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analogwriting · 9 days ago
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The Other Side of Paradise
Chapter 9: whatthehellishappening?
Killer x gn!reader word count: 2.6k a/n: cheat sheet for the group chat - giggles is Gigs; papas fritas is Papas; queen of munchkin land is Dive; emme fatale is emma; get rekt is Reck also i hope i do this right but taglist?: @tremendoushorsepatrolgoth, @h0n3y-l3m0n05
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As you neared the building, you felt anxiety building up inside of you. You weren't exactly confrontational nor were you confident. Hell, you hated having attention on you. Unless it was your boyfriend but that was different. 
Well, depending on how the following events were going to happen, he might be your first, and only, ex. You knew that if Killer was going to do this to you and it was real, you'd never be able to trust anyone ever again let alone enough to be in a new relationship. You'd rather be single for the rest of your life. 
And it just might piss you off enough that you extract some kind of revenge. Who knows.
“Try to hope for the best.” Dive piped up from next to you and you looked at her, nodding. She was right. You couldn't flood your mind with what ifs right now. You had to hope this was all some insane misunderstanding or something.
However, you were expecting the worst. You weren't going to get your hopes up. 
When you walked in, a woman with long black hair was behind the desk . She didn’t even bother looking up. “Welcome in, do you have an appointment?” Her tone sounded bored.
Hop was the one to speak up, knowing you had serious anxiety when it came to confrontation. 
“We don't have an appointment, but we're here to talk to someone.”
“I can't let you in without an appointment.”
“C'mon. We just need to talk to Killer and his crew.”
The woman scoffed, rolling her eyes. “You and every other fan.”
“No. This is his partner.” She gestured to you.
You gave a sheepish wave and the woman looked you up and down before laughing. “Heard that one before.” She snorted, shaking her head. 
“Killer is dating a celebrity and you're obviously not her.”
You felt your soul crush in that moment and you regretted coming along. You regretted all of this. Sickness built up in the back of your throat.
Anger seeped from Hop. “That's because he was dating them when this happened. He cheated on them and we're here to get some goddamn answers.”
The woman seemed unphased like she'd truly seen it all. As if this was a normal thing. “Yeah. Sure. Well, either way. He's not dating them now. So leave before I call security.”
Panic was hitting you. Humiliation. You wanted nothing more than to crawl in a hole and die. 
“No, not until I speak with Killer!”
“He's not here anyway. He's at his current girlfriend's house. You know. The one he cares enough to flaunt about.” She rolled her eyes. “I’m sure if he actually cared about your little friend, we would’ve heard about them, hm? So you and his ‘ex’ get out of my damn lobby.”
You heard loud laughing from down the hallway and there came the boys. You immediately froze in place, you and your friends. They were laughing and pushing each other around - like they always had. Kid being absolutely loud, Killer and Wire quietly smiling, Heat cackling like no tomorrow. 
They stopped across the room from you, looking at the four of you. Killer paled as if he had seen a ghost - they all did. Before any of you could act, they hurried away. No. That wasn’t right. Something was wrong. They wouldn’t… You could feel the anger radiating off of Hop once more.
“See? They want nothing to do with you. Even if they were to know who you are. Now get out of my lobby.”
Hop stepped towards where the boys went but you grabbed her arm. Something inside of you snapped and numbness washed over your body. “Let’s just go.” Your voice was barely above a whisper. You wanted nothing more than to get out of here. You heard Dive sniffle next to you. You looked over, tears forming in her eyes too. You looked at Bubblegum, the hurt and anger showing on his face as well. 
“It’s best if we just go.” You looked at Hop. You saw the anger in her eyes dim a little and she sighed, nodding. “Fine.” 
The four of you left quietly. Not a word was spoken as you climbed into the car and headed home.
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The car ride home was silent aside from the music playing quietly just to fill the silence. Hop was stewing, Dive was crying on and off, Bubblegum was brooding, and you were…you weren’t sure. You didn’t feel like this was real. Nothing felt real. How could they throw away two decades worth of relationships down the drain? 
You’d known them the longest, obviously. But they still knew everyone else for quite a while. Hop, Bubblegum, and Dive being the oldest friendships they had outside of you. It wasn’t like they were tossing away a couple months worth of friendships.
When you arrived at the trio’s house, you immediately beelined to the room you had been crashing in while Killer was gone. You locked yourself in there, everything finally pouring out of you. 
You weren’t sure how long your emotional breakdown lasted or when exactly you passed out from it, but you woke up to knocking on your door. “Y/n?” It was Hop. 
You slowly sat up, realizing you never made it to the bed, you had just been curled up on the floor. You looked around; several things had been broken, pictures had been ripped apart. It seemed you just had a crashout. You could only imagine now the others were feeling.
As you moved, your body felt like it was full of sand. You moved slow, your movements stiff. Everything hurt, your head was pounding. Hell, even your vision was a little blurry. 
Another knock, a little more concern behind it.
“I’m coming,” you mumbled. “Just…trying to move.”
“Take your time.” Hop’s voice was soft.
Eventually, you made it to your feet and to the door. You opened it, revealing not just Hop, but the other two as well. “How was feelin’, bud?” Bubblegum was the one that spoke. Concern stretched across their faces. 
You sighed, nodding. “I’m…alive. I guess.” You put your hands on your hips.
“Well, Bubblegum updated everyone in the group chat. Everyone’s pissed and distraught. Naturally so,” Hop said, her eye twitching. You knew she wanted to tear them apart limb from limb. 
“I made some cookies if you want some!” Dive piped up, smiling up at you. You smiled weakly back at her. “Thank you. That sounds wonderful actually.” 
From the look of Hop and Bubblegum, however, it seemed that wasn’t the move. Then you remembered the last time she made cookies and they turned out to be hockey pucks. You began to backpedal real fast. “I should probably eat some actual food first.”
Dive seemed satisfied with that answer. “True. I can make-”
“No!” The three of you suddenly exclaimed all at once. You went for a not-so-smooth recovery. “Ah, why don’t we go out to eat something? I’m sure we’re all exhausted and honestly something incredibly unhealthy and disgusting sounds fantastic.”
Dive rolled her eyes. “If you don’t want me to cook, just say it.” She shook her head, turning to head down the hallway.
The three of you sighed in relief. Sometimes she took that well, sometimes she didn’t. The last time the three of you said you didn’t want her to cook, you all woke up with some crazy contraption that set off when you woke up and doused you in water and feathers.
It took forever to clean up. The three of you treaded lightly ever since. Maybe she decided to have mercy in light of recent events. Either way, the three of you hoped she wasn’t going to do anything. She always liked to wait until you least expected it.
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The four of you chose to go to the new diner that had popped up in town within the last couple of months. You had hoped to bring Killer here but now that was never happening and you couldn’t bring yourself to go to the usual diner. Too many memories and everything still hurts.
The three of them talking about nothing while you racked your head trying to make sense of things. Why was this happening? Did their heads really get that big? Did they really go the cliche route of forgetting their friends when they finally made it? Something felt wrong. The looks on their faces when they say you - like they had seen a ghost.
Well, you supposed the four of you probably were ghosts of their pasts now. Nothing more than memories. Did they even think about you guys? Did they really just put all those years of struggling and support down the drain? Anger began to fill you. No more sadness, no numbness. Just pure, unadulterated rage. Now, more than ever, you wanted fucking answers. Did they really not have the balls to tell you to your face? To face any of you?
“Y/n?” 
You were yanked out of your thoughts and brought back to reality. You looked down to see you had completely bent your fork out of the anger you were feeling. 
“Oh. Sorry.” You worked on trying to straighten it back out.
“What are you thinking about?” Hop’s words were slow, careful. 
“About how those fucking cowards didn’t even have the fucking guts to face us. Who the fuck does that? Years of nothing but support from us and this is how they react? We even go as far as to go and see them and they can’t even nut up and face us? Oh my god I’m fucking pissed.” You let out a laugh of disbelief.
Hop looked relieved to see you like this. You were sure she was unsure what you’d do in your saddened state.
It was all coming to you at once. If they wanted to do that, then you could do the same.
“I’m going to sell the house. I’m going to donate all of their shit.” You were fuming as everything hit you. The anger stage of grief. “If they want us out of their lives then fucking fine. I’m not going to waste my time crying about it. I’m almost done with college. I’ll fuck off and do something better.” Sure, it was going to suck not having the one you loved most next to you.
“But I want him to know that this won’t break me. Maybe it’s some weird fuckin’ fantasy. I don’t want to just mope around.” You clenched your jaw as you felt your anger settle in and plant a seed. “I want revenge.”
Bubblegum spoke up, snorting. “Alright. I’m all for the villain arc. But, how the hell are we going to do that? We couldn't even see them and I’m sure they’re gonna have people keeping an eye out for us.”
You deflated a little. You hadn’t thought that far. “I’m not sure yet, but I’m sure it’ll come to me,” you grumbled as you stuck another bite of food in your mouth with your mangled fork.
“Well, when you figure it out, let us know. We’re in,” Hop said. The other two nodded. You looked at them all for a moment. You were so lucky to have them. The others too. Without them, you weren’t sure you would’ve made it through this. You were going to make sure you turn the boys’ world upside down. For all of you.
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That night, you surprisingly slept like a rock. You were determined and full of hatred but the pure emotion was making you exhausted. You slept so hard your dreams were filled with nothingness. Not a single dream to be had.
You woke up relatively early the next morning, filled with determination and vigor. It was time to pack up your house. You teetered back and forth from selling everything or just donating it. You didn’t want to bother with all of this more than you had to.
You texted the group chat. 
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You rolled your eyes and smiled as the phone popped off for a little bit. You moved to get ready. You showered before checking your phone again, finally saying something else after thumbing through what was said before you left.
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You once again shoved your phone in your pocket as you went to eat some breakfast. You were the only one awake or here. Hop went back to work, Bubblegum was still asleep.
“Makin’ breakfast?” Dive shuffled into the kitchen, stretching and groaning. “What are we gonna eat?”
“Well, I was just gonna make some loaded hash browns.”
“Load me up.”
You snorted at her dumb joke as she sat at the kitchen island, waiting for you to cook. You decided to open up your phone again and respond one more time before locking in to breakfast.
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You snorted at Dive’s shitty joke as you started on making breakfast. You looked in the fridge, making a mental note to go shopping later. You forgot that the lot of you had just been on vacation but everything was mostly empty. Someone must’ve gotten the most basic supplies yesterday or while you were in breakdown mode. 
You scrounge up what you could, beginning with breakfast. 
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After breakfast, you set out to the house. Dive asked if you wanted her to go, but you wanted to face it by yourself for now. You weren’t sure how you were going to take being in there. You wanted to face it alone before you dragged everyone else with you.
As you arrived at the house, you heard a car skrrt in behind you. You turned around as you reached for the handle.
“Y/N, IF YOU SO MUCH AS TOUCH THAT HANDLE WITHOUT US I’M GOING TO CRASH OUT.”
You jump, turning around to see Hop climbing out of her car with Dive and Bubblegum. Ah, Dive must’ve sent an SOS. You should’ve guessed. 
“What the hell are you thinking? Doing this without us? Fuckin’ please.” Hop rolled her eyes.
“Well, I wasn’t sure how-”
“Doesn’t matter. We’re in this together now. Plus, it’ll be faster if we’re all here, yeah?”
Then you saw a few more cars pull in and around the house. You blink, confused. You watched as all your friends began to pile out of the cars. 
“Figured it’d be faster if we were all here than you posting pictures of shit to have people claim it.” Hop grinned at you. 
You felt tears well in your eyes. “You all didn’t have to do this…”
“We used your house for yeeears as a hang out spot. The least we could do is help you out a lil bit,” Papas said as he came down the driveway. 
You sniffled, quickly wiping away your tears. “Well…then I guess we’ll do this together.” You turned back around, opening the house for the first time in months.
Naturally, everything looked the same. It still looked exactly how you left it. Since everyone had switched to going in and out of the other place, you had locked up your house. No one used it anymore, so a nice layer of dust covered everything.
Hop and Bubblegum began to go around, opening windows.
“Let’s get started then,” you said with a nod of determination.
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dakotameh · 2 years ago
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What they talkin about
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eeios · 11 months ago
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Today? I offer you a slug limace.
Tomorrow in two months from now? Who knows. . .. .
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itsyourstarboy · 1 year ago
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That one DDLC fan song but its Love/Marcus
This one
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assortedvillainvault · 1 year ago
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HOOOOOO
Lads I am in Art Mode which is great as the con I'm tabling at is less than a month away and I have. No. Prints.
So yeah procrastinating by scrolling on Tumblr as I have:
- 7 prints
- at least 2 bookmarks (I mean y'know if the stars align I was hoping for *22 bookmark designs idk it could happen)
- 6 (9? Maybe) more stickers
- 5 notebook vinyl arts to design thennn....at least 5 of each design to actually make so 25 notebooks at least?
Those are the Essentials I guess tho if I have more time I'd like the following as well:
- vinyl printed tote bags
- a tearaway pad design
- autobot flag design
Soooo... Yeah Tumblr asks are quiet for now while I serenely spiral into transformers con prep hell but love you all - waving through the screen rn.
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thatoneluckybee · 9 months ago
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You really had me worried for a second, Bee. But your new php and username is genius
Tumblr is a very simple platform
And you can screw with it soooo easily >:3
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askxroverxthexcat · 2 years ago
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Hey Rover can I hug you?
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"I don't get hugged much, so they're very much welcomed!"
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hinamie · 4 months ago
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to moving forward
#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#jjk fanart#jujutsu kaisen fanart#jjk art#yuji itadori#gojo satoru#fushiguro megumi#nobara kugisaki#itadori yuuji#megumi fushiguro#jjk spoilers#satoru gojo#jjk manga spoilers#hina.comic#before any1 says anything i KNOw his birthday is in december ik ik ik this is just 2 show some post-battle bonding after the trauma#its winter in canon n megumi's birthday has passed and he spent it being piloted like a mech so they need to celebrate Now!!#also this was technically a request lmao anon wanted megumi birthday angst hehehehhe i hope u like it <3 bc it KILLED ME DEAD#im going to collapse remember when i said this wasnt harder than the hydrangeas im having second thoughts#page 8 made me want to bash my head in#could have stuck with one flashback image could have left them monochrome could have done literally anything 2 ease the workload#but noooo the chronic overachiever in me would not allow it#rule of threes i had to include all of them and they Had to be in colour it wouldn't have hit the same if i had kept it monochrome#i needed it to look how childhood memories look i needed it to look oversaturated and hazy and fond but unmistakably Gone#it may have killed me but im so proud of this rn like from an art style perspective these megumis and yuujis r top tier by my standards#personal favourites r the first and last panel of crying megumi like not 2 pat myself on th back but expression?????? hello??????#enjoy your cake megumi you've earned it <333 sorry fr hurting ur feelings it will happen again#oh my god i can sleep tonight bless <333 and i met my 3 day deadline NICE im so good at what i do
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punkchihuahua · 1 year ago
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There's a part of me deep inside that has been dying a slow death for years now. I keep trying to revive it with words and metaphors but it only ever listens to the past. And whoever has dealt a losing hand with fate knows that the past only holds kindness while you are looking back on it with pity. So it was this , you fumbled through the pain with a half smile on your face, and all the cards in your hands were wrong. But no one told you it was a game. No one stopped you from eating the flesh from your fingers in hopes of finding a better hand. You didn't hope to be looked back on with pity, for you didn't hope at all. And someone said hope is stronger than fear , so what do I make of this hand that has survived despite the lack of it. Was it never meant to be here , or am I too vain for wanting a reason for its existence.  I know everyone has to play this game, but what consolation is familiarity when the deers stand trapped before the hunter. I can imagine the mirror with a bullet in its reflection and the body that doesn't walk away from it. I can imagine the hand that keeps holding itself tighter and tighter till nothing remains.
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auroryxborealis · 1 year ago
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hellooooo! sorry if i disappeared there for a bit, but i'm back again (: hmu if you wanna rp!
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tacc0yak1 · 4 months ago
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mhm he still got it 😎
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starryaike · 6 months ago
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Bagel
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suntails · 7 months ago
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GAME START
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chloelovesu · 6 months ago
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lorastyrels · 8 months ago
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You ever think, what if Death did catch us?
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kamiraaah · 2 months ago
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TWST PARENTS! Howl, Zigvolt and Viper!!
⚠️⚠️First of all, I must warn you that these designs may change in the future, either because the game presented us with the official designs, or just because I really wanted to change... Or I could reuse these designs for these characters!⚠️⚠️ Given that warning...
Guys, gals, and non-binary pals. I present to you, the Howl, Zigvolt, and Viper families!
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The Howl family, a close-knit and unique family in a way. Whether it's because of their personalities that always seem to clash but at the same time get along so easily.... Or because the children always seem to get into some adventure that may or may not be dangerous. Even Jack has a history of always getting into trouble as a child, something that he tries to prevent from happening to his younger siblings (and ends up failing a few times). Jack's family is extremely welcoming to travelers who visit Shaftland!... Or rather, Jack's mother is the most welcoming and charismatic of the small family nucleus, always appearing to be in a good mood, and is a peacemaker whenever things start to get out of hand. Jack's father is extremely suspicious of anyone outside the family, a typical lone wolf personality (something that Jack ended up inheriting), but he also ends up being the one who spoils his children the most... Okay, so Jack is no longer a little kid, but that won't stop him! He is also the one who ends up dealing most easily with his children's crises, especially Jack's younger brother, who now seems to be in a rebellious phase, and his younger sister who wants to be closer to her siblings... Sometimes it is complicated, but it is good that he has a loving wife who is by his side to help him.
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Ah yes, the Zigvolt family… Now that's a family that always seems to be involved in something unbelievable. We don't even need to comment on the scandal that occurred when Sebek's mother decided to marry a human, nothing that would really change the young Zigvolt's mind, or even the shock when Baul's wife was the first to bless the couple's union! No one expected a fae like her to be the first to defend the couple, but those close to her already suspected that she had an affection for humans. After all, she also demanded that Lilia share the stories of his travels, whether in person or by letter (how she found out where he was is a mystery to this day)… Also, she was the one who helped Baul be less… extreme, against them, in a way. The wedding was a big event that caught the attention of many people in the kingdom, much to Baul's dismay, who wanted it to be something more private, just between family and a few close friends… But he couldn't hold back the tears when he saw his daughter's happiness. Sebek and his siblings ended up spending a lot of time with their grandparents, and with that, the olderbrother and sister ended up inheriting a bit of their grandmother's playful and bold personality. And whenever they can, they end up teasing the youngest in different ways, saying that he is too serious for his age, or that he has to quickly get out of this rebellious phase against his own father (nothing extremely serious, they just do this so that their brother can enjoy this new phase of his life).
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The Vipers have a complicated history... Mrs. Viper was born and raised within the walls of the Asim mansion, so a lot of the things she was taught ended up, in one way or another, affecting her relationship with her children. She loves them more than anything in the world but... Some teachings are too hard to forget. Mr. Viper has worked at the Asim mansion since childhood, and ended up getting close to and falling in love with the young Viper and, despite all her warnings, he decided to get married and carry the burden of the Viper name alongside his beloved. Promising himself that he would do everything to bring some happiness to his children and his wife. The dance was something that Mrs. Viper insisted on becoming a family tradition, whether on special occasions like birthdays or as a way to help everyone understand and express themselves. Mr. Viper created a small tradition of doing everyone's hair almost every day, were to teach his children how to do more elaborate hairstyles,to talk about everything or nothing to relax or whether to comfort them after a hard day… Even in difficult times, the Viper family is very loyal to themselves, always looking out for each other's safety even if it costs them their own, whether in a direct or indirect way.
AND MORE FAMILIES DONE!! And I'm still going to draw pictures of other members of the TWST families, so please bear with me a little… I'm going as fast as I can! 🙃
I took a long time with the designs again and I got carried away with the drawings…😅 And... Can you tell I'm not good at creating clothes? Anyway! I hope you enjoy them, and feel free to share your headcanons! <3
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