#hes got some trauma that i doubt he went to therapy for

[the-lonely-human]

I love making my boy vaguely unsettling

I’ve always sorta imagined that after everything Gohan’s been through *ahem Cell ahem* he comes across as almost “normal” but theres still something off with him at times. Like he’ll be completely fine most of the time but then somedays… he just doesn’t act quite right

Bonus sketches below:

[darkficsyouneveraskedfor]

First, let me apologise for making people worry. I appreciate all those who reached out and I'm sorry that I couldn't get back to you all.

I have been through a very rough spiral. It was building for months, and I am still not fully okay.

For those who want context, it's under the cut.

I bought a house in May. It's expensive. I wasn't ready financially or in many ways for that step, but my partner convinced me. I told him as much but I was not heard. Alas, I have a mortgage, full time work, astudent loan, and an ongoing school program to contend with. It hasn't been easy and it caught up to me.

At the same time, a person who traumatised me and I have no way of fully extricating from my life, has moved closer. To keep the peace, I have to associate with him to a degree and he pretends that nothing ever happened. To him, it was nothing.

In June, I moved. It was hard and fast paced. I did most of the paperwork etc for the whole process and obv helped with the physical transition as well. I was responsible for deadlines and checklists for not just myself but my partner.

I was plugging holes in a sinking boat.

At the same time, I had obligations to my family. Every weekend if I wasn't dealing with the house and all that goes into it, I was running around to babysit or see family or whathave you.

In July, I pinched a nerve behind my tailbone. I missed a week of work bc my injury but it took longer for my to recover. I am still feeling it today. It was more than physical, but emotional.

I also got three periods that month. Hormonal can't begin to explain how fucked up I've been.

On top of all that, there are underlying issues associated with other trauma and discontent. I'm realising that I have been loyal and tolerant to the point of my own detriment.

I don't want to hurt people how I've been hurt, so I don't speak up. When people tell me something about myself, I let all the doubts planted in my mind from years of abuse convince me that they're right. I can admit my faults but often times I will think that proof of one flaw means everything about me is rotten.

People forget about me or just don't care. Both or either. They don't put the same effort in that I do. I find it hard to connect because years of disregard and neglect have told me that the other side just won't care.

But I'm not just hurt, I'm angry. I'm seeking therapy and trying to figure this out.

It all boiled over after my last post. Nothing I do is enough. For anyone. Not even when it's a hobby. I was frustrated bc the place I use for escape just made me feel like less than.

Obviously, I don't mean everyone or even the majority. I appreciate the discourse and fun and everything here! There are so many awesome people to interact with and I have missed you all, however, my headspace was bad. Very bad. I had thoughts I haven't dealt with in years.

I put my nose down and just went to work. I didn't wanna talk to anyone. I didn't wanna be in the world.

I did some reading, eventually some non-fandom writing, and sometimes, I just stayed alive.

I don't know if I'm really okay but I'm trying.

To those who have been so patient and supportive, you deserve everything. To those who are silent supporters, you do too. And even to those people who send me the most vile hate, you deserve to lift yourself out of the dark space you're stuck in. Hopefully, I can, too.

[soapskies]

could i get a yandere!scarecrow (arkham or whatever jon you think would fit this concept best) x a reader whos a patient at arkham? maybe with him working as the readers Secretly Evil therapist?

ps; love your work! :]

YANDERE ASYLUM SCARECROW WITH A PATIENT S/O

MALE READER. ROMANTIC HEADCANONS.

Scarecrow normally is a pain to deal with, but now it’s cranked up to the MAX

Even if you weren’t in the best of mind, you could still tell something was… off with him.

I mean, you were suddenly reassigned to him, even though you had no troubles with your last therapist

As a matter of fact, you’d never see that doctor again.

Crane always seemed to stare at you for a little too long, sneaking glances when he thought you weren’t looking

Smiling to himself whenever you asked about what had happened to your last doctor, or that inmate that went missing after he harassed you in the hallway…

“You don’t need to worry about such things, Mister.”

As long as you are deemed insane, you’re stuck there with him, so he pulls some strings to make it appear as if you haven’t been making progress

He presses you about your fears, your traumas, your regrets…

He likes to watch you squirm.

Somehow he restrains himself from throwing himself at you then and there

The other patients start to avoid you when they realize your Jonathan’s favorite.

Everyone knew that when Crane brought people down to the lab, it was never for a pleasant chat

You received special privileges thanks to him, allowed to wander the asylum during the day and being placed in a nicer cell (closer to his office…)

He has notebooks upon notebooks filled with info about you, down to the minute detail, as well as everything he would like to do to you if he had you fully to himself…

It’s also his way of controlling his urges

If you ever got your hands on them, they would leaved you flustered or mentally scarred, choose your pick

As he abandons his inhibitions he crosses over into unprofessional behavior

Daring to make flirtatious comments with just enough benefit of the doubt

When a breakout happens and everyone is whipped into a frenzy, he snatches you away before anyone can realize it

Locking you away in his lab

Even when things return to normal, people will believe you were another missing person of his without any proof to hold him accountable

He’ll keep you chained up on the cold, hard floor, in a place where he can show you what kind of person he truly is

While purring against your neck in his scratchy mask, needles teasing your sides

“You just need a little exposure therapy, my dear…”

[fuji09]

My thoughts on the Teen Wolf movie:

What the fuck was that?!

Eli is a pure smol bean who needs to be protected.

Dilf Derek 😍

Was I the only one who felt the strong unresolved sexual tension between Peter and Chris? I swear I felt like they were one second away from fucking.

Why is Liam on Japan? Is it because of the jar?

Hikari felt like she was just a replacement for Kira which is a shame.

It's not the same without Stiles. Scott literally needs his bestie or it's just not the fucking same.

The nogitsune storyline does not work without Stiles and Kira. It's literally their story.

Eli is literally half Stiles and half Derek.

Technically they didn't say Stiles hadn't come back in 15 years. So it could have been less time, there is no way in hell Stiles would stay away for 15 years. Not with his dad still there and still working. So maybe Stiles was just on an important mission and that's why his dad didn't want to call him.

Derek really got smart with the sheriff when saying he should call Stiles. The smug look was cute.

Why did Deaton and Scott move to LA?

They sure said nudity? Fuck yeah! There is hardly any part of Shelley/Malia we now haven't seen.

Parrish sure do got a booty on him.

How did the nogitsune get the Oni sword out of the nemeton? Shouldn't it have not been able to? The jar it was trapped in was made from the wood of the nemeton.

Derek pulled a Mufasa and that was just hilarious.

Eli said Scott hadn't seen him since he was 3. Eli was 15 and would have had to have been born before season 1. So did Derek not get Eli until he was already 3 years old?

Is Melissa a doctor now? She was wearing a white lab coat when she never did before as a nurse.

They really dumbed down Jackson to the point it wasn't believable.

Who is Eli's mom?? Maybe someone from New York?

Why Mason? Why become a cop?

We got some great one liners.

Allison is seriously going to need therapy.

What is Lydia's job?

Hearing them all swear was hilarious.

Harris? Really? Why? Like there isn't any reason why the nogitsune would pick Harris. He died in 3a and the nogitsune was 3b.

Melissa using a crossbow 😍 such a badass.

During the time Derek had let go of the nogitsune to push Scott away, Parrish could have burned the fucker and Derek wouldn't have had to die.

Eli went to live with Scott and Allison because he's the alpha but why uproot him? Why not stay in Beacon Hills so Eli can finish highschool and stay in the only home he knows?

Pretty sure Malia would have gotten custody of Eli. I doubt Derek would have granted Peter custody if he died but Malia I think he would.

Why was Malia still so cold? I don't think she would have still been that uncaring after 15 years.

Who made Harris going to Eichen House happen?

Seriously fucked up they killed Derek by burning him alive after his trauma with fire.

It was worth watching that dumpster fire just to hear Tyler Hoechlin swear.

Stiles not being at Derek's funeral was all sorts of fucked up. Couldn't they have like "had him there" but only show him from behind played by an actor who looks like Dylan? Just have like Scott hug him and tell him he's glad he could make it? Or have someone "live streaming it" on their phone on a video call with Stiles?

[witchofthesouls]

snorts another line of Dark Energon (Warning: Trauma. Lots of it.) Gods & Goddesses AU where the 13 OG Primes are stranded on Earth in the aftermath of Gaea's birth(???), & they decide to try & Claim these new toys in front of her. Primus/Rung manages to get them offworld, but the damage has already been done. The 13 are utterly mangled by the experience, physically, spiritually & mentally. Primus/Rung has to remove the vast majority of their power because they would straight-up die from their biology & Sparks being torn up otherwise, downgrading them from "Physical Gods" to "Immortality & mild superpowers, but that's it" like IDW 2005. He can't help with the trauma & rhabdophobia (fear of magic), tho. Prima never treated Megatronus badly in this timeline, Liege never plots against his siblings, & Quintus never makes the Quintessons (he got his optics permanently damaged, & is too afraid to leave Iacon) so...yay, teamwork? (If we want to tie this into the Prima's a Dragon-Fragger AU, then 1.) Prima would have to be clever about how he takes on Predaking due to the massive power difference between them & 2.) Predaking realizes he has to invent therapy for his small BF. And talk to his Dad so he can get some context for when Prima wakes up screaming.)

Hmm, this is more of a commentary route because I got really set ideas about Gaea being a sister/daughter/reflection to Unicron and Primus.

As in, Primus would never have been able to get the remaining Primes back. Not after splitting his own power to them. Yes, they are powerful gods. However, Gaea can be taken as their originator as she is of Unicron, who is of Primus, and all were once a single entity that existed before nothing.

Basically, she took advantage of their relationship to claim them. And unlike her brothers, she's not letting them go. Ever.

In this particular AU, the variables that caused their downfall went another way, so it was Quintus who left first. He ventured off to find new species to become good neighbors to a new race. Where in one world, Quintus had found the planet Quintessa; the dreamy Prime was pulled to a hungry Gaea...

< Fragment of myself. > It crooned to a dreaming Prime, fascinated by his visionary thoughts and far-flung travels to seek out his goals. Quintus dreamt of gleaming cities and massive libraries. Stars full of treasures and beautiful singing bridges that connected everything and everywhere. < Wayward Dreamer. Sky-walker. Bridge-builder. > How could it leave such a delicious, willing morsel that stolen its dark heart with such a vision?

Quintus became the bait to grab the rest. Megatronus never returned when he went to fetch their lost brother. Solus and Liege Maximo disappeared on his trail, so it wasn't a surprise it prompted the rest of the brothers to stage a rescue with Prima hot on their heels...

And they all Fell.

Besides, I doubt they would leave after finding out that Unicron hadn't been fully vanquished.

Some of the Primes sleep so deeply, unable to awaken in physical reality. They put too much of themselves into fully caging the Unmaker. Others still walk the planet, wandering and trying to find a way off the planet.

[theoddcatlady]

You or Him?

I got the worst news of my life on my lunch break six months ago. I was feeling pretty good about myself, I'd received high praise from my boss and I felt like a promotion was coming my way any time. I turned my phone back on to see six missed calls from my wife and a voice message telling me that I needed to come to the hospital right now.

Cara had been home from work that day with a headache. Just a headache, she told me that morning, she would be fine after some rest and I shouldn’t worry about her.

Someone had broken into the house and beaten her within an inch of her life.

Seeing her in that hospital bed nearly killed me. I couldn't even recognize her with how bruised and swollen her face was. She had several broken ribs, a concussion, several lacerations on her back and chest. The worst of it was her hands. The bastard had repeatedly stomped on them and shattered each of her fingers with an alarming precision.

My wife is… was an artist. Even with physical therapy she might never have the finesse she once possessed.

At first I just thought it was luck Cara was still alive. But much to my horror, that… that animal had left her alive on purpose.

You can't suffer if you're dead, after all.

Cara went from a vibrant, optimistic person to a shell. A shell filled with pain and terror that knew that the bastard that hurt her wasn't going away just like that, and that he wasn't human.

The doctors told me it was trauma that made Cara believe that her attacker was a monster, almost eight feet tall with claws like swords and red glowing eyes. I, of course, believed them because monsters aren't real. Cara's mind just made her believe it was. I think she doubted herself a long time before the monster came back.

I never saw it, of course. But a few months later, after most of the bruises had faded and bones started to heal, Cara called me begging me to come home as ‘he was there’. I dialed 911 on the way, assuming that the guy was like right outside our door. I got there just when they did and we found Cara cowering in the closet, pointing quietly at a set of scratch marks on our bedroom wall.

She hadn’t seen anyone. Just the scratches.

Thankfully the police were more than understanding, given what Cara had just gone through. I wasn’t upset either, she’d been through a serious trauma and it would take time for her to get over it.

It wouldn’t take much for Cara to be set off. A new scuff mark on the floor, things going missing or seemingly being moved… one time I had to come home from work because Cara swore she heard something move in the basement. Turns out a couple of old boxes had toppled over, nothing more.

It was hard not getting upset with her after a while. But, and I don’t know how, I managed to keep my temper in check. I’d remind myself that she had gone through something so horrible that she’d not be able to live in peace for a long time.

The closest I came to actually losing it was the same day I found out Cara’s monster was real.

It’d been a bad day for her. She’d left her keys in the bedroom rather than by the door so she assumed that ‘the monster’ had moved them and had a meltdown over that, physical therapy had gone terribly, and it all came to a head when she started screaming about something being in the closet.

I’d had a lousy day myself, my boss was getting upset with me over constantly leaving work early to check on my wife and it was starting to feel ridiculous, coming home just to find that that she’d lost her slippers.

Gritting my teeth, I remember ripping open the door, about to shout that there was nothing there when I saw it crawl back into the attic.

I don’t think it had intended on getting caught quite yet. I only saw a piece of its inky, scaled hide and a curled tail before it zipped out of sight. If I’d been a second later, I wouldn’t have seen it at all.

I tore apart that attic looking for that son of a bitch and didn’t find a trace of him, except for a few more scratch marks in the dust. I probably spent hours going over every inch of our house to find it and found nothing.

I spent the rest of the night begging my wife’s forgiveness for not believing in her. Bless her, she forgave me.

Now that I knew that the threat was real though, everything seemed to get so much worse. It stopped being so subtle. I catch glimpses of it around the corner, only to run over and not see a thing. Once I saw its tail whisk into the kitchen where my wife was and I nearly had a heart attack as I screamed for her to run. She did run, but the creature wasn’t in the kitchen anymore. It was back to being just an imaginary monster.

Before you ask, yes, we’ve tried everything I could think of. We stayed in hotels. We’re trying to buy a new house. I bought a gun and so did she. It doesn’t help. The thing’s too quick to get a shot off at and it follows us wherever we go, leaving scratches and hiding underneath beds until we get close enough for it to snatch at our ankles. And the house hunting is going as well as you’d expect with a single income household.

I did all I could think of. Cara had one more option though. One she’d never told me before last night.

It was after three days of complete nothing. No scratches, no sounds, no sightings. But Cara seemed worse off than ever. After pressing her, she finally broke and told me the truth.

The creature spoke to her. Before that first attack it gave her a choice once it had her cornered.

“You or him?”

Cara loves me. She would’ve never thrown me to the creature back then.

But that was almost six months ago, before weeks of pain, torment, and paranoia. So three days ago she finally broke when it once again asked ‘You or him?’. She told it it could have me now.

I’m not upset with her. I know I should be livid, but this is the only way Cara can have some semblance of normalcy again. No more fear. Not again.

I’m on the run, I’ve left Cara at home with what’s left of our savings and quit my job. Distance won’t deter the creature, I know it won’t. But I have to try.

I don’t want to know what it’ll do to me once it catches up.

[thetomorrowshow]

okay i’m here with more reverse au thoughts. this one’s specifically for scott’s captivity (i’ll definitely forget some)

-instead of making scott become xornoths pet and weapon for world dominance like jimmy was, xornoth was torturing scott as a way of revenge kinda? like they felt so much pain and frustration from their parents and childhood and thought that scott had it so good so they were trying to make scott feel pain too

-scott would have different trauma than jimmy. they both got super messed up and were dehumanised but scott’s was more based on being gaslit so much and convinced that he wasn’t a real person and was worthless and didn’t deserve love. scott’s damage and abuse was mostly psychological (but not entirely he still got hurt frequently). he was constantly told he was worthless and didn’t deserve love and everyone who cared about him etc

-at the same time however xornoth was cooing at him and calling him their little baby brother and being the only person to show him “love” and “affection” to force him to rely on them for comfort and safety

-instead of the cage it’d be timeout. a giant empty all white room where scott would be locked in their alone for days. guards would always throw him in there but he’d always be “rescued” by xornoth to further convince him that xornoth was safety and comfort

-instead of using scott’s powers to try and take over the world xornoth would show him off and brag about how they got the primary protector of the city to become evil. scott would be forced to fight his friends as a way to break their friendship and trust and lower the chance of him being rescued by them

-jimmy was extremely persistent and annoying to try and stop the rest of the hero’s from thinking scott was willingly hurting everyone wanting to give up on saving him

those are all the big changes i could think of for his captivity. if you still want to hear more i can say the ideas i have for when after scott gets rescued

-oo yeah i def feel this. like yeah they were still trying to make the whole taking-away-his-powers a reality, but they weren't too fussed about whether or not it worked

-hmmm maybe it would have some aspect of his family's religion tied in... specific use of really common phrasing from the religion or a lot of bible imagery. make scott doubt he ever truly escaped

-gah scott not sure who to trust or what to think. feeling trapped in his own mind. knowing that it's wrong to lean in to his captor but knowing also that they both went through the same upbringing and xornoth is the only one to ever truly understand him

-they tell him he's being made clean and pure by them trying to take away his powers, they lock him in the room when he needs to learn to control himself better, how good xornoth is for saving him from the evil clutches of his past...

-absolutely. scott doesn't want to but anything is better than the lab. he's so far gone that he'll kill anyone to avoid that.

-scott, wide-eyed and crazed: IM NOT GOING BACK TO JAIL (re: conversion therapy)

the other heros: ookay so we can kill him right?? kill him and xornoth????

jimmy: UM?? NO???

[morganwrites12672]

Billy Hargrove x Reader

You are afraid to tell your boyfriend something, and when he finds out it's even worse.

TW/Tags; eating disorder, anorexia, self doubt, self image issues, dark thoughts, billy hargrove x reader, platonic Max Mayfield x reader, mentions of abuse

He couldn't know. Not with everything that he had going on. It would only bother him. You didn't want to add more stress to your lover.

If you told Billy he would only worry about you. He didn't need to worry about you he had his own worries and things to deal with.

He was finally healing and you weren't going to mess it up. Every since Neil was arrested for domestic abuse, Susan got hit and billy had had enough, billy lived with Susan and max in a smaller house.

He was happier, but his therapist said it will be difficult. He sometimes has random outbursts of anger or tears. It's normal.

If he found out about starving yourself it would only hurt him. It would delay his healing. You didn't tell anyone so the only person it hurt was you.

"Yn?" You heard a voice ask. You turned around to see Max. She had spent the night. Susan had been drunk and Billy needed to be alone. He had had a panic attack at the store after seeing a man that looked similar to Neil. Sometimes billy would need comfort and sometimes he needed to be alone. Right now it was the later.

"What's up?" You ask the red head as she walks towards you. Her hair is mused from sleep and she is still in her pajamas.

"I, it's stupid never mind," she says brushing it off as she goes to make some toast. You know what that tone means it doesn't mean something good.

"Max, it's not stupid if it's bothering you," you say and walk over to her. She sighs as she watches her toast toast.

"When's Billy going to be better?" She asks in a small voice. Your heart aches for her. You wanted Billy to be better to, it just didn't work like that.

"It takes time. And he's never going to be the exact same, only better then before," you tell her as her toast pops up.

She smiles and begins to butter the toast, "Aren't you going to eat?" She asks and you shake your head.

"I had cereal this morning," you lie and max nods before walking off to go find something to watch. She loved your house, no rules. If she wanted to eat toast and watch TV at six am, she could.

Max had been getting slightly suspicious. In therapy her therapist had mentioned something called an eating disorder. She was told to make sure she was eating, trauma sometimes caused these disorders. But it could also be caused by insecurity.

She never saw you eat, and if you did it wasn't much. There wasn't a bowl in the sink or drying rack. You probably were just not hungry over being upset. Max knew the toll everything had taken on you. Billy did it sometimes to. He always made up for it by drinking protein shakes. Max didn't think you drank those.

Max ignored those thoughts as she went back to watching looney toons. You would say something if something was wrong.

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Billy was getting worried about you. Everytime he saw you you looked thinner. He brought it up one time and you had just said girl issues and it was normal.

He decided not to pry, but he thinks maybe he should of. He could ask max? She was, well a teenager.

Billy didn't like the thought of it but he would have to in order to make sure you were okay. Your clothes were getting baggy and you were always tired. He never saw you eat.

"Max," Billy yells from outside Max's room. She groans before slamming the door open. "I need to talk to you about yn," he says and walks in.

"Is it normal," billy sighed he didn't want to be talking about this, "for girls to like, lose weight? During girl issues and shit?" He asks while pacing.

"What?" Max asks and looks confused, "Losing weight is a no, or a little is. Before our cycle and stuff like a few pounds get gained but we always lose it within a week or so," Max explains as billy turns a shade of crimson.

"Ew, but no it's more then a few pounds I think," Billy says and Max grabs her library card before looking back at Billy.

"I don't see her eat anymore, do you think she bulimic? That's what Chrissy was," Max says referencing to before Chrissy had to go to a hospital due to passing out during a game.

"Shit," Billy grumbles before grabbing his keys and racing to his car with Max.

After a few hours in the library, they came to the conclusion that you had anorexia. You skipped meals and we're getting skinny. Always tired was another thing they had noticed.

"Shit, shit, shit, what do we do?" Billy asks. Could they just ask her?

"We can't just ask her. But maybe bring it up?" Max suggests as billy checks out a few books and walks to his car.

They both drive over to your house. Who knows what was going on with you. Were you even okay?

Billy doesn't waste time knocking and walks into your house. He notions for max to wait and he goes to your room.

You smile weakly when you see him. He knows what's going on. It's confirmed, you look more pale then usual. Skinnier, and your eyes don't glow like they used to.

"Yn, I know about what's going on," Billy says softly as he sits next to you. Your heart fell. He was trying so hard to recover and you had fucked everything up.

"I'm sorry, I didn't want to mess up your recovery," you apologize and cling to his side. Billy can't believe that you didn't tell him so he didn't get hurt.

"No don't be sorry, I should of seen the signs," billy says and pulls you in for an even tighter hug.

"Its not your fault," you whisper as he kisses your hair. H me was going to help you beat these invisible demons.

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[theflagscene]

Growing up is realizing how toxic TharnType was.. like really

🤭🤭🤭 Ngl, when I got this message a couple days ago I legit giggled. I was not expecting it, and it took me a second to figure out where it came from until I remembered my answer for day eleven of the 15 Day BL Challenge. Then the Booping happened and the next day I was at the hospital with my dad all day because he was going in for heart surgery—it went well btw—so I just got around to replying to this today. I apologize for that my dear anon 💕

I felt kind of lucky because I came into TharnType when the second season was about to air, so I had heard of some spoilers about the first season, plus I had seen Love By Chance multiple times so I was familiar with Type and some of the other side characters—Techo, Tum, Tar, Kengkla, Technic, etc.

I legit gave Mame a pass when watching LBC, not everyone’s first novel is great and the screenplay did what it could, ya know? But as time went on, as a queer person I started to get the sense that she was one of those rare hetero writers that actually do kind of fetishize gay men, which I really didn’t want to think was still happening in—at the time—2019.

But after I watched both TharnType seasons, and LBC and DSN, all of which have interconnected storylines and characters, I couldn’t help but not think that. Which is why by 2021, I sort of stopped giving her the benefit of the doubt as a writer even though I desperately wanted her to do better, so much better. And to be fair, Wedding Plan and Love Sea were both okay, I think those have been her least offensive scripts to date.

But getting back to TharnType lore, I remember actually writing up a ‘problematic trope’ list in my notes app whilst watching the series and oh boy, it’s a doozy! Let’s break it down, for anyone who (somehow) has not sat through the trash fire that was the highest heat BLs of 2019/2020 and the various storylines that tie back to TharnType that span four different series.

Heavy trigger warning for under the cut: SA/r*pe/DV/ped*phila/blackmail/ab*se/stalking/in*est/predatory behaviour/emotional manipulation and ironically enough, homophobia.

Right off the bat, the first thing in the very first episode was the comparison of gay men to pedophiles. Type was 100% allowed his trauma from what happened to him, but if Mame had done even an ounce of investigation into actual statistics, she’d know that pedophiles typically don’t identify as any type of sexuality outside of being attracted to underage people, that is their sexual preference. So no, a man assaulting a boy does not make him gay, it makes him a pedophile, full stop.

Violent homophobia: Not just outright blatant hate speech but Type is violent towards gay people, and specifically Tharn when he finds out that he’s roommates with a gay man. Also Type’s father literally chases him and Tharn with a machete when he finds out that Type is dating a man, so yeah.

Sexual assault and rape: Tharn assaults Type in the shower as a way to ‘get back at him’ for being homophobic, playing into the classic predatory gay stereotype. Techno is drugged, stalked, blackmailed and date raped by Kengkla (LBC). Tar is gang raped and was ‘so broken’ that he literally ran away to France (LBC/TT). Fiat forces a kiss onto Type against his will (DSN)

Domestic abuse: Type hits Tharn many times throughout their relationship, he constantly slaps, punches and kicks him and yet always is allowed to get away with it because of his traumatic past and jealousy issues. Uh, no, no no. You do not get to abuse your partner or anyone in your life because of your trauma, get thee into therapy!

Stalking: Kengkla is obsessed with Techno, he stalks him and often pays his best friend Technic—Techno’s little brother—to snap pictures of the older man when he’s sleeping or changing to give to Kengkla, as well many other things. It should also be stated that they are high school students whilst Techno is a university student, so they are putting Techno at risk with the law because Kengkla is underage. (LBC)

Lhong stalks Tharn for years, even going so far as to run off any potential suitors and hire bikers to rape Tharn’s—extremely underage—boyfriend Tar. (TT)

Fiat stalks Type and dismisses that he has a boyfriend, not caring about it because he’s convinced that he’s in love with Type after being treated by him for a sports injury (TT2)

Incest: Tum, Tar’s older half brother is in love with him and has been for many years. He hates Tharn for breaking Tar’s heart so badly that he ran away to a different country, not knowing about Tar’s rape. Tharn is the only one he tells and to Tharn’s credit, doesn’t tell anyone out of respect to Tar. Eventually it comes out and Tar tells Tum what happens and also tells him that his trauma from the event has left him sex repulsed and broken, unable to love or trust anyone… besides Tum that is! Of course, because Tar loved his big bro all along as well.

Emotional manipulation: Ummm *gestures wildly to every character* take your pick!

Blackmail: Kengkla and Technic—again I cannot stress this enough, Techno is Technic’s brother!—drug Techno during a party, strip him and then put him in bed naked with Kengkla. When he wakes up the next morning with a teenager in his bed and no memory of what happened, he rightfully panics. Kengkla then tells him that they had sex—up until this point Techno had no interest in men—and Kengkla promises that he won’t tell anyone what happened if Techno will sleep with him one more time, Kengkla wants to lose his virginity to him since they didn’t actually have sex, Techno was passed out due to GHB that had been slipped into his drink. As of TharnType2 it is heavily implied that Techno and Kengkla are still together, and that Techno has no idea about the truth behind how he ended up with an underage boyfriend his first year of university.

Dishonourable mentions: Kidnapping, slut shaming, toxic jealousy, racism, classism, misogyny, mishandling of mental health issues, a grown man being perversely obsessed with a teenage girl and extremely harmful LGBTQ+ stereotypes.

Seriously, nothing about TharnType was good or romantic. It was toxic waste and even as a trash/hate watch, I could not enjoy it. I don’t use this term lightly, but the whole series just gives me the ick. And remember those were just all the interconnected storylines that directly involved Tharn and Type, none of those touch on AePete, TinCan or PhugunCirrus. All of which have their own issues, many many issues, but it really does seem like TharnType are the atomic bomb of BL couple fuckery.

Whew! 😅

[faramirsonofgondor]

Having Jamie forgive his father is just so incomprehensible to me. Like????

1. He didn’t need “let go of his anger” because he wasn’t really angry in the first place??? He was fucking terrified and depressed and traumatized???

2. Even if he was angry, he had every right to be. His father was literally an abusive asshole.

I can understand the whole not letting anger rule your life or decisions shit but that’s not really what Jamie was doing in the first place.

3. His father never even apologized?? Like I understand that some people just forgive others without an apology or anything… but in this case it’s just pushing a very unhealthy narrative to the audience. Like abuse survivors are just supposed to forgive and reach out to their abusers just because??? Like wtf???

4. There was literally no reason for Jamie to forgive him in the first place. Forgiving him wouldn’t fix the root of Jamie’s issue which was that he was anxious about his fathers presence and trying to deal with the trauma his father gave him. Forgiving his trauma wouldn’t ease his worries or erase his trauma. Because at the end of the day, even if Jamie forgives his father, it doesn’t mean his father has changed.

5. Despite the fact that his father got sober and seemed to not be physically abusive with Jamie anymore, he is likely still an emotionally and mentally abusive piece of shit. Like being an alcoholic doesn’t make someone sexually abuse their kids? The emotional and mental abuse that accompanied the physical abuse Jamie went through was grounded in toxic masculinity and ideologies about how men shouldn’t be “soft”. You cannot tell me that being sober would suddenly change James’ beliefs about this. Perhaps he might’ve had to go through therapy as a part of getting sober, and maybe he could’ve worked on changing his toxic mindset, but I honestly doubt it.

As someone with abusive parents, I understand why Jamie would want to forgive his father, and why he would want to reach out again. What I don’t understand is why the writers chose to portray the narrative that they did. It just leaves a bad taste in my mouth.

[crappy-danganronpa-confessions]

I dont get why Izuru is only seen as an extension of Hajime????? Yeah, they share a body and some memories later on but- They are straight up two different people??? They have entirely different personalities and lives, Izuru shows to not have any memory of Hajimes life in the anime, and Hajime isn't even aware of Izuru til the end of Danganronpa 2.

I'm sure part of it is Hajime love and thats valid- But as a character that basically CAUSED DR2 he's tossed aside very frequently. I think he has a lot of fascinating character quirks and a backstory to be explored- That never got to be. He was created in a lab, through a lobotomy supposedly, and mastered basically every talent in a FEW YEARS while trapped in that same lab like- Why do people not see him? He screams medical trauma, dissociation and the like.... Depression too, to top it off. Like... Damn, get him therapy, let him see life as it is before the Tragedy because damn I highly doubt he spent time outside just enjoying himself before and after him starting to follow Junko around.

Just, man. I love him. I wish there was more sympathy for his plight of existence- Yes, Hajime went through his own trauma- But shoving Izuru completely to the side is forgetting his existence. And fuck man, he didn't get really any individuality before- He says 'I am CALLED Izuru Kamukura' he doesn't really register his own damn name as his own!!! Just, he needed help, genuine help, and he never got it. He was cast away and forgotten, only an aspect of Hajime. And thats so depressing. He needs more love.

Truly. Anon, this hurt to read because he deserves so much more than what he got. He was basically an infant god, born into a world with no experience, and knowing all. And before he got to experience life, it was taken away from him.

He could've done more; been more.

[steel--fairy]

inspired by @a-tale-of-legends talking about the striaton triplets a bit ago, heres some facts about them in my verse : )

so

i am going with the striaton triplets = shadow triad theory lol

(yes the theory has been disproved by canon but i think you can make a genuine argument that it was canon at one point in production)

by god these boys need therapy

idk the concept of ghetsis repeatedly kidnapping impressionable, prodigal children in order to have blindly loyal followers who will never doubt him just feels accurate

anyways. the triplets are from kanto. from the same ninja clan as koga and janine!

ghetsis went looking for mewtwo who happened to be hiding near where they lived. the boys showed him the weird cave (or whatever, idk where i'm putting the ninja clan yet) where some strange but powerful pokemon had taken up residence. ghetsis got his shit wrecked, resulting in his injuries. (yea, not the usual hydreigon backstory here)

immediately used the situation into guilting the like. 8 year old boys into becoming his personal ninjas. all "oh its your fault i'm injured you led me to it"

they were 8. they didnt know better and swore an oath of loyalty before being whisked away (kidnapped) to unova.

if n and his sisters were told they were a king/goddesses, these 3 had the opposite. constantly degraded and dehumanized. their matching uniforms came about bc ghetsis couldnt be bothered to remember who was who so he made them look identical

them being gym leaders was a stint to help team plasma's goal of destabilizing the league.

even if n won the title of champion, there would still be some people wary of releasing their pokemon. if, oh idk, a trio of well respected gym leaders all put their support behind n however, then even more people would do as he says without a fight.

however, similar to n, them being out in the real world and interacting with normal people kinda made them slowly realize how fucked up their situation is

it took them far longer to break free though--they didnt have a group of dedicated friends trying to break them out of their mindset, not until b2 era and concordia and co came across them

they were kept separate from the other 3 kids. ghetsis didnt want them to unionize against him. but concordia had gotten out and she wanted to help them. by the time of bw2 they wanted out, but also had sworn an oath to protect ghetsis and those ideals caused a lot of conflict between the three.

however the final straw on the camels back was when they stole the dna splicers from drayden. by then, the other gyms leaders knew their identity and drayden told cress 'im disappointed in you' and it was downhill from there lmao

some non backstory tidbits:

each are a sort of double type specialist. one for their gym leader personas and one for their shadow triad self

cilan - grass and poison. simisage, leafeon, crobat, lilligant, roserade, amoongus

--amoongus was his starter. crobat was a golbat for the longest time until he became a gym leader. several months after they quit, it evolved into a crobat.

chili - fire and ghost. simisear, magmortar, chandelure, cofagrigus, darmanitan, banette

--banette was his starter. cofagrgigus was spawn of ghetsis' own cofagrigus.

cress - water and dark. simipour, krookodile, bisharp, absol, crawdaunt, lapras

--absol was his starter. lapras was one of the pokemon stolen by team plasma and given to him

all three were well versed in ninja tactics, but they each sort of specialized. cilan, obviously, had poisons. chili, despite having the loudest personality (or perhaps because of it), focused on spying and infiltration. and cress specialized in strategy and information gathering (of all kinds........).

their memories pre ghetsis are kinda hazy as a trauma response.

cilan, chili, and cress are not their birth names. they were picked when coming up with their gym leadersonas. however, they grew kinda attached to them and eventually chose to go by them permanently once they're away from ghetsis

however the red, green, blue hair is their natural colors. the white hair of the shadow triad are wigs.

cilan and chili were the ones who were more aware of ghetsis being the worse. cilan just chose to ignore it because what other choice did they have? meanwhile chili would make comments and pick fights with cress over the subject.

which made it all the more shocking to the other two when cress showed up like 'drayden said he was disappointed in me i cant do this anymoreeee'

anyways.

they are eventually forced into therapy alongside the other harmonia kids.

good luck to that therapist lmao

[3xm-draconic]

The Jester and The Courier: a wild wasteland love.

Chapter 2: Radioactive.

Myrtle got on her ranger gear, say for gear helmet and went down stairs. In the spare room handcuffed to the radiator was the crazy little red head dude, just…giggling to himself… 

“Any idea if the psycho is still in his system?” Gannon turned to Joshua, “no idea, psycho isn’t supposed to last that long…then again he might just be insane like Raul said” Joshua replied.

Myrtle approached the man and knelt down so she was eye-level with him, the man’s crazed grin fell from his face as soon as he saw her’s. It was no doubt due to the horrific scar across her left eye which was now completely cybernetic, that would scare the willies out of anybody.

…but…then he smiled again…

“You are something Cicero has never hallucinated before…a half-metal woman!” he gleefully giggled, “hmm, dilated pupils, erratic speech patterns, hallucinations…he may have severe mental trauma” she turned to the others “I think taking him to doc Usanagi for therapy might do him some good”.

“Where is Cicero? Why is he chained?...WHERE IS HIS JESTER’S CLOTHES!?” he squeaked and began to panic “WHAT HAVE YOU DONE TO POOR CICERO!?”, “ehey, ehey shhh, it’s ok buddy we didn’t do anything to you, we want to help you ok?” Myrtle hushed him “can you tell me what happened? Do you remember how you ended up naked and falling out of the sky?”

The red head…this Cicero guy…just looked at her weirdly and screamed “WHAT!?”, a water bottle was then flung at them “CAN HE STOP FUCKING SCREECHING!? I’am hungover and I’d like some peace and quiet!” Cass bellowed.

Myrtle turned to Ulysses “can you bring me some food and a bottle of water?”, “what for?”, “our friend here is so skinny he looks like he hasn't eaten a proper meal in weeks and I think the best way to get through to him is with kindness, not an interrogation” Myrtle replied.

Ulysses nodded and went into the kitchen to grab a plate of whatever Lily was making, “guys can I be alone with him?” Myrtle turned to Gannon and Graham, they nodded and left to go eat.

“so…Cicero, where are you from?”, the man hesitated “Cicero was from the Empire but he moved to Skyrim to be closer to his family”, “Empire? Sky-rim?” Myrtle pondered “I don’t know these places…they certainly ain't close to the Mojave or California” she mumbled. “Mo-ha-vee?...Cal-ee-forn-ya?...What are you talking about? What are those places?” Cicero wondered, “It’s where you are now bud, you are in Nevada, Southwestern Commonwealth of America, the Mojave desert, west of the NCR?” Myrtle pause “any of this dinging any bells up there?”

He stared at her blankly “no…but if Cicero is in a desert is it close to Hammerfell…the Alik’r?...or is it in Elsweyr?”, Myrtle blinked “no…you got me even more confused now”.

“What direction is this Sky-rim?”, “oh it is very, very far north” Cicero replied as he carefully observed the strange metal woman, her greenish-blue eye and metallic yellowish green one never wavering from his amber gaze, “north hmm? How far north? Like Uta or…?” she pondered, “U-ta?” Cicero wondered “Cicero has no idea about any of these places you say!” he snapped, he was getting agitated.

Myrtle sighed “look I’am sorry, I don’t mean to anger you I’am trying to help you find your way home” Myrtle said softly, Cicero calmed down a little as her words sounded ginuwine “ok…ok” he sighed.

Ulysses arrived with food: a plate of potato-bread toast, sunny side-up gecko eggs, brahmin sausages and cactus fruit jam.

She took the plate from him and sat it next to Cicero, “ok, I’am going to uncuff you and give you a fork…please…don’t stab me with it” she kindly asked him, Cicero had to hold back a pout…he wanted to stab someone…badly…

She got close enough to where Cicero could have easily jabbed it into her neck…but he needed to know more about just where in the void he was…and killing the only person wanting to help him would be like stabbing himself in the foot.

Cicero eyed the food on the plate…it…was weird…

“What is this?” he pondered as he poked at the strange eggs, “gecko eggs…have you never eaten one before?” Myrtle turned to him, Cicero cocked his head in confusion “nope…” he shrugged, “well their good eaten I say, I’ve had them plenty of times in my life” she shrugged and grinned “nothing is better in the morning like a cup of coffee and a plate of gecko eggs”.

“What's this coff-ee you speak of?” Cicero pondered, “it’s drink, it helps ya wake up in the morning, would you like a cup?”, Cicero thought about it for a moment “well when in the Empire do as the Impirals do” the thought to himself “yes, thank you” he nodded.

Myrtle left to get him some while Ulysses watched him, “so…Cicero…your name��� Ulysses’s deep raspy voice rumbled “it sounds very…Legionary…” he mumbled.

Cicero eyed the strange man with a metal mouth “Cicero’s name is a perfectly normal Impiral’s name…what does it have to do with the military?”, “so your military is in league with Caesar?...oh dear…Myrtle was begging to like you…” he sighed.

That got Cicero on edge, what did he mean by that?...

“who…Who is this Ceasar you speak of?” he pondered, Ulysses cocked his head “don’t play dumb, he’s the leader…” he gave a small laugh “former…leader of the Legion”, Cicero looked even more confused.

“So…in this world there is no Tiber Septim?...no Empire?” Cicero’s head started to spin, if his very NATION didn’t exist here…then that would mean…

Myrtle came back with a cup of coffee “I made it with some brahmin milk and sweetened it with a little ant nectar, you look like somebody who wouldn’t like just straight black coffee…” Myrtle opened the door to see an alarming sight…

Ulysses knocked out and Cicero attempting to break out of his remaining handcuff using the fork but doing so badly that he was only hurting himself in the process.

“CHRIST ALMIGHTY!” Myrtle screamed as she set down the coffee on a dresser and ran over to Cicero, she smacked the fork out of his hand and restrained him “STOP, Stop, stop…what’s wrong?” she gazed into his panicked wild eyes, he was like a frightened animal.

Cicero headbutted her…but that only ended in him hurting himself…“don’t do that please…my skull is pure titanium and I doubt your old flesh and bone one can do much damage…now calm down before I make you calm down”.

“You won't take my soul daedra!” Cicero snarled at her and attempted to bite her, he managed to sink his teeth into her shoulder but then he felt a sharp pinch in his neck…then…he started to feel…relaxed.

“Ok, I’am gonna cuff you back to the radiator while you calm down ok buddy?” Myrtle said as she gently laid him back against the wall, thank GOD she had a needle of calm-x on her.

She checked on Ulysses who was waking up, “Hey S.Grant you ok pal?”, Ulysses groaned “little fucker…headbutted me…hard…ow”, Myrtle gave him a small pouch of healing powder “here go take a nap on the couch and heal up”.

“What of Crazy-Ass?” he grumbled, “calm-x, was gonna use it on myself to ease my jitters of hoover dam…but I think in the moment it was needed more on him” she sighed, “Myrt?” Ulysses looked at her with concern, “don’t” she glared at him “don’t worry about me and DON’T bring it up with the others…got it?”

He sighed  and they left the room.

[smilesrobotlover]

Rambling continued 😅

Also I didn’t expect to love Telemachus as much as I did. He’s just a traumatized bby trying to protect his mom and himself and find the father he never knew and so desperately wants to know all while his world caves in 😭 Honestly, I got aggravated with him for snapping at Penelope at first but then on second thought it made me like him even more. Some of the times he was rude to get her to separate herself from the suitors imo, thus protecting her in the only way he could since they wouldn’t listen to him and she would. Cause she loves him. And that much has been the one stable thing throughout his life. Even through her grief she loved him.

And the other times he comes at her just make him human tbh. What kid wouldn’t snap every once in a while when he’s gone through that much trauma?

And Penelope alsjdldjsldjsldh ruling the kingdom, trying to be there for her son, keeping the suitors at bay with a genius trick, all while grieving for the only man she will ever love…she’s amazing absolutely amazing. Her power is a quiet kind (kinda like Telemachus 🥺) yet she can absolutely talk back when necessary and stand up for herself without a problem (and you can’t tell me she wouldn’t have slaughtered the suitors if it was within her power to do so my girl literally says Antinous should be shot aldjdkdjdk). I adore her

Ody and his family are everything to me fr 😭 They didn’t deserve all that they went through

I KNOW TELEMACHUS IS MY SON OUGH. Every scene with his was a delight cuz he was just a sweet guy who loved his momma. I don’t remember when he snapped at Penelope but thinking about it now it def happened. I remembered being weirded out by that, but he is still a kid! I say Odysseus was gone for twenty years so Telemachus would be twenty ? Maybe? But no doubt he was 17-20 years, and that’s still a child! I know at 20 I was NOT mature (I’m still not) and I acted like a moody teen, so it makes sense for him! And he’s probably being belittled everyday and hearing about his father who would drive those darn suitors away while all he can do is sit and do nothing which certainly wouldn’t help. All that pressure, and everything being taken from him because he’s so young. And his mom suffers cuz of it. They just really went through it while Ody was gone which is tragic. Sweet Telemachus. But he still loved his momma unconditionally as did she, they just didn’t have time to mourn for Ody.

And YEAH PENELOPE!!!! Such a girlboss omg. I like seeing Telemachus clearly take after her more quiet nature opposed to Odysseus’s more bold behavior, it’s neat to see. And Penelope may be quiet but she was very smart and very cunning. Lying to everyone and not wanting to get married. Like I don’t blame her! Those suitors sucked! Especially compared to Odysseus! And she probably couldn’t ever mourn for her husband so she’s just dealing with this her whole life, being unable to be with her loving husband. They probably only saw her as an object while Ody saw her as a human, which is sweet to see. He loved her so much and Pene didn’t want to lose that. Just, this family needs therapy

Don’t get me started on Ody’s parents. I was so close to crying over his mother 😭😭😭 and his poor father </3 and ARGOS AUFHBFJSHSKSHSSKSBSKSJ THAT HURT MY SOUL 😭😭

Just…. Ah. Ithaca went to crap when Odysseus went missing

[granulesofsand]

hi i totally understand if this is way too personal to answer but did you know what youd been through from the start or did you find out later on? if its the second im not asking for details or anything but vaguely howd you figure it out?

🗝️🏷️ RAMCOA, torture mentions, suicide/sh, active trauma, unlucky therapy

Some of us have known for as long as it’s been happening. Some knew because they were involved. Others have learned recently. Still others do not know yet.

Most of our system is now aware of our RAMCOA history, if that is what you’re asking. There are many stories as to how this came to be.

During the trauma, most were split intentionally by abusers. This has happened for as long as we could be split, and is less frequent now that we avoid the group and our family.

The internal workings of our system rely on the fragments scattered between alters. The one who knows a cue is not the one who was tortured is not the one who completes the behavior is not the one who remembers doing it. Alters were elaborated, split again, assigned a place.

Some were designed to be front-facing alters. They might have no part in programming chains, cover a chain, or have an obscure placement in their chain. These are the alters who did not know, serving as an external presentation.

There are also those who were ‘organic’ splits; they were usually created like the intentional splits, but without forethought. If they went unnoticed, they remained unassigned.

It’s hard to say where the first leaks really started. The presentations were poking around where they shouldn’t have, always so curious about our past. The unassigned meddled invisibly from the outside, interfering or watching. Some of the programmed were higher ups who were wreaking a particular kind of havoc.

We did not all find out together. Everyone has their own story of what happened as they made the discovery. Some are still stuck in their trauma or are too conditioned to see right now.

The presentations got into social media when we were around 15. I don’t know if anyone had it before then, but this is when they noticed online communities of systems and RAMCOA survivors.

This is probably how so much of the system came to know if they didn’t before; they left traces externally and others found it. There were debates about whether this was possible, programs set off to create amnesia or doubt or shatter anyone stepping too close.

We spent a year of forgetting and remembering our own DID symptoms, but eventually failed to realize. Months later, a friend disclosed their own DID. Another few months of research. We went back to a place we had been trafficked out of and finally had a co-conscience switch.

We gathered a notebook with every possibility of what it could have been and took it back to the PHP we had attended before the trip. That therapist took the notebook for a week and gave it back, said to proceed as planned regardless.

That notebook is nearly out of pages now. We took it to our regular therapist, he sent us to a new therapist, they were gentle enough to get someone to admit it. That process took another few months.

This therapist was a trauma and unreality specialist, had worked with systems before us. More of us made their own disclosures about their pasts, eventually leading up to an acknowledgment of having been trafficked and programmed.

That was about a year ago. We have since been deprogramming. There were triggers throughout the time leading up to this, some resulting in suicide attempts and self-harm. We have not yet rid ourselves of callbacks, and are prone to reaccess.

We are somewhat able to dispel new programming, especially when trauma is old or not as awful as tortures used previously. It is difficult to remain socially active enough that we cannot be taken for the time needed to inflict worse.

Does that answer your question? We are willing to speak on some programs and troubles throughout this journey, but not so much as to put ourselves at risk. Feel free to clarify or ask something else.

[storiesofsvu]

Alright, happy Thursday hoes, lets get to this.

Mothership first

Okay… interesting open…

Omg…how many times are they gonna use the trope of “don’t touch that!” “who the hell are you?” surprise it’s the new laywer…

Not surprised its another old white dude, but at least he’s not as old as mccoy

Okay seriously…. If they get rid of Samantha I will not be watching this show anymore..

I wonder if they’re going to bring this staff change up on svu too considering this guy is also now carisi’s boss… but the writers seem to have forgotten that these shows all exist together until they want to do a crossover.

If this was svu the ada would be storming into the squad room yelling at the detectives for making a mistake that’s gonna cost them their case. Why don’t we get to see that on mothership? I want more crossing over between departments, cops never show up in the gallery either, just to testify if they’re needed.

Oooo yesss that maroon suit. I see you ma’am!

Man they’re just right fucked with this case aren’t they?

This defence attorney is super crusty

How come these videos are coming up NOW and not before things went to trial??

This judges office is barba’s office. They really only have so many sets, hey? (also the continuity of that office on this show/universe drives me fucking insane).

My subtitles keep cutting in and out and that is also driving me insane

Toronto time.

Will I pay attention? Likely no

JESUS FUCK talk about a cold fucking opening wow.

Big surprise I stopped paying attention halfway through the ep. Like, it’s fully muted right now and I’m working on writing LOL

SVU time

BRUH is this maria stuff ive been seeing all over twitter legit?! I thought people were fucking clowning LOL

Olivia in uniform just fucking makes me so fucking weak every single time

Clearly the other captain hasn’t been in the field a lot if that was her immediate reaction to that crime scene

Okay… hear me out… olivia literally saved maria’s life and stayed on the phone with her ALL night. We all know she has a habit of taking in strays… there’s no doubt maria became a cop because of liv… maria would have reached out TO HER about her graduation, not the other way around…

Velasco getting actual screen time finally. I do have to say, im back on my Velasco bullshit…

LOL. I know it was unintentional but the harshness of velasco’s knock on the door killed me.

4 hours of law and order is too much. Im getting bored and this is the show I actually like. I think imma start skipping Toronto cause mothership does hit some days

If this girl has a good enough lawyer she could easily get off on an insanity type plea… tbh this episode would’ve been way better on criminal minds. That would’ve been bad ass.

This episode is almost over and we got absolutely NO closure on the maria thing AND we didn’t get to go to court. Im OVER this fucking show man lol

Liv being back in her bac nail polish era is bomb though

Fin doesn’t strike me as a scotch guy… this is weird..

Okay… liv is really not okay. Like this girl needs support, she needs proper and regular therapy, she needs a break from work. Go home and spend time with your son instead of drinking cheap wine alone in a bar? Also while we’re talking about drinking alone after work being all sad, can we touch on the fact that her mother was an alcoholic, and that was what *killed* her… this is incredibly worrisome and I doubt we’re ever going to touch on it/get it fleshed out like we should…

Okay we at least got some maria closure. Thank you.

OC time!

Jet *attempting* to control stabler, woof. At least someone’s trying loooll

This bitch is so dead

Part of me feels like its bullshit that se wouldn’t know any of this about her own brother, but also I never talk to my family so…. LOL.

Fuck he’s creepy as shit

There is NO WAY THAT TINY MAN IS THE SAME SIZE AS ELLIOT

The fact that it took THIS long for someone higher up to question his anger/trauma/etc affecting his job is wild.

THE BARTENDER IN ME IS FUCKING DYING. I had a PHYSICAL reaction to that conversation.

“you’ve never had a long island ice tea?!” “I don’t like ice tea it’s too bleh” guy promptly orders two to prove that theyre good? THERE IS NO ICED TEA IN LONG ISLANDS

Cragen’s really just gonna be in the last second of this episode isn’t he?

Everyone: proper ear pieces

Jet: nah. Air pod.

I really thought that stabler was gonna be missing for a like, a good chunk of time with no one knowing.

OHHHH right! The foil he found in the bathroom garbage and immediately licked… right… I forgot about that. Now the question is who it belongs to…..