#he deserves a million fansite

[rappornster]

i was going to flip out by the lack of nj previews for mubanksg i thought moniday was the only one there but rapmonsthurr justfor_rm and keepreal_0912rm were there too im crying god BLESS moment of silence for our heroes

[dinoyoongi]

Confirm or Deny (3)

SYNOPSIS: You’re a member of the rising group FRNZEE. You’ve been dating Namjoon for years when Dispatch releases an article exposing your relationship. Your company confirms the relationship. Big Hit denies it.

PARTS: ONE | TWO | THREE |  FOUR

PAIRING: Namjoon x You

GENRE: Romance, Angst

WARNINGS: Language, brief mentions of sexual situations

WORD COUNT: 4473

AUTHORS NOTE: I’m not sure how many parts this will have - I’m just going to write until I’m satisfied and break them up in chunks. Please show it some love if you like it and want more! And yes, this is inspired by the very real “scandal” between iKON’s Yunheyong and Momoland’s Daisy.

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Coming as a surprise to absolutely nobody, the news of BTS' Grammy nominations explodes like a million sticks of dynamite. The boys are not only featured on pretty much every media outlet across the globe, they're also receiving interview requests from elite news sources such as CNN and BBC News. Also a surprise to nobody is that you haven't seen Namjoon in two weeks, when you were kissing and twirling around the living room of your dorm before he rushed out after hearing the nomination news. He's sent you a few texts updating you on his many schedules but aside from a few insanely quick video chats, you haven't spoken much to your boyfriend. That's why when he calls on a rainy Thursday afternoon and tells you that he has a few hours free and wants to see you, you nearly break a leg as you hurry to get dressed, not wanting to miss even a minute of the scarce time you both have together.

By the time you're finished getting ready, Namjoon is already ringing to be let in. Opening the door wide, you spring into his arms, wrapping your limbs around his body as he lifts you off of the ground, your toes barely dusting across the hardwood. He's frowning when he sets you down, his eyes roaming around the dark and empty dorm.

“Did they leave you here alone again?” he asks, his voice dripping with concern.

“It's not their fault. The comeback is only a few weeks away. They're putting the finishing touches on everything,” you defend, although you can't help the way your chest pangs at the mental image of your group together – sans you – working on the song that you were so passionate about. “On the upside, my manager is too busy with them to worry about what I'm doing so I'm a free woman for the night. Where do you want to go?”

“Actually,” Namjoon begins nervously as you pull your bag up over your shoulder. “I thought we could stay in tonight.”

You frown, your eyes moving toward the bay window that showcases the gray skies and heavy drizzle. “But it's miserable outside. This is perfect date weather.”

Because paparazzi and fansite cameras are so expensive, it's rare that you find someone crazy enough to follow idols and celebrities out into the rain to take pictures. Because of this, most idols choose to specifically plan their dates around crappy weather. It's a well kept secret amongst the community of idols and something that you and Namjoon took advantage of whenever you could.

“We get a whole dorm to ourselves. Why not make good use of it?” Namjoon grins, leaning against the back of the sofa. His eyebrows waggle mischievously but he's anything but cute to you right now.

“Namjoon, I've had this whole dorm to myself for the past two weeks and I'm sick of it. I want to go out and do something, even if it's just a quick walk around the block. I need fresh air.”

Namjoon hears the demand in your tone. You're leaving absolutely zero room for argument. He suppress a sigh as he glances quickly towards the window. The rain wasn't supposed to last all afternoon. When the sun comes back out, so do the people of Seoul. It was definitely too risky to be out and about, especially with everything going on, but the look of determination in your eyes wasn't something that Namjoon wanted to tamper with. Especially not when he knew just how low your spirits have been lately.

“Compromise?” he asks softly. You nod, motioning for him to continue. “We take a walk to get some coffee, maybe find a bench so you can get the oxygen you want so badly. After that, we get snacks and head back here to hang out for awhile. Deal?”

“Okay but you're buying the snacks, Mister Grammy,” you tease, slipping your wrist around his elbow to link your arm with his. His limbs stiffen at the contact and you frown, pulling away slightly to look up at him questioningly. You're offered no explanation, only a tight-lipped smile and head jerk toward the door. A voice inside of your head is urging you get to the bottom of this. Namjoon has never tensed or pulled away from your touch before – is he angry at you? Is he annoyed with you? The thoughts bite at you like a swarm of mosquitoes but not wanting to ruin the rare evening you have together, you bite your tongue and follow him out the door.

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“Jungkook is convinced that we're going to lose …” Namjoon trails off as his head swirls around to survey your surroundings for what seems like the thousandth time, “... to Billie Eilish. He's happy we're nominated but he doesn't want to get his hopes up.”

“Jungkook needs to have more faith in you guys. You have just as much of a chance as Billie does.”

“That's what I've been telling him. And even if we do lose, it's still ...” he loses his focus again, eyes squinting to stare at something in the distance. You're overcome with frustration. While he walked away from the dating scandal with Grammy nominations, you were the one who was punished and pulled from your group's anticipated comeback. He hasn't suffered. He hasn't been impacted. So why is he so paranoid right now? “... an honor to be nominated, you know?”

“It took you a whole forty-five seconds to finish that sentence,” you sneer, unable to resist the urge to be sassy. You can see the way Namjoon's face balks in your peripheral but you walk alongside him, eyes on the scenery in front of you.

“Is it wrong to be alert, Y/N? We have to be careful. We can't afford another-”

“Another what? What did the scandal cost you? Absolutely nothing.”

He freezes. You're a few steps ahead of him before you realize he's not beside you anymore. You turn in his direction but keep your chin tilted at the sidewalk at your feet. “Sweets.”

“Sorry for snapping at you. The coffee shop is just ahead,” you mumble lowly, jutting your thump in the buildings direction. Namjoon's hand wraps around your wrist before you can take anymore steps away from him. When he pulls you into his body, your back fitting against his chest like two perfect puzzle pieces, you don't fight him. Your body sags against his as you exhale long and slow, all of your repressed anger deflating. He buries his face into your shoulder, nuzzling the tip of his nose along the expanse of your neck.

“I'm so sorry, Sweets. I know it's unfair. You don't deserve any of this.”

“No, I'm sorry. None of this is your fault. I shouldn't be taking my anger out on you,” you apologize, finding his hand on your stomach and entwining your fingers together with an assuring squeeze.

“As happy as I am about the nominations, I feel awful about the timing. I feel like … I feel like I'm kicking you down a little bit every time I talk about it.”

Your head snaps up and you whirl around quickly to face him. He's startled when you raise onto your tiptoes and grip both sides of his face with your small hands. “Joonie, please don't feel bad. I've been your biggest fan since day one. Nobody is more happy and proud of you for those nominations than me, okay? The timing is perfect because with, you know… my group … going on without me, I can devote all of my time to you and the boys and making sure that you all walk into that building knowing with absolute certainty that you're going to win. BTS' own personal cheerleader.”

Namjoon knows you. He sees and hears right through your smiling eyes and confident words. Despite what you're saying, there's a sadness to how you've been carrying yourself. He vows to change that.

Reaching up, you knock softly on the side of Namjoon's head. “Knock, knock. Come on, Boyfriend, I'm thirsty. Let's go get that coffee.”

He laughs and when your back is turned, takes one more quick look around the area before letting you pull him forward.

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You inhale so sharply that your vision blurs for a split second but it's worth it when the strong aroma of coffee beans and freshly baked pastries wafts into your senses. “If they make candles that smell like coffee shops, I want at least five in every room of the dorm.”

“I'll buy you all of the coffee shop scented candles in the world. And if nobody is making them yet, Big Hit might find themselves investing some stock in Yankee Candle.”

You're giggling as his phone begins to vibrate in his back pocket. Namjoon pulls it out quickly and you catch a glimpse of Taehyung's name before the device is yanked out of your line of vision. Namjoon nods at the shop in front of you. “Go on in and order me an Americano. I'll just be a minute.”

“Okay but tell Taehyung I said hi and that I miss him.”

Namjoon nods curtly, raising the phone to his ear but waiting until you're yanking open the door and disappearing inside before answering. Realizing that you don't know if Namjoon wants a pastry and what he's in the mood for, you duck your head outside. His back is to you as he paces in small steps.

“My mom's birthday is coming up. I'm out doing some present shopping. No, I'm not alone, one of the managers is with me.”

Wait. Why is he lying to Taehyung?

You could understand if it was a staff member calling to check on his whereabouts. It would open a brand new can of worms if they found out he was roaming around in public with you after the last media scare. But Taehyung wouldn't judge him. Neither would any of the other guys. And they certainly wouldn't reveal your plans to any of the staff. Namjoon knows this. So why is he lying?

You slip back into the building before he realizes that you're eavesdropping. The line is moderately short, only one man and a group of three teenagers stand in front of you. You're studying the list of pastries on the board when you feel eyes burning into you. Knowing that your face mask is properly concealing half of your face and that a regular citizen who isn't familiar with your group won't recognize your eyes without your stage makeup, you decide to ignore it. You're focusing hard on the menu, contemplating the pros and cons between muffins and scones when a body steps into your line of vision, blocking the board from your sight. The person, one of the teenage girls from the group in front of you, squints with narrowed eyes at the upper half of your face. You lean away from her closeness.

“There's no fine dust today. Why are you wearing a mask?”

You scoff at her curiousness. “Am I not allowed to?”

She rolls her eyes at your attitude. “It's just weird, that's all. And you look kind of familiar. Do I know you?” Goosebumps line the length of your arms, your hairs rising as warning alarms begin going off in your head. Swallowing down your sudden terror, you return her eye roll. “Is it a crime to have a bad skin day? And no, I don't know you. Now if you excuse me, I think I've lost my appetite.”

You hear her sputtering in disbelief as you spin on your heel and quickly scurry out of the building. Namjoon is on the steps when you burst out the door, his eyes widening when you barrel past him, just barely successful in grabbing his hand on your way out to drag him with you. He's pestering you with questions as you tug him quickly away from the coffee shop.

“Yah!” he finally shouts, planting his feet firmly on the ground and yanking you backward to him. “What the hell is going on? Why did you run out there so fast?”

You open your mouth to tell him what happened. And then you stop yourself.

If you tell Namjoon the truth, that someone was on the verge of recognizing you, how quickly would he leave? How long would it be before you got the opportunity to be with him again? You know these answers and because of that, you choose to lie.

“That barista was really rude. She … commented on my weight when I tried to order a muffin.”

You feel guilty when your boyfriend's face twists in outrage. “What? Sweets, that's ridiculous. You're perfect! Why didn't you demand to speak to her manager?”

“There were a lot of people in there. I didn't want to cause a scene.”

He sighs because he knows that you're right, his fingers finding your waist and pulling you into his embrace. “I'll order you a million muffins, okay? Just say the word.”

“Chocolate chip and blueberry?” you ask in a comically high-pitched tone, batting your eyelashes up at him.

He laughs, raising his phone to his ear. “You got it, Sweets. Hello? Big Hit? I'm going to need you to build the biggest bakery in the world and have the staff make nothing except for chocolate chip and blueberry muffins. And they need to be delicious. The most delicious muffins in the whole damn world. Do I make myself clear?”

He's using his deep CEO face and you're hunched over in giggles, nearly out of breath. Reaching up, you playfully snatch the phone out of Namjoon's hand and up to your ear. “And coffee. With imported coffee beans. The best you can find. The fate of BTS' career depends on it.”

You're still laughing when you look up at your boyfriend, expecting him to be amused. Instead, his eyes are focused on something behind you. Craning your neck around, you make out a few figures standing on a hill down the path. It's too far away to see their faces but you recognize the colorful sweaters they were wearing immediately. You swivel at a neck-breaking speed back around to Namjoon, grabbing his arm to begin pulling him forward. “I can't believe they followed me,” you mumble under your breath without thought. Unfortunately, Namjoon hears it.

“Who followed you? Do you know those girls? Is it the one who was rude about the muffin?”

“No, they ...” you trail off, your brain working overtime to conjure up a believable lie. What reason would you have to avoid a group of teenage girls? You seriously have nothing. “They … were … they … almost recognized me.”

You admit defeat, confessing the truth. And just as expected, Namjoon's face twists with some kind of mixture of fury and panic. His dimples that usually make an appearance when he's happy and smiling are a double-edged sword, deep and prominent as his jaw twitches in anger.

“You were recognized? And you didn't tell me? We've been frolicking along and –”

You scoff. “There was no frolicking.”

“Stop it, Y/N,” he snaps at you. The way he uses your first name instead of Sweets confirms that he's really, really angry with you. “This was a really careless and dumb idea. We should have just stayed indoors.”

“I said they almost recognized me, Namjoon. I left before they could figure out who I was. Why are you freaking out right now?”

“Because we need be careful and because you lied to me!” he roars out the last part. Your feet subconsciously stumble a few steps away from him. In all of the years that you've known him, even before the two of you started dating, Namjoon has never shouted at you in this manner. Sure, you've had your fair sure of arguments and raised voices in the past but you can't recall a time that he has ever directed any kind of fury at you like he is right now. Exhaling a deep breath, he softens as he takes in your frightened state. “I'm sorry for yelling like that. I'm just stressed. How about we call it a day, okay? I'll call you later.”

He kisses your cheek so quickly that you feel like it might not have even happened. He leaves you no chance to argue or beg him to stay as he trudges quickly down the sidewalk and away from where you stand, still trembling at his outburst.

The group of teenage girls remain gathered at the top of the hill, their eyes fixed in your direction. You know that they're too far away to have possibly heard your fight with Namjoon but the thought doesn't bring you any comfort. As much as you'd like to stay outside and wallow in your own self-pity, you don't want to give those girls any opportunity to piece together who you are.

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You're two blocks away from the dorm when you realize that Namjoon's phone is still in your hand. You sigh because it's been at least fifteen minutes since he stormed away in anger; he must have realized he didn't have his phone by now but he hasn't come back to retrieve it? Did he not want so see you that badly?

In a moment of brainlessness that you're not proud of it, you use your phone to dial Namjoon's phone to let him know that you are in possession of said phone. It isn't until Namjoon's ringtone – a short cut of a Drake song – begins playing that you register your dumb mistake. You can't help but laugh at yourself, a phone in one hand dialing the phone in your other hand that's ringing. But when you lift Namjoon's phone to disconnect the call, the name of the contact on the screen makes you freeze.

Chicken Place 2.

You click disconnect on your phone and the ringing on Namjoon's immediately stops. There's a tightening in your chest as you press the call button on Namjoon's contact. And again, the name pops up. Chicken Place 2.

You were saved in his phone as Sweets. You were always Sweets to him. When … when did that change?

The logical part of your brain understands why he did this. A fan getting hold of his phone and finding anything that sounds suspiciously like a pet name for a significant other is pretty damning evidence that an idol is dating. But Namjoon would never allow a fan to come anywhere near his phone. It's not just a talking and texting device to him; that phone holds thousands of precious photographs, note files that contain lyrics that have popped into his head at random times of the day that he didn't want to forget, social media accounts that nobody but you and the boys knew that he was secretly registered for.

Not even Big Hit staff knew that you were his Sweets. Only the boys did.

So … why change it? Was he embarrassed of you? Thinking back to how he lied to Taehyung about being with you earlier only makes the churning in your stomach intensify. Pulling up Namjoon's password protected menu, you type in the password. 2010913. You've unlocked his phone a million times with this password. You unlocked his phone two weeks ago with this password.

September 13th, 2010. The day that the two of you met as Big Hit trainees in the dance studio.

You whimper when the password is rejected.

Slumping down onto a nearby bench, you punch in the password again. And again. And again. Finally, the phone flashes in your face, taking an anti-theft photo, and you drop it to your lap, succumbing to your tears. Why was everything so different? Why did this scandal have to change everything between the two of you? You're wholly aware that you've been moody lately, sensitive to every word and action. It hasn't only been Namjoon that has been on the receiving end of your wrath, the other members of FRNZEE and even your managers have gotten healthy doses of your misery. But you weren't the only one who was acting out of character lately. Namjoon has always been one of the most relaxed people in your life but now he's acting as if he's in the witness protection program – looking over his shoulder every other second, lying to his friends, changing his passwords, changing his contact names. Is the thought of being in a public relationship with you so terrifying that he needs to jump through all of these hoops?

The sound of tires crunching against pavement has you tilting your chin up. The windows of the car are tinted but you know that it's Namjoon's silhouette behind the wheel. He approaches cautiously, gulping when he notices his phone on your lap.

“Sweets, why aren't you at the dorm? Why do you have-”

“Sweets?” you parrot, glancing up at him with red-rimmed eyes. “Who is Sweets? My name is clearly Chicken Place Number Two.”

He groans in frustration, hands rubbing at his face. “It's just temporary, okay? I just don't want people asking questions.”

“People like who? Taehyung, who is under the impression that you're out shopping with your manager right now?” you counter, rising to your feet. His eyes enlarge when he realizes that you overheard his conversation earlier. “Why can't Taehyung know that you're with me, Namjoon?”

He's silent. You step closer to him.

“Joonie, why did you lie to Taehyung?”

His eyes flutter close, his neck dipping as he gulps down a sigh. “I told everyone that we broke up.”

Even though you hear the words that he mumbles so quietly, you make him repeat it.

“I told everyone that we broke up, okay? You … you kind of blew up on the internet as this … this joke and everyone was worried what it might do to our reputation if it really did come out that we were dating. But I promise you that it's only temporary, Sweets. After the awards are over and after everything has died down, I'm going to come clean to Big Hit that I'm still with you. We can go back to rainy dates outside but until then, I really just need us to lay low, okay?”

He's out of breath when he finishes. His eyes are wide and pleading as they scan your face for an answer. You're trying to process his words and for the most part, you're successful – he's only pretending to be broken up with you and he'll tell the truth soon. But it's the first part of his monologue that your heart can't move past.

He really is embarrassed of you. And not just him but BTS as a whole. The boys that you considered close friends, the man that you considered your soul mate … didn't want to be associated with you right now.

“You don't want to be attached to my name,” you say, mostly to yourself so you can confirm your thoughts. “You're embarrassed to be linked with me right now.”

“I never said that,” he denies heatedly. You scoff viciously. “Y/N, you can't deny that you've been made out to be some kind of meme. And I know that I'm partly to blame for that, I'm aware of it and I'm sorry. But I have to think of the boys first. We've worked way too hard to -”

“To let some internet joke ruin everything for you?”

“Stop putting words in my mouth!” he yells, towering over you. Unlike last time when you cowered under the volume of his anger, you raise yourself even higher to match his heated glare. “You know what? Maybe … maybe this shouldn't be temporary.”

And just like that, you're cowering again.

“What did you just say?” you squeak, the confidence and anger draining from your body. He leans against his car, rubbing his face again for what seems like the longest minute of your life before he glances up at you.

“Maybe until everything blows over … we should take a real break. I don't think this relationship is healthy for either one of us right now.”

With jelly-like limbs, you stagger backwards. You can't believe what you're hearing. He's really breaking up with you? “Namjoon, I don't want to break up with you. I just want-”

“I'm sorry,” he interrupts. His eyes are downcast on the sidewalk and you silently urge him to look at you. Just look at you and grin and tell you that he's just cruelly joking. You wouldn't even be mad at him for it. All he has to do is just look at you.

But he doesn't. He leans down to pick up his phone that had fallen off of your lap in the midst of the argument.

“You said you wouldn't do this,” you say desperately to his back. He freezes. “You said this wouldn't happen. You promised.”

“I'm sorry,” he repeats like a skipping record.

But he still doesn't look at you. Not when he's opening his car door, not when he's slipping inside and buckling his seat belt, not when he's starting the engine and driving away.

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Namjoon parks the car outside of his dorm, shuts the car off and sits.

What did he just do? What in the fuck did he just do?

He didn't go back with the intention of breaking up with you. It was never his intention at all. But he was being pulled tightly in two different directions – his members and his staff who worried that being associated with rumors that involved you would have a negative impact on the awards seasons for BTS. And then there was you, who showered him in love and support and only wanted the same in return.

It seemed like you were asking for the littlest but to Namjoon, you were asking for the world. One that he can't give to you right now.

He grabs his phone from the front seat before he opens his car door, checking the screen for scratches or broken glass. When he powers it up, the first thing he sees is the anti-theft photo that his phone took as you were attempting to unlock it with the password that he changed four days ago. His chest throbs in pain when he sees the blurred picture of your red-rimmed, puffy eyes.

Whipping the phone across the vehicle, a scream of frustration and devastation rips through his throat as he slams his head down onto the steering wheel. The photo is ingrained into his head, the desolate downturn of your lips and the tears in your eyes are wrecking him.

What did he really just do?

[kookjung]

○ prompt book ☓ ❝ i don’t know how to exist in a world without you ❞ ft.  jung jaehyun  ♥

[ 11:39am ]

it was meant to be over ages ago between you two. yet he was your tether, he tied you to this world and you couldn’t be without him, you couldn’t breathe without him.

every morning, you would roll over in bed, with your heart aching for some familiarity. the vision of seeing his glorious self, with his mussed up dark hair and bedroom eyes gazing at you as if you possessed all the light in the world.

the feeling of him on you, him in you, wasn’t fading quick enough.

and it was all your fault. 

jaehyun had been prepared to have a long distance relationship with you, he was an idol, renowned by millions of women (and men) who would do anything to spend time with him.

but he only wanted you. the girl who was once his childhood friend, the one who was there for him when you were both teenagers and he wanted to spend the rest of his life with you and grow old together.

he had been on tour and it had been almost nine months now, and you were so very lonely. you knew he was going to arrive the day after tomorrow and your friends had pushed you to let loose and have some fun with them at a new nightclub.

so you had went. you’d dressed up as if you would be dancing, hips against jaehyun, under the pulsing lights. but once you got there, nothing enticed you. so you sat against the bar, downing shot after shot, jealous of how your friends all had time with someone they loved.

forty minutes to midnight, you were approached by a beautiful stranger. a leather jacket embroidered with a dragon over the back of his broad shoulders. he had flattered you, offered to buy you a drink and each time you had refused. 

until finally, you thought, screw it. jaehyun wouldn’t be here for two days and pressing your body against the stranger felt just like jaehyun, so maybe you could close your eyes and pretend it was jaehyun who was kissing your neck.

he had driven you back to the apartment you shared with jaehyun. it was passionate and reckless, the way he slipped his tongue into your mouth. 

forty minutes pass midnight, the man was slipping your dress off when suddenly the front door opened.

you felt something in your blood run cold as you took in how jaehyun’s tired but handsome face went from shining in preparation to surprise you early to crestfallen as he saw you tangled up in another man’s arms. it quickly changed to something furious as he snarled at the man to get out of here.

the stranger just picked up his jacket and gave you a dirty look as him not getting some tonight was your fault.

you had expected jaehyun to yell at you, to rage, anything at all. it would have been preferable to tears dripping down his porcelain cheeks as for once in his life, that passionate spark that drove him had gone out.

he wouldn’t even let you near him.

hours passed and he hadn’t spoken to you. he’d locked himself in your (once) shared bedroom and you wished desperately to reverse time. to go back to when you were sitting at home waiting for him.

finally, he emerged, he was no longer crying but something was melancholy in his face and his voice was raspy as he spoke.

“i don’t know how to exist in a world without you.” you almost hoped he had forgiven you, though you couldn’t fathom why.

“but i can manage.” you stared at your lover, former lover. he was staring at you coldly as he told you to pack your things and move out.

months had passed, every morning you would wake up and regret what had happened that night. you’d passed by him one day, in a bustling marketplace where he was walking with johnny, one of his bandmates. jaehyun, looking gorgeous in a denim jacket, mussed hair and all the fawning fansites around him had ignored you while johnny had given you a disapproving look.

the shame you felt was deserved and you knew that.

[chocafe]

— ygtb ep. 9 reaction

hi there! i decided to write my reactions and thoughts on episode nine as i watched it. the way i wrote everything was pretty messy, so just click “keep reading” if you would like to continue on since i wrote quite a lot! if you haven’t seen episode nine, then this is my warning for you to not continue ahead since this contains spoilers.

i got a batch of cookies and the video is on 1080p i think i am ready

but i’m not mentally ready

i love it how ygtb gets straight to the point within one minute, but produce 101 is over here taking fifteen minutes to even get the episode started

ya’ll think i can find the fansite i bought my junkyu slogan from in the audience?

IM SICK AND TIRED OF SEEING THE ADIDAS LOGO WE GET IT YOU GET MORE SCREEN TIME THAN THE ACTUAL TRAINEES DO

omg the voting system its giving me produce 101/48 flashbacks i don’t deserve this

˗ˏˋ boomerang team ˎˊ˗

hyunsuk’s new hair color looks so nice on him ♡____♡  im still a blonde!hyunsuk supremacist though

out of all wanna one songs they chose boomerang

there’s burn it up, beautiful, light, and literally every wanna one song

but they chose boomerang with their whole chest

Wannables We Attack

HUH SLEEVELESS HYUNSUK

oh my god hyunsuk’s roots are overgrown now i know why they needed to dye his hair

jihoon cant say he’s fine when he just messed up his knee im really going to (softly) punch him :(((

HIS WING WING WING WING WAS SO SOFT

perhaps yoshinori is a rap god

yeongue gives me <major> daehwi vibes in this performance

i know i’m supposed to take him serious in this, but uwu my son

jihoon singing seongwoo’s part? huuuuuuuuuuuuuuh my mf heart has just crumbled into a million of pieces!

it’s a win for me tonight #Haylees1stWin

SHUT UPPPP I DONT WHAT THE FUCK HYUNSUK IS RAPPING ABOUT BUT I LOVE HIS RAPPING SO MUCH

dohwan needed more “shinning parts” in the performance (╥﹏╥)

i feel bad because everyone was given a part to stand out, but dohwan really wasn’t given one to showcase his abilities (unless the editors cut it out since they don’t show us the whole performance)

imagine if i was in this crowd and i just bribe everyone around me with money to vote for my favorite trainee

˗ˏˋ growl team ˎˊ˗

this is like when you play dodge ball and people choose their teammates, but you’re the last one to get chosen

except, that’s everyone in the growl team

:-(

they got stuck with the “left over song” but growl is a TIMELESS BOP. PERIOD.

jaehyuk keeps on burdening himself and that truly makes me upset because i’ve been in his position before

it’s okay to cry and it’s okay to be where he’s at because he has time to improve himself and prove everyone wrong

they really made this stage their own red carpet

i really liked how the camera followed them on stage since that’s exactly how exo used to perform growl

the performance was good because you have to take into account that they have all only been trainees for a few months

˗ˏˋ dumb and dumber team ˎˊ˗

dumb and dumber team is here to take the #1 spot

BYOUNGGON WITH HIS HUGE ASS BEANIE IS SO FREAKING CUTE I LOVE THIS MAN

bex made his appearance again- we stan!

“i don’t understand what’s happening” me when my teacher chooses me to answer a question in front of the whole class

the dumb and dumber team was so good??? like i was really immersed in the performance??

they especially did a great job when they came down to perform RIGHT in front of the fans because i know a majority of fans love it when idols come down in the middle of a performance/concert and interact with them in some way or another

it was like a concert where everyone’s favorite parts are when the idols disperse and just have fun on stage and feel the same energy as the hyped up fans

no wonder they got #1

oh yeah and btw i spoiled everything by reading kfan tweets last week so i know all of the team ranks, who got eliminated, ect.

my friend texted me just now telling me that we predicted everything except for the last ten minutes so i guess i wont be surprised until the ending

anyways . . . let’s get it

˗ˏˋ dna team ˎˊ˗

wait what? weren’t they supposed to show us winner mentoring the dna team

that’s it?

okay

THEY MADE HARUTO SING TAEHYUNG’S PART BECAUSE THEY HAVE A SIMILAR LOW VOCAL RANGE ARGHHHDHSSH I APPROVE

haruto: TAKE IT

keita: ᵗᵃᵏᵉ ᶦᵗ

THE RODENT IN MY ATTIC IS FINALLY COMPLIMENTING SEUNGHUN

IT IS WHAT HE DESERVES WHAT TOOK YOU SO LONG TO YOU HAG

it took yg two years to finally notice seunghun’s potential while it took me one minute

petition to have me as the new ceo

they literally said hey everyone in the audience hold up for like 10 minutes we need to bring out these light up podiums

hmmmmmmm

hmmmamamama

hhhyyayyyuahajs

im going to start cryinfdds

HSJFLSJFLSKSFL

THIS IS BITTERSWEET BECAUSE DUMB&DUMBER ARE HAPPY THAT THEY WON BUT THAT MEANS THE TRAINEES THEY’VE TRAINED WITH HAVE THE HIGHEST POTENTIAL OF BEING ELIMINATED REALLY MY HEART HURTS

I DONT LIKE THIS FEELING MARTY IM SCARED

im screaming “dont cry” at my laptop screen but why am i crying at the same time

��CHAIRMAN YANG PLEASE LOOK THIS WAY”

me in the crowd: *throws an egg at him and runs off*

WE RIOT

LADIES AND HATED HUMAN BEINGS WE RIOT

ALL MY HATERS GON RIOT WE GON MOB YG

yg use your card

yg bring seunghun and keita back

I SAW RUMORS SAYING HE BRINGS ONE OR BOTH OF THEM BACK SO YG PLEASE JUST BRING THEM BACK

keita telling seunghun that they did well because he’s always seen as the positive/happy kid, but he’s also on the verge of tearing up :(((((

keita sweetie its okay to cry too

and seunghun being mostly disappointed that he’s failing his mother like sweetie ITS ALRIGHT YOUR MOTHER IS PROUD OF YOU NO MATTER WHAT

i hate survival shows why do i still watch these stuff

hi i actually stopped writing my reactions after this because i was a little bitch and couldnt type anymore so i just went to go spam my friends with audio messages of me yelling

maybe i can upload my audios i sent my friends if they’re not too annoying (trust me, they’re annoying)

anyways thanks for coming to my ted talk

seunghun will rise again

the editors are trying to make it a surprise when seunghun is the only trainee wearing a grey(?) sweater, with a red font, black undershirt and light washed blue jeans

SEUNGHUN NATION MAKE SOME NOISE

SEUNGHUN!!!! WHEN!! YOU!!! SMILE!!! IT!! MAKES!!! ME!!! HAPPY!!!!!!!!

[omdaily10]

OM DAILY: BACK. BACK. BACK!

Hello everyone,

Not done this in a while! With Olly Murs' 10th anniversary in music happening next year, 2019, I always knew - as did much of the fanbase - that that had to be celebrated, which he has been doing already, with the release of his sixth studio album/greatest hits double package 'You Know I Know', as well as his upcoming sixth UK arena tour in the spring next year.

A lot of people have been asking me over the last few months, and there was a lot of whispers about whether I was going to do anything with Olly Murs Daily (or 'OM Daily' as it was more affectionately known), the fansite I was the founder and editor of for five of those ten years between 2011 and 2015, to mark the occasion. Well, I'm happy to announce today that the whispers are true, and Olly Murs Daily is, in the words of Smash Hits (RIP), BACK, BACK, BACK for Olly's 10th anniversary in pop! And it's back in a very unique way.

The idea to bring the fansite back started about eighteen months ago, after Olly's last tour in 2017. I knew I'd always do the fansite again one day when the time was right. I was inspired after reading a fantastic book by the American pop music journalist and online blogger, Quentin Harrison, called Record Redux, where he comprehensively reviewed and chronicled every music release from the Spice Girls, both as a group and as solo artists. He has now got subsequent books coming out on Kylie Minogue and Madonna to name but two.

It was so detailed and lovingly done, and gave their music and their impact on popular culture the critical respect it deserved and which they didn't always get. I decided this was the approach I wanted to take with the blog coming back. OM Daily was always a labour of love for me, and I still get so many lovely messages about it now and how much of a source it was for fans at the time. I can look back and I feel incredibly proud of all that I achieved running a fansite as well as a YouTube channel for one of Britain's biggest solo male popstars of the last decade that started as an idea from my halls room at university but which had millions of hits at its peak, and even got coverage in countries from Australia to America, from Germany to France and everything in between.

So starting on New Year's Day, and then every Friday from 4th January, OM Daily will be back in your interweb lives, and we'll be chronicling, over a series of blog posts, every single and album release of Olly's from the last 10 years, and which I'm hoping will be a future definitive guide for and reminder to fans of what an incredible career he has enjoyed and continues to enjoy.

I'm so excited to bring the fansite back to you all in this capacity, especially for such a momentous landmark in Olly's career, and I hope you enjoy following the reviews. I'm always eager to hear what your thoughts or memories of each single and album were, so you get in touch using our spangly new comments system on each blog.

Much love always to all the readers from back in the day, and to anyone new, a hearty welcome aboard! Stay cheeky and keep smiling, have a brilliant Christmas, and see you all in 2019, YA DIIIIG ;)

Alex, OM Daily Editor

X x

[haec-an]

[long post ahead]

for the past fifteen minutes ive been watching baehyun birthday videos from fansites and a fancam of him singing for life and actually i began crying through the first two minutes of this and kept crying and like

for me, baekhyun really is my most tragic love story

i hold so much love for one single boy and i cant even look at him for longer than two minutes without my eyes starting to tear up-- i have such an attachment to him and i love him so so much and yet it feels so so helpless and i can't explain any of this very well but i truly care for him and he really is the love of my life and i say this about like everyone and i say that i love everyone but baekhyun is different baekhyun is just--- like i cannot explain how i feel. its baekhyuns birthday today and like its the most heart wrenching feeling because baekhyun makes me so happy but also so sad and i just??? that’s why i distanced myself so much the feelings are just too overwhelming and sometimes it just hurts too much but at the same time, i miss him more than anything, more than everything, and so it pains me even more to look at him and yet he's so beautiful and so so wonderful and he has the most giant heart i have ever seen. this boy has so much love to give and to think i can only give him an ounce of it back breaks my heart into millions and millions of pieces i would give him the entire world and all the stars in the sky and all the laughter and every smile in the universe but i cannot and it's just so overwhelming there's just too many feelings. i feel like i'll never be enough for him kind of thing- but i know this isn't true because he's so warm and genuine he'd never want me to feel this way but i do and i guess it falls back on what i just think about myself in general which just makes me think- like: he's that important to me that i want to be enough for him, that important that i want to give him everything he's ever wanted and more with the most sincere heart -- and im obviously rambling on but baekhyun is a very emotional topic for me. i'm literally this hurt and sad and yet he makes me laugh and it's like oh because sparks start flying again and my heart flutters and it even accelerates the way it would and then it suddenly feels like i never left his side ever but i did and that hurts. but it hurt staying by him too and this is what makes it all even worse but anyway ;; 

 i love him genuinely i think that at one point i thought i loved everyone else very genuinely in a way that i've never loved anyone before but that simply isn't true it's always been you. my heart legitimately aches because on the one hand it loves you endlessly and beats for you and yet on the other hand it cannot handle all of the colliding emotions all at once. but i want to always love you, forever even- for the rest of my life, without an end, because you are my most favorite song, my most favorite star, and my most favorite boy - ever. whenever i even think about anyone hurting you or you being sad i immediately get defensive and want to woosh away any hurt that comes toward you because you deserve only the happiest of moments in the world byun baekhyun. i really just let my entire heart unfold like this,, i wish somehow i could tell you how much you really mean to me one day and it makes me even sadder that i'll never be able to and actually i think that might be what hurts the most, even if i could tell you i'd never be able to put it into words. 

you just mean the world to me you are the world to me and even if i don't make an effort to make you a part of all of my tomorrow's the fact that you were in my yesterday's still fills me with love for you 

i'll just stop now since i could probably go on forever about how special you are to me and that in itself fills me with happiness and plentiful more emotions i love you byun baekhyun happy birthday to the most precious angel, my one and only sugar cube.

[kchatjjigae]

Alternate titles for this episode: Episode 5 BTS Escapes their Hotel Rooms. Episode 5 We Didn’t Think We’d Get Here, But Now That We Are Let’s Be Awesome. Episode 5: We’re Sorry for Episode 4.

Stephanie: If we were to count just how many times I awwwww’ed this episode, where do you think we’d sit?

Cherry: Hmmm… about eleventy million? 😀 This was a really good episode. I liked hearing the stories of how they got where they are.

Stephanie: It’s part of how we know them, or we know their origin stories, but to hear them tell it, to get their take on it, is really interesting. From Hoseok’s ‘I’m just here to dance, oh you want me to be a rapper?’ to Jungkook’s “I’m just here to dance oh you want me to be main vocalist, please stop yelling at me Jimin’ to RM’s ‘I used to be all dark and ansty but now I’m a super leader’, yeah, it was fun.

Cherry: Hearing RM talk about having to cancel the show in Beijing because he had stage fright? I feel like a bad fan, because this is the first time I’m hearing it. I mean, I’ve heard the songs where he sings about needing to love himself, so I knew there were issues, but this just made it more real. I’m happy that we’ve seen that he’s better now, more okay with himself. More relaxed in his interactions with the guys at fanmeets and stuff.

Stephanie: I know, I had no idea! This is why I love this show so much, the insights we continue to get. It kind of boggles my mind. How does that even work? How did we not hear about this? It seems like it would be a pretty big freaking deal if that’s what happened. I mean Idols have to apologize so much for every real and imagined slight if fans knew he canceled a show for stage fright? I can’t imagine they’d ever let him live it down if it happened for that reason. Poor egg.

Cherry: Another thing that came out of that that I’ve appreciated, but didn’t know the why, is that he channeled his healing into writing music telling other people it’s okay to mess up. I loved when I heard that message in Fire.

Stephanie: That does seem to be the underlying theme to a lot of their music, self-acceptance — which — hellz yeah! This episode really wasn’t so much about the journey but telling us how far they’ve come as performers and people. They take what they do really seriously, and I think you can tell by not just the quality of their work but by how far they’ve come. They really are the little band that could.

Cherry: The little band that could reminds me of Jungkook talking about how he thought they were the most awesome thing in the world, until they debuted, when he realized they had just been ‘a big frog in a small pond.’ Yeah, that’s gotta be an eye-opener. Makes me glad he reacted by trying to improve himself so that he matched the ideal he wanted.

  Stephanie: Those management companies are just like little insulated incubators, I would think especially one as small as BigHit where all of their attention would be focused on BTS. They didn’t have anyone there to compete against, it must have been a bit like being an only child. It’s once you’re out of the nest that you realize that the world isn’t quite so focused on you as you think. I loved the idea that Jungkook said he learned and got more skilled, and that he continues, even though it’s slow, to get even better so that in the future he’ll be worthy of the title ‘main vocalist’. Do I remember him being on Masked Singer?

Cherry: I had to Google that, but you’re right, he was ‘Fencing Man’ on Masked Singer. He sang BigBang’s ‘If You.’ And people were right about his voice being distinctive, I could tell it was him right away. I loved that it was Jimin pushing him and telling him to improve himself. Go Jimin! Such a good hyung.

Stephanie: And now we’re going to have to add Jungkook’s ‘If You’ to our TBW list on Friday. (I have a sneaky suspicion it’s going to turn into BTS-apalooza) One big part of the episode was them trying to figure out the choreography for a performance on a stage that was way too small for them. We were trying to figure it out as it went along, wouldn’t they have considered that before booking the venue? They are a group that sings AND DANCES. Having enough room on the stage would probably be #1 with a bullet. But turns out, not for the concert, but instead for a local tv show heir first here in the states. Loved them at the theater looking at all of the bands that had performed there before.

Cherry: And that’s another one we’ll have to look up for our Friday BTS-a-thon. When we saw them practicing in the hotel room, I was like, “Look! It’s Son Sung Deuk, their choreographer!” I was fangirling so hard. And I was impressed with how they were able to work with him to adjust their choreography for the smaller stage. What little we saw of their performance looked really good.

Stephanie: I actually really enjoyed the inclusion of someone around them. We know that they are always surrounded by people, we even saw people squirting something into each of the members mouths, and yet, with the exception of that little bit with Son Sung Deuk, we never focus on any of them. That had to be a choice.

Cherry: When Taehyung sat on the stage and wondered if there’d be enough ARMY to fill it or whether they’d be performing to an arena? Awww… Don’t worry, baby, they’ll be there. I think that’s just as they were learning how well-known they were internationally.

Stephanie: And how did it feel for you seeing the behind the scenes of the actual concert you went to? Were you looking for you and Mystical Being of Unicorns in the background? I know I was.

Cherry: I totally was, except they weren’t focusing on the people so far to stage left that we couldn’t see the back of the stage during the performances. So I just enjoyed seeing bits of the performances again and realized, along with you, that we’ll never see those bathrobe costumes during the Cyphers again, because they’ll do something totally different next time. sigh I love those bathrobes.

Stephanie: GAH. I remember when I heard the opening notes for this Cypher at my concert and realized they were going to play one of my favorite songs? I nearly DIED. They looked so good in those costumes and TOTALLY owned the stages like bad-asses. It’s funny to realize now that they were actually performing that in the middle of a show, with those heavy jackets/robes ON TOP OF the heavy gem encrusted jacket for the next number. No wonder they are tired at the end of the night.

Cherry: That’s another thing they talked about this episode, is how tired they were after performing so many concerts in a row. That’s definitely something I’ve worried about when I hear about the grueling schedules KPop idols maintain. I’ll see on a fansite that a band is coming right from a performance in, say, Philippines and performing with only a day in between, and I start getting anxious for their health. I mean, that doesn’t keep me from going to their concert, I just feel bad about it later. 😛

Stephanie: We actually experienced that! KCON LA a couple of years back, they literally flew in the day of the concert, having performed the night before and, coming from someone who has seen them multiple times, you can tell the difference, you can see it when they are tired, even if they try to hide it. There has to be a balance between getting lots of concerts in and the well-being of the band. It makes for a not great experience for the band or the concert-goers. (Not that I didn’t love them, saying it right now, but YOU COULD SEE THE DIFFERENCE. I was at NY and LA KCon, there was a difference between those two performances, both band and viewers deserve to have the best experience possible. And you know, keep our boys healthy and happy.)

Cherry: That’s why I was glad to see them able to get out and be tourists after their shows in LA. We had Hoseok, Jungkook, Jimin, and Jin at an aquarium and bowling; Taehyung and RM at an outdoor photoshoot and eating; and Yoongi… shopping at Best Buy? Whatever helps you relax, dude, I’m all for it.

Stephanie: Highlight of the freaking episode. They were so adorable! And seeing them get time off in both LA and Chicago was nice. When they Kai Bai Bo-ed to see who had to get hot dogs for everyone and you could see Jin standing in line stressing about how to order twelve hot dogs in English? Ah-Dorable.

Cherry: They were still at the point where there was little chance they’d be recognized. They’re not quite mainstream here, yet, but the recognition factor is higher now than it was then. I loved that they all got together at a barbecue at the end and drank together.

Stephanie: I saw you Kookie, and your underage drinking. 😉 This episode was just a bunch of hard work, cuteness and light, almost a little cathartic after last episode. Was looking at screenshots and noticed that in that first meeting about the too small stage? Tae and Jin sitting together. YAY Harmony amongst coworkers and friends reigns again!

Cherry: And that’s pretty much it for this episode, except for the credits, where we got teased with their BBMA appearance. See you next time!

  Cherry & Stephanie Chat BTS Burn the Stage Ep 5 – I Can’t Stop Alternate titles for this episode: Episode 5 BTS Escapes their Hotel Rooms. Episode 5 We Didn’t Think We’d Get Here, But Now That We Are Let’s Be Awesome.

[bulletfrootboyzz]

I appreciate your thoughts and I am not defending her. I don’t know even know her. I just don’t like mob mentality as I said. And yes I think there is a huge difference between what a person says when they believe it is in confidence and what a person does publicly. Imagine, say, Suga isn’t your cup of tea. You’re still a good Army, you clap for his solo songs, you help buy his album, you nod encouragement when others gush about how cute he is. Then let’s say he says something mean to Jimin and you’re kind of pissed he may have hurt Jimin’s feelings so you tell someone in confidence that you seriously can’t understand how anyone would like him, that you don’t think he’s good looking at all yadda yadda. A year later you get into a fight with this person and next thing you know, all your words have been published on the internet. And ARMY predictably wants to kill you. Even though in public you never did or said anything that would harm Suga, and in fact supported him and the whole band. You really don’t see the difference between shutting down toxic behavior vs thought policing? Everyone is entitled to their personal thoughts. So all the BS she said in PRIVATE I will just pretend I didn’t see it. It was not meant for us to see. She wasn’t out there polluting the internet with her shitty thoughts and gathering like-minded trolls to hurt the boys, like PLENTY of others on the Internet. And if she is a homophobe, welcome to ARMY where the MAJORITY are exactly the same, as you can see by the way they treat jikook.

About my opinion that her camera adores him, have you seen her work vs other fansites? If you don’t see a difference for yourself, I can’t help you. Some people saw GCFt and saw love; others thought, oh haha what a nice video JK made for Jimin fans to pretend they are on a date with him. Which one were you? Don’t answer that, I already know, my fellow jikooker. Seriously go look at her stuff. If you were there when she allegedly scammed all those Infinite fans and then ARMY, you sound outraged enough that I can’t imagine you actually took time to see her work on sheer principle, right?

You can like her or not like her, that’s totally up to you, but I reserve my witch hunts for people who actively encourage others to hate or hurt my boys. I am not such a paragon that I dare throw stones at other people for not loving my boys as much as I do. I also had my own business several years ago and I can guarantee that parcels disappearing in the mail is a thing. And buyers receiving the merchandise perfectly well and then demanding refunds for XYZ reasons is ALSO a thing.

Anyway, ignoring people you don’t like is enough. Do you really think this woman deserves being hated and trashtalked by millions for her private thoughts and a few fan orders that went awry? Let the fans who were allegedly cheated hate her. That’s their business. Who knows if they were even telling the truth? It has nothing to do with me and it doesn’t hurt my boys either. If her private words reached them and hurt them, blame the bitch who deliberate released that information for them to hear it.

Today I saw many people among to report headliner the jk saesang.

Do you what she have done ?

Many jikookers were saying she have said many rude things about jk and jm.

Hi sweetie, she is a super problematic fansite with sasaeng behavior who has said shitty things about JK in the past or shitty things about Jimin if they were together and he blocked her shot of JK. Here is a thread explaining it more:

[toezi]

KCON

Hello friends so I went to KCON this past weekend……… Here’s my story.

HELL ON EARTH i made a cute kcon vlog and made vanessa sit down with me for a kcon chat about the first day but its too long and do i have time to reedit that? No. so here’s my kcon experience my bros.

KCON DAY 1

Wowie so we had like p5 tickets so we kinda just walked around the convention. We sat in on Joan and Edward’s panel for a while and then we stayed for GoToe and Sunny’s panel and GOTOE IS SO CUTEEE I honestly only used my camera to record him he was…. Adorable. But the panel was so quiet and awkward bc of the language barrier and Sunny wasn’t even talking she was just quietly doing his makeup. And there were only… like 30 people there? It was interesting. Then we bought a few albums (Vanessa bought 2 svt albums and a poster and I got Eclipse and we got AL1 for a friend). We went to this photobooth where you could take a picture with a drama background and they had this wall to vote for your fave dramas and leads and INNOCENT DEFENDANT DESERVED BETTER IT HAD HARDLY ANY VOTES. Anyways we were in line for the picture and we chose the Strong Woman background. As we were walking towards the green screen for our turn we were cut by a bunch of Korean businessmen and they turned around and apologized “I’m so sorry. He’s the president of __” and we honestly didn’t hear what company we kinda blacked out from the shock of these men talking to us. Anyways we were at the green screen to take out picture and I motioned to the photographer like “I am going to pick her up like a baby” and his eyes got so big he was like “Y O U?”. now let me tell you, Vanessa is 5’8 and I am 4’8….. He was like “There’s not much time…. How long can you hold?” anyways we took the worst/best picture ever and he was not amused at all lmao he looked so done with us. So we sat down at food street to wait to be picked up and I opened my EXID album to look at it. Two girls were sitting at our table and were like “Did I hear EXID?” so we started talking about the gorls then they asked if we were here to see VIXX (I was wearing a VIXX shirt) and we were like “No, seventeen” and one had an epiphany and said “WAIT i have a seventeen audience pass” AND WE WERE BOUTTA CRY she only had one tho bUT she also had a red carpet pass so I Took svt and vanessa took redcarpet for $20 each (People had been selling them for $200….) AND WE WERE SHAKING SO MUCH it felt so unreal we were both going to SEE SVT and honestly Eclipse it… the bible… a sacred album tbh, blessed. Then we got some FOOD and ended up sitting with these 3 ladies and they liked my pants and BECAUSE THE LIKED MY PANTS they offered us a bunch of free passes!! They had like 2 oh my girl, 4 Astro, 2 SF9, 1 Kard audience passes and this was literally like 20 minutes later we were SHOOK. We took Oh My Girl and gave them to Mely and Vanessa :^) But honestly we went in expecting NOTHING and the day was so crazy Its been a few days and I still can’t believe how kind people are and how lucky we were it all feels like a dream.

KCON DAY 2

I MET KAYLA WHAT A SWEETIE HI KAYLA IF U SEE THIS UR CUTE AND YOUR DRESS WAS CUTE!! ALSO I MET MELY LIKE UUUHHHHHHHHH ITS BEEN 5 YEARS AND VANESSA DIDNT FIGHT ME THANK GOD. SO we didn’t have many workshops we were planning to attend so my Vanessa and I watched Mely and her Vanessa learn how to dance DWC and Mely was talking up how she wanted to do all these dance workshops AND SHE DIDNT EVEN TRY Mely u looked like a limp noodle. Vanessa was better than u. Then Vanessa and I got some food with Kayla and Sophia (HI SOPHIA NICE MEETING U) and we noticed that it was about 12:30 and the line for SVT’s artist engagement was already forming so we waited a bit and ate as we watched that damn line grow. We eventually got in line and waited for an hour in the sun and it was abuse KCON im suing u. But Vanessa waited TWO HOURS in her line for saturday’s red carpet but she’s got more melanin than me. AND we talked to some really nice people in line IDK who ya’ll are but I lvoe you!! Anyways. We were like? In the 3rd row in the audience and there were a few people letting me get in front of them because I’m TINY and one really nice girl who was just a bit taller than me was trying her best to help me get by tall people and she was so sweet I wish I could have thanked her a million more times ;-; So there were like 3 people from a fansite to my left that wouldn’t let me by (of course) and then THESE TWO LADIES who when we asked they just looked down on me and shook their heads AND THEY WERE SO EXTREMELY TALL I WAS EFFENDED. I didn’t tell anybody this but they were playing DWC mv and i actually almost cried bc after all that anticipation I thought I wasn’t even going to be able to see them and I was so hurt. BUT After a few minutes I decided it wasn’t worth being so hot to not even be able to see SVT so I went to the back and watched from the projectors and WOWIE were they beautiful. Everybody was screaming so much /literally/ the only thing I heard was Joshua say “number two!”. But Scoops was so bubbly and had such prominent dimples, Vernon was a sweetie pie, Blond Jun looks better irl, Mingyu: an angel, Jeonghan????? BEAUTIFUL and dainty he really did look like an angel, Joshua is fkn pretty boy nerd he was just happy to be in LA. DK was his sunshine self and Mingyu…… is so cute?? I wish I coulf give much more descriptions on all the boys but I didn’t have a very good view :^( But let me tell you…. Lee Jihoon…………….. The most beautiful man I’ve ever laid eyes on like he honestly made it all worth it he’s absolutely drop dead gorgeous and I felt bliss amongst the chaos he’s truly a walking miracle on this earth. And omg he’s so tiny.

While we waited for Vanessa to finish the red carpet we got some bomb ice cream i loved that man. And OH BOY WAS VANESSA ZAZZED WHEN SHE RETURNED.

And now here are Vanessa’s thoughts about the red carpet: Ok so the red carpet was really GOOD but I was talking to the girls I met while waiting in line we all kind of agreed its kind of not worth it if you’re in the way bc fansites (I think I saw Jihoon’s fansite mintbreeze there). Also it was really cute seeing all the different fans there. I had a VIXX stan standing in front of me and she was just adorable. SF9 were really cute and one of them said “ITS LIT” before they left and I was like wow same. Donghae and I made eye contact for like 1 second and it was so awkward I had to look away. Cosmic girls were ADORABLE and Xuan Yi kept smiling and waving at fans which made all the fangirls scream and that made Xuan Yi smile even more. When VIXX greeted they greeted and all of them bowed except for Leo who had his hands together as if he was praying and I was like wow that is the most Leo thing i’ve ever seen. Girl’s day…. When I saw Minah’s outfit the girl I met while in line offered her hand for emotional support and i took it so fast bc oooooooh man I lost it. Minah kept posing so….. Suggestively like she knew what she was doing. Also I was super gay for Yura. When SVT came out ho boy I almost fell to the floor bc Jun was first and he was fcknin handsome and really tall????? Vernon is a work of art and Seungkwan is an actual baby. Mingyu was gorgeous I legit couldnt take my eyes off him man. I witnessed Wonwoo be a meme. He just looked at Minghao and had his hand on his shoulder, nodded a few times and looked away and Minghao just laughed to himself. Woozi saw some girls next to me who kept going crazy for him and I could tell he tried so hard not to laugh out loud and looked kind of embarrassed or shy about all the fangirling they were doing for a few seconds it was so cute. But tbh out of everyone except for Mingyu and Jun, Woozi kind of stood out to me the most. He was just so?????? Unique looking??? Idk how to explain it but he was beautiful. Chan was almost the last one to leave the stage bc he kept waving at the fans and doing the finger heart thing and he just looked so happy :’)))) Like Jun had to push his arm a little to make him go forward since Chan was the second to last. Also I had my banner up while they were about to leave and I saw Woozi look up a bit when I did and did a half-smile laugh mainly bc of the way I was holding it and doing a :| face ya know what I mean. So he basically laughed at me and it was an honor.

So the concerto. He was a good man. The venue wasn’t as huge as I thought it was going to be so our seats actually felt really close! Preshow: Of course Jun Curryahn was a good man when isn’t he. Then Korean Effects did some BEATBOXING and he was SO GOOD I felt the bass of that man’s voice in my chest. A girl that I do not know the name of came and sang blood sweat and tears to his beatboxing and that was the first time that night that Vanessa turned to me and screamed “IM SO GAY”. The show: Leo and Minah sang a song from Lalaland and it was beautiful. THEN JOSH VERN AND MINGYU came out as the MC’s and I was SHOOK I didn’t expect those boys. I don’t know SF9 but they were good I was amazed they got the stunts! Cosmic Girls were OF COURSE adorable and amazing. Then the screen was showing 17’s intro and we were like “OH SHIT BOY” but THEN it said “special unit performances” and we SCREAMED We didn’t think they would perform unit songs!! It was sad seeing Swimming Fool without Hosh but they did very well those boys. Habit OF COURSE WAS AMAZING I CRY THINKING ABOUT HOW I ACTUALLY HEARD THOSE ANGELS. And OHHHHHHHH BOYYYYYYYYY the day came. As soon as the first notes of Check in played Vanessa and I held on to each other and started screamiING. Check in is oUR JAM OOOOOOHH YEAHH. Then Girls Day performed and they were T H E hottest group there honestly these girls were RUDE. During their stage vanessa informed me 3 more times how gay she is. She was so angry at Minah for doing that^™. Then Cosmic Girls performed I Need U (boy) and SF9 & Cosmic girls performed Sorry Sorry AND GUESS WHO WAS NEXT THE KINGS EUNHAE. Now let me tell you a story. Super Junior was the first group I ever learned and I became friends with Vanessa and Mely because of them. Oppa Oppa? Vanessa and I have been dancing to that for 5 years and u bet we went HARD when they performed that. I’m still so angry that Eunhyuk made us say “LA oppa”. AND THEY PERFORMED I WANNA DANCE I WANTED THEM TO PERFORM IT BUT I DIDNT THINK THEY WOULD SINCE IT WAS A JAPANESE TRACK!! But the whole time they performed I was screaming about how much I hated their hair. Then Vixx performed and I could tell that a lot of fans were there for them (as well as Eunhae) they got the loudest screams. HYUKS ENGLISH WAS SO CUTE I HAD TO HOLD VANESSAS HAND MY BABY BOY. Im really lowkey glad they didn’t perform chained up tho I was blessed that night. And then………...it was SVT’s stage. I had no idea they were the headliners and OH BOY did those boys rock it. There was one VERY RUDE FOCUS ON JIHOON DURING DWC AND I CRIED INTO VANESSAS SHOULDER. I never didn’t think I was going to scream during this concert… but wow did I surprise myself. Even Vanessa was like “WOah”. But SVT performed a super sick remix of Rock and AND they had a little random play dance time which tbh they didn’t even try that hard but then they shot some tshirt cannons and I saw Jihoon rush over for one and honestly I was terrified for my life. He exudes such a different aura on stage that Jihoon really is “El Woozi”. AND HE STANDS WITH ONE HAND ON HIS HIP BOY WHAT IS THAT SASS FOR. During their ment Boo was being his lil Diva self he was so funny and Dino……. A man? He was so handsome I can’t believe. And Minghao got so many screams I was so proud and happy he deserves them all!! Really all the boys Looked amazing and performed so well I could go on for hours. I heard Seungkwan do the Boo airhorn sound effect and i shed a single tear. Dino was so stunningly handsome like??? He really actually does look older than Mingyu he does not look like the youngest at all what are they feeding him. At one point Vernon was like “Wow Josh, I can tell why you hype up your hometown so much” And JOSH gave him THIS LOOK it was so funny he looked offended, disgusted, and sassy I don’t even know who that man is. Good news: I personally caught no signs of butt touching but I /could/ have missed something. But really the whole concert was absolutely amazing, even if you don’t know all the groups the stages are all so great and I think it was just an excellent concert overall. And the next day we dropped off Mely and Vanessa at 11 for their Oh My Girl audience.. That started at 11. Im sorry Chicas but I’m glad u made it in time. ANYWAYS this has been my kcon experience I had a very good time and TBH I would probably consider going again if Seventeen never fkn comes to california.

[secretschuylersister]

Yeah, I am in awe of Hillary Clinton. She is a titan. But what those historians will focus on most is the fact that it took nearly the whole of the world to try and take her down: A foreign government. A data theft ring helmed by a narcissistic white nationalist. An orange, racist, pussy-grabbing, idiotic monstrosity of an opponent. An entire political party with a huge assist from a bunch of brolicious dudes from her own side of the aisle. The media. Fake news. And an old, angry white guy from Vermont. All that, and she still garnered 3 million more votes than her adversary. She did it all while being told every single day that no one liked her, that she was uninspiring, and that she was a deeply flawed candidate. Yeah, they said all that shit. To her face. History will avenge her, however. Some will call her the first woman to be elected President and they will not be wrong. It’s sad that she won’t get to do all the great things I know she would have done. But like Obama before her, we really didn’t deserve her. Not even close. So, yes. HILL YES, even. I am still saying #ImStillWithHER and will be saying it regularly until we see the backsides of every one of these fascist motherfuckers in this oncoming illegitimate administration. She deserves no less and neither, for the record, do they. Thank you, Hillary Clinton. A million times and then a million times more.

Robert Sandy’s defense of why he still talks about Hillary made me sob. Obviously. 

Also, I lied about this not turning into a Hillary Clinton fansite.

[horrible-monstrosity]

p5 finally ends its first arc after like five million episodes and it's as weird, disappointing and disturbing as I could ever dream it to be. so they mindbroke the le evil bad guy, and after spending a few days presumably locked up in his house freaking the fuck out because he'd just been mindbroken he shows up at the school and blurts out a confession. Then he tries to "run" because he's completely just freaking the fuck out, and our main girl reeeees at him to not run from his crimes how dare he!! ... except that's exactly what he was just doing, not running, and instead dragging himself in terror to the school to call himself a horrible person in front of everybody because some unknown mind event scrambled his brain and made him like this against his will. And after all that you still feel the need to scream at him for acting like an actual human and being terrified by the actions and thoughts forced on him by an outside entity, even though he came this far on his own. I mean what's it even gonna matter if he runs anyway, everyone heard him confess, the police can easily still catch him- nope, beat him down even more for not acting like a perfect little punish-ee, make him call himself even more terrible, because we said so. I- I don't know.

Probably doesn't help that he was such a cartoony villain I can hardly bring myself to believe he's a human being who actually deserves a punishment for his actions. It's like someone created a strawman as an excuse to have some mental torture fantasy and feel righteous about it. It's the kind of villain you have around to get instantaneously brutally murdered, a death/punishment as equally ridiculous and shallow as the events that made him deserving of it. You can't just have some cardboard-y villain suddenly deserving a three-dimensional, thought out into every little corner of his mind meat-space punishment. Or rather, it's like I can barely believe this sort of ridiculous charicature of a person could exist and take these actions in the way this character did, so his punishment by mental torture and forced guilt ends up feeling paradoxically undeserved due to how "real" it is by comparison. It's just somehow unsettling. Also he's entirely repentant while he's freaking out. It's not like he's like "a ha, I can get away with the crimes I was just forced to acknowledge and confess to if I run now!", was he? I don't now, maybe my brain was melting too much after watching this shit and I missed him return to being a cardboard evil villain for a femtosecond there that totally justified this shit. fuck idk

Oh, and it doesn't get any better after that. For one we have the slurge of "look guys, game mechanics!" moments. First main guy meets the world's least interesting fairy, who looks exactly like any of the other generic fairy monters they've fought in the dungeon already but this one randomly decides it'z a perzona and it lives in main guy's head now. Okay, you expect this to be useful later, right? Nope, before the fairy ever sees a second of use it gets thrown into the succpot along with the super-cool, imposing and iconic-looking Arsene and turned into this useless, pointless little Pot of Greed-looking motherfucker. Which we're then visually informed is totally more powerful than any cool-looking monters we might have actually wanted to see on screen. Okay. It's a completely pointless and underwhelming piece of script but there's totally gonna be people defending it because le "it's in thu game!!!!". Blah.

Then they get the crown, and it... turns into a medal. Because the game had a very thoughtful table of items in it that had no connection to reality- probbly something like, there's a generic but impressive item used to portray treasure, but once you pick it up it has a specific but arbitrary name or description depending on whose it is, without any real connection between the two- and the anime just had to show off all that generic haaaaard work without actually putting in the work to make it actually make any sense. This brings up its own little logical conundrum until the anime uses another logical conundrum to shit itself and cover up the first one. The medal, the cat says, is something as important to evilteach as a crown to a king, or some shit, as though it's an important item to him- given what it is, it's something like a first-place prize he's very proud of winning. Something that was a wonderful memory, maybe something that inspired him on the path to becoming a teacher, before it all became corrupted by greed and ambition. Yeah, that'll really help him, to physically steal the one thing most precious to him that might be his last decent memory and sell it for cash like it's trash- oh wait, never mind, the cat said it's just a mindclone or something. W- what? Yeah, now they just... sold a counterfeit medal to a pawn shop for dough, that's all. Much better. The pacing of this is astoundingly fucked, too. First we're told the crown turned into the medal after the palace collapsed, then we're shown a flashback of that happening that adds absolutely nothing to what we were just told. Then, we're told the medal is some important thing as valuable as a crown so that's why the crown, which represented the thing at the center of the teacher's mind, represented the medal. Except then, after they sold the medal for god damn money, we're told the medal... also just represented the thing that the thing represented... ???? What a confused fucking metaphor. They keep saying one thing and giving it just enough time to sink in before saying it's something else. All that because the game allows you to sell the treasure as arbitrary vendor trash.

Oh yeah, and the kids went to a pawnshop and bought a fucking gun before this, because fuck you. Or rather, because the game has to have these sorts of useless extra attacks- weak early-game moves and support moves that probably use less mana or whatever, because using the impressive persona powermoves all the time while dungeon-grinding would devalue them and make them less impressive. But that's not the case in an anime. The time spent battling is cut down significantly and looks much better if you use it to focus on the reason the franchise exists, the Personas, rather than wasting any of it on ridiculous battle toys. There's a reason that the only part of this part of the battle system that survived in the P4 anime was Yusuke or whoever showing up with katanas and being made a joke of, because these things can go unscrutinized in game mechanics where it's an arbitrary sprite and name attached to whatever but is ridiculous and pointless outside of it. It's like in megucas where Sayaka brought a baseball bat to a witch barrier and Mami basically humored her by putting a shield magic thing on it, so Sayaka swung it around pointlessly while the shield that came out of it was the only thing really doing anything.

And then it adds another layer of stupid- the kids decide to look up a bit-time villain in the collectiveness consciousness palace, fine enough. There's already a fansite full of people begging the phantom thieves to fix problems for them, because uuuuuhhhhhhhhSo they start looking at crimes, read one that sounds not particularly like one they have reason to not respond to, decide to skip it, move on to the next one and OH WHOA WOW IT'S A SOMEONE BEING STALKERED BY THEIR EX! It's a MAN committing MAN-CRIME against WOMAN-VICTIM! Wow we'd better get on this one right now guys. So they go to the collective sewer-subway of the mind, encounter him; he strawmans himself out as le evil man who literally views his ex as property because any human being ever actually thinks like that; they take him out in one shot and he doesn't fight back at all but they try to make it look like it's totally impressive anyway, and he ends it by seeing the light and calling himself an evil man-crimer who should will respekt whammen from now on like it's a fucking Natty comic. What And then the group and the cat decide they'll only ever go after real big-time evil people, which is what they came all the way down here exactly not to do. Why

And thennn they look up Akechi's kawaii instagram feed on the internet because reasons, insult his detective ability for no reason, decide his interest in the Phantoms is totally not because he's detective and that's what he does and call him a stalker instead. Remember, like that stalker just before this that we decided was the worst possible most evil scum of the earth and we need to go take him out now? Except now nobody really cares, because... I don't know, because the target is vague and unspecified, and vaguely implied to be primarily the main guy because he's the leader and he's the one looking at Akechi's snapchats at that moment I guess, and that's not nearly as somethingorotherly as when the victim is definitely and exclusively le femlae. Except theennnnn the girl character says she feeeeels like she's been being stalked, and now we're supposed to care. Because feels. And it's clearly not even because we're supposed to have suspected before this point that someone was actually stalking her, because the "stalker" shows up like one minute later and it's some guy we've never seen before. ok. Why is every little thing just... like this?

And now this next episode starts off by turbo-frontloading exposition about how awfully terrible the next main villain is, and my brain can't take any more of this right now I'm done. bye

... Wait, if the next super-evil-palace guy is the guy who "stole" the stalker's girlfriend, doesn't that potentially... exonerate him? Like, he's keeping people in a dungeon somewhere making art for him, if your girlfriend got caught in that you'd probably be pretty frustrated and go try to figure out what happened to her, right? The request did say "Madarame", didn't it? Wait, if the girl is chained up in the art basement who posted the request? If it was her why the heck was she just whining about her ex and not about Madarame? What the FUCK is happening???