#hehe should I bleach my hair?

[wewontbesleeping]

I need blonde hair I think ……

[echo-starflower]

If you get this, answer w/ three random facts about yourself and send it to the last seven blogs in your notifs. anon or not, doesn’t matter, let’s get to know the person behind the blog!

Hello!!!! Thank you for the ask mystery person!! ^w^

Three fun facts about me! o(^▽^)o

1. I play three different instruments! In order of proficiency: Piano, Ukulele, and Ocarina! I’m also learning guitar and violin! though out of all music things singing is my favorite haha! (I also play kazoo and ottamatone but both of those are just for the memes heh)

2. I’ve been playing dungeons and dragons since I was 11! I learned at hacker camp and went back home bursting with energy at the idea of getting to wield magic and go on adventures with my friends! Been playing regularly since then and it’s led to meeting so many fascinating people world wide I never would have otherwise! Including my best friend!

And finally 3! I have dyed my hair 11 times! (Not counting touch ups) it’s been pink 6 times (including currently!) purple 2 times and blue three! (Does blue count if it always turns out greenish gray? /silly)

[oh-gh0st]

can next weekend come by any faster

[dawnisdreamlanding]

CHAPTER 1

Ghost x Reader x Konig

(Neighbour!au and Roommate!au cause I can't get enough of them hehe)

Also like for this fic just don't mind how this would actually never happen in real life + don't think too much about the logic in this story. It's all purely fictional and for your entertainment :)

You want to go home.

Your apartment keys jingle as they hang from your fingers. Room 409. You sigh. It’s been a long day, to say the least. All you want to do is to just relax and unwind like you would any other Friday with a glass of wine and that dumpster fire of a Netflix show that is ‘Emily in Paris’. You let out another long sigh waiting for the elevator to reach the lobby. At least Emily lives a much more exciting and drama-filled life than you did with your 9 to 5 job.

You stare at your feet, trying to find something to pass the time that seems to drag on for forever. Your feet are already killing you from your high heels that you’ve been wearing for over 9 hours. Usually, you would be home by 7 — it’s 11 — especially on a Friday. Laura, a close coworker of yours went on pregnancy leave, meaning you’re working more hours to cover her absence.

Your phone buzzes with a reminder from your calendar app — oh great, it’s already 12. ‘RENT PAYMENT DUE IN A WEEK.’ You haven’t found a roommate to occupy that extra bedroom in your apartment even after 2 months of your listing being put online. Granted, you should’ve started looking for a new roommate the moment your previous one told you they were moving out, but you were too busy for that! You tap your foot impatiently. How long does it take for an elevator to travel up 2 floors from the carpark to the lobby?

The elevator doors open with a ‘ding!’ and you’re met with the giant of a man that is this mysterious guy wearing all black. His brown hair and matching brown eyes make him dashing and the scars littering on his face adds on to his good looks somehow. “’s rude to stare, love.” His gruff voice snaps you out of it. “R-right, sorry.” To say he was intimidating was an understatement, but god was he good looking.

When you’re both in the elevator, the usual smell of the clean, bleached scent is replaced with the smell of cigarettes and an undertone of gunpowder? Whatever it is, you much prefer it over the smell of bleach you’ve been used to for months. The elevator ride is silent and you both get off the same floor to go our separate ways… except he was following you!

You get a little bit nervous as anyone would if a tall, maybe 190cm buff guy was following you a few steps behind. “What apartment you in?” You say with panic filling your body with each step. Oh god, you don’t wanna die yet! “410.” He responds. “Oh.” Well, that makes more sense.

“I’m your neighbor then! Nice to meet you.” You smile and introduce yourself. He hums in response. “Simon Riley.” He says, nodding at you in acknowledgement. You would like to chat with this guy more, but he doesn’t strike you as talkative, as if his short replies didn’t already tell you that.

You both turn the locks on your own apartment doors. “Next time, you should really run if you think you’re in danger.” He chuckles a little to himself. You turn to look at him in shock, only to find he’s already disappeared into his apartment. So he did know! Asshole. You shake your head and enter your own apartment.

After showering, you scroll your phone on Instagram mindlessly when a notification pops up on your phone. Oh my god, someone responded to your listing! You waste no time in responding to them, despite it being ass-o-clock. You arrange to meet up with them in the afternoon, and you head to sleep hoping whoever this guy is will be a good roommate for you.

When you wake up, you’re a little behind schedule. Scrap that, VERY behind schedule. You haven’t cleaned up the apartment and made it presentable to your possible roommate yet, and you’re gonna meet him in 20 minutes downstairs! You hurriedly stuff all the clothes you find lying around in the living room into your own bedroom and clean the kitchen counters — you know the drill.

As soon as you’re done arranging the last piece of furniture in the living room, you rush out of the door, bumping into that neighbor you met last night. You give him a quick, “Morning, Simon!” before rushing past him, not even giving him time to greet you back.

Somehow by the grace of god, you’re right on time to meet the guy. You agree to meet him at the café right across your apartment complex, and holy fuck. There’s no way this 2 meter guy is your roommate. You both stare at each other awkwardly before you decide to go up to him. “Konig?” I say, and he nods. Oh he is.

[legoflowrs]

flowers can you some Stan headcanons🤭🤭🤭

HEADCANNONS

Stan Marsh

AGED UP TO 18 PEEPS

cw: drinking, smoking, drugs, abuse, slight nsfw, addiction

a/n: hehe i hope u like this ruby!!! also this is for anon and @wonyoungies-world that also requested stan head cannons <3

also again same with kyle in the regular head cannons style are together but in the relationship ones he’s with reader!

- Ok I have like two versions of Stan in my head. football Stan and emo loser Stan. I love both versions a lot lmao.

- Stan has a shitty relationship with his Dad. He loathes him for moving him away from his friends to tegridy farms. His Dad was very absent in his life so Stan has always felt extremely neglected.

- He absolutely adores Sharon . He’s such a mummas boy. He goes to her for everything.

- Stan is THE bisexual queen lol!

- His closet is just oversized sports tees and baggy jeans.

- I think his family is catholic but he isn’t a religious person at all.

- He had a weird relationship with Shelly growing up but as teenagers Shelly took Stan under her wing because she saw how Randy’s neglect affected him.

- He’s absolutely petrified of turning into Randy.

- Bleaches his hair at 3am drunk one night with Kyle so he looks less like his Dad.

- Bro has been in LOVE with Kyle forever.

- Thinks he’s super slick with it (he’s not).

- Didn’t wanna ruin the friendship.

- They kissed once at a party but didn’t speak about it.

- After they moved to the farm he stopped smoking weed cause it made him angry.

- Has a mullet for a while because Kenny influenced him.

- Saved up his pocket money for a shitty electric guitar and it his pride and joy.

- Loves playing music it’s an escape for him.

- Like I said in the Kenny head cannons, Stan forms a band for the second half of high school.

- Some of his favourite memories are with the band.

- Doesn’t hate coffee but doesn’t love it. Wendy put him onto chai lattes.

- Has a really good friendship with Kenny.

- Really struggled with alcohol abuse throughout high school. I think he didn’t wanna admit he needed help it made him feel weak.

- Loves blueberry muffins.

- Spends heaps of time playing minecraft with Kyle and Kenny.

- My guy is greasy, starts looking after himself when he hits 16.

- If he played sports he plays football and ice hockey.

- He’s really good at both but it’s not where his passion is.

- Soooo fond of animals. I think he’d volunteer at the same shelter karen does.

- Did not get out of bed for days when Sparky died.

- Kyle surprised him with a puppy after about a year of dating.

- Deftones enjoyer 😭

- Really struggled with depression. Didn’t go on meds until Kyle literally begged him.

- His guilty pleasure is painting (HERE ME OUT ON THIS ONE).

- Sets up a little corner of his garage with an easel and spends a lot of time there.

- Always has headphones in.

- Went to rehab right before college.

- Really struggled to figure out what his direction in life should be.

- I think he went into veterinary work!! Switched to animal and plant conservation after he realised he couldn’t deal with putting pets down.

- Worked at the library for a while, he liked the peace and quiet.

- Started helping Heidi and Kyle with the community garden.

- Quarterback obviously lol.

- His favourite breakfast food is pancakes.

- Loves the ocean. Isn’t a great swimmer but Kenny taught him to surf.

- After working at the library he really got into reading books.

- Listens to brown noise to get to sleep.

- Still wears his ratty ass beanie everywhere.

- Hates summer, loves spring.

- The day him and Kyle started dating was one of the best days of his life.

- Him and Kyle share his wired headphones on long road trips 🥹

- Can’t do laundry to save his damn life.

- Gets in weird cleaning moods and power scrubs his house.

- Him and Kyle get an apartment together.

- Loves hearing Kyle play piano.

- Can’t eat vegetables without dip (same).

- Marjorine does his eyeliner before gigs.

- That boy can sleep just about anywhere.

Stan in a relationship

- So clingy like SO CLINGY.

- When he’s in a relationship he adores his significant other.

- Loves to lay his head on your chest while your fingers thread through his hair.

- Will make you put your feet on his and slow dances with you.

- Always touching you even if it’s lowkey, linking pinkies, bumping shoulders.

- Is so scared he’s not good enough for you, will require a lot of reassurance.

- When he goes through his depressive episodes he becomes very withdrawn. Will take him a while to open up.

- You will push his towards seeking professional help but he’ll only do it when he acknowledges he actually needs it.

- Always calls and texts you when he’s drunk.

- When y’all had sex for the first time he was a nervous wreck. So scared of doing something wrong and embarrassing himself.

- After a while he learnt what you like really well and knows how to make you feel good.

- Such a switch.

- Hear me out he’s such a thigh guy!

- His love language is quality time 100%

- Prefers nights in over going out! Y’all watch bad movies for shits and gigs.

- Supports whatever you do, number one cheerleader type beat.

- You’re at all of his gigs in the front row screaming your heart out. He always melts at the sight of it.

- You paint his nails black.

- He likes to braid your hair for fun.

- He sleeps over at yours a lot because being around his dad is hard.

- Struggles to sleep so y’all go on 3am drives for donuts.

- Long late night drives together!

- You guys swim in Starks Pond over the summer and ice skate there in winter.

- There’s no such thing as a quick kiss with stan, he always kisses you very passionately.

- He’s so tender with you when you guys are in bed and he wakes up first.

- Had made you so many playlists and sends you new music recommendations all the time.

- Wrote a song for your anniversary and sung it to you. You cried for hours.

- When he was struggling with his sense of direction in life you guys made a bucket list together.

- One of his bucket list items was to go to Europe so y’all did exactly that.

- You surprised him with a puppy one year after you moved in together. He cried.

- Sunday brunch is a weekly thing, he always gets pancakes.

- Y’all nap in the sun together in your hammock.

- He reads you his favourite books before bed 😭😭

- You will do drunk karaoke together.

- Matching bracelets!

- He likes to kiss your neck and shoulders while he stands behind you.

- Likes to peck your nose and see your face scrunch up.

- Calls you beautiful at least 50 times a day.

- Has a polaroid picture of you in his phone case.

- You wear his clothes and it turns him on LOL.

- Was terrified of marriage until he met you. It completely changed his perspective.

- Will propose to you on a walk you guys do in Lake Como. You both cry.

- I think Stan will try so hard to be the best version of himself around you and it makes your heart melt.

[sonic-love-island-official]

Rouge (Bio/Character design ramble)

Want to have a ramble about Rouge because I'm feeling particularly obsessed with her character design at the moment. So, might as well do a little bio and a ramble on choices made for her Love Island AU counterpart !

More under the cut x

Rouge is a 28 year old jewellery specialist from Central City. She joins the fray with the intention of stirring the pot, potentially finding a summer fling and the allure of the cash prize.

She's your girl that has a specific 'type' and sticks to it to a tee. She is loud and flirtatious, but can also be quietly cunning. Rouge is a girl who thrives off drama and does anything to get her way. She disguises many of her true feelings beneath flirting or angry outbursts. Despite being one of the older girls in the series, Rouge doesn't have a very mature attitude (or sense of humour 🤭), which plays a part in her character arc on the Island. Along with this, she is learning to unlearn her pre-established self-destructive behaviours in order to become a better person, friend and partner... Eventually.

External design choices !! (visual appearance - incl. formation of base sim, references taken, makeup choices, fashion style... etc.)

Rouge's translation into The Sims 3 was a hugely enjoyable trial and error process. She was one of a few handful of characters that ended up getting a minor overhaul to their designs, as we eventually came to the conclusion that they no longer fitted the vibe of the AU. But. She looks stunning now, so Rouge Version 1 can be forgotten. Not really, Rouge v1 actually became a meme so we kind of have to keep her 'round hehe.

Forming the base for Rouge's sim was quite easy, as I was already inspired from the get-go. She was made the same day I made Shadow's sim, as the intention was for them to enter as bombshells (as they rightfully should). A lot (but not all) of inspiration was taken from her Sonic Adventure 2 character model because I immediately fell in love with it the first time I saw her ! Her exaggerated bust and hips made her look so short and adorable in gameplay and I know her design was not intended to be perceived that way, but here I am. I don't remember if I made her before or after I was aware of and joined the 'Rouge is Latina' bandwagon (I do believe this is canon ??) due to the fact I made this sim over a year ago when newly into the fandom, but I thought it'd be worthy mentioning here that she is and it's something we wanted to keep as part of her character.

I kept a ton of reference Rouge's core features, such as her big blue-green eyes, her wispy white hair, her slightly more voluptuous figure (to the best of my ability, ts3 is piss poor at creating differing body types grr. Don't even get me started on how I wanted to give Rouge more of a tummy) and her warmer skin tone. She actually used to look more on the orange side of tan before we kitted our game with a mod that gave sims less 'potato'-like features, so her skin tone seems more natural and even and less Fake Tan than what she was originally, making her look a little more like her counterparts in later titles, but she looks far more stunning than she used to. A sacrifice had to be made and perhaps that was for the best. Additionally, I put in some of my own creative choices as well, such as Rouge naturally having dark hair, as seen through the regrowth in her bleach-blonde hair (I thought it was white but I checked in CAS and it turns out there's the tiniest yellow hint in there. Even I didn't realise the level of detail I went into). Her face and her features are quite slender, accentuating her big eyes and her lips (which we decided was cause of Botox later into the development process, because that just seemed like something she would do and it was very in-line with characters seen on Love Island).

The miscellaneous parts of her appearance are very one way or the other. As seen in her default outfit (2nd & 3rd images), Rouge's makeup is accurate to the tacky colours seen on her reference designs. The blue cut-crease eyeshadow, the pink lip colour... But alternatively, she is also seen wearing more Love Island appropriate makeup - more neutral, blended shadows, highlighter, winged liner, false lashes, lip glosses. Her outfits normally match whichever angle she's leaning towards during that particular episode and a few outfits of hers are actually inspired by (or are near replicas of) pre-made designs from various games/official artworks ! It's all in the little things 😉

*Did I,, did I forget to talk about her piercings ? Yes, I did </3 Beneath her hair is tons of little sparkly earrings she's adorned herself with over the years, because it's Rouge and she can't resist a bit of sparkle. She also has a belly piercing :)

Internal design choices !! (personality, characteristics, psychology etc.)

Rouge does not get nearly enough credit for any of the internal workings of her character and having her in this AU gave us the perfect excuse to delve into Rouge's psychology a bit more in-depth. We decided to expand on pre-existing traits and add a few of our own in the mix, as to not take away from any of the brilliance Rouge already has as a character at least, in some of the earlier games she does... I've noticed that even though Rouge in this AU presents herself a little more immature, the way we've treated her character is far from that. Instead of being reduced down to what is essentially eye-candy, Rouge is shown to be a complex character of her own. She's witty, flirty, manipulative, materialistic, confident... all the common traits associated with her character, but she is also VERY guarded with her feelings. She struggles with vulnerability, commitment and the concept of actually being in love. It is possible she feels undeserving of good people in her life, hence why she seeks to ruin her positive relationships at any given opportunity. Alas... It is something for her to work out throughout the course of the series :) Like most of the main characters in the series, Rouge means well (some of the time) but is a right mess, and I like to think that adds to the relatability of her character ��

Other fun little titbits I thought were worth a mention !!

Following a fairly popular headcanon (at least, from what I've seen, this is kind of the general consensus ??), Rouge is bisexual in this AU. She cracks on with the boys and has flirty banter with some of them, but also she expresses interest in some of the girls, too. Rouge being Rouge though, a lot of her genuine advances are dismissed for her 'joking', when in fact, that is not entirely the case. And Love Island being the show that it is, often prevents Rouge from fully pursuing any of the girls that caught her attention. Sure as hell doesn't stop her from trying though :)

Exaggerating one of Rouge's features, Love Island AU Rouge uses every pet name under the sun to refer to people by. She also loves making endearing nicknames for all the Islanders

[ilikekidsshows]

Rate the drip: Audrey Bourgeois and Style Queen (I sense some roasts incoming here hehe).

Rate the Drip ask game

“I need eye bleach” | “ Garbage! Just straight trash” | “That aint it” | “I see you are a background character.” | “ The sex appeal of a celery stick” | “Mid” | “ Not my style, but I respect it.” |“Solid fit.” | “Understood the Assignment” | “Straight Fire fit” | “ Main character Drip” | “ Dripped out of his mind” | “Stealing yo girl/man and all your friends. |

Okay, so, a mostly white jumpsuit with a wide black stripe down the side is insultingly tame for a haute couture fashion mogul saying the word of the season is "glitter". Her hair is also a very basic pixie cut when haute couture hairstyles can actually get just as intricate as the clothing styles (Gabriel is more bold with his style than this supposedly even bigger fashion figure). Her hat and shoes are mostly golden, and seem to be what she was actually going for, but together her ensemble is a combination of bold choices and straight-out cowardise. It's bad, especially since Audrey is written as a character who isn't within spitting distance of cowardise. The jumpsuit looks like something she'd wear at home, not to a fashion gala set up by her former protegé that's also her return to Paris in a while.

Now, Style Queen is what jumped to my mind when she said that thing about glitter. It looks like she's wearing nothing but golden, glittery body paint until the closeup reveals that she has a one-piece under there. The horns in her hair are the one thing that makes her look like an Akuma and not a piece of wearable art. She, frankly, looks too weak for all the hype she got as a truly wicked Akuma.

Basically, the Akuma should have been the base design and the Akuma should have been even more outrageous.

[juicezone]

hii my brain isn’t workin very well rn either but. i’ve been spinning a new oc in my head for the last few weeks..i want him to be part of my other oc group with winnie n the others!! no name yet buuuut..he’s a trans guy n likes wearin big comfy t-shirts n collecting little trinkets and pebbles an shells, and he likes to dye his hair new colors all the time but always goes back to blue even tho it’s hard to maintain!! :] umm and i think i want him to have lots of tattoos? maybe magic tattoos like they can move around his body n change shape and stuff hehe :0

think that’s all i can think of rn!! i wanna make some picrews n art of him and find a name for him too rly soon :] ok bye waves at u <3

- @azalea-bee

OOHHHH he sounds so cool! dying hair is so fun but i like my hair colour now too much to bleach it to dye but im picturing like... seasonal themed hair dying.. orange/purples at halloween... greens/pinks/yellows at spring...

also he sounds like the kind to "accidentally" steal hoodies or blankets, and like it is an accident but they just. never return oops. my blanket now

AND THE TATTOOS IDEA IS SO COOL!!!im imagining like little creatures like a dragon or a snake or something and like. AUGH MAGIC TATTOOS ARE SO COOL TO THINK ABT!!!

u should show me if u make piccrews n stuff!!! i wanna hear mroe :D!!!

[aliceisaperson]

I’ve been really wanting to do something weird with my hair lately and I was watching a video and these style of blond streaks really caught my eye so…

[le-velo-pour-dru]

my dru headcanons!

- favorite disney princess is snow white

- you know how to or knew at one point how to play ukulele

- you want to dye your hair but you’re scared of messing up the natural color

- you scream when you laugh

- childhood dream job was either a marine biologist or a veterinarian

- you love all animals, but especially cats

- you’re soooooooooo normal

- you always take spiders outside, even if they freak you out

- favorite flower is a daisy

- mario kart character of choice is rosalina, toadette or yoshi

My favorite is actually Rapunzel!! :3 🩷 But Snow White is such a sweetheart omg <3

I started to learn in fifth grade!! They were teaching us in music class, and I learned some basics, and for Christmas I asked for one thinking we'd keep learning it when we came back from break, but to my dismay we moved on to a completely different topic XD Since then I've lost my skills. I was planning on teaching myself again a couple years ago but it didn't pan out. Maybe I should try again...

I do want to dye my hair!! I have some dye laying around the house maybe I should use it sometime soon... :0 I'm not worried about most dyes but bleaching is a no-no for me, I don't want to ruin my hair texture and stuff y'know

I wouldn't say I scream but I do snort sometimes!! X3

I actually didn't want to do either of those!! My dream job changed a bunch throughout the years (I still have no idea what I want to do so nothing's changed XD), but the ones I can remember are actress, fashion designer, singer, and baker :3

It's true!! 🩷 I love animals and cats are such cutie pies omgggggggggggggggg :3 🫶💖

I AM I REALLY AM 🥰🩷 I'M SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO NORMAL I'M THE NORMALEST ACTUALLY ☺️💖💘

Yeah, it's true!! :3 I never kill spiders, I love them <3 Usually I get someone else to take them out for me though HEHE 🤭

I don't really know what my favorite flower is anymore :0 Daisies are really cute though, that's a good point :3

I don't really have one main Mario Kart character, I switch it up as I please, but those are all characters I play, and they're all some of my favorite Mario characters!! :3 🩷 Recently I've been playing as Peachette a lot ^^

[sinzkiller]

-Random Bleach group chat-

Mayuri created a group chat

Mayuri added Renji

Mayuri added Ichigo

Mayuri added Uryu

Mayuri: Well...well... Which one of you idiot(s) that eat my incomplete experiment?

Ichigo: Who's stupid enough to eat something that you made 💀

Uryu: Agreed, why you left it at such an open place then?

Mayuri: DO NOT QUESTIONED ME QUINCY BOY. SOMEONE LIKE YOU WILL NEVER UNDERSTAND A SCIENTIST LIKE ME.

Mayuri: Anyway it's a pill I created for captain Komamura, a pill that can make someone's fur/hair looks shiny and healthy.

Mayuri: And, it's still incomplete

Uryu: Wow :)

Ichigo: Hehe should have made one for our long hair queen too(Ikkaku)

Ichigo: Anyway why the hell you suspected the three of us to eat your experiment??

Mayuri: A scientist's instinct.

Mayuri: It's fine then, I let it slide this time, I feels like want to see the side effects of my incomplete experiment :D

Uryu: I bet you're smiling like a maniac right now

Uryu: Hold up.. where's Renji?

Ichigo: He said Byakuya send him to deliver something for Squad 12

Ichigo: Hold tf up 💀

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Meanwhile Renji, who's still hungry after eating such a suspicious but delicious looking candy inside a suspicious room:

[2018-01-20]

i feel like the anime would give me a lot of inspo because koko and inui will appear in today’s ep ncjfjckfk.

ooh a nagi kisser ohoho. idk if you know but nagi has a spinoff called episode nagi (but reo’s more like mc lmaooo). you should read it if you haven’t! bachira is so cute and he makes me really happy. rin took some time to grow on me; u20 is really his arc. he popped off.

my favorites are kunigami and reo! ok ngl fell in love with kunigami right away because of his intro and a little bit of looking like bakugo & ichigo from bleach lol. but what caught me off guard is that he’s actually a nice guy (but in the manga bllk broke him ummm that’s all i can say).

reo took some time to have him grow on me because of how he was in the beginning but i’m in love with his character development in the manga UGHHH he’s so cool. i took a kin quiz and got reo and now that i caught up with the manga i was like oh god i’m like him fr. also when he ties up his hair… losing it over the bare minimum… why am i like this.

yep, a mini series! i’m writing the synopsis as we speak. it’s taking me a day to write it all down because words are stupid lol. i can tag you if you’d like 👀👀👀.

last week i bought the manga! i went book shopping with an irl who started buying manga after lockdown. at my bookstore vol 2 wasn’t in stock so it’s only 1, 3, and 4 but they weren’t on the shelves, so i had to ask the cashier for them. she sent someone in the back to check on them and that person came back with all volumes AHHH i won that day.

i showed my irl bllk and she likes rin (her type is mean basically jgjfjgjfj).

UR RIGHT I COMPLETELY FORGOT THAT TR IS BACK SJNFNF

omg if that’s so then im definitely gonna check it out 😳 i love nagi sm and the fact that u are a reo kisser WAAAHAHFBNFN I LOVE USSS !!! i definitely see what you mean w kunigami and the fact he’s so nice and gentle omfg he deserves so much love 😭 and reo character development you say? 👀👀 im loving what im hearing HEHE

PLEASE DO TAG ME ARGH I LOVE EVERYTHING U MAKE 🥹🥹 u writing blue lock rn is inspiring me to open my drafts and type out all of my brainrot LOL. ALSO THE MANGA LOOKS SO GOOD DJFMNSNF ILL GET THEM ONE DAY ᕦ⁠(⁠ò⁠_⁠ó⁠ˇ⁠)⁠ᕤ

[wormcocoon]

Letter to W (number i dunno)

Dear Mr. W,

Halo! How long has it been?!

Probably not much, maybe just a month? Oh, Mr. W. A lot of things going on at the moment. I had a week or almost two weeks of cooking. I made so many dishes. I inconvenienced my friends by convincing them that it's better to stay indoors and that I'd cook for them in exchange of them bringing me ingredients and a bottle or two of wine. Gosh.

In the week before my birthday, I had a bottle of wine every night. Sometimes, in the mornings I would make a Soju Milk Soda. I'd have a glass every morning and a bottle of wine in the evening. And like in that Lorde song, I let the days and nights change my mind. But never really doing any real action. I wrote all of them out, all feeling and thought I wrote them out, even when they didn't appear as is in words. I wrote them in a way, that I knew I meant the way it did in my head.

Anyway, my sister had her oathtaking yesterday. I had to color my hair black. It was pink for a week. I bleached it twice, then purpled it, it faded and turned pink, and then i turned it black.

This weekend I was at Moalboal. At the beach with Vian and Fleur. I am happy to have that be Vian's last memory of the beach here in the Philippines. I bought the two of them a bracelet. I hope it was a good 2 days for Vian.

We plan to get matching tattoos, a chain of stars, sometime this week before November 30. My sister will have her Thanksgiving dinner at home on that day. I will go back to Badian too. I would say home, but home has been vague these days. I mostly don't know where I belong, so,,, so I retreat inside my head and heart and make that my home. Not letting myself be too focused on the external places. The world is still beautiful to my eyes though. Thank God.

I cried on my birthday. I got flowers courtesy of Elvin. Baby's breathe/asters, and gladiolus flowers. Can you IMAGINE? I slid down the wall and was about to have a big cry! I remembered Alyssa was coming over though so I tried not to get too eaten by it. I wanted to though. But it's okay. I placed the flowers on a vase the next day. I cut the bottom stems, removed the tape, and placed it on the dining table. It's browning at the base now, but the top buds of the Gladiolus continue to bloom. They are pretty.

I am at the office today. I read everything.

I'm not sure if I should make actions. I live my life. There is an almost nagging, like a pea in a 10 mattress bed, feeling in me. That I should do something. I'm not sure what. I don't want to be the one that fixes it all again by being okay.

I am okay Mr. W. I'm better these days. Na tagam nalang jud ko mahimong the one who makes situations depend on them. I've never had that feeling you see. People always seem to assign that to me. Don't I always say what I want? Why can't we have that conversation? Is there nothing you want?

I had this conversation with Alyssa, how very isolating it is when people look to us for decisions. We also want to depend on others, we want our moods and emotions to rely on somebody. To know that feeling, instead we are trapped into becoming encouraging, trapped to understanding, trapped to action, trapped to make things better for them instead of for us. Because why not? These are people I like, people I chose.

Most days, it doesn't matter. It's all good because it's Love. But on crucial days, its so isolating. Like not being understood. Like being considered above everybody. It's sweet, but its lonely. We both just want to be held really.

hehe. I miss you Mr. W. I know you're all around me. But I guess this is just the human condition, to miss stuff.

I wonder what I will have for lunch. Sometimes I wonder what Elvin eats for lunch. And though I know he reads these, I feel a little detached because this is a letter addressed to you Mr. W. That's why I always love writing letters. It makes me able to write about things I love.

I read his own account of things of course. It's like a ritual I avoid. I know I'm going to do it, but I still try not to. But because it's ritual, I do it anyway. Rituals never hurt.

Well, okay, human sacrifices hurt, and probably a lot of other rituals. But this one doesn't. It's like reading the newspaper, or reading the calendar.

Oh Mr. W, how are you? Are your Ice still melting? Will more volcanoes come up from the water? A lot of these billionaires are looking up to space. A lot of these politicians still fight over money and raw materials.

I wonder if any of them has ever just wanted to look at flowers, and said, "This is okay."

I'm still jolted by my feelings and the people around me. I'd love to exist in somebody else's orbit Mr. W. I have so much love to give.

You see this is also something I eventually realized. My capacity to love is SO HUGE. I think I understand now what new mother's say when they go, I didn't know I could love more than I do, but I do the moment I got you. Only, I am sans baby. And thank God for that too! I couldn't afford the diapers yet!

Wow, this is turning out to be a really long letter Mr. W.

It's sunny outside. Christmas is only 29 days away. And then 2025. Oh how the world continues to turn.

Mr. W, my Clue says I am 2 days away from my period. I feel it too, sleeping very heavily, cravings' crazy, tears near the surface. I am only glad I can say, "This is okay." Maybe not all the time, and of course I still have the wants and desires. But that's okay too. And that everything I feel and think while PMS'ing and while on the period is still true and honest, as I've always been. Rena praised me for my consistency too. hehe.

I just pricked myself on a pin, thinking of what else to tell you Mr. W.

! I withdraw from my masters! It made me cry a lot of nights. Even today it makes me sad, I told my sister. I was sort of asking for her permission or support on my decision. She told me, she'd help me next time. It warmed my heart. I miss learning. But I am learning today. Just other stuff.

Mr. W, I was also supposed to upload a video on Youtube about my week of relaxation. I took so many videos of me cooking. But I'm still editing it. In the end maybe i'll just make a trailer/teaser type. Without ever releasing the full length. hehe cause its only for me and the people in my inner life.

What else.

I miss Elvin Mr. W. But in a way this feels like a dishonest way of saying things. There is a missing element, like an excluded part of the story which explains why I miss him. It's all in our history. All the times we've spent, the shift from semi-childhood, to teenhood, to adulthood, and to the settling down of who we are in the world.

Its living Mr. W.

I think I'll end here for now. Here are a few photos I'll share.

[anemia-rp]

"That's true!" she nodded in agreement. "You should see my home, it's covered in plants, of course their pet friendly plants because of my cats." She nodded, listening closely. Reno could relate to him some with the trust issues, as she had them as well in her own way. "I understand, I also have a bit of trust issues. I don't have them too bad since I have people that I can trust, but there is also a part of me that wonders if they only are like me to be nice or if they will use things I tell them against me. It gets a little frustrating at times, right?"

"Oh for sure!" she smirked and continued to watch him play with his hair. "Yeah, I've been bleaching it for a long time and I should probably give my hair a rest from it. It all started from when I used to dye my hair pink a lot. You think so? Hehe thank you!" She smiled proudly at his compliment.

"Oh? That's always what I heard growing up. It's part of the reason that we were told to stay away from them." She admitted "Really? Oh that's interesting!" She bit her lip some, giving a small nod. "Yes... I mean maybe? I've never been bitten by a vampire before."

"I know the constant paranoia, yeah. It's 'cause you probably experienced all those fears coming true once and they left such a huge impact that you can't shake it off anymore." He tapped onto the devil tattoo on his jaw. "It's the demon. What you think and know and what you feel are often two different things and it's just shit. But it's shit to call your own feelings a demon as well, huh?" He took a deep breath. Since he had come to terms with all those things and not surpressed them constantly anymore he found himself talking about them rather often.

"I never dyed my hair, that makes a difference, too. I just had ugly dreads though many years ago, a really fucked up idea, but I've been such a pseudo cool gangsta rapper." He snorted, shaking his head about himself. "Guess we both have become adorable. But unlike me you've been cute always actually. And you still be cute as an old lady, I'm damn sure."

He chuckled with his lips closed. "Then guess I should let you experience how it feels like, huh?" Knowing how sensitive she was he looked forward to her reaction to him licking over the side of her neck, right where the blood pulsated in the most prominent vein underneath the skin.

[jumpthensfall]

am i probably going to bleach my hair even though it's the worst idea ever?? yes and no one can stop me<3

[catboyhdb]

my hair doesnt look that bad. the roots r like... a light green and the rest of my hair is darker? a brownish sorta deal? so i might buy another dye n go over it so its... hm. but i work tmr (i wear a hairnet and a hat so it wont even be.. obvious!) but im still like 🧡 anxious now. n i keep thinkin everyone there will think i look dumb :+(