#hashtag still unmotivated

[drea-ms]

AUGUST 10. a.akane.

synopsis .... after not being able to cope with the death of you beloved, you find yourself at at 24hr store and meet someone who is grieving like you. While you grieve to dead, he grieves the alive.

warnings .... death, implications of suicide, signs of depression, rejection (on akas side), implication of being used as a coping mechanism, angst, hurt/comfort, readers last name is taira LOL, f!reader

word count .... 3.2k

THE MOON LOOKED BEAUTIFUL tonight, the night sky an almost navy-black, some stars shining brightly than others, and the smell of the ocean was a nice smell at night. The rooftop of your apartment was always a nice way to calm you down. You hated studying, you hated the night sky, the moon and the stars. You hated everything. Yet, it never stopped you from admiring it like you were it's devoted follower. You look down at your phone, it's three am, you were supposed be back in your room at 2:30 am, you got distracted once again.

You wonder if any stores were open, as you start heading to the door, you turn to look back at the moon, wondering when will be the last time you will ever see it.

~

By the time you got down from the roof top and to your room, it was already 3:06. You put on a hoodie you stole from your brother and a pair of pants. You headed out your room and towards the living room. Your home was always quiet at night despite the noise it makes during the day. Your older brother who was in his room playing games in his computer, is now in the kitchen, making himself some fruit. Your older sister who usually sleeps like a log, is now sitting in the living room watching some TV.

They both to turn to look at you, smile on their faces, you smile at them back. They're both glad that you're out your room, they always tell you that you don't have to study much, not to over work yourself, not to...

Not the point. You look at them with a confused look on your face, before you get to ask them why they're up, they answer you.

"Got hungry." He said, sticking out his tounge at you. Your older sister on the other hand points to the long bag which you can guess contained a katana she owned.

"Went out, I heard there was an influx of spirits out there, some of them contain negative energy." she shrugs, looking at you with a confused look on her face. Now it was her turn to ask you a question.

"Where are you going?" pointing at your outfit, you shurg before scratching your hair. A habit you suppose, one that helps you calms down.

"Store. I just finished studying and can't go back to sleep." you started to walk towards the door, stopping to put your shoes on. you look at the two as you put your shoes on.

"Text me what you want as I head there." like reading their own minds before they get to speak, the both smile at you, the window making their features look more soft, shining down at them. The moon gracing your siblings with her beauty.

(You wonder if this is how he saw you, he always loved the night, as you loved him.)

You head out the door and start walking to the elevator, you're to tired to be thinking about him again, so you think of other things as you're on the way to the store. You live by the beach, the smell is great (at least to you.) and the sea reflecting the moon makes it the view even beautiful. (you stop to take pictures. He would love it.)

It takes five minutes to get to the store, by the time you get there it's already 3:19 am. The store lights are on, that's a good sign. You push the door open, making make a ding as you do. You check your phone to see if your siblings texted you anything.

~

TWO (2) NOTIFICATIONS FROM

izu ^^ and saki <3

izu ^^ (1) : can u get me two reg redbulls and a bag of nerd cluster gummies 🥺🥺🥺🥺

saki <3 (1) : get me 3 monsters and some sandwiches pleek 👍

~

You give your phone a deadpan look, what is it with you and your family being addicted to energy drinks? Nonetheless, you head your way towards the the baskets, you get one and make your way to the back of the store where the drinks are in a fridge. You look back at your phone, a twitch in your eye appears, Misaki never said why flavor to get her, you're glad Izumi did though.

"Why would she ask for three Monsters and never tell me the flavor." you mumbled to yourself, a upset look on your face, "What's a good flavor to get her?" you asked yourself, looking at the variety of Monster drinks on display.

"The pink, purple and blue ones are always the ones for me." A voice next to you says, looking at you while are searching for a drink on the fridge next to you, you look at him with surprise, you scrambled out the words,

"Huh?" Great, just great [Name]. A pretty boy talks to you trying to help you and all you have to say to that is 'huh?' you facepalm in your head and start to cringe at everything.

"Sorry, I heard you didn't know what flavor to get as you mumbled to yourself." he nervously smiled at you, you look at him with a small smile, shy that that you look like you got hit by a bus and a pretty boy is talking to you.

"It's uh, fine. So, about those flavors you were talking about."

~

You check out all the stuff you were going to buy, waiting for a tall boy with brown hair and a pair of glasses. It's 3:45 now, you walk outside the store and wait for him. The stars are shining brighter than before, and the moon is now looking at down at you, your features now being shun by the fluorescent moonlight, you zone out the entire time you're waiting for the young boy. (At least you think he's young...)

"Did I make you wait a while, the cashier made a mistake on something." rubbing his arm that the bag he was holding with his free arm, he smiled at you.

"No, no. It's fine, I was looking at the moon—" you stop yourself before thinking about whether or not he would join you at the beach. I mean, to him your a random stranger, he is to you too. But, maybe what you need to cope is telling a random stranger anything.

"Do you maybe—you can say no if you're busy—want to go the beach with me? I noticed you were looking troubled and the sea at night helps me calm down and—" you stop yourself before talking his ears off, you look anywhere but him.

"I would love to, thank you for worrying about me...uh"

"Taira."

"Taira, thank you."

"It's fine..."

"Aoi."

"Aoi, what a nice name."

"I can say the same about Taira."

AKANE ISN'T SURE WHAT time it is. He knows the moon is high and the sky is dark, but he doesn't know the time. Ironic for someone who is a clock keeper. He looks out the window where Aoi's window is. Her curtains are shut, they have been shut more recently. He doesn't know if she did just because or because of him. Nonetheless, he still looks at the window with a furrowed eyebrows and eye bags under his eyes.

He checks his phone to check the time, it's 3:06 am. He decided that if he wasn't going to sleep after doing his loads of homework on a friday night, he was going to the store. He put on a hoodie and headed towards the door leading outside his home. Finding a pair of slippers that was discarded by the door. (whether it was his, his father's or his older brother was a mystery to him.)

He open the door to his home and exited out, by the time he was outside, it was 3:09. This time, he can clearly see the moon and the stars. They both looked beautiful but not as beautiful as...

Shit. He was doing that thing again, he told himself to not do it again, and here he was, comparing the beautiful of one thing to something that could never rival hers. He has to find a way to get over her. Curse first loves, curse the night sky that shines bright, the moon that shines it's white light in the ocean water, and the stars that never become shooting ones because dreams aren't able to come true.

Aoi Akane hates everything about the night.

With small tears in his eyes, he wipes them away and starts to head to the store near him, he knows it's always open, he's been there before and knows some of the workers there, so while on a peaceful walk to the store, he notices a figure. He forgot his glasses again, he's been forgetting them lately, it's pissing him off.

Sometimes, he wished that Kako and Mirai never saw him and staged that stupid stunt to get him to become like one of them. Looking towards the figure, he notices a young girl around his age. Across the street from him, she's taking pictures of the night sky, smiling to her self as looks through them. She looks sad, almost as if she sees something in the night that he can't.

Either way, he turns the other way, ignoring her and zoning out as he walks to the store. Reddish-brown hair flowing as the wind moves in a slow pace, the smell of the sea sickens him, how can he enjoy the smell of the ocean without it reminding him of her? Why does he associate everything that's beautiful with her? He stops for a bit and turns to look at the beach just across from him.

He sees the same girl again, this time, her hood is down. Her hair flowing with the wind, her phone up and taking a picture of the moon. She turns to look foward, a sad smile on her face, from far away, it looked like to him that she was beginning to cry.

For the first time since his first year, Akane has never saw something more beautiful than Aoi. The way the moonlight shines bright, her freatures enveloping with the light, the stars that once shined bright tonight, are being outshined by the beauty of the some random girl he saw taking pictures of the moon. Almost as if she was grieving, as if the connection between the moon and her grief were connected.

The girl continues to walk straight, only turning when she sees the store is open. For a minute, Akane just stands there, thinking about the girl. Wondering just who she is, and how ethereal she might be.

For the first time since his first year, Aoi Akane had begun to blush like crazy, his heart beating at an abnormal rate, one would think he was dying. But no. For the first time since his first year, Aoi Akane has begun to fall for someone at first sight, just like his elementary days.

~

It's 3:25 am when Akane gets to the store, he pushes the door open, a small ding can be heard from pushing it open, the cashier who was working tonight waved at him, a smile across her face. "Welcome back Akane." she says, a smile on her face. He smiles back at her, waving hello as he heads down to the drinks aisle. His head hurts and he still don't feel like sleeping, maybe an energy drink would suffice. Maybe not.

When he heads to the drink aisle, he already sees someone there, looking as if they're having a dilemma on which drink they should have, he laughs quietly before going to the fridge next to the person. One full of juices of every kind, he chooses one that would go well with his mood.

"Why would she ask for three Monsters and never tell me the flavor." they mumbled, the voice of a girl be heard. The only girl he saw enter the store was—

"The pink, purple and blue ones are always the ones for me." What.

Oh.

Oh.

Akane wasn't so sure that he was thinking throughly with what he had just said, he doesn't even drink monsters! His older brother does! Not him! He doesn't even like them! So why did his mind think it was best to just to blurt that out?!

He might just kill him—

"Huh?" she said, turning to look at him, and oh how he wishes that he had a camera to take a picture of her, her beauty blinding him. She reminded him of A—

The night sky. She reminded him of the night sky that was still outside waiting for him to go home. He stood there for a bit before answering her, nervously looking everywhere but at her.

"Sorry, I heard you didn't know what flavor to get as you mumbled to yourself." he says quickly, finding new ways to kill himself to get away from the embarrassment he was feeling right now. A smile her face said everything he needed to calm down. Granted it was an awkward one, but it helped him soothe him.

"It's uh, fine. So, about those flavors you were talking about."

Right.

THE TRIP TO THE beach was an easy one, granted they lived near it, and the store was near it so they don't mind it one bit. It was a quiet walk to the beach, not one that would be deemed as awkward like before, but one that was comfortable for both, where they didn't have to say anything just to make the other feel comfortable. The comfortable silence is broken when Akane begins to speak.

"Do....Do you like the beach?" he asked, walking while staring foward, they were near where the entrance of the dock is. As they head there, you look at him more closely.

He looked beautiful, his hair framing his face perfectly, the color of his hair going well with everything about him. His eyes and hair match. They shine bright as the moonlight reflects the light towards his eyes. Mesmerized by him, you stop walking and out of concern he stops a few steps ahead of you.

"Did-Did I bother you" concern in his face, he scratches his cheek with his free hand. Now you're at fault, you were to mesmerized by him and his looks, that you stop walking and he's concerned that he might have struck a nerve.

'You should stop doing that often [nickname]! You'll end up sending the wrong message!'

He was right.

Stepping out of your dazed state, you decided to be honest with the boy infront of you, not like how you were with him back then. You won't mess up again like before.

"You're face..."

"My face...?"

You step infront of him, now looking directly into his eyes, Akane notices that as much as the moonlight was shining down at him, it was mostly shining down at you. Your features being illuminated as the moon shares its beauty with you. You looked like an angel, one who has fallen after sinning and disobeying your god.

A fallen angel.

"You're very handsome if I say so myself....Your features are beautiful at night, are they as beautiful during the day?" You mumbled, now way nearer than before, your faces are almost touching. Akane turns a bright red, he isn't sure if it's out of embarrassment or being flustered, but before he can say anything, you back away. Laughing like he just told the most funniest thing in the world.

"Was that to much? I'm sorry, I don't want to make you uncomfortable Aoi-san." Though you don't regret what you had said, you didn't want to make to make him uncomfortable.

"I-It's fine, Taira-san..." he's still blushing like crazy. Not even Aoi has called him handsome outright. The poor boy is so flustered, he doesn't notice the girl answering his question from the beginning.

"About your question, I would say I enjoy the beach. It helps me relax, especially at night. Where no one can interrupt you." You looked at him with a smile, walking past him to start walking towards the sand. He follows you.

"Do you? Like the beach I mean." you ask, stopping to take of your slippers, stepping on the sand that was once hit by the sun in the day time, now that it's night, the sand is cold.

Akane does the same thing as you, taking of his slippers as he continues to talk to you, "I wouldn't say so, the beach reminds me someone."

As the two of you walk closer towards where the sand and the water collide, you look at him with an unknown look on your face, "You too?"

Akane wasn't sure what you are on about, but from what he can infer, the beach probably remind you of someone as well. you sit down and pull out a red bull, the juneberry one he believes, "I guess" he sits down, knees propped up, his hand on his left knee, using it as stand for his face. He inspects you a while longer.

Akane notices some things about you, how your eyes are a nice shade, your hair that's messy, looks soft. How under your eyes, you have heavy eyebags.

The rest of the night is spent with knowing about the other, you tell Akane things about you, he tells you things about him. The night is spent with new memories and new things about each other. Before you realize it, it's around 4:36 am. Your brother is calling you to come home before your parents wake up.

"Ah. It seems like it's time to go, Sorry for bothering you, Aoi-san" You get up from where you were sitting, bowing at him to apologize, he waved his hands in a rejecting way, shaking his head 'no'.

"Don't apologize! It's fine Taira-san! You don't have to worry, you made me have fun tonight." He smiles at you, you believe it to be a beautiful one. "I..had fun with you too." you tell him, turning to look the other way, as you start walking behind him, you turn to look at him one last time for the night.

"Bye, Aoi." you wave at him goodbye as you start walking your way home. Akane on the other hand, stays a bit longer, watching as the waves come and go, hitting the sand where he sits. turning around as he sees you gone, he finally puts his head on his knees, turning a bright red as he does so.

"I'm an idiot, aren't I?" He whined, he gets up from his place, and starts to head home with some juice boxes and an open heart once again.

vals yapping session — ���� hi, no im not back on here, i just started making a fic in wattpad so pls read wiege! it's a tbhk x reader 🙂‍↕️ that's the only thing keeping me alive n motivated LOL

[friskus0960]

It’s been 3 months and now I choose to post today? Why yes. Mainly because I’ve just been very unmotivated and I’ve been stuck back playing Dandy’s World. And now I sorta can’t stop thinking about that MoonFlower ship since now I come to a conclusion that I adore that ship. <:)

ANYWAYS, I’m just going to be just posting out doodles of Undertale Characters and a couple of Dandy’s World characters.

(I didn’t include any like Deltarune or idk what is called but I know the character is named Ena hashtags cause like it’s only a small bit and I don’t know Ena very well, and I just wanted to draw that one moment in Deltarune. )

Also I included my own character, its sheet is still in progress but I do have the colour palette. And also that one Kitoto character doesn’t belongs to me originally.

[nemsajrehto]

Vague inspiration that immediately leaves due to difficult creative space

[mrdrhenwardhykle]

So, I had this thought process

I've been thinking a lot about that Adam Sandler movie "Pixels", and I think I just wrote a summarized alternate plot for it in my head and I need to write it down.

Okay;

Let's start by brainstorming on writing better and more relatable protagonists. For many, this movie is very hard to watch because it almost feels like a bunch of middle-aged guy's writing in nice-guy self inserts of themselves to feel better about whatever mid-life crisis they're having. And maybe this wouldn't be too bad if their characters were just a bit more than "middle aged creep who lives in his mom's basement is secretly a romantic warrior when put in the right scenario".

At least for me, it's very hard to relate to that kind of protagonist; given how that character is usually the most developed out of all the characters in this type movie. I often find that it's hard to relate to nerdy nice guy characters who often get away with the lack of likeable qualities just because "life should have treated them better". It comes off more as a pity-party more than anything, and their unmotivated dynamic with the "out of their league" love interest, who always comes off as nothing more than a trophy and\or act as an excuse to get the climax rolling in the last 20 minutes after getting captured by the big bad.

So then, how would I write an 80's nostalgia themed adventure movie? What, say, would you think would be a practical way to write the main cast in a way that audiences new and old can relate? Easy; If your intention is to give your entire audience a wave of nostalgia, but to still keep it relatable, then why not make your main cast kids? (credit to Black Nerd Comedy for that idea) I would probably suggest between the age of 12 and 16, and maybe with the occasional big brother\sister type characters and some of their friends . Kids often have a ton of freedom, a large imagination, basic priorities, and a lot less worries than adults. Just about anyone should be able to relate to that, since everybody either was or is a kid at some point of time. And I'm not saying that you can't write for\relate to older protagonists, but you don't want to alienate your audience, especially when making something that might catch the eye of a younger crowd.

Not to mention that ever since the 80's, kids have always been a major player by the impact of technology. For some reason though, the plot of Pixels doesn't really have to do with technology. There's guns and contraptions that are specifically made to destroy the pixels, but it doesn't really go much father than that with the tech. The plot more focuses on going on the "alien invasion" route (which I would think would be more 60's sci-fi based than 80's, which was more experimental in cosmic horror with its alien media)(not including Space Invaders. Shush. That does not count). Honestly, I think 80's nostalgia can be replaced with just about anything when it comes to a "shape-shifting aliens who mimic earthly cultures" plot. It's very basic, yet it doesn't really fit in with the theme of arcade games. It just comes off as a poor excuse for pandering to 80's kids, instead of using that element to bring up interesting concepts and world-exploring in this universe.

So I have two solutions for this, either;

A. Do not do a time jump, and keep the story in the 80's. Make it an alternate universe where different forms of consoles and computers are being developed. Maybe the adult characters are very unfamiliar with these changes, but allowing for the kid characters to have more of an advantage because that stuff would be more relevant to them. Because this was before a time where kids often thought about becoming programmers, it will also work as a disadvantage to the kids because they won't have an excuse to suddenly know how the opposing side works.

Or B. It takes place in a modern era, with Virtual reality, game consoles, and laptops, but it doesn't overly modernize itself with teens on phones, saying outdated things like "lemmie just take a selfie" saying "hashtag" out loud, or any junk like that (Because guess what? Teens and kids don't usually act like that). Maybe make the environment time neutral by making it a mix between the 2010's, 2000's, 1990's, and 1980's. I don't really think it's relevant enough to work in a present setting.

And lastly, let's talk about the big bad of the movie.

Really in Pixels, it's more of a self-struggle either projected upon others, or manifested into it's own being for the protagonist to succeed. There's not really a lot of leg space for anyone else to develop other than the main character (and perhaps something happens occasionally to the comedic reliefs\mascot characters). I imagine maybe this version doesn't have just one central character\plot, kind of like Stranger Things. However, unlike Stranger Things, I would also like a compelling and intriguing villain. Sadly, Pixels doesn't really have that; i has Donkey Kong, but he's nothing more than an alien catering to the protagonist's inner struggles (and nostalgia). There's nothing really more to DK other than that, so there's not a lot of difference between him and any of his previous minions.

And there's nothing really compelling about DK; because at least in canon, he's just a scared circus animal. There's not a lot of reasoning behind his actions other than to just invade. It's basic alien stuff like I said before, it can basically be replaced with some other theme than arcade games.

So what would be a compelling antagonist? Foils to the main group of characters (such as an older school bully, or maybe twisted programmers), create conflict, but if we're keeping the theme of attack of the machines and videogame characters, there has to be a bigger bad than that.

Oh! If only there was an already established villain-coded, tech-based, 80's icon with the ability to control almost all technology!

....

Trust me, I'm onto something!

Max Headroom was always presented as an egotistical talking head. He had multiple shows in the 1980's, as well as guest starred on multiple shows. Perhaps Max survives off of his viewers, and constantly strives to expand his audience. Max does not tend to care about other's well beings, and just wishes to use them as a way to gain publicity for his shows. Max also has a tendency to step over whoever he needs to to gain popularity, including his own film crew.

Max also has multiple canon abilities such as:

Being able to transfer to any screen (including arcade games)

See and interact with the people watching him

Control more than one screen

Interact with himself from one screen to another (multitask)

Turn on and off lights (and likely other outlets as well)

Manipulate the visuals of the screen that he's controlling

All of these abilities can be expanded and explored enough to set him up as a powerful and unpredictable villain.

I've also came up with a couple motives as well;

A. If this is in a modern era, Max could be suffering from a long hiatus since he hasn't been that active since the 80's; causing Max to seek as much attention to thrive off of as possible. To do this, Max hijacks as many outlets as possible to air his show. He might also use this as a way to repel audiences away from all other media; making it easier to turn to him for entertainment.

B. This takes place in an alternate universe where Max Headroom became more popular than it originally was. He starts taking over half of ads and television shows on air, getting more power hungry with each channel he takes. However, in his media take-over, ratings take a slight drop due to uninterested children who have turned to other outlets like toys, videogames, and arcades. This inspires Max to take a full takeover over everything electrical, causing a full invasion of all things electrical.

(I also forgot to mention that Max very likely hates children, and has canonly protested the execution of all of them)

Bam! And there you have it. A slightly more efficient plot for Pixels.

This was rotting in my head for a while and I wanted to let it out. Sorry for the ramble.

[tragedy-machine]

Hey Alice I hope you answer this because I am too shy to approach you off anon. I love art and have loved it since I was three. I am thinking of starting an art blog on tumblr where I would post both originals and fan arts. Do you have any suggestions? How can I reach more audience and make friends? What about time management?

Hi baby! First of all I’m so flattered you consider me qualified enough to answer any of these lol

Second of all, these are all my suggestions

My general advice for starting an art blog: 

- don’t be so hard on yourself! No matter what, remember that you’re doing it for fun and whether you don’t get a lot of feedback or think you’re not good enough or are stressing out about posting regularly, you just gotta take a second to relax and remember that everything just takes time. You will improve, you will get more feedback, you will get better at keeping a schedule, you just have to be able to give yourself time

- you won’t always be in a mood for creating art and that’s okay. Sure, draw as often as you can but sometimes you have to take a break. On the other hand, I found that when my slump continues for more than a week and it’s not because I’ve been busy but rather just unmotivated, I try to find an easy idea and push myself a little to start drawing even if I’m feeling lazy. That usually does the trick and then I get into it again. It’s also always easier to come back to a wip or a sketch rather than start from nothing so just doing a simple layout one day will make coming back to it the next day so much easier

- if you’re serious about improving, you have to prioritize art in your schedule. I’m personally still struggling with time management and adjusting to my new work. What helps me is putting on a tv show on netflix on my phone or a youtube video/podcast/audiobook in the background while you draw, so you still can keep yourself entertained and feel like you’re just chilling instead of working

- finding a community and people who support you will always be the biggest motivation to draw, at least for me. It’s really satisfying to see people enjoy your stuff or to exchange ideas with other creators, so if you can do that, I’d suggest you start off like that (that’s why fanart is great)

- and lastly, there’s no need to be afraid to start an art blog! Judgement of strangers on the internet means absolutely nothing to you irl and if someone you know personally wants to follow you while you don’t feel comfortable with that, you can always just refuse/don’t tell them you’ve started an art blog. I have flat out told someone I don’t know them well enough to show them my art blog yet and they’ve been very understanding and chill about it

About reaching a bigger audience:

- use relevant hashtags (but don’t crosstag), that’s the easiest way to a bigger audience. If you consider starting an instagram page as well, participate in as many drawing events as you can! Many artist do features event when they reach a certain number of followers, or recently the #drawitinyourstyle was popular, and you can always find something in the #drawingchallenge or #featurefriday

- draw fanarts for other people’s aus or fanfics, but don’t force yourself to do it. If a fic inspires you and you genuinely love it and don’t only want to gain followers, draw smth for it, let it happen naturally because people can usually tell when it isn’t

- be prepared that, especially on tumblr, original art will get way fewer notes than fanarts, but you said you wanna do them as well, so you’re all good! That’s the best way to find a community and grow from there

- if you wanna make friends with other people in the fandom you can start by commenting on their work, leaving feedback, asking questions. After a while there’s a chance they’ll notice your engagement. Another great way is to just dm someone about a post they’ve made if you have more thoughts about it and then just carry the convo from there. I guarantee you nobody’s gonna turn you down if you just randomly message them, it’s usually super nice for the creator and the worst thing that can happen is that they’ll respond late, or with more popular blogs there’s a chance they won’t respond at all, but that’s okay! You weren’t being annoying, they just get a lot of other messages all the time. You can always try next time. Ofc you can also participate in any fan events that interest you or join the discord server if that’s your cup of tea

I think that’s all from me for now, I hope it helped you a little and if there’s anything more I can do, please don’t be afraid to hit me up again!

[journey-of-selvfolgelig]

hashtag real talk

today i woke up and felt incredibly unmotivated. more than a usual monday and just not like me. i decided to take a mental health day even with feeling guilt about it. i am getting better at giving myself grace when i need. i have been sick a couple times since starting my job in march, so that’s where most of the guilt is coming from. i’ve told myself that being sick or feeling off is my body’s way of telling me to take it easy on myself, and that work is only work. it will still be there for me when i’m well.

i am still in the uncomfortable change/growth phase of this new job. but also, I want to validate and recognize how i really feel, not just chalking this up to “new job discomfort”: my feelings continue about leaving this field and i have continued questioning why i still force myself to work in civil engineering. that’s been the same since i started working full time 5+ years ago. i DO genuinely want to give this job more of a chance and more importantly save money for a house or land down payment, traveling, and kids (still a few years away). this has been a healthy workplace environment so far, but i have so much to learn yet that it is very overwhelming for me. i constantly feel like i’m not measuring up to expectations. whether those are mine or others’. i have fallen behind on tasks constantly, and it is just difficult to not know what i am doing. it’s especially frustrating since i HAVE been working within the field for the past 5+ years, and have been in school or working internships for 11 years. my supervisor has only said how great of a job i’ve been doing, but of course the voice in my head disregards that as she’s trying to be easy on me.

edit 7/12: self compassion is really the hardest thing ever. thankful i have a therapy appt this thursday. i am taking today off as well to actually relax and get some things done that will ease my mind. i have more *motivation* today but still highly anxious about work stuff.

[archerwindsor]

How to Stay Motivated when you Finish a Fitness Challenge

how to stay motivated

Yes girl! You finished Spring Slim Down and let’s just start by saying… hell yes!! Take a moment and hype yourself up. You committed to YOURSELF for 6 weeks and that is something to get pumped about. We know it can be hard to stay motivated in your workouts and nutrition, and regardless if you stuck with it for the full 6 weeks, did half of the challenge or just a few days, you should be so proud!

Now that the challenge is over, you might be wondering how to stay motivated. We’re laying out exactly what’s next post SSD and how you can easily continue the healthy habits you’ve formed. Just because the challenge is over, that doesn’t mean you stop going! Let’s keep crushing it together with these deets on how to stay motivated when you finish a fitness challenge.

How to stay motivated post challenge

#1: TAKE YOUR PROGRESS PHOTOS

First things fist, grab your phone and take your progress photos! Put on your fave workout set, bikini or whatever makes you feel confident AF and smile. Keeping track of your progress throughout your fitness journey is such a great way to stay motivated. One glance at where you started and how far you’ve come will get you ready to keep crushing it!

If you didn’t take a photo at the start of the challenge, no worries girl! Try and slot in an older photo of yourself before the challenge. But from here on out, track your progress! And the biggest thing… don’t forget to SMILE! Regardless of where you’re at in your journey, be proud of yourself and your beautiful bod. We can’t wait to see all of the progress you made during the challenge!

#2: POST THIS ON YOUR LSF IG

Time to celebrate!!! You finished the challenge, so make sure to share so Team LSF can cheer you on. This is a huge accomplishment, and whether it’s your 1st or 10th LSF challenge, you should be so proud!

#3: ENTER THE SSU GIVEAWAY

You’ve been working so hard and now it’s time to submit to win the MAJOR giveaway!! All you have to do is fill our the SSD Submission Form and you are entered to win. Here’s a little reminder of what could be yours:

SSU Grand Prize

$1,000 Grocery Store Gift Card

$1,000 in Activewear from Revolve

Private Zoom Workout & Chat with Katie

LSF workout gear

Make sure to fill out the submission form by May 18th for a chance to win!

#4: DON’T FALL BACK INTO BAD NUTRITION HABITS

For 6 weeks healthy nutrition has been top of mind as we’ve completed the 7 Day Slim Down and the Hot Body Meal Plan. Focusing on nutrition is SO crucial to see results – it’s not just about your workouts! Now that Spring Slim Down is over and we have completed our meal plans, it’s easy to fall back into old nutrition habits. That’s exactly why we’re continuing post challenge with the Guiltless Nutrition Guide and Recipe Book!

The Guiltless Guide is different than the other two meal plans because it’s a book filled with 130+ healthy recipes you can make at any time. This plan is totally customizable so you can build out your meals for YOU. Feeling like tacos? There’s a recipe for that. Cookies for dessert? Yep, we got that too. Pancakes for breakfast?? It’s in there. Seriously, there’s something for everyone.

If you enjoy the structure of a daily meal plan, you can ALWAYS come back to the 7 Day Slim Down and Hot Body Meal Plan whenever you’d like to. This is your nutrition journey, find what works for you and stick to it girl!

#5: CONTINUE YOUR LSF THE APP WORKOUTS

Spring Slim Down is over but you can still challenge yourself in LSF the App! If you need a little push to stay motivated, we have a TON of Bonus Sweats that you can add to your regular sweat sesh schedule.

Some of our favorites:

Full Body Burn

Hot Body 100

Flat Ab Blaster

Booty Lift

And so many more!

Your daily workouts will stay exactly the same with your premium workout and Daily 10 – just add in a bonus sweat for an extra push and you’ll get the same experience as during a challenge. Your app still totally functions the same, so make sure to explore and enjoy all of the fun challenges that are included in the app just for you!

#6: LEAN ON YOUR GIRLS IN TEAM LSF

If you’re feeling unmotivated, share that with your girls! The LSF Community is here to support and encourage you not just during a challenge, but always. We love continuing to share when we finish our daily workouts in the app and complete our roll calls. This is the BEST way to stay plugged in with the incredible women in Team LSF who are on the exact same journey as you are.

Remember, you aren’t in this alone! Team LSF has got your back. Make sure to use the hashtags #TeamLSF #LSFsayhey #LSFrollcall so other women in the community can continue to find you post challenge!

Overall, just remember, YOU GOT THIS. You’ve formed these healthy habits and you CAN stick to them! We’re right there with you. And don’t worry, another challenge will be coming soon enough. Stay tuned 😉

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[jessicathejoy]

WHY WON’T ANYONE LET ME SEE MY THING?

Although I am a mostly unmotivated person, my body is not. My body works hard behind (underneath?) the scenes to create treasures for me to have removed in the form of lumps and bumps and masses. My body is trying to create an entire other person out of random growths. You know how you always say you could make another cat out of the hair your cat coughs up? It’s like that. At 42 years old, I am now up to 5 surgeries in my life, all to remove various things that my body worked overtime to produce and present to me, as if I should be honored. And what did I do? Ungratefully, I had doctors remove my little side projects, and I never even got to see what all the fuss is about. Because they never let you see your thing that you made! This is a form of harassment that I am still working on a hashtag for. The first surgery was elective. In 2000, I had a breast reduction. As my body built me, it got carried away in the breast area, perhaps thinking that this was something a 12 year old girl who loved the Ninja Turtles and wouldn’t wear makeup until sophomore year in college would want (and then only theatrical makeup for years until someone told me I don’t need to look like Evita to go to Walmart). One might guess that constant teasing and back pain lead me to my decision to get the surgery when I turned 20, but I had none of that. Luckily for me and unfortunately for Danielle, there was a girl in my school who had EVEN BIGGER boobs, and that coupled with my general strangeness caused everyone to keep their gazes moving. All men try to flirt, but then they see that look in my eye, you know, the Ted Bundy one, and that’s the end of that. Being young and not understanding feelings and autonomy, I would fantasize about “accidentally” cutting my own breast in order to go to the hospital and then be able to say, ”hey, while you’re fixing that, can I also get a breast reduction?” Because I didn’t know I could just want one (until I read about Punky Brewster getting one in People magazine. After a quick Google of said cover story just now, I am glad I got the right message out of the article about TEENAGE PLASTIC SURGERY and IS IT HEALTHY?! because I guarantee Punky gave that interview FOR ME and was probably really disappointed they presented her story like that). A main concern in breast reducing is maintaining nipple sensitivity and breast-feeding function after the surgery. As I was coming to in the recovery room, a delighted nurse told me immediately that all went well and I would be able to breast-feed! I asked her when I could see my baby. They removed HALF of my breasts, and I didn’t even get to see a picture of what they took out, let alone keep it in a bag to present to the 7,000 women who made the same joke about “borrowing some for themselves!” The second, third and fourth surgeries came along in 2002. My body presented me with a hard lump on my throat which led to biopsies and a lumpectomy to then a thyroidectomy to then a modified neck dissection. Just take everything that isn’t tied down! I laughed alone, as my family took cancer seriously on my behalf because I can’t ever not joke. My mom asked me to unload the dishwasher and I weakly coughed and said, “I can’t...I have cancer.” My dad slammed his fists on the table and my sister cried and I said WHHHHAAAATT?? while the multicam sitcom studio audience roared with laughter at my catchphrase (Tuesdays at 9/8c). Surely this time I would get to see what my body had made for me! I had enough balls now at 24 to just straight up ask my doctor, can I see the lump? Is it black and hard like you would think cancer would be? He said sure, maybe he can show me. (He didn’t) Finally (for now), in 2016, after a full 11 years of hard work and growth, my body said we’ve done it. They sat me down to give me a full presentation of what they had been working on in my uterus. Fibroids, they said! Beautiful round balls the size of softballs and golf balls and peas and marbles! All sizes, placed strategically around the walls of my uterus, in prime positions to wreak the most havoc on me physically and emotionally. I said, ok, show me what this is all about! And my body said, what if we could make you have your period nonstop for 6 months? Until it got so bad that even your high pain tolerance (which we also gave to you and you’re welcome) is no match? I said, I’d like to see you try! I shouldn’t have said ‘I’d like to see you try’ because my body really saw that as a challenge and an insult. It should be noted that having a high pain tolerance is less of a superpower than you would think, and more of a constant stream of inner questions like ‘have I ever had a migraine and it just feels like a headache?’ or ‘how hard would someone have to hit me for me to feel it?’ and ‘ok but I don’t want someone to hit me to find out’. I first realized I might have a high pain tolerance when I broke my arm in 4th grade by falling off the top of a jungle gym in the middle of an ice cream social, and I calmly walked to my dad and said, “Father, I have broken my arm. But I have yet to receive my promised ice cream cone, so while we do indeed need to go to the hospital, I would like to get that cone first.” (I didn’t) The fibroids are located directly in the center of your Emotional Cavern (uterus), and they were in the exact spot to mess with every hormone, emotion and last bit of blood I had. As a bit of a cold girl, I was awakened to feelings I hadn’t felt maybe ever? Crying and feeling and loving and living like I was a HomeGoods wall stencil! My fear became losing these new feelings when they took the fibroids out. It was like a dark fairy tale - Ariel gets her legs so she can meet a dude, but then has all of her emotions stripped away so she’s back to being just a creepy cold fish. Ah but all is well! The fibroids were removed and some emotion stayed intact until about March 2020 when the darkness of humanity and its jarring lack of empathy removed the last bits of it! And for the third time, I asked my doctor, Dr. Shirley Chan (my favorite surgeon of all 5), if I could see my fibroids. Besides the fact that I MADE THEM, I just have the general curiosity to see what something on my inside looked like on the outside. They had been in me for years at this point. I had grown them in my uterus like a weird kangaroo, just let me look at them! Are they black and hard, I have to know! But Dr. Chan just laughed. OK, what about just a picture? Can you show me a picture of them? “Oh,” Dr. Chan said, suddenly serious. “I thought you were joking. The answer is no.” THE END

[archive--not-completely-human]

5, 12, and 15 for the muse meme :-)

15 questions about the mun’s taste in muses! 

♥

5. who is / was your favourite muse of all time to play? Definitely Alita… I’m terrible and I have a habit of muse-jumping. I get bored and things become uninteresting, I find new things I love and drop old things I used to love, I get unmotivated by a lack of threads which all lead to me ultimately dropping a muse and finding another one. I also was pretty much 100% OC only, I only ever wrote original characters, I never picked up a canon muse, and OCs struggle to get threads to begin with lol, so that contributed to a lack of motivation. Alita is my first canon, and I’m coming close to a year now of writing her and I have zero intentions of stopping. I absolutely love this muse, and my dedication to Alita knows no limit.  

12. what’s the weirdest thing that has ever inspired you to make or pick up a muse?Okay. So. I used to have this dragon muse based off Game of Thrones, an OC of course lol, but like I never really watched Game of Thrones at that time. I literally just looked at video clips of the GOT dragons and loved them. Then one day I was watching Pokemon with my older sister and the episode had charizard in it, a fire type that looks like a dragon. All of a sudden I just had to make a dragon muse. Because of charizard lmao, and the muse I made didn’t even have anything at all to do with Pokemon XD 

15. which muses of yours have currently very dead fandoms?Unfortunately, the answer to this question is also Alita because not only is it dead but it basically never existed. The fandom is a passionate one, but not on tumblr. I pretty much dominate the Alita Battle Angel hashtags, I like to share posts about Alita in the hashtags because the movie is a literal masterpiece and it deserves recognition. But the roleplay fandom for Alita Battle Angel is non-existent. I’ve seen a FEW other people pick up Alita to write her, but I’m sad to say they’re either not active or have left, quite possibly because the roleplay fandom for it is so dead. A friend picked up another character in the movie and we write together, but besides that, it’s deader than dead. It’s extinct. Go on Twitter and the Alita Battle Angel fans are dominating the website but come on tumblr and you get the sound of crickets. I have an unfortunate bad feeling that this will never change. It sucks, but I’m still here having a great time! :) 

[rubrandonyu-blog]

#WomenBelongInSTEM

by Brandon Yu

I am a senior at Rutgers University studying Computer Science and minoring in Digital Communication, Information, & Media.

An Industry Dominated by Men

STEM fields (science, technology, engineering, and medicine) fields have historically consisted a majority of male workers. According to the European Data Journalism Network, only 16.7% of ICT (information & communications technology) specialists were women. Yet women are clearly capable of working in STEM roles, some prominent examples like Marie Curie and Grace Hopper, and not to mention the many capable women who currently work in STEM. So why is there such a large gender gap? According to a report from the AAUW, one major cause is stereotyping and biases. When a woman is studying in and even working in a STEM field, they often experience cognitive and emotional burden related to stereotypes regarding women in such fields, such as women not being as good at math and engineering than men. These burdens either exist in the minds of women because of the society they have grown up in or can be seen by people, men, in the industry who believe such stereotypes and biases who then reflect their views through certain action. It can go as far as sexual harassment which was found to be pervasive in US physics programs according to Nature.com

https://twitter.com/aussiastronomer/status/1120699266589024256

Without the support of other women, it’s hard for women to mentally stick to their STEM fields when faced with societal backlash. However, by using social media, women can receive and give the support they need through hashtag movements like #WomenInTech, where the issues that surround women in tech industries are legitimized and worked on in order to improve societal views for the future.

A Network of Supportive Women Behind a Hashtag

Throughout various social media platforms, there is a type of affordance on these sites that allow people to tag their posts, which then categorizes it and makes it searchable. This makes it easier for marginalized groups, such as women in STEM, to create a networked counterpublic where they are able to support each other and share their issues. #WomenInSTEM, #WomenInTech, and #GirlsWhoCode are just a few examples of tags that women use to share that they exist in these industries. It’s important to understand how and why women use these hashtags. Women in tech are a marginalized group and this means they face backlash from certain people purely just because they are in the tech industry. This could be due to many factors, but to put it simply, society has historically seen men in these technology and science roles, so stereotypes and biases have developed around women in the industry. Therefore, women often face ridicule and criticism for being in or even trying to be in the industry. This causes emotional stress for women to the point that some feel unmotivated to continue with their careers. According to Forbes, women actually leave the tech industry at a rate 45% higher than men. However, with the use of #WomenInTech, and other related hashtags, women in tech around the world can share that they exist and face similar problems. By legitimizing and recognizing the issues, women can band together behind these hashtags and support each other by showing that despite certain backlash, women can thrive in the tech industry. It’s a way to show other women in tech that they aren’t alone and that they can have the ability and right to exist in their industries.

https://twitter.com/AllySmirnov/status/1121033196332888066

Uses of the Hashtags

The #WomenInSTEM, #WomenInTech, and #GirlsWhoCode hashtags are used in a variety of ways. Sometimes they’re used to show off the work done by women in tech or encouraging other women to be in the tech field, and other times they are used to make light on the issues that women in tech face, usually paired with a call to action on how things can change.

https://www.instagram.com/p/BsOucg8BNQD/

In this Instagram post above, a woman is encouraging other women that learning to code isn’t actually as difficult as society makes it out to be. It’s important for women to tell other women this because for many women, they have possibly grown up being told that math is for boys or girls aren’t good at math (or replace the word “math” with “coding” or “engineering”), so to have a woman tell another woman that they can do it can be impactful for a woman’s motivation.

https://www.instagram.com/p/BuwHDBbH105/

The video above shows the societal issues that women in STEM face as well as hope for the future. The woman in the video, Gesche Rauch, begins by talking about experiences she’s had with people who act surprised that she is working full time in a science position, yet they don’t say anything to her boyfriend who is in a similar position. This scenario is one that women around the world face because society still believes that women are good enough for these roles. Rauch has a daughter herself and tries her best to show her that STEM can be interesting and for girls and women.

https://twitter.com/RachelSew_STL/status/1123373112307998721

This tweet shows a little girl operating a robot, with the assumption that it is programmable. It’s important to show society and young women that even at a young age, women and girls can do what society tells them isn’t for them. Many girls grow up believing that STEM positions are not for girls, so posts like the one above are an important step to changing what society views as acceptable - the idea that women DO belong in STEM.

Real World Impact

While social media is a place online for women to support each other, change in the real world is as or even more important. One way women are able to support and encourage each other offline are through events. Many of these events mainly market themselves to women, in some cases making them exclusive to women, in order to foster an environment that is welcoming to women. Some events like Technica, are a weekend-long hackathon, where female and non-binary participants can team up to learn and program. These events open the door for more women to, even as simply, try out computer programming because it offers a stereotype and bias free environment to those who may be interested in learning but are afraid or not confident for whatever reason.

https://twitter.com/gotechnica/status/963867811952119809

Other events like the Grace Hopper Conference, exist to celebrate women in their industries. Events like these help empower women and organizations around the world by bringing them together and holding encouraging events and panels. Organizations like Girls Who Code help girls and women enter an industry that primarily consists of men by giving girls the resources, education, and knowledge to succeed in the tech industry through various educational programs. While STEM fields are still not equal, in regards to gender, these online hashtag movements make great strides in changing what societal stereotypes and biases of women in tech. It not only gives women a supportive community online, but also leads to real life change and support because as more people use #WomenInTech or #WomenInSTEM, it shows, ever more clearly, that #WomenBelongInSTEM.

Sources:

https://www.europeandatajournalism.eu/eng/News/Data-news/The-ICT-sector-is-booming.-But-are-women-missing-out

https://www.nature.com/articles/d41586-019-01303-6?utm_source=twt_nnc&utm_medium=social&utm_campaign=naturenews&sf211430626=1

https://interestingengineering.com/10-greatest-women-stem

https://ghc.anitab.org/about-grace-hopper/

https://www.aauw.org/research/why-so-few/

https://girlswhocode.com/

https://www.forbes.com/sites/quora/2017/02/28/why-women-leave-the-tech-industry-at-a-45-higher-rate-than-men/#7149ece4216a

https://gotechnica.org/

https://ghc.anitab.org/

https://twitter.com/aussiastronomer/status/1120699266589024256

https://twitter.com/AllySmirnov/status/1121033196332888066

https://www.instagram.com/p/BsOucg8BNQD/?utm_source=ig_share_sheet&igshid=c3bq4g2dk6y9

https://www.instagram.com/p/BuwHDBbH105/?utm_source=ig_share_sheet&igshid=1ecmnx1vg0nn5

https://twitter.com/RachelSew_STL/status/1123373112307998721

https://twitter.com/gotechnica/status/963867811952119809

[teydious]

a month of quarantine

since everyone is talking about #quaranthings on social media, you name it, facebook, twitter, ig, tiktok, a week ago someone even sent me a group message (i mean bruh who does that nowadays) i might as well crack some thoughts instead of yet another episode of lying and mulling over nonsense things on bed, so now im in my desk to what i assume an office-corner in my room, pretending that im absolutely focused and have nothing ever to distract me from writing this entry - sooo here it is, my hashtag-quaranthings.

i think i’ve reach the point of letting myself to go mad and do whatever my mind tells me to, i’ve been basically a slave to my own mind. yep, since i peaked teenage life there was not a day i dont protest doing what my whole being is against with and still end up doing it because im such an idiot without self-control. this apparently has led me to horrible, horrible decisions coated with a massive energy of remorse and humiliation. yay, congrats to me; a person who always been dragged by wants and spontaneous impulses. really, how do i still show my face around?! 😭

a week after lockdown i was at tug of war between my body and my screwed sleeping schedule. i literally slept between 2-3 am, wakes up around 10am and sleep again for four hours at 3pm. this was on loop for about two weeks until i mentally beat my ass and decided to get my shit together and fix my routine. ahh, yes routine🙃 that word has long been astrayed since i entered college. my high school phase was calm, too timid and organize, seems all things was in my palms and i get to dictate my good and bad habits, but boy when i came to college, it was a different level of stupidity. my time management, my habits, routines, my schedules were fucked up and tossed to the other side of the Pacific ocean - i was at loss. mentally, i was drained; physically, dehydrated and always always tired; my will and passion seems limited and i was always profoundly unmotivated; i didnt know i am and these strange people keep pushing me to cross the line, they seem to bring out something i didnt know i had in me.. or was it always within me and i’ve been concealed all my life? either way im still fucked up. now came to my terrible choices, after two weeks of lockdown, well i kind of tried to do productive things - i draw, i read books, i actually read 3 books(heh be proud self), i fixed my room, my closet and did some reformations, i wrote couple of things, i watched educational films - i basically TrIEd to iron my crampled routine. but i wouldn’t say i’ve done everything because obviously im still slacking off, not a surprise anymore. the funny thing is though im aware of my shit, i still not do anything about it😬 god i am forever be a shitty person with shitty decisions in life. im trashy than raccoons. my life has been digital, insecured, unable to write a proper piece, hang out in twitter and bragged my filtered habits, plus ignoring people who reach out and onlyrespind to selected few i feel like talking to. i know, i know stab me in the back, im a terrible friend.

i did keep track of my emotions though. i was coming back and forth with my feelings, and desperate to have someone to flirt with(because trust me, thats what everyone i know seems to be doing in quarantine). last night, someone i like drop a bomb at me. i mean, it happen so fast til now i still dont know how to digest the information. to give a little backstory, i like this guy for around 5-6 months now i guess, whoa thats long for a crush; we dont talk much especially now that social distancing have been the absolute rule of all time. we do chat sometimes, brief conversations i still squeeled about, however last night he, out of knowhere, told me he and his girl friend already called the thing off, “split na kami” he says, and i was like bruhhh what u say? u cant hust drop that to someone who’s secrelty infatuated by for months😳 trust me i was hyperventilating the moment he said that. i couldn’t breathe properly, my mind is thrown in different places, and hand itched to slap my face to knock some sense. it was a bomb i didnt know would drop so abruptly and so fast! you know, when you predicted that something will happen eventually and it did happen, only that it was sudden and terse and you were unprepared but the bomb just come dropped off at that exact moment, boom! i didnt die, but i sure am breathless, figuratively and literally. to be honest, i didnt know of i should be happy, i didnt know what appropriate emotion should i be feeling even. i didnt feel sorry for their relationship, it would be sounding hypocrite to say that. i was unconvinced, but i felt giddy. partly, i wanted to believe it was true, that they broke up and that i should be happy, but what would this happiness leads me..? false hope? because suddenly they broke up and it was my turn? that night, i dreamt about him. he’s even haunting my dream now.

anyway, this has been long and i must admit that it was a good thing that i was able to write this much instead of abiding the limited characters when i tweet. my #quaranthings aren’t finished and i’d like it to surprise me whatever it brings me.

[thirstytales]

The future me now;

One Wednesday night I was out to for a little catch-up with my best friend when she asked me about my graduate program: "So? How’s school?" she, like many others, assumed that pursuing my chosen area of intensive study would be enjoyable and thrilling. I remember smiling politely and making pleasant conversation, that was past two sessions in the graduate school. Musing on the same question after two more sessions and she’ll have me answering with a sigh, “I made another mistake. I am miserable.”Getting into graduate school was a big deal for me. I vividly daydream of the excitement I felt on the day of entrance exam; the giggle of vultures in my stomach during the interview; and the hype after the “you are accepted to MIE program”. It felt like my first official step toward my adult life.I was more of a creative student since preparatory to secondary school. And I enjoyed learning and loved the freedom and social aspects of college. But graduate school is far different. I thought I am learned enough in my four years in college, until the professor in grammar course, one sunny Saturday boggled me with how a simple dangling modifier be so complex. Oh boy, I felt so stupid. While I can cope with the discussions and do pretty well in task performances in class, I go home drained and almost brain dead.  By-and-bye there was the academic pressure, an environment designed to create insecurities, competition, and debilitating self-doubt.  Before long, I felt trapped in an expensive mistake with no escape. I started to feel demotivated in going to school resulting to my tardiness, and worse late submission of my requirements, plus the jarring work load in school, I cannot manage my time well and almost failed my one subject for not studying for the  exams.Gradually succumbed by stress, my system is crushing, and I felt like my entire future was at stake. Lights of truth slowly strikes, the prestige of master’s degree isn't really a thing…it’s not my thing. It's a reputation for the brilliant. Sharing difficulties with my classmates and friends, “Kung kami gani na di namun ni field, mas galisod eh, but we’re here to learn, karon paba kita mag quit?” it's been a relief to know that others had a similar experience, and it’s even contagious how old they get by age yet spirits so high.After all the self-inflicting negativities I feed my soul in the course of the first semester, I passed it, I did. And here comes second semester, I actually contemplated of not enrolling, nonetheless I found myself confidently seated in the front row on, all ears to the smart professor. And I thought “I know I will survive this sem, I will survive this program”.True enough, I felt that the course load this time was lighter compared to previous. Yes, there’s still a great deal of requirements, however, I relished the affable classroom environment, I felt somehow unknotted. Speech and Drama class brought me pressure and pleasure. I am not a good public speaker first and foremost, which I know is the primary requirement to pass the course, and most importantly what I need as a basic skill to become a better teacher someday soon.I fear the thought of being put into impromptu and be mum. I am anxious that I’ll be called for an extemporaneous talk and I could not deliver a sentence. I am perturbed by the opponents I will be facing during the debate. Surprisingly, all my presumptions vanished like a breeze when I experienced my first impromptu speech in class with the hashtag NDMU, and it went well. The positive words of the professor and encouraging comments of my classmates really touched my core, right there and then. My unmotivated feet and low spirits every Saturday trips before, turned into adrenalized journeys.With less pressure, It is this time that I slowly and essentially learned the art of at multi-tasking. Between working as a registrar, taking writing jobs, part time teaching, submitting research proposals, and trying to balance a social life, I didn’t realize how better I became at juggling many things at once. In other words, gaining a fundamental skill for being a working linguistic scientist (char lang). Moreover, while I use to work on my own, I learned that collaboration is the key in surviving this program; offering advice or expertise for a certain skill or method and asking help from the more knowledgeable and experienced when in doubt. The course has been a wonderful experience: the professor is smart and enthralling; my classmates are knowledgeable and participative; the class is vigorous and beatific. I didn’t feel exhausted, I found myself not complaining, and wanting to learn and do more. Five sessions are just inadequate for the filling of the mind and heart but it ended with a wonderful bang, our Speech Festival. It made me feel so much younger doing such activity, and it brings so much joy because these are some of the college day’s experiences I failed to enjoy.Cliché but it is the Speech and Drama class that really built up my career goals with an ambition to continue and go further in my studies. The professor instilled within me the confidence to believe in myself and the change I can make. I know I will take this confidence and rely on it with all of my future endeavors. I told myself “I want to be as brilliant as this professor capable of putting so much in the nest of the brain of the students yet never forgetting to touch the heart”. I may not be fully equipped with the necessary skills and knowledge needs to teach right now, but I am willing and eager to know more to be able to make a real difference in the lives of my future students.  I realize now that choosing to go to graduate school itself had less to do with my excitement for the field, and much more to do with searching for some concrete sense of my future.  And best of all, I am confident to say that graduate school is making better person. I value the training and education that I was fortunate enough to receive. It seems everyone sits down in the first semester with stars in their eyes, and then sometime in the middle we get weighed down by the failures and frustrations of graduate life, and we can fail to remember what brought us here in the first place: academic advancement, prestige, a desire to learn, and a chance to improve the world.

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Finding Inspiration When Uninspired

Finding Inspiration and Motivation When Uninspired #MotivationalMonday #Inspiration

Despite the cute and overused hashtag #MotivationalMonday, I still feel super unmotivated on Mondays. Luckily, I’m not one of those people that dreads Mondays. However, I still feel the least motivated and uninspired on Mondays. Therefore, I tend to spend most Mondays looking and finding inspiration for the day. Keep reading to see easy places to find inspiration on uninspiring days. (more…)

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HOW TO COMBAT WRITERS BLOCK

Writers block is the generic term writers use when they’re feeling uninspired, unmotivated or even lazy. It’s a mental state in which you, as a writer, don’t trust yourself. It also comes in two forms.

  You don’t know what to write next.

 You know what you want to write next, but you don’t know how to write it.

  Here are my four tips to combating writers block and getting your writing mojo back.

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It may seem trivial, but taking a step back from your own writing and casting your eyes over others can be beneficial. Usually I don’t advise “taking a break” when it comes to writers block, as doing so can lead to procrastination and slow you down further- however I can make an exception if you take a break for reading. As well as being a relaxing hobby, casual reading can expand the creative aspects of the mind. Maybe you learn a new word or see a clever sentence structure you’d like to try out in your own WIP. On the flip-side, don’t use reading an excuse to compare yourself to other authors. Doing so will only put you in a deeper spin-cycle of self-doubt and only serve to heighten your insecurities.

2. CHANGE YOUR CANVAS

Does it feel clunky and dragging to tap the keys on your laptop? Do the words look “wrong” on the page? Is the blinking cursor driving you into an irrational, eye-twitching rage?

Maybe it’s time to switch the canvas.

Tap on your phone or tablet. Go back to the old-fashioned pen and paper. The joy of the 21st century is that we now have limitless supplies of technology at or disposal.

Using software like OneDrive, the MS word app and Google. Docs is great for doing a spot of canvas-jumping.

This tip might be completely useless to you, or it might help you become one again with your writing. When I do this, it often helps the words flow better. Why? I don’t know. Maybe it’s psychological. But it works!

3. CALL THE CAVALRY!

Still stuck? Then it’s time to call the cavalry- aka- the writing community.

Your writer buddies get it. They understand writers block. They understand your frustration. Your tears. They’ve been through it themselves. So call upon them to give you some words of motivation or give you that kick up the behind you’ve secretly been needing. If you’re not getting involved in the writing community, you’re shooting yourself in the foot. Nowadays it’s easy to connect with other writers/authors. Twitter, Tumblr and Wattpad are a few platforms that spring to mind. Use hashtags! Talk to people! I’m as introverted as they come and even I have met some lovely people out there on ye olde web. Friends help friends. Get yourself out there.

4. PERFECTION IS UNACHEIVABLE.

As writers we have this annoying urge to get it perfect on the first try. We want our prose to be flawless, our dialogue on point and our descriptions to be an instant portal into another world.

When we don’t feel like that is happening- we go a tad bat-shit crazy.

Wanting something to be perfect, or being a perfectionist, can actually be a very valuable trait for certain aspects of life- but not if you’re a writer on the first draft of your story.

Editing the same scene/paragraph/chapter over and over will not only lead to zero progress on the rest of the book, but also drive you into a black, churning pit of despair. It’s like running on a treadmill trying to chase a carrot dangling on a string. You can’t reach it without tiring yourself out and making yourself feel like proverbial poop.

Self-editing as you go is okay, but there has to come a point where you stop and continue with the story.

There’s no flowery way to sugarcoat this: perfection (on the first go) is unachievable. Remember, you can work with rubbish. You can edit it later. You can’t edit a blank page.

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BBG trainer Kayla Itsines: Alcohol is ‘poison, ‘ but carbs sure aren’t

Instagram fitness queen Kayla Itsines “ve never” consume at McDonalds, but she insists she has had a cheeseburger.

For anyone who has followed Itsines journey to becoming an international phenomenon importance a reported $46 million, that tidbit may come as a surprise. After all, the 26 -year-old( whose name is declared Its-See-Ness) has apparently obstructed her media chart picture-perfect to fit her character: online personal trainer to 12 million admirers on Facebook and 7 million on Instagram. Not to mention, she is an inspirational flesh to the countless women whove bought into her buzzed-about Bikini Body Guide, a 12 -week fitness and nutrition programme thats set off a batch of hashtags on Instagram, including #bbg( tagged in 5.8 million poles) and #bbgcommunity( tagged in 2.6 million poles ).

#bbgprogress @annasfit advancement using my #bbg curriculum! She says I hope these motivate others as much as me. Its sunny again so it necessitates bikinis! — The right photo is about 2,5 years ago and the correct one yesterday. Good acts take time. http://ift.tt/1qtdY6U app

A post shared by KAYLA ITSINES (@ kayla_itsines) on Jun 8, 2017 at 1:34 pm PDT

Does she drink alcohol? Its poison, Itsines has been quoted enunciating. Has she ever had chicken pieces? Nope, she told Fox News. Favorite pizza? Supreme with lots of veggies and, in Australia, where shes from, pineapple.

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What shed be if she wasnt a personal manager: A educator! she exclaimed. What category? Fitness!

Original? No. But when you get to know Itsines in person, theres no question she’s enthusiastic about her work.

— 3 STEPS TO LEARN HOW TO DO A PULL UP — This is for the girls asking me This is my first attempt at putting verse on my videos … IT DIDN’T GO AS PLANNED OKAY ….work with me here people hahaha. ANYWAY !! Let me just say this doesn’t happen over night. You need to practice each step until they are ALL mastered! Then you can attempt an unassisted chin up/ pull up http://ift.tt/1qtdY6U app

A post shared by KAYLA ITSINES (@ kayla_itsines) on Apr 21, 2017 at 12:11 am PDT

Check this out, Itsines enunciated, pulling out her iPhone and showing off her newest curriculum, BBG Stronger, on the SWEAT app, for which shes collaborated with managers Sjana Elise and Kelsey Wells, two other rising stars in the fitness nature.( Itsines program schools wives how to incorporate heavines machines at the gym into their workouts .) As a cluster of female peers delivering by assembled around her post-interview, Itsines giddily scrolled through the differences among boasts each move boasts a digital exhibition by Itsines, ended with a timer to help users stay on track motivating quenched oohs and ahs.

Forbes lately called the Adelaide native the most influential fitness personality worldwide a claim shes earned through promoting her diet and fitness platforms, works, in-person bootcamps, and custom stock, like yoga mats and foam rollers, on her site.

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Itsines fame, she told Fox News, has grown organically through an online community of women who inspire each other. On her social media details, you wont find person reproaching or recommendations to cut carbs( one of the most difficult mistakes Itsines meets American maidens see ), but instead, you will see inspirational mentions encouraging self-love, her followers side-by-side metamorphosi photos, and snapshots of fruit dishes and Itsines rock-hard abs. Suffice it to told she’s facilitated produce the charge for the growing body-confidence movement on Instagram.

26 today I feel like some of “youve had” literally watch me “re growing up” !! So Thankyou for all your foundation over the past few years and happy birthday to anyone who shares the same birthday with me !! http://ift.tt/1qtdY6U app

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Ive been a female-only trainer my entire life I started out at a female-only personal schooling centre, answered Itsines, who got into the industry just before her 19 th birthday. I know girls, Im a woman myself, I know what they crave, I know how they conclude, I know how they feel.

Fox News: You descent out of college to become a personal manager, started working at a small gym in your hometown of Adelaide, and connected Instagram on a whim after your business marriage and boyfriend, Tobi Pearce, promoted “youve got to” do so. But at what spot did you know that you had really made something large-scale?

Itsines: World Tour in 2015 was big because I got to hear folks floors who followed my planned, and I got to hear how I changed “peoples lives”. As a coach, you sort of anticipate, Well, you did that because you put in the hard work and you put in the effort. But they were so insistent in went on to say that, No, Kayla, it was you. You gave me the confidence, you gave me the persuasivenes. I was standing there supposing, This is amazing. This is changing families lives.

Fox News: How do you stay sanded?

Itsines: My family dirts me so much better. Theyre a big Greek family, and I live a time from my grandparents, who dont pronounce any English. They know what I do, but its almost like they dont attention. They dont think of me as anything special or as Kayla Itsines from Instagram. Its only that Im their granddaughter. They still yell at me when Im belatedly!

My baby – I love you! @tobi_pearce http://ift.tt/1qtdY6U app

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Fox News: Youve altered millions of womens lives. What has that been like?

Itsines: Thats an indefinable detect. I dont know if youve ever knowledge someone coming up to you and supposing, Youve changed my life, but you can feel that passion, and you try to hard not to yell and not to hug them forever.

@chasingfitnessdreams I’m so proud of you !! Progress expending my #bbg platform! She adds “I have struggled with my heavines and self confidence for a years. I was pretty tiny my whole life until I procured my desire for nutrient. I would eat what I wanted, when I wanted without exerting, I simply didn’t really care what it would do to me. Then once I seemed uncomfortable with how I searched I would urgently try to lose the heavines again until I was smaller then do it all over again! This messed up my metabolism and built me so sad! I have now noticed poise and learnt myself that I can have the nutrients I cherish whilst exercising to perceive large and keep in shape. Having additional load on me formed me feel tired, grumpy, breathless, bloated and miserable .. some people may say I gazed better before .. and to me that is a flattery but I simply want everyone to remember .. it DOESN’T MATTER what you look like .. it’s how you Find that are important. And I feel astonishing thanks to finding Kayla who attains me want to feel the best I can, so thanks girl ‘ I have 10 weeks until my sisters wedding and I am so excited to wear my bridesmaids dress find self-confident ” http://ift.tt/1qtdY6U app

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Fox News: How do you pick the person or persons to boast on your Instagram?

Itsines: This is something I expend a lot of season on, and its not necessarily someone who appears a certain acces or talks a certain style. Its someone whos super inspiring, and I have to be able to go on their profile, should be noted that theyve done the program, should be noted that theyre a positive party, and see that they actually have a pilgrimage that other women can follow and be inspired by.

@victoria. malmbbg 14 weeks advancement expending my #bbg curriculum !! stupendous …. did I forget to mention she is also a baby of TWO http://ift.tt/1qtdY6U app #bbgprogress

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Fox News : What are some of the most difficult misconceptions you watch dames construct when theyre trying to change their bodies?

Itsines: One of the biggest gaffes Ive understood wives build in America is the cutting-out-carbs act. Its, I want to look like this when truly, they should focus on how they appear rather than how they gaze. It should be: Im gonna do this to stimulate myself happier, so in turn, I experience beautiful. Thats truly a mindset Im trying to teach women.

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Another mistake wives obligate would be going too hard too fast. As wives, we have theatres where we get this sudden reason, we are seeking to do everything Im so motivated, Im gonna “re going to the” gym, Im gonna work out for hours and hours and they work out, theyre super sore, they cant continue it, and they become unmotivated. Its just about taking happenings step by step: maybe doing a seven-minute workout and making it into a 14 -minute workout the next week. Its about slowly improving your workout up until you feel good rather than pushing it very far.

Fox News: Whats your advice for someone who is working out and trying to get more physically fit, but is not realise develops?

Itsines: Take a step back and is to ensure that theyre cozy with their training regime, gobbling the right foods, and boozing enough irrigate. Sometimes, its just about devouring more and doing less thats something thats a very hard abstraction to move to ladies, specially here in the U.S.

@mysweatlife amazing develop photo To one of the most manner and hard working girls I know … you are absolutely killing it !! I am so freakin proud of you http://ift.tt/1qtdY6U app #bbg #bbgprogress

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Fox News: Have you always been strong and fit? And if not, what challenges did you overcome to achieve the body you have today?

Itsines: I have always been fit Ive been into basketball since I was 5 years old. But in terms of forte, that took a lot of building up. I did that through basketball training and training in the gym. Nonetheless, Ive always been really, very happily married within myself, and thats what I try to push to dames that I contemplate the more you do gradually, the better you start to feel.

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Fox News: Any advice for women struggling with organization confidence?

Itsines: We could have the best organizations in the world, but if we dont feel good on the inside, it doesnt question. I ever say to parties, Contemplate about the most beautiful party you know. Theyre not beautiful because they have a beautiful figure! You dont mention, Oh my best friend or the person I adore the most is so beautiful because her body searches any particular acces. Its because she makes me laugh, because shes smart, because shes here for me. Beauty comes from the inside, and the more that ladies start focusing on that, the more beautiful people become, including themselves.

Ladies, what’s your favourite organization area to workout !?! Comment below! http://ift.tt/1qtdY6U app

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Fox News: Your strategy is truly based on helping women become strong , not skinny what would you say to anyone who doesnt contemplate strong is sexy or attractive?

Itsines: Strong is always sex and attractive! And the word strong what does that intend? Because forte comes from within, and BBG Stronger is a program that promotes dames strolling into the gym with trust and experiencing self-confident as they walk out. When youre self-confident within you, it constructs and it extends, and it glistens out of you.

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Fox News: Your Instagram is of great root of brainchild and funding. Can you speak a little to why having that sort of support is really important for people who are on a fitness passage?

Itsines: The translations are certainly relatable you can go onto the page and find someone who looked like you before, or who ingest the method you do, or was living in the same country you do. I think that relatability is really nice to have, so “youre not” looking at one particular being suppose, Well, I cant dine that or I cant do that.

@healthylife. iv change employing my #bbg program !! http://ift.tt/1qtdY6U app #bbgprogress

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Fox News: Your programs are large-scale on poise in that they involve heavines discipline, cardio, extending and resting and, on the nutrition side, even dessert! Why is this mixture so important for producing outcomes?

Itsines: Balance is important in life. It keeps us sane! Why, as wives, shouldnt we be able to have our dinner and eat our dessert? Why shouldnt we have that? For illustration, last nighttime I had some pasta and chocolate after, and I dont feel bad because I chew health and I work out. Everything in moderation!

Just having a little moment of refection. I feel like the last few years has been an absolute whirlwind! When life gets busy, you often don’t get the chance to stop and think about what you’ve achieved along the way! Time is transferring by no matter what you do. So why stress? Why get worked up? Why obsess so much better when you can be happy and enjoy your life instead! I know that’s easier said than done sometimes, but genuinely when you think about it, you SHOULD be happy. You should be able to celebrate every moment. Time will pass no matter what…..so you may as well be happy and do what you cherish. http://ift.tt/1qtdY6U app #bbg photo credit – @alexpreview

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Fox News: Do you ALWAYS dine healthy? Whats something you enjoy chewing that beings might not expect?

Itsines: Greek cakes! Theyre Greek tarts with sugar and walnuts.( Itsines mothers are from Kos, Greece .)

Fox News: You swerved 26 in May, and youve already fulfilled more than most women your age. Do you ever feel like, Where do I run from here?

Itsines: No! My patrons are the perfect speciman that age was nothing. Some of them are 40, 45, 50 years old and have the energy levels of a 20 -year-old. For me, whats next is facilitating more women and reading how I can do that to its implementation of getting feedback from all levels of society and with BBG. Its just so exciting.

Flashback !! My favourite thought in the world is satisfying my #bbg girls. I have left every single one of the boot camps, gone to my inn chamber, sat on my plot, set my honcho in my hands and cried. Not from sadness, I wasn’t sad at all! I was the terminated opposite in fact. I was overwhelmed with so much better joy and pride! Until I encountered you girls, I had no idea how much POSITIVE change was appear in all regions of the world. I got to hear all of your stupendous floors and how #bbg has changed your life or the life of someone you love. Even now, my sees ocean as I’m writing this because it builds me think back to all the amazing times that I have with you all. All I can say is thank you and that I am so so so sanctified so be able to meet you girls and hear your narratives. I would Desire for you to berth in specific comments below and tell others why you started the #bbg and how it changed your life. I want to show wives that everyone’s floor is different and we are all here for different reasons, but with one discontinue point … health and merriment http://ift.tt/1qtdY6U app #bbgstronger

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* This interview has been edited for span and clarity .

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