#hhhhfhf

[jabbajacks]

Since today was a recovery day I'm writing this myself and seeing how it feels

...strain on left hand is still present, slightly on right wrist, but it's almost in the clear otherwise. *Almost*. Better not push it further though

[viir-tanadhal]

i want to know now how many listeners to neil's this classical life episode went 🧍‍♂️ when he mentioned his ex girlfriend

[valiah-creates-stuff]

Ough i wanna practice drawing The other Mother from Coraline HHHHFHF

[flechxtte]

there is one Scenario i’ve wanted to write like. since i first got into kfp, and that is one where tai lung survived the first movie and ended up becoming. some sort of. sixth ranger to po and the five (even tho... in that case i think po is already the sixth ranger lmao) in the sequel when they go off to confront shen

or maybe just like. the token evil teammate or something idk

bc i’m. kind of. stuck on the similarities and contrasts between shen and tai lung and i think about that way too often fjfiea;

bc. well. at the root of it all i think is the fact that i consider myself very satisfied with the way shen’s Story plays out in canon-- as much as i obviously enjoy playing around with ‘what if he survived’, in canon i think his Arc and such is very well put together and. yeah. Satisfying. i’m a sucker for characters who are too far gone (either over the despair or moral event horizon), whose only escape and peace is going to be when they die lmao lies down so clearly i would gravitate toward shen’s story in kfp2

but for me personally, tai lung’s story doesn’t have the same Punch. and a lot of it comes from the fact that while tai lung and shen have a lot of similarities in their individual stories and paths to darkness, etc., they’re also still pretty distinctly different characters/people who have reacted to their hurts in very different ways

....ok i’m off-track now WHAT I WANT TO SAY is that i’ve always kinda felt that tai lung’s story in the first movie would have been better served by him surviving and gaining at least a small redemption arc thinking emoji

whispers and i always wonder if it’s just me who’s added all this random Depth to him and that i’ve completely misinterpreted his canon character lmao bc i’ve always had this sneaking desire to make a past!tai lung blog bUT

basically for me it comes down to the fact that shen knew he wasn’t the hero. sure, he has countless, varied justifications for what he’s doing, but they’re all very flimsy excuses that seem strong bc he clings to them so viciously. on some deep level, he Knows what he’s doing is wrong and that he is just digging himself deeper as he goes-- he just has convinced himself it’ll be worth it in the end and that it’s too late to stop now

tai lung, on the other hand, doesn’t realize that. he truly does believe himself to be the betrayed, gallant hero who is coming back to claim what was wrongfully kept from him. he’s arrogant and has a kind of smug, typical bad guy demeanor, but he also strikes me as having a much more ingrained moral backbone to him than shen does, and that’s precisely bc he genuinely wants to be the hero. perhaps not for the. uh. Best reasons, but he is someone who wants to be respected and admired and loved, not necessarily feared, and i personally kinda think his actions when compared with shen’s reflect that 6_6;;

shen, while he still to this day seeks his parents’ love even tho he doesn’t entirely realize it, on most levels he just wants to be obeyed. respect and admiration are secondary. however, fear is definitely something he strives for

this is. i think. bc of the difference in how they were raised and the environment they were raised in but this is already Long As Hell so i think i should move on lmao

ANYWAY

what’s amusing to me is that while one would think that the character who knows what he’s doing is Wrong would be the one to be more easily reformed, bc of the kind of guy shen is and his own stubbornness, that’s. kinda. weirdly not the case here, or at least, not. in the way i interpret it lmao

shen is bitter, which is a trait i think tai lung lacks, or at least doesn’t possess to the same degree that shen does. and i think that dissimilarity between them does come back to how they view themselves and their Ultimate Goal

shen is against the entire world. everyone owes him something, even tho he may feel more specifically betrayed only by his parents (and the soothsayer, a little). tai lung, by contrast, mostly feels that shifu and oogway owe him what (he believes) they promised him. shen’s feelings are more vague, possibly bc of the lavish position he was born into, and also more vicious for the same reason

[birf]

Were you live-practicing for an upcoming Dabi art piece?

Because, Dabi being whipped is just <3<3<3

NO I

DIDNT KNOW WAS CAPABLE OF THAT 🥴

[thursdaysshepard]

how is it that one month ill be looking into poetry chapbooks and the next i want to delete it all and start from scratch

[fagpulp]

I have too much power in my hands

[potatoes-tomatoes]

I hattteeeee raising my voicceeee my throat is dead hhhhfhf

[kabeh]

Shotgunning Boyf Riends is gay culture

[ariochsong]

5, 16, 18, 25, 28, 45, 49, 50 :)

5. What is something you're proud of?

My daughter most of all, as far as personal things I'm proud of about myself is my spray paint art cause I'm pseudo-self taught.

16. What's your favorite instrument?

Alto Sax, I was trying to teach myself to play but had to pawn my sax and couldn't play it much cause I didn't wanna piss off my apartment neighbors but I fully intend to get another now that I'm in a house.

18. What's a topic you wish you knew more about?

I'd probably say CB radio, hubby is big into it but I'm still hella noob with it.

25. Name three songs that stir up the deepest emotions.

Hhhhfhf gosh so hard to choose!

My Dream is but a Drop of Fuel for a Nightmare by Sonata Arctica

Save Me by Poets of the Fall

Rubicon by VNV Nation

28. What do you do when you need to de-stress?

Video games are a big stress reliever for me, if I've pent up frustration games like Drakengard, Nier Automata, and some fps' are a great cathartic release, or something I can just wander around in if I need to chill. Listening to music is another great stress reliever for me, sometimes getting myself a bottle of sweet cheap champagne and eating brie and triscuits for dinner. Also for physical stress (usually from chronic pain) I've found medical marijuana helpful.

45. Is there a song you like better than the original?

Bad Wolves cover of Zombie, I love the original but Bad Wolves version hits me right in the feels.

49. Describe your aesthetic

Hoo boy that's legit tough cause my aesthetic is all over the place lmao. I'd say my aesthetic is floating from obsession to obsession with songs and games. XD

50. Put your playlist on shuffle and list the first 10 songs that play.

Lone Digger by Caravan Palace

I'm Markiplier (Markiplier Remix Song) by Endigo

I Can't Decide by Scissor Sisters

The Wolf by Siames

Ho Ho Ho by Sia

Five Nights at Freddy's 1 song by The Living Tombstone

Five Nights at Freddy's 3 song by The Living Tombstone

Bills, Bills, Bills (Glee version)

I'll Keep Coming by Low Roar

The Flipside (Fnaf world song) by Griffinilla and Shadrow

[tresnipring]

okay but mike p*eing on billies face and hair in the shower

hhchchfh mike doing it 2 embarrass him ..... .like as a punishment he makes billie sit there on his knees w/ his mouth open hhhhfhf

[deithe]

moon & pluto!

...im answering these so late im sorry ajhfgdkwenfg

Moon (What are you currently studying/hope to study?)

ahhh i hope to study either politics/international relations and Irish or English and Irish. ahdfsh i really like Irish and ill only study the politics one if i get into the college i like that has it. 

Pluto (What time is it right now where you are?)

It’s exactly 3:30 am as i type this up!

[grandiose]

fuk me im so dizzy today hhhhfhf

[lokh]

the original plan was to post the question, then go do chores and come back. but im still here