#happy birthday zaki !!

[courtesanofdeath]

ANPAN ANPAN ANPAN ANPAN ANPAN ANPAN ANPAN ANPAN

happy anpan anpan -

[whosname]

CONTACT WITH THE READERS: QUESTION CORNER 43

QUESTION FROM MR. JAWA 100%, TOKYO METROPOLITAN AREA

Why did you decide to have the stupid prince appear (on a cover)? And on volume 14, Kyuubei… When will Yamazaki appear?

ANSWER:

Yamazaki will never appear on any cover. He is the way he is, his modesty prevents him from doing so. Otherwise he wouldn’t be Yamazaki anymore! That’s how I see it. Secretly, he stands next to you and starts doing something silently… That’s how he is. When you remember the past and think “That time we had so much fun! Who did we go with?”, “Well… Takahashi, Sato, me… and there was another one… who was it?” … It’s Yamazaki. He’s comparable to that green decoration in the shape of a jagged leaf found in the package of a ready-to-eat meal; the typical man who only looks better than usual at the graduation ceremony; a work glove dropped near the feet of a guy who, despite insisting on running a marathon together, suddenly sped up just before the finish line. Everyone always has Yamazaki in their hearts. Even if he never appears on a cover, he is still everywhere… Look, even next to you…!

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[livelaughlovesubs]

🩷🖤🩷🖤🩷🖤🩷🖤🩷🖤🩷🖤 HAPPY VERY LATE BIRTHDAY NINI<333 I hope you had an amazing one! Here's my freak and your freak<3 I promise I'll make digital so it doesn't look like pure shit but I'm currently starving and can't focus on anything right now(｡ŏ﹏ŏ) And I wanted to say that Zaki is so fun to draw OMGGGGG UGH I LOVE HIM<3 His hair so satisfying to draw and his slutty ass clothes (Is it bad that I wanna hear him whimper😔) Also my oc is Asmo's daughter her name is Vinea! I'll be making a post about her soon just in case you wanna check her out!

CANSGAHGAHAHA THANK YOUUUU~ THOSE TWO LOOK REALLY GOOD TY TY TYYYYY I like drawing his hair as well, it’s flowy :> (btw same)

Vines looks so pretty! She does look a lot like asmo, her mother (๑˃̵ᴗ˂̵)

I can’t read what zaki’s saying though, that’s a shame :( but I’ll def check out your post once you post it :DD

[sicknickk]

evan mock + he/him + cis male – have you seen nicolas "nick" veluz around long beach? the twenty two year old can be spotted at slide away during their free time. word around the city is that they’re loyal and adventurous, yet, they can also be depressed and impulsive, but you didn’t hear that from me. they’re currently a guitarist for a local band and a tattoo artist at three layers deep and have been in the city for twenty two years. when i think of them, i think of tired eyes and light pink hair, scraped and bruised knees from skating so much, the sound of an electric guitar at three am. they’re typically seen walking the streets of long beach with zaki. let’s hope the city treats them well!

basic stats ;

⟶ full name: nicolas italo veluz ⟶ nicknames: strictly goes by nick, hates when people try ‘nico’ ⟶ three things he likes: getting high, his best friend zaki, the electric guitar ⟶ three things he dislikes: when the party is over, his grandmother, overly sensitive people ⟶ gender: cis male ⟶ height: 5 ‘ 11 ⟶ age: 22 ⟶ birthday: october 17, 1971 ⟶ zodiac: libra sun, libra moon, aquarius ascendant ⟶ right handed or left handed: right handed ⟶ eye color: brown ⟶ hair color: naturally black, constantly dyes it light pink ⟶ piercings and tattoos: both ears pierced, so many tattoos, he’s lost count ( reference ) ⟶ languages spoken: english and cebuano ⟶ sexuality / romantic orientation: hates labeling himself, but pansexual / panromantic, does not judge gender at all ⟶ place of birth: long beach, california ⟶ five aesthetics: the sound of an electric guitar at ungodly hours, a backpack filled with narcotics, a beat up skateboard, bruised knees and tired eyes, being in the middle of a conversation and the drugs you took earlier begin to kick in ⟶ character inspo: chris miles from skins u.k, rue bennett from euphoria, valerio montesinos from elite, hank moody from californication

background story ;

nick was born in long beach, california to a filipino father named italo and an american mother named nicole. he has no memory of his mother. she left him and his father when he was around three years old and never came back. nick hasn’t seen her since, and really has no desire to reconnect with her

despite this, he had a fairly decent life with his father. simply put, his father was his best friend, a guy he looked up to. he was a teacher during the day and a carpenter as a side gig. they were poor, and he first hand witnessed how hard his father would work to put food on the table, to make sure he was okay, balance the finances while being, well, a father to nick

he didn’t have the nicest shoes, he would literally wear hand me downs donated by his better off cousins, and he was usually picked on for the old, worn down stuff he wore, but even with everything, nick was a happy kid

he wasn’t rich, he didn’t have a mother, but he had a lot of love, a dad who was more than understanding, someone who would drop everything for him if he needed it, and isn’t that what really matters at the end?

from a fairly young age, his father taught him how to play the guitar, a habit they had in common, and nick loved it. he played day and night and eventually became really good at it. it was their thing, it was something they shared and it was special to nick

nick had this idea that if he worked really hard in school, studied more than anyone, that one day, he could pay his father back for all the things that he’s done for him, that was his mission, to one day make a lot of money and buy his father the house he so rightfully deserved

he wasn’t the most academically gifted guy out there, but he tried harder than everyone, and his perseverance is what eventually made him the best in his class, and even the best in his school

nick had big hopes for his future, but that all came crashing down one unfortunate day, two days before his ninth birthday

he comes home from school to find that his father is there, fixing an electric problem they’ve had going on for a few months now. basically, the electricity will go on and off in the house, and sometimes stay off for hours, and to avoid calling an electrician which meant extra money, his father took it upon himself to try and fix the problem with his own two hands

! tws for death, childhood trauma, proceed with caution or skip over this if this triggers you ! nick didn’t think much of it either. he watched as his father fumbled around with wires, having a conversation with him about how his day at school went. it was all fine for him, until at one point, he notices his father begin to excessively move around, and honestly? nick thinks it’s a joke at first, but it takes him about a second to notice that his father isn’t messing with him  –  he’s being electrocuted

to this day, his reaction to what was happening is the biggest regret nick has in his life, but he just… stands there. not because he doesn’t want to do anything, but because he genuinely doesn’t know how to react to what was happening before him. it all goes down so quickly and in only seconds, his father is on the floor, unconscious

the worst part of all is that they didn’t have a house phone, so nick? literally had to scream for a neighbor to come help him, and sit there with his father’s unconscious body until help finally arrived

the whole time, nick is thinking that his father is going to be fine. he’s always been such a strong man, surely he would get out of this unharmed right? however, unfortunately for nick, his father is pronounced dead on the scene ! end of tws !

to add onto this, he has no other family that he knows of, and it takes the police about a week to get in contact with his father’s mother, who lives in long beach as well, but doesn’t answer the phone until way later. during that time period, nick was property of the government, remaining in a foster house until his grandmother claimed custody of him, became his legal guardian, and moved him out to live with her

this all happened two days before his ninth birthday, so he spent his birthday alone, in foster care, with no one to hug him, no one to make him a homemade birthday cake or play guitar with him. he not only lost his father and best friend, but he also lost the happiness he once had

moving in with his grandmother wasn’t easy for him. for starters, he didn’t know his grandmother at all. his father never spoke of her and they never even met each other. truth be told, he just felt relieved enough to know that he wouldn’t be in the foster care system anymore

nick assumed that his grandmother, the mother of his father and the person who had raised the greatest man he’s ever known, would be very similar in character to his father, loving and funny. soon enough though, he realized just how wrong he was about her

she was somewhat sympathetic towards him the first week, but after that, he realized what a cold woman his grandmother really was, and he realized why his father so desperately wanted to get away from his childhood home. he realized why he never bothered to let nick know his grandmother at all, realized why he never introduced them or even dared to speak of her

his grandmother was very wealthy, a huge contrast from what nick was used to, but with perks came downfalls, and as wealthy as she was, she was also mean, and judgmental. she was unforgiving and verbally abusive, and more often times than not, she made nick feel bad about things he shouldn’t feel bad for. she had a tendency to guilt trip people, to make it seem like everything was your fault and to make you feel inferior. simply put, she killed off all the aspirations nick had

she made him feel stupid for liking the guitar, claiming that would never make him any real money, and belittled him any chance she got, made him believe that he could never amount to anything in his life. the once persevering boy who wanted to buy his father a house was gone, and was replaced by someone he thought he would never be

slowly but surely, nick began to really dislike his grandmother. dislike soon turned into hate, and before he knew it, he was finding ways to cope with the pain he felt, and acting out in school

he began hanging out with the wrong crowd, every day caring less and less about his grades, skipping school, doing things just for the fuck of it, but as he got older, things began to escalate more and more

the first time he tried weed, he was thirteen. in nick’s case, weed was the gateway drug to just about everything. by the time he was sixteen, he had tried just about every drug in the book, you name it, he’s done it, but the one thing that stuck for him was weed, and coke

he drops out of school on his senior year, at seventeen years old, and never looks back. by this time, his grandmother is fed up with his shit, claiming that if he doesn’t get some type of job, he needs to find another place to live, and as much as he can’t stand her, well… he needed her at the moment, so he does the thing that happens to be the easiest for him  –  he becomes a tattoo artist. starts off sloppy at first, giving tattoos in his garage ( so sus, i know ), but eventually, nick becomes pretty good at it and finally lands a job at an actual shop, making somewhat decent money

he suddenly has three hustles, his job as a tattoo artist, selling weed on the low, and as shitty as it may sound, he begins taking things ( expensive things ) from his grandmother’s house that she never really uses, takes her prescription meds, and flips them. he does this for a while until he’s finally able to get his own apartment and move away from her, and really? he feels no remorse after how horrible she has been to him

getting his own place becomes a disaster, as he’s now unsupervised and dives deep into the world of narcotics

! tws for overdose, drug abuse, seizures, hospital mentions and coma, for the next two bullets, proceed with caution or skip over this if it’s triggering for you ! when he’s twenty, at a festival, he takes it too far and mixes a bunch of different drugs together. upon leaving the festival and going back to his friends’ place with a few other friends, nick is blacking out, and by the time they arrive to his friends house, he starts having a seizure

obviously, his friends take him straight to the hospital, and this seizure is so damn bad, he’s in a coma for, wait for it… four days. waking up from that and trying to recover was one of the hardest things he’s ever had to do, with the way people treated him like he would break, to the way he still had to make ends meet if he didn’t want to go back to living with his grandmother

for a while, nick is clean, but it isn’t long before he’s back to the same antics, the only thing now is  –  how long will he slide?

headcanons ;

nick has been playing the guitar since he was three years old, and it’s the one thing that keeps him sane. i would describe his style as a mixture of john frusciante, carlos santana, and david gilmour. he’s bad at a lot of things, but the guitar isn’t one of those things

deep down inside, he’s very depressed, and his drug use is a cry for help. as messed up as it may sound, he doesn’t care if he takes it too far, though he would never admit it. he has very dark thoughts and is a very broken person, but he usually shows people the opposite

he’s a pretty creative person. aside from playing guitar, he writes music, and likes to draw. even though it’s not his dream job, tattooing people relaxes him. he was crap at first, can’t lie, but he’s actually really good now. nick has a lot of potential and anyone can see that, he could be such a successful, well known person, he just doesn’t care and has no motivation, he’s just wasting his talents

he’s the type of guy you go to when you want to get something that’s not too easy to find. he doesn’t sell drugs anymore, but he’s the type of person who will point you in the direction of someone who does, and usually make some type of profit off it. aside from narcotics, he can get his hands on just about anything

he’s not a bad person deep down, but he isn’t a good influence. he’s an enabler, will encourage you to do the stupidest things imaginable. don’t come to him if you wanna be talked out of doing something stupid because he’s going to encourage you to do the stupid thing

nick loves to skate. he has an okay car, but if he can skateboard somewhere instead of driving, he will. his knees are constantly bruised from this

he has hooked up with many people, any gender, but isn’t big on relationships. not exactly because he doesn’t want one, but because he doesn’t want to drag down whoever he’s with into all his shit, the typical ‘i’m a bad person and you should stay away from me’ speech when people wanna claim they’re catching feelings for him

he’s done nearly all his tattoos except for maybe like, three? he has his father’s name tattooed as well, which is his favorite tattoo

he’s big dumb ass energy. he’s a bit of a spiritual person and loves crystals, will be like ‘this selenite crystal will keep the harm away from me’ then proceed to put himself in danger with his own stupid actions, ever heard anti hero by taylor swift? ‘it’s me, hi, i’m the problem, it’s me’? that’s literally him

he’s had a buzzcut and has been dying his hair pink since he was around sixteen, that at this point, he doesn’t even remember what his natural hair color looks like. he’s been doing this for so long, that some people don’t know what his natural hair color looks like either. at this point, it’s part of who he is

despite his bad decisions, he’s a very fun time to be around, is quite talkative and loves making people feel included, even if he just met you, he will treat you like he’s known you his whole life. he likes to make people smile or laugh because he doesn’t want anyone to feel as bad as he constantly feels, is actually great at listening and giving advice, but is terrible at receiving it

his energy in high school was smoking under the bleachers, skipping classes and causing mayhem, he also probably sold weed in p.e class ( under the bleachers as well ), genuinely didn’t give a fuck

the good thing about nick though is that when he likes you, he’s a very loyal person. he would defend you until the end if you’re someone he vibes with, as he claims he ‘doesn’t have time for those negative fake vibes, dude’. if he’s down for you, he’s down for you until the end

for him, it’s not a case of ‘what you see is what you get’ as he’s a very complex guy, with a fuck ton of layers, but even though he doesn’t show all of himself, he can’t stand fake people who think they’re better than everyone else. he just doesn’t see what’s the point in being an asshole

deep down inside, nick does want to stop his bullshit and be the son his father would have been proud of. he does want to get some help and try to get better, but until he actually does it, if he even does? forget it, he said it’s too much work! let’s not talk about our problems or feelings or none of that crap, let’s just have a good old time and get high/drunk/w.e the occasion calls for

he is the lead guitarist for a band ( name tbd ). there is zaki on drums, and there’s also a bassist, a lead singer and a keyboard/piano player. i don’t put much about this connection because i’d like to plot it out with the other members if the remaining three spots ever do get taken!

wanted connections ;

why’d you only call me when you’re high?: hear me out though, someone he accidentally called because the actual number he was trying to reach was wrong by a number, it was three in the morning, and he was high. instead of hanging up, your muse stayed up talking to him about nothing and everything, and now, every once in a while, nick makes it a habit to call them at ungodly hours in the morning when he’s high off his ass, and this muse always answers

it was meant to be something else: funny connection, but this muse could have walked in right when the tattoo shop was about to close, drunk off their ass and demanded a tattoo. nick, completely drunk off his ass as well because they were literally closing, decides to take them up on that offer. the only thing is that he’s so damn drunk, he’s falling asleep while doing it and literally tattoos them a damn squiggly line. he felt so bad about this, he offered to tattoo them again for free ( obviously not hammered ). whether this muse agrees, is angry about the literal squiggly line tattoo and hates him, or thinks his behavior is iconic can be entirely plotted!

you’re a light in this dark world: a good influence! i would love it if someone encouraged him to try and do better, a mom or dad friend if you must, trying to protect him from his own stupidity, but it’s real hard to protect someone this idiotic asdfghjkl

the devil on my shoulder: someone who is on his level when it comes to shenanigans. they could get high together, get up to the stupidest things with each other and make the most regrettable decisions, but, they sure as hell always have the absolute best memories with one another

i’ll help you get over what’s going over you: these two attended a party together and this muse was really drunk and somehow, they got locked together in the bathroom for hours. while under the influence and stuck in a room together, this muse began venting to him about things going on in their life. nick isn’t one to tell anyone a secret you tell him, the whole ‘i’ll take this with me to the grave’ type of vibe and perhaps, this muse realized that so now even when they’re not drunk, they go to him whenever they want to vent about stuff or get something off their chest, maybe appreciating the fact that nick is a great listener

maybe it’s time for you to go home: this muse could have been really drunk, high, or both at a party and could have maybe been making a fool of themselves and had no one to watch over them or help them, but nick of all people, helped them out that night. helped them when they were sick and to avoid further embarrassment, and even drove them home. this muse could be embarrassed about what happened, grateful, avoiding him, anything can be plotted!

we were together once upon a time: hear me out though… the only girlfriend, boyfriend or partner he’s ever had. they could have dated in high school but maybe drifted apart and gotten messy and now it’s awkward? maybe there’s still some type of feelings there but he’s the worst? open to any gender, this could be so juicy and dramatic and angst, yes please!

go on and do what you like: okay but… hook up plots maybe? open to any gender. this can go many ways!

bandmates: missing their lead singer, bassist and keyboard/piano player! bandmates plots are always so fun, so i would love these three connections, open to one female fc and two male fcs

customers: people who have either gotten tattooed by him, or people who used to buy weed/other stuff off him before, or even people who go to him now when they want to get something and don’t know where to go to!

or, we can brainstorm!

birthchart ;

[13shadesofanni]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, ZEEKO ZAKI!

- January 18, 1990

[kirisaki-daichi-scenarios]

yamazaki hiroshi + anger (+ hara)

zaki is scarred, literally.

man was a boisterous and reckless kid (to put it lightly), who was egged on by boisterous and reckless siblings, and boisterous and reckless hara. it’s therefore not surprising that he’s got scars littered across his body from various stupid scrapes

there’s a chunky one on his knee from when, after winning a ‘competition’ about who could purr most like a cat, he had to prove himself by jumping off a tree. if he landed on his feet, he was the Cat King. it goes without saying he did not land on his feet.

there’s one on the inside of his lip from when he was tripped up playing basketball, and his teeth cut right into his lip.

(zaki being zaki, of course, was oblivious as to why all the parents were staring at him with horror. he presumed that the feeling of liquid dripping down his chin came from sweat.)

and, it’s not noticeable unless you touch him, but if you trace your fingers along his knuckles, you can feel the roughness of where thin skin has had to heal and reheal itself from him punching brick walls as a coping mechanism for his preteen anger. 

yeah, zaki was an angry kid.

he was one of those kids who thought their anger was unique, that no one else ever experienced as potent a rage as they did.

in reality, neither his siblings nor his parents took him seriously when he got mad, because they knew that zaki’s not someone that hurts people. he’s much more the ‘gets so angry he has to go to his room so he can burst into tears in private’.

it was hara’s influence that started to change that.

now, hara’s ability to piss people off is limited when it comes to zaki, as zaki’s known him so long, but he's good at getting zaki more irritated when something else has upset him first

and, ‘course, when you’re with a friend in a park, you can’t just excuse yourself to go sob - especially not with a friend like hara who will say, and has said before, “you gonna go cry now? baby zaki-chan need to go cry cause he’s so sad?”

(hara is notoriously difficult to really irritate - that’s why he finds it so amusing in others.)

anyway, so thanks to hara’s presence, zaki had to find a new method of coping with anger. and, thanks to hara’s goading, that method became violence.

not serious violence, nor sadistic violence, just punches and threats and lots more stuff zaki regrets in the aftermath.

that was middle school though, and now he’s a 2nd year in high school. so he should be more in control of his emotions, right? 

not really, is the problem

because for every time furuhashi gives him a tip to help him not get so het up in matches, and for every time seto sends him a link to a new study on anger management, and for every time matsumoto says, “you good?” and rests a hand on his shoulder, consciously slowing his breathing to help zaki regulate his…

for every time they try help, there’s also a time when hanamiya winds him up on purpose - to get him to channel that violence so hanamiya can use it against the people he has his own problems with

and there are always, as there always have been and always will be, times where hara eggs on the side of him that zaki wants to leave behind

he’s tried explaining. he’s tried saying he wants to become a better him. 

and, in the moment, hara will say “my bad” - just to follow it up with “you sissy”, as he grins

his best friend, and perhaps his worst enemy

[powerup-the-revolution]

Happy anpan day birthday ‘Zaki \o/

[massaccre]

Happy Birthday Mountain Zaki!! 🤩

[yourdailykath]

My birthday treat for zaki.

Madalas na kasi sya nasa kidzoona so nag iisip pko ng ibang places na pwede nya parin maenjoy. Then I tried Dreamplay city of dreams.

Bago kami pumuntang dreamplay naglunch muna kami sa Popeyes. First namin matry ang popeyes and sobrang naenjoy ko at ni kuya zaki. Naenjoy nya ang biscuits!

After that we went to dreamplay na. Nabigla ako sa entrance fee na Php1,500 per head. 😂 Since birthday naman ni kuya zaki kaya okay na push na!

Hindi ko akalain na ang hahaba ng slides sa loob at grabe yung adventure para makaakyat sa slides kaya sobrang pagod din talaga ako kakahabol at kakasunod sa chikiting. Freshly teeth removed pko that day kaya ang hirap din kumilos ng sobra, bawal magbuhat pero need ko buhat buhatin si kuya lalo na pag gsto nya magpabuhat.

First time ko icelebrate ang birthday nya ng kaming dalawa lang. Walang pressure. Walang limit sa kilos. Nakakagalaw kami ni kuya ng gusto namin. May peace. Hindi man ganon kasaya katulad dati, pero may peace.

After namin maglaro together at magbuy ng dreamplay souvenirs nya, nagstay muna kami saglit sa starbucks inside the mall while waiting for the car.

Nung nasundo na kami nagtry kami magmoa pero super crowded kaya after ng ilang walks sa sea side umalis na rin kami agad.

Habang nakasleep si kuya sa car nagpadaan ako sa goldilucks to buy him a cake. Gusto nya ng chocolate cake kaya yun yung binili ko. Then after that nagdinner na kami sa samgyupsalamat nearby at dun na namin kinantahan ng fam ko ng happy birthday si kuya.

Natapos ang araw. Tinanong ko si kuya kung naging happy sya. Sumagot sya ng yes at nagthank you sakin sabay sabi ng i love you. Sobrang sarap sa pakiramdam.

Mahal na mahal kita kuya. Gagawin ko lahat to give you the best happy memories with me.

[bengeceninafrasi]

Bugün doğum günüm, herkes hatırlıyor ama ben hissizim, umrumda bile değil bugün... Birisi doğum günümü kutlarken en güzel yaşların bunlar dedi bir emoji attım ve ardından gözlerim doldu...

[lionokoye]

Zaki knew that impressing Amabella would be difficult. Sure, he was well off, a result of his job, his saving abilities, and his fathers estate that he’d sold off. But, even with his funds, he knew that making Amabella’s birthday stand out from other years would be quite difficult. He often felt inadequate while around her. Her expectations were high, she was materialistic. He was content with just her company -- he didn’t need to to give him any gifts or even words of affirmation. Her presence was more than enough for him. The incubus thought a long time about this problem, before deciding giving her a boat might be a nice idea. It would be a way for them to leave on vacation to different nearby destinations, or it could also be just a nice place to spend an afternoon. The yacht was relatively modest, when compared to what Amabella probably desired, but he still wanted to try. 

He’d blindfolded her, and guided her down to the docks. “I told you, I had one more present for you, mon amour,” he said with a grin, happiness in his voice. Zaki then untied the blindfold to reveal the yacht he’d purchased for her. What do you think? Will it be adequate for you?” he asked her. 

@amabelladufour​

[urboygirlfriend]

3

my first memory of being three, zaid was a baby, small hands and small toes curled as he slept in the crib that used to be mine. i didn't know much about him, except that the doctors had to rip my mom open and pull him out and she's been in pain ever since. but my father loved him, cradled him on the crook of his elbow and rested my brother's small head where his shoulder and neck met. whenever he was home and not with the other child, that is. it was taboo to speak on it. but zaid was loved. and that was enough for me to know that i loved him.

6

my first memory of being six, someone at school said my name was weird. mama said she wanted to name me something to do with the sun, helios. and the greek goddess of mercy. my dad wanted to name me elias. the prophet.

‘you’ve got a greek god name!’ my teacher said once. but i was scared of god. baba said, god expected too much from you. god didn’t expect anything from me; he did. i started going by lio when i was 16 instead. it was easier for the white kids to pronounce that anyway.

9

my first memory of being nine, i was at my grandfathers house, and i went to help with the dishes. he turned to my mother and asked, this is how you’ve raised your son? because men don’t go in the kitchen unless they’re asked to. if not, they seem gay. are you trying to be like a woman, elios? my mom took me to my room and yelled at me, we don’t do this here. i was just trying to help. sorry.

12

my first memory of being twelve, yousef and i biked to a corner store because my parents weren’t home for my birthday. we spent the entire day playing basketball and burned through more than one box of popsicles. we’re both twelve now. i think i liked him a lot more than i had liked to admit back then. he said he liked my curly hair and he wished he had hair like this. no, dude, your hair- straight hair is nice. straight straight straight.

he died 2 years later.

15

my first memory of being fifteen was my birthday, and my parents were home this time. my dad bought me this cake, fondant shaped into guitars and skateboards. it was the first ever year he actually put effort into celebrating my birthday since i was a child. i am sure he only did it to spite adan. i stapled my smile steady, even though i had already seen the cake in the fridge that morning. i feigned shock. i was high off my ass, sitting there, and i had to carry the weight of the fact that if my dad ever found out i liked both sophie and zaki, he would hurl the cake in my face and throw my shit to the curb. i’m not gay. faggot, he kicked adan’s chair from under the table when he saw the remnants of chipped nail polish on his finger. we’re a happy family though. bon anniversaire. (adan had stitches the next morning.)

18

my first memory of being eighteen, zoe got rejected for a scholarship and she cried all night while we got wasted. i came out to adan that same night. i told him i might believe in love because there’s a boy who says he loves me. i told him, i still don’t know if i love him back. how am i supposed to know? he makes everything easy but he might just ruin my whole life. how am i supposed to say it back? adan called me an idiot and said it took me long enough. he said love is an action. don’t you realize that mommy and daddy aren’t in love anymore already? i wish adan didn’t run away.

i graduated a month before and i was valedictorian. baba was supposed to be proud. but he only payed attention to my hair and made me cut it all off before my speech. i haven’t felt real since. when i look in the mirror, i see him

. fuck you.

/// my life in thirds ?

[the-institute-gifts]

PLEASE WISH A HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO:

ZAKI OKOYE- @lionokoye

[jamieroxx]

Happy Birthday. Today, Nov 18, 1976 – Mona Zaki, Egyptian actress was born. (https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mona_Zaki)

[kirisaki-daichi-scenarios]

Can we have what the kiridai boys would do if their cute manager have an upcoming birthday ? Like would they throw a lil birthday surprise, or would they just be nonchalant & just go on their days like normal maybe some teasing here and there ?

these lads are all about surprise parties, bc part of the fun is convincing you that they’ve forgotten your birthday completely

and most of them are very good liars too (of course)

that is, except for zaki whose good little heart wants to tell you happy birthday first thing (but who is monitored by hara the whole day)

and also except for seto, who does have a v good poker face, but who’s not lying because he’s actually forgotten

so you spend the whole day thinking “dickheads”, but then, when the school day’s over, and hanamiya tells you to hurry up to practice…

surprise!

nothing happens.

that’s part of the trick: having the party right after school is too obvious, and also they wouldn’t be able to exercise if they’d eaten cake five minutes prior

anyway so, at this point, you’re probably feeling a little miserable

(luckily zaki’s too busy practicing so is distracted from feeling bad and thus being driven to spoil the surprise)

and then, it’s only post practice, that the “surprise” actually begins

but in the worst possible way cause these are high school kids, not party planners

it goes as follows

furuhashi (chosen because he’s not got a reputation for being a trickster): manager, have you seen my tie

manager, who just wants to go home: why would i have seen your tie

furuhashi (carrying on with the ruse well because he doesn’t tend to show emotions on his face regardless): can you help me look in the changing room

manager: there are 5 probably naked boys in there, so no

furuhashi: *straight up grabs and drags manager in*

surprise!

birthday party in this case means one party-paper-chain-decoration-things (you know what i mean), everyone (but not hanamiya) wearing a little party hat, and of course a cake + presents

5 presents to be precise because, again, seto forgot

anyway you negotiate to bring the cake outside so you don’t have to eat it in a changing room that stinks of sweat (hara’s brilliant party planning didn’t think that one through)

so party becomes the 7 of you sitting cross-legged in the gym fighting over cake (another flaw in hara’s plan - it is very difficult for the birthday person to eat as much cake as they want, when surrounded by 6 ravenous post-practice teens)

at least the gifts are good!

well zaki, furuhashi and matsumoto’s gifts are; hara’s is a joke, and hanamiya’s is related to your role as a manager

but it’s a good fun time all around, 10/10 banter, even when, whilst the boys walk you home, a stranger laughs at seeing the bunch of you still wearing party hats

and then on the following saturday, the bunch of you spend the whole day together

which isn’t uncommon, given streetball matches, the lot of you having no other friends, etc

but this saturday, it’s less basketball and more just hanging out, maybe going somewhere fun

(also seto actually remembering his gift for you)

and you get to choose where to eat lunch, which is the ultimate honour

[winkbabyland]

Having a break from the market this week but back next week - Happy birthday my amazing daughter Zaki 🎈💋 ps you can still shop on our website #birthdaybaby #babypresents #organic #ethicalbaby #bestonlineshopping #newborngifts #tiedyebaby (at London Borough of Hackney) https://www.instagram.com/p/CVHvGaZIHzM/?utm_medium=tumblr