#heaven hold us btb

[okamirayne]

BREAK TO BREATHE UPDATE🚨

So, this insanity happened… 👇🏼

HEAVEN HOLD US CHAPTER 8

*goes to drown in crippling terror and tea* ☕️😬🫠….💜

[bunnyramen]

Good Omens Hc (Ineffable Husbands + Ineffable Interns and a mix of family) to help the fandom recover just a tiny bit

-If Aziraphale gives Crowley freckles when he gives him kisses, Angel gains a beauty mark from Crowley’s kisses (like falling/dying stars)

- I feel like since Eric can multiply, it’s the opportunity to give Muriel tons of kisses

- Aziraphale and Crowley share a garden, these two are always bickering about how to treat the plants

- Muriel asks question after question about demons, a lot are ones Eric doesn’t know the answer to and giving that he likes mischief, he makes a bunch of stuff up (all in good fun)

- Muriel sings incredibly and Eric loves to listen even if his ears can’t stand it (because it’s literally heavenly)

-Aziraphale has taken on whistling centuries ago and had become quite the professional, Crowley will sometimes catch him whistling “be-bop” (only because it reminds him of the demon)

- Aziraphale accidentally left his ring before he left for heaven and Crowley kept it (giving it back when Azi came back to reconcile)

- Aziraphale wrote, preformed and produced an entire play as an apology (Crowley couldn’t even get through the first chunk before he was sobbing from laughter)

- When Aziraphale blushes, it has a glow to it that only ethereal beings can see, so when he’s red in the face, to Crowley, he looks like a Christmas light

- Aziraphale picked up a few hobbies while Crowley asleep for the century, Dancing being one of them and another being Piano. The Piano is something Crowley doesn’t know about because he’s a little embarrassed and doesn’t play when he’s around (like dancing, Angels aren’t meant to really play instruments despite owning harps)

- Muriel has intimate knowledge of what Heaven can and can’t detect, they use this to their advantage when Eric wants to “stir up mischief” (He’s too embarrassed to call it a date)

- Muriel has taken to drawing Eric and Eric gets a little weird about it (it’s the sweetest thing anyones ever done for him and it makes him feel.. awkward. He loves it btb, he just can’t show it right)

- Muriel blushes a lot around Eric but has no idea what it is, so they think they got hell fire on their face (They glow too)

- Eric and Muriel are the opposite of Azirphale and Crowley when it comes to sleeping. Once Muriel learned what it was and how to do it, you couldn’t stop them from taking a nap anywhere, Eric on the other hand has taken to watching over them (Aziraphale gets jumpscared walking into a room and seeing multiple Erics watching over Muriel) (Like (Demon) father like (Angel) child)

- Angel plays the piano for Muriel and teaches them how to, and they pick up the skill immediately (He also teaches them how to read sheet music)

- Aziraphale is not allowed to call Crowley “Anthony” outside of a private area or things may happen

- Chat gave me the idea that the Z. In Azi’s middle name is Zebidiah and I will hold onto that, Crowley calls him that on occasion to be funny because he couldn’t have chosen a worse middle name (Not that “Janthony” can talk)

- Crowley has taken on eating a little more but it’s rare that he’ll finish what he has

- Crowley takes great passion in watching Muriel tell people to piss off when they walk in the bookshop, even when Muriel learned it was considered rude

- Omg!! Crowley and Azi introducing Muriel to Warlock, siblings!!

- Crowley listens to audio books (I.E. makes Aziraphale read to him)

- Eric shared a piece of candy with Muriel, not knowing they’ve never had food before and now they have a huge sweet tooth

- When Eric threatened to Eat Muriel, they laughed in his face and that’s how his crush started

- Muriel’s started after Eric kissed their hand to rial them up when they first met (Angel and demon beef)

- Omg Muriel learning how to dance from the first ever Angel to do so (So now the number is a straight forward two)

- Muriel miracled facial hair on their face because they've seen Crowley with it before and wanted to try it (they have long sideburns now, much to Crowley’s dismay because it reminds him of Brother Francis)

- Eric and Muriel once held hands for “safety reasons” and now do it often

-Crowley still gets called to watch over Warlock and he always bregrudingly obliges

- Since I assume Muriel has a more Cockney accent, maybe they learn some of the slang words that come with that (Aziraphale gives them a book on it and deals with the repercussions)

- Crowley and Aziraphale has separate bedrooms (not that they don’t love each more than heaven and earth put together) but having their own space to decorate and do their thing helps tremendously (even if they end up in the other’s room most of the time)

- Crowley took Aziraphale’s last name and it’s very funny when they go out together and when someone says “Mr. Fell” they both turn

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‘  is  there  anybody  out  there?  ’  ‘  i’m  fighting  off  the  dread  that  haunts  me.  ’  ‘  it  feels  like  dying  was  just  another  door.  ’  ‘  i  just  remember  a  life  in  the  past.  a  life  that  i  lost.  ’  ‘  it’s  not  my  time  to  die.  ’  ‘  the  dark  you  see  will  fade.  ’  ‘  i  can  see  it  in  your  eyes.  ’  ‘  won’t  you  come  with  me?  ’  ‘  we’re  fighting  for  a  better  place.  ’  ‘  this  is  going  to  make  history.  ’  ‘  you  stick  around  through  my  hardest  days.  ’  ‘  i  feel  there’s  a  darkness  that  poisons  my  veins.  ’  ‘  do  you  know  what  a  body  like  this  can  do?  ’  ‘  every  time  i wake  up,  i’m  someone  new.  ’  ‘  live  today,  ‘cause  tomorrow,  we’ll  be  dead.  ’  ‘  will  you  show  me  what  i’m  supposed  to  feel?  ’  ‘  someone  tell  me  that  none  of  this  is  real.  ’  ‘  together,  we  are  whole.  ’  ‘  nothing  matters  anymore.  ’  ‘  i’m  closer  to  the  edge  with  every  step.  ’  ‘  why  won’t  you  just  leave  me  here?  ’  ‘  i  just  feel  so  empty  now.  ’  ‘  i  got  caught  within  your  lies.  ’  ‘  i’m  yours  to  admire.  ’  ‘  you’re  not  alone  in  this  fight.  ’  ‘  let  me  tell  you  my  dreams  of  our  destiny.  ’  ‘  bare  your  soul  to  me.  ’  ‘  show  me  the  face  that  you  hide.  ’  ‘  let  me  be  your  home.  ’  ‘  the  time  goes  by  in  days  of  gray.  ’  ‘  you  enjoy  keeping  me  here.  ’  ‘  once  upon  a  time,  this  love  was  true.  ’  ‘  you  preyed  on  our  faith  and  i  gave  you  my  life.  ’  ‘  you  promised  me  heaven  instead.  ’  ‘  and  soon,  there  will  be  silence.  ’  ‘  deep  inside,  i  know  it  isn’t  real.  ’  ‘  did  you  ever  feel  like  the  only  one  sane  in  this  world? ’  ‘  just  scream  for  me.  ’  ‘  in  every  vice,  you’ll  find  a  little  purity.  ’  ‘  a  moment  can  destroy  a  life.  ’  ‘  forgotten  doesn’t  mean  forgiven.  ’  ‘  they  haunt  me  in  my  dreams.  ’  ‘  it  sometimes  feels  i’m  on  my  own.  ’  ‘  i  don’t  care  what  they  think.  ’  ‘  if  anything  is  real,  then  love  is.  ’  ‘  all  the  rules  we  never  broke  held  us  back.  ’  ‘  i’m  a  wasted  lover  and  i  need  my  fix.  ’  ‘  nothing’s  left  of  what  was  mine.  ’  ‘  i’m  trying  to  hold  you,  but  you  slip  away.  ’  ‘  your  love  is  all  that  mattered  to  me.  ’  ‘  you  were  there  when  my  world  fell  apart.  ’  ‘  tell  me  lies,  lies,  beautiful  lies.  ’  ‘  i  will  follow,  whatever  the  cost.  ’  ‘  never  once  did  i  stop  loving  you.  ’  ‘  love’s  a  burden,  but  i  want  more  to  bear.  ’  ‘  sometimes  it  seems  i’ve  vanished.  ’  ‘  take  me  away,  wherever  you  go.  ’  ‘  please  come  and  purify  me.  ’  ‘  the  days  we  lost  will  never  come  again.  ’  ‘  forget  my  name,  my  love,  and  let  me  die.  ’  ‘  the  hurt  you  feel  will  never  be  in  vain.  ’ 

[okamirayne]

BREAK TO BREATHE UPDATE 🚨

HEAVEN HOLD US CHAPTER 9

😅🫠💀….ENJOY!!

*passes out on fic notes *

[okamirayne]

BREAK TO BREATHE UPDATE 🚨 HEAVEN HOLD US

HEAVEN HOLD US: CHAPTER 10

Aaaand here we go! I hope those following enjoy. If you do, please consider supporting your crazy BtB traindriver by sharing your thoughts and feedback. Big love! *salutes*🫠💜

[okamirayne]

Wait... There's more btb? What did I miss? Tell me more, please?

Hey there, luv! Not sure which parts you might have missed, so I'm posting all the links below for you. 💜 Here is the totality of the BtB series so far:

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༺BtB Masterlist༻

In order from BtB through to HHU

Break to Breathe (BtB part 1) COMPLETE

BtB on ff.net Break to Breathe on AO3

On the Cusp (BtB part 2) COMPLETE

OtC on ff.net OtC on AO3

Requiem (BtB part 3) COMPLETE

Requiem on ff.net Requiem on AO3

Under These Scars (BtB part 4) COMPLETE

UtS on ff.net

Bonus series add-on:

Heaven Hold Us [Post War] WIP/ONGOING [Contination of BtB Series | Can be considered as part 5]

HHU on ff.net

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~᯽~ PROFILE LINKS ~᯽~

FF.NET PROFILE LINK: Entire series posted here, HHU updated here.

AO3 PROFILE LINK: BtB parts 1 - 3 posted here.

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Hope this helps! 💜

[okamirayne]

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[okamirayne]

Hi Rayne ⸜(｡˃ ᵕ ˂ )⸝♡

So...erm. I may be reading too much from a meme. But I just saw the writing meme you reblogged about coming out of a writing slump (not belittling your burnout btw (˃̣̣̥⌓˂̣̣̥⋆) ) at 'stupid o'clock' hours (haha, i always loved term Shikamaru uses in BtB) and was just wondering and hoping that maybe you were writing again??

((PLEASE ignore this if it's triggering.))

But if you're still struggling please accept my apology and loads of tea and love and know that I'm wishing you the best ALWAYS.

(´｡• ◡ •｡`) ♡

Wispy ♡♡♡ xx

Aww 🥰 Heya Wispy!

Firstly, super cute emoticons 😍

Secondly, thank you so much for such a sweet message. I can feel your care, sensitivity, and caution there, and just want to let you know that you’re a darling, and not to worry at all for asking me. 💜💜

Thirdly…your question…

[…] and was just wondering and hoping that maybe you were writing again??

Erm….

Does this answer your question, sweetie?? 😅😅😅 😘💕

[okamirayne]

Ooooh a new character! 😯

[okamirayne]

Hiya Rayne-chan! Just dropping by to send some love and to thank you again for the latest chapter. I think I've read it like five times now 😅. How are you managing the next chapter? Are you pacing yourself ok? (Provided you're still writing HHU! Not meant as pressure!) Your latest burnout post was really interesting and I hope that you're taking care of yourself. Mwah! xoxox 💋💋

Hey there, Anon!

Awww, thanks for the love, sweetie. Consider it absorbed by osmosis.

[...] thank you again for the latest chapter. I think I've read it like five times now 😅

Oh bless you. You're welcome! I'm so happy you've enjoyed it so much.

How are you managing the next chapter? Are you pacing yourself ok? (Provided you're still writing HHU! Not meant as pressure!)

You're very sweet to enquire, and I appreciate the no-pressure caveat. 🥰 Oh yes, I'm cracking on with Chapter 9 and hope to have it out shortly. Argh. It frustrates me that I can't produce at the level I used to...which risks me sounding like a mouth-breathing hypocrite given the Burnout Recovery journey.

I need to get over my old narrative and work with what energy and time I have to spare. Which is precisely what I'm doing. I'm presently 14,000 words into this chapter...and I haven't even changed scene yet....oh....

Faaarrrrrkkkk......

*laughs hysterically, manically, TRAGICALLY*....

I don't know why this always happens...but in this case I'll blame beautiful, bloody Hiashi...and his bastard, bloody father.

Trying to take care of myself, yes. It's a steep learning curve for the stupider (bad-habit) parts of my brain. Thanks again, sweetie. I hope you enjoy the next chapter when it's finally bloody posted. I appreciate the love!💜💜💜

[okamirayne]

(༎ຶ︿༎ຶ) Rayne...Ino and Kiba...you're breaking my heart. I need a whole InoKiba playlist to cope. You sold me on these 2. Do you have a favorite song for them? Excuse me why I go craiii like a bitch (༎ຶ︿༎ຶ) (ᗒᗣᗕ)՞

Aww, Anon! 💖 Music is always the cure. I do love those two. I actually do have a top song for them atm given the events in HHU. It's a remix: Eminem ft. Pink - I'm Sorry (Lyrics) (youtube.com)

The rap is Kiba's POV and it fits perfectly 💔❤️‍🩹. As for crying like a she-dog? Imma listen to this song and come cry with you, my dear.

[okamirayne]

Heaven Hold Us

ShikaNeji nostalgia 💔❤️‍🔥❤️‍🩹😭

[okamirayne]

Hi Rayne! 😘 This is a no-pressure ASK so don’t worry if you don’t want to answer! Also please don’t see this as pressure for you to write (and appease this lurker lol) but only as interest 🧡. Even if you never write more for BtB/HHU, when u said u had the plot worked out I had to ask b/coz I have no self control (ha ADHD FTW!) and my btb headcanons are screaming for info. Was so psyched about Naru & Sas, any more new / POV characters u had planned on appearing/writing? Mwah! 💋 Lovings!

Hi Anon! Thank you for your ASK and your curiosity🥹 You sweet people who show interest are helping heal the third degree burns on my writer’s spirit from burnout. ❤️‍🩹🙏🏼 Thank you. You’re all just so awesome 🫶🏼

Thank you also for the no-pressure caveat. I truly appreciate that understanding 💜

[…] when u said u had the plot worked out I had to ask b/coz I have no self control (ha ADHD FTW!) and my btb headcanons are screaming for info.

🤣😂 Love this. Well I’ve got it worked out insofar as I usually do (the big plot points) with huge wiggle room for surprises and shifts…I’ve already had a few and that’s only from 8 chapters 😧 Writing certain characters always throws such delightful or disturbing curveballs!

Was so psyched about Naru & Sas,

Ah yay! 😮‍💨 I’m chuffed you’re happy to see Sasuke and Naruto as MCs. Being in their headspace is very interesting, challenging, and humbling. And as always I hope to do them justice 🙏🏼 with narrative license within the BtB world. So thank you for the thumbs up! 👍🏼

any more new / POV characters u had planned on appearing/writing?

Oh, ho, ho! It’s gif time. I have no self-control either in this realm 😆 Not sure if they’ll all be in POV capacity but some may very well be.

Characters lined up:

Possibly others? That’s where the wiggle room comes in. Others may pop up. Or pop in. Not sure these next ones class as new but they’re in there:

Again, possibly more. Other Hyūga members too…ah, and then there’s the OG Konoha 11 chūnin that’ll be popping up 🥰 Unresolved issues abound! Especially for Tenten, Lee, and of course Ino & Kiba…Chōji 😢…Hinata…Sakura (re: Sasuke)…it’s a messy aftermath…

Thanks again, Anon for your interest and your understanding 💜

[okamirayne]

BtB READER ASK:

Still plugging away at the next chapter for Heaven Hold Us, and thought I'd drop this ASK for you guys. To all the BtB readers out there, your inquiring Word Witch would love to know which you prefer regarding Chapter length...thanks! xxx

[okamirayne]

OMG <3 So about this bit ''I can confirm that they had been very successful at concealing it, although by the time Heaven Hold Us starts (post War), these surviving characters know for certain:...'' - is it possible that you could give us some more details about how they found out/figured it out? <3

Hey there, @barasai 🧡

Regarding details! I can tell you that all the characters are going to reveal how they found out/figured it out in the upcoming chapters of HHU. That said...

Hinata knew first, before anyone else, as she suspected back in BtB, though never explicitly stated it to Shikamaru. Though it was implied in Break to Breathe when Shikamaru was getting ready to chase after Neji again (after the Gentle Fist head-trauma the Hyuuga gave him 😅 )

BTB CHAPTER 36 EXCERPT: [...] "I…I said he needed someone to help pull him back, but…" Hinata trailed off, recovering with a frown. "But I didn't think it would cost this much." "There's always a price." Shikamaru shrugged, the nonchalance so forced it felt like hefting rocks on his shoulders. "I knew that when I got into this." "But it's not the same…" Hinata said, her eyes blinking doe-like. "It's different now." Shikamaru arched a brow. "Nothing's changed." No sooner had he said it than Hinata's gaze took on a quality of calm understanding that struck him numb quicker than any lick of chakra to his nerves ever could. "Yes it has…" she whispered. Fuck…

So, there was Hinata's moment of "gotcha". Though she had grace enough not to announce it or disclose it to anyone else throughout the rest of the series. Sakura didn't cotton on in that scene, as it was so far beyond the scope of possibility or credulity given the urgency of what was happening.

As for the others: Kakashi, Genma, Ibiki, Temari, Sai, Tsuno, and Choza.

Their knowledge will be revealed in HHU (at least that's what my plot bunnies are showing me 😅...it's almost Easter, the bunnies can't lie...right? 😆 Right.)

Thanks for the ASK, luv! And for your interest in the BtB madness. Love and appreciate the awesome support! 🫶🏼💜xxx

[okamirayne]

Hey there! I apologize if this has been asked before, but in the BtB universe do most of the characters know/suspect the relationship between ShikaNeji, or have they been really successful in concealing it? Are there any characters that have their suspicions other than the characters said to have known (Hiashi/Shukaku?) Dumb question, but I have my own little headcanons about this haha.

Hey there @idreamofflight 😊 Thanks for dropping in with your ASK, luv! It is not a dumb question at all!

[…] in the BtB universe do most of the characters know/suspect the relationship between ShikaNeji, or have they been really successful in concealing it?

I can confirm that they had been very successful at concealing it, although by the time Heaven Hold Us starts (post War), these surviving characters know for certain:

Plus my ANBU OC, Tsuno

Are there any characters that have their suspicions other than the characters said to have known (Hiashi/Shikaku?)

These characters had/have their suspicions:

Ino & Chōji for sure, though they never pushed Shikamaru on this (well…maybe Ino…just a little bit 🤏 )

Kiba suspected/suspects on a deeply subconscious level — an animal instinct feeling but he never let(s) that instinct bubble up consciously, namely because he and Neji clash so much and it’s not something he would’ve been able to logically square in his head. He was/is still hung up on Shikamaru’s adventures in Suna with those lady twins 😉

😅 Now, all that said, bear in mind I am sometimes surprised by a certain revelation a character can come up with whilst writing. So there may be one or two more with lurking suspicions that haven’t come to mind just yet.

Sasuke, for example, could presently rate in both the knows about Shikamaru and Neji and/or the suspects category at this point. I’ll know for certain when writing his interaction with Shikamaru. 👍🏼

Thanks for the ASK, luv! Though it may be subject to change, this is where it presently stands. 🧡