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đ˝ Random X-Files Fic Rec
There is a very captivating story about what could have happened had Mulder, Scully, and William all stayed separated. Except of course none of them can stay separated, not really. This story is captivating but also at times very tense and upsetting because itâs written so well with such humor and such care to every detail and character. Itâs always worth a read (or re-read). Title: Dr. Scully's School for Exceptional Boys Author: Prufrock's Love Summary: More than a decade had passed. Mulder had no reason to hole up in his apartment alone, wearing a Three Dog Night T-shirt with dried mustard on the hem and blue jeans that had seen better days. He wasn't "saving himself" for anyone. Especially not Her. Though she remained epically, beautifully, brilliantly kick-A-S-S. Length: 71,467 words Classification: Novel, MSR, Other Rating: R Spoilers: Veers AU after season 7, with a few bits from 8 & 9. Favorite line: As if I'd pick only one. Read the story!
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#fernando alonso#autumn posts#quick gifs between work times bc I want to yell!!!#AHHHHHH#the awards banquet AND EnchantĂŠ today!!?? omg!!#I cannot wait to catch up!!!#I've had three long work event days in a row so my batteries are in much need of recharging this weekend đŞŤđâ¨#cannot wait to dive in and so excited to see all the posts!!! ahhh hype â¤ď¸â¨#gotta get back to office joys but I hope everyone is well!!!!#Fernando in these gifs is me @ u if ur reading this hehe!#have a nice afternoon evening and dawn đď¸đđđ
đđď¸â¨#ahh those square landscape emojis are my favorites đ
â¤ď¸â¨#brb!!!
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anyway i need to hang out with my brother again he is the one person who i am pretty sure knows literally everything about me so he's the only person i trust that i can absolutely not disappoint. nothing i can do could be worse than the sum of everything i've been doing to that poor man (and him to me) the past 19 years
#especially now that im back into literally the only interest we actually share on a deep enough level to enjoy it together LOL#i mean we were also both into hannibal but thats just not an enjoyable show to watch together its too much effort#but wow that time we read das boot slash fanfic on the bus together that was awesome#and the time we wrote fanfic together lol LITERALLY WHY DID WE STOP#he has only gotten cooler and more comfortable with his gayness since then we need to write fanfic again âźď¸#anyway i feel sorry for every person in my life but i dont think anyone ill ever know could ever have as close a relationship to me as him#were platonic soulmates lol but like not in the spiritual sense bc its pretty obvious that its not some supernatural bond#its juuuust shared trauma haha and the fact that our trauma is so complex and layered that only we will ever truly understand each other#there has been a really rough patch where we practically did not talk for 4... 5? whole years im serious. maybe on the weekends sometimes#while we were stewing in our own shit. but now were inseperable i think it actually pisses off the rest of our family because every time#theres some event where we meet again (we live like 5 hours apart) we only hang around for like an hour before we get in his car#and drive somewhere and hang out there for the rest of the day and night and only return at like 3am drunk#in a sense i guess were catching up on all the missed time#to be honest we both had some horrible shit going on in our heads me with the transgenderism and toxic relationship#him with his anger issues and (what he calls) psychopathy. like ill say this much he was not a good person as a child he was a devil#he was quite literally what some describe as born evil like u know those satans spawns kids that cut off babys fingers and dissect rabbits#all that yk. and i was his first and most frequent victim due to availability lol and my parents did not know any of it and if they did#they ignored it. so yeah u can imagine the relationship was a little strained and for a long time i lived in fear of him#also due to all the death threats and attempts on my life HAHA its kinda funny because i can say all this all detached now#but i think to anyone else this sounds mad as hell. like im not talking roughhousing or being mad at each other#he was always scarily calm and hyperintelligent he was actually diagnosed with some form of like super high intelligence that#makes kids capable of being really manipulative and thats what he used at every turn. everything was always calculated that was scary#if he was nice to me i would question if he was trying to lure me somewhere to hurt me yk?#anyway. sometimes those old thoughts come back when were hanging out alone but mostly i know hes changed and worked on himself#sorry oversharing oh wow
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listened to thoroughfare at full volume with the windows down on the highway the way god intended
#it was such nice weather today too i think ive decided october is my fav month <33#it goes by so quick and then the seasonal depression slaps me in the face#cant believe ive avoided country music for so loong i need to make a playlist#sighhh i miss playing the sims i miss streaming!! i may be able to squeeze one in on saturday? i think sunday im going to the movies#friday im gonna try nd finish editing the first ep of my lp(!!) which its done i just need some final touches nd record the next part#i want at least two finished videos so i can get a head start but ya also i might unlist all the yt vids i have up now so i can start fresh#anbbd what else idk i miss the mancusos i gotta get back to that i need to make more sims nd stuff mostly and finish ramons dorm#maybe ill do that this weekend ALSO#i think i wanna stream cyberpunk one of these days i want my channel to be more variety not just sims yk aand i made a night city playlist#idk im in a rambling mood i havent yapped in so long all my thoughts are just pingponging around in my empty ass brain#anyways if u read all this *smooches* good nighhhht <3333#ceru.txt#nonsims
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me after three days of in-person meetings and team-building activities.
#i understand her completely#that is the face i made this morning at 7:30 and i got up once again to leave my house before 9 am to be social#i am an empty dried husk.#i am a mango seed when you suck all the pulp and fruit off it#it was really nice to see my coworkers cause i work remotely (which is a true blessing)#and i was very proud of myself cause i didnt feel any anxiety going to a work social event/day like I have in the past#it was actually enjoying to interact with people and be social and FLEX those skills that I donât often get to use#and as much as I like to be a curmudgeon half the time and be like âidgaf about what you did this weekend Karenâ you gotta make conversation#there was even someone cute who I hadnât met before#my grandma and I had a conversation the other day and sheâs like âso are you dating?â and Iâm like âgrandma where will I meet a man?â#and she was like âyouâre right. where would you meet someone nowadays? people usually meet through work#but I work virtually and half the people are married or not cute! but there was a guy in my assigned group who was cute#so I went out of my way to make conversation with him (it was about work and nothing came from that interaction) BUT STILL#itâs a good reminder I *can* have those interactions if I so choose#I was also ovulating though so I think I moving with more hunger shall we say#anyways#i am very very very tired and socially burnt out#i need to go for a long walk. smoke some weed. read fanfic. get off and go to bed. that is my main focus for the rest of the day#thank FUCK itâs friday tomorrow.
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not to sound like a broken record but i love my friends so fucking much
#this week has been a rollercoaster of emotions for me but seeing my friends has been a life saver#genuinely my friends are so incredible#yesterday i went down to the river with two of them#the first two of us who got there read for a bit and then got in the water and did some really stupid splashing around#and it felt so free and it was so nice to laugh and act like an idiot and not just not feel self-conscious#but actually feel appreciated#(at one point they said âdude you look so gay right nowâ and thatâs the BEST compliment)#and then we spent like twenty minutes just throwing rocks#not skipping rocks#literally just finding big rocks and seeing how far we could throw them and enjoying the PLUNK they made#then we found a spot where the current was really strong to sit against and acted like idiots a bit more#and then our other friend got there and we all talked for a long time and read a bit more#and then today my other friend came over to body double for me while I start packing to move#and we found old books from when i was little and the things iâd written in them and had some good laughs#and then watched Babylon 5 (the episode itself was. kinda a downer and thatâs an understatement. but itâs still Babylon 5)#tomorrow iâll go see Papa again if he makes it through tonight. i think he will.#and then on the weekend iâll see my other friend! and thatâs always fun. plus iâve been very physical affection driven lately#and theyâre good for that. AND they have a cat AND a dog so like. ideal all around.#anyway my friends are my family and iâm totally not crying rn bc iâm so lucky to have them#personal
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last day of work tonight
#a little over halfway through my shift#i read my book and drank my tea during my break so that was nice :â)#getting kinda nervous but i really am excited to have some time off#i just rlly hope it doesnât take too long to find a new job ..#iâm just gonna take it easy this weekend and start getting some work done next week#exciting!! but also scary !!!!#ahhhaahHhh#snow.txt
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with another year gone, i'm still pleasantly surprised when i think about how long i've stuck with this blog. i don't think i've ever remained active like this save for when i first began rping and everything was so laid back and easy. i know i've said it before, but it's really thanks to the mutuals i've been lucky enough to find! it might not hit every day, but i feel inspired when i think about my characters here, the dynamics i have with you guys, and the threads and asks waiting to be written together. it's so easy to lose inspiration when you feel like you're talking to an empty room, when you feel like there isn't anyone interested in your creations, but that's not how i feel here. you all make me feel like what i write is worth reading, even when it's something silly and unimportant, and i cannot tell you all how much that means to me <3
that being said, i hope to be a better mutual and friend to all of you this coming year! i hope to laugh and cry and yell over our dorks together, and i hope to make you want to pummel me bc yeah, i did just write something angsty you didn't ask for! i hope 2023 treats all of us well, and if it doesn't, that we'll still be able to handle it together! is that cheesy? i don't care bc i'm saying all of this to express that you silly little writers with your headcanons and lore make me happy and thus!! i will never stop showering y'all with my love u3u
#the i took way too long to type this out asdf#and i still wonder if it comes across properly that y'all really are the best in my eyes#like i've never felt so comfortable and relaxed writing on tumblr -- at least not since chiyo's first blog#and i'd say it's better now bc i don't feel obligated to come online if i'm not feeling it#my job leaves me exhausted? well i'll have time on the weekend#oh i'm tired or busy on the weekend? i'll still be able to find time later don't sweat it#like the people who i keep around me /want/ to be here and i feel confident in that and in what i create and that's a very nice feeling#and i wouldn't have those feelings if i hadn't found such kind and understanding mutuals who will take the time to read my silly headcanons#okay alright i'll stop being mushy.... for now ; )#but know i'm mentally smooching the lot of you <3#get ready to ramble | ooc
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the best part of getting to party with ppl my age was how well people knew their boundaries. the balance of being able to get absolutely zooted until the late hours while also all of us waking up before 8am to make breakfast and clean was genuinely comical
i woke up just before 8am thinking i'd be one of the first to rise but i was the 3rd to last
#[static]#everyone had already cleaned and they were starting to make the group breakfast#ive not been to a party since ... gods 2016?? and we were all a little too eager to over do it back in the day#it was genuinely sweet in its own strange way#then cut to 9am when we went back to party mode#someone brought liquid iv and everyone was making sure we all had lots of snacks and water and sharing the different goods we brought#it was just sweet! a nice weekend to let loose but as my friend said#we are all the 'mom friend' so it was a really safe environment and a bunch of fun#i have never been so stoned in my life for so long but it made me feel more relaxed than I've felt in years tbh#not a worry on my mind and just enjoying the trees and the lake and reading my book and helping my companions who were playing in the water#i dont really like talking about Partaking in drugs in general for several reasons (mainly it makes me cringe @ me)#but i cannot emphasize how i had Zero Worry or Anxiety in my body for the first time in gods know how long#im home now and just ... ready to do things and my brain feels normal for once#no overwhelming chatter about things im anxious about or coming up with things to be anxious about#i will be grateful for the brain-quiet for as long as it lasts
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đ˝ Random X-Files Fic Rec
Right when Mulder and Scully are just about to give in to ripping off each other's clothes, Scully is sent on a dangerous undercover assignment that prevents them from having any contact with one another. Do you think that bit of danger and distance will stop them? Of course not, and it is very good to read. Title: Under Covers Author: Skinfull Summary: Mulder and Scully seem to be on the cusp of a change in their relationship when one of them is assigned undercover. Length: 50,633 words Classification: Slow Burn, Eventual Smut, Undercover, Hurt/Comfort, Angst Rating: Explicit Spoilers: None listed (but it's set in season 5) Favorite line: Couldn't choose just one! Read the story!
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happy sunday friends!! °Ę(*´ęł`*)É° i hope everyone is havin a great weekend!! today my bff & i might walk around and go to some local shops!!!! (âżÂ´ ęł ` ) i hope you guys are doin smth fun & relaxing today!!! love love love you all sm!! mwah!! <3
#its been crazy beautiful out here so iâve been tryin to be outside as much as possible this wknd!! <3#& yesterday i went to a yard sale & snagged the CUTEST pair of wrangler jeans!!! ૮â¸â¸> ĚŤ <â¸â¸ á#i also have tomorrow off so i get an extra long weekend!!!!#probably gonna relax tomorrow & maybe go to a park & read if it stays so nice out!! <33#áąâ
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having a mental breakdown over the painters accidentally covering up the holes in the wall I used to hang my plant holders from cause i no longer have access to my father's drill âđť
#going through a totally normal one on this long weekend between the painters pointing out issues that need money i don't have and covering#up some random holes#i listened to all the self help books i read this month and called my friend and he was like you can borrow my drill before i even asked#and my neighbor offered to teach me how to use one when i pointed out she has lots of cool tools and i wanted to learn how to use a drill#plus the painter said he'd do the waterproofing job now so the new paint doesn't get ruined and i can pay him in a couple of weeks when i#get paid#people are good and kind and they want to help#I'm just struggling with all the stuff i used to be able to ask my parents for help with#mainly money and stuff that needs doing around the house#which is sad in a lot of ways too#but it'd be nice if life could stop happening so much when i barely have enough money left for groceries#alex txt
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You could tie your hair in low bunches on the sides and then maybe braid the low bunches if you feel like it? That way sleeping on your back they're not uncomfortable and the hair isn't pulled!
Oh, that's actually a pretty good idea! If the braids don't work, I could probably try loosely twisting the bunches as well. Tonight, I'm going to be seeing the dog who likes to hop on my hair while I sleep, so this is perfect timing for me to test it out!
Thank you, anon!
#there are such good people in this world#its also nice to see people actually read my tags sometimes. im never sure lol#it took a surprisingly long time to find a thank you gif from the search but it was worth it because i found a cute dog gif#ive seen options for doing hair on the sides before that i never liked because they were always too high up#doing them lower would probably help a lot. and its an easy hair style to do#it works much better with my weird hair length as well since gravity will be more on my side this way than with a bun#you are a wonderful person anon! you spread goodness and light in every ask you send#thank you for taking the time out of your day to help me solve my silly problems#you are super appreciated! i cant send emojis on desktop but here are the best hearts i can offer <3 <3 <3 <3 <3#there is a way to send emojis on desktop but i think i disabled it because my cat kept using it lol#i hope you have a fantastic weekend and lots of rest (that is free from hair pulling lol) and sweet dreams#funny enough i was actually googling sleep hairstyles for a bit before you messaged me#and your recommendation is much better than anything i found on youtube#you are an angel and a life saver#neo answers#ask neo#angel in my askbox#beautiful anon#hair care#sleep hairstyles#hairstyle recommendation#gif warning
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WIP Game
Tagged into the accountability relay race by @theaggresivepacifist â thanks a mil! Also please know that I am making the biggest bug eyes at your previewsÂ
Rules: In a new post, show the last line snippet(s) you wrote and tag as many people as there are words as you want geez Iâd never be able to tag that many people
Well, I havenât written anything consistent in a while, and the most recent thing is still secret unfortunately, BUT I do have a couple things to share that will hopefully at some point make it out into the world beyond my drafts:
Snippet #1 a.k.a. You Want To Watch Nobody Knows, You Want To Watch Nobody Knows Soooooo Bad
Each knock on the door made her heart spasm against her sternum, faster and faster until the nauseating tide of dread in her chest threatened to choke her.
There was an officer outside her door. She was sure of it. Things had been too good for her lately, so it was only a matter of time before the universe had to course-correct. So-yeon only ever brought misfortune upon the people she loved, after all.
She stumbled toward the door in a daze.
This was it. This was the end. This officer was going to tell her â they were going to tell her â
She opened the door.
Snippet #2 a.k.a. The Jung Sibling Cinematic Universe ft. Han Sooyoungâs Confessional Booth
âSorry,â she says, after nothing happens for another minute, âwhere did I leave off?âÂ
âYou were walking from Chungmuro and chatting about things.â Thereâs an odd catch in Sooyoungâs voice when she mentions the station, but Heewon doesnât dwell on it. Sheâs too busy staring at the boy in the bed, who would be staring right back at her if only he would open his eyes.Â
âSiblings,â she says quietly, staring at Kim Dokjaâs sleeping face. âWe were talking about siblings.â
Snippet #3 a.k.a. YOU WANT TO READ ORV, YOU WANT TO READ ORV SOOOOOO BAD
In the back of his mind, a conversation heâd had with her years ago plays in a loop, about rereading and finding something new. That the story you read the first time isnât the only story there is. He looks at his mother now, at her hand holding his arm, feels the uneven tremble of her fingers as they try to decide between holding on and letting go, and notices, for the first time, that the thought at the front of his mind isnât all the ways she had hurt him.Â
It dawns on him slowly, then all at once.Â
Maybe thatâs what this feeling is. He wonders if itâs been there since before heâd woken up.Â
âEomma,â he says, the rusty syllables clunky on his tongue, âwhy donât you come back inside?âÂ
Itâs been so long since Iâve gotten to look at my dashboard or even be online consistently on any platform, so I donât know who is still actively writing right now, THEREFORE I apologise and please feel free to just consider this a friendly no-pressure hello. Of course, if you are working on something you are allowed to share, I would love to see it! @imperiousphasmidâ, @fremulonâ, @darkpurpledawnâ, @diminished-fish, @internetkatze, @directorofthefalselastactâ, @demonlikejudgeoffire
And if I didnât tag you but you want to join in on the sharing please do! Tag me so I can see it! Wait for no one! 2023 is the year of grabbing your desires by the horns and making them happen without waiting for permission!!
#unless that desire is wanting to sleep through an entire week of work maybe do not do that#as far as our pact: please consider this as an advance receipt for the promise of completing reviewing at least Some Questions this weekend#by the time Monday rolls around I will have earned this post's right to exist#anyways this is just a front for my greed at wanting to read everyone's things#I DON'T CARE IF I DON'T KNOW THE FANDOM I WANT TO SEEEEEE#and no I do not know if or when any of these will be finished lol#sure would be nice! sure would love to finish something some day#tag thingy#tag game#aww look I thought I could write#asa you have my permission to read this because it contains virtually no significant information about either of these media#BUT WE WILL COMPLETE THEM SOME DAY#also hiiii cherry and claudine and jess and quandt long time no talk!! I hope you are well :D#sona and opal I know I barely know you guys but I love reading your orv thoughts so if you have any unclassified things to share#please feel free to do so#also feel free to not do so sdhfkskfss I meant it when I said this was a no-pressure thing#ANYWAYS that ended up taking my entire morning off and I still have to pack a bag and take a shower and do some notes#oh and also eat#whoops#man why can't I have the whole day off :(#it's such a nice day outside perfect for spending at home
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I am falling apart
#i am actually#i probably shouldnt have gone on holidat#and come home sick that also#i am uniquely built for this life to be hell specifically to me#and im not even kidding#i really thought things were gonna get better#and i was#i dont think people understand that and why should they theyd have to care enough to want to#i know i need to get it together and do work im not sick enough anymore not to#im just so extremely depressed and anxious about all of it absolutely all of it#im just reading to get away from it#rereading#i wish i could fall apart#i wish i could say to work no im sick i cant i need a week off or im going to die#and i wish i could say no i cant do taxes#and i could say: no im not going to do this enormously emotionally taxing hobby#this weekend just before an enormously emotionally taxing work thing that i am screwing up today#this week#and things not getting even worse#at the beginning i thought i just had to get through my long list and i dont know things might get better#but they dont get better#i just get weaker and weaker and life just keeps throwing endless things at me i dont have the strength to solve anymore#and nobody can help me. because its me im just rotting away#my stuff#personal#its the end of summer and i cant smell anything#i knowi should get up and just do things#why am i here#without my mother#and people still help me - my dad and my brother they were nice to me when i was sick
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#not fandom related#personal log stardate#been talking to family on the weekend and we came to the topic of my transition#specifically changing my gender marker and how other ppl read me#they (my family) said my voice sounds deep like a man's which made me rly happy#i myself think i sound like a trans guy sounds early in transitioning. like. thar specific voice. but apparently to others#it's a man's voice. yeah! :>#then they said i look 'neutral' now (i think they meant androgynous by that) but that others can probably tell i have female parts#that's not the right translation but idk how else to phrase it. im not sure if they meant that others can tell im a trans guy or that others#read me as a woman. anyway it bothered me but i didn't rly want to get into a discussion so i let it be#BUT. they are wrong hehe. for a few weeks ive exclusively been read as a guy by strangers#even when wearing a pink jacket. and even when i hadn't spoken so i also pass w/o ppl hearing my voice#i think my family just can't see that bc they don't have an unbiased view bc they know me and also see me mire often#so they might not have noticed subtle changes that give me a guy vibe now#just like I haven't noticed these subtle changes. every time i pass im like???? but my voice is not that deep?#i don't have an actual proper beard? im wearing pink? im short? my hair is long-ish? and i pass? :o#it's nice bc i waa totally prepared for T not doing much or taking it's time but apparently ive inherited the Genes TM#that make T work well to masculinize me#gonna try to call that surgeon abt top surgery tmr btw. i hope I'll manage đŹ#also im so busy w university and it's currently so stressful đŤ
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