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james potter is a masochist through and through no man falls in love with his best friends brother who’s in a rival house at school and puts so much love into a relationship he knows can’t last forever because they’re at war and his boyfriend is forced on the opposing side and isn’t a masochist down to his bones
#james potter#james is such a masochist#he just loves the pain fr#like who does that#who just falls for their besties bro knowing it won’t be a happy ending#marauders#marauders era#regulus black#jegulus#james loves regulus
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I don't want to regret the way I lived
#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#fanart#jjk fanart#jujutsu kaisen fanart#yuji itadori#gojo satoru#nobara kugisaki#nanami kento#choso kamo#junpei yoshino#jjk leaks#jjk spoilers#jjk manga spoilers#this idea started as a 2 part series . then my braincells decided to spark and supplied 7 PAGES#'did you sleep hina' no#ws looking up mentally stable things like 'who has died in jjk' smh i love my hyperfixation media im sooooo glad so many ppl r DEAD#i *could* have included more ppl but i think this is a good crew. this is a yuuji emotional support crew#also Was gna include his grandpa final panel but i Did Not Want To#he is implied through th dialogue#side note i donot like how i cn see this scenario playing out . ..yuuji this isnt ur stop u r monopoly voice Just Visiting ok >:(#anyway I broke my own heart with this and ik i hyped it up a lot but i hope that its not just me...#hope i did not hype it up fr nothing and no one else finds it devastating :((((( that would b humbling in the worst way#pls ...join the happy party train.......i hate it here i suffered pls :<<<<#also !!!! colours in this !! i cooked i fear . adding th first bit of warm hitting yuuji's face after th first 2 panels....#ive never had that kind of experience while drawing before it was wild . painful ! but wild.#the whole transition from p 2->3 might b the most emotionally moving piece ive ever made to me#not 2 sing my own praises tho i will shut up ! i wil. nap
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i think we don't talk about what the driving force behind each batcher is enough. like if u think abt it hunter often acts out of fear ( not cowardice , fear that his ppl will get hurt duh ) , while crosshair often acts out pain , tech acts with logic , wrecker with love , and echo ? echo acts out of being true hater
#omega kinda balances them by acting out of all of these places#IM JUST BEING SILLY THOUGH THIS ISNT SERIOUS#echo my beloved#he's literally such a hater though and i love it#yes i'm aware of all his pain & lore and what truly drives him#but my god is he a hater#just like me fr idk#the bad batch#tbb hunter#tbb crosshair#tbb tech#tbb wrecker#tbb echo#tbb omega#star wars#sw tbb#clone force 99#we salute you echo#keep hating king#what doesn't kill you makes you an asshole#yapping again
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Look what came through the mail today! The letters & ( •̀ω•́ )σ 3 little gremlins from letterstoear.
Just wanna say i adore the flower stickers on the letters too much, they are that much worth mentioning.
#letterstoear#nui#twst#twisted wonderland#sebek zigvolt#malleus draconia#twst grim#mod posting#okay but i love squishing the bears with my thumb; they just have the right thickness to be pressed on#i really like the flower stickers; they look like romantically artistic wax seal#the letters are pleasantly nice#i love the part where cheka personally request for an audience with yuu thru sebek 🥺🥺🥹🥹 too cute hnggh .......#sebek becoming our little mailman for our little invitation aw 🥹 for those who wanna know the context of the letter;#i requested a letter from sebek that he sent home while he was away accompanying malleus on other country duty#my other favorite part is just him simply opening the letter with 'My love'#i'm sealed 🥹 the first paragraph is written so sweetly#i enjoy reading the letter slowly outside in peaceful afternoon today; i ran it through together with sebek nui#this will be my treasured keepsake from now on 🥹; it seriously made me miss letters and wish i have someone to send this kind of letter to#it was a bit funny how the envelope sebek's letter came from is sticked with the guys from free! sticker fhsdsh 🤣😂#and me with the white haired guy like WHo are u?? fsjdsdjsd (´つヮ⊂); but it's a really nice service#the thank you letter came with such a cute and yummy folding paper; thank you for the stickers too#i feel like there's a bit whoopsie on grim's winky eye fshfh like i think the sharpie just blurs the separating space '<' supposed to have#and just combine it all together into one angry eye; and sebek bear's eyes are just a little bigger than i expected it to be#but the more i look at them i think they are just having a little individuality & still cute#i embraced it all together while knowing the fact none of handmade thing would always be the same one with the other; hehe sebek nui has fr#i kinda forget that there's this kind of clip earring fshd; because i always get the ones that work like screw from aliexpress#i know that the literal clip one would just be literal meaning of pain fsh; just like the magnet one my father once got me when i was a kid#it was painful but pretty; tho i lost it quickly bcs magnet easily get loosed once one part of it moves around when u touch ur hair or face#anyhow i had a pleasant day because of this; thank you very much ! sebek nui said 'thank you' too! ‧₊˚❀༉‧₊˚. ��� ✿ 𖤣…
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Li Lianhua + saying "I love you" without saying "I love you" (3/?)
Mysterious Lotus Casebook (2023)
#li lianhua#qiao wanmian#mysterious lotus casebook#lhl#lian hua lou#llh's love language#I'm sorry these gifs are gross and crunchy#kissasian failed me with only 720p =(((#but here's some more pain re:#food as a love language in MLC#I had to lie down for 5-10 business days after this scene fr#they both look so pretty with their teary eyes too#it's patently unfair#and I just loved this whole scene as a manifestation of queer LLH trying to navigate his relationship with QWM#whether he's gay or aroace or what#he still loves her and still wants her to be happy#and he hates himself for hurting her with the very fact of his existence
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#why as a man are you a man#meow moew#he is a woman to me#blonde men are women to me#pistol bobcat#i’m just like ocelot fr because if someone complimented me i would also follow them until the day i died#he just loves torturing men so much 🥺#you’re pretty good#he is my favourite manipulative cat#just like me fr#metal gear solid#mgs#metal gear#revolver ocelot#mgsv#mgsvtpp#mgsv ocelot#metal gear solid 5#metal gear solid v#the phantom pain#shitpost#metal gear memes#major ocelot#mgs ocelot#ocelot mgs#slinger the ocelot#metalgear#metalgearsolid#outer heaven#ocelot
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I literally woke up in the middle of the night like God will dark rise is so fucking screwed. The line that’s like. “Everyone wanted to kill the Dark King.” What’s the part where he looks at Violet helplessly, haunted, almost pleading for mercy? But of course he reveals nothing of substance to anyone. Elizabeth is too young to understand but the reader knows what “Her relationship with that boy was…unnatural” can mean. Tying him to bedposts? Failing to strangle him? What else? Never not even once seeing beyond a mythological identity Will himself didn’t know he had? What did he think was the reason? That he was just intrinsically hateful? Of course he says nothing. Of course Violet can’t trust him- he’s given her nothing as painfully real as what she’s given him. So he gives her the sword hoping at least he can die at the hands of someone he loved, but even that doesn’t work out - she gives the sword to a Visander still furious at SARCEAN. The pattern continues; no one looks at Will, who vomits when he realizes what’s happened to James, Will who is much of a liar and killer and sneak as Elizabeth accuses but nonetheless wants to be different. Even when he doesn’t remember his own past. There’s no way out for him that doesn’t hurt. Hope this obsession passes soon given the one and a half years of waiting required for book 3
#dark rise series#dark heir#rarely does a cliffhanger pain me so much#bc rarely am I ever THAT invested in a plot I am sad to say#nona the ninth was so cathartic in of itself I’m content marinating before alecto#BUT PACAT ONLY EVER GIVES EMOTIONAL CRUMBS#have any of these bitches ever known peace fr#maybe this is what reading princes gambit and not immediately having the follow up might’ve been like#honestly it’s possibly damen and Lauren just generally had less problems tho#more than his relationship even with James. will/Violet is perhaps the genuine source of like. I WISH HED GIVEN HER A REASON.#the narration that describes Violet as Will’s star in the night…….. like fuck fine#will can’t reach any level of genuine intimacy with James bc the mess of fraught noncon dynamics is this massive unspoken horrible thing#wills identity is personal w James in a way it is with no one else but James is so fucking oblivious of undercurrents it comes unbalanced#and will knows it. but (as far as we know) violet isn’t reborn has no history with sarcean the dark king she’s literallt just Some Guy#and that almost makes it worse???????? that they are so loyal to each other even as he’s keeping a massive secret?#they weren’t dated or destined to entangle the way will is w characters like James and Katherine#and I think that makes his rship with Violet possibly the realest and truest experience of trust and love will has ever had#like it’s nothing bro. truly she knows nothing about him other than his lies of omission and her faith in him goodness which may or may not#beiltimately justified. but that was probably as honest and close will ever got to anyone. and him to her.
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i know i haven’t been active on here but my bf has been discharged from the urology center after his vasectomy and he’s having a good recovery so far 🤍 it’s only day 1 and he’s super sore, he can’t stand up or sit down too fast, he’s been taking his time walking, but at least he���s happy asl that he finally got this procedure done LMFAOOO
#𝐍°⦗ 𝑴𝑬𝑺𝑺𝒀 𝑻𝑨𝑳𝑲 .ᐟ ﹕ �� ̟𐦍#when the doctor tells us we can finally have sex again i’ll be having him shooting blanks fr#LMAOAOOOO#my poor bby i love him sm#his pain tolerance isnt that high#so hes been hurting#🥺#ive just been cuddling w him and letting him get some rest#but he told me this was the best decision he ever made#and im so happy
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head hurty head hurty migraine 😾
#suguru would prepare a hot compress for my head and also give me iced water to drink#he would gently pat my head and bring me an iced eye mask as i try to sleep through the pain#he would bring me orange 🍊 juice and some abortive medication and coo soft nothings in my ear of how i am so brave#and migraines are the worst and he would make a big deal out of it to make me feel like a warrior princess :<#and then he’d let me cuddle up next to him and tell me how bad he feels that i have to go through this esp on my period#these r just the things im doing to myself rn in my head and spoiling myself via my selfship horrendous (beautiful) imaginations#ena sugu powercouple fr#he just loves to be around cause he knows i am insane and that just matches his own insanity :3#en rambles#tw: migraine#suguen
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Making sparda an overbearing, dominating figure with a soft spot for family and general neutrality on humans is good, but i think super happy funtime guy sparda who is incredibly enamored with his family and outwardly super duper nice (almost appearing and sometimes is naive or gullible) to humans but when alone or pushed in just the right way he morphs into that nearly cruel and dark figure he was considered long ago, is better. :)
#i love nice guys with darksides ig#that idea that time love space and all forms of care and feeding can only abate the true nature of an animal#that in the end he can mask it all he wants with human emotions like love and happiness but that he is still a demon and that#there are still many things he cannot let go of or change no matter how much time passes#i like to think it caused him great pain. i like to think that embracing humanity caused him so much internal grief and struggle#this is edging on implying he wished he were a human instead but I don’t think thats true. i think it came up when hu#-man issues arose like eva being pregnant or even before that bc it would have made things easier. not better per se but def easier#but he is also proud of the being that he is as well which again comes back to that internal struggle he must have experienced#idk lol#dmc0#dmc#devil may cry#stratatata#using this as a gen tag when i say smth#ignore this im just talking out my ass fr
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literally fucking sobbing screaming tearing my hair out shitting bricks looking at this image bc it hurts me SO fucking bad now that we’ve seen izzy in s2. look how fucking devoted and in love he is even THEN when they were ALREADY fucked up and falling apart. he was still so in love. he was still so fucking happy to serve. so sure that everything was gonna work out his way. that they could be happy (or as happy as pirates can be). and now it has actually gone so far that IZZY FUCKING HANDS OF ALL PEOPLE is fucking broken and can’t take it anymore. izzy fucking hands is crying because of how hurt he is. izzy fucking hands is going to leave edward teach. the man who was still in love even after he was fed his own severed toe. they have fucked up that fucking badly. it’s over.
#WHY DO THEY HAVE TO HURT ME SOOO MUCHHHH#IM GONNA CRY. LOOK HOW MUCH LOVE HE HAD. STILL HAS??? I DONT EVEN KNOW ANYMORE#HE WAS SO IN LOVE HE HAS SO MUCH LOVE IN HIM#AND ALL HE GETS IN RETURN IS PAIN. THROWING MYSELF OFF A BRIDGE.#I’m so fucking distraught. blackhands…. god……#most painful ship ever fr#izzy hands#ofmd#I just. i cant even convey my thoughts rn I have no idea if any of this makes sense#can anyone understand me 😭😭#I just - god. him.
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ah. so elynas and durin really are siblings huh
#personal stuff#thorn plays genshin#hm. hm.#can't believe albedo has another sibling! fontaine event where albedo goes to elynas. who's with me#hsdgfjdkh but fr i thought so after completing the quest!#big dead dragon born from a cosmic void with blood that crystallizes. cells that literally drop Alien Goop#and then the world quest where we get the pov of the ship's crew talking about the Abyssal sea monsters#AND THEN. now. rereading durin lore#durin specifically arose from the Sea and is described as being a black *serpentine* dragon in line with elynas's appearance#festering desire also speaks of a Mother#then dragonspine spear paints durin as being gentle and wanting to befriend the people of mondstadt#and feeling no ill will towards them or dvalin when he died#which is VERY in line with elynas saying he realized the things that interested him brought fear and pain to others.#and that if he could traverse this world without causing pain or fear he would.#is very similar to durin wishing he could have met dvalin and venti and mondstadt under different circumstances#both weapons speak of being born from the same darkness that elynas talks about#AND both of their hearts are still intact. why tf did jakob want to get elynas's to beat again. what the fuck#just aoooh. i love how much of genshin exploration is just realizing how fucking fitting the Cataclysm is as a name for what happened#and how much it happened Everywhere#like. at least 3/7 of the original archons died. which is fucking. bonkers to me#considering MOST of them lived until that point with the only confirmed exception being the og pyro archon#don't even get me started on the fact that most of these deaths aren't even known#makoto obviously and rukkhadevata retroactively. no one in fontaine says a WORD about the lord of amrita#the only ones who seem to care about her are the oceanids. what the fuck#but god. like#the narzissenkreuz institute and the order of skeptics questline. the impact that people trying to investigate the cataclysm had#on others and themselves#like it makes a lot of sense but we don't see it anywhere else!! fucking of course people would try to study the cataclysm!!#of course people would try and find out wtf happened!!!#but now everything to do with the cataclysm is confidential to the point where people don't believe that most of the stories are true
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Okay but what if (Patreon)
#Doodles#TSP#Stanley#Me while reading: Now don't make a papercraft okay? Don't make a papercraft don't make a papercraft don't make a-#Predictably lol#It's the kind of structure that invites speculation! Who would you choose and what would their name be and how would they adapt#And The Stanley Parable wasn't even out at the time!! FJkldsafdf#Me when anything: I want to#Stanley would be so fun to play as ♪ Small but close-knit cast and since it's an institute it should have accommodations for his mutism#And he's no stranger to painful and confusing situations haha#You can see my indecision on which sign language Stanley knows haha#He never speaks so we don't know what accent Stanley would have but we know the Narrator is British! So#But I also don't know any British Sign Language and I know it's different than ASL òuò;#Granted my knowledge of ASL is far far far from fluent but I do know some at least so if /I/ was the one playing as him-#Anyway moot point since languages are directly translated anyway :P Though I wonder about sign language#I assume there were some nonverbal patients I just haven't seen any myself :0#I have also made a Narrator card to match Stanley 😔#Actually - hehe - I had a lot of fun picking their ''real'' names ♪#The Narrator's was pretty easy honestly I knew I had to give him the first name Kevan and then I wanted to keep his last initial#So I went with ''Baker'' since it's a common name :) Very cute!#And then for Stanley since I headcanon him as being Greek/Latino - heavier on the Greek side - I gave him a Greek name!#Again same first initial - couple letters even for that ''St-'' sound :) - and scanned through some Greek last names#And liked the sound of Psomas with Stefano - but ♪ You'll never guess ♫#It's a similarly common name for a reason - ''Psomas'' translates to ''bread maker''#Kevan and Stefano Baker they're husbands fr your honour#Hghhghh I just think it's so cute!! And I didn't do it on purpose it was just a happy accident!! I love them <3
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dawg, one thing abt me is that i've always been an advocate for yukine and yato's happiness.... so i'm just curious.... WHEN EXACTLY WILL ADATCHITOKA PAY FOR THEIR CRIMES AGAINST THIS KID AND HIS SILLY SELF-PROCLAIMED DAD 😭 LET MY BOYS REST MAN DAMN
#NO BC THIS ABSOLUTELY WRECKED ME#YUKINE HOLDING ONTO YATO AFYER HE SAW HIM FADING AWAY I CANT DO THIS#BRO HAS JUST BEEN THROUGH IT AND NOW HE'S GONNA LOSE BOTH YATO AND HIYORI AT THE SAME TIME ATCYALLY GONNS#naw i gave up on the direction of this manga ever since father decided to create his lil nation#i ABSOLUTELY DISLIKE THE DIRECTION THEY WENT FOR#and SEKKI SHOULD'VE FINISHED OFF FATHER NOT HAKKI I SAID WHAT I SAID#but anw LET MY BOY REST FR HE'S BEEN THROUGH SM SHIT ADATCHITOKA U CANT KEEP GETTING AWAY W THIS#i'm actually sobbing this part hurt me sm 😭#noragami#yato#yukine#noragami spoilers#i still love noragami despite the writing. i've just been way too emotionally invested in the story and characters for years#save my boys bro#they've had enough fr#no bc wHAT HAPPENED TO YATO 😭#ion even wana think abt it bro. i see nothing but tragedy and absolute pain in the next & last chapter#adatchitoka is so gracious giving us a whole month to prepare for what's to come 🥰#man i hope yato is okay 😭 i doubt it tho 😭😭😭😭😭#mine
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I wonder how different my feelings on Drew would be if there wasn’t that freaking spare laptop scene
#PAINN. THAT SCENE PUT ME IN SO MUCH PAIN FOR DREW. AND THEN IT ALL GETS RESOLVED ANYWAYS SO NO ONE KNOWS EXCEPT JAKE LIKE HHHH#I mean I ALREADY felt bad for him BEFORE that. it started when we find out his girlfriend is cheating on him. but we didn’t know the#characters as well back then so I was just like ‘dang that’s crazy’. then I started seeing him get more upset about Jake leaving and started#to feel more sympathetic towards him I was like ‘this guys GF is cheating on him and his best friend won’t hang out with him anymore’#AND THE SPARE LAPTOP SCENE MADE ME SNAP I WAS LIKE 😭 DREW NOOOO#MY BIGGEST QUESTION DID JAKE GHOST HIM? DID HE SAY ‘sorry grounded from that too’ OR JUST GHOST HIM?????#I love Drew so much. Guy who doesn’t know how to express his feelings fr. I’m satisfied with his drake up speech.#is it painful to see him say all that stuff? yes. DID JAKE KINDA DESERVE IT THO. not entirely but it’s PRETTY UNDERSTANDABLE that Drew would#snap at him. HE LITERALLY KNEW HIS GF WAS CHEATING ON HIM FOR MONTHS AND NEVER TOLD HIM UNTIL HE WANTED DREW TO SUFFER.#wait I should stop rambling about Drew (I could make a whole post about him) what was the post about again. THE SPARE LAPTOP SCENE.#yeah I’m just wondering like I PROBABLY would still sympathize with Drew without that scene but OHHH MY GOD that scene HURT ME SO BAD. I had#to pause and tell my sister how much PAIN I was in from watching this freaking GACHA SERIES#the music freaks
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🖊 which oc of yours are you currently the most obsessed with
That is a fantastic question. Probably this guy, who I'm currently in the process of redesigning:
I made him a decade ago, and he still doesn't have a name yet. He's called 'Elf Guy' in my head lol. He's a tired, bookish student at a magic academy, and is also a researcher and potion-maker, as well as a wizard. He's one of the protagonists of a story that mostly only exists in my head because I don't know what direction I want to go in with it (a visual novel/a game/a comic/a book/etc.). He didn't look like this before, and has gone through a couple of different redesigns over the years, but I think this one is more in line with his personality/profession/interests and such. The wings are actually part of his outfit, and aren't actual wings. He has a fairy friend who is an artificer (specialising in magical prosthetics), and they're both roommates and bicker a lot lol. Also he may or may not end up in a queer platonic relationship with some kind of celestial being.
I definitely need to talk about these guys more, because I have a bunch of lore about them and their world in my head or in random Word documents or sketchbooks.
The basics of his story arc are: he's an overworked and exhausted magical uni student. One thing leads to another, and he finds himself nursing a strange individual back to health in his house. Said individual turns out to be from the celestial plane and is basically a messenger of the gods. He tells him that something Not Good is going to happen if they don't stop it from happening (not sure what exactly, yet), and so this guy is basically forced to leave his house and his city and go out and experience the world with his newfound friend (amongst some other people) whilst they save it. Basically, he learns that there's more to life than work and stuff through the celestial, and the celestial learns that sometimes he needs to stop messing around and actually take things seriously through the elf guy. They kind of parallel each other but are also opposites in a way. No idea if any of this makes any sense lol. Also they become, like, really devoted to each other, because they've never had people in their lives who they've let in that close before.
Idk. This really is just a ramble at this point lol. But yeah. I love him. :)
#my asks#my ramblings#my art#i actually love this guy but i really need to solidify what he's all about#he's just like me fr: tired and burnt out lol#he also has chronic pain and insomnia so he really is just like me fr
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