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when we get a Lestat point of view you guys better not take it as gospel just because it contradicts and/or adds detail to what previously said. Be smart. NEVER trust a blond man's word
#what's that gif of damien from mean girls chasing down that girl in the bathroom#anyway replace that with me chasing down op going OH MY GOD CLAUDIA I LOVE YOUR WORK#I'm such a Lestat lover but when Louis and Claudia were plotting his death I was like YESSS KILL THAT BLONDE MAN#anyway i don't really think he's a liar per se i think he omits a lot#he keeps things close to his chest#he keeps secrets#and he avoids telling the truth#but he wouldn't tell a direct lie i don't think#i think the series is all about unreliable narrators tho fundamentally#what IS the truth
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on a completely separate note; shizun luo binghe with a disciple shen yuan who fell into the abyss??? *thinks about LBH canonically stealing SQQ's corpse for 5 years* he'd hallucinate i think. like, like visual and audial hallucinations.
Keeps thinking he's seeing SQQ in the corner of his eyes, or wandering between the trees, amongst a group of disciples. Thinks he hears him calling for him, but its just the wind or another disciple.
Gets Xiu Ya reforged but patently fucking refuses to make a sword mound. Because his disciple Is Not Dead :))) There was No Body. He's Not Dead. And If You keep Insisting That He Is, He's Gonna Skewer You :). He's holding onto Xiu Ya so he can return his most favored disciple's sword when he returns. It's on his hip right next to Zheng Yang where it's supposed to be.
Also this motherfucker?? does not sleep btw. He has the image of SQQ, wide eyed and hysterical and standing at the mouth of the abyss burned into his fucking eyelids. Can't use the dreamscape to escape it either because he keeps trying to save him and either he does and it's an incredibly cruel trick to wake up to, or he doesn't and he gets his heart broken in several different pieces again.
There is no convincing this man that Shen Qingqiu is dead. Absolutely nothing at all. He is buried so deep in denial that moles would be jealous of how deep he is. He keeps making tea for two in the bamboo house only to remember that it's just him. SQQ's fans are hiding everywhere, little reminders of his presence. He goes to wake up SQQ on the mornings he sleeps in-- only to find the room empty.
#svsss#luo binghe#svsss au#scum villain#scum villian self saving system#shen yuan#shen qingqiu#disciple shen yuan#lbh. visibly exhausted and with twitchy eyes: im fine :) | everyone else: ho no the fuck you ARENT.#SQQ was hysterical not because he found out LBH was half-demon but bc he was having a long-awaited mental breakdown over his autonomy :)#or (limited) lack thereof. he was having a sudden onset crisis of mortality and was handling at quite literally the WORST time. oops#im thinking very hard that LBH would never push his disciple into the abyss especially with no system to force him to. so SQQ either#had to goad him into it (failing always) or throw himself in. he ended up doing it himself but not before some very impressive hysterics.#BUT ALSO. IF THIS HAD BEEN WHERE SQQ WAS THE HALF-HEAVENLY DEMON INSTEAD IT WOULD'VE BEEN SO GREAT.#and by great i mean horribly angsty bc SQQ is NOT doing too hot and has. in very SY-like fashion. convinced himself that LBH will kill him#when he finds out he's a demon. so when it comes out i have this mental image of him lunging at LBH and LBH flinches back. but SQQ wraps hi#hands around the blade of Zheng Yang and yanks it up so the tip of the blade is digging into his chest where is heart is. LBH can't yank th#sword away without risking slicing into SQQ's hands. SQQ's hair has fallen out of its tail/bun and is now messily spilling down his#back and its NO helping the kinda deranged look he has going on. he's visibly shaking and his eyes keep flittering away and back at LBH's#face. SQQ is looking at the messages from the system warning him that he has to go into the abyss or punishment will occur. he's like.#rambling though. talking about how shizun doesn't *like* unclean things and there is nothing more unclean than a demon. like he is#INSISTING. LBH can't?? get a fucking word in. actually. SY isn't listening that much either anyways. too overwhelmed with the system and#the amount of stress he's under and his crumbling mental state and the innate and primal desire to live even when he's standing in front of#his own executioner. it all ends with him sitting on the ground at the lip of the abyss with his hair falling in his face. he looks so#unkempt and fallen apart and so distinctly *non-Shen Qingqiu* that LBH feels physically ill over it. tears are streaming down SQQ's face#and despite everything he is smiling. its not a nice smile. its a very frayed falling apart at the seams about to crack smile.#he tells shizun not to worry about staining his blade with this disciple's filthy blood because this disciple will take care of it himself.#and then he falls into the abyss before luo binghe can so much as grab him. the only reason LBh doesn't literally jump in after him is bc#he was numb with shock and the abyss was already closed before he could feel his legs again :]
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the best way to luffy’s stomach is through his heart (or something like that)
a four page one piece fancomic in which luffy and law talk about luffy’s stomach
page 1
panel 1: a top view of luffy and law sitting in grass. luffy is leaning back on his hands with his legs outstretched. law sits crosslegged between them. they are both looking down at the hole in luffy’s abdomen, where law has used his devil fruit power to remove his stomach. “whoa! cool!” says luffy, while law hums, “hmm… interesting.”
panel 2: a close-up of law’s hand holding luffy’s stomach in its cube-like container. “it looks surprisingly average,” law says, “for a bottomless pit.”
panel 3: “isn’t it weird?” luffy asks. he is sitting with his back to the viewer, but his smile is still visible as he leans into law’s space. law is still crosslegged, holding the stomach, and he looks vaguely uncomfortable as luffy keeps talking. luffy says, “that thing can make food stop looking like food and start looking like poop! huh. wonder how it does that…”
page 2
panel 1: law looks off to the side, sweating and kinda grouchy. knowing he’ll regret this, he mutters, “i… know how… at least for NORMAL humans.”
panel 2: the back of luffy’s head takes up most of the panel as he demands, “what?! i wanna know too!” law grits his teeth and shouts back, “you’re just gonna fall asleep!” and luffy yells, “nuh-uh!”
panel 3: luffy grins widely, throws his arms out to the side, and flops onto his back in the grass. he’s loudly yelling, “tell me! tell me, traffy!”
page 3
panel 1: law is visible from a low-angle, as if from luffy’s pov on the ground. he sighs, “fine. here’s how it works.”
panel 2: this panel looks similar to the previous, but its slightly darker, with gray bars at the top and bottom, narrowing visibility to show luffy’s eyes are closing. law continues, “the stomach has two main functions.”
panel 3: law is now barely visible through the gap. luffy is almost asleep. law says, “the first, as YOU know, is the storage of food.”
panel 4: the background is completely dark, and law’s words trail off, “the second is—“
page 4
panel 1: a large, top view of luffy lying on his back in the grass. his arms are thrown wide still and his eyes are open. he has just jolted awake, saying, “hmm?” off-screen, law complains, “i don’t know WHY i bothered.”
panel 2: law accuses, “you didn’t listen to a word i said.” luffy sits up, his lips pursed and eyes narrowed because he’s a terrible liar. he says, “sure i did,” dragging out the “sure.”
panel 3: luffy breaks into a grin and proudly declares, “it’s a mystery!” law cuts him off with a “NO,” his speech bubble literally dripping with disdain.
panel 4: the silhouette of luffy and law sitting side by side. law is whapping luffy on the head with a light fist. law says, “idiot…” before bonking him. luffy yells, “hey!” but he is laughing, and a small “heh” shows law is too.
#one piece#luffy#trafalgar law#look im just gonna tag it#lulaw#it doesnt have to be but its what i was thinking when i drew it so.#cw body horror#??? ever so slightly#law-typical gore i suppose#he stuck it back in when luffy dozed off. maybe thats what woke him up#anyway. sometimes ur so close to someone that theyll let u look at their organs for fun!#typically its stomach > heart but for luffy its the other way around#not that he keeps his organs very close to his chest. which is a weird thing to say. what AM i saying anymore
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Day 31 - Mask
The thing about Sans is you never really know what he's thinking behind that smile.
#inktober#undertale#sans#and that's inktober!#only finished...#checks watch#2.5 months late!#But yeah this was another favorite prompt#because this is one of the things I find fun about Sans as a character#he smiles and laughs and jokes#but we don't really know how much of that is genuine and how much is an act#masking for depression or distrust or anything else that might be going on inside that skull#he plays his cards close to his chest#and keeps people at a distance#and that sure leaves a lot of room for speculation and fanfics :)
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yk, I want Bludhaven’s Nightwing and Gotham’s Nightwing to be different.
In Gotham, obviously there are. A lot more people. There, he is “the nice one” (compared to the others).
In Bludhaven? Blud-worse crime rate than Gotham-Haven, managed only by Nightwing? There’s no fuckin way.
Personally I don’t think it’s. Mainly a conscious decision or smth? Just he does more in Bludhaven and maybe ends up being generally less cheery? Or smth. He’s more willing to be (externally) tired with Bludhaven than he would be with Gotham.
Idk, smth for him to really embody the Terror of Bludhaven title yk? Nightwing is Bludhaven’s Batman; you know like, before robin and everything. He works too hard and he’s something to be scared of. He is Bludhaven’s Batman - just a bit more flippy & quippy (and a lot more friends).
#Nightwing#dick grayson#thoughts ig#I really like the Terror of Bludhaven title I’ve heard around for Dick#and I just like the idea that. yeah. he really is TERROR on Haven’s crime. like Batman was *fear* in the early years for Gotham#dick is a scary motherfucker in Haven.#he’s not to much in Gotham cause he doesn’t have to. yk? like he isn’t a scary bitch in Gotham. not cause he can’t in Gotham/with others#just cause he doesn’t HAVE to.#also he’s a manipulator-charismanaic who keeps his cards close to his chest no matter who/what#love a moment w/ Batfam realizing the diff reputation Nightwing has in Haven#ask a gothamite abt NW? oh uhhhh flippy & quippy. still a damn menace tho.#as someone from the Haven about NW? …entirely depends if they’re like a serious criminal or not.#yes? vitriol. pure fuckin annoyance and anger and definitely fear. even if it’s well hidden in there. def fear#no? oh yk thankfulness - maybe personally some good sentiment; still acknowledgment of his competence.#man that one fic about uhhh like spiderman getting unmasked after the train except it was Nightwing and everyone agrees to keep it a secret#cause that’s THEIR hero? the one who looked at blud-worse crime rate than Gotham-Haven and went. I’ll help. AND DID?#also abt the Blud & Gotham whose worse thing; personally I think it’s. Gotham has crazier crimes; Bludhaven has /more/ crime + gang violence#anyway#that was a lot#dc comics#Bludhaven#Gotham
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Lance providing yet another stellar reaction face
#lance stroll#f1#formula 1#aston martin f1#He emotes so much for a man who keeps things so close to his chest#Who needs words right
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This is my favorite interpretation of them tbh
Hopelessly in love for the first time It-Boy and Secretive ojisan who pretends not to notice, being like "hey if he wants to do this he can say something about it. I'm not gonna initiate this".
#tiger & bunny#t&b#kotetsu kaburagi#kotetsu t. kaburagi#barnaby brooks jr#taibani#if asked by others if he likes Barnaby....#Kotetsu would give some distant answer like. he's good looking and rich what's not to like#Kotetsu guards his feelings and keeps them SO close to his chest#loves hearing about others problems but won't give up his own in return#doesn't like talking about himself#read a fic that had the line 101 secrets (Kotetsu) keeps from Barnaby Brooks#they're all little things. but they add up don't they#Kotetsu broke down barnaby's walls over time#but idk if Kotetsu ever got his walls all broken down
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this is a rendog singing appreciation post
because he is really good. he goes off! i mean, the vibes of that whole scene were impeccable - the creaking forest, the crackling of the campfire, the calm of night - but ren's voice goes so hard. vibes, and also technically speaking!
ren's got this gorgeous vibrato on low notes (you can hear it most times he holds a note at the end of a measure for more than a second) that is so warm and so inviting. scratchy, and deep, and always held for just the right amount of time. and he only does it on some long notes, not all of 'em - which is hard to do! holding notes at a constant pitch is harder than hitting vibrato on everything, and he has a beautiful blend of both that he makes seem effortless. (and he holds vibrato on hard sounds too! he hits it on the first "rising sun" which is on an n, which is imo hard to pull off well)
he also has the whole song down pat! there's a brief point (two notes, maybe three?) where he diverges from the melody, but he's still picked notes in the key of the song, which implies he could probably harmonize with the song too. and that is also very hard to pull off!
and just the whole - he has such a unique voice. it's emotive and warm and encompassing. technicals aside, it's a uniquely moving voice and it fits rising sun particularly well.
not to mention he's freaking playing guitar! which means at least part of his brain is focused on notes over the technicalities of singing, which means that all of his skill is instinctive! like he's probably not focusing on vibrato!
like when jimmy said "that's very good!" jimmy was correct! i was shocked when i heard ren singing. like that is Not what i was expecting from my minecraft youtuber!
anyway this is a pitch for ren. PLEASE sing more. please. a cover of the song maybe? for me??
#rendog#wild life#wild life spoilers#trafficblr#mcyt#life series#solidaritygaming#not to mention he keeps the whole song in his chest voice (as far as i can tell)#which lends this lovely resonance to the whole thing#like this song was Made For his vocal range#in a way it is not for mine (i always have to switch between head and chest voice)#the note on 'call' in 'they call the rising sun' is where he could've switched between the two i think#but he doesn't and he sticks with chest voice and it's just#it's so good#and technically for the harmony bit he could just be mimicking a harmony that comes later in the song#but still the fact that he felt comfortable enough to toggle off melody#and switch into harmony#means he is 1. comfortable with the song and 2. skilled enough to pull it off#without losing the notes that come right after the transition back from harmony to melody#also re: vibrato vs constant pitch#it's way easier to disguise bad pitch with vibrato#because vibrato is basically like a range of tolerance around a note right. you're close enough#but holding a note confidently on one pitch is SO much harder#because if you are a little bit flat or sharp it's immediately obvious#but no ren hit his notes exactly on pitch every single time#or at least if he was off i didn't clock it at all#it was just. GOD#SO GOOD
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sorry but i hate that claudia's dress is hung up like it's in a museum. i know why it is, and it's sweet and tragic and i don't blame louis for trying to both honor and grieve her in this way, but i hate it <3 that her clothes fitted perfectly just for her by her immortal companion, just like her diaries, her own private thoughts penned down throughout her life, have been preserved and made perfect in bright open spotlight for gloved hands and watching eyes to feast on even in death. kinda hate it here
#j watches interview with the vampire#sorry i can't stop thinking about claudia she is haunting Me#like i understand keeping it! i'm assuming he got it from the theatre before burning it down since santiago clearly kept it#and i was struggling to think of how louis could treasure it in a way that didn't feel almost. exhibitionist#and i was like well. actually lots of people keep and treasure personal mementos like this#they just don't have the money or desire to put them on display#they tuck them in chests or boxes labeled keepsakes and pull them out to hold and breathe every once in a while#they're private reminders of love and life just for us#but a tragic thing about louis i think is both that living post claudia has felt more like playing house for so long#and his own grief being back burner-ed for decades at a time leads to processing in a more poignant and visual way like this#for louis i think it's fine tbh! i think it's what he needs to feel close to her beyond the rocks in his ankles#but for claudia i hate it#if that makes sense. there is no reminder of her after her death that can't feel a little Displayed and i think it's by design#it's a story about memory and the exploitation of writing it down and publishing it#putting your own personal everything on display to be consumed by onlookers#and since claudia now only exists in memory of course she highlights this in a most emphasized way of all the characters#it just sucks. guys it SUCKS
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in a yearning competition and my opponent is venti the bard, the anemo archon, barbatos themself (i am losing immediately, he has 2,600+ years of it)
#like#… venven how many poems have you dedicated to the bard#how many arts ?#those hc’s where there’s a painting of the bard somewhere in mond (as well as the other old mond crew members) ohhh you Know#he stops by it often#not to mention they probably yearn sm for the company of their other friends too#this bard is just constantly loving and yearning#you look into their eyes and it’s so Soft and sad. bittersweetly beautiful#he has things to say !! he has things people have told him that he keeps close to his chest and will die with#(<- also fully believe even if ven talked to us abt bard we wont ever fully know the story.)#(bard told him to keep it a secret and thousands of years don’t meant shit to a promise. he WILL be keeping it no matter what.)#(his friend asked him to.)#lantern says stuff
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HIII THABK U FOR THE TRIVIA AND ASHE SONG before i take forever 2 answer those or forget here is a blank ticket to please please talk about prime defenders and their AWFUL emotional literacy and processing skills i would literally love to read that essay so much ive also been thinking about it incessantly. big eyes staring up at u.png. ok ok peace out GOODNIGHT !!!! <33
i lied actually im not going to bed im judt thinking about this ans listening to St. John on a loop now. hello catkiss.gif i forgot how youve filled me with so much joy. that cat is so fuckign cute
anyway. hi :) prime defenders huh. this is gonna be less of an essay and more of a sleepy ramble but ohhh i have so many thoughts. they all process things so differently and none of them are good at it they all need therapy so bad. ms.g where is the hero therapy why didnt you build that into w.a.t.c.h ma'am
vyncent is probably the best at actually processing things out of all of them, he just internalizes everything to the point where he wont talk about it unless hes pushed past the breaking point. vyncent is actually very.. emotionally intelligent? i want to say mature but that feels like im singling him out because hes the oldest. i just feel like because he grew up on Fauna and had to be in basically survival mode in a world full of monsters trying to kill you.. that makes a person grow up quicker than they should. i think vyncent had a good childhood and for the most part his parents took good care of him but just.. living in that world doesnt seem like it leaves room for a whole lot of expressing emotions. vyncent is good at quick analysis of a situation, but unless a problem directly interferes with the current goal he doesnt externalize it to everyone else. but bottling up his feelings and emotions just builds up pressure over time until something like the lich makes him blow up and let it all out at once, usually in a dramatic monologue format bc condi is really good at those god damn it. also they played off the fact that vyncent said all of that to the lich and then missed his attack as a funny thing but i like to think of it as. he got too overwhelmed w his emotions and lashed out too soon it made his fighting messy. vyncent is so angry and honestly after what hes been through he deserves to be !!!!
william wisp. my boy. god hes just like me fr so much so that it physically hurts sometimes. anyway. i always think back to the scene where theyre all in the cabin talking about themselves/sharing backstories and william keeps desperately trying not to talk about himself. the fact that hes so ashamed of his powers he hides wisp form every time. two of his powers are LITERALLY a) turning invisible and b) turning intangible, usually as an excuse to leave whatever situation hes in ("accidentally" falling through the floor at opportune moments in season 1) . theres. a thing that happens at the end of episode 13/beginning of epidode 14 that youre really close to and i wont spoil yet but god it has to do with this so extremely much please come back to my inbox when you get there. youll know what it is trust me. um. yeah. so anyway. i think a lot of this comes from a place of. he doesnt want anyone to be scared of him. williams not stupid hes incredibly smart and insightful he knows his powers are objectively SCARY. hes scared of himself constantly, he doesnt want anyone else to feel that way about him, so he shifts focus whenever those aspects of himself are brought up because if someone were to think about it for any amount of time theyd realize the truth that hes scary and dangerous to be around (<< william logic. hey remember how one of the reasons he originally left deadwood was because the monsters there were attracted to the wisps and therefore Him so he left to keep his friends/family out of danger)
i think a lot about williams death and the immediate aftermath, i dont know how much you actually know and how much of this comes later but . how does he go home after waking up from that. his parents know about his powers, so they MUST know what happened. what do you think he told them when he god home muddy and dirty and broken and probably bloody after being missing for. god knows how long. how does he look his mother in the eyes and tell her her little boy is dead. but hes also not because hes standing right in front of her. how the fuck do you think he felt the first time he went into wisp form and saw his body laying there !!! of course he wouldnt want to talk about that!!!! youre gonna have to pry william wisps emotions from his cold dead hands !!!!!!!
dakota's response to the ashe situation was to run away in the woods and do nothing but train for 10 months. he didnt think about it for 10 months. i dont even have a whole lot to say about dakota other than like. stunned silence whenever his inability to process trauma is brought up because grizzly does such an incredible job at being like "you ask dakota how hes doing and his face is just blank" << paraphrased actual quote from an episode i cannot remember which one. either 11 or 12 ?
also because im thinking about him im including ashe in this. we didnt get to see a whole lot of his canon reactions to extreme emotional situations so a lot of this is just coming from My Mind but ashe seems like hed be the type to repress a lot of his emotions too. being alone in your house/in your room for extended periods of time will do that to a guy. i think he feels a lot of things and will probably very openly cry/scream/get angry when hes alone but as soon as he knows another person is there he can immediately flip the switch to turn it all off like nothing happened. very much a deadpan "im fine." if someone asks how hes doing, even if hes got like. the remainder of tear tracks down his face. cannot physically express his emotions in the presence of someone else
#very tempted to add a thing about the greats to vyncents section but i am not going to#anyway do u think it was weird for him to have the people he idolized in his brain. they knew things he thought#they felt things he felt they probably talked about it its no wormnder he keeps his emotions close to his chest etc etc etc#anyway.#im projecting a little bit on all of these can you tell. dont take any of this as canon i am fully like.#oh boy how can i put aspects of my godawful mental health practices on my favorite little superhero teens.#especially ashe be he has not a whole lot of canon basis . sorry ashe you get my emotion switch#asks#intertexts#friends!!!#jrwi pd#um!!! sorry i went off on the second william paragraph i think about the early stages of him gaining his powes a lot.#its the danny phantom in me#also that last sentence was especially mean of me sorry. i did yhat on purpose :) i love to be evil#OKAY. im going to bed for real now. i had 2 get this out of my system before i slept on it and forgot all the thoughts fresh in my mind
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see i like the idea that like. flynn HATES sweet nice hallelujah. cannot stand him. meanwhile, he gets along with toki and gaston
#shitpost#i have SO many thoughts about flynn and toki being weird friends#like its DEFINITELY at first like her trying to be rivals with him#but he respects her for knocking herself out of the gaeans#and SHE has to respect him for his strength#he DID defeat yuriko#its just so funny to me that i think flynn gets along with everyone in the group except hallelujah. who is a nice sweet boy#ok also navarre its like a weird relationship because navarre is dead and like. i think flynn would blame himself for that.#is all im saying. so like. lets go.#and like nozomi is FLYNN'S friend not nanashi's. but nanashi literally doesn't even know she knows flynn#like smtiva just does not state that clearly anywhere which is interestin to me#nozomi REALLY keeps things close to her chest#and flynn is fine with asahi and nanashi. obviously.#and isabeau is also flynn's friend. obviously#so its just literally hallelujah and navarre where things are weird. but he HATES hallelujah#smtiv replay#dont ask me about flynn's relationship with gaston#because i think they should kiss. anyways.
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actually first ep of Voyager where Janeway talks to Tuvok about how his family misses him is that when she says they Worry about him Tuvok contradicts her and claims that Vulcans don't do that but when she corrects and says they Miss him he accepts this and admits he misses them too; implying perhaps a pedantic difference between 'Vulcans do not Feel Emotions' (false) and 'Vulcans do not Act Out of Emotion' (accurate) -> 'Miss/Longing' is an emotion, but 'Worry' is an action one does out of emotion -> one Vulcans do; one Vulcans do not.
#N posts stuff#continuation of thoughts from my last post bc i can smell the counterarguments of 'vulcans are not emotional and are#therefore not impulsive and therefore no vulcan child Would run off unattended' which is Wrong#but also a half formulated thought regarding: how often characters will CLAIM that 'vulcans don't do X' and how often#people take that at face value instead of accepting it as like. a character motivated Lie that is being told lol#ie) when Spock claims 'Vulcans don't Have emotions' this is a lie he tells because 1) it's funny to him or 2) this is an Exaggerated#expectation he feels put on him BC other vulcans are more ready to judge his behavior based purely on the knowledge of his#half human genetics -> Spock is forced to hold a Higher standard just to get others to acknowledge they are Minimally equal#ALT: we do Know that Vulcan emotions are deeper/more intense than they visibly show; it doesn't feel Standardized to me that#daily Vulcan culture would DENY the existence of emotions entirely (unless one undergoes Kohlinar which seems to be a Rarer#and more Intense lifestyle Choice SOME vulcans make) bc that Feels like it would be a Lie which wouldn't be Logical to uphold#BUT i Can see conversations About those emotions being one of those things Vulcans keep extraordinarily close to their chest#in Amok Time Spock was ready to Die before he'd tell anyone about a biochemical process his body was experiencing; I can see#emotions as a whole being an almost Equally intimate thing to share w/ outsiders -> hence the 'Vulcans Don't experience emotion'#claim being made in broader Outside society ; you'd talk about it w/ other vulcans but Not with a bunch of humans#(Spock being an arguable Exception to this standard BC of the 'has to uphold a Higher Standard just to be permitted on even ground)#this post is a lot of thinking aloud idk how much coherence there is here but it's fun to think about on many paths
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inspired by this post, a scene: wen kexing in the valley, shortly after getting abducted, after losing his memory to the meng po soup, finding small nooks out of time for himself, in dark corners or in the department of the unfaithful, still young enough to be protected by luo-yi, playing with stick figures he built with branches and twine, trying to recreate the scenes he keeps seeing before falling asleep, his parents dying, his almost-shixiong giving him one good day, and wen kexing only half-remembers that one good day, because wen kexing only half-remembers being zhen yan, he only half-remembers zhou zishu. but there is that feeling in his chest, warmth and belonging, and he does not try to imagine what would have happened if he'd gotten the change to stay at siji manor as intended, if his parents would be still alive, because those what-if wishes if given in to could tear you apart, and he needs to survive, but he plays at the idea of being safe enough, if only for the duration of remaining undiscovered, until he gets ripped back into the hell that is his life
#can this be counted as fic#my thoughts#wen kexing#ghost valley#zhen yan#word of honor#muddling in words and stuff#i dont know but there's smth so innocent about this picture#wen kexing telling himself stories about zhou zishu before falling asleep#he catches that feeling of absolute security and keeps it close to his chest#in order to find rest#in order to feel safe and loved#making up things about zhou zishu whom he barely got the chance to get to know. and who he already starts to forget#not to the effects of the meng po soup just to the passing of time#and to what trauma does to a person's mind#fraying out everything. freezing certain moments in time
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#negativity cw#mother mention cw#I’ve been in a funk since visiting my parents this weekend#And my mom ranted about my dad and her potential plans for divorce#It’s not the only reason I’m upset#I’ve got feelings about my job performance and my social life which aren’t helping#But being reminded of their marital woes feels like it’s brought everything else up#Half of me wants to ask my mom to not bring it up again#Which I know is a reasonable boundary to ask#But I’m afraid of the repercussions#She’ll respect it#But she’ll respect me less#Which should be okay since I’m an adult#But my mom is my closest confidante (which goes back to the friends thing)#I don’t have too many close friends irl#And even if that weren’t the case#I don’t want to poison the well#ugh#I really really really wish she hadn’t told me#She talked about how she’s glad in this country you can ‘take a man to the cleaners’#And she’s keeping her cards close to her chest so he doesn’t ‘hide the money’#And I know his behavior and inaction are largely responsible for the breakdown of the marriage#But now I feel like I’m betraying him by keeping quiet about it#And I can’t tell my dad because I don’t know if he would keep it to himself if push comes to shove#And it would nuke my relationship with my mom from external orbit#I have to spend Wed evening and Thurs with my parents#And I’m thinking of telling her tonight I don’t want to hear any more about it#We’ll have to see how it goes#But I can’t handle this tension#if she wants to vent about it she can talk to her friends or a therapist or a lawyer or whatever
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so just a question, but what would you look for in a relationship? Whether platonic or romantically can be implied here, like do you like specific features, traits, personality, fighting abilities? Just curious Lord Beerus.
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"An interesting question...."
"What would I look for indeed. It's hardly something I've been too vocal about."
Was it companionship he sought? Or was it merely a desire to alleviate his boredom? Someone that bended to his whims? Someone that defied him? A tool or an equal?
"And shall I'll continue to keep that to myself. You're welcome to guess, but I guarantee you that you won't be correct."
#anonymous tag tbd#q#// beerus can't even muster the will to admit he cares about champa openly even after he thinks champa's dead forever#// he'll respect goku (and vegeta) a surprising amount but he won't ever admit it to their faces#// he's not going to confess any actual romantic/platonic interest bc he just doesn't have it in him to admit to that sort of thing#// he's keeping how he feels about people VERY close to his chest
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