#hiraeth spoilers

[sleepykas]

Requested by @tuzesdays

arc 1 vs. arc 3

[hikikomoriheadphonegirl]

[allurasgrace]

👀 What do y'all think if I go back to like ch 37 and add a new scene?

The SCENE is from Pumyra's POV, after Mumm-Ra has been driven away by Leopara... slight spoilers under Read More

Have any of you wondered how Leopara ended up being carried out by her? 👀 Maybe that wasn't what Pumyra planned

But why change her plan?

[ishgard]

"Pray, forgive me for any worry I've caused you."

My original idea for their reunion, lately I've been re-calculating some things and debating it actually being at Vanguard, but I also can't get enough of the idea of that terrifying blip of a moment where Ahru utterly sinks into The Worst Timeline.

She's barely, barely holding it together for Alisaie alone on the tiniest periphery of her mind, and G'raha pretty much has to guide her, but in the back of my mind I'm like... He has to be thinking she's gonna go Bahamut 1572 on everyone here and I might be the only one even a LITTLE equipped to handle that or at least minimize damage.

Like if Alphinaud had actually died I can't guarantee there wouldn't have been a point after the initial shock where she'd have gone completely cold and told him to take the others and go back to Shaaloani and uh- ...yeah.

But that didn't happen! :D Yay!

I wanted to add the big tackle hug but that's a pose for another time.

[chiyoso]

I FUCKING IDENTIFY AS JOGO'S ARM HOLY SHIT

also twitter threads about jjk and their analysis is making me feel a bit better, seems like his unalive moment had some meaningful stuff/philosophy going on (e.g. twt link)

[grassbreads]

I feel hysterical

[aokozaki]

Oh Ekindu, nobody knows you as I know you...

[sleepykas]

Y/N's nightmares are getting weird

[hikikomoriheadphonegirl]

[clare-875]

Hiraeth (ASL brothers x Reader)

_____ Pairing: ASL brothers x Female Reader Summary: You grieve a time you cannot return to. Warnings: SPOILERS for Marineford War Arc, Hurt/Comfort, Grief [One Piece Masterlist] _____

You watch the ocean rise and fall, finding yourself enraptured in a brief and rare silence. However, the silence slowly becomes a burden; the quiet brings thoughts you would often keep locked away. They were thoughts that brought tears to your eyes if you lingered too long on them, thoughts that could make you break if you picked away at them too much.

But unfortunately for you the gentle rock of the boat, the rising moon and the crisp early evening air did nothing but bring him to the forefront of your mind: Ace.

You feel a few tear drops pass your lash line as you quickly wipe them away, leaning on the railing and taking in a steady breath. It had been just longer than two years, and you were now in the New World with your beloved crew, but time did scarcely anything to subdue grief, it only made it easier to live with it.

As your eyes trace the dark horizon before falling to the depths of the ocean before you, you feel yourself wonder about memories you now look back at bittersweet. First, you lose Sabo, then your beloved Ace. The hurt is heavy on your chest and you feel the tears you push back start to rise again. You felt so homesick, so reminiscent of a time you could never go back to. You remember it all, as clear as day. The brothers that hold a permanent spot engraved on your heart.

You remember the joy.

You remember how the sun would shine onto you, gifting you, Luffy, Sabo and Ace with countless days of youth spent on adventure; spent on dreams. You were all an outcast of some sort or never fit into the lives you were endowed with, but when the four of you found each other, everything clicked; the world enlightened.

You can still hear Ace calling your name, the juvenile ring etched within his words. "Hey, [y/n]!" You remember looking up at the sound of his voice. He was always so keen to show you the new skills he'd learnt, keen to call for another round of combat to see who bested who, keen to have you join in on whatever fun he had found with his two brothers.

You remember Sabo's smile, one that encaptured his kindness and diplomacy even in his youth. "I got this for you!" You remember one day when he had returned from the grey terminal and found you a beautiful bracelet that you still hold onto to this day. You remember Ace and Luffy's pouts as you hugged him. You remember calling for a group hug soon after; the warm arms that embraced your form, seeping love and care and nostalgia.

You could've smiled at the joy in those memories a few years ago, but now it just filled your heart with unbearable pain. And so, more tears fall from your eyes but you don't stop them this time. You remember the countless nights filled to the brim with laughter, remember the secrets and promises made under the stars. You remember the brotherly conflict.

You remember Luffy's joy when you said you'd join his crew, you remember the upset faces of Ace and Sabo. You remember promising you'd visit them often, and how their faces enlightened merely at the thought that you would come see them succeed in their dreams. You remember the comfort that cannot be matched to this day, of the words Ace would speak softly when you had a bad day, of the gentle arms of Sabo, of Luffy's range of hilarious faces as he tried to hear your laugh.

They were everything to you, and you wouldn't ever find what connection you had with them anymore, anywhere. You missed the time when innocence encaptured your days and ignorant dreams were free of reality. 'If I had known it all then, what would I change; would I change anything at all?'

You remember unbearable grief.

You remember the falling of your heart when you heard that Sabo had died at sea; the unspeakable rage and guilt. It shocked you, it shocked you all, to learn that Sabo, your sweet Sabo, was killed by a Celestial Dragon just by sailing upon the same ocean. 'What about his dreams? His life? All the countless days and nights and years of knowing him? All the love he gave and received and cherished?' Everything that encompassed who he was, was lost to oblivion, never to be seen again.

You try to remember your last words with him, your last actions, but it is a blur to you. You remember leaving him with a family you knew you should have saved him from; you knew how much he hated them. Of course, you did, for what would those nights spent dreaming and talking be, if not spent sharing the deepest concerns that confined you? What would a family be, if not spent consoling those thoughts and showing him love?

The shock of it still reverberates within you if you linger too long, but you remember the pain, the crying, the screaming. It was something you would never forget, it was something you never wanted to go through again.

But you did.

You remember your world breaking as Ace’s gaze travelled to you. You and Luffy had spent so long chasing him, trying to save him, despite his initial denial. But of course you did. Because what would a family be, if we did not look out for one another, if we did not push away at his pride so he sees our love; our desperation to protect him? But when you finally thought he was within your grasp once more, that his life was still a part of yours, he became lost to you too.

You remember Luffy, clutching him in his grasp, trying to stop the red that just kept pouring. You remember Ace's teary eyes, no longer of the youth they were but still lingering with that childish charm. You remember the smile that shone with gratitude, it was a sight you could never forget; your childhood encapsulated within it.

“Thank you for loving me.”

His smile had lingered even in his death. You remember Luffy’s inconsolable form; the tears that wouldn’t cease, the shock that clouded his mind. You remember the screaming. You remember being lost in despair at the thought that you would never see him again. Never feel his warm arms, see his wide grin, or know what it was like to be loved by him again.

You missed them. You missed 'back then.'

You missed the simplicity of waking to self-found adventure and you missed the charm of life that came with youth. Your breathless laughter, their smiling forms... all three of them beside you.

'I want to go back.'

'Please, take me back…'

'Take me back so I can see them, so I can hold them and love them again…'

'Please…'

Your tears fall freely to your face now as you stare silently against the cool breeze, teeth gritted and heart heavy. You find yourself begging the starlit sky for something you knew was inconceivable. 'Please.'

"[y/n]"

You are so lost in thought, so lost in your tears you fail to notice a boy with a straw hat that approached you a small while ago. But when he called your name you turned swiftly, because in that moment you swear you heard Sabo, you swear you could've heard Ace, calling to you too.

"[y/n], why are you crying?"

Luffy's face is of utmost confusion, the tilt of his head and the shine of his sincerity almost making you break down further. But strangely it brought you to calmness as you saw the final brother before you. The same features as he had in his youth, the same eyes and smile. Your heart tugged against your chest as you looked to the man you chose to be your Captain, over Ace and Sabo, over everyone in the world. He was the same and yet so grown up, even when sometimes he hid his new-found maturity well.

"Luffy"

Your voice is there but faint, almost lost to the breeze as he silently makes his way to your side and joins you on the railing. You are beyond surprised when he maintains the quiet atmosphere, the seriousness rare on him unless in dire situations. But you also know deep down he sees and he understands why you are crying. You know because you have seen your very image on him before: tears pouring, grief heavy.

From four to two.

Only you could understand the true depth of what he has lost, and only he could recall the same memories you had lived because he lived them too. You found yourself wondering if Luffy, someone you knew to be a believer in living in the present moment, wished to return to those days that could never return. You wonder if he ever felt the homesick feeling of wanting those same youthful days once again, of wanting three pairs of arms embracing you warmly; of wanting back the time that has passed too soon.

"Luffy, do you ever miss our lives back in Dawn Island? Do you ever miss those days spent together with Ace and Sabo? It was so easy back then, don't you think?"

'Do you ever miss the past?'

There is a brief silence, as though Luffy is actually contemplating your words, but you are unsurprised when he answers; his answer is blunt and obvious as it has always been.

"I miss them."

He looks at you with a wide grin, but his eyes are surprisingly solemn, as though reminiscing with you the two boys you both held so dear to your hearts.

"But I have the best crew in the world now! I wouldn't give that up for anything!"

Your eyes spark with fondness at his never-wavering confidence in his nakama as he then reaches over to you, wrapping an arm tight as he pulls you in.

"Ace lived with no regrets, and I'm gonna live the same way; I'm gonna be the king of the pirates!"

His eyes shine and his features are determined when he faces you again, just like every instance he spoke of his dream.

"And you'll be there right beside me."

You meet his wide smile with a soft one of yours as you lean against him and he laughs joyously. You find yourself shaking your head at the simplicity of his thoughts, but you also remember how he had clutched to the thoughts of the crew in his darkest days. You envision Sabo's toothy grin and Ace's teasing smirk; a sight you would remember and adore for the rest of time.

You would live enough for both of them, exactly the way Ace wanted you to; with no regrets.

[faded-mage]

Fen'harel & Isathe Lavellan Wisdom & Curiosity The Forgotten Ones weren’t always… well.. forgotten. Oh, they were no better than the Evanuris but they were the ones to be remembered as the villains. That was what she had to tell herself. By a stroke of luck, or fate, Isathe was not imprisoned in the abyss with the rest of them. Whatever the reason, the spirit of Curiosity lured into physical form was stuck in the aftermath of the Betrayal. She felt the moment the Veil was created and pulled her even farther from her home. The Sky no longer sat upon her skin and then she slept. Sleep for thousands of years until she woke in a world where the elves were no longer formed from spirits but created through acts of love or violence. She had to find a way to stay alive. The Forgotten Ones were spoken of in hushed whispers, that they were the worst of the elvhen empire. Isathe was the worst of the elvhen empire. Not only that, the Evanuris were revered at gods. So she pretended. Pretended to force back the want that filled her. Her thirst, the need to have. Blending into a clan of Dalish elves to hide away, she had no idea that her life would be thrust back into her past and her purpose once again put to the test.

What if Inquisitor Lavellan was, in fact, an ancient elf? A member of the Forgotten Ones, awakened years before the Breach, then pulled into the events of the Inquisition. Hiding herself from the prying eyes of those who would condemn her for her past allegiances and the unsettling gaze of the apostate elf who appeared to know more than he let on.

Rating: Explicit Relationships: Female Lavellan x Solas, Forgotten One x Fen'harel Tags: Elvhenan, Elvhen Lore, Forgotten One Lore, Elvhenan Culture & Customs, Ancient Arlathan, Modern Thedas, PTSD, Stockholm Syndrome, Mentions of Abuse, Drastic Canon Changes, Slow Burn, Eventual Romance & Sex

The Story

Chapter 1: One Who Brings Nightmares Chapter 2: Just a Short Rest Chapter 3: Twisted Purpose Chapter 4: Fears from Before Chapter 5: Hot Headed & Cocky Chapter 6: The Herald Chapter 7: A Walk in the Dark Chapter 8: To Break Chains Chapter 9: Standing Between Worlds Chapter 10: Defying Demons Chapter 11: Hinting at More Chapter 12: Touching the Veil Chapter 13: Defying a God Chapter 14: To Stand Under the Stars Chapter 15: Protector of Spirits Chapter 16: A Forgotten Temple Chapter 17: The Theory of Being Chapter 18: Lifting the Mask Chapter 19: A Bloodied Dagger Chapter 20: A Moment of Peace Chapter 21: Bound to Another Chapter 22: Into the Fade Chapter 23: But, You Like Demons? Chapter 24: Understanding Anger Chapter 25: Seeing Within Chapter 26: A Story Around the Fire Chapter 27: Taking a Leap Chapter 28: Walking the Path Chapter 29: The Choice Chapter 30: She Burns Chapter 31: Pieces of the Puzzle Chapter 32: Words He's Afraid to Say Chapter 33: Mirrors Upon Mirrors Chapter 34: Declaration of Intent Chapter 35: A New Fear Chapter 36: The Sleeping Sun Chapter 37: The Lone Wolf Chapter 38: Old Scars Chapter 39: A Wayward Arrow Chapter 40: Soaked in Blood Chapter 41: Hiraeth Chapter 42: A New Mystery Chapter 43: Chasing Ghosts Chapter 44: Seeking Dreams Chapter 45: Partial Truths Chapter 46: Of the People Chapter 47: Mythical & Mighty Chapter 48: The Comtesse Chapter 49: Idolatry Chapter 50: Relics of the Past Chapter 51: A Return to the South Chapter 52: Unbound, Unbroken Chapter 53: Welcome to Minrathous Chapter 54: A Single Choice Chapter 55: Everything They Thought They Knew Chapter 56: Imprisoned Chapter 57: Forests of Era'vun Chapter 58: Welcome to the Fade Chapter 59: Secrets of Elvhenan Chapter 60: Two Sides of the Same Coin Chapter 61: A City Saved Chapter 62: Caring for Spirits

Spoilers:

Heavy lore spoilers for Dragon Age Inquisition, Inquisition DLCs and Veilguard. Also there will be a load of lore deviation because I can.

[ishgard]

Never before had there been such an expanse between them. He, in quiet awe. Her, a storm of grief and gratitude.

How to convey the exultant joy? He is alive - he is alive! Against all odds, he has survived the once-unfathomable. And yet, such a depth of despair and loneliness: He hasn't known the sunlight -real sunlight- in thirty years.

Even as he drinks it in, she can only bottle up the unreasonable grieving she feels for what he has lost, seeing as he's only just regained it.

Ahru's there too but I liked it better for the set just being a sibling moment 😂

[chiyoso]

omfg. yall sukuna's starting to grow on me in a more personal/deep sense, like the more i see explanations about him, his words and his character, the more i grow curious, attentive, attracted. gege really knows what hes doing holy shit.

discussion link abt this topic in reddit if ya interested

@vampyrsm girly your man, its well likely headcannon that he's into poetry, he's also like literally so well versed in literature — just recently learned the heian era was fruitful with art and literature, UGHHHH GEGE'S SUCH A GOOD WRITERRRRR

[grassbreads]

Reading Hiraeth: The End of the Journey and feeling insane about this part, like. Earlier in this section/chapter we get all these questions thrown at Hibino about his immortality and the way he lives. Why does he live like a mortal? Why does he make all these connections only to let people either and die in front of him? Why everything about him? And then we get this flashback to the town destroyed by Mt. Fuji.

It seems to me like these lines are the encapsulation of everything Hibino lives for. He's the one that's still alive, so he has to do something from the depths of his pain. He has to mourn the dead and help heal the land to memorialize his lost loved ones and make room for those that come after. He has to keep living through any suffering or mourning because that's what people do in the wake of tragedy. That's the only thing to do. He rebuilds atop the ash again and again and keeps living his life with his list of lost loved ones in his pocket because that's what it is to keep living.

Aaaah.

[the-pen-pot]

A bit late, but congrats on finishing Hiraeth!!!

It’s been such a joy to read (or catch up on reading when I get busy for a bit haha). Absolutely love how you write, you really get a full feeling of the scenes, like a nice, hearty stew of a fic!

In celebration, perhaps a few questions (no pressure to answer any of them of course!)

I know when I’m starting to write a new story there’s usually a particular scene that’s the first to come to mind and helps me build the rest of the story. Was there a first scene that you thought of for Hiraeth?

What was your favorite scene/chapter to write?

Most challenging?

Any fun facts you learned when doing any research for Hiraeth?

Ahhh, thank you so much! It feels like a massive triumph. I'm really glad I could give you all something entertaining to read!

As for your questions, I was really lucky to have been prompted by, I think @thuesing with the word "anachronistic" and the jkey concept of HIraeth (Merlin going back in time and sideways in universes) exploded into my head. From there it simply grew and grew.

My favourite scene chapter was probably anything that introduced something from the modern world into Camelot. For example the shower (now forever renamed a rain-box by Arthur) and hte sofas in the rug room. I'd have loved to do more of that, but I'm hoping to explore it in the one shots I have planned!

Most challenging: probably chapter 91 to 94 inclusive. It's really hard to write while sobbing. But particularly chapter 94. In a no spoilers way that felt really important to me and I wanted to get it right. There is a thread of the bittersweet to Hiraeth, and that chapter was the closest to resolution I could give that.

As for fun facts, not many, but you need to know I get weirdly obsessed about available food in the time period. My brain is fine with dragons and magic, but god forbid there is an anachronistic vegetables. As such I spent a lot of time debating carrots and their arrival in Britain. (The answer was, eventually, the romans seemed to have brought them here so they were probably around.)

Thank you so much for the questions, lovely, and the congrats!

[almostyours]

how much would i have to pay to see the xiaoting!yvan edits 😔

u would have to pay $0 because i don’t mind sharing them with u if that’s what u want!  🙈  it’s not a lot  (but it’s still honest work)  because these are edits i made for my friend and i to see only.  since i was never planning to ever release them,   they are not really that breathtaking or anything,  they are kinda half-assed,  not going to lie!  the days when it was just me,  the sharpening tool,  and a random orange psd i made in 2018 against the world…

template  credit.  cringed seeing this one but this was my first ever xiaoting!yvan edit awwww,  and it's funny to look at it because i genuinely didn’t care enough to put a psd on it  😭 

their birthdate...   yvan not being a gemini does not sit right with me

no template credit here because i fear i don’t know who made it…  i’ve had it saved since 2016 and i can’t find anything about it  😭  this reminds me that i really need to start working on their instagram profiles because they are sooooooo fun and it always helps me get a better vision of them instead of depending on pinterest.  

their instagram handle used to be something simple or silly like y.van or yvanbus because van and bus…  yknow…?   lmaooooooo but there was a time that they couldn’t post or say anything without having angels and solo stans asking / demanding for their solo and at some point they were like what the fuckkkkkk i already told them there’s no solo so one day they just changed their handle to that to mock them.  their fans keep asking for the solo,  though  😔

template made by me.   this was the header i made to be at the top of the group’s big ass google docs so yeah,  it’s really not that special and i don’t having anything to say about this except that jisoo looks amazing in that picture  😹  i always wanted to add little doodles all over this but mehhh i kinda hated it because i thought it was dull but i never changed it because of laziness

template made by me.   giving you a little spoiler friendsies…  hiraeth has their own plush toy line called æris  (the line is actually aeris house that’s why there’s a little house there)  and yes i’m stealing ive’s plushies and making them hiraeth’s because who is going to check me!!!!!!  (if anyone works for ive pls don’t snitch on me i beg they have their liddol differences…)  

i wanted to do something cute and endearing,  something like a my littlest pet shop magazine ad or something but i failed so bad i ended up ditching the edit  /  the whole idea altogether because i wasn’t doing what i wanted 😢 this is when i started thinking of switching yvan’s fc because i couldn’t find good xiaoting pics for this  😭  i will most likely try to polish this now that i’m thinking about it…  incoming post soon… 

also yvan’s plushie is Yovi the Puppy  ^____^