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oh! also! while we're on the subject of pride month and Damien and A Neon Darkness, that character of course would be NOTHING without the incredible voice behind him - Charlie Ian. the audiobook of AND is sO GOOD CHARLIE IS SO GOOD and also Charlie is a trans woman and uses she/her pronouns and she and I both thought people might like to know that!!!!
#the bright sessions#damien#and yes she was cool with me making this post!!!!!#i also told her that - like - through the years we had sO many lesbians email and be like#'i'm a lesbian but damien does something to me'#and i'm just saying....the lesbians knew#they knew they were listening to a sexy woman#incredible foresight on their part tbqh#charlie ian#and YES she's still going by charlie!#she's fully out now and when she saw my AND post she texted me and was like 'you should a make a post that's like btw charlie's a woman now#so that's this post! she's not really on social media she never has been#so if you talk about charlie and her amazing work she/her is the way to go!#obviously all my old posts talking about her will be using the wrong pronouns#so this is an update on that#lauren makes things
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well that was a shortlived good feeling about my job
#maybe i should just become unemployed. maybe i should just suffer!#recap of todays further events .#that supervisor? who i kinda didnt already like but now absolutely hate?#she came down to confirm that i wasnt leaving. okay . and then she fucking tells me#oh we're going to get another person to help out from this other company. we were going to do that bc we thought you were leaving#but she thinks that even if im staying there should be another person on this floor. bc apparently more has to be done#and there are 'constant complaints' abt this floor . which doesnt make sense to me bc there shouldnt be#and so we're waiting to see what the manager decides but hes on fucking vacation and wont get back until. next week??#she said she was gonna email him and like right after she left i emailed and texted him explaining everything#and trying to very nicely say hey what the fuck are you doing you don't need to hire anyone else#and if im doing a bad job fucking tell me so i can do it better. bitch#and she had the nerve to fucking tell me when she was talking to me#that i wont find an easier job than this one#well if its so fucking easy why are we hiring someone else#by the way getting that extra person from this other company doesnt cost them anything which is why theyre doing it i think#which is making me not feel good abt my own future lmao. like why would they keep paying me when they can get someone for free#and she was saying all this stuff like oh you have it so good here we dont write you up i do all this stuff to help you like . ok#i didnt ask you to come downstairs w the coffee order and if you wanted me to i would come up . god#but the thing of me not being able to find a better job like wow! what if i killed you. for saying that to my face#and she talks abt how shes been w the company 20 years ok and that doesnt give you an excuse to treat me like a child. jesus#anyway im very pissed off and not enjoying my work situation lol. i dont wanna do this anymore#but looking at other jobs im so unemployable. sigh
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I have an interview tomorrow for some reason I don’t feel like going at all like my energy is so drained.
#This is for another place like I am sick of waiting and getting rejected.#mental health is really kicking in and my old professor hasn’t emailed back yet#I don’t know if ramadan has anything to do with it or im nervous#My brother was like apply for remote jobs and I have checked they need experience and also they look hard as heck#I am seriously so scared about my future like it’s freaking me out.#I have been crying and throwing up.#my melody#personal#text#sanrio
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hahaha hey you guys guess what. you'll never believe it. got the guy who's in charge of my fraud case on the phone and he was like "who'd you give one-time security codes to yesterday" and i was like "the guy who called me from the fraud department after they noticed a weird login in florida??" and he was like "that was the fuckin hacker. you got got. IDIOT!!!!!!!!!!" i handed my entire savings over to a fucking guy on the phone on a silver platter. like some kind of fuckin rube. bro
#IT IS OK THOUGH I HAVE BEEN SORTING IT OUT#account is LOCKED DOWN! card is DELETED! fraud paperwork has been FILED! i have requested a fraud alert AND credit freeze#from the NATIONAL CREDIT BUREAU!#a friend of mine is taking me to MAINE next saturday to go to the BANK! i sent an email to my landlord asking if i can pay rent by CHECK!#i went to my other bank and deposited my BONDS! so i have some MONEY! to pay RENT!#i also got a new debit card from them. and made sure i could use my old checks.#i also bought some STAMPS while i was out and a BIRTHDAY PRESENT for a FRIEND#now i am going to start switching over some auto deposits#so when i get my paycheck on tuesday i will actually get it.#i feel so STUPID but i think i have done all i can to fix this. i am feeling better about it#by next weekend i will have my money again. it's all fine#and hopefully next time i will not get got so easily. lol.#anyway dont get got by people pretending to be your bank i guess. i did think it was weird how many questions they asked but..#they ALWAYS ask lots of questions at the bank!!!!!#i got a text message FROM the bank saying they would be calling me soon and then the next call was from the scammer#and then like a half hour later got one from the bank and was confused bc they'd just 'called me'#anyway. it'll be fine. scary for a while but at least i have things i can do to make it better. it's all good#genuinely feeling like i ought to take out like a thousand bucks cash and keep it in my desk to replace my bonds tho tbh hahah#just in case something like this happens again. you never know. what would i have done if i DIDNT have those yknow#ok thank u all for being along on this journey with me
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idk where else to go twitter sucks bluesky sucks. Why cant i just have a diary for my friends to read Urgh
#im prob not leaving twt anytime soon im Way too attached to my priv of [ checks calendar ] 5 years. Five years yes#which is still insane to think about like That account has been w me thru my entire transition thats so scary#but yeah whatever . ill try to poke back in here from time to time i dont have much to post atm#unless you guys fw tokusatsu and will stand me posting kamen rider fanart which In that case stick around ill get something out eventually#but yeah umm scratches ass. Whatever the internet is scary and evil im going back to personal sites and communicating via emails like#sending electronic carrier pigeons to all my friends :heart:#im currently in a burger king waiting for my agent so that we can go check an apartment out Hope everyone is doing well#text tag
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hey do you guys want to see the new fucked up cat i bought off ebay
#🔪.text#it's really really cool#it wasn't supposed to get here til tomorrow#and then this morning i got an email saying it'd be here at close to 6 pm#and then it got here at 3 pm#i finally opened the box at 4:40 and ohhh my god it's so much better in person#i'm so in love#i think this may be my favorite purchase yet#i've been completely miserable for most of the day and for most of yesterday too.#getting it today was definitely good timing and good for me#i really needed something to lift me up lol#not sure what i'm gonna call it yet#the company it was made by has the name boone for the original plush#but this thing's been modified and so i'm not sure i wanna keep the name boone for it
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everyday i wake up and have to start a new boss challenge called dealing with my mother
#not a single speck of consideration for whether or not i'm busy or tired or sleeping#she doesn't even TRY. the text is too small? ok i'll make it bigger. but wait now she's lazy to read. doesn't even want to try to understan#we had this whole thing yesterday where she was raising her voice at me bc she didn't get that#basically free shipping if products r over $500. our Total (incl. delivery) was $488 and she wanted to add on but i told her no... delivery#is $70. and she wasnt getting me so she was raising her voice like holy shittt not everything has to result in you yelling!!!!#you wake me up when i'm sleeping just to help you. you disturb me when i'm studying omggg girl please....#i remember her [ why does it say– what transaction? i didn't make any transaction ] the text was literally-#[ no current transaction history ] smth like that like MOTHER???????????? and i think she's been telling my sister i'm complaining abt it#should i die. 1 like i'll do it#power outage started so i'm going to stay in my room and nap until lunch fml#but i have to go out and help my mom with an app thing first bc ofc#she admits shes just not bothered to READ. when it comes to emails or ordering food or anything like ohvm mymgodog#and shes so short tempered fuckkk ?!?#AH. EDIT BC I REMEMBERED. when she got an email today.. her application was rejected#for smth smth. anyways it told her she could login to the website using her birth info. (e.g 1870....) and she was like#u typed something wrong bc why does it say 1870... LIKE MOTHER ITS AN EXAMPELREFKWKSABHAHHHHH#THE EXAMPLE DIDNT EVEN HAVE HER NAME?!?£#💭#cw rant#negative
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okay officially not going to my weird ass five year high school reunion, because i am “officially” shooting my first concert that night :)
#it’s such a small artist but i’m still like 🥲 because#even though i am already acquainted with the artist#this was set up through their manager without their involvement (and they apparently did not recognize my email alakalskks) so i know theyre#actually hiring me for my talent and not my connection which just makes me so 🥺#because photography has always been just a hobby of mine and i never want to change that#but this is so exciting!!!!! and i feel so silly and giddy about it#(this also was the scary email i had to send the other day)#like i’ve been anxiously checking my email for the response thinking i was gonna get rejected#eris: text
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resisting the urge to yell and cuss out my landlord
#EMAIL AND TEXT. NO RESPONSE. I NEVER GET UPDATES ABOUT ANYTHING EVERYONE ELSE DOES BUT NOT ME#my roommates just shrug it off like no this has been fucking bothering me and now theres genuine fucking consequences!
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today should be a t break day
bc I'll need it to be more effective in the coming days if we see family, and then I'll have the survey shifts
but since late last night i keep randomly nearly breaking into tears and thinking abt the stupidest shit that needs to stay in the box in my brain
so idk. maybe it will be. it is thus far. but I'm not leaving my room without a container of some edible or another in my pocket either
#text post#no idea where the fuck this came from and it kept me up until fucking four in the fucking morning#but only NEARLY crying my body/brain still won't let me FULLY cry#and i did email my prior doc with a 'can i ask u just abt this one current symptom and if it is abt what i think & ill send u 20 bucks even'#she said no to the twenty bucks but said yeah it does sound like my ptsd has been triggered by multiple things over the last year#and the not being able to cry is a part of it. my body's trying to protect me from feeling anything abt it and breaking down#and part of that means not letting the tears fall so there's no physical acknowledgement of any feelings#which is what i was thinking was going on but it's nice to confirm it with someone who knows their shit#doesn't fix it but at least i know.#the thing is that the triggers are like. good? bc im in a healthier safer environment now with ppl that don't do what my mum & fam do to me#but it means my brain is learning just how much of a lot of it Wasn't Normal and was actually Pretty Harmful and that's.#i want my brain to just accept and get over that already tbh. okay so that's the case it doesn't change anything????#why are we still thinking abt it and having feelings over it at this point bc that feels like a waste of time#there are no apologies I'll get for things that happened from when i was younger and there's no closure it just Is What It Is#I'm tired of even wanting to cry over it when I'd rather be throwing myself into making money & being productive art-wise#it manages to interrupt so many fucking facets of my life like#whatever. anyway considering a music au new draft where ed and izzy meet seth. and immediately offer to kill him for Pickles aksnsjfnfgj
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my impulse decision for the night was to just pay off my student loans out of spite which means i will wake up sometime in the next couple months to a news story about the sweeping student loan forgiveness they tried to give us a couple years ago going into effect bc that would be my luck
#having this shit is not worth whatever credit score it gives me goodbye#i'm not going to keep making payments for another ten years to qualify for pslf thanks#paying for the privilege of marking everything from the dept of education as spam in my email for the rest of my life#this has been a useless text post you may now resume your normal programming#i have so much bitterness about the way college played out for me and i would like to never think about it again so BE GONE
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at church reading the hymn lyrics like "hey i learned that word from genshin!" and "hey i learned that word from genshin!" and "hey i learned that word from translating song lyrics so that i could write genshin fic!" and "hey i learned that word from genshin!" and finally "omg i learned that word from the king's avatar"
#花話#it's funny bc i Objectively know more cn than the last time i was here seven years ago which is great#bc the last time i learned any cn in a classroom was seven years ago lol#and i think that's probably a combination of Very Much Not Wanting To Lose What Skills I Have +gnshn n similar giving me occasional practice#but yeah of the words i Remember where i learned them it's like 85% gnshn 14% lyric translation n 1% king's avatar lmao#been trying to connect my laptop to the mobile hotspot i have here and Suffering(tm)... pain and agonie#i mentioned this on main but apparently i just Cannot have a line acct for w/e reason#(i suspect it's bc i made an acct in america on my phone number but temp sim card --> diff phone number here)#(and since i didn't expect this i didn't tie the acct to an email --> i am unable to have line)#however my mother and i have graduated past emails and are now just using regular texting to communicate it seems#ANYWAY i get to see the jade cabbage today. i hope. and other things i also hope!!#i was going somewhere w/the line thing OH it's bc on the way home from church my mom saw a sign that said 元氣 and was like 'genki desu!'#it is always kind of a surprise to hear my mom speak jp bc it sounds simultaneously clumsy and full of confidence#she has friends in japan (college roommate + old pen pal + i have no idea she's lived Quite a life i feel) n i once found her old letters#and was kind of surprised bc they were like entirely in jp so obviously she could read n understand a lot#but anyway my mom went on to talk abt how taiwan continues to have significant japanese influence to this day n i was like yes... weebs c':#it's also interesting bc we'll go sightseeing n she'll be like “ye that's from american/jp occupation times but they gave back the land'#'so now it's xyz' n i'll be like. almost 'tails.jpg A Colonialism.'
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literally the worst day. thee worst day. the worst day. i have canned wine and good mythical morning and enough weed to kill a large grasslands animal though.
#like actually what the fuck is my day#just too much happening and ive been up since five#my laptop is broken and my mom emailed me (we dont speak)#and then texted me to respond. after saying she wouldnt manipulate me to talk to her in her email.#one of my friends (not on tumblr) was shitty to me today!#and i miss my friends a lot :(#my pet twink professor has been incredibly kind to me in the past 24 hours though so lfg
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ive gotta. get it together a little bit i think. holy shit i really did not mean for the tags to get THAT long
#i have a colin provolone in ny head rn. i just need you to lock it in a liittle bit.#it’s just the worst possible time.#i do actually have to do the hard scary stuff.#and i am fully capable of doing them and i am a competent adult even if i’m realizing need a little more support than i’d like to admit#and actually i feel much much better after those things are done#and ACTUALLY i’ve also made a lot of progress!! i think 14 year old me would be like. shocked to see the person i am now#but either way. gotta lock it in a liiiittle bit.#tomorrow will be. a lot of texting and emailing back.#a lot of ‘hi sorry it’s taken me so long to get back to you!’s tomorrow#AND ONE PHONE CALL. im way better at those now! pretty cool!#also getting my car inspected this week. miiiiight need to bring a friend for that one#sometimes i get scared at the mechanic because there’s always a 90% chance that one of the mechanics will be the most drop dead gorgeous ga#**gay person#person ive ever seen in my life and then i have to be like uhhhhh. ahahaha. heres my shit ass car with the elvira and snoopy#bumper stickers on it. thanks so much!#OKAY. alright. hello. hyping myself up for the rest of the week#ive been a little bit off kilter bc i didnt have a whole lot of structure last week or this one since my classes ended#but im feelin a little more optimistic#i am a competent adult who is good at his job and has many good qualities and frankly he is getting hotter and more confident also as well.#<- affirmations btw.
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haunted by so many unreplied messages
#meins#idk why it is so hard rn to do anything#i haven't replied to someone's text message in two days and they just sent me an email#i already adjusted my schedule according to their message but replying to it? impossible#i was fine two weeks ago#idk what changed last week#just realized with horror than one message has been sent on 09.03#for fuck's sake! i could have sworn it's only been a month at most#i think my plans to go live in a cave are my best option#april has been weird
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ANYWAY people aren't a commodity, they're unique precious individuals who deserve to be loved and cared for, and that means that we shouldn't treat them like a product to be used and then thrown out AND THAT INCLUDES FRIENDSHIPS.
people talk a lot about how our society doesn't acknowledge the pain of "friendship breakups" and it's TRUE and it's because we tend to treat interpersonal relationships like business transactions or, worse, like subscription streaming services that we just discontinue whenever we don't feel like paying the money to watch those particular shows anymore. because no!!! relationships with other human beings aren't subscriptions that we pay into for their presence in our lives!!! that's objectification of living breathing people and it's WRONG!!!!
you DO have to invest in your friendships, that's very true, and sometimes relationships break because one party or another wasn't respecting the terms of the relationship (this means that boundaries do exist and sometimes if someone is hurting you in ways that simply aren't acceptable you have to move away from that relationship). but in our modern age it's really easy to see relationships of all sorts, especially friendships, as only existing for what you can get out of them. how they make you feel. and that's really bad and harms everyone involved, including the person buying into the lie that those friendships exist for what they can get out of them.
#^^ screaming all of that into my own brain lately#bc the devil is trying reeeeealllllll hard to convince me that all my friendships are hurting me and I should drop them#and that is a LIE it's a LIE FROM THE PIT OF HELL#God's hand has been SO present in all of my current friendships and idk how I would've survived without them#they are the tangible visible outpouring of God's grace in my life#and I am so overwhelmingly thankful for them#and even though I'm really struggling to send texts and DMs and emails right now I will keep yelling at the top of my lungs#that these are my FRIENDS and they CARE ABOUT ME and I must not allow myself to stop believing that and let them go#gurt says stuff#reminders#friendship
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