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Arcane Season 2 Episode 7 - Pretend Like Its the First Time
#THE WAY SHE LEANS INTO HIM AND HE LEANS BACK INTO HER TOO#I AM NOT OKAY#THE WAY HIS HEART IS BREAKING#THAT THIS COULD HAVE BEEN REAL#THAT THIS COULD BE REAL#he lets himself indulge in this#he's missed her for so long#IDK I HAVE FEELINGS#arcane gifs#arcane gif#ekko arcane#powder arcane#arcane s2 spoilers#arcane spoiler#timebomb#timebomb gif
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Curly's little blurb on his steam trading card just keeps reminding me he is a much more miserable person than people realize.
We don't get a lot of his thoughts, inner confliction that aren't bogged down by what Jimmy says or does. Even in the The Last One and Then Another, his dialogue is reflective, not the Curly before the crash but the result of everything. Parts of the him he was are there of course, but also disfigured and warped beyond recognition just like he is physically.
Curly really doesn't think much of himself and desires. He clearly chases fleeting moments of happiness. He doesn't really have prospects for himself, assumes in a similar way to Swansea, that if it should make it happy then he is happy. Though, he hasn't reached the point Swansea did to admit it doesn't. He neither sees the glass half full or empty, it's just water, something he needs and he'll take it from any perspective.
He wasn't running from anything but he's never really been going towards something either. He's listless. I've been using the term complacent to describe how he feels about his life and the closest people (really just Jimmy) in it, but now that word feels too neutral, too nice. Happier than Curly really was. There isn't just one word for it, he's unfulfilled, uncertain, uninspired. There are no active problems he faces and that's the issue, why should he be upset?
I believe he really is a person who doesn't know who he is or wants to be. He follows a structure. I don't think he's suicidal, but he clearly doesn't think about what makes him happy. He's numb. I suppose that is a better word than complacent, used to the feeling even if he hates it. It doesn't hurt so why stop it?
#like curly is very much does his job goes home takes care of self repeat i dont think hes like an asocial person but he doesn't take the tim#time to indulge in himself the way he thinks hes a bigger picture guy so as long as nothing is disrupted hes relatively okay even if its#slowly chipping away at him and making him feel hollow like he thought space was endless that he could never reach a point of feeling finis#he never had to predict what to do after the end and suddently he realizes there was no end to it because there cant be an end to nothing#hes accomplished so much objectively but hes done nothing with his life outside of his work like he mentions no hobbies other friends or an#thing of the sort he doesn't even feel like he can vent it cause what? hes complaining about how hard it is to get promoted to have securit#in a job you hate and a position that keeps weighing you down like I feel like if he explained himself at the party and didn't let Jimmy t#talk for him hed actually have made points the others would get cause even if they envied his position he still is justified in being unhap#not everything that you think would bring you happiness does or fulfills even a small part of that desire#idk hes a lot more fucked in the head but like towards himself than people realize like how he lets Jimmy treat him is indicitive of that i#mouthwashing#mouthwashing game#captain curly#curly mouthwashing
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gentle mornings
#alternatively titled - when your papas have the audacity to cuddle without you#kazurei#buddy daddies#i like to think they didnt really do cuddles much except when rei has a rough night and kazukis warmth and safety is the only thing that#can let him get rid of the anxiety and nightmares#he wouldnt ask for it#it would be kazuki dragging him to bed at first#rei reluctantly but in his weakened will the times hes slept together with miri and kazuki has been the times hes somehow always#managed to go out like a light as soon as his head hits the pillow#even he himself doesnt understand and he doesnt attempt to and he doesnt realise#that its safety and warmth and protection and peace#and thats the only reason he would let himself be dragged to bed#but#eventually when you have had the taste of something so good in the place of chilling nightmares and restless darkness that feels no less#safer than the light#your heart becomes indulgent#and rei will gently and wordlessly ask for an invite to the warmth again#its fulfilling and blissful when the three of them are together#but with just kazukis body enveloping him against the night its a different kind of comfort. even in his sleep he would clutch onto it#thats a tangent right there huh.....anyway. miri would be absolutely betrayed in the morning when she finds them snuggled up#she gets her cuddle time with her papas too then#one big pile of a warm and happy family#yes this is pre relationship yes they would do that yes it is possible#if you got this far thanks i guess jajdjfjs ill hopefully colour this soon but i dont know really so im putting it up here#my art
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𓆟 𓆞 𓇼 ⋆。˚ 𓆝⋆。˚…
" of course you'd love the rain " x
#going to sleep good night#treyjade#twisted wonderland#twst#trey clover#jade leech#floyd leech#riddle rosehearts#cater diamond#fanart#i love thinking how floyd and jade do a little dance in the rain because the way water makes them wet makes them happy#i find it beautiful that jade would let his clothes and shoes dirtied by puddles & indulge in floyd's giddiness to dance & splash around#also those tags are the scariest idea ever said#trey in azul's coat is just so charismatic & beautiful#it suits him way too well#trey wanted to offer jade an umbrella#but seeing him enjoy the rain so much he just closes the umbrella#and let himself get wet too#indulging in jade's happiness
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no children
Nightmare belongs to Joku Cross belongs to Jakei
#undertale#utmv#undertale au#nightmare sans#cross sans#crossmare#nightcross#crightmoss#i should be studying for my finals...#but nooooo instead im thinking about evil doomed skeleton yaoi#crossmare on the mind 24/7 it's actually sick#anyway...#normally i like to hc them as disgustingly sweet to each other#but i like to indulge in the angst every now#i like to think that nm develops this one-sided obsession with cross cause he sees that cross is just as fucked up as him#and in some way he's really happy to find someone else who is just as miserable as him#cause nm finds comfort in the fact that there is someone else who is drowning in their own misery alongside with him#so nm refuses to let go of cross because if he does then that means that cross will heal from his trauma and leave him#and nm will just go back to being miserable by himself again#but that's just my sick and twisted interpretation of their dynamic#and i just really love the idea of nm having an unhealthy obsession with trying to find comfort in other people's misery#because it makes him feel less lonely#misery loves company as they say#teehee#ceci art
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Not in a kink way but i need to feed art. God it hurts my heart that he doesn't let himself indulge even at parties ... i want to buy him sweet treats and takeout
first of all, thank you for clarifying this wasnt f***ing kink 😭
second of all YES. very much agree, that part of the interview with mike was so painful like...Artie so deserves every little thing he wants:( imagine after he retires and gets a younger partner, they notice his strange eating habits and immediately buckle down. they make him big breakfasts on the weekend of waffles with whipped cream and strawberries and syrup and honey and yogurt. they order takeout for when he comes home from a teaching session with kids, Thai food or Mexican or Italian or anything heavy and filling that he would've never touched years ago. AND they go out of their way to make him beautiful desserts from scratch: pies, cakes, ice cream, cookies, brownies, anything he wants it's always there. and their reward for all of their work? a happy golden retriever with a little bit of tummy pudge starting to show
#jude’s asks#challengers#art donaldson#mike faist#that part hurt me#“he wouldn't let himself indulge like that”#RAHHH#NOOO HE DESERVES IT
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if you are genuinely out there claiming that gale "succeeded" in everything he "wanted" by becoming a god and that's why it's a good ending for him, you truly are a testament to the slow and steady death of media literacy congrats lmao
#the entire boat scene in act iii beats you over the head that this is#perceived lack of self-worth and helplessness in the face of death and loss of faith#and indulging him in this is indulging means indulging his first impulse and instinct in response to#the first lifeline he sees for himself in years#unless you can be his lifeline instead#as a friend and as a lover#but that's all okay#it's totally okay for him to sacrifice everything including himself in a bid for power#because he still loves your tav sooo much when he ascends right#he loves them so much he couldn't contact them in six month to let them know he survived ascension lmao#jfc larian really crossed some wires bc the cutscene is pretty i can't#also if your bar for a happy ending for a character is if your tav gets a hug and some kissies while some nice music plays#then maybe you should be careful throwing words around like 'narrow-minded' and 'black/white' lol#ch: gale dekarios#vg: baldur's gate 3#series: baldur's gate#text: personal#fandom critical#tbd
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i haven't mentioned this before but one tommy kinard family lore idea i'm really attached to is his mother passing away during childbirth, while giving birth to him. just something something about him and buck both growing up haunted by this feeling of a life lost in exchange for theirs where tommy is aware of it his entire life, where his father slaps him in the face with the fact every chance he gets, in contrast to buck's ignorance and the sense of hollowness he feels in the pit of his stomach. something something about the buckley parents' grief translating to neglect and blindness when it comes to buck vs the kinard patriarch's grief becoming words that cut a bit too close to tommy's skin and pressure and unrealistic expectations that make him feel like he's gonna choke. something something about buck feeling unsettled all his life, lost about who is because of daniel's passing and maddie's abandonment and his parents' neglect of it all vs tommy knowing exactly who - what - he is but not being able to look it in the eye because it would be the one thing to make him even more worthless in his father's eyes than his existence costing them his mother's life.
#also tommy being a mama's boy to a mother he's never met#attaching himself to the idea of her as some sort of solace from his dad#maybe he even has a couple older brothers who are just the type of sons his father wants#who also lost their mother “because of tommy”#who are kinard's real sons bc he had them with his wife and tommy is just an unwanted reminder who couldnt measure up even if he wasn't gay#anyways this is not a hc lol obv bc theres no canon basis for it#i just thought it could be a good backstory different enough from all the bad dads we've seen in the show so far#tim minear let me in the writers room for my self indulgent ideas please#bucktommy#911#tevan#kinley#tommy kinard#911 fic#not really#mimi.txt
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I am so normal about the way they interact what do you mean
#can't i be a little obsessed with my own ocs? (the answer is yes)#its about. the fact that I know. that literally every time they are together roha is fighting the urge to touch her#its about. the hands#how close they get#how close he lets them get#how fleeting the indulgence is when he lets himself have one#how rose has not been raised in an environment where social touching is accepted outside of blood relatives#and even then tends to be minimal#and how roha expresses affection pretty exclusively through physical touch with his crew family#its just. about how i feel :) which is normal in case you were wondering#rose tide rising#rtr comic#my art#webcomic#webtoon canvas
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What a plot twist you were. [x]
#Like. The narrator introduces jc to us as the antagonist#Then we got to know him. Not who people think he's. But who he really is#And we saw jc giving wwx a piggyback. Giving him soup. Rescuing him. Putting himself between wwx and any danger (madam yu/wen soldiers)#And even the staged fight. It's yk. Staged#jc wanted to protect wwx at any cost. But wwx wasn't willing to compromise. But jc did#The fight was wwx's idea. Because jc is an enabler (just like jfm and jyl)#jc is ready to bend for his loved ones sake#The point is. Every action jc takes. Is in the name of his loves ones' safety. And surprise. wwx is one of the people jc really cares about#Even after wwx' return. Aside a broken cup. jc isn't doing much to stop wwx or anything. We know that jl was able to free wwx from Zidian#only because jc - Zidian's primary master- wanted it!#And jc fling himself into danger countless times to save wwx even though wwx can't sit still with him for a hot minute#What I wanted to say it's that the jc is presented to us - the mean ungrateful man- is very different from the real jc -#the indulgent uncle who rolls his eyes at his nephew antics. the brother who buries the hatchet for his sister's happiness.#the uncle who kinda wants to help wn to get up from the floor because he was an ass to jc but he helped jl and that's what matters to jc#the sect leader who let two women speak freely their mind in a patriarchy society#People better than me have already said this. shit I can't remember my point lmao#Like. jc is presented as an antagonist but what this man wanted was an apology and an explanation#This post is a mix of a rant I wrote last year (ha) after seeing a bad take. About what I don't remember lmaoo. And me wanting#to make gifs of wzc in this scene. Why does he look so good. It should be illegal. Seriously#jiang cheng#*mgifs
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quite frankly im so shocked that roddy would be most excited to return to his fatherland go to finland. truly.
"Is there any of your non-Finnish teammates who've picked up some Finnish? Has Evan Rodrigues learned any words just because he's played with you and Eetu a lot?" "No, he thinks he can—some words in Finnish but he's probably the guy who thinks he knows the most Finnish and probably knows the most Finnish of the guys in the team but..." "He's gotta say 'kiitos' after that pass last night! I mean, that was a nice setup!" "Yeah, yeah, exactly."
honestly im SHOCKED that mr hot rod would ever be named in relation to finland.
who couldve forseen any of this coming? like honestly? surprising. shocking. my gasteds have been flabbered.
we live in a society truly
THERES MORE FROM MR HALF FINNISH RODDY WHOS IN EVERY FINNS BUSINESS
at this point it's become deeply comical... making history in finland... continuing to score goals despite not being in finland anymore precisely because of the robes... "im gonna have to keep it going then huh?"... sweet mary and joseph
#eetu luostarinen#anton lundell#niko mikkola#evan rodrigues#florida panthers#2324#2425#wdym half finnish as deigned by mikksy roddy is excited to go to finland#shock pikachu face#special mention despite the short time erod has been here hes fully in love with sasha#“o captain my captain o7” “b2? oh i was gonna say barky squared!!! love you cap!”#the non finn who desperately wants to be a finn#this is what happens when you play in colorado huh#predisposed to the finns#we have 4 finns? paul i think you mean 5 because of honourary finn erod#he is smooching every single one of em he damn well may as well be a full finn#any excuse to bring up that roddy mikksy presser again is a good one im still recovering from it actually#my favourite thing is luosty going yeah erod. hes too excited. it has to be him#lundy bullying erod off the cuff for his lack of finnish prowress LIKE GIRL RELAX HE BARELY KNOWS ANY PORTUGUESE OKAY LET HIM LIVE#and mikksy being so terribly in love with him going youre half finnish because i said so <3#we have a spy amongst us#terribly adorable how much erod has attached himself to the finnish four that this fucking happens godbless#roddy raising his hand like OH OH ME I KNOW I KNOW and not waiting to blurt out the answer or he will die#LUNDY FUCKIN INDULGING HIM TOO OUGHHHHH#CEYINGNGGG#IT JUST GETS BETTER
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feeling completely insane about The Author And His Protagonist™️ this morning and now I'm thinking about bingqiu too, and like. Airplane of course wrote Luo Binghe to be everything he wasn't, this cool and powerful stallion protagonist. And he also wrote him to be what the readers wanted, especially as time went on. But there's bit of himself embedded in Binghe -- his insecurities, his fear of abandonment, his loneliness, his hunger for love. Those vulnerabilities are hidden away under layers of strength and stallion badassery in PIDW, but for Bingmei, they're laid bare and ratcheted up to eleven
And then Shen Yuan. He of course loved Luo Binghe The Protagonist™️ but he fell in love with Luo Binghe, the real person with insecurities and fears and strange ugly edges to his personality. He saw this carnival mirror reflection of Airplane's flaws, and he wanted nothing more than to wrap Binghe up and love him and care for him and soothe those insecurities
If I was Airplane, bingqiu would be like therapy for me
#svsss#THEYRE SO!! AUGH!!!!!!!!#i don't think airplane thinks about this. i think he actively avoids thinking about it actually#but like!!!! what am i supposed to do with this#airplane's family kinda tossed him to the side and he didnt have friends and he certainly didnt have any romantic prospects#and he wrote this character that was for the readers but was also kinda for him#he wrote a man who was so desperate for love but had been hurt so much that he couldnt let himself be vulnerable for it#and then shen yuan scoops that protagonist up and loves him so much that it changes everything#plot insanity aside. just look at how bingqiu has turned out by the end#binghe worries about being pushy/clingy so he withdraws and sqq pouts because he WANTS him to be pushy and clingy#binghe acts pathetic and weepy to beg for attention and sqq is utterly indulgent about it#he loves him in basically every way you can love a person. as a lover as a best friend as family#and it's BECAUSE he's seen all these insecure and vulnerable and ugly sides to him#if i was airplane and saw someone love a proxy for my insecurities with that much intensity it would be more potent than any antidepressant#sqq: loves the pathetic and needy and intense reflection of sqh's issues so much he'd let it kill him#sqh: i think i hauve covid#god. that's enough tags for now.#i put a version of this in clover's dms but i needed to post it too
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ok but have you considered. david dastmalchian as john ward
#bro he would EAT#dave dastmalchian as mr faithin time himself… i would simply… pass away#let me be clear i am absolutely completely opposed to the whole adapting everything into live action thing.#but sometimes i need it to be 2013 again on and indulge in a little bit of fancasting#a little bit of daydreaming mayhaps#david dastmalchian#faith the game#faith the unholy trinity#john ward#the target audience for this post is probably lile three ppl lol
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"お前は失ってばかりじゃねえ"
"you haven't only received loss"
#who wouldve guessed more 07 ghost art....#almost done with the anime now but ep 20 ish took me OUT my heart is bursting#copying the text i wrote for ig here:#i was initially going to just use the english as a caption but it really doesnt get the emotion across properly.#spent a good fifteen minutes rephrasing thr words as accurately to the original quote as possible while maintaining the intention.#affirming that he's gained so much (cherished people and experiences) along his path despite all his heartbreaking losses.#done#YEAH I KNOW frau didnt actually do this this is just my own self indulging... makes me giddy when he gets all serious and intimate#like that expression he does. im down bad for this piece of hot garbage#going off on a tangent here but hes so fucking childish sometimes when he goes to pick teito up from his exam#this idiot took the time to arrange himself leaning leisurely against the wall and having a smoke just so he could be like oh hey#i wasnt waiting or anything im just free and rebellious and i smoke bc im cool....get real idiot#i dont have any more 07ghost art atm so lets see if the remaining eps inspire me#or the manga at the rate the anime seems to be ending :')#07 ghost#my art
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mashing together my two teenage years interests for dopamine
#johndirk#dirkjohn#homestuck#john egbert#dirk strider#my art#touhoustuck#just a funny little au because some of the parallels and ways character powers reflect eachother is fun#john is in no way as manipulative or a mastermind as yukari but his retcon powers are a very interesting vessel for yukaris gap powers#especially when his hand stuck out in a bunch of pages lol i like to imagine if he could master the powers it would let him do her teleport#around and spy nonsense but he'd just use it to be a class a prankster and for magic tricks#on the other hand yuyuko and dirk have an interesting parallel but one that is more like...the entire point is the culmination of#their characters despite the way they have these splinters. like yuyuko isnt nearly as fragmented as dirk but#theres a distinction between the yuyuko who was alive and the yuyuko whos dead and what she becomes after#its unclear if post PCB shes aware shes the one who sealed the saigyouji ayakashi away but she also just thinks its better for her#not to go down that rabbithole. she'd probably become worse if she did and with dirk he has that clarity with dave when they talk that like#even if there are worse versions of him out there. the fact he thinks and stops before proceeding separates him and i like to think that#is something he takes to heart with him post canon to stop beating himself up so much. umh also soul powers = ghost powers lalala#just silly and self indulgent tbh like im not extrapolating or translating backstories but in this au its fun to think o#humans turning into youkai like yukari used to be human and so did yuyuko. john and dirk used to be human and went godtier...anyways
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i want to read an ailette/hestio story so bad because i just really want to see hestio x someone who's constantly and reliably able to fluster him.
but the problem is that hestio and ailette are connected by tesilid, and the instant ailette and tesilid are both in the equation then the endgame has to be tesilid x ailette monogamy because theyre so stupidly devoted to the other. no third party could possibly hope to match their level of obsession with each other
#a transmigrator's privilege#the perks of being an s class heroine#hestio ligenel#theres a reason i had to redact ailette altogether in the teshes fic#i love hes/phael but the thing is that ephael doesnt try to make hestio flustered#ephael is so indulgent of hestio and lets hestio tell himself and everyone else that hes in charge (he is not)#ailettehestio is funny because ailette keeps pulling the rug under hestio for the fun of it#guy pulling on a girl's pigtails kind of vibe except the genders are reversed and also hestio deserves it#hestio is so annoying i need someone to bully him so bad. thank you ailette you were the missing link the trio didnt have#trio is literally just hestio + 2 very indulgent guys
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