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nero-neptune ¡ 3 months ago
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close encounters of the third kind is an objectively good movie, but it feels sorta tragic. and i doubt thet was the intention lol. love the cinematography, love the music score, love the visual effects. that's all fun and good. but where everyone else seems to see a movie full of "wonder", it just makes me feel sad. the movie ends the way it does and it leaves me feeling bummed the fuck out.
#i'm literally eric stoltz in his version of back to the future thinking marty coming home to a changed 'better' family is Tragic and Bleak#it's why flight of the navigator was a cute movie to be as a kid. but the non-goofy parts legit freaked me out lol#like what do you Mean no time passed and now this kid's younger brother is older than him? he missed on years and it's funny but it's Sad#but at least that all works out#close encounters has the 40s pilots and an assortment of other people (young and old) from various time periods walking off that ship#what happens when they try to go home? will their families be there? will they be decades older? will they be dead?#barry's only been gone for a few days and Seems fine and his mom pretty much got him right back so they're good#but there was at least another kid walking off that ship. what about her parents? how long was she gone?? man...#like yeah the dad fucks off to space and leaves his wife and kids behind. even spielberg says he doesnt like that ending anymore#bc odds are- that guy's family is Never gonna see him again. and they'll never know what happened. they'll never be Told what happened#'dad went crazy and went missing' and that's it. that would fuck with you#this movie's like 'yeah aliens! yeah ufos! yeah the unknown! yeah science! yeah mystery! yeah the power of music'#but the people caught in the middle of all this 'wonder' w/out Seeing that 'wonder' for themselves? this would suck. it's bleak.#such a killjoy take on a classic scifi movie but i forgot how much this movie just gives me a sense of dread#it's not how the audience is meant to feel anyway!#close encounters of the third kind#rambles
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holydrakes ¡ 1 month ago
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Me reading Soul Eater for the first time: these Maka and Soul kids are meant to be just friends right. So should I consider them to be like siblings or trainer and pokemon or hero and sidekick—
*Maka compares partner exchange with infidelity right in the first ep and Spirit is doing that future-father-in-law testing potential boyfriend thingy and Soul's reasoning for not liking maka for supposedly just having flat chest sounds unconvincing. Soul says cool guys don't cheat on their partners. Also isn't it kind of ship teasy that Maka and Soul are essentially like Maka's parents before, being a scythe weapon-meister pair that later tie the knot*
Me: Uhhh...okay. This makes me feel like this whole ep can make for a good romcom set up. But this is not that kinda show right? So this is just me—
*Maka and Soul apparrently live together. Maka gets irrationally angry at Blair whenever she flirts with Soul (does she have feelings for him or smth?) Soul would legit only let people touch Maka over his dead body, Soul and Maka ceremoniously got worried that that they've made each other worry, their biggest fight turned out to be them fighting over wanting to be the one wanting to protect the other? Soul resonance works in such a way that you literally become one with each other that you can even transfer blood? Sounds kinda kinky. They are such good roomies that Soul offers to be the one on cooking duty for days when Maka's hands got burnt*
Me: Well, okay. They'd make a cute ship of course. Their friendship is adorable but that's about it I guess—
*Episode 14 opens with a dream sequence that makes it look like the two are getting married. Soul has no problems serving Maka treats and tea in an apron like a good ol house husband. Maka gets really jealous that Soul would confide with the hot school nurse first about his dream instead of her and ends up wanting him to dance with her in hopes they can get closer...and in true obnoxious in-law fashion Spirit cockblocks the two. Turns out Maka had only been teasing Soul about supposedly not bringing him any food (that makes her feel even more like she's flirting with him the whole time)*
Me: Oh, well...it does lowkey feel like I'm watching a romcom over here now—but I know it's not—
*Soul and Maka share a slow a dance inside Soul's head. To a romantic jazz, wearing matching outfits, they can read each other's minds while they discuss about potentially endangering each other's sanity...for apparrently no reason*
Me: ....Ooookay, was that really necessary? That's a super creative and romantic way to play with the Mindlink Mates trope. Oh wow, me and who, me and who. Oh god, are these two still supposed to be just friends? It feels like I'm not watching a story about friendship anymore, this scene legit belongs in a romance story. So what is it doing here—
*They share that mind-space clad in the fancy outfits again. Soul touches Maka's face tenderly as he tries to get her to come back to her senses. He does that sweet and romantic 'teach bae how to play the piano' thingy by holding her hand gently...*
Me: these two are just friends...not a couple...but they look so damn like the latter...but—but—
*Maka suddenly, legitimately asks Soul to call her an angel specifically like how the resident lover boy often does to his lady love, Soul in an expression rarely seen from him, responds by blushing slightly. Later it was suggested that Soul was apparrently full of shit whenever he teased Maka for her lack of curves making her supposedly unattractive to him (Ha! Called it!) Maka baby don't you think you're a little too possessive for someone who's just your friend—uhhh, why are you guys seem to be addicted to holding hands all of a sudden—Spirit why are you comparing them to yourself and your wife, isn't Stein right over there—was that intertwined fingers and head touch necessary?! What is this, yuri manga?! Soul...why are you having that dorky blush again over Maka like ain't you supposed to be the cool guy? Ah the story's reaching its end....did-did Soul just flirt with Maka? At a time like this? Oh wow Maka that's the worst case of luminescent blush you've got yet—*
Me: ...Oh fuck, fuck, fuck. 'Just friends' you mean a couple of friends obviously feeling sexually frustrated with each other—
*Drama CD 06 has Maka trying to basically seduce Soul and it ends in a highly dorky love confession and marriage proposal*
Me: ....THAT'S IT I'M DONE. THIS BLUEBALLING GAME AIN'T SHIT
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bullet-prooflove ¡ 9 months ago
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Valentine's Day Bingo: Kicking - Bishop Losa x Reader
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Can be read as stand alone or a companion piece to:
Black Satin (NSFW) - Bishop discovers a surprise Christmas gift.
Gingerbread - Bishop comes home to a problem.
Snow - Bishop talks to you about something that's been on his mind.
Miracle - You and Bishop get an extra Christmas gift this year.
Hitting the Slow Dance Bingo Square
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The first time Bishop feels his baby kick is during Coco and Stitche’s wedding reception. The two of you are swaying together on the dance floor, his grizzled cheek pressed against yours, eyes closed as the music serenades you. There’s no better feeling in the world than this, having you pressed up against him, the baby residing in the space between you.
You’re five months pregnant at this point, just starting to show. He spends his evenings singing lullabies to his daughter in Spanish, his lips ghosting over your skin before he gets distracted by other things.
It’s when the song changes that the baby starts to react. The band switches to something with a faster pace and he feels a tiny dig against his navel.
“Oh.” You say as you tilt your head to look up at him. “I think she’s kicking.”
You take his hand in yours, pressing his palm flat against the baby bump and he laughs when he feels the small nudge. He spends the next few minutes following his daughter’s movements before the song changes and the baby goes quiet.
“She’s strong.” He says fondly as he draws you into his arms once more. “She’s going to be exactly like you.”
“She could end up a hellion like you.” You counter and Bishop grumbles.
“I hope not.”
The last thing he wants for his daughter is for her to adopt his personality traits, he was wild as a teenager and his biggest fear is that his daughter will follow in his footsteps.
“You turned out alright in the end.” You remind him, your fingertips trailing over that sensitive little spot at the nape of his neck, the one that releases all his tension.
“With a little help.” He smiles, his forehead coming to rest upon yours.
Bishop has always been convinced that you saved him. He was a functioning alcoholic when he met you, smoking forty a day and running drugs and guns up and down the country. He’d expected to be dead before sixty, through a bullet or bike accident. He was careless with his own life, there hadn’t been much to live for after Aiden had died. He’d been in a state of depression for over eight years before he started to see the sun again.
Now he’s on the board of the community centre, he has a home, a partner, a baby on the way. He doesn’t drink anymore, he’s cut his smoking right down, he’s trying to quit before Luna arrives. The job is less risky because the club has gone legit. He’s happier than he’s ever been and he has you to thank for that.
“You saved my life.” He tells you as he cradles you close. “You saved my god damned life.”
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tumb1rprincess ¡ 3 months ago
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Yo, listening to the first couple of minutes of this episode with earbuds was such a treat. The soundscaping was so fucking good. I loved the variety of sounds as Arthur walked, how smoothly one sound faded before another started. It felt so natural, not manufactured at all.
What I wouldn’t give to see Arthur and Parker’s good cop/bad cop routine. The more I hear about Parker, the more I wish we could get a flashback scene with them or something and see how they worked together and played off each other.
lol John sounded way too enthusiastic to yell out “He’s lying!” when Arthur first started talking to Oscar, I’m fucking dying.
Damn, Arthur’s good, he’s finally in a situation where he gets to use his strengths and he’s hitting hard.
God damn it, John is spacing out more often and forgetting things and lashing out, what the hell is going on?
An alcoholic priest, okay, interesting. Not exactly a combo you see often except for comic relief characters. I'm doubting he's drinking due to the end of the prohibition though.
Oh Arthur honey, the way he sees Bella being with him as taking her away from her aspirations and dreams and he views her and Faroe’s deaths as him taking them away from Daniel, and he is so nervous about seeing him again, my heart just sank.
Jeez, Arthur and Daniel’s conversation was hard to listen to. I knew it would be, but damn. There’s just so much anger and blame between them and they know what to say to get under each other’s skin.
Oh god, I just had to stop for a second when Daniel asked Arthur why he didn’t go to Bella’s funeral. And it’s like, you get why, going to your wife’s funeral, who died in child birth while you were getting drunk and considering leaving her, how could you bear that? How could anyone bear that? But still, damn. But then that little bit where John steps in for a second and tells Arthur that Daniel is attacking a version of him that doesn’t exist anymore and he shouldn’t let him hurt him like that, oh my heart. And John is speaking for the audience as well. We’ve seen how far Arthur has come, we’ve seen how much he’s changed, and we just want other people to see it too.
WHAT THE FUCK? WHAT THE FUCK WAS THAT? FUCKING COLLINS AAAAAAGH! IS DANIEL DEAD? HE AND ARTHUR JUST MADE AMENDS, WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU? FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK!
God, those last few minutes made me jump out of my skin, legit like
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Oh man, this is not good. this is not good, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck. I'm just sitting here in shock. God damn.
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2knightt ¡ 1 year ago
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gwjgdkebdj ive never asked anything from u before but can you do the gang with a reader who stims a lot cuz like i often stim like with my hands or like vocal stims like squeaking or certain words and idk how would they feel about that because i do it alot :]
↳pharmacy’s rotting my brain!₊˚✧
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──IN WHICH, the gang with a reader that tends to stim!。✦
||✰ — the gang, separately can be seen as both romantic and platonic.
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Johnny Cade ;
probably doesn’t care.
he thinks is a little odd at first, but gets used to it pretty fast
if you tend to do it when you’re nervous, he picks up on it pretty fast.
like, if you were in a public space that’s crowded and you were to start stimming, vocally or not, he’d notice immediately.
he’d take you away from the area ASAP.
“you good?”
“ye-yeah. back there jus, scared me is all.”
“yeah. i noticed.”
i think he tends to like, play with his fingers when he’s nervous so…he makes sure you don’t feel alone or weird because of it.
you feeling insecure over something you cannot control is beyond him.
so, he tries his very best to help you in any way possible.
if you need him to hold your hand to stop you from stimming so much in front of new people, he will NOT let go.
“johnny we left, you can let go.”
“no.”
“okay.”
Dallas Winston ;
i don’t think he minds much.
but if anyone else had a problem with it, he’d have a problem with them.
“the hell are they doing?”
“is it a problem?”
“yeah, it’s annoying.”
BAM!
dead.
he tries to understand why you do it, but doesn’t.
“i’ve told you already, dal.”
“yeah but, why?”
when you like, squeaked around him for the first time, he was probably scared.
“AH! what the fuck?!”
gets used to it though.
“jesus christ, y/n. you sound like a mouse.”
“shut up.”
if you get nervous around him and start stimming he probably would throw an arm around your shoulder and rubs his thumb up n down your arm.
he tries to help, sometimes, but fails so bad.
you probably just end up laughing at him.
Ponyboy Curtis ;
honestly, i can see pony stimming too. just a little bit though.
so, seeing you stim too make him feel less lonely.
ponyboy probably stims when he’s alone only but when you came along you’re like, the only person to know.
“me too!”
“i know, y/n. that’s why i told you.”
“oh.”
he’s always there for you!! like always.
it lowkey gets kinda annoying but whatever.
it helps ponyboy stay calm knowing your alright.
Sodapop Curtis ;
will also, beat the shit outta someone for making fun of you.
“stop that.”
“they can’t control that.”
“so? it’s annoyi-“
knocked out!
even a broken jaw, perhaps.
he is your number one defender!!!
i can see soda stimming when he gets excited, like shaking him hands, all that.
he totally understands you!!
he doesn’t mind if you do vocal stims.
you and sodapop legit understand each other.
i feel like he gets you. idk.
Darry Curtis ;
scared. he was lowkey scared when you stimmed around him.
he doesnt know why you do it??
don’t even bother trying to explain it to him.
but he gets used to it, n’ that’s all that matters.
he doesn’t even bat n’ eye no more.
he’s learning so fast at his old age!☺️
jokes…maybe.
if your certain word was like fuck or something, he lets it slide.
i think darry’s the type of guy to go “LANGUAGE!” when someone swears.
but he won’t for you.
“what? you aren’t gonna yell at them?”
“no.”
“what???”
“don’t ask anymore questions, you hear?”
Steve Randle ;
will beat the shit out of someone too.
0 fucking hesitation.
ZERO.
he is swinging without a second thought.
but, i do unfortunately have to admit, he thought it was weird at first.
he didn’t understand why you would squeak, or move your hands constantly.
but, slowly but surely, he got the idea.
i don’t see himself doing it, but he gets you.
Two-bit Mathews ;
i can see two-bit playing with his hands when he gets too excited.
so seeing you stim, isn’t weird to him at all.
he lowkey thinks it normal.
he thinks your squeaking is funny.
“HAHAHA! y-y/n, who knew you could make such cute sounds!”
he means it in a good way.
i swear he does😭.
i think he picks up on playing with his hands like how you do if he spends enough time with you.
“jeez, y/n. i’ve been hanging out with you so much ‘m starting to become you!”
“oh, shut it!”
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blue-slxt ¡ 1 year ago
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Two Can Play - Chapter 5
🔞Minors Do Not Interact🔞
A/N: We have finally reached the finale! I legit cannot thank you guys enough for all the love and support on this series. Especially since this is my first Lo'ak fic. Writing this really made me fall in love with him. Of course, like I say in every part, I have to give a HUGE thanks to @pandorxxx for inspiring me to write this fic. Her fic Search & Rescue was a big inspiration for the premise of this story. Two Can Play would not exist without her. So, I hope you guys enjoy the end of this fantastic journey. All characters are aged up.
Previous Part
Pairing: Lo'ak x Fem!Omatikaya!Reader
Warnings: This chapter contains potentially triggering content for suicidal ideation so please proceed with caution. Mentions of death, Angst, Dissociation, Depression, Smut, P in V, Creampie, Oral (M receiving), Mentions of scenting, I think that's it
Word Count: 5.1k
Summary: The aftermath of the incident plays out.
Staring up at the opening in your tent, the night stars bounce in your vision with each thrust given by Tenye above you. He holds on to your hips while he ruts into you. Clearly, he’s feeling good from all the sounds he’s making. You can’t really feel much right now. Your head is too far lost in the sky to be present enough to enjoy yourself. Your mind is back in that space where you’re not really in your body anymore. It’s as if you can actually see your own face peering up at the sky dead-eyed while you force moans from your own mouth to help him finish quickly.
“Ah…Gonna cum!” he says
‘About damn time’ you think to yourself.  You use your hand to push him out of you before he finishes and just pump him with your fist until he cums.
He lets out a dramatic groan when he finishes and doesn’t move an inch while he comes down from his high. Meanwhile, you immediately use a spare cloth to wipe your hand off with.
“Eywa, that was so good” he says between pants trying to catch his breath.
“Yeah…” you pick up his loincloth and toss it to him, “See you around.”
He stares stunned at you for a moment, “That’s it?”
“Yup, pretty much. Bye.”
Tenye scoffs at you and he mutters ‘bitch’ under his breath as he gets dressed and leaves.
It doesn’t even phase you at this point. Nothing phases you anymore. You don’t feel anything anymore. It’s been like this for 2 whole weeks now. You hid out in your tent and retreated into yourself. For the first few days, it felt like you never moved from the spot on the floor where you initially collapsed. You nearly dehydrated yourself from your tears. Ako came looking for you after you disappeared from the festival and the sight of you broke her heart.
And just when it felt like your mind was going to snap from all the overwhelming distress…it suddenly went dead quiet. Your mind and body ceased to process stimuli properly anymore. And before you knew it, you fell back into your old habits. Desperate to feel something—anything, you regressed into seeking comfort in sex. But that did nothing for you either. Not anymore. No matter what, the only person your body responded to was Lo’ak.
You found fault with just about every other male now. This one kissed too rough, that one came too quick, he used too many teeth when he ate you out, and he was too small. One after another, the disappointment seemed never-ending. Lo’ak had utterly ruined you for anyone else. None of them could hold a candle to him and how he knew your body.
And even worse, you still had his bracelet. The one that he made for you. You were too blinded by your rage to have the sense to throw it out that night with the rest of his things. But once you calmed down and registered that it was still on your wrist, it was like your fingers physically couldn’t take it off. As much as it pained you to look at it and remember, you couldn’t deny the comfort it also brought you. Fidgeting with the small beads day in and day out mindlessly.
You curl up on your hammock and fight to keep the tears at bay. But you fail today again just like every day since the incident. It doesn’t take anything to bring the sadness on at this point. It just sneaks up on you when you least expect it. Even with a totally blank mind, your subconscious still remembers every ounce of the pain that still lives there.
Another cold night of crying yourself to sleep.
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Ako grew concerned about you over the passing weeks. She couldn’t believe the story you had told her about what you witnessed. It didn’t make sense. The way Lo’ak was with you, there was no way it was just an act. Lo’ak may have been a lot of things, but cruel wasn’t one of them. It didn’t add up in her mind. She struggled with whether or not she should go confront Lo’ak. On one hand, she felt like it wasn’t her place to get involved. She doesn’t insert herself into your relations. But on the other hand, watching your body and mind slowly wither away with each passing day was sinking her heart. She needed to find answers.
That’s why she’s currently dragging Lo’ak by his arm through the forest right now. She needs to get to the bottom of this so that she can know how to help you.
“Okay, you need to start talking and I mean right now” she says finally releasing his arm once they’re far enough out of the way.
“What are you talking about?”
“What the hell happened the night of the festival?” she nearly screams at him
“Nothing happened! I was set up!” he says doing his best to defend himself.
“That’s not how she described it” Ako retorts crossing her arms over her chest.
“Look, I know that it looked really bad from her perspective, but I swear I am telling the truth! Fea said her friend hurt herself in the forest and I went to help, but then she cornered me. But I pushed her off immediately. You’ve got to believe me.  I would never do something like that.” His voice is pleading and his eyes are sincere.
Ako takes a deep breath sitting on his explanation. That story does make more sense in her mind, but she knows it won’t be any simple task trying to convince you of its authenticity.
“Did you explain that to her?” she asks still somewhat skeptical.
“She threw me out before I could. She didn’t want to hear it.” The defeated tone in his voice doesn’t go unnoticed.
“I…I love her. I could never do that to her. But it’s over…she hates me now.” He slumps back against a tree letting his head fall forward.
“You need to go see her.”
Lo’ak looks up at Ako with doubt, “How? She doesn’t want me anywhere near her.”
“Don’t care. I don’t want to hear it. You haven’t seen her, Lo’ak. She’s a mess these days. She won’t eat or drink or leave her tent. She’s a shell. Even I’ve never seen her this bad before. She needs something more than I can give her. She needs you. Now, move your ass!” her arm stretches to point in the direction of your tent signaling him to get moving.
Lo’ak lets Ako’s words sink in. He wants nothing more than to come running to your side. Thinking about how much you were suffering was torturous to his mind. But how would he get through to you? How would he get you to listen?
“Now Lo’ak!” Ako pipes up breaking him out of his swirling thoughts.
He decided he was just going to have to figure it out on the way. If he wanted this—truly wanted to be with you, shouldn’t he fight for it? He rises from his slumped position against the tree and let his feet carry him to your tent.
He still has no idea what he’ll say or how you’ll receive it, but he just knows he has to try. He owes you that much.
Your tent comes into view in the distance and his pace slows as he feels his resolve starting to fade. Your last night together replays in his mind standing outside of your tent. The anger and suffering in your eyes and the way you shouted at him to get out. It was like he was reliving it again at this very moment. Standing in the same place he stood while he collected his discarded belongings that you had thrown out of your home. A home that he had started to feel like he belonged in too.
His family was wonderful and they loved him and he loved them too, but with you, the two of you had filled the space together. It was both of yours. Losing it was crushing. He wanted to come home. With one big breath, he finally builds the courage he needs to walk inside.
He closes his eyes while he waits for your angry tirade to hit his ears…but it doesn’t. He hears nothing. Cautiously, he opens his eyes to look around and for whatever reason, you’re not home. That’s odd. Ako said you hadn’t left since that night. So where would you go?
He gingerly walks around letting himself reminisce about all the blissful mornings and heated nights he would spend here with you. He makes his way over to your hammock and something catches his eye. It’s the bracelet he made for you.
You never took off this bracelet. Not for one second. Not when you slept, not when you bathed, not even when you kicked him out. He didn’t see it among his things and it brought him a small comfort to know that you held on to it. But now, his heart sinks to his feet. Lo’ak couldn’t quite place why, but he had this awful feeling deep in his gut. Something was wrong. He needed to find you immediately.
He storms out of your tent looking frantically around everyone in the area trying to find your face. But he doesn’t see you.
Ako is walking towards him, “So, what happened?”
He runs to her, “She’s not home.”
“What? Where did she go?” “I don’t know! She was gone when I got here! And she left her bracelet. She never takes this thing off. We need to find her. Now!” panic seeps in and takes over his mind.
“Okay okay, I’ll search through the west side of the forest, you hop on your ikran and look through the east.” Ako tries to stay calm so that Lo’ak doesn’t completely lose himself right now. What they needed right now was not to panic, but to make a plan.
He nods his head and takes off to call and mount his ikran. He’s so frayed, it effects how his ikran flies. Its movements are rough and choppy in the sky, but they take off, nonetheless.
…
What is the point? Why bother keeping this up anymore? Everything is just so heavy. The weight of the grief sitting on your chest is nothing short of devastating. First, your parents, then losing Lo’ak, and now you can’t even find solace in your one simple pleasure. You can only take so much.
You’re completely dissociated from reality while you walk through the forest. You let your body just wander aimlessly through the foliage, around trees, through bushes, and over creeks. The soft moss is a welcome feeling under your feet as you let yourself sink deeper and deeper into the unfamiliar path you’re on. You let the colors of the various flora surrounding you guide you through an untrekked trail.
You didn’t know where you were headed. You secretly wished that your body would take you back to the pond. The same place where you would visit so many nights with Lo’ak just floating until all the world’s problems seemed like nothing more than ripples in the water around you two. Where nothing else mattered but being with each other. If only you could go back in time and warn yourself. ‘Don’t fall for it’. ‘Stick to your gut’. ‘He’ll only break you’. ‘Do NOT fall in love with him’. But that was only a wish and real life is not so forgiving.
Reality is cruel and merciless and does not care for your pathetic wishes of things to be different.
You continue your aimless stroll through the dense forest watching your feet place themselves one in front of the other. Until…the green of the forest starts to slowly fade. The green under your feet gradually shifts into a hard, stony gray. And there is no more soft moss and grass, but now there is harsh, sharp edges of rocks poking and prodding the soles of your feet. Where were you?
You finally find the motivation to lift your head and find out where you had travelled. It was a mountain? No, it was a cliff. Why had your body been called here of all places? Fear gripped your chest suddenly realizing how high up you were. Frozen. Even though you were far from the edge of the cliff, your body stood completely still as if taking even one more movement would result in your tumbling over the edge. And instead of misery, you feel gratitude. You are thankful for the fear because it is better than the all-consuming nothingness you’ve been feeling for weeks now. You’re so desperate to feel absolutely anything that you push the envelope even more and, with shaky legs, you take several steps forward.
One step and then another. You slowly, but surely, bring yourself closer and closer until you can see over the edge of the cliff. Below is a body of water, no doubt with some sharp rocks just under the surface or a shallow bottom. If you fell, that would surely be the end of you.
But would that be so bad? Putting an end to all the misery? No more tears, no more emptiness, no more loneliness, no more suffering, just…peace. You could finally be with your family again and you wanted so badly to be with your parents again. But what would they think of you? If they knew who you had become since their passing, how disappointed would they be? How could you possibly face them again as you are?
But the urge to just put one foot over the edge is…enticing to say the least. Your hand reaches for your wrist only to be met with nothing. That’s right, you took off your bracelet finally and left it at home. You had grown so accustomed to playing with the small beads that not having it now left you feeling more exposed and lonely.
You turn your face up to the sky hoping to find some kind of sign or message from Eywa on what to do. When you drop your head again, a shadow passes over you. When you look up, you discover Lo’ak flying overhead on his ikran. Of course he would show up here right now. He lands blocking your path back into the forest. You’re trapped between him and the edge that you were dangerously close to.
“I’ve been looking all over for you! What are you doing up here? You shouldn’t be here!” Lo’ak calls out before he can even fully dismount his ikran. He starts walking towards you, but you take a step back. “Be careful! You’re too close! Just come over here, please!”
You shake your head casting your gaze down to the ground. This was the worst-case scenario right now. Lo’ak pauses and stays where he is so as to not push you any further back. “Listen to me. Please. I know you probably hate me and I can’t blame you. From what you saw, I know it looked bad, but—”
“Bad? Bad doesn’t even begin to cut it, Lo’ak! You had another girl all over you! And—”
“I know how it looked, but listen to me for fucks sake!” he cuts you off and you hold your tongue shocked. Lo’ak has never taken this tone with you, but it worked in getting you to be quiet long enough for him to explain his side.
“I know how it looked, but you have to believe me, I would never do that to you. It was a set up. She cornered me because she was jealous of you. She wanted what we have, but there’s no way I could give myself to her like I have with you.”
He cautiously takes a step forward and you don’t step back. You let his words flood your head and process. Of course, you want to believe him, but could you really trust that? It would make sense. Fea was always giving you death glares after you and Lo’ak had got together. But you can’t bear it if this was just a ploy to get you back.
“I could never feel the same way about anybody else. Love only feels like love with you.” He takes another stride your way.
Your knees start to tremble under your weight and tears fall directly from your eyes to the stone beneath you. Your heart called for him, it ached for him to hold you. But your mind was still doubtful. But were those doubts heavy enough to outweigh the love you still held for him?
“Sevin…” he’s careful with his tone while he continues to approach you in the same way one would approach an unpredictable, wild animal. “I love you. There’s nobody else I could ever want.”
With that, your body finally gives out and falls to the ground. Lo’ak runs towards you and catches you before you fully hit the stone. He quickly drags you back further from the edge. A swell of emotions rushes from your body as you quake in his grasp. He smooths his hand over your hair and shushes you quietly in your ear. “It’s okay now. I’ve got you. I’m so sorry.” Every word he utters brings a fresh wave of emotions in their wake. It’s too much. It shatters what little composure you were clinging to. You let yourself completely fall apart in his arms and bawl into the empty sky.
…
You finally come to late into the night. You’re back in your tent, tucked into your hammock. There was no memory of you coming home. As a matter of fact, you couldn’t remember anything after Lo’ak confronting you on the cliff. How did you make it home? You finally sit up and look around your home and on the floor next to you is a sleeping Lo’ak. His knees are tucked into his chest and his head is resting on his arms.
After you had crumpled in his arms earlier, Lo’ak had carried you to his ikran and held you while he flew you back home. He tenderly layed you back in your hammock and cleaned your face with a cloth and some cool water. He sat and waited with you while you rested. He had silently vowed to himself that he wouldn’t leave your side.
Your body relaxes in his presence the same way it always did. What are you to make of this situation? Just as soon as you had started to try and think of an answer, Lo’ak had started to stir awake.
He instantly looks to check on you and notices that you’re awake. “You’re up. Are you hungry?” He stands and walks across the room to pick up a bowl of fruit. “Ako dropped this off for you a while ago. We figured that you would need something to eat.” He brings the bowl over to you and hands you a piece of fruit.
You mutter a small ‘thank you’ and take the food. It was true that you were hungry, but you also didn’t have very much of an appetite.
Lo’ak watches you while you eat and sits in front of you cross-legged. “Can we actually talk now?”
You rake through your endless piles of thoughts trying to find a starting point. “Did you mean it?” He looks at you asking you to elaborate with his eyes. “When you said that you…l-love me.”
His ears drop at your doubt, but he couldn’t blame you for that. “Of course. And I’ll say it as many times as I have to until you believe me.” His hand rests on top of yours. You force yourself to not pull away.
“I…I love you too, Lo’ak. But I’m so scared.” Just when you think you couldn’t possibly have any more tears, new ones appear glossing over your eyes. “I can’t take another heartbreak. I don’t have it in me.”
Lo’ak’s hands hold either side of your face while he rises up to his knees. He presses warm, firm kisses to your forehead, “You won’t, tíyawn. I swear it. Never.”
Fresh tears hit your lap, but they aren’t yours. You angle your head up to look at him and now he had tears streaming down his own face. It’s truly a heart wrenching sight. You wipe his face with your thumbs and he leans his face into your touch. “I want to come home.”
A small smile breaks through on your face. ‘Home’. You try to swallow the lump in your throat so that you can actually speak words. But all you’re able to give him is the smallest nod of your head. His smile from your answer is blinding.
“Oh, before I forget.” He looks around on the floor in the spot where he was sleeping earlier and grabs your bracelet. “You left this behind.”
He grabs your wrist and ties the bracelet back on. Feeling the tiny weight on your arm again filled you with a sense of content.
“Can we go to sleep? I’m really tired.”
“Of course, sevin.” You missed hearing that.
You lie back down facing the wall and Lo’ak shifts behind you to settle into the hammock with you. His arm hesitantly rests over your waist. He still radiates that same warmth and safety that you missed, but your messy thoughts prevented you from ever fully falling asleep. Lo’ak noticed too. Every time you would stir in his arms or shift around, he would snap back to attention even if he was dozing off. He didn’t want you to be by yourself through the night. So, if you didn’t sleep, then he wouldn’t sleep.
…
A week had passed and you were slowly starting to come back into yourself. Lo’ak never left your side. He stayed with you through your whole recovery period and he loved you the whole way through. He never let a day go by without reminding you multiple times that he loved you. Some days were better than others. Some days, you looked and sounded like your normal self again. Other days, you could hardly get out of your hammock. Either way, he supported you in any and every way you needed.
You were cautious about opening back up to him. It didn’t come easy. It took a lot of heavy conversations and long sleepless nights. You still loved him and you believe that he loves you. What more could you really ask for? But your mind still torments you with the memory of what happened. You need to forget it. You want it ripped from your mind.
‘Fuck it’, you think. You’ve finally had just about as much as you can take of this.
You sit up from your hammock with a huff and look at Lo’ak who’s carving up more fruit for you on the floor.
“Lo’ak, I need you.”
He stops what he’s doing and sets down the fruit and knife. “What do you need ma txe’lan?” He comes over to you ready to attend to whatever you ask of him.
“Lie down.”
Confusion flashes across his face, but he complies anyways. You stand from your spot and kneel down between his legs. You quickly untie his loincloth and tear it off.
“W-what are you—”
“Shhhh…please don’t talk right now. I just need this, okay? Just let me do this.” You say already starting to stroke him. He gets hard almost immediately at your touch.
Lo’ak decides to not challenge you on this and let you have your way with him. You use your tongue to follow the vein on the underside of his shaft up to his tip and swirl your tongue around it.
He sucks in a sharp breath when you wrap your lips around his tip. You slide him all the way into your mouth and bob your head up and down while hollowing out your cheeks. All he can do is watch in amazement you while you go to work on him like your life depends on it. “Oh shit…” He can’t hold back the groans that escape his lips. It had felt like a lifetime since he last felt you and being in this moment right now was like heaven.
Every flash that comes across your mind just motivates you even more. You’ll keep going all night if that’s what it’ll take to finally wipe the memory from your mind.
The sounds that fill your tent are obscene, moans, curses, and slurping.
Lo’ak is slowly losing himself in the pleasure and the smell of your arousal thick in the air makes him that much more dizzy. Your body begged to be filled. You needed that pleasure that you had been deprived of for so long. More, more, more.
You use one of your hands to untie your own loincloth and pop Lo’ak out of your mouth. He barely has a chance to fully take a breath before you’re already on top of him and sinking him into your needy pussy.
“Fuck…” you breathe out as he reaches all the way into you. Your walls spasm around him getting reacquainted with the full feeling.
“Shit, wait wait” he tries to say, but it’s too late. His seed spills out into you and the heat spreads in your core. You stare down at Lo’ak with raised eyebrows and the embarrassment is clear on his face. “Shit. Sorry, sorry. It’s just been so long and between your mouth and the squeezing and—ughh” his hands cover his face trying to hide his shame. But you feel no shame or judgement towards him right now.
“Lo’ak…” you move his hands so that you can see his face, “It’s okay. We’ve got all night.” You smirk down at him and his blushing face. It’s almost comical how fast he gets hard again inside of you. “Think you can keep up?” you tease already starting to roll your hips into his.
“Yawne, you have no idea.” With one swift movement, he had flipped you over so that you were on your back and he was hovering over you. He meant every word too. Lo’ak hadn’t had any type of relief since the last time you two were together and he fully intended on making up for all the lost time.
Your hands guide his face down to yours to meet in a heated kiss. Lo’ak thrusts into you at a slow and steady pace. Every roll of his hips is deliberate and precise and it reaches the spot you need it to flawlessly. He pulls away from the kiss and holds you close to him while he whispers sweet words into your ear. “I love you”, “You are perfect”, “I need you”, “I am only yours”, and so on. You can feel him just pouring all of his love into you. You can’t quite name the feeling that comes over you, but whatever it is drives you to sink your teeth into Lo’ak’s shoulder.
There is an overwhelming, deep-rooted need to have him completely belong to you. A need to make it clear to anyone who laid eyes on him that he was already taken. Even if over time the mark would heal and fade, you’d mark him again and again for the rest of your life if you had to.
The twinge of pain in his shoulder fuels the pleasure and makes Lo’ak pick up speed. You let go of his shoulder and lick the small drips of blood that spill from the punctures you made. He sits up to his knees and holds your hips level with his while he continues to rut into you faster and harder being spurred on by the sight of your bouncing breasts and parted panting lips.
“I love you, Lo’ak.” Your words are breathy and broken, but he still hears you clearly.
“Say it again.”
“I love you, Lo’ak. I love you” you repeat it while you feel your high approaching. “Haah…Lo’ak, I’m going to cum.”
“Do it. Let go for me, sevin”
Your body immediately obeys his command for you and your head falls back while the knot in your body snaps. Lo’ak keeps fucking you through your orgasm, “Just like that.” He can’t stop moving feeling the way your pussy was gripping his dick as if you were trying to milk him for all he’s worth. “Fuck…so good…” his eyes roll in pleasure as he chases his own high. You can tell from how he twitches inside of you that he’s close. You’re desperate for it already.
“Give it to me, Lo’ak. I want all of it.”
That was all he needed to take him over the edge and spill everything he had into you. His hips stutter and slowly come to a halt.
You both take a few seconds to catch your breath before he finally pulls out of you and watches his cum drip out of you and down your ass. You look up at him, “Don’t tell me you’re done already.”
He flips your body over by your hips and says, “You wish.”
…
For the rest of that night, you and Lo’ak went at it nonstop until you both were barely hanging on to consciousness. Afterwards, you both clung to each other while you slept half the day away.
Ako came by to check on you and was beyond relieved to see that you were well. And from the scent burned into your skin, she could tell that you and Lo’ak had finally made up.
“So, who officially lost the bet?”
Simultaneously, you and Lo’ak point at each other and make the same shocked face when you realized.
“You totally lost. You’re the one that said, ‘fuck the bet’ remember?”
“Yeah, but that was after you fucked me, so you lost.” He says lightly poking your chest.
“After you said you wanted to kiss me!” you blush trying to defend yourself.
“Kissing doesn’t count. But if it does, then you definitely lost that night after you fell off that branch” he says with an arrogant smirk.
“W-well, no because….you…I d-didn’t mean to…” you search for a rebuttal, but he had you cornered. You look to Ako for some type of help, but she only raises her eyebrows at you. “Sounds like you lost to me” she teases in a singsong voice.
“Shut up” your blush deepens while they both laugh at your flustered face.
“Anyways, I was going to gather some food. You two think you can leave your love nest for long enough to come help me?”
“Sure thing. Some fresh air will be good.” Lo’ak answers.
The three of you leave your tent and you and Lo’ak walk hand-in-hand into the forest.
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bloodied-velvet ¡ 1 year ago
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I really will never get the hate towards Greta.
Sure, I guess people didn’t take much to how late she came in and how a romance took place, but take that complaint to the studio and the writers.
There are characters that literally coerced others into sex, cold-blooded killers, and attempted genocide, but somehow a woman who puts her foot down is the one who annoys you. Oh and the “she’s mean to him” …mean to the man who was lashing insults unwarranted at Trevor, calling his family “mentally ill hoarders” just because he was uncomfortable in the Belmont hold that HE willingly stepped into?! (She’s not even mean… she didn’t trust him, which was understandable because the man was practically alcoholic and had dead corpses impaled in his front lawn. The village desperately needed help, her brother legit got killed in the process trying to seek it. He was the only option.)
and I’m not about to get into the topic of racism within this fandom because that plays the biggest role to a lot of y’all, whether you want to admit it or not.
Like why are you bitching at people who happens to like a harmless ship/character? You can block the words and people, you know. Blocking is a free feature.
She may not be interesting to you, but she’s not a bad character.
A lot of you need to fucking chill. I’m not trying to deal with people talking down on me cause I just enjoy a damn ship that’s not even problematic. Like this is why folks don’t like to heavily engage in fandom spaces anymore.
It’s tired.
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onboardsorasora ¡ 9 months ago
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Now I’m just thinking of different Daniel variants going switching places with reclamation Daniel and seeing Jules
Adore you Daniel seeing reclamation Jules 😢😢😢
OH MY GODDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
Bestie what if we cry??????
He'd been in hiding for months now, Guilia and her family helped him pack up the house and he thinks he can head back to Monaco, sneak back maybe. He was waiting on Charles to tell him the plan worked, that Renault's hit was done.
But he couldn't wait anymore. He was tired. It was like dangling a carrot in front of a horse but never actually giving it to him. He just wanted his life back. Max was gone, Max wanted him for Red Bull. He just wanted to be where he felt safe, fuck everything else.
He pulled into his building, heading straight for the secondary parking at the back of the lot like always. So far so good. He grabbed his smallest bag- if it all went to shit then he wouldn't need to repack. If it worked out then he'd have time to unpack.
He sagged against the wall in the elevator, it was 8pm, he was exhausted. All he wanted was a shower and bed. It took him a minute to remember the code to his door, salvation was almost at hand. His bag dropped off of his shoulder as he used one foot to step out of his shoes, then vice versa. fuck his shoelaces right now- they didn't matter.
He zombie walked past the entryway, before stopping dead.
"You're back quick. They didn't have you waiting for fuck ever this time." A jovial voice welcomed him in Italian. Daniel scrubbed his hand over his eyes.
His mouth dropped open in shock and he blinked a few times. This had to be a hallucination. He'd been awake for close to 36 hours with only energy drinks to sustain him. it had to be a hallucination.
Jules looked back at him curious, his smile lessening at Daniel's behaviour.
"Are you really here?" Daniel's voice cracked as he whispered, before shaking his head fiercly. "Of course not. Fuck, I really should have taken that nap five hours ago. Fuck." He rubbed his hands down his face and cracked his neck before walking further into the space, walking around where he was 'seeing' Jules.
"Mate, are you for real right now? What did they give you?" Jules' quirked a brow and reached out to grab Daniel's shoulder. Daniel whirled on him and pulled him into a chokehold before letting him go just and quickly and stepping back as if burned.
"What the fuck what the fuck what the fuck????" Daniel's breathing quickened, as if he was having a panic attack. Jules coughed before holding his neck gingerly.
"Daniel are you tripping or something? Fuck, if you're relapsing I'm calling Seb." Jules muttered, watching his friend warily.
"This isn't real, this is not fucking real. woosaah, fuck. wooosaaaah." Daniel muttered to himself while trying to regain control of his breathing. He slid down against the wall, sitting on the floor. Yes the floor sounded lovely right now. The floor was stable and close. The floor wouldn't lie to him like his senses. The floor was safe.
"Daniel?" Jules' voice was worried, he moved to squat infront of Daniel but froze the moment he saw his best friend tense as if waiting for a blow.
"You're not real. You're not real. You're just a figment of my brain breaking. woosaahhh I'm just having a tiny menty-b from being awake for so long. thats all. wooosah. Jules is not here Danny, Jules is not here." Daniel closed his eyes and dropped his head backwards towards the wall.
"Mate... I'm legit right here. What the fuck?" Jules' whispered. Whatever was happening with Daniel right now was not good. This was maybe one of the worse relapses he's ever seen.
"Jules is not here. Jules has been dead for 3 years. Jules is not here. Jules is not here-"
"Mate what the fuck? This isn't funny anymore bro." Jules knew his voice was hysterical.
"Why won't you go away.." Daniel whined, tapping his head forcefully against the wall. Jules rushed forward and pulled him into a hug, clutching Daniel into his chest. Daniel shuddered in his hold.
"This isn't real. This isn't real. Please." Daniel's voice sounded ragged and Jules felt his eyes tear up at the anguish his friend was going through. What the fuck happened at his appointment?
"Danny, I'm real! I'm here. I'm here for you. God y.ou're scaring me." Jules clutched Daniel as his sobs got harder- shaking them both.
"I miss you so much. Every fucking day I miss you. I'm so sorry. I'm sorry we went to that stupid bar. I'm sorry I dragged you there. I-" Daniel hiccupped before continuing his litany of sins. Jules was still so confused but he'll let Daniel get this out, let him tell him what he thinks he needs to get off his chest, what he needs forgiveness for. He'll absolve Daniel of whatever wrongs he thinks he's committed.
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crascet ¡ 4 months ago
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X-Men Movie Tier List Update- X-Men: Days of Future Past
Wow, this is great movie! Based on one of the best storylines in X-Men comics history, this lives up to that. Now in the original story, it was Kitty Pryde that goes back in time thanks to Rachel Summers' psychic powers that allow Kitty's consciousness to go into her past body. In the 90's animated series adaption, it was Bishop that goes back in time with simple time machines. In this movie, it sort of corporates both of them in here with Bishop being one of the survivors and Kitty being the one who has abilities to travel someone's consciousness to their past body. However, the biggest difference here is that the person being sent back is Logan, which is honestly the best choice here because of the interaction between him and past Charles.
So after First Class, Charles starts the school alongside Hank and enrolled many young mutants, providing a safe space for them. However, after the first semester, the Vietnam War started and thus many young mutants were drafted to said war, with some being dead during said war. This... really did a number to Charles, especially how it's implied that he heard all their deaths in his head with Cerebro, which lead to him taking in a temporary suppressant made by Hank just to make it stop, which means that his telepathic abilities are effectively gone as long as he keeps taking it. This pretty much leads to him being pessimistic on his outlook, making him not care anymore, with the only one still looking after him being Hank.
It's this that leads to the great dichotomy between a more optimistic Logan, with him truly knowing who Charles will be in the future, and this more cynical Charles, pretty much a full 360 from how they first met in the first movie. This dynamic is key to one of my favorite parts of this movie with Charles' whole arc to becoming back to his old self again and having more trust in his powers. Thanks also goes to McAvoy's great performance.
This whole movie is full of great scenes, from the chilling intro and introductions of the future adaptable sentinels to the Pentagon prison-break scene with the iconic Time in a Bottle sequence with Peter and his speed ability to Charles and Eric's argument on the plane ride to France to past Charles meeting his older self in Logan's mind to that incredible climax.
The ending scene of Logan waking up in the mansion of the new timeline is just great, seeing everyone from the first three films again is great, with Kitty, Colossus, Rogue, Bobby, Hank, Jean, and of course Scott, glad to see he's alive in the new timeline. This also is sort of a goodbye to most of these characters since we won't see them again until Deadpool and Wolverine.
I sadly don't have the Rouge Cut which would include a deleted sequence from the regular cut which would include Rogue getting a bigger role there instead of not appearing until the ending. However, this doesn't change the fact that this movie is just awesome to watch, and this cut would just make everything better.
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A legit great movie that is now my favorite movie in the franchise that serves as a continuation of First Class and as sort of an ending to the original trilogy.
The movies after this are all going to be interesting, since it'll be my first time fully watching them. So next up, we go from the cynical 70s to the 80s as we see more recognizable members in their teenage years, and the film debut of an iconic X-Men villain with X-Men: Apocalypse.
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theancientdarkbeauty ¡ 9 months ago
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💚🦈- Blood, Garnet, Scarlet, Wine, Lipstick and Poppy
Alright, first, I’ll do Tera, my Half Life OC. The quick background on her is that she is a biochemical engineer who was testing the Biology Department’s HEV suit when the Resonance Cascade happened, and thus survived by pure accident. Being Australian however, she was able to hold her own against the space Australians. You don’t run into her during the game because the Military slit her throat thinking she was Freeman, but she survived! Barely! With the help of GMan and some science (and morphine from the suit). Anyways, onto the ask game
Blood- what would she do if she saw a stranger’s corpse: originally, pre rescas, depending on the place, she would’ve panicked. Whose body is this, what killed them, am I in danger as well? That kinda stuff. Unless it was like a funeral she accidentally got invited to (she would go to see if she knew anyone there and if she didn’t she would apologies) post ResCas, probably after stasis, legit that would’ve been just par for the course. Unless it had a Headcrab on it. Then she would stab the Headcrab (she hates those things)
Garnet- if they had to kill someone, what method would they choose: the most quick and painless way possible. Not a stranger to mercy kills after the rescas, she has found that shooting someone in the soft part right between the skull and the neck on the back of the head is the least painful and most sure fire way to kill someone, aiming up thru the skull ofc. If she didn’t have a gun on her tho she would snap their neck.
Scarlett- how does she grieve: She used to get real quiet, cuts herself off from people, silently reflect on times she had with the person. However, after the rescas, most all of her friends had already died, and she was in Europe now instead of America or Australia, so she just assumed that her family was dead, so she forced herself to channel the pain and grief into rage, helping her get through her rather extraneous circumstances. She really just needs a hug and a good cry smh
Wine- How does she act when she’s drunk: She’s a happy drunk, but is also a heavyweight. Think of it like Brooklyn 9-9’s “# drink Amy” system. She gets real fun (a little loud) for the first 5 drinks. After 5 shit hits the fan, but she knows her limits. (She gets really competitive at drink 7 is the problem)
Lipstick- What is her love language: she is probably physical affection and quality time. Poor girl didn’t have the time to spend with people to fell fulfilled in a relationship before the rescas, and probably never will again.
Poppy- Does she believe in a god: After meeting up with Gordon after the rescas, he told her about the Nihalinth, and so she believes in some sort of higher being, but not probably the Christian god. She is a woman of science after all.
Time for Jaws! You all know Jaws (hopefully) but if you don’t, they are this crime gremlin I made for Payday. Common traits among all Jaws are: extensive scarring, multiple mental disorders, propensity for explosives. But the main point is just they’re a crime gremlin
Blood- what would they do if they saw a stranger’s corpse: they probably put it there. If it’s a civilian, they’d probably swear a lot because that’s coming out of my paycheck but otherwise they would just leave it there, bc they don’t want their finger prints on the scene
Garnet- if they had to kill someone, what method would they choose: shoot them. Or stab them. They aren’t above murder, they do it often. Chemical weapons are also fun, but they aren’t allowed to use them anymore after the Safehouse accidentally got filled with mustard gas that one time
Scarlet- how do they grieve: violently. Lots of murder, lots of stealing. At the Safehouse, where they can’t lash out violently, they have this thing called a “stab pillow”, it’s a throw pillow they started stabbing when they were mad. Also they have their dogs for emotional support (Rexy and Tatsuya my beloved)
Wine- how do they act when they’re drunk: they mellow out a lot actually! Get really tired, but also usually have enough energy to play like drinking games and stuff. Very much a lightweight.
Lipstick- What is their love language: they are aroace, but with their “family”, it’s quality time. They just like being in the presence of people (they aren’t physically affectionate but very touch starved so think of them like a cat on occasion)
Poppy- do they believe in a god: no. God abandoned them.
Anyways that was for both Jaws and Tera hope everyone is doing good! (Sorry if topics got a little dark both of them come from dark source materials)
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artbyrobot ¡ 2 months ago
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TheRobotStudio on YouTube is doing an open source robot called "Hope-Light" and inviting his viewers to follow along with his progress . I have decided to follow along, although I will be modifying his designs as I go to customize it more to my liking. He expressed he wants this to be a open source community to advance humanoid robotics development in the DIY space and usher in the wider adoption of humanoid robots in more homes across the world. He's excited for what this can mean for global productivity and quality of life improvements it can bring if executed well. I like this vision. My decision to follow along with his project is to pick up a extra head of steam in my own humanoid robot building projects by utilizing his experience and formal education in robotics engineering as a legit decorated world class humanoid roboticist. A world leader in the field. By following his open source project loosely, I can get a breath of fresh air by skipping past the bang my head against the wall dead-ends and regular difficult hurdles and just get results. Sort of like fast food drive thru. It will be a relief for me. And confidence booster. To see something really happen at a faster pace for a change. Now none of this is to say I'm abandoning my existing projects. They will all go on as planned without interruption. This will be a parallel journey I will share. I will certainly learn a ton and can apply what I learn to my other projects. I will have this Hope - Light robot adaptation be named Dinah. I'll use Eve's base mesh for the external appearance. The two females can look similar in build but have different faces. This robot will use to some extent TheRobotStudio's design philosophy and approach for the Hope-Light project. This means it WILL use metal geared brushed DC servos and it WILL use non-human-like bone structure, but I will still give it human-like realistic silicone skin and it will use the exterior exoskeleton shell of the Eve robot I 3d modeled already. One downside to this Hope-Light parallel implementation is that because it uses metal gearing it will be loud in its operation. So it will never be able to pass for human in public. That's okay though. My other designs are reaching for that aim and my other designs are still the intention for Adam, Eve, and Abel. So that vision remains alive. And will continue. But this noisy robot will still be a great learning experience and capable of doing useful work including helping me build my other robots, chores, manufacturing products, cooking, etc. It will probably do most of the things the Adam, Eve, and Abel robot can do but not be as strong, fast, and articulated. So it will probably not play sports well or do rock climbing or various other serious physical strenuous types of work. But the long list of things it should be able to do is still enough for it to be awesome. A great thing is that it won't be so experimental and outside the box like my previous solo approaches. This one will be designed to a small degree by a real professional so it will happen way faster and more surely than mine. Although I am finding I am changing his design so much it's not really his design at all anymore but my own. However, I still plan to retain a significant number of strategic decisions, placements, and organization following his lead. My other designs are more of a pipe dream shooting for the moon. Going more similar to this open source one designed by a real pro is more of a "sure thing". Not that I don't believe I can achieve my more ambitious designs, but just that they are admittedly a taller order and more crossing fingers about them is all. I really think building a top tier legit walking and talking full humanoid is going to legitimize my journey more in my own eyes and give me a better resume to bring MORE hope toward my own robot builds. Just seems like doing this is a no brainer. I've attached a early design progress image from TheRobotStudio who is currently designing Hope-Lite in Solidworks.
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sigery ¡ 9 months ago
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Glitter is Chaos' first adoptee, a sun slated for decommissioning a few weeks after his moon had been for child murder. Living with Chaos is probably better than dealing with (human) kids or being dead, so yeah he is better off than most suns. Because having a dad is nice. (Hourglass is not being subtle here)
Hourglass doesn't have a job and isn't sure what qualifies as a job vs a hobby. Under the assumption KC is getting money from Moon, why not waste some on a crap ton of hobby stuff to try. Or maybe get a pet? Lifelong companion and all that.
Chaos kind of circumvented the biggest issue, well Pride did because he won't let Chaos take all of them. Hourglass' original Bloodmoon is doing well from what he was told (Pride wouldn't let him visit). They have calmed down more. They were given a cat tree as a joke but they actually really loved it. Though separation of that degree is not a viable solution for AD. Probably enforcing safe spaces; like neither can enter the others' room without explicit permission (or a legit dangerous emergency).
Bone makes it in a storytelling game, bitter blood is from a coffee addict, the blood seems colder because the person drowned in a frozen lake, heavy because the guy put protein powder on everything, etc.
Depending on how long it takes to calm Bloodmoon down, the two might have to pause whatever game while AD KC patches Eclipse up. I kind of assume that KC will patch Eclipse up in a more normal way and Hourglass mutter complains about how he gets licked most of the time (and possibly more if it's serious but licking is the usual first step). Chaos decides this is a good time to groom his son's rays despite or probably because of Hourglass' embarrassment.
Gluttony says he's glad. They aren't supposed to be adopting anymore Eclipses. (Gluttony isn't being subtle at all either)
Pride chuckles saying that Chaos' body language is pretty easy to read once you know him. He's a open book. Though Pride's kind of curious if KC has had any signs that didn't translate because Chaos made up the word/sign. The most common untranslatable sign being 'bloodling'.
Some things will definitely make more sense once AD KC sees Chaos' home life and why he seems a little out of touch. (And be thankful Chaos understands the concept of money and capitalism)
Chaos tries to soothe Bone, saying no one here seems to into baking. Also that most of the blood substitutions aren't common outside their dimension. Envy made them specifically for Wrath and Sloth a long time ago. And then Gluttony, Lust, and Greed spent a while perfecting the recipes. Chaos says that Bone didn't know about these different blood snacks before he came home with Chaos, they are something unique to their home. Hourglass adds it's like how Gaia's dimension, where Flower came from is the only place with landsharks. This bit of information finally calms Bone down. He still finds it unfair but understands now.
How would chaos feel about actual dad eclipse? And given that he's an eclipse that has a kill code dad that's actually cares for him. Even if he is currently under house arrest/supervised watch so he doesn't do anything to Sun and Moon. Chaos could probably talk to the actual dad too.
(I barely have any build on this AU. So sorry if it's a bit sparse.)
Chaos would be ecstatic to meet another kill code that is somewhat a good parent/at least trying. Like kid Eclipse has a dadcode, but that's a little eclipse, of course he has a dad. Plus he has multiple guardians.
Chaos would bring over Hourglass and Pyxidis at the very least. Not sure how much electronics time he gets (computer, internet, gaming stuff, etc) but Chaos would bring things so the eclipses can actually do something fun. Chaos will be ad eclipse's fun uncle that gives him contraband and ice cream for dinner (metaphorically)
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roxxelll ¡ 4 years ago
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Happy birthday, Jason! 🎂  I miss you everyday. ◕‸ ◕✿
Coloured this sketch of him I did a while ago. 
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absolutepokemontrash ¡ 3 years ago
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Kid!MC/Teen!MC Needs someone to go to Parent Teacher Interviews for Them and Guess Who’s Available?
Masterlist
The brothers being bad babysitters/dad figures is something I love very much, I bet you all could already tell that considering the Fic/Headcanon series I have going on. I would just like you all to know that Asmo’s section is based on a true story. Anyhoo~ onto the Headcanons!
Why? Why Him? (Lucifer)
Is MC really dumb, or are they just a kid? No one knows.
Obviously MC asked Lucifer, the only competent one in the house, the most professional, hard-working, controlled-
MC got their things together and gave Lucifer the run down on their teacher(s) before Lucifer got too absorbed in extolling his own virtues in an intense internal monologue.
News flash Lucifer, this isn’t a Shakespeare play, you can’t have a dramatic monologue or soliloquy about how great you think you are
At the actual meeting, if MC is in there, no, MC is not actually in there. Lucifer will speak to the teacher as if MC isn’t there. As someone whose not a spoonful of sugar helps the medicine go down kind of person, Lucifer expects the teacher to behave the same and not spare MC’s feelings.
Feelings do not deserve to be spared if MC is being a nuisance. No fake-kid/little sibling of his gets to be the class idiot!
If MC’s doing very well academically, he expects to be pointed at projects or tests they’ve done and the grade on it. It really makes him proud to see MC doing well.
Even if they’re not the best academically, if they’re not failing and they’re doing well in other aspects of school, he’s proud.
If MC really struggles in a school environment and just hates it there but they’re still keeping their head above water, they get a head pat of approval.
On the drive home, if MC came with him to the parent teacher interviews and everything went well, he just happens to turn onto the street that has a Baskin Robin’s or something of that caliber.
If they didn’t go, he picks something up on the way back.
No fun treats if MC is being a disruptive little heathen in class, no kid under Lucifer’s care is going to be the class Mammon. Not on his watch.
MC was busily stuffed their face with the treats that were gifted to them. Lucifer had to hold himself back from rolling his eyes at the kid’s blatant disregard for basic table manners when it came to sweets.
“Is everything the teacher said true?” Lucifer asked, MC looked up at him with a smile.
“Yep!”
“Good, good.” Lucifer held out his hand and patted them on the head. “You’re doing well. Keep it up.”
“Geez,” MC mumbled as they continued to stuff their face. “Can you get anymore affectionate?”
“Don’t be sarcastic, MC. It’s uncouth.” Lucifer said sternly. “Besides, I’ll have you know that many people enjoy my headpats. I’m quite affectionate.”
“Really now? Name one person.”
Lucifer opened his mouth to respond, but no words came out. He and MC stared each other down, one pair of eyes much more nervous than the other. Spoiler, MC was still calmly eating their treat as they maintained eye contact.
“…Cerberus.”
“If you’re reaching for Cerberus, you’ve already lost.”
…his pride was under attack. Right in front of his desert…
“You’re grounded.”
“Worth it.”
*Rides by on a Skateboard* School is for NERDS (Mammon)
Pff! Stupid human! He’s not goin’ to some lame parent teacher conference-
Wait! What’s with that face?! Ugh… fine. MC’s gone and forced his hand with those damn puppy dog eyes…
Mammon does not dress up for this event, he dresses like he would every day, maybe throw on some designer stuff to let all the parents and teachers know he’s hot shit.
If MC goes with him, he pulls up in his beloved car and takes up two parking spaces (pure evil.). Every parent present already hates him, but at least the other kids there are impressed with MC’s sweet ride. MC would have gained some street cred if Mammon hadn’t managed to trip up the stairs to the classroom in front of everyone.
He’ll act way to casual with the teacher, turning the parent chair backwards and sitting down so he can lean on the seat.
Mammon gets bored crazy quickly while the teacher lists and explains all the stuff the class is learning, so his eyes begin to wander to any and all displays in the classroom. Projects, annoying posters, class pet, anything is more interesting than this teacher’s explanation.
When MC finally becomes the main topic of the interview, he’s all ears. MC’s doing great in school academically? Ha! Nerd! Maybe giving MC a playful noogie and interrupting the whole interview wasn’t a good idea, but whatever.
If MC’s failing anything, or just isn’t that gifted when it comes to grades, it’s very much a “Aw man me too” from Mammon.
This teacher is speaking with the Great Mammon, the first demon in RAD’s history to fail three semesters in a row. If this teacher thinks bad grades will phase him, they’re dead wrong.
Grades don’t mean anythin’ about smarts anyway! I mean, look at him! He’s a fuckin’ genius but he can’t get through a history test without sobbing even though he LIVED THROUGH MOST OF IT.
MC gets treats no matter what’s up in class. Though, if MC didn’t go with him, he’s likely to forget and just order something for the two of them when he gets back home.
“Goddamn teachers and their rambling!” Mammon whined, grabbing a slice of pizza from the open box on his coffee table. “You owe me, MC! Ya really do!”
“Yeah yeah yeah.” MC said, they leaned over and rolled a pizza slice into a pizza-scroll then proceeded to eat it like a veggie roll. “How do you think I feel, listening to them every day? You know how long it takes to get to the actual class material?”
“Five years?”
“Ugh! Five years if I’m lucky! I swear, I know more about my teacher’s grievances with like… five of my classmates than I do about trigonometry, and guess which one’s on the test next week?”
Mammon winced in sympathy, then remembered he was supposed to be whining and went back to it. “School’s shit and a waste of money, ya should drop out as soon as you can and help me run my new business.”
“You mean your pyramid scheme?”
“It’s not a pyramid scheme, MC! It’s legit! It’s a multi-tiered marketing-”
“It’s a pyramid scheme.”
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA SOCIAL INTERACTION (Leviathan)
Everyone else must have been sick or something for MC to have asked Levi. He’d flat out refuse to go otherwise.
So, Levi couldn’t exactly go to the interview in his usual “I haven’t left my room or changed clothes in eight weeks” look. With the help of MC, he was able to find his military uniform at the back of his closet.
Asmo nearly fainted when he saw Levi in the uniform, not because “oooo, a man in uniform~”, it was because the outfit was so crumpled and wrinkled that it made it physically painful to look at. No time to iron and wash, the conference was in an hour!
Levi (and MC if they went with) rolled up to the school in a less than impressive ride, but one look at the uniform and all the other people present went “yep, time to be respectful (tm)”
For the first time in his life Levi was more intimidating than Lucifer! And he wasn’t even trying!
When the teacher starts explaining the course material, Levi spaces off in horror as he realizes he remembers literally nothing from school (AND HE’S STILL IN SCHOOL!) all that’s running through his head is “A squared + B squared = C squared” and “the mitochondria is the powerhouse of the cell”.
The actual interview was the least interesting part of the trip, the real stuff happened when Levi passed by some art on display in the hallway and something caught his eye-
Those colours… that hair… that adorable smile..!
IT WAS HER! LEVI’S PRECIOUS RURI-CHAN IN ALL HER GLORY!
Levi immediately started fawning over the art class fanart and by sheer coincidence, one of the kids walking through the hallway happened to notice.
The kid asked MC if their… parent and or guardian liked anime. MC responded with “obviously.” Levi then asked the kid if they drew his adorable Ruri-chan. The kid said no, and that they drew the My Hero Academia fanart a few rows down.
Levi was absolutely floored that there were two anime fans in one class, then his entire world shattered when MC explained there was more anime art inside the art room and other classrooms.
H-hang on… did that mean that… a lot of people here… liked anime..?
Levi needed a while to process. No snacks on the way home…
Levi and MC were sat in the back of their Uber, Levi, the Avatar of Envy himself, was having his entire sense of reality warped. S-so much anime fanart… in a school of all places..! What did this mean for the future of anime?!
“Levi. Stop.” MC sighed. “If this were an anime, the camera angle would be doing that thing where it’s right on the bridge of your nose and dramatic music plays in the background.”
“S-so many kids in your class like a-anime huh..?” Levi stuttered, weakly trying to smile. “Must be nice..?”
“Oh, that’s just my class. The other classes and grades have their fans too.”
“Oh… really?”
“Levi,” MC stopped looking out the window and looked at the otaku that was having a full scale silent mental breakdown. “Anime isn’t even a niche interest anymore. It’s a pretty casual thing to watch now. At least a third of my class watches- Levi?”
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAGGGHHHHH! ANIME! A THIRD OF THE CLASS?! ANIME… HIS PRECIOUS ANIME… WAS BECOMING A NORMIE INTEREST! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA-
“Levi?” MC waved their hand in front of their spaced out demon’s face. “Leviiiii? Okay he’s dead.”
The Know it All (Satan)
Ah, a smart choice, MC. Satan would be glad to help further their education. He’ll do everything in his power to make sure that the human’s brain is fed all that sweet sweet knowledge.
Satan can’t dress himself normally, MC had to coax him into a suit jacket, but he still only wore one sleeve.
MC was coming along to the interviews whether they wanted to or not, it’s important to hear what they need to improve on from the teacher themselves after all.
The two arrived pretty early, so Satan asked MC for a tour of the school. It was pretty tame until they reached the library. Satan was horrified at the state of some of the books…
Their spines lined with duct tape… pages missing and torn… someone apparently used a taco as a book mark…
The first thing Satan does when it’s time for his interview is demand the teacher take better care of the library, even though they’re not the librarian. MC tries to explain this, but Satan is too distraught to listen to reason.
He enjoyed hearing about the course material, but he made it known if MC thinks the assignments are too easy that they need to be given more challenging work. THEIR BRAIN NEEDS TO BE STIMULATED DAMN IT.
It was up to MC to either agree with Satan and nod to the teacher, or make frantic eye contact with them to try and communicate “NO DON’T PLEASE”.
Similar to (ugh) Lucifer, as long as MC is doing their best, he’s happy for them.
…but if they are in any way in the running for valedictorian he is HELPING THEM WIN.
He decided to stop at a cafe or bookstore to let MC pick out a “congrats on surviving your pitiful school” present after the interviews.
MC gleefully perused the shelves of the bookstore, there were so many books too look at…
“I’ll buy you as many books as you’d like, MC, just,” Satan shuddered slightly. “Promise me you won’t treat them like those poor library books…”
MC put their hand over their heart. “I swear on the duct taped book spines that I will never treat a book like that.”
“Good… good…” Satan breathed a sigh of relief and went back to looking at his book about cats.
“Are you… reading a Warrior Cats book..?” MC asked tentatively.
“Yes, why?”
“Satan, put that back.”
“I Will Seduce the Teacher For the Sake of Your Grades, Don’t Worry.” (Asmodeus)
Oh MC dear! He’d be delighted to go! Just let him get ready~
Asmo may not be the best choice, but he was at least going to be the best dressed person at that conference. (And MC just had to come too so all the other parents could be jealous of how well coordinated their outfits are)
He teased MC a little by saying he was going to flirt with their teacher to make sure they passed the class, but he was just kidding! …but he made sure to ask if their teacher was cute, he needed to know!
While waiting for his turn, Asmo flirts with some of the single parents, if he doesn’t see a wedding ring, they’re fair game.
Once his time slot arrived, MC realized that Asmo is one of those “my child has done and will do nothing wrong ever” types. This may have ended up working in MC’s favour if they were a class nuisance.
If MC is doing very well in sports, clubs, grades, anything, Asmo is fawning over them and gushing to the teacher about how great, smart and adorable they are.
Asmo surprisingly does not exactly flirt with the teacher, he was just teasing MC after all. But um… if MC’s teacher just happens to be cute and young, he may turn up the charm, just a little. Enough to make the teacher giggle and make MC cover their face in embarrassment.
After the interviews Asmo will probably schedule a nice day out for the two of them, shopping, a movie, mani pedis, something fun!
The real weird stuff happens in the months after the interviews… if Asmo did lightly flirt with the teacher, MC gets quite a few questions about their guardian. Questions that ask if Asmo is single in not as many words…
Oh lord, MC’s teacher developed a crush on Asmo.
Nail painting night was supposed to be a fun occasion, but MC was hopping mad and embarrassed. Asmo didn’t seem to notice as he continued to paint the little human’s nails.
“And then I told Phenex to get lost. The nerve of that little monster, right MC?” When MC didn’t reply, Asmo looked up and tilted his head. “MC?”
MC’s angry face would have been much more threatening if they weren’t just so adorable, but it was getting the message across.
“MC..?”
“Asmo.” MC’s glare deepened. “My teacher wants to know if you’re single.”
Asmo blinked a few times, before he hit his tongue to keep from laughing. “Really now~. I knew they’d be madly in love with me-”
“WHY ARE YOU LIKE THIIIIIIIIIIIS?!”
Oh My Demon King is That a BAKE SALE?! (Beel)
Of course Beel said yes! He’d gladly go to MC’s parent teacher interview!
He even put on a nice outfit :D he ended up looking a bit like a secret serviceman guarding MC, the tiny president.
Beel stopped for McDonald’s on the way there, all the other kids were so jealous of MC when they stepped out of the car eating fries.
But a little something something caught Beel’s eye when he and MC walked into the school… was that a… bake sale?
MC quickly explained that the bake sale was fundraiser for their class trip that year and the snacks weren’t complimentary. He had to pay.
And pay Beel did. He cleared out the entire table. MC’s grade’s overnight trip was going to be decadent as hell. That was no longer a crowd funded thing, that trip was privately funded by a tall buff ginger secret service member and this tiny in comparison child.
Kids are incredibly blunt, just like Beel, so when a random kindergarten kid wandered over, looked up at Beel, and very knowingly said “you’re very tall”. Beel was like “yeah”. The kid then said “what’s it like being that tall?”
Beel’s response to this kid’s question was to pick them up and hold them for a few seconds before placing them back down. For just a few moments this kid knew what it like to be over 6’4. Of course, more kids swarmed in and asked to be picked up.
Sure it was cute, but Beel now has an army of kids ranging from kindergarteners to third graders.
Finally, the conference actually began. Beel snacked the entire time and dutifully listened to everything the teacher had to say.
After the interviews are over, he checks with MC to make sure everything the teacher said was true and that they weren’t lying. If all was well, the two made their exit.
They stopped at Wendy’s on the way home.
“I’m so full…” MC groaned, Beel held up a massive cookie.
“So I can eat this?”
“No. Gimme that.” MC took a very defeated bite out of it. “My stomach says no but my mouth says yes…”
“I don’t want you to get a stomachache, MC,” Beel said worriedly. “No more snacks.”
“It’s a little late for that. It’s past nine and I’m still eating, there’s no way I’m getting to sleep at a reasonable hour.”
“Oh…” Beel mumbled. “I may have not completely thought this through.”
“*Snore* Huh? Wha? MC’s Grades? Uh… Fuck…” (Belphie)
MC must be failing a class or something because why on earth would they pick Belphie otherwise.
They ask him to go while he’s delirious from just waking up from a nap, he sort of half nods and mumbles some gibberish before going back to sleep.
MC had to basically carry his ass to the school. Belphie drooled all over them in the waiting room, and when it was their time to go into the interview, Belphie had to be manually put into the chair and slapped awake.
He barely listens, he just sits and nods along with whatever the teacher is saying. The teacher could say MC brought an alligator to school and he’d just go “uh huh…” “mmmph… yep…” “really now?” then yawn.
The only thing that could possibly get Belphie to be interested is if MC is studying space. If they are, than boy howdy is Belphie suddenly interested in their education.
Other than that? *snore*
If MC is in fact failing or doing poorly, MC’s teacher asks to see another one of MC’s guardians at a later date. Their plan failed miserably.
MC drags Belphie out of the school and yells at him for not helping them. Belphie, still sleep delirious, tries to press the snooze button. MC does not have a snooze button.
“Belphie!” MC shouted, shaking the Avatar of Sloth awake. The House of Lamentation’s resident bastard was somehow sleeping standing up outside. “HOW COULD YOU?!”
“Eh?” Belphie half-snorted and looked around confused. “What’d I do? Where are we?”
“At my school! You said that you’d go to my parent teacher interviews!”
“…MC I don’t think I’d pass well for you.”
“YOU WERE SUPPOSED TO GO AS MY GUARDIAN!”
“Sheesh,” Belphie murmured while he rubbed the remaining sleep from his eyes. “You humans are so noisy.”
MC looked up at their dearest demon friend, and gave him their best glare. “I’m going to take all your fancy temperature changing pillows and switch them with normal pillows you traitorous bastard.”
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electricbluebutterflies ¡ 2 years ago
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Kabby + things you said when we were 18
Pre-canon by about 20 years // this is the first time I’ve tried to write this perspective at this era and WOW I apparently have thoughts. Sorta taking a break from writing these babes gives new perspective or something, idk. PG-ish (I don’t think there’s even any legit swear words, how is this even me) and also on ao3.
Against the grand fate of humanity, their little lives are insignificant.
Marcus has always found a strange sort of comfort in that, a livable fatalism he doesn’t want to push away. His life does not matter. If he is the end of his bloodlines, as he suspects will be the case even now, it will not be a loss to the future of their species. Better to accept fate than try to convince himself otherwise. He will live well and die alone and it will be enough.
These are the sort of thoughts that keep him focused on the evening patrols he volunteers for – he would be stuck with the worse shifts anyways regardless, but it looks better if he puts his own name down. It is understood enough why he is what he is, why test scores gave him options but he chose the relative isolation of the guard. Crazy mother, dead asshole father, no wonder he’s a little broody. The guard self-selects for damaged, and in time it will provide a cover against his aversion to marriage. Few girls have the patience for that, and-
He takes the evening patrols, walks the public spaces where other people around his age seek privacy to become acquainted with each other, and tries to convince himself he isn’t actually missing anything.
The usual route covers the main observation decks and lesser social spaces, with a few additions of his own. Each generation has their preferred places for questionable activity, and Marcus is of his era as much as he tries to deny it and there are things he knows that his supervisor does not. Under different leadership the guard could be very effective at imposing some kind of morality, he thinks sometimes, but at present that is not the point and-
On one of the decks he finds a lone figure, and so much for thinking this would be a routine night.
They’ve been avoiding each other, or at least that would be a polite way of putting it. Dynamics change when people fall in love, and they are at the age where whatever damage not done by career placements starts to be done by choice of mate. Objectively, Abby chose well. Jake is one of the warmest people on this cold hunk of metal, one of the few who made any effort with Marcus at certain low points and that’s the sort of kindness even he cannot ignore or forget. He ought to be delighted that two of the best people he knows are seeing each other with some intent, and yet-
He knows her too well, how observant she is and how damningly predictable he is, and he realizes all too late that he’s just wandered into a conversation.
Abby is particularly beautiful in starlight, moving closer in a way that would make a less experienced person forget how small she actually is, deep eyes looking at him like he’s the only thing in the world. If he were capable of love, he would love her; as it is-
“You’re avoiding me.”
Not with intent, he wants to say. Not his fault. But even now he knows this is a pivot, even now he knows that he will not be able to say those words again for a long time.
“Avoidance takes two people.”
She’s got her hand on her hip and that try-me look on her face and in a different world he would kiss her and in this one he never could. Already they are too late, already-
“I’m not hard to find.”
“Neither am I, apparently.”
She answers this with an eyeroll. “You shouldn’t be so predictable.”
“I’m not-“
“You are. And you shouldn’t be.”
He’s in no mood to spar, as easy as that would be, as much as that used to be their baseline. That may be how they end, he thinks, the only thing they keep when everything else they once had fades away.
“What do you want?”
“I don’t know. I don’t think you’re capable of it anymore.”
He’s not even sure what he did, not sure what moment ruined them. They were good once, both ambitious and refusing to be damned by their origins, and then… recently, he supposes, they fell apart and he’s not even sure how. Irreparable, though, he knows that much and-
“You don’t need to be so icy.”
She laughs and it’s the cruelest thing he’s ever heard. “You telling me not to be icy. That’s something.”
“Abby-“
“Just say it. Say I don’t matter.”
He can’t. He won’t. He should. It’s never that simple. It’s completely that simple.
It would be right to detach as thoroughly as possible, to make a clean break before he pivots towards self-destruction. This is the moment to do it, while they are still young enough that she will heal – her resilience is her most admirable trait, he thinks, and if given the time she will have this will become a strange memory when they see each other in hallways. They will not be more than that again. He will be respectfully quiet at her wedding in a year or two and that will be the end and-
“No.”
“You can’t do anything. Can’t make up your mind, can’t develop a spine, can’t-“
“What do you want?” Marcus says again, because the more they talk the less he’s sure of anything at all and-
“Closure. And I was stupid to think I’d ever get it.”
She walks past him before he can find a way to make the situation worse, and this is closure, this is some kind of ending they will not process for years if not decades and-
He hears a door close behind him – the stars themselves are not being subtle with symbolism tonight – and he stands alone motionless on an empty observation deck that isn’t considered a good view or a good place to make out at this time of night. He is twenty, and he has damned himself. He is twenty, and already there is nothing left.
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doubleddenden ¡ 2 years ago
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In part 5 of Digimon Survive. I feel like I'm getting paranoid because I think I'm seeing more death flags for characters that may not have them.
Characters are getting more in depth and surprisingly complex. I really thought they'd all just be Adventure but Pepsi, but I'd argue these guys have deeper characterization and baggage.
Oh, and they've done a very surprisingly amazing job at recontextualizing Digimon fir this game. In fact, I don't think other than the title that the term "Digimon" has ever come up. Not even Digivice. It's strange but also very fitting, feels very natural compared to things like "File" Island or eating data chips like other games.
Oh and uh something else.
FUCK SHUUJI! ALL MY HOMIES HATE SHUUJI!
I know he has a sad backstory and yes, the circumstances are very, VERY stressful, but this bastard is fucking abusive and became his own father but *worse*. I really thought that at worst, he'd become another Joe, but he's not even reliable in any sense! He's a spineless coward with a victim AND god complex and would just rather wait and die than actually take the necessary risks to get home.
I'm not even exaggerating. The bastard literally left Saki to die by Fangmon, and STILL insists the group has to have respect for him because he's older and "the leader"
He's been presented with the LEAST THREATENING Digimon out of everyone there in terms of cuteness and personality. Lopmon loves him so much and wants nothing more than his approval, but Shuuji just abuses him, screams at him, calls him a WASTE OF SPACE, and bullies him when training- he'll, at every waking opportunity. I thought for a moment he had the epiphany that Lopmon represents HIMSELF trying to please his father with all of his might, but Shuuji is so far up his own victim complex that he sees Lopmon as the same level of danger as a fucking giant spider lady HE ALMOST TRUSTED. He doesn't even realize he became his own father.
It literally broke my heart to see Lopmon cry and ask "Why am I the only one who is hated so much?"
At this point I'm ready to purposely get him killed off. There is NO redeeming factor for him anymore. None. At least Ryo's partner was a giant bug that couldn't really talk, AND THEY AT LEAST LEARNED HOW TO COMMUNICATE before he died, even if he didn't really get a chance to actually get along. At least he was just a fucking piss baby that knew he was a coward. Shuuji is supposed to be the mature one and he's bullying a baby that loves him to pieces. And he's SCREAMING at the young kids. You know. One of which he ABANDONED. Another he tried to leave for dead!
God I legitimately hate him. I actually wanted for Kaito, Minoru, or Takumi to punch him, because good fucking lord he needs a PAINFUL reality check, and Lopmon needs a HUG and several apologies.
Other than that pile of shit, I'm worried about Saki. She's got anime mom hair, she's having more... private moments with Takuma? It feels like death flags are rising. Which is going to suck because I almost kind if ship her with Takuma (I know she's 12 and he's 14, but A. That's only 2 years, B. This is anime 12 and 14, which is closer to real life 15 and 17, so it's a little less creepy to me.)
Oh and Dracmon is legit the best partner.
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