#helppp~🥹😭💕

[hergurlc]

He’s the calm to her chaos and the anchor that keeps her grounded when it’s storming out…

[legendarydante]

// i’ve been inactive for a couple days I’M SORRY being really busy + not sleeping well is not a good combination 😭

i’m gonna be traveling all weekend but i’ll get to my notifications before and after that i promise 🥲🫶

[hkjshshsjks]

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Y/n Helppp. Joe can’t stop saying ‘y’alright mate’🤦🏻‍♀️😭Melbourne you were a vibeeee🫶🏼🎾💫🌸☀️🥂🩵 🦘

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lahjay10_ kinda wished I came with y’all.

—— told you!

Username1 always feeding us y/n💕

Y/n/bestie1 Australia trip when??

—— whenever!!🤪

Sydneywarner you guys are the cutest!

——🫶🏼🫶🏼

Joeyb_9 always the best time with you mate❤️

—— I love you mate🤭❤️

Joebupdates love y’all

Username2 Have fun!

teehiggins I’m freezing my ass over here🥶

Y/n/bestie2 you guys are so adorable, I’m sick!!🥹🙄

——☺️☺️

[lewisvinga]

empanadaaaas | carlos sainz x argentine! fem! reader

summary; who would’ve thought that carlos would find a new love after visiting argentina with his girlfriend

fc; rita mota

warnings; ?

taglist; @namgification @louvrepool @locelscs @thehufflepuffavenger1 @minseok-smaus @goldenmclaren @ollieshifts @lavisenri @graciewrote @xoscar03

notes; requested !

masterlist !

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yourusername uploaded to their story !

[caption 1; 🤍] [caption 2; mi amor with me in my beloved argentina 🫶]

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liked by carlossainz55, yoursister, and others !

yourusername:🇦🇷🤍

tagged; carlossainz55, yoursister

carlosainz55: 😍😍😍 liked by yourusername !

carlossainz55: vamos argentina ! 🇦🇷

yourusername: and that’s how you win papa l/n over 😁😁

username: not u taking a SPANIARD to latinoamerica ma’am…. STAND UP

yourusername: he’s a cute spaniard tho😞

username: told y’all carlos is for the latinas 💆‍♀️

username: ugh the wispy bangs r everything

username: i wanna be u

yoursister: tell ur bf to STOP EATING MY EMPANADAS

carlossainz55: ur mom made them for me🤔

yoursister: whatever mamá makes = mine

yourusername: i wish i could get him to stop but he refuses to eat anything else or else he’ll starve 😞😞

yoursister: y tu pobre hermana??? ella está muriéndose del hambre. 😒 [and your poor sister, she is dying of hunger]

carlossainz55: we went out for ice cream 2 hrs ago???

yoursister: where’s my empanada.

carlossainz55: in my stomach😋😋

username: those empanados look saur good i get carlos tbh

username: ARGENTINAAAAA🇦🇷🇦🇷

yourbestfriend: WOWZERSSS UR SO😍

yourusername: UR WOWZERSS😘

alexandrasaintmleux: so gorgeous 🥹 i’ve been wanting to go🤍

yourusername: next time bby, girls trip to argentinaaaa💕

username: this is so messi core

username: HELPPP

username: no1 gonna mention the last pic?? bc i’ve been thinking abt it for the past 30 mins 🚶‍♀️

username: carlos w the basic white dog in a latino household HELPPP😭

username: okay but y/n and y/s/n always eattt😫

username: now i’m craving empanadas 😔😔

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carlossainz55: te quiero argentina por y/n y empanadaaaas [i love you argentina for y/n and empanadas]

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yourusername: carlitooosssss, q guapooooo😻 [how handsome]

carlossainz55: y usted tan hermosa, nena 😍 [and you’re so beautiful]

yourusername: so grateful to show you argentina 🤍🇦🇷

carlossainz55: so grateful to know this beautiful country 🤍

yoursister: i’m sick of y’all already🤢

carlossainz55: tengo un amigo bien guapo , [i have a very handsome friend] and he’s your age 😁

yoursister: ou say lessss

yourusername: NOT lando. anyone but lando

landonorris: what’s wrong w me😢

yourusername: british and doesn’t like fish 😕

yoursister: he’s cute i can get past it 😛😛

landonorris: you like fish?? yoursister i can get past it too😁

username: NOT THE EMPANADA MENTION LMAOO😭

username: carlos rlly loves empanadas he’s jus like me fr

username: y/n is everything 😫

username: hes sooo bf

username: sexy spaniard i get u y/n i rlly do

yourusername: weak for that spaniard 😞 i’m making him argentine tho #trust

carlossainz55: mi gente latino ✊

charles_leclerc: i’m afraid to ask how many empanadas you ate

carlossainz55: you don’t want to know.

username: when will it be my turn to find a spanish bf and take him to argentina 🚶‍♀️🚶‍♀️

username: ARGENTINA MENTIONED🇦🇷🔥

username: they’re everything to me pls

username: caption is SO true

username: i wonder how madridista carlos feels knowing y/n and her family are messi fans

yourusername: good thing we’re madridistas too💯💯

carlossainz55: i did that😁

[fell-e]

You just got sharked, send a picture of a shark to 3 of your moots. nothing really happens, but sharks are cool :3

(Ride em like a cowboy Fayrouz 🫡)

LyoyufaculayofKYOYFAO7RQULACPWCYCSJW

HELPPP TATO THIS IS SO CUTE IM GONNA KMSOHCALCAUCAJAPPULUAUUAJAKAIAPA9OWIAOAKAOAKKAAHHAJAJAJAJAJAIAKIAO🥺🥺😭😭😭💕💕💕💕🥹🥹🥹♥️♥️♥️💕💕💕💕💕💕🦈🦈🦈

p.s. sorry for the very very VERY late reply orz

[forjongseong]

aduh tanteee, the smut scenes you write are literally top tier like TEACH ME HELLO?? all your works in general nana i love it. its so good, and i enjoyed reading everything 🥹 yk i haven’t seen many jay smuts lately, or i might actually be blind but i’m fixed on always coming back to your blog if i wanted to read some of my all time favourites of jay fics that you’ve written 🤞🏼 AND I LOVE THEM ALL and DONT APOLOGISE FOR TAKING TOO LONG, you worked so hard!! i know you did :(

i practically have all the eps, minisodes etc even my favourite lines from each one are ALL written in my notes like thats how much of a big fan i am of the series HAHSHAH anyway, i’m glad you’re doing good! i’m happy to see you’re doing good sjsjsj, and yes yes i am still in brisbane, as always 😞😞🤞🏼 i’ve been thinking of moving to melbourne soon but.. i’m broke.. how FUN

girl BUY. IT. i’m a tad bit embarrassed to say this but i bought a ‘device’ quite like the one you wrote about and… its otw.. I CANT GO BACK i don’t know what made me buy it (jay made me buy it) but i just pressed ‘buy now’ and went on with my day, LORDD. jay was always your mans from the start BABE i’m starting to bias him a lot now like.. i get quite insane. not kidding

SUNGAI CILIWUNG HELPPP 😭 why did that make me cackle STOP i’ve seen the photos of jakewon that day i was jealoussss 😭😭✋🏼 like i should’ve been there fr </3

i’ll always be supporting you nana ! day and night bae, i’m proud of you mwa mwa 🫶🏼🫶🏼 me and jay love you remember that 😋

tw jumpSCARE

took me literal months to answer this just because I wanted to gatekeep it... trust me it's not that I wanted to ignore this ask I was just afraid if I answer it it will get buried?? and it's easier to find it in my inbox huhu

you're a real one! sec!jay supporter since day 1 too and thank you so much for sticking around for so so long!!!

how's Brisbane lately? it should be autumn by now... right?? I miss that city and I'll sell a kidney just to be able to visit there

TREAT YOURSELF i hope you're using that device well and not leaving it go to waste... although don't use it now since it's Ramadan lol

thank you for the Jay pics, always appreciated 💖💕

[harmshake]

The way my grown ass giggle and kick my feet every time you update 😂😂 love your stories.

Helppp, you're so sweet. 😭🥹💕

I wish I uploaded on a more consistent schedule, but, chile...I write and post only when the holy spirit uses me as a vessel. 🤣

[kitten4sannie]

Idk if this is smth u talked abt already buttttt out of pure curiosity have u ever considered writing a smutfic w a tm reader? (hope im not overstepping) regardless i read for love of the game merely hours ago and oh my GOD.. literally havent read such a good fic in a while wowowowow. i usually skip past fem reader but i was hooked by the synopsis and then was dragged out of the ocean by the actual fic itself and rn im being served on a plate (all positive <3 gonna binge ur fics lol)

oh you’re not overstepping don’t worry love!! also i got your other ask and it did not send me duplicates of this one hehe you’re all good <33 and to be honest with you the only major reason why i wouldn’t write a fic with a tm reader is simply bc i don’t feel like it’s my place to do it esp as a fem presenting person. the last thing i wanna do is make any lovely upset </3 and oh my goodness you got me kicking my feet over here >< 💕 that is such a high compliment!!! thank you so much 🥹 ‘dragged out of the ocean and served on a plate’ HELPPP 😭😭 i’m obsessed with that and you’re so sweet my dear :(((( i hope you enjoy them~ and ty for taking the time to send this ask ;^; <333

[lokissweater]

GIRLL THE WAY U MAKE ME CACKLE LIKE A DERANGED WITCH TOO 🫵😭💕 I be patiently waiting for ur replies like a cat waiting for its owner to return home 😞😞😞💔💔💔

And FEAR NOT GAURJUR UR STILL ON UR THRONE… i js…….. happen to yk…………….. have changed my thoughts on a certain respectable blondie……… 😣😣😣 like how am I supposed to act demurely if a man like mr bodyguard has been yearning for me like that for AGESSSS and choosing us over his career? GOSH THATS SO SEXY MMMMMMMMM (tho never choose a man over ur career guys, be hot and independent first 😘) but Sir Nanami Kento. When’s our next dick appointment pookie 😣😣😣🎀🎀🎀

and yes pls blow that load inside us oh honored one instead of blowing ur nose I MEAN WHAT (is suddenly becoming a common village whore 😜😜😜) n e ways… I saw the ask where you said you’d write a choso and sukuna fic and OH MY GOD THE POSSIBILITIESSS… been liking the prospect of exes/enemies to lovers for pink thing #1 and depending on how u characterize choochoo train… roommates… to lovers………. 🤔 IDK JS SOME FOOD FOR THOUGHT HEHE I’d love to know any crumbs once u get around to them some time 🥹🥹🥹💕💕💕💕 time to wait for that scrumptious mlb!gumi fic and yuta fic that ik you’ll EATTTTTTT UPPPPP (I’ll also be eating them up like my last meal MMMMM) but genuinely all your fics have a special place in my heart and I’ll never get bored of rereading them 🫵😣💕💕💕

I do miss the band!gojo tho… no matter how many times I’ve read it, reader needs to put that Lina girl into place 😠😠😠 LIKE I CAN PUT UP A FIGHT FOR THE blue eyes no thoughts guy…. Not physically tho but still!!! It would be fun to see the jealousy be flipped, where he’s jealous of whoever is even in a 3 feet radius of reader 😹😹😹 like why r u sharing the same air as the guy ur talking to tf 🤨🤨🤨

ALSOOOO I have a question for gumi! Do u see him in AUs other than MLB? And if so, what would they be hehe 😜😜 share me ur thirsts I MEAN THOUGHTS 😣😣😣

Ps. I read your MEOOOOOWWWYUUHHHH in Caseoh’s KITTYUUUUHHHH voice and it’s been making me cackle nonstop 😭😭😭😭😭 LOVE YOU LOTS THE PEANUT BUTTER TO MY JELLYYYYY MUAHHHH 😘😘😘 STAY HEALTHY POOKIEEEE 😣😣😣💕💕💕💕💕

STTTOOOPPPPPP I ALWAYS WAIT FOR YOUR CUTE LITTLE MESSAGES IN MY INBOX LIKE A WIFE WAITING FOR HER HUSBAND TO RETURN FROM THE DAMN WAR !!!! AND U DO SO EVERY TIME THANK YEWWWW !! 😝😝💕💕

AND NO LITERAAALLLLYYYY like how tf was mr blue orbs gojo NOT expecting us to divert our eyes for a little bit ?? 🤣🤣 when he takes care of us oh so good and wipes our makeup off because we’re so sleepy and doesn’t care about his career and money bc he’s so down bad for US ??? bc he lives and breathes for our bratty little selves ??? 🫦🫦🫦 to give us a little spanking or two?? 🫦🫦 AND BAHAHAHAHA IM DEAD no bc when are you gonna make me take your big dangalang again kento???? 🤨🤨 like i’m so empty and wet— AYO HOLD ON WHAT??? 😛😛😛

STTTTOOOPPPPPPPPP EXES TO LOVERS WITH SUKUNA OHHH MYYYY GODDD DEAR LORD HELPPP MEEEEE !!! i’m dripping my baby blue bows !!! 🤣🤣🤣 i need sukuna to make me feel like shit and throw me around but he actually is so undeniably still in love with me and regrets breaking up with me ABAHEHDBSJSBSH I NEEEEDDDDD ITTTTTT !!! and he’s desperate to get me back 🫦🫦 yes beg for me 🫦🫦 BUT OMG PLEEEAASEEE LET ME KNOW WHAT YOU THOUGHT OF THE LATESR GUMI DROP MY HONEEEEYYYY !!! 🥹🥹🥹💕💕💕

BROOOOOO OMG BAND GOJO I MISSSSS HIMMMM TEEEWWWWWWW HE WAS SO HOT AND SEXY AND CHARMING IN THAT ONEEEE AAARRGHHHSVRIEBJSHS !!! yes omfg you best believe reader DID put that bitch in her place later down the line bc she’s a persistent little whore and wouldn’t leave her bass playing man alone ??? 🤣🤣🤣 BITCH GTFFFOOOOOOOO and you and i both already know band gojow would actually go NUUUTTTTTSSSSSSS with someone trying to get at reader bc it’s always READER having to deal with that shiet, so now that the turnt tables … 😻😻😻 he’s distraught. he’s confused. he’s stuck. he’s MAD.

HAHAHAHA I DOOO SEE SIR GUMI IN OTHER AU’s AND IM ACTUALLY COOKING ONEEEE UUUPPPPP !!! 😝😝😝 don’t wanna spoil tew much but i CAAANNOOTTTT wait for it to drop my god—

THIS IS WHY I KNOW WE’RE MEANT TO BE BECAUSE THATS LITERALLY WHYYYYY I SAYYYY ITTTTTT OMGGGG MY HUNKY CASEOH HOW I LOVE THAT MFFFFF !!!! 💕💕💕💕😻😻😻😻

i’ve said this already and i’ll say it again i’m in love with you jesus CHRIIISSTTTT !!! everyday i thank the universe for giving me the willpower to pump out birds of a feather bc that’s how you came along into my inbox and NOW WE THIRST OVER 2D MEN TOGGEEETTHUUURRRRR !!! who needs therapy when i have my baby blue bows like dafuq 🤣🤣🤣🤣🫵

I LOOOVEEEE YOU MY POOKIEEEEE !!! PLEASE TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF AND LOOK BOTH WAYS BEFORE YOU CROSS THE STREET !!!! MWAAAAHHHHH <3333 💕💕💕

[fuwushiguro]

i js saw ur pic and holy shit!!! ur so gorgeous wtf. model material ong

Omg HELPPP THIS IS FAR TOO KIND 😭😭 I wish!! But thank you so much 🥹🥹🥹🥹💖💕💕🌹💙💋💋❤️‍🔥💋❤️‍🔥

[greg-montgomery]

Dharma and Greg season 5 episode 22 bursts my ovaries open. I want to have a million of gregs babies he would be the most perfect dad.

feeling really understood rn <3

okay listen i’m still in season 2 of dharma and greg but i couldn’t resist so i watched the episode and oh my god 🥹🥹🥹🥹 i didn’t expect to be sobbing at the end :(( how sweet and emotional :(

pls the way the little girl got attached to him the most 🥺🥺 when he started drawing for her when they first met and then he cooked for her and was explaining the ingredients 😭 what an angel i’m gonna CRY :( and then when he showed her how he played with the books as a kid stopppp he’s so sweet…or when they were playing with those water balloons 🥹 about the last scene i don’t even know what to say like their hug and how she finally talked to him even for “goodbye” HELPPP 🥺🥹😭 he was SO SWEET and soft and patient :(

he would be the best dad EVER 🥺🥺🥺 he would be the type of parent who is strict when he needs to but super soft at the same time <33 like you know he can’t say no to your babies :(

he loves to teach them things and play with them and read to them stories 🥹 when they’re still little he talks to them with this cute baby voice 😭 he’s also the type of dad who will lull his baby to sleep by telling them the story of how he met you like a fairytale <333

he’s an absolute angel of a dad and you’re so grateful that you have this man to grow old with and build a family with 💓💞💗💕

[confused-alien]

This made me freaking smile helppp awwww you still remember 😭

My artstyle changed quite a lot since then, it’s been so long since that post only now I’m starting to realise omg- 🥹

Thank you for the crazy battles we went through together and the cute little doodles we shared and the constant support you showed me as a tiny artist beginning to use tumblr especially in that fandom, it meant the world to me and still does ilysm and I’m happy I stumbled on your account when I was still new on here 💕

Soooo….y’all remember my sudden Appledash hype?

Yeah well..

I got inspiration from @marthalovesu to create my own version of these two!! Please go check her works out she’s amazing!! <3

I honestly could just see them as AJ and RD, feisty little gremlin with a big ego and a roughly honest cowboy who ends up bickering with him 24/7

Also I could DEFINITELY see Arthur do the tail bite thing that AJ always does to RD to stop her from doing sumn stupid

[written-letters-from-izzy]

SANALFJFJFJDJDHD 😭😭😭 THIS WAS SO CUTE HELPPP 🥹 have i ever told you how much i love jealous sunwoo? like he would be so cutie and then frustrated by himself and then when he gets to talk to the love of his life, he would be like "omg no i'm out of here" LIKE NO??? STAY- ahem. And also you putting hyunjae as the other protagonist like 😭😭 i still love my baby bear 🥰💕 thank you for this birthday gift 🎁 i love you!!

Brought The Heat Back (Kim Sunwoo)

Too @from-izzy : happiest birthday to my flower, my honey bee, the Sunwoo to my Chanhee <3 it’s been like almost a year since we knew each other??? Can you believe it 😭. We got so close so quickly that it’s crazy. Me calling you while walking back home and giving you a tour as I yap and you just sitting there and listening to me might be one of the best things we do 😼. Thank you for always being there for me when I needed to talk with someone the most 💗. You might be the only mutual who knows the most about me and it’s kind of crazy how our first conversation started with me flirting with you but I guess that’s my charm lol. Will always listen to you deny your feelings for Sunwoo but it’s okay since it’s you. Honestly I’d do anything to never lose our friendship which we built over the year and it’s just so pretty. Anyways, I’d never come to Australia since it’s pretty scary there but you’re always welcome to come to India 🥰. With that being said, I hope we always continue bickering, nagging each other over things and what not. And no, I will never stop sending you hot pics of Sunwoo 🧍‍♀️. With that being said, happy birthday to you my flower and I hope you like this little something I prepared. I swear I will try my best to publish watch it in October if it doesn’t come out in September (I really don’t think it will ever come out tho…) 🥰. I do hope you understand the small references I added in here bitch 👹. Was honestly so hard keeping this a secret :( Love you and have a great day (and years ahead) (plz stop overworking and stressing yourself out too much and start sleeping on time…)

Warnings/Genre: from friends to strangers to lovers to sum it up, jealous Sunwoo in a good way, fluff, angst ig, kissing scenes, mildly suggestive (wow finally my debut??), Sunwoo gets drunk, Eric being the bestie everyone deserves, cursing ig? I don’t remember honestly, Sunwoo and the reader are both stupid honestly. Idk what else comes here so yeah…tell me if I have to add more

Sana: so I wrote this like last month but had to wait a whole month because I wanted to publish it on Izzy’s birthday. A huge thanks to @deobienthusiast @winterchimez @mosviqu and @itsbeeble for beta reading it and giving me countless compliments 🫶🏻. I honestly loved writing this so I hope you guys enjoy reading it just as much!

Word Count: 4,943

Taglist: @deoboyznet @kimsohn @a-dream-bookmark @cloverdaisies @quaissants @loserlvrss

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Clenching his fist tightly Sunwoo couldn’t help but let out a scoff unknowingly when he saw you flirting with that same guy again. 

It might have been a few weeks since summer break ended but Sunwoo didn’t expect for you to already move on from whatever the two of you had. 

It wasn’t like you both were dating per se. You weren’t but it wasn’t even like you both were just friends. 

I mean from what he knows friends don’t kiss each other, nor do they make out in the summer heat with their fingers intertwined with one another. 

It was like it was yesterday when the two of you were ‘dating’ and while it lasted it was nothing but a safe space of heaven for Sunwoo. 

He was never someone to take a person seriously but with you, it felt different. It was as if you were the one for him the moment the two of you decided to hang out together in summer. 

The way you ditched your friends at the party because he was sitting outside alone. No one had ever done that for him, even though it was just to keep him company Sunwoo still felt his heart swell with content as he listened to you ramble on and on about some plushies you had at your old house in Australia. 

At that very moment Sunwoo had that sudden urge to show you around the town, I mean you were new in the area. You probably didn’t know the most shortcuts so it was kind of his responsibility (it wasn’t) to show you around, no? 

“Do you wanna go for a walk?” He whispers softly as he extends his hand towards you waiting for you to take it. 

Sunwoo could feel his heart racing at an abnormal rate as he waited for your response. The longer you took to answer the more he felt like it was a stupid idea. 

I mean who in the sane mind would walk around a town at night with someone they barely know? 

“Uh sure I guess?” Sunwoo hears your small mumble as you flash him a nervous smile. 

Maybe you were insane enough to do just what he had in mind. 

Heaving out a low chuckle Sunwoo slowly wraps his fingers around yours as he pulls you up from the floor. 

“So why did you come to this town? I mean it’s summer break..” Sunwoo asks as he walks beside you on the empty road. 

“Oh I came here on a scholarship. I wanted to explore more in the summer break and maybe if I like it here I can study here for this semester. That’s what I had in mind so far.” Unknowingly Sunwoo’s eyes light up when he hears your consideration on staying here for the whole semester. 

Maybe it was just because he never had met someone like you but your vibes were just so different from the girls he normally hung out with. 

With others he never felt like he could truly be himself but with you it just felt like he was free. 

Call him crazy for feeling this was about a girl he just met but that was just how he felt and somehow this new feeling was making him feel alive more than anything. 

“Dude why the hell are you staring at Y/N like a creep?” Snapping back to reality Sunwoo throws a glare at Eric as he diverts his attention back to the now you who was just flirting with Hyunjae. 

Seeing you getting all touchy with someone other than him made him feel like punching someone.  

Now that’s something he never felt before because why would he ever feel like punching the guy just because you were flirting with him? It’s not like you guys were dating before for him to feel that way. 

Then why? The more he stared at you smiling at someone who was not him just made him lose his patience. 

If someone said that punching someone without getting in trouble was allowed then he’d waste no time in doing just that because his patience was running too thin for him to control it longer. 

Looking away Sunwoo sighed as he closed his locker with a thud. He knew that if he looked at you for any longer than he might just lose his patience and he did not want to create a scene. 

It’s not his fault he’s feeling that way. It’s just that you have the ability to make anyone want to talk with you more and more. He’s only admitting that because he felt it when you decided to strike a conversation with him for the first time. 

If it was anyone else he would have just rolled his eyes and walked away but when he saw it was you he felt that feeling of getting to know you more. 

The curiosity of knowing you better and spending time with you was bigger than anything else and now seeing you standing there with Hyunjae just made him go crazy. I mean, why were you even flirting with other guys when he was right there? 

“If you’re wondering why you got ditched like that then it’s totally your fault.” Sunwoo hears Eric’s voice say from beside him as he does nothing to deny it. 

He himself knows that you’re ignoring his whole existence and presence because he was the first one to do so. 

He didn’t want to ignore you but he was just scared of hurting you by doing something which wasn’t supposed to be done. He was scared that if he let the relationship you had escalate further, something wrong would happen along the way and he would lose you. 

He did feel like he was gonna commit to it for real this time but then maybe overthinking about making a mistake in the future led him to distance himself with you and now he is the one who has to see you with some other guys who’s not him. 

It’s a weird feeling he’s having but somehow he’s envious of Hyunjae because he gets to be close with you and hear your laugh everyday unlike him who was even scared to approach you now. 

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“Can I ask one thing?” Eric asks Sunwoo who had just entered the classroom and was placing his stuff down. 

“What now?” Sunwoo asks in an annoyed voice as he flashes a glare at Eric and diverts his attention back at you, who was busy talking with that guy again. 

He couldn’t believe you would just ignore his whole existence as if that night didn’t almost take place. 

“No need to get annoyed at me..” Eric mumbles as he heaves out a sigh when he notices Sunwoo’s longing stare at your figure again. 

Eric admits that he has never seen his best friend be this jealous over a certain girl. Now if Eric decided to confront Sunwoo about his jealousy over you then he’d deny it for sure and he didn’t want to argue with his stubborn ass again. 

“You both were talking when the semester started. Why did you cut ties suddenly?” Hearing Eric’s question Sunwoo stiffens in his seat as he remembers the events that took place the night before you both stopped interacting with each other completely. 

Covering his eyes with his hands Sunwoo takes in a deep breath as he tries to get his thoughts straight before answering Eric’s question. 

-x- 

Sunwoo POV 

My ears perk up when I suddenly hear the doorbell ringing. Looking up at the clock I tilt my head in confusion as I see the hands indicating that it was 11 o’clock. 

Why would anyone come over at this hour? I stand up with shaky legs as I grab the pan from the kitchen and take slow and steady steps towards the door. 

Opening the peephole I furrow my eyebrows when I see you standing outside with just a hoodie and a pair of sweatpants. 

I let out a yelp when you throw yourself at me the moment I open the door. 

“Hey hey, what’s wro-” I widen my eyes when you kiss me without letting me even complete my sentence fully. 

It’s as if someone had turned the gears in my mind as I immediately sink my lips with yours. The way your tongue was battling with mine to prove dominance was something I had never experienced with you before. 

I snake my hands at the small of your back as I lead you towards my bedroom. Opening the door I push you against the wall as I caress your cheek with my free hand while the other plays with the loose strands of your hair. 

I pull away from the kiss slowly when I feel your hands tapping against my chest. 

I feel a small smile creep up my face when I realise that for once I wasn’t scared of what was going to happen next and I was fully on board with whatever thought you had at the moment. 

“I…were we about to..?” I feel my heart sink when I hear you ask that question. Wait…did you not want it? Was I going too fast? Was I pushing you into doing something you didn’t want? 

“Uh…I don't know. Did you not have the same thing in mind?” I questioned back, as my voice came out shakier than I intended it to be. 

“No..no it’s not that..” I take a step back when you say that, too afraid to hurt you by any chance, “Fuck..I just had a lot in my mind and I didn’t know what I was thinking..” 

My eyes widen when you say that. Worry and concern immediately coming across my face as I reach out to comfort you but retract my hand back when you back away from me. 

“You know what…forget..forget this ever happened. I should go..” I take a step forward to stop you. To tell you that I am there for you to listen to your problems but I didn’t have the guts in me to do so. 

Not after what just happened. What if you were uncomfortable by being around me? That can’t happen though…we always had our own way with our conversations. 

I snap out of my thoughts when I hear my front door close with a thud. It was as if the moment I closed my eyes, your smiling face would flash in my mind. 

From that moment on, I decided that I would distance myself from you. I cannot imagine losing someone like you over something so small…

What if you guys go on a date and get in a relationship? You’re bound to break up and then that break up would lead to you cutting off ties with him. 

And if he does that first then he doesn’t have to worry about you getting hurt more, right? It doesn’t make sense he knows but the way the events turned out at the moment isn’t really letting him think clearly. 

-x- 

“Did Y/N try to approach you the next day?” I look up at Eric when I hear his question. 

I let my pencil slip from my hands as I stopped scribbling around on the book. 

“She did but I may have ignored her…” I mumbled quietly as I shared a look with Eric. I could see his eyes flash a tiny bit of disappointment but he shakes his head and looks ahead at the professor again. 

“Why can’t you just talk it out with her? I am sure she has an explanation for whatever happened and why she stormed out that night.” I look up thoughtfully at his suggestion but quickly shake my head as I ponder on that thought more. 

“Why not?” Eric asks in confusion as he continues staring at me, waiting for my reply but all he got in return was my silence as I slowly diverted my attention back at you. 

I mess my hair up as I feel that weird feeling back at the pit of my stomach. I felt like I was going crazy the more I stared at you smiling so sweetly at hyunjae. It should be me instead of him. 

“WHAT THE HELL!” I yelled loudly when Eric suddenly pushed me off my chair. I glared at him as I looked around the classroom and noticed the countless eyes staring at me but you were still not looking at me. 

It’s as if you just wiped out the fact that I just screamed loudly and possibly hurt myself because of Eric. 

Standing up from the floor I bow as I feel my cheeks starting to burn from embarrassment. Getting back in my seat I shove Eric away from me as I bury my face in between my hands as I try to forget about what just happened. 

“At least tell me now why you won’t confront her.” Eric asks more calmly now as he tries to make me sit straight. 

I sigh as I look at him from the corner of my eyes, “I am scared of what she will reply. It’s better if we both act like it didn’t happen, right?” I reply as I steal one last glance at you and Hyunjae only to look away in less than a second when I feel my head spinning. 

“Do you know what you’re feeling right now?”  I groan when he opens his mouth. Why does he never shut up? 

“What?” I ask in annoyance as I place my head on the table, not taking any interest in whatever he was about to say. 

“Jealousy.” I whip my head at him when he says that. Me? And being jealous? For what? Yeah sure whenever I see you smiling at him I feel that burning sensation, or when you laugh at whatever stupid joke he made. 

I scoff as I shake my head, “Yeah sure. I don’t get jealous over such a trivial matter. I bet I know Y/N better than he does.” I mumble before sliding down on the chair to try and possibly hide myself from the whole world. 

“Tell that to yourself but I sure do see you being jealous.” I flick Eric’s head when he says that again. 

I am definitely not jealous. 

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Y/N POV 

I sighed as I heard Sunwoo’s voice arguing with Eric. It wasn’t a new occurrence for me anymore and honestly I was quite used to it ever since I started hanging out with Sunwoo in summer. 

I’d hate to admit it but Sunwoo was the only guy who honestly made me alive enough in summer (to be frank I never truly enjoyed holidays because I am someone who felt like I needed to be busy and working all the time). 

I diverted my attention back at Hyunjae as I smiled softly at him. He was a good guy but he was not Sunwoo. 

He didn’t have the same aura or personality like Sunwoo and I begged myself to try and find at least some of that charm in Hyunjae which I was dying to see. 

I admit that I was kind of in the wrong to storm out of Sunwoo’s house when we both knew what it was leading to. I didn’t want to make him overthink about my reaction too much but to be frank I was just too damn nervous to think straight that when I snapped back into reality I didn’t know what to do. 

It was as if I didn’t have control over my own body and I just stormed out of there after blabbering some shit which probably made Sunwoo misunderstand the whole situation. 

BUT I did try to explain myself the next day but Sunwoo acted as if nothing had happened the day before and it just made me feel worse about my actions. Did I hurt him that much? Was I too nervous to realise that maybe what it was leading to could have been nice? 

I don’t know but I wish I could just turn back the time and relive the moment so that I don’t make the same mistake as before. 

“Are we set on tonight?” I blink my eyes a few times as I look at hyunjae for a moment only to look away quickly while clearing my throat. 

“Uh for what? I was just spaced out for a moment there.” I mumble as I scribble down the notes in my book in shabby handwriting (I could still read what I wrote so that’s all that matters, no?) 

“Yeah I noticed later on. I was talking about our date. I will pick you up at 8:00. Fine by you?” I nod my head as I chew on my nails as I drift back to the unconditional memories I had made with Sunwoo. 

-x- 

“Sssp!” I flinch when Sunwoo shoves my hand away from my mouth with a hiss escaping his throat. I threw a glare in his direction as I hit the back of his head before slowly bringing my nails back to my mouth only for it to be pulled away by Sunwoo as he intertwined our fingers together to stop me from biting on the nails. 

I could feel my cheeks burning from embarrassment and shyness as I cleared my throat and looked anywhere but at Sunwoo. 

“Look I know you have grown a habit of biting your nails but instead of biting on those nasty nails why don’t you try and talk with me instead? I am here to listen to you, you know?” When I hear those words of Sunwoo it strangely enough comforts me in ways which I never knew were possible. 

I didn’t even know that I wanted to be comforted. Maybe all those thoughts getting jumbled in my brain really messes up with what I really need. 

I give Sunwoo a small nod as I look ahead again, “Well now you have me to stop you from biting your nails.” Sunwoo whispers as he pokes my cheeks with his other finger. 

I just chuckle at that and bring my other hand up to squeeze his cheeks. The way I loved it when he pouted I thought as I smiled at him fondly. 

-x-

I look back at Sunwoo in thought, my face contorted with slight pain as I try my best not to have a breakdown over not only Sunwoo but also just about life in general.  

I feel my heart racing rapidly when I make eye contact with Sunwoo. It was as if it was just the two of us in the room and everyone else had either just disappeared or they were in slow motion. 

It didn’t seem to last long since before I could even offer a smile at Sunwoo he had already looked away. 

Oh how I wish I could change this awkward phase in whatever relationship we had and just go back to how it used to be. 

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I kick the rocks on the ground as I try to drown out the voices in the background. Well the date did not go well per se (it’s not Hyunjae’s fault. It’s just…I couldn’t help but only think about Sunwoo while Hyunjae was busy talking. It’s as if no matter how hard I try Sunwoo would always be at the back of my mind and it’s driving me insane.) 

I roll my eyes when I feel my phone vibrating in my bag, I let it ring as I was in no mood to talk with anyone. 

Looking up from the ground, my eyes sparkle when I see an ice cream shop. I start walking towards it when my phone starts vibrating again. 

I sigh as I open my bag to take a look at the caller ID but what  I did not expect was the caller ID flashing on the screen. 

‘Why the hell is Sunwoo calling me?’ I think as I slowly accept the call while walking towards the shop. 

“Is this Y/N?” I stop walking when I hear an unknown voice on the other side. I couldn’t help but think the worst. 

Did Sunwoo get himself in trouble? Did he hurt himself? Is he okay? 

“Yes, that's her..” I replied. I could hear Sunwoo’s voice at a distance but it seemed to be coming out slurred. I couldn’t help but furrow my eyebrows together in confusion. 

“I am sorry but I think your boyfriend is drunk…” I slap my hand against my forehead when I hear that but immediately feel my cheeks heat up when I hear the word boyfriend. 

“Where is he right now?” I ask shyly as I immediately call a taxi to go over at the location the person told me. 

-x- 

Why the hell is this guy drinking alone at night and that too in a PARK? Did he for real lose it or is he close to losing it? 

I quicken my pace when I see Sunwoo sitting on a bench with a guy trying to keep him straight and awake so that he doesn’t fall asleep in the park. 

I approach them as I take over Sunwoo and apologise to the man and grab Sunwoo cheeks which were a slight shade of pink. 

I sit beside him on the bench and slap his cheeks a few times to help him gain some consciousness. 

I giggle when he blinks his eyes a few times and stares at me for a second before he brings his hands up as he drags his fingers over my lower lips. 

I push his hand away slightly as I mumble softly, “You’re not sober. So, you’re not allowed to touch me.” 

A small stupid smile creeps up on Sunwoo’s face as he brings his hand back to himself as he rubs his eyes while speaking, “So am I allowed to touch you when I am sober?” He mumbles before staring back at you. 

“If I say yes will you shut up?” I mumble as my eyes trail down to his swollen lips for a second before I glance back at his eyes again. 

I smile when he gives a gentle nod, standing up I extend my hand out towards him to help him stand up, “I am only saying yes because I know you will forget all about this in the morning.” I mumble as I drag him towards the cab which was waiting for us. 

“Do you really think so?” He slurs out the words while getting in the car, “Ack!” He yelps in pain when his head bangs against the roof of the car. 

I immediately lean forward and take a look at his forehead. My eyebrows furrow in worry when it starts to swell but all Sunwoo does is laugh at the drunken guy he saw outside (who was busy puking by the way.) 

-x- 

I enter the house with Sunwoo as I drag him towards his bed. Okay, all I had to do was throw him on his bed, put a warm blanket over him and wash his face with a wet towel. 

I can do that without thinking about the past, right? Of course I can! 

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Sunwoo POV 

I groan in pain when I feel my head throbbing. Maybe drinking till late at night was a bad idea but how did I even get home? I don’t think I went to drink with any of my friends. 

Grabbing the glass of water from the bedside table, I drink some of it when my attention drifts to my arm. I see some messy writing on it. 

Getting curious, I place the glass down and take a closer look at my arm after blinking a few times to get rid of the blurriness. 

‘She says I could touch her when I am sober.’ She? Who’s she…

I close my eyes as I try to think back to the moments which took place yesterday. 

“No fucking way…” I gasp as I recall the conversations me and Y/N had. Nooo this is so embarrassing. She saw me being a drunk idiot. 

I place my head in my pillow and scream in it as I try my best to hide my whole existence. Why can’t the world just swallow me right now? 

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Entering the auditorium I see Y/N with that Hyunjae guy again. Gosh…he looks so boring. What did she even see in him? 

I scowl as I take a seat right behind them because someone decided it would be a great idea to sit behind my ex who was not really my ex because we never officially dated BUT we did kiss and make out a couple of times but let’s not talk about that. 

I kick Eric’s leg when he strikes up a conversation with Hyunjae. He was my sworn enemy! How could he just talk with that boring ass? Gosh this kid really needs to level his taste up when it comes to talking with just anyone. 

The whole time the lecture was going on not once did I stop burning holes in the back of Y/N’s head. 

I could tell she wanted to look back at me by turning around but maybe I was just looking too handsome that she didn’t even want to take a look at me.  

Heaving out a sigh I stood up once the lecture was over. 

“I think we should talk…” I stop dead in my tracks when I hear her voice. No fucking way is she talking with me? 

I gulp as I look at her for a moment before I immediately look down at the books in my hands. 

I hand the books to Eric without any second thoughts as I follow you to the back of the auditorium. 

I sit down on the floor as you follow behind and do the same. I couldn’t believe that after so long we’re finally talking again but I could feel my heartbeat rising more as you stretched the already tense moment.  

“What’s up?” I mumble out as I try not to make it sound awkward even though the way I spoke already gave away the fact that it was more than just awkward silence. 

I cover my face with my eyes as I wait for you to start speaking again, “So…about that night.” I hear your voice speak from beside me. 

I slowly bring my hands down as I take a small peek at you, “You don’t have to say it if you don’t want to. I am sorry if I made you uncomfortable.” 

“No no you didn’t make me uncomfortable. I was just nervous…I was scared I would do something wrong and embarrass myself.” I just stare at you as you explain yourself. 

“I am sorry…I am sorry that I didn’t even give you the chance to explain yourself. I hate to admit it but I was scared to listen to your explanation.” I say softly as I take your hand in mine. 

I smile when I hear your small giggle. Oh how I missed making you laugh…

“So what do you think about Hyunaje?” I furrow my eyebrows when you ask me that question. Were you really pulling my leg? 

“Hyunjae? I hate that guy. Who does he think he is?” I mumble as I scoff in irritation.

I stare at you again when you laugh at my answer. You were really enjoying this, no? “What if I go on another date with him?” 

It feels as if my eyes almost bulge out when you ask that question. “Date? I dare you. I will come and burn everything that is there and take you away from there.” I mumble as I kiss the back of your hand while our fingers are still intertwined. 

“Aww you’re such a jealous baby.” I scoff and roll my eyes and mumble out a small ‘I am not jealous’ when even I know it’s not the truth. 

“I am kidding. I hope we can give our relationship another chance?” My eyes light up when you finally say the words I wanted to hear. 

“I swear I won’t mess up this time.” I say quietly as I kiss the crown of your forehead and give a peck on your cheeks.  

“So what did you feel like when you used to see Hyunjae and me together?” I just stare at you silently when you ask that question. 

You really were having fun teasing me. I get up and walk out of the room with you following behind while laughing at my jealous ass. 

I stop on my tracks when I see hyunjae being buddies with Eric. I couldn’t help the disgusted face taking over my facial features as I stared at that guy doing some stupid handshake with Eric. 

“I cannot believe you’re jealous over Eric and Hyunjae now.” I side eye you when you say that and flick your forehead once before walking away with you yelling my name out. 

“Geez I am sorry!” I yell loudly when you suddenly come in front of me and kiss me on the lips. 

I smiled in between the kiss when I noticed you going on your tiptoes just to kiss me. I slowly lean down so that it’s easier for you to kiss me. 

Giggling I look at you when you pull away, your cheeks slowly turning hues of red as mine does the same.  “Maybe I am a jealous guy after all.” I mumble as I hug you tightly.