Mr.Write 📝 Right: Chapter 5 (FINALE)
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☑️🤍A/N: (B/R/N)- Boss Real Name.
☑️🤍Word Count: 22k
☑️🤍Warnings: Psychosis, Sexual Assault, Reader Suffers From PTSD, Oral Sex, Angst, Hate speech, Language, Fluff, Smut (First Time), a 🤏 of Sadism.
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After utilizing the nightlight Hongjoong has always remembered to leave on for you, you can clearly see as the clock reads 2:23 AM, and he, who lies behind you embracing you stronger than ever before, is knocked out cold and clueless about your struggle.
The night was currently going by with you wavering in and out of sleep with anxiety.
Nearly your every thought only consisted of how your boss was going to be put in the cuffs of Justice, and the clock could only remind you how time was slipping from the palm of your hands
It was flying by so fast, as much as you try to grip onto every second.
Hongjoong however, isn’t going anywhere.
In the oversized t-shirt you're draped in, you can feel every detail of his bare robust chest pressed against your backside.
Even more so, his tatted arm wraps around your waist so tightly he whimpers when you move an inch. It makes you feel bad when you hear the echos of his soft snores into the holes of your ears.
It was like he was at peace with you, and all that’s going on.
Ever since he presented that video to you last night, you’re composure has shaken a bit, and his attempts for a distraction came with the embrace he has on you currently, and a statement of ‘everything will work out just fine my love.’
Like the baby he is, he fell asleep to his own mantra like it was a lullaby, but only because he had thought you had drifted to sleep as well, yet you only pretended to do that that he finally could.
After all his hard work this week, you wanted him to rest as he desperately needed to, even though he'd never felt inclined to say.
You shift slightly into his arms to turn your head to look at his sleeping figure, and to your great surprise, your met with kind droopy dark brown eyes.
In a raspy quiet voice, he whispers, “I knew it.”
He caught you.
“You never fall asleep that quickly.” And he knows you too well. “What's keeping you up my love?” Is voice croaks.
Amidst your loudly beating heart, he lightly pets the back of your head, and it soothes you just enough to tell him all of what is on your mind.
“I’m worried, joongie. “How is this all gonna play out? I hate being kept in the dark like this.” You pout.
He then sits up to reveal the sculpting of his pretty abdomen, and the lining of his boxers. In a gentle manner, he makes the move of cupping your face in his soft hands. A gesture that was commonly shared between the two ever since your very first kiss at the rink.
Just as expected, his other slender hand sweeps under your chin to place a quick peck on your lips before he says, “Oh my precious darling baby, that’s not my intention, whatsoever. Tomorrow, I promise you, everything will work out just fine.”
Another peck is pressed onto your lips. “Can you put your trust in me, baby?”
‘Of course’, you scoff inside your mind and think, 'How silly of a question that is'.
“You, are one of the only people in this world I still can trust, you’ve always been there for me.”
Like something you’d see in a cartoon, his white tooth smile appears and gleams in the moonlight through his sheer black curtains, complimenting the flow of his messy white hair.
“Well… if you just believe in that.”He skidded your forehead. “Believe in me”, he kisses your nose. “I promise you, everything will turn out for the best.” Another kiss, one of many he's shared with you already.
It was then you acquired some sense of peace in your mind and gestured for him to lie back down to coddle your face into his neck indulging in his soft cotton scent.
I’m minutes your body surrenders and shuts down easily, cooling the exhausting strain that burns in your eyes. “You’re a dream come true, you whisper into his neck.
He embraces your body in the same exact way with you facing in front of him,
As you gradually drift off into the actual dream realm you hear the final words from him before you are knocked out completely, "I love you too, my sweet."
…
“Hey! Hey are you okay?”
Your vision is still dark and you feel your body heavy on a cold, marble floor underneath you.
It was nothing like the cushion soft memory foam mattress that you now casually share with the love of your life.
As you open your eyes to search for the slightly high-pitched voice calling out to you, strobes of colorful neon lights infiltrate your eyes differentiating from the dimness that was once in the bedroom.
In an attempt to try to open them once again, what appears right in front of you is a blurred stature in blobs of black and white.
"Here, grab on."
A small hand is extended in arm's reach, and you squint as you try your best to identify whom it belongs to, but with this sucky blurred vision, you have no clue.
In an effort to get off the chilling floor that nearly numbs you from its touch, you take the hand as it is the only thing that seems trusting in your new environment.
As you stumble and try to manage to stand on your own two feet, the figure in front of you clears like magic.
It’s a boy, who looks fairly young. Maybe about 10 years younger than you are now. His hair is black and styled into a bowl cut. His eyes are dark between with a respective kindness, and an all-white outfit that makes him look approachable and trustworthy.
It was one of those people your mind conjures and gives birth to when you dream, you had to be, and his parents, are the buried images deep in your memory.
Behind the boy is a crowd of bodies all focused on you, yet their faces are censored from revelation with black X’s on their features. It's like a freak show, with only this boy in front of you appearing the most normal.
It was then you asked the most important question here, "Where the hell am I?"
The boy tilts his head like a kicked puppy in confusion as he says, “Don’t you remember what happened? I had kicked down that door to get to you. What all had that dickwad done to you anyway?”
At this, you turn to see the door he was talking about. It’s wide open with a hole in its frame, and inside the room is a toilet and a broken flower vase on the ground in front of it, destroyed with shards of glass everywhere.
In one of the shards, you see a reflection of a sequin sparkly dress you are supposedly wearing deflecting in its piece…your mother's dress that eye on that fateful night.
You shake your head in disbelief as you hear the voice of your attacker, then ex-boss, voice inside your head.
'She’d worn that skin-tight dress to be sexy and proactive.
‘I was told, that she was a virgin desperate to swipe her v card. So I was just the cashier who was ready and waiting at the register.'
An image that you’ve always imagined to be terrifying in the dark, is now openly clear to you in the light.
Nevertheless, it’s still just as terrifying.
It was easy to decipher the difference between real life and your dreams, but this one, in particular, was all too real.
'The origin story of a 25-year-old virgin whose hobby consists of getting off to the impurity of fictional writings ungraceful words', is something you know all too well.
And with that in mind, you can presume that the boy who fought him off and saved you is,
"Hongjoong?” your voice trembles.
You turn around quickly to stare at what your brain had manufactured as an interpretation of Hongjoong, as a teenager.
You don’t remember what he looks like from that night because you basically bolted straight for the door after what happened to you, you couldn’t have cared less, but now that you know of his role that night, it clicks that this is what you think he might’ve looked like.
The boy whom you now acknowledge as Hongjoong looks just as equally confused as you do at that very moment. "Yeah, that's me. I'm sorry, uh, have we met before?"
Sure you have, twice even. However, this is not the Hongjoong you know of, altered and twisted, this mini-me is merely a bad copy, and it was certainly pissing you off.
“You." You growl, stepping forward to poke his undeveloped chest. "Are not, him. Not the one that I know of, the real Hongjoong, you can't be, it’s impossible, so stop the bullshit kid."
The crowd of marked faces continues to stand still at the scene you present in front of them. A stable consistency in their stance creeps you out completely, causing you to falter in your attitude, and hesitantly remove your finger from the boy's chest.
He shrinks to make himself small even with being a few inches taller than you are, and subtly fixes his shirt as he stutters, “I-I don’t follow, you know another guy named, Hongjoong?”
In peaked annoyance, you close your eyes and sigh in defeat, hoping that when you open them again, he, and all the nameless faces, disappear.
As you slowly open them back up to take a peek, he and the crowd stand there, unmoving.
You can feel yourself starting to slip away and give in to the craziness. “Never mind that", you mutter. "What happened to everyone, the black x’s on their faces? What happened to him?”
If he was here, your attacker, it would certainly make sense that this could truly be a nightmare, as he is the monster you have yet to escape from on this night, and it still affects you in reality nearly 10 years later.
“I don’t know. The boy shrugs. "It just showed up when everything broke out in there. It was like, they all were blinded by what was happening, it even happened to my friend Seongwha."
Another boy he appoints to is… Park Seonghwa.
It was everything you encaptured of him in memory from 10 years ago, yet more or less with the black X that covers his kind bright features.
"That guy that tried to-” he cuts himself off and continues, "I just kept punching him until I couldn’t anymore, and that's when the light turned back off and he just…disappeared back into the dark.” he shakes his head as if he’s recollecting the sequence of events in memory.
“It was just weird and freaky."
This isn’t exactly the timeline you remember in this unforgettable moment, but it seems a hell of a lot freakier than what happened in actuality.
You shake your head as you spot the front door for an exit, “I can’t do this."
When you approach the exit, a mass of bodies mimics your movements, never taking their eyes off of you.
In fear of what to do next, you turn to ‘Hongjoong’ who remains in his place and you say, "I need to wake up, I can’t be here anymore…it doesn’t make sense.”
He simply nods as he squeezes his way through the swarms of bodies, meeting you at the door.
"I can walk you home. Or-no, you probably don’t want that." He smack himself in the head. "Gosh, I’m so stupid! You probably can’t even trust anyone now. I don't know a cab maybe? Wait no, that's stupid too-and dangerous! How about-"
"Hongjoong!” you yell. The boy immediately stops his rantings and puts his eyes back on you at full attention, "I trust you, okay? Can you just- walk me home, please?"
You must sound desperate, crazy, and out of your mind, because the look he gives you is questionable, nonetheless, he steps out the door with ease and holds out his arm for you to loop yours through.
At least your mind got something right, he would've been a fine gentleman, even way back then.
The both of you begin walking out the door as the crowd of shaded faces remain still in the fancy household, watching you behind the windows from all its many rooms.
A shadowed face in particular that shocks you is that of Park Seongwha, whose handprint is pressed right onto the glass as he watches you two leave, like he regained his own self-control.
Your eyes widen in shock as you look over to Hongjoong by your side who only shakes his head.
"There's no use. I've already tried to get him to snap out of it, but he won't budge."
Hongjoong speeds up in his steps onto the dark gray sidewalk, pulling you along with him, and for one last time you look back, and the black X on Seongwha’s face has completely fallen. It's the only face you see, a face of sympathy, apology, and regret.
You follow the boys pace and walk faster away from the scene onto the sidewalks path with some of its engraved squares enlightened in the streetlights.
There are so many questions you want answered, but if you say them aloud you know you'd sound insane, and you've got a feeling that's exactly what will suck you further into the craziness this fake depicted reality contains.
"So, how do you know my name?" the boy on your arms asks, breaking the silence you suffered ever since you left Seongwha behind in that house.
Hongjoong hadn't even gone to your school at this time, but from what you know he was way out of town so he’s probably super confused about how you know who he is.
Even though he is just a figment of your brain and you know you very well share the same mind, you play along in answering his silly questions, in the hope of getting out of this distorted memory.
“Seonghwa is how”, you explain. “He and I have the 5th period together." A true fact. "We talk sometimes, and he tends to mention you a lot in conversations.” A non-true fact.
Your lie is certainly not something you would have come up with so quickly in real life. And even now, lying to Hongjoong felt like a sin, as the angel he's always shown to be.
A groan is heard from beside you and you're afraid you've said something wrong until he says, “You must think I'm a weirdo. See, Seongwha always tries to embarrass me when he talks about me to other people. Especially to... pretty people."
A heat creeps on your cheeks and you truly feel like a teenage girl all over again. Except you have to remember, you aren’t.
It's not the Seongwha you remember, poking fun at people or even the friends he had, however, you weren't really in his circle to know who he really was all that well.
In a teasing manner, you bump shoulders with the boy, slowly starting to like him a bit more. "Nahhh nothing like that, I promise. Just that you're a super awesome and reliable guy is all. I heard you even came to his party from all the way out of town."
Luckily you had little facts and information from Seongwha and Hongjoong's point of view that night, the things you are saying actually make sense, even though they probably wouldn't have much impact in this dimension.
"Pshhh”, Hongjoong brushes off. Park Seongwha, saying something so nice like that, about me?"
Your face is contorted in confusion as to what he means until you hear one of the giggles you have grown so fond of.
"No, I'm kidding. But yeah, I don't live around here, and Seonghwa has been through a lot with his parents and all, the pressure of trying to get straight A's so he can join this "dance club." he air quotes.
Ah, you do remember the 30+ member dance group he was the leader of, formed almost exactly a year from today. It was short-lived, but by the joy on his face, you could tell it was something Seongwha was passionate about.
It makes you wonder if his career of choice revolved and outweighed that passion after this night, and how sorry you'd feel for crumbling his dreams for something you had no control over.
"See that's what Seonghwa means by you being reliable. you commentate. You are so sweet, I mean, you didn't have to help me even just now, never in life will I be able to thank you enough for that."
It was something you've always said to Hongjoong in real life, so you already know what his response is gonna be.
Hongjoong waves off your comment immediately with his free hand, "It's common human decency. I don't even know that guy, but I fucking despise guys like him you know? Sure, he has money and everything, big deal. But how prideful do you have to be to think you should be excused from all morality?"
You smile inside at how predictable his response was, even as a teenager, he carries the wisdom of an old soul.
Memories of the ridiculously big suburban houses in the neighborhood around you translate from memory. It feels like yesterday when you ran down this very sidewalk and into your parent's arms.
Yet it stuck with you what 'young Hongjoong' said, and it couldn't be any further from the truth, because it's what you know, and who exactly your attacker came out to be. A lying, womanizing, narcissistic control freak who by some sick fate turned out to be your boss for a year too many, covering the footsteps of his past that it even blinded you, the victim, of his true identity.
A few more moments of silence carry between you two as you start entering the poorer parts of the city. You were well off growing up, however you nor your parents had the expenses for a bigger house nor all your wants.
Hence the makeup, dresses, and modifications you wished to have but never gotten with the only purpose of changing your outer appearance, to be wanted by the eyes of your male peers.
But after that-or in this case, tonight, you've found greater value in your other priorities, yourself, and you got that big house for your parents when you grew up out of love.
The house you recognize as your childhood home comes into view, and you remember how at this later hour you’d be inside coddled and crying into your parent's arms, headed to the police station that very next morning.
But that’s simply something you don’t want to relive right now, you were safe, and the thought of remaking history into a better version with the future love of your life beside you seemed more plausible.
As if the dream gods knew exactly what you were thinking, the local park right across the street appears, a staple necessary in your childhood to feel free.
As you stare at two empty swings on a set you pull Hongjoong's arm to stop the tracks of your two pairs of feet, and an idea pops into your mind.
You look at his dumbfounded expression and it makes you grin as you shout, "The last person to make it to the swings is a rotten egg!"
Without giving him time to think you unclasped your arms and bolted for the set of empty swings.
Hongjoong is left behind on the sidewalk perplexed at your sudden outburst of excitement.
Yet, he chases after you as you both giggle like the children you are in this repetition of time. You, of course, make it to a swing first in support of your starting boost.
"That's not fair, you had a head start!" Hongjoong stumbles putting in his final steps as he sits in the swing next to you, pouting with those precious pink lips as his chest heaves in heavy breaths.
You shrug your shoulders as Hongjoong adjusts onto the seat of the swing. "You've gotta be quicker than that. You mockingly stick out your tongue, Haven't you heard? You snooze, you lose.~"
Hongjoong tounges his cheek, and nods his head admitting to defeat in your teasing. You begin to kick your feet from the ground watching as his face melts to a serious one.
Anytime your sunshine isn't shining with one of those white pretty smiles. you're certainly in for a rainy day. "Shouldn't you be headed home? He ponders. I'm sure your parents are worried sick about you."
You avert your eyes to the night sky and smirk at upon his genuine concern, the twinkling shapes of the stars remind you of his eyes. Dark, yet sparkling with joy, an abyss in which you always get so easily lost in.
"Yeah, they probably are." You say dismissively. "But I'd rather be here right now, because it’s always easier with just you...you know?"
In the curiosity of his reaction, you look to your left to see a deep red blush creeping up the sides of his face as he secretly composes himself. Instead of further teasing him you leave him be, and look back into the night sky as you swing together in peace.
"This reminds me of the nights we've spent in the living room together, you know, just staring in the moonlight with you in my arms. It's the easiest feeling in the world.”
Your head snaps startled from the change to a deeper voice from the boys side.
He was your Hongjoong, whose appearance has completely changed to one you recognize.
As he continues to stare into the moonlight. He was still dressed in all white in comparison to the stars in the sky and his now neatly combed white hair.
To your astonishment, he also wore those black glasses and pretty pearl earrings you used to adore.
Your shocked expression turns into a wide smile as you've finally recognized the man you know and love so dearly in your reality.
"Being with you anytime and anywhere is the best feeling in the world." You reply.
The gecko tight-lipped smile you also know and love forms on his lips, further bringing you the familiarity that you have been craving.
But it's all washed away when he turns to you and says, "You know what else is easy? Telling me the truth my love…how long do you plan on hiding until you show me who you really are?"
All your swinging comes to a stop as you stare at his troubled expression. You couldn't even pretend to be insensible to what he was implying, because you've been keeping it secret since before the moment you saw him typing away in that library.
"I don't know, soon...” Hongjoong raises a brow and you draw back, "Maybe?" Two raised brows.
You sigh and look back into the night sky in avoidance of making eye contact with him as you confess, "What if it ruins everything we've built together? I can't afford to lose you."
The weight of his relentless stare uplifts from your body as he goes back to looking at the night sky with you. "When the truth comes into the light darling, you would've already lost me by keeping me here in the dark."
How ironic, It reminds you of the words you said to him not long ago, 'I’m worried joongie, how is this all gonna play out? I hate being kept in the dark like this.'
At a loss for words you say nothing in retort, and then a shooting star zooming across the sky causes you to perk up in excitement. You thought to use it in an attempt to bring it to Hongjoong's attention in hopes of a changed topic, but his spot in the swing is empty as it rocks and creaks.
just swinging,
swinging,
and swinging.
You look back into the night sky to see what was once a normal shooting star is a ginormous, radiant ball of light, and it's headed your way.
As you try to move, the ground sticks firmly to your feet.
It’s far too late to do anything as it gains speed and it’s rays brightens from all angles.
The ball is so close that it blinds you completely until all you can see is white, even when your eyes are closed.
Upon impact, you are rendered unconscious and fall to the mulch covered ground.
...
You awaken with an excruciating pain in your wrist. It's darker than before with a small unknown source of light. In front of you is nothing, on your left, nothing, your right, just the same.
When you look down, you see your feet swaying in the air, and it is then you look upward to see a neverending ceiling of swing chains that has become a tool of bondage as you are,
just swinging,
swinging,
and swinging.
In a speedy flash, a dark figure runs past your body leaning behind a strong breeze that continues on your swinging.
"You can't keep doing this." a distorted voice cries out, nearly making your ears bleed.
You struggle in the bonds to look around all around you and fail to locate the creature as the darkness conceals its presence, triggering your senses of fear immediately.
The distorted voice cries again and you see the figure gain proximity as you struggle from the restraints which have only grown tighter.
"You, of all people, should know that a relationship built on lies only ends up with you hurt in the end."
The creature begins to circulate around your body at a demonic pace with the speed of light, and your mind is going crazy as you try to escape from the binds yet they only grow tighter.
Suddenly, the figure stops pacing and stops right in front of your face while the unknown source of light follows slowly behind, their face is revealed and the creature comes to be…
"Me?"
The creature, who you see as yourself, is crying. She looks hurt, miserable, and so damn exhausted.
"You of all people should know what it's like to be kept in the dark."
Above you, a clinking noise is heard. The chains have become brittle and are breaking from the depths of their ends,
you look back at the clone of yourself for help only to see…
"Hongjoong! Help me, please!"
He was in the same attire, but the only thing that’s change is the look on his face.
The chains begin to unlink around your wrist, and you try to grab onto him but he grows farther from reach as your stomach drops and you fall deep into the ground without anything to hold on to.
The last you ever saw,
was the disappointed look on his face.
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You awaken paralyzed in fear as you attempt to catch air in your lungs, stiffly sitting straight up as though a Halloween pop-up shot up in someone’s yard during trick-or-treating.
The first thing that comes to mind, it is to open your eyes widely and take in your surroundings.
As normal you were in Hongjoongs bed, safe, once again.
"Stupid fucking nightmare," you whisper.
The morning sun warms your shivering body making it obvious you've made it through the whole night, but at a cost of nearly losing all of your sanity.
Hongjoong face of disappointed replays in your head as you hear the voice echo in your head and repeat, "You, of all people, should know that a relationship built on lies only ends up with you hurt in the end."
You can admit, that it's been time to tell him the truth already, and that dream was a wake-up call.
Literally.
Except you see that your opportunity is robbed when the spot next to you lies empty and cold as you run your fingers nimbly and search for him on his side of the bed.
In a panic, you retrieved your phone from under your pillow to try contact him and learn his location.
11:36 AM.
He didn’t have any meetings today, nor any errands whatsoever that he told you of, so the hell could he be?
You fondle with your phone to turn it on completely from sleeping mode and open your messaging app only to be drenched in a flood of notifications.
As you scan over the names on the very long list you see people who bullied you in high school, work colleagues who ignored your presence, and in your far distant relatives trying to hop in the pool for your undivided attention.
'Are you okay?'
'Im sorry that happened to you'
‘I wished I would've said something sooner.'
'How you've been? I saw the news.'
You hadn't known what the hell they were talking about, but with Hongjoong gone from beside you, it only intrigued you to know exactly of the ‘news’ that they speak of.
And a message that gave you the closest thing to an answer was from your parents, whom you haven’t talked to barely due to the lack of your self-control around a man you now love, and can't find at the current moment.
An old message:
Mom: Hey babycakes I miss you so much, let’s meet soon.
Rest aboves the new message:
Mom: Omg honey I just heard it all, you must be horrified right now. Please come home whenever you need.
‘What?’
You click off to view your fathers messages:
An old message:
Dad: I love you babydoll, I miss you, and just know I’m here to support you.
Rest above the new message:
Dad: Babydoll I’m so sorry. I should’ve known, I thought we had that bastard locked in a cage long time ago.
From all the unexpected worry it head is plunged into the deepest pools of psychosis as it suffers yet another set of chaos.
Which barely gives you time to recover from the dream you've awoken from.
You jump out of bed and immediately walk into the hallway as you look down at your phone in your hands, trying to contact the most stable thing in your life right now.
Suddenly all your worries were evaporated when you bump into a muscled hard chest that belongs to no other than,
“Hongjoong, where were you! I need to talk to you, its something very important.”
The something which you were going to speak of is the dream you had, and how you are now woke enough to tell him the hurtful truth.
“I've been here baby, you've just been asleep for so long.” He addresses. “I figured you need the sleep, and leave you be.” He then slowly approaches you to place his hands on your shoulders, rubbing them soothingly. “But it’s okay. I know what you're gonna say, I've been waiting for you to tell me."
Fuck.
“Wait…how did you figure it out?”
Hongjoong tilts his head in confusion. "How couldnt I? It's the news baby."
Oh right. You suppose now would be an inappropriate time to bring something into the discussion because you are now overly conscious about what business of yours is being shared with the world.
"What's this everything is speaking about thats on the news?"
Hongjoong cocks his head " You mean you haven't seen it yet?"
“No, I haven’t seen it. My phones is blowing up from all these messages im getting.”
Hongjoong doesn’t recognize your face is tense from his touch, but he looks too overly excited to notice.
“Well aren’t you curious?” Hongjoong implies.
Not even long before you nod your head he hurriedly leads you over to his couch for the two of you to sit.
His laptop is on display his arms open, waiting and ready for you to put your self in them.
However, you can’t bear to right now as much as you need to.
Not after that dream, and you don’t even turn around to see the disappointment in his face, because then it would be all too real.
…
“Breaking news, a work scandal in the suburban, downtown area, has been revealed to the public this Saturday morning.”
“(B/R/N), CEO of The Cyberpunk Technician Company has been convicted of sexual harassment, embezzlement, disorderly conduct, and many other convictions for the past 5 years as he was caught before boarding a plane for a business trip to Japan. it is with great doubt that he will come from behind bars anytime soon.”
“Those of you at home may be asking, what took so long? Well, being a billionaire comes with a lot of perks, like buying your way out of the dark past.”
“His want for arrest was issued after a heavy discussion with an old college friend now Public Prosecutor Park Seongwha. A few audio clips exposed from that discussion will be shared now.”
…
“See the difference between her and all of your Secretary-intern bitches is that you think you know everything because you’ve had a taste of my dick!”
“You don’t get special benefits, not like she does because she doesn't make herself easy and works hard for all she has. I mean I'm paying for your son's fuckin schooling, aren’t I? What else could you possibly need?"
“Well I figured since, I’ve been doing this for more years than she has.. that maybe I can get something more?”
“Well if you want more…then you have to give more right? On your knees.”
…
“Back to the studio, the audio you’ve just heard is a conversation recorded by an intern in the company, between her and the CEO, which is utterly disturbing to the ear.”
“Consequently, that same intern had gotten her wish to board to Japan without the CEO during his arrest, here is a footage clip of that as well.”
…
“You slut, after all I’ve given you!” The ex-CEO shouts in cuffs.
“It’s what you deserve you son of a bitch! The intern says as she pauses on the stairs of the private jet, “This.” She gestures to the plane's length outspreading her arms, “…is what I deserve!”
“What you deserve is a special place in hell you rotten whore!” The ex-CEO barks, thrashing out in his cuffs like an untamed animal.
“Oh yeah? Well, this whore is gonna be in Japan while you’re the one in actual hell, you sick bastard!” The intern flashes a middle finger and the ex-CEO is shoved into the back of an officer's vehicle.
…
“This is all for now, and we will be back later with the story in regards to his top employee, who we have been told will remain anonymous, and how she blindly worked for him for years, without realizing he was her attacker from a high school party.”
…
You did it.
The two of you,
finallly fucking did it.
No more cowering in the dark, no more stupid agendas to checklist, or a beastly man breathing down your neck and watching your every move.
Most of all, you get the freedom to feel direct sunlight back, without worrying about the coward lurking in your shadows.
You did it, yet, why does something feel missing?
“So…” Hongjoong suddenly speaks. “Where do you want to go from here my love? Or wait-didn’t you want to tell me something earlier?”
You can hear dream Hongjoong voice mocking you now, ‘How long do you plan on hiding until you show me who you really are?’
Soon. You will tell him. Just not here, not now, but soon, and you have just the right place and time in mind to do so.
“I was just thinking…it’s about time we should step foot out of your apartment together.” You sit closer to him, still hesitant to be worthy of his touch. “I miss spending time with you.”
By the looks of it, as Hongjoong smiles and shifts in his seat, he’s trying his best to resist touching you. It was stupid, you realize, this ‘push and pull game’ is hurting yours and his feelings even before hearing your truth, so you jump in his arms and he gladly wraps you in.
And maybe you thought it may ever be the last time you have the chance to before it all goes bad.
You can tell you’ve done the right thing when he says, “That sounds great baby! Where do you want to go? No matter how big or small, just know I got it covered.”
“Well…” you stretch out deciding to move your body to straddle his lap, it was a bold move and it only happened when you were in makeup sessions or dry humping one another, but you just did it for the hell of it.
“How about…I take you out this time? You quirk. “You know, as a thank you. Without all your hard work, this wouldn’t be possible.”
Hongjoong holds onto your hips instantly as you adjust yourself on his lap. “Oh, baby.” He began massaging under his oversized shirt you were wearing, “Haven’t you thanked me enough? You know I-”
You’re quick to put a finger to his lips before he can say something predictable along the lines of what you’ve scripted in memory.
“Just this once honey~”. You drag out. “Let me take my…” You begin to drag your finger from his lips downward and stop right above his private. “Sexy, passionate, alluring, brilliant-minded journalist, that I love so dearly, on a romantic date, hm?”
It was exceptionally bold of you but you meant every word but you know with the tongue of sensual persuasion you were gonna hit him right in the heart.
Hongjoong's hips buck up slightly as his eyes darken. “Hmmm. When you say it like that darling, how could I ever say no to such a generous offer?”
In a promiscuous way, he curls his index finger motioning for you to get closer. “Come down here, my love.” He whispers.
You leans down meeting his charming face, grabbing onto his shoulders for stability.
“Now what?” you deliberately interrogate. His brows jump transforming his whole face into a quizzical expression. A ‘don’t test me’ expression.
A little more than a subtle slap to your ass forwards you to latch your mouth onto his. It started out as a harsh smooch, a simple yet feverish taste, and what was once simple turns into him fully making out with you.
In an effort to sound unaffected in your moans, you speak between the kiss and say, “Someone’s getting a little excited for our date?”
“No, it’s just you”, Hongjoong states, then biting gently on your bottom lip. “You excite me.” He whispers.
A final wet kiss is shared before you slide slowly off his lap, “Save that excitement for after the date mister, because we have to get dressed, like right now.” You state matter-of-factly.
Like a deserted lion, he tracks your every movement with precision as he sits up to gaze at you. “Where are you taking me baby?”
What a great a question…that your absolute do not have the answer to.
“It’s a surprise, angel. Gotta keep you on your toes.” And a little something you need to make up to keep tip-toeing around the truth. “How about- we get ready at our own places? Pick me up at 3?”
With the current time being 12:04 PM, this was a way you can have some time to cool down and collect your thoughts, you haven’t been at your apartment for a little over a week, but it assists as the perfect place to rebound.
“Really? Hongjoong says with a face short of worry. Well, if that’s what you want, I’ll be waiting to see what you have in mind, see you at 3 then?”
“It’s a date!”
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After gathering your belongings from when you walked in one week ago from your breakdown on that evening, you were out the door of Hongjoong's apartment.
It was vice versa as you being the one leaving him alone in the apartment, and the goodbye was all the same. Kisses, hugs, and words of comfort and affirmations to heal each other while you're apart.
Your car had been moved to the parking garage beside the building, it must’ve been something Hongjoong did. If he hadn’t, it would’ve been in the possession of some towing company, you had parked right in front of the building after all.
As you enter your apartment you look around and linger in the silence, you don’t know what you expected, but you are relieved to see everything in its rightful place.
You remember getting up that Friday morning, stressed about how life was clashing all at once. The events that occurred at work that day were the last way you thought it was going to play out, but now that everything is resolved, It’s something that you can bury in the past, and forgive.
But never forget.
After getting settled you walk to your closet to see all the work clothes lined up that you bought with every paycheck over the past few years.
Never have you bought yourself a nice dress or clubbing clothes, because you’ve never gone anywhere. Sure there’s been work parties, but with a boss like that, showing up in anything with a square inch of skin was the wrong option.
But now that you are a free woman with a wealthy savings account and a possible emotional distress check coming soon, you decide to go on a much-needed shopping spree.
Before you leave the house, you throw all your work clothes in a bag and donate it to a thrift store. A partial attempt to erase bad memories and start anew.
Shopping in public and verbally asking assistance from strangers was definitely something you needed to readjust to, nonetheless, the trip was successful as you got everything you needed and more.
One of the items was a turquoise dress you were thinking about wearing to your date, and another item which was the most embarrassing to retrieve…
A red lingerie set
Red, because in every book you read is known to be sexy, dangerous, and alluring as a distraction, and that was exactly the idea that you want Hongjoong to have later tonight before you tell him the truth.
The best part about it is that the set has hearts. As Hongjoong had always called you my love from the very first day you met.
Luckily the store's owner had been nice enough to make you feel comfortable and simply asked about what your relationship is like to get the best set, and it couldn’t have been any more perfect.
Taking a shower was so reminiscent just like every other space in your house, it had its own special kind of vibe. Except in the shower, you can do anything in here. Get lost in thought, Be happy or sad.
The vibe right now was happiness, sadness, and lost in thought all at once.
You were happy because you finally got an idea of a date planned. First, you were going to take him to the park under the lemon tree on a picnic, and then you were going to go to a hill that was not too far away and watch the view of the sunset.
It wasn’t anything expensive, but it was meaningful.
Just a casual open space where you both can talk freely, and enjoy one another’s company without the wary of wandering eyes or people listening in.
Sure, the lemon tree was going to be a constant reminder of what you have yet to say, but it might just do you good, because it’s what you need to do after all.
Your phone buzzes on your sink counter top and lets out a loud ‘ding’.
It was about time that you had gotten out anyway, you’re getting a little too deep into your thoughts.
As you grab the towel from the side to shower you walk to your phone to see who could be. You hoped it wasn’t another fake person asking about the news, you had enough hearing from them and that for today, there was already so much weighing on your mind.
Hongjoong: What color are you going to be wearing?
Well…if you were thinking innocently, you would say turquoise, sinisterly, you’d say red. You were thinking more of one way over the other however, you sent the opposite.
You: Turquoise, is there a specific color you want me to wear?
You wouldn’t mind at all him being choosy being the fashionista that he is, however, you really like this dress and how it fits you, it was perfect for the occasion.
Hongjoong: No I wanted to match with you, like a couple thing yk? ^ ^
Never have you used labels and your relationship. ‘Couple’ is necessarily just a relationship term. It can be used for a couple of days or a couple of dollars. However, it was definitely used as a relationship term in this case.
You: oh sure, that would be cute.
That would be amazing. To be able to walk out in public showcase to everyone that you were together would be absolutely amazing.
There’s also something you would love for Hongjoong to do in regards to fashion, and it’s been on your mind since you woke up this morning.
You: this might be odd but, could you put on those glasses you used to wear?
Three dots appear in a light grey, then disappear again as a new message is sent.
Hongjoong: interesting…do they turn you on?
…
As soon as you read the message it out of the bathroom in no time giggling like a maniac to sit on the edge of your bed. However, when you send the message, you pretend you are unaffected and don't respond as timidly as he probably expects.
You: if I say yes, will you wear them angel?
Another ding indicate his Immediate response.
Hongjoong: I’ll consider it.
He’s definitely going to do it, he just wants to see the word,
You: Yes.
The lingerie you bought lays beside you. It's going to be difficult to pretend to be all vibrant and giddy when you were the complete opposite underneath. Especially after seeing that message.
It’s 1:57 PM, and you finally gathered the courage to put on the lingerie.
The mirror reveals something you have been deprived of seeing from your body since birth. You were a walking ball of hot fire and desire.
Your body is beautifully decorated by lace trim, and the bra highlights your boobs peeking out from the slits with bow detailing on the straps. In addition, a small lace garter at your waist is adorned with two hearts on both sides, draping over your panties with thin straps that expose your thighs upholding the rhombus lace patch that is attached with a bowtie on top, barely covering what’s underneath.
You turn from all angles memorized by your own body, and you are sure Hongjoong should be satisfied. Your favorite part of all was another trimmed heart that rests above your ass causing you to giggle to yourself in excitement.
It’s 2:33 PM and you put the elegant turquoise dress over your sexy red, and you are mesmerized by how you look straight out of a fairytale.
A ding from your phone takes you out of neverland; and you strut over to your phone feeling like an entirely different person.
Hongjoong: leaving now to yours darling, I cannot wait to see you ( ˘ ³˘) <3
You: Drive safe. I can’t wait to see you too.
‘can’t wait’ was not an understatement.
But as soon as 2:57 PM hit. a rhythmic knock was heard at your door.
You double-check the time and bolt to the door with a bag with all the goodies for your picnic, while your other hand bunches up the sides of your dress as you open the door, welcomely met by an oh-so-precious face.
“He-.” Hongjoong pauses, eyes wandering up, down, and all around your body. “How lucky am I to be able to spend the day with you?” You blush as he continues to say, “Wait baby, can you spin for me?”
Made easy by the sandals you were wearing with your dress, you spin fluidly onto the floor meeting Hongjoong's face once again. “You like?”
His eyes blink rapidly as if he can’t believe what he’s seeing flicking from your face and back onto the dress. “I love, you look like a princess darling.”
The well-respected gentleman in front of you was wearing a short-sleeved white knitted collared button-up with brown accented line detailing, paired with dark blue jeans. He even made time to get a new haircut, a fringed chestnut look. But most of all, he did in fact wear those iconic black glasses you asked of him. Although you aren’t sure where you match.
“You look stunning and fashionable as always handsome, but I thought you wanted to match?”
He lifts up his right hand and wiggles his fingers. “I did, look here.” He quickly points to a finger with his other hand.
As you glance closely you see on his ring finger nail gorgeous turquoise paint.
“Ah, so that’s what you meant? You giggle in surprise, grabbing onto it to examine it clearly. “It’s a really pretty color though.”
“It is, and all for my very pretty lady. He then extends his other hand in front of you wiggling his fingers in the same motion. “Are you ready baby?”
You grand onto the wiggling hand and shut the door behind you. “That I am sir.”
“What’s with the bag?” He asks as he looks at your other hand.
“It’s a surprise honeybun.” You whisper closer to his ear. Let’s get going.”
…
When you enter his car, you tell him the directions of a reroute to the park he took you to without making it obvious.
During the drive, there was a lot of joking around flirting, and excessive touching. You were having so much fun in the heat of the moment you nearly forgot how you had to boil it down to the truth at the end of the night.
Hongjoong pulls into a parking space with shades of nature through his windshield and that special lemon tree. “The park?” He looks at your bag in the backseat and turns to smile at you. “Are we having a picnic?”
“Mhmm.” You confirm. “But not just any picnic, I brought some crafts for us to do!”
Hongjoong hovers his hands over his mouth and chuckles at your excitement “You're so cute, I love it, I love my surprise.”
“I’m glad.” You replied. “I just wanted to do something easy with you, it’s been so hard for us you know?”
He nods and strokes the side of your head as you both share a look of empathy, most likely thinking about how hectic the past week has been.
After that intimate moment dies down you make it out of the car you grab your bag out of the backseat, pulling out the materials to set up your picnic with Hongjoong budging in trying to be of assistance.
Once you have laid out the food, drinks, and arts and crafts, you settle upon the quilt on the grass.
“So what did you want us to paint?” Hongjoong asks with a canvas and brush ready in hand.
It was like your first date at the paint and sip in reverse, you remember asking Hongjoong what you both should paint, and you had an idea very similar to what he had said.
We’ve been getting to know each other a bit more, and we’ve also been through a lot more, so maybe…we could do another painting of how we see each other now?”
Hongjoong cocks his head and starts running with the paintbrush. “Do you see me differently now than when we first met?”
You should be asking him that.
“Yes and no.” You say, moving your body playfully side to side. “You’re still my sweet boy, if anything, I think more highly of you every day.” Now in genuine curiosity, you ask, “How about me, am I any different?”
You watch as he begins to look elsewhere to think carefully about his response, and it would’ve worried you a second longer until he looks back at you and says, “I’m proud of you my love, always. You're still my bashful beautiful girl, and you’ve grown so much, baby.” He moves his fingers need nail painted hands over yours. If anything, you’re becoming different every day, but in a good way.”
Externally that is what you’ve enabled him to see, however, you have worried about the same thing every day since you met. To cover up your thoughts you throw his hand playfully and shout, “Get to painting, cornball!”
While you began painting there were shenanigans occurring between the two of you. Sneaking glances at the progress of one another’s paintings, laughing out of nowhere during moments of silence with only nature backing sound around you, getting one another food, or stealing quick kisses just because.
The both of you were finished and ready to display your art with one another.
“Okay, we flip on three.” Hongjoong declares.
“One.” You start.
“Two” He continues.
“Three!” You both shout.
The both of you take the time to appreciate the detail and one another’s painting letting out a simultaneous, “Wow.” Followed by a fit of laughter.
While lifting the palm of your hand up you gesture toward Hongjoong's painting. “You should go first.”
On his canvas was an image of something simple, a sunflower in front of a backsplash of a cloudy blue sky.
“In reference to what I said earlier”, he starts, “you’ve grown so much, baby. My adorable little seed has finally become a sunflower. You pout at how sentimental his beautiful words are as he continues to say, “Sunflowers uniquely symbolize unwavering faith and never-ending alignment towards the light.”
You would suppose he’s trying to represent your trust in him and yourself through this past week's process and how it has brought enlightenment into your lives making you both stronger and happier.
“That’s wonderful angel, thank you.”
He nods his head she gestures to your painting for you to present.
It was a blended swirl of black-gray with a glowing light of orange and yellow hues in the middle.
“Mines is a bit dark I feel…it’s the light at the end of a tunnel, because when there’s you, there’s always hope.” You pause before adding, “These past couple of months have been the liveliest times of my life, and I’m so lucky to be with you.”
Hongjoong places his canvas down and gets onto his knees. “I feel the exact same way. You know what baby? That reminds me. He moves one hand to his backside and lifts up one knee. “Can you stand up for me please?”
You put your canvas form onto the quilt and quizzically make your way up to stand in front of him while fixing the material of your dress.
“Joongie…what are you doing?”
He looks up at you with adoring eyes. “I think my new name for you is not sunflower, I love it when you’re so radiant and happy. I promise to do my best to make sure you stay that way as we grow together. So now I will ask.”
He pulls out a small box from his backside, and you throw your hand over your mouth in shock.
He opened it to reveal a ring with a shiny golden sunflower and a yellow crystal carved like a diamond in its middle. Hongjoong finishes off his sentiment by saying,
“Will you be mine, my girlfriend, the sunflower to my sunshine?”
You have never used labels in your relationship but, your girlfriend is your newly given label.
“Infinity times yes. You speak with determination. I will be yours, the sunflower to your sunshine, your girlfriend, with you as my boyfriend.”
Hongjoong grins as he slides the jewel onto your ring finger on your right hand.
“Then with this is the promise and responsibility to keep you happy to the best of my ability, as your boyfriend.”
You stare at the jewelry as it sparkles in the sun, it reminds you of your lovers eyes, and you will forever look at it as a reminder that he always still watch over you.
As you twist the ring onto your finger your notice the engraved words inside writing ‘you are my sunshine’
Tears began to peak at your eyes and you happily let them escape. “It’s so gorgeous, I can’t believe my eyes.”
Hongjoong rises from the ground and places his hand on your hips. “Two beautiful sunflowers, I can’t believe my eyes either.”
You wrap both arms around his shoulders and hug him closely as you sway with the wind.
He pulls back a little to kiss the shell of your ear and whispers, “I love you, together forever.”
“I love you too cornball. Together forever.” You whisper back.
After a few minutes of you crying and his whispering more poetic words, you both pull away.
You wrote away the remainder of the tears on your face and playfully pouted, “Hey this isn’t fair. You sniffle. It’s supposed to be my date for you.”
“Oh really? Hongjoong questions, and you nod in response. “You know what else isn’t fair. You calling me a cornball when I’m trying to declare my love for you!”
The next thing you know Hongjoong is crouching and bunching the material of your dress to lift you over his shoulder.
“Joongie!”
He says nothing as he dons you around laughing menacingly.
Even though you were getting incredibly dizzy, you also felt the sparks fly, like a Disney princess in love with what she hoped somewhere in the future would soon become her prince.
…
It was closer to evening and the both of you watched the spot where you had your picnic on the edge.
Ever since you’ve gotten that ring onto your finger you’ve been twirling, touching, and watching it sparkle. It was still unbelievable that not even 2 months ago you were strangers and now you’re his girlfriend.
Hongjoong watches as you play with the ring deep in thought, and interlace your hands with his to bring you back into the moment.
“What’s on your mind?” He asks.
You look at the connection of your hands beside shifting your shoulders. “We’ve been through a lot together already, you know with his huge obstacle that was in our way, and there’s probably gonna be so much more like that, and I don’t know if I’m ready for it.”
You feel a nudge on your shoulder and turn to Hongjoong staring at you with the prettiest smile, and warm glowing skin.
“If we can get through that together, we can get through anything. He points to your ring. “I gave you this, to attest to that. And later in the future, I’ll give you a prettier one. I’m a man of my word.”
As in marriage? Will you even make it that far? Will the truth allow it?
“I know. You commentate. I trust you always.”
Hongjoong uses his other hand to point at the view in the sky. “Look out there. What do you see?”
You look at the warm color gradient with small bits of white, and a golden sun glowing far in the background.
“A sunset.” You simply reply.
Hongjoong giggles before replying, “My parents used to tell me growing up, that a sunset represents a day's worth of hard work or a beginning cycle of something new or the end of a harsh journey.”
He rubs his thumb against your intertwined hands. “Today, we’ve experienced both, an ending of a journey with a battle between light and dark, us being the light and prevailing in victory, and a new journey with you officially as my girlfriend, to be mine forever more, and guard you with my heart.”
Although you are considerably taking his words to heart, there’s something you are very curious about. “Say, why did it take you so long to ask?”
Hongjoong giggles and looks off somewhere in the distance like a child caught in a lie before replying, “I might’ve thought you already were, but a friend of mine made it clear that it wasn’t the case.”
“Seongwha?” You lean back and question. A sly smile gives you an affirmative answer. “You jerk! You never asked, how was I supposed to know?”
Hongjoong pulls you close and turns to you so that your face is barely inches apart. “The first time I laid eyes on you, that’s when, you were mine, my love.”
A tickle climbs to your spine and a heat warms your cheeks, yet you push him on his firm chest to keep him from noticing as you hide your face.
“Cornball!”
…
When you get back to his apartment later that evening you both are quick to put things up and go straight to the bedroom.
Hongjoong had nearly slammed the door to grab your face into a feverish kiss. Ever since your makeout session on the couch this morning you both have been incredibly horny.
Especially Hongjoong.
In seconds, your dress, and his shirt and pants, were left wrinkled onto his bedroom floor.
It was now revealed to Hongjoong what you had underneath and needless to say, he fell right in love all over again.
“Oh baby, I need you now. Please.”
Never have you heard Hongjoong sound so desperate, but you’d be damn to let such a wonderful opportunity fly by.
You break the kiss with a loud smack sound and push him onto the bed. Tonight you wanted to take the initiative, and even being as shocked as he is, Hongjoong had no issue with it.
“What’s this? Is my tough and protective boyfriend sub-spacing?”
He’s unfazed by tie teasing as he rolls his eyes to the back of his head. “I don’t care if I sound desperate baby. He sits up grabbing you by the flesh on your thighs. “I’ve been waiting to have you by myself all day, and seeing you like this now makes me more needier than I already am.”
The large tent on his boxers made his "neediness" readily apparent, whereas yours was concealed between your legs and would soon drip down from the throbbing ache to be noticed.
You’ve placed the palm of your hand on his chest to push him back down onto the bed as you move on to join him.“You know what?” You whisper. “For tonight, I want you to call me…Mistress.
Hongjoong's breath hitches as he looks into the foreign sense of authority in your eyes. His Apple bottoms bob and weaves as his throat grows dry before saying the words,
“Okay…Yes, Mistress.”
Your nearly join him into sub space listening to him so weak and comply to your demands, it’s almost addictive.
“Very good, angel”, you lean down and whisper into his ear. “Maybe you deserve to cum after your lovely ‘ment today at the park hmm?”
He nods so fast his head might fall off, but you weren’t accepting that for an answer, and if it were him, he wouldn't either.
“What was that? I don’t think I can hear you?”
In an effort to be as petty as possible, you align your crotch with his giving him a small hump as you slowly grind your hips downward.
“Aughhh, mmm, yyyes, please let me cum mistress, I’ve been good to you today, please.”
“Okay, I’ll give you what you need my sweet boy.”
You continue the action of rubbing your panty-covered pussy onto the length of his girthy cock, gradually pooling your wetness onto him.
It was the closest the two of you have gotten to sex lately, and it felt so thrilling every single time.
“Faster mistress, please.”
You go faster in compliance with his request, but you still had to upkeep your role.
“I’ve barely even started, and you're already begging for more angel. Don’t you know that patience is a virtue?”
As if he hasn’t heard what you said at all, he doesn’t make eye contact. At first, you think he’s ignoring you, but as you follow the direction of his sight… the pinpoint darted directly to your chest.
“Can I….can I mark you mistress?”
Marking:
As you recall from your readings, it's a way for a character to claim one another as their own using multiple methods like biting, hickeys, scratch marks, etc. And from the dazzling ring on your finger, you can actually qualify Hongjoong as yours, and you as
“All yours, I’m all yours honey. Go right ahead, mark me.
No later after you grant him permission, he places his mouth atop your boobs between the slits in your bra top, and you come to a complete stop in your grinding.
You give in to the new feeling of ‘marking’, but Hongjoong slaps you on the ass to get you back in motion, and his action is effective, as it gets you back moving again, but it also caused you to nudge to his tip, backfiring in him so greatly.
A loud moan escapes from his lips along with a heavy breath cooling the wet spot he left behind from his sucking and licking.
You take note of the effect and begin to move even faster as you swirl your hips on his head, soaking your wetness completely through the material, and causing him to jerk his hips.
“See, when you misbehave, it all comes back to punish you. You say in a direct tone. “It’s like karma, specifically for lovemaking.”
Having had enough, Hongjoong grunts and pulls down the cups of your bra, and latches his wet lips onto a nipple as he sucks harshly, hoping to heighten your pleasure as you're doing to him.
“Ahh, joongie. Oh, fuck!”
The white-haired man grins and releases the nipple, blowing on it and watching it harden all over again, just for him to put it right back in his mouth.
Another slap to your ass urges you on to move even faster, nearly climaxing as his head nudges perfectly against your clit through your panties with each thrust.
Hongjoongs mumbling on your nipples sending vibrations throughout the nub and stimulating you even farther.
It won’t be long until you cum, and by the way, Hongjoongs sucking harder in an attempt to cover his cries, it won’t be long for him either.
In order to catch his breath he releases from your nipple once again, mumbling nonsense as he tries to talk to you,
“I, nyyaaa, I think I’m gonna-fuck. I think I’m gonna cum Mistress!”
You can feel it. In the way his stomach tightens, as he jerks his hips more than before, by the way he’s whining so frequently you know he’s gonna cum, and luckily, you’re not too far behind.
“I know joongie, me too.” You say in an airy breath. “Let’s cum together, yeah?”
He nods his head as he meets your thrust, bucking up his hips impossibly further into your pussy, and squeezing onto your ass with a good grip to help you ride him even faster.
It’s not long before both of your movements become irregular, and it’s time to let go.
You finally cum and slow down on your grinding as you feel an even wetter substance soak into the material of your underwear.
The only thing heard in his bedroom on this quiet evening is the wind from your breaths as you come down from your position to lay your head onto his chest.
In between your legs, it’s warm and sticky, but you don’t mind, just a few more minutes won’t hurt just to hear the throbbing heartbeat of your lover as they come down from their high.
“You're not too bad at dominating, if I hadn’t came in my boxers, I would’ve thought your attempt was kind of cute”, Hongjoong says abruptly.
You lift your head to glance at his flushed face and damp messy white hair. With a haircut it looked even hotter, so put together and clean, but messy and dirty all at the same time.
“Never underestimate a virgin, they might just know a lot more than you think.” You boop his nose and lift off his body to make your way into the bathroom outside the door.
You grabbed two small clothes for you both and wiped between your legs with one. When you finish up you catch a glance at yourself in the mirror.
It dawned on you that all isn’t fine and dandy when a tiny voice in your inner conscious whispers, ‘When will it ever be the right time, how long before it’s too long and he finds out on his own?’
“Soon”, you whisper into your reflection. It was like a reminder of who you are and how Hongjoong sees you. For now, you’ll just keep up with that false interpretation of your character in a history of Beck into the bedroom to play your role.
As for the good distraction, You’re met with the perfect imagery of Hongjoong against the bed frame with a blotched white stain on his boxers as his muscles flex with every still heaving breath.
“You alright? Need some water maybe?”
He shakes his head no and makes a grabby hand for the towel which you hand to him promptly.
Unexpectedly, he then gets up to take off his boxers completely and clean the soften length right in front of your very eyes.
He then finishes by tossing the boxers and cloth into his dirty clothes bin and turns around to get another pair from his drawer before revealing his perfect-perky ass in your face, and the rushed sequence of his every movement leaves you rendered speechless.
When he turns around, he notices your highly stiff posture.
“Everything okay? You look like how you did when you’d seen my body for the very first time.”
Aha. In other words, he knew what he was doing that time when he came out from the shower with that towel low on his hips, leaving your overactive imagination to run wild.
“I’m just fine, you cornball.” You walk closely up to him and rub your hands over his well-defined body to tease him with your next line. “Don’t act like you weren’t being all googly eyes when you saw me in this fancy lingerie.”
In a few quick steps, he closes the space between you two for a quick smooch. “Okayyy fair and square, “He whispers lowly, “Can we go to bed now please?”
When hearing the embarrassment in his voice you continue to yank on his chain by further teasing, “I think you’re forgetting something, please mist…” you trail off.
In him knowing exactly what you're indicating he raises a brow making his entire face go into a ‘really’ kind of expression. “I'm kidding!” You say putting your hands up in surrender. “Fine. Let’s go to sleep then…sweet boy~.”
“Y/N!”
…
You sleep through the night just fine with no scary black x’ed faces or a teenager Hongjoong turned all adult, cold, and sad.
However the thought of finally telling your secret to him never left your mind.
He had woken up earlier than you as always and hopped straight into the shower. It wasn’t long before he would come right back out, however, it had taken him a little longer this time around.
Right as you were about to grow worried he comes into the room, all dressed and ready for the day and he looks at you with a half-assed smile. “This is gonna suck to hear, but I just got called in to attend another meeting this morning.”
Fuck.
Why does the universe spoil every given opportunity for you at the most inconvenient timing, you wouldn’t dare fuck up his brain right before going into a business meeting, it’s his future you’d be screwing up.
You dig and put on another fake smile of your own. “You do what you gotta do honey, I’ll just… be here.”
Hongjoong face is saddened as he hears the underlying disappointment laced in your voice. Until suddenly like a cartoon character he springs up like a lightbulb clicked on over his head.
“If it isn’t too much to ask- because I know you’re great with computers and, it might keep you busy while I’m gone.” He pauses before speaking through a pout. “I’ve been getting a lot of hate mail from people ever since the news was released…would you mind taking the time to filter them out for me?”
‘Hate mail for Hongjoong? But why?’
It could only be people associated with Mr. Sexist Mysoginistic Dickwad that could do such a thing. If anything they should feel threatened by you, you are the one who revolves around the start of it all, not him.
The least you could do is help with the disadvantage of harboring an important secret, that could drastically change the trust you have earned in your relationship.
You move off the bed to meet him standing at the doorway. “Of course, angel. With his lingering saddening expression you take his face in your hands. “I’m sorry that you had to see that, you don’t deserve that at all sunshine.”
He waves his whole arm out like it doesn’t mean anything, but you can tell by the dull look in his eyes that he’s hurt and a little distracted.
Especially if he does his blogging and such on there all the time, it can be overwhelming.
“It’s…all good.” He speaks in a low voice. You’re here with me now, safe and sound, and that’s all that matters.” Hongjoong gives you his best game face before placing a few kisses on your lips. “I’m going to head out now…I’m gonna be late.
While removing your hands carefully from his face with a final squeeze he then walks out the open bedroom door. “My laptop is on that desk. He points. “I love you, baby, see you later on.”
“I love you too. See you later.”
A worrying once-over tracks you down from his eyes before he’s completely out the door.
The sound of jangling keys and fabric shuffling has you standing in place, conflicted about him leaving, the hate he’s unjustly receiving, and the truth you have yet to explain.
Another door opens and shuts, and when it’s followed by a click, you know he’s gone.
You imagine how awful it is to hear that once more if it were you were being kicked out from his place, as a possible reaction when it comes down to hearing your starting intentions.
As you look over your shoulder you see the laptop he spoke of on his desktop.
It's been so long since you’ve seen the screen up close from that very first time he was away in the library. You scoff aloud when you reminisce about seeing how it was a rough draft of a beautifully written article, rather than the sexual-ridden words your eyes tricked out to be on the device.
While you open his computer, it’s a unlocked screen of numerous files covering the default image in the background. Each folder have their own names he’s given them, one of many you familiarize with its named ‘Plan SMDT’.
In spite of your horror, you attempt to avoid opening the file as you begin to work on the task he requested.
It was so simple and easy that you got it done in little to no time at all.
All you’d done was type in certain keywords that might have some sort of relation to the news, and report multiple senders, aka ‘the haters’.
If Hongjoong had thought that you would really be finished before he returned, then he really must have not understood what he was doing.
So, for a moment you were just sitting there, watching back to his screen with many files, and even though it may be wrong, it makes you curious as to what’s in them…just to let time pass.
It could all just be blogging drafts, or plans for his future writing establishment.
Nothing to keep top secret.
After nearly an hour of scanning through many files, it was just as you thought, work-related things.
However, there is just one last file you wanted to check for, in which you saved to finish off with purposely because of its name.
‘Illusions of the Lemon Tree’
As you click on the file with nothing in expectancy, oddly, and unlike the other files, it has a password key.
You stare blankly as the cursor blinks in the rectangular box as if it’s waiting for you to make your best guess.
But after trying a bunch load of passwords you give up.
Until you begin to think simpler. The artist on the album of the lemon tree song; ‘AFoolsGarden.’
Suddenly the laptop completely changes in format as it takes you to a webpage and lo and behold:
User @lemontree1117.
Hongjoong… is the face behind the account?
The account in which you read the fan fiction that takes replacement of him when he isn’t around.
@lemontree1117 is Hongjoong,
and Hongjoong is @lemontree1117.
What is even more concerning is that It’s all there in front of you, the already published stories, rough drafts of the next chapter…it’s all on his laptop.
It wasn’t a mind game. You aren’t lacking sleep, you know what you see to be real.
A faith you had in the saying, ‘you won’t believe it unless seen with your own two eyes’ has proven itself to you once again.
In all this time, you strived to be perfect for him for so long.
If anything, you are confused about who he really is.
Using your lives as inspiration, and publicly posting it into a fiction, no wonder it was all too familiar.
Now imagine what you will do when he returns to his apartment as normal, while your mind is wreaking havoc with all sorts of ideas.
With the self-control you struggled to keep composed, you let your body do the thinking instead of your brain, and what your body does is pack all the things you’ve brought over from his apartment and walk out towards his front door.
A painting of your hands enclosing around a white mug with swirls of green and a cream decoration stares at you from across the doorway. Right next to a swirling of black, brown, and yellow.
But all you do is wave as you leave them both behind, because even as they’re creator… you don’t know what they mean.
You don’t know who Hongjoong is to you anymore,
nor yourself,
to ‘him’.
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“Hi….”
As you stand on the doorstep with a few heavy bags in hand, you face the two other people you have left in this world.
Like you never left them behind, they joyfully welcome you back in as they’re quick to engulf you in a hug.
“Babycakes!”
“Babydoll!”
“Mom.”
“Dad.”
“I missed you too.”
…
The very next morning, you wake up to delightful smell of breakfast.
Strawberry Nutella French toast, just like you had in all of your childhood, just like you had made for him.
All of you sit at the new dinner table after setting things in place.
Fortunately, after receiving your paycheck from your ex-job, you decided to buy your parents a new house. A service of gratitude for their undying support.
After you dig into the soft, decorated slice of thick bread, you sigh at how the sweet chocolatey flavor smears on your taste buds, and how the sweetened strawberries add a hint of freshness.
“I know it might be a little early but… How are you..really?”
Your mom initiates in conversation, but her question nearly causes you to choke on a piece of bread.
Dad, on the other hand, attentively takes notice of the tensity and nudges your mother under the table.
But you still answer nonetheless.
“I’ve been… managing. But I couldn’t have gone through it all by myself.”
You once again pick up your fork and knife to take another bite of the sweet dish, in order to keep away the bitter feeling of his hidden truth.
“Ah, thats right.” Your dad steps in. That Park Seongwha guy, the public prosecutor?”
“Or no-“, your mom interjects. “Isnt the other one? What is it, Kim-”
“Hongjoong.” You finish in a whispered voice.
An awkward silence joins the three of you at the dinner table as your parents stare at your mad-sad expression when you suddenly avoid eye contact.
“I’m in love with him actually, and we’ve been seeing one another for a few months now.” You abruptly confess.
Slightly curious about their reactions, you look up to see your parent's tense faces turn happy in a flash.
“Awe.” Your mom coos. “Our sweetheart has finally found herself a sweetheart of her own, huh?”
“When can we meet him?” Your dad adds on.
Ha.
“Yeah well…I don’t think you will. I already lost him as quick as I found him.” You say bitterly, taking yet another bite of your toast, and a huge sip of hot coffee.
“Uhhh.” Your mom drags on, briefly looking to your father for help. “How do you mean?”
Sigh.
Here goes.
“I just found out something unexpected about him, and I’m not sure that I like it. But the weird thing is that I’m also guilty of it myself.”
It was the first time you’ve said it aloud and you were being both honest to your parents and to yourself.
“Well that’s hypocritically odd is it not? Your dad speaks in a humorous tone. “How is it that you are allowed to do it, but when he does the exact same it’s a problem?”
You swallow the leftover food in your mouth and feel your throat become dry. You weren’t expecting that response, but that’s how your father always was, blunt, yet caring enough to teach you right from wrong.
“No, it’s not that, he just”, you pause trying to search for your next words “…never told me about it.”
“Well. Your mother steps in. “Have you ever told him?”
Damn.
“I, uhh…no. You admit for lack of words.
“So, it seems to me that the both of you aren’t being completely honest.” Your dad inclines. “That’s a rough start to everlasting love babydoll. Your mother and I know that very well.”
You know that. Growing up, you watched both of them trying their best not to fight around you, wanting to show you that relationships are continuous moments of agreement and love, however being in one for yourself, has shown you that’s not always the case.
“How can I make things easier? What should I do first?” You ask.
Your mother reaches for your hand near your plate, forcing you to look into her eyes, behind it was a mind of logic. Just like your father, it’s how she’s always been, and that is why they clashed so often.
“Babycakes, don’t you see? The both of you are guilty of the exact same thing, and that should be easier enough in itself.” She gives you a warm smile before continuing. “He sounds like he might be a reasonable man, she’d as your father said, we’d love to meet him someday.”
She smiles wider when she finishes speaking, and that’s when you feel your father's hand grasp onto your empty one.
“But first, you resolve whatever it is you two got going on.” He advises. “It sounds like you both have some issues to code through in order to reboot this relationship on the right programming, computer girl.”
…
As you stand on their doorstep, you receive several excessive wet kisses on the cheek from both sides to the point you have to try and shove them off.
You giggle from the ticklish feel and drop your bags to push them away. “Guys, you have to stop!”
They listen to you and step back off the pavement and back into their house.
"Please, please please, visit us soon, we want to be more involved in your life babycakes, it's hard to be when you always push us away.” Your mom whines.
You nod your head in agreement.
"I promise. From now on I’ll visit more often, it's the least I can do. Thank you for everything, I love you guys.”
You watch as they look at each other with excitement, beaming as they finally get the daughter they’ve been needing back.
“We love you too babydoll, come back soon you hear? Don’t be afraid to bring that man around either.” Your dad jokes.
Oh right, there was still that you had to figure out.
Simply nodding as a response, you then walk to your car and see them wave frantically in the doorway as you drive off, giving them a few playful beeps.
Who would’ve thought your parents would’ve been the solution for it all?
But also why wouldn’t they be? They’ve always tried to always be there for you, and just like you did to him, and him to you.., you’ve kept them in the dark for too long.
However, now it’s time to show him who you really are, because you of all people should know what it's like,
to be kept in the dark.
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As you watch the red digital numbers change on the screen of the elevator, it finally approaches the top floor, also known as the sixth floor, to your abandoned loft apartment.
Tomorrow, you were gonna come up with a plan to truly speak with him, and tell him all that you know, but only for today, you just wanted to relax.
However, as you walk down further down the familiar hallway, the world doesn’t stop and wait for you to be ready, because there he is,
Kim-Hong-Joong.
With easily recognizable white hair that’s unstyled, and naturally came into a side part. A black and gray short sleeve button-up with some optical deluded fancy pattern, plain black slacks, and dress shoes to match.
Casual and classy. As always.
“I've been here since yesterday, waiting for you. He softly speaks. Can we please talk inside?”
…
You struggle to place the bags you’ve brought from your parents onto the ground as Hongjoong stands awkwardly in a corner.
He tried to take on the job for you, but you were quick to move and respectfully declined.
After a few minutes, you managed to place them down and readjust yourself. But you were trying to prove a point that you could do just fine without him, and you were letting your emotions control you instead of listening to your parent's advice.
Hongjoong then takes the chance to walk closer, about halfway into the distance that you were apart. He pauses before opening his mouth to say what he has been wanting to do since he found his apartment empty yesterday.
“I know…that you know.” He starts.
He knows?
…Of course he does.
“It’s obvious, now that I think about it. Lemontree1117?”, he scoffs.
A quick shiver runs down your spine just to hear the familiar words fall from his mouth, except now that’s it actually coming from him, it sounded like a different language.
“It was all me. The librarian is how I thought of you, and what you know as Christopher, was a representation of me.
This entire time I've built this wall around who I truly am. Ever since I first saw you, wandering off into the fantasy and romance section, leaving in and out so quickly, it made me interested.
In the books you were reading…and then you.”
After this part of his explanation, he steps forward once more, but you take even more steps back.
With a face of regret, he then nods his head unsteadily in understanding, yet he still has the courage to continue.
“When we first started dating, Every layer of fear I tried to remove from you was like flipping the pages of those books, I wanted to see more of you until the very end. That happy end in every fantasy.
But then you actually became my friend, to my girlfriend, and now I have hopes to have you till death do us part.”
‘I had hoped so too.’ You think.
He continues, “I knew the end would come soon because eventually you would find out about my writings…the ones I hadn’t shown you.
On that day, before you came up to talk to me in the library, I had begun writing that story, but it was too vulgar and rushed in, I wanted to take my time with it, and you gave me the perfect inspiration for how it should be.”
So your eyes weren’t playing mind games. What a relief…but the look at how crazy things turned out to be.
“I hadn’t known that you were that girl at the party, but it didn’t change the way I saw you.
If anything, it made me more attracted to you, to give you all you desire simply because you deserve it, and I ended up falling in love before I could catch myself.
“Every word that I spoke to you was real. Every my love, which I had never called anyone else. Every darling, baby, my adorable seed, my sunflower.
I don't deserve acceptance or an apology, but you deserve to hear those words and so much more. I wish nothing but the best of luck to you, and someone real enough to make your fantasies come to life, the right way.”
After his lengthy confession, you stare at each other for a few minutes like you're both in a contest of ‘who will break first’, and you are aiming to come out on top.
However, when he forfeits and turns to decidedly leave for the door, you make the hard decision to put the tough girl act down and be the real y/n you have always been afraid to be.
He grasps onto the doorknob, ready to make his leave, but right before he turns it you clear your throat and speak loudly with a newly mocked sense of bravery.
“I’m not the girl you fell in love with either.”
The muscle tension that exists in Hongjoong's body increases as he straightens up and slowly turns to face you again, causing you to avert your gaze to the floor in shame, as a salty tear falls down on your cheek.
“I’ve changed so much since high school Hongjoong, so fucking much.
From the night you saved me, I’ve known what it's like to be kept in the dark for so long, and it's not fair for me to do the same to you.”
‘How long do you plan on hiding until you show me who you really are?’ Dream him voices in your head.
“Not long.” You say aloud.
“So here's me coming into the light for you Kim Hongjoong…I’m y/n, a 25-year-old perverted virgin who reads erotic sexual romantic fiction because I’d rather get off by the help of the impurity of fictional writing ungraceful words, instead of choosing the wrong man to poison the purity of my “unclaimed” virginity.
I’ve masturbated to the thought of you after the first time we met, and it wasn't the last time.
Every book or site of fiction I read was in thought of you, including Lucid Dreams, and how I so badly wanted you to do all those pleasurable things to me. It got so bad to the point that I saw you in my literal dreams.”
You harshly wipe the tears from your face while taking in a soothing deep breath, nearly starting the habit of pinching your thighs out of nervousness.
“When we first spoke in the library, I didn't talk to you in the interest of asking about your job as a journalist, no, I couldn't have cared any less.
I thought you were writing fanfiction, which I know now to be true.” At this, he bows his head in shame and shuffles from his hips and feet.
“So, when you told me you were glad someone finally spoke to you about the thing you were most passionate about, I felt like an asshole.
In fact, this entire time I've been with you, I’ve been bashing myself for being a pervert and lying to you which is strictly just downright awful!
But me and you…were different sides of the same coin.”
In a swift motion, you grip the ring from your right hand and pull it off your finger to leave it on your living room table, speaking once again while looking into his sorry eyes.
“You can take the ring, and everything it symbolizes, to leave what you thought was your pure sunflower, in the dirt.”
In your last bunch of words, you quieted down as you were gradually beginning to break down.
“You deserve to shine like the diamond you are, with someone you love, someone real. It was a pleasure knowing you, and damn sure a pleasure to have you, as my first love.”
The eerie silence and bypassing cars sound as you see him stand there with a gloomy frown on his face, and you can’t bear to withstand it any longer.
You immediately turn down the hall to sob in your bedroom in peace, that was, until you feel a strong hand grab the inside of your arm, spinning you around and pulling you straight down onto your living room couch.
“No, I don’t want that. Hongjoong restates. “I’ve gained too much happiness from being with you just to lose it all so easily. Your worth more than that.”
In hearing this, you look down at the floor to prevent him from seeing the tear that slips to your chin as a result of his kind-heartedness.
“I know this is a lot to ask…”, he whispers. But could you look at me, please? I need to see you.”
Upon his polite request, you hesitantly look up at him with teary eyes. As you blink away the blurbs, you see the same lines of wetness on his face too.
It’s an image you’ve never seen before and you wonder if it's your eyes playing tricks again, but it’s real, he’s real, and his feelings, are real.
"Listen.” He begins in a quiet tone. “To me, you are far more than just a work of fiction, and it has been so mesmerizing to watch how strong you have become in these past few months, I am glad that I have been able to make your life easier in the areas in which I was present."
Please don’t ever feel bad about that beautiful brain of yours. Your sensitivity and sexual desires as a normal human being, all evolved from the pain, it was your cure for the illness, and there’s absolutely nothing wrong with that...”
Hongjoong looks down as another tear of his falls. He takes a deep breath and slowly rolls his neck from side to side as if to warm up the next words that would breathe from his mouth.
“To me, you are what’s real, and you have allowed me to know what love truly is…so, just-imagine this.” He closes his eyes, and you follow suit in curiosity of what he’s trying to put into imagery.
“You wake up on a peaceful morning with your lover, and out of the blue you get told off that you’ll never get anywhere as a writer because ‘no one wants to read disgustingly perverted stories, and you’re not normal.’
The argument grows loud. and they start grabbing your things to kick you out of your shared apartment.
Not even a week later, you go back to make amends because you love them, just to catch them in bed with a married coworker you considered a dear friend. The end.”
Your face is scrunched up in a disturbing manner as you quickly open your eyes to regain your clarity, but you realize that when you look into his eyes, it’s not imagination, but his true life story that is being told.
He gives you a pathetic smile before continuing, “I like writing about the guides for a better world, and it’s impact, it’s for the people in it.
But why is it so wrong to do that something for myself when I want to?
It’s something I asked myself since she broke up with me, but then I met you, and you made my world a whole lot different.
I started writing for myself again, then for us, and then about us. But I realized where all went wrong, and I got overly obsessed, so here we are now.”
You look back down when he brings forth the reality of your situation, but as you see him move closer, you look up to see him smiling at you as he opens his mouth to say,
“And so who says that what we do to make ourselves feel good deems us as perverts huh? We just have…dirty minds and- sexy imaginations~.”
The mood immediately changes at the unexpected outcome of his s and you both simultaneously fall into a fit of laughter, holding onto each other's bodies accidentally out of habit.
‘I’m in love.’ You think. ‘I’ve found my twin flame, my missing piece, and it pained me to be far away.’ But now that he’s here again, I’m healed.
‘Everything is in the open, and I’m ready to settle down, to give him my all and more, just as he’s done for me, for the rest of our perverted lives.’
I’m ready
“Well then…” you say getting a final giggle out. “Let’s just say fuck everyone, and put our sexy imaginations together to make it all real.”
You move your hands over his thighs. “I’m ready to do it with you now joongie. I want to take that next big step.”
At your revelation, he's up and on his feet. Strictly because he was questioning if he had heard correctly, in accordance to not, ‘rush in and be vulgar’.
“You mean like…?” he trails off.
Rolling your eyes in pained annoyance, you get up from the couch to stand up close in front of him, placing your arms around his neck, and over his shoulders.
“Are you really gonna make me say it, angel?” You properly placed emphasis on the word ‘angel’, just to tease his storytelling a bit, and it does the trick as his cheeks turn scarlet red. “I want to make your story real with Hongjoong, I need you, the way the librarian needs her journalist.”
He’s quick to shake his head and remove your arms, and you resist the urge to slap him in instinct, that was until you hear him say, "No, throw that out the window.” A physical connection is reformed when he takes your hand into his more delicate ones.
“Let's make a story of our own…non-fiction, what we have right here, whats real.” He then rubs his forehead gently in connection with yours as he whispers, “Are you sure you wanna do this baby?”
While smiling widely you wittily reply, “Lose my virginity to a man I’m in love with, and it’s literally the equivalent to the walking version of my fantasies?”
You kiss those soft pretty pink lips you missed incredibly so, “Yes, please~.”
Instantly, he springs out and retorts, “Well in that case…”
He reaches down to retrieve your gifted sunflower jewel from the table and repositions it on your right hand's ring finger.
Soft chuckles overtake the quietness, and even more so laughter, when Hongjoong suddenly picks you up from your behind, leading you two into your bedroom after many talks of redirection.
You had almost forgotten he’d never been here before, and it’s all thanks to that foolish secret.
As you’ve finally made it to the right room, he places you down on your feet in front of the bed, taking your ring-clad hand to his lips with a chaste kiss.
“As the writer of our fantasy, it is my desire to give you the pleasure you could only dream of.”
He grabs you by the waist and whispers seductively into your ear, “Allow me to show you what I have in mind.”
Like a fragile piece of glass, Hongjoong lays you back into the plush mattress carefully and moves onto the bed in the air above you in avoidance of projecting his weight.
“Angel, it’s okay. You speak. “Trust that you can love on me without hurting me.”
“I can take it”, you boldly add on.
The white-haired man's eyes become three shades darker as he moves confidently down onto your body, lightly brushing his hips against yours while placing his head next to your ear.
“As I said the first time I had the blessing of seeing your beautiful body, I am going to bring out that inner part of you that has never been seen before.”
He continues speaking in a sensual hushed voice while planting kisses onto your neck. “Something that will lift you up from your roots that you cannot restore to the ground.”
In his next words the dangerousness in his voice becomes unrecognizable. “Do you understand?”
Understood. Virginity is something you can't take back, it’s science, but to you, it’s a sacred undiscovered treasure.
Hongjoong has earned the prize, and you are undoubtedly sure. You are far more than ready and willing to make him the first, for now, and forever.
"Take out my roots sunshine. You whisper back. “I want to feel you deeper, much deeper."
No more secrets
"Are you ready then my flower?"
No more lies
“So ready.”
Just you his sunflower, and him your sunshine.
And to show him how ready you are exactly, you grab him through his slacks and rub his cock through his pants so diligently.
He then reaches his hands down to rub directly on your clitoris in reciprocation, and you both gasp, moan, and groan while making note of what makes the other tick.
“Hnnn. All your-Hnnn, dirty thoughts will come to life under my care, baby.”
Hongjoong uses his free hand to pull off your shirt causing you to have to stop in your movements. But he still continues to use one hand to rub on your pussy without pause.
After your shirt is taken off, every mark left on your chest from your last heated session becomes visible, and by the hungry expression on your lover's face, he seems to be very pleased and wanting.
“You can mark me again if you want to, right now, and whenever you so please.”
With your given discretion he takes the opportunity to free your breast from your bra, diving straight in to take a hard nub into his mouth.
While he’s occupied sucking onto your skin, you give the both of you the relief of taking off your pants, leaving one less layer to divide between you two.
A pop is sounded throughout your bedroom as Hongjoong pulls from your chest where a red mark is implanted.
“I will take my time with you my sweet.” He sits up to unbutton his top. “You deserve to be pleasured to the fullest extent, but not today baby, I don’t wanna risk hurting you.” He then takes it off completely. “I promised, for no one to hurt you.” His hands touch the hem of his boxers. “I wanna make love to you.” And he pulls them clean off.
A loud smack is heard as his member makes contact with his hard stomach, and the line of his body is unbelievably perfect. You’re sure if he was to ever walk out like that in public, no one would convict him of public indecency, he was so much more than just ‘decent’.
“The safe word is lemons, shout it out loud when you want to stop.”
His body folds over and breathes over you like an animal preparing to feast on fresh meat. “I’m going to start, but I just need you to stretch you out a little bit. You nearly crush my tongue every time I eat you out.”
Your panties are pulled aside as you feel a few digits sliding up and down through your folds to collect the overflow of liquids, and before you can even prepare, two thick fingers submerged deep into your pussy.
“Fuck! Aughhh. “Right there joongie.”
Like never before he’s hit the deepest depths inside of you, somewhere he was too hesitant to go before.
His fingers began to pump right over the spot where his fingers stopped. “Does that feel good, darling?”
You jerk up from his movements to move away out of sensitivity, but it only makes the tips of his fingers rub against that sweet spot even harder.
“Oh it does?” He quips. Got it.”
Without warning his fingers began to jerk up and down through your cunt at a ridiculously fast pace, causing you to close your legs in the process, but Hongjoong opens them right back up.
“Wait, wait, wait. Fuck! It’s too much but it- it feels so fucking- nyaaaa” You cut off with a crying moan.
Your pleasure is so sky-high you can’t even finish your sentence, and your eyes roll back to your skull, while your back arches like a cat in heat.
“Shit. Hongjoong whispers. “You're swallowing my fingers, baby. I can't wait to see how you’ll take my cock.”
A moan escape from your mouth from his dirty words, and he continues to do it just to get you to cum as fast as possible, his dick couldn’t get any harder by the lustful view of you.
“Your taking me so well darling, you are a such a good girl. My good girl.”
“Yes, I’m your good girl. You cry. I love your fingers s-so much angel, I can’t imagine what your beautiful girthy cock feels like inside me!”
A sharp smack wats on your ass when you jerk up again, causing a long and stretched-out moan to erect from the deep depths of your body.
“There’s no need to imagine anymore baby, cum for me and I’ll teach you exactly how it feels. Another smack across your ass. “Cum like the good girl that you are.”
You began moving your hips in harmony with the pump of his fingers, and it was helping you to your orgasm as you felt your stomach grow tight, but there was something that was missing that could possibly help to loosen you up.
“Joongie…my vibrator, it’s under the bed.” You stutter, struggling to curve your body, looking down at him working uncontrollably on your lower half.
His eyes meet yours, skeptical and slightly confused about what it was implying. “What do you need baby?”
Just like the nickname, your face turns into a younger child’s pout, you are desperate and needy. Way too damn needy.
“Joongie please, I’m so close”, you whimper sheepishly. “My vibrator, it’ll help me cum…I just wanna be a good girl for you and cum, please?”
He leaves his fingers inside and pauses his fast jerking as he looks underneath your bed frame to spot the vibrator box by grabbing it with his free hand.
“Hurry please!”, you cry.
Hongjoong finally managed to grab the pink toy and turns it on immediately, placing it directly on your clit, as he resumes the jerking of his double digits.
With the stimulation of his fingers inside you and the quaking vibrations of your vibrate, you were close to cumming in no time.
“Oh my f-fuck, yes!” You shout, feeling your abdomen squeeze and flex as it works out you’re upcoming outburst. “Shit, joongie. I’m fucking cumming, your good girl is cumming for you!”
Your legs shake uncontrollably after you come down from your high, and Hongjoong pulls out his fingers and turns off the toy then tossing it farther on the bed from you two, as he moves up the bed quickly to console you.
“Okay I will admit, that was…hotter than expected.” He chuckles painfully, the reasoning made obvious by his sword's red tip. “You did so well my love…how are you holding up for me?”
Embarrassingly so, you shudder underneath him like you’ve been shocked by lightning in a storm. The bolts, being Hongjoongs two fingers, with the clash of thunder, being the buzzes of your vibrator.
“S-so damn good”, you stutter. “If sex f-feels better than that, I wanna experience it with you as soon as possible.”
While his heart swells with pride upon hearing that he is doing all the right things, it is the best part that scares him just for it all to go wrong.
“Me too baby.” He whispers.
A hand lies open beside your head as he leans down to engage your lips in a messy kiss of overlapping tongues.
In a distinct way , his other hand slips down and trickles down to your hips, stopping abruptly at the hem of your underwear. “Would you mind if I removed these for you now?"
You’re so sure he’s the one.
“I’d be more than happy if you did.” You say.
Three taps on your hips let you know to lift your weak legs up in the air for him to slip the material down to your ankles and onto the floor.
With his hand placed under your thigh, he lets you back down gently, and maneuvers back upward to align your hips with the other once again, then intertwining your hands in a firm hold.
“I just want to let you know, before we begin, I will always love you, and I won’t be upset if you back out at any time. Thank you for giving me the honor, of being your very first.”
Hongjoong leans down to capture your lips in a cleaner, more passionate kiss.
As he continues to make out with you, his hips pull back slowly, then pull forward in the same motion as his cockhead aligns where you want him most, straight into your hole, like it knew exactly where to go.
At first, the breach of him felt like an uncomfortably sharp pain, that caused you to squeak into his mouth, and as his length plunged in deeper, stuffing you full, you began to understand exactly why he wanted to prepare you first.
He comes to a stop when he’s only halfway through, removing his lips from yours to look at the front of you’re face in wonder at why you weren’t verbally responding.
As you maintain eye contact with his worrying eyes, you curl your ring clad hand to encase his masculine cheek bone. “It’s okay, angel. You coo. “I can take it.”
In that instant, you bring his head down back into the side of your neck, wrapping your legs around his hips to push him forward gradually until his groin comes into contact with your bare cunt, causing your breath to hitch, and your eyes to roll back into your skull.
Never have you felt anything as profound, it is as if he has entered an entirely new territory within you.
Hongjoong feels just the same as he both groans and mewls. “I think…I think I almost came?” He looks between you two seeing that he is in fact, inside you completely. “Please, be careful my love.”
With a mischievous look, you giggle, “Sorry, honey~.”
Without any discretion, he begins to slide in and out of you at a slow and steady pace. “You, hnnn will be. I’m trying my best to control myself for you love, don’t take it for granted.”
His body trembles like he’s bare naked on ice, and you aren’t sure if its because you felt good, or maybe you were pulsing around him a little too tight… or maybe both?
In that very next minute he continues with hits slow and steady strokes as he’s swearing to protect you from all dangers like a sacred prayer:
“No matter we go through, I’ll still always remain loyal to your side.”
“I will never ever harobor a secret like that again and cause you harm.”
Like the main character of your stories, I will always be with you until the end.”
As you begin to adjust to the power of his subtle thrust you start to moan aloud in his ears while pulling onto the back of his damp sweaty white strands.
With what you had just done, something inside of him must have been triggered, as his body suddenly swung in a curvier wave, making his thrust that much deeper.
He wasn’t just making love to your body, but he also fed the filthiness floating around in your mind, and you brought it to his attention.
“It’s starting to feel so amazing angel. Your perfect, huge cock, feels so amazing, it’s making me feel so full my sweet boy.”
His thrust slightly falters as you begin to scratch his back, while you continue to make pleasurable sounds in his prettily decorated earlobes.
“You’re so tight baby”, he whimpers, “the best pussy…belongs to my mistress.”
As you both drown in sensual bliss you both knew you weren’t coming up for air anytime soon.
A bit after, there was one particular stroke that made your toes curl, and you instinctively clenched onto his length causing you both to cry in unison, that also had all activity come to a quick stop.
“Maybe. You pause to catch your breath. “Maybe I should get on top joongie.”
It wasn’t that he was doing a bad job, he was doing so well, like too well.
And so, with you on top, there will be no squeezing every last living drip out of him while he has to pause his penetrations. You’ll be able to control how he moves inside you while pleasuring him all at the same time.
“You’re not trying to subdue me are you baby?” He jokingly questions.
“I mean, only if you want me to, just because I’m on top doesn’t me I’m asserting dominance.”
“Fair play.” He discerned. “I’ll do as I please then.”
It took a while, but with Hongjoong's hands guidance, you learned how to ride him properly like a cowgirl.
But first, you test the position by taking in his on his tip, moving up and down so very carefully, but he still has the reaction of grabbing a pillow to hold it over his face, while one hand grabs and squeezes your hip.
“Gosh, you still feel too good”, he commented. Voice clearly muffled by the material inside the fluffy pillow.
“And you…”, you trail off. “Are still….so big”
Gradually, as you continue to suck him up and swallow his girthy cock down, you start to feel the difference in his length from when you were lying down. Poking around inside your walls and feeling him completely inside your belly as he bulges from the outside.
After a while, you decide to switch course, by experimenting if you could take him in deeper.
You rip away the pillow that hides his cherry-colored cheeks while then placing your hands on his muscular chest.
As he feels his cock shift inside from the new change in position, he rose both of his hands to rest right on top of your bare ass, fondling the flesh.
Your faces are so close as your breaths mingle through a circle of air. It’s so much more intimate, and you can feel his hardness riding on his defined line of abs through your stomach.
“Kiss me, baby, please. Kiss me like you mean it.” He softly demands.
Then, in a feverish clash in which you connect, you bite his bottom lip, then you open your mouth and swipe your tongue on the bite mark, urging him to open his mouth as well to complete the filthiest, neediest, and horniest kiss you two have ever shared.
Compared to the first time he tongue kissed you, you’ve fairly upgraded to be an intermediate-skilled pro.
“I like when you beg for me”, you whisper in between a sequence of wet pecks.
“I like it when you comply with what I ask for because I know you want it just as bad as I do.” Hongjoong retorts, then biting onto your bottom lip.
You pull back from him as he releases it gently, looking deep into his sex drunk daze, nearly being lost into those dark brown orbs.
“You think you know how bad I want you huh?”
“Mhmmm.” He groans. “That’s what I said darling.”
At this you rise up to sit right up on his cock again, feeling a slight pressure from the change in position.
Slowly, as you make eye contact with the confident man, you lift off his length and sit tight on top of his girth.
“I’m gonna show you, how bad I can be. You’re not just going to want from me sweet boy, no, you are gonna need.”
So you move forward and roll your slick on him, and as you imagined it feels a million times better skin-to-skin then through two layers of underwear and denim jeans.
Your velvety wet lips rock back and forth on his tender hard cock, base to tip, tip to base, a rhythmic pattern mixed with precum that stirs up into a messy blend.
“F-fuck, is this something you’ve thought about before?”
In every action, you try and speculate for patterns, and one you notice is that when you move toward his tip, that’s when he moans the loudest, just as you did on the couch after your picnic date.
“I might’ve.” You tease in a hushed tone. Or maybe, I just came up with it on the spot… why do you ask? Need something?”
He grabs onto your ass and starts smacking as he guides your hips for you to move faster, faster, and faster.
“Y-yeah. I need you”, he pridefully admits, “to keep fucking that sweet pussy over me like a good girl. No talking, no teasing, just cum…” He growls.
The head of him glides inside through your folds and in another moment of weakness your back palms on his chest, as he pulls you even closer at the rushed pace, bucking his hips like it was the last thing he’d ever do.
“Are you going to cum too joongie?”
A shudder of breath sounds in your ears when he says, “Yes, I’m right behind you baby.”
As they’re lips mingle, and their parts create slick friction, it becomes easier to express themselves openly, through moans, groans, whimpers, cries, growls, shouts, and breath-hitching sighs.
Their bodies move together rhythmically, exploring each other thoroughly with their hands leaving behind a trace. As the passion builds, inevitably, so does their need for release.
“Let go, baby. Let it all out," Hongjoong urged, his voice deep and reassuring.
And with those words, she surrendered to the sensations washing over her. Her body tensed, and then she cried out in release, waves of pleasure crashing over her.
That's it," he groaned, finding his own release within her. Their bodies shook together as they rode out the wave of passion, their breathing heavy and ragged.
No soon a thick line of course white shoots on his torso, mirroring the orgasm rushing through her veins.
Their hands remain interlocked in unity as they share a blissful kiss.
Even after longing for a decade in the event this moment,
Oh, how wonderful was it for them both, to have the pleasure of feeling a love like this.
The end,
of a new beginning.
…
After a steamy shower and much-needed meal, because who knew sex would make you so greedy, the two of you lie in converse while your half-naked bodies sparkle in the moonlight, like two stars in the night sky.
The atmosphere feels still and light weight like how floating planets do in outer space. However, there was still a heavy weight of tension, but neither of you bothered to spoil the intimate moment to mention.
“Was it how you imagined it?”
As you trace unconnected lines on his chest, you ponder about your answer.
“Honestly, I am not sure what I expected, but as far as what I felt, it’s…indescribable, intense, yet very romantic? I-I’ve just never felt closer to anyone in such a way...”
Hongjoong grins as he speaks. “It seems as though these books influenced you to think that sex was supposed to be a particular way don't you think? He shrugs his shoulders and says, I’m guilty of it too.”
“What? Have you never had…” you trail off.
“No, I have, but making love like that? He pauses. It’s something I’ve never felt in such a way either.”
“Mhmm.” You hum. But inside you are thrilled to hear that you’ve been his first for something in a way. “Maybe it's best for us to take some time from all that unrealistic stuff when we have all we need right here in front of us with each other.” You smile.
It was foreign to even think, or hear yourself saying this. From 19 years old, to now a 25-year-old woman, who used erotic fiction as a coping mechanism, from the effects of society's unrealistic expectations and standards.
But with age comes maturity, and with love, you’ll take all the risks.
“Agreed”, Hongjoong mutters, and then suddenly changes topics. “But seriously though, before tonight, I had this entire plan for when you were ready.”
You move even closer to mature torsos more attentive as he continues, “I was gonna take you out on a really nice date, and have you come back ho-I mean, to my apartment with candles, sunflower petals, drinks, the whole nine.”
When he finished speaking you move closer to him and cross your legs over his, and he immediately reaches down to rub onto the sore muscles.
“Well, you still have the option of doing that you know? It just won’t be the first…”
He bows his head and nods, then looks right back into your infatuated eyes.
“Maybe one day….” he lifts your chin with his free hand. “Baby steps darling.” Hongjoong then leans down to plant a warm kiss on you’re lips. “There’s still so much more I want to do with you…I’ve dreamed about it.”
“Oh gosh…I’ve had too many of those”, you unconsciously admit, letting out a small giggle.
A brow is raised from Hongjoong who looks very intrigued. “Maybe you can tell me all about them one day?”
You grow flustered, speeding up the rhythm of your beating heart. “Yeah, one day...”
“Hey, do you wanna try sleeping with the light off tonight?” He asks.
“Yeah, I think I’ll be okay,” you mutter.
He reaches his hands from underneath your chin upward toward the switch of the built-in wall headlight. “I’m proud of you. He whispers from above, then comes back down to once again cross your leg over his.
“Together forever sunflower baby?”
“Together forever, my ray of sunshine.”
…
Even after a night with the romantic endings and exciting beginnings, there was something in the middle where you both had to meet, in order for this relationship to really work.
At the beginning of that next morning, you woke up cutely greeted by your fluffy white-haired boyfriend, and a fancy platter of smell-good breakfast in bed.
“Good morning gorgeous~, are you hungry baby?”
After staring at him and then at the plate for some time, you let out a hoarse thank you before complimenting his fine chef skills, only to learn that he retrieved it the food from the cafe you both frequent.
Two laughs are shared in the bedroom before you sit up to stare at the decorative plate. You’re very hungry, yet too unfocused to grab your utensils and take the first bite. There is still one ginormous elephant stuck in the room that you have to kick back into the zoo in order to make this thing work…
setting boundaries and being real.
“Listen.” coincidently, you both had the same thought and spoke in unison, which made things a little light-hearted from the sudden seriousness.
“You first.”
Without any intention, It happens again. You suppose that somehow this can account for the intimate relationship you two manifested, however, it still has to be said, and off your minds to instill an honest lasting bond.
Hongjoong points quickly toward you in silence, avoiding any further interference from your newly discovered telepathic connection.
In acknowledgment of what he’s trying to say you rush out, “I still feel like we need to be more honest with each other if things are really going to be serious between us.”
By mistake, you think he must have misunderstood by the mysterious look on his face until he speaks, “I was just gonna say the exact same thing.”
Thank goodness.
“We’ll work it out.” He goes on. “But we have to communicate and be honest as we are now. It might have been one of the only things that was holding us back.”
“It is, you comment. “Maybe with this, you lift your hands wiggling the sunflower on your ring finger. “We can add healthy communication, and true honesty to the promise, for both you and me.”
He then pats your head gently in reward as you begin to eat. “Good thinking baby.”
A comfortable silence resides through the atmosphere as Hongjoong quirks up and says, “Oh baby, how could I forget? Guess what I just got told on the phone this morning”
“Hm?” you mumble with food in your mouth.
The young man smiles wildly, brilliance shining through his teeth as he moves from the bed into a superhero-like stance.
“I, am Kim Hongjoong, self-declared journalist, now serving as CEO of his very own establishment, ‘Wake Up World Writing Company, and the best part is my slogan, he raises his hands up to do a sweeping motion in the air, ‘eyes in the sky’.”
As you hear the given news, you choke up on your food and place it on the side of the table, moving toward him on the edge of the bed while taking his hands in yours.
“Congratulations honey! I mean, really I shouldn’t be surprised, really you’ve worked so hard angel baby.” You then grab hold of his swollen morning cheeks. “I guess we both proved how worthy we are to our old bosses…we make a strong power couple.”
Hongjoong chuckles deeply before connecting his lips with yours. “Damn right we do.” He then strokes your head, his smile dimming a bit. “So what are you going to do? Ever thought of having a business of your own?”
Work hasn’t necessarily been in the plans recently, but now that the war is over, it’s time to get back on your feet again and plan ahead for your new future.
“I don’t know, it’s like computers have always been my thing for the longest time you know….”, you timidly whisper, “but I’m kind of sick of it now, brings up bad memories…” you trail off.
It was then when you looked into Hongjoong's worrying glistening eyes that you came up with the perfect plan.
“You know what actually? Ever since I started dating this guy, I’ve become more of the… artsy type.” You tilt your head playfully.
Ever since you met Hongjoong, you've learned more about yourself than you have in any of the previous 24 years you’ve been alone, bringing you peace, and a new found self-discovery you hadn’t known you needed.
“Oh? He quips before pushing you onto your back, slowly climbing over you. “Who is this handsome young man that you speak of, and why is he trying to take away my girlfriend?”
You can’t help but snort and laugh at what you're about to say. “He, was in my bed last night, and we had a grand ol’ time.” You snicker.
An immediate stunned expression took over your boyfriend's features, and a bowed nodding head in an annoyed yet flirtatious attitude followed suit, drifting his eyes downward to your chest.
“Ahhhh, that explains the hickeys!” He sarcastically shouts.
You train your eyes to look down at your boobs, old marks, and the new marks that have deepened many shades darker since last night.
“Hey! It’s called marking thank you very much! Which means I’m his, and he’s mine.”
You stick your tongue, wiggling it at him which only makes him act on the urge to lean down and french kiss you.
The flavor of sweet creamed coffee was coated in his taste buds, and he briefly pulled away when something came to mind.
“Who knew you were such a jokester baby, it got me thinking, you know what else would be really funny?”
You give him a inquisitive look for him to continue.
“If we made a quick trip past the library, what if they’re open now?” He finished.
“Ew, why would you want that?” You exclaim.
“What do you mean?”, Hongjoong asks, “It’s our place, where we both officially met each other. It’s how you started fetishizing about me.” As a means of retaliation, he looks at you teasingly.
“Okay ‘Mr.Write’, tone it down about 10 notches, you retort, “Aren’t you the one who made an entire series about our relationship without my permission?”
“Aren’t you the one who read it, and fapped to it and reread it nearly every day?”
“Fap?”
“Think about it….” He trails off.
You quietly gasp before nodding in embarrassment, “Touché.”
“So…” Hongjoong says while lifting off from your body on the bed. “Does that mean we can go?”
In contemplation, you gaze down at Hongjoong's pouty lips, feeling yourself slowly give in, because deep down inside, you too are curious.
“Fine you win…freaking cornball,” you mutter.
“What was that?”
…
You and Hongjoong nervously walked by the entrance of the library's double doors in expectancy of a closing letter.
But surprise surprise.
The Wonderland Collections Library
Now Renewed for Opening!
How coincidental that the world set you two up on this crazy rollercoaster when the library closed and now that the ride is over for the two of you to get off and away from the fear it reopens again.
“It’s so strange to be coming in here with you, old I would’ve never expected this to happen.”
“Neither did I, it feels like a trip back to the past.” You hum in agreement while you both stare at the tall structured building, reminiscing on all the memories you had here, including with each other.
“Ready?” You ask, looking over to the white-haired man accessorized in black circle-rimmed glasses and pearl earrings at your side.
“Let’s go!”, Hongjoong quips, “Starting again from Chapter 1.”
Hongjoong then holds the door for you, watching as you enter with a cheeky grin.
The two of you share a laugh and get lost in conversation as you walk in the familiar space, then interrupted as you hear a familiar voice calling out your name.
“Y/n?!”
The familiar voice was that of the curious librarian behind the front desk, who often quizzed you in curiosity about your weekly stack of erotic novels.
“Oh, how I miss you so.”, they say coming from behind the desk after quickly assisting a customer and walking towards the both of you.
As they approach closer, they stop to turn their attention to your now boyfriend and recently acquired CEO.
“It’s great to see you again as well. How have you been?” Hongjoong kindly asks, displaying his gentleman-like tendencies.
“Well, I’m quite fine now…” They give you a dubious look to which you nod your head to in affirmation. “So you two…” the librarian presumes.
You then verbally answer, “ Yep. We are now boyfriend and girlfriend.”
In order to demonstrate your unity, the two of you look at each other shyly, then grasp each other's hands into a tight bond.
“Aweee, I’m so happy to hear that, congratulations you two!” They coo cheerfully.
Hongjoong and you share a thank you with the librarian only to have them mutter afterward, "It took you long enough."
You hear a hush as a combination of your three waves of laughter echo in the quiet space, almost causing you to silence yourself in forgetfulness, but the librarian does an effective job at telling them off.
“Anyhow…Hongjoong then whispers. “A lot has happened in these past few months, but here we are now, happy and in love.”
A tight comforting squeeze shoots through your hand, and you squeeze it back playfully in reciprocation.
“Well I’m very happy for you.”, the librarian nods. “The both of you are one of the lucky ones, it’s like a fantasy came true.”
The two of you look at each other with a knowing expression and giggle,
“I suppose you could say that.”
…
Kim Hongjoong
11/17/2023
‘Light’
It is through an acceptance of both, the light and shadow, that we can connect with each other physically, mentally, emotionally, socially, and financially. -ally, it is a suffix that means to unite.
Unity; this is crucial for a harmonious relationship with the self, others, and the rest of the world.
The equilibrium of light and shadow can be achieved if you, the bright, unite with the night.
In simpler words, use your knowledge to understand the darkness rather than harbor it from the outside world. By doing so, you may end up saving yourself, or discovering all you keep in shadow, with someone else.
That is, the beauty of light.
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