#have some angsty and smut elements in the story

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Does anyone know a fanfic story where the MC(reader) is a medical student working under Suguru and he brought her onto one of his cases and Gojo was pissed about it. But then the MC and Gojo start to get closer, which pissed off Suguru for some reason. The MC also failed some exam that Nanami was teaching and Gojo offered to teach her on how to remember the facts and whatnot. There's also some basketball fundraising competition happening in the series which caused the MC and Gojo to practice basketball tgt. I don't remember much of the story but if anyone can find it, that would be great! Thank you and have a nice day/night. 💜

[mango-yoyo]

you have really good taste in fanfics in the tag game so was wondering if you would mind sharing so more of your favourites?

oh my god YES

i would love to thank you for asking <3

because i have no self control, i'm going to restrict myself to 3 5 10

1. the condominium community committee by @jusst-you-race . it's funny, it's light-hearted, and it has all the good feels. honestly it's the chat fic of chat fics, where the grid all lives in the same apartment building and have different lives, but are still super close! if you're feeling a bit down or if you want something fun, this is a great fic to read! status: WIP. word count: 28K+

2. crash landers by @janinaduszejko . carcar omegaverse my beloved, where oscar is an alpha and carlos is (secret) omega. a little bit angsty, a lot bit smutty, and overall delightful. it hurts a little bit, but it feels so good, and there's a happy ending! status: completed. word count: 57K+

3. i’m going back to 505 (if it’s a seven hour flight or a forty five minute drive) by julodinae_sunsets. another omegaverse (my weakness) but this time it's maxiel, where daniel is an alpha and tries to court max by accident, but stops himself because OBVIOUSLY max is an beta and doesn't want that. well. he's wrong. but second chances exist for a reason. it's really enjoyable so far, and it's made me grin stupidly way too many times, so. it's a win! status: WIP. word count: 19K+

4. Don't Want Your Sympathy (Just Your Company) by @1425fivefive . landoscar, where oscar is outed via blurry photos of him kissing another guy at the club. to get his mind off it, lando offers to have him stay at his place for the summer. a very cute teammates to friends to lovers, with a little bit of hurt but a lot of comfort. and smut. also, logan is best friend goals, honestly, and the little pockets of humor make you laugh when you least expect it. status: completed. word count: 64K+

5. Sunlight by @onboardsorasora . an absolutely delightful magical realism au (my other weakness) with a dewis pairing. they're one of the authors that got me into the pairing in the first place! people are touched by the elements in varying degrees. some people aren't touched, while others are touched by rare elements (like sunlight). daniel doesn't think he's touched by any. it's whumpy and a bit angsty but so, so sweet. honestly a lot of fluff too, with a sweet ending. status: completed. word count: 10K+

6. Loud and Clear by @oscatmeowstri . race engineer oscar with driver lando au, landoascar. it was wonderful. the formatting was so cool, and their relationship developed really well, from colleagues(?) to friends to occasional kissing buddies to lovers. some angst, but it's resolved pretty quickly, and there are lot of fluffy moments. status: WIP. word count: 48K+

7. cheap wedding (sticky pretenses) by @wormeo-and-juliette . i know i've mentioned the strollonso work by her before, but this is also so, so good. honestly, all her works have got me in a chokehold. it's lesteban, with a marriage of convenience (that eventual turns into love!). lance shows up in rural France, meets esteban, decides they're both lonely, and proposes marriage. absolutely delightful, and there's even the public coming-out which had me squealing. status: completed. word count: 12K+

8. champagne problems by @brocedesmadhouse . it's a love story to brocedes, and it's beautiful, heart-wrenching, and utterly amazing. toto gets replaced with a new team principal — who happens to be nico rosberg. it's set during the 2024 season, and it made me both cry and laugh — sometimes at the same time. absolutely wonderful. status: completed. word count: 60K+

9. empty streets, it's only you and me now by @the-ships-to-rule-them-all . intriguing and sweet, it's an exploration of Jewish folklore and golems, with sweet, sweet strollonso. lance has a golem, who happens to be incredibly protective of fernando. lance also happens to be in love with fernando. it's very cute and has the perfect plot-to-smut ratio. status: completed. word count: 5K+

10. k19tog (knit 19 together) by @nobrakesdown . really sweet and lovely, it's set in the 2022 season with seblance teammates. lance is a knitter, and seb convinces lance to teach him — and eventually, the rest of the grid. really heartwarming, and it has serious grid-as-family vibes that had me smiling like an idiot when I read it. also got me interested in the fiber arts, and it's really cool! status: completed. word count: 7K+

there are so many more fics that i could rec, but the sake of this post (and my need to study) i will limit it to just 10. please let me know how you like these recs, and feel free to rec for more (and if there are any particular pairings you're looking for)! this was a lot of fun, thanks for asking!

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Astarion: A Baldur's Gate 3 Fanfic Rec List

This week, we have Astarion Centric fics! Check under the cut for a whopping seventeen fics all about our favorite vampire spawn, and as always, give them a comment and kudos if you like them!

The stars began to burn by peregrinefeathers (87k, Mature) Warnings: None Pairings: Astarion/Gale

An AU where instead of having an orb lodged in his chest Gale got stuck in a book. Then when a vampire spawn opened that book he got stuck in that vampire spawn's head. This is the best thing that has ever happened to Astarion; within 15 minutes he's running out of the Szarr palace into the sunlight. Then adventures begin!

Reccer says: a slow burn, like bloodweave is obvious endgame but it takes a while to get there, and Astarion is written /so/ well

Uncrossed Lines by Asidian (1209, Teen) Warnings: None Pairings: Astarion & Wyll, Astarion & Halsin, Astarion & Karlach

Friends don't let friends get hurt and/or pressured into doing things they don't want to do

Reccer says: Just an incredibly sweet depiction of people recognizing Astarion's boundaries and helping to enforce them, whether he's expecting them to or not. I love it

Hydnellum Peckii by OctolingO (4403, General) Warnings: talks of Astarion's past but no gruesome details Pairings: none

Astarion is doing a great job hiding what he is from the party, until they reach the Underdark and he has nothing to feed on.

Reccer says: this is so angsty! i loved Gale being too curious for his own good and trying to help and be supportive, and all of Astarion's fears of getting kicked out or killed, bc nobody could ever be in his corner, and having anyone in a position of power apologizing *to him* like that's so foreign - this gave me so many feels!

caught between the dark and the dreaming by Raayide (18925, Teen) Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Pairings: Astarion & Friends

Marcus wants answers, and no one is going to give them to him, unless he forces them to. Astarion is the unlucky target forced to drink a truth serum.

Reccer says: Absolutely delicious whump and found family comfort afterwards

of death potential and death absolute by Raayide (39119, Teen) Warnings: Derealization Pairings: Astarion & Gale, pre-relationship

Astarion is never quite sure, until the moment Cazador lies dead before him, whether this entire adventure is anything more than an extremely vivid hallucination.

Reccer says: this story takes Astarion and twists him up into a little heartbreaking ball of a premise that makes him think everything is just a dream, and how desperate he is to stay in the dream rather than waking up. it retells most of the game with a tight focus and some lovely lovely characters scenes, everyone gets a moment in the spotlight!

Those left behind by Gally (73949, Mature) Warnings: None Pairings: Past Astarion/Karlach

What's Astarion to do after the Absolute is destroyed and the love of his life is now dead?

Reccer says: Lots of funny. Lots of sad. Lots of excellent characterization and slow but steady healing

All it Cost Me by HydieMurderBabe (38529, Explicit) Warnings: Ite explicit, very raunchy and Durge elements of rougher kinds Pairings: Durge X Astarion

Two traumatized nubbins heal from their pasts. Lots of sex and violence ensues.

Reccer says: Its funny, its raunchy, its detailed and most of all I feel like Im invested in the pairing

Collision Course by VakarianSyndrome (123444, Explicit) Warnings: No warnings. Tropes: Modern Girl in Baldur's Gate, found family Pairings: Astarion/F!OC

Set in Baldur’s Gate, this series follows Adelaide, a human woman from Earth, and her somewhat clumsy attempts at navigating this new and fantastical realm. In the process, she falls for Astarion, the pale elf, vampire spawn with level 100 rizz.

Reccer says: It starts out really funny, but then gradually gets serious where needed. The buildup between Astarion and the OC is spicy and sweet, and the smut delivers! And it's completed!

No Good End in View by not_whelmed_yet (60,797, ongoing, Mature) Warnings: Character death (temporary), torture Pairings: Astarion/Wyll/Karlach

Astarion doesn't get time to be terrified of the party, because Wyll cuts off what he sees as a feral vampire spawn's head long before he can try to seduce them. The only problem is that this doesn't kill him. And it continues to not kill him.

Reccer says: this is an achingly beautiful exploration of a team that gets off not so much on the wrong foot but on a freefall - each doing horrible things to each other in ways that all read perfectly understandable from their point of views, but have wretched lasting consequences. the author writes them so in character that I want to throttle them and fall in love all over again

What Could Have Been by Bella1433 (70000, Explicit) Warnings: There is mention of past sexual trauma, its Explicit, and goes into dark territory but not dead dove. Pairings: Named Tav X Astarion

Astarion's transformation into a vampire lord and Sima's fight to reclaim their lost love thrust them into a perilous dance of power, obsession, and redemption.

Reccer says: Its dark, rich, has a different tone and some of the most immersive writing I've read

the ghost of elturel by Raayide (4452, General) Warnings: None Pairings: Astarion and Zevlor

Astarion and Zevlor meet, talk, hate each other, and hate themselves. There is nothing particularly of note about any of it.

Reccer says: Recognition of self in the other tied with some amazing introspection and metaphor

Circus of the dead by Ineadhyn (5995, Explicit) Warnings: Rape/Non-con, graphic violence, self-harm Pairings:

A dark horror circus AU with Astarion, Cazador, and his other spawns.

Reccer says: This is so beautiful, tragic, gripping, and I'm utterly obsessed with everything about it.

No Good Deeds by Garnett Gibson (39715, Explicit) Warnings: None Pairings: Astarion/Tav

A young woman trying to be a good person gets corrupted by Astarion as they navigate the tadpole issue.

Reccer says: Delicious slow burn and creative deviations from canon.

The Lord and his new ways by FartasticDurge (26459, Explicit) Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence, Rape/Non-Con, Coercion, Manipulation, Abusive Relationships, Dissociation Pairings: Astarion/Tav

Ascended Astarion and Spawn Tav's post-game turbulent relationship from Tav's POV.

Reccer says: She struggles between doing what she thinks is right and obeying him, and seeing her process is interesting. In the latest chapter, they go to therapy, a unique twist for Ascended Astarion.

In Time by FartasticDurge (16927, Explicit) Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence Pairings: Astarion/Tav, Astarion & Gale

Post-canon fic where Astarion is looking for a Tav who died and reincarnated into another person. Gale helps him find her, but things take an unexpected turn when they find her.

Reccer says: Astarion POV, a lot of D&D lore, the friendship between Gale and Astarion is interesting and supportive. Tav and Astarion's roles are reversed; he is being nice and she is suspicious of him, which is a nice twist with funny moments.

How Far You've Come by Garnett Gibson (5481, Explicit) Warnings: None Pairings: Astarion/Tav

Astarion's obedient consort has come a long way, but sometimes she still steps out of line.

Reccer says: I liked it!

If Only For One Night by Terrormisu (682, Teen) Warnings: None Pairings: Astarion/Tav

With their party always busy, Astarion finds himself longing for his little love.

Reccer says: It's a short sweet one shot that made me feel all warm and squishy inside. Hehe. But even the implied intimacy was steamy.

The above fanfic recommendations were pulled from our community for this weekly event. Have any questions about what this is? Check out the FAQ!

Next week, we’ll be back with another character rec list, this time focusing on Family!

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writing interview game

honestly, i very much doubt that anyone wants to read what i have to say about writing, but i got tags from some lovely friendly people (thank you to @garagepaperback, @citrusses, @arminaa8 and @wholahoop) so let's start and we'll see where it takes us.

how many works do you have on ao3? 31

what's your total ao3 word count? 368,607

your top 5 stories by kudos?

Nor All That Glisters 

Kept in Cages with @ihopeyoubothstaysafefromharm (art)

Dreaming Skies with @tackytigerfic

Among the Elements

When The Party's Over

do you respond to comments? no, i'm awful, i don't think about it too much or i feel absolutely overwhelmed. i read and appreciate every single one though (except the draco simps complaining about glisters you know who you are) and in my dreams i will reply to you all one day.

what's the fic you've written with the angstiest ending? i don't really do angsty endings, although i did recently write a creepy timeloop fic! also, if anyone wants a laugh please check out the first bookmark on that fic, which is named After the Time Loop:

(also, 'a good enough fic' yeah well your reading comprehension skills aint all that either mate)

what's the fic you've written with the happiest ending? maybe kept in cages?

do you write crossovers? no

have you ever received hate on a fic? not just hate on my fic, hate on my fic that somehow led to me being accused of something i didn't do and basically ostracised from fandom for like nine months. wild!

do you write smut? intermittently

have you ever had a fic stolen? no-one would bother. though i think AI is stealing from all our fics right?

have you ever had a fic translated? yes! the lovely @moonletterss has translated several of my fics into brazilian portuguese! and by the way i had the nicest comment a few weeks back from someone who'd read the translation and came to say thank you to me too, so i'm super grateful to you moon <3

have you ever co-written a fic before? yes, i had the time of my life with @tackytigerfic on dreaming skies and my dream is to write a drarry with them one day if they'll have me. i think there are probably two other people i'd love to co-write with, but i'd be too shy to say!

what's your all-time favourite ship? so basic, but drarry

what's a wip that you want to finish but don't think you ever will? omg i started a fic many MANY moons ago which was actually supposed to be a gift for @vukovich with a fairly morally corrupt draco who works for vice squad and is sent in undercover to let some guy pick him up, and harry's his handler and has to watch him in frustration as he shows off for all the hidden cameras etc. not sure it's something i would write well these days but you never know!

what are your writing strengths? dialogue, pacing (i think)

what are your writing weaknesses? everything that's not dialogue, also i joyfully skip back and forth all over the shop when i'm writing a first draft which means i have to force myself to go back through in order afterwards to make it all make sense. there are better ways, i'm sure, but i really don't care.

what are your thoughts on writing dialogue in other languages in a fic? oh, definitely! what, as opposed to jkr's 'eet ees lucky zat 'e is marrying me'?? yes, no thanks to that. i'm sure i've had some french in there before, and i seem to recall asking people for italian and german advice though i reckon that was like book titles and not dialogue. but definitely i would!

what's a fandom/ship you haven't written for yet but want to? oh god, f1, always the one that got away.

what's your favourite fic you've ever written?

nor all that glisters (i'll never not be proud of that as an achievement, especially given the pit of postpartum despair i was in), dreaming skies, or silhouettes

tagging: @tackytigerfic, @maesterchill, @kamaela, @shiftylinguini, @moonflower-rose, @epitomereally, @lemonlimelea, @sorrybutblog, @oknowkiss and anyone else and if you've done it pls lmk so i can hunt it down and reblog <3

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Remake of pinned post and updated BG3 Master List.

NSFT, 18+, MINORS DNI

Full AO3 profile.

Finished stories include word count.

The first two are the last ones I wrote when I discovered my all-time favorite OTP, Cal and Ryldinn. Ryldinn is my OC, a drow assassin.

M/M, explicit smut, violence, discussion of past trauma, slight non-con elements in both.

Where Our Demons Hide is the BG3 story told through the experiences of Cal, Ryldinn (Tav), and Astarion. It's quite long and not finished yet, but there isn't much more to go.

Heat of the Night is lighter, sillier, AU story, set in BG with all the characters and magic, etc, but a more 1980s Miami feel. Characters have a set sexuality instead of being pan. This is going to be an ongoing series. Collab with @crowwolf. 118,983 words. Special warning for homophobia, slurs, and attempted assault.

Reclaiming Ourselves series takes place mostly after the events of BG3. It's 3 parts and it's a different experience depending on what order you read them in. Told from POV of Cal, Rolan, Zevlor, and Dammon in different bits with some 3rd person as well.

M/M, F/M, lots of smut, heavy angst, hurt/comfort.

Goodnight Kiss is sweet, with a shy bumbling Cal trying to get a girlfriend. 24,057 words.

Comfort in the Dark starts with Zevlor and Rolan, but our bitchy wizard eventually ends up with Dammon. Angsty. 22,217 words.

Who Am I? stars Zevlor with my OC Ilyrana, a high-elven draconic sorcerer. After being rejected by Rolan, the Paladin finally rediscovers the love of his life. 21,902 words.

Master of the Tower stars Rolan with an unnamed, vaguely described afab Tav. It begins in the Last Light Inn and goes a little beyond the game, but I don't discuss game events much; this one is all about them. It's angsty in parts, but also cute, funny and very smutty. The tiefling anatomy lesson seems to be a hit. 31,931 words in 3 parts.

F/M, smut, angst.

After Hell. Zevlor and Dammon hook up and then find themselves a girlfriend. After the events of the game. No real angst or drama, just lots of fun creative sex. 23,811 words in 3 parts.

M/F/M, smut.

How to Fix Your Broken Tiefling. This one is just pure love and adoration for Zevlor from a sweet little afab Tav who just wants to make him happy. 9,526 words.

F/M, smut, loss of virginity.

Quick and Dirty sees Zevlor, jealous and frustrated, coaxing a young, inexperienced afab Tav to... um... relieve his frustrations in the woods. This is dirty old man Zevlor and I enjoyed writing it. 1,699 words.

Dub-con, fellatio.

Fire, Ice and Darkness tells Zevlor’s story the way I think it should have been. It's unfinished, and I don't know if I'm going to do so, but it's not far from the end and if I get enough interest maybe I will. His love interest is my OC Nienna (Same person as Ilyrana, but she's Tav in this one.)

M/F, smut, heavy angst, graphic violence, slight non-con elements.

The New Chosen. Zevlor accepts the Absolute and becomes Her warrior. He then kidnaps Tav, an afab rogue, partly described and not named. This one isn't finished either. Again, I might circle back to it but it's a bit icky to write.

F/M, NON-CON. Like really. Violent and uncomfortable.

The Master's Lessons. Rolan finds out soon after becoming Lorroakan’s apprentice that the wizard has more in mind than teaching him magic. This is technically part of The Master of the Tower, but it's unhooked so people can skip it if it makes them uncomfortable. 5,817 words.

M/M. NON-CON. Not violent, but pretty gross anyway. Drugs and coercion used.

[blooming-violets]

just finished five minutes. what other angsty goodness do you have to offer?!

Something Unforgivable

Peter cheats on his depressed, grieving girlfriend and feels like shit about it (as he should!!) and then part three randomly turns into a sex trafficking ring and murder fest story to spice things up.

Dancing On My Own (and the sequel)

People literally despise the fuck out of Peter in this fic. I seemed to have managed to make a typically beloved babyboy the most hated character. Then I tried to redeem him a bit but only made it worse and made people hate him more...but it's angsty af. And I personally think the ending fits their characters perfectly and makes total sense based on how I wrote them/their trauma/backstory buuuut it doesn't make people happy! ANGST

Nicest Thing

Honestly, this fic was written way before Dancing On My Own but they sort of have very similar vibes and I used a lot of inspo from this one to write DOMO. Like they could be the same Reader character person just in a slightly alternate universe. Peter's bff who's in love with him but he loves Gwen and then she dies and he's depressed and his friend tries to help him but it's hard to help grieving angry people.

Pinky Promise

there's children trying to jump off buildings and terrible fathers and attacks on nyc and two sad people just trying to find love in the midst of it all

Imminent

you see the future and that future shows Peter Parker's death. This is one of my favorite things I've done and I don't even think it's written that well but I think it's a unique concept and therefore it's my fav

Creature Like Me

This is my pride and joy. It's my baby. This is the most "I'm writing for me and only me" story I've ever done. It's just me pumping out chapters and like three people reading and cheering me on. And I have genuinely loved every single second. I. Fucking. Love. This. Story. So. Damn. Much.

Don't

This is short. Peter's an asshole during a fight. I like it because Reader stands up for herself and draws some boundaries. Don't let men treat you like shit. That's the message.

Are You Real?

Someone asked to me write fluff but I didn't see that so I defaulted to angst instead. A touch starved reader in a long distance relationship with Peter.

Touch Starved

Another touched starved but it's Peter who's in need of love.

From my Hurt/Comfort Bingo (that I should get back to completing some day): Caring for Reader's Wounds After Fight (home break in), Look At Me (stuck in an armed robbery), Car Accident (title speaks for itself, ended up as a 3 part mini series), Bring Your Kids to Work Day (reader is stuck in a fire with two kids and no way out)

Smut with Angst elements:

Cheating With Peter

Your marriage sucks, you're in love with Peter, all he seems to want is sex from you though and nothing more so you give it to him bc at least it means you'll be his in some sad pathetic way

In The Dark

Depressed reader needs Peter's help to find her way out of the darkness of her mind (through anal sex, apparently)

Ok that should be more than enough to keep you satisfied.

[thlayli-ra]

Stole this from @stripeydani - Happy New Year bestie! Lang may yer lum reek!

2024: My Year in Writing

2024 Summary

Words Written - 292,392 words

Fics Published -

The Moon Rises Red Tonight - Vampire AU, AJ Lee/CM Punk/LA Knight/ Finn Balor. My weird little baby that was meant to be just straight up smut with my favourites yet kinda turned into this angsty piece involving a trauma flashback-inducing vagina so... yeah...

Would You Offer Your Throat to the Wolf? - Hunter/Prey AU. CM Punk/Drew McIntyre. Literally the second Punkintyre fic on AO3 and my first full foray into Dead Dove horror. It is entirely to blame for my writing taking a drastic turn into the unhinged and I'm still not sure if that's a good thing or not. 😅

The Chain - Soulmate AU. CM Punk/Drew McIntyre. I'm still really proud of this twisted little ficlet. So far, it's the only time I've written in first person POV.

Stray - Stray AU. CM Punk/Drew McIntyre. Part fluff, part angst, it tells the story of two broken souls helping to mend one another. And Drew in a muzzle.

Losers pray for things to happen; winners make things happen! - Winner's Room AU. CM Punk/Drew McIntyre. A silly ficlet I wrote after Clash at the Castle that inadvertently launched a whole entire au, in which Gunther has a pet play kink. One of my most successful fics. More will follow, I assure you!

Thlayli's Trick or Treat Ficlets - Various. A collection of request ficlets I did for my Trick or Treat event in October. I had so much fun working with all of your requests and got to flex my writing abilities a bit. However, it did spawn the Alien Breeding fic so there's that...

A Sinner at Heart - Valetverse AU. LA Knight/Nick Aldis. A huge thank you to Dani @stripeydani for prompting this pairing. They're so much fun to write and I plan to add more to this fic next year! (They're so fucking!)

Out of the Ashes - Post-Apocalyptic AU. CM Punk/AJ Lee, various. Finally got the sequel to Scorched Earth back up and running after a long slump.

'Acknowledge Me' - Winner's Room AU, LA Knight/Roman Reigns. Technically the first winner's room fic I wrote but it got stuck in WIP hell until last month. Nasty little piece where neither man comes off better.

My Favourite Fic - Oooooh! That's tricky. It's a close-call between Red Moon, the hunter/prey au and Stray but if I had to choose, it would be Stray. Mainly because it all started off as an interesting concept that popped into my head one morning and evolved with each chapter into a beautiful character study of love and loss. I especially enjoyed writing Divorced!JoePunk and capturing their complicated feelings towards one another.

My Most Written Pairing - Isn't it obvious? It's been the year of Punkintyre. They infested my brain and consumed me entirely (they're both lingering in there still, I just need to get over the holiday season for some time to write/draw)

My Most Used Tags - 'Rape/Non-Con Elements' - I mean, I'm bad enough with this tag anyway but Punkintyre made it all so much worse! 'Anal Sex' - they're all fucking each other (when they're not murdering one another in the woods of course!). 'Past Abuse' - one must have past trauma in order for a tattooed man to heal them, right?

What I learned - That all my readers are freaks (in the most affectionate way possible!) But seriously, this was a revelation - after the Hunter/Prey AU, I allowed myself to write darker, more explicit fics and it has been weirdly liberating. Like writing all the darkness out of me and embracing it in a safe way.

What I want to write next year- Sooooo much! So far, the WIP list looks like this;

- Complete Out of the Ashes

- Part 2 to the Alien Breeding/Experiment AU fic

- The Valets of WWE; Modern Era (first chapter in progress)

- More LA Knight/Nick Aldis fics

- LA Knight/Shinsuke Nakamura, Winner's Room fic

- Red Moon off-shoot featuring Punkintyre (based on an idea proposed by @selamat-linting )

- A little ficlet/art piece based off of my good friend @elementaldoughnut12 's Stripper AU

- Several ficlet requests I have on stand-by in my askbox (requests are always appreciated btw so feel free to send any in)

- Part three of Flint and Steel (one can dream!)

- Not to mention any inspiration that comes my way during Wrestlemania season (keeping all my fingers and toes crossed for a Punk/Gunther feud!!!)

[viridian-house]

Do you have any favorite naruto fics you’d recommend? Any pairing, complete or not, on-hiatus, gen, oneshots, anything is fine lol

I was legitimately just pruning my bookmarks the other day!! thank you so much for asking.

I don't read too much fanfic these days, and I'm picky when I do--only about grammar/punctuation and immersion though. I ship a LOT of stuff (I guess The Youth would call me a proshipper) and although I never read darkfic, I don't shy away from weirder kinks and unhealthy relationship stuff.

categorizing by pairing, if applicable. some of them are smutty, and please note that the first 3 come from FFN which doesn't have a tagging system, but there is some SA CW I'll give in advance.

KAKASAKU | my first OTP! formative fics that totally reshaped my understanding of what fanfiction could be, and how well-written chemistry can make it or break it

HOUSE OF CROWS is the quintessential kakasaku fanfic. it was written during shippuden and so is canon divergent because of that, but also tells a comprehensive story of its own right that is intriguing and well planned. excellent characterization and world building. leaves me gutted in the best way on my yearly reread.

DUTY BEFORE HONOR is another silvershine classic. I don't reread is as often as House of Crows but they are just about equal in quality. again, the chemistry between them is off the charts, and the world feels so alive.

WILL OF FIRE for me is up there with House of Crows in being essential kakasaku reading. cynchick is a multisaku champion and a wonderful storyteller. the stakes in this one are stressful, the romance tense and believable, and we once again get lovely world building and great chemistry.

ITAKISA | a pairing near and dear to me, because men who do everything wrong are so deeply relatable. they both know they don't deserve anything good ever again but they found each other!!!! ARE YOU GUYS SEEING THIS--

A SHARK HIDDEN INN THE LEAVES doesn't have my favorite version of Kisame, but he's plenty close enough. it's a lengthy oneshot that got me into certain *ahem* kinks. it is a very fun and wild fic that is entirely self-aware of how absurd it's being, and manages to have nothing but sincerity at the same time (and I highly recommend the author's other stories as well)

AN ORCHESTRA PLAYING ON, INSANE is a modern AU (extremely rare in my bookmarks) that absolutely tore my heart out. god is it SO much to ask for these losers to be happy?! yes, it is, and I love every moment of it

MADAMITO | a rarepair I am SUCH a sucker for that has some of the most talented authors writing for it. lots of them have ot3 elements between them and hashirama, often angsty, but stuff like that is part of the appeal for me, lol

A HANDFUL OF SKY is an unfinished fic that I genuinely think about like once a week. if it ever updates then I will be over the moon. technically hashimadamito but it hadn't quite gotten there yet

LIKE ALTARS is just such a beautiful piece of writing, mostly on madara. it is everything, that is all

BLOOD AND RIVER WATER is more mito-centric but has one of my favorite madaras of all time

YOURS ARE RATTLED BONES is another short, mito-centric but gut-wrenching piece featuring the opposite type of madara from the last one

OTHER | character-centric stuff that isn't necessarily shippy but also doesn't have a very "gen" vibe either?

A SERPENT IN THE RICE is a little series about orochimaru that makes me feel so so so many things. highly recommended

HERETIC is such a love letter to kushina, and kurama too. cannot stress enough how much I adore this one

there's a few others that I probably won't link on tumblr, mostly unhealthy and/or "problematic" smut hhfhdj but maybe I'll make a public rec list on ao3 for these different categories and stuff like that.

but yeah that's pretty much it!!! I know it's not a huge list with a lot of variety but it's what I've enjoyed over the last 15+ years in the naruto fandom.

[bisexualiteaa]

Hey girlie, are you still taking requests? Because if you are I got one for our babygirl Cooper.

What about a Cooper x female reader where the reader is another ghoul?

Im thinking something fluffy and/or angsty for it tbh, but will never complain about smut if you have some good ideas for it.

Thank you love you xxx

Hey anon! I absolutely am still taking requests!! 🥰 I have one longer story in the works that had me up all night last night getting all my good ideas out on that I should be posting sometime today since I have more time to thoroughly read through it and tweak it before posting it! I love love LOVE your idea, and I think I can incorporate all three elements into it if that would be something of interest! ☺️ I’m going through all of my requests in my ask box so don’t be afraid y’all! I will happily do them, much love to you all! ❤️

[klunkcat]

tagged by @goodlucktai <3333

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

45 lol but i have I think. 30 wips that exist somewhere on my computer at any given moment. alas.

2. What's your total AO3 word count?

701,032

which..... is like far too many words per fic actually imo

3. What fandoms do you write for?

honestly whatever currently grabs my brain stem changes a lot but i think my top ones are tmnt and stranger things (what a wild combo actually). Actively atm I have a trigun wip and a tmnt one

4. Top five fics by kudos?

A Kiss is a Kiss (But it's never like this) - 6,528

(something happens and I'm) head over heels - 3,518

Green with Envy - 1,880

Forget the mess I'm in - 1,791

Weak Point - 1,366

5. Do you respond to comments?

literally I am the WORST for remembering to reply I'm so sorry. I must say that I do read all of them in my email and screenshot them and cry

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

angsty endings are too much 4 me I believe so strongly in hurt/comfort but....

Impossible Things and the Tin Can I think is the most like, conceptually tragic series I've written

7. What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

Comfort is a requirement but I think but like Stepping over the line is basically just an extended meet cute so nothing really sad happens at all lol?

8. Do you get hate on fics?

Actually genuinely have never gotten a rude comment in my life I did once get someone being hyper pushy about new chaps when I was like.... 19? Sometimes comments veer I think towards misunderstanding unreliable narrator elements and can be a little intense as a result

9. Do you write smut?

ehhhhhh closest I've ever gotten was dancing around the topic lol

10. Craziest crossover?

omg me and tai have gone down some rabbit holes and made a tangled/good omens fusion among other things, which was cute 2 me

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

not that I know of!

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

I've gotten some requests, not sure if they got uploaded anywhere?

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

I did once many years ago but we didn't end up finishing it from what I remember!

14. All time favourite ship?

oh god I mean. ineffable husbands and wangxian invented romance. big mckirk and vashwood fan despite what my published fics would tell you. stsg ruined my life this year. I'm really big on platonic friendships though personally

15. What's a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

My google docs are a cesspit of fics I will never finish. Once made a wangxian softball fic that will never see the light of day but I think of it fondly

16. What are your writing strengths?

Might actually be a weakness and not a strength but boy do I love prosey metaphor nonsense. Sometimes I think it works other times who's 2 say.

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

Fighting scenes man, combat is hard as hell.

18. Thoughts on dialogue in another language?

in general I dooooon't write it too much just because I don't speak anything beyond like. grade 2 level spanish so.

19. First fandom you wrote in?

tmnt :' )

20. Favourite fic you've written?

Oh tricky. Stealing tai's idea of a top 5

Forget-Me-Nots - :') big ol love u to tai for this

Both the Sweet and the Bitter - so sorry to anyone who follows me for ST fics because I'm probably never going to write for it ever again or finish this but a dear friend of mine helped me with this story and it means a lot 2 me as a result. The flower metaphors were fun to research.

Plain White Beach Houses - also same as the above but idk pacific rim au....house metaphors.... I love this series a lot

change up, high inside - wanted to write a softball fic for my whole life basically and this is more or less me just waxing poetic about the sport if I'm honest

Feedback Loop - this fic was actually insane like. took me I think a full year to write out? There's a lot of stuff in this that I lol cannot reread anymore for reasons but damn if it wasn't a learning experience to write all around

Tagging @eternalglitch @byrdybyrd02 @jinbugs if u want to besties!

[lonelywhalien22]

pretty lies - part six

pairing: vernon x reader

rating/genre: smut (fem bodied reader), enemies to lovers, slow burn, ANGSTY fluff, band au

summary: supporting your friend mingyu becomes way more than you ever could have bargained for when you become involved with one of his bandmates

warnings: *smut scene (fem bodied) in reader’s apartment so skip if underage or uncomfortable*, *mention of death/grief*, cussing, vernon has issues in this story but please remember this is a work of fiction, mingyu stans don’t hate me but mingyu and reader are just friends

word count: 5.2k

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*there are bolded markers to alert you to where the smut scene begins and ends so please use them. the smut scene does not contain any important plot elements*

*smut warnings below the cut*

*smut warnings: penetration, oral (fem receiving), handjob, fingering, grinding, dirty talk but like it's soft, please remember this is a fictional/dramatized depiction of intimacy.

When you finally made it back to your apartment later that evening you let out a deep sigh, plopping against the front door as soon as you closed it.

“What have I done?” you muttered to yourself in the silence.

You took a shower and got ready for bed, trying to take your mind off of things, but all you could think about was Vernon. As your muscles relaxed under the warm, steamy water, the droplets that ran down your skin reminded you of the way his hands had caressed different parts of your body. You thought back to his lips passionately pressed against yours, and suddenly you felt yourself heating up all over again. You dried off, getting dressed when you noticed a familiar blue shirt folded neatly on top of your dresser drawer. It was the shirt Vernon had let you borrow the first night you saw the band perform. You had carefully washed and dried it, but had somehow forgotten to ever give it back to him, and he’d never reminded you after all this time. You still remembered the way he’d looked at you that night when you’d tried to return it. Annoyed, you walked into the kitchen to make yourself some tea but then thought back to that time at Mingyu’s apartment when Vernon had held you in his arms after saving you from falling to the floor.

“Fuck,” you said in frustration. Suddenly every little thing reminded you of him.

Then came the subsequent guilt. Mingyu was your closest friend, and you had to get involved with one of his bandmates of all people? You couldn't help but be sensitive to how he would feel, especially considering how much he was relying on Vernon to help the band succeed. And how would you even go about explaining it to him? Did Vernon even agree that there was something between the two of you that needed explaining? Or had you both just been caught up in the moment?

You thought about Vernon again. There was still a lot you didn’t know about him. He didn’t really seem to open up much, even after all this time, and there was still that whole thing with the notebook. Although you really had forgiven him, you still worried about what exactly he was hiding about himself and his past. Maybe it would be best to end this before it even began…before you got hurt, or worse. You’d known from the beginning that any sort of fallout between the two of you could jeopardize the band’s chemistry and their chances at winning Battle of the Bands - you just hadn’t expected it to be this kind of fallout that you’d be most worried about.

An irregular knock at your door took you out of your thoughts. Alarmed, you softly tip-toed your way to the door, looking through the peephole first to see who it could possibly be this late at night. The sight made your heart race.

“Vernon? What are you doing here?” you said, still in shock as you eased the door open. He stood there in front of you, jacket zipped all the way up and his hands in his pockets, nose tinted red from the cold. A frosty breeze came through the door just then, making you wrap your hands around yourself, only wearing pajama pants and a t-shirt.

“I didn’t have your number, just your address from last time so I…you said we could talk later? About what happened?” he started nervously.

“You came all the way here tonight to talk?” you asked. A silence followed before Vernon roughly raked a hand through his hair.

“Shit, I’m sorry, this was a stupid idea -”

“No, it’s fine. Just…come in,” you said as a shiver ran down your spine. You quickly closed the door behind him, insulating the two of you back inside your warm apartment.

Clearly neither of you had been able to stop thinking about what had happened in the dressing room. Maybe it would be best to get ahead of this and shut it down now before either of you thought about it too much.

“Do you want some tea?” you offered, trying to act as normal as possible.

“Uh…sure, I guess.”

“So I’ve been thinking and maybe we should slow down on this whole thing,” you started out of nowhere, keeping your eyes anywhere but on Vernon. You pulled out two mugs and poured some heated water into each as he slowly followed you into your kitchen.

“Y/n -”

“I mean, it’s probably best not to get distracted with the competition coming up and everything.”

“Y/n,” Vernon said again, this time freezing your movements with a light touch on your arm.

“I thought you said you wanted to talk.”

“Not like this,” he shook his head. “Not if it means you trying to stop whatever this is.”

“And what is this exactly?” you asked, heart surging in your chest. 

Vernon bit his lip for a moment before hesitantly leaning down and placing the softest kiss you’d ever felt upon your lips. It was a kiss of tenderness, of care, and it made your heart flutter more than any of those kisses in the dressing room had.

“Vernon…Mingyu’s my friend,” you said quietly.

“Ok. So?” He eased closer to you, fingers playing with yours as the volume of his voice matched your own. “We can’t be together because of Mingyu?”

“You know it’s not that simple. He’s your bandmate. You guys work together all the time. What if - what if we -”

“Stop with the excuses. Just tell me you don’t wanna be with me and I’ll go,” he said stubbornly.

You stood there silently, breathing heavily as he came closer to you, placing his hands on your waist.

“Say it,” he said even softer, distracted as his lips ghosted over your ear before he placed a soft peck where it met your jawline. All you could do was huff in response, his hands curling around your waist just a little more. He bent his head down even lower then, giving you another peck right at the underside of your jaw before quickly following up with a slower kiss to the side of your neck.

“Fuck,” you cursed as your hands reached up, pulling him into a searing kiss. Vernon trapped you back against the kitchen counter, the two of you scrambling to touch some part of the other before he pulled away quickly and once again lifted you to sit on the ledge, smashing his lips back into yours passionately. The kisses were fast but controlled, you following Vernon’s lips as your hands wrapped around the back of his neck, fingers playing with his hair strands as he grunted deeply into your mouth.

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“Take this off. Please,” you grasped the edge of his jacket. 

Vernon shoved it off immediately before his hands came back to you, angling your face up and tilting his head before going back in. The more you felt him against your lips, the more desperate you became. After minutes of this, you couldn’t stand the need you felt for him anymore. Kissing just wasn’t enough.

“Vernon,” you whispered frantically between kisses.

“Yeah.” peck. “What?” peck. He finally stopped to look at you, face still close to yours as he wet his lips slightly.

“Do you maybe wanna -” you began your question hesitantly, fingers trailing over a sliver of skin beneath his shirt. Did he want you the way you wanted him right now? You weren’t sure. Maybe he -

“Tell me what you want” Vernon said, leaning down and pressing lingering kisses to the side of your throat.

“I want…I want…” you gasped a little as he took his time with one particular spot. His lips felt so good on your skin.

“Me too,” he said with an exhale, his hand moving on top of yours to place it more firmly on the skin beneath his shirt, your hand pressing against his lower abdomen fully as you felt warmth radiate through your palm. “I want you so bad right now.”

You guided him back up to your face, finishing with one last kiss to his lips before hopping off the counter and gently enclosing his hand in yours, leading him towards your bedroom.

As you entered the dimly lit room, you turned and guided him in front of you, gently pushing him back to sit at the foot of your bed. His eyes followed you hazily, watching as you went down to straddle him and grabbed his face in your hands, kissing him deeply again. This kiss was hungrier than the other ones, your pent up frustration coming out in full force now that you had him like this all to yourself. You could feel his breathing quicken underneath you, a deep moan rumbling from his chest, hands coming up to grasp at your waist and pushing up your shirt slightly in the process. The contrast of his warm palms mixed with the coolness of the rings on his fingers seared into your skin like a memory. Finally you began to move a bit, winding your hips down against his lazily, a pressure rising between your legs as he whispered a curse against your lips. You broke away from him for a moment, looking up at your ceiling as you focused on the growing heat in your core, sighing contentedly as Vernon began helping to push you down against his length, over and over again. With how thin your pajama pants were you could feel everything, face scrunching up as you let out a little moan of pleasure.

“You look so hot right now. Fuck. Can I?” Vernon asked timidly, raising his hands to push up your shirt ever so slightly.

“Yes. Please,” you responded in a hushed tone. He promptly began sliding his hands up along your sides, body lighting up all over as your shirt rose up against his hands, slowly revealing more and more of your bare chest. He gently pulled the fabric over your head and tossed it to the floor, the two of you laughing at each other lightly as he tried to smooth out your hair.

“What?” you asked shyly when Vernon became quiet, looking straight into your eyes.

“You’re beautiful, you know that?” He leaned in and kissed you again before you could respond, and you closed your eyes, feeling one of his hands settling on your waist as the other rose to rest against your upper back, making your spine tingle in the process. Vernon moved back again, getting ready to take off his own shirt, but you stopped him with your hands.

“Let me,” you offered, slowly undoing the buttons of his silk shirt, pressing kisses to his chest lightly as you went, feeling his pulse between your lips. You couldn’t believe you got to have him this close, like this. It felt surreal the way he responded to your touch - the way he responded to you. Once his shirt was finally off, you pressed both your palms against his upper chest and he got the message, falling back onto your mattress as you slowly leaned down, the two of you kissing again messily as you felt his palms sliding all over your back, chests colliding. 

Eventually you became impatient again, backing up as your hands reached for his pants.

“Is this ok? Can I touch you?” you asked.

“Fuck, yes,” Vernon nearly panted out as you reached for some lube in your nightstand drawer.

You hurriedly began undoing his pants, not even pulling them all the way down before you quickly reached inside to grab his length with your now wet hand and began to rub him slowly. Vernon let out a loud moan.

“Is this good?” you whispered.

“Fuck - yeah,” was all he could manage.

You started speeding up, tightening your grip just slightly with a little smile on your face. Desperate noises began to fill your ears like a melody as you continued to stroke him up and down greedily. You would’ve happily had him just like this, his unrestrained expressions only exacerbating your own spark.

“Shit, wait - don’t I get a turn?” Vernon asked gruffly, not wanting things to end so quickly. You let him move on top of you, easing you back into the bed. He mimicked you, kissing all over your chest, paying extra attention to your nipples as he enveloped them with his lips. Tiny noises and whimpers left your mouth sporadically as your arousal increased, his attention to your body putting you in a spell.

“So this is how you like it, huh?” he asked as he moved further down your chest.

“Yeah,” you responded breathlessly, eyes closing as you felt his kisses light up little spots all over your abdomen.

Vernon’s hands began trailing over the drawstring of your flimsy pajama pants.

“Take them off,” you instructed.

He followed, easily sliding off the pants, hands beginning to rub along your thighs slowly.

“Tell me where you want me to touch you,” Vernon asked deeply, thumb creeping up to rest along your inner thigh as he spread your legs open wide.

“Higher,” you voice came out in a near whine to your embarrassment.

“Here?” he suggested, not teasing you for long at all as his thumb finally went up to press against your core, the fabric of your underwear already soaked as your body immediately responded to his touch, pushing into his hand. You let out a barely audible noise, nodding your head quickly.

“Yes, yeah, just a little higher - please - right there,” you begged.

Vernon began gently circling with his thumb, leaning down to pepper kisses against your inner thigh as your body began to respond, soft moans leaving your lips. You hated how responsive you were to him already, but you couldn’t help it. You’d wanted him ever since you’d first seen him earlier this evening, and maybe even before that. It felt like so many things had lead up to you finally feeling him against you in your bed like this, and now that you’d gotten a taste you couldn’t hold yourself back if you tried. You’d take it any way you could have it, underwear be damned. 

Vernon seemed to think otherwise though, slowing his movements before dragging his thumb firmly down the center of your underwear. You bit your lip in anticipation.

“I really wanna take these off you right now,” he said. You could practically feel his breath inside of you down there and it was driving you crazy.

“Then do it,” you said impatiently.

He didn’t waste any time, pulling your underwear off before he replaced his thumb with his mouth, tongue slowly licking up at your nub over and over again. 

“Oh fuck,” you cried out, hand running through your own hair strands as you desperately looked for something to hold on to. His tongue made you feel as if you were levitating off the bed, waves of pleasure rolling through your body. Vernon then began to insert a finger inside of you, looking up at you with hooded eyes as he did so. You could only look at him for a second before you had to shut your eyes in overwhelm, his heated gaze bringing you there too fast. One of your hands went to grasp at the back of his hair helplessly as the pleasure grew.

“I’m gonna -”

But he edged you to a stop, removing his finger as you practically whined aloud.

“I know, I know, I’m sorry,” Vernon placed a lingering kiss against your thigh apologetically. You weren’t sure how sorry he really was though, when you saw the cocky glint in his eyes. “I just wanted to ask if I could feel you around me when you…” he said the last part a little shyly.

“Yeah,” you said breathlessly. “I’ve got some condoms in my nightstand drawer.” Vernon quickly grabbed one and ripped the packet open, rolling the covering around his length as you watched in a daze. Then he gently climbed back on top of you. Though all of this happened in a matter of seconds, it felt like it took forever.

He lifted himself up over you, forearms trapping you on either side as he slowly leaned in, his length pressing against you but not yet entering you.

“Tell me you want me again,” Vernon asked you softly, one finger gently brushing the edges of your hair out of your face as he looked down at you, other hand back to circling your nub slowly.

“I want you. Need you. Please, Vernon,” you begged tearfully. That was all it took for him to slowly ease inside of you, the two of your voices blending together aloud at the feeling. You didn’t think you’d ever felt so emotional at the feeling of anyone inside you before, not used to so many words being exchanged during the deed. He waited for your approval before he started thrusting lazily into you, working you back up all over again. The two of you continued like this for awhile, soaking up the feeling of being intertwined with one another.

“Does it feel good?” he asked as if he didn’t already know, panting against your skin as you began clenching around him sporadically, his finger starting to move faster against your sensitive nerves as the resulting moistness made his movements feel even more fluid inside and out. You felt his other hand interlock with yours, the chain on his wrist cool against your veins as he held your hand in place on the bed.

“Fuck. Yeah,” you whimpered, fingers reaching for the hair at the back of his head, grasping softly and pulling him closer towards you. “Please don’t stop,” you nearly cried out, urging him on one last time, heart beating rapidly out of your chest as he kept up his circling, movements becoming even tighter and more focused until you couldn’t take it anymore and you snapped.

You jerked up suddenly, writhing and insides clenching hard as various sounds left your lips uncontrollably. Vernon just kept moving his thumb in those tight, focused circles, watching you in awe. You finished with a silent sob, holding on to him tightly as the pleasure overwhelmed you.

“Fuck,” Vernon finally whispered with a high pitch, your climax turning him on even more as his head fell into your chest and his hand reached for your waist to hold you in place. He sped up his thrusts sloppily in response, desperate until he followed with his own release shortly after yours, your insides clenching involuntarily one last time as you felt the force of his load, even with the latex barrier.

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The two of you laid on top of each other for a few minutes, catching your breath until Vernon slowly lifted himself up. He did so reluctantly, leaving a quick kiss on your cheek that made you want to pull him back towards you as he eased himself out of your bed.

“Where’s your bathroom?” Vernon asked quietly, as if to not disturb you. “Just wanna clean up real quick.” 

You mustered just enough energy to point him to an adjacent door, and he walked off, quickly disposing of the condom and using the bathroom before he came back with some tissues, offering them to you.

“Did you need…?”

“Yeah, thanks,” you said, grabbing them and gently patting yourself off. You got up then to make your own trip to the bathroom, grabbing a t-shirt and a fresh pair of underwear from your drawer before heading off. Once you had changed and felt a little more refreshed, you went back into your bedroom, finding Vernon sitting at the edge of the bed, his boxers and shirt back on but still unbuttoned as he looked back towards you.

“Would you maybe wanna stay the night?” you asked hopefully. You waited with bated breath for his response.

“Yeah,” he said softly. “If that’s ok.” 

If it was any consolation, he looked just as nervous as you had until he heard your offer. Somehow the two of you were both shy again despite your actions just minutes ago.

You crawled back into your bed, body dipping under the sheets as you laid back, reaching out to him as he followed, the two of you curling into each other rather easily. You placed your head on his chest and his arm came up to rub against your back soothingly.

As you two laid in the quiet darkness of your room a million thoughts flew through your mind. Somehow you had gone from trying to shut this thing down with Vernon to fucking him in your apartment. And it had been good. Really good. And now you had to figure out what exactly this all meant. You weren’t sure how you were gonna keep this a secret now. It didn’t even feel right to keep it secret.

“Was it ok?” Vernon’s question punctured your line of thought.

Shit, he probably thought he’d done something wrong with how quiet you were being.

“Better than ok. It was amazing,” you praised, giving him a lengthy kiss on the lips before rubbing your hand across his chest as he bashfully looked away from you. “Was it good for you?” you asked worriedly.

“Of course,” Vernon laughed softly, as if it was obvious. You were relieved he didn’t seem to be upset.

“I’m sorry, I’m just a little lost in thought,” you let out a sigh.

“I won’t say anything. If you don’t want Mingyu to know,” Vernon offered after a few beats.

“It’s not that I don’t want him to ever know…just…maybe we can explore this on our own first and wait to share it until after Battle of the Bands. That competition means so much to him - to all of you - and I don’t want to distract from that.”

“Ok,” Vernon agreed softly, holding on tighter to you.

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You woke up on your own the next morning, the foreign feeling of another warm body wrapped around yours coaxing your eyes open as bright light came in from your windows. You stretched your body out a little, Vernon’s arm still hanging loosely around you as you let out a soft yawn. You leaned over to your nightstand just to take a peek at your phone. It was already a little past eleven, but you couldn’t really be bothered to care - not when it felt so damn good to have him in your bed.

You finally turned to look at Vernon. He was still asleep, head tossed sideways into one of your pillows, hair turned every which way. He looked so incredibly peaceful - more so than you’d ever seen him while he was awake, eyes usually filled with an inner turmoil. You selfishly wished this moment could last forever - that you could have him like this in your bed everyday, that you could be the one to bring out this side of him all the time.

You quietly inched your way out of the bed, careful not to disturb him as you gently lifted his arm from around you. You left your bedroom, picking up articles of discarded clothing from the floor as you went. As you lifted up Vernon’s jacket in the living area and began straightening it out you stopped suddenly, feeling a thickness in one of the pockets. It was his journal. The same one you’d seen him with in the dressing room, and the same one that had sparked your first tumultuous encounter. You looked at the worn cover for a few seconds before finally putting it back in the pocket, laying his folded jacket with the rest of his things in the bedroom. 

Making your way towards the kitchen, you emptied the two mugs full of lukewarm water that had been long forgotten on your kitchen counter from last night before heating up some new liquid, deciding to make some tea to warm yourself up.

When you came back to your bedroom, a warm mug in each hand, you were a bit startled to see Vernon look up at you, his back straight against the headboard as he sat up in your bed. He held the notebook in his hands, having seemingly recovered it from his things.

“Vernon. Hey,” you said softly, doing your best to not look down at his hands as you made your way to your nightstand, setting one of the mugs down before you turned to him.

“I thought maybe you’d like something to drink? I made some tea.” You settled into your bed sheets again, offering him the mug.

“Thanks,” Vernon said simply, his voice still rough from sleeping. He took a light sip to test the temperature before setting the cup on the table by his side.

You weren’t sure what else to say then. Should I mention the book? Probably not, right?  You thought to yourself.

“Do you have a pen or a pencil I could borrow?”

You looked at Vernon with wide eyes as if he was speaking to you in a foreign language.

“Oh, uh - yeah, sure. Lemme just -��� you scrambled to find one in your nightstand drawer, handing it over to him gently.

You sat there awkwardly for a moment as Vernon ran a hand through his hair before scratching at his face a little, seemingly lost in thought. He then opened the book to a specific page and promptly began jotting something down.

Assuming he’d want some privacy, you got back up abruptly.

“I’ll just go take a shower and -”

“What about your tea?” Vernon asked with a little confused pout on his face.

“Oh. Right.” You still continued making your way to the bathroom door on his side of the bed while you thought of some excuse. “I’ll just let it cool off some while I -”

But Vernon touched your wrist lightly, stopping you from leaving.

“You can stay…I want you to stay.”

Your heart swelled at his words, and all you could let out was a soft, “Ok”.

He scooted over, leaving just enough space as he motioned for you to sit on his side of the bed. He pulled the covers back over the two of you, his left hand wrapping around you snuggly to pull you closer while his notebook was propped on his other leg. Vernon wordlessly continued to scribble notes with his free hand while you tucked your head into his chest, trying to give him some semblance of privacy as you breathed him in deeply and gently closed your eyes in a sweet reverie. You could have fallen asleep again just like this, feeling his chest rise and fall with each breath, his heartbeat pressed against your cheek. Once again you let yourself imagine how this could be the two of you all the time, and the tiniest of smiles crept upon your face.

“Can I show you something?” Vernon said in an almost whisper, his chest rumbling against your body as he spoke.

“Of course,” you responded easily, eyes opening once again. “What is it?”

He wordlessly brought the notebook closer to you, holding open the page he was working on for you to view.

“I write ideas for songs in here,” he explained. “Lyrics, quotes, whatever comes to mind. Do any of these stand out to you?”

You looked up at him, asking with your eyes if he was sure, and after he gave you a nod, you took a long awaited look into the pages of his journal.

Scrawled all over the sheets inside were strings of words, tied together to form all kinds of short phrases. You thought each of them was fascinating, but at the same time you were unable to truly interpret any of them. It was like you were staring at an encrypted file, but didn’t have the key to actually understand what it all meant to him.

Though there was one line in particular that caught your attention.

“‘Innocent eyes with a smile so bright’ - I like that. Who’s it about?” you tried asking, looking up at him curiously, but you became a bit mesmerized, seeing his eyes so up close in the light. You could even point out flecks of hazel in his irises, the sunshine giving them the color of warm honey. Vernon only smiled softly at you in response, leaving a short kiss to your temple.

“No one yet,” he responded cryptically.

You shrugged, just happy to be getting a glimpse into a piece of his world - a piece of his heart.

“Tell me about the song from last night then,” you asked, fingers tracing shapes on his chest. “What was that one about?” You couldn’t help but think back to how you’d found him in that dressing room, clearly upset.

You could practically feel the tension in Vernon’s body against your own then, and he took a deep breath, pausing as his hold on you tightened a bit.

“You don’t have to talk about it if you don’t want to,” you followed up.

“No, it’s ok…I had this friend. We grew up together, basically like brothers,” he started. “He was actually the one who encouraged me to pursue music - used to always tell me I was gonna make it big,” Vernon chuckled softly before continuing with another deep breath.

As you watched his demeanor change your mind went back to the night he’d given you a ride from the bar:

~

“So how long have you been riding anyways?”

“For years. The extra helmet I gave you was actually a gift…” Vernon trailed off, looking at some point in the distance.

“From a friend?”

“I don’t have any friends. It’s from someone who isn’t here anymore.”

~

Back in the present, you braced yourself for what you were about to hear.

“We had finally finished school and he was driving back late from this graduation party when he got into an accident and he…he died…” Vernon struggled to finish the words, looking down, and all you could do in that moment was hold on even tighter to him, a pained expression on your face.

“Vernon, I’m so sorry.” 

He only nodded silently in response, looking away from you for a moment.

“The song Visions was for him. I wrote it to remember him but I’d never actually performed it before until last night.”

You watched as his thumb ran over a corner of the open page of the book.

“It was the first thing I wrote in here, when nothing else would help, and ever since then I haven’t stopped. Every thought, every feeling…every song idea I’ve ever had is in this book.”

He stopped for a moment, and you just let the silence in, trying to hold space for what he was sharing with you.

“My family never approved of me pursuing music, you know?” Vernon said regretfully after a few beats. “So it’s really just me on my own. Me and this book. Has been ever since the accident.”

“Well you’re not alone anymore,” you said gently. “You’ve got the band. And me. I’m not going anywhere, promise.”

“I’m sorry, again. About the night we met,” Vernon apologized, rubbing up and down your side with the hand that was holding you against him.

“I didn’t know how much this book meant to you then.”

“That still doesn’t make it right - there’s no way you could have known all that. And I’m still sorry.”

You kissed his chest lightly before closing your eyes and tucking your head back into his body in silence, holding him close as the two of you eventually fell back to sleep in each others arms.

When you woke up again an hour later it was to the sound of an alert on your phone:

Mingyu: Car’s fixed! =D

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[winxanity-ii]

I’m sorry I just gotta ask are we ever getting a part 2 to Washed Up that Odysseus x calypso reader fic 😞 🤚🏾

tbh, i'm not sure if part 2 of Washed Up will ever happen. i had the ending planned out, but the way i wrote it leaves a lot open to interpretation, and i think some people might take it the wrong way or just not vibe with it—especially since it’s a calypso!reader story.

to break it down, my original plan was to include smut between calypso and odysseus, but not for fluff or romantic reasons. it was meant to deepen the tension between them and hit even harder when it's revealed that odysseus was ultimately just using calypso to survive and find a way off the island. the moment you (calypso) discover he can't stay, he'd harshly lay it all out—his truth, his intentions, and his inability to be what you need because he already belongs somewhere else. it was supposed to be messy, raw, and angsty—exactly the kind of tone i wanted to capture.

but here's where i hit a wall: i know odysseus and calypso's dynamic in the original myth is a tricky subject, with the whole “forced captivity” aspect. i intentionally avoided writing it that way and tried to show calypso!reader as more resigned to her fate than actively trapping him. but honestly? a lot of people kept telling me my idea (smut) wouldn't work because of this and that i shouldn't include it. the feedback felt more like people telling me “no” outright instead of understanding why i wanted to write it the way i did. it made me second-guess everything i had planned, and i struggled to figure out how to rewrite it without feeling like i was just changing everything to please others instead of sticking to my own vision.

i always try to write for myself first, but this time, i got too caught up in how people might react. it drained my motivation to finish the story because i felt like i couldn't stay true to what i wanted without upsetting someone or having it misinterpreted. ultimately, i lost motivation to finish it, especially with how some people might not like the direction i had planned. i guess i felt like it wasn't worth pushing through if it wouldn't land the way i wanted. maybe one day i'll come back to it, but right now, it's unlikely.

so, TL;DR: the ending was going to reveal that odysseus was using calypso!reader to escape, with smut being a key element to heighten the tension and angst. but the feedback telling me not to do it made me lose the drive to finish, and i just haven’t been able to come back to it. maybe one day, but probably not right now. 😞

[baldurs-writers-3]

Horror: A Baldur's Gate 3 Fanfiction Rec List

This week, we have Horror! Check under the cut for seven fics that explore some of the darker and more frightening elements of Faerun, and as always, comment and kudos if you like them!

Hand, Hearth, and Home by ElleKhen (393,131, Explicit) Content Notes: Graphic Depictions of Violence, Body Horror Pairings: Astarion/Male Tav

This fic covers the backstory and in-game story of a warlock who was raised by a shadow-fey-possessed church. After being infected by the mind flayer tadpole, he meets a dream guardian who appears to him as a childhood friend and first love who he thought dead. As his party goes on with their quest, he is also forced to face the consequences of his shadow-cursed existence, and what that means for the people he loves.

Reccer says: I love that this fic is full of visceral, angsty smut and exciting action. But the author always follows up the hurt with comfort. They especially approach the Astarion romance with so much care, and do a great job of writing his voice. Due to the nature of Church’s magic, there are body horror elements especially when the story covers the events of Act 2. This fic expands upon the Shadowlands, Shadowfell, the Raven Queen, and shadow magic as a whole to depict terrifying sequences Church must face with his companions (and lover) beside him. I learned a lot about that particular D&D lore that way, and it made Act 2 feel a lot bigger and scarier than it originally felt.

A Dream of Silence by AbigailMoment (2,683, Mature) Content Notes: possible main char death Pairings: astarion/tav

An interactive story, where you have to save Astarion from a horrible nightmare of worst thing that Cazador ever did to him

Reccer says: Very well written with tons of replayability. Also you get to pet his hair

What Could Have Been by Bella1433! (119,228, Explicit) Content Notes: Dark themes, there are archive warnings Pairings: Tav (named) X Astarion

The maze scene, the race through the city. Astarion is a terrifying vampire lord in this fic!

Reccer says: Vampire lord acting like a vampire lord and being terrifying! Using his powers

The Tyrant, the Assassin, and the Corpse by aqeldroma (3,241, Explicit) Content Notes: Graphic Depictions Of Violence, Rape/Non-Con, Murder Pairings: The Dark Urge/Enver Gortash

After the Hall of Wonders, the Dark Urge visits Gortash to test him in another way. When she finds someone already in his bed, the night turns predictably violent.

Reccer says: Pre-canon Dark Urge and Gortash pairing, set back when they are testing each other's limits. The horrific things happen to everyone in their orbit, naturally.

Hunger is Satisfaction by CountTavula (25,904, Explicit) Content Notes: Very dark content Pairings: Tav X Astarion

The psychological horror in this is extremely high and surprisingly so.

Reccer says: Its a thriller, psychological horror, not even a dark fantasy most times, just...dread

The Vanishing of Astarion Ancunín: The beginning by Gally (3,526, Mature) Content Notes: None Pairings: None

A glimpse at his last few days of life and the first terrifying minutes of his new unlife.

Reccer says: He wasn't an evil man, he wasn't a great man... he was just a man.

Bathed in Sound by Nikolai_237 (1,005, General) Content Notes: None Pairings: Karlach/Tav

In the Feyweird, not all is dangerous but most is unsettling. For instance, sometimes you find your partner just sitting in the middle of a bunch of floating whale skeletons.

Reccer says: This is my first concept fic for the Feyweird, my psychological horror playground, and for some reason people seem to like it. I enjoy writing creepy stuff and I love weaving horror into my work.

The above fanfic recommendations were pulled from our community for this weekly event. Have any questions about what this is? Check out the FAQ!

Next week, we’ll be returning with a character rec list, this time for Lae’zel! 

[90stvqueen]

I was tagged by @tunemyart in 20 Questions for Fic Writers like a week ago and I just now saw it so THANK YOU FRIEND

How many works do you have on AO3?

27

2. What's your total AO3 word count?

235,642

3. What fandoms do you write for?

Xena: Warrior Princess (14 works)

Abbott Elementary (10 works)

The X-Files (2 works)

Stranger Things (1 work, is an outlier adn should not be counted bc I wrote it to meditate on internalized homophobia and not bc I ship it)

4. What are your top five fics by kudos?

say it again (Stranger Things LOL)

remind me tomorrow (Xena)

succ (Xena)

Fritole (Abbott)

No Matter What (Xena)

5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

I try to! It depends on how swamped I am with life stuff, but I like responding to comments because for me, writing is about starting a conversation and building community and connecting.

6. What's the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

Depends on how you define angst but probably the fic with the angstiest throughline (like, it starts angsty, stays angsty, ends angsty) is glory glory glory to the night that shows me what i am (Abbott Elementary). But I think the best angst I've written is probably After (also Abbott) because it's a smutty slow-motion trainwreck.

7. What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

take these years of mine (Abbott) is probably the happiest thing I've ever written, period. remind me tomorrow has the happiest ending (and is the most lighthearted) of all my Xena fic.

8. Do you get hate on fics?

No, but sometimes I get demands for more or for specific plotlines. I worry that if (and WHEN) I don't follow those requested/expected plotlines, there might be some pushback.

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

Almost exclusively. Although I've been branching out a little more. But yeah. Mostly F/F, some F/F/M and F/F/F, also a decent amount of gender fuckery in various configurations. I would say my smut leans more vanilla, but I've written some kink, and there are definitely elements of kink in some of the vanilla stuff, too.

10. Do you write crossovers? What's the craziest one you've written?

I do not write crossovers. Maybe someday. But probably not, unless it's purely for the lols

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

God I hope not! Not that I'm aware of!!

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

Somebody asked me if they could translate my fic once, but I don't remember what the fic was, and I don't think it ever actually happened. Would love that, though!!

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

Lots and lots. My first big foray into cowriting was with @angelsarenamederika, with whom I wrote a massive amount of trans!Mulder X-Files fic that we never posted anywhere but was an absolute blast to work on. I'm also working on a 5+1 piece for the Work Wives (Abbott) fandom with @the-frankenman-writes, @this-barbie, @katiehoughton, @wolf-government, and @vanillabeanwrites. OH AND! @deirdresart adapted Eromenas into a comic and it's AMAZING.

14. What's your all-time favorite ship?

Xena/Gabrielle

15. What's the WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

I refuse to answer this question. I WILL FINISH ALL MY WIPS SO HELP ME GOD

16. What are your writing strengths?

Dialogue and interpersonal dynamics and internal reflection (or, in unreliable narrators, lack thereof)

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

Stealing @tunemyart's response word for word here: Action, movement, and description of setting. I'm really trying to get better about grounding the characters in the world around them instead of some nebulous room. Also writing action without getting bogged down in unnecessary details. It's hard!

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic?

Maybe if you know the language and it serves the story or the way the story is being told. Never say never, but it's not something I usually do, because I don't ever really have a reason for it.

19. First fandom you wrote for?

Harry Potter lol

20. Favorite fic you've ever written?

Right now, it's After. I worked so hard on it and I learned a lot writing it and I found a community (partially) because of it! I think it's just a really satisfying, angsty/bittersweet read, start to finish. Honorable mention to Eromenas (again plugging the comic here) and five times it was quiet and once it was loud.

This was fun! I'm tagging the people I've already tagged in this (my dear friends and collaborators) and anyone else who might want to do this <3

[illicien]

20 Questions for Fic Writers

Tagged by @hiddenxplaces-blog

1. How many works do you have on ao3?

52

2. What's your total ao3 word count?

1,098,853

3. What fandoms do you write for?

Marvel. Specifically TFATWS at the moment.

4. Top five fics by kudos:

Time-Lost (IronStrange) Fathomless (IronStrange) Scribbles On Our Souls (DrPepperony) Heart of Gold (IronStrangeFrost) Persistence (IronStrange)

5. Do you respond to comments?

Almost every time. Sometimes I get a bit caught up or delayed, but typically I respond to comments pretty regularly. I love chatting with readers!

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

I don't think I've actively posted the fic with the truly angsty ending, yet, so I think the closest is probably a bittersweet ending with Still Here. (IronStrange / Stephen & Peter)

7. What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

Well this one took a sec. Keeper (IronStrange), probably?

8. Do you get hate on fics?

Oh not typically to my face, no.

9. Do you write smut?

Yep.

10. Craziest crossover:

I don't really do crossovers, so really the only crossover I can think of plainly is the DRoP/IronStrange fic we did, Heart of Gold.

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Not that I've seen so far.

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

Yes! A fair few of them. 💓

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

Yep. A few!

14. All time favorite ship?

"All-time"? Time hasn't ended, I could hardly say. 😏

15. What's a wip you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

At this point? Embraced. And I'm so sorry to everyone who was waiting for more.

16. What are your writing strengths?

Wait you want me to say nice things about myself? Goddamnit. I used to think dialogue was a weakness of mine, but I think I've improved a lot over the last couple of years since writing scripts necessitated writing solid dialogue, so I'm pretty confident in that, now. I'm also fairly strong where creating lore and histories are concerned; you want me to explain the magic in a universe? I've got you. You want to know the history of a region? I've got that down, too. World-building in general is my bread and butter.

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

Does "actually finishing a story" count? The reality is, I lose motivation really easily. I function best when I have someone to consistently bat ideas and things back and forth with, otherwise I get severely in my head about things to the detriment of whatever I'm writing. I also rely more heavily on degree modifiers than I should, and while I'm aware of it I still suck at minimizing it.

18. Thoughts on dialogue in another language?

I find it highly dependent on whose PoV the story is in. If the PoV character doesn't speak the language, I love being just as confused as them by not knowing the language. If the PoV character does speak the language I can be a little more picky about it, unless it's simply a singular word of endearment or something, because those can be difficult to translate even if you know both of the languages. But I have a love of and fascination with languages.

19. First fandom you wrote in?

Uh.... Yu-Gi-Oh!, I think?

20. Favorite fic you've written?

What an excellent question. I'm actually really proud of (Loss Of) Control (WinterBaron). I set out with some really specific goals for what I wanted to accomplish with it, and I mostly succeeded. There's definitely a section that's weaker than the others, but I pushed myself outside of my comfort zone and made an effort to tackle a trope I'd never written in fic, and to tackle an element of that trope that I felt like I wanted to see handled more in depth. And I'm proud of the result.

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[bananasomg]

fic writer interview

tagged by @randomwordsonpaper 🫶🏼 tysm! :)

How many works do you have on AO3?

11 works on AO3 currently.

What's your total AO3 word count?

51,277. my fics are short and sweet (FOR NOW... 😉)

What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

tell her it's over

not very subtle

the boy is mine

bedroom angel

this can't last forever

these one-shots are all from my series Scenes from 2024, which follows the current F1 season. i've really enjoyed taking inspo from the current race happenings and giving some IRL interactions a lestappen™️ spin. 😏 thank you everyone for the love you've showed.

Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

absolutely always respond! i'm honored when fellow writers and readers in the fandom leave a comment, and i really appreciate everyone who's taken the time to share their feelings about lestappen. 💕

What's the fic you've written with the angstiest ending?

currently no fics i've published have an angsty ending; however, the most angsty fic in general is a brief respite, in which Charles is struggling in Japan.

What's the fic you've written with the happiest ending?

all my fics have fairly happy endings, but maybe after hours, which is a cute, fluffy slice of life after Imola in which Charles surprises Max by taking him on a mini vacation and Max realizes Charles may be the one for him. 😊

Do you write crossovers?

no, i do not, but i applaud any authors that do! it takes so much time and energy to balance multiple fandoms and niche elements of each, so it's amazing to see work being created through crossovers!

Have you ever received hate on a fic?

nah. my advice? if you dislike a work, just DNF and move on. no need to spread unprompted hate in strangers' inboxes. 💜

Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

i... uh. 🙈 why yes. yes, i do. my ao3 is all M/M, but i have written M/F for some other fandoms. it's fairly vanilla and not very kinky... FOR NOW. 😏 *cough Luminous Fall*

Have you ever had a fic stolen?

i don't think so, and for anyone that HAS stolen someone else's work and claimed it as your own, disrespectfully fuck you. leave other peoples' intellectual property alone TY.

Have you ever had a fic translated?

no, but when i first started scenes, someone did ask if they could translate it!

Have you ever co-written a fic before?

welllllllllllLLLLLLLLLLLL actually i'm working on a co-authored fic rn with @mvlionheart. Pornstar!Max AU. 🔥 it's a slower WIP, but it's our baby, and we wanna take our time to make it right. i'm very VERY excited about it. posting schedule TBD. ✨

What's your all-time favourite ship?

LOL. dramione. plz don't analyze me. 🤐

What's a WIP that you want to finish but don't think you ever will?

the main one i'm thinking of right now is a dark!AU ft. lestappen which entails a seedy contractual obligation which gives certain FIA-approved individuals free-use of drivers who finish P20. i'm fucked up, ok? 🫡 so yeah. that may not see the light of day, but... never say never.

What are your writing strengths?

i guess... dialogue and characterization...? maybe?

What are your writing weaknesses?

external conflict and conflict-resolution for sure. i feel like i'm good at the feeling part of things, the internal turmoil, but making things happen TO and AROUND characters that affect the story is one thing i've always been consistently called out to do more of.

What are your thoughts on writing dialogue in other languages in a fic?

if you like it, do it. and HOT TAKE 🔥: it's ok if i don't know what they're saying. i get there maybe be issues with grammar, tense, word choice, etc. that's not why i read fic. because the point isn't that i need to know the exact translation. the point is that i need to believe that character when they switch to their native tongue. i need to feel that they're so fucked out, in love, overwhelmed, embarrassed, scared, excited, sad, WHAT HAVE YOU... that the only thing they can possibly say is something in their own language. so yeah i said what i said. 🎤

What was the first fandom you wrote for?

tokio hotel. iykyk.

What's a fandom/ship you haven't written for yet but want to?

maybe heartstopper. :) but i don't usually write underage characters.

What's your favourite fic you've written?

possibly this bottom!max fic: it's alright, babe. so much lestappen features top!max, and i wanted to give bottom!max some love. 💕

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