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Between the lines. Part 8

Summary:The reader is at Stanford with Sam and a few other familiar faces. She gets introduced to Dean, an FBI agent for help with a paper. The two grow even closer when Dean learns about her daughter and her troublesome situation. Check out the other parts here.

Pairing: Dean x reader.

Warnings: Language, Domestic abuse.

A/N: tags open!

Later that day you were discharged and you were currently sitting in Deans car on the way to his house, after he came by the hospital to pick you up and a quick stop at yours first to grab some stuff for you and Amelia.  

“Dean are you sure about this?” You asked as Dean stopped the car, parking outside his house.

“Y/n/n, will you stop worrying already. I’m sure. You and Amelia are both welcome here. I have a couple spare rooms anyway. They just weren’t suitable for guests yet.” Dean laughs.

“Please tell me you didn’t go out and buy beds and things just because we’re staying here.” You raised an eyebrow at him.

“Ok I won’t tell you that.” Dean smirked, getting out of the car. You followed him inside and he led you upstairs passing his room and showing you to the room next door and dumping your bag on the very obviously brand-new bed.  

“You can stay in here and Amelia can sleep in the room just down here.” Dean said leading you to a room down the hall. He opened the door dropping Amelia’s bag on a bright purple bed, the room didn’t just have a bed in it like yours though. There was a wooden desk in the corner and next to it a set of clear draws filled with all different kinds of kids art supplies. There was also a small toy chest at the end of the bed with a few older looking toys in them.

“I hope it’s ok. Charlie told me her favourite colour was Purple. And she really liked to draw. She doesn’t have to play with the toys it’s just a couple things I had laying around from when I was a kid.” Dean explained, clearly rambling. You started to tear up making Dean panic.

“Y/n, if you don’t like it, it’s ok we can return it and get her some...”

“No Dean I love it. Thank you. This is the sweetest thing anyone has ever done for us.” You smiled at Dean, before leaning over and kissing his cheek.

“I figured even after you don’t need to stay here, I could still watch Amelia from time to time. Give you a break you know.” He smiled at you, relieved that you liked it. Before you could answer you tried and failed to fight of a yawn.

“Go take a nap y/n, before Sam drops off Amelia. You need it.” You nodded and left to go to your room.

Dean sat downstairs on the couch pulling out his phone to a frequently used group chat; Bitches. Of course Charlie named it.

Dean: Just got back from the hospital, y/n is taking a nap but she’s ok.

Charlie: oh thank god.

Sam: She nearly wasn’t though guys. That was a real close call.

Charlie: Yeah, I don’t like it. De are you sure there's nothing you can do without her agreeing to press charges?

Dean: Unfortunately not, unless I see it happen or there is actual proof it was him that did it, I can’t do shit.  

Sam: It sucks. What’s the point in having a badge if you can’t use it for shit like this.

Dean: I know Sammy. We’re just going to have to do something that involves me leaving my badge at home. She clearly won’t come to me about it in a professional capacity. She still won’t even leave the jackass.

Charlie: Guys you have to remember she’s been taking this shit for 2 years all alone. We didn’t even know she had a child for fuck sake. In y/n/n mind he was the only person who was there for her when the rest of the world shut her out. She needs to be reminded she has other places to turn, that she’s not trapped. But how do we keep the fucker away from her in the meantime.

Dean: He’s not back till after Christmas now anyway, but you leave that to me kiddo.

Later that evening Dean was looking over take out menus when there was a knock at the door.

“Heya Sammy, hey jess.” Dean said stepping aside to let Sam, jess and Amelia in.

“Y/n is still asleep. I’m just about to order pizza, You guys in?”

“Sounds great de.” Jess smiled sweetly.

“Uncle Sammy, I want my mommy.” Amelia said pulling in Sam’s arm.

“She’s asleep right now Ame but we can invite your aunt Charlie over if you want.” Sam said softly.

“Yay! I like Aunt Charlie. She's silly.” Amelia giggled.

“Already on it.” Dean called from the kitchen, sending a quick text to Charlie before calling for pizza.

Around half an hour later, you woke up and heard laughing coming from downstairs. You made your way towards the sound and saw all your friends sitting around.

“Mommy, You’re awake.” Amelia said running over to you, drawing everyone’s attention to you.

“Hey y/n/n. How you feeling?” Jess asked you, after you picked Amelia up.

“My head hurt’s but other than that I'm good.” You were all interrupted by a knock at the door.

“Pizza’s here.” Dean said going over to the door and grabbing the food.

You all sat around talking and laughing for a few hours just genuinely having a good time. Everyone avoiding the topic they all really wanted to talk about because of Amelia. Around 10 you couldn’t hold back a yawn and Amelia had already fallen asleep on the couch. Sam, Jess and Charlie decided to call it a night. Leaving just you and Dean.

“How you really feeling?” Dean asked as soon as he shut the door.

“My head is pounding and I'm exhausted.” You admitted.

“Get to bed y/n/n.” He smiled at you. You stood from your seat and went to pick up Amelia.

“Leave her, I got it.” Dean said scooping Amelia up in his arms and following you up the stairs. Dean walked past you and into Amelia’s room putting her down on the bed and tucking her in before leaving and shutting the door. You’d been watching Dean with Amelia all evening he was a natural.

“You’re good with her.” You smiled, leaning in the doorway of your room.

“What can I say, kids love me.” He joked. You couldn’t help but remember the conversation you over heard him having on the phone.

“You just don’t want any?” You asked.

“Of course I do. Hey I feel like I need to explain something to you.” Dean said leading you into your room and sitting you both down on the bed.

“About that conversation you overheard the other day. When I was on the phone.”

“Dean you don’t have to explain anything.”

“Yes I do y/n.” Dean took a shaky breath before continuing. “That call was with my ex Lisa. We were together for 3 years. She was cheating on me the whole time, she found out she was pregnant about 2 months ago. The timing didn’t fit, the kids not mine. She’s a typical rich bitch, I can see that now. Her parents will definitely cut her off when they find out, so she wanted me to marry her and pretend the kid was mine so she could keep her money.” You felt bad for him. Dean was sweet, how could anybody treat him like that.

“Sounds like a real bitch, you deserve better.” Dean chuckled to himself.

“Well you see there’s this girl, she smart, funny and beautiful. Got a pretty cute kid too. But we’ll have to see how that plays out.” You blushed. Dean stood up stretching before leaning over and kissing your head.  

“Goodnight Y/n.”

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[queen-of-deans-booty]

Spiderwebs

Characters: Mechanic!Castiel x Reader, Dean Winchester

Word Count: 1,358

Warnings: minor angst

Summary: It’s no secret that Castiel has a crush on you, but you just don’t feel that way for him. How can you let him down gently without hurting him?

Beta: she wants to remain anonymous

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When you think of your parents, you think how right they are for one another. They support each other no matter what and share the love endlessly. When you think of Dean Winchester and his girlfriend, you think that it might not last past the initial lust stage. Once that fades away, you know Dean is going to dump her for another girl who can satisfy his needs. When you think of Castiel… those feelings just aren’t there. He’s a good guy, and you love him as a friend, but all he’ll ever be is a friend…

But you don’t think he understands that.      

You met him through Dean since he was the second-best car mechanic in the area. Dean offered to look at your car for you but considering what happened last time, you’d rather go to someone that he might recommend. He accidentally broke something that wasn’t broken in the first place and ended up doing more work to the car, which then turned into this whole mess. You needed work done since whatever Dean did, didn’t hold up well.

Castiel has been trying to get you to go out with him ever since he met you, but there wasn’t any spark between you two. There’s nothing wrong with him, but you’re not into guys like him. He’s super shy, he stutters when he’s nervous, and he doesn’t go for things he wants. He always asks if you’re doing alright and checks up on you which turns you off. You love a man who knows what he wants and can grab for it. You would be with Dean if you hadn’t grown up with him.

Castiel is so sweet and thoughtful, but you don’t know how to tell him you’re just not interested.

You think that we connect That the chemistry's correct Your words walk right through my ears Presuming I like what I hear

“Castiel?” you called out when you entered the back shop Castiel owned. 

He was doing pretty well for himself since he had at least five cars he was working on. One of them is yours, and when you spotted it, you headed over to see him underneath the hood with headphones in. They were so loud you could hear them where you stand, and you tried thinking of a way you could get his attention without scaring him.

You reached out for the toolbox in his line of view, and he jumped when he noticed you standing there. He quickly took out his headphones to greet you with a big smile.

“Hey, Y/N, what’s up? You look very nice,” he complimented with a blush.

“Thanks. Um, how’s my car coming along?”

“Oh, I still have maybe a couple more days still in the shop until she’s ready to go.”

“Great. Anything I can do to help speed up the process?”

“Unless you know how to fix the radiator, then no,” he chuckled.

“Yeah, I don’t know how to do that,” you smiled.

“I’m glad you stopped by. I have something for you.”

“Really? You didn’t have to do that,” you tried to decline since you didn’t want to continue to lead him on. 

Accepting whatever he has would mean you were encouraging him to pursue you. He waved you off and grabbed a small bouquet of flowers he must have gotten before you arrived.

“Oh, wow,” you trailed off, accepting them.

“I didn’t know your favorite kind, so I got a mix. Do you like it?”

“Yeah, they’re beautiful. Thanks, Castiel.”

“It’s no problem, really,” he blushed.

“So my car won’t be ready until hopefully, Friday?” you asked hopefully, trying to steer the conversation back to your car.

“Yeah, maybe sooner.”

“Great. Well, I have to get going. I have Dean waiting, and I don’t want him to wait too long. Just give me a call when it’s ready, okay?”

“Oh, okay. It was nice to see you,” he stuttered. 

He wanted you to stay and hang out, but he didn’t know how to ask you. He knew you were a busy woman, but he really wanted you to stay. All you did was smile and leave the place, gripping the flowers tightly in your hands.

Sorry I'm not home right now I'm walking into spiderwebs So leave a message And I'll call you back A likely story, but leave a message And I'll call you back

“So, what’s Sam up to these days?” you asked, stuffing your mouth with a load of Chinese food. 

Dean was starting a new job nearby and, he needed to be into work super early tomorrow morning. Your place was a lot closer to it than his. You loved having him over, so you didn’t mind letting him use your spare room for a night.

“He and Jess are going to try for a baby.”

“Really? That's awesome! They’ve been trying for what, almost a year?”

“Yeah, I really hope this time it sticks because I want a niece or nephew to spoil,” he chuckled.

“Ever think about settling down and having your own kids?”

“Nah, I’m having too much fun,” he laughed. 

Suddenly your home phone started ringing, and one look at the caller ID made your eye roll in annoyance. Castiel was calling yet again, but you decided to let your machine pick it up, so you didn’t have to talk to him right now. You felt bad for treating him this way, but he’s been so clingy lately. It really wasn’t a good trait to have. The machine beeped, signaling the caller begin their message.

“Hey, Y/N, it’s me, Castiel. I just wanted to let you know that your car is ready. I don’t know when you want to pick it up, but you can call me when you get this, and we’ll set a date. N-not like an actual date, b-but… anyway, I’d really like to see you again so call me when you get this, please. It’s Castiel. Okay, bye.”

“Still dodging his calls?” Dean chuckled.

“I don’t know what to do, Dean. He keeps calling me and tells me I’m pretty and gives me flowers, and I don’t know how to tell him I’m not interested.”

“Whatever you decide to do, don’t lead him on. Castiel is a good guy, and he can use his energy on someone else. You have to tell him.”

“I know, but how? It’ll break his heart.”

“Yeah, but he can start to move on. He’s a big boy, he can handle himself.”

“I sure hope you’re right,” you sighed and shoved another mouthful of food onto your mouth.

And now I'm stuck in the web You're spinning You've got me for your prey

“Castiel?” you called out when you entered the shop the next day.

“Back here!” he responded. 

You headed towards the back of his shop to see him closing your hood. He wiped off the dust on his jeans and smiled once he saw you.

“Is she ready?”

“All done! You know, I’m going to miss working on her because now you won’t come around here anymore. Unless you ever want to hang out with me,” he suggested in a hopeful tone.

“How much do I owe you?” you asked, trying to keep the conversation on the car and only on it.

“Oh, that’ll be $250. Dean provided the rest since he felt bad for breaking it in the first place.”

“Okay, that’s nice of him.”

“You know, I heard this new restaurant opened up downtown, and maybe if you’re not busy tonight, we could go? I hear they have all kinds of food there.”

“Here you go,” you smiled and handed him the money.

“Oh, thanks,” he took the money. 

You turned to get your car and leave when he stopped you with his words.

“You want to go with me tonight? Maybe we can take a walk in the park afterward. The weather is nice enough for it,” he asked. 

You know if you turned and looked into his eyes, you would cave and give in. Dean told you not to lead him on, and that’s what you’re not going to do. That’s not fair to him or to you, so you turned around to tell him that. However, the hope in his eyes was too bright for you to kill.

“Sure. I’d love to go,” you blurred out.

“Great!” he said excitedly. His smile was too wide to wipe off, so all you could give him in return was a tight one. “I’ll pick you up at seven. Does that work for you?”

“Yeah, it does.”

“Great! I’ll see you then!”

“Can’t wait,” you said flatly. 

You can already hear Dean now calling you a pussy, and you can see him shaking his head in disappointment. How were you ever going to let him down now without hurting his feelings and crushing his soul?

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[elizabethrobertajones]

Kinda fell off the grid with Crippling Arm Pain for a couple of days and watched Asylum, Scarecrow, Faith, Route 666 and the first half of Nightmare in a haze of "ow ow ow ow" and I don't have a whole lot to say about them and their individual moments that relates to season 12 that we haven't already said when anything relevant happened at the time IN season 12 while it was airing...

This whole section of season 1 though, makes a shift in Dean and Sam's dynamic which I think is where they drew most of the angst from for like, the rest of the show, and as usual I'm still obsessed with 12x22 and that very specific message of Sam leading and Dean stepping back and letting him do it. And very specifically where that came from and how as a reversal of season 1 in some ways back to the pilot, Sam gets walked back out of what he gets walked into over these episodes.

Sam perpetually comes back to the sort of "you have to let me grow up" thought like in season 5 & 8 ESPECIALLY off the top of my head before 12, although I think 3 was as well in response to knowing Dean would die, and tbh kicked off the entire arc from 3-5. So yeah, it's been a lot of Sam's lingering feeling about Dean and their dynamic and in 12x22 we see another gesture which I don't think (apart from the endless IMPLICIT trust of just working with Sam every friggin' NORMAL day of the week treating him like an equal when this ISN'T a plot thing) we've had aside from Swan Song, in terms of Big Symbolic Okay You Are An Adult Now Seriously How Are We Still Doing This Plot Oh Right Season 8 Needed Old Angst Warmed Up On All Fronts moments.

(Uh, sorry, I'll pick a fight with Carver about the laziness of season 8 character arcs on my own time because everyone else likes that season and generally it seems the show did well re: audience response to going back to basics and rehashing multiple seemingly resolved character arc things instead of going somewhere new :P Long post 99.9% not about that last thought AT ALL under the cut)

Anyway! In the first part of season 1, Sam is with Dean to find John. And he passes it off as a road trip to anyone who asks, and John is the thing keeping Sam from just meeting up with him and they charge off father & son guns blazing revenge mission - he's disappeared, and then sends them on another hunt when they catch up to where they lost him, also on a hunt he makes them take on his behalf.

For a few episodes Dean can fob Sam off about going to work cases while they look for John but he already kinda knows, then at the end of Phantom Traveller it's confirmed for them that John changed his answer phone to redirect to Dean, and the family business is now his. For Dean that's just like, welp, I'll shoulder THAT burden for my family too, no problem, already got a whole crushing weight there anyway hahaha. 

For Sam that makes it a lot more complicated, that John doesn't WANT to be found and he's now effectively trapped with Dean working the job while trying to convince him John is more important, and Dean is convinced John’s orders are more important.

Bloody Mary doesn't have any real resistance to doing the case, and Sam's preoccupied with visions & Jess's death still, so I think his head is still spinning about what he's actually doing and the case doesn't help settle him AT ALL. In Skin, he's the one who makes them backtrack for a personal thing which turns into a case, and he learns the crappy lesson that he can't have normal friends and essentially sees that Dean feels like a friendless freak even if he pretends this is all cool and part of the job, but rather more focus on Sam as the rebellious child being dragged back into the awful family and his own sense of sacrificing normality for the job & revenge from his perspective (looking ahead to how this bubbles over). Hook Man, he offers token protests to doing the case while we start with him obsessing over finding John, and in Bugs it starts with Sam checking for cases in the newspaper while Dean hustles - we know from Bloody Mary Sam has Dean's money and he really is freeloading as a road trip not just in what he keeps telling everyone, but that Dean is allowing him to stay at a careful remove from feeling like he's actually just doing the job again.

Bugs also has all the good family stuff where we finally have Sam and Dean rehash the trauma of Sam leaving, as of course this is all open wounds to them because Sam left and they don't see each other again until the Pilot, so this is a needed and much-delayed conversation directly addressing for the first time not just on screen but ever, between them about Sam going to college and how HE felt in the family, like the outcast who wanted to be normal, and he gloms onto Matt who is having similar issues with his dad that baffles Dean about why Sam relates to it so much. 

They're still going over early childhood > Sam leaving stuff in their dynamic and Sam really IS the kid brother on a road trip, and he is treated that way by the narrative in a lot of ways like this (also as in Sam sees this as a distraction and John and revenge is the real story/job/mission so hanging with Dean is as useful as road tripping :P I don’t think it’s just a cute excuse he uses over and over), probably up to Home, where it all starts getting more personal and real. 

Sam gets to see Mary with his own eyes for the first time, and they have a bit more of a sense of being in it together and Sam being inducted into the family mythos, revisiting stuff that was very very abstract to him, and for a multitude of intents - writerly from the show and from Chuck and his "narrative symmetry" and the motives from the demons who conspired to kill Jess, that needed to happen to Sam to make it more real to him (in the same way Dean felt all along about Mary dying because that pain didn't go away just because it had been a long time. The point is NOT what Sam says that Dean doesn’t know how it feels - it’s that SAM didn’t but it’s fresh and awful and despite growing up surrounded by grief, fancy learning coping mechanisms from John? Hence, follows in his footsteps, revenge-obsessed).

Anyway! Asylum changes their dynamic now - Sam is beginning to be openly frustrated even before John sends them a case that Dean's dragging him around on the job when they should be getting revenge, and I think he's now still sort of road tripping until the end of the season because of his speech in Shadow about being a person again, and the flip only being demonstrated in 2x02 that he now is the one more dedicated to hunting and doing the job. 

And during Asylum Sam vents to the psychiatrist under the guise of complaining about his road trip, presumably similar stuff but less murdery to what he yells at the end, and there's a whole thing with him being annoyed the kids think Dean is his boss. The fight continues in Scarecrow with Dean standing up for being a good soldier - I mean son - and Sam stomps off to find John. 2 episodes in a row he uses the road tripping excuse to vent about being stuck in close quarters with Dean bossing him around when he meets Meg and vents to her as well, but he has his realisation about family when Dean is in trouble and goes back.

After that he's immediately smacked with Faith, which is the first challenge one of them has of the other dying, and to which Sam has to save Dean at any close. His characterisation in this whole first chunk reminds me of season 10 Sam a great deal as I’ve recently rewatched it too (he has a "where's my brother!?" line in Skin which has like, the exact same delivery as 10x01's opening, among other little things which stood out to me) but this one episode in particular... Because he does save Dean, at a great cost, even having some very ominous-for-season 10 discussion about the evil black magic spell book and the desperation of Sue-Ann to bring Roy back, all of which made me laugh bitterly when I came through here on my post-season 10 rewatch, because it was pretty much word-for-word Sam's season 10 all in one episode, right down to the freakin pothole in Nebraska.

I think it's interesting Sam is the first one to make an ethically dubious/bad choice to save Dean (dubious since he didn't know it was bad, bad because he doubled down on it after - also looks much worse with at least 10 more years of canon rather than in the immediate moment it's just a bit edgy :P) while in season 2 Dean saves Sam selflessly and after a whole season of feeling brought back against the natural order (something I think is only exacerbating how he already felt since Faith and finding out what Sam did for him). 

I think this is a way to tie Sam deeply into the family and make him prove he'd go so far for Dean after all his rebellion and anger at Dean, with Dean represented as the boss and the good son/older brother, that Sam isn't actually going to really stomp off any time soon. He takes several strong lessons in a row about family and reconciliation, starting with the mirror family in Bugs and like, every episode after that except in Asylum because it abuts Scarecrow and is an ongoing emotional arc one starts and the other resolves, again proving to Sam he was wrong and being with Dean and doing the job is more important than revenge. (For now - he still has this choice all season and makes a false analysis for easy conclusion to the story by the writers that Dean's all he has left and he doesn't know where John is, even though they only just talked to John for the first time to get solid proof he's alive, AND Sam thought he knew where he was for the first time as well and only didn't go there because of going back to help Dean).

That all shifts Sam's dynamic from a fairly equal partnership, where Sam was kind of along for the ride, but without being strictly tied into the family business because he was road tripping, he was basically like... a support hunter Dean took with him to not work alone, just, you know, the best hunter Dean knew for the job :P And that changes after the midseason to really make Sam ductaped firmly back into the family business. But once he's there, Dean goes from equal partner to older brother who is ALSO his boss in Sam's eyes (even though Dean's really just desperately following John's orders, and is the one fighting in general for the family business to continue, in an a-political way about Sam's role in it, just that Sam sees him deciding things and feels like it is Dean ordering him around... They have issues about it, basically :P), and once Sam reconciles with THAT he does ethically sketchy stuff to save Dean and doesn't regret it, which is more of a blood pact thing to reaffirm commitment and loyalty.

In Route 666 Dean calls the shots, and Sam plays a trust game with the church thing so they both get in a power play of sorts and Sam teases Dean the entire time about Cassie...

(But this is all Buckleming characterisation, which I tend to find completely backwards, and thanks to watching with my mum, I went from 1x13 to 10x03, and remembered I still want to write a tooth-grinding post about their characterisation because something about it really sets my teeth on edge specifically about Sam and it just occurred to me watching 10x03 that that was how they wrote him in 1x13 and it was vaguely justified there because specific scenario but like... is that just their impression of who Sam is? Anyway in 10x03 there's lines he could have said seriously or whatever but there's like, a Buckleming Face Sam has/Jared uses and it makes me massively intrigued to know wtf tone suggestions they put in their scripts because almost without fail Sam only acts like this in their episodes and the grimace Jared uses delivering their Sam dialogue, even relatively inoffensive lines, is like at least a full 30% of why their episodes make my teeth grind because wtf he never does it in any other episodes with any other writers, it's like he has a separate personality to play Buckleming!Sam?? This is all massively beside the point except to say on realising that I decided that I just cba to analyse that one for personal arc stuff :P)

And in Nightmare, Sam's back to a sort of subordinate role in the power dynamic because he has to prove to Dean his visions are real (I think Dean totally believes him he just really really badly doesn't WANT them to be real but it means Sam spends the first 10 minutes needlessly arguing his case wanting to be believed) and then at the end Dean coddles him with a protective you've got me you'll be fine speech, which again puts himself in the role of protector to Sam.

I feel like from here on out their dynamic is hashed out a bit more firmly with all these specific things having happened in relation to all the main arcs - Sam's powers, the family business, John, Sam n Dean, saving each other from death, the whole lot, which as I said up the top, OBVIOUSLY day-to-day they still act very equally and usually, unless plot reasons, have 100% equal trust on cases and work side by side very well. But long-term, I can see a LOT of character stuff settling on Sam that becomes his pattern of thinking (e.g. the stuff in Asylum & Scarecrow especially betraying how he feels as the younger brother being bossed around) that in the first handful of episodes at least up to Home wasn't an issue or a part of their dynamic and they were going for a brothers on a roadtrip vibe without a lot of these Dire Obligations or Life And Death Pacts and so on.

I think Sam hasn't really been able to get out of this because season 5 was supposed to resolve it, but season 6 and 7 have something constantly wrong with him until Cas fixes him for good, so Dean spends a great deal of Gamble era having to deal with each new thing that happens to Sam, frequently acting with power of attorney to fix him and get his soul back etc for his own good. Sam has a blissful free space in his life from 7x17-7x23 and got to work equally and fairly and without any massive interpersonal drama or whatever with Dean (though for most of season 7 after they reconcile say from 7x09 onwards they have one of their best dynamics with the least interpersonal drama once they let go the Amy fight), and then Carver takes over and gives Sam 1 more year or so of recovery off-screen only to smash it all up with a sledgehammer and regress him all the way back to how bad he was in 8x23... Which we’ve been recovering from for all the characters ever since.

Anywho I said I wasn't going to get all obsessed about that, but the point is that watching season 1 and knowing where Sam is going to be coming from in season 12 about his own personal growth and how HE views it, I can see some interesting stuff because a lot of season 1 is Sam VOICING how he feels about their dynamic, job and lives, because it's the exposition season to get us involved in their lives and there's a lot of telling and explaining hot they feel about this that and the other. Knowing how Sam says he didn't want to lead and so on, his original issues with leadership was that he felt he had a mind of his own and Dean didn't and he didn't WANT to be bossed around by Dean, and to do his own thing. And season 1 subsumes him into the family business, and it leaves me thinking about the ever-relevant 10x05, and how the line about John in "The Road So Far" was that he took away their free will.

I sort of feel like watching season 1, you can see Sam giving ground over and over again in these fights. I know there's more to come, but the important flip next is in 1x16 where it stops being Sam swinging against Dean's position in the family, and goes back to Sam vs John, where it stays for the rest of the season and of course ending in 2x01 with John leaving them on a fight and 2x02 Sam having given himself over to the job and not really getting a break from then on to even dream of something normal until he hit a dog... 

So that's all totally different territory in season 1 because there wasn’t much/any Sam vs John stuff in season 12 that I can think of (idk if sharp-eyed Sam fans caught a narrative about it I didn’t see making its way onto my dash), so I think I've watched the parts now which exposition most clearly how Sam ends up essentially following Dean into the family business and in the main arc stuff seeing himself as still being the kid brother being bossed around and made to do it somewhat against his will to have a normal life even if as I say, in general unless this point is being made, Dean rarely if ever acts like this towards Sam and Sam seems to have all the freedom he likes to call the shots in their dynamic because Dean will totally trust him with all the normal parts of their job without being precious about taking his lil brother into fights...

Obviously there’s a hell of a lot more intervening trauma and I think Carver era does a LOT to Sam to beat him down from a relatively balanced, happy-with-himself-and-the-universe place so to actually trace WHY Sam felt like he did in 12x22 you’d start at 8x01 and begin counting THERE, but looking at season 12 through a season 1 lens is really interesting to me.

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19 TV Show Endings That Properly Annoyed The Fuck Out Of People

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19 TV Show Endings That Properly Annoyed The Fuck Out Of People

If you don’t like spoilers, just a warning: There are many.

How I Met Your Mother

“I know what happens in the final episode but I still refuse to actually watch it. I hated that we spent a whole season on Barney and Robin’s wedding only for them to get divorced. They should have stayed together.” – shannybecca

“You waited for nine years to find out who the mother is just for her to die and for him to end up with Robin again. Absolute bullshit.” – temia423e5b2bb

“The show spent multiple seasons exposing how Ted and Robin just didn’t work, and that she never truly loved him in the way he needed to be loved. Why beat the dead horse and then decide hey, never mind, actually let’s resurrect this horse into a terrifying zombie horse that NOBODY asked for?” – michaelc46ae06697

CBS / 20th Century Fox

Angel

“To this day I’m so bitter that they canceled the show in the middle of Season 5. It made it practically impossible for the writers to wrap up all loose ends and give us a satisfying conclusion. It deserved better. Especially given that Season 5 was hands down the best season.” – Aniela, Facebook

“The last season of Angel was such a mess. I honestly don’t get people who say it’s overall such a better show than Buffy.” – Samantha, Facebook

The WB / 20th Television

Dexter

“The show steadily lost quality after Season 4, but the very last episode was soooooooo bad. I was hoping that at least it would end with some semblance of coherence, but it was everything it was never supposed to be. There have been multiple fan-made endings that are 1,000% better than what we got.” – mandelam

“The end of Dexter was an abomination. Sure, let’s dump Deb’s body into the ocean, sail off into a hurricane, and then somehow emerge later on as a lumberjack…all after abandoning your son to live with your murderous girlfriend. Cool.” – jessr4282695d6

“I don’t know one person who saw it who liked it. They just undid eight seasons of character development in one episode.” – ryana4764f34c6

Showtime / CBS Television

Gilmore Girls: A Year in the Life

“Those last four words and then just a black screen. I did not wait all those years to go back to Stars Hollow just to have a hole in my heart.” – amandawilsonc

“How in the world could they not let Jess and Rory end up together? And after all those years still leave us with a sentence that could mean so many things for the character’s life? Should’ve just left it the way it was.” – puckvandenb

Saeed Adyani/Netflix

Pretty Little Liars

“We waited seven seasons for them to reveal the person behind everything was a character that we’d never even met!” – eviem48fbd8f63

“Spencer has a secret evil British twin who was involved with the awful British doctor who used to be engaged to her adopted sister? And the twin decided to ruin the lives of her and her friends using a ridiculously complicated board game that blew out poisonous gas? It was complete nonsense.” – cazboline

“Pretty. Little. Liars. What. The. Shit.” – preetv1

Freeform / Warner Bros. TV

Gossip Girl

“Dan as ‘Gossip Girl’ makes no sense – they try to explain it but there are so many plot holes. How did Dan end up with Serena when he was literally the worst?! And what happened to all of their college degrees? Did anyone graduate? Did anyone do anything meaningful with their lives other than be rich and get married?” – cazboline

Warner Bros / The CW

Hemlock Grove

“Without a doubt, Hemlock Grove. The first season was so good, and I stuck by through the weird second season. The whole third season was a total clusterfuck and the ending was so out of character.” – rnharris21

“I get that it was unexpectedly closed, but the writers didn’t even try to wrap things up in a logical way. They were like: ‘OK, we’ll just kill everyone.'” – Marie, Facebook

Christos Kalohoridis / Netflix

Girls

“They took us to places so deep and on crazy journeys. To have Hannah and the girls just left like that was so blah.” – k8eloe

“I loved this show and in the beginning, I felt such a connection to Hannah. But as the series went on, instead of growing and learning from her experiences, she became more and more self-involved, and everything still worked out for her.

“It’s just frustrating how a character can make awful choices and treat her friends horribly, but still have people on her side.” – ryanc321

HBO

Scrubs

“The end of Season 8 ended perfectly with JD and Elliot, tied up all loose ends, but then Season 9 happened, which not only revolved around a completely different set of characters at a different hospital, but ended up being a disaster that I didn’t even bother to finish watching.

“It just made me mad that they ruined a perfectly good ending to try to squeeze out more money from the show.” – autumnr490c351ce

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Mad Men

“I don’t think it deserved an open ending. I wanted everything to be tied up and make sense. Don Draper just became a completely different person and all of a sudden found happiness and peace? No!” – lauraelizabethx

AMC / Lionsgate Television

Desperate Housewives

“For the women to all move away and never speak to each other again? After everything they went through and the years of friendship? It was just so lazy. The writers couldn’t be bothered to give any character a proper ending.” – cazboline

“It was one of the best shows and then, after all they went through together, it ends with the ladies never seeing each other ever again. And the weird ghost montage…and the cliffhanger secret box? Nope.” – erinc4190a01bd

ABC / Disney–ABC Television

In the Flesh

“Is she alive or dead? We will never know and it’s driving me crazy!” – katherine1244

Des Willie / BBC / BBC Three

Merlin

“I love that show with all my heart but the ending was just too damn heartbreaking and frustrating. Arthur only found about Merlin’s magic when he was basically on his death bed, Gwaine died, Morgana died, Mordred died, Gwen was left a widow, not to mention the weird modern-day element at the end.” – Hannah, Facebook

“I like to pretend the last episode doesn’t exist. It was such a great show that just felt really rushed at the end.” – Kathleen, Facebook

BBC / FremantleMedia

Chuck

“One of the main characters loses her memory and never gets it back. Just ends with her forgetting all about what happened over the last five years. Never gets to say goodbye.” – mpudelka14

“After five seasons and investing so heavily in Chuck and Sarah’s relationship, a cliffhanger?! REALLY, GUYS?! I need to know if she remembers.” – annad460a4a7b2

NBC / Warner Bros

The Mindy Project

“It felt so rushed and just very messy. It didn’t compare to the previous seasons at all. The finale didn’t feel like a finale.

“I just didn’t feel like some of my favourite characters on television were given a proper send-off.” – Tayla, Facebook

Hulu / NBCUniversal

Quantum Leap

“Love the show, and after five amazeball seasons, it was such a let down to learn that Sam never made it home.” – Doreen, Facebook

NBC / NBCUniversal Television

Major Crimes

“In the final season the showrunners decided to have a tantrum because the show had been cancelled. The main character was killed mid-season and then an entire legacy was erased. At the end, a murder was committed and covered up. The takeaway? Follow the rules and be successful, and you will die a terrible untimely death and be forgotten. If you break all the rules, whine, and do everything selfishly you will get away with murder.” – Jen, Facebook

Art Streiber / TNT / Warner Bros Television

Friends

“As a kid I rooted for Ross and Rachel, but growing up I realised she should have stayed on the plane. It was a phenomenal job experience to be in Paris, one that would have helped her career skyrocket, not to mention how toxic their relationship was.” – roo95

“The only good things that came were Monica and Chandler getting their kids.” – viviand413fc924f

NBC / Warner Bros. Television

And finally, people are very split about Lost

“It was terrible. They didn’t explain of the plot lines. They were dead?! And the last scene in the church. And the Man called Jacob who guards the light. The smoke monster who was actually his brother. I’m so confused.” – sarlyn887

“The ending of Lost only pissed off the people that didn’t actually understand Lost.” – Bryant, Facebook

Bad Robot / ABC

LINK: 19 Movie Endings That Seriously Infuriated The Fuck Out Of People