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Dazai Character Analysis
Okay so, this is basically a Dazai character analysis for before his mafia days so buckle up. These observations are from what Iāve noted in readings of official Light Novel translations, No Longer Human, Beast, and the base manga obviously, but head canons may worm their way in despite my trying to exclude them.
Alright, so I think that logically this should proceed from a chronological standpoint, so Iāll discuss the time before Dazai and Chuuya: Age 15 first, which, while isnāt explicitly stated, allows a lot to be learnt about his character. Letās start with the fact that in Fifteen it is said Dazai is not an orphan, shall we? He has been established as a suicidal character from before his first canon appearance aged around 13-14, therefore an event before he joined the mafia is primarily the cause of this mindset. This doesnāt really highlight a brilliant childhood, although knowing he was indeed homeless for a time prior to meeting Mori does create another potential reason for this behavior and philosophy. However, this knowledge of the fact he was homeless also just goes to show that while he did have a family Dazai would rather live on the streets than with them. Iām assuming that Dazai did have a living family due to the whole āhe certainlyĀ isnāt an illegitimate child, or anĀ orphan he picked upā thing in 15 when discussing his place in the mafia. Therefore his time on the streets doesnāt really set the scene for a loving family, does it? Thus, Dazaiās household must have been a place he either felt overlooked or trapped. An example that sticks out to me from No Longer Human is when Yozo feels he must pretend to be something that his family desires rather than what he himself wishes to be. In writing the gift he feels his father wants him to get, or acting rather silly for the women, he is essentially crushing his own personality and needs and stuffing them away. So Dazai obviously comes from a background that gave him trauma, most likely from his family. However, this most definitely isnāt the only trauma to come out from his time homeless. Particularly, his hatred of dogs which, in the light of the manga and wan, tends to be portrayed quite comedically. But considering his experiences within the slums it can be assumed that the literal stray dogs may be to blame for this. Packs are often known to become rabid or attack others for a chance to be fed, therefore its probable that Dazai encountered such packs and someone he was with or perhaps even himself were attacked while trying to feed themselves in less than humane conditions. Akutagawa also has this dislike of dogs, which correlates with this theory, as he is also from the Suribachi Slums (it also gives an interesting take on the title Bungo Stray Dogs, but that isnāt relevant here). Speaking of the slums, Dazai was invited into the Sheep, but declined which is quite interesting as the knowledge of āstrength in numbersā is known practically internationally. This may be linked to his biological family because as a boy trapped you probably wouldnāt want to chain yourself to another group of theoretically āhelplessā people.
Mori and Dazai as a duo are also quite fascinating, the mystery of how Mori picked up Dazai (ha-ha see what I did there?) leaves a lot up in the air, however what we do know is that an extremely young Dazai attempted suicide. Realistically it can be assumed that when the good doctor found him, heād passed out and therefore was unaware of being moved to Moriās clinic and so, when he woke up in an unfamiliar place, with a complete stranger and a traumatic background, Dazai probably started to freak the hell out. This helps to explain that panel from 15, where Dazai is strapped to the table with a mask on. No, it wasnāt some evil psycho experiment, it was just an aggressive child posing a threat to both himself and others therefore Mori sedated and restrained him which so happens to be a relatively common practice! I also feel that the ākinshipā Mori expresses in 15 may also have a part to play in why Dazai was taken into the mafia. The doctor most definitely has some form of trauma because no one just sees humans as pawnsā¦ but anyway, in seeing a child he could connect to he helped cultivate Dazaiās silly little genius brain and conditioned him a little in the process. Moriās teaching method would have likely reflected how he himself was taught, and I feel like it would focus on the rules of the mafia (success = life type deal) since Mori was starting to plot to take over the underworld of Yokohama. I donāt think that Mori would have hurt Dazai directly, he does save lives for a living and hurting a suicidal child probably wouldnāt accomplish much, however he may have exploited a pet Dazai may have been attached to, I lean more towards a cat due to the nature of Catsumeās (Cat Natsume) interactions with Dazai and the fact he hates dogs. This whole idea of suffering at the hands of losing the war comes from Mori saying to Chuuya, āI am the pinnacle of this organization as well as its slaveā in 15, it also reflects the fact that Dazai seemed to rise to the top of the mafia as Moriās prodigy; he was being groomed to be a good leader if anything were to happen to Mori. It would also explain so much about Akutagawaās ātrainingā, as essentially, from the few snippets weāve seen, Akutagawa was taught to be helpful to the mafia or die. Furthermore, it can be assumed that Mori and Dazai knew each other for at least a little while before the previous bossā assassination both because of the familiarity Dazai had with the boss during their fight and the fact that no one just kidnaps a kid for a day to kill someone. Mori would have to at least trust Dazai wouldnāt spill the beans for a free tootsie roll, which requires trust to some extent. Mori teaching Dazai on the other hand comes from the fact that Dazai obviously didnāt go to school, he joined the mafia at 15 and was an executive by a maximum of 18, and despite people without educations still having intelligence in their own right, the level Dazai displays and the way he is always five steps ahead of everyone in the current manga timeline leads me to strongly believe he was given education through a more private and focused approach in planning, problem-solving and the like. Ā And that about brings me to the end of things I can think of to say about Dazai before canon, not sure if Iāll keep going past this point but weāll seeā¦
#character analysis#bsd dazai#dazai osamu#bungou stray dogs#he inhabits my brain#can you tell hes my favourite#mori bsd#character study
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Reason I don't buy much merch is because hyperfix go BRRTT and i go from having about 12 70s-80s posters to solely wanting football merch all over my walls
#im looking at the merch sweaters hidden away in the corner of my closet#adhd#dude i have to physically hold myself back from buying photocards (bc i think they're fun) and jerseys I'm going insane#richarlison#he inhabits my brain#FUCKING FREE ME#live laugh love richarlison
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some sketches of my guy
#original character#angel oc#monster boy oc#wings#winged oc#for those curious he is the main character of this serial comic i have planned after my short film and one shots are#finished called āMayfliesā#Basically its a slice of life/fantasy comic about a world where āangelsā are these huge insectoid-like entities that exist in a symbiotic#relationship with humans#They spend the majority of their life cycles in a juvenile state similar to mayflies#where they inhabit the bodies of dead humans#so every once and awhile when someone dies they will come back as an angel spontaneously. Denny was walking to work one day in the#dark and rain and got hit by a car. lucky for him#an adult angel appeared at that moment and triggered the angeldeath and he Came Back#hes like the same guy though angels dont have a separate conciousness from their host. its like#he is the angel. like a lichen. from his POV he can't tell that anything's changed inside his brain only now. he feathers#so yeah. i love him#side note#he has a GNC boyfriend named Ruth
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wip, but that's the vision i had yesterday night
#my brain is inhabited by viktor these times#he lives there rent free#i'm not even upset about it#this man is gorgeous this man is majestic#i love him#viktor arcane#arcane series#arcane#arcane fanart#viktor fanart
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I am first and foremost a Clover fan, evidently seen in how all of my long winded analysis posts are centered around them, so I find it funny that the most of the people that interact with me are Flowey enjoyers.
#Flowey is mostly an after thought for me since he's my favorite least-favorite Undertale character /hj#That being said I love my Flowey enjoyers. He is so interesting and seeing people analyze him and share their takes makes me happy#Additionally when I say I'm a mentally ill Clover fan I mean it#This silly little guy inhabits my brain 24/7 with their doomedness and whimsy#undertale yellow#lucky patch#uty clover#clover#clover uty#flowey#flowey the flower#šš¼ ramblings#š¼š#šš¼#uty
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Noa doodles from the last little while :p
#noel noa#blue lock#blue lock fanart#noel noa fanart#my art#bllk#bllk fanart#he inhabits my brain like a parasite
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solsunder emoji for all your blushy solsunder needs, a little breather between art fight attacks:)
gif by @giingersnapsblog ā¤ļø
#dnd#curse of strahd#curse of Ć„sane#starbitten art#oc: solsunder#guys this man is inhabiting my brain he is running around swinging his sword knocking shit over
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Does your brain also just throw funny cursed ideas at you randomly?
Song
Brain screamed because of song.
These two:
I wish I could animate.
The idea is too funky to me. I love it. But my brain and hands don't allow me to animate. š
IF YOU READ THE TAGS, PLEASE- DO YOU SEE MY VISION- IS MY BRAIN BEING STUPID OR DOES THIS MAKE SENSE AND IS COMEDIC???
#REGARDS: MOD š š#not asks#mod is rambling about random ideas#emh habit#emh steph#no cause like- imagine with me for a moment. HABIT between possessions trying to convince Steph to summon him#and her teasing / riling him up because she knew he was possessing Evan and wanted to just SLIGHTLY bite back at him for it.#my brain doesn't know how to stop thinking about this.#either that or with Steph talking to an inHABITed Evan with HABIT trying to convince her to let him inHABIT her as well#cw caps#cw possession#like just him getting more and more desperate for her to ACTUALLY do it (obsessive puppy-like behavior maybe shining through a bit)
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oc moment amidst the psychonauts hell
#my art#cyllisaro#wyndrnka#pytho#basuki#hes in the first one at least#gd. i need to draw my boys more#but also raz#they are both inhabiting my brain campfire but raz is running around collecting cards and these guys are chilling#always eternally funny to draw them tho#man#i miss my ocs<-guy with the power to draw ocs whenever i wanted to#q#later pytho tag edit:post triple threat actually im impatient
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btw i love that in Nandermo aus, where Nandor is a normal, good, human boyfriend - he's basically just Kayvan š§”
#wwdits#nandermo#kayvan novak#nandor#i ordered one big goofy puppy dog man and i am not disappointed#but there's something amusing abt how nandor translated as an average human#is incapable of inhabiting nandor's other traits because they only work in the heightened comedy world of wwdits#otherwise it /really/ is horror#it rly gets you thinking abt how complex nandor is and the breadth of range you can experience him#he goes from love sick puppy to cruel prideful selfish prince to the aggressive bloodlust of a true monster#i love his fucked up lil brain#anyways#im being distracted from expressing my love for human au nandor who is basically kayvan as brandon fraizer from george of the jungle!#ie the perfect himbo#omg kayvan would have made a fucking amazing george of the jungle i cant unthink this
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a svsss/hlvrai crossover au. is this anything.
#grabbing my hlvrai mutuals. listen. LISTEN. don't run away.#i know chinese bl novels are a tough sell but LISTEN.#i think there is some significant overlap here#both ''the narrative is alive and wants you dead'' settings#where the pov character is a loser dude (affectionate) from the real world inserted into a setting he knows because he's read/played it#so he knows the characters and the world but they don't know him. not really. they just know the character he's inhabiting#and through his actions he changes the plot and the characters and their fates#but this is not necessarily a good thing#because now he has to deal with the consequences of living in this story#this isn't just a game or a trashy novel anymore#he could get hurt. the people around him could get hurt.#are they people? or are they just fictional characters? is there really a distinction anymore?#anyway. i feel like benrey would be able to hear sqq talking to the system and would call him out on it#and it would scare the everloving shit out of sqq#i think shen yuan could very easily be a twitch streamer and binghe could very easily be a video game character obsessed with his feet#i am only halfway through the first svsss book and i can already feel it changing my brain chemistry oh god help
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finishing statement i canāt get attached to fictional characters if i donāt hate them at least somewhat
#rigg adam perez lawrence etc i like them all so much but i cannot find any real hate in my heart for them#lawrence is a toss up in the sense that i only REALLY like him as an apprentice because heās a smarmy pseudo-cult leader#through and through grey characters just eat at my brain a certain way#<- guy who had a crush on kovu and his siblings from lion king 2 as a child#r#this also probably why nny has inhabited my brain for so long#HE is simultaneously the pinnacle of cruelty and yet the most longstanding sympathetic character in the comic#if you look at him past the age of 16 āyou know you should hate him and you do but you still sympathize and understand his motives
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Besties!! (For now)
#the collector toh#king clawthorne#digital art#for the future toh#The only thing inhabiting my brain rn#he deserves the universe
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one of the most batshit things to think about from hellblazer is that constantine has been physically present to watch angels of god tear somebody apart, twice, not in human bodies but in their real biblical forms, and one of those times it was another angel they were ripping to pieces. how do you process that? what does it feel like, to be in the same space as the intention of slaughter in divine casing?
like no wonder he doesn't treat heaven differently than hell, no wonder he doesn't want their absolution, no wonder "i'm on the side of the angels" is such an ironic line for him. the forces of divinity in his world are just as monstrous as demons, and maybe even scarier, because what he remembers most about those moments he witnessed is the absolute apathy with which those angels acted.
#( ooc. ) OUT OF CIGS.#i'm falling asleep but i'm also absolutely losing my mind to think about this#i already have a list of funny absurd things that have happened in hellblazer but i need to make a list of serious ones too#because some of the shit he's seen and had to do...........guys this man is Fucked Up. the world he inhabits is Deranged#and he has learned to twist himself to match its shape in order to survive so what does that make him in the end?#he's monstrous to people and painfully human to monsters and living with the memory of shit that nightmares have nightmares about#makes my fucking brain go brrr
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Hmmm... so if ASiS takes place in 1881, and I've said that Enola was nine the previous year...
Then evidently this version of Holmes and Watson meet when Sherlock is a few days shy of 24.
#fic writing#fiddling with a more idk canon-compliant enola idea?#and i like sevens so this version of her is 14 years younger than sherlock and 21 years younger than mycroft#(she must have married very young)#so at the time enola is ten in a moderately large house with only her mother and a handful of staff#while her eldest brother establishes himself as the british government#and her other brother is about to become quite famous#(i think it's funny that if you got all of the sherlocks who inhabit my brain in a room...)#(the one with a little sister would be the baby of the bunch)#((idk what i'm taking from books/movie/etc. yet [tho EH2 is probably garbage to me in this endeavour]))#((my basic concern is making sure that events outside of enola are happening in basically the right order))#((so holmes and watson have each other at the right time/are doing their early cases in the right order))#((and so on))#((right now she's sitting at home with mum reading her brothers' letters over her shoulder and reading the strand))#((deeply annoyed that mycroft writes very infrequently and sherlock replies to letters on a several month delay))#((and also doesn't seem to be able to read her handwriting))#((it's not a her problem - he's dyslexic and children's handwriting is a weakness in general))#((but enola doesn't know that))#(*she married young as in mrs holmes btw)#pseudo acd compliant enola au
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its impossible for you all to understand how much of my thoughts r in sweeney references. like there is one person on this earth who understand and its my sibling who is similarly inclined...
#bc i cant at work just be like. I had him and then . but with lamp. i can say the first thing that comes to mind#which lets say hypothetically its oot and im trying to get all the poes and theres one left.omg just have to get this one FUCKING poe. so#easy. go to the cunt. its under that little thangy on the other side of the river from the stairs to kakariko. spoilers if yr trying to#find all the poes in oot but im gonna go ahead n tell you nothing is worth dealing with this cunt.#but anyeays. Omg there he is. shoot him. he runs away#im riding on epona teying to catch him trying to shoot HE KEEPS FUCKING GETTING AWAY. IT TOOK ME 2. FUCKING. HOURS.#and like. my 3rd to last attempt. i was so. so fucking close. like one more shot i wouldve gotten him yk. so close. but he gets away. and#Immediate immediate reaction was I had him and then . his throat was there beneath my hand. NO I HAD HIM !!! HIS THROAT WAS THERE NOW HELL#NEVER COME AGAIIIIIIIIN. it was very funny#bc i was genuinely shaking with rage look i dont often relate to sweeney im gonnacome out and say bad dude yk. in that moment ? i was like#no to be honest there IS a hole in the world like a great black pit and its filled with people who are filled with shit and the vermin of#the world inhabit it . and yk who one of those vermin is. That fucking poe that fucking poe i hate him i want him dead.#i want his wife. Dead. i want his wife. Dead. i want his wife. Dead. i want his w#my fav video i miss it..#but anyways yes its near constant. i cant even say yes eithout my brain going yesss... Isnt that her . Shadow-on-the wall š? where Theree#Primping making herself even prettier than USUALL if possible.pretty women etc#i cant say oh no without going OH NOOOOO!!! ohhhg goddddd... dont i know you... she said....................#i love final scene mainly bc i love hearing all the sweeneys realizing its lucy Spoilers btw. not bc its like an avting momentbut bc its SO#FUNNYYYY. 2006's oh god genuinely sends me into hysterics. hs says oh no in lowercase and then goes oHhhfh goD...... its so funny#and who is it that does the rly ling OH NOOOO. its the original one ITS SO FUNNYYY#first of all the kittle bahbuh!!! after Its only a miserable old be- is so long its so funny#and then awkward beat of silence and then OH NOOOOOOO!!!!! and then he says oh my god . in the most harrowed voice ever#ITS SO FUNNYYYY#everybody go listen to final scene Firstly it is my favorite sweeney song probably. love loven ofc 2012 number one 4everr the lyrics r#slightly different from every other version bc 2012 sweeney Technically likee. well its set in a different time period normal sweeney is i#think like. late 1800s? 2012 is 1930s bc of the parallels with like capitalism and what have you.. so the framing device is its a group of#factory workers talking abt sweeney GUYS 2012 IS SO FUCKING GOOD IT MAKES ME PHYSICALLY ILL.#but ya its be like. og sweeney is set during the industrial revolution so like yk. n then the 1930s with labor unions n all that was going#on.. u get it u get it anyways. its so good but some kf the lyrics r sliiiightly tweaked just to like. suit the time period better and im#going to say something blasphemous . 2012s lyrics r so much better and flow nicer and dont sound as stilted like. the older ones dont sound
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