#hindu studies

[stxrrynxghts]

When Dawn Arrives

TW: Violence, mentions of s*x, blood, cursing.

I'm going to die.

Well, yes, I've known that since the past five hours. Or was it seven? I've been dying a slow death since the moment I entered this damned formation.

Fuck, fuck, fuck.

Dying was NOT on my plans, dammit. Wasn't I supposed to live a long life? Go on a trip to somewhere other than Kampilya? Wasn't I...supposed to be happy?

I want to find the person who said that death is peaceful. This is the most excruciating thing I've ever experienced. And my head fucking hurts so much. That cursed cousin of mine, whatever his name is, did smash my head with his mace, eh?

Yeah, I'm dying. I can feel the blood come out of my body. I didn't even know I had this much blood in my body, honestly. Breathing hurts. It hurts a lot.

I think I want to cry. But the thing is, no matter how much I cry, no one will come to save me. They didn't come. I felt they would, why didn't they? No one came behind me once I had entered this formation...why?

Oh God. I don't want to die. I don't. Why can't someone, I don't know, Father, or Uncle come to save me? Everything is black...

I'll live for a few moments, I think. Just a few. Then I'll be a goner. The Late Prince Abhimanyu, hah.

I'm sorry. I'm leaving so many people behind. What will Mother say? What will Father say? And who will drag Shrutakarma to socialize now?

Not me, that's sure.

I'm sorry, Uttaraa, I couldn't be a good husband to you.

You know, the first time I met you, I didn't like you? Yes, you were pretty, you have always been and will always be, but you acted like such a brat, you know?

You threw a tantrum when you felt that Father wasn't paying attention to you and your friends, because I had arrived. I hated that. I felt possessive, because I was the son, while you all were just...students. What could be so special about you?

I was wrong.

There are so many special things about you. Yes, you burst into tears at random things, you share things you aren't supposed to, you are too dense-

But you are mine.

You are beautiful, the most beautiful person in the world. In my entire world.

Many people have cared for me, but the way you fuss over every small scratch I get has touched me the most.

Your happy smiles and giggles, the soft noises of wonder you made every time something caught your eye...

The way you held my hand, with that shy smile on your face...

All of it made me fall for you, you know? It took me time to realize, but I did, eventually. And then I felt sad, because there was no way someone like you, with so much kindness, love and innocence could love someone like me.

Brash, impulsive, and wild.

But you did. You loved me with all your heart. And I feel as if I couldn't love you as much as you deserved. I couldn't soothe your pain when your brothers died, could I? No matter what I did, you kept on crying...

Perhaps I am selfish, because I can't wish someone better for you. That would kill me, you know? Everytime we went stargazing, or shopping in the market streets, or in the gardens, or on the beach...every moment is special for me, and will always be.

You made my short life brim with joy, but perhaps I've filled yours with heartache.

If you weren't my wife, your brothers wouldn't have died. If you weren't my wife, you wouldn't be widowed so soon. If you weren't my wife, you wouldn't have to raise a child on your own.

You are like my sun, Tara. The sun who I revolve around, the sun who made me shine.

But I don't regret it. How do I? How do I regret every moment we spent together, how do I regret all the times you embraced me, peppering my face with your soft lips?

Perhaps I have not cherished you enough. I should have done more, I should have made the one year we had to be more worth remembering...

But I know you. I know you cherish me as much as I cherish you, that you enjoyed every moment with me.

I loved spending time with you, you know? I'd try to come out of training early, just to sit and eat with you, listening to your chatters about some random thing, to run my fingers through your open hair, to touch and kiss every single part of you that I could.

I wish I could make love to you one last time, hold you in my arms one last time, tease you one last time, kiss you one last time, tell you how much I loved you. Just one last time.

I don't remember the last time I did that.

This war took much more from us than I thought it would.

But you've made me happy, you know? You've made me happy, and feel loved and cherished and important, and, and-

I wish I could hold our baby, you know? Feel it move, feel it kick, teach it how to talk, play with it...

But I love it, you know? I love it very much, and I hope it knows that in the future. I always wanted to be there for my children, Uttaraa, unlike how my father couldn't be there for me, unfortunately.

But my baby won't have a father's return to look forward to, right? No wait for thirteen years. Nothing.

You'll take care of my parents, won't you? You'll take care of our baby, won't you? I know you will.

My sweet, loving, innocent Uttaraa...

You were my sun, moon and stars, my entire universe...

I wanted our little constellation, you know? Our children, our babies. Fuck, I don't even know how my child will look like, oh God-

You are my greatest joy, Uttaraa, and my biggest regret.

I wish I hadn't ruined your memories of our sweet times with my death. I wish I was stronger for you, for my parents, for our baby...

I'm a damn fool, that's what I am. Not learning how to get out of this cursed formation, what the fuck was I thinking?!

Take care of yourselves, love, please. I know you will be sad, I know it will hurt, but...but don't hurt yourself, please...I want you to be happy.

I want you to live my share of life as well.

Fuck, fuck, I'm dying, aren't I? I'm-

When dawn arrives, you'll go to walk on the beach with me again, won't you? With sand beneath our toes, holding each other's hands, sea water splashing at our feet...won't you?

When dawn arrives...

I'll see you again.

[minilibrarian]

Does anyone else enjoy browsing foreign language books even though you can’t read the titles? 📖

[wormsngods]

Books in my Kindle # 2

Early Indians

The Horse, The Wheel and Language

Code of Hammurabi

Akhenaten, Dweller in Truth

Stories from Ancient Canaan

Yahweh and the gods and goddesses of Ancient Canaan

The Origins of Biblical Monotheism

The Complete Life of Krishna

Riddles in Hinduism

Who were the Shudras?

Shirin - Christian Queen, Myth of Love

Muhammad

Buddhism and Islam on the Silk Road

Subhashitavali

No Man Knows My History

Notes from the Underground

The Satanic Bible

The Menendez Murders

A Nightmare on Elm Drive

[magnoliamyrrh]

im always so apprehensive to get into convos w ppl abt religion bc like yes im muslim and yes i was more orthodox for yrs and yes i am very well aware of orthox doctrines and know them but my beliefs are more similar to some wondering sufi going on abt universality and oneness and the truth in all religions. like less muslim like a youtube sheiks less muslim like what your local masjid would accept more muslim like i like to spend my time reading abt saints which traveled countries and peoples wrote about love practicing plenty of religions and cultures and then wrote something abt the oneness of god and were declared heretics.

[in---earnest]

What For?

I study. I study for my future. I study for my parents. For myself.

I study. And I study decently well. I work hard. And I bear the fruits of it.

I study. And I read. And I sketch and write and work and apply and am rejected and apply again. And what is it for?

It’s not for my parents. It’s sort of for me. But it’s mostly for my future.

I have a fantasy. It is not realistic, as most fantasies are. But oh, I have a fantasy, and it is one that I will be punished for voicing.

I fantasise that one day I will meet a girl. A girl with honest eyes, a girl with a genuine smile. Whose hair I could run my hands through. Whose waist I could put my arm around. Whose weight I could sink into. Whose words I could wrap around me, a comforting weight.

My fantasy is simple. To be somewhere, somewhere, somewhere I can say I love a girl and know I can have a future with her. Somewhere, somehow, sometime, I can spend my life with her. Or a few months. Or a few years. The luxury of loving who I want to love. Is that such a terrible amount to ask?

Why do you demonise me? Why do you tell me I should be grateful? Should I be fucking grateful that I have told all of five people and only two have kept my dignity? Should I be fucking grateful that I’m not a criminal as of five years ago? Should I fall to my knees and pathetically plead for you to give me rights, give me respect, give me a promise?

Give me a promise; one that you won’t break, won’t go back on, won’t consider unreasonable?

I must fight to exist! I am told that my living body is enough of a blessing, when I can never breathe a word of my desires. I am told my alternatives are some sort of concession on your part.

What harm am I doing to your precious democracy, your caricature of diversity, your farce of a progressive agenda? What harm does it do to you, every minute I die inside because I know I may likely marry someone I will never want to touch.

What is it? Tell me.

What does it feel like?

Is it a knife in your back, poison in your veins, a slit through your throat? Because you know as well as I do, your sadism knows no bounds. My people. Your people. The people who have turned and will turn on you. They met their ends the very same way, correct? You let them meet their ends in the very same way.

You acknowledge our existence only to call us a problem. A box of knickknacks in your attic. They’ll look nice on display, don’t you think? Oh dear, they’re so dirty with dust, coated with cobwebs, disgusting, disgusting, disgusting. A problem for another day, don’t you think? A problem for another lifetime.

Oh yes, you think i’m a problem. Of course, you think i’m a problem.

[camilleisdrawing]

I took some colour pens out with me today. might take these out of the sketchbook otherwise it’d feel sacrilegious to draw ppl kissing in the same book 😭🫸 artist problems

[dkscore]

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[pchuaymee]

can you please tell me how you recieve study tips and messages from deities like ganesha and saraswati, i am really interested to connect with them.

Hi, I'm apologize for lately reply to your question.

Before I will share my opinion about this, let me say about my disclaimer and intention on this post.

The first it all, I'm not an Indian, Guru, or person who is born in Hinduism. I am a Thai-Chinese-Laotian who is born in Thailand that interest in witchcraft, spirituality, mythology, folklore and mysterious or ghost story. And I am a spiritual but not religion (SBNR) person, thus, I do respect Hindu deities is my spiritual guides in my spiritual journal.

Secondly, this my opinion is my experience and my belief only, you should be using your thoughtful very much while you read my opinion. This post is not meaning guarantee that is true.

And the lastly, my intention is not to discredit or destroy other beliefs, and I have something maybe mistakes. I am apologized for this, I will say as I know. And you should be do research more.

You can read on my pinned post and on this post.

And here is my personal opinion about them. (TW/CW: Long post.).

In the first time that I know about them, they will do something to you feel to notice about them such as sending their signature symbol in your dream or in while you are doing astral project, some good idea come in your thinking in moment, or other that they can do. As me, I met them in my dream while I was doing lucid dream in the first time that I have come back to witchcraft and spirituality way after I got healed my trauma mental by spirit with Lord Ganesha and Lord Brahma. I saw Lord Ganesh has been appeared as an elephant has broken single tusk with Lord Brahma has been appeared as the olden Brahmin, in later Lady Saraswati has been appeared as book in giant lotus or an adult woman is teacher. Meanwhile i was trying to study about divination and connected them by oracle cards deck is Tibetan theme (This oracle cards deck is oldest of divination tools in my home, LOL) And Tarot deck is Rider-Waite. I did try do connect them until in finally, they connected to me via Tarot. It makes me accepted them as spiritual guides in my spiritual journey since a few years ago, and I have to do research internet and ask or read from someone who is guru in Hinduism for their information, how to Hindu worship them, their mantras for praying, and their special occasional or festivals. And also, I am always connecting with them for they give comment my offerings after I did offer things in their festivals by via divination tools too. But in some time, I will pray them or connect with them by divination tools when I feel get anxiety or blocked ideas for suggestion to me. If that problem, I cannot handle by myself.

I'm always offering for Lord Ganesh are milk and water in normal day, because I don't have time enough to praying him. But in special occasional as Ganesh Chaturthi's festival, I did offer him by his foods are milk, water, butter, yogurt, sugar cane juice, honey, banana, apple, orange and cereals. And also, I did create his small statue for 9 of days and send him back to his home by float him in the last day. For other deities as Lady Saraswati, I am often to do pray her when I need to suggestion about study tips or art tips. She is often giving a suggestion by via divination tools, some cool ideas flashlights to me while I'm thinking, in dream or in astral projection. And her festival is "Vasant Panchami", I am always offering foods as Lord Ganesh, but I am always to offer stationeries, laptop, art supplies, and divination tools too. However, I am always praying to Lord Ganesh before I will pray other deities. Because Lord Ganesh is the deity of removing obstacles and new beginnings of all, so, many ppl who is Hindu or someone is Hindu deity's worshiper are always praying him. In addition, I am usually drawing them for I do worship them in my personal space and motivation when I am studying too. But whatever, I will not offer with them by meats, bloods, alcohol drinking, and illegal things.

I'm often cleaning and organizing on my desk and in my room in every I have a free time, because it can help me to be more productive for some new ideas and my room is free from dirty. And also, I'm usually to change water in glasses, buy a new box of milk, and changed water in vase at altar meanwhile I am turning mantra on YouTube too. Because they have blessed me and my family to be lucky. (In my home altar is not only Hindu deities, but we also have Chinese deity as Lady Kuan Yin and many of Buddha Image too.). However, I will not forget cleansing my divination tools and some crystals, if I have free time too. And I am always taking a shower in after waking up and going to the bed in everytime. In addition, before I come in my home, I will wash my feet and wash my face too. Because my family always tell me that "It help to clean our face and feet, it can cleanse from something maybe negative or evil spirit followed us in during we are traveling." Thus, I am always do it. Oh, I am closely to forget something! Don't be forget to do meditation until it will be calm down too.

For study tips, I am accepting that since I was a student at primary school until I am a final university student in now. I am studying in my primary school and middle only, because my family has not money enough to me study at any academic for helping exercise subjects such as math, science, English, or other. But I did much homework from school with researching by internet when I was a middle school and I had fortunately when I was a high school, I had gotten studying at university in pre-degree system too. So, I did homework from high school and do exercise for final exam in university until I was graduated from high school and become to full uni student. Cause, I got trauma mental from school so long time. It makes I don't believe them and ignore studying from university, but I have a lucky again that I got heal from my spirit with Lord Ganesh and his family until I'm ok now. And Lady Saraswati tells me about study tip a little when I study at home such as allowed to I'm turning video about study with me or pomodoro on YouTube, or do meditation before study. For Lord Ganesh tells me about how to do manifest for my goal, how to do accept my mistake or failure for do it in correct, and I do respectful owner in my university when I go for do exam, or taking care myself when I am during in time of the month. However, they're always tell my that "Focusing and understanding about content by using critical thinking, it is very important. For stationary or tools that is the most expensive or the best. It is just ingredients to help you in study is better up."

And the lastly my opinion, they're always tell me that "You just have believe in yourself that 'I can do it.' when you are studying or doing something is handling by yourself, but if something you cannot do by yourself in final. Just let it go and waiting for a new thing is better." And them mentioned to my craft that "When you are doing ceremony or worshipping is still holy or not, It is upon yourself that how are your intention. If you use it for in good way, it becomes to be your blessing. But if you use it for in bad way, it becomes to be your curse instead." So, my witchcraft or spiritual stories might be likes as normal life that is none special thing.

And these are my opinion for about them that I got experience with them, it is long text post so much. However, it is upon each personal are different and my opinion is not guaranteed that is so true. And also, it might be wrong in normal Hinduism way too. Thus, you maybe do research or ask someone who is guru in Hinduism by yourself.

And the last, Thanks for read my long text post and for someone who is Hinduism read this my opinion, I am so apologize again for I give an information is mistake.

[hissterical-nyaan]

Isn't it wild that the moment men are discriminated against our whole political movement is towards making it correct but not when that happens to women because fuck women right

[magpiecollectingknowledge]

Is there a religious story or a mythos that you enjoy the most?

woah this is such a good question and i have absolutely no idea which precise one is my favourite but i can give some contenders!

the book of ruth is up there in my favourite biblical books, and the love narrative is awesome

the story of eros and psyche from greek mythology

the hindu story of prince rama and sita (celebrated at diwali)

story of hephaestus coming back for revenge against hera after she tossed him off mount olympus

the story of jael from the bible and her murder of sisera

the story of judith from the bible and her murder of holofernes

the book of esther

the book of tobit and the theory that the lady sarah, who was supposedly being tormented by demons who killed every one of her husbands on their wedding night, was actually a serial killer

i think the stories of jael, sarah in tobit, and judith are my three favourites. the story of jael can be found in judges 4 to 5, and judith can be found in the book of judith (not found in all bibles) and the book of tobit (also not in all bibles).

an extra fun one: jesus cursing a fig tree because it won't give him fruit, despite it being off season for figs. first example of hangry-ness? guess we'll never know, lmao.

thanks for your question dude!! i love questions like this. if anyone wants me to talk about any of the biblical stories in more detail, pleaseeee ask me because i love talking about them so much!

xoxo magpie

[dosa-sambhar]

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[turiyatitta]

The Upanishads

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[wormsngods]

15/11/24

Went to the Ravi river with my gf and two of her friends. We were late because had to get breakfast and got lost in a very narrow dirt road that ended up at a dead end. Gf gifted me a sweater of hers that luckily looked amazing on me.

We parked near an unnamed shrine hidden behind some thick shrubbery. Her colleagues were really nice and I never felt like a tag along. We were warned about the presence of robbers beyond the river bank which gave me an opportunity to flex how I am friends with certain families connected with the underworld that seems to mar all the rivers of our Punjab. Spotted hatched snake eggs and alot of mushrooms. The fog added to the mystique of the experience and a member of our party who (apparently) had not been out much was genuinely on the verge of attaining moksha. Got scolded for offering my jacket to gf's friend when her fingers were swelling from the cold.

Met a cowherd who offered to protect us with his life and his friend who proudly told us how he had only ever loved one woman and had never remarried after God took her. When told that we were feeling refreshed out here in the open by the river side the cowherd said ,"We came from this earth and when we die we shall have to return to it". It is an extremely disorienting experience to hear a Punjabi pastoralist in the Islamic Republic of Pakistan echo the Quran when it says, "We have created you from the earth, into it We shall return you and from it We shall bring you back to life once again." [Quran 20:55] Which itself parallels the teachings expounded by the so called "Jahwist" whose words are preserved in Genesis saying "By the sweat of your brow will you have food to eat until you return to the ground from which you were made. For you were made from dust, and to dust you will return." [Gen 3:19]

A tapestry of history strung together by God like pearls in a necklace.

The guy in the group kept telling my gf to stop using colonial concepts like "occupation" , "property" and "earning money" we would only later realise it was his dead pan attempt at humour. He also told us straight faced that if any of them died he would not hold himself responsible which made me glad that I joined.

We got spooked by some people from the opposite bank who were offering refreshments and by 2 men on a bike who were driving around in reference to the warnings given to us. Saw a shivering puppy and tried to comfort it as best as I could, lamented the fact that I had only packed crisps.

Kept reminiscing on the fact that the banks of the river Ravi is where King Sudas faced off the tribal coalition in the Battle of the Dasarajya. The First event in Indian History. A battle insignificant in the scale of things of probably one of the single most consequential battles in our ancient history. A war between a disciple and guru that laid the foundations of vedic society, the kuru kingdom and the lens through which all subsequent indic dynasties would look at themselves through.

This is the same river where my ancestors would have stood, bronze sword in hand, blood coursing through their veins, their lungs hurting as they could taste the blood in their mouth. Staring their enemy in the eyes as they frantically grabbed at one another, stabbing, skewering and slashing. Being stabbed, skewered and slashed. Bodies crushed under chariot wheels, mothers losing their sons, wives losing husband, terrifying beasts of war charging as Indra was invoked with every breath. Alhamdulillah. I have learned to own my ancestor's hindu jahiliyyah* as my own.

Afterwards we all went to have lunch at a "dhaaba". Told them about how me and gf met over good reads and then email before I finally got her number. Had a very refreshing conversation which oscillated between alpha males, astrology, Dune, Sociology, LOTR, Harry Potter and Islamic Waqf Law. Would love to accompany them again.

Brought gf home and we had her shoes cleaned, she attended online classes and I prepared for my send up exams. Afterwards dropped her off at her university and I wanted to stay up to study but fell asleep.

*Arabic word for The Ignorance traditionally used for pre Islamic Arabia but can be used to refer to the pre Islamic past of any entity.

[neonhotelsign]

I think if people watched sita sings the blues they’d calm down a bit more 🫰

[vulpine111]

It was Diwali recently. :)

I hope everyone enjoyed it and had a good one.

I keep forgetting about the mala necklace I wish to make to honor Ganesha. Chanting mantras with him every day will be a lot more effective than simply listening on YouTube.

If I am just even more careful with my money until Valentine's Day, maybe I will order myself the beads, cord, etc. to make it, finally.

I also still want a necklace for St. Rita. I still believe she's my patron saint.

I probably won't wear a rosary every day, I'll just pray with Ganesha and Rita a lot. Occasionally Santa Muerte as well.

No idea when I'll have a legit altar for my practice, but oh well. A desk and comfy chair sort of take priority.

[hindu-spiritualcorner]

Studying Bhagavad Gita in the night time :) I finished "Karma Yoga" last month and now I'm reading my notes to understand better. It's kinda overwhelming to see how many concepts don't know from Hinduism but I can't wait to learn more 💛