up at the scary thought. You always feared death, so you lived life to the fullest.

"Ok… ok…" he spoke out softly and slowly to not overwhelm you. "You know, you can talk to me whenever you feel ready."

You nodded softly.

"Do you need anything?"

"Just… two hot chocolates…" you whispered out and you held out the bills Lee Know handed you with shaky hands.

Hyunjin gently clasped your shaky hands in between his much larger ones. 

"No need. It's on the house. It's the least I could do," Hyunjin smiled softly, prompting you to smile back.

"Uhh," Lee Know's voice rang out through the air. He gazed at both your clasped hands as you smiled at each other in close proximity with an unreadable expression.

Hyunjin quickly released your hands and turned to him.

"Hello, you both can choose anywhere you like," Hyunjin stood to the side and gestured to the empty seats with an arm outstretched. "Your drinks will be ready in a minute."

Lee Know nodded and led you to a corner seat under the sun's rays. You sighed in content feeling the warmth of the sun.

"You alright?" He asked softly.

Not trusting your voice, you nodded.

"Here are your drinks," Hyunjin came over with two mugs of hot chocolate, each dolloped with a neat swirl of whipped cream. He gently set the mug in front of you both and pulled out a couple of napkins from his apron and setting it before you both.

You both thanked him as he walked away.

"So… who was that?" Lee Know didn't want to intrude or sound imposing, but he believed it was a better option to get your mind off of things with small talk.

"He's Hyunjin, my dance partner in class," you spoke, cupping the mug in your hands feeling the warmth spreading to your fingertips. "We're not that close, but he's a nice person with a big heart. We tried to get together and dance for the hell of it afterschool, but he's always busy with his job."

"I see, we could dance together if you want?" Lee Know offered with a small smile.

You let out a small huff after taking a small sip of your beverage. "You seemed perfectly fine being occupied by your phone every time we're there."

"I was typing out a paper about the finer things in life. You know because I don't procrastinate like you," Lee Know chuckled.

You shook your head at his attack.

"I was wondering if I could interview you," Lee Know grinned. 

"Oh my gooodddd, stop," you whined.

Lee Know smiled at you fondly. He couldn't help but find your whine absolutely adorable. You both spent the rest of the time chatting away the rest of the afternoon with small talk and many many bad pickup lines. Lee Know helped get your mind off of the gruesome accident. The sun began to set behind the horizon. The fading light dyed the skies and clouds a brilliant mix of red and orange as the birds began to settle for the day.

Taking that as a cue to leave, Lee Know spoke up. "It's getting late. Do you want me to walk you home?"

"Yes, please," you whispered.

Lee Know nodded as you both stood up with the empty mugs in your hands as you headed to Hyunjin at the front counter.

"You didn't have to bring it up," Hyunjin spoke out, taking the mugs in his hands.

"It's alright. We don't mind," you whispered out. "I'll see you tomorrow, ok?"

"I'll see you tomorrow," Hyunjin stood up to hug you over the counter. Hyunjin turned away with the mugs in his hands to place them in the sink. When he did, he felt a wave of fatigue wash over him and he suddenly became very dizzy. His legs stumbled a bit as he dropped one of the mugs, the glass shattering on the tiled floor. His other hand flew to the counter to catch his balance.

"H-hyunjin!" you called out grasping his arm gently.

Hyunjin blinked rapidly and shook his head lightly to get rid of the dizziness. He turned to you and let out a lighthearted laugh.

"Whew. Stood up too quickly and got dizzy," he laughed, turning away and placing the other mug in the sink and grabbing a broom to broom away the broken pieces of glass.

"Are you ok?" you asked. 

"Yea, I'll see you tomorrow, ok?" Hyunjin smiled warmly and turned his attention back to brooming away the broken glass.

Once Lee Know and you were gone and after he heard the bell on the door ringing as you left, Hyunjin frowned. Hyunjin let out a whine of pain. His hand flew to his hammering chest. The pain felt unbearable. His lungs and heart felt constricted as if his rib cage was contracting and squeezing him from the inside through and through. He let out a shaky gasp as he reached for the counter trying to catch his breath. His legs gave out sending him forward into the counter and ultimately falling to the floor. His flail arms sending most of the items on the counter top to the floor as well. Hyunjin convulced and shook on the floor, his eyes rolled to the back of the head as drool came out of his lips before falling limp with his mouth wide open in a silent scream.

Coincidentally in a similar position, in back restroom in one of the stalls was Han Jisung. From the outside, you could see his spread legs and a hanging arm, but within, Jisung shared a similar fate. He was slumped over the toilet with his head thrown back. His eyes were wide open with his pupils rolled fully to the back of his head and his mouth was slightly gaped open.

The police couldn't detect any foul play. No sort of abnormal physical trauma, so strangulation wasn't an option. A clean tox screen so poison wasn't an option. The two males were perfectly healthy. Neither of them drank or did drugs or have any pre existing illnesses. They just… died.

Hwang Hyunjin and Han Jisung weren't unique cases. Several other people died in the same manner. There were no correlation or causation; several people were dying out of the blue with no connection to one another yet it all seem to gravitate closer and closer to home.

"Are you tired?" Lee Know asked with a protective arm around your shoulders.

"A little bit," you whispered.

"You must be exhausted, because you've been running in my mind all day," Lee Know laughed.

"Stooop," you whined. "You're so annoying."

You both let out a gasp once you've turned the corner on your block. Outside your house, more specifically your neighbor's house, were several emergency vehicles parked in front with some spillage over onto your front lawn. 

"Wh-what happened?" you breathed out, running out of his arms towards your parents who were standing outside the barricade. Lee Know followed close behind. 

"Hi, sweetie," your mom hugged you. 

"Poor thing, the elderly couple have sadly passed away," your dad started. "They were pronounced dead on arrival."

"Are you alright? Who is this?" your mom asked.

"He's a friend. This is Lee-"

"Hello, I'm Lee Minho," he bowed politely introducing himself.

"Min-Minho?" you mouthed at him. He gave you a look that said to not say anything.

"He walked me home," you looked back at your mom.

"Thank you so much. Would you like to stay for dinner?"

"I don't want to intrude," Lee Know bowed apologetically.

"Nonsense, it's the least we could do for walking our child home," your dad butt in.

You both awkwardly chuckled looking at each other.

"So, what do you do, Minho?" your dad asked.

"Oh, I, uhh, I dance," Minho sputtered.

You chuckled inwardly seeing the change of personality. When Lee Know was with you, he was outgoing and confident. Lee Know now was so meek and quiet and looked ready to crap himself.

"Oh, so do you dance with Y/N, then?" your mom asked.

"Uhh, at times," Minho chuckled awkwardly. 

"Yea, we do. We freestyle sometimes in the auditorium afterschool," you added on, saving Minho. 

"Are you courting Y/N, Minho?" your dad asked causing you both to choke on your drinks. 

The awkward silence [by Stray Kids] that followed weighed in the atmosphere. The only noise that could be heard was the clattering of the utensils across the plates and the TV in the corner of the kitchen playing the daily local news.

"... two found dead at Yellow Wood Cafe, adding onto the string of recent abnormal deaths," the newscaster stated in a neutral professional tone.

You turned your attention to the small screen in the corner that displayed the smug face of Han Jisung and the soft smiling face of Hwang Hyunjin.

"Oh my god," your hands flew to cover your gaping mouth as your face contorted and weeped. "Oh my god, Hyunjin, why?"

Hyunjin was fine when you last saw him. He was smiling and laughing just hours before save the strange dizzy spell he told you not to worry about. 

"Dear? Are you ok?" your mom quickly stood from her seat. The chair leaned back and clattered against the tiled floor.

"Dad?" you called out in earnest.

Your father heaved. He stood up and slouched over coughing profusely. Parts of his dinner was caught in his throat. He hacked and choked trying to get the food item out but to no avail. His hands flew up to his throat as he clawed and scratched at the flesh there.

"Minho, call the ambulance!" your mom ordered in a panic.

Minho quickly ran to his backpack in the corner and began rummaging through his backpack.

"Lee Know!" you nagged him.

"I'm looking for it, I can't find my phone!" Lee Know stumbled over his words as he rummages through his backpack even more. 

"M-mom!" you reached out.

Suddenly your mother fell to her knees as well. Her hands flew to her chest as tears ran down her cheeks. She gasped and wheezed as well. Sooner than later, both of your parents were on the ground gasping and wheezing for air.

"LEE KNOW!"

"I'M LOOKING!"

You turned back to your parents. "Mom, dad! Stay with me!"

Tears were streaming down your face as you tried to keep yourself together. You felt your world falling apart when your father fell flat on his back, his arms falling limp at his sides as he let out a final weak breath and his eyes went dark. Your mom began convulsing and shaking. Her eyes were fully rolled to the back of her head exposing the whites of her eyes as drool dribbled down her chin. Soon, all that was left of your mom was light tremors. Mainly from her nerves, but she herself has passed on.

"No!" you wailed grabbing at your mom's shoulders and alternating between her and your dad, trying to shake them awake.

"Lee Know!" you sobbed.

Lee Know stepped within your vision. His feet came into view by your parents' heads. You looked up to him begging for him to help in anyway. You gasp looking at his blank expression. Within a hand was his backpack and with the other hand, he pulled out his mobile device.

"W-wait, so… you knew where your phone was the entire time?" you sobbed, feeling betrayed.

"Yes," he responded. His voice was unlike all the other times. His voice usually was soft, yet headstrong and passionate but lighthearted and pleasing to the ear. Now, it was as if darkness was dripping from his voice. His tone was monotone, almost cruel and cold.

"W-why?" you sobbed.

Lee Know simply released the items in his possessions, dropping it to the floor with a light clatter.

"I only did the terms you set," he smirked menacingly.

"W-what?" 

Letting out a light chuckle, Lee Know fixed his gaze on you; he tilted his head mischievously as you saw a glowing red iris peeking through his dark fringe making eye contact with your wide ones. A dark mist began flowing from the sleeves of his hoodie and his jeans. The dark fog surrounded his body and seemed to condense and come together to something similar to distressed fabric. The dark black fabric draped over his body loosely as a hood formed around his head. His menacing red eyes stared you down as the flesh of his face seemed to dissipate into fog exposing bits of bone underneath. Finally, within his hands, a long dark scythe appeared. The blade was rounded and curved made with what appeared to be a fine silver with the hilt delicate curved.

"W-what are you?" you sobbed out, crawling away from him. Fear wracked your body as your heart hammered in your chest.

"Me?" Lee Know chuckled. "I'm the grim reaper."

"Why? Why are you doing this?"

"You already know why," he let out a sultry chuckle.

You let out a loud gasp. Your eyes widen as you felt your heart skipped a beat. The entire world seemed to weigh down on you and you found it difficult to move a single limb.

"I'd always admired you from afar. I was always nearby anticipating your impending death, but watching you on that stage reminded me of… me. You reminded me of the days where I danced on stage, before I died… from the accident," Lee Know paused, as if he was grieving over his lost life. "You would've died as well, you should have died if it weren't for my interference. When you fell, your head came into contact with one of the supporting beams, breaking your neck, but I saved you."

You finally realized upon looking at his sickly smile.

"Now, I did this favor of saving your from death. It is only fair if I get what I want, yes?"

"I wouldn't go out with you unless you were the last person on Earth."

[chenoehi]

1, 10, 17, 18, 44, 49 for the bts asks!!💕

👋👋👋 Thank you for these questions! They made me think lol (also you're an MVP for always keeping up with me when I live blog performances 😭)

FUN BTS ASKS <-

1. How and when did you get into BTS?

This is the shorter version bc I'm working on a personal post about this actually:

When: Last week of October 2018 in Orlando, Florida, where I was 'vacationing' while also working and basically having one of the most miserable, low weeks of my life.

How: I'd known about them since at least 2017 and watched them perform at the AMAs from afar, I listened to DNA after that, the song didn't grab me (it still doesn't 😭), and for a while I was seeing BTS content come across my tl, specifically Jimin content and he became my recruitment fairy, but the day LY in Paris had also happened recently and jikook decided to do them and all of a sudden a blog I followed spammed my tl with the jikook lap incident. At that point I'd seen BTS trending on tumblr tons of times and I saw them trending for the Waste it On Me teasers. I got interested and I listened to it when it came out but I was totally confused bc they were singing in English. So that led to me watching the classic YouTube "Who Are BTS?" videos which led me to watch one video that tested your knowledge of their voices and played clips for you to guess, and that led to my absolute obsession with Let Me Know which led to a mini breakdown when I couldn't find the song on Spotify so I listened to every. damn. song. starting. from. love yourself. Until I realized I could just Google the English lyrics and find the song that way. And then the Muster DVD content came out or was circulating literally at the same time so I got to see all the nice KM content and yeah, I basically just got hooked over the course of my week in Orlando, I walked around Disney Springs blasting Anpanman in my headphones, worked all through the night with Magic Shop, slept with my headphones on and The Tturh Untold in my ears, all because they're crackheads I love and not to be dramatic and shit but they kind of saved me when I was drowning.

10. Your favorite cover of BTS? (Doesn’t matter if it’s one of Jungkook, Taehyung, Jin, etc.)

I guess this means covers of BTS songs that other artists have done right? I really don't listen to many covers of BTS except sometimes I listen to piano versions on SoundCloud. I do listen to a cover of "The Truth Untold" by Emma Heesters on Spotify. It's probably not the best cover but I just haven't really sought out any others. .

17. Whose fashion style do you like the most?

Hmm. Well, Jimin is our pretty boy and I do always like seeing what he's wearing, I love Hoseok's style, I feel like Namjoon, Jin, and Yoongi are more ambiguous, and I like Taehyung's unique style.

But, it's JK. Big. Black. Comfy.

18. Which member matches with your personality the most?

Yoongi/Namjoon/Taehyung

I'm like Yoongi in the sense that neither of us tend to be the most outgoing or life of the party, he can be very quiet when he wants to be and he's pretty laid back in general. We also both like to sleep a lot, and I don't think Yoongi has a black and white view of the world, or at least that's the impression I get. So I'd gather he's one of the least judgmental among them. I also connect to his mental health struggles.

I'm like Namjoon in the sense that we both love nature, trees, and although I don't have immediate access to parks, museums, things like that, if I did I'd be on a bike roaming around or walking or going to see cultural events and all that good stuff. Alas I am not. I also think we have similar ways of thinking with regard to life. I specifically connect to his mental health struggles similar to Yoongi, although I believe Namjoon has dealt with and still deals with things more in line to what my experience is like, but with different contexts of course.

Taehyung. Sweet child. He was the member I connected to the least really just up until these past few months. But the truth is I may be more like Taehyung behavior wise than any of the others. I've caught myself lately watching him say or do things and saying to myself "Taehyung is me I am Taehyung." It's honestly scary sometimes. One time I was watching BTS play this quiz to see what member they were (which lol) and I found a lot of my answers aligning with his. I think coming from a background of farmers and from things I've seen he likes nature as well and like Namjoon he's a lover of art. He also has a habit of wearing less expensive clothes and making them look nice; I lol'd when I saw that he'd been buying inexpensive women's blouses marketed to women around 40 or so 😭 He just has a unique style and while I wouldn't say that I dress like him exactly I do sometimes gravitate to more old school styles. I also wear clothes for the opposite gender a lot.

44. If you were given the chance to say one sentence to all of them, what would you tell them?

To JIMIN: Jimin, you do have jams.

To JK: What was tasty in Busan?

To HOSEOK: What did JK text you on your last day in Malta?

OK OK time to get serious

To JK: Be confident in yourself because you are a wizard, our smart Ravenclaw, and you can accomplish anything you put your mind to; your 50% effort blows away everyone else's 100%.

To JIMIN: I think the way you sing is healing and I think you know best what works for your unique voice.

To HOSEOK: You are a son your parents can be proud of, and you should be very proud and confident in yourself because you're perfect.

To YOONGI: Please never stop writing songs about things that matter because people care and we want to hear your voice.

To SEOKJIN: "Tonight" is one of my favorite songs. You should feel happy with how you honored your pets.

To TAEHYUNG: Your grandmother would be very proud of you if she could see you.

To NAMJOON: Thank you for being the gravity holding our galaxies together.

49. What kind of concept would you like to see in the future?

Hmmm. They've done so much already. . I think it would be interesting to explore the route of Dionysus a little more, maybe a little more similar to their earlier styles with heavier rap parts, maybe an infusion of rock? I'm seeing a lot of hip hop lately that's been inspired by rock so that would be interesting. Or they could do something else and maybe infuse some EDM tracks? I know what they've done lately is more pop but I think they've only touched on EDM.

As for concepts. . I don't really know what to add?? They've done light, dark, PINK, youthful, school, soft, grrr, . . . Maybe something mature like a look more in line with MOTS: vol. 2 & 3? Those were more serious like Tear but instead they could go more toward vol. 2 and come out with like evening wear, suits (fitted), or ugh more pajama wear my god, and looks similar to what they did for SY tour Singularity and Fake Love performances? I'd love to see Hoseok in another red suit like his Final Just Dance stage . . Yes.

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Hope you liked this 💜

[sorikkung]

You did an intro to got7 a while ago could you maybe do one for A.C.E.??? They seem like a good group but I'm clueless atm so it would be v helpful!!!

lololol i did an intro to mark from got7 but not got7 as a whole, but yes ofc i will i love my talented bois and i love rambling about them heRE WE G O

an introduction to a.c.e, for dummies (jk ily choice is a great fandom pls join us)

also this is gonna get rlly long so im gonna put it under a cut

A.C.E is a 5-member boygroup under beat interactive!! which is a p small company atm so my boys dont exactly have the high quality living and practice areas and food that they deserve :(( THEYLL GET THERE THO IM SURE OF IT THEYRE LEGENDS

here’s their youtube channel with aaaaall sorts of goodies

i started stanning a.c.e predebut, bc they had a lot of content for a group that hadn’t debuted yet, and it was enough to snatch my attention real quick so you should check that shit out, they did a shitton of AMAZING covers and to get their name out there more, street buskings its a lot but i swear its worth your time theyre so talented!!

also they have matching tracksuits what more could you ask for tbh (as you can see from that vid, they’re literally so fucking extra)

a few of my favs are

this rlly long busking video w girl group songs and just a bit of everything tbh,

THIS amazing remix/cover of kard’s don’t recall by the rap line + this one cute girl,

only THE most iconic playing w fire cover, band version, (I WILL NEVER STOP SCREAMING ABOUT THAT VIDEO HONESTLY I COULD MAKE A POST ON THAT COVER ALONE ISTG) 

their flashlight cover that is enough to make a grown man cry omfuckigngOD it makes me feel things hjskskkh

that ONE TAKE dance cover they did of 3 of taeyangs songs, all focusing on a different member of the dance line

im gonna stop here before i link every damn cover they made

okay so now that thats covered (bad-um-tss) time for…DEBUT

THIs beauty right here is their debut song cactus, which has this really deep meaning to it. bc they came from a small company so they have to work extra hard to even be able to debut let alone be successful and they’re like a cactus bc cacti grow in the desert where there’s very little water but they still manage to stand strong even through the hardest of weather an environment conditions and eventually sprout beautiful flowers,, buuuuuut its also a meme for obvious reasons.

tbh debut era choice culture was just listening to cactus on repeat for days bc it was their only song at the time skjslaas not much has changed tbh LMAO but yes theyre a very edm loving group so their DANCE SKILLS ARE ON POINT SERIOUSLY IVE SEEN FEW GROUPS AS AMAZING AT DANCING AS ACE WOWOW

oh yeah did i mention that their fandom name is choice and that choice are literally the softest fandom my multifandom ass has e v e r been in?? theres literally no cringy or toxic side of the fandom its just so soft and welcoming and pure and everyone is so nice and sweet and friendly and just??? wow i love choice a lot hjkskjsshkhk choice are also SUPER talented too stan talent stan choice

speaking of cringe ace is that group that just like skipped the entire “rlly cringy boygroup debut phase” completely like no weird debut haircuts or outfits or weird lyrics about girls, well actually thats all kinda objective but like they made those outfits work ok and im a cactus isnt that weird of a lyric if you know the deep meaning behind it

aS yOu CaN sEe, cactus era was the era of the tHIGHS and the hot pants. it was literally so iconic it blew up and with great reason too, have you seen those thighs?? AND THEY KNOW IT TOO they even mentioned they chose the hot pants as their style concept and took better care of their legs than their faces. true kings. heres a video of a.c.e talking about the whole hot pants thing and just their legs in general its some quality shit. and heres a video where they decide to show off just how great their thighs are bc they like to kill choices like that, this video is important and iconic bc its where the wowson ship began and also when they declared who the king of thighs were amongst the kings of thighs. definitely a necessary watch for new choice imo. donghun lowkey grinds on the floor at 4:04, you’ve been warned. honestly that video just gets progressively gayer lmao i love it

also for us international choice they made an ENGLISH cover of cactus CAN YOU BELIEVE IT I LOVE THEM SM they didnt have to but they did and oml stan a group who stans you back this hard their english aint that great but theyre trying and i appreciate it so much theyre so amazing look

five months later they dropped their second single, callin’, and b o y was this a stressful comeback, beat had us FOOLEd,, i genuinely thought it was gonna be a flowerboy soft concept yknow with like some sweet lowkey ballad or soft pop song, but nOOooOOOooo, MORE HARDSTYLE EDM not that im complaining callin is a bop but i was TRICKED

LOOK AT THIS SHIT ITS ALL AESTHETIC AND THE CLIP OF THE SONG WAS ALL SOFT I WAS REALLY EXPECTING SMTH SOFT im sorry im still salty that beat tricked me but ITS FINE bc callin is a HELLA BOP like i honestly didnt expect them to top cactus so quickly bc like cactus was hella but they DID and its amazing and heres the link be blessed (warning, these gifs above make it look like a soft vid but there are LOTS of flashing colours and lights and its really intense on the eyes if youre not comfortable with that dont watch, just listen)

they also supplied multiple dance pracs you can find on their channel for callin bc ace feeds us well, although callin had a reaaaally short promotion period bc right after they got thrown onto survival shows for more publicity, but hey, its working!! choice is growing bigger every day and im so proud

donghun, wow and jason all went on yg’s show mixnine, and jun and chan went on the idol rebooting show, the unit. both teams are doing EXTREMELY well on their respective shows!! but ill talk more about that in their individual member profiles bc they havent been put on the same team for anything yet rip

edit: mixnine finished and donghun and jason made the cut for the final group, sehyoon didn’t :(( so dongson will be promoting with the mixnine group for a lil bit!! also chan made it to the unit debut group but jun didnt. im hoping for a sehyjun subunit pls

that was long af but now im gonna dive into the members individually!! so its probs gonna get twice as long sorrynotsorry i warned you

Jun (Park Junhee)

jun is the so-called fiery leader of ace (also lead dancer and lead vocal) but is honestly just a giant dork and a sweetheart. hes the type of guy who you scream at for being dumb and call him an idiot but thats your weird way of expressing your undying love for him?? ask literally any jun stan, they’ll say they hate him. hate him for being so PERFECT like a fucking DISNEY PRINCE he’s the designated prince of the group you know theres always that one member and hes just so LOVEABLE and stupid and skjdakhkjs he fuckign dropped his cake on his birthday when do your faves ever. dad of the group, probably lost the maknaes in the shopping mall about 3 times already. talks a lot, hates aegyo, his members might be planning on sacrificing him to satan? he does on idol class with chan every…i think its wednesday and fans vote who gets punishments n stuff and jun loses every damn time i think hes losing his faith in choice lmao. #saveleaderjun

he’s kinda married to donghun, they’re the parents of ace but donghun might try murder him in his sleep idk man, but now hes on the unit with chan and theyre all cute and you can literally ship everyone with everyone in this group

he has HELLA charisma on stage tho oh my gOd also he has one of the most unique singing voices ive ever heard so its really easy to single out, his face also is the first i learned to tell apart?? he has rlly high cheekbones and a wide but thin smile.

this is actually an ot5 video not just jun but jun’s reaction was by far the most iconic so i have to put it in his section, get you a fave who can FLY lmaooo

it would be CRIMINAL if i didnt solo out jun’s ringa linga cover, thE MOST ICONIC JUN COVER EVER HJFKDSJKFDSJK if i ever stop talking about this assume im dead bc IVE NEVER GOTTEN OVER IT jun in a leather jacket looking all rude and staring at the camera like that im WEAK, SO WEAK, AAAAAAAAHHHH

[ahem] MOVING ON

Donghun (Lee Donghun)

donghun, sometimes romanised as donghoon and often referred to by choice as hun or hoon, is the oldest member of the group and another total sweetheart, honestly ace is just a group of sweethearts, he cares for his members so damn much and is super soft?? but ALSO A s Av Age he’s on mixnine with sehyoon and jason and he SHOT DOWN YG, once again I C O N I C, yg was at a loss for words, heres more receipts of him being savage, i love my sassy boyfriend. BUT HES ALSO A SWEET NOODLE HJKSHJKS oH and did you know that before he joined a.c.e he had no experience in dancing whatsoever and in a year and a half, he caught up with the other four members that have been dancing since they were kids?? I STAN TALENT YALL you’d literally never be able to guess that bc all of them are like on an equal dance level its insane

also he used to have braces during cactus era and it was the softest shit

[cOUGHS] so like did someone say disrespect,,, bc he can do that too,,,,, aAAAAAAAH the duality of this man istg

he’s the main vocalist and has vO C AL S OF AN A N GEL, he has so much soul and emotion in his voice, and has adlibs for days oh my god, he also has the MOST BEAUTIFUL FALSETTO i’ve ever heard, fight me, actually come at me. his voice works REALLY well with chan so they pair him up with him for quite a handful of covers like the all of me one i linked (one of my favs omfg it makes me emo) cause like, his soulful voice plus chan’s higher, sweet voice just sounds so great together i love our main vocals wow.

sPEAKING OF WOW,

Wow (Kim Sehyoon)

his stage name is wow, but its hard to take seriously so the fandom just calls him sehyoon lmfao. it used to be seyoon but when he went on mixnine, he revealed sehyoon was the official romanization so here we are lmao. even if your bias isn’t sehyoon…it’s sehyoon. he’s just that guy ya feel me?? anyways sehyoon is a relatively quiet and reserved guy, but his members really pull out the dork in him, i love it so much?? he doesn’t talk much but when he does all of a.c.e directs their full attention to him to listen, its really sweet, hes pretty awkward with people but you can tell he just feels so safe and comfortable with ace it honestly warms my heart. he’s the main rapper and main dancer, but!! our multitalented man is also a vocalist. yes, you heard, me, the main rapper can sing, and really well at that. (if you scroll up back to the flashlight and dont recall covers, you can see more of his voice.)

gets the least lines, but not by much. although hearing his singing voice in their actual songs has happened like with 2 lines?? so idk man im just waiting for their ballad song that theyre apparently doing for their third song, god im so ready. i love his voice a lot, damn.

he’s also like reeeeeeeeeally gay for jason…the entire fandom ships it and they even ship it themselves. wowson, the otp of ace, they honestly just cant keep their hands off eachother??? i know a friend who struggled to tell apart jun and jason so she just looked at who sehyoon was standing next to and instantly knew it was jason. THEYRE SO CLINGY. i love my squishy boyfriends. 

OHHH BOY…i really could’ve used an even more disrespectful gif than this but that would ruin the surprise of watching it in the actual video!! as you can see, sehyoon is the K I N G of disrespect on stage, that shy lil fluffle bean you see offstage?? GONE. DISAPPEARED. VANISHED. this is why his stage name is wow, sehyoon disappears and you just go wow. choice has dubbed him king of bodyrolls with great reason, he makes every concept into a sexy concept, he just has that intimidatingly sexy aura to him, its incredible. 

now…are you ready….i bet youre not…who am i kidding NOBODY was ready for this shit. on mixnine, sehyoon was picked as leader for one of their stages (i think he was leader for ringa linga too??) and got to choreograph the routine. if you think its already rude 10 seconds in, its all over for you bitches when the lighting goes yellow. i feel the need to repeat, our boy CHOREOGRAPHED THIS. IT WAS ALL HIS IDEA. EVERY. SINGLE. PART. this is the same kid who everyone on the show knew as the shy, quiet, handsome boy. but then. 

but then he did this.

Jason (Kim Byeongkwan)

jason is his stage name that he chose for himself but his real name is byeongkwan, its another case of an idol having a stage name and nobody calling them by it?? i mean most new choice call him jason and i personally switch between the two but most choice seem to call him byeongkwan or bk if theyre extra lazy lmao. memers call him byonk sometimes.

jason is the weird child of the group and we all love him…he’s the second lil ball of sunshine and part ½ of the maknae line. he’s often found clinging to sehyoon or literally any of the members bc he’s an affectionate son who loves cuddles okay?? p r o t e c t   h i m.

he’s also the lead everything. yeah thats really not fair but jason is op ok?? singing, rapping, dancing, visual, like sehyoon he’s the full package, i can hardly call them the rap line they’re just the op line t b h. triple threats.

on their official twt jason likes to confirm wowson a lot, its p great lololol he’s the biggest wowson shipper of all time. want more wowson? i gotchu, here’s one of my absolute fav moments. (ft. junchan/chun)

he has some HELLA CHARISMA on stage like boy can u pls chill. they also love doing his eye makeup with that red makeup and it looks rlly good bc bk has such pretty eagle eyes and its his Look™ and that along with his onstage persona is a DEADLY COMBINATION HDSJKSKSLKJS 

i’m just gonna keep this short; even if your bias isnt byeongkwan, your bias is byeongkwan. he has that affect on everybody. number one bias wrecker out of the fandom t b h apart from sehyoon (he cant be my bias wrecker if he is my bias so im safe :^J)

Chan (Kang Yuchan)

INTRODUCING OUR CHANSHINE, MAIN VOCAL OF ACE, CUTIE MAKNAE CHAN!!!! he always introduces himself as a.c.e’s main vocal cutie maknae chan, its his iconic line and it suits him so well like LOOK AT HIM ISNT HE JUST A FUCKING RAY OF SUNSHINE WHAT A PURE CHILD I MUST PROTECC he’s literally the happy virus y’all AND ACE KNOWS IT TOO heres this one time where donghun even said that looking at chan cheers him up. certified sunshines only, everyone. also watch that whole video its long but its worth your time.

anyways our boy is a main vocal and as mentioned in donghun’s part they harmonize!!! so!! well!! i mean tbh all of ace can harmonize with eachother its the most beautfiul thing but these two are main vocal for a reason okay. if you didn’t already watch it in donghun’s part listen to THIS and have your ears be blessed i cry everytime oh my god skdfhd ALSO THIS IS SUPER IMPORTANT ITS LIKE ONE OF MY FAVOURITE VIDEOS ON THE INTERNET i want to cry i lvoe chans voice so much i love chan i love kang yuchan og hmylhdg sodf i was gonna say i swear im sehyoon biased but im not istg ace is bias wrecking me 24/7 its been the hardest group to pick a bias in ever im not kidding i cant even

also known as kang RUDE, chan was all innocent sunshine and daisies until out of the blue he decided to give the disrespect king sehyoon a run for his fucking money. NOBODY FUCKING SAW IT COMING WE ALL THOUGHT HE WAS SO PURE AND THEN HE SUDDENLY STARTED FLASHING HIS ABS EVERYWHERE AND GRINDING ON THE FLOOR AND DOING THAT AND WE JUST CANT HANDLE IT i dont know a kang yuchan please save me oh my lord

okay this already has an ungodly amount of links and honestly i could go on, but this should be a good enough kickstart for you!!

stan talent stan a.c.e everyone. welcome to the choice family. its literally the softest and sweetest fandom out there. we welcome you with open arms and lots of cacti!!!

[hoodie-at-the-bar]

and as soon as possible, it ended

Steven said ASAP a lot, especially when dealing with getting back to me. After the movie night we still texted daily. I knew his birthday was coming up on the 23rd, and I had mentioned to him I’d love to take him out for his birthday. I mentioned it a few times.

He was always saying things like, “Aw thank you! that’s so sweet -” but then would never follow up with a commitment, of yes he was free for me to take him out. At one point, I felt I was being fairly clingy asking him constantly, if he was free or if he knew what he was doing. He wasn’t sure, but he’d get back to me ASAP.

The day before his birthday, he finally said his dad was coming up to stay with him but that he’d get back to me ASAP. At this point i had to call the lifeline - this was just too weird. Is he blowing me off?

I finally pulled the trigger and asked Loren what she thought. She said and admitted he was a bad communicator, that he actually had no plans and last minute asked Blaine and the guys if they wanted to hang out and have dinner. Ok that’s fine - maybe he just didn’t want to confirm with a girl he barely knew, but wanted to keep his options open. I love a guy who likes keeping his options open. 

Then I saw on his Snapchat he had a few friends over, and I overheard a girl's voice. Was it his friends’ girlfriend or a girl he was into? I became that girl who was uncertain and started going down the rabbit hole of a story I created: he didn’t confirm because that day was for girlfriend #7. The bummer part is, in most of my experience when your radar goes off (via photos of your guy standing a little too close to some girl or the sound of a girl’s voice) - it often means something’s up.

I tried to keep a distance and only texted “Happy Birthday” or “Hope you have a great day!” type messages. His birthday was on a Tuesday so I waited until Thursday before reaching out. I asked him what he did for his birthday and he said it was “chill”, and that he just “had dinner with his dad and played golf”. Why omit the truth that he had dinner w/ Blaine and friends? Was there more to hide? it just seemed odd with how he didn’t mention hanging out with his friends, knowing I’m friends with Blaine and can see his Snaps. Spidey senses went off.

The second time ASAP was in full effect was the camping trip we casually planned. Back in June when I was in Key West, I told him we should go RV camping sometime. Yes, just he and I: I had plans for us. He said he had a EDM musical festival at the end of July, so the first weekend in August he was free. Cool - as we get closer we can figure out if we want to do Friday to Sunday or just one night. 

Before his birthday I had asked him if he got the day off, he said he forgot and he would ask his boss. When I texted him that Friday morning after his birthday before his weekend at the Gorge, I asked him again if he had scheduled the day off. He said no, but told me we should still go so “reserve the date” - okay that was something. I got a bit concerned that the camping weekend was just a week away, and he would be at this music festival for the next 4 days. He said he couldn't request it off until he gets back to the office on Thursday, which was 24 hours prior to the trip.

What? He gets back on Monday, and has Tuesday and Wednesday off - he can’t ask then? He has to wait until he’s physically in? If he really wanted to go camping with me, or knew how to problem solve, he would just go in on the day after he returned, but maybe that’s just me.

“Oh dang it I forgot to ask. I’ll have to ask when I get back on Thursday.”

“Damn! Think they’d let you off so close to the ask? The Motorhome sales world is foreign to me”.

“Yeah it all depends on how much I’m selling really. If I’m selling a lot they don’t really care.”

Ok, so… do you think they’ll care? It’s Friday bro, you are going to wait six days before asking if you can have the following day off? Can you at least guess the chances of your boss approving? I grew tired of this game. 

“Snap - then good work on all your selling.”

“Ha, thank you!”

“Have fun at the Gorge this week. Drunk texts welcome”

I was being too nice and supportive and just kept thinking: you’re not his girlfriend, you don’t have the right to dig in to get him to commit to camping. I didn’t want to come off as a nag offering a solution for every sentence he made, especially over text. Most people are not that direct so it can be taken as abrasive. I tend to continue a conversation until there is a solution, getting creative and asking questions, but often times when a guy doesn’t want to do something and they don't know how to articulate, then they just end up getting frustrated that I keep hounding. Then I thought no, even if he was just a friend, you don’t blow off people or act non-committal, it’s just rude!

At this point I was half annoyed and half bummed that I was feeling ghosted. Saturday night while I was at a birthday party he snapped me “Miss ya”. The “ya” part wasn’t as romantic, but it made me feel a bit better about the anxiety of whether or not he was into me. It all went downhill from there.

Monday: he returned from the Gorge. I didn’t reach out

Tuesday: I texted him welcome back. I also asked how his dad was because he posted something cryptic about his dad’s well being on Instagram . I told Steven I was going to a concert tonight and asked if he wanted to come. He did the usual slew of fake interest, but no action.

“What concert?”

“Oh yeah! That’s cool!!”

“Haha, still famous!”

“Ok will do”

Then finally, 

“I’m feeling super chill today so most likely going to hang out here. But if I’m feeling a little cray I’ll tell ya”

Why? Just tell me you’re out, better yet, before all the “oh cool!” texts. For some reason I kept trying. Now it was just a vendetta to get this guy to say : I’m not into you. I did get him to say “most likely going to hang out here” - it was a carrot to keep me going, to win at him saying something finite. 

“ALSO I know we “may” hang out on Saturday [since he still hasn’t asked for the day off] but you wanna 2x that and do something fun tomorrow?”

“Like what??” 

False excitement, phantom enthusiasm. This reeled me in, I got joy from it, to only realize it was a stalling tactic.

“Discovery Park? Ever been?”

“Uh uh. Is it cool?” 

Was I speaking to a toddler?

“It’s very neat. It’d be a flat hike that leads to fun views and stuff”

“Ooh” 

What. What ooh?

“Anywho, I’m not as pressed about tomorrow as the weekend so you can make game day decisions. I’ll be doing some adult things around the house and relaxing.  (But if something comes up and I’m not free I’ll let you know) - I’m a communicator, it’s a thing.”

Do you see what I did there? I tried to not be overbearing about hanging out on Wednesday, while also letting him know I really needed to know about the weekend. Lastly - let him know what good communication looks like! I had a friend who’s birthday was on Saturday and I had to say I’m not sure if I could go because I ‘may’ be camping? I normally plan more than a month in advance, here I am, three days prior and have no idea. This should have been a clear indicator that Steven and I were not compatible.

“Oh for sure. I will let you know about both ASAP”

I should take a shot every time this kid says ASAP - to be fair, I don’t think he knows what it mean.s

Wednesday came, and I got sassy. It was the end of the workday and I hadn’t heard from Steven if he was up to go on a city hike.

Clearly we seemed like two people who didn’t really feel like hanging out with each other. I wanted to see him, go on a hike to see if I can get to know him better, or even go to his house and have an adult conversation about our communication styles, and how it wasn’t working for me. But being an afterthought to hanging out with him and his friends wasn’t appealing. Again, this would have been a great point to say something to the extent of, “Hey Steven, I wanted to spend time with just us, so I can have a conversation with you about us” - but the thought of it sounded more and more exhausting. I may have a high bar and assume if I ask a guy to hang out, he knows it’s me asking him to hang out together in a date-like fashion. I could be more explicit and say I want to hang out with you and only you because… but then at that point, it’s a compatibility issue for me and someone I need to use 2x more words than I’d like. For Pete’s sake can you just get it? I’ve had conversations with humans who did. There is a limit to explicit communication - and pass that limit is hand holding.

I had told some friends I wanted to ask him what he wanted out of this - figured we had slept together and it was a fair question. My friends reminded me that I myself wasn’t sure what I wanted, or if I even liked him (enough). So, did I need to rush into things? I said no, but the anxiety of not knowing what my plans are was enough for me to raise a flag. He didn’t have to say if he wanted to be together exclusively, but I did need him to communicate better as to whether or not he is committed to hanging out, if we planned to continue progressing.

Thursday came and he texted me about the RV. 

I didn’t want to press. Examples of what a guy would say if he actually wanted to spend time together, in no particular order:

“But we can still go tent camping if you’re down?”

“Sorry i couldn't get the day off. How about we do dinner?”

Something, anything - instead he just sounded whiny about his RV privileges. I didn’t care. I even asked a question that made his text conflicting: His second sentence said no employee can use RV’s, but said his privileges got taken because he broke a window? I was confused if the broken window mattered, or if he piled on the reasons to ensure we couldn’t hang out, the age old “I can’t go out because it’s late, I mean I don’t have any money, I mean I have plans.”. I didn’t even try to solve the problem, I just left it at that.Eight days past, and neither of us texted. I knew I would eventually have to get closure and call it off. Then he messaged:

He kept asking me questions to move the conversation, and I was trying to give short answers because I was annoyed this fake enthusiasm is coming up again. I had invited him to a BBQ at my house a while ago. He RSVP’d during the eight days we hadn’t spoken, but I assumed he wasn’t going to show up. Afterall, he couldn't’ commit to a birthday dinner, a hike at Discovery Park or even camping - why would he show up to a party with just under 100 people he didn’t know?

Then he texts me to see if he could bring a friend. I’ve been in scenarios where a guy brought another girl in daft fashion, but at least Steven did not. It was an older guy who dressed just like him and smelled of axe body spray. My friends thought they were a couple. Steven knew no one at the party and it was awkward.

I felt anxiety during the party because I wasn’t enjoying his presence, but also didn’t want to ignore him - and I was hosting. I felt I had to give him attention, but it reeked of obligation. Weaving through a crowded house, I didn’t know how to introduce him: this is Steven, we were sort of hanging out but now we're not - then he showed up to the party. Who wants a refill??

Why couldn’t I just say “this is Steven?” Because all of my friends knew each other through the parties I hosted, so if anyone is new into the picture, it's very apparent and the details get shared of the origin story - it’s a classic big party ice breaker. This is even more apparent since I haven’t had a boyfriend in eight years, all eyes on deck when an unknown man walks through the door.

A couple hours later, he found me to say goodbye and I apologized for not being around. He said he got it because I was hosting, and he left. Weight was lifted off my chest, and I could finally start to enjoy the party.

Gareth asked me if I thought I was dating down - I always thought due to my attraction to Steven I was dating up, but I didn't know anymore. So Gareth told me to be direct - that neither of us wanted to continue seeing each other. So I texted Steven, in my own writing style, to ensure there were no hard feelings. I didn't hate the guy - I’d be happy to hug him at a party in the future with a smile - but I was done talking to him one on one.

Another eight days went by and I decided to call it off, or give it closure. My first draft was to tell Steven that our style of communication wasn’t working for me but I am open if he thinks I’m wrong for any reason. My therapist told me I should be honest with myself: it wasn’t working, for either of us, period. Gareth, my therapist, said it was clear neither of us wanted to continue spending time together, so call it what it was.

Gareth had also asked me during this time, what it was about Steven I liked, and I had to think about it. I knew a good foundation was the story: I noticed Blaine and Loren’s friend five years ago, I was infatuated, and I got to have him, even if for a little while. His messages always seemed happy, positive and enthusiastic, to only find out he was like that for all things, and had a density I hadn’t realized. He was also Blaine's best friend, and I respected Blaine: Blaine was a solid guy and his wife Loren, wouldn’t tolerate anyone not worth my time. 

I was confused - I gave him a friendly out! I was done! How should I have responded?

If I said no, I’d feel like a dick.

If I said yes, it would appear I was playing games, fishing for him to want to talk to me.

My honest answer would have been, “No not really, but if you need to then I’d be happy to” - but I still didn’t know him enough for that to not come off as hurtful. This is a foreshadow by the way.

So I settled on “Sure” - with a shrug and a circular head motion behind the scenes.

Even Gareth laughed when I told him Steven’s response and didn’t know how to respond to that. Was Steven just trying to be nice? Or did he actually want to talk.

I never heard from Steven... well, for six months.

I found out months and months later from Loren that Steven thought I was mad at him. I laughed and said I purposely put emoji’s in my message and said I’d smile and wave. Can you imagine if I actually wrote “Not really, but if you want to I can” - he would have pissed himself. 

She said he wasn’t used to women who were direct and upfront. Well, I don’t know what to tell you - I was trying hard not to be as direct because I didn’t want to stress the delicate petals of this sensitive flower with my direct sunlight, but even with sunglasses on a smile, the guy thought I was mad. 

Six months after his last message, he sent me a happy birthday text, and I said thank you.  It grew more and more apparent we had different lifestyles, his social media streaming him taking videos of young women in short dresses touching each other at night clubs. I never engaged.

A month later he sent me another message, responding to a post of me cooking.

Again, I was polite and said yes with a smile. I imagine these sporadic messages will come though, but it’ll be treated now as an acquaintance saying hi.

Goodbye Steve

[hoonface]

11 QUESTIONS GAME THINGY

Tagged by the beautiful @s-lay-ing !! Thank you so much for tagging me and I hope you get to know me better through all these games! (I’m sorry if I missed one or two omg I’m gonna go check after this) and it was so fun! I really enjoy getting to know everyone a bit better and I hope you like my...eccentricities? This was so fun to do, and thanks again! 

Tagging: @wonuthewhale @healinghoshi @jisoosmeoli @jisoominghao and my new friend, @vitaminniedk !!! And of course anyone else who wants to do this because I would absolutely love to get to know you all better <3  

Here’s the thing: either you answer the questions I answered OR you answer the questions I made at the bottom, as simple as that. Then create another 11 questions IF you wish 😅

a8, here we go:

• What are your five favorite songs from your bias group? Seventeen: Mansae, Adore U, Very Nice, Pretty U, Healing & Smile Flower

• What are your five favorite songs (kpop) not from your bias group?

Bangtan’s Not TODaY

BlackPink’s As If It’s Your Last

Hey Mama – EXO CBX

Love Paint – Nu’est Cause that song is SO GOOD YALL ARE SLEEPING ON TALENT

BTS’ Lost

Honourable mentions: Twice’s TT CAUSE ITS SO CATCHY, Infinite’s The Eye (lord my first thoughts on Sungjong were “Yoon Jeonghan when he had blonde long hair”, Jin’s Awake.

• What are your five favorite non-kpop songs? oh goDDDD YOURE DIGGING UP MY PAST XDD

You just want ATTENTION YOU DON’T WANT MY LOVE – Charlie Puth’s Attention

Cake By The Ocean – DNCE ( I don’t know it’s just catchy leaf me alone)

Of course you can’t have Justin Bieber not here even though I don’t really like him himself XD – Cold Water

Jess Glynne’s Hold My Hand

Immortals – Fall Out boy

• Who is your bias and why do you like them?  LEE JIHOOOOOOOOON OH MY GOD okay.

I love baby because as much as I love all thirteen of my dorks, I can’t imagine having anyone else as my bias. Yes, I had stanning issues and I admittedly still do, Choi Seungcheol is still my main bias wrecker after lol what 11 months? You can’t just forget your first bias. Anyway, because. Lee Jihoon makes my heart so soft, every time he’s adorable, he doesn’t even have to try. He makes me so happy and he’s just such a hard working person and what is there he cannot do? Like what 5 instruments? Studied classical music? Dances like an adorable little fluff bumblebee BUT IS ACTUALLY OKAY BUT HIS BODY MIGHT BE SMALL BUT HIS CHARISMA IS NO JOKE AND YOU ARE NOT LIVING IF YOU HAVEN’T HEARD HIM RAP. He’s just so talented, I mean like violin with EDM and Jeonghan’s voice, he’s just such a genius. I have never heard so much music that I love and admire and appreciate so much and it just feels like a blessing to love him. I mean like you mean I get to love him? For free? Like there’s no catch? Are you kidding me? I still can’t believe he’s real and we get to love him. He’s just I just love him. I can’t really explain why, but I can tell you that as much as I do love all 13 of my sunshines, I can’t imagine not being Jihoon biased. As much as I am in danger of becoming Seungcheol, Jeonghan, and anyone else trashed, at the end of the day I still love Woozi the most. I hope that word vomit of fangirling made sense.

• What do you usually wear for winter/autumn/spring/summer? What’s your “style”? My style is “black.” Like actually, I wear a LOT OF BLACK AND yeah hoodies, jumpers, sweaters, pullovers, leggings and sometimes jeans, the like.

• For your bias group, what was your favorite hair style/era for each member? Seungcheol: hmmmm well I really liked the black hair he did during Caratland and the brown hair he had during Weekly Idol.

Hannie: fight me on this, but I think Jeonghan looks like a majestic gorgeous angel with any hair colour. I mean like okay Adore U Killed me so hard because WHAT THE HELL. HOW CAN HE BE SO DAMN PRETTY IM CRYING BRB MY HEART IS BLEEDING ok im back anyway I also really love the short brown/red hair he had like in between Going Seventeen and Al1 hold up let me get a photo to bless you all:

Josh: I NEED JOSH’S MANSAE HAIR BACK. NOT NECESSARILY FOREHEAD UP BUT LIKE FOREHEAD WOULD BE APPRECIATED BUT LOOK AT HIS FLUFFY ORANGE HAIR IN MANSAE DANCE PRACTICE I NEED THAT BACK AND ALSO JOSH WITH BROWN HAIR. I know im not stating eras LOL

Jun: honestly, like now? I really like his hair now. Junhui always just looks 1000103293%

Hosh: now as well? I really like him with black hair, he looks cute af LETS NOT FORGET THE BROWN HAIR TOO

Wonwoo: THE HAIR HE HAD AT CARATLAND. ADORE U CAUSE BLACK HAIRED WONWOO OH LOOOOOOOORDDDD AND HIM WITH GLASSES SUCH CUTE

OOJI: this is such a hard decision. Yes, I do miss his blonde small ponytail sticking out from 17 Project, but his PiNK FOREHEAD HAIR IN ADORE U IN THE SMALL OVAL GOOOODDDD and I also KASDHKASDHKASDHKASHDKJASDH HIM WITH BROWN HAIR YALL IM FANGIRLING SO HARD LIKE IM WAVING MY HANDS AS IF SOMEONES WATCHING ME OKAY LEE JIHOON DURING THE ASIAN ARTIST AWARDS AND HIM WITH THE BROWN HAIR AND THE FRINGE I HOPE YOU KNOW WHAT IM TALKING ABOUT

DK: his Adore U hair. Thank you.

Mingyu: ok Mingyu was my second bias after Seungcheol and tbh Seungcheol wasn’t my bias for long but it feels like it was long because I died a lot because of him and not just at the time he was my bias like for example, last night when It was revealed HIS HAIR IS SILVER WYD SEUNGCHEOL anyway but the Mansae era ^tm goD THAT WAS A BLESSING and him with brown hair is really cute too but I also really like him with black hair heck basically almost everything

The8: tbh like now? I didn’t really like his metallic greeny silver hair he had near Adore U and his ramen head wasn’t the best XD but lord MINGHAO IS KILLING ME THESE COUPLE ERAS

Seungkwan: THE FREAKING UM ROSE GOLD WHY DID PLEDIS NOT KEEP THAT LIKE ACTUALLY OH MY GOD THE FIRST CRAZY IN LOVE STAGE ASDHSKJADHSKJDH IM SO PISSED PLEDIS DIDN’T KEEP THAT

Vernon: hiS BLACKKKKKKK OR THE Q & A MV HAIR ALSDHASDKJAS

Dino: now. He looks so damn good and I can’t say I miss his astro boy hair back in Mansae XD

• How did you “discover” kpop and how did you discover vixx? OK SO IT WAS A FATEFUL AUGUST 25TH 2016! A THURSDAY AFTERNOON AFTER SCHOOL! I hopped onto my computer after school. So like theres this Korean girl group at my school that walks around sometimes singing songs or just yelling at each other in Korean XD and at first I was like …kpop? DON’T KILL ME FOR THIS BUT LETS BE REAL EVERYONES FIRST THOUGHT ON KPOP IS GANGNAM STYLE. And so since I do like watching choreography very much, I searched on YouTube, hardest kpop dances. One of the videos there showed Mansae hide ver. Of the dance practice and I was like oh this looks nice and its catchy too *makes mental note to youtube that later* *youtubes it* it starts to play the MV and I was like is this song I was looking for? And then I got to the chorus and I’m just like ALSDHJLASDKJLSKAJKLJ and I BASICALLY CRASHED INTO THE FANDOM OVERNIGHT AND IT WAS SO FUN BECAUSE I GOT TO SLOWLY DROWN MYSELF IN EVERY MEMBER LOL and Vixx? Uhhh I just heard about them somewhere XD but Shangri-la sounds really nice, it sounds like Chinese music but it’s in Korean, I like it. • What does your phone case look like? Fun fact about me: I actually don’t have a phone case. My parents are the type to not spend money on “useless things” and a phone case is one of them (well for me anyway) and I have a vintage iPhone 4S, and all the cases that I do have are from my relatives or something and I don’t like the cases XD there’s this one black one that I would use except I can’t turn it off cause the off button part of the case is really hard. So yeah! No phone case and it makes it even thicker ._. oh yeah I lost my phone lmao

• Do you normally browse Tumblr on your phone or on pc? PC. Depends if my phone/tab has been confiscated or not tbh XD but normally PC so I can save photos and it’s a lot faster.

• How are you doing? Got any plans for the day/night? eh. Alright I guess, tonight all I have to do is practise piano and because I just started school again, there’s no homework~~~

Now, my questions:

1_ a girl group choreo you’d love to see a boy group do

Tbh I don’t watch girl group choreo (NOTE: I HAVE NOTHING AGAINST GIRL GROUPS AND THEIR CHOREO I JUST DON’T WATCH IT FOR SOME REASON BUT I LIKE BLACKPINK AND YEAH) I’d like to see Seventeen dance to Boombayah XD THAT HAIR SWINGING HAHAHAHA I WANT JEONGHAN DOING THE HAIR SWINGING THING 2_ a boy group choreo you’d love to see a girl group do

Any girl group dance to Mansae pls and thank you 3_ sm, jype, yg and pledis do a world tour individually and set up their concerts on the same day, different venues obviously: which one would you attend? (as in smtown, happy pledis etc)

Definitely Pledis. Actually tbh its not Seventeen I won’t go, cause I only stan one group and wouldn’t spend money on a concert showing a group I don’t stan. 4_ a kpop song that is a guilty pleasure for you? Uhhh tbh I don’t really have any guilty pleasures in kpop, but I mean like I guess TT? Even though I wouldn’t feel guilty listening to that? 5_ a dream kpop x western artist collab? …I would like to see Seventeen collab with one of their idols :D 6_ monster/lucky one or lotto? Pretty u or very nice? Beautiful or shine forever? (Repackage edition B) )

I haven’t heard Lucky so I’m going with Lotto. WHY ARE YOU ALL SO MEAN HOW COULD YOU MAKE ME PICK BETWEEN PRETTY U AND AJU NICE kahsdkjsh …lord this is so hard- pass. I haven’t heard Shine Forever, so Beautiful. 7_ what’s the sickest you’ve attended school/uni/work etc?

Sickest? Uh I have been sick enough to stay home but I went to school because I’m a responsible girl who takes schoolwork seriously. Or was it cause it was exam period lol. 8_ adore u or shining diamond? mansae or rock? pretty u or chuck? very nice or healing? boom boom or smile flower? don’t wanna cry or crazy in love? (I’m running out of questions 😂)

Adore U, Mansae, Pretty U, Healing, Smile Flower, Don’t Wanna Cry. (that was s ohard omG) 9_ are you some sort of patriotic? (Not the “fuck the rest of the world we’re number one and we’ve never done anything wrong” kind, but idk, do you identify with your country? its customs, traditions etc?)

…I don’t even know what patriotic means omg I feel uneducated. Ahh…um no not really XD 10_ have you watched studio ghibli movies? If so, which one is your favorite?

I watched Spirited Away when I was very young I think and I watched it in Japanese with Chinese sub which I cannot read ._. 11_ if I traveled to your country, which places would you recommend me to visit?

…honestly there’s nothing that good in Australia XDD but I guess if you like steak, go for it? And the Gold Coast and we have a couple theme parks, Sydney Opera House I guess? To see where seventeen SHOT THEIR HEALING MV AKSDHASKJDH and Luna Park? Tbh I haven’t been that much around Australia I am a crap tour guide I apologise sincerely.

[theparaminds]

It’s those behind the curtain who truly run the play, it’s those behind the camera who control the emotion, and often, it is those behind the music that truly create and discover the sonic playgrounds we explore. This is the life of Idaho based producer Billy Lemos, a sleuth in search of new artists and ideas that he can help develop and grow with his own flair, all while allowing for the spotlight to be the least of his worries.

His mission is that of holding a megaphone to the mouths of those without a voice, allowing for stories to be told and for cultures to be shared, all through the universal language of music. With no style defined in his own mind, Billy is just adjusting himself to every situation necessary, producing to multiply the strengths of his peers while strengthening their, and his own, confidence in self.

Billy’s a one of a kind individual in the music world, one whose intentions are pure and positive, and who’s ready to truly bring all those who deserve it to the top with him, all while blessing every ear he encounters along the way.

PM: Ok, so first question as always, how’s your day going and how are you?

BL: I'm doing pretty well just working out through a bunch of shit and getting stuff done.

PM: To begin why don't we kinda look at who you are because you’re a very behind the scenes sort of person. Who would you say Billy Lemos is as an artist and how has that changed over the time, as you’ve met people and grown?

BL: I think I’m more of a curator than anything… I try to look at my work as 60% curation and 40% production, but a lot of people think I do the vocals. Some people don’t look into it, like at all, will think I do the singing and shit and ask me to do features on their songs which is funny. I consider myself to be the curator and I try to find new people SoundCloud who aren't getting any attention right now and just work with them, I remember when I worked with Victor he was super small, Omar was really small when I worked with him as well. I try to find new people who just deserve a spotlight.

PM: Is your job when you produce to make something that best shows off their talents and skills so that they are given the recognition?

BL: Yeah definitely, like a lot of the time I'll take a demo or I’ll ask people if they have any and I’ll build off that. I'll try to flesh out if they’re starting out and haven’t figured their sound 100%. I try to put my style and flair on top of what they're doing sonically as well and then make sorta my own stuff but also incorporate a lot of their stuff so when people check them out they can hear their influence clearly.

PM: For sure, and would you then say that your also creating a connection with them that you sustain and that your ability to help them grow as an artist and do some artist development, not in a manager way but in an artistic way?

BL: Absolutely, with the people that I work with, I talk to them casually. It’s not some like business shady shit. Like I’ll be friends with a lot of the people that I do features with.

PM: And that obviously is important to you… like being more than just a producer, being a close associate. Do you find it helps you work with them, helps you make stronger music?

BL: Yeah I feel like it’s more relaxed like if I’m comfortable with the person I’m working with it's way easier for me to make a bunch of songs with them or like send them stuff and bounce ideas around.

PM: You talked a little there how you have your own musical style and voice, where would you say this kinda came from growing up? How did your experiences lead you into your musical stylings?

BL: I think I watched a lot of videos of Mad lib and Jay Dilla sampling and beat making videos. For a while, I was making bad EDM and then some lo-fi, but then eventually once in the indie scene, I was making hip-hop influenced stuff that’s still alternative in nature. It came to be how it is over a lot of time, and a lot of failure.

PM: Was it that hip-hop influenced that you were most inspired by or did you find other artists to be important to you as you found your voice?

BL: As I found my voice I found more who helped. I love Tame Impala a lot and seeing videos of Kevin working, Kanye obviously, Tyler as well. Just anyone who inspires any young creatives right now.

PM: Would you then hope to inspire other creatives in the same way you have been before?

BL: I just want people to know that you can literally do this shit with nothing. Most of my stuff is made with a 400 dollar drum machine, save up and you can make almost everything yourself. If you just go on SoundCloud and find people to work with, then your job is to just work at making sounds and keep going.

PM: When you’re on SoundCloud curating, looking for this one special new artist, what to you is the most important aspects of knowing someone is going to get bigger and has a lot of potential?

BL: If I listen to a song and it doesn't hit me in 5 seconds or if I'm skimming through the tracks and I don't feel it immediately I know it’s not the one, but I will take time and listen to everything in a discography to be sure.

PM: Would you say there's a type of artist you see a lot of potential in right now that you hope others can see the magic in?

BL: I think the community of artists with Hispanic roots like Victor and Omar. They’re amazing right now and so supportive of each other. I remember seeing Cuco support victor a lot at his beginning and it was surreal how tight-knight they are.

PM: As someone with a hand in that scene, why do you find yourself drawn towards it? Is the DIY aspect that you sort of share?

BL: For sure, when I found Victor he was making music on a really shitty computer and just seeing them all do whatever they can with whatever is available is actually beautiful.

PM: As well, if there is a scene to put you in, you’re definitely growing in that Chicago scene with Family Reunion and victor, what is it about that group in that city that you have found yourself to connect with?

BL: It’s funny because I’m from Iowa but I’m gonna be moving there so soon just to be around all the talent and everyone there. It’s a special place LA can't compete with as people are just trying to make it by and doing whatever it takes. It’s a huge scene people haven't caught yet.

PM: Looking at the larger picture, as an artist, what are some larger long-term goals you hold for yourself and what is it you hope to get out of this experience?

BL: Long-term I would love to make a label and provide for smaller artists in a way that's honest and supportive. I want to put on poor and struggle artists without resources. That's the huge issue for a lot of people. It's not that they won’t do it, they just don't have the chance. I'm trying to also make a lot of collaboration projects, not as much solo material, I’m working with this one rapper right now on a non-trap type project. It's just different, there’s always new projects that are collaborative and thematic.

PM: Another big thing in music is live shows, you did a show with Victor a few months ago and soon you'll be doing a solo DJ set, what to you is important about the live setting that a record can’t give to a listener?

BL: I'm still so nervous about it, but I just want it to be 45 mins of new unheard music of really underground and unique artists. I want people to go home with new artists and new songs to listen to and to support going forward.

PM: What would you say is the best live show you've ever been to?

BL: I went to this Tyler show when he came to Iowa a long time ago. Even though the crowd was terrible seeing him so high energy and into it was inspiring as hell.

PM: Now, what about your favorite movie and album of all time? How did they affect you?

BL: Movie is easily the Grand Budapest. I fuck with the aesthetic so hard and I love stuff that's stylized and uniform. I love how playful and quirky the characters and dialogue are and it’s probably Wes Anderson’s peak of both of that. Album is probably College Dropout, which is a goofy ass choice, but when I was learning and getting into shit I would watch so many videos of Kanye making beats and It really brought me into the path I’m on with drums and patterns.

PM: And finally, as someone who’s been watching and seeing a lot of young artists grow and make it, but also stumble and not, what would you say is the most important things young musicians should look for in themselves while trying to make it?

BL: People just need to be talking to other young artists doing similar shit, I feel like collaboration is the most important aspect right now and seeing people work together they pick up skills and knowledge from each other and in turn, it helps them in their work and journey. Especially the ones not getting enough attention, if you're gonna work with someone they'll promote you and the work. Be confident in your work and trust your guts. Be picky with your work and only allow your best work to be out right now so everything you put out is something that people will notice and keep attention to

PM: Do you have anyone or anything to shout out or promote? The floor is yours!

BL: There’s this one artist whose super slept on right now named Junior Messa, he's so fire, but also I put out the stuck single with Family Reunion and I have tons of stuff being worked on. I'm being slow with my releases but things are comings soon.

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