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solxamber · 2 days ago
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haii can i req octotrio, malleus, and leona (all seperate!) with a reader like kokomi from genshin thats also a jellyfish? romantic or not it doesn’t matter to me ^_^ also feel free to add more characters the more the merrier :3
Leona, Octatrio, Malleus, Riddle, Vil, Rook, Rollo x Kokomi!Jellyfish!Reader
a/n; i felt pretty inspired so i added quite a few <3
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Leona Kingscholar
Leona pretends he’s indifferent, but your serene and calculated demeanor throws him off.
The first time he sees your glowing form under the moonlight, he blinks twice, convinced he’s hallucinating. “Tch, what’s with the light show? Trying to blind me or something?” But secretly, he’s mesmerized.
Your habit of calmly handling disputes in the dorm (often between Ruggie and others) frustrates him. “You can’t just talk people into behaving,” he grumbles, only to watch you succeed every time.
Leona’s competitive side comes out when he learns about your strategic mind. Chess games with you become a weekly ritual, and losing to you annoys him more than he’ll admit.
Despite his gruffness, he’s deeply protective of you, especially when someone comments on your jellyfish-like features. “Say that again, and I’ll show you why you don’t mess with jellyfish.”
Sometimes, he watches you float gracefully in water, pretending he’s there for a nap. “Stop staring at me, Leona.” “Who’s staring? I’m just resting my eyes.”
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Azul Ashengrotto
Azul is immediately intrigued by your jellyfish traits and calm demeanor—after all, you’re a marine creature, and that’s his territory.
Your bioluminescence is something he secretly envies, though he’ll never admit it. “A marvelous ability,” he says while scribbling notes for future contracts.
Your strategic thinking makes you one of the few people who can keep up with him in negotiations. He offers you a job at the Lounge almost immediately, “to better utilize your talents.”
Whenever Floyd or Jade annoys him, Azul uses you as a buffer. “Perhaps you could… calm them down?” And, to his astonishment, it works. Even Floyd listens to you.
He’s absolutely fascinated by your glowing hair and jellyfish-like appendages. “Do they serve a specific function, or are they purely aesthetic?” he asks while trying not to sound overly eager.
Azul secretly finds your tranquil nature soothing. After a long day of scheming, he’ll seek your company under the guise of “strategic discussions,” but really, he just wants to hear your voice.
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Jade Leech
Jade is utterly fascinated by you from the moment he meets you. Your resemblance to a jellyfish sparks his curiosity.
He constantly asks you questions about your biology, glowing abilities, and lifestyle. “Do you use your bioluminescence to lure prey, or is it purely decorative?”
Jade enjoys teasing you, especially when you’re peacefully floating in water. “You look so serene. It’s almost a shame to disturb you.” Then he splashes you.
He respects your calm and collected demeanor, but he’s determined to find out what flusters you. Watching your serene mask slip is his new favorite pastime.
If someone dares insult you, Jade’s smile grows even sharper. “I wouldn’t recommend making an enemy of a jellyfish, you know. They’re far more dangerous than they appear.”
He enjoys your company during his hikes, fascinated by how your glowing presence adds an ethereal beauty to the forest.
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Floyd Leech
Floyd is absolutely obsessed with you. You’re a jellyfish, and jellyfish are cool—end of story.
He immediately nicknames you “Jelly,” much to your mild exasperation. “C’mon, Jelly! Let’s go do something fun!”
Floyd loves poking at your glowing features. “What happens if I touch this? Will it zap me?” (You have to swat his hand away repeatedly.)
Your calm nature intrigues him. “How do you stay so chill all the time? Don’t you ever wanna, like, flip out?” He sees it as a personal challenge to get you riled up.
He’s oddly protective of you. If anyone messes with you, Floyd’s mood sours instantly, and you have to calm him down before he does something drastic.
Floyd loves dragging you into the water to “swim like real jellyfish.” His playful nature contrasts hilariously with your serene floating.
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Malleus Draconia
Malleus finds you absolutely enchanting. Your ethereal glow and calm presence remind him of a fairytale.
The first time he sees you glowing in the dark, he’s convinced you’re some sort of spirit. “Are you a creature of the night, summoned by the stars?” You laugh, which only confuses him more.
He adores your serene demeanor and often seeks your company when he’s feeling lonely. “You have a calming presence. It is… soothing.”
Your strategic mind impresses him. He occasionally consults you on matters of state, and your insight leaves him in awe.
Malleus is enchanted by your glowing features and bioluminescence. He often compares you to the stars and moon. “You shine as brightly as the night sky,” he says, his voice soft.
He’s protective of you, especially when others don’t understand your unique traits. “Anyone who dares mock your beauty will answer to me,” he declares, his aura dark and foreboding.
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Riddle Rosehearts
Riddle is equal parts fascinated and exasperated by your serene and dreamy nature.
He struggles to reconcile your gentle demeanor with the strict order he upholds. “You can’t just let them get away with breaking rules.” But you always seem to handle things so effortlessly, he can’t help but feel a little envious.
The first time he sees your bioluminescence, he’s stunned. “W-What are you glowing for? Is that some sort of trick?” He secretly thinks it’s mesmerizing.
Your calmness has a soothing effect on him during his temperamental moments. When you gently suggest he take a deep breath, he can’t find it in himself to argue.
Your strategic mind earns his respect, especially when you help him resolve dorm conflicts with minimal drama. He finds himself seeking your counsel more often than he’d like to admit.
He tries to deny how much your presence comforts him, but when you glow softly under the moonlight, he’s reminded of the beauty of following one’s heart.
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Vil Schoenheit
Vil finds you utterly captivating, both for your glowing beauty and your ability to remain so composed under pressure.
He immediately notices your bioluminescence and praises it as “natural elegance.” He may even use it as inspiration for his next photoshoot.
Vil admires your calm demeanor but insists on refining your presentation. “Grace comes naturally to you, but you must carry it with intention.”
Your ability to remain poised even under stress makes him jealous sometimes. He spends hours perfecting himself while you seem effortlessly radiant.
The two of you often engage in long conversations about leadership and balance. He’s impressed by your thoughtful insight, though he won’t always admit it.
He pretends not to care when others praise your ethereal glow, but he can’t help but feel proud, especially when you stand by his side at events.
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Rook Hunt
Rook is absolutely enchanted by your jellyfish-inspired traits and ethereal aura.
The first time he sees your bioluminescence, he dramatically declares, “Magnifique! You are a creature of the heavens, a glowing gem beneath the sea!”
Rook constantly watches you, fascinated by the way you move and speak. He calls it research, but it’s really just admiration.
Your calmness intrigues him. He frequently tests your patience with his flamboyant antics, but you never falter, much to his delight.
He adores how your strategic mind contrasts with your soft demeanor. “You are as cunning as you are serene, ma chérie méduse.”
Rook writes poems inspired by your bioluminescent glow, claiming that no words could ever truly capture your beauty.
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Rollo Flamme
Rollo is conflicted about you. Your calm, composed nature intrigues him, but your glowing features remind him of magic—something he loathes.
The first time he sees you glowing, he’s visibly unsettled. “Is this some kind of magic trick? I don’t trust it.” Yet, he can’t look away.
Your tranquil demeanor softens his usual disdain. He begrudgingly admits that you’re… tolerable, though his fascination with you grows daily.
Rollo’s jealousy flares whenever others praise your ethereal beauty. “They’re only bewitched by appearances,” he mutters, trying to convince himself he’s not affected.
Your intelligence earns his respect, though he won’t openly say it. He finds himself relying on your calm judgment more than he’d like.
Despite his feelings about magic, he catches himself enjoying the way your glow lights up dark spaces. It’s almost… comforting.
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sweetkpopmusings · 23 hours ago
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heart-fluttering moments with ateez <3
a/n: trying to clear through my very long list of drafts/ideas, and i desperately needed to write some more for ateez. hopefully these give you a nice little boost of serotonin (even if they propel you into your feelings, as they did to me) <3 pics not mine~
content: fluff, can be read as nonidol!ateez | wc: 1.4k | warnings: none really! | pairing: ateez x gn!reader | requests: open
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seonghwa♡‧₊˚
when he says your name. 
seonghwa, always eager to catch your attention, had plenty of nicknames for you. you loved each and every one of them because, on top of classics like love and darling, he crafted special ones for you and only you. when he really wanted your attention, though, he said your name. whenever he called out to you, you’d be met by his big, sparkling eyes. his voice was always a sweet coo when he said your name, like it was his favorite word in the universe. seonghwa adored the way your whole body responded to him, alight with affection, whenever he called out to you. you never felt more like yourself than with seonghwa, and all it took to make you feel like the only person in the world was him saying my y/n~~ if only you knew that seonghwa folded twice as hard whenever you said his name. one day, maybe soon, he’d tell you his name never sounded perfect until he heard it in your voice.
hongjoong♡‧₊˚
when you tell him about your day.
hongjoong, though subtle about it, was completely and utterly enamored by you. he was not one for grand romantic gestures. he would partake in these on special occasions, particularly if you were fond of them or at least got a good laugh out of it. hongjoong, however, preferred to express his love for you through everyday actions. in particular, hongjoong loved nothing more than asking you how was your day, my love? he could happily sit there for hours, cherishing the way your voice engulfed him. he’d smile brightly, eyes locked on yours, listening intently to every word you said. if you ever felt as though you were talking too much, hongjoong would insist that his favorite part of the day was talking to you. inevitably flustered by his casual confession, he’d tease you playfully, quickly asking you to tell him more and more because he can never get enough of you.
yunho♡‧₊˚
when he tells you stories.
yunho thought about you constantly. while he was too shy to confess this unless you two were feeling extra soft for each other, it was clear to everyone around yunho that you were always on his mind. everyday, yunho would make mental notes of things he wanted to tell you. sometimes, if a day was full of anecdotes he knew you’d love, he’d actually write them down on his phone, a list full of nonsensical reminders of how he saw you in everything. as soon as he could get to you, yunho would reenact every funny moment just to hear you laugh. his heart soared whenever you called him ridiculous after a dramatic retelling of an almost unbelievable story. you thought this was how yunho was with everyone, until, when speaking with other members, you joked about a story no one else had heard before. yunho explained it to them, but not as energetically as he did for you. this was the moment you realized that he was your storyteller. yunho made you feel special in every way, and this special habit of his was no exception. you were, after all, his favorite audience.
yeosang♡‧₊˚
when he remembers.
yeosang is more often than not on his own plane of existence. his mind is one of a kind, and you are frequently entertained by the way he thinks, especially when it takes your conversations and ideas into entirely new territory. despite being a little “airheaded” sometimes, yeosang never forgot a thing when it came to you. he would remind you to restock groceries–somehow he always remembered exactly which items you tended to forget–and he always asked you about upcoming plans he knew you were excited about. one time, when he asked you about an event that you had only mentioned once months prior, you joked that it felt like he was your personal assistant. yeosang, smiling, said i might as well be. i keep a calendar of your life in my head all the time. you laughed because it sounded ridiculous, but the look in his eyes revealed that this was not a joke. when you asked him why, he answered i never want to miss a thing about you. 
san♡‧₊˚
when he tells you how much you mean to him.
san’s heart was undoubtedly the biggest on the planet. his love was generous and open, never letting anyone feel anything but their best. in san’s eyes, however, your heart was the most beautiful thing he’d ever had the pleasure of knowing, and he was honored every day to have a place in it. his terms of endearment for you always reflected how much he adored you: my angel, my star, my world, and so on. san didn’t stop there. on nights he was feeling especially soft for you, san would melt your heart with the sweetest words of adoration. after laughing at your joke, he’d smile widely and say no one makes me laugh like you do. you are so special. before saying goodbye on the phone, san would sigh contentedly, asking you to promise him that you’d never forget how much you mean to him. of course, you promise him, because you would promise him everything. you can hear the joyful look on his face as he says my y/n, you are more precious to me than you’ll ever know. 
mingi♡‧₊˚
when he carries things for you.
mingi was everyone’s princess, including yours. mingi, however, did not think it was fair that only he got the princess treatment in your relationship. he loved when you took care of him, all blushed cheeks and giggles and butterflies in his stomach. what made him feel on top of the world, though, was reciprocating your kindness and care. his heart almost burst out of his chest every time you smiled and said thank you. mingi thought there was no greater honor than being helpful to you. you changed so much of his life and him for the better. he wasn’t quite sure how to express that gratitude and amazement, so he figured the least he could do is carry your groceries, lift heavy objects, or hold every item as you shopped through your favorite stores. any time you asked if he wanted help, even if he was struggling to balance himself, he’d deny it. if you pushed back, saying you could carry things too, he’d look at you with a small pout and shining eyes and ask, shouldn’t i be the one who takes the weight off your shoulders? from that moment on, you let him carry whatever he wanted.
wooyoung♡‧₊˚ 
when he thinks of you first.
wooyoung never, ever shied away from showing his affection toward you. he’d compliment you endlessly, tease you to make you laugh, buy you thoughtful little gifts, and overall make you feel special. you were his beloved, after all. a habit wooyoung developed as you became an even bigger part of his life was thinking of you first, always. it was instinctive and subtle, but it reflected just how deeply wooyoung cared for and cherished you. he would hand you a water before you even realized you were thirsty. he’d bring your coat to you as you stepped out the door because he knew it was cold outside. he’d cover corners and guide you through tight spaces so you never got hurt. when deciding on something, he would ask for your thoughts on it, giving you his undivided attention as you spoke. wooyoung didn’t even notice that he did this, until you thanked him one day for always being so caring. he shrugged, failing to bite back a heartwarming smile, and told you no need to thank me. caring for you is my favorite thing to do. 
jongho♡‧₊˚
when he acts silly.
jongho did not take long to show off his silly side to you. from early on in your relationship, he felt so safe around you. to jongho, it was very clear that you were his person. this mean that he felt like he could truly be himself, so long as you were with him. as he grew more and more comfortable with you, he acted goofier. jongho loved to see you laugh, and his favorite sound was your laughs mixed together. he always fell into a giggling fit whenever you joked around with him too. he adorees how silly you can get because, in his mind, it is even more proof that you two are on the same wavelength. whenever he is laughing with you, jongho feels at home in a world only shared with you. everyone who knows jongho can always tell when he has been with you because he is brighter. you give him energy, even on his most exhausting or difficult days. there is a reason jongho always calls you my happiness. 
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elysiuminfra · 2 days ago
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i want to talk about walmart for a second. if you haven’t worked or known someone who worked for walmart, you probably don’t know how bad it is. most people don’t, so i want to talk about it.
there’s a points system for absences. if you miss work, and can’t cover it with accrued time off (because you don’t just Get time off - it builds up over time. it takes about a month of straight work to get a day off.) you get a point. five points and you’re at risk of termination. all managers - team leads, and above them, coaches - have the power to excuse points so that you don’t get fired. some do, so you don’t lose your job. most don’t. five days, that’s it.
if you miss more than three shifts of work due to a medical issue, you have to go through a third party company (which isn’t really third party.) to get a medical exception so you don’t lose your job. it is hard to get this. they need a lot of documentation to prove that you somehow deserved to miss work. they don’t accept regular doctors notes. this is somehow nebulously legal. you are also forced to work while sick and infectious. flu, strep, covid, doesnt matter for all departments except produce and deli. even then, they only send you home if you throw up *at work* or have food-related illnesses. every other department you’re not allowed to go home. more than likely you are being exposed to someone who’s sick at walmart, because its either come in sick or get fired.
i work hard. everyone *has* to work hard. you are on your feet 8 hours a day. you can’t sit. there are no surfaces to sit on. some departments are harder than others. i worked in OPD, the online grocery fulfillment department. i would walk, bare minimum, 7 to 8 miles a day, hauling sometimes over 200 pounds of groceries. every day. now i work in the deli. you are constantly moving. this is very typical for the deli - you are given too many tasks to perform in one day. most days i can barely get enough done. i know people don’t take their legally entitled second breaks. I know people who have to work off the clock just to get everything done. my department - as is *most other departments* - is understaffed. i cook, clean, work the slicer, and dispense food at the same time. and trust me when i tell you the standards of cleanliness in my department is high, but in practice it is very, very poor. simply because there is usually only one of us working back there, and we just can’t do everything right all at once.
none of the “fresh” food in the bakery / produce area is fresh. the bread is baked in store, but the dough is made and frozen elsewhere. sometimes it’s been frozen for weeks. everything is shockingly artificial. same with produce. you’re better off buying your produce elsewhere, or even locally. walmart has been fraught with recall after recall.
people are cheated out of retirements. so many people I know that are at retirement age simply can’t. there are people working here in their 70s. they are being overworked. there are a lot of teenagers that work up front. they are being overworked. I know two kids who are disabled that work the register. they aren’t allowed to sit. one had to fight to be able to get a medical accommodation and only got one when he threatened to sue, because not taking a doctor’s note for an accommodation is illegal. they do it anyways. there are so many people i know personally that are disabled, have chronic pain, have mobility issues, and can’t sit. or walk miles and miles a day. one of my coworkers recently quit because she tore both rotator cuffs in her shoulders from this job. this job disables you. it kills you. (just look up how many people have died on the job due to negligence. it is not a small amount.)
even the prices are fake. sales are fake. rollback is fake. i notice how things are priced and they rarely change, even when they say they’re on sale. it’s a scam. you are being scammed.
we are overworked and underpaid for our labor. (speaking of, wages used to be higher by several dollars a couple years ago. they lowered them. my department paid 20 an hour. it only pays 16 now. almost all other departments are at a flat 14. it used to be 16.)
wage theft, lack of breaks, overtime violations, lack of sick leave, chronic understaffing and chronic abuse from management, not terminating employees that sexually harass coworkers, and piles and piles and piles of responsibilities. all of this is to say, walmart only operates because of how much they exploit their workers, and it’s in the top of the Fortune 500 list. it is impossibly dire. and it is in EVERY SINGLE store, because that is just how the work culture operates.
all salaried management is also given guides on union busting. unionization is impossible. there was one store that they completely shut down because of successful unionization efforts, laying off hundreds of people, and blamed it on “faulty plumbing.”
one last thing - if you are assaulted by a customer, you cannot defend yourself. nobody can help you, because none of us are allowed to put our hands in any capacity on a customer. if you are assaulted, you have no choice but to run and hide. I’ve heard of a worker at my store that was assaulted repeatedly over several days from people who would come in and beat her. they weren’t banned, and she was fired for fighting back. if you fight back, you’re fired immediately, no exceptions.
all of this is to say shop elsewhere. buy locally. buy at other stores. you will get better quality items and produce literally ANYWHERE else. if you can’t, be kind to Walmart workers. theres abuse at every step of the chain. even on the supply side. walmart is a corporate dystopian monster that only makes its money off of intense labor violations.
tl;dr don’t shop at walmart. it’s not worth it
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moosesarecute · 2 days ago
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Song of the Wind part 3
Since so many people (aka two 😅) asked, here is a third and final part
Part 2
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Azriel was pacing back and forth in the entrance of the Town House. His house.
He still wasn’t used to being the owner of a house. And he still sometimes flew to the House of Wind instead of here.
It had been four months since his first dinner with your family. Four months since your mother and brother accepted his request to court you.
And it had been the best four months of his life, even though he felt like he was playing a part.
He used all his experience as a spy to pretend that he knew what he was doing as he gave flowers to your mother, talked politics with your brother and carefully talked about everything and nothing with you.
Only in his letters to you could he be his embarrassing self.
You would send back and forth letters all the time. You wrote about your daily life and ambitions, he wrote about his personal life and every thing else that he wanted to tell you.
He wished to tell you everything, he realized.
He had been pacing for the better part of an hour. Thinking about all he had planned to do these two days you were going to come to Velaris.
You had been there before, of course you had. You and your family had visited twice before.
That’s when he realized your family excepted him to own a house and Rhys gifted him the Town House. Azriel tried to refuse, but soon Feyre and Elain had started to decorate, and he had no other choice. He had really started to love the house.
This time, you were arriving alone. No chaperone. And Azriel felt like the pressure of all courts had been put on his shoulders.
If he messed up now, all his chances were gone. This was it.
A knock on his door, made his shadows stop clinging to him and he moved to the door. He straightened his back and took a deep, but quiet breath, before he opened the door.
Outside stood both you and your brother, Mateo. His eyes immediately met yours and all worry he had disappeared.
“Hello,” you said with your bright voice.
“Hi,” he answered dreamily, before he realized you were waiting for an invitation to come in. “It’s good to see you, please come in.”
You gave your brother a small hug and Mateo gave Azriel a look that almost screamed “don’t you dare mess this up”. Azriel gave a grave nod in return.
You walked into the house and Azriel showed you to your room. You would have to sleep in separate rooms, of course.
“This will be the best weekend ever,” you said as the two of you started making lunch.
The weekend was packed. Azriel had only planned a few things to do, so that you would choose the rest.
You ended up dragging him along to one of Feyre’s painting classes, you went on walks through the Raindow and went to every single cute cafe you could find.
In the evening, the two of you went on a dinner date and the day after you had joined his family for family dinner.
Smiles were big on both faces throughout the entire days.
Azriel held the door open for you as you walked out of the River House.
“I have one more thing I wished we could do,” you said.
“Anything,” he responded as he closed the door behind him.
“I was wondering if we could go flying again,” you asked him with a quiet voice.
He almost froze. Of course he wanted to fly with you. Flying was his favorite thing ever. Nothing had ever given him as much peace.
But that would mean holding you. Carrying you in his arms as he flew above Velaris seemed like a dream, but was he allowed to?
“I’m sorry, I shouldn’t have asked that,” you said before he could answer.
“No, no, it’s okay! I really want to fly with you, but I would have to carry you. Is that okay?”
He felt a stupid blush reaching his face. He had flown multiple women before, but the thought of having you so close made him flustered.
“I would be okay with that.”
When he picked you up and felt the warmth of your body against his he thought he was going to lose all control.
It felt so right holding you against him. He absolutely loved it.
Throughout the four months of courting he had been longing for the day he could fly with you again. Not in a life-death situation, but for fun.
“Ready?”
You nodded and he took off.
The scream that left your mouth was a lot quieter than last time and was soon changed with laughter.
He flew them far above the ground and while you were amazed by the lights from the city, he was amazed by your bright eyes and the feeling of holding you.
It was the most amazing thing he could ever have dreamed of.
“This is amazing,” you said and turned to look at him. “Thank you, love.”
The pet name made his knees weak and he was so happy he wasn’t currently standing on them. He would definitely fall.
“No problem at all,” he answered as he got lost in your eyes.
After a while, he flew you down to the Town House.
Being from Summer meant being used to a warmer temperature than what it was in Velaris, so he made sure you felt warm under a blanket.
The night disappeared into day, but neither of you noticed. The entire house was filled by laughter and love.
The mating bond was humming in both chests. Humming stronger than ever before.
“I love you,” you whispered to him.
“I love you too.”
Relief was the feeling that spread through his body. Both from you and from him. The second feeling was pure happiness.
His shadows were swirling around you, like they had done the entire weekend. Now, they became a little braver and clung closer to you in a protective, but also comforting manner.
Azriel half expected you to get scared from them, but you only leaned further towards them, and therefore also towards Azriel.
His shadows on the other side of his body started to push him towards you and soon you were touching. He lifted his hand and you did the same, interlocking fingers.
Both of you relaxed completely against each other.
You stayed in the same position until a knock was heard and Azriel knew that your brother had arrived.
Disappointment filled his heart, but then it was gone again.
It was your disappointment he realized. He was about to ask if you were okay, when you sat up, kissed his cheek and made your way to the door.
The kiss made his shadows go crazy, but he hoped you didn’t notice.
It was a simple goodbye and then, you went back to the Summer Court.
Azriel had been sosial the entire weekend, but he didn’t feel as tired he usually would. It only felt empty. The house was too big without you in it.
So he decided to make his way to the River House.
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You had expected him to do it when you made food the first day.
Or when you ate dinner at the restaurant.
Or when you walked through the rainbow.
Or when he flew you around and gazed at you like you were a goddess to his god.
You at least expected him to do it when you stayed up talking the entire night. Leaning into each other and feeling the warmth and smell from his body.
But then he didn’t.
Your brother arrived and winnowed you home and it only took one hug for you to break down.
He didn’t want you.
He said he loved you, but he still didn’t want to marry you.
Breathing became harder and harder. You weren’t good enough for your own mate.
Your brother carefully moved you from his arms into your mother’s.
You could almost smell his anger, but you were too deep into crying to realize what he was going to do.
That was until he winnowed away.
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“How did it go?” Nesta asked as soon as he walked into the River House.
Most of his family was still there after the dinner last night. Being either too tired or too drunk to go home.
“It went fine, I think,” he answered.
All his family was looking hopeful at him. They wanted details.
“We talked the entire night and her brother picked her up not long ago.”
“We really like her,” Rhys said and it made Azriel smile. “She seems right for you. I’ve never seen you smile like this before.”
He nodded at his brother. He really did love you. It was an incredible feeling knowing that you loved him back.
“What’s going on?” Amren asked.
She and Varian had been gone for the last two weeks. They had therefore no idea that you had been visiting.
“Y/N was here this entire weekend,” Feyre said and she continued with a blink in her eye. “Without a chaperone.”
Amren only snorted, but Varian’s eyes grew double the size. Azriel felt his smile fall.
“What?” He asked.
“Did you-,” Varian started speaking, but was cut of by a door closing.
In walked Cassian and to Azriel’s horror, Mateo.
“Look who I found,” Cassian said.
Azriel immediately got worried. Did something happen to you? Were you hurt? Didn’t they get home properly?
Azriel stood up and was about to voice his concerns, when Mateo’s fist met his nose.
Mateo wasn’t the tallest or strongest fae, but he knew how to punch. Azriel both felt and heard his nose break.
He realized he must have messed something up for Mateo, who had become his friend, so want to hurt him so badly.
So he let Mateo do what he needed.
In the end he had a broken nose, a black eye and he was drenched in water…twice.
“What the hell is wrong with you? I let you get close to my sister even though you messed up about everything in your first dinner with us and then you play her like that? Don’t you own any shame? She’s been the most patient. She’s been urging me to let her see you and then you prove all the bad accusations about Illyrians right?”
In the end, Rhys pulled Mateo off him.
“I’m sure it’s a good explanation for all this. Azriel gave us the impression that the weekend went quite well,” he said and tried to calm Mateo.
“Well? Well? How can it go well when he doesn’t have any plans on attaching himself.”
Azriel’s eyes grew wide. What? Of course he was planning on attaching himself to you. He wanted nothing more in the entire world to call you his.
A small attempt on clearing a throat was heard in the corner of the room. Azriel met Varian’s eyes before the male no longer dared to look at him.
“I might have forgotten to mention the part about how a unchaperoned visit is the same as telling someone to propose.”
Azriel’s mouth flew open.
You had excepted him to propose. You had waited patiently the entire weekend for him to say he wanted to marry you and then he hadn’t.
He had to hold back his shadows to prevent them from killing Varian, but he let them punch him to the ground.
“I didn’t know,” he almost pleaded to your brother. “I swear, I didn’t know. Of course I want to marry her, she’s the best thing that has ever happened to me.”
A ring!
He needs a ring.
But it was Sunday and most of the shops were closed.
He was about to ask Rhys for one when his shadows lifted his hand and dropped a ring-box into it.
He opened it and was met with the most beautiful ring he had ever seen. It screamed you. It would look amazing on your cute hand.
“You have a ring ready?” Mateo asked. He seemed to suddenly realize that Azriel was serious.
Azriel almost told the truth about his shadows buying a ring behind his back, but then his shadows forced his head into a nod.
“May I please propose to your sister?” He asked hopefully.
Mateo gave him just a stern nod and Azriel was on his way.
He winnowed and flew and winnowed until he stood outside your home.
He didn’t knock, but just opened the door and left it open. Your mother was almost burning with anger as she saw him.
“I’m so sorry, ma’am,” he said. “I don’t have time to explain, I need to propose to your daughter.”
His shadows told him where in the house you were and he immediately ran to your room.
He almost ripped open the door and stormed inn.
You were about to go into bed, but stopped as you saw him.
His heart broke at the sight of your bright eyes that were now red from crying. You were crying the first time you met, but now that the tears was because of him it was ten thousand times worse. He wanted to throw up.
He didn’t let you speak as he walked up to you, went down on one knee and opened the ring-box.
“Y/N Y/L/N, daughter of Dana, sister of Mateo and owner of my heart. I’m the stupidest male alive for not realizing what your visit this weekend meant. I promise you, I didn’t know, but it doesn’t matter. I messed up. And I promise to try to mess up less in the future, but please, please, please, will you marry me?”
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“Ready?” Your brother asked you.
You leaned into a hug and he kissed your forehead.
“It’s not too late to back away,” he continued and you only laughed.
“I’m sure I made the right decision, even though you’re still mad,” you answered with a bright smile.
He took your hand, tilted your flower-crown a little to the left and started walking with you.
The weather was perfect. Not too warm, but a blue shy and a bit of a wind.
The garden you had chosen to get married in was the most beautiful and it felt so right. With a mix of pink, blue and green plants as decor.
Azriel cried as he saw you. He stood out in his black suit, but you at least got him a white flower to have in his hair. He wore it proudly.
The ceremony was beautiful. Your vows were a mix of Night Court and Summer Court traditions. Your first kiss was the most amazing kiss ever and you soon became addicted to kissing.
Your entire family and his entire family were together for the party afterwards.
It was the most beautiful day ever.
“I can’t believe we finally got married,” he said and kissed you on the mouth.
“You proposed last month, love. You made it seem like you’ve waited forever.”
“I have,” he said. “540 years to be exact.”
You laughed at your cheesy mate.
Rhysand winnowed you both to the Night Court. The Town House was now also your home.
What Azriel didn’t know was that you had, with the help of Feyre and Nesta, placed a small cake that you had made on the kitchen table of the Town House.
Azriel ended up eating that cake quite quickly when he realized what it meant.
And you know the rest.
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“Can you at least give me a two meter radius?” Cassian asked the guards that were currently surrounding him.
“No, we have orders from the High Lord,” one of them answered.
It had taken Rhys two weeks of almost begging Tarquin to let Cassian come to Azriel and Y/N’s wedding. And he was allowed to come, but he was constantly watched by at least three guards.
“Enjoying yourself, Cass?” Rhys asked him. He stood and talked with both Azriel and you, but Cassian wasn’t allowed. It was a too crowded area for the guards to have complete control.
Azriel and Rhys broke out in laughter at Cassian’s annoyed face. You, however, walked up to your new brother in law with a small glass of champagne.
Cassian was about to take the glass when one of the guards slapped his hand away.
“No alcohol!” He said.
Cassian had to hold back from stumping his foot like a toddler.
“You break one building,” he muttered and his words were answered with laughter.
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pret-boy · 9 hours ago
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I'll just answer these straight up because NOBODY LIKES ME!
1. Anywhere with my bf is great but I would love an arcade date. I wanna beat his ass at games. Or get my ass beat. Either way it's fun.
2. I just listen to mentally ill Vocaloid producers and Japanese twinks given musical talent please don't ask me anything like this again.
3. Being accepted unconditionally.
4. Taken I love my boytoy malewife husband I keep him in a small enclosure.
5. Many because I'm very very arospec and I "crush" on people for like 3 hours max and move on. So it's like a fun movie experience to me. If we're talking crushes that lasted at least a week that'd be like... six as far as I remember. People I've dated included.
6. People who are the opposite of me. I like women who are cool and collected and don't fuck with me (and older ideally) and men who are sad wet cats and would die if I looked at someone else. I've only dated the latter though. But generally I also really like people who have a darker aesthetic (regardless of personality) because I have a cutesy aesthetic and visually those are fucking awesome together.
7. Extremely. I speedrun crushes. I will crush on someone 30 minutes into knowing them (happened with my ex btw) and lose the crush the next day. I don't even know if they count as crushes they're like just a fun little thing to spice up an otherwise boring day for me.
8. I honestly don't care. I'd like something wholesome and fluffy though, like festive movies. Christmas movies yay!
9. Sunflowers and lilies.
10. Neither you nor I know. No one does. Divine inspiration strikes me at random. I don't know what a musical note even is but I composed and played a short tune for my ex on our anniversary out of fucking NOWHERE because I wanted to surprise him.
11. Idk.
12. Anything and everything really but giving I'm more of a quality time and words of affirmation person (with acts of service on the side), receiving I like quality time too.
13. My bf's been calling me "darling" lately and it really melts me like fucking butter. So cute.
14. No.
15. Not at the moment actually. I've been busy so I haven't gotten into any new media and my old fictional crushes fizzled out. Does my bf's oc count? I'm obsessed with them.
16. Both are good I'm not picky. If I had to pick, quiet. It's cuter. Yeah boy quiet down. I like men who know their place and shut the fuck up. I really liked this guy in my class who sat next to me and this other girl and we would yap the whole time while he sat there with his knees pressed together and hands folded in his lap like a good little Victorian maiden, not even uttering a single word. Like yep thats a good man right there. Keep that up.
17. Every man I relate to is bisexual. Because I said so.
18. My boyfriend. Pizza.
19. Can't let the hoes know my music taste lest I scare them.
20. Idk. I get a lot. I guess my boyfriend saying I'm scary and he finds it hot is the best recent one.
21. ALL WHEN YOU'RE MY BOYFRIEND BECAUSE HE'S CUTE AS HELL!!!! But in general I love cheek kisses. I'm a serial cheek kisser. Toxic masculinity be damned my boy (me) can kiss his friends on their cheeks and hold them affectionately.
22. Back.
23. I won't say because it's an instant giveaway to who I am fr. I'm like the only man that insane about him.
24. NOTHING THAT BRINGS ME PLEASURE MAKES ME FEEL GUILT! I AM HEDONISTIC AND FREE!
25. I love PDA. Not hardcore making out in public or some shit but y'know.
26. Gently? Also with jokes and if I'm upset because of someone, hate on them and tell me you will hex them and they're ugly and doomed to die alone while I'm beautiful and a winner and god's favorite (all very true btw). I love envisioning my opps' downfalls.
27. PSYCHOLOGICAL TORTURE! PLAYFUL BULLYING! PUTTING MY BELOVEDS IN A CAGE! BEING INSANE! YAPPING ABOUT THEM 24/7! MAKING THEM SCARED! MAKING THEM CRY! WAITING FOR THEM TO COME BACK WHEN THEY'RE BUSY! MAKING TIME FOR THEM! SENDING THEM THINGS THAT REMIND ME OF THEM! TELLING THEM ABOUT MY FATHER (I FUCKING HATE MY FATHER)! And of course comforting them and making them feel safe. Also beating the shit out of my loved one's enemies (for real) and praying on their misery. I have a lot of loving sadism in my heart but also I'm a sweetheart angel who loves people unconditionally and doesn't know what the word grudge means. Unless you're mean to my loved ones then I'll fucking kill you.
28. Both. Whatever my bf wanna be I'll be the opposite I'm a very accomodating and flexible man.
29. I love sad wet cat pathetic loser men so much I wish they were real.
mlm ask game!
1. ideal date location?
2. favorite mlm song?
3. what makes you feel loved?
4. are you single or taken?
5. how many crushes have you had?
6. what's your type?
7. do you develop crushes quickly?
8. best show or movie for a date night at home?
9. what are your favorite flowers?
10. what would you give as a gift on an anniversary?
11. what's your favorite album?
12. what's your love language?
13. what are some pet names that make you blush?
14. do you read fanfiction?
15. any fictional crushes?
16. loud boys or quiet boys?
17. any characters you headcanon as mlm?
18. what's your comfort food?
19. last song you listened to?
20. best compliment you ever received?
21. kiss on the lips, cheek or forehead?
22. scalp massage or back massage?
23. any celebrity crushes?
24. what's your guilty pleasure?
25. do you like PDA?
26. how do you prefer to be comforted?
27. favorite way to express affection?
28. big spoon or little spoon?
29. freebie! ask or prompt to share something random
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luvismenu · 1 day ago
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chap: 11 — don't wanna be too much ✎ ,, index
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“so why do you wanna hang out with me?”
you glance up at the man sitting across from you, his raised brow suggesting curiosity rather than suspicion. he takes a sip of his coffee, waiting for your answer.
“huh?” you say, caught slightly off guard. “oh. well…” you trail off, scrambling for a reason that doesn’t sound too rehearsed. “you seemed cool to talk to.”
his brow furrows briefly before his expression shifts into something resembling surprise. “really?”
you nod, taking a sip of your coffee to avoid his gaze.
“didn’t you call me annoying in our first year?” he asks, his tone light, but his words make you freeze midsip.
the liquid burns your tongue, and you flinch, coughing slightly as you put your cup back on the table. “that was ages ago,” you say, trying to wave it off with a smile.
he leans back in his chair, one corner of his mouth lifting in amusement. “yeah?”
“you’re not annoying, jason,” you say quickly, your tone earnest as you meet his gaze.
his brows relax, and the surprise fades into something closer to amusement. “okay,” he says simply, his lips quirking up into a small smile.
he believes you.
thank fuck.
it’s not like you actually want to hang out with jason.
the day after jungkook ended things—well, not officially, but enough to leave you enraged—you decided to go find him. you thought maybe you’d apologize for overreacting. you didn’t want to admit it, but maybe you’d let your emotionls get the better of you.
you wanted to tell him that; you don't wanna be too much.
but as you made your way to his class, rehearsing what you might say, you saw her. a woman you’d never seen before, standing close to jungkook. too close.
your steps faltered, and your stomach twisted as you watched her lean into him, laughing at something he said. you couldn’t hear their conversation, but you didn’t need to. the way he smiled at her.
it told you everything.
anger bubbled up inside you, sharp and overwhelming. you wanted to walk up to her and pull her away from him, demand to know who she was and why she thought she could be that close to him.
but then you caught the way he looked at her, like she was the only person in the room, and that anger quickly turned to something else.
something heavier.
he’s moving on, you thought bitterly.
he’s really fucking moving on.
you knew you were a bad communicator. you’d accepted that a long time ago. but deep down, you thought—no, you hoped—that he’d wait. at least for a little while.
he didn’t.
it's okay.
it's fine. whatever.
if he could move on that fast, so could you.
and that’s how you ended up here, sitting across from jason, pretending to care about what he’s saying and convincing yourself that this will even the score.
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jungkook is stressed.
why are you so against talking about what’s going on? he wonders, running a hand through his hair.
all he wanted was to clear the air, to talk about how things between you both don’t feel “casual” anymore. you’ve noticed it too. he knows you have. but every time he tries to bring it up, you shut him down, insisting everything’s fine.
it’s not fine.
it's not fine at all.
and now you’re walking around with some new guy?
who the fuck is he?
he's never seen this guy before and honestly, he wants to beat the shit out of him.
over the last few days, he’s seen you laughing and smiling with this stranger, and it burns him up inside. every time he’s tried to approach you, you’ve brushed him off, your indifference leaving him more frustrated than ever.
and so he decided;
if this is how it’s going to be, i am not backing down either.
that’s how he ended up here, walking into the café with mia by his side. truthfully, he doesn’t know her well. she approached him a few days ago for help with some classwork, and he didn’t think much of it. it wasn’t like him to turn people away; besides, it seemed harmless.
but now?
now it feels like the perfect opportunity to play along wih whatever game you’re starting.
“jungkook, can you get me something sweet to drink, like you?” mia’s voice is sugary as she leans closer, whispering the last two words on purpose.
jungkook forces a polite smile. mentally, he sighs.
this is too much, he thinks.
mia’s is not someone he would date, not even close. if things were normal between you and him, he wouldn’t have given this moment a second thought. but they aren’t normal, and he’s had enough of feeling like he’s the only one who cares.
if this makes you feel something and makes you want to talk to him, so be it.
just as he’s about to respond to mia, he catches sight of you in the corner of the café.
you’re with him.
that fucking guy with that stupid fucking grin.
you’re sitting there, coffee in hand, looking right at him.
his jaw tightens as your eyes meet, and for a brief moment, it feels like the rest of the room fades away.
then you glance at mia.
jungkook sees the subtle shift in your expression,, the slight frown, the way your lips press together, his eyes catching the way your fingers tighten slightly around your coffee cup, your jaw clenched as you stare. his chest tightens, but he raises a brow at you instead, daring you to react.
you roll your eyes, turning your attention back to your coffee.
he scoffs under his breath.
so stubborn.
“of course,” he says, turning back to mia with a bright, deliberate smile. “something sweet for someone sweet.”
mia giggles and nods, oblivious to the silent tension crackling between you and him across the room.
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what the fuck is he doing?
is he seriously with that woman right now?
in the same room as you?
you can see him talking to her, leaning in slightly, his expression relaxed like he doesn’t have a care in the world. and the way she’s giggling at whatever he’s saying? it’s really irritating you.
your hand tightens around your coffee cup, and for a split second, you imagine marching over there and giving her a piece of your mind. or worse.
maybe that’s an overreaction.
maybe not.
but it’s exactly how you feel right now.
“is everything okay?” jason’s voice pulls you back to reality.
you blink, turning to look at him. his brows are furrowed slightly, concern etched into his features as he glances between you and the direction of jungkook and mia.
“yeah, yep, everything’s fine,” you say quickly, forcing a smile that you hope looks convincing.
“you sure?” he presses, his tone soft but skeptical.
you nod, taking a sip of your coffee even though it doesn’t do much to settle the storm inside you.
but when you glance back toward jungkook, you catch his eyes on you.
he’s watching.
you notice the way his jaw clenches, his fingers tapping lightly against the table as if he’s holding himself back. a small frown forms on his face, the kind that could almost be missed if you weren’t paying attention. but you are.
your pulse quickens, the tension in the air wrapping itself tightly around you. still, you refuse to look away.
instead, you smile.
just slightly, a curve of your lips that is meant to get under his skin and turn your attention back to jason.
“so, what were you saying about your project?” you ask, your tone deliberately light, pretending not to notice the way jungkook’s gaze burns into you.
jason raises a brow, clearly sensing the sudden shift in your focus but continues, “oh, right. i was saying it’s been tricky, but i think i’ve figured out a solution.”
you nod, leaning in just a bit closer to him, giving him your full attention, or at least the appearance of it.
from the corner of your eye, you see jungkook shift in his seat, his expression darkening as mia says something to him. he doesn’t respond right away, his gaze flickering back to you and jason.
good. let him stew in it.
you’r not even sure why you care so much, but the sight of him with her acting so casual had set something off inside you. and now, you weren’t about to let him have the upper hand.
jungkook sees you, sitting across from that guy, listening intently to whatever he’s saying, a soft smile playing on your lips. his jaw tightens, and his fist clenches slightly against the table.
he hates this.
hates how easily you seem to have moved on, hates how that guy can make you smile like that, as if nothing between you and jungkook had ever mattered.
are you really going to act this way instead of talking to me? he thinks.
“oh! is it all over my face?” mia’s voice pulls him back, her tone overly sweet as she gestures to the bit of cream on her lips.
jungkook glances at her, clearly unimpressed. she could easily wipe it off herself, but it’s obvious she wants him to do it.
he mentally rolls his eyes, annoyed by her theatrics, but then his gaze shifts, catching you glancing in his direction.
without thinking, he reaches out and wipes the cream from mia’s lip, forcing a small smile.
“there,” he says, his voice neutral.
mia giggles, looking at him through her lashes as if he’s just done the most romantic thing in the world. jungkook barely notices her reaction; his eyes are already flicking back to you.
he sees the way your expression hardens just slightly, your shoulders stiffening before you quickly turn back to the guy in front of you.
his chest tightens, and he has to fight the urge to get up, to pull you away and demand to know why this all feels so messed up.
instead, he stays where he is, his hand dropping back to his lap as he forces himself to focus on mia. but the irritation bubbling inside him doesn’t go away.
because right now, he doesn’t know what else to do. he’s tired of second guessing every glance, every word, every interaction. if seeing him with mia stirs something in you, then maybe it’ll push you to say what’s been left unsaid.
he steals another glance in your direction.
you're frowning.
good.
let it bother you.
because watching you with that guy; laughing at his jokes, leaning just a little too close, makes something ugly twist in his chest.
is this jealousy? he wonders.
are you feeling the same way he is?
he doesn't know. but if this is what it takes to finally make you break the silence, then fine. he’s willing to play along.
but the truth? the truth is that he’d drop this entire charade if you’d just look at him the way you used to. if you’d just talk to him, even for a moment, and stop pretending like everything between you two hasn’t changed.
he exhales sharply, forcing himself to focus on mia’s chatter as he heads to the counter. but his mind is elsewhere.
on you.
you're on his mind a lot.
it’s frustrating, really. no matter how much he tries to distract himself, whether it’s with mia’s empty conversations or the endless tasks piling up, his thoughts always circle back to you.
he wonders what you’re thinking right now. if you’re still smiling at whatever that guy said, if you’re still glancing his way when you think he’s not looking.
he wishes he was in your mind too, even just a little.
but the way you’ve been avoiding him, the way you seem so at ease with someone else, makes him doubt it.
and that doubt? it’s what drives him crazy.
on the other side, watching jungkook with that woman. watching him talk to her and make her laugh like that?
it drives you crazy.
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a/n: wow 4 owiu updates this week, isn't that crazy? (i am sleep deprived) and also yay we're halfway through the series aaaaa!!! this chapter was a last minute thing lol i didn't wanna write but here we are (also, i am hoping to finish owiu asap hehe)
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rebelssvy · 23 hours ago
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personal trainer
ushijima x reader
- part two??? lmk
LABELS: suggestive, kageyama cock blocker
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being the personal trainer for the adlers was wel…. hard.
the men on the team often coming to you with their little kinks they develop. begging you to massage the pain away. having you tape their swollen ankles. you liked seeing the vulnerability of athletes that were considered perfect.
and yes it was nice, constantly being surrounded by huge men with bulging muscles. it was truly your dream job.
one man always standing out to you. ushijima wakatoshi.
you had been the team trainer before he was drafted to your team. when you were informed of the young man, you took interest in him.
it was a no brainer, he was tall, handsome and very strong.
it was even better that every day he would come to you with a new problem that you needed to fix. helping him with all kinds of tools and stretching exercises so he could be the best.
so now here you were, on the bench of your specialized room, taking a scraper to his thighs.
he worked out so much that they grew more sore each day. you opted to the metal tool to relive some of the tension.
it was a very painful way of relief. in the moment it hurts bad. but after the treatment is over it was nice. so you felt bad for the man. but seeing him grit his teeth and wince in pain lit something in you.
as you continued your work on this thigh, his head tilted back. bobbing his adam’s apple, taking in sharps breaths from the pain.
you noticed his hand lift up, almost like it had a mind of its own. it slowly made its way to your hand. before it made contact, he moved it back down to the side of the bench.
“i know it hurts ushijima. im sorry. but your almost done!” you beamed up at him.
“….fuck….y/n” he breathed out.
the flame inside your core grew.
you watched him intently. but before you knew it, your job was done.
placing the tool down on the bench and rubbing small circles into his reddened thigh with your fingers.
“your done. but i know it hurt so just let me do this for you…. it will only take a second.” you said to him as you made your way to the unscented lotion in your counter. you used this on the boys when they needed basic massages.
“you don’t have to…” he said bringing his head back up to look at his treated body.
“nonsense. cmon i am your trainer! let me make you feel better” you said walking back to him.
“thank you.” he said to you in a firm tone.
he didn’t talk much. sometimes he did with you, it made you feel special.
you brought some of the lotion onto your hands and some on his thigh. you started your care on the man.
he let out a sigh of relief.
you worked your magic on him. your hands doing motions that you had mindlessly trained yourself to do.
you stared at his face. he stared at your hands.
you didn’t really look away. he was beautiful. his cheeks were all blushed, lips swollen from biting down at them. dewy from sweat, but not sweaty.
you took note of every part of him. studying him.
your concentration was broken when he let out a sharp gasp.
oh my god.
you didn’t notice how close your hands had gotten to his…. length.
looking down at your hands that rested on his upper, upper thigh. dangerously close to his man hood. you gasped taking your hands off him and stepping back.
“i am so so sO SORRY!” you motioned out. shaking your hands and bowing your head to him.
you stared at the ground not even wanting to look at him.
mortified. you were mortified.
“it’s ok.” he said softly.
you looked up at him.
you giggled at his face, that was just as red hot as yours was.
you let out a sigh of relief.
“no i really am sorry.” you said stepping back next to him again.
“i really didn’t mind…. if im being honest.” he said in a low tone. you brought your eyes to his.
and god. he meant it. his eyes were full of fire, passion.
before you could another word in you heard your door open and shut. looking to your entrance kageyama stood there.
you went over to talk to his teammate. ushijima just watched.
somthing overcame him that day.
………………………………………………………………………………….
- I LOVEEEE HIMMMM GOD.
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jumpywhumpywriter · 1 day ago
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Whumpee & His Collar part 1
Warnings: tight collar around Whumpee's neck, severely restricted breathing, mentions of beating and past torture & conditioning, panic attack and choking
Finally got around to writing the story from THIS ask I received awhile ago (sorry Anon that it took so long!)
Whumpee had messed up. He had seriously messed up. But the problem was, he had no idea how. Everything had been going so well -- Caretaker was much nicer to him than Whumper ever was, helping him slowly heal and become more confident as a person.
But today, Caretaker tried to take off his collar. The leather collar wrapped tight around his neck that only barely gave him enough room to breathe.
When Caretaker had asked if she could touch his collar, he hadn't realized she meant take it off. Taking it off always meant horrific agony awaited him back when he was in Whumper's hands.
The collar was everything to Whumpee. It was the only way he had of knowing his old master's mood, and if he had been a good Whumpee. Whumper had put the collar on as a gift, so he could know when he had done something wrong or right. The only times Whumper took it off were when he was about to brutally tortured Whumpee to within an inch of death, because Whumper didn't want him to pass out as fast from lack of oxygen if he hyperventilated, and also so he could hear every scream, howl, and wail of pain that left Whumpee during punishments.
Sometimes Whumper would loosen the collar, just a little, to cause Whumpee a bit of anxiety, as a silent warning that he wasn't living up to his impossibly high standards. Somehow, Whumpee was never good enough for him, and many days ended with the collar coming off, followed by a vicious beating. The looser the collar by the end of the day, the worse it would be for him.
Whumper always reminded him that when the collar came off, it meant he was unwanted, unlovable, worthless. It meant that Whumper could choose to kill Whumpee and abandon him like an unwanted dog on the street, but was graciously letting him live by putting the collar back on as a symbol of ownership.
Whumpee had learned to respect the collar with life-or-death urgency, do anything to keep it on and avoid the living hell that awaited him if it ever came off. Even though it constantly hurt to breathe, it was a small price to pay for being allowed to stay alive. It was only a minor inconvenience, really, and he would never complain about such a thing. Even if it meant he could never do any physically strenuous work or activities without ending up panting and wheezing and gasping for air.
He didn't want to breathe without the restrictive collar on. Because being able to breath right always meant PAIN. He was terrified of being able to breathe freely. And now he'd done something terrible to anger Caretaker, and he didn't even know what he'd done wrong. But Caretaker was trying to take the collar off, which meant she was going to hurt and torture him for hours on end and making him scream his throat and lungs raw and--
Whumpee recoiled away from Caretaker's hands so hard he ended up sprawled across the floor, desperately scooting away from her with hands raised placatingly, pleading and desperate.
"Please!" Whumpee rasped past the collar choking his throat, "whatever I did, I'm sorry! I'm so sorry! Tell me what I can do to fix it and I will! Please don't take my collar off, please--" a hiccupping sob escaped him, and then he burst into tears, body trembling and shaking violently with all-consuming terror. "Please don't stop loving me!" He wailed frantically. "I'll be so good for you! I'll never make another mistake, if you show me how to be perfect again! You don't have to torture me to get me to obey! Please--"
Caretaker looked worried and confused and also horrified by Whumpee's intense reaction. "What are you talking about? Whumpee, what's going on?" She took a few steps toward him to comfort him, but Whumpee scrambled backwards across the floor, flattening himself against the nearest wall, frightened tears streaming freely down his face.
He was cornered, unable to escape whatever punishment Caretaker planned to carry out once his collar was off. He should have known better. Known better than to believe Caretakers false promises never to hurt him. It was only a matter of time before Whumpee messed it all up, and now he'd pay the price for his insolence.
Caretaker didn't stop coming closer, and Whumpee's throat felt like it was closing up the harder he cried, each breathing coming harder than before until he was gasping raggedly, unable to get a full breath in before the collar choked him and he let out another helpless sob.
Stupid, stupid Whumpee, he told himself. It was all his fault -- he deserved whatever Caretaker was going to do to him. And now he was digging his own grave deeper by flinching away from her -- he wasn't supposed to move away from Whumper when he wanted to touch and adjust his collar, or the consequences would be that much worse.
Whumpee cried even harder at remembering that. He couldn't do anything right, it seemed. He'd let himself get too comfortable, forgot the most important rules beaten into him every day of his life for four solid years by Whumper.
Caretaker slowly sat down in front of his shivering form and scooted close, inches away from where Whumpee had pulled his knees to his chest and was sobbing wretchedly, panicking.
"Sweetheart, I don't know what's happening right now," Caretaker said worriedly. "I was only trying to take off your collar so you could breathe better, it looked so uncomfortable to wear, and you've been here for three weeks without removing it yourself. I only wanted to help -- I didn't mean to startle you. Don't you want to be able to breathe normally again...?
"I don't want to breathe, it's fine, I don't want to breathe," Whumpee wheezed over and over again, like a desperate mantra. But his crying was making it even harder than usual to draw air through his compressed throat, and it felt a lot like he was suffocating. Or like the times when Whumper had lashed out in a fit of rage and choked him out repeatedly. The collar was tight around his neck, digging into his skin with every strained breath he took.
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imagionationstation · 3 days ago
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AU in which the mutagen mutates turtles not to an anthropomorphic form, but to a human one. They transform from turtles into human babies and Hamato Yoshi is the only person they had close contact with at the time of their mutation... they get his genes.
Turtles that look like ordinary human boys, the Japanese look like their father. Splinter might even have wanted to leave them on the doorstep of some good family so they could get a better life, but the Krangs were chasing them. And Splinter was the only person who could protect them, the only creature these kids had... Despite the fact that they look like ordinary human boys, Leonardo, Raphael, Donatello and Michelangelo still grow up in the sewers under the loving care of a Rat-Sensei.
THAT’S SUCH A NEAT IDEA ACTUALLY
Like- they can’t be on the surface AT FIRST. But after several years, the Kraang probably gave up on looking. So they could! (Right?)
The prospect that they go to school everyday and then climb into the sewers on their way home. The SHENANIGANS of them trying to pretend that they have a human dad. Spreading so many rumors that people just assume that Yoshi exists and did all these things that he absolutely is not doing. (Not huge things but like. Talking to someone’s parent. Getting seen at the grocery store. Dropping the boys at an arcade. Little things no one questions.)
And it comes time for parent-teacher meetings? EVERY. EXCUSE. IN THE BOOK. AND THEN SOME. At some point the teachers just give up trying even though they’d REALLY like to have a conversation with Yoshi about Raph’s love for causing fights and Mikey’s inherent ability for troublemaking (intentionally or not).
But they also got a role model student (Leo) and the A+ student (Donnie) who they’re reluctant to lose so they leave it be.
They meet April and she just starts thinking that they’re actually orphans and treating them weird and not a single one of them has any idea why she stumbles over her words when she talks about her dad. They just think it’s because her mom’s missing/presumed dead so she gets awkward about topics involving parents.
Absolutely NO COMMUNICATION between them.
Then she stalks them home one day. And that goes well.
I am catching a theme with these AUs. NOT A BAD ONE! A good one. As a fellow “what if they were humans?” au plotter, I love me a good human AU. Oh! Oh! If they went from turtles to human, do they ever have turtle instincts? Like, obviously they can no longer duck into shells and do turtle chips, but do they randomly nuzzle? Do they have the urge for turtle piles? Do they enjoy water a strange amount?
Let them be weird!! Let them be outcasts!! (/jk don’t listen to me)
Big ol’ Yoshi boys on their way to cause chaos and rule the world. Does being mutant humans make them stronger than normal humans? I think you mentioned that they were normal humans, but teeeeechnically they’re still mutants. So 👀
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relaxxattack · 2 days ago
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old ass homestuck here (been reading since 2013, read with it all the way until the end of act 7 but i consider that the true end and never plan to read the epilogues) but i gotta agree i didn’t care for the squared sprites when they first appeared late in act 6 and i really don’t like them much more years later. i found davepeta slightly interesting but at the end of the day they’re the only one who even stood out enough to even pay attention to and unfortunately looking at them was visually very unpleasant due to the constant color flashing.
random disclaimerrrr this is really just my personal feelings, i'm not trying to make a statement about what is "true" or moral or whatever. i want to stress that i'm not against people making meaningful interpretations of davepeta... i understand the appeal of a trans/plural character. it's just hard to feel like any of that was intentional?
power to hussie for making jokes; but it's kind of confusing sometimes to frequently see davepeta - what felt like a really obvious joke made at the expense of the audience - touted like they're the most genius, intentional, meaningful, well-thought-out character ending or trans representation
especially with nepeta in particular... i guess it's left pretty up to the viewer to decide whether or not she was really done dirty at the end, but. personally i still think she was done fucking dirty. the death -> fefeta -> davepeta pipeline was not very rewarding in my opinion. she also never had a choice in any of these? it was not a consensual fate. she wasnt allowed to explore her own identity or choose this, her identity was simply shafted once again after a long pattern of it being shafted and mocked
davesprite is a suicidal character who gets made to end himself. and i guess thats empowering as a metaphor for some trans people but for me it was like ??? physically absorbing another person and then ceasing to exist didn't relate to me heavily but maybe it does for others! i've heard some talk about it being plural too, which i can also see, but they don't act like that's at all intentional in the story. i've heard a lot of "dave struggles with not being the alpha dave so he gets to stop being dave! :)" but why does he have to? he was dave first and longer, shouldn't the meteor dave change his name? 'dave gets to finally stop being a boy and embrace being a trans girl' does she do that? or is her individualism taken from her and regifted to a catgirlboy that is not actually trans at all but textually stated to be identifying as half of one cis girl and half of one cis boy?
guh i am trying so hard to not sound invalidating to how other people feel empowered by this character. while also explaining how its Not for me. once again disclaimer i LIKE what people have done with davepeta it just feels like, strangely un-empowering to me for these two characters to have their agency taken away in such a manner.
rose's dead corpse who literally just watched the love of her life die in front of her face gets dug out of her final resting place and immediately starts throwing herself at every women in the vicinity
arquius in particular is one i see get completely nostalgia goggled too because every moment they were on screen was painful dialogue-wise; but these days arquius is thought of like a vehicle for hal and equius gender thoughts. which is a concept with merit because of course both hal and equius have stuff going on gender wise and it makes sense to combine those but like. the character wasn't like that in canon and it never felt like they were meant to be like that. most of the time they were.. jokes. insulting jokes.
i get WHY its read a trans or plural narrative. just as a trans and plural person i did not read it that way or think that was what the author intended... and i find it a little uncomfortable in that regard
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fangssss2006 · 2 days ago
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Okay part 2 of yap session
Side note I'm thinking of doing another version of rose and Hugo's boards for the play versions I was thinking of the movie actors when I did these so I might make another because more poc rep for me but anyways
Rose Granger-Weasley
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She loves taking pictures of her friends and family. She has tons of pictures all around her room she's really big on love no matter what kind. I think she's in quidditch and really likes it she always gets pumped before a game jumping around and cheering. If crooshanks is still kicking rose definitely has that cat now but if not she has a cat that looks similar. She definitely loves the outdoors and sits next to ponds and takes it all in. While she is Hugo puts flowers in her hair. She also likes calico critters and is the only one except Albus that knows that Scorpius likes them too
Hugo Granger-Weasley (HE'S MY BABY)
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He's a very quiet person and loves to listen. I think he's a lot like Ron loves the same stuff. He's very Ron coded but also Luna coded (autism and yes again I'm self projecting). He's also in quidditch as the beater and he enjoys it a lot he'll get excited about it and will jump a bit and clap quietly next to rose. He collects all sorts of trinkets he has a little treasure chest full of stuff and jars on shelves too. Loves graphic novels he'll read them all day. He also loves to play chess especially with Ron they'll sit there and play for a couple or few hours either quietly or giggling and making jokes, Ron always knows how to make Hugo laugh. He also has a little fox that Ron let him take home after they found him lost and covered in mud, Hermione was absolutely speechless when she walked into the bathroom to see them giving a fox a bath. He still goes into room and Hermiones room and sleep in the bed at night sometimes and lay right in the middle. He also loves to cuddle up next to Hermione or lay on her while they watch movies or sometimes she'll read or she just talks and he'll listen, he loves to listen. He definitely came out to Hermione during one of these moments and she just kissed him on the head and went "yeah?" And he said yeah and she said that's okay love who you want to love (strictly mlm btw). He's a huge cuddle bug and loves affection from his loved ones but doesn't like other people touching but he's a little too nice to ever say it unless they ask him if it's okay then he'll say he doesn't like it
Roxanne Weasley
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She definitely needs reading glasses and all her cousins poke fun at it in a loving way of course she laughs along and chimes in a joke every time. She swears A LOT. And of course her parents don't mind they even find it hilarious. Molly found a cat wandering around right before they came to visit and Roxanne BEGGED for the cat and she did I'm fact take him home. She loves to bake she does all the time and George LOVES it he eats that shit up like his life depends on it. I think they definitely have a muggle television and she loves movies like 10 things I hate about you. She'll bake then watch movies and eat. If Hugo is over he'll join and watch movies he really likes to sit and watch movies with her and probably lays his head on her shoulder while they share a blanket
Fred Weasley II
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Now he's a menace and no not in the way Fred and George were but he's a menace in the way James Potter would be if he was born in a modern muggle world. He loves jumping over shit and basically doing parkour type shit. He's a walking ADHD symptom. And when him and Roxanne are out in public omg do people hate to see them coming because they're running all over the place and pushing each other and giggling while they casually run each other over with shopping carts. He loves to skate board, that's his main way of transportation. He loves board games and he collects old game pieces sometimes making the pieces into necklaces, especially with monopoly player pieces. He definitely carries his keys on a carabineer on his belt loop or lanyard that he sticks in his pocket. He also loves hot chocolate or really any kind of chocolate. He also has a dalmatian, he just brought one home day and said he found him and George can't say no to keeping pets because where are they going to put them outside? Hell no
Guys I love the sisters coming up so much and idk why they're just iconic on my brain
Molly Weasley II
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She's such a bad ass i love her she's an icon. She loves cherry red and she sure as hell does rock those sunglasses in that color. She'll put them on and put a cd into her CD player that she just thrifted and covered in stickers and she'll dance around the room taking pictures and singing without a single care in the world. She definitely smokes a bit and if it's a brand she doesn't like she'll eat strawberries or cherries to get the taste out. And no she won't just get a new pack because that's wasteful and she loves the planet. Definitely gets her nails done and wears those cunty rings. She has to flip men off at least twice a day. Has a big rottweiler that looks scary ass hell to other people but he's just a big sweet heart he wouldn't hurt a fly and he is SPOILED. She's also some brand of wlw come on that's not a straight woman
Lucy Weasley
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First off her and Molly are inseparable they hang out all the time. She has a cassette player she carries around everywhere and has a bunch of cassettes. Her and Molly will go shopping for CDs and cassettes together. She loves to ride the subway especially at night where she can just sit there and listen to music while it's empty and Molly is across from her reading a book. She loves funky rings and jewelry especially homemade ones from those Etsy scoop shops. She's definitely an indie girly and yes her Pinterest is heavily indie and earthy. Paints her nails she doesn't like to get them done she'll go in with molly and paint her nails herself while she's sitting waiting for molly to get done. Also has a big dog, a cane korso, that's also a sweet heart and her and Molly's dogs are basically brothers and sleep together all the time. I'm such a strong believer in these girls having big dogs, they walk down the street like icons with their big ass dogs and everyone is just like wow these girls are insane and yes they absolutely are and it's the best thing ever.
But anyways that's all I have for now if you guys have any suggestions of characters feel free to lmk and I'll try and get to them!!! Thanks for reading my yap if you did I just love to share my silliness and hope to find people that think the same or like me :)
Chat I keep thinking about Harry Potter next Gen and I just want that fandom to be as good as the marauders please can we build it 😭🙏🙏🙏
I WILL start building it myself I already have headcannons
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al-luviec · 2 months ago
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something simple to try to get out of art block (it didn't work)
#alek art#ninjago#zane julien#2024#i am very unhappy with this and sooo in order to feel better i am going to talk about him#system zane is very real to me. i always give him six main alters (but i do believe there is more lol)#systems cannot just pick and choose who front depending on the day i am very aware (i am a system) its more on the nose symbolism#the fifth one crossed out is the ice emperor. in canon he exists in zane's mind as an “alter ego” of sorts which is crazy to me#character has canon dissociative episodes... amnesia... and several different “personalities” / identities? sounds familiar idk#i talked a lot about this hc on my long ass zane hc post thanks for the ask btw npderzane#its not an au its just how i see him so just imagine every zane i draw as system zane. ill only specify it in the tags if its system related#that one post thats like. 'being a did system sucks which one of us poured instant coffee in the bathtub!' thats the average zane experience#he wakes up and everyones like “mannn zane you were going crazyyy on prime empire yesterday” and hes like ??? i did not play any video games#and then he looks at the calender and 6 months have passed. semi true story that happened to me#also alters having incredibly different food preferences is funny. zane doesnt eat anything ever vs boone who eats raw meat sometimes#zane having really weird characterization? and its very inconsistent / bad writing uhhh alek explanation is hes a system and nobody can mask#man its 1 pm :|#i hate this drawing so much i dont even want to look at it but it took time so ill post it#i also have another zane drawing in my drafts i should post. from like 2 months ago???
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dykedvonte · 6 days ago
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I think the most baffling thing about the Tulpar as a vessel to me is the fact that the ship really did only have a one way communication system.
I know it was cheap but even the most basic of vessels regarding major transport would have some way, shape or form for outside communication. Not only that but there was absolutely no form of innate emergency signal to show they may have been offline or in trouble despite clearly having a system to dock credits if they went off course. It's another factor that really shows that bad situations are made to get worse by design. One person who is required to relay all information to the crew and make all the choices without feedback. No way to update or call for help in case of a dire situation. No way to inform of inner personal conflicts and acquire procedures accordingly.
It really is like they are all in some sort of fucked up solitary confinement. They have their own world with strict roles that are meaningless in the end, as long as the cargo makes it, it doesn't matter what happens on that ship to the company. They don't want to hear anything and will come to conclusions on what happened based on how much pay they can withhold from the workers. Even what they do send is short, sterile and corporate to the extent it was likely written and sent out with a command by some random unmanned computer in an office.
There's something to be said about how unfair it is to force absolute power and control onto one person when you as an entity could do so much more to offload it but I've said it many times before so I won't again.
#its just like idk i dont think Curly was a bad captain because we only have this scenerio and I certainly dont think a man like Swansea#would like him or have very little issues with him specifically if he was incompentent or too lienent in the past but I do think the stress#was making him worse and worse as being a present leader as it dawned on him how much he actually had to handle like I really think he#just wanted to do yknow normal captain pilot stuff and fly the ship and yknow the little stuff like make sure things run right and over tim#the constant stress and strain of having to make every major choice started to grate on him and freak him out cause they cant even fucking#eat unless he pulls out the scanner and starts cooking like he has to choose the meal likely or have a vote and i make that part of the#reason he seems so indecisive and inactive is the fact he has to make the choice all the time and he's hoping he can at least make the crew#feel a little more in control of themselves as people by staying out of affairs like the game or disputes because god he literally has to#choose for them all the time like thats a lot of responsibility monitering their sleep their breaks food consumption thats all on him like#it really should be another persons job entirely as thats almost like absoulte contrl over the lives of everyone else that PE forces onto#that title and its also crazy how everyone accepts it even if they dont like it like they broke the food machine open rather than get the#scanner they all waited two months before Jimmy appointed himself leader its so scary how conditioned they all are to the environemnt#cause that sort of mindset is sadly real where people just wait everyone just waited until it was getting real dire and then they still#followed Jimmy without too many complaints like i saw a fic or post where Anya acknowledges they all kinda just let Jimmy do what they want#because he became the captain and it was stupid on all their parts cause they could clearly see how bad he was and yet he was captain so#they just fell in line to their roles and thats a bigger point towards how PE treated them and the complacency capitalism brings to you#just like something that irks me because idk I know Curly is slow to act but he's not as like unopinionated as people make him out to be#like he does try to find solutions but they are still restricted at the end of the day by what PE provides them and I think his biggest c#crime is being in his own head too much and not giving Anya that emotional stability cause like idk man was he supposed to go to Home Depot#himself and install like padlocks? even if the let Anya sleep in medical after she pointed it out she was already pregnant at that point#like we arent seeing the inherent issue that no one not even Anya herself was thinking of the preventative measures because a)there was a#point nothing was happening that necessitated them b) it would've been the responsibility of PE to address them pre and post incident and c#there is only one person on the entire ship given the authority to do anything. You can not make multiple important choices in one instance#in such little time and Curly should not have had that total power like i think the most interesting thing in takes that really blame Curly#is that level of control they give him over the company. Like again i think about the three days we miss between the eval/party and the#convo/crash like i think people switch them around as if those scenes happen in succession when they are broken up and its heavily implied#Curly and Jimmy just havent been talking vs the depiction that she told him and for like three days Curly was just chummy despite the fact#Jimmy and him just had a blow out fight like the next time we assume they talk is during the crash sequence cause he honestly hangs#around Anya more which i think is really important because she trust Curly to defend her himself but not his judgement to give her somethin#to defend herself as she knows he believes her but also knows she's not seeing the danger the same and its heartbreaking and more
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idekwtf-is-happening · 7 months ago
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Damien’s currently getting cancelled on Twitter for *checks to make sure I’m reading this shit right* apologizing for a joke he made five years ago where he mentioned the conflict in Gaza
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donaviolet · 4 months ago
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Friendship is the most special thing in the world because no award could be give me bigger happiness than jumping around in my room and smiling because my pookie asked me if I wanted to match pfps
#SHES AMAZING I LOVE HER AHHHHH#I hope we manage to find a cute bsd pfp it would be literally my dream#little vent tw!!#it's been so long since I matched pfps last time was with my ex who started being wayyyyy too weird..#and the other time was with a friend who started ghosting me some months later just because I didnt give her enough adopt me pets or smth 💔#and like. her stopping talking to be literally broke me as a person. it was devastanting for like 13yo me#woahhh thank you k. now I have social anxiety and keep dobting whether people really want me there or not#I still have a sort of love hate relationship w her but like its been over 2 years maybe 3 why do I still care abt it sm :<#especially since our other bestie is wayy more affectionate w k than w me it just makes me feel so weird like im sort of a 3rd wheel#but at least the friend im gonna match with is the sweetest person ever and we can be silly together :333#unfortunately we only know eachother from a course so we always have to wait 2 weeks to see eachother#and even tho i still see k almost every day shes pretty different now#but ive been feeling so so happy the last few days since school started and im afraid I might go back to being how I was when she returns#because. I bet my two friends will keep being silly together and ill have to sit w my ex again cuz hes still part of our friend group#I mean hes a nice and funny guy but I figured that a relationship wont work with us. I tried it and I just wanna be friends#I have a lot of fun w him but like in a platonic way#and im afraid he still thinks we should be together#meanwhile my besties keep flirting w eachother like??#I mean its pretty funny as a joke but I cant help but feeling kinda jealous especially because I used to have a huge crush in one of them#talked a bit too much ooopssss#Im just trying to move on but I hope k coming back doesnt start everything over again#anyways!! I love my bestie from the course smmmmmm Im still so so happy :D wish we could see eachother more#random stuff#chaos#friendship#violet rambles
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quietwingsinthesky · 8 months ago
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Hiiiii! So, a few days ago you were talking about the whole thing with Amy, Rory, and River. And when I saw those posts a thought arose in my head and I wish to share it with you.
Since River grew up with Amy and Rory as Mels. And Mels was Amy's best friend do you think that they ever talked about children? Since I know that it can come up when talking with friends, and like... do you think that Amy might've ever expressed whether or not she wanted children?
And if she didn't, that Mels would've had to listen to her mother say that she doesn't want children? The idea is so heartbreaking and sooo interesting.
What do you think about it?
no, no, see, you're so right and this drives me wild.
because, the way i see it, i don't think amy wanted children. she's somewhere on the 'hasn't thought about it' to 'vaguely negative feelings about it happening' range to me, which falls sharply into 'Not Happening Ever Again' post-s6. (specifically, in terms of having a kid herself, even if she could, i really don't think she would. i do love that she and rory end up adopting a kid later, because that does make sense, for amy pond who grew up alone in one universe with her family swallowed by cracks in time before the doctor helped her set it right again, for her to want to make sure another child won't be alone in the world like she was. getting off-track here.)
and that's so. because the first real memory river/mels has of amy is of amy shooting at her. and depending on how well the silence fucked up the rest of her memory, it might be one of the very first memories she has at all. that's how she met her mother, crying for help and getting a bullet instead. her mother tried to kill her, so of course, you have to think. she must have needed to hear that she was wanted, right? even if she was taken away, even if amy shot her, at some point, melody must have been wanted?
river is good at getting people to do what she wants, but she is very, very bad at subtlety. and mels is younger, has less practice, so when she wants to know this, she's just going to ask. blunt and quick, easy enough because amy's used to the way mels will open her mouth and you just have to be ready to roll with what comes out if you want to keep up. it's why they're such good friends (like mother, like daughter.)
they're nine, and mels asks if amy wants kids, and amy wrinkles up her nose and says she won't have time for children, obviously, once her raggedy doctor finally comes back. they're fifteen, and amy and rory dance will they-won't they in a way that makes mels twitchy to watch, and taunting amy about wanting to have rory's babies is a good way to get on her nerves. but amy calls her gross, tells her she's got more life planned than children would leave room for, and besides, imagine her, a mom? it'd be a disaster.
mels does. a lot. she looks at her mother and just sees her best friend instead. she's not even sure what she wishes was there, but. maybe amy's right. and besides. imagine her, a daughter, instead of the ticking time bomb she really is? it'd be a disaster.
they're sixteen, seventeen, eighteen, and on. mels stands on the outside of a love story that births a universe. and her. how do you compete with that? not that she would know, not yet, she hasn't been there. but it doesn't make her feel any less alienated when amy and rory talk in whispers about a half-remembered world that's bled through to this life, about roman soldiers and boxes and the big bang of belief.
all these memories, they never mention children. on amy's wedding day, she's different, not like someone remembering a dream but someone who lived it. rory stands straighter, won't leave her side, and they're both so much older than they were yesterday. maybe now, right? a wedding's as good a time as any to decide you want kids.
mels not being at amy & rory's wedding is such an obvious lazy way of them trying to explain why they totally didn't just throw this plot twist together at the last minute that i'm not even going to acknowledge it. of course she was at their wedding. she's their best friend. there's too many people around the doctor, and she wasn't ready today of all days, so despite this horrible burning need under her skin to strike, she stays her hand. doesn't let him dance with her because she might just tear his throat out if he gets too close. stays with amy and rory as the maid of honor should. she must have been there for the awkward questions that always gets asked, 'so, any plans for a baby?' 'when am i getting grandkids?' 'oh, you two are going to have gorgeous children together.' standing a few feet from amy in her wedding dress and watching her mother tense and grit her teeth and brush off the questions. watching her look nervously at rory but never ask if he means it when his mom asks him if he'd prefer a son or a daughter, and rory answers 'either one, some day, not anytime soon.'
god i'm just going on and on, aren't i. but really, what's it like to know that amy never changed her mind. the next time she sees them, she's already been born and stolen. i don't like let's kill hitler for. so many reasons. but there is something compelling about how recklessly river lashes out at the world, at the doctor. even her sacrifice at the end is almost suicidal, throwing all her regenerations into this man without knowing if that will even work or if it might kill her to do it. but it makes more sense in the context of someone who has reached the end of a long, long wait for some kind of indication, any kind, that her mother wanted to have her. and finally been told, no. she didn't choose melody.
#like. to be clear also: i don't think the fact that amy didn't want kids and really didn't have a choice in giving birth to river#means that she wouldn't love river. i think it would make their relationship Complicated but i do think amy loves her. so much.#that's her daughter but it's also her best friend.#but like. god. to spend your whole childhood hoping you'll hear about some little glimmer of yourself.#a dream. a passing mention. a debate on baby names. anything. and to hear nothing.#and river is. like. she is really really bad at relationships right? we know this.#the person she's closest to is the doctor and she spends most of her life believing *he doesn't even love her*.#we're talking about someone whose base assumption about everyone is that they will try to hurt her at some point so she should always keep#one hand armed.#and her mother. didn't choose to have her. didn't have that choice. that has to fuck her up a little.#(and also serve as proof that river is. so so bad at knowing when she is loved. because maybe amy didn't choose to have her but she named#melody pond after mels her best friend. she has been choosing river every day for the past however many years since mels decided to come#here and be near her mom and dad even if only as kids. but river still can't see it.#and. given the nature of how the ponds disappear from her life. and we never get any closure about them and river.#you have to wonder if she ever did. river song do you know your mother loves you?#having the melody-as-river reveal be so close to the end of the season and then getting rid of amy & rory before they can actually do#anything with the three of them as a messed up little family unit is the show's biggest crime. because i don't know! i don't know if river#knew her parents loved her! i don't know if she *ever* came to terms with how she was born and how they didn't need to choose her then to#choose her now! i don't know if river ever really felt comfortable thinking of them as her parents rather than her friends?#according to the transcripts. river calls amy 'mother' twice. (and 'mummy' once jokingly.) she calls rory 'father' once. and 'dad' in angel#in manhattan. and it just. it drives insane right? it's almost weirdly formal. like the words aren't right but she knows she should say the#and. and. i don't think i'm ever going to get over river song.#i think that's the takeaway here.#ask#doctor who#river song#amy pond#rory williams
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