#here’s me crying into the void

[hplonesomeart]

He found out he’s not the highest rated anymore….isn’t taking it too well <<

[killerpancakeburger]

Been srlsy into the idea of writing more, explicitely fat Reader. Not sure how to tags it thought.

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i used to freehand comics all the time as a child and since the part i liked was the drawing part i would just draw panel after panel because i didn't want to stop drawing to think about icky icky words, plus the story TOTALLY still made perfect sense! to me! and noone else, but 'whoooo caaaaares omgggg its not like comics and sequantial art are a communicative meeediummmm lmaoooooo'. i spent my entire childhood telling myself stuff like "oh pfft I know this story by heart- ill SIMPLY remember the dialogue and write it later" ...and. I can't help but admire baby maiora's (call that a minora ba tm tsk) fucking audacity? hubris? confident wrongness? kid couldn't even remember to finish the comics in the first place? INCREDIBLE levels of unearned self assurance, wish that were me, genuinely- what an icon!!! anyway i think i have forever cursed myself

[foreverxdaydreaming]

x

[izzy-b-hands]

Was doing okay holding back all of the fear re: the potential election outcome until literally this second what the fuck to my brain lmao

[soft-girl-musings]

did u know that if u cry twice don't eat lunch and have like 12 oz of water in ur body you will feel sooooooo bad after your anger nap

[cruell-summers]

forever glad Taylor released I Hate It Here in 2024 because if 2021 me had gotten their hands on that song i would not be here anymore

[markiafc]

johan is incredibly elusive, yes, an unfathomable character by design. and his story revolves around the absence of his own identity. but the profound confusion johan feels towards his personhood + this strong sense of non-existence borne from great abuse, isolation, purposeful conflation between him and his sister, etc. remains incredibly human to me.... he takes on nina's worst memories as his own, imprinting on picture books and literature, in an effort to understand himself. more than anything, johan liebert wants to die - it's his longest and biggest wish. his explicit and perpetual suicidality about him isn't shallow, it's revealing and real. he wants to die, and he wants to be killed by those he trusts. he wants to self-destruct, vanishing from the world entirely. but he also wants another way out; he cries when he's alone, wants to protect nina, tries to confront his immensely miserable life. conceit of monster is the search for johan and the investigation into his truth for a reason. he must be found and illuminated and understood, in order to finally make him real.

[kindlythevoid]

Hey squad, I just got emotional over one of my least problematic fav classics hero, Odysseus, and how he went to war for a decade because he loved his family and how he spent the next decade searching for that family and how his family had such faith that he would crawl back to them that they waited the twenty years for him.

[dandyshucks]

i need to vent i'm sorry dear god things are so bad

me when the conservative candidate is voted in (which is not a surprise bc i live in a conservative area but still) and this guy has exhibited pedophilic behaviour in the past and is a proud gun/army fanatic. i'm gonna fucking die.

and the conservatives in my province this year have been the most aggressively and openly transphobic main political party we've ever seen nation-wide, and it is looking like theyre either going to win majority or them and the other party are both going to be minority gvmts together and both of those options are Bad bc conservatives are going to have so much power either way. unless somehow the other party manages to juuust pull ahead enough to make up majority but it... isn't looking that way. and that's just coveirng the transphobia, theres been so much racism and other shit going on too, i'm really really scared !! esp w the fe.deral election coming up next year !!!

i feel extraordinarily unsafe rn esp with some local politics from earlier this year w someone in a position of power in town (i have to be so vague otherwise its going to be way too easy to look shit up and place me on a map lol, im already pushing it as is) and it was horrifying and seeing so many ppl be apathetic to it is just. so scary. i'm scared !!

also i have to wait for another two days for the welfare ministry to call me (stressed all day long from 8-5 bc idk when theyre going to call me) and if they do not call me by the end of tuesday then i have to phone a couple ppl and ask what to do bc they're supposed to call me to do the eligibility interview within two weeks of submitting my application. and by this tuesday it'll have been two weeks. i'm so unbelievably stressed dsfjkl i've been nauseous so much lately bc of the anxiety. and i dont cry very often but god almighty i've been crying every couple of days these past two weeks bc i'm just so exhausted and stressed and at the end of my rope fdsjkl

also my mother is being really scary lately and i can't do anything about it except keep my head down and just hope she eventually stops this shit

anyways i am not doing well ! feeling like everything is sort of closing in on me :''''))) idk what to do about it bc nearly everything that's causing me overwhelming amounts of stress is out of my control so i just have to keep clinging to life with the tenacity of a cockroach. but i'm really tired of it 😭😭😭 and i just. would like to be safe? i guess? that's such a silly notion though fdsjkl i do not ever get to be safe so it is silly to want for that. i think mostly i just want things to go back to being tolerable fsjkl i am... reaching the crisis limits beyond my real limits, to be entirely honest.

[sinnabunii]

posting on tumblr is like throwing seeds into a garden for the lovely creatures of the fields to enjoy or grow into flowers

posting on twitter is like chucking rocks into a minefield.

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about 2 do my exam... gonna cry so hard gonna piss their (profs') pants...

[iwakuraz]

it'll all be okay because there's only one more day left in the school week and after that it'll be the weekend. wait no what do you mean after the weekend I'll just have to go back to school? what do you mean the cycle of going to school and coming back home completely worn out is gonna continue?

[thenamelessdepths]

Ladies and gentlemen

IT’S ARRIVED.

[soft-girl-musings]

someone should bully (gently encourage) me into getting my life together (putting away my laundry that's been clean for a week)