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professorsta · 2 years ago
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People saying Shane's lists are bits that have gone too far truly do not understand this man and his ability to double down in real life when it comes to the most bat shit opinions he has
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lichennthropy · 1 year ago
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pain flare up. can’t bend knees. knee braces get sweaty cause it’s hot out. lost my cane. have to walk to work and back home. Suffering rn
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shineyfish · 1 year ago
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I shouldn't be thinking about mind while listening to the mechs I think
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crqstalite · 1 year ago
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i rlly gotta do a write up eventually about how alec wanted talis to be like him so bad and she absolutely refused to while mateo just wanted his father to pay some semblance of attention to him.
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villlainarc · 2 years ago
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maybe its bc of where i am emotionally in life but i think good will hunting is about loving yourself enough to be able to go after what you want. its a very ‘this may be expected of you but that doesnt matter if you don’t want it’ and ‘the people who really love you love you enough to want what you want too’ and ‘you deserve to have the kind of life you want. you deserve to not have to live moment to moment. you deserve dreams.’ kind of thing and thats so Much. its So Much
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trans-estinien · 2 months ago
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i gotta actually start cooking this paper i am imagining on how demonizing masculinity makes it harder to achieve equal rights but i dont think the internet is ready for that conversation yet
#i still stand by what i said the other day. women should be allowed to exist in gaming spaces without fear of harassment.#anyone should be allowed to exist in their hobby without being harassed for their gender.#but im getting real tired of people immediately turning around and hating all men for just. existing#yes! men should be held accountable for their actions!#but we also have to address the issue that makes them think its okay do be like that in the first place.#and we also have to be aware that hostility towards eachother only serves to make everything worse!!#because it alienates the men around you and just pushes them harder into their bad behaviour#i know this is the internet and everyone gets flayed alive here but god im. so exhausted#and like. if you saw a guy going “i hate all women” hed clearly be misogynist. like what the fuck are these double standards#and i know its because of the entire human history of men having all the power but.#hot take. i really think being mean to eachother on the internet just makes it worse.#nobody (including myself) is actually helping to solve the problem by ranting and raving on the internet#the real way to solve the problem is to shut these guys down. especially other men. a simple “dude what the fuck did you just say?”#works wonders#and also parents! really need to step up and teach their boys that this behavior is not okay! and to treat everyone with kindness#that is how you solve this problem#dont be a bystander and parent your fucking children#thank you for coming to my ted talk im going to go explode now#<<< his ass gets anxious whenever he expresses his own opinion that doesnt align with the general opinion on things#but. im not surprised im the guy who wrote an essay on mens mental health in grade eleven#toxic masculinity hurts everyone. regular masculinity does not.
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5-htagonist · 3 months ago
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okkkk but demon king!dungeon lord!laios wherein Something Something happens and laios not only devours the lion inheriting the kingdom................ but perhaps the lions curse manifests differently too....
#dm#i dont know quite concretely what i would want from this but just like#perhaps the lion curses him with the wish granting ability along with the never having desires fulfilled i.e. no matter how happy he makes#everyone else no matter how Valuable and Needed he is its not ever going to be satisfying#to satisfy everyone else#i think it would be an interesting lens to analyze his feelings of alienation#even if he can be everything for everyone he will always feel nothing to no one#also i think this would manifest more as like#alexithymia tbh i.e. he knows what he wantsand needs and he can get it but it never quite scratches the itch#of course i think this would kind of mirror the whole bodhisattva thing he has going on#acceptance of a permanent middle path and whatnot#but also i think as his biggest desire is Not like enlightenment or whatever but much more material and interpersonal desire....#i dont think enlightenment would be something anywhere near his train of thought esp in my scenario#i think it could be an interesting inversion of his typical avoidant strategy instead throwing spaghetti at the wall#i think his thoughts would go something like:#no matter how much i avoid trying to bother [my loved ones]... they always come back around#i dont know why they come back around when they clearly dont think much of me... so clearly theres something i can do for them that they#know about and wont tell me...#*cue obtuse rubber goose green moose guava juice giant snake birthday cake large fries chocolate shake*#also i think it would be like about laios learning to adapt to his curse of course lots of sad and hilarious scenarios here#i.e. Desperate Friendship Appeals#or Wish Bureaucracy#or political secrets and intrigue if perse its a double life scenario#Where do the king and his cohorts go at night? What lurks under the castle? How do our resources never run dry?#marcille would be his biggest enabler i feel <3#he and kabru would be like#kismesises kind of... yknow in a watered down way#he and falin.... i dont think theyd have a great relationship#i think laios would feel a lot of shame#and falin of course would be repelled due do laios' desires being unfulfillable and ik hed love for her to stay around forever
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redr0sewrites · 10 months ago
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Hazbin Hotel Characters with a Goth S/o
this is basically how some of ththe hazbin characters would support their goth s/o- as a goth person this is literally so self-indulgent lmao
🥀Pairing(s): lucifer x reader, velvette x reader, adam x reader, alastor x reader
🥀 Cw: fluff!
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Lucifer
lucifer is a little confused and intimidated about your style at first, he definitely asks a lot of questions
VERY supportive once u explain it, hes very much the "okay dear" type
honestly i think he would find it super attractive, the way u express yourself is just so admirable to him
i feel like lucifer is very fidgety and is always losing focus, and one tjing that i do is that im ALWAYS fidgeting with thr chains and accessories on my outfits so like imagine him just standing super close to you and gently rearranging your chains and necklaces for you...
he would let you teach him how to do makeup and eyeliner and would definitely let you practice styles on him!
lucifer would also help you get ready too, always willing to offer some positive feedback or help with makeup and hair
i also think lucifer adores it when you give him music recommendations, and would get super into a lot of the bands that you like
i personally hc him as a siouxsie and the banshees fan bc i just feel like the elegant vibes fit him very well, but i also think he'd like strawberry switchblade too and just goth stuff like that
overall very supportive and super sweet and silly when it comes to your fashion
Velvette
gosh she needs more love
you both are fashion ICONS okay like even before you both become official she is blown away by your style and authenticity
she def designs special fashion items just for you, she makes a whole line of clothes based off of u and ur aesthetic
velvette LOVES matching with you and loves incorporating both of your individual styles into your matching outfits, whether youre more mallgoth or romantic goth or trad goth or anything in between, she is totally inspired by you and your fits and will always want to inspire you in return
def buys you things she seed and thinks you'd like or look good in, regardless of price. her gifts range from thrifted maxi dresses abd fishnets to priceless jewelry and makeup LIKEEEEE omg
velvette LOVES when u wear something she bought for u or designed for u as well
yall are always late for social events bc u HAVE to be the best dressed couple there i swear
also if u wear chunky boots or platforms and ur taller than her???? expect her to pull you down for kisses bc URGH seeing you sm taller than her does something to her
guys i have a type help
Adam
adam thinks your hot af if you're goth
hes the type to make big tiddy goth gf jokes im sorry💀
in all seriousness tho he would LOVE a goth s/o
adam def likes alternative/rock music and he would think it's awesome if you introduced him to some goth bands
he would LOVE the scary bitches, death grips, and also sisters of mercy too
i def think goth people would be much more rare in heaven than in hell, and he would get SO defensive on your behalf if anyone said anything about you or your fashion
honestly hes your number one fan and LOVES giving his input on your fits
honestly your closet doubles when you date him, adam loves seeing you wear his rings and punk jewelry and i def think he has a lot of old band shirts and stuff for his band, so he would love seeing you wear his oversized shirts
if u have piercings WOOWHEE bc adam asks SO MANY QUESTIONS
he thinks theyre so hot ngl, and i def think he has a few piercings and will buy u both matching jewelry
adam would learn to play songs you like on the guitar for you as well
i dont think hed be super keen on letting you put makeup on him but he'd fold after a little persuasion
i honestly think he'd like eyeliner and how he looks wearing it but doesn't want to admit it bc he doesn't want to seem too feminine (but u know ofc)
Alastor
before even meeting you he was fascinated by your style and boldness
alastor loves people who are unique, and someone who chooses to stand out so much definitely catches his eye
he'd find you very aesthetically appealing and would often find himself wanting to be around you more and learn more about you, your style, and goth culture in general
over this time period is probably when he started to develop feelings for you
alastor would def like the romantic/vampire goth look, that whole genre in general is just very elegant and classy while also nonconformist, which definitely speaks to him
when it comes to music alastor would probably be a little skeptical at first, especially when it comes to new technology, however if you (like me) have a record player and vinyl, i def think he would like listening to some of your fav goth bands on that
i dont really know why but i gen think he'd be a fan of the cure, sure its pretty basic but the vibe of some of the songs can be upbeat and kinda jazzy, and they just have that "old timey" vibe i think alastor would appreciate
alastor is fascinated with the process in which you get ready, and enjoys just sitting and watching in peaceful silence as uou do your makeup and pick out your outfit
if you (like most goths) are into creepy and unusual decor, he would LOVE to help you decorate your room
alastor has the strangest taste in interior design and loves sharing his unhinged ideas with you
overall alastor loves people with a lot of individuality and would definitely find a goth partner appealing because of that !!
THIS IS GETTING SO LONG HELP IM PROB GONNA MAKE A PT2 W MORE CHARACTERS HEHE- THIS WAS MY FIRST TIME WRITING FOR ALASTOR AND VELVETTE I HOPE I DID THEM JUSTICE!!! WE NEED MORE LOVE FOR VELVETTE SHES SOOOOO AJSJDJD- anywaysssss hope yall enjoyed!!! feel free to req more, esp if u want a pt2 to this >:D
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kissesfordaryl · 5 months ago
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intertwined, sewn together.
daryl dixon & his lover best friend.
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(soft daryl hcs bc i love him)
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daryls first instinct is to push you away. he felt that the rest of the group saw through him and only recognized his brother, but not you. never you. he didnt know why you were so nice to him- didnt even believe that you were genuine. but you persisted and eventually managed to weasel your way past his walls, following him everywhere he went. he realizes that hes most true to himself when hes with you.
you two are practically attached to the hip, never seen without each other. half the time youre not even doing anything special, only being in each others presence. as soon as youre away from him, hes asking around to see where youve gone.
you loved sneaking away from the rest of the group and into the forest, following the sounds of rushing water or watching the wildlife scurry past. although daryl knew the woods better than you, he let you lead the way.
as you secure a spot along the river, he settles in besides you, knees knocking against yours, his crossbow forgotten to the side. you pretend not to notice, but sometimes he'll stare at you for moments on end, a small smile forming.
youre basically the only one who can make him laugh- full on belly laugh. your arm is draped around his shoulders as you whisper jokes no one else can catch, and then hes doubling over in concealed laughter, a hand coming up to hide his smile.
its always just been normal to share everything between you, from food to deodorant to blankets to tents to beds to drinks. there was no yours or his. just an ours.
as new additions to the group come along, they always get the impression of daryl being rather intimidating or quiet. theyre always surprised when he sees him with you: laughing like a school-kid and bickering over something stupid.
no one else is surprised when he shows up wearing your clothes and getting defensive at all the stares hed be getting. "what? all my clothes are dirty, s'not my fault."
he only lets either carol or you call him stupid nicknames. the stupider it gets, the more funny.
one time on a run, you found these matching necklaces. he scoffs when you hand it to him, but makes you put it on for him. hes never seen without it again- and will lose his shit if he loses it.
most of the time, he'll listen to you babble on about whatever, but he could talk your ear off just as much. you laughed at how expressive he could get, hands waving around as he explained his distaste to a certain topic.
no one knows when you got together, in fact they like to make bets on it- but one random day youre leaning down to press a kiss to his lips like youve been doing that forever- and everyone just continues on.
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while i was making this it crashed and didnt save so i had to write this twice.. (p.s. ive got a couple requests so know im working on all of them! just wanted to post something.. i write super slow sorry 😭)
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baszin · 1 year ago
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Henry used to be an awesome footballer - conveniently always in shape - at his old school in Europe... until he moved to the States.
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The move affected his physique a little, however, he could easily get rid of it with more training and a few extra trips to a gym. The coach at his new school realised his "potential" and began training with him...
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Weirdly enough, all of his "training sessions" always ended up with a trip to an all-you-can-eat buffet, funded by his coach. He always led with the "eating good will help you train better" or "you need the energy to get out on the field" but Henry didn't really bother and did what the coach said...
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Let's just say.... his missing out on a few trips to the gym and eating at the buffet all went straight to his waist... his shirts were getting more fuller, his jeans weren't buttoning up as they used to... His coach suggested to him that maybe his potential can be better spent on joining the wrestling team, he's already gone up a few weight classes since his move to the States.
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Just a month of listening to Coach's advice has made him, from the neck down, unrecognisable! Although he was doing quite well in the wrestling team, he kept going to the next weight class every week it seemed like. Coach even doubled the amount of food he was eating at the all-you-can-eat buffet!
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Every time he visited the buffet, hed get stares from the workers... they were all thinking to themselves "what has he done to himself" or "is he ever going to stop?" But Henry was oblivious to this new person he's become of, he just kept following Coach's advice, regardless of the stares he gets while walking to school, or the times he's had to purchase new clothes.
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Not even the loosest of shirts could hide that humungous belly. Unfortunately, his Coach had retired and Henry was left alone, with this gut - of course. He realised this jiggling beast and tried to get rid of it, but no matter how many times he tried to "diet", this was who he is now.
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cutemeat · 2 years ago
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i do agree that Dennis is not so much dealing with denial in the way Mac did- but rather I think he has, for so long, been putting on this facade for the gang. as he's admitted he "loves the thrill of wearing another man's skin" and that's basically what this straight man persona is for Dennis- a facade. And for so long he's been seeming to have fun with this, but more recently it just seems like he's getting tired. and he's just waiting for someone to begin noticing the cracks in that facade ("The Gang Gets New Wheels", "The Gang Texts", "The Gang Chokes"), and eventually for a big explosion (as described in "Has a Jumper") where everything comes crashing down and everyone realizes he's been lying the entire time (which he's well aware he's been doing, see: his seeing "sheep wool" and sheep in s15 basically was a symbol of him struggling to "pull the wool over [the gang's] eyes" anymore like he's been doing since s1).
So he’s not really denying to himself who he is, but he’s denying himself the freedom that might come with being open about who he really is- “if you wanna go bang every guy in Ireland- just go bang every guy in Ireland and forget what your identity has to do with it!” to me, that line definitely could be interpreted as having this undercurrent of jealousy. Because I feel like that’s a lot of what Mac represents, he is the more unapologetic and obvious manifestation of who Dennis really is. At their cores, Mac and Dennis are very similar and struggle with the same things (body issues, fragile masculinity, closeted homosexuality) but the way those things manifest outwardly are where they differ, but we can use the ways they interact off of each other to decipher what’s going on within the other (typically using what Mac feels and will say versus what Dennis feels but won’t say)…
And it would make total sense for Dennis to do something like this seeing as he was fathered by Frank who, in s3's "Dennis and Dee's Mom is Dead", is all about keeping up a grift- and that's basically all "straight man" dennis is... a grift LOL.
And I do suspect that Dennis’ frustration with Mac using labels in s15 also stems from Dennis’ internal conflict where he tries so hard to fight against being a gay stereotype, that he’s turned himself into a caricature of what he views straight men as being (by example of Frank)… so Dennis is projecting that feeling of “I’ve tried so hard not to be an obvious stereotype so why is he trying so hard to lean into that?” cuz subconsciously he feels his “hard work” of upholding this grift is being under minded.
I feel like Dennis felt he and Mac were in an agreement that they’d both attempt to uphold this illusion of being two straight “play boys” and so Mac coming out ruins that, not just for Mac, but for Dennis as well. Because if Mac has come out, it must only be a matter of time until they figure out Dennis is lying as well (s13)— but, to his frustration, they don’t really pick apart Dennis’ heterosexual persona as much as they did Mac because of how hard Dennis worked to craft his straight man persona that now he seems to actually resent that (s15).
I'm still obsessed with the way these two scenes are honestly very similar, the only difference is the gang doesn't care about Dennis because he's more "stealthy" about being in the closet than Mac was. There is still a written set-up and the punchline to Dennis saying "as a straight man myself... I love pina coladas, but I don't like getting caught in the rain. It ruins my hair. And you know how good I look in leather, [from a deleted scene: and rain ruins leather]." Because in s13 they go out of their way in MFHP to establish the BDSM/bondage/leather scenes in the gay community, so that comment Dennis makes about looking good in leather becomes recontextualized. The very obvious joke, in writing, is that Dennis is very clearly not straight. But the gang doesn't point that out to us the audience the way they used to with Mac. and it's interesting and tragic in a way because Dennis, by his own admittance in s13 Gets New Wheels (Dennis' FOIL ep to Mac's MFHP) when he says "that's a virtue though- stealth", has worked so hard not to be caught (see: in Goes to Hell Pt. 2 he knows all the "gay stereotypes" to avoid that Mac doesn't) and that was for his own survival, in his head, but now it seems like Dennis wishes the gang WOULD point it out- so he doesn't have to come out himself.
It also shows how Mac being out and open about his sexuality is actively shielding Dennis while he's still in the closet which is like. a whole thing lol (which rcgm already wrote a whole episode about that: The Gang Texts) and also kinda validated this in Dee Day when Dennis is standing behind Mac, literally using Mac as a human shield after he has to remove his makeup. hm ...
#ok editing some of my thoughts here cuz i want to be clear#im just terrible w words lmao#but i know dennis isnt ‘closeted’ yknow? like ofc not. hes never been Subtle abt it tho sometimes he thinks he has#he has no problem with BEING queer#but i think what hes upset abt is the fact that he has ended up in a relationship w a man#in his words he thought hed be married by now .. the silent implication being ‘to a woman’#as soon as he starts talking abt maureen#cuz tho hed like to present himself as a man with zero#convictions…. he does have them… but theyre not abt being queer itself#its abt being Percieved as queer#bc he fears his own narrative will be taken out of his control or stereotyped#the problem being even w his straight man grift this happened to him anyway lol#and now hes suffering the consequences#but thats why all that shit abt listening to yr heart that theyve introduced in s13 and doubled down on s14-s16#in anway its fitting meta… cuz the original angle w macden was theyre the obv will they wont they#but they were likely never gonna Rlly make it Official as part of the gangs continued suffering#but now theyre clearly more open to that possibility… so they have to push dennis in that direction too and out of his comfort zone#but ofc like the cat in the wall dennis is gonna double down before he budges#and thats exactly what the trajectory is in s15#he doubles down.. lw7… then he uh. budges. comes out of the wall.. sinks in a bog#and well. now we see how things went in s16 lolz
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i-cant-sing · 10 months ago
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Hmmm I could get tired over any fandom but.... batfam???? Yall would never see me tired of talking about them.
Like think just how absolutely batshit crazy they'd go if reader fractures her limb or something. Maybe reader like slips off the stairs or falls from a swing or something, and the batfam- they have to watch it all happen in slow motion, and nothing- there's absolutely nothing they can do to help you. It's scarring for Dick to watch the color drain from your face as you drip to the ground. It's scarring for Jason to hear the nasty crack as your bone bends in an ugly handle. It's scarring for Tim to hear you scream in pain. It's scarring for Damian to see the blood pour out of your body. And it's oh so heart wrenching for Bruce to hear you cry into his chest as he carries you to Alfred to get your cast done.... how hopeless he felt, unable to soothe your pain.
But things only seem to go even more downhill from there. As you recover, the family has silently decided to double down on their paranoia and be even more coddling and protective of you. You wanna walk down the stairs? Nope, here comes big bro Jason to hold your hand- or better yet, carry you around in his arms. Why risk you even tripping over air?
Wanna get something from the top shelf? Stand back, dont need the shelf or something heavy falling over your head and cracking your skull open. Let Dick pull the cookie jar down for you- but why are you even eating cookies this late???? You need to get some healthy nutrients in you, lest you should have weak frail bones. Heres your broccoli.
Wanna play video games or go on socials? Well, no more! Dont need you getting influenced by the violent storylines and bad news from around the world- Tim wouldnt your mental health to be affected. If you really want, you can use his laptop... under his supervision.
What the fuck do you think youre doing staying up past your bedtime? What do you mean youre too old to have a bedtime???? Get your ass back in bed before Damian drags you back like a gremlin and REMINDS you of the bedtime he has set for YOU, because he doesnt need you becoming an insomniac and turning insane. He will not be the one to bust you out of Arkham asylum (he absolutely would, but hed be complaining all the way) just because you decided you didnt need your 10 hours of sleep!
Wanna go to your therapist? Well, you cant cause he suddenly moved far away and every other therapist in gotham is a maniac in disguise. Bruce doesnt get why you cant just talk to him about your feelings??? Dont you trust him? Your dear father, the very man whod hold you in his arms and shield you from the scary lightening when you were young? The very man who you would ramble on to about everything and anything, including tattling on Damian locking you in his room and throwing a tantrum when Jason took you away when you were all kids? You can tell him anything sweetie, even if you wanna bitch about the batfam... it'll hurt a bit, but hed be okay (absolutely has big sad eyes when you tell him how everyones just too suffocating for you and you wanna leave them)
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hyewka · 1 year ago
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having beomgyu sit on your lap all docile and pretty, long legs over yours, spreading wide like the slut he is—hard clothed dick building a tent down there you find it so endearing how quick he turns putty under your gaze, proved by the already a small blob of wet stain on his pants growing slowly but gradually, yet he has the audacity to act shy and bashful. his eyes are squeezed shut, nuzzling his nose in your chest to avoid the mirror in front of you— he should know by now this takes out all the fun for you.
“gyu, look at the mirror for like 30 seconds at least come on baby,” you whine trying to catch his face, trying to appeal to him with a nickname youve learnt he quite enjoys.
it doesnt work, he just nuzzles further in your clothes.
“god no, do you know how embarrassing this is?” he groans, “just—just touch me please. i need you so bad, been waiting for so long.” he mumbles, shifting on your leg impatiently.
you roll your eyes. typical beomgyu, he always expects princess treatment without working for it. its like you spoilt him too much with too many toys. its clear as day that thats exactly the case because at your silence he doesnt take the hint and blindly searches for your hand, and when he quickly finds it, has the double audacity of grabbing it and trying to push it down his pants like a fucking sex addict, and for a moment he gets the satisfaction of your warm hands, sighing of relief, whimpering, as you process just how bratty he is.
you gasp when it dawns on you, feeling the stickiness of his precum, retracting your hand from his weak hold easily. and really, where did he learn to be so entitled? “fuck, have you lost your mind? is the only thing on your mind getting off your small dick? whos the one in control here?” he has anything but a small dick, but if you need to get beomgyu under you properly you need to attack something he prides
he mumbles something and you tut at him. “speak up, youre a big boy.”
“it’s not small,” he parrots again, all with his eyes still screwed shut like a fucking baby.
of course thats what he focuses on.
“whos the one in control?” you ask again with more conviction in your voice, hand travelling to scratch gently in his inner thighs. this drives him crazy, you know how it usually goes.
you stare at the mirror, the way his adam apple bobs up and down, shifting his head to lean back on your shoulder, his breathing fanning against your neck, increasingly by the minute getting more frantic and unrhythmically fast like a dog in heat. and you get more bruising with the act, getting crazily close to where he wants you to touch.
he breaks.
he always does.
and its even better watching it happen, reflecting it back to you.
the way he spasms, hair over his eyes, mouth hung open as he spills filth.
“touch me, touch me please, fuck, touch me! y-you’re in control, im your whore, i’m yours, i’m your everything baby, please just t-touch my dick please please! haa—t-t—” moaning mess, the neighbours could probably hear with how loud he is. you break into a grin, looking at him through the mirror. “poor baby wants me to touch his dick sooo bad.”
“yes! yes! please, yes!” he blabbers, reaching out for your hand again, struggling to get it this time because youve placed them conveniently behind you, knowing hed try to pull that shit again. he really only thinks with his dick huh?
“open your eyes then, look at yourself. look at how i touch you gyu.”
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star-dust-stuf · 7 months ago
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Albert Shaw x period!reader
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title: im a baby you're holding
warnings: descriptions of blood, nudity (not sexual), pain, fluff that will make your heart ache!
a/n: sorry not sorry, this is cute and I know I should've done a period comfort sooner. posted this at three am btw. as always sorry for typos, this has nothing to do with sex or abuse. enjoy babes.
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It as rainy out, I could tell by the small window up by the ceiling of the basement, it was grey outside, the sky and the clouds gave me a feeling of home along with the smell of dirt. I was huddled against a corner of the basement, my knees to my chest and my arms wrapped around them, I was bleeding... Yes it is as it may seem. I moved to the cold uncomfy ground because God knows how Albert would respond if I had bled on the mattress.
Though the mattress is already quite dirty, I didn't want it to be blood. He could think so many things and one of them would be my self harm, he didn't believe me when I said I wanted to stay with him, at least not yet, and time again he'd show me how much he trusted me and id show how much I trusted him. But today was different, I was waiting for dinner, for him to unlock that door and see the bloody mess on the blood.
Would he get mad? Hed punish me by leaving me alone in the dark in which he knew I feared, but only time will tell how he'd react and I waited, my heart calm pounding in my chest. But then I heard that door unlock it fluttered like a moth, it wanted out. I flinched but kept my head down. He entered, he set the tray down on the hard floor and squatted down to my level, he was close I could hear his breathing through the mask.
He pet my hair, he hummed softly. "Hmh, bunny?"
I looked up my eyes teary and glossy as I did, his eye grew soft in his mask and looked down to the blood below us, I immediately felt the tension and guilt. He titled his head at this but didn't say anything about it. But he spoke once again.
"You've earned so much trust from me, I don't want you to be scared over something that is bound to happen." I couldn't help it, I started crying even more. He sighed and pulled me close. "Shh, I gotcha." He put my head on his chest, he rocked side to side gently.
"I suppose you'd want to get cleaned up?" I nodded a little, his voice became lighter like he was happy and almost amused. "Yeah?" I knew he was smiling under the mask.
He helped me up to my feet, it was clear I was sitting in the same spot for a while, my nightgown was soaked in blood. He walked to he basement door and opened it, he looked back at me. "Come on... I promise it's alright." 
I walked towards him and as we walked up the steps he kept his hands over my eyes, making sure I didn't trip over a step and made sure I walked to the bathroom without looking, I understood why he didn't want me to. There was a flick of a light switch and a closing of a door. He uncovered my eyes. I was in a bathroom, the toilet next to the sink and in front of the sink was the bath, he turned on the water. 
He put the plug in the drain, "I'll have to stay here with you while you bathe. I can't have you trying anything can I?" He patted my head.
I titled my head a little, he laughed at this. "Don't worry Bunny, I won't do anything you won't like. What's important is we get you clean." 
The water went, I was feeling a little shy, he sighed at this and spoke once again. "I'll be back. You get undressed and in the water."
He left the bathroom, I did what I was told. I got undressed and slipped into the hot water it made my body relax and I settled but I kept my knees pressed against my chest. He came back in with a new nightgown. "I suppose I can say I was prepared for this." 
He also had some new underwear for me... And a pad. I felt loved, so loved. He crouched down from the outside of the bath and grabbed a bar of soap. "Now, I can't do this unless you tell me it's alright." His voice was stern like he meant it.
"It's okay..." I said. He looked at me to double check it was really okay before he started to rub my back with the bar of soap, and brought it to the front of my chest on my collarbone. I slowly put my knees down. 
It's not like I felt uncomfortable but I was in a vulnerable state. He didn't want to make me uncomfortable nor did he have any intentions of it. He just made sure I got clean before getting my hair wet and he was trying to be very gentle, he's never done this before and it showed. I giggled a little and I saw his eyes look at me through his mask. 
He didn't say anything but I knew he smiled a little as he continued to wash my hair. He rinsed me and that's when he started speaking again. "Feel good?" His voice was light. 
I nod a little and once he got me rinces he stood up, putting his hands on his knees and he grabbed a towel... His towel from the wrack and held it open. "Let's get you dry." 
I stood up slowly, it was clear I was in some pain, he dried me gently and he me some privacy to get dressed and situated. Once I was done he sighed. "I understand... Cramps may be a problem."
I didn't say anything but he knew it was a very likely possibility and didn't need my word to take action. He held out his hand for me to take. Almost like you would a child, and I took it. He led me back to the basement and got me back on the mattress. 
He sighed, "I'll get you something for the pain." He whispered like he didn't want me to hear but at the same time he did.
When he came back he had a hot water bottle, he sat next to me again. "lay down." His voice is soft once again, I do so. He gently placed it on my lower tummy and rubbed the side of my hip. 
He didn't want to leave me alone, he felt so sad I had to stay down here in the dark, in pain. He knew periods weren't fun and he just had a spot in his heart to want to stay, so he did. He lied next to me but he didn't touch me, not wanting me to be uncomfortable but I didn't want him to think it would so I scooted closer to him.
I knew he was smiling a bit under his mask. He put his hand on my forehead and stroked me gently till I was able to relax from the pain and go to sleep.
And through the night he made sure that hot water bottle stayed warm, even if it meant him having to get up the stairs and all the way back down. 
He kissed my forehead and slept next to me, he was a light sleeper and when he heard me start to whine from the pain he immediately woke. "Oh. Shh, shh, shh." He cooed.
He stroked my cheek, he whispers gently. "Breathe, focus on my voice."
I sniffled, I was subconsciously holding onto his sleeve but he didn't mind. He smiled at how much he was able to help and he kissed and rested his lips on my forehead for about five seconds before rubbing my tummy gently. Making sure I fell asleep once again.
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the-s1lly-corner · 10 months ago
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jax with an s/o who is sweet n kind to everyone, handles jax’s bullshit,,,
until one day, one of his pranks just causes them to lose their temper and lash out 🤔??
or like a jax x reader who has anger issues ykyk
Jax x sweet!reader finally snapping
was gonna write this last night but i wanted to draw + im still having some stomach issues that (at least for now) have calmed down a little so!! think imma write this and one more thing then imma get right back to working on art written with you guys already having a good relationship established, can be read as platonic or romantic!
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jax doesnt really know when to stop, and when he does he tends to double down because he thinks most of the stuff he does isnt that serious
that in of itself is an issue, since it leads to some conflict between him and other circus members
and today, for the first time youve finally reached your limit
be it jax just being in a pestering mood and you already being overwhelmed from being in the circus; or he took one of his pranks too far with you and ended with hurt feelings.. i think either are likely! maybe even both, the combination pushing you over the edge?
kind of visibly jolts a little when you whip around to look at him, probably also telling him off... eyes wide, maybe his shoulders are a little hunched up in surprise
i mean you usually let his bullshit just roll off of you, and youve never raised your voice at anyone in the circus. ever... so this was definitely new to him
usually, if this were anyone else he might egg the other person on; theres only few exceptions to that.. but i dont think hed be able to bring himself to do it mostly out of shock that you finally got fed up with him
once you two are separated he might spend some time trying to dismiss his guilty feelings and try to mentally frame it as you taking something too hard
again, not the best thing, but jax doesnt seem to be the most mature out of the cast
but i think over time (and after being berated by ragatha for his actions) hes going to admit that he really messed things up, so he might try to patch things over with you
if ragatha getting on his case doesnt push him to fix things, you avoiding him is going to really do it
hes not going to just. not be an asshole overnight, thats going to take time, but i do think it would be obvious that hes trying to not piss you off again.. you can definitely tell hes struggling a bit
i think word would get out about what happened so you two are gonna have fun with that gossip and people sticking their nose in your business, ect ect ect
i dont think he would outright apologize, at least not verbally.. but he will show it in his actions; doing stuff for you that he wouldnt normally do for others like doing some favors for you as well offering you things he knows you like. stuff like that, you know?
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a-random-weeb · 1 year ago
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bsd yandere headcannons
This is just a quick drabble because I have no more requests to write and I constantly need to be writing. ←(This part (the intro) was wrote before I started the event and got a flood of requests. I had so much fun writing this that it's been my own little side thing (Not in the dirty way, weirdos)
Warnings: kidnapping, Stockholm syndrome, murder, slight nsfw in chuuyas part, anything else that comes in yandere writing.
I had a lot of fun writing this, there's a oneshot in chuuyas, theres not one in Dazais, this whole fanfic was really fun to write and I kinda did my own thing for it. I hope you guys like reading it as much as I liked writing it! (This took forever)
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Dazai:
Yandere type: clingy, obsessive
Danger level: 8/10
•He starts off by confessing his feelings
•If you share the same feelings towards him, your relationship will start off normal (other than the constant question of "will you do a double suicide with me?)
•Eventually you become his reason to live, he loves you too much!
•he'll do anything for you, anything. Even hurt himself if you asked him to
•Hed definitely kill for you. The guy who looked at you the wrong way last week? Oh look, his severed head, now where did that come from?
•Hed never hurt you though!
•He loves you, you're his everything, his world, you're perfect in his eyes.
•Now, if you were to reject him, that'd be a different story (this also counts for if you break up with him)
•He'll kidnap you and tie you to a chair in his basement.
•Itd be a pretty cozy chair.
•Hell only untie you when he's sure you won't attempt to attack him or grab the key from him
•When he does untie you, he also upgrades the basement
•He puts a bed down there (Aka his bed because he can't afford another one. He just sleeps on an air mattress upstairs)
•He also invests in a big screen tv for you
•He spends most of his money on you, no matter how much you hate him
Punishments: his punishments differ. Let's say you smashed the expensive big screen tv that was mentioned because you were frustrated or angry at him. He wouldn't buy you another one for quit awhile. He'd also slap you across the face and beat you up a little. If you were to try to run away, it depends. If you succeeded in running away and he got you back in his basement... he'd be furious. He'd torture you for around a week. He hates torturing you, but you have to learn your lesson. He's done so much for you, why would you run away?! If you were to fail, he'd probably hit you a little, but nothing horrible. If you were to try to kill him (and fail obviously) he'd start by killing your best friend. He would only show you a picture of their head for proof, he doesn't want to traumatize you more than you already are. He also might hit you depending on how mad he his, and he's really scary when he's mad surprisingly.
Perks: You get cuddled, a lot. You're basically worshipped. You get to be taken care of by a hot guy, is there much else you want. He also gets you expensive jewelry with kunikidas wallet .
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Chuuya:
Yandere type: Obsessive/possessive
Danger level: 9/10
•At first he stalks you
•He'll stalk you for about a year before he begins to write you creepy letters. They consist of stuff you've never told anyone
•He knows every little thing about you
•He loves you so much!
•Anyways, his letters also say stuff like what he wants to do to you, or how Bad he wants you
•the letters he will write you would be like
"Dear (your name), i saw you walking your dog today... you looked so cute! Oh how I love you, I can't wait to make you mine... if you date me, I promise to spoil you! I'll praise you for everything and take proper care of you! I'm gonna kidnap you someday soon, just you wait...
Ps: if you call the police, your dog dies
- sincerely, your admirer" it also has a picture of you walking your dog.
•He also writes about his weird fantasies
•slight NSFW in this next letter , just be aware
"God you looked so hot today... god, I just wanna pull as much pleasure from your body while you beg me to stop~ That'll be us some day, just wait princess~
-your secret admirer"
Along with a picture of you changing (Or masterbating if you do that ;])
•you can't tell anyone about these letters, or he'll kill your dog, which makes this whole situation 10× worse
•He does confess in real life to but you reject him because you barely know him and had know idea he wrote the notes
•You go to the police, showing them the letters. You also take your dog
•The police can't find any finger prints or evidence as to where the letter could've come from.
•The next day, your dog goes missing
•You feel incredibly worried
•Soon, you get another letter
•You hesitate to open it, not wanting to know, praying your dog isn't dead
(Tiny oneshots up ahead)
"Oh darling, I told you not to call the police~ do you want me to kill your dog? Don't worry, he's not dead.... yet. Come to xxxx xx (adress) at midnight if you Ever wish to see your dog again, bring no one.
-Secret admirer"
You Reluctantly go to that address at midnight, but you bring a knife. You drive there only to find it's a mansion. You slowly approach the large building, the tension building up. Your eyes widden as you see Chuuya answer the door.
"Oh hey Darling~ you made it!" He has this weird, creepy grin plastered on his face.
"Ch-chuuya? What's happening?!" You ask as as he pulls you inside, locking the door.
"Simple. You're mine." He smashes his lips against yours. You back away, absolutely disgusted, you try to run. He instantly pulls you back "Don't you want to see how your dog is doing?" He whispers seductively in your ear. You tense up and nod "How is he?! You didn't hurt him did you?!" You panic as he chuckles.
"Your dog is fine... for now." He smirks and pulls you to his chest "But for now, let's focus on you, ya?" You can practically hear the arrogance radiating off of him.
"No, let's focus on my dog!" Chuuya scoffs "Shut up about your damn dog already! He's fine! You should be focusing on how you're in my arms, all cute and scared."
"You're mine." He begins to mumble "Mine mine mine mine MINE!"
Punishments: Normally, if you try to attack him or escape he'll lock you in a room for a week. No water for a day, no food for three days. He doesn't want you to go insane, so there is a few mangas and/or books in that room. If you attempt to kill him, successfully run away, or hurt him (which you probably won't) then it's a bit worse. He doesn't want to hurt you, doesn't mean he won't, especially when he loses his temper. He might beat you up until you pass out, but he'll never kill you. After you pass out he'll realize what he's done, sigh, and lift you into bed. He's really scary when he's mad, but he always cuddles you and apologizes after any punishment , giving you a bunch of kisses and praise. Doesn't mean he won't punish you again though, he 100% will, after all, you have to learn your lesson.
Perks: he'll buy you whatever you want, if he trusts you enough, he'll even let you go out by yourself with his black card! He makes you wear a listening device though, and makes sure he knows where you're doing at all times. He's also hidden tracking devices in your clothes, you don't even know where some of the are, you can't feel them. Another benefit is he cuddles you a LOT. He likes to praise you and tell you how pretty you are. He's a great cook, and always makes sure you're well taken care of, even hires a (Very trusted) maid for you!
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Hey guys, sorry I've barely been posting, I've been working on this fic for a while, I wanted to add akutagawa and maybe Atsushi but unfortunately I'm so sick it's hard to think straight and I want to get some fics out for y'all
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