#healthier mindset

[shredderwest]

*I wish to lay down in the snow and hear the quiet sound of snowflakes melting on my skin.

I long to see my breath leaving me in the cold evening air so I can be reminded that I am alive.

I want to throw open the curtains in the morning and be dazzled by the tiny beauty of ice crystals mixing with old fingerprints on the windows.

Some may never love the winter but I will always cherish these tiny moments because younger me might never have given myself the chance.*

Original poem by me (Shredder) while I wait for snow to come in Minnesota. There’s something about this year that has really made me look forward to the snow and cold. Maybe it’s being in a new city away from my abusive family, maybe it’s realizing I’m bigger than my trauma, or maybe it’s that I don’t think about wanting to die anymore. I’m not sure but I can’t wait to heal my inner child with the beautiful cold!

[mindfulldsliving]

Discovering Strength: Using Personal Inventory to Heal from the Past

Sharing our personal journeys can create connections, offering a hand of support to others who walk a similar path. When we share our stories, we’re not just recounting events; we’re offering hope and inspiration.

In our journey toward recovery, we often overlook the importance of looking back. Childhood experiences shape who we are as adults, and recognizing their impact is crucial in understanding our present behavior. This isn’t just about uncovering old wounds but about taking a personal inventory to find hidden value in our past. By acknowledging and evaluating these influences, we gain a fresh…

[stillgotscars]

you know what makes me so queasy? the progression from “i once was poison ivy, but now i’m your daisy” → “pick your poison, babe, i’m poison either way” and “i’m the death you chose, you’re in terrible danger”

[mystoryfortheaudienceoftheworld]

Welcome To My 1 Year Goal In The Life Of Me!

It’s been a minute since I truly “tumbled”, but I think it’s time to start again. I want to use this platform once again to help motivate me with my weight loss.

I am not sure where to start with this entrance of me back into the weight loss world.

Back in the day (ugh, that makes me sound so old- but it really was 14 years ago) I was overweight and I lost almost 300lbs (which was 9 years ago) . Currently, I find myself back to where I used to be with all my weight gained back. I used to play it off to the fact that I found the love of my life and got married – and everyone gains weight when they get married. Well, its been 5 years of being married and I can’t play that card anymore.

I am tired of feeling heavy and that feeling of standing out from the others, but not in the good way. I am a very happy person, but I just need to be healthier. I will never hate myself for how much I weigh or how I look –I  just realistically know I need to work on my eating and movement.

I want to get back to being able to walk around without getting out of breath - #BIG-GOAL-HERE!

So, I have decided starting today, November 11, 2024, I am going to start a 1 Year Goal on working on my health and fitness.

365 days of posting the good and the not so good as I work on me again!

In the past I mostly stuck to weight watchers – and while it did work – I am not a fan of the direction weight watchers has taken in the past years. Their mindset of losing weight isn’t what it used to be about, and it throws my motivation off. So, for right now I am going to stick with my own personal plan of healthy intuitive eating.

Currently I don’t know how much I weigh – I just know it’s too much and my scale says #ERROR – meaning tooooo heavy. Yikes!

So, I welcome you to my 1 Year Goal and appreciate any feedback, all the positivity, and happiness along the way.

Some #’s I plan to use with my blog if you so wish to keep up are:

#1yeargoal #myeating #whaticooked

[alienssstufff]

ever since that style talk in tags and now that it’s 2025 I dooo have a few art-resolutions I want to achieve this yearrrr and a ‘small’ grocery list of ideas in my pocket - though all of it just boils down to the same big picture of wanting to make things I’m proud of shtuff where in the future I can look back it and go like “dude. HeII yes. .. I did that.”

[jaybirdscoffee]

i love how my transition goals have shifted from skinny white twink with fluffy hair to big indigenous grill dad bear. truly a win for gender

[shalom-iamcominghome]

... We must realize how the behavior that we are attempting to throw away once helped to sustain us, and how it might help to sustain others somewhere down the line. In moving beyond what we recognize as a harmful behavior, we need to ask: "What did I learn? How did this behavior serve me?"

Each quality, even those that seem bad, contributed somehow to our self-preservation. It had good life-affirming purpose at one point, even if that is no longer true. In order to let go of such a habit, I need to give it a "testimonial," to send it away with my thanks. "I needed you, and there you were, and I thank you for it. And now, with full appreciation, I know that I no longer need you and I can send you away." This is different from trying to stamp it out. We no longer say, "I'm sorry I did this. I'm throwing this behavior away." We say, "Thank you, God, for this gift. I needed it then; I no longer need it now. I am returning it to the universe in the hope that it can help generate life elsewhere as it did for me."

-Jewish with Feeling, Rabbi Zalman Schachter-Shalomi. 2005, p. 173-174

[theodosiani]

I really gotta go into the evolution of Andruil and Ghilan'nain relationship from predator/prey to equals and how it was Andruil that lifted Ghilan'nain up to her level because Ghilan'nain was fine with either arrangement.

[rainyfestivalsweets]

Holiday party

12/6/24

I survived. I had a plan but the plan didn't work exactly.

Breakfast at home. Worked. Work out and tasking on lunch break.

Salad after my break. Shower. After I left work to rush to this party, I did remember to take my gluccomannon, make myself a lovely giant tea, & grab my sparkling water. These are all habits I have been working on. Tea was White Chocolate Peppermint with sf white chocolate & peppermint.

The party food was apps. There were no desserts. Or there was a tray of cookies I bypassed for later but they were gone.

I did try to eat slowly. Take time to visit. Tried to slow down when I noticed my speed eating kicking in. Fork down. Chew. Cut bites.

And I would have been OK. However, my gf was not, she didn't get enough to eat so we went to JL Beers after. We split a sweet pretzel and I had a basic American burger.

I probably didn't need it but it felt super awkward to be there and have her eating alone.

However- I did follow something that Chris Terrell said on one of his videos- leave one tasty bite. Basically when you eat out, you leave a bit even tho you "want" it to create space for the habit of not cleaning your plate.

Did I want the rest of that burger? Yes, very much.

Was I still hungry? No.

But I did it! I wanted it but I left it on the plate.

You don't have to eat everything in front of you.

He does a whole slow and steady approach.

I watched his 3 video series called The Awakening this week and I am impressed. Highly suggest to watch, very good information.

[glassymoonstone]

Charcters who appear to have sharp/downturned eyes because they’re either 1. Evil or 2. Angsty

But as the story progresses their eyes naturally soften into their actual eyeshape (which ever one that is), as a sign of trust and love for whomever they give that softer look to (either a party or otherwise)

Characters who gain more noticeable smile lines in epilogues

Characters who’s voices are just a bit Different as you get closer with them

Characters who heal and who’s physical traits reflect that.

[queerkimi]

so life has been shit, my dad was hospitalized in early September and then passed away near the end of the month, leaving behind no will, many unpaid bills, and a goddamn mortgage but shit is finally starting to settle a bit, or will soon so yay

I am so very tired

but also in better news I have taken up crochet and enjoy it! I’m very slow to get anything done because Stress and also bad wrists but yaaay hobby

[louisianimal]

I’m going to attempt to take a break from socials (outside of business ventures), liquor, and cutting back on smoking this month. I have to discipline myself to go without while I’m trying to recover mentally, emotionally, and spiritually. I really need to rediscover who I am now and what I can do to make me happy that isn’t rooted in the systematic evil which is capitalism.

[okitanoniisan]

i keep saying i need to make some zhaoryu shit but i'm back on my y5 kazusaeji bullshit again they are just so. m

[chloelouygo]

So apparently my queue kept going after I left, who knew my ghost would haunt my blog after I'd gone 😂 what better day to cone back than Halloween I guess, I queued those posts back in like... February? So seeing my own blog today is a lil treat adzfxfc no tricks here just my miraculous return 😅

It's been so sweet to see so many familiar names in my notes, I have the best mutuals ever I swear 😭💜💜 I genuinely missed my lil friends in my phone, I have gone away and touched some grass for like 4 months and I've come back and you're all still here being lovely and aaaa I look forward to seeing what stuff yall are hyperfixating on these days I can't wait to learn more than I ever expected about an anime I've never watched or a film from the early 00s that I've not heard of 😂 thank you all for being so wonderful I'm so happy to be back and to get to talk to you in the tags again💜💜

[dungeonmeshimybeloved]

Low key I wanna make a Playlist for chilchuck and his wife bc even tho I don't ship it myself and I see them separating, they have so much potential

Speaking of I should probably rename her instead of using jaylark bc idk who originally made that name but gdi I love that name sm

In their enstrangment era

When they were still childhood friends

[actualaster]

Ah, OP is a wee little "brand new to being an adult" type who thinks blocking means you lose because they're still about as mature as they were a decade ago. That explains a lot.

I hope in 10-15 years time when they're accustomed to being an adult responsible for their own choices and actions that they come to give up those kinds of silly notions and embrace the freedom of blocking people they don't like without hesitation.

(Assuming we still have internet that functions like that in 10-15 years and that it hasn't collapsed or anything, of course)