#he was prolly very devastated that it happened

[onthewaytosomewhere]

okay so my fourth fic for @thebrownstone firstprince week (day 6 - soulmates au) - that i've been affectionately calling star wars firstprince soulmates lolz

Henry has just witnessed the cinematic moment that has been etched on his skin making him wonder when it would happen from the first time he watched a Star Wars movie when he hears the words as he leaves the theater, it's all he can do to keep from punching the guy who says them … he's just not sure why he maybe wants to punch him with his mouth and not his fist

It's just some boys being silly and falling hard for each other quickly

[awweshuuks]

EXPLAINING MY KNY OUTSIDERS AU BC SOMEONE EXPLAINED THERES AND I JUST REALLY LIKE MINE.

Yay :3

so basically it doesn’t really follow the exact plot of actual demon slayer but it’s okay I think 😞

Scout(from the series) and Ponyboy have the the tanjiro and nezuko type relationship and mark(that was then this is now) and curly are ponyboys two best friends :3 Bryon ofc is marks best friend but u get it.

Basically when pony,Soda, and Darry were younger, about 4 year before their cannon age, they ofc were very poor and in order to get money, Darry trained and trained and became a demon slayer after passing final selection, becoming a Hashira after 5 months bc of killing a lower moon, though he “lost”his best friend (Paul) because of this. Tho Soda became a demon slayer 2-3 years after leaving his home to train with Darry. Both leaving their home and only being able to speak to pony through letters. Though most were between ponyboy and Soda but Darry always sent letters when he wasnt busy with whatever hashiras were doing, as well as sending much money.

Fast forward a year after Soda leaving, pony became very close friends with a girl named scout, and when she slept over one night in their home in the mountains, he left to the village at night and stayed out longer by accident and when he came back he found his parents and scout covered in blood. And in a panic feeling for pulses and found one in scout. Then trying to run to the village and the getting his scar on his head from scout hitting him into the tree to defend HIM when (you’ll never guess) DALLY came to kill her cause Yk demon stuff. Then the whole thing happens that happens with tanjiro and giyuu with them and instead of sending pony going to a separate trainer he gets sent to Soda and Darry. With scout ofc. And that’s kinda how the whole thing starts.

The Hashira in this are

Darry

Dally

Two bit

Tim

Sylvia

Johnny

Buck

Billie (oc 🧍 to be cringe is to be free trust)

Steve and Soda are both not yet Hashira, tho they are close!

Curly and Angela are also not yet Hashira level. And Tim REFUSES to let them be his tsugukos (basically refusing to be their mentor) .

tho sandy and evie are also techinically slayers, they refuse to go out and fight bc of fear, so they work as nurses, along with Cathy, and m&m helps around. My oc Marilyn is the head nurse there :3 my other OC Diane helps around with the cooking and whatnot since she’s the most experienced.

When Darry and Soda found out about their parents death they were absolutely devastated, even more so when they realize they couldn’t hold a funeral bc Hashira can’t exactly take a day off, esp multiple since it’s about a 4 day walk from where they are to where they live. Bc of this pony and Soda (and scout) lived in Darry’s home. Soda already lived there but whatever.

While pony lives there that’s where he meets mark, Bryon, and curly and became close friends with mark and curly, Bryon wasn’t his biggest fan but didn’t hate him 🙏 mark and Bryon going to final selection with pony.

IF U WANT ANYMORE ABOUT THIS PLEASE LET ME KNOW (prolly not buts it’s otay) AND SORRY IF ANYTHING IS CONFUSING ITS LATE

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Updated Clown Details

Cosmos still lives with his parents 'cause why not? He doesn't feel the need to move out and his parents are totally cool with it

Jelly moved out some time before Ula came into her life and has her own apartment (it has a spare room which was originally her guest Maggie's room but will be turned into Ula's)

Pepper also happened to move out because he has Jeff and Bubbles(he didn't want to burden his parents)

The story here is that Pepper actually had a partner who broke up with him because they deemed him too immature. However, years later and to his surprise the twins were dumped onto him because the ex couldn't handle them

Cosmos is harboring some slight feelings towards his best friend Cuckoo but it's nothing serious and he tends to push them away

The D'Vitt trio still works at the toy shop(I need a name for it). Cosmos is the current manager while Jelly is a supervisor being trained for more(aka inheriting the actual family business)

Jelly's very much sought out by suitors but none of them can really be considered potential suitors. They're attracted but are also interested in her future inheritance.

Jelly is still too heartbroken about her relationship with James which will have happened more "recently"

James never cheated on Jelly, it was simply a rumour that she just didn't want to believe. The truth is that while he was on his voyage, Missy found the right moment and made her daughte Evie end his life (and probably did so to the rest of the crew he traveled with to leave no witnesses to say anything to Jelly). Evie did it instead of Missy to strengthen the rumour that James ran away with another woman

Jelly not wanting to believe the rumour stayed many nights and days waiting for James. There came a point where she unfortunately just gave up and tried to forget about him, thinking that he may have forgotten about her and the rumours probably were true.

Cuckoo will still own their small antique shop

Ace works under Cuckoo in the shop and are even roommates because Cuckoo has continously insisted Ace have a place to live in

Ace does have feelings for Jelly but it's nothing creepy nor obssessive. He also does understand that she "recently" had her heart broken and she's not in the space for anything romantic

Ferry will be introduced much sooner. She is a deadlight who will have just recently moved into town after certain devastating events(her family's death which perhaps may not have been at her own hands but she still had some sort of influence)

Ferry is looking for a job and quite conveniently the D'Vitt toy shop is hiring

Pepper and Ferry will become friends much sooner because of their love for baking and sweet things(this is how he slowly develops the idea of his future bakery+flower shop which Ferry is co-owner of)

Ula is still her silent tiny self that is very much a momma's girl. She actually spends most of her time with Jelly + uncles at the D'Vitt toy shop. She just hangs out in the backroom and does her own things

This is how her love for Alice in Wonderland is developed, especially as Jelly uses her as inspiration for new products

I imagine some time later is when Atlas comes into the picture and meets everybody

One year later on Ula's birthday is when Cuckoo takes her through an alternate dimension and she receives an egg for her future companion Biollante, her domesticated Utahraptor

The D'Vitt toy shop and Cuckoo's antique shop have some customers that frequent the places a lot, easily recognizable by Cuckoo and the D'Vitt Trio. Two of these customers are Conllium and Nalia in human disguise. They are keeping a close eye on both their descendants and Elder associate Cuckoo(formerly Logium)

More to be added prolly...

[dxncingwithastrxnger]

3. interlude: choices

A/N: So I’ve been planning things out more and I’ve got a pretty good idea on how I want this all to go and now Imma prolly spend all day writing again, lmao. But surprise!!! I know this is super short, but it counts as a whole chapter and it is VERY important!! It may be called interlude but it is not at all a filler, I promise you. I’m really excited about this, I can’t wait for us to get further into the story!!! Enjoy!!!!

Pairing(s): N/A

Summary: They say that change is everywhere. That it happens all the time. Every second, every minute, every hour. But it's our own choices that decide what those changes are and how they affect us and the people around us. And while sometimes those choices can lead to absolute joy, they can just as easily lead to complete devastation.

Tags: Police, ambulance, body bag, crime scene

Song Inspiration: N/A

Word Count: 464

Not beta'd, all mistakes are my own.

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[Chapter 1] [Chapter 2] [Chapter 3] [Chapter 4] [Chapter 5] [Chapter 6] [Chapter 7] [Chapter 8] [Chapter 9]

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He pushes past dozens of people. None of them are who he's looking for. He steps through the yellow and black barriers without much thought to it. His eyes scan the scene before him as he jogs forward. There's so much noise. So much chaos. Flashes of red and blue take over his vision every few seconds. A rattle catches his attention. His head turns to face the doors of the building as he stops in his tracks, right in the middle of everything. The doors are opening and his breath hitches.

It's something you really only see on tv, not in real life. And he suddenly wishes it could've stayed like that for him. But this is very much real. The rattling he'd heard was that of wheels. His eyes roam over the large black bag being carted off and he tries not to imagine what kind of shape the person within it could be in. He was grateful for the zipper that blocked anyone from seeing them. He swallows around his now dry throat, his eyes following the bag on its journey to its ride, leading him right to who he's here for.

He immediately heads over to the man, calling out to him as he does so, but he receives no answer. He stops when he's standing right in front of him. The man with golden blonde hair and bright red eyes. But something's off with him. He's completely still in his spot on the cold, concrete bench. His clothes are wrinkled and out of place. His hair looks like it's been ran through and pulled at almost to the point of being ripped from his head. And his eyes. They were usually so full of life, sparkling with mischief and amusement. But there was none of that now. Now they were just dull, vacant, unseeing orbs.

He waved his hand in front of his face with another call of the man's name, but there was nothing. No reaction at all. The blonde just kept on staring straight ahead with no expression on his face, not even blinking. He frowned, taking in the items in the man's hands. A pen and a clipboard. Looking closer, he realized what the clipboard was for. The man in front of him was holding paperwork for a witness statement. He swallows, trying not to panic at what that could mean. He looks back to where the body bag was now being strapped down, getting ready to head to its next destination. Who is that? What happened to them? He looks back to the one sitting in front of him, his brows furrowed in confusion. And what does it have to do with him?

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A/N: Soooo, what do you guys think happened?? Very mysterious and vague angst 👀👀 Do you enjoy the puzzle I’ve now sprang on y’all?? Cause I sure do 🤣 But seriously, I hope you guys liked it!! Let me know your thoughts, as usual!!!

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Dream/Plot Bunny thing for a fic or a book or something. Romance/Action/Adventure with....fantasy? Supernatural? maybe

So there's....a gang boss? Mafia guy? A person in charge of a company that employs its own private security and is involved with a bunch of illegal stuff, and has geographical locations and boundaries that he considers his which other people in similar situations (as in also engage in illegal stuff) respect to certain degrees.

So, no fandom, might be....i dunno, supernatural, fantasy, hero/villain something so the head of this company, as mentioned above, is in charge and he's got his headquarters which is basically a nice big house with all he needs to function. he has his company and then a house safehouses or extra houses

rich, strong, influential, not good, not evil does as he pleases for the most part, good points and bad points anyways

one day he meets this woman, i dreamed of her having Inoue Orihime-ese looks, so pale skin, brown eyes, orange hair with the ability to defend herself, medical experience and ties to people who will absolutely break the law with zero regard and drag her into it likes to cook and dresses anywhere from cottage core, business casual to goth anyways, these two meet at like……i dunno? someplace where she inadvertently helps him out and then leaves and he's like, ah, such a beautiful woman, kudos to you

then they meet again and it's like....she works at a bookshop or somewhere that he goes to buy a gift for someone and conversation starts up and then they start seeing each other and then it ends in romance

she's never been in a relationship before, but she's confident in herself and her normal mode of communication seems to be flirty, but lowkey he's very confident in himself but he's never been in a serious relationship and previous attempts he's lost interest because

he's hanging around women who are in a relationship for power, protection and prestige he's looking for something genuine and finds it in...uh her. No name, as of yet this continues for like..

i wanna say like 8 months? almost a year. then there's this other guy that develops like this airborne poison thing that destroys your lunges and causes problems permanently, depending on level of exposure

it's a super whammy virus poison thing that is brand new and thus doesn't have a known antidote anyways

this new guy also meets this woman and decides she's the perfect fall person because she's ditsy and prolly a sugar baby to that guy he KNOWS would provide means and opportunity to her being a suspect so he goes for it

he pulls it off and it works, her picture a spread everywhere as being the person involved and wanted for questioning

she's infected with some of the poison, enough she's concerned she might have been hit, but not so much as can say for sure

first things first, she goes to her man, because relationship 101 says communication is important and it hasn't steered her wrong yet

only her man is having a big feelings moment, tied in with childhood trauma and relationship trauma and not only refuses to listen to her but outright throws her out, says she's on her own and for the sole reason that he bought a ring a month ago (which he doesn't mention but is the reason) gives her a whole day headstart because the incident in question injured some of his people and generally rocked his territory in a bad way

she's devasted. like if he listened to her, then didn't believe her, at least when things that didn't make sense started happening, he'd get the whole picture and be in the know and then he'd believe her

he doesn't do that

so she goes to her friends who believe her

about.....a week and a half passes in which they do research on everything, raid a warehouse or two, set fire to a mansion, a smoke bomb a mall and eventually find all the evidence they need, expect for the smoking gun on who.

then in the last two days, her ex catches up and says some hurtful things, so she, who has discovered it's getting harder and harder to breath as time goes on and start coughing up blood and literally can't do anything about it and realizes she's prolly gonna die, admits to everything then denies it and asks which was the lie.

(she's a terrible liar but a great actress. assign her a part, she'll play it as if it's real. but just randomly lie and it's awkward)

he doesn't know, because she says them both like they're true which means one of them is a lie and things are weird so he now honestly doesn't know.

anyways, she gets away, one of her friends gets captured by her ex and the rest of the launch an invasion to the company where the bad guy works and the scientists are making the poison and the antidote

her friend manages to convince her ex that he needs to be there but ope, someone's launched a live broadcast that shows the bad guy doing the whole, hi, my name is evil, and all of y'all are so stupid, here's what really happened behold my genius

he's holding a barely conscious woman by her long orange hair whose got blood dripping from her mouth and is having a rough time breathing

ex rushes over, friend is screaming abuse at him, meanwhile the bad guy force feeds her the antidote in a terrible way because it's never been tested on its effectiveness on cases with only a day left before death, so he's morbidly curious

meanwhile, her friends are wrecking everything and then her ex shows up and by the time the manage to get the situation under control and burst into the room with bad guy and her

....i can't decide if i want him to escape, leaving her ex to hunt him down (successfully) or if I want her to kill bad guy (very traumatically) but regardless, the broadcast records all

so later, when he watches it, he can literally see her dying and struggling to breath and the bad guy literally dragging her by her hair- the hair he's always loved to play with and run through his fingers- and whatever happens, is over about a minute or two before he bursts into the room, but then she's already collapsed, waist down behind the desk, waist up sprawled on the blood, splattered with her own blood.

she looks like- her eyes partially open and blank, doesn't look like she's breathing

but when he gets there, he's calling her name, and gathering her into his arms and takes her pulse- barely there- and she's literally quietly drowning in blood and he's very upset, needless to say

what the broadcast sees is a suited figure bursting in, identity concealed by shadows and lighting, saying her name several times, no indication of life, picking her up and walking away

her friends split, half of them upload all the information to the internet so the antidote is easily accessible. evidence is sent to all the relevant ppl to get their friend's name cleared and then the broadcast turns off

meanwhile

ex is trying everything to keep her breathing, her friends are being very abrasive and they all end up at ex's headquarters and she's hooked up on life support and everything

antidote is administered, but everyone seems to agree she's not going to pull through.

ex is.....very sorry.

friends are both sad and angry

she can't really be moved, but they don't really want her there so everyone is just awkward staying

a week passes and she wakes up a few times, in distress and the decision is made to put her in a medically induced coma

friends take turns sitting by her in the next four days, then something comes up with the whole incident and they're required to go talk to some suits so ex ends up sitting by her bedside and he's fidgeting with the box with the engagement ring her got her and generally feeling sorry for himself.

she wakes up, slowly and remains awake for about five minutes, long enough for the doctors to say, ah, she's improving, we can take the ventilator out and see how she adjusts for that

they do and when she wakes up a couple hours later, he's still there he looks angry (at himself) so she startles and throws herself outta the bed, almost passing out as she tries to get away from him he has another big feelings moment and he ends up holding her while she struggles to breath and coughs because she's kind of hyperventilating and that ain't good for her lunges at the moment he's just stroking her hair and whispering things like-

it's okay, just calm down, i'm sorry, i was wrong, and things like that

-eventually she calms down and he's still holding her and she doesn't bother moving, just says, even if you just listened to me, and didn't believe me, that would have hurt less

you didn't even listen to me and then she's crying and that's also not good for her lunges so he ends up calling a nurse and they sedate her

emotional damage

friends come back and she wakes up for good about three days later

lunges are perm scared but other then some restrictions, she's good she gonna hafta take it easy for a while

so her friends are like, that reward for like 5 mil being offered for you was paid to you for reasons so now she's got some money and her friend basically block her ex from even getting near and the emotional damage means he just lets her go

two weeks later, one of her friends reluctantly breaks into the house the her and her ex used which has her stuff and as it turns out, he's been there, generally living there so she asks her friend to stand outside and they have a big moment

where they talk everything out and she decides to try to at least be friends-

knowing full well this man will absolutely not leave it at just be friends-

and while she's hurt and everything, she still loves him and he has been genuinely sorry and this is something that would have pros and cons in any relationship moving forward

mostly because if she wanted to, all she had to do was mention this in regards to him not listening to her or believing her and he would sit down and listen

but it was also traumatic for both of them so they talk things out and then, in a parody of how they first met, he arranges something similar and introduces himself again and apologizes and invites her over to theirhis house for dinner

dream/plot bunny ended on that hopeful note

[elstreem]

ALBW Roleswap AU...thing?

Trying to write about this idea where it's Hyrule that got devastated and so Link seeks help from Ravio and Hilda in Lorule. Long post, but here's what I've written about it. I don't think I'm gonna do anything more substantial for it, but it's fun writing this.

Here's a google docs version that's prolly easier to read: https://docs.google.com/document/d/1Ar_f6wXBTeY3DGfWeM667QqwvyS-2GfrlZTMCcKQ6BY/edit?usp=sharing

ALBW AU: The Appointed Knight and the Feral Hero

Among the realms created by the Divine mothers, two were tied like the two sides of a coin - both fair kingdoms, with a royal family who protected the sacred relic, Triforce. The Triforce was the sum of the Goddesses’ powers left in these realms, and was even said to be able to grant wishes, leading some to seek its power...unbeknownst to the guardians of the Triforce, it also serves as the cornerstone of their respective realms. No one knows what would happen if the Triforce was broken in some form, for it has never happened before…

As mentioned, the Triforce was left in two particular realms, so close and yet far from each other. The realm bathed in warm sunlight was called Hyrule, while the realm under the cover of soothing darkness was called Lorule. Without knowing of it, the denizens of these two realms prospered similarly to each other. But they were never able to meet, save for when a slight distortion in time and space would show times and places through mirrors and reflections. Only a passing mystery, and were it not for a grievous calamity, perhaps there would never have been a time when Hyrule would need aid from Lorule…

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The clamor of war rang loudly throughout Hyrule Castle. The castle was besieged by terrible forces, slavering monsters and twisted ghouls, howling as they clashed with the soldiers of Hyrule. Men shouted and attacked, hoping to defend their kingdom to the last. However, this was not where the real battle was to be found. In the chaos, there was only one place of stillness - the castle sanctuary, where the princess stood and her knight stood against the demon king, who had risen again. Behind the two protectors of the kingdom, the Triforce shone with a radiant light. “Hand over the Triforce,” Ganon rumbled, hands flexed around a trident. The princess stretched out a hand, tapping into her magical heritage. Link readied his blade and shield - they would never let this monster ruin the world with the Triforce’s power. Never.

The battle began, trident slashing, magic weaving, sword and shield parrying. Link and Zelda fought desperately against the strength of Ganon, who shrugged off their attacks as though it could only annoy him. With a roar, Ganon swatted away Link, the young Hylian’s slight frame getting thrown into the wall with force to crack his bones. Zelda cried out, but she did not waver - even as Ganon lunged forward to lay his hands on the Triforce, she spun around and reached for the relic herself.

“Oh goddesses, protect us!” Zelda wished with all her heart, but even as her words tapped into the Triforce’s power, Ganon’s own hand had reached the relic.

Even while bloodied and bruised, and screaming from the effort, Link got up, trying to move, desperate, as Ganon wished for Hyrule’s destruction.

The two wishes, opposite to each other, warred within the activated relic. Link tried to run, to reach for Zelda even as the Triforce shattered with explosive power, with blinding light pouring out of it.

In those terrible last moments, Link saw the princess turn to him, her form becoming rigid. Ganon too, had stopped - and Link found his own consciousness dimming, burning with only one thought. He had failed his home.

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The sun was yet to rise and all was still in the dark hours preceding dawn.

Or so it was supposed to be, if it weren’t for the angry yells of a woman and a sound of scurrying feet.

The village Blacksmith groaned and hauled himself up from his bed, drearily wiping a hand across his face as his wife rushed into the room.

“Now what is this ruckus all about!?” the Blacksmith complained.

“The stinking thief is back! I told you to report it to the castle, but no, you just had to wait for proof! Well, here’s the proof you want!” the hassled woman said sharply, and she grabbed hold of her husband’s arm and fairly dragged him outside, causing a string of complaints. She ignored the fact that he was barefoot and still in his sleeping clothes and hurried him into the cold air of the early morning. She paused very briefly to grab a fresh torch, and continued along. When she stopped, the Blacksmith was not in the most agreeable mood, but even he could see the damage.

The pots they used for storing water and grains were smashed, and their little garden that had once been full of promising vegetables had been ransacked. But even with the messy scene one could see paw prints in the dirt.

“What was it?” the Blacksmith asked, taking the torch from his wife. He knelt to take a closer look at the destruction.

She sniffed and crossed her arms. “I wasn’t sure - I just heard the sounds of a pot getting smashed and I rushed on over here. I only caught it running away, but it looked beastly, all matted fur and glowing eyes - ugh!”

It would be no match for you in your state, the Blacksmith thought, and he hid a grin. Keeping a straight face, he stood up again and said, “Well, I’ll call on our neighbor to help. No need to alert the Castle.”

She gave a disbelieving snort. “That lad is good for nothing but lounging around!”

“But still, he’s the appointed knight of the realm. Go on inside dear, that is enough trouble for one morning,” the Blacksmith said.

After putting on work clothes and making sure that everything was secured, the Blacksmith walked on over to a house on a hill, keeping his eyes peeled for any lurking creatures. However, upon reaching the house, the man gave a groan - of all the mornings he made this trip, today was the miraculous day the appointed knight was not sleeping in. The house was dark and a piece of paper was tacked to the door. The paper read:

“If you’re looking for me, I’m at the Castle!” - Knight of the Realm, Ravio.

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Morning came and went, the sun’s rays bringing cheer and light to the land. Within the Castle’s kitchen, the maids and cooks were bustling about, preparing food for lunch. But in the middle of all this activity, a boy was sitting still, snacking on an apple as he idled the time away.

“Surely you have business to do, Ravio?” one of the exasperated cooks asked, watching Ravio take another apple from the kitchen’s stores and eat it.

“I’m in the business of filling my energy up after an early morning training!” Ravio said, grinning as much as he could with a mouthful of apple.

“...right,” the cook muttered. Sure, Ravio had been in the castle before dawn’s light, but all the staff saw of him was him taking a nap in the knight’s training room.

A page popped into the castle kitchens, and seeing Ravio, marched up to him. Ravio’s grin slid off his face as he saw the page’s gleeful look. He knew what that meant.

“Her Grace, Princess Hilda, commands the Knight of the Realm to the Counsel Room!” the page said as loudly as possible. The nearby kitchen staff snickered as Ravio stood up and wiped the apple juice off his face.

Ravio might not fear monsters, but he had a healthy fear of his closest friend.

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"I tell you, your Grace, something has been ferreting around, stealing food and making a ruckus. The missus reckons it’s some sort of beast from what she saw. Maybe a wolf? But then again…"

"There are no wolves in Lorule."

"Exactly!"

"Well, wolves or no wolves, if it is disturbing the peace our appointed knight of the realm should be looking into it," Princess Hilda of Lorule said.

Her crimson eyes flicked over to said knight of the realm, even if he wasn't acting like it. Ravio might have looked the part, wearing armor stamped with the royal sigil of Lorule. It was an impressive enough sight that most never minded the lack of a sword at his back. However, instead of standing at duty, he was slouching, idly tugging at his scarf and wishing the audience would be over.

Hilda cleared her throat and tapped her staff on the ground, making Ravio jump nervously. As carefree as he was, he did not like testing Hilda's temper.

"Yess, your Grace?" Ravio asked.

"The Blacksmith brought his problem personally to the castle, Ravio. And I say, you must look into it this time," Hilda said, emphasizing her last two words.

Ravio groaned. Hilda was annoyed that the Blacksmith had to bring this problem up personally. Okay, so he was the knight of the realm, but that did not mean he had to solve every problem his neighbors had, right?

Then again, it seemed like a monster was involved.

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The bushes underneath the trees rustled, and as Ravio followed close, he saw a pair of eyes looking out at him from the shadows. They glowed as they caught the light, and Ravio hesitated - human eyes did not glow like that, which could only mean this was a monster.

He quickly grabbed his Hookshot, and fired - the claw shot through the air. The beast leapt clear, but was too slow by just a second and caught a glancing blow. Ravio heard a yelp, and some footsteps going away. Ravio gave chase - even a glancing blow from a Hookshot was enough to give the most hardened monster some pause. And a pause was all he needed for another shot, and whatever his faults, Ravio had a good eye. Again the Hookshot pierced the air, and this time he scored a direct hit. Ravio knew it from the way the Hookshot had struck.

He hurried after the beast and came into the circle of trees, where he found something lying limp on the ground.

"Got you," Ravio murmured to himself, grabbing his bow. He readied an arrow at the beast, and was about to loose the projectile when the beast twitched and groaned - but the groan did not sound at all beastly.

Ravio dropped the bow and came close - yes, now that he was near he could see a hand peeking out from underneath some clothing. Perhaps a humanoid monster? But in the next moment he heard a soft whisper, and the creature went still. Ravio dropped to his knees beside the figure and turned him over, gasping at what he found. The "monster" was a lad his age, covered in a dirty old cloak. He couldn't see much of the boy's face as it was covered in grime and dirty blonde hair that spilled over one side of his face, but it was definitely a human.

"Hey! Can you hear me?"

All he got as a response was a sigh. Ravio's blood went cold, remembering how the boy had gone still. Ravio dropped his head onto the boy's chest, and listened hard - it was faint, but there was breath and a heartbeat within him.

Moving quickly, Ravio pulled up a bottle of Red Potion and carefully tipped it to the boy's lips - he was unresponsive at first, but when Ravio put a drop of potion to his lips, the lad's tongue licked it away. Very, very carefully, Ravio put a small amount to the boy's mouth, and he swallowed it. In this way, the boy finished the bottle of red potion, which brought back some color to his face.

"Hey, hold on, okay? Stay with me, here," Ravio said. He slung the boy's arm over his shoulders, and putting his own arm around the boy's hip, he stood up. The boy's head leaned limply into Ravio's shoulder, and Ravio fought the urge to sneeze - the guy smelled bad - like he'd been sleeping in the wilds and rolled through mud, kind of bad.

The lad was dead weight, and Ravio had a hard time pulling him along. It was with relief that Ravio heard the Blacksmith calling.

"Ahoy! What have you got there? The beast?"

"Nah, I clobbered the beast good, it should stay away. But I found a stranger, he clearly needs help," Ravio reported. The knight's normally jolly tone was urgent and the Blacksmith knew he wasn't goofing around.

"Alright, here I go! Phew, this one needs a bath," the Blacksmith grunted as he scooped the boy up easily.

"And a good meal - he feels almost dead," Ravio panted, relieved at having the weight off his shoulders.

"Bother, the house is full of weapons to be shipped - we should put him in your house, yeah?" the Blacksmith said.

"Mine!?" Ravio said in dismay.

"Of course. You helped him, you have to see it through," the Blacksmith said.

"Oh, I guess. He better pay rent," Ravio muttered.

For all of Ravio's words he was anxious for the boy and was relieved when the Blacksmith put him into his own bed.

~~~~~~

The boy wandered back inside, shrugging off his cloak. Ravio looked up with a smile and then gasped in surprise - with the grime wiped away, he could have sworn the face he was looking at was his own.

Well, not quite - the stranger's hair was blond and his eyes were blue. Also, he had seriously dark bags under his eyes and hollow cheeks, like he had missed many good meals and nights of sleep.

"Whoa - wow, this is a shocker - talk about seeing your twin," Ravio said.

The boy looked blankly at him.

"…look .are you really just speechless with shock all the time?" Ravio asked.

The boy shifted his feet uncomfortably.

"Well, nothing for it. Here, maybe some food will loosen you up. You look faint with hunger," Ravio said.

The boy nodded gratefully, and dropped himself into one of the chairs at the table.

Ravio brought out a plate, filled with goods from the castle - bread, butter, fried eggs and apple slices. He had a feeling that the boy was hungry, and he was right - though the lad tried to restrain himself for politeness, he gulped down the meal as if famished. Ravio busied himself with cleaning his kitchen, which was a little dusty.

“Well, you look much better now that you had a bite or ten in you,” Ravio said as the boy set down his spoon and fork with a sigh.

~~~~~~~~~

"Well Ravio, have you considered one thing?"

"What?" Ravio asked, shifting uncomfortably at seeing Hilda's raised eyebrow.

"That maybe…you're talking way too much to give space," Hilda said tartly.

"Hey!" Ravio said in indignation. Hilda didn't show any outward signs of amusement, but Ravio knew her long enough to know that her eyes were smiling at the joke. It almost made the little jab worth it.

"Anyway, I shall go see this stranger, see if I can loosen his tongue," Hilda said.

The response however, was far more dramatic than the two expected. On seeing Hilda enter the room, the boy's eyes widened, and he hurriedly dropped to one knee and put his hand on his chest in a knight's bow. Hilda and Ravio traded glances.

"Please stand, good sir. I heard from Ravio about your appearance…but please, tell us more about yourself," Hilda said.

The boy raised his head, but looked down again and sadly shook his head. He opened and closed his mouth several times, but no words came out. He raised his hands and folded them in front of his throat.

"Ah, so you cannot speak…I'm sorry to have asked it without consideration," Hilda said.

The boy shook his head as if trying to reassure her there was no offense.

~~~~~~~~

A stone statue stood inside the blasted courtyard. Even petrified, the beauty of the strange lass was not marred at all - her form perfectly captured in rock. She would have looked lovely if it weren't for the expression of horror on her face. The wolf circled the statue, and Ravio read a great sadness in Link's blue eyes.

Ravio drew close and saw, among the petrified waves of the lass's hair, a crown, and her dress bore a banner displaying a royal crest similar to Lorule's.

The wolf sat down, facing the statue, before raising his head and giving off a lonely howl.

--------

Aaaand that's it. I have a few more ideas to toss into this (Link and Ravio searching for the lost Master Sword of Lorule? Hilda facing off against Ganon?) but I highly doubt I can add anything more weighty to this. I don't even have a proper explanation for why Link turns into a wolf (though in my mind, what's happened to Hyrule is a similar situation to the Twilight, where time has stopped and the souls of Hylians are left as wandering, dazed wraiths.) I might post other writing scraps if I feel like it?

[seostudios]

happy without me: all about luv - h.rj

ALL ABOUT LUV ‣ HAPPY WITHOUT ME

just face it, she’s happy without you. but i don’t believe it, is she really?

paring: huang renjun x fem!reader

genre: angst, fluff

word count: 2.5k

info: exes to lovers!au, non-idol!au, college!au, cousin!jaemin

warnings: sensitive themes, emotional abuse, verbal abuse, toxic relationship, mention of rape and sexual assault, sexual assault, explicit/vulgar language 

tag list: @jenotation @luvlyjaemin @woofie-nctzen-fanarts-320 @tzuqui @sunnyrenjunnie @nino7011 @thatanonymousgirl-as14 @minhehe @chrspychan @jimelonji @mykokorobeats4u @aminihhj @jeonjungkat @wishfulldreamss @ilymarkchan @ja3hy4n @beautifulbakerycookiegiant @jisungiepwark52 @sharamanne @commentgirl @littlefluu @chicksung​ @lixseu​ @jenosgirlllll​

a/n: i’m sorry this is so short i did renjun dirty :( i got writers block writing it but it’s ok! ill do better on the next one which is chenle or jeno (prolly jeno) i gotta chekc but yay finally part 2 to all about luv

APRIL IN JEJU

It's been 7 months since you've parted ways with your first love. You two were the supposed high school sweethearts of your year so it confused most of the other students when they found out. Renjun and you were meant for one another but the fact he decided on attending SKKU since had received a scholarship for his outstanding academic records, he couldn't turn down the offer and was determined on enrolling however you were attending Cheju Halla University which was all the way in Jeju City. That was a 55-minute plane ride away from Renjun! Avoiding the future relationship problems to come from long-distance you two would most likely face, the breakup was mutual and you two parted ways at the airport indulging in a rather pitiful hug.

Here you were, walking through the Department of Equine Science, trailing behind your friends Soomin and Mina. It was the first time you decided to skip class and it was thrilling in your opinion, "Come on, they're waiting!" Soomin whisper-yelled. They?

You make sure to ask her who 'they' were since you and Mina weren't standing dumbfounded and possibly in trouble. "The volleyball team dummy," Soomin says skipping to past the classrooms into Gym A. It brought you back to the old times, visiting Renjun during Soccer practice, making sure he's well-fed and not overworked. Quickly snapping out of it you join the girls on the bleachers to cheer on the boys. Although you are able to tell people you've moved on from your first love, you've spent restless nights looking back at your messages, pictures just reminiscing the past.

The butterflies he's caused you still flutter every now and then hoping their commotion was heard and you've finally made the big move back to Seoul but sadly you haven't gotten up and gone yet.

Tonight you were preparing for a mini-quiz, it so happened that Mina shared the class with you. Scheduling a sleepover at Soomin's place here you all are sitting in her living room stuffing your faces with whatever salty and sweet treats her mom had bought. "Oh. My. God." Mina tells you after reading your DM request on Instagram, "What?" you ask confused over what she thought was so extraordinary. She motions Soomin to look at your earning a surprised what the fuck from the girl. "Min-fucking-Ho wants to DM you... He's like one of the hottest guys in our division and has never been seen with a girl so wanting to text you definitely a what the fuck moment. You shake your head before opening the DM request..."He's asking me out for dinner?" You say which Soomin demands you to accept the offer before he moves on. "You've gotta move on from Renjun you know? He won't come by swooping you by the legs asking you for his hand in marriage. He's all the way in Seoul Y/n, I'm pretty sure he's moved on by now with someone else it's time you do too. Now hand e your phone so I can tell him you want to go on that date." Mina tells you after you attempt to reject Minho. She gave you the truth even if it hurt (a lot), you sigh in defeat handing over your phone.

"Can't believe you're going on a date with Minho," Soomin says watching Mina type away. "I know right, lucky girl" Mina replies as you nod. 

APRIL IN SEOUL

Meanwhile, at SKKU Renjun's majoring in Arts & humanities. Languages, Literature & Linguistics which has been taking up most of his time keeping his mind off his recent split. He was devastated the first week but had to obviously push it aside if he wanted extraordinary marks just like in high school, even if he wanted his thoughts to be occupied with your figure in his head he simply couldn't know his classes were paying attention to him along with the other honor students that attended on a scholarship.

"Is that your girlfriend?" Jeno, Renjun's only friend at Sungkyunkwan asked. He's got to know Renjun for who he was today but he's never really opened up about his life before University. Jeno noticed Renjun staring at your recent Instagram post for a little too long to not think you were at least flirting in direct messages. "No," He said quick and panicky before shoving his phone back into his pocket, after relaxing he turns to Jeno. "She's my ex, we broke up 7 months ago." Jeno's mouth goes agape momentarily in realization, "Why? If you don't mind me asking..." He asked the smaller boy beside him. "She went to Jeju for University when SKKU was just a 20-minute train ride from our neighborhood," Renjun replied with a scoff recollecting the memory of the day you told him you got accepted into Cheju Halla. Jeno nods understandingly deciding to continue studying instead of riling him up.

JULY IN JEJU

A full three months have passed and you were still in the first place you were in back in April, heartbroken. Although a lot of things have drastically changed since April it had only made you feel worse about yourself. For starters, you've been 'dating' Minho since April even if you realized on the first date he had only wanted you to fulfil his sexual desires. He's strung his act long enough and you've tried breaking up with the boy for a month now but he won't let you, he's always threatening you "I'll tell the school what type of whore you are."  or something about inflicting pain on someone close to you like Soomin or Mina, which is why you've kept quiet for about the last three weeks.

You were in pulled harshly by the arm by Minho as he pulled you into the supply closet of the Gymnasium, “Minho, I don’t want you to touch me there,” You politely ask the boy who’s currently taking advantage of his supposed spouse. “I don’t even want to date you! Why do you keep acting like this- Let go!” You whisper-yell to Minho who’s trailing his hands up and in between your thighs. "Shut up," He simply tells you before snaking his hand to your mouth shutting you up as you let out a choked cry.

JULY IN SEOUL

"She looks so happy with that Minho, right?” Renjun asked Jeno, scrolling through your tagged post. “I mean from what we know yeah,” He tells him. Renjun sighs, he knew he would genuinely be happy for you if you moved on but it had seemed rather quick. "It's almost been a year, she's moved on. Why don't you?" Jeno asked innocently. Renjun had a gut feeling of some sort; telling him not to move on and instead of ignoring it like you (which brought you nowhere since you're still deeply in love with him) did he's just kept a close eye on you. Shaking his head no he tells Jeno, "Something isn't right about.." He lifts the  phone to the photo of you and Minho, Mina had tagged you in, "That."

DECEMBER IN JEJU

"I promise I'll text you, I just need to get off this freaking island for winter break at least." You tell Mina and Soomin on Face-time, "Okay we will miss you! How did Minho take this? It's your first Christmas together and you leave?" She asked worriedly. You mumble a fuck before looking at the camera. "I didn't tell him," You say earning gasps from the two. "He's your boyfriend though.." Soomin said; "Who doesn't treat me like a fucking human being." Your words were strong, rippling a wave of awkwardness, "I'm fine by the way I’m staying with my cousin Jaemin, but if I don't come back it’s cause he spoilt me into staying."

DECEMBER IN SEOUL

"Merry Almost Christmas!" Renjun screeches before entering his shared apart with his new friend group, Jeno had introduced Renjun to his best pal, Jaemin and Renjun had taken in a very lonely Haechan later introducing him to the two. Today they were all celebrating their first Christmas together with a classic holiday film and cupcakes every day until Christmas.

"Guys we have a guest today!" Jaemin sings opening the door widely to show a shorter girl beside the boy with a suitcase in hand.

"What are you doing here?" Renjun and you said simultaneously as you locked eye contact. "I'm visiting Jaemin, my cousin." You tell him hands moving into the air to point towards the boy, "I am Jaemin's roommate." He responded before getting up from the couch brushing off the crumbs off his lap before walking towards the door to stand in front of you. He hadn't grown any taller still rocking his tiny 5'7 figure, but tall enough to tower over you, who hadn't grown since freshman year.

"She's here." Jeno tells Renjun who's head is under the pillow, "She's here." Jeno repeats, "She's here, She's here," Renjun whispered to himself taking it all in. He always wished for you to get off the fucking island go back into his arms, transferring to SKKU, knowing you had the skill to land a spot without hesitation, but finally seeing you after 10 months of no contact was frightening to him. Why did you seem so brittle? You looked pained, it wasn't his job to care about you anymore, but he couldn't help himself. He loved you more than himself and there's a (humongous) chunk of him that still did. Renjun gets up and sits crisscrossed on the single bed across from Jeno's bed where he was idling on his phone laying down "She's here but she's not here." He said which caught Jeno's attention, his face wrinkling in confusion. "She's not okay, something's wrong. I know it," He finishes getting up to walk out to you- who's catching up with Jaemin in the kitchen while preparing for dinner, stopping immediately as a rush of nerves came over him telling him to stop.

"Hope you boys like Hotteok!" You said facing Jeno and Haechan who were smiling in awe of your cooking skills, "I know Injun and Jaems like it so I made it tonight." You cheerfully smile towards the other two boys. “Glad to see you remembered,” It took a lot for Renjun to even say a sentence to you without having a gaze on you for a little too long afterwards.

It was his chance, he walked out of the bedroom the moment he saw you walk by his door towards the guest room. "Can I come in?" He asked. "Of course Injun," You couldn't believe yourself, being so calm and comfortable with all the tension. Had it really been ten months? He thought to himself as he sat beside you on the bed. "So," He rubbed his thighs nervously "How've you been?" Horrible. You stare down at the carpet admiring it while you figure a way to lie to the boy who knew you better than you knew yourself. "Fine,  I've been..." You sigh avoiding eye contact, "Fine." He looks at you concerned, "You can't lie to me Y/n." Grabbing your hand caressing it for a second knowing it relaxed you a bit in tough scenarios. Suddenly your phone began to ring, grabbing to read the caller id. "Oh, should I go?" Renjun asked after reading the contact name 'Minho' "No!" You shouted quickly grabbed his wrist pulling him back down before he walked out. Declining the call you spoke, "I'd talk to you over anyone any day." Damn, when did I get so smooth You mentally note that smirking to yourself slightly watching as Renjun bursted into a frenzy of laughter, "Smooth," He comments.

"So, was that Minho guy...your boyfriend?" He asked in which you replied with a strong No. "Well," You started "A boyfriend is someone who listens to me someone who values my opinions and beliefs. Someone who is truly interested in what you enjoy doing, or what you like most in life and interested in who I am as a person." You pause to see him grab you hand intertwining your hand, quickly signalling you to continue. "Someone who makes me laugh, or trusts me. But more importantly, disrespect me and force me into," Tears collected in your eyes threatening to fall, "Things." Renjun knows what to do to comfort you quickly pulling you into his embrace, melting when you wrap around him, head in the crook of his neck sobbing quietly. "He made me do things Renjun-ah. Horrible things. I hate him so much, I can't break up with him. Figured running away would've been a better option." He strokes your hair telling you it's okay and to relax. He couldn't help but smile though; he was right. He knew, he knew something was off and made it his number one priority to find out what it was, who would've known you would open up and make your first actual conversation with your ex- whom you dated for a nearly all of senior year about the toxic relationship you found yourself in after him.

JANUARY IN SEOUL

"I got to leave tomorrow." You told Renjun, whom you rekindled an old flame with over your stay. C

"Do you think about me sometimes? 'Cause I think about you sometimes" You asked Renjun looking at him from the mirror, as he watched you do your hair for an outing with your cousin. After that night in your bedroom, you decided on hanging out more and became close friends once more. But the butterflies in your stomach didn't leave, instead, they emitted flying more enthusiastically near him, with him. "I don't think about you sometimes 'Cause I think about you all the time," He said, which made you look down to the floor before turning around to face him. "It made me so jealous knowing you were so far away with that disgusting bastard happy without me" He grabs your hand; which you intertwine your fingers with happily a smile dancing upon your lips watching him reciprocate it.

"Stay." He tells you. You cuddle into his embrace as he caressed the top of your head. The two of your legs entangled under the sheets having one of your midnight talks. "You know I can't," You start quickly zipping your mouth not wanting to go any further, "Students who have outstanding academic records, or who have financial difficulties, who have submitted a complete scholarship application," Renjun said, which just made your jaw drop. Did he do his research?  "You can still enroll for the second semester which starts in two weeks. Have your friends send your belongings." He finished watching as you lifted yourself up resting your head in your palm. "Really?" You asked, breath taken away to say more. Could you really live here in Seoul? With Renjun? "Yes, I can kick Jeno into the guest room while we can have this room all to ourselves." He kissed the top of your hand watching the cheeky smile erupt from you with giggles. "We can be together." You said- asked to yourself, "We can be together" Renjun tells you before pulling you back. 

[squirrelcrow-po3]

A concept I just thought of and wanted to share:

Thrushpelt and snowfur become mates in starclan and take care of mosskit. Those too would work so well together 🥺

Snowfur, starclan cat, is devastated on learning of what thistleclaw had become and watched over her kit and sister. I can imagine her shock as thrushpelt goes completely out of his way for bluefur, claiming her illegal kits as his own knowing he could be in some deep trouble. I hc that he also stepped up a bit to be a better role model for whitekit. (Cue snowfur judging her sis for overlooking thrush smh)

Not sure how thrushpelt dies, but the first thing he wants when he wakes up is to see the kits only to be greeted with one, mosskit, and snowfur and she tells him what happened. He’s both relived and a bit sad.

They find comfort in each other and share many things in common, so it doesn’t take long for snowfur to initiate the relationship, finally both of them moving on and finding closure through each other.

yeah!!! but thrushpelt is very much alive in my rewrite prolly until maaaybe the middle of the first arc or beginning of the second arc jfskfjs. and kits do age in starclan in my reworking of their lore! so snowfur would prolly look after mosskit!

though, this is a very cute idea outside of my rewrite!!

[severusdefender]

The Concept of a Werewolf!Lily AU is such an Amazing Dumpsterfire I couldn't resist adding more

Hi, I’m here to blether about AUs and blow up ur inbox with said blether, hope you enjoy it as much as I did scribbling out my love of making everyplot needlessly complicated. X3

A fiat of timing could be everything in terms of future. Lily &Sev talking might be more frank they might end up pooling resources to simply leave the blastzone that is Wizarding UK/Scotland.

Also I feel that the personal guilt of Turning someone else into a werewolf would’ve nuked the Remus-Sirius friendship from orbit with feelings of betrayal, just saying.

Or Sev & Lily might separate for a time due to miscommunication (again, sweet merlin save me), and while Sev’s over there realizing he’s getting in over his head (I don’t know the chain of realizations he’d have, but it’d happen or start somehow), Lily gets drinkspiked &sudden possible prophecy child (idk who’d do the drinkspike specifically, maybe not James[who i think would at Least feel guilty about the too-late-to-stop-my-friend-from-accidentally-turning-you-into-a-werewolf thing, prolly not everything else, but that thing at least], but Sirius, who’s being an impulsive arsehole) & now she’s getting shipped off to safehouse w/ JP despite her protests.

Idk about possibly setting up a future Lily v Remus interpersonal conflict if she manages to forgive him in his unwitting role in screwing her life during this time with fighting/supporting the Order of the Phoenix. But him basically ghosting Harry later and Lily coming back to find, hey, his so-called promised support never fucking happened, could be juicy interpersonal conflict in the future as well. <<Sidenote.

Maybe the Order starts the rumor of “Lily Potter (nee Evans)” and a fake news of a wedding? Idk maybe in a attempt to Protect her Politically? Lily would absolutely despise it. It begins the Legend of Potter’s Muggleborn Wife, which also conveniently leaves her devoid of person-flaws and the fact that she’s a werewolf (probably never reported by Dumbles). A Huge Fiction.

In the meantime, Lily would be trying to cobble some sort of new, prolly a little or a lot Dark, ritual together so she and her kid don’t fucking die while trying to Not Think about this stupid train of trauma she’s desperately trying to not deal with regarding her… Safehousemate.

Things would be a little different but a little same, Lily wouldn’t be told who the Secret Keeper was though. Severus still overhears part of the Prophecy and gives it to Voldie, Voldie gives chase. But things could be different because Werwolves are more natural spellsinks? So there’s a badass-but-desperate fight at Godric’s Hollow, James dies but Lily gets away with Harry and is in the wind.

Voldemort is still at large.

And there’s also a countdown clock, because Lily got away with only a limited supply of Wolfsbane (or none at all, she’d be capable enough to brew it but the question is of ingredient access). But Lily hasn’t approached the Order again either.

The Ritual that she Made could serve as a Chekhov’s Gun in this plot though how I don’t know yet, but keep that in mind.

The Order needs to find her, but none of them Know her as well because she was always very withdrawn and played her cards close to her chest during her time with the Order this time around. So what do? Dumbledore seeks out one Severus Snape, and fishes for information.

Somehow this could culminate in Snape piecing together that something happened, thought he doesn’t quite have all the details yet. But he’d figure that the prophecy hunt net included Lily and oops, that’s kind of his fault, fuck. So Dumbledore has found guilt and stuff to push-leverage Snape into tracking down Lily.

Snape defects both because his friend (*& her son, he still doesn’t believe the papers about the “happy marriage”, he assumes the Literal Worst) is being hunted down, and also Guilt and kicking himself. But it’s less defecting to the other side, and more defecting towards what he considers his own side with Lily, and I don’t know how this complication could work. He gives chase, a whole runaround all of Wizarding Britain for maybe a little under a year, only to end up in the next town over from Cokeworth with no leads. Until-

Rumors of a strange beast sighted in the woods? Gotta check it out.

Severus and Lily finally meet again, but before they can truly hash it out, Lily’s about to transform and Voldemort & co. AND the OotP had also been hot on the trail. A running battle breaks out, Sev tries to get himself, Lily, and Harry (can we pls call him Henry, Henry’s such a good name), clear but Lily’s much closer to shifting. Shit happens, Voldemort pursues them personally yet somehow manages to not see the Identity of the Prophesied Child & his Mudblood Mother’s Protector (which is Severus). Maybe Sev & Lilyw/Harry got separated and now, Lily’s transformed fully and is throwing down w/ Voldemort.

Something happens, maybe the Ritual or some effect of that nature? And some canonmirroring just in a diff time diff place, Voldemort is destroyed by his rebounding AK, Harry gets the Scar and hailed BWL, and the fiction of Muggleborn Paragon Wife Lily Potter is preserved in quietude for the ages. But the strange part is that Werewolf!Lily was nowhere to be found, and it’s assumed that her body had been destroyed.

Severus is both devastated and suspicious.

From there it can either somewhat echo some stations of canon, but diverge further from there, or completely depart from the stations of canon entirely. Can’t decided what’s juicier or senseier. Snape could still end up a more tenuous Spymaster and Potions’ Master at Hogwarts, because technically he did fulfill his end of the bargain but Dumbledore still needs to keep him close after all. Snape still searches from what happened to Lily, but deeply resents Dumbledore despite not saying no to the resources that allow him to stay out of Azkaban and able to keep up his “fruitless search.”

Basically, this results in a more ambivalent Snape, his redemption arc happens differently.

The fable of The Potters is preserved for posterity and into the society’s collective memory, Harry Potter products are made. But Harry is not legally a Potter, Lily and James never married, Harry Evans is a true bastard in the lawbooks. I could still see him getting carted off to the Dursley’s for whatever actually well-meaning reason to be frank.

Idk, would Snape be Allowed to know about Harry’s survival status in this context especially since the Order or Law Enforcement would’ve gotten to him first? Maybe not, maybe Snape was under the impression that the baby “killed” the Dark Lord but was also killed in the process. Can’t decide if that’s worse than knowing Lily’s kid survived but is squirreled away somewhere where Snape can never check. Haven’t decided, both are equally angst. *shrugs*

Severus Snape still manages to be a disaster human on main.

Meanwhile, a big Russet Werewolf (stuck in form? Stabler? Haven’t decided yet) is wandering the somewhat intermittently devastated countryside, memoryless and adrift. (because I can’t resist shoving amnesiac au in here, im sorry i accept full responsibility lol).

Thoughts? 

the only thoughts i have is ‘this would be an awesome fic’

[rottenxroses]

1. Would you have sex with the last person you text messaged?

-Yes 😏

2. You talked to an ex today, correct?

-Ewk no. Ex for a reason.

3. Have you taken someones virginity?

-No 😒

4. Is trust a big issue for you?

-Depends on the person.

5. Did you hang out with the person you like recently?

-Yes 😍

6. What are you excited for?

-For quarantine to be over 🥺

7. What happened tonight?

-It’s morning so nothing yet!

8. Do you think it’s disgusting when girls get really wasted?

-I mean, I’m all down for fun and games but if you’re “that bitch” at the party, it’s more embarrassing than disgusting

9. Is confidence cute?

-to an extent.

10. What is the last beverage you had?

-coffee 🤤

11. How many people of the opposite sex do you fully trust?

-1.

12. Do you own a pair of skinny jeans?

-jeans? What are those??? We’ve been locked up home for a little over a month so...

13. What are you gonna do Saturday night?

- prolly play games 😬

14. What are you going to spend money on next?

-AMAZON

15. Are you going out with the last person you kissed?

- lol I’m married to the last person I kissed, and will forever kiss 🥰

16. Do you think you’ll change in the next 3 months?

-I hope! Always room for change and improvement

17. Who do you feel most comfortable talking to about anything?

-my mom.

18. The last time you felt broken?

-not in awhile.

19. Have you had sex today?

-wouldn’t you like to know 😏

20. Are you starting to realize anything?

-friends don’t last.

21. Are you in a good mood?

-content

22. Would you ever want to swim with sharks?

-sure! Why not?

23. Are your eyes the same color as your dad’s?

-nope

24. What do you want right this second?

- a nap 😪

25. What would you say if the person you love/like kissed another girl/boy?

-I’d be devastated? Lol

26. Is your current hair color your natural hair color?

- sorta, growing it out

27. Would you be able to date someone who doesn’t make you laugh?

- hell no, laughing is key

28. What was the last thing that made you laugh?

-my son farted and laughed about it lol

29. Do you really, truly miss someone right now?

-yes, my mother in law everyday, she was very dear to me.

30. Does everyone deserve a second chance?

-no.

31. Honestly, do you hate the last boy you were talking to?

-no lol

32. Does the person you have feelings for right now, know you do?

-yes he does!

33. Are you one of those people who never drinks soda?

-on occasion I do, I rarely drink soda

34. Listening to?

- some baby show for my son

35. Do you ever write in pencil anymore?

-yes, grocery lists lol

36. Do you know where the last person you kissed is?

-enjoying sleep 😒

37. Do you believe in love at first sight?

-yes!

38. Who did you last call?

- my mama

39. Who was the last person you danced with?

-my son and niece

40. Why did you kiss the last person you kissed?

-because I love him? Lol

41. When was the last time you ate a cupcake?

- my nephews birthday

42. Did you hug/kiss one of your parents today?

-no, wish i could 😰

43. Ever embarrass yourself in front of a crush?

-always. Lmao

44. Do you tan in the nude?

-I don’t tan, so no. Lol

45. If you could, would you take back your last kiss?

-no? What kind of questions are these???

46. Did you talk to someone until you fell asleep last night?

-yeah, my son who didn’t want to sleep 😞

47. Who was the last person to call you?

-my mom

48. Do you sing in the shower?

-sometimes

49. Do you dance in the car?

-yeah!

50. Ever used a bow and arrow?

-yes! I’m pretty good at it.

51. Last time you got a portrait taken by a photographer?

-pssssh who knows

52. Do you think musicals are cheesy?

-yah.

53. Is Christmas stressful?

-YES.

54. Ever eat a pierogi?

🤤🤤🤤

55. Favorite type of fruit pie?

-none, I like pumpkin 🤤

56. Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid?

-ballerina, a vet, and tattoo artist.

57. Do you believe in ghosts?

-yis

58. Ever have a Deja-vu feeling?

-on occasion

59. Take a vitamin daily?

-no but I totally should

60. Wear slippers?

-I live in my slippers

61. Wear a bath robe?

-sometimes

62. What do you wear to bed?

-baggy t-shirt and pj pants

63. First concert?

-Green Day

64. Wal-Mart, Target or Kmart?

-TARGET OWNS MY SOUL

65. Nike or Adidas?

-ewk neither

66. Cheetos Or Fritos?

-ewk

67. Peanuts or Sunflower seeds?

-sunflower seeds

68. Favorite Taylor Swift song?

-you’re hilarious.

69. Ever take dance lessons?

-yes!

70. Is there a profession you picture your future spouse doing?

-truck driver! Because he’s in school for it.

71. Can you curl your tongue?

-many things this tongue can do 😏

72. Ever won a spelling bee?

-never went into one so negative.

73. Have you ever cried because you were so happy?

-yes!

74. What is your favorite book?

-I can’t begin to list, I have so many favs.

75. Do you study better with or without music?

-with, when it’s on low

76. Regularly burn incense?

-omg yes

77. Ever been in love?

- I am. 🥰

78. Who would you like to see in concert?

-Korn 😭

79. What was the last concert you saw?

Journey and the doobie brothers

80. Hot tea or cold tea?

-hot

81. Tea or coffee?

-coffee

82. Favorite type of cookie?

-chocolate chip

83. Can you swim well?

-yes! I was on a swim team for 5 years.

84. Can you hold your breath without holding your nose?

-yes? Lol

85. Are you patient?

-not at all.

86. DJ or band, at a wedding?

-DJ

87. Ever won a contest?

-yes!

88. Ever have plastic surgery?

-no, I believe in natural beauty.

89. Which are better black or green olives?

-ewk.

90. Opinions on sex before marriage?

-go for it! Have fun and be safe!

91. Best room for a fireplace?

- living room

92. Do you want to get married?

- I’m just gonna not answer this one.

[thesagedahlia]

💔Vanessa Hudgens & Austin Butler💔

This was a request that I should have hopped on when I had the chance, because I PROBABLY could have prepped y'all for this. I'll be honest, I wasn't drawn to it right away because I felt a proposal in the air for them & I figured "oh, they're doing great, there may not be that much to report on 🥴😵"...boy, was I wrong. Little did I know, 'proposal in the air' meant literally. I did come across an interview that Vanessa had with People TV back on the 23rd of May, just last year. She was briefly asked about if she & Austin were going to be walking down the aisle, before insisting to move on (which kinda struck me as 'she prolly sick of that question, she prolly ask it too much her damn self'). But her response was as follows; "As a woman, y'know, I'm not the person to be like 'hEy, EyE'm DoInG tHiS', it's all about the man (making the gesture). When it comes to that, it's like, it's in the guy's court, y'know?", & as the interviewers asked "so, if he takes the lead, you'll be there to follow?", to which she replied, "I mean, I've been her for 7 years, I don't think I'm going anywhere." (.....oh, you went somewhere sis 🤭). But as the interviewer wanted to know if she's been pressing the issue, she proceeded to shoo the topic away, as it was getting "too personal". 🤔🤔 didn't think much of it, UNTIL I thought about putting myself in her shoes...why would EYE stick around for 7-9 years & NOT even have the topic discussed? Most importantly, since it clearly WAS discussed, what sort of hold up would you be willing to sit through to be "strung along"? That's when it hit me...somebody didn't want to get married...& from the interview that I saw...I had to guess it wasn't Vanessa 🕵🏾‍♀️🕵🏾‍♀️

**DISCLAIMER**

I am not declaring, nor am I insinuating, that anything I say in my predictions are true accounts of any of the parties involved. This reading is for entertainment purposes only, & should only taken as such. All in good fun, folks 🤷🏾‍♀️🧿

💔What caused the breakup❓💔

I'm picking up on a fear of a new cycle or transition within their commitment, & it feels like it is coming from Austin. I'm feeling he wasn't totally ready to be locked down in that way (I'm feeling marriage), & Vanessa felt she had to walk away. She began to make it clear what she wanted from him out of the relationship, & Austin doesn't seem to be in a place where he knows what he want. He seemed to be moving very slow in actually proposing to Vanessa, & she wasn't in the position to be holding out for him any longer. Austin was very much back & forth on his decision to propose & get married. He was becoming clouded & confused by the bigger picture, & he wasn't thinking or looking deeply into making the gesture. He basically self-sabotaged his sure deal with Vanessa, because he was reluctant to open up to the opportunity. I'm getting that his intuition is clouded. Im also getting a lot of inner conflict on his part, whereas Vanessa was very adamant & vocal on what she wanted out of the relationship. I'm feeling very strongly that Vanessa wanted marriage, & he was of course very aware of this. Though marriage was to be the next step for them, I feel like she intuitively knew she was going to be single for a while. This was a disruption in their relationship, but it doesn't feel permanent; they feel like they've spent past lives together. I feel divine guidance in the connection, where they may be able to work things through & get back together. It feels like eventually they will return to each other. This break up feels like it needed to happen so they can each take time out figure out what will truly make them happy.

💔Vanessa's current feelings toward Austin❓💔

She feels like their relationship was due to take on a deeper level of commitment, & I feel like she was emotionally prepared for it, but she ended up waiting some time for him to take the lead & make them move. It feels like she has been holding out for Austin to propose. She began to see herself as single, since there wasn't an official declaration of engagement. Her patience in waiting & investing in their 9 year long relationship began to wear on her emotional, & she came to realize that he may be stringing her along just to keep the balance in their relationship (not purposely, but not quick to propose). I feel like even family members of hers had their opinions; the typical 'when are you getting married already?' or 'it's taking him awfully long to propose it's been what, 9 years now?'. She may also feel like his busy schedule has distracted him or delayed the process.

💔Austin's current feelings toward Vanessa❓💔

He acknowledges that he was devastated when she left, but he also felt he was working & providing for the relationship, & that he felt a family & marriage couldn't happen unless he was fully capable to do it financially. He also felt that they were able to succeed & grow until then, & he was ready to build a legacy with her. He didn't feel he had enough to offer her financially as he was comfortable, but he also wasn't in the right amount of emotional stability to make the loving gesture to propose; he was focused on the finances of it all. So ultimately, he didn't feel ready for marriage. He wasn't prepare to be open to taking the lead to propose, & I feel like he needs to come into some clarity regarding something that he feels like is keeping him from being open & comfortable to propose, & it feels like a lack of emotional comfortability. He was detached emotionally, which led to her departure; he in turn need to work on that if he ever expects to win her back (he better have that ring in hand❗)

💔What lies in the future for this connection❓💔

As I said before, Vanessa has stopped waiting for Austin to make the move she has been anticipating. Austin knows damn well what he has to do if you wants to get Vanessa back, because as of right now, she's single, & I wouldn't be surprised if she's mingling. He seems to be well aware of where Vanessa stand with him & what she will need from him in the relationship, & he seems to be needing to listen to his intuition when it comes to the relationship. He seems to be trapped in fear at this time, & he may be using his work as a distraction. He seems very stubborn and unwilling to compromise, even though he is deeply saddened by this loss. The ball is in his court, but he is fumbling. Austin will need to begin to take the relationship seriously & honor his commitments with Vanessa, & that will be sacrificing his comforts and facing what he truly fears when it comes to marriage. It's safe to say he is holding back at this time, & Vanessa is moving on. She is hopeful for her own endeavors, & she is entering a new phase in her life. She is also having patience that she will have a family someday with someone who will be emotionally committal, even if that isn't Austin. She plans to continue standing her ground when it comes to her love life, because she has a deep seated passion to get married & settle down. If they come back together, it may take some time & effort before they become anything serious again, but as of right now they aren't speaking with one another.

[theangry-ace]

currently playing: Charade Maniacs

quite possibly the most mysterious otome game I’ve played yet. and again, I’m having quite a hard time to follow the story. it’s as bad as Tengai ni Mau, but at least this one I can understand at most 30% of what’s happening. Tengai ni Mau I just don’t know what actual fuck was happening all through out the entire game.

the concept is in future Japan, our MC, Hiyori and her overprotective osananajimi suddenly found themselves in another world where the “people” there doesn’t seem like normal human being. it’s like they’re robots, or something that not used to be a human. along with them are 8 other guys and a mysterious masked person - the Director - who said all 10 of them are to be there, Arcadia, and to occasionally play a short skit or drama to gain points. the points can be used to ‘purchase’ anything they want, but if their points to reach zero, they will be erased for existence. finishing their forced job as an actor would grant them a wish to be fulfilled.

unfortunately, among 10 of them, one of them is the person who led them to be chosen to Arcadia; the Producer. who is the traitor?

part1: Kyouya, Tomose & Mamoru routes

though honestly, I don’t think I would continue clear other routes. maybe. my Japanese is way too low to understand the details of this fucking gamee

if anyone can explain to me the game plot, also the spoiler of who is the Producer and why the heck he’s doing all of these, that’ll be great. 

my first impression of this game was; “HOLY SHIT 9 CAPTURE TARGETS?!!” but then I found out “thERE’S A HIDDEN CHARACTER AS WELL???” I just know I’m gonna be a mess for this game. I expect it to be kinda dark of a theme but not entirely? I think most of the creepy vibes were taken off to some degree by the awesome BGM. still, I don’t really get some details of the entire plot, shameful to admit. no. correction; I understand exactly nothing from the plot so..

all I know that aside from the Producer hiding among them, there’s also a Sponsor who had been possibly working together to keep them all there. a

Kyouya

he is the genki guy of the 10 of them, and despite being kidnapped to another world, he's the most optimistic and motivated that they all will be out of this psychopath of a forced imprisonment. he sees himself as a superhero that will protect and help everyone. he even said, when knowing there’s at least 2 traitors (the Producer and the Sponsor) among them, that doesn’t mean that they should all start to doubt everybody and distrust them.

turns out the Sponsor among them is Kyouya’s parents. they were one of the main contributor (or supporter) of this whole ‘kidnapping people into forced reality tv to act in skits for the sake of amusement’. kinda. I’m pretty hazy about that... anyway. but Kyouya is there to stop the psychopathic project. he actually had two little sisters, both was also been made the Cast of the project but they failed to meet the necessary points needed and was deleted out of existence, and that includes from the Kyouya’s memory. it was said because being no longer remember what you lost is much easier. he was very devastated when he began to remember them, and felt so bad how he could ever forget about his two sisters.

Kyouya managed to gained enough points to have his wish, but there was a catch that asshole Director just suddenly announced; he could only wish one person to return to the real world, or but one to remain. he chose the latter, and Hiyori was mega sad. he stayed and he promised to continue to stop Arcadia, and retrieve his two sisters.

Tomose

dude is younger than Hiyori, and used to be the target of bullies. Hiyori, with her strong oneechan power, took the role of his protector. he came to secretly fallen in love with her as the years gone by, and he swore he would do anything to protect her in return. despite his near-obsession towards Hiyori, she never agreed nor encouraged this behavior. she simply said she saw him as just the osananajimi, and nothing else. 

with the little that I can understand from his route, there’s not really any new revelation aside that Hiyori suspected Tomose to be the Sponsor because he kept saying he didn’t mind staying there in Arcadia so long he could play the role of her boyfriend. you’re twisted, my dude. I might missed a lot of the stories in Tomose’s route, because, fuck, a lot of the ‘explanation’ was left to Hiyori. which means no narration, and fucking shit my reading skill is lower than an elementary kid so... oh. Hiyori got her ‘emotions’ yanked out of her when she refused to do the play and kept on telling Tomose how he was wrong, and that he was acting like not the Tomose she knew.

in the end, after a thrilling (/sarcasm) game of charades with the resident of Arcadia, Tomose was about to wish for all of them to return before the Producer dropped his asshole of a new rule. Tomose wanted to say that he would remain while everyone was to sent home, but Shouta stepped in saying he volunteered to stay instead. dude said he liked playing games so he didn’t mind staying in Arcadia. I suspect he might be the Director....?

after getting back home, Tomose and Hiyori decided to start all over again with their relationship.

Mamoru

a soft spoken and overall very tender guy, Mamoru didn’t stand out that much among the 10. he gave Hiyori a teddy bear to cheer her up when he think she was not feeling too good after the whole thing of them trying to find a loophole of Arcadia as an existence while they were doing a maintenance. they were supposed to stay at the house they’re staying but he and Hiyori went to another place. in result they saw the real form of the people in Arcadia. they were slimy alien looking creatures.

for some time, Hiyori was terribly traumatized by what she discovered and could no longer see the Another Worlders in the eye. then later Mamoru refused to act in a skit where he would have to stab the co-star. he begged to the Director that he could take anything of his, just not his right hand. so Mamoru got his leg paralyzed and had to walk with a cane afterwards. 

Mamoru’s personality changed since then, and the other kids started to think it’s proof enough he’s not the Producer who was supposed to be hiding within them. Hiyori caught him went out late at night and asked him where he gone, but he never answered and continued being cold and distant. then later there was a skit asking for Hiyori and Mamoru that involved a kissing scene. before it could start, Mamoru called the Director that he didn’t want to do it and would accept another penalty. he lost his sight this time, and as he was hurrying on his way away, Hiyori caught his right hand that he treasured more than his life and felt the slimy unholy texture of the alien she had seen before.

Mamoru closed himself in his room for days until Hiyori managed to talk to him. he admitted to be the Sponsor and also the person responsible for taking them all to Arcadia. he also admitted to be one of the Arcadian people through his dad and his mom was one of the past Cast. every other explanation he gave I didn’t quite get like why he became a Sponsor? also how could a child could be made from one of those emotionless alien who’s barely human and an actual human? from Kyouya’s end, Hiyori woke up on a bed connected to an IV, meaning she went to Arcadia only in her conscious so...??? well. anyway. because he is part Arcadian part Human, he never belonged to neither of them. the Arcadian makes fun of him and gave him less points for his acts, while at the same time he knew he is less than a human to familiarize with another human.

I actually didn’t manage to see to his route to the end because... the lack of my understanding of the plot really made the climax so boring.

and that’s it. I prolly won’t be able to go through other routes. I took a peek at each of them’s walkthrough and saw either Mei or Takumi being the Producer since theirs has multiple endings. I’m betting on Takumi because if any character’s gonna be shady, might as well be the most innocent looking one. 

I might clear Mizuki’s though because, let’s face it, they’re the most interesting person of all.

so in conclusion: I really need someone to explain to me this game’s story. I’m way underqualified for it.

[iamnotawomanimagod]

some of ya’ll might remember a drama I had a few months ago involving an old friend/parental figure and her new, much younger boyfriend.

here’s how that’s going (mostly for my record, you should prolly skip this tbh.)

tw for abuse, super large age gaps in romantic relationships, ableism towards mental illness, making fun of triggers, etc.

it’s also long af lmao, sorry mobile users

basically I burned a bridge previously thought Unburnable. A friend I’d had for 15 years chose the opinions and viewpoint of her months-long relationship over mine, in an issue that I considered a huge red flag. there’s honestly been so many red flags.

first - she’s 46, I’ve known her since I was 12. she helped raise me through my teen years (she’s my mom’s ex-girlfriend, but they broke up in like, 2010, so that’s old news). her new bf is 24. I’m 26. you can see one big red flag right there. I can’t even go into that one. it grosses me out.

the next came when the Boy and I got into an argument on Facebook (ofc lol). I posted something out of context about men not telling other men to smile on the street, how if it was well-intentioned towards women they wouldn’t do it towards men. it was out of context but I figured most people would fucking get it. 

he countered with some MRA “men aren’t allowed to have feelings” bullshit, basically making the conversation about how dudes are actually the victims, immediately. I smelled that from a mile away, gave an evasive questioning response, he sniped back with the same shit. It devolved from there.

it was clearly something he had done a lot of before. so, like, he’s an internet troll. okay, whatever. sometimes young men make dumb choices and the internet is ripe for that kind of embarrassing faux pas. at that moment I still believed it was something he could’ve been educated out of.

it was a dumb internet argument that I even I can admit got super out of hand. after a lot of pointless back-and-forth, I asked him to stop engaging because I realized it was something that I clearly felt more passionately about than him.

I had also had a very reasonable conversation with my friend about him on the phone, which encouraged me to try to just end the debate. she had assured me it was a fluke, that he was just trying to have a debate, told me some of his Tragic Backstory to make up for it, yadadada. whatever. I was ready to move on.

the Boy could not let me have the last word though. and his last words were, in my opinion, a gigantic fucking red flag, and would have been a dealbreaker for me personally, if I was dating him.

his exact words were: “and so the triggered internet warrior loses the plot”

so a triggered joke. y’know, something shitty people do. making fun of and making light of ptsd. something internet trolls are known to do. and the alt-right.

it was a big, giant red flag for me.

I foolishly believed my friend had a similar heart to mine, and that she would (a) take my word that he was being an asshole, even if she didn’t fully understand the context due to the age gap, since I’ve known her for 15 years and he’d known her for about two months at the time, and (b) also see it as a dealbreaker. 

I mentioned her by name on Facebook ( “does your gf know the kind of person you are,” essentially). She’s an old person so she took me mentioning her (not even tagging her! just mentioning her!) as a grave insult, and she and I had several screaming, crying phone conversations that weekend where she basically refused to listen to me, and I got exponentially angrier and angrier about her indifference and how unaffected she was by what the Boy said. it didn’t help that she proceeded to spend the weekend with him while ignoring all of my texts and phone calls. I felt he had undue influence over her and that I was losing the chance to have her understand why this was a red flag.

I got a lil scary. understand this person was like a mother to me, or at the very least like an older sister/auntie. I suppose I felt she owed me something, due to our history. that was a bit crazy-person of me, but also not totally unfounded. I lived in her house for two years after she and my mom broke up. my mom abused her and I was the one to help break that cycle. we had been incredibly close and I often told her things I would tell no one else. she would do the same with me. I expected her to take my side, or to at the very least understand my viewpoint. I was devastated, heartbroken, and pissed off when she took his.

still am, or I wouldn’t be here writing a 1000 word blog entry on a semi-public platform just to explain the backstory of what happened two months ago - not even the most recent, most troubling development in this stupid saga.

regardless, she basically thought I misunderstood him, and I came to the realization that it was probably the first time she had ever even heard the word “triggered” in that context - as someone making fun of someone else for a mental illness. she basically accused me of living in a liberal echo chamber/thought bubble, that she “knew his heart” and he “couldn’t possibly have meant something bad by it” (not verbatim, but the gist). she used the fact that a couple of my like-minded friends jumped in to rag on him after he dropped the triggered joke. not before, during the actual (slightly more reasonable) discourse.

I ended up getting like, obscenely mad at this, and really bratty. I told my friend she was out of touch and it was embarrassing. That I was ashamed of her. That she was a detriment to the nonprofit field (where she works) because she was so behind-the-times. That she was relying on her job to get out of having to do any work towards social issues in her personal life. I got mean.

b/c that’s what I do when I know I’m burning a bridge.

and I knew I was. b/c if she can’t trust me and listen to me about this, one of the most important things to me, a value I thought she shared - then she’s not who I thought she was. and, to be melodramatic as fuck because that’s who I am - she’s literally sleeping with the motherfucking enemy.

so. that’s what happened like...two or three months ago. we haven’t spoken since. I did my salt-the-earth-of-this-relationship-with-insults routine, blocked her on all available methods of contact, and tried to move on.

unfortunately, another drama in my family chose this time to intersect, because that’s how life works for me and mine.

my sister is on house arrest. for lots of complicated and ugly reasons, my friend’s house was the best place for her to serve this sentence. my sister just got out of a very abusive relationship. she’s a recovering alcoholic - but only when she’s being monitored via ankle bracelet by the state. like she recently went on a bender that coincided with my other sister’s wedding, which she was absent for, causing a huge rift there. she’s trying really, really hard to get her life back on track, despite making some mistakes. my friend really made it seem like she was in my sister’s corner, and like she was willing to build a safe and stable place for my sister to get sober and do her time.

I just found out from my mom that the Boy put his hands on my sister. 

There was a bad argument, things got out of hand (serious rage issues in my family - it’s in our blood, regardless of sobriety, tbh. drinking just brings it out faster). My sister was being forced to quit smoking cigarettes because my friend decided to. I can understand how it escalated.

What I can’t understand is how my friend thought it was acceptable, given what she went through. Given she knows exactly what my sister has been going through.

My sister screamed, “don’t put your fucking hands on me”

he replied, “I’ll put my hands on you whenever I want.”

but I’m just a crazy liberal living in an echo chamber, right? I totally didn’t see right through this guy from the moment I met him, or from the first serious conversation I had with him? naaah. crazy liberal in an echo chamber.

I’m smug because if I stay smug I won’t get pissed. I won’t drive over there as soon as my husband is home and read that disgusting, borderline-pedophilic couple the riot act.

and I won’t feel guilty for how I’m in no position to help my sister out. that she’s in another house with another entitled, violent fucking straight man.

I can’t even like, approach my friend for another wakeup call. I’m too good at burning bridges. she won’t listen to me anymore. even if she barely did at the start.

ugh.

where’s my weed.

[inspirationallyinsane]

March 11 2018

Hi Tumblr. I am feeling awful. I am trying really hard not to break, not to cry, not to be angry or sad. I think that I am those things though. I do not know how much longer I can keep my happy face on or how much longer I can keep the tears away. Maybe if I can ignore it for long enough I will just forget about the sadness. I am not good at ignoring it though. I like to think about things and consider all of the possibilities and really agonize over everything. And so when something devastating happens and it is something that I do not understand I will think about it until I die, probably. I didn’t want to write about it either. I didn’t want to write about it for many reasons but I didn’t want to have everyone know how terribly sad I feel right now. In front of everyone I seem fine and I seem happy and normal and I would like people to think I am feeling that way. That I am strong and that I can continue to be and that I won’t break. But I feel sick, all the time. To the point that I am shivering constantly. I know that it is just my anxiety but it feels horrible. I feel like I can’t breathe, I feel like I am going to die and I am exhausted. I do not know how to feel better. I don’t know what to do. There is nothing I can do. I can’t move on right now and I can’t talk to him and so I feel stuck. I feel like my feet are glued to the ground and the ground is trying to swallow me up. I can’t run away from the ground. But I’m reaching, I’m begging for someone to pull me out. I wish I could just move my feet. I strongly believe that my relationship is over. That Vince has ended things. We haven’t seen each other in a few weeks, which isn’t all that abnormal for us. And just on Thursday he was being loving towards me. I am so lost as to what happened. I don’t understand. I am searching for a reason, for a meaning. I was with my mom last night and I noticed that right after he watched my snapchat story (of a bench that Zach and I found on our Saturday hike) he unfriended me on snapchat. Then he blocked me. I tried to call him and text him but he wouldn’t answer. I am so confused. I truly am so lost. I did nothing to him, I did nothing wrong. And so recently he was acting like nothing was wrong. To be so cruel so suddenly? It doesn’t make any sense. And maybe that is why I won’t break yet. Because I can’t fully accept this. I can’t accept something that is so unbelievable. But really, what other meaning could this have? I know that he has needed space and time in the past but he has never gone this far to ignore me. To push me out. I would not be surprised if he doesn’t even read this. The only reason I could think of for him to do this is if he thinks that I did something awful to him. Like maybe he believes I cheated on him? I’m not entirely sure, because even then I really thought he was the type of person who would want to talk in person, do this in person. He always said that if we were ever to break up we would meet at Shari’s and talk over “neutral ground”. He said that I meant too much to him for him to break up over a text. And now?? He can’t even give me a text. He won’t even talk to me. And the worst part is? I’m waiting. I’m waiting for him. To tell me something, to give me anything. A reason, an assurance. It’s like... I know, but I haven’t heard him say it and so I will wait. How horrible? What is wrong with me? This is awful and yet...? I know that the best thing for me right now is to be around people and interact and feel loved. But I can’t. I don’t want to do that. I don’t want to stream and I don’t want to see my friends. I don’t want to do any of it. I want to sit here and feel like death. It would be so easy for the ground to swallow me. It would be so easy to end. But I can’t always do what I want, right? I can’t always give up. And so I will stream tonight and I will go see my family and friends and I will try my hardest to pull my feet out of the ground. It feels impossible right now. But, just like with Austin or Emry I was able to pull my feet out from the ground and no matter how long I felt awful for, there was eventually a time where I didn’t feel awful. I guess. And I am not sure if I will ever be able to love someone the way I love Vince. Like in all honesty. I’m really unsure. I want to believe so badly that there will be another. But that is not what I believe. And even though I have told myself one million times, I do not believe it. Maybe my love died to him. Maybe I died to him. Maybe that will make things easier. And I still love him. It’s unfortunate. He can treat me like this, he can make me feel like shit and I still. I still love him. More than anything. I would still dedicate my life to him. I can’t even be angry with him. There is no anger in my heart towards him. I am disappointed and I am confused. I am sad, heartbroken. And I am angry at the situation, but not angry with him. I just want him to tell me that it is going to be ok. I just want to tell him that I love him. How weak am I? He is lucky, because he says that once he is done with someone he can move on immediately. I have no doubt that I am not even a thought in his mind anymore, obviously. But it will take me years, likely, to get over him. To genuinely smile with someone again. I love him with all of me. And I don’t understand. I feel like I’m losing my mind. I want so much for us. I have created a life for us in my mind. I got him this star map thing for Valentines day and I just want so badly to see it hung above OUR bed someday. Together. I want us to be happy together and be successful together and I don’t understand why he doesn’t see it anymore. I felt like he saw that with me that he wanted that with me. Not even a week ago he said that it is not silly to imagine us getting married someday, albeit not tomorrow ;P I’m just perplexed. Confused. I don’t even know what else there is. And right now the anxiety is so overwhelming that I think it is drowning out all of the other emotions, like it is literally to the point where I am hallucinating things. I am not inside of myself right now, I am not me. I have to remind myself to breathe. If I am not consciously trying to live, I will die and I will not die to him. I will not die to this. I can’t. Well. I very easily could and I know it would feel so so good but I won’t. I guess that is everything for now. I do not want to cry today and so I have to stop right now. But, thank you as always for listening, Tumblr. I do not know what I would do without my blog and all of the love I get from my readers :) y’all are my rock(s?) :D I’ll prolly post a link to my stream later if anyone wants to talk to me, or just watch in silence haha~ Goodnight, Tumblr.

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Robotnik Art Historia- Part Four: Age of the Eggman

Welcome one and all to the Robotnik Art Historia, where we examine the visual depictions of Robotnik over the years! Well beautiful friends, we’re close to the end here, and it’s rather appropriate given that the particular ‘era’ of the books covered here is where things really began to end for the old Robotnik, with a new Robotnik emerging to take the place of the old- Robo-Robotnik, an early one shot villain, who after devastating his own Mobius was moving in to the current one in order to re-live the thrill of conquest. Uploading his consciousness into a body modeled after the modernized Eggman design from Sonic Adventure, he would take over as central villain to the book, and usher in a time when SEGA would finally start exerting more and more control over the book in order to align things more closely to the games, having decided that they wanted a more consistent depiction of their mascot and his world. To sound off that declaration, an adaptation of Sonic Adventure would become the first major plot after issue 75. Afterwards came what I like to call ‘The Dark Ages’.

Now, for each person, when and why ‘The Dark Ages’ started up is a matter of interpretation. Personally, I place the deterioration of things as happening after the Sonic Adventure adaptation finished- this is era that would give us Green Knuckles, the Love Triangle, Freedom Fighters In School, and the thrice accursed art of Ron Lim (more on him below). It was an age of uneven storytelling and even more uneven art. Yet despite having long since been permanently killed off, Robotnik managed to linger on all the same. Fittingly, this era would feature some of the crappiest art of Robotnik yet, and at the same time would signal his temporary return to the books... in what was probably one of the worst Sonic issues ever. 

19. Chris Allan

A former regular on the Archie Ninja Turtles comic, Chris Allan theoretically should have been a perfect fit for the book, having demonstrated more than enough skill in drawing anthropmorphic animals that would qualify him to handle Sonic. Unfortunately, Allan was a rather prominent example of what I call ‘Sonic Complacency Syndrome’- it’s when an otherwise skilled and competent artist’s abilities turn to complete shit when they try to do Sonic. It has felled more than a few, and serves as a good illustration as to why it takes effort to do this shit right- Allan’s Mobians were poorly, poorly executed, and try as he might he could never quite get them right. He was selected to illustrate the ‘Tales of the Great War’ stories, which helped to flesh out the (underwhelming) details of the Great War and how Robotnik came to be Warlord. While his Mobians were sub-par, he managed to do a pretty good job with Robotnik. There was nothing in particular that stood out about his take on the guy, but given how the rest of his work ‘stood out’, that’s prolly for the best. 

19. Frank Strom

Frank Strom’s enduring legacy on the Sonic Book was the creation of the Dragon Kingdom and all the characters associated with it, including the infamous Monkey Khan. Frank Strom before working on Sonic was heavily involved with DC’s Looney Tunes comics as a writer, and worked extensively in Adult Comics. When it came to drawing for Sonic, he was.... not really all that good, at least when it came to Mobians. He had more luck with humans, including Robotnik, and was among the few to draw the guy before he had the bionic earsa nd eyes. While there is nothing especially bad about how he drew Robotnik, there’s something very... off, about the way he looks. Bit of an uncanny valley thing going on there. And as many before him did, Strom is yet another to draw Robotnik with a bulbous nose. Out of all the features that artists drawing the guy seem to mess up, it’s more often than not its his nose- which is ironic, given that this design has the least exaggerated nose out of any Robotnik and Eggman out there. 

20. Suzanne Paddock 

Susan Paddock is a bit of a mystery- she has only two Sonic works to her name, only one of them being a proper story, and I can’t really find much of anything about her career outside of the hedgehog. Still, the one story she illustrated for was perhaps one of the most out there ideas in all of the book- a story where Sonic winds up in a rules obsessed zone and has to clear his name with the help of a lawyer Sally Acorn called “Sally McAcorn”. Yeah, that’s not dated or anything (for those of you who weren’t children of the 90s, Fox in those days had a comedy tinged lawyer show called ‘Ally McBeal’, best known for birthing the ‘dancing baby’ meme of the early internet).

 Anyway, Paddock’s art style in general was really weird, and her depiction of Robotnik was no different- in this Zone an AI called ‘J.U.D.G.’, at some point in the past there was an organic Robotnik, and just... look at him. He has teeny tiny T-rex arms! And his body looks like it was glued onto his legs! Damn this was a weird ass story, and I’m still not clear if it was meant to be implied that the past Robotnik became J.U.D.G.E or not... yeah in addition to being weird, this was a crappy story in general. It was also the last time Robotnik in any form would appear in a Super Special, as between this stinker and the even worse ‘Naugus Games’ the line was cancelled. 

21. J. Axer 

Jeffrey Axer was one of a number of artists on the book who started out as a fanartist, and easily one of the most well regarded- bringing to the book an incredibly detailed anime-influenced aesthetic, he was responsible for some of the most gorgeous artwork to grace the early 2000s era of the book. Which is why its such a crying shame that the only times he got to draw Robotnik 1.0 where in a pair of Pro-Art pieces, both of which were miscolored. Seriously, why is it so hard to remember that his eyes are red against black??? Why??? Ah well- Axer’s Robotnik was cool looking, taking much of the SatAM Robotnik and making it fit into the anime aesthetic very nicely. I especially dig  the fang-like eye teeth and attention paid to his cheek bones. 

22. Ron Lim

Hooo boy, Ron Lim... I still wonder if he was a victim of Sonic Complacency Syndrome or if he just didn’t give a shit. Either way, Lim was a former Marvel hotshot who was particularly well known for his work on Silver Surfer. I am convinced that the reason he got the job at Archie was purely on the basis of having been a big name at Marvel, because lord almighty his artwork was just horrendous. Well, that’s not entirely fair- Ron Lim is in fact a very skilled artist, but the problem was? He was a poor, poor, poor fit at Sonic with a near total inability to even vaguely grasp the kind of style you’d expect for a Sonic book. What was worse though was that despite how awful his work on the book was, Ron Lim stuck around for a long, long time, to such an extent that he was practically the main artist for the book for much of the early 2000s. Yeah, not fun times. 

Naturally, his touch of dung extended to his art for Robotnik. Much like Penders, Lim struggled to reconcile the realism he was used to with the toony exaggeration required of the book, and ended up failing on both counts. Ron Lim’s Robotnik as an end result was a stubby, wrinkly looking guy whose appearance made it seem as though he had been sculpted from butter and was in the process of melting. Not helping matters at all was the fact that the story he appeared in was one of the very worst of the series, and a personally despised one. Lim’s Robontik is noteworthy in that it might be the most realistic looking of the various attempts at drawing Robotnik... this however was not a good thing, as much like Penders, Lim’s Robotnik was caught in an awkward area between realism and tooniness, and executing neither well. Still, this wasn’t the worst drawn Robotnik on the book. That distinct honor would go to the next on our list...

23. “Many Hands” 

Many Hands. A name which will live in infamy. Okay technically ‘Many Hands’ wasn’t a person but a bunch of people, but twice this name has popped up and twice the end result was just odious. Look at this. Just... look at this. Do I really have to explain why this is awful? He looks like a deflated baloon, his shoulder pads are all wrong, and the coloring and shading is just *garish*. This is probably the worst drawn Robotnik in the entire series, and given all the shitty art that came before and after that’s REALLY saying something. 

24. Dawn Best 

Another of the ‘New Wave’ of fanartists-turned-pro that hit the book in the early 2000s, Dawn Best was a much anticipated addition to the books, having made a name for herself in fan circles as a superb artist. She showed a great deal of promise, much of which was unfortunately squandered thanks to Ken Penders’ absolutely abominable inks making a hash out of the bulk of her art. While he slowly improved down the line, the damage was done. Regardless, Best remained pretty popular. She only managed to draw Robotnik once- her take on Robotnik was an especially chunky and brutish looking specimen, with a shaggier and more unkempt mustache than most. As I say far too often than I like, its a shame we could not have seen more from her... both regarding Robotnik and in general.

And thus we bring this chapter of the Historia to a close. Well friends, it’s the beginning of the end now- after this there will only be one last post to this artist retrospective, as we exit the Dark Age of the book and enter into what was a bright and shiny renaissance- the Flynn Era!  

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re soulless kyle

I think Kyle too would kind of have a period of like ‘am i… what broke in me?’ upon first losing his soul but not realizing that’s what changed. I could see him trying to push himself more into the things he normally likes, kind of like when you try a drug or something you get that tolerance so you have to try more to feel the same. Kyle trying to do more reckless shit to try and get that same rush. I think. Like there’d still be adrenaline, right? That’s just body shit. But it’s not… it doesn’t register as excitement for him anymore, it’s a lot more technical in his head, he can feel his energy’s up but that’s not him being excited, that’s just high adrenaline in his veins, it’s not the same feeling. The first time gil or ivan or ludwig are put in danger and he’s almost too confused about why he’s not more scared to actually step forward and do something. Dismissing it as his freezing up when one of the others step in to help and they have to ask why he didn’t do anything. Distantly says he’s sorry and asks if the other’s okay. It’s very weird that like kissing ivan or sleeping with him and such doesn’t have the same effect. It’s still great and all, to a point, but it’s also very much just the physical reactions versus anything else he used to also feel. On the bright side for ivan, i think the first time he and kyle sleep together after kyle loses his soul, like it’s rougher than usual and he’d prolly be more about that. But again, for kyle it’s from this mentality of like ‘oh well if i do this thing more or harder, that’ll clear past this tolerance or whatever and it’ll feel normal’. Except none of it works. Hey good thought: kyle going for a jog one morning as kyle does, sees a deer in some nearby woods, stops to take a picture of it because kyle taking pictures and looking at animals are like, those are two of his favorite things, but as he tries to line it up it’s just. This doesn’t fucking matter, y’know? No shot looks good because he judges a shot based on how it feels and this doesn’t feel like anything. It’s dumb and he hardly gives a shit when the deer spots him with his phone and takes off. That’s kind of the objective ‘i’m not how i used to be’ realization. Like he’s tried everything between risks and caring about his friends and taking pictures and seeing animals and nothing has worked and he kind of accepts at this point like. Okay well i guess this is just it, fuck the emotions i used to have? He wants to say this sucks, but it doesn’t even suck because he can’t process it sucking on an objective level. 

Later on though, he does start to feel like, objectively, it doesn’t suck? The next time someone’s put in danger, we’ll say ludwig, it’s like a hostage thing, like stand back or we’ll kill him. And reluctantly ivan starts to back away and gilbert puts down his gun, but kyle kinda smirks like “really?” and snaps his gun forward and blasts the person right in the face. Once all the bad guys are dead, gilbert pulling kyle aside to be like what the fuck??? They could have killed him! you shot two inches away without really aiming, /you/ could have killed him! And Kyle is like, wholly dismissive. So you’re mad I saved your boyfriend’s life? Fine, don’t worry, I won’t do it again. And it’s not even really aggressive or offended gilbert doesn’t appreciate the work. Objectively, it’s kinda dumb that gilbert’s mad, but whatever, it literally doesn’t matter. He won’t do it again if it’s such a big deal, fine. Same with like, a situation that’s a risk to himself, He finds he’s better at those since like, before he joked about not being afraid of death but he was kind of a little afraid of death, especially as he started to gain more friends and thus reasons to not die. Here he really doesn’t care! One of them have to pull him out of the way from getting hurt and he doesn’t thank them, just says something like oh nice timing or something and moves on. He maybe regrets the friends thing, if only because yeah it’s kind of becoming exhausting dealing with these three without his feelings. Like it’s still his brother and his boyfriend and his friend, but when he sits out with ivan under the sky at night and ivan talks about the different stars and their names and different info about them, like kyle can remember himself before loving to hear this shit, loving to watch ivan just be fascinated by all this stuff. but now he has to bite his tongue a couple times to keep from asking ivan to just shut up for once in his fucking life. There’s definitely a couple of those scenes like with sam where kyle is talking to someone and would normally be sympathetic and lie to make them feel better but he’s blunt and tactless and it catches everyone overhearing from the group off guard. Gil trying to get a reaction out of kyle, asking him if he woke up on the wrong side of the bed or maybe some familial tease equivalent, but kyle’s dismissive and carries on with his day. Kyle’s also a little better at lore research. Like listening to ivan talk about space or something, there’s no purpose for that at the time, that doesn’t help him any, but at least with research he sees there’s a purpose and that helps fight the boredom more. it’s still not super interesting but still. Also like, him noticing once out of the blue that he hasn’t had a mood dip like. Once. this whole time, holy shit, can that happen? Can he be emotionally stable for like a whole x amount of time? No way. Like he doesn’t feel /joy/ any more, but he also hasn’t tried drinking himself into an early grave over guilt or feeling like a failure or something since then so like. Nice, add that to the pro column.

And when they figure it out, similarly a click of like ohhhh okay, cool. “And here i was thinking something was wrong with me.” met with gil snapping that that /is/ wrong, he’s missing his soul! “No no, i heard ‘em, yeah.” it immediately gives him an excuse so any issues he had before are gone because there’s no ‘why don’t i ____’ anymore it’s just ‘oh that’s what soul kyle liked, that makes sense.’ and he starts to consider more like ‘oh wow soul kyle would probably be sad i lost this, but not me kyle, fuck that trait!’ like, like you know when you get older and you think back to compare the traits you valued as a kid/teen and how you are now? like younger me was such a goody two shoes hero type, and way more emotive and everything, i’m 100% sure she’d be a little disappointed to see me the way i am now. but like. i’m disappointed remembering her so we’re even, fuck off past me, i like myself currently better than you liked yourself back then so who really won this game? anyway, that kinda shit. that ‘i recognize there’s a version of me who would be upset to see this go but that ain’t this version of me and this version of me feels better off without it’ “Feeling no joy? Soul Kyle would miss it, but on the other hand I haven’t been sad let alone emotionally devastated for like /a while/ so points for me.” something comes up in relation to a touchy subject like dead family or the mistakes he’s made and he just kinda shrugs and talks about it like it’s fine, and not even in the normal kyle “says it’s fine but very aggressively so obviously it’s not” way, like his reaction is bland and blank, it’s literally fine. If one of the others brings up famine or doug or anything like that, he gets all on edge and doesn’t want to talk about it normally, but he answers casually and calmly this time around, like they’re talking about a trip to the library he took earlier instead of that time he got his best friend from when he was younger killed just because he wanted to believe the demon using his body was okay so they could keep in contact while he kept hunting.

And speaking of doug, hey like um. soulless kyle and doug meeting back up for whatever reason? Soulless kyle probably on his own for something, maybe later trying to get away from the rest of the group who very much want to reunite him with his soul. For doug, probably some flashback of like the gang about to kill him but doug doing something that makes it so the thing isn’t going to actually kill him and then smoking back into the body, straightens out a broken arm or hand or something, corrects his snapped neck, quietly on his way. Who knows why he’d go back into that body rather than get a new one other than that’s the one the viewers saw him in and will connect him too. basically i just want doug planning to get revenge in the first moment he finds soulless kyle, doesn't realize in that initial moment that it's anything other than normal kyle. But kyle seeing him and not seeming to give a fuck, so you used my body to try and hurt my friends. It wasn’t great, but i’m not gonna hold a grudge over it, said kyle brown never before today. Not sure what the details on this would be, but basically i want soulless kyle 100% not angry at but also playing doug. Wasn’t actually lying, he’s not mad about that, but, on the other hand, him knowing the other 3 are on his tail and tricking doug into being a distraction for them to slow them down while he keeps moving. Like. soulless kyle sending a demon after his friends because like, they can probably handle him and even if they can’t, that’s 1-3 less person on his tail trying to stop him and put his soul back in him.

Also in reverse au, doug being the one to explain like, hey, putting ivan’s soul back in his chest could like kill him or shatter his mind or any number of things. I mean, I’ll happily /do/ that if you want and can get a hold of the soul, but like, you can’t get mad at /me/ if things go to shit.

Also also hey remember that time spn turned dean into a demon and instead of doing anything cool with that they just had him fuck some people and fight some people and whine or whatever. or crowley whined. someone whined a lot and it was dumb. Dean def dismissed his brother being in danger, that was.... something i guess. Like an actual demon- like darkness itself in a tattoo demonic and. Just gets into some fights and likes fucking people. That’s the same shit kyle does in possession au /after/ he’s been possessed by a lower level demonic creature already. Like cmon. Show dean torturing someone, show dean torturing a friend, you cowards. don’t make him a demon if you won’t fucking commit!