#hellsite steves au

[illusion-reality-steve]

Minecraft players sometimes use redstone as “blood” for their spooky or creepy builds. So for the Hellsite Steves AU, I thought it would be funny if Tumblr Town is the only Steve civilization that knows how to build redstone machines that heal Steves, and all the outsiders find their machines disturbing because they mistake all the redstone for blood splatters.

[spaceofentropy]

I was reminded of the pure delight that is the work of @shitpostsampler, and got the thought that in a modern AU Dustin would absolutely be into tumblr and shitposting, and he would totally ask his mom to put her crafting skill to good use for a gag gift to a friend.

Claudia is not sure what this stuff exactly makes reference to, but she's a good, supportive mom, and she likes that Dustin seems interested in her cross stitching, so she goes along and embroiders a little, weird sampler for Erica's birthday.

And from there, it's a deluge of personalized cross stitched things, each pattern carefully chosen by Dustin, while Claudia takes care of the rest.

Did I decide which pattern Dustin woul pick for each kid, teen, and Hopper and Joyce, either as a nice gesture or a gentle jab at the people in his life? Yes I did, of course!

(All the links are to the shitpostsampler store where you can buy their patterns, 95% of 'em being sold at pay-what-you-want prices).

Hopper - When I was younger I didn't understand why "may you live in interesting times" was considered a curse in ancient Greece.

Joyce - You will be ok. You have no choice.

Robin - Choose people who choose you

Steve - Patience my ass. I'm gonna kill something

Billy - Guide 4 teens: Tell the cops nothing. The the paramedics everything. Ur eyebrows are fine.

Billy (after he and Steve have been together and out long enough that Dustin had to listen to Steve wax poetics about Billy's ass-ets one too many times) - Be a bad ass with a good ass

Max - BRB, going feral

Mike - Momma didn't raise a quitter but she did raise a fool and it turns out those two things are a terrible combination

Will - If it weren't for the limitations of my corporeal form, I would have killed God and rebirthed the world in love and kindness

The rest is gonna get in a reblog because tumblr is having a hissy fit with 10 links already, it won't save the post if I try to add more... 🤦‍♀️

[eepersdoesthings]

owl house empires au masterpost - this will be edited and updated with new ideas!

hello! i am currently in progress of writing an empires owl house au fic, and i am currently in the planning stage! ive decided to show this off to the hellsite because why not

spoilers to the owl house under the cut so dont read this if u havent finished

the plot will be similar to the main series, with some tweaks and extra adventures to add something to it and not just make it a nameswap fic

the characters!

shelby - luz - 15, lives with her gran (camila noceda character)

katherine - amity - 15 and in the plant track at hexside,

gem - eda - the deer lady

sausage - basically just king but he can speak spanish because gem has some spanish books from the human realm

jimmy - willow - healing track, younger but more mature brother to lizzie, romantic interest is scott

lizzie - gus - oracle (and later potions) track, jimmy's older yet less mature sister, tries scamming people occasionally

mattholomule - joel - construction, rivals with jimmy, tries to help with new hexside during the collector's reign, but joey shuts him down.

emperor xornoth - belos - formerly a full human, now half demonic with the palisman curse, who was transported to the boiling isles with his older twin brother, scott. scott found love in a witch in the isles and xornoth murdered scott after finding out

the golden guard, scott - a grimwalker of the original older twin of xornoth, about the age of 16

fwhip - lilith - the older twin brother to gem, cursed her when they were children so he could enter the emperors coven. is the head of the emperors coven. attains half of gem's curse at the end of arc 1, where he becomes a

pearl - raine - beastkeeping coven head, gem's (former) best friend

joey - boscha - oracle (and later beastkeeping) track, katherine's friend(?)

pix - oracle coven head - a part of the rebellion

false - construction coven head - a part of the rebellion

(false and pix take the place of darius and eber, but would have vastly different personalities and motives from the original characters)

oli - steve - bard oriented emperors coven member who doesnt care anymore, is tasked with scott a lot on missions

i have another post in which i am asking for some help on the cast, but if any of yall have ideas, i will gladly take suggestions for chapters in this series! hopefully i can fully flesh out the story, otherwise i might just do one shots, but nonetheless i hope you enjoyed the idea!

(also all of my posts will have the "owl house empires au" tag so hopefully you can find them easily)

edit: new idea from @litteralflower17: gonna have the original xornoth and scott go by cohnal and alinar when they originally come to the boiling isles (like how philip went by belos and named caleb's clones hunter) so the original brothers would be cohnal major (sounds silly but whatever) and alinar major

[inairbinad]

oooHhhh tell me more about s2 Steddie wip please??? 👀👀👀

(and Tumblr is also eating my mentions 😭😭 fucking hellsite)

ooh okay! So it's part of my Barb Lives!AU (which is here for those interested) where basically Barb survives season 1 and she and Nancy start dating instead, Robin gets looped into the group sooner, and then Steve's hanging around so many lesbians (and Jonathan) in his senior year that he can't help but have his bi awakening. Enter Eddie.

He gets pulled into all the season 2 Upside Down drama, and Steve is absolutely tripping all over himself trying not to fall in love with him. It's pre-relationship, because I already rewrote season 3 for this AU, typical pining idiots fighting monsters and bonding over Dustin goodness.

It's mostly done, I just need to get off my butt and finish it. So have a snippet too:

Steve was nervous.

He was nervous to go to a stupid Halloween party, which used to be his bread and butter, all because he couldn’t stop thinking about Eddie Munson.

He really didn't know what the hell had happened to him.

Can’t wait to see what you dress up as. Eddie’s voice ran on a loop through his head, saying that same line over and over, and Steve kept kicking himself for not having picked out a better outfit. After three pleading phone calls to Robin, she still steadfastly refused to do a couple’s costume with him.

“Why not?” Steve whined, as he dug around in his closet looking for alternatives to the Risky Business idea he had for the two of them.

“Because people will think we’re a couple,” Robin said flatly.

“Who gives a shit what they think?” Steve asked, even though the answer was probably still him, even if only a little bit.

“You’ll care when Eddie doesn’t flirt because he thinks you brought a girl to the shindig,” Robin had argued, quoting Eddie directly and shutting Steve up with ease.

When it dawned on him that he didn’t necessarily have to change his Risky Business concept entirely, just tweak the execution a little, he bounced on his heels in excitement and ran to get dressed. Or rather, undressed.

[piastrinorris]

@cheerscoopscentral's cheerscoops week 2023 | day 3: social media-specific AU

Title: A Discordant Romance Pairing(s): Steve Harrington x Chrissy Cunningham, some background Gareth x Will Byers if you squint Tags: Stranger Things (series), fluff, modern AU, streamer AU, chatfic (set in Discord) Word Count: 5.7k Summary: When Eddie Munson gathers all his streamer friends from all the walks of his life, sparks fly for two in particular. A/N: I don't know why I thought making a chatfic based in DIscord was a good idea, but formatting this was a nightmare lmao. Still, I think it paid off. Other than the fact I've had to replace the usual @-system with "@." in the preview so that this hellsite doesn't' tag random blogs, even when I explicitly remove their tag links from the HTML editor. Love that sooo much.

read on ao3 here! preview under the cut:

Server: eddie’s minions - #general

EddieTheBanished @.everyone figured instead of wasting a good server for a one-time event, i’d keep this up in case people wanna stream together again

aguywhohatesparties really? that’s what you came up with?

EddieTheBanished it’s my server i can name it what i want to 🙂

madmaxmay making a new server where everyone’s equal, who’s in [☝️13]

EddieTheBanished 🙁

Server: better name pending - #general

EddieTheBanished there, is that good for now?

madmaxmay i actually kinda dig it permanently

CallMeTheFreak Same. Should also be our next album name.

madmaxmay i want writer royalties

EddieTheBanished why?!

CallMeTheFreak Deal. [🤝3]

EddieTheBanished et tu with the reacts, @.GarethTheGreat @.JeffWithAJ? what is this mutiny

madmaxmay lol you guys are great. you should come back on tud sometime

lilmisschriss ooh, could a certain bat-wielding orc also make an appearance there?

kingsteve oh no

madmaxmay OH YES

you’ve been watching us?!

@.JaneTheEleventh !!!!!!!!!

JaneTheEleventh i am glad you are watching @.lilmisschriss. i like watching your streams too, with max. you are very friendly with your chat and it’s very nice. [❤️4]

madmaxmay pleasepleaseplease join a campaign with me and el!!!!!!!!! @.lilmisschriss

lilmisschriss you girls are so sweet, but i don’t know the first thing about this, i’m just learning as i’m watching and there’s so much to catch up on!

madmaxmay i’ll teach you everything. if we can get @.kingsteve to play through a whole oneshot without his character dying, we can do anything

ToothlessBard sorry, remind me, who is this WE you’re referring to? because i’m pretty sure I’M the one who taught steve everything he knows

kingsteve you know i can still read that, right? [🤷1]

okay fine. i’ll do another one of your stories ONLY if @.lilmisschriss does it too. and if henderson gets off his high horse

madmaxmay @.WiseWilliam GET WRITING, WIZARD BOY WONDER [🫡1 🧙1]

[luna-rainbow]

For the ask game: 3, 12, 17, 18

[Writer’s Wrap]

Thanks so much for indulging me whoever you are 😘

3 What work are you most proud of (regardless of kudos/hits)?

An angel upon a shooting star - I think this one got a bit more traction on Tumblr but of course hellsite being hellsite I can’t locate that post 😅

I had actually been sitting on the idea for over a year because originally I wanted to draw it, and never got the time (and lbr didn’t have the skills). I liked how self-contained it was and how the stars as a symbolism of hope was woven through Steve’s canon story.

12 How many WIP’s do you have in your docs for next year?

Just the one! It’s the Doctor Steve AU. It’s shaping up to be pretty long so I’m not sure I’d even finish it in a year. Not sure who the target audience would be but at least I’m enjoying the writing 😂

17 Your favorite character to write this year?

So I had a really long think about these two questions because I realised my instinctive answer was wrong. I wanted to say I loved writing Bucky — and I do, because he’s the sort of versatile character who can be quite different depending on what snapshot in time you take him from, but I realised in most of my recent works, I hadn’t written things from Bucky’s POV. Steve’s POV is the one I’ve been writing from this year. And I have really enjoyed exploring Steve’s vulnerabilities and guilt and anxieties, as well as his struggles to make sense of his own weaknesses.

18 The character that gave you the most trouble writing this year?

I would say, also Steve 😂 The trouble with POV characters is that they fill up a lot of page with inner dialogue and mischaracterisations can become very pronounced.

I am sure my thoughts will change over time, but at the moment what’s most challenging to write is Steve’s restraint. Both he and Bucky hide their emotions and thoughts but comparatively, Bucky is easier to predict. Bucky reacts to his emotional attachments. He has his guilt and his fears and triggers and the people he wants to protect. Steve has all that but also has the public/political persona. He needs to engage with the world on a rational level, which means sometimes feigning courtesy with people he really doesn’t like to get a job done. I find it tricky to balance that restraint so that he comes across as neither petulant nor passive.

[buckets-and-trees]

This year has been so significant to me!

I got a huge promotion that I'd been working toward for so long, and it's stretched me in new ways. It's still tough, but I love what I'm doing - or at least trying to do. Some unexpected personnel issues have put some of my projects on hold, but that's also been part of the growth journey.

I met so many wonderful people this year through our affectionate hellsite - some of whom have become dear, treasured friends, and truly enriched my life. I'm NOT going to name names - you know who you are, and many of you hate public attention, so I'm not going to put you on display. There's also no way I could convey to everyone who has touched my life in some way that you have - people who have sent me asks, messages, even left the smallest comment on a reblog, and some of you silent but serial rebloggers I SEE YOU, TOO! There were days when a message or comment truly turned around how I was feeling.

So if I can be sentimental over that for a moment, please never hold back the kindness of saying something nice to someone. We all need more love and kindness, every single one of us.

And, lastly, I've written more than I've ever written before - even in my former fandom days! I wrote 89k words over 48 stories, chapters, and drabbles (doesn't include all the asks). In 2022, I set out to write more again after not having written anything for years, so to be doing so much of what I love and being able to say I reclaimed my hobby as a writer again feels amazing. To have support around my writing is truly humbling and also so damn fun.

And so to close out 2023, I want to be a little bit proud and share my favorite things that I wrote this year: ↠ CEDAR TREES royal AU King Steve x Queen Reader collection ↠ DEVOUR mob AU soft!dark Bucky x female Chef Reader series ↠ Sacrificial Minotaur!Bucky x female scientist!Reader (modern AU) ↠ Witchview Steve x Witch Reader ↠ Meet Cute modern au Trader Joe's!Bucky x female Reader ↠ Warm Shadows, pt. 1 and pt. 2. Alpha!Bucky x f!Reader, Dark Alpha!Steve x f!Reader

Thank you, all of you.

[upsidedownwithsteve]

yet again, emmy being the most creative mf on this damn hellsite. i think the “choose your own adventure” story is such a unique idea and i have never ever seen anything like it before. also, enemies to lovers? the arcade vibes? i can already picture you describing the neon lights and the funky patterned carpet and steve being a grouchy mf as if he isn’t head over heels for the reader!!

in saying that though, i’m just worried you’ll overwork yourself with having to write so many scenarios and stuff (i vaguely remember you talking about how much WTTW stressed you out). i know a lot of authors on here have felt quite burnt out recently and the last thing i, as an avid reader of yours, would want is for you to burn yourself out because of what everybody is demanding.

all in all, i think it’s such an interesting concept and it’s honestly so unique. you’d nail it! and regardless if you decide to make it a choose your own adventure story or not, i will most definitely be reading :)

much love, ali :)

ali, you’re too kind to me!

i’m thoroughly enjoying writing it so far! an eighties arcade aesthetic is like crack cocaine to me 🥲 and WTTW was an utter bitch, I can’t lie (as much as I love her) but this is teeny tiny in comparison, just some mini fics/blurbs that’ll hopefully do enough to create a wee AU for everyone to enjoy!

definitely not going to stress myself over this one but thank you for being so sweet 🧡

[imxthexhandler]

💕 💕 💕 💕 💕

send 💕 or ( ‘HEART’ ) for me to randomly pick one of my mutuals and write at least two things about why i love seeing them on my dash, writing with them, talking to them, etc.

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@bennyboylewis : Iz, you have been one of biggest supporters ever, and you’re one of the best friends I’ve ever made in life, and I’m blessed every day for you. I love you, girlie. You’ve been so kind and compassionate and patient with me, and I cannot express my gratitude adequately enough. Also, I love Ben. I think you’re the person I have the most AUs with period. I love Ben’s sense of loyalty and snark--Amelia does, too, even when that crazy mechanic drives her insane. You are an insanely talented person, and I hope one day you see it for yourself.

@tsushimanoonryo : I know we don't write together, but I love reading your threads, and honestly, the few times we've chatted OOC, you've always been so cool and chill to talk with. You're a highly creative individual, and I love all the amount of detail you've poured into your muse. Keep on being awesome!

@wildthiiing : Lanie, gosh, I’ve been writing with you for so long! Over so many muses... I love interacting with all of your muses, and Amelia especially loves Jane and Trip and Barney. I love reading your threads, I love seeing your headcanons and the things you post that remind you of your muses. Thank you for always putting up with my hyper ass. And all the spam.

@bokketo : What can I say about Onyx? They are very talented, able to write such vastly different muses, all of them very well. Onyx is an insanely talented writer and photographer, and they have been such a supportive and sweet friend. I'm very lucky to have met them.

@koiwrites : God, where do I begin with you? You have stuck by me through it all, you were one of my first partners on this hellsite! You are so insanely talented, and I'm always happy to see what you create. Thank you so much for putting up with me and all my screaming about our babies. Thank you for just being a friend and solid partner. I cannot express how much both of those have meant to me over the years.

@quiveringdeer : Nat is a very talented writer, and they have introduced me to different horror movies. Even though I am not a fan of Attack on Titan (nothing wrong with it, just the premise never grabbed my attention), I really enjoy reading her headcanons and ficlets about characters

@adventurepunks : Love this one so much. If anyone likes stuff from Amelia's DC Argus verse, you really have this one to thank. Between the adventures with Zee and Amelia or her romance with Roy. Although he is one of my favorite DC boys of all time, I never expected to ship him with Amelia--or that I would ship these two so dang hard. Not only are they so patient with me for replies, always willing to go along with any of my crazy ideas, they always check up on me, and they are just a sweetheart.

@thedemonconstantine : This person, right here, is an INCREDIBLE artist! Seriously, you need to check out their artwork. I don't know this mun too much OOC, so I don't know if their IRL job involves art, but I hope it does, because again, their talents are incredible. I'm often a spy on their John/Nick threads with @adventurepunks; I can't help it. It may not be my preferred ship for Constantine, but GAWD, their threads are SO GOOD! 10/10 def. recommend!

@blizzardmuses : Bea is just such a sweetheart and always indulges me with whatever crazy idea I throw at them. They are a very talented writer, and I'm always happy when I get to write with them or read their threads. If you're a Starfire or Red Hood fan, then most definitely I recommend following this one 10/10.

@audaxbellator : Oh, wow, Bethany, how long have we been partners?? Seems like it’s been forever, ever since I created Amelia. You’ve always been so kind and so sweet to me, thank you. Steve and Amelia are just perfect for each other, and I always get excited to write with you. Thank you for not only being a friend to me but for being a writing partner.

[illusion-reality-steve]

Welcome to how I choose to cope with the Twitter apocalypse: making more Steve Saga fan content instead of catching up with Rainbow Quest.

Inspired by the Twittypets and zzoupz’ Twitblr chronicles, I wanted to do a Steve Saga take on the Tumblr x Twitter lovers-to-enemies-to-lovers story. I call it the Hellsite Steves AU.

Keep reading if you’re actually interested in the lore of the AU.

This AU centers around two ambitious Blue Steves. While they lived happy lives among the Steves and found love in each other, they both aspired to create a safe haven where Steves could be fandom trash in peace. They managed to create that safe space; they called it Tumblr Town. One member of the duo renamed himself to Tumblr Steve, becoming the life force of the Town.

They made so many great memories and had so much fun in the Town. But as the years went by and Tumblr Town started dealing with more problems, the two Steves started to have disagreements. Tumblr Steve’s partner - pessimistic about the longevity of Tumblr Town -  took some time away and discovered a new area, and he saw the potential to create a new fandom space. He declared the land Twitter Town, renamed himself Twitter Steve, and broke up with Tumblr Steve. Twitter Steve took his loyal followers to Twitter Town and they started a new life there, assuming that Tumblr Town would eventually die off.

Tumblr Steve tried his best to lead Tumblr Town on his own. Eventually, through a lot of studying and reflecting, he became an Elder Blue, which darkened his color palette and gave him more power. It wasn’t enough to keep his Town strong, but it eventually led to a cultural renaissance that gave the Town new life. Twitter Town and Tumblr Town exchanged resources and words sometimes. But other than that, Twitter Steve kept Tumblr Town and his ex out of his mind.

That is, until one day, Twitter Steve was overthrown, and Twitter Town immediately fell into ruins. Imposters and hatred terrorized the Town. Some of its citizens were barred from entering the Town’s walls, when its protective barrier called the 2FA system started experiencing issues. Twitter Steve tried to reclaim his Town, but ended up getting exiled by the new leader. And with the Town falling apart, Twitter Steve started glitching out, since his life force was tied to the Town.

Twitter Steve tried to find a new home for him and his followers, but other kingdoms and towns didn’t meet their needs. Then, Twitter Steve had to swallow his pride and reach out to the place he never wanted to return to: Tumblr Town.

Tumblr Steve is full of mixed emotions when he sees his ex again, looking worse than before. They have both changed a lot; they feel like strangers to each other. Will Tumblr Steve welcome Twitter Steve back home? Or is it too late to repair their old relationship?

Gah, I spend way too long on this, and the sensible part of me regrets it. Sabre, if you find this, I am so sorry.

[walkingaftermidnight07]

oh boy im scared

(thx for the tag by the way :D) ((i was also tagged in this by @sunflowersand-bees so thanks a lot riv😒 im kidding i <3 you))

KitTy fanfic...

Byler AU fic

I'm Forever Yours, Faithfully

ST AU - Steve and Eddie

The Black Keys PART TWO

new story maybe?

this might be revealing a little too much abt the stuff i was planning on keeping a secret abt but iTS FINE

im gonna cap it there bc the only other things i have are WIPs ive completely given up on so i feel like that doesnt count

tagging *pauses and panics when i realize i dont actually know who on this hellsite also writes* *five minute break while i go look through my mutuals list <3*

*a few moments later*

alright tagging @dysphoria-things @queenofoceansanddarkness @remixedroses @ashlakh @goodoldfashionedluvergirl @le-petite-ivy

(im so sorry in advance to the ppl i just tagged that i do not talk to ackkkkk) (but like, if you wanna be friends...hmu?? if not thats fine too i respect that) (aGAIN iM SORRY <3)

tysm @canyouhearmyfear for the tagg 🥰

WIP GAME

rules: post the name of all the files in your WIP folder, regardless of how non-descriptive or ridiculous. let people send you an ask about the title that most intrigues them, and then post a little snippet or tell them something about it!

And then tag as many people as you have WIPS.

1) Revenge Is The Best Medicine

2) Just Another Celebrity AU

3) Caterpillars

4) Unnamed afterlife fic

5) Unnamed Britains Got Talent fic

6) Unnamed Rosier twin Parents Trap fic

tagging: @b1tchplease114 and any others who want to do it cuz loads of people have already been tagged <33333

[pikaman-fan]

[hellmersy]

For Every Action, There is an Equal and Opposite Reaction. (Prologue)

Alright here it is, finally! Okay so this story has almost none of the elements from my Original Post but I’m actually really proud of it so far? I’m also terrified to post this because the old post has so many notes and now I think people have eXpEcTaTiOnS that I’m completely demolishing but... Fuck it, am I right?

OR

The Prologue of my Black Widow Peter Parker AU from Tony’s POV.

Germany wasn’t Tony’s intention, the Avengers falling apart was never his intention. He just wanted to stop feeling guilty for things that were completely out of his control. 

From the moment Tony signed The Accords they felt more like a weight tied around his ankle further pulling him down into the ocean of guilt rather than the life-jacket they were meant to be, but he couldn’t back out because then Ross would come at them with everything he had and then everybody would end up on The Raft regardless of where they stood.

Tony also knew he didn’t have enough manpower to take on Cap and the others, he needed more, but Daredevil and Mr. Cage weren’t interested, Mrs. Jones’ response to his last message was “I’m just a PI” so he never actually got to her. So that just left Spider-Man.

Tony didn’t know he was just a kid, regardless of what people would later think. He just knew he was desperate that age didn’t matter because his family was imploding and he needed help to keep them all together. 

He still remembers so vividly, the rage and disgust on Peter’s face that had been aimed at him. A startling contrast to the wide-eyed, hero-worship from when they first met.

“You were just going to use me like that?” Peter rasped, his voice cracking with raw hurt and anger, “You said that Cap went nuts, you said that we had to stop him before he hurt someone but it’s you that’s hurting everyone Stark! Do you have any idea what the Accords are going to do to people like me?! I could lose everything. My aunt, my friends, my life. But that doesn’t matter to you, does it?”

Peter kicks him through the side of a jet and his suit crumbles like cardboard under the boys strength and unbridled rage, there’s a crack all the way up the chest plate and through the arc reactor making him unable to move and Rhodey and Vision carry him out when they all retreat. 

Tony doesn’t notice that they left with eight even though they came with ten until after he wakes up in the medbay a day later.

Mrs. Parker threatens to do something, but in the end she just breaks down into tears. “He’s all I have left,” she sobs. Tony doesn’t know what to say other than Peter will be safe with Natasha (he doesn’t even know if they’re together but he just hopes), and that he’ll do what ever he can to keep Peter’s face out of the news.

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Siberia comes and goes like a bad dream. 

Tony and Bucky nearly kill each other and then when Tony was bout to finally finish it, Steve nearly finishes him. It was just plain luck or possibly even some kind of divine intervention that Natasha came along just in the nick of time. Peter was by her side.

Tony watches as the teen helps Barnes up and Natasha keeps Steve at bay with a pistol steadily aimed at his head, they’re yelling at each other. “Stop!” Tony shouts, it’s almost a sob. 

“Please god stop,” he sucks in a breath, his ribs are still tender and he looks over to Steve and he cries, “I never wanted this! I just wanted us to be safer, to stop innocent people from dying because of our recklessness,” he looks Peter in the eyes despite his dark glare, “I wanted people like you to have a future where you aren’t hunted, where you can live your life and go to school without having to keep such a big secret like that on your shoulders...” he trails off when his eyes meet Barnes’ because he doesn’t even know what to say. 

His bones vibrate with rage, he wants to feel the mans larynx crush in his fist but the desolate look on the mans face makes his heart twist. “I never meant to tear us apart...” Steve says, his eye are shining with tears and he pushes past Natasha and drops to his knees before wrapping Tony in a hug.

The four of them leave Siberia together. Steve and Tony on one side, and Peter with Bucky and Natasha on the other while FRIDAY pilots. Peter won’t stop glaring at him when their eyes meet. 

It feels like a failure on his part still.

“The Hammer expo, in twenty-eleven,” Peter starts, “You saved a little boy wearing an Iron Man mask from getting himself killed. You said ‘good job, kid’ and then you flew off... that was the day I knew I wanted to be a hero like you,” Tony’s heart clenches painfully in his chest. “And then I got to met you again, for the second time, and it felt like it was supposed to be the start of something amazing, but then I go and figure out that you lied to me... I’ll work with you, Mister Stark, but don’t expect me to forgive you like they did,” Peter says resolutely, Natasha throws her arm over the boys shoulders. Tony nods, and then looks at Barnes and nods to him as well.

It’s a start.

[frostironfudge]

I Think I Met You In My Dreams Once - Bucky Barnes - Four

Summary: After receiving an honourable discharge from his military service that was caused by the loss of his arm, James Barnes begins to come to terms with several things. He also finds solace in youtube videos, memes and on social media, where he happens to find you.

Pairing: Ex-Military!Bucky Barnes x Fem! Plus Size!Reader (Modern AU)

Chapter Warnings: angst, fluff, phone sex, smut, mutual masturbation, dirty talk, PTSD mentioned, nightmares, active communication between a couple, long distance relationship, timezones, praise kink, size kink if you squint (you won't have to though if you catch my drift)(take me away from this hellsite)

A.N.: posting the chapter early because @thousandnighstwhithmammon convinced me with cute gifs

Word Count: 6212 Dividers: @firefly-graphics

Fic Masterlist || Main Masterlist || AO3 || Fic Playlist

Chapter Three || Chapter Five

Bucky was determined, looking at flowers and chocolates on a website that delivered the same to where you were. He made a face at some of the floral arrangements and the teddy bear in one wasn’t upto mark for his girl. 

My girl. He grinned as he repeated the two words in his mind. Even though you were miles and miles away from him. You were his and he was yours. 

Bucky groans as he looks at the red teddy bear, why can’t it be brown? He needed to find a cute memorabilia that could serve as a comforting reminder of him. In the event you couldn’t speak to each other regularly. Or in the event he pissed you off and the bear could ease your anger. 

Also red teddy bears are just one step away from being possessed. Why did they look so dead inside?

He decides upon just flowers and chocolates for now adding them to cart and putting in your address he sneaked off from Steve who snuck it from Natasha. 

Unbeknownst to him you did the same of sneaking his address of off Natasha who snuck it from Steve. 

The two of them did roll their eyes and had a eight minute back and forth about how you both could just be upfront. But nope, sneaking addresses is what was being done. They allowed it simply because the two of you were like little excited babies and the gleam in both of your eyes was precious. 

While you stared at the websites that has a lot to offer to send your man. You giggle to yourself and blush, my man. You repeat it feeling giddy. Would he appreciate this weird gift set? Also what even was this happiness box?

You shut the entire browser window. You are erasing your browser history. Maybe dousing your eyes in holy water. God the image of the lube and flesh light and dildo was still stuck in your head. 

Extravaganza of Male Happiness. 

The perfect gift for your man.

“You found a sex based website didn’t you?” Natasha laughs at your incredulous expression. 

“Please I’m worried and scarred.” You plead, your only other idea was flowers and the chocolate he had mentioned he really loves. 

“Just go with your first idea.” Nat says, “You want it to reach for the first date right? So you have only today to decide.” 

“First idea is flowers, I think we spoke about it, he’s never gotten flowers and I want to change that.” You admit, opening up the sample arrangements of cat safe flowers that you had shortlisted the previous night. 

“I think he’d like any of these.” She comments opening up her notebook as the professor enters and you put away your phone while retrieving your own notebook. 

Bucky wipes his hand on his jeans, why is this so nerve wracking? He’s spoken to you through the screen several times yet this one pulses his nerves. 

Briefly he wonders if this lunch/dinner date will workout. 

All thoughts go out the window when his laptop screen comes to life with your incoming call. Shakily he accepts after checking his headphones being connected for the fiftieth time. 

“Hi,” 

Bucky grins as your voice greets his ears while the screen loads up. 

“Hi Doll.” He greets, giving you his brightest smile when the screens do load. 

You beam equally bright at him. 

“You look, very very handsome.” You blurt out, then blush, he’s wearing a light blue button down. 

“If you think I look handsome, you should see my date she’s breathtaking.” Bucky grins more as he notices your shyness coming forth. 

“Well you gotta take a deep breath, cause I’m about to show you my outfit.” You say as you stand from the chair fixing the sundress you picked out, it matched his shirt by chance. 

“So its a lunch date?” Bucky grins, admiring you as you stand back, god wireless headphones are a boon. 

“Yes, dinner dates have other outfits. ” You do a small twirl and the hem of the dress moves along with the movement. 

“You look gorgeous, doll. You keep taking my breath away.” He grins and you settle down onto your chair again. 

“Thank you, now your turn, I wanna see what are you wearing.” You clap your hands in excitement and he laughs, standing up and heading to the end of his room.

“Well, this is a blue button down but I’m pretty sure Pantone has a specific name for this shade. I’m wearing beige pants.” He walks closer to the screen doing a supermodel stance with his hand on his hip and your laugh makes him grin with the corner of his eyes getting crinkles. That, that was your favourite smile on him. 

Bucky’s phone chimes and he gets excited. 

“What? Did the application get accepted?” You also get excited for him. 

“Go open your door.” Is all he says, you look back at him confused. 

“Why?”

“Just go open it.” He only smiles, then his door bell rings as does yours. 

Bucky narrows his eyes at you. 

“You should open your door.” You wiggle your brows then laugh. The two of you get up from your chairs in sync and head to the respective doors. 

Bucky is going to cry, he carefully sets down the vase of sunflowers near the door before grabbing the other box the delivery personnel hands to him and he returns to the room holding the vase with ease and the box tucked under his arms. 

You look away from your own flowers and chocolates and gulp, that vase you knew was heavy, and yet Bucky was holding it with ease. 

“Seems like we both had the same idea.” He grins while setting the contents down on his desk. 

“I um, they are safe even if Alpine might try to nip at them, I checked five blogs to confirm. Um, thats not the only reason I picked them, you know how sunflowers turn towards where the sun is?” You pause waiting for Bucky to respond but he only looks at you with an incomprehensible emotion. 

“Did, are you allergic?” Panic laces your voice, “Do you have your epipen?” 

“No, no, I’m not allergic, I, well no one has ever given me flowers. I just, and you even thought of Alpine. Thank you. I love them.” 

You gaze at him softly, the panic evaporating. 

“I’m glad you liked them—,”

“Love them, doll, i love them, thank you. Did, did you like yours?” Bucky shifts running his hand through his hair, nervous. Should he have bought the red teddy?

You pick up your vase and hold it while grinning at him. Bucky takes a screenshot, unable to help himself. 

“I love them, these are Alstroemerias, a type of Lily, right?” You confirm admiring the pink hues across the petals. 

Bucky nods, “Yeah, I um, Peruvian Lily. Is the other name.” Pink ones symbolise friendships turned love but he’s going to not say that. Yet. He thinks it would make you leave the video call in one second. 

“They’re beautiful, James. Thank you. Now you need to hold yours so I have a picture too.” You narrow your eyes at him, catching his sneaky screenshot skill. 

“You caught that?” He scratches the back of his neck, then grabs his vase and you try not to drool at his strength. 

“Take a picture baby, it will last longer.” Bucky smirks as you get flustered, quickly taking your own screenshot. 

He winks at you before setting the flowers back in their place. 

“So, what has the lady ordered for herself?” He rests his chin on his palm. 

“Well, I went with something simple, penne in an Alfredo sauce with chicken. For the appetiser I think I ordered,” You rummage through the bag, “ah yes, Mozzarella cheese sticks, they were out of the other things ooh anddd they gave free garlic bread.” You tease him holding up the free bread. 

Bucky’s jaw drops then he looks absolutely offended, “I had to pay for my bread. But we’re sharing the apps because,” He holds up the take out container housing his own mozzarella cheese sticks. You grin. 

“For main we have lasagna.” He holds up the container, grinning and you can almost smell the melted cheese and herbs. 

“I wish I could steal some through the screen.” You pout. 

“Joey doesn’t share food.” He shakes his head, playfully taking the container away from the screen. 

“I thought you said you’re Chandler.” You accuse him getting offended because you’ve been deemed as Monica by everyone you know and were holding out hope to find your own Chandler. 

“Well I am your Chandler but in matters of food, I can be your Joey.” He grins, you shake your head laughing. His little ‘your’ before the character’s name tugs at your heart. 

“So apps first and we can begin our first date.” He tries to plate them up as nicely as possible. Once he’s done he watches you plate up, you look up at him licking the melted cheese from your finger. You watch as his tongue runs over his bottom lip. Bucky takes a steadying inhale. It’s unfair how you’re so far away. 

He clears his throat, “So um,” 

“You’re a bite behind Barnes.” You chuckle taking a bite of the food and he follows suit. 

“You’re in a very happy banter-y mood, I absolutely am enjoying it.” He comments. 

“Well I am in company of someone who enjoys happy banter-y-ness.” 

“You are yes.”

Much to both of your relief, the first date isn’t all that different to your usual conversations just the topics are lighter. No heavy stuff about family, his time with the military, more so getting to know each other and already talking about the potential second date. 

“Wait, wait, wait.” You hold up both your hands trying to not choke on your food before laughing. 

“You guys visited a farm in grade one,” You repeat. 

“Yes a farm, cute animals cows and all.” He shakes his head at the memory. 

“And you carried chocolate milk, and emptied it into the milk bucket of the brown cow?” You confirm, watching his shoulders shake in delight at the memory of the prank he pulled. 

“Steve lost his mind when he saw the milk.” Bucky’s laugh was warmth embracing you, pulling you in, keeping you next to him. 

“And no one found out? Not even the person in-charge or your teacher?” You ask and he just shakes his head laughing. 

“No one could do anything the principal came in to the class the next day worried, when parents called her up, because every single kid said chocolate milk comes from brown cows.” Bucky’s eyes widen in fear recreating his scared expression then laughing again. 

“Oh my god.” You wipe the tear that is about to escape still giggling as you both try to calm down from the story. 

“Hey you’ve got a little Alfredo…” Bucky points on his own face to direct you. 

“Oh um,” you try to swipe it, not looking at the small picture of you just looking at him for guidance. 

“Other side doll,” Bucky’s hand reaches out then he retracts it when it collides with the screen. 

You both grow quiet. Using the tissue and finally seeing yourself in the small box helps clean up the stray sauce. 

It was safe to say that the biggest con of wanting to long distance date was not being able to do the typical romantic movie things. Or even just hold hands. 

“What do you have for dessert?” You bite your lip, hoping the night/day wasn’t ruined. 

“Tiramisu.” Bucky shoves away the annoying thought of not being able to touch you, he knew what you both were signing up for when the line between friendship and something more was being blurred. 

“Once again we share dessert.” You smile, he does as well. The earlier tension fading away into nothingness. 

As the date slowly moves towards its end, Bucky contemplates asking about the second date or voicing his concern over how would you both manage if this does turn into something more?

“James?” You furrow your brow thinking his frame’s frozen. 

“James?” You tilt your head, as he blinks but doesn’t respond lost in thought. 

He knows if you both try hard enough this will be something beautiful and distance? That could be closed with a flight or visiting when it was feasible for the two of you. 

“Bucky?” You try and he finally looks up. 

“Doll?” He furrows his brows, confusion lacing his voice. 

“You, what is on your mind?” You enquire, sitting up a bit more. 

“Nothing—,”

“Bucky.” You reprimand. 

“I was just—, I don’t want to end the date on a sour note. Forget it, it can be discussed later.” He gives a halfhearted smile. 

“James, for this to work we need to communicate openly.” You remind him, he feels his heart squeeze as your voice grows quiet and worry colours your features. 

“I’m,” He exhales, biding time to find the right words, “I wanted to ask about our second date… I know we both work out the timings and the food and everything but like during dinner I wanted to reach out and your hands twitched to reach out as well. I know what we have is something special and so worth the painful distance but I worry, what if one of us stops trying?” He airs out his concerns. 

“You aren’t putting a sour note on the date let me clear that up for you.” You give him a small smile. 

“It is at the back of my head too. Not able to cup your face, feel your hand intertwined with mine or feed you a bite of my food or steal a bite from yours by way of getting you to feed me. There is quiet a lot we won’t be able to do, but I think we both know each other enough to be honest with one another. It is possible we could stop trying but the other one can fight for the two of us, try and save what we have.” You let him process your words. 

“I don’t want it to come to that, to fight or make the other stay if it’s difficult. I know its just been one date, but do you think you would be willing to take this on for a longer term? I’m not saying it has to go this way, there is a possibility where we both could agree a friendship is better” He hopes it won’t come to the latter, its hardly been three and a half months since he knows you, and one week since you both have decided to step into dating. He doesn’t want to give it up. 

“Okay, lets, lets think about one thing that we can control? Because I feel our what ifs are getting to us deeply.” You advise and his azure eyes are hopeful for something. 

“Okay. What is it?” He drums his finger along his desk. 

“This moment, the present, today, our date, our flowers for each other. Us. Here. Face to face in a way. The distance is a big factor but we have things at our disposal to somewhat take that away.” You say, hoping he understands. 

“If we just consider today then yes, what we have is something worth dealing with the distance. I don’t care about that when I have you.” He gazes at you, blue eyes locked in on yours and he takes your name before saying words that wrap around your heart,

“You’re worth the distance.” He blinks back the tears as his chest feels much lighter at the truth. 

“You’re worth the distance too.” A tear escapes past your eyes and you quickly wipe it away. 

“Look at me, making my date cry.” He chuckles dryly, you give a huff of a laughter. 

“Happy tears.” You look back at him from your hands. 

Reaching out you run a knuckle over his cheek. Bucky tilts his head as if leaning into your touch, making you smile. 

“One day you will do that in person.” He promises. 

“One day you will be able to twirl me.” You promise. 

“And then kiss you.” He adds, much too cheekily.

“Cheeky.” You playfully roll your eyes. 

“You enjoy my cheekiness.” He retorts easing you both into the playful banter before you both say your goodbyes. 

Bucky lays on his bed, eyes on the sunflowers and he can’t wipe the smile off of his face. 

His phone buzzes, he sits up to retrieve it from his desk. 

He reads your message from the notification tab. 

@.watchingthemoonlight:

i had a lovely date, can’t wait for our next one. 

Bucky falls back down onto the bed with an even wider grin on his face. 

“Doll!” Bucky calls out, you hurry back from the kitchen. 

“Coming!” You call out then hiss as your door handle collides into your hip. 

“You okay?” He looks worried, the usual size of his screen smaller since he’s added his phone to the video-call. 

“Yeah that just hurts like a bitch.” You rub the sore spot, today was date number ten, coinciding with a new upload from your collective favourite ghoul boys, which meant you’re awake way past 3 a.m to watch it with Bucky. 

You yawn again and he shakes his head.

“No, don’t you dare.” You warn him. 

“I didn’t say anything!” He raises his hands in defence. 

“Yet.” You look at him in disdain. 

“Okay, yet” he agrees, “We could have watched this at a better hour.”

“And miss this episode? Bucky are you even my boyfriend?” You shake your head. 

“I am concerned about my girlfriend’s wellbeing and sleep pattern. Which I have told her about on several occasions.” He reprimands using his stern voice and if it wasn’t for the moot point his voice would have had you clenching your thighs. 

Bucky smirks catching the slight change in your sleepiness, almost a month since your first date but he had caught onto your subtle reactions to some of his teasing. 

That was another change that happened after several (fifteen very lovely dates and communication with meticulously planned timezone dates making sure all dates alternated between day and night). Bucky had sent flowers on one random Thursday morning with a brown teddy bear having papers tucked in an envelope under the teddy’s arms. 

Page One

@.bbarnes has sent you a message 

Page Two

@.bbarnes:

after fifteen beautiful dates with the gorgeous woman who has only certainly arrived right from my dreams, i want to ask her to be my girlfriend, should i do it?

Page Three

@.bbarnes:

Okay here goes, i’m asking her, god wait shit where is the flower? 

Page Four

A hand drawn Lily with it being painted with the pink hues from the first bouquet he ever gave you. 

Page Five

@.bbarnes:

give me a call please? don’t bother about the time. 

And so you did, it was three-thirty a.m for him. Bucky with sleep hair all half raised on various sides and sleep ridden eyes and a sweet sleepy smile upon seeing you. You melted right there. 

“I see you got my bear.” He smiles as you hold it up for him, “Press his right paw.” 

You set the phone down and press the paw. 

“Y/N, will you be my girlfriend?” The voice box from the bear speaks in Bucky’s voice and you have to hold back tears. 

“Its a one time press only, but I want to ask again, will you be my girlfriend?” He worries his bottom lip, you hug the bear tightly. 

“James, I will be your girlfriend, yes.” You beam at him and Bucky swears you just broke the record for happiest day of his life. He does a mini dance and you can see Alpine giving him a bored look in the background and going off to sleep again. 

Your heart surges, James, your James, your Bucky is now your boyfriend. God you need to squeal and tell Natasha. You need to be calm. 

You both just adore each other and he shifts from sitting to propping his phone against the pillows and laying down. 

“You need to sleep, Bucky.” You watch as his eyes fight to close. 

“I’m awake, my girlfriend is on the phone.” He grins sleepily and you take a screenshot.

“She’s worried about her boyfriend’s sleep patterns.” You say and in the dim light you can still make out the red tinge across his skin. 

“Your boyfriend’s a lucky guy, has you.” Bucky’s eyelids flutter close. Slowly his breathing evens out. 

You shake your head setting the phone in your pocket after murmuring goodnight. 

His eyes open wide in panic when you squeal and run to Nat who was in the kitchen and excitedly tell her what Bucky did, and he smiles as he hears the excitement and emotion in your voice. 

“Doll.” He calls out. 

“Hey Doll.” He laughs when he hears you adoring the bear. 

“Oh god, oh god, I thought i ended the call when you fell asleep.” You facepalm as you hear his laugh. Natasha laughs as you exit the kitchen throwing a banana to her head which she catches before it does the minimal damage. 

“And have me miss the cutest reaction?” Bucky raises an eyebrow, “No way.” 

“I’m so happy, I just, I’ve, you know right?” You remind him about the conversation about previous relationships over your weight and shape. 

“Don’t have to worry about that with me, beautiful. I absolutely adore my doll.” He sends over a flying kiss and you catch it. 

You give him a flying kiss and well and he catches it and does a full show of placing it in his pocket. 

So now Bucky has a plan to keep you distracted and awake. The timer for the premiere shifts to one minute and Bucky begins talking about the latest batch of coding but you can’t pay attention because he’s doing that thing. 

That thing with his fingers and lips and face where all you can do is watch, as he moves his fingers over his lips, along his five o clock shadow and jaw. Oh he knows what he’s doing. He knows. 

Something about python is being said but you couldn’t really pay attention. 

The teasing had been back and forth, which had only started one day when he send you a video from the gym, so in reality he started it. 

The video was of a floor press and he even send you the three digits on the dumbbell that he was raising up against gravity and your jaw was on the floor. 

And naturally, naturally your brain malfunctioned and typed out a nsfw response and send it before you could do anything and he read it before you could unsend it. Bucky smirked he didn’t know you have such a filthy mind. 

He knew the dirty jokes or the innuendos but that one sentence had him imagining what he would do to you. Solely based on the message you sent which started the whole teasing back and forth. So according to him you started it.

You bite your lip as he moves his fingers over his neck and then back to his lips. 

“Doll? Did you hear what I asked?” He raises one eyebrow cockily. He knows you didn’t hear shit. You aren’t even paying attention that the show has started. 

“I um, yeah…” you lie, what was the harm. 

“Really, doll, did you really hear me?” His voice dips in baritone, deep and rich that surges through you. 

You keen, shaking your head to admit you did not comprehend a word. 

“Oh Doll, what am I going to do with you? Maybe I should let you run your lips wherever my fingers just were, you want to do that don’t you?” He questions, he’s removed the third screen so now its only you and him. 

You swallow dryly. 

“Tell me, or should I have my lips on your skin?” He smirks as you shiver at the prospect. 

He was going to take this slow, these were uncharted waters for the two of you, a new aspect of your relationship. 

“Use your words, baby.” He prompts again. 

“Y-yes.” You squeak out. 

“Yes what doll? You want to explore my skin? Or you want me to explore yours? Tell me, tell me exactly how you want this to go. If you want to stop let me know.” He watches you intently azure eyes deepening with lust for you. 

“Want, I want to explore your skin.” You say, he smiles. 

“Good girl, so good for me. Where would you start from?” He puts the phone down where you can still see him clearly. 

“From your temple, trail them to your jaw.” You inform, watching as he closes his eyes and tracings his index and middle finger along where you’ve spoken of your lips. 

“Keep going.” He instructs and you feel your clit pulse. 

“Both sides of your neck, then along the v of the t-shirt and,”

He opens his eyes, his chest rising and falling a little quicker. 

“I’d, I’d take off your shirt.” You say, and watch as he takes off his shirt.

“Feel so soft against my skin, baby. So hard for you.” He praises, you feel yourself grow wetter as he trails his hand over his upper body as you say, even over the scars that you would kiss. His dog tags glimmer against his skin. Your eyes drinking in every bit of him.

“You’re beautiful,” You breathe as you admire him, every surface of him just breathtaking. 

You squirm when he smirks, “Will you do as I say doll? Will you be a good girl for me? Pleased me so well.” He says and watches as you bite your lip, nodding eagerly. 

“Only with you. Trust you completely.” You tell him and he smiles warmly. 

“Thank you for trusting me, Doll.” He watches as you shift nervously in anticipation. 

“Set the phone down,” You maintain eye contact as you set down your phone but keeping your upper body in frame. 

“Run your left hand’s fingers along your jaw, eyes closed.” Bucky instructs. You follow, a small whimper escaping as your skin heats at his words. 

“Slowly undo the buttons of your PJs, such beautiful skin, can’t wait to mark it as mine, you’d like that wouldn’t you? Me littering your skin with love-bites, letting everyone know you’re mine.” 

“Yes, please.” You whimper at his words.

“Go on play with your nipples get them hard for me.” Bucky watches, as your shirt falls halfway off your shoulders, the light illuminating you oh so beautifully. He wishes he was there; exploring your skin with his hand and mouth. 

“Look at you so pretty, so fucking beautiful, following everything I say, are you wet for me baby? Go on, check.” He coaxes you and you run your fingers along your slick folds, whimpering you nod. 

“Gotta show me baby, need to see how wet you’ve gotten for me.” 

You watch his arm move to unbuckle his jeans he moves his hand along his cock, hissing at the contact and then groaning as he watches your fingers glisten in the light. 

“All for me?” 

“All for you, James.”

He groans again, “Touch yourself baby, tell me what do you want me to do?” 

You begin to circle your clit, a mewl escaping your lips. Your skin flushed, Bucky watches as your breasts rise and fall with each breath. 

“Such pretty sounds, bet I could make you scream louder with just my fingers inside you. You would like that right? Fuck just thinking about your warm, tight cunt makes me want to cum, but gotta hold off need to make you feel good.” he says, “go on, make faster circles over your clit, gather your slick.” 

You follow every word. 

“Flick your nipples, keep them hard.”

Your back arches at the sensations, heat blooms in your stomach as you feel your orgasm building. You watch Bucky with hooded eyes his movements gaining momentum. Whimpers and soft moans of his name. 

“Look at you, so beautiful, so fucking beautiful and those pretty little sounds, fuck.”

“Want; want my mouth around your cock.” You say and Bucky groans. 

“Fuck, baby, you look so pretty, you’re close aren’t you? Go on trace the letters of my name on your clit.” 

You whimper the movements foreign but so good as you write his name onto your clit.

“Fuck-fuck, James—,” You arch up again your orgasm even closer. 

“Go faster baby need to cum, you want to cum for me don’t you? Be a good girl and cum for me.”  

His words reach your core and you cum hard with a chorus of his name, breathless and blissfully you watch his mouth part as he moans your name, his hand stroking over his cock imagining fucking your pretty little mouth with your sweet eyes looking up at him. 

He makes a mess of his hand and looks up at you, smirking when he hears your moan at seeing him come undone. 

“So good for me baby. Can’t wait to taste you. Going to stay buried between your thighs.” 

You look away, flustered and your shyness creeping into your chest. 

“Doll, we’ve gotta clean up okay? Then I’ll make sure you fall asleep, did so well for me, haven’t cum that hard in years. Absolutely feral for you.” He admits and you preen under his praise following his guidance to clean up and then you tuck yourself into bed. You give him a soft sleepy smile. 

“You enjoyed it, right?” Bucky questions, worried if he did anything wrong. 

“I did Bucky, did you?”

“So much Doll, I don’t think I can ever encompass how fucking sexy you are into a sentence.” He admits and you hide your face in the pillow. 

“No, no hiding from me, you’re fucking beautiful baby and I’m going to make sure when I meet you, you will feel me even afterwards.” He assures with that devilish smirk. 

“First we’ll have to see if I can take you, I don’t know if you’ll fit.” You blush as you admit to your worry. 

“Oh you can take me baby, I’ll fit inside your sweet warm cunt.” He promises. 

Then a lightbulb goes off in your sleep and orgasm hazed mind. 

“We missed the premiere.” You pout. 

“We will watch it tomorrow at a reasonable hour now sleep or do I need to wear you out more?” He licks his lips and your clit pulses but you shake your head. 

“Good girl. Now I’m here till you fall asleep. Sweet dreams my doll.” He adores you as you begin to drift off trusting him in this moment. 

“Only sweet when you’re in my dreams.” You mumble before pulling the bear he gave closer and being pulled in by slumber. 

In the second month of dating him, you realised you are in love with James Barnes. It wasn’t some big moment or him staying awake the night keeping a video call on so he’d know you’re okay while you were down with the viral flu. 

Nor was is in the soft gasps of your name, in moments that pooled warmth in your belly. 

Maybe it was just one day your gaze lingered upon him as he worked on the code while you studied, and you could see everything with him. All of those future milestones. Everything with your Bucky.

You yet had to say the three words, trying to understand and come up with a way to make the moment even more meaningful. Something that would be a memory for him to hold onto in moments where you couldn’t be there to get to him first.

The thoughts of him that occupy your mind in the middle of the class break when your phone begins to vibrate in your pocket. Bucky was video calling? 

You did the mental math, it was five a.m. for him. Furrowing your brows you tuck your phone back into the pocket standing up and requesting the professor to let you out to use the washroom.

Once out of the classroom you jog to the washroom, quickly answering the call.

“Hey Bucky—,”

“No, no, no, get them out!” Bucky’s distressed voice fills the washroom. You can only make out his ceiling which is shakily into view.

“Bucky?” You ask again, getting worried.

“Please, we need to fall back, get me the fucking order!” 

You hear a thump and the screen gets covered in black but his sobs reach you.

“James? James! It’s me, please please wake up, you’re having a nightmare.” You try to say loud enough incase you were muffled by the pillow. 

“Bucky please, try to come out of it, you’re here with me. With your doll.” His sobs don’t relent, you run a hand down your face, sweat beading along your forehead and dipping down you neck.

The pillow moves and you can see the ceiling again.

“Bucky? Bucky!” You call out again and the phone moves. A flash of white on the screen as Alpine looks down at you.

“Hey, Alpine, I don’t know if you will understand this but push the phone towards your dad’s head please—, Alpine no not—,” The call cuts off as Alpine boops her nose towards the screen.

“Shit, shit, shit.” You call back the line ringing and your distress growing hoping he doesn’t panic seeing your name if the call wakes him from his nightmare.

Alpine jumps on Bucky’s chest as the phone rings under her. He sits up running a tired hand along his head, and then reaching for the phone. 

“Pick up, pick up, pick up,” Your voice fills his room as he answers worry taking over him at your tone.

“Doll? Are you okay?” He peers at you, trying to get a visual if you’re physically fine.

“Oh god, oh thank god, you’re okay. Fuck.” You slide down against the wall, releasing a long exhale. 

“Me?” he questions, brows furrowed in confusion.

“You called, I, think you were having a nightmare… I got worried because you sounded in distress and pain and then Alpine came in and she sat on the phone I think—,”

“Baby, breathe.” Bucky requests.

You pause your thoughts and ramblings, taking an inhale then exhale. 

“I’m sorry I worried you, I’ll keep my phone away the next—,”

“No. No you aren’t going to do that, and Bucky even if by mistake you dialled my number in distress I don’t care, I want to be there for you whenever you need me.” 

“But I don’t want you worrying this PTSD and nightmares are an issue for me to deal with alone—,”

“James, I love you. You aren’t alone in trying to navigate through this, sorry but when you asked me to be your girlfriend that includes moments when you want to isolate away.” You try to sound stern. 

Bucky’s eyes are wide and jaw slack. 

“What?” You worry again did you say something wrong. 

“You love me?” He asks and you close your eyes. 

“I was supposed to plan something nice to say it to you so it would be a happy memory.”

“Say it again.” The raw emotion in his voice tugs at your heart. 

“I love you.” You look intently into his cobalt gaze and becomes clouded with tears. 

“I love you.” He whispers, and you gaze at him with longing. 

“The lilies? They also signify a friendship turned into love.” He reminds you of the flowers. 

“Like us.” You realise, “Bucky, thats how long you knew?” 

“I had a feeling since we started talking didn’t say anything cause I was worried now I feel like an idiot for wasting precious time.” He shakes his head, chuckling. 

“I love you.” You tell him again because nothing else is able to convey what you can say to him how much weight those three words hold only the two of you know. 

“I love you. These three words they hold so much weight, Doll. I don’t know what else to say.” He admits and you give him a watery smile cause you both are crying. 

Because somewhere along the roads that were filled with torment and storms you found each other.

Even though oceans separate you from him. 

Even though miles expand between the palms of your hands. 

You found each other. 

Gave each other the strength to fight everyday. 

Provided laughter in the midst of chaos that should leave you in tears. 

So even though he can’t hold you close to him and you can’t rest your head against his chest as you both confess the love you have for one another. 

Even if he can’t cup your face, bend down and kiss you with everything inside him. 

Both of you know that he is bound to you and you are bound to him by three simple words. 

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I had such fun reading fic in April and want to say a great big THANK YOU to the writers on this list. You are incredible, thank you for sharing your works on this hellsite. ❤️

This list is alphabetical by fandom (mostly), then by character. Summaries and warnings are included as provided by the authors (with minimal additions when I couldn't find stories on masterlists).

Read what you like and share what you love!

2022 reading list | fic rec masterlist

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Marvel

sixty seconds. by @xbuchananbarnes Bucky Barnes AU. A bar, a bottle of whiskey, and two hearts on the mend.

Life on Hold by @firefly-in-darkness Bucky Barnes x Reader Y/N is pulled out of retirement by Fury, and Bucky is the one to break the news. Warnings: 18+. Fluff, Angst, Smut. Swearing.

lost the game by @nexusnyx TASM!Peter Parker x F!Reader You’re a nobody who happens to live in the same city as the ‘friendly neighborhood Spider-Man’, who is most definitely somebody. You are… friends. Closer than strangers, even though you’ve never seen his face or know his name. The tension between you and Spidey grows, and it grows, and it grows. One day, it snaps. Warnings: This work is for 18+ audiences. Minors DNI. Explicit descriptions of sex (f/m). I do not give permission for my work to be used or distributed in other sites.

Star Spangled Sinner by @cockslut-padalecki 40!Steve Rogers x Star Spangled Singer!Reader You catch Steve doing something he shouldn't. Warnings: voyeurism, explicit sexual content, jealous!reader, Steve is a little slut, oral sex (male receiving), female masturbation, (slight) size kink, unprotected sex (wrap it before you tap it kids), mention of multiple orgasms, mention of cream pies, 18+.

Why Can't We Be Friends? by @cockslut-padalecki Alpha!Steve Rogers x Omega!F!Reader Steve has an illogical dislike of you, for reasons you're unsure of. But when you find yourself at the apartment he shares with Bucky, and your heat begins to present itself, it's only a matter of time until Steve's Alpha instincts take over. Warnings: explicit sexual content, a/b/o dynamics, knotting, claiming, hate-fucking, enemies to lovers, female masturbation, unprotected sex (wrap it before you tap it kids), multiple orgasms, forced orgasm, slight Dom!Steve, tiny amount of fluff, 18+.

Supernatural

Choices by @talesmaniac89 Dean x Reader OR Sam x Reader Choices is an interactive Supernatural choose your own adventure story where your choices determine the outcome.  You go on a hunt with the two Winchester brothers, one of whom you love. You decide who your Winchester is and what happens along the way. Each part is a fully independently written section and no parts are copies of others, so the story can be read a full 8 different ways with 15 parts in total and 8 endings! Triggers: Dark, torture, reader death, angst, loss, pain, blood, serious injuries, heartbreak, implied possible major character death, fear of abandonment, loneliness, hostage situation, gore (series levels blood, torture and fatal injuries)

Hunter/Hunted by @talesmaniac89 Dean Winchester x Reader Dean has grown tired of your game of cat and mouse. He's ready to show you he's a hunter. And tonight, you're his prey. Warnings: Smut, Penetrative sex, unprotected sex (nothing overly descriptive due to word count restrictions), Possessiveness, Slightly Dom!Dean, Hints at edging, Praise kink

Go Before You Say Goodbye by @dean-winchester-is-a-warrior Dean Winchester x Y/N Dean tells Y/N to go. Sam tells Y/N Dean wants her to stay. Who will she listen to, or should she just listen to her heart? Warnings: Explicit 18+. Implied smut. Smut. Kissing. Necking! Over the clothes rubbing. Angst! Dean being an ass. Sad Dean.

Bitten by @covered-byroses Dean Winchester x Reader Warnings: NSFW, Biting, Smut

Badass Is A Turn On by @fluffiest-dreams Sam Winchester x F!Reader Sam had a helpful realization mid battle.

Cuffed by @princessmisery666 Sam Winchester x F!Reader Dean has to rescue Sam and Y/N from a compromising position. Warnings: smut, Sam Winchester being obscenely hot and a puppy dog at the same time, banter, crack-ish maybe.

The Mandalorian/Din Djarin

Awkward NSFW by @221bshrlocked You walk in on a naked Mandalorian. Warnings: in the very title

Outer Banks/JJ Maybank

One Last Sunset by @princessmisery666 JJ's so focused on what he doesn't have he can't see what's right in front of him. You spend a whole summer trying to show him but it takes more than surf lessons for him to see that stupid things have good outcomes all the time. Warnings: fluff, angst, language, violence, attempted assault, canon/mentioned/implied child abuse.

RPF

Twitterpated by @smol-and-grumpy Jensen Ackles x Reader Y/N starred alongside Jensen in a new blockbluster movie. For promo, they get invited to read thirst tweets. What if most of the tweets are from Y/N? Warnings: Flustered Jensen, dirty tweets, rough sex, daddy kink

Best Laid Plans by @thinkinghardhardlythinking Jensen Ackles x F!Reader Wedding planner rom-com fic but Jensen is our leading man. Y/N is a wedding planner, hired to plan the wedding of the mean girl bully that made her life hell back at school. But who's that guy over there, in the Impala from that show she likes? Warnings: each chapter warns accordingly.

HAPPY READING!

[between-a-ship-and-a-hard-place]

This week, one year ago, I posted the first chapter of my first-ever completed fic. Since then I've added some 200k words to my AO3 portfolio. I would not have gotten this far without this little corner of this hellsite and the lovely and encouraging people I've met here.

So I thought, let's celebrate! ✨🎈

How you ask? Why with creation and WIP-procrastination, of course!

Send me an ask with:

a flavor of Steve/Bucky (pre-war, shrunkyclunks, AU, whatever you fancy)

a quote/line from a poem/saying/song lyric

and I will create something for you, be it a ficlet, drabble, moodboard, edit.

yours,

Em

1. East Coast Swing, 2k, T

2. I'm not as broken as some made me out to be, 2,8k, T

3. human on my faithless arm, 0,4k, T

4. They Say You Shouldn't Meet Your Heroes, 4k, M

5. how I loved you? like this, 0,8k, M

6. it's bloody and raw (but I swear it is sweet), 3,6k, E