#he really cares so much and he tries so hard to protect the people closest to him

[maschotch]

[dark-and-kawaii]

༺ 𝒯𝒾𝑒𝒻𝓁𝒾𝓃𝑔 𝐻𝑒𝒶𝒹𝒸𝒶𝓃𝑜𝓃𝓈 ༻

Just some random headcanons I have for my three favorites, Zevlor, Dammon, and Rolan!! I hope you enjoy these!

Fluff - NSFW

- 𝒵𝑒𝓋𝓁𝑜𝓇 -

Our soft sweet man is just such a softie in bed.

Zevlor is so afraid of hurting you while bedding you, he absolutely hesitates at first asking you if you're sure, if this is really okay, that he's not worth your time, and that he’s afraid you’ll get hurt.

You'll definitely have to be the one to initiate the relationship, and you're 100% going to need to be the one who initiates sex.

Loves when you rake your nails gently down his sides and won't stop you from playing with his tail... He gets really flustered when you go for his tail during sex. The way he moans as you rub your hand over the tip of his tail causes him to groan and moan, Zevlor tries to bite back the sound but at times it's hard to contain such noises.

This isn't a boy, this is an absolute man. Degrading nicknames are pretty much off the table for him simply because he has so much respect for you. Now you could probably convince him to say a few things here and there, but it's so out of character for him and he never thought his red skin could get much redder until you get him to call you his "whore". Zevlor will always tell you afterwards, “You know i didn’t mean that, correct? I would never look at you in such a way.”

He loves you and he wants you to know that, Zevlor never wants you to feel like an object. To him you are his person, his life partner who helped him save his people and defenseless children.

Oh gods, if you helped him keep the children safe that alone makes him view you in such a bright light. He loves kids and the thought of having his own has crossed his mind more than he'd like to admit.

Holding you in his arms is something he cherishes deeply, he worries it might be the last everytime so he always gives you one last tight, but soft, squeeze. It's almost like he's memorizing the feeling of your body against his.

Loves to pepper you with kisses while on top of you! Every time he finishes he brings his head up to look at you with a tender smile before saying, "I love you."

Whether it's after a passionate moment, or simply going to sleep this man will wrap his tail around your thigh. If Zevlor is spooning you he will drape his tail over your hip or legs. Not only does this comfort him but it also reassures him that he's not alone anymore and that he has someone to protect other than his people.

Zevlor will always sleep on the side closest to any door or cave entrance; that way he can be the first they attack, giving you time to escape. He's incredibly selfless.

This man gets incredibly worried if you come back to him with an injury of any kind! He might even scold you, “What were you thinking?!” Will tend to your wounds like a professional -he’s done this several times thanks to being a hellrider-, and once he’s done wrapping you he’ll hold your hand begging you to be more careful next time.

- 𝒟𝒶𝓂𝓂𝑜𝓃 -

Is so awkward at first, like oh my god he is so awkward if he has a crush on you. Will hold your hand and just kinda shake it before letting it go.

Blushing and hiding his face is something that happens if you walk over to him just to admire his work.

He has a few moods in bed, soft, rough, and playful. Our incredibly handsome blacksmith has a dirty book stashed in his house so like common we all know he’s into some freaky stuff.

Will lift you in his arms before either tossing you on his bed or laying you down gently, always expect a kiss on your neck once he’s back on top of you.

If you don’t grab his horns while you two are connected he’s going to be disappointed, won’t ever say anything to you about it, but he loves when you play with them or use them as leverage while riding him.

I definitely like to think Dammon is an expert at shibari, so expect to be tied up. I think deep down he’d love to have you tied up while he works, teasing you every so often until he’s finished the sword he’s been working hard on.

Likes to graze your skin with his sharp teeth and nails, he loves the way you shiver in response.

Tail play? Absolutely a thing with our babe Dammon. He will tease your slit and clit with his tail and if you’re slick enough he’ll slowly push it inside you. He won’t ever purposely try to hurt you and if you wince the slightest he’ll withdraw his tail and apologize. Only when you’re comfortable enough will he try again.

Likes to wrap his tail around you in general. Dammon loves it when you visit him while he’s working because he knows you’ll come from behind to hug him and his tail just naturally curls around you.

He’s a tail guy, it's hard for him to control his tail at times but if he’s happy you’ll know not only because of his eyes but also his tail.

If you’re a tiefling expect his tail to be entwined with your own.

Coming back to him with an injury is something he never likes to witness. It hurts him, like it really hurts him. He isn’t some hellrider or fighter like you or zevlor, he’s just a simple blacksmith who isn’t that strong on the battlefield -we all saw that 8 HP-. So how in the hells is he supposed to keep you safe, even when he thinks he’s made the toughest armor and you still come back with a wound… Oh gods it kills him. He feels like he failed you and failed as a blacksmith.

Dammon will always want to tend to your wounds, it's the least he could do since he feels so crummy about it. Will get as gentle as he can be, he’s pretty quiet during the process and you’ll be the one asking him what's wrong. He’ll sigh and pause momentarily until he tells you what's going through his mind. A simple caress to his cheek is all it takes for him to smile at you before placing a kiss where he just patched up.

No doubt Dammon wants kids, plural. I think he’d like at least three children, the gender doesn’t even matter so long as they’re all healthy :,)

- 𝑅𝑜𝓁𝒶𝓃 -

This bitch, this stubborn, high maintenance tiefling, GOD I LOVE HIM.

Let’s get one thing straight, he prefers to be on the bottom.

Rolan doesn’t mind being on top but he much rather you do the work so he can watch your hips grind down on him. Loves to admire your body, like he really likes to admire you. You’re the most stunning female he’s ever met, won’t tell you that of course, but he thinks it every single time you’re on top of him.

Doesn’t like quickies, sex is a form of art to him and he likes to take his time and be one with you. He didn’t pick you to be his because he wanted to get off quickly, he chose you because he loves you and likes to be in your presence. That’s a rare thing for him and he intends to take advantage of that.

There’s only one place he likes a good quickie and that’s when he’s at Sorcerous Sundries. It’s also when he takes the most control, pinning you against that bookshelf he was just rifling through, the books falling off the shelves, it’s chaotic but he surprisingly doesn't mind it.

Something Rolan really enjoys is when he’s reading a new book and you come to him wanting to be in his lap. He used to find it obnoxious and would tell you that he’s busy, but when you stopped your attempts it made him feel strange… He never had a family besides his siblings, what if he becomes the reason you run off… The thought of you abandoning him because of his attitude pushed him to start asking you if you’d like to sit in his lap while he studies. Rolan still found it infuriating at first, but the more he allowed it the more he started to enjoy it. Now he finds himself holding you as if you’d vanish with one arm, his hand always resting at your thigh or the small of your back with his book in the other all while smiling pleasantly.

Has zero interest in kids, like it's going to take some convincing -even then good luck-. I can only assume he had a rough upbringing and I'm also assuming he was abandoned by his biological family. This has left a sour taste in his mouth when it comes to kids. “We have a perfectly good life now, why ruin it with a whiny one?”

Coming home with an injury??? Yeah you better expect, no you already know you wont hear the end of it. He’ll mock you for wanting to be the hero again and tell you how incredibly stupid it was of you to run off defending others when you should be more worried about yourself.

As he bandages your arm it's quiet, the only noise coming from the crackling fire. You’re silent, not wanting to speak with him after he berated you. Rolan is the one to speak up, telling you that he just worries. Its rare to see him with his walls down, even after being in a relationship for so long, but he breaks the walls as he stands to look at his bandage work. “You, Cal, and Lia are all i have… Please, don’t try something like this again. For my sake.” You aren’t sure what to say, he’s never sounded so hurt, so vulnerable. It’s the perfect time to tease him, “Are you getting sentimental on me?” He’ll just glare at you telling you to shush and to go get some rest.

Enjoys watching you, Cal, and Lia getting along. While you three joke and have your arms over one another’s shoulders while cheersing, Rolan can’t stop smiling. As soon as you turn around though his smile fades and he tells all three of you, “you’re all idiots, honestly.”

[crushedsweets]

How would the other pastas/proxies react if Toby died during a mission?

Writing on my phone in the car 10 mins before my shift forgive me… finished during my lunch break…

Tim would try really really fucking hard to pretend he doesn’t care all that much. He’s already lost plenty of friends/colleagues (directly or indirectly) to the operator and slenderman, and he always treated Toby like he was a pain in the ass, but like. Him and Brian took Toby in when he was just 17-18, he tried to make him a better man, the two of them have done abhorrent shit together and had to return to the cabin like nothing happened. He’d cry, spend long hours thinking about Toby, thinking about how much of a dick he was to the kid. But he’s strong . Kinda

Brian wouldn’t try to pretend he doesn’t care, although he is in a very similar boat to Tim. Took him in, guided him, hurt him - he would probably be the one to set up a grave of some sort for Toby, whether or not they even have his body to bury. The rest of them wouldn’t be able to do it

It’s possible that Kate wouldn’t even find out for a long fucking while. But she would cry, and mourn, and she would start going back to the cabin and she would sleep in the attic (Toby’s room) and it would be shitty. Toby was the only proxy to treat her like a person and they were both outcasts in their own right, both being the closest to perfect vessels slenderman/the operator could get . So it would suck ass.

I think Natalie would just die too. Ok not really but he was the first person to really just. Take care of her. And she really trusted that he would never ever leave her, not like everyone else . She would be angry, pissed beyond belief and she would cry and scream and throw around any of the gifts he’s ever gotten her and smash some shit he’s made her - and it wouldn’t be fair, and she would regret it, and hopefully someone would be there to pull her back before she legitimately fucks it all up, but she can’t get rid of that anger. Like Kate, she would go to the cabin. Being there too long gets her really bad slender sickness, she’s not immune like the others, but she doesn’t really care. Everything hurt so bad anyway, the screaming and crying already brought her nausea and migraines. Her and Kate would just silently lounge around his bedroom for hours everyday. Natalie is a tattoo artist with little to no tattoos bc commitment issues is a big thing for her, but she would get a little something to honor Toby

Jack would mourn . Toby used to bring flowers to his mom for Mother’s Day, because Jack couldn’t bare to be in a 10 mile radius of his family. He would try to host something for people, just invite them over and make some food and try to talk and have comfort. Only Natalie and Nina would come by choice, not because the rest don’t care but it’s just something they can’t handle to do. Kate might get dragged along. It would be painful and uncomfortable and probably just result in an argument of sorts, depending on how far along Natalie is in the grieving process . He would visit the grave Brian made for toby quite often.

Nina would be constantly crying, all the time. She’s had shitty men after shitty men in her life, the only good guys she’s had were her father and brother and she went ahead and left them behind to go seek out Jeff - but Toby was good(to a point, obviously). He was rough around the edges but he was protective, he took care of her, he defended her even if she didn’t deserve it. She and Natalie would probably have a few intense arguments because they’re two sides of the same coin in their grieving , with Natalie having constant explosive anger and Nina having long, drawn out grieving and sobbing. It would be a bit much for both of them. She would mope around her apartment for a long while.

BEN would also be pretty sad, but not nearly as much as the rest. He would talk it out with Jeff but wouldn’t cry, wouldn’t mourn , would just keep going. Jeff wouldn’t give a shit, would say it was bound to happen and to move on

Ann and Lulu would be pretty bummed out too, but Ann moves on pretty quickly. For Ann it’s more so a sad “Aw but he was fun”… lulu is too lost in her own head to spend too much time on it, but she’s undeniably sad when she’s reminded

Sally would also be sad, but similarly to BEN, she would move on. Cry to Jane about it and cope. Jane would think it’s sad, but she wouldn’t dwell on it either - she wasn’t close to him, she only knew him in passing whenever Sally got lost in the forest.

Liu doesn’t know Toby well so he wouldn’t think much, but Nina would cry to Liu about it a lot and it would be pretty depressing for him too. Just by watching how it affects Nina

[rafesproperty]

Im BEGGING so hard they make Rarry happend (rafe and Barry) BECAUSE LIKE EVEN THE CAST SHIPS ITTTT

IM THE BIGGEST RARRY SOLDIER ON EARTHHHHH I LOVE THEM SM LETS DISCUSS THEM.

The thing is that if one of them was a girl everyone in the fandom would go insane over them, but since they are boys it probably won’t even happen.

THESE ARE NOT‼️ PLATONIC LOOKS. The eyes, chico, they never lie

Topper is me asf

They would literally make so much sense. The thing is Barry is so special to Rafe in so many ways. Notice the way Rafe lets Barry talk to him (sassy, making fun of him, Barry literally going “let me lead and SHUT UP” and Rafe just going “ok🥰”, Barry going “I’ll knock that J-Crew lookin ass out” and Rafe just smirking and blushing). Rafe would NOT let people speak to him the way he lets Barry speak to him… like ever 😭 Also when Barry told him he’ll lead it was when they went after the Pogues and it’s something Rafe very much cared about. HE’S A PROACTIVE TYPE OF PERSON, he would not let someone he doesn’t 100% trust “lead,” he’s a control freak. Yet here he was, just going “okay,” trusting Barry with something so important to him.

Barrys presence is so important in Rafes life and I feel like neither of them really realises but it genuinely is. RAFE ALWAYS RUNS TO BARRY FIRST. He would NOT let anyone know he killed Peterkin (Topper and Kelce are his closest friends and he’d never tell them), yet here he was on Barrys floor, confessing to him, allowing him to see his breakdown AND —

BRO DON’T EVEN GET ME STARTED ON THIS SCENE OMFG —

He slept AT BARRYS when he had probably the worst day ever (Ward screaming “Rafe you fucked us!” at him, him drowning Sarah and Topper beating him up happened in the same day) and the next scene we get is Rafe waking up on Barrys couch. I imagine him going into absolute panic in the middle of the night and not wanting to go home to his dad, the only place he can think of being Barrys… so he goes to Barry. We were so, so robbed of a scene where Rafe shows up in the middle of the night saying “I didn’t know where else to go” with a beat up face and Barry going “Shit, country club.”

I’m just convinced Rafe felt safe enough with Barry so he always ran to him.

Their first meeting in S3 as well. I’m pretty sure that was the first time they saw each other since Barry betrayed him in S2 and Rafe was just okay and calm and ASKED BARRY FOR HELP AGAIN. Rafe holds grudges like crazy, yet he trusted him enough after his betrayal to seek him out again. Like nothing ever happened. And Barry helped him again. Because Barry always helps him (he claims it’s just for the money but the thing is he was willing to murder for Rafe and that is not something he was comfortable with the entire show, I’m genuinely convinced he would not accept that offer from anyone, murder being over the line for him… yet for Rafe? Yeah).

We could see Barry being uncomfortable by Rafes murderous temptations in a few scenes (especially the one where he tried to drown Kie), but the second Rafe asked him to kill Ward he was like ALRIGHT I’LL DO IT FOR YOU. Also Rafe was so hyperfixated on his dad, it was the most important person in the world to him, so him asking Barry to do it just shows the level of trust. He asked Barry to free him of this burden.

Also Barry DOES NOT do it only for the money. In Season 2 when Rafe comes over to pick up his drugs and asks Barry for “a piece” (a gun), Barry giggles and makes jokes UNTIL Rafe says “Do you realise it’s either me or him (John B) in this situation, right?” and in that very moment Barry switches and goes full angry protective mode and pulls out an entire bag full of guns 😭 And is fully ready to go with Rafe and to protect him and shoot a Pogue for him. But Rafe did not ask for help. He didn’t offer him money. He just asked for a gun. Barry did all of that on his own and he went with him on his own. I think that’s also why Rafe told him “You know I’ll take care of you,” he himself was surprised someone was willing to protect him and go with him out of their own free will.

At the end of S1 Barry went with Rafe after the Pogues because they owed him money, but he still handled Rafes mental breakdown pretty well (NO other character ever managed that, not even his family), he cracked some jokes and got Rafe out of the panic state by motivating him to go do something about it, and joining him.

Also the shit they say to each other…

“You know I’ll take care of you.”

“I own you now.”

“Tranquilo?”

“Tranquilo, baby.”

Barry casually saying “How does that feel, babyboy?” in S1

THE WAY THEY LOOK AT EACH OTHER?!

Nice try mf I know love eyes when I see them

Another thing is their dynamic is absolutely perfect. Rafe, a bit psychotic, always taking everything seriously, grumpy asf and Barry, sassy mf that takes nothing seriously and is quite literally the only person that knows how to handle Rafe and how to talk back to him.

PLUS the actors shipping them is so wholesome and funny tbh (at least we won’t have another Jiara accident uhm…)

They also ADMITTED VERY PROUDLY that they send Rarry edits to each other 😭 “You know, whenever I miss Drew we’ll run back the tiktoks” dnsjskks

Drew literally going “Nick Cirillo who plays Barry in the show, my right hand… also my lover”

That’s boyfriends right there

One more thing I’d like to add is Barry was so judgy of Ward when he came to see Rafe (in S2 right before Rafe tried to run away and Ward came to warn him from the police), now it might be because Ward beat him up in S1 orrrrrr because he simply saw Rafes state (Rafe probably told him that his dad yelled at him that day when he slept over) and didn’t like his dad a single bit. I choose to go with the protective bf option.

Again, if one of them was a girl it would be one of the most popular ships just bc of their dynamic and banter and chemistry (JJPope situation all over again).

I hope Drew and Nick manage to sneak in a little bro kiss in some of the upcoming seasons (like that scene from Deadly Class when Marcus is randomly bro kissed), feel like it’s something they would 100% do 😭… Imagine drunk Barry going “Country cluuubbb, mwah” and Rafe just 🧍🏻

And I’d love to continue with more pics and edits but Tumblr won’t let me add more so we’ll end it here.

But they genuinely mean the world to me. I think a lot of people are shipping them as a joke but I’m IN LOVE with their ship and dynamic and the bond between them.

That’s all ty for reading 💕

[honeybeepoliinator]

Many are misunderstanding things in Bridgerton season 3 in part2 & aren't paying attention to Polin as characters & their Journey as a couple...

Book Colin wasn't best friends with book Penelope, She was friends with the entire family, but she was never close to him like how show Penelope is close to show Colin. In the show not only they were best friends since childhood, but she even knew/met him before she became friends with Eloise. Both versions have their own journey and shouldn't be compared

Book Pen in her long time as LW most of what she published is child's play compared to what show Penelope published. Show Penelope is also more deeply hurt, overprotective ( for the Bridgertons) & bit aggressive in her writing than book Pen. Show Pen was reckless and a lot of what she published was serious scandals not only that, but she published about scandals related to the Queen/Royal Family & she directly even challenged the Queen a lot of times

Colin reaction was more than justified in his anger, even more, than book Colin, in the books, most of what Pen wrote about him in LW was that he was charming & yes it did annoy him because he felt that he was reduced to that, but in the show, Pen wrote things related to Colin things that affected him deeply from the Marina scheme to calling out the fake persona he was hiding behind at the beginning of s3. After & because of the Marina issue, many including his own siblings called him naive & he felt that he was treated as a child, He was already struggling with self-worth, how he was ignored by others & what happened traumatized him & made him feel more lost than before. In s3 when he came back from his travels he had built this wall on his real personality & true self because he thought that others including his own family don't care about his interests & stories and he tried to be like other men in the ton, and when Pen in LW called his fake persona out he felt he was losing the walls that he built to protect himself & it added to his insecurities

Show Colin genuinely loves Pen & always values her opinions, so of course he will be more hurt & sad about LW being Pen. He also just figured out the depth of his feelings for her, and because of her love he came to the realization that him being himself was the correct thing & that he doesn't need that fake persona he built to protect himself. He became vulnerable and showed his sensitivity again without feeling ashamed or scared of doing so like before. So by finding out the person he loves deeply, his closest friend, the one he opens up to is someone who not only wrote things that hurt him (unintentionally), but the fact that she has this other persona/double life, hurt him deeply and they were engaged & has only days left before their wedding. It was a lot for him to process in a short time because he knows that he loves her deeply & doesn't want to let her go ever, but at the same time, it is hard to try processing that in a short period

People showed grace to Eloise & her feeling of being hurt by what Pen wrote and her hiding LW secret from her, but the same people are refusing to show the same grace to Colin despite like I said Colin in the show really didn't have much time to process things like at all. It took Eloise a year to come to terms with Pen being LW & forgiving her and people are upset that Colin was even mad for two weeks, it's really ridiculous how he as a character isn't allowed to feel hurt about something that affects him deeply

It's so weird that Pen was also allowed to feel hurt by his comment about her for a year, refusing to answer his letters, taking all her anger that was due many factors to take that anger on him, to be allowed to use LW to publicly call him out in a moment of anger & he isn't allowed to feel little angry over the LW reveal

I do know that some were upset by the entrapped line that he said to Pen saying it was harsh and yes it was harsh, but again that is man hurting, when he said it, it was the first time he saw her after the reveal, he is someone that has been traumatized by being lied to before during an engagement & while that he knows that she didn't trap or scheme him, what happened brought back those memories and this time it was related to the girl that he really loves, so he was just hurt & his face while angry he also regretted saying that when he saw Pen reaction to the comment. Pen also despite getting affected by the comment, she still understood why he said it & forgave him over it because she knew he didn't mean it & knew the history of his trauma

He let her leave alone in the carriage because it was Pen's family carriage, she was with her own servants & he was also still following her with his own carriage, he just didn't want to ride with her in state of anger plus he knew she was safe

Him not sleeping with her because he was upset & has a lot of inner feelings to work on & process are more than valid and actually the correct thing to do. It was clear he desperately wanted to be close to her & it was clear his love & desire for her, but if he ended up sleeping with her while they didn't resolve their issues, it would've skewered him and in the end, it would've made Pen feeling used ( as someone who been in relationship & slept with my ex while we both didn't resolve our issues, it made things worse not better & it hurt our relationship and hurt our intimacy more till it didn't feel meaningful anymore)

Colin never wanted to bring negative feelings & anger into their marriage bed nor did he want to sully it in that way. For him, that's a place of joy, love & passion only. He wants them both to be clear-minded when they get intimate. It just shows who he is as a person & how kind, mature & respectful person. He loves her & he has also been struggling with feeling not worthy of her and he feels that he made things worse for her and he felt guilty about that too, so even when he really wanted he just couldn't. He wanted all their passionate moments to come from a place of love & not a place of hurt, anger & guilt

At the wedding, he shows that he loves her & will always love her, and is just trying to work on his feelings because he knows that she is his soulmate. He noticed when she was walking down the aisle that she was worried & not used to the attention being on her and he nodded and gave her a reassuring smile to tell her that he still wants that & he wants her. Their vows were real too & at the wedding breakfast he had mostly figured out a lot of his issues, but whenever he tried to go to her he was getting interrupted & after they were lost in each other eyes during their dance, the moment was interrupted by the queen & the queen showing up reminded him of the remaining issues they needed to resolve

Some people coming after him for going to Cressida to call her out & saying he was mansplaining to her and isn't taking into account that she was desperate because she didn't want to marry an old guy, but like how would he even know about that. He went there to try to protect Pen in his own way & he already doesn't like Cressida like he literally saw Pen getting bullied by Cressida all the time over the years. He still said to her that all of them have their own loneliness & that they all deal with it in different way despite everything he did understand she was lonely

Some people are sad about the ton reveal being planned by Pen & helped by her family unlike how in the books it was planned by Colin & helped by his family. She stood up for herself, she defended herself, took ownership of her mistakes, finally used her own voice & healed generational family trauma. All she wanted of him in the show is to let go of his savior complex and to just support & trust her decisions and that's what he did in the end and that was beautiful & perfect

[jhugas]

‘I OWE HER MY LIFE’- Jeon Jungkook

Masterlist

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Genre: angst, fluff

Pairing: comforting, idol!Jungkook X sad, 8th member!F!Reader

Summary: You love Bts and Army, but you don’t think you’re made for this lifestyle. So you’ve been considering leaving the group. But how will Jungkook, the one that loves you the most, react?

Warnings/tags: mention of sasaengs, and death threats (only mentions, no details), reader feels depressed, Jungkook is extremely attached, Jungkook comforts you, sad Jungkook, crying, hugs and a lovely Jungkook.

Word count: ~1,2k

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It’s been a long time you’ve been in BTS, the biggest band in the world… maybe around 5 years? You’ve had tours, fan meetings, collaborations, invitations… but also had death threats, sasaengs, people ringing at your door, and harassing you in the streets.

You’re a strong woman. Very strong. But you had limits, and limits got crossed over. This wasn’t the life you wanted; you just wanted some money to help your family. But now, you have the money without your family. You had to leave them from a young age, and with so much work and pressure, your relations with them got damaged. You believe that they won’t come back no matter what. But then, what was all of that for? Working so hard day and night since you’re 13, for nothing but money and fame.

Realizing how much better your life would’ve been without fame… tears form in your eyes. You love Bts, and you love Army, but maybe you weren’t made for this.

‘They‘ll understand. They love me too’

you reassured yourself, scared of expressing the decision you’re considering more and more; leaving Bts. Leaving the cameras, fame, and infinite money for an easier life. You try to imagine how Bts will react…

Namjoon, the one that you grew up with, that made you who you are today, comforted you every needed time and that considered you as his own sister.

Jin, that considered you as his very own daughter, bringing you to school and cooking for you.

Yoongi and Hoseok, bringing you to your bed when you fell asleep on the couch and went to the school reunions for parents.

Taehyung and Jimin being your closest friends you ever had, your big brothers, teasing you and bickering each other all the time. But always being there for each other.

And Jungkook that… loved you deeply. Very deeply. More than anyone else.

He always gave you lovely gifts, like portraits, drawings and paintings of you, and even tried sculpting you. Once, he gave you an album full of pictures he took himself of you, to prove you you were beautiful at your most insecure time. He gave you letters all the time, and was the type to write “Jungkook, you’re not so secret admirer :) ” as a signature. And always gave you the best Netflix and chill nights. Buying popcorns, letting you chose the movie, buying channels just for you, making his bedroom cozy with cute lights and more.

You were hung up on his walls. Said you were his love, passion and happiness as a person. And said he’d be your guardian angel the day he leaves.

“I’m not scared of dying because I know we’ll never really be too far from each other. In our next life, we’ll meet again, and love each other like we always did.” he said…

Tears roll down your cheek. How are you going to tell him? Will he get mad? Sad? Tons of questions go through your head as you blow your nose and throw the tissue. Will he hate you? Understand you? Does he feel the same thing? You blow your nose once again and throw the tissue. Suddenly, the door opens.

‘Y/n!! Why are you crying?!’

Jungkook comes in running and gets in front of you making sure to close the door behind him. He looks at you with worried eyes as you wipe away your tears, acting like nothing happened.

‘Y/n Im not joking! Please baby, tell me what’s wrong. You can talk to me you know it.’

He whispers the last part, taking care to not frighten you and to make you feel safe, protected. As you look at him in the eyes, you sitting on the edge of the bed and him crouching down to talk to you, he cups your face in his big hands, gets closer and kisses your forehead.

‘Jungkook… I… I’m not sure what to feel about being in Bts anymore… I’m scared, and lost… It’s not like I really want to leave but it feels like it’s the only way out…’

You look down, scared of how he’ll react. He’ll think you’re a traitor, you think…

There’s a silence. A long one. You wouldn’t be able to tell how long it was nor if it was uncomfortable or not. But it felt like hours. You hear him taking a deep breath in before saying in a weak voice:

‘Y/n… you can’t be real. You’re not thinking about leaving Bts right? You’re joking?’

He asks, sounding like he was about to cry. You slowly nod, making him understand that yes, you were indeed, considering it.

‘What’s wrong? What made you think about this? Y/n Im ready to do anything for you. Anything! Tell me what do you need I’ll do it! I’ll give it to you!’

He sounds desperate. You finally look back at him, tears still rolling down your cheeks but he gently wipes them away with his thumb. He gets on the bed and hugs you tight. His chest moving irregularly, strongly. And his arms holding you extremely close to him.

‘Im just… I’m tired! I’m tired of everything. I’ve tried having breaks, I really did! But nothing have worked…I’m exhausted Jungkook…I really am… and I’m sorry…’

You say. Your nose gets even redder. You almost can’t see due to the amount of tears your shining eyes are holding.

‘Put the blame on me. Put all of your worries in me. Give me all of your stress, fears, pressure. I’ll take it. I gladly will.’

He gets back.

‘Give me all of your pain. I know you’re suffering so put it all on me. Please.’

He yells in a whisper. He doesn’t want to scare you and he meant everything he said. He’s ready to do anything for you, even if it meant dying, or getting tortured till the end of his days.

You saved him and always comforted him when he wasn’t feeling good. So that’s what he told himself: ‘I owe her my life’. From the moment he realized how important you are to him, he knew he’d dedicate his whole life to you. There wasn’t any point in doing anything without you. And in fact, you were his whole life. He always did the most for you. He hugs you again…

‘It’ll be all right… I’m here… I’m right here.’

He whispers onto your neck, slightly laying a few kisses on it. You hold tight onto his hair and let your body rest in his strong arms. Tired from crying so much, you fell asleep. He laid you down on the bed, changed your clothes for pajamas, and stayed beside you. He spent the whole night cuddling you and whispering good things in your ear such as ‘you’re strong’, ‘you can do it’, or ‘I’m right here’.

He let you sleep as much as you needed and instead of not leaving until you wake up, he decided to make your favorite breakfast then decorated and cleaned the whole apartment.

He was right. It’ll be all right, he’s here…

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@dolliecat @icyllic ^^

[tulipe-rose]

Day 2 of me backing up my platonic skk agenda: (long post ahead)

It would be pretty hard to convince people with my point of view on this one, I almost gave up lmao, but I'm relentless when it comes to proving myself as right so I'm putting this out there ✊🏼 I'm not expecting many to agree lol

We all know, and love/hate/have complicated/no feelings for Beast!Dazai, right? I won't be focusing on him either way since he's too unstable/not really focused or have the time for love atm, so any romantic emotions would've been dispelled way too early on due to his unique situation. (Honestly it's less 'dispellled' and more suppressed until supposedly numb)

At least I'm sure we all love Beast!Chūya. What separates between him, and his canon self is how outwardly protective Chūya is of Dazai, but it isn't exactly out of nowhere. A lot of people in the fandom just think of it being the result of Soukoku spending more time together, which isn't far removed from what I believe, but not exactly it either.

I believe that the key reason why Chūya is like this is because of Oda's absence.

Oda was such an important part of Dazai's life, he treated him like the child he was, while upholding the appropriate boundaries due to the drastic difference in their positions, and eventually gave him a purpose to keep going. Oda was arguably the older brother Dazai could've had if it weren't for the circumstances, Oda's untimely death, and the Port Mafia's tight hierarchy system.

In this lifetime, Oda wasn't present, or more precisely, Dazai didn't give him the chance to be present, which ultimately led to Dazai being much more withdrawn, outwardly sadistic, yet inwardly vacant, his self proclaimed apathetic self ever present. Chūya witnessed his steady decline in both health, and mentality since Dazai returned from that mission; the day I picked up Dazai never happened as in canon, and Oda never knew Dazai beyond his facial features until their reunion.

Oda isn't there, so Chūya had to make sure that Dazai's self destructive behaviour didn't destroy him, subconsciously looking out for him more, and paying more attention to him by the day, but disguising it behind threats, and insults; It's rightful with how Dazai acts to be honest.

He was there during the time where Dazai rose to the Boss position, and it must've been paranoia inducing for Chūya, not because Dazai can't protect himself from the assassins, (that man will not die unless he allows you to kill him) but because he could very much allow them to kill him if they were trying a painless approach such as poison; this is what probably made Chūya stand so closely to Dazai, he needed to be close by to deflect any incoming attacks, yet far enough for his ability to not be nullified, and even then I think he only resorted to such close proximity because of an incident that threatened Dazai's life too much. The following panel is what somewhat backs up what I've been blabbering about for the past sentence.

Chūya did it out of care, and worry for his partner, but was it ever romantic? Well, no opinion is ever right in such situations, but I'll humbly say that it feels somewhat familial-ish/closest+only friend-ish from Chūya's side. HEAR ME OUT ON THIS OKAY–

I feel like the way Chūya is reprimanding, and absolutely forbidding Dazai from this despite their positions could be interpreted as a concerned brother/friend yelling at his ignorant younger sibling/best friend. Chūya went on a rampage after Dazai's suicide, and wouldn't a brother or a friend do that too? Yes, a brother or a friend would, the proof being Chūya's course of action after finding out about the flags' death, and Verlaine's talk about them being brothers in inhumanity. (ik how different both situations are, but they both have people that Chūya cared for die, the former being more painful because of how long they knew each other, and because he tried so hard to prevent this from happening, yet it happened either way. This isn't the first time Chūya lost someone important to him, so it's bound to hurt a lot more.)

We didn't see enough of their current dynamic to rule out any familial/platonic relations, so I don't see why this wouldn't be valid. There could be hundreds of interpretations, but all of them sum up to Chūya caring about Dazai; it's up to you, and how you choose to view it.

Exasperated exhale I rest my case, and god the hate I might get for this simple opinion is on sight lmao-

[finalgirlwave]

thinking about Brave Police J-Decker and the personhood of the robots, specifically when it comes to reformatting them.

Deckerd goes willingly, twice. He’s taught by Yuuta how a proper police officer should behave, including serving and sacrificing for the people he protects, and so he willingly turns his back on his memory and self twice. It fails, because he’s not the perfect machine they want him to be and doesn’t actually want to give himself up, but he tries.

we don’t know what Kagerou was taught. We do know that he thought being reformatted and losing his memories was no different to dying and that he vehemently refused to lose his self without a fight. He lashed out against the mindless talking robots that blindly serve humanity and we’re not explicitly told why but you can figure he’s afraid of becoming one.

the humans in the show don’t seem particularly… sympathetic? The show forgets to show us that they live in a world where minor robots are common (vending machines and stop lights talk, there’s a robotics fair in the Kagerou episodes) and so it feels sensational that the Braves talk and think on their own, but to the humans that’s not so different from their daily lives. They’re used to robots behaving as they’re programed to do so why would the Braves be any different?

what kind of personhood does that give the Braves? Are/will they be allowed to act outside their function one day? What happens when they outlive their usefulness? According to Azuma, they should be scrapped… Deckerd is treated without any humanity at first, they don’t even know he’s sentient even when he talks and acknowledges this random kid in the warehouse. Kagerou doesn’t seem to be treated much better; sure a reformat means he’ll still be sentient (supposedly, at least) but Kagerou views that as becoming somebody else. Nobody seems to care.

iirc there’s some sadness the second time Deckerd willingly gives up his personhood. He’s lost his memories though, so he’s not much different than he was when Yuuta first found him. Duty above all else (and also, notably, he’s hurt by the clear fact everyone else misses who he used to be; Kagerou wasn’t wrong when he thought being reformatted meant becoming somebody else).

(And then there’s Duke and Regina not letting him behave and feel things the way a human would, which is a whole can of worms on it’s own. At least that’s treated as being very wrong.)

the show never really addresses the personhood of the Braves. I suppose maybe the closest is the episode where Deckerd dreams about what happens when they’re no longer the primary unit of Super AI robots. Everyone else leaves for awhile but eventually they come back, so in Deckerd’s mind they’re best for what they were built for. But really, what else can they be in a world they weren’t built to actually interact with. They’re not supposed to be people and yet they are. What does that mean for them? I don’t know and neither does the show.

I don’t have a good conclusion, I was just rambling lol. This show is neat but there’s so much depth they don’t address and while I don’t blame them (it’s hard to tell a deep story and I think they cared more for haha silly robots) there’s a lot that tantalizes me that they never really touched on. Like what would happen to Kagerou if he wasn’t captured by Shinjo? What would Shadowmaru do and how would the humans react? What about like, everything else? Idk I just really like this show lol.

[dragon-queen21]

Regressor Aether headcanons

+ a bunch of different caregivers

These also might be an excuse for me to share some of the ideas for fic's I have planned in my head.

tw: vent regression, meltdowns, general angst

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~Wins the hearts of everyone and ends up with a bunch of caregivers and playmates across the land of teyvat. And how could he not? Sweetest little baby.

~90% of his regression is simply involuntarily, which is part of the reason why a lot of the people around him find out about it in the first place

~Vent regresses quite a bit, due to burnout, loneliness, pain, etc.

~Only a few very close people have dealt with him vent regressing. (mostly Mondstadt citizens tbh, Diluc, Kaeya, Lisa, though Xiao and Zhongli might have as well... Paimon is of course the exception) It comes as quite a shock to people when Aether breaks down sobbing over something minor when he usually is such an angel both normally and regressed.

~Beidou who would be the closest to find Aether vent regressed without meaning too. Noticing upon returning from his trip to Inazuma and coming back through the storms how much Aether is shaking and how young he's regressed compared to the times she's had the privilege of being the little's playmate.

~He doesn't want to play, doesn't talk, mostly hides and lets Paimon comfort him. And Beidou is very confused but never gets the chance to ask about, too worried about getting her ship through the storm, and by the time they make land Aether is gone

~Diluc and Kaeya look after him the most. They probably bicker a lot when he’s around though they try not to.

~But Kaeya pushes every one of Diluc's buttons. Carrying Aether around 90% of the time and being so smug about being the little one’s 'favorite'.

~Aether’s meanwhile in babyspace, sitting on Kaeya’s lap, playing with the floof of his caregiver’s cape because he likes the feeling of it and just oblivious to Diluc’s misery.

~Dainslief would 100% have taken care of Lumine regressed before in their travels together. He takes one look at Aether, who's regressed involuntary after the fleeting feeling of his sister being nearby, the rush of hope and then loss of it again, and instantly puts the pieces together that both twins must regress.

~I wouldn't say he tries to take care of Aether or anything, despite the way it's obvious that Aether isn't doing the best and could really use someone looking after him. He doesn't know Aether all that well and tells himself that it seems like Paimon's got it taken care of either way.

~But he's definitely more aware of the other, a bit protective and a bit softer with his words. Calling Aether a nickname, one he always used to call Lumine when she was small, by accident, (thinking like star shine or something else sweet) because old habits die hard and he nearly forgets that, 'no that's not Lumine, not his traveling partner, not his little, not his place.'

~Being told not to stim in public, or getting called out asking what he was doing. It wasn't a mean comment necessarily but it hurt. Not sure who would say it, maybe like Razor who genuinely is asking a question that's then taken the wrong way. Kind of like "Well don't do that. Draws attention." because he's anxious about being in public to begin with. Hmm not sure...

~It's something he masks a lot normally, but when he's small it's often times forgotten. He will be small and super happy, start stimming by shaking his hands, or tapping his palms together and have to force himself to stop because- that's weird, no one does that, quit it, you're just faking... which has gained him a couple of concerned looks from those around him who know him well enough

~Seeing as Paimon can't carry him, Aether takes to carrying her around like a stuffie instead as his own form of comfort. Also he’s just touch starved and likes having someone close.

~Paimon will complain about this, but decides inevitably that it's better than being seen as emergency food

~Speaking of emergency food, baby brain finds it hilarious to try and chew on her hair or her cape. One second she’s holding his hand the next she’s being bit.

~Venti upon finding out the Traveler regresses is like, 'Yeah I'm a great caregiver. ✨I've got this✨'

~He does not

~He ends up regressed alongside Aether and the two together unsupervised just spells trouble.

~Paimon has to go running to Diluc to come and get the two and stop them from causing a hurricane or something because they think it would be fun to play around with their powers. (Could also imagine Kaeya and Rosaria getting involved depending if they made their way over to the cathedral or not)

~Who needs storybooks when you have a dragon dad who's the equivalent of a living one?

~And yes Aether has gone all the way to Liyue from Mond in the span of one night because he couldn't fall asleep and wanted Zhongli to tell him a bedtime story. (It was that or going to Venti, but Venti's stories are usually a lot more lively and not the best to fall asleep to)

~Childe who wants so much to be Aether's big brother while he's small. Buys him a bunch of little gear, stuffed animals, toys, custom pacifiers, really anything he thinks of to try and win the little one's favor. He's is so sure that he's going to be Aether's favorite that he makes a bet with Zhongli over it. (If Diluc knew about this he would have a fit...)

~And Aether just- won't have anything to do with him small. He will either cry, or keep pushing Childe away and whining. He had a full meltdown once where he got overwhelmed enough to call Xiao. Easy to say that ended up in a fight and Zhongli having to step in to calm everybody down.

~His fits are mostly out of fear and distrust. Baby brain sees everything black and white and Childe confuses him more than anything because Childe should be the bad guy here.

~But on one hand he's always nice and he likes the idea of being doted on with little presents and being carried around, and Childe seems like the best big brother that Aether never had.

~But on the other hand their fights have scarred him mentally, and the fatui in general frightens him and he's scared that it's all an act that's going to crumble the moment he gets too attached.

~It takes awhile but he slowly opens up to the other, though only when someone else is around to ‘protect’ him. Probably Xiao. The adeptus wouldn’t trust Aether alone with Childe for a moment

~Xiao has been called multiple times on accident while Aether was small. He comes expecting a fight only to find a small and weepy baby who wants to be held.

~It's gotten to be a problem because the Traveler will refuse to call him when it really matters, like him being in danger, but baby brain will call out for him over something like a nightmare or feeling lonely and small, Xiao is terrible when it comes to anything dealing with delicate emotions.

[hathay]

twst second year halloween hc’s pt1<3

warnings: horror movie mention?

includes: jamil, kalim, silver, & ruggie!

tis but a silly little halloween spur of the moment hc post, i’m gonna do the other second years as well most likely:)

〄jamil〄

- he really enjoys dressing up for halloween. it makes him feel cool, especially if it’s something powerful/scary. he doesn’t know why he likes it so much, but boy does he.

- i think he likes candy idc. i just think he’s picky about it. he likes certain candy and if you ask him nice enough he’ll pass over the candy you asked for with a roll of his eyes (he’s totally hiding a small smirk/smile thing)

- as much has he may WANT to claim that he does not want to hand out candy to kids, (he swears he can’t stand them and it’s a waste of his time) he sure as hell seems to be sporting a small little smile.

- trying to convince him to match costumes is a FEAT, if he decides he cares enough he will, but it better be worth his time.

- i think you could try and convince him to carve pumpkins, he’d be able to use it later for pumpkin curry, but he’d try his little heart out for going all out on his carving.

- he’s a smug man when he watches a horror movie (and pretends it has no effect on him) and the people he’s watching with are very scared especially if he feels like he is ‘protecting them’ (not without some teasing.)

- (also may feel the need to check candy like a worried parents. not just kalims, give him yours as well, or please just be careful, you don’t know who you can and can’t trust)

❧silver❧

- he loves halloween but unfortunately doesn’t last for long, he is a sleepy boy after all.

- he honestly prefers giving candy to people than receiving it himself.

- more than anything he just enjoys dressing up and spending time with the people closest to him.

- you wanna match costumes? done deal, he’s fully committed and feels so special about it.

- he doesn’t get scared very easily (much to lilia and others dismay) he just lightly laughs it off

- he will definitely watch halloween movies with you, but you may have shake him awake (gently pls) when it starts to get good.

- LOVES halloween stories, especially if you have ones he hasn’t heard, he is so interested in it, he may seem like he is passed out but trust me he is intently listening and will ask so many questions.

❂kalim❂

- loves halloween so bad, he just loves seeing people all dressed up and happy.

- he IS the rich neighborhood, he buys the biggest bars of candy and is absolutely willing to give it out.

- after getting candy he likes to trade with others especially to get more of his favorites. (he makes sure to trade some specifically to get more of jails favorite candy to give him)

- tries to be scary, SO HARD, but fails, how can anyone find his lil face scary? but if he does manage to actually scare someone he laughs it off, but apologizes if he thinks he went too far.

- he would be OVER THE MOON about matching costumes, he’d feel the need to tell everyone and make sure they ALL know who he is matching with.

- begs to watch halloween movies because he just doesn’t want the night to end, as a result he ends up clinging on for dear life to whoever’s closest.

ꐠruggieꐠ

- totally steals candy i don’t wanna hear it. he usually doesn’t steal from younger kids though (unless they’re being snotty douches yk?), usually it’s from older people he finds out.

- those bowls that just have a note to ‘take one piece’ of candy. HE DOESN’T. he will take handfuls, he’ll leave enough that other people can still get some, but he is definitely taking his fill.

- needs, NEEDS to go to the wealthy areas because he knows they give out the good candy. (kalim here he comes)

- makes sure to bring someone like jack or kalim who he knows will give him some of his candy.

- he can go all right, so many rounds, even changed costumes to go around again for more candy.

- sometimes he sees some cute kids and gives em a few pieces of his candy, especially if they don’t have a lot.

- he’d tease the HELL outta you for suggesting matching costumes (but would completely wear them anyways, as long as he gets to pick what y’all wear when you go around again for more candy)

[world0fmadness]

DIRTY NEW YORKER

niko bellic x reader

♡ general dating headcanons for niko!

୨୧ started replaying grand theft auto iv a couple days ago and love him so so much :( reader is slightly referenced to have big boobs but it’s not a major thing at all

♡ view my video game masterlist here

reading music recommendations: dirty new yorker by mobb deep - windowlicker by aphex twin

♡ niko can be kind of cheap when it comes to dates and such…

୨୧ he doesn’t mean to be, it’s just that he’s not a super fancy person! he didn’t grow up with money, he’s not very knowledgeable on princess treatment and what not

♡ but he really tries his best to treat you as well as he knows how to!

୨୧ wether it be taking you to a bar to grab some drinks together which he pays for, bringing you flowers when picking you up in his car

♡ speaking of which, when you’re in his car is when you get ULTIMATE princess treatment, you’re his passenger princess

୨୧ you wanna play one your CDs or switch the radio station to one of your favourites? go for it, he won’t bat an eye, he might even bob his head to the music

♡ you want the windows rolled up so that the rushing wind doesn’t ruin your hair, even on a hot day? okay… it’s fine by him <3 have them rolled all the way up

୨୧ he’s already kind of a reckless driver but when you’re in the car sometimes he’ll speed up when approaching bumps in the road and side eye you to watch your boobs bounce as he smirks

♡ he loves bouncy boobs, no further comments from me at this time…

୨୧ niko did not introduce you to roman when you guys first started dating!

♡ he thought you’d be overwhelmed by his… unique personality and want out of the relationship with him

୨୧ when he told you this, you were SO confused because like… you’re in a relationship with niko, not roman… why would you care about how his cousin acts?

♡ so eventually you meet roman and he’s nice enough to you ( he makes a point to over enthusiastically tell niko how he “ totally hit the liberty city jackpot ” with you when you’re off grabbing a drink )

୨୧ niko can be pretty damn protective of you!

♡ with the line of work he’s in and the type of people who reside in liberty city, he just knows he has to look out for you

୨୧ if you’re ever catcalled whilst walking beside him, he’s quick to cuss the person out in serbian as you try to pull him along or sometimes egg him on… depending on what mood you’re in

♡ after this happens, he usually fucks you SO hard! either in the back of the car or in bed when you get back to your apartment! you’re his, those pieces of filth should know that, everyone should know that

“ fucking filth… you’re mine aren’t you, Лепа? they could never fuck you like i do… ” ( you can’t even get a word of agreement out with how fast and hard he’s pounding you, he’s almost animalistic )

୨୧ he’s not insecure, he’s just protective and likes people to know you’re spoken for

♡ niko isn’t majorly into PDA but this man will never not be holding your hand as you walk the streets!

୨୧ you like holding his hand anyways, his fingerless gloves keep you warm and if you ever need to be more warmed up he’ll lend you his bomber jacket whilst huffing and grumbling about how he told you to take a damn jacket out with you

♡ when walking the street together, niko is one of those people who walks on the side of the path closest to the road… it’s just instinct for him!

୨୧ i feel like he probably uses way too much cologne

♡ like sometimes you have to cover your nose when you first approach him because it feels like it’s being burned as you inhale the air around him

୨୧ when you tell him to loosen up on the cologne, he’s so personally offended! what? do you not want him to smell good? he literally only puts it on for you!

“ what do you mean too much? i smell nice! you… okay, whatever… too much… ” ( this is the most upset you’ve ever seen him and it’s literally over cologne )

♡ but after a lengthy explanation to him and defending your case, he agrees to go easy on the sprays next time

୨୧ niko keeps a risqué picture of you in his wallet! roman saw it from afar once and started mocking him for being sappy but also asked to see it up close to which niko simply widened his eyes in his direction and yelled at him

“ what? no! you can’t, why would i show you that? leave, go away… ” ( he’s so mad roman saw it at all, let alone him asking to see it better )

♡ when you guys sleep together, it’s rare he ever cuddles you… he just doesn’t really like body heat! it makes him sweat and he hates being sticky and sweaty, so he usually just has an arm thrown over your midriff or your chest and one of his legs tangled with yours under the thin blanket…

[intimidating-fettuccine]

I don't know if this is a valid question, but I've been seeing several requests about the five stages of grief.

So I was wondering if you could do Sally dealing with the 5 stages of grief after she lost a Y/N who was like a brother/sister figure to her and the person closest to her??

(sorry, not sure how it could be put in gender neutral)

Sally with a deceased sibling reader, coming right up. Angst train is arriving at the station.

Denial:

To say that your death was a shock to Sally's system would be an understatement. Sally, always staying in the mansion, was not that acquainted with death. The only death she was familiar with was her own, and even that was so long and distant to her now to the point she barely remembered it. So, for you to die, it felt incredibly unreal to her. After all, you were so strong, and you always protected her and cared for her, so surely nothing could have hurt you that bad, right? Everyone else had to be mistaken, you'd be coming home soon, right? When her brain realizes you won't be coming home as a human, she tries to convince everyone that you'll be like her, you'll turn into a ghost, you'll come home that way, they just have to go find you! But, unfortunately, that day never comes to pass.

Anger:

Sally has a hard time at this stage. The thing influencing her most is anxiety. She previously viewed everyone living in the mansion as basically unkillable, that they were basically immune to any fatal damage, but now that you, her favorite person have passed, she's constantly extremely scared that someone else is going to die next. It gets to the point that she refuses to let them go out on their jobs, even if she has to use her powers and be destructive to stop them from going. This is of course upsetting for everyone in the mansion, because while none of them want Sally to be distressed and scared like this, they have to do their jobs, or else the mansion is going to stop bringing in money. Slender ends up having to have a series of long talks with her and get her on a therapy plan to help her process things because everyone knows things can't continue like this.

Bargaining:

Sally becomes incredibly clingy at this point. She knows she's not allowed to keep people from leaving anymore, so whenever people she's closest to are in the mansion, she's practically glued to their side and will not leave them alone unless she finds someone else she wants to be glued to. Everyone is happy to comfort her and help her, and there's a silent agreement throughout the mansion that if Sally clings to you, you're to keep her entertained and cared for, so she doesn't have to feel lonely and isolated. The hard part is, that the thing she wants to talk about most is you. If someone tells a funny story, she relates it back to you. If someone brings up one of her hobbies, she relates it back to you. She wants to keep your memory alive, but this causes her to break down every time she does it, and it gets hard for people to figure out how to comfort her without reminding her of your death.

Depression:

The depression stage really hits Sally hard. It hits around the one year mark of your passing, and it's truly solidified in her mind that you aren't able to come back anymore. She finds herself isolated a lot of the time in this stage, curled up in her room buried in all the stuffed animals you ever got her, just wishing that she could will you back into existence. She even considers trying to find a way to get ahold of Zalgo, because he's the king of the Underworld, so surely he can give your soul a form to reside in, right?? She decides to not bring that up again after seeing how incredibly upset the suggestion made those around her, too young to realize things like that cannot just be undone. She gets much more quiet and more withdrawn. She doesn't really partake in her hobbies anymore, and she sort of just floats around the mansion in a daze. The only thing keeping her grounded is the help everyone continues to provide, and the therapy Slender is still making her go through.

Acceptance:

It's through this therapy, luckily, that Sally is finally able to make progress. One day, Slender asks her a question. "Why don't you want to move on?" Sally sits there for a moment in thought, before telling him that she's scared that if she moves on, if she gets happier, that everyone, including her, will forget about you. This leads to a very emotional discussion, in which Slender tells her that's not true, that you and everyone else in the mansion want her to be happy and healthy, and that nobody will forget about you. Everyone else misses you just as much as she does, and you won't fade away just because Sally decides to be happy. It's after this that Sally starts changing her outlook. Starts asking people for stories about you, and when she sees how happy they are to talk about you, about the things you did and the ways you helped them, it makes her start to feel that way too. It will still be a long uphill battle, but she makes progress, every day. She starts looking back on your memory with fondness, instead of sadness, and she starts to come out of her shell again. She knows now that you want her to be happy, and so she'll try. She'll be happy for you because she doesn't want you to be sad for her in your restful peace.

[cat-downthestreet]

Okay, everyone... It's time to talk- really talk- about Furina.

I cannot be the only one who is angry at the people of Fontaine for their treatment of her.

I mean, they loved Furina. She was their mascot- the true representation of justice in Fontaine. And we all know how it goes- Furina was placed in the role of the new archon, and then had to pretend to be haughty and self-important to gain her nation's approval. That's bad enough.

But Fontaine wasn't exactly at fault for that. They couldn't have known how painful it would be for her to act the part of their archon. They didn't even know it was just an act. So what made me so furious about their treatment of Furina? Not that. Though that certainly added onto the mess that played out during the archon quest.

No, what got to me was the humiliation they put Furina through, followed by their abandonment of her.

The trial was bad enough. Furina was ripped apart, put on the spot, and unable to defend herself without risking the safety of Fontaine (which I have a few questions about the validity of that statement, but I digress). And then the truth was revealed.

Except it wasn't.

Correct me if I'm wrong, but didn't Neuvillette keep what he found out about Furina and Focalors to himself? Fontaine never learned about the pain she went through over those 500 years. They only learned that Furina was a "fraud" and a mere human. All they saw was a human who pretended to be a god in place of their true archon, and they probably even believed Furina had done something to their true god so she could pretend to be the vessel of justice. I'd believe that if I found out my idol was a fake. But that's just speculation on my part.

The point is, Fontaine doesn't know that Furina is the human counterpart to Focalors. They don't know that the divine part of Focalors is already dead. They don't even know the truth about the prophecy or why Furina had to pretend to be their archon.

All they know is that their perceived deity was a fraud all along and their real god is nowhere to be seen.

And that leaves a lot to the imagination, a lot that can be filled in with lies and delusions...

...delusions that say Furina is the reason why their real god is gone.

No one knew how hard Furina tried to prevent anyone from dissolving. No one knows how important it was that Furina told no one who she really was and pretended to be their god for so long. No one knew how much it tormented Furina to isolate herself and pretend to be someone she wasn't. No one knew that the entire reason why Furina did this was because she loved her people and wanted Fontaine to be safe.

No, all the people of Fontaine knew was that their "god" was a fraud and presumably had done nothing to protect the nation from the rising waters. All they knew was that Furina had failed to save Poisson before the disaster struck.

The people of Fontaine only see Furina as a failure and a fraud, nothing more.

The real tragedy though? It's that Neuvillette knew what Furina had gone through for so long.

Yet he said nothing when Furina was cast aside post-flood. He said nothing when the people of Poisson shunned her for her failure to act.

But worst of all, he failed to make sure Furina was okay when all was said and done.

For all the remorse Neuvillette seemed to show upon learning of Furina's story, he barely seemed to care about her after the flood.

He, just like the rest of Fontaine, forgot about her and left her behind.

Furina was left to rot by her people, her other half, and even the closest thing she ever had to a friend.

That's the true irony of Fontaine.

The mascot of justice, unjustly humiliated and forgotten in front of and by her own nation.

I've never heard of a crueler fate.

And don't forget- Furina doesn't even know who she is anymore. How much harder do you think that is for someone who has nothing and no one to turn to?

Even the Traveler mocked her and only cared about her for answers about their sibling.

Furina has no one, is no one, and will be remembered as no one. Except as a fraud, a failure, and an egomaniac. Because that is the role she was forced into.

Focalors was deluding herself. Furina could never be free to act as whoever she wanted. Furina was always doomed to play the same part, and she was always doomed to be hated and ultimately forgotten by her own people.

And all we, the Traveler, did to "help" her, was to force her to take the stage again.

Also, do you really, honestly believe that Furina started acting again during her story quest solely because she has a passion for it?

No. It's familiar. And it's all she has left.

Furina only took to acting again because we forced her into it, and she only chose to continue because it's all she knows how to do.

Furina is truly the most tragic character in all of Genshin.

[beanieman]

We've seen that Nao would escape with Sara- who do you think each of the characters would escape with if they were the sacrifice and got voted out?

Sara Chidouin - While Sara cares for everyone, I think Joe would be her go to choice. He's her best friend and they've known each other much longer then she's known any of the other participants.

Joe Tazuna - He canonly tries to escape with Sara.

Gin Ibushi - He always seemed closest to his Big Sis Sara to me. So I think he'd want to escape with her more than anyone else. Even though I think Q-Taro and Keiji would be his second and third options.

Keiji Shinogi - While I could see him saving either Gin or Sara, I lean toward him saving Sara just slightly. Mostly because she's been his mentee since the first chapter.

Alice Yabusame - He'd choose Reko. Despite their troubled relationship, she's still his little sister and I can't see him leaving her to die over people he's known for a few weeks. Plus he's always wanted the chance to reconcile with her.

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Reko Yabusame - This is super hard because of how caring a person Reko is. I lean toward her choosing Alice because they have a long history together, and their dream was to perform together for a long time. I could also see her choosing Sara, Gin, Kanna, or Nao.

Nao Egokoro - *Insert that one CG of Sara and Nao here.*

Kazumi Mishima - We don't see much of Mishima, but I think he'd choose Nao. She was his main priority even during his death after all, since he did find his final moments burning alive pushing her away so she didn't get hurt.

Q-taro Burgerberg - He cares about Gin, and children in general, so much. So I think he would choose Gin and try to get him back to his Mother.

Kai Satou - His entire goal in the death game is to keep Sara safe, and I really can't see him wanting to save anyone more than his family considering how much the Chidouin's mean to him.

Kanna Kizuchi - In the logic route, Keiji points out that Kanna would've escaped with Sara if she really had the sacrifice card during the second main game. Shin says that he knows this so I'm going to say that it's canon that she'd pick Sara.

Shin Tsukimi - Shin fears nothing more than death, but loves Kanna enough to die for her. There's no way he would abandon her to escape with someone else.

Dolls

Ranmaru Kageyama - Considering he wanted to kill everyone and escape with Sara...I'm going to say. (I've said it once and I'll say it again. Ranmaru is who Joe could've been if he was more willing to save Sara at the expense of everyone else.)

Naomichi Kurumada - Naomichi has a soft spot for Kanna, so I'm going to go with her. I do think it's interesting that her name was the first one I thought of though. Considering how a large part of his character is gradually becoming more protective of the other dolls.

Anzu Kinashi - I think she'd choose Reko as they seem to get along really well in all of their interactions. I could also see her picking Sara since they're friends too.

Mai Tsurugi - Mai makes fast friends with Q-Taro so I think she would be tempted to escape with him. Especially post stabbing where she feels extremely guilty for what she did. Though I could also see her taking Gin if Q-Taro tried to push things in that direction.

Shunsuke Hayasaka - This ask made me realize how few developed relationships Shunsuke has. He's only really close to Gin, so I'm going to say him pretty confidently.

Hinako Mishuku - This is incredibly hard because of how closed off Hinako comes off as. Maybe Ranmaru since she tried to help with the collar game? Or maybe Sara since they do seem to get along pretty well?

[ncisfranchise-source]

When CBS‘ NCIS: Hawai’i resumes its third season this Monday at 10/9c, the “honeymoon” is over for Special Agent Lucy Tara.

Having gone undercover as “newlyweds” with partner Kate Whistler ahead of the island drama’s three-week break, Lucy finds herself very much in the thick of things when her assignment to protect a visiting Russian VIP takes all kinds of turns.

TVLine spoke with Yasmine Al-Bustami about what this season’s fifth episode (of 10) will reveal about Lucy and what sort of punches the eventual season finale will pack. Plus, we get the actress’ thoughts on the Jesus drama The Chosen Season 4 lighting up silver screens.

TVLINE | What is Special Agent Lucy Tara up to this week? Oh, she always gets herself into some trouble, which I feel like she likes — though this time she wasn’t even trying to get into trouble, I will say! She’s detailing this Russian lady who is visiting the island, and she does not want to be on the mission because, on surface-level, it’s just boring. Like, she would rather be doing other things. This lady [Tatiana] would be considered Russian “royalty,” in a way, but she’s very controversial, so when she gets onto the island you see that she does not have fans. She’s met with resistance, and Lucy gets into some trouble with her.

TVLINE | Lucy gets to express some opinions about this lady she’s protecting along the way, which I thought was quite enjoyable. So many opinions. She does not hold back and says it to her face. She definitely lets her know that she is also not a fan.

TVLINE | As Lucy and Tatiana interact, we get a bit more information about Lucy’s family back home. Did you appreciate that aspect of the episode? I loved it. I don’t know if Lucy appreciated it [Laughs], but for me, personally, I love anytime we learn about Lucy’s background and family history because she tries really hard to keep it quiet. She doesn’t really share much or open up too much, even to the people closest to her, unless someone happens to find out something if they do some digging. It’s not like Lucy is willingly sharing this information, so she is taken aback when this lady that she is protecting, Tatiana, all of a sudden is throwing at Lucy every little, small detail about Lucy’s family.

TVLINE | Any “firsts” for you as an actress in this particular episode? Driving in a Humvee! That was a blast. I really tried to be in there when… there’s a stunt that happens… but they said no. But we took it out into the jungle and were driving up on cliffs and everything.

There’s also a fight in the jungle. We’ve done fights before, but I’ve never done it on this kind of a terrain, where it was rainy and muddy and messy. For me, that’s more fun when it’s not a clean fight. I like it to be a little dirty.

TVLINE | What can you tease about anything else going on in the episode, regarding Kai and/or NCIS Elite? Oh, yes! We find out a bit more about NCIS Elite. Obviously, Sam (played by LL Cool J) has been a part of the team and some of us are still trying to figure out what he’s doing on the island, why he’s here, what his whole role is.

TVLINE | Not that we don’t love having him and his $200 Henleys around. [Laughs] Some people have a bit more of a problem with it than Lucy does. Lucy couldn’t care less, she’s like whatever, it’s fine, he’s not bothering me. And then with Kai (Alex Tarrant)…

TVLINE | Were there any outtakes from the “newlyweds” episode, any hijinks that you and Tori [Anderson] got up to that didn’t make it on-camera? I feel like that’s always the case. It’s so funny you ask, because me and Alex, who plays Kai, were talking about that just the other day, saying how we would love to see bloopers because we just did something that was so silly and yet we had to look all cool and everything. We were like, “If people only saw!”

One thing [from the “newlyweds” episode] that I am thinking of specifically…. We had a bunch of outdoor scenes, me and Tors, and usually if we’re outdoors we have our hair up because we’re on a mission or something, but our hair was down and so the wind was all over the place, blowing everything. So having to deal with that became a funny thing.

TVLINE | This week there’s a reference to Lucy and Kate going home to cuddle and watch “reality-TV.” What shows do you think they cue up? Love Is Blind. I feel like I could throw that out there….

TVLINE | Switching topics to The Chosen: Did you feel like that show “blew up” a bit once it started airing on The CW? Were you feeling some extra love, some extra attention? I mean, I was already feeling it beforehand, because the fans of that show are so loving and so warm. It was already an outpouring of love. So, I feel like there was more of that support than anything. The CW allowed the show to get more eyes on it, which opened it up to a broader audience, which I thought was really cool because that creates more types of conversations. They are talking about it not as just a religious show but as a good show, and that was a different kind of conversation to have.

TVLINE | When it started on The CW, I gave the people at my church a heads-up and now about a half-dozen of them are hooked. Every week at coffee hour, it’s like the first topic. Oh man, that’s so cool!

TVLINE | What’s been your biggest takeaway from your experience on The Chosen? Oh my gosh, it’s such a huge experience for me, especially since it’s a different kind of production than NCIS — that alone is really cool. Like, it’s just so indie and on-the-ground and in-the-trenches. I feel like I’ve grown up with it and to see how its grown and what its made of itself, and along with the people, a lot of the people are still the same… It’s just so cool to be part of something like that from the very beginning and not even be thinking, “Oh, hey guys, [when filming] Season 3, beginning of 4, we’re going to start airing on The CW.” Had no idea. Or that we’re going to air Season 4 in theaters. That was just not on anyone’s radar at all. Instead in the very beginning it was like, “Oh, we have this app. You can watch it on the app.”

TVLINE | What are you hearing about the NCIS: Hawai’i finale? What’s the gossip? Ohhhhhh, there’s so much gossip. It’s going to be a two-parter — I love those for sure, just selfishly — and today [Thursday] is our first day filming the last episode. So, there’s a lot of action, there is death….

TVLINE | I just hope nobody gets shot in the forehead like Charlie 1. I know. It was so gruesome. Oh my gosh, we love Linc [Hand]. If there was a way to bring him back….

[jinx-on-mars-19xx]

Obsessed Mind

(Kill Somebody Part Two Chapter One)

🔪Previous Parts Here🔪

Dom x Colson (Yungblud x Machine Gun Kelly)

Warnings: ABO dynamics (knots, slick, heats, mpreg), alpha serial killer/hitman Dom, omega mob boss Kells, cursing, allusions to murder, Dom's urges, getting outed, baby fic, Kells OCD, PTSD, prior attack, past abuse, degradation, baby cuddles, unprovoked anger, slight domestic, backhanding, relationship talks, worried boys, fighting, choking (in a fun way), d/s undertones, misplaced blame, grinding, subspace, threats, mentions of sex, outercourse (thighs), cum claiming, feminization, threats, come-ons, virgin kink, enemies to lovers ❤️‍🔥 Rating: explicit

All ideas helped by @iamnotanearthlingmotherfucker 🖤

Dominic was standing on his balcony and looking out over the ant like people milling about on the street. He couldn't help wondering how many of them were Alphas that deserved his knife but whatever urges he had he had to swallow down. One new rule for the time being was that neither of them were allowed to kill. There were too many eyes on them at all times and they had to act like law abiding citizens. If it wasn't the feds after what they thought was a human trafficker it was the media after pictures of the first omega CEO. There were even fans now, web pages dedicated to his lover. He could at least understand that, his partner was perfect and he was his number one fan.

They hadn't really left their flat all week since the break in and birth. Colson was healing and hiding from all responsibilities but Punk and the new reality of his fame. Dom understood and tried to protect him as best he could. He hadn't gotten much time with his mate or child even though he stayed close twenty four-seven, the other man just couldn't seem to handle passing the baby off for long. They were in a bubble of their own making and while the Alpha missed being the closest creature to the omega he could mostly understand. The promise he'd whispered to the other was always in the back of his mind but he knew it would be a while before they had sex again. He just wanted to feel needed in his family.

He wasn't sleeping as much as he should, he had fresh PTSD from not protecting his people and he always woke up with Col even if he wasn't asked to help. He knew logically it was the man's overwhelming need for control and his lack of it over everything else that made him mumma bear so hard but no matter what he told himself, it still hurt when he'd offer to help and get glared at. ‘Do your tits suddenly work?’ Of course not but they could pump or supplement with formula. ‘You don't know how he likes to be rocked.’ Because he wasn't allowed to learn! ‘Just let me change him, you look terrified.’ Well yes, Punk could make smells like the Alpha hadn't smelled in years. He wasn't scared though, not really. Somehow his mate had seemingly forgotten he raised two girls and whatever other children his parents thought he could watch while they did their ‘adult things’.

Collette had told him to give her son time which he would always do anyway. She'd reminded him about the man's loss which he never forgot about in the first place. He could tell himself every good reason because he knew every one and believed them down to his soul but that didn't make the hurt go away. Especially when he was dealing with his darker needs and missing his lover on top of it all. His partner was still ignoring the woman so he assumed her words were for herself as well. Colson didn't deal with liars very well and it still obviously hurt him that he lost his father figure for so long. Travis was still somewhat kept out but not because the omega was upset with him, he just couldn't face everything happening and he needed time to come to terms. Even Blain was careful and it worried Dom that they might lose some of what they'd gained with him. He told the boy he wasn't being replaced but their adoptive son was so mature he said he completely understood.

Eventually the killer sighed and pulled himself out of his imagination. There probably were assholes who needed killing on the ground but he wouldn't be the one doing it yet. He wasn't actually sure how long he'd been day dreaming but when he got back into their room he didn't see his mate or child. He arched a brow because he knew they hadn't gone outside. Finding them was easy but when he did he had to take a moment to watch, Colson had taken their son to a bath and had fallen asleep with Punk on his chest. The baby wasn't in danger, there wasn't enough water, it just gently touched his little pink feet while he laid like a frog on the older man. Those little red eyes were open, he hadn't found his natural color yet, and he was blinking up at Dom from his perch.

“Wanna get Daddy spanked don't yas? Fine. Come on. Let's let ya mum rest for a bit aye?” He cooed, gently scooping his son into his arms. He found the towel meant for him, something shaped like Toothless the dragon. With his little one's gaze the look was striking. It soothed something inside him to hold his boy and after getting him swaddled he took a seat in their rocking chair to hopefully get him back to sleep. With a pacifier between his rosebud lips it wasn't long before Punk was drifting off and Dom couldn't help his pride in himself. He knew he was good at babies, he just needed his mate to see it.

Colson was a fucking mess and he damn well knew it. He was so overwhelmed by everything happening beyond the door of their bedroom that he couldn't face any of it. He didn't want to lead a revolution and he didn't want fame. He wanted to go back to being himself and leading his family, he didn't want his mother to be a liar or his form to feel constantly wrong. For nine months he'd wanted his body to himself again but since he'd given birth he hated feeling so empty. Part of him was counting down the days until his next heat but getting knocked up again would require letting his lover back in. He knew he wasn't treating Dom right but he couldn't help it. All he had energy for was his son. Punk had been warm all day so after some Motrin they went for a bath. He hadn't meant to fall asleep, it was just so fucking peaceful.

The omega blinked his eyes open and huffed a laugh at himself. “Did you sleep as good as- Punk?” The last word came out broken and he sat up too fast, hurting himself in the process but nothing mattered more than finding his son. Kells knew he was too big for the baby to have fallen off somewhere but his first dark thought was that he'd gone down the damn drain. Or that someone had stolen him. Was Megan back? He knew all of this was insane but he hadn't slept well in a week and he was more lost than he wanted to let on. When he couldn't find his boy he stood up and stepped out of the bath, nearly tripping himself in his haste to find him.

“Cols it's alright! ‘Ey, I got ‘im luv. You was asleep and I wanted to let yas.” Dom was rushing for his lover the moment he heard him awake but the omega let out a small sob when he saw their baby safe. His eyes flashed gold as he gently took his boy back, pressed a kiss to his head, and backhanded his mate as the other tried to apologized.

“Fuck you! How fucking dare you take him while I'm sleeping! What did you think would happen?” He cursed, setting their sleeping son in his cot. He knew he was too upset and they weren't supposed to fight. He'd stopped using violence to solve his issues with Dom months before. It didn't stop him from turning around fast and trying to punch him again but the other man grabbed his wrist. He went for him with his free hand but only scratched that beautiful face with his nails when the Alpha caught that arm too.

“We don't bloody act like tha’ Colson. We ain't our fucking parents. Get ya ‘ead on straight cause I didn't do any of ‘is to ya! Don't take it out on the person who’s staying by ya no matter wha’.” The killer begged but refused to use too much of his strength on his mate.

Colson knew he was right deep down but he still spit in Dom’s face. On the surface everything felt like his bitch's fault. “You didn't do this? So you didn't break in here and try to kill me? You didn't roofie me with your goddamn pheromones and get me to fuck you? You didn't knock me up?” He was growling vitriol he didn't mean, he loved their family but he felt so wrong the past week. “You didn't make me love you? You didn't fuck my body up with your baby? You didn't piss Megan off enough to get me fucking outed to the world?”

Dominic stared at his lover and took every word as the other man cried. It broke something inside him but he hoped his mate didn't mean it. It was just his OCD and possibly postpartum depression. Kells was still struggling in his hold but while he wouldn't let him hit him, he could listen to his complaints. “I didn't. And if you really fink I did any of tha' we got bigger problems. I love you and you bloody well know tha’. I know you scared Cols and I'm trying to ‘elp. We all are. You can't keep me from me son. It ain't fairs.” He finally sighed when his partner took a second to breathe.

Colson just grumbled under his breath and Dom let him go. He had the same heartbroken expression he'd had the last time Col lashed out. “I'll go for a bit, but not forever. If tha's wha' ya want you gotta say it flat out.” The Alpha spoke softly so he didn't bother their boy and he stepped around Kells to leave. The omega's heart dropped and it felt like his life was crumbling in front of him. He was standing there naked and drip drying and his mate was walking away because he'd hit him. Again.

“Fuck you! Don't leave me! Fight for me, asshole.” He hissed out, grabbing his mate’s upper arm where he'd shot him months before and he tripped the other man, pushing him off balance so he fell back on their bed.

“I ‘ave been! I been fighting for yas every bloody day! I been ‘ere! You don't let me in. You don't feel me?” He pushed himself up on his elbows but his omega crawled into his lap and pushed him flat. When a large palm wrapped around his neck he wondered momentarily if this would be it. Was his mate so far gone he'd kill him? He swallowed hard and took a chance, tilting his chin up. He shouldn't submit so soon after what Kells did but he wanted to prove he'd still give everything for his love.

“Make me feel you.” The omega's voice went raspy and dark and for the first time in a week he felt himself wet for more than just his body cleaning itself out. He was tempted to raise his hips and work his Alpha's cock free but he knew it was too soon. They shouldn't yet, should they? “Look what you fucking did to me.”

Dom obeyed, of course he did. Even with all his worry his mind was already going hazy. He was drifting into that fuzzy place only his dominant could put him in. His red gaze danced over the expanse of skin in his view, from Col’s softer but still flat chest and swollen nipples to his still bumped belly. He was losing it already and it hurt some part of his heart. He was missing the signs of his whelp growing. It didn't make sense because Punk was out and safe but he couldn't completely shut his Alpha side up. His hands itched to reach out so he let himself, he touched along his lover's hips and down his thighs. The omega was already gently grinding against him, all the while he had a hold of Dom’s throat.

“Fucking gorgeous. I love seeing wha’ ya body did to give me a son.” As if Dom had taken a class on what to say to woo his mate his words sent a rush of heat through Col’s chest and stomach, down to his core. He still hurt too much to press down hard but his cock was filling and he felt the Alpha's stiff under him. “Makes me wanna fuck anover into yas.” The boy growled and the threat had such a needy effect on Colson he had to cut off his psycho's air.

Dom watched his mate shudder and felt his fist go tight. It wasn't as good as choking on Col’s dick but he still felt warm and fuzzy. His tongue flicked out to wet his lips as if he could taste his lover but he just tasted his own blood. He sucked his split lip hard enough to get a mouthful before he spit it out aiming for the other man's skin. More than anything he wanted a kiss, a taste, all his urges were turning into need for his mate. Even his need for air felt secondary to how badly he craved connection. Had they even really hugged in a week?

“Such a good bitch for me. Look at you. You'd let me kill you with my bare hands wouldn't you? You'd let me rip you apart and you'd beg for more. So fucked up.” Colson purred but he really meant ‘how fucking perfect’. He moved closer slowly and licked crimson off his lover's face. His soul hurt that he'd laid hands on the boy again but all he could do was apologize and try to do better. Maybe attempt to make it up to Dom by… well laying his hands on him. The killer turned pink under his hold but he just tried for a kiss when Col got close. When their lips finally met it felt like their first all over again. How the fuck had he gone so long without him?

The Alpha gasped for breath when Colson finally let him free but he just bucked his hips gently to tilt Kells against him. He needed more. More contact. More kisses. More love. The kisses stung and his throat hurt but everything combined to make him harder, he knew he couldn't stick his dick where he most craved but they could do something couldn't they?

When Col fell against his lover their cocks slot together. He hated the fabric of Dom's sweats between them but he knew it was safer. From experience he knew if they were both naked they'd fall together. He'd convinced the man's knot into his pussy enough times he knew he couldn't trust himself. He could feel his core soaking the cloth between them and it reassured him that his body was his again. He was healing. He could decide what happened now. They had a while before his next heat he hoped, for now they could just fuck around to feel close again. He hadn't let himself realize how bad he needed his partner. The last thing they'd done below the belt was letting the boy lick him clean the night he gave birth. It soothed them both but he hadn't gotten off and Dom hadn't tried for more. Why hadn't he tried harder to stay connected?

“Need you. Wha'ever you'll give me. Always yours.” The killer whimpered against blood and spit drenched lips.

Kells nodded back and got somehow closer, grinding their dicks together, being as careful as he could of his belly and cunt. He couldn't try for more but he hoped it was enough. He shouldn't have lost sight of the one who loved and needed him most. He shouldn't have been pushing Dom away. He felt both terrible and desperate for more. His nails scratched over the pale skin of his lover's ribs and the other squeezed his hips and kept them moving. Little sounds fell from Dom's mouth and he swallowed every one. When the killer was dropped he was the sweetest loudest thing.

Dominic was too close far too soon but he felt backed up as hell, he hadn't been allowed to knot his lover for over a month before their son came and he obviously couldn't yet but that didn't stop his body acting like he was still a teenager. Well… a young one. “Best mate. Sexy as fuck. Love you-” The Alpha whined praises as Col rolled his aching hips like a porn star. He tried to keep his needy moans to a whisper but it felt impossible to be quiet. His skin was on fire everywhere they touched and a puddle of precum was smearing across his stomach. Even as high as he wore his pants the moment he got hard his tip would show out the top. It was one of Col’s favorite things.

“You gonna jizz your pants this soon? What a little desperate whore you are for me. Look at you. Pathetic.” Kells cursed, spitting on Dom's tongue. Of course he didn't mean it but it made his lover nod. “Who's really the bitch here? You in heat or something? Need my cock in that fat ass of yours?” He wasn't really insulting the Alpha's ass, he loved how thick his mate was but the look the killer gave him almost made him cum too soon.

“Yes fuck yes- please? Fuck me?” Dom begged, rutting his dick against his partner's. They both knew they wanted it at some point but neither had realized how bad they might need it. The Alpha was so far gone there were tears in his eyes at the thought.

“Damn bitch. I'll fuck you soon. You have to earn my dick.” More than anything their dynamic was making the omega feel like his old self, there was a power he held over the other man and it soothed so much of his fear. If Dom saw him as strong wasn't that all that mattered? Nothing changed for the killer after their son was born. If anything he was even more impressed. “Say my name and I might let you cum.” He growled against his lover's ear before licking over his mouth. Dom tried to suck his tongue between his teeth but he pulled back and kept the boy pressed down.

“Daddy please?” He couldn't wait for permission though he really fucking tried, between one thrust and another the Alpha broke. Sticky heat spilled between their bellies as their bodies rolled together, but Colson wouldn't stop until he found release too.

Mid orgasm Dom pushed at his pants, his hands scrambling at his hips as he shot hot between them and made a mess of his chest. The omega paused long enough to see what he was up to and cursed when his lover offered his thighs. “Fuck me?” He whimpered, squeezing his legs together like Col had done for him before. He desperately wanted to feel the man inside him but he wasn't that daft. The omega was big for a fucking Alpha without being one, he couldn't take his cock without prep no matter how much pain he enjoyed.

Colson groaned as he swiped a hand through his own slick and covered his dick in it. He fought himself not to jerk off all over his lover, Dom needed to feel connected and so did he. This is what they could safely do and after hurting the boy he needed it too. He slipped between the killer's plush thighs like he belonged there, his shaft bumping Dom's balls and rubbing between his cheeks with every pass. Pleasure was already zinging down his spine but he held out long enough to enjoy the moment.

Slick dripped down his skin to soak Dom's and he growled playfully between rough kisses. “So fucking wet for me. Look at you. My little slut. Good boy.” He was a split second away from going off about the man's needy cunt but they hadn't discussed that yet. They didn't normally talk first but he'd already degraded him, he didn't want to push his mate over the edge. Their skin stuck together from sweat and cum, their bodies gliding with every thrust. The omega finally felt like himself again but more importantly, they felt like them.

“For you. Daddy fuck- cum for me? Wanna feel you.” The Alpha begged and his pleading gaze was all it took. Colson felt that coil snap in his core and he gushed for his lover, spilling hot all over his ass and thighs. At the last moment he pulled himself free and finished over Dom's cock. It was a claim of his own on the other man. A promise that before long he'd give him more.

Panting and drenched they shared come-down kisses and warm wet breath but Kells couldn't hold himself up for long. Eventually he let himself fall to his partner’s side and when he rolled on his back his bitch cuddled against his ribs. He wrapped an inked arm around Dom and pulled him closer, his fingers tracing absentminded patterns on pale skin. When he finally caught his breath he whispered into the quiet- “I'm sorry. I shouldn't have hurt you again.” He'd done better for months but with all the pressure on his shoulders he snapped. Being an overwhelmed mob boss didn't give him an excuse to talk with his fists to his family though. He knew better.

“It ain't okay and if you keep at it I'm taking our boys and leaving. I won't say tha's the last bloody time because I do understand… but I won't let ‘em grow up like I did. Talk to me next time. I'm always ‘ere for you Cols. It's supposed to be us against the world.” Dom sighed back, resting his palm over his mate's strong pulse. He didn't want to talk about the hard thing, he wanted to bask in having his mate back but it was important. They weren't simply them anymore.

“I understand and you're right for it… but if you do that I'd probably kill us both.” He didn't know why he told such a blunt truth but it slipped out before he could stop himself. He couldn't envision living without his lover and their children. Dominic might be the sociopath but he wasn't far off, something was broken in them both and it made them perfect for each other but bad for the world at large.

“I can accept tha’. I don't wanna live wiv'out you neiver. I won't let ‘em grow up like we did and you gotta be alright wiv tha’. You wanna kill summat we can go on a date and find someone, you wanna fight, we'll find yas someone to punch, you wanna shout, we can step away and fuck it out, but our sons won't ‘ear or see nuffin.” Dom pushed himself up on his elbow and cupped his partner's cheek. His thumb wiped blood from his own lip off the other man's skin. “If you good wiv tha’ we good.”

Colson took a deep breath and sucked Dom’s thumb between his lips. It was as comforting as it was sensual. When it was clean of red and he let it pop free a string of spit connected them as the other man sucked it next. Fuck. He wasn't playing fair. “I'm good with that. Are you good with… what happened?”

“Ya mean you calling me a wet slut? Yeah. Course I am. Anytime you ready to use me cunt you welcome to.” Dom purred and winked down at his slightly flabbergasted mate. The boy smiled as if he knew exactly what he was doing and he probably did, Col was sure he could scent the fresh wave of slick that escaped him at those words. “I want you to be Daddy in bed, fuck I need it too. Long as you let me be dad to our son more.”

The boy pouted and it felt like a sucker punch to Col’s chest. He sighed and rubbed over his face before reaching to pull his lover closer. “I don't know what happened. I mean shit I know I have problems with control but… I know you're a good dad. You deserve to show it. I need help, it's driving me nuts but it's like I wanted to be angry with you so I made a reason. I know it's not fair. I'm sorry.”

The Alpha nodded. He was scared to push too far but he wanted the other to know how much he understood. “Your world is changing. Our boy is ‘ere and we boff scared. You been outed and now you basically famous for jus’ living ya life. Maybe a part of ya does blame me. Fairs or not I can take it. But don't shut me out. I need you too. And our son needs us boff, ‘ey boff do.”

“Fuck. Is Blain upset?”

Dom shook his head. “Nah. I fink we all going fhrough it after last week and he still working on everyfing his dad did. But he ain't upset we focused on Punk. If anyfing he jus’ wants to ‘elp.”

“I told Mod and Tom to search for his real papers so we can find a way to make this actually legal. With the feds on our asses we have to be careful. They're going through everything from his dad's. It doesn't seem like the kid has much bio family left so hopefully we can fix it soon. I don't want anyone trying to take him.” He may not have been showing it well but he'd already grown to love the boy. He'd kill anyone who tried to take him but while they were being watched he didn't want to resort to that. Besides, the kid deserved to feel like he belonged.

A soft whimper came from the cot a few feet away and before Colson could move his mate was already popping up. First Dom wiped them both down with his discarded sweats which he thankfully tossed in their wash basket before he picked up their son and made his way back to the bed. “You ‘as understandable issues wiv control luv. I don't mind you taking ‘em out on me arse but don't fuck wiv our relationship okay?” The Alpha kept his voice light so he didn't bother the baby but he gave Col a look.

“You're right. I promise I'll try to do better.” He swore before he folded his arms behind his head to watch his partner. He had to let go a little and let Dom be a dad. He couldn't help thinking his mate didn't know what the hell he was agreeing to. They'd played around with a darker side of sex but nothing too rough. He hoped the other man would still enjoy pain if he was tied down with his ass raw from spankings and his hole fucked sloppy open, but he'd just have to see.

“Get ya mind out the gutter. I'm trying to bond wiv our son and I don't need ya choking me in ya wet cunt scent.” Kells choked on a laugh at his mate's words but the other just smirked at him lovingly. It was a relief they could tease after all he'd done and he let himself laugh as he crawled closer and held his family.

“Mmm I was picturing how pretty your ass would look after I pound you into the mattress.” He whispered in his lover's ear and felt him shiver.

“You mean me fat arse?” Dom huffed back though he was needy for exactly that too. He didn't want them getting too worked up because if Punk was awake it might be a while before they got alone time again. They both knew they should rest when it came around.

“Your sexy thicc fat ass. Bet it'll jiggle when I fuck you.” He couldn't completely let it lie and it wasn't like their boy could understand them. He was just watching with his bright crimson eyes and his pacifier bouncing with his suckles.

“It jiggles when I fuck you so yeah I'd assume.”

“Tight too. Bet.”

“Since you'll be the first? Duh.” Dom was trying so hard to keep himself in check but his lover was a dog with a… bone.

“My little virgin slut. Good boy.”

“Tha’ don't even make sense.”

“It makes perfect sense! Hell, we'll have to try reverse cowgirl just so I can watch it.” Col knew he should stop but he couldn't. He loved watching Dom's cheeks flush.

“I don't even know wha’ tha’ means but I'm sure you'll show me. Now ‘ush and pump ya'self. I wanna feed our son.” The Alpha huffed, getting another laugh from his partner. He never felt as loved as when Kells was hitting on him like that but he wanted to wait until they could actually play. He adored seeing the other man happy though, especially because of him. It had been a rocky week but it was just that, a bump in their road. They both had to try to make it work and he knew they would. For the little one in his arms and their family, they would do whatever they needed.

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Hope you enjoyed the first chapter of part two. Chapter two and three might be very intense but I think you'll love it! We'll have a few chapters of heavy smut and family fluff before too much plot starts- though it's sprinkled in. These boys are facing a lot but at least they have each other. Hope you're having fun too! ❤️‍🔥🖤