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Bon Iver’s hauntological i,i (William Fleming)

Image Copyright: Bon Iver / Jagjaguwar 

In this essay, William Fleming takes a detailed look at bon iver’s new album, i,i: through acid communist hauntology to oedipal melancholia and the future’s cybernetic fracture. 

> This week I’ve been reading Mark Fisher and listening to Bon Iver’s new album on repeat so I combined the two.

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> Mark Fisher, in his Ghosts of My Life (2014), laments the dearth of creativity in popular music after the turn of the century, the loss of experimentation and of hearing something New and Radical, and the persistent replication of past methods, sounds and images. Fisher was no Adorno though (I don’t think anyway?). His essays are emotive and developed from a deep desire for a compassionate politics; Ghosts evokes the pathos of his seminal Capitalist Realism (2009). One of the key themes associated with his work on pop culture, is the use of the Derridean term ‘Hauntology’: the haunted ontology of futures that never came to be, the spectral disturbance of time and place as the possibility of political becoming dissipates. As he details in Ghosts, Fisher initially used hauntology as a genre-defining term for music. He identified artists which were 'suffused with an overwhelming melancholy; and they were preoccupied with the way in which technology materialised memory', this results in us being made 'conscious of the playback systems’ and of ‘the difference between analogue and digital’, 'hovering' out of reach behind the media’. Fisher uses this conceptual framework to analyse a raft of musicians and their work but there is a consistent emphasis on the political narratives of class and race which shape these cultural offshoots.

> Despite being one of the biggest records of this summer – and thus perhaps a bit bait for me to discuss? – Bon Iver’s i,i bares all the hallmarks of the hauntological genre: melancholia, the clash of digital and analogue, anachronism, the suggestion of political solidarity, artistic experimentation.

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> First a confession: I first listened to Bon Iver because, in 2011, there was a girl on twitter I fancied who posted a video to Birdy’s Skinny Love. Birdy’s rendition is a wisp of a song, sad and grasping and completely lost on a shallow sixteen-year old and probably rightfully so. Failing to select the next song, I’m guessing Bon Iver’s original version played. For the first time I felt I’d discovered adult Sad Music. None of the ghd straightened, dip-died, angst-ridden emo tunes I’d gotten into a few years prior to impress my first girlfriend; or the one ballad acting as the penultimate track on one of the indie-rock albums from my older brother’s excessive collection. (- Does anyone know how to recycle these properly?). I would wallow in performative sadness playing immediately gratuitous and instantly gratifying XBOX games, quickly repeating the heartbeating guitar of Lump Sum on For Emma, Forever Ago or the wails of Holocene from Bon Iver, Bon Iver as I pined for my yet-to-be second girlfriend.

> I went off Bon Iver for a few years: these days, the quiet acoustic melancholia of these first two albums doesn’t fit with any aspirational sense of masculinity of mine. Being a man and being non-toxically emotional isn’t about listening to acoustic guitars and barely audible snares whilst you lie sulking in your room or on the drizzled walk to the library or job you hate. Instead it’s about communication, solidarity and empathy – ‘I’d be happy as hell, if you stayed for tea’. And so, when 22, A Million came out I was into it. Everyone thought it was a bit shit the first time few times they listened to it but this gave me cover to pretentiously purvey that they just didn’t get it and listen to it over and over. It was still the same anguished voice of Justin Vernon – but it was finally coming to life. Revived through stretched synthesizers, neologisms which made you question the contributors on A-Z Lyrics, and deconstructed bass. The piano riff on 33 “God” interrupted by alien helium-infused voices and the stammering, looping saxophone of 45 are still highlights. Listening now, 22, A Million initiated the hauntology of Bon Iver.

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> At times, i,i feels like Bon Iver’s latest album is a playback of their first album, but one done through a signal sent by an analogue walkie-talkie found on the abandoned spaceship from Alien: Isolation – itself maybe the most harrowing video-game I’ve ever played, one which is played in constant anticipation of being found. Listen to the intermittent signal of Holyfields,: the bleeps and radio fuzz a beacon we sent out into space, only for it to sporadically and hauntingly talk back at us – a cultural SOS signal.  

> i,i is the same guitar riffs from albums one and two but cybernetically fractured through time. The same syncopated kick drum but ripped out from the mid noughties and dumped in a Iain M. Banks novel or an episode in Love, Death + Robots. Fisher, quoting Derrida, quoting Hamlet: ‘the time is out of joint’. In these time fractures, it’s not just the music’s original location which is torn into the future, but also objective fragments of past culture: the sax (Sh’Diah) and violin strings (Faith) torn from eras when politics and music were still intertwined.

> The first track on the album, Yi, is garbage. But it is orbital astro-garbage – a notable anthropocenic feedback loop! – sitting uncomfortably at the stratosphere of an album which explicitly reflects on ecological destruction. Yi’s inaudible conversation and the ‘Are you recording, Trevor?’ set it up as a soundcheck for the album too. Including a soundcheck evokes Vernon’s emphasis on the album as a performance piece in the accompanying mini-documentary Autumn. In the doc, Vernon mentions the problem of ‘How is it going to be played live?’. Immediately, we are forced to imagine i,i as more than just another album on Spotify.

> Yi bleeds into iMi, a psychedelic echo of a track built from interspersing a melancholic vocals/arpeggio combo and an encroaching synth/dub beat combo. We is similarly eclectic, digitalised vocals juxtaposing with endearing, major-key sax. Following is Holyfields,, perhaps the most alien but most beautiful song on the album.

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> Hey, Ma is the headline single from the album. An ode to Vernon’s mother and a sense of the sunrise walk home after the summer party (I’ll try and avoid further seasonal references: the four albums are set up to represent the four seasons, i,i being autumn, but IMO this is pretty naff).

> There is a sense of time passing in Hey, Ma, a nostalgia for the yet to be – ‘Well you wanted it your whole life’ – but with this passing is a sense of desire – ‘I wanted all that mind, sugar / I want it all mine’ – and of becoming or evolving – ‘You’re back and forth with light’. Becoming is the famous Deleuzean postmodern motif; i.e. being is constantly flowing and reforming. Bon Iver’s becoming, however, is not a flow, but a hauntological wrench into the future state. The entire album feels as though you’re experiencing the tech-enhanced evolution of Bon Iver’s music. That skipping between soft indie and futuristic synth reminiscent of the OG Pokemon games when your Pokemon was evolving and it would flicker between its past and future states. But becoming is never complete. As Fisher highlights, ‘futuristic’ no longer refers to a time/space but is now merely an adjective. We’ll never hear the Bon Iver made entirely on digital tech.

> For Fisher, melancholia is a productive force of political resistance. He distances his ‘hauntological melancholia’ from that of Wendy Brown’s ‘left melancholia’ which ‘seems to exemplify the transition from desire (which in Lacanian terms is the desire to desire) to drive (an enjoyment of failure)’. Fisher’s melancholia, ‘by contrast, consists not in giving up on desire but in refusing to yield'. Under scrutiny, Bon Iver’s first two albums fail this melan-test – they are a spectacular, self-pitying self-indulgence. Self-pity as a common form of masochism. For Deleuze, thinking through Jung, thinking through Bergson (yeap, I know), masochism is always regressive, flipping the Oedipal on its head as a form of un-becoming.

> Is Vernon’s song to his mother a masochistic form of melancholia; a self-pitying reversal of the Oedipal? ‘I wanted a bath / “Tell the story or he goes”’; ‘Tall time to call your Ma / Hey Ma, hey Ma’. The type captured by Maggie Nelson in The Argonauts (2015) when reflecting on Ginsberg’s poem Kaddish, which is dripping in, in Nelson’s words, ‘misogynistic repulsion’. Or is Bon Iver’s a hauntological melancholia? One of stubborn resistance. The type of mother-son relationship photographed by Donald Weber in his response to Alison Sperling and Anna Volkmar’s conversation on the post-atomic (Kuntslicht, 39: 3/4). Weber’s photographs were taken over two years in Chernobyl. The, now fetishised, explosion in Chernobyl perhaps the example of the nuclear, a hauntological theme post-WWII, made material. The bursting of a political, biological and biopolitical reality which was never meant to be. Weber’s photo of a middle-aged man and his elderly mother is captioned: ‘Mothers sought to be photographed sitting close to their sons, in domestic scenes of proud companionability. Their eyes signal an unalterable communion. And more – elevation. A man’s mother transcends the material order, and rises easily above even the most squalid circumstances. It is the frank declaration of her biological supremacy: This is my child’. If it is this relationship captured in Hey, Ma, it may promise a spectre which can be made material. An artefact which can continue its evolution, its becoming. ‘Let me talk to em / Let me talk to ‘em all’.

> Finally, that Hey, Ma’s nostalgia is a culturally productive one is suggested by one of its more memorable lines: ‘I waited outside / I was tokin’ on dope / I hoped it all won’t go in a minute’. In Fisher’s posthumously published Unfinished Introduction to Acid Communism, he, when imagining the process of resistance and a new politics whilst citing Jefferson Cowie, writes 'these new kinds of workers – who “smoked dope, socialised interracially, and dreamed of a world in which work had some meaning” – wanted democratic control of both their workplace and their trade unions’. The curious, outdated use of ‘dope' in Vernon’s lyrics then mirrors Cowie’s use of 'dope', echoing Cowie’s nostalgia for a lost working-class culture of 1970s America. Fisher uses Cowie’s argument to piece together an acid communism, which I will return to, but this, surely consequential, similarity further constructs i,i as a contemporary hauntological album.  

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> Following Hey, Ma comes the Sunday-school piano of U (Man Like). Raising an image of a crisply ironed, white America, like that depicted in Robert Putnam’s Bowling Alone (2000), which acts as a reminder that nostalgia isn’t always productive. However, the nostalgia is continued with Naeem ‘Oh, my mind, our kids got bigger/ … / You take me out to pasture now’. Fisher asks ‘is hauntology, as many of its critics have maintained, simply a name for nostalgia?’. However, he argues that it is not a ‘formal nostalgia’ but one of solidarity and of a longing for the process of social improvement. Naeem, despite its nostalgia, continues the flickering between hope and despair. The joyful ‘More love / More love / More love’ and ‘I can hear, I can hear’; the anguished ‘I can hear crying’ and ‘What’s there to pontificate on now? / There’s someone in my head’. The latent and angelic child-like choir on Naeem another hauntological theme. As Fisher declares, ‘no doubt there comes a point when every generation starts pining for the artefacts of its childhood’. However, Vernon’s evoking of childhood is one perhaps linked to the, at times damaging, trope of ‘future generations’ in environmentalism. It is still a political longing though – ‘I’d Occupy that’. Occupy: that great post-2008 political uprising which dissipated into a mere exemplar in an undergraduate geography textbook.

> Next, Faith brings back the aliens from 33 “God” but this time, for attention, they’ve brought their clean guitar and slowly morph into the catholic choir we began to hear on Naeem. God died and, despite the sexy, liquidity of our modernity, we miss him.

> Marion momentarily brings us back from the cybernetically fractured semi-future. Back to the £3-coffee coffee-shop where you’re telling your friend that you think you and that girl will probably get back together but you need the time to be right. The hope is sucked back out; we’re back in capitalist realism and Arctic Monkey’s fourth (fifth?) album. Luckily, Salem restarts the signal to bring us back from our self-pity, dragging us to the obfuscation we were enjoying. Salem’s witches are still here and they’re pretty good at Ableton.

> Next, Sh’Diah grows from an autotuned prayer – ‘Just calm down (calm down) / And she’ll find time for the Lord’ - into a yearning saxophone riff/rift. But, alas, RABi, the album’s final song, returns us to a blues guitar and Vernon’s vocals. If the oscillation between past and future throughout i,i was a dialectic, the depressing outcome is ‘consumer capitalism’s model of ordinariness' (Fisher) of the neoliberal present. As in Fisher’s hauntology, the technologically-infused creativity of i,i is a lost future. Watching Vernon being interviewed feels like this. He’s got the Pacific-North-West hipster look: vegan but drives a V6 truck. Goes to the craft brewer’s bar and talks about that latest public health campaign to encourage men to talk about mental health over a pint but refrains from actually talking about depression. (Maybe serving beer in 2/3rd schooners means you never end up getting to the important part of the conversation?)

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> But why does it matter? Because it’s about political and cultural (and creative) imagination. Fisher’s last big, and tragically but appropriately unfinished, philosophy is that of Acid Communism. Maybe there is a future !

> Fisher mourned not only the flattening of pop music, but also the ‘culture constellated around music (fashion, discourse, cover art)’. In contrast to a digital album which you never perceive in any physical manner, Bon Iver have emphasised various forms of art in their work, ensuring a communal creativity. There are multiple iterations of the album cover art on public posters and on social media. More excitingly though, is the collaboration with WHITEvoid, a Berlin-based sculpture group/company, which is discussed on Autumn. Prepared for live performances, WHITEvoid have constructed an ensemble of floating mirrors and kinetic lighting made from ‘space-age metal’ and motion tracking sensors. An artistic contribution as ethereal and tech-enhanced as the accompanying music and one which aestheticises our material sciences. The lighting provided by WHITEvoid in collaboration with the experimentation in sound system, similarly shown on Autumn, constructs the performance of i,i as an ongoing innovation and experimentation. The effort put into the upcoming live performances of i,i ensure that it is a music to be experienced not merely consumed. In another discussion on Autumn, Michael Brown, Bon Iver’s Artistic Director, says ‘you have to be in the moment with other people, you have to be able to know that the person next to you is having the same communal experience’.

> In Krisis (2018:2), Matt Colquhoun sees acid communism as a “project beyond the pleasure principle” (2) and of an “experimental” politics. If the sounds of i,i are hauntological, then the spectre it suggests is one of acid communism. The acid is provided by its accompanying artistic experimentation and the communism is its emphasis on the political and the communal.

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Text: William Fleming

Published 30/8/19

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Tell us about ur bf & gf!!!

THIS IS LATE I MEANT TO ANSWER THIS THE OTHER DAY BUT OF COURSE!!!!!

SO!!!! My boyfriend's name is Vernon, and he is the worlds biggest sweetie!!! He's a doofus and a really big geek and he REALLY loves Pokémon and I know literally nothing about Pokémon but I've been trying to learn about it so him and our gf can geek to me about it!!! (Though I'd let them anyways, I love letting them ramble and seeing them happy!!!!) He's really funny, he's really caring and empathetic, he's so handsome and he's absolutely adorable, and he tries so hard all the time to make people happy!!! He's really smart too, and he struggles with social stuff a lot but he's gotten so much better over the past two years and I'm really proud of him!!! I love him so much 💕💕💕 Also he dresses like a white suburban dad mixed with a gay/grunge teenager and I love it??? Fashion baby!!!!!

My girlfriends name is Lucille, but she goes by Lucy!!!! She's beautiful, absolutely gorgeous and she's SO SMART!!!!! Like, genius level smart. Smartest girl in the room type thing. She's really protective and sweet and she tries really hard to be kind, and she's really sassy and a total smartass and I love it hehehe, she's always been really into punk/emo aesthetic and she loves rock music and has lots of piercings and she loves to cuddle too!!! She's also super strong both physically and like, emotions and willpower and stuff, and she's really awkward sometimes talking to people but she does her best, and she's always willing to stick up for her friends and fight for what she believes in!!! She's come a REALLY long way from when we first met and I'm so proud of her too!!!!! 💕💕💕💕💕

All three of us are trans, and we support each other with dysphoria stuff and they're so kind to me about my weird ass enby problems and they're both HUGE nerds, and we're both systems!!! We've known each other for a real long time, and I actually dated them before for like a year and a half (and then i majour league fucked everything up and got with ALEX ugh) but we're back together now and I'm really really happy and I hope they are too;;; I'm gonna send them a suprise box to their dorm for christmas so stay tuned for me posting about that!!!!! Or just like, love posting about them in general I love them so much you guys I want to marry them they mean so much too me ACK

If you wanna know more I'll gladly tell!!! I love talking about them so thank you for this ask!!!!! Love you guys!!!!! ❤️❤️❤️

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Beginners Guide to Memeteen

No one asked for this, but i made it anyways

General Info:

So the memeteen group signed under Pledis which also has Pristin, Nu’est, Orange Caramel and After School (Everyone has issues with Pledis don’t even get us started about them). 

Group name Seventeen with 13 members because 13 members, 3 units and 1 team equals 13 (also originally they had 17 members but this works too). 

They finally debuted on May 26, 2015 after being pushed back for far to long 

debuted with the amazing song Adore U, and so far have had 8 comebacks: Mansae, Pretty U, Very Nice, Boom Boom,  Don’t Want to Cry, Clap, Thanks, Oh My!

They also have an mv for their song Healing, Love Letter, Shining Diamond, Smile Flower, and Q&A (just scoups, woozi and vernon), Change Up (scoups, woozi, and hoshi)

Have 9 amazing albums: 17 Carat, Boys Be, Love & Letter (Repackaged), Going Seventeen, A|1, Teen,Age, Director’s Cut , and You Make My Day (buy the albums tho) 

They made their Japanese debut on May 16, 2018 with Call Call Call! and released an album called We Make You

Units

Hip-Hop Unit:

Scoups (leader), Wonwoo, Mingyu, Vernon

-created the masterpiece that is Check-In

Mansae Hip Hop Ver.

Trauma MV

Vocal Unit:

Woozi (leader), Jeonghan, Joshua, Dk, Seungkwan

-created the masterpiece that is Chocolate

Adore U Acoustic Ver.

Very Nice Acoustic Ver.

Pinwheel MV

Performance Unit:

Hoshi (leader), Jun, The8, Dino

Adore U Perf Ver.

Mansae Perf Ver.

-created the masterpiece that is Highlight rip carats

Lilili Yabbay MV

Seventeen-BSS

Hoshi, DK, Seungkwan

Just Do It

Just Do It Dance Practice

Members

Scoups/Seungcheol {info} aka the dad 

-So he’s the leader of memeteen, #1 dad lets be real, longest trainee in svt, someone please give this boy a puppy he just needs a dog in his life okay. super sweet and caring, best leader ever honestly no one else could handle those other 12 boys. 

-appeard in Nu’est Face MV, After School Blue’s ‘Wonder Boy’ MV, Happy Pledis ‘Love Letter’ MV (pledis boys ver)

Jeonghan {info} aka the mom

-one of his nicknames in angel, but don’t let that fool you, he’s a swindler. Will not hesitate to cheat watch out for this one. sleeps everywhere possible anytime possible. each comeback his hair gets shorter, lets just hope he doesn’t go bald. Exo’s Sehuns worst nightmare.

Joshua/Jisoo {info} aka the church boy

-Instagram

-Oh shua, our beloved meme and church oppa this is a very dead joke now plz dont use it but if you see it thats shua. 1/2 of american line. Seems quiet and normal but the longer you know him the weirder you realise he truely is. Has a weird obsession with aliens (1,2) Stan talent, stan pindropping shua. huge anime lover. He has also had pink and purple hair and every carat cried 

-beautifully covered Overcome  with Nu’est’s Minhyun

-The jokes that never die: Drink water, not Alcohol, when in doubt, sings Sunday Morning, and his crappy beautiful rapping

Jun/Junhui {info} aka the real mom of the group

-Crazy for you cover

-1/2 of china line. Best eye rolls the world will ever know. people call him greasy, hes not reall but whatever. very sassy. his legendary part in Mansae that makes him look like the McDonalds logo. Also the time he dressed up in an actually carrot costume. 

Films: The Pye-Dog {pt.1 pt.2} (sorry i couldn’t find it in one part), Ip Man: The Legend Is Born, Intouchable (a series)

Hoshi/Soonyoung {info} aka naega hosh

-Okay so choreographs all their dances goals so naturally, best dancer ever. LOUD. Also shinee’s biggest fanboy, if you thought that you were shinees biggest fan ur wrong its Hosh proof: 1, 2, 3. a cute little hamster i die everyday. 10 hours 10 minutes. Black belt in Taekwondo... why dont we ever get to see anything ??

-appered in Nu’est Face MV, and Hello Venus Venus MV

Wonwoo {info} aka rbf master

-was originally a singer, but switched to rapping before debuting, so not only does wonu have an amazing voice but can rap suuuuuper well, and can easily switch between the two its stunning. always calm and usually has an rbf but hes actaully really fun love our emo wonwoo. kinda reminds me of a sloth but i love him even more becasue of that lol

-appered in Nu’est Face MV, and Hello Venus Venus MV

Woozi/Jihoon {info} aka smol fairy devil

-fear him. He may look tiny and soft but he will crush you. Composes almost all of svt’s songs. Super cute and hes coming to except this as time goes on lmao. shortest member. one of the big reasons svt became a self producing group

- first to get a solo in svt called Simple

-appered in Nu’est Face MV, and Hello Venus Venus MV

Dk/Seokmin {info} aka literal sunshine

the sunshine of svt, always smiling. i saw a video of him crying once and my world shattered. LOUD pt2. super funny i love him. one of the most stable vocals in svt. can hit those high notes like nobody else. 

-has this beautiful cover

Mingyu {info} aka gaint germ

-Instagram

-walking puppy? yes actually he is. also a gaint germ (1,2) so get ready. sneezes everywhere then touches everything. can go from cute to sexy with no time in between its insane. If he’s not your bias he’s your bias wrecker. Wild orange hair durning Check In era end everyone made fun of him or loved it no in between.

-Svt’s personal hairstylist  

-appered in Nu’est Face MV, and Hello Venus Venus MV

The8/Minghao {info} aka arthao

-Instagram

-Literally has become the biggest artist in the world what an icon

-other half of chine line. last member to join the group. He did b-boying in china for like 6 years. here is baby hao b-boying at age 12 (he’s the tallest skinny guy and also the leader). crazy good Martial arts skills.  comes off super cute a fluffy and sweet with that voice and all but a serious thug tho like 1, 2, 3 

Seungkwan {info} aka future mc 

-Instagram

Boo Seungkwan our sassy little guy that i love more than life itself. LOUD pt3. gonna star in the next hollywood film because of his flawless acting. Also one of the most stable vocals in svt. hits high notes so easily its not fair (like in pretty u i died). a cutie from jeju. Koreas next best MC watch out world Seungkwan is coming. pretty much helps set the happy fun tone in svt

-covered Beautiful Tomorrow perfectly

Vernon/Hansol {info} aka the living meme

oh vernon. other half of american line. best friends with Seungkwan. literally a walking meme. anything he does is dumb and i love it. example: his weird dance from Boom Boom. lots of Hotline Bling. His iconic: “mom, i won this.” terrible hair durning mansae era 

-was on “Kids Explore Life” when he was little. Also a contestant on ‘JTBC Made in U’ .... headlines headlines ....

-appeared on one of Eric Nams Can’t Help Myself stages and Hello Venus ‘Venus’ MV, Sickness ft. Eunwoo of Pristin

Dino/Chan {info} aka the baby

The baby of the group. Once a baby always a baby. Dino, nugu aegi? tragic hair durning mansae era as well. best glow up of the world let me tell you i called this. Like if you think jungkook of bts had a glow up time to meet Lee Chan because his was more intense and if not faster. Fresh out of High school and living life large lol

-This amazing fancam

-his song Zero (here is the performance) and you can bet i cried when i heard this. He grew up so fast T.T

Other

Active Twitter Fansites

Seventeen’s One Fine Day: Season 1: {1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9}, Season 2  

Best Stages

Girl Group Medley / Relay 

Sorry Sorry cover

Happiness

Tell Me (Immortal Songs)

Boy Group Remix

Bindaetteok Gentleman

My Ears Candy (Jun and Mingyu)

My Ears Candy (Seungkwan and DK)

U

Who (performance unit) oddly enough this song isn’t talked about much, i think it killed every carat cause it killed me

Decalcomanie

and some of my personal faves: Show Me Your Love, Honey + Very Nice (Remix), 2016 Melon awards: Very Nice

Dance Practices/Part Switches

Adore U: Fixed Ver, Follow Ver, Part Switch Ver

Mansae: Hide Ver, Seek Ver, Follow Me Ver, Part Switch Ver

Pretty U: Love Ver, Letter Ver, Dear Carat Ver

Very Nice: Roof Top Ver, Dance Practice Ver, Part Switch Ver

Boom Boom: Front Ver, Review Ver, Santa Ver 

Don’t Wanna Cry: Front Ver, Review Ver, Part Switch Ver

Clap: Practice

Thanks: Choreography Video

Other Video worth mentioning: Highlight (13 Member Ver), No. 1 Cover, Without You

Offical Links:

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Extra

Seventeen TV

Boys Wish Kindergarten Skit    

Bongbong gyus precious child (a few of the many insta posts: 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, also bongbongie has no gender so stan talent)

the famous English Time w/ Svt

the memeteen diaries (ive never laughed so hard tbh)

ISAC aerobics - inspired by Transformers 

ISAC 400m Dash

ISAC warm up dance created by our boys (ft dokyeoms singing)

Seventeen and Monsta x interactions (they’re debut buddies if you don’t die everytime they interact with each other you are doing something wrong)

Seventeen x Nu’est stage Heaven (aka the best crossover the world has yet to see)

so yah stan talent stan my memes Seventeen

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[Don’t Wanna Cry Series] Joshua ver. (G)

Prompt: Don’t wanna cry - Joshua  Genre: Angst Word count: 666 Warnings: None

A/N: Hi guys! So i got inspired by their MV to write a Don’t Wanna Cry Series. It’s gonna be just really short drabbles and it’s also gonna be emo but I hope you guys enjoy it! Here is Joshua’s drabble! Oh! And I will be putting in lyrics from the song at the end of the drabble! Also posted this on Seventeen’s 2nd anniversary, HAPPY ANNIVERSARY BOYS! 💕

-jihooned 😶

[DWC SERIES]

S.Coups | Jeonghan | Joshua | Jun | Hoshi | Wonwoo | Woozi | DK | Mingyu | The8 | Seungkwan | Vernon | Dino |

“Why didn’t you say anything? That man was clearly in the wrong!”

“I’m sorry, (y/n), it’s just that I thought it was okay to let the matter go.”

“Oh my gosh this isn’t the first time, seriously you got to be more vocal and stand up for yourself.”

Joshua sighed, it was very unlike you to blow up.

“Joshua, if you’re going to be this quiet, people will take advantage of you. I care for you and I wouldn’t want that to happen.”

“Hey (y/n), I really didn’t mean to, you know how shy I can be.”

“You know what, if I can’t make you a better person, then find someone else who can. I’ve had enough of always having to stand up on your behalf.”

 And the only thing Joshua was left with was the bracelet he bought for your two year anniversary and the image of you walking away engraved in his mind.

That was weeks ago, yet Joshua somehow could not find the strength or the motivation to get his sanity back.

He found himself continuously going back to the beach, where he first asked you out. The rough sand still felt the same beneath his feet, the stone which the two of you sat on to watch the sunset remained untouched, the seagulls were still flying overhead hunting for food, the sound of the waves crashing against the shore felt too familiar.

The only thing different was your presence, you weren’t beside him anymore.

His hand felt empty without you interlocking your fingers with his, and your excited voice was nowhere to be heard.

Joshua took a seat on the rock as he watched the sun go down.

The sunset was prettier when you were by his side.

Taking out his phone, he scrolled through the pictures the two of you took together. His fingers stopped at a photo taken at your 20th birthday.

He still remembered the excitement in your voice as you unwrapped your gifts, growing more and more excited as you opened more presents. 

Your hands hesitated when you got to Joshua’s present, your heart overwhelmed with tremendous anticipation as you slowly peeled the silver wrapping apart. Inside sat a journal, clearly custom made by your boyfriend himself. You've always wanted a journal where you could jot down your daily adventures, since you considered every memory precious.

“Thank you Joshua, you're the best.”

I wonder if she still keeps that journal.

Joshua missed you, he missed you to the point of madness. Everyday he goes back to the beach in hopes that you will show up one day.

He exited the photo app on his phone and unknowingly, his finger slid over to the contact book. Your name was still saved as “Darling ♡”, and he had no intention of changing it anytime soon.

Even though it was a crazy decision, Joshua still decided to press the call button. Gently pressing the phone to his ear, he waited for you to pick up. The constant ringing of the phone only made him nervous.

The ringing suddenly stopped, and Joshua felt as if his heart stopped together with it.

However, to his disappointment, the voice on the other end of the long was not yours, but that of a voicemail.

Well, if he couldn't talk to you now, then he should at least leave his ‘final’ message right?

“Hey,”

Joshua felt his throat tightening as he fought to hold back his tears.

“How are you? Hmm… I don't know why I called you but, will we see each other again?”

Joshua Hong you must be an idiot to even think that she wants to see you again.

It was painful to accept that fact. Too painful. But as much as he wanted to be delusional, something told him that it was time to face reality.

“No, nevermind.”

He inhaled once more.

“Bye.”

 “Don’t play around, I know you’re there. I feel like you’ll appear, so I wait aimlessly.”

[jungnoir]

questions tag!

thank you for tagging me @sambashua!! I wanna get to know you better too :D

1. Ultimate Bias(es)? kim namjoon - bts, jackson wang - got7, and lee taeyong - nct.

2. Who are your TOP 3 groups? hmm, probably seventeen, bts, and monsta x.

3. What are your 3 favorite songs? I’m Serious by Day6 (same Mir), 21 by Dean, and Very Nice by Seventeen :)

4. What do you like to do in your free time? if i’m not sleeping, watching anime/kdramas, or writing, i’m probably dead

5. Are there any places you would like to visit that you haven’t already visited? hawaii mainly!! as well as scotland and japan

6. Do you have a dream job? this is probably a weird dream (not for a virgo though), but I’d like to be the personal assistant of someone super powerful? like, a ceo or a fashion designer. just knowing i’m in charge of all that and I make it all run smoothly is a dream. plus the pay.... woo

7. If you could meet ANY Korean CELEBRITY (Includes Actors, Models, K-Music artists, etc.), who would it be? okay don’t laugh: first, I wanna go to a super fancy dinner with jay park. I don’t know why but I think it’d just be funny for us to be around some really stuck up people but we just came in like,,, tracksuits or something and he’s swearing up and down and just being gross while I laugh. next, I would want nam joo hyuk to give me a really big warm boyfriend hug??? like i just want to be embraced by the boy. third, I’d want to spend the night star gazing with jonghyun from shinee and just talking about life lol and fourth, i’d like to just give jackson wang a big kiss on the cheek and hug him for a while.

8. What do you love most about your bias group(s)? i’m about to get emo, ok. for seventeen... they were the first boy group I got into and the second kpop group in general that I got into (red velvet being the first). there was just this really strong familial feeling that came from them, and that kind of concept really gets me. I love how close they are with each other, how they all work together and love each other so much like a real family even though prior to training they didn’t even really know each other. I often daydream of being in the midst of all that? like it’s a group of thirteen boys so I know it can’t be as fun as I make it out to be lol but I just imagine being friends with them and hanging out and being close with them all and it makes me feel warm. seventeen as a feeling for me is warmth. they’re definitely the biggest bias group for me. they hold a very special place in my heart.

for bts, I really love the emphasis they put on their music. they take pride in the stuff they make, and I can’t even name a song I don’t like by them because they all appeal to me one way or another. I love that every member works so hard to perfect their crafts, and they don’t accept less than for their fanbase. they really love armies, and they make that known whenever they can. I really don’t think we deserve them sometimes.

for monsta x... wow. I have so much respect for this group. from the shit storm that was no mercy to the endless nights and struggles to get their first big award, they have worked so hard and tirelessly and it breaks my heart that they still get cheated out and stolen from and they don’t deserve that. they’re a group of funny, sweet, and loving guys who would do anything for their fans and I know it’s so stressful on them to perform exceedingly well, what with so many newer groups catching awards left and right. I know it can be disconcerting, but they still keep at it, and I really admire them for it.

9. Who are your ultimate bias wreckers? min yoongi swooped in like a hawk when I was just innocently loving mr. rap monstre. also... changkyun kind of just came out of nowhere and snatched me from minhyuk?? i’ll blame my groupchat i.e. @seoulscapes and @minsugadotcom for enabling this mess

10. What do you wish for the most to happen? for monsta x to win all the awards they’re nominated for, for monsta x to get nominated for all the awards, for kpop companies to stop sleeping on and mistreating their foreign idols as well as cheating out and disbanding older girl groups yet letting older boy groups make the same damn music for years, for yixing to get some respect, for kris wu to explain some of the phrases he used in juice because i’m still confused, for lim changkyun to leave me alone, for-

11. When did you get into kpop and how? the process was a few grueling months of being a 1D/5SOS blog and seeing all of my mutuals turn into exo blogs before I slowly transitioned into one as well. I think what did it (besides listening to ice cream cake by red velvet omg) was coming across a vine of vernon and just... spiraling from there

12. What made you decide to have a tumblr blog? this one in particular was made because, like i stated above, I was running a blog I’d had since my superwholock days (cringe) and I had a lot of mutuals I liked on there so I didn’t want to delete, but I also didn’t really use it that often? so, this blog was originally gonna be a strictly marvel blog, but all of the big marvel blogs never updated often enough and then I was like “what if I turned it into a kpop blog instead?” and then I posted a really bad jungkook one shot on here called “moonlight” and now here I am.

13. Favorite colour? blue mainly, but anything on the red spectrum too (though I prefer blues and purples to those)

14. Favorite animal? wolves :)

15. What are your interests? writing, reading, listening to music in the dark of my room and coming up with elaborate music video ideas, experimenting with interior design, and going for walks at dusk alone

16. Would you prefer movies or music? music. let’s be honest, movies are nothing without music anyway

17. What would you like to achieve (or experience) before the age of 60? death- jk jk. I think I’d really like to get married to someone I love a lot, have a few kids and a lot more pets and just be happy together. I’d also really like to move to hawaii or paris and live there for the rest of my life. 

this was a lot of fun and I ended up talking a lot more than I thought I would?? I would like to tag my babes @seoulscapes and @hongbombs (i utilize the fact that you have two blogs, jen lolol), @lostinmonstax @ralph-mountainlodge and anyone else who wants to do it!!!

[lucifer-kc]

Out of my mind (drarry) part 2/9

Harry P.O.V

As we got off the train and went to the great hall, everyone will stare at me and whisper. I just kept my head down and allowed Ron to keep me close to him.

We then sat down and McGonagall began to talk. "Thank you all who have joined us. Everything will be the same as normal. Snape is the defence against the dark arts teacher and Slughorn is the potions teacher. And of course the rules." She then went over the rules and then the first years got sorted. "One more thing. You all will get to wear whatever you want under your house robes. Then we ate.

"I heard that they made everything bigger. So we can stay in the common room." Hermione said and smiled.

When Ron finished putting food on my plate I began to eat.

I saw Draco looking at me in confusion and Ron with hate. I grinned at him which made him more confused.

My friends continued to talk and I mostly pushed food around on my plate.

You don't need food you fat ass! I heard Vernon yelling in my head.

"Are you okay Harry?" Ron asked.

"I am fine." I leaned against Ron and now Draco is seething.

After that, we went to our common room. We got our rooms ready and was about to go to sleep. But I went to the bathroom and made myself throw up what I ate. When I finished, I brushed my teeth and got into bed with Ron.

Ron had me cuddle with him and we fell asleep.

In the morning, we got up and got dressed. I'm happy this year we are allowed to wear anything as long as we have our house robes. So I put on a black dress shirt black jeans black boots. Then I put on black lipstick eyeshadow and eyeliner.

I walked out and Ron took my hand. We went to the great hall and Hermione is already there. I noticed that Nevill is sitting with his boyfriend at the Slytherin table and talking to Pansy and Draco.

"I can't believe that the Slytherins are actually being nice to Neville," Ron said.

"Well, maybe Blais threatened them?" Hermione said with a shrug.

"Maybe," I said as Ron finished putting food on my plate.

I ate slowly and probably only four bites tell it was time to go.

I went to the bathroom and threw up the food then hurried to Defence. But I ran into Draco. We both fell.

"Oh, are you okay Harry?" Draco said getting up and lending me a hand.

I looked at him like he is crazy but took his hand.

I got up and said, "I'm sorry I was not looking where I was going." I then went to walk away.

But he stopped me and said, "So you and Ron. You two are together?"

Why do you ask?" I said and continued walking. He fallowed since he has the same class.

"Well, you two are friends. But just thought that you two would not actually get together." 

Draco P.O.V

I can not believe I am talking to him about this.

"Well, he says he loves me so I believe him," Harry said shrugging.

We walked into class and we sat down Ron coming in a few minutes later.

At lunch, Ron and Harry are of course sitting very close together. Sadly though, their backs are to me.

And for some strange reason, Ron only seems to half heartily kiss Harry's cheek.

The next day after lunch.

On my way to class, I notice Ron making out with Harry. Why does whatever God there is like to torture me.

When I pass them I hear sobbing in a bathroom. Hm. Wonder who it is. But then I heard a voice.

"They're right I am worthless. No one will love me. I'm better off dead!" Then I realized it is Harry.

I walked back over to Ron. And I noticed that he is kissing some Hufflepuff.

I went over and ripped Ron from him. He fell to the ground and looked at me. "You fucking hurt Harry!" I yelled.

"So? he is just a worthless emo. I mean he thinks I don't know that he cuts but I do." Ron said smirking.

I punched his face and kicked his ribs. "I swear if you ever go near Harry again I'll kill you," I said and placed one last good kick in his stomach.

I ran back to the bathroom and did not hear anything. I opened the door and saw Harry in a puddle of his own blood.

I kneeled next to him and used the healing spells mother has taught me.

His blood seeped back into him and his cuts began to heal.

Once I finished I carried Harry to my room. Knowing that he will not wake for a while I ran to find Hermione.

Though of course, they are in the middle of defence.

"I need Hermione," I said as I ran in.

"And why is that Mr Malfoy?" Snape asked.

"Because it's just important. Please." I said worriedly.

"Sure Ms Granger pleas fallow Mr Malfoy," Snape said.

She got up and followed me without a word.

Once we were almost to my room she said, "okay what is it Malfoy?" She said.

"Harry nearly killed himself. I'll allow him to explain if he is awake and not dead. Or when he wakes up." I said and led her the rest of the way.

[seventeen-scenarios-blog]

[Don’t Wanna Cry Series] Seungkwan ver.

Prompt: Don’t Wanna Cry - Seungkwan Genre: Angst Word count: 780 Warnings: Character death (god why are we so dark)

A/N: I got so emo writing this for some reason, must have been the fact that I had Don't Wanna Cry on repeat hahaha. But I hope you guys enjoy this!

-jihooned 😶

[DWC SERIES]

S.Coups | Jeonghan | Joshua | Jun | Hoshi | Wonwoo | Woozi | DK | Mingyu | The8 | Seungkwan | Vernon | Dino |

“Seungkwan, you were the last person I thought would leave me behind to fend for myself!” 

The male bowed his head in embarrassment, you were obviously right, and even though the reasons for leaving were probably legit, he knew that fighting against you was useless.

“I trusted you Seungkwan, I really did, and this is how you repay me.”

Seungkwan kept his head pinned down, refusing to meet your eyes, knowing fully well that if he did, all of his resolve would crumble to dust. He didn’t want to leave you behind, but in the name of his future ambitions and dreams, how was he to say no?

You stormed off in anger, this wasn’t the first time you were being ‘abandoned’ and you have had enough.

What a fool were you to believe that Seungkwan would be different.

Seungkwan was back in Jeju after a good five years. Together with the other Seventeen members, they were scheduled to film a reality show where Seungkwan was suppose to bring the members around the island. Seungkwan was of course, more than happy to show his band mates around, but, something heavy weighed down in his heart as he recalled the voice message he received last week. 

“Hey Seungkwan, I’m not sure if you still remember who (y/n) is but… I'm sorry to break it to you like this. (y/n) passed away this morning. You don't have to come see her, just thought I should let you know. After all, you both were... close. Bye.”

It was your brother, someone who he hasn't seen for a really long time. 

Throughout the filming for the show, Seungkwan tried his best to not let his grief show. Even though he did manage to see his mum, the guilt wouldn't leave his heart.

I should have spent more time with you.

 Seungkwan requested to stay a few days after the shoot was over, briefly explaining to his manager that he had ‘unfinished business to settle’, it was a tough choice to make, knowing very well that he could just leave his hometown and forget that the relationship even happened. But Seungkwan had already hurt you once.

He didn’t want to repeat that mistake again.

 The crunching sound of leaves was the only sound heard as Seungkwan walked along the streets of a familiar road. 

His mind flashbacked to the countless dates you had in the different shops. It was still the same shops with the same owners, but something was off.

 You.

 The arcade, a place the two of you would frequent on the weekends. Seungkwan would always try to win you something from the claw machine, but always failed. 

And now he can never win you anything.

 The small cosy cafe just around the corner. Even though the two of you didn’t like coffee, the cafe served up a good variety of smoothies as well as a good atmosphere, perfect for a slow, casual date.

There was no one else to share his favourite mango smoothie with anymore.

The karaoke. Yes the legendary karaoke. It was where Seungkwan first realised he wanted to be a singer. The two of you would go on for hours, selecting an array of songs, from slow ballads to fun, upbeat, tunes. Because of your sickness, you always went off key, but that didn't bother Seungkwan. You loved singing, and Seungkwan loved seeing you happy.

 He would never hear your voice again. 

All it took was a couple more karaoke sessions and a handful of school singing competitions before Seungkwan secured his spot as a trainee. You were happy of course, knowing that Seungkwan could finally pursue something he really wanted to do. But after finding out that the two of you had to be separated for good, you were starting to rethink your decision.

Seungkwan walked into a small eatery, ordering a glass of warm tea, before taking a seat by the window. 

The feelings of guilt continued to linger, and it will always be there to haunt him. Knowing that he indirectly took your life away, made him eternally sorry. There was no use crying over spilt milk, you weren’t coming back. The least Seungkwan could do was to be happy for you. You were in a better place, where no one would abandon you.

Seungkwan got up from his seat and left the stall. Walking along the street once more, he let whatever hard feelings go. It was better to leave it there, untouched. 

He would never set foot onto that street again.

 “This road that doesn’t seem unfamiliar, feels unfamiliar, asking me once again if this is a road I know of.”