#happiest memories

[amberjazmyn]

happiest memories 🫶

pairing : oscar piastri x fem!reader

summary : all it took was just one photo, a photo from oscar and alessandra piastri's recent wedding that set off four of the couple's happiest memories together.

warnings :   just a lot of fluff

a/n : the photo in question will be first and then the memories will be in 'order' and in italics so it makes more sense and the present time will be in normal font. also, claps for me cause this is my first o.p one-shot outside of the f1 grid one-shots! 

f1 mclaren driver, oscar and his wife alessandra piastri had just been rearranging their house when alessandra stumbled upon some of her and oscar's wedding photos from 2023. the photo she saw though, in particular, sending good shivers down her spine. the photo in specificity was taken during the speeches at the reception. oscar and alessandra had a very fancy but private sort of wedding in australia. the photo was taken in the hall that held their reception and after party in oscar's hometown of melbourne, victoria. both oscar and alessandra were seen clearly in the photo however, oscar had pulled himself into alessandra since the person saying the speech had made him cry, and it was during that moment that the photographer had taken the photo whilst alessandra giggled lovingly at her husband. a big talk of the wedding was the fact that alessandra had two separate dresses, her ceremony dress, a simple satin, silky long-line dress, and her reception dress, a short dress with sparkling fringe all over it, screaming y2k whilst oscar just changed from his suit jacket to his white button-up, rolling up his sleeves and taking off his bow-tie for the reception.

"...wow, i had completely forgotten about this photo..." alessandra trailed off as she looked up to her husband who could only smile and nod his head

"...i did too to be quite honest. forgot that they had the full shot of me crying *giggles* i thought this was the one where you were the majority of the photo and just a slither of me crying and you laughing at me!" oscar joked as alessandra smiled at her husband, also laughing at him 

"i mean, in all honesty, i like this photo a lot better than the other one you were talking about. you're cute when you get emotional," alessandra giggled as oscar smiled, shaking his head as he giggled

"i have to say though, this may just be my favourite photo from our wedding..." oscar trailed off as that intrigued his wife

"...how so?" "you'll see," oscar smiled as he opened up a photo album that was titled best friends to lovers

2017

alessandra was new to england but more new to the secondary school that she had just been in. it was lunch time which meant that all the students excitedly flocked outside whereas the older kids tended to take their time. not feeling the need to rush like the thirteen-year-olds who were in their first year of high school. however, alessandra had joined this new high school in year 11, at sixteen and she barely knew anyone. 

well, that's a lie. she did know of people who were in her classes but none of them were respectable enough to welcome her into their groups. so, sixteen-year-old alessandra just walked around aimlessly, trying to find her way around the new school that, realistically, she'd only have this year and next year in since she would be a year 12 next year meaning she'd then be graduating. so, in her mind, it didn't bother her too much that no one was making the effort to befriend her when she wasn't making any effort back. 

"...hey...umm, you're alessandra kaminski? the new student in year 11?" an out of place australian accent rang out, catching alessandra's attention

looking behind her, she smiled as she saw a boy. it was a boy who was in the same english literature class as her. she thinks his name was oscar? he had gorgeous brown eyes and what looked like blonde, maybe light brown hair with a nervous look in his eyes and smile. 

"hi...yeah, i am alessandra, you're....oscar, right?" 

"yeah, i'm oscar piastri. i take it you don't know anyone here either?" he smiles shyly as alessandra smiles and nods her head, scooching over so he could sit with her, a smile forming on his face as he quickly took the seat, ignoring the wolf whistles of a second person who was most definitely one of oscar's friends 

"yeah...is it kind of obvious at how i'm aimlessly wondering around?" alessandra chuckled dry as oscar laughed and nodded his head, the two of them sharing eye contact 

"a little bit, yeah..." oscar chuckled as alessandra did as well as she shyly moved some of her hair behind her ear 

"...well, damn, that needs to change then..." 

"...hey, osc, i was just looking for you..." 

"...oh, i...i am so sorry. was i interrupting anything?" another different, clashing accent rang out suddenly, alessandra shifted her eyes to see who looked like one of oscar's friends standing in front of them

"oh, no, not at all. oscar just noticed the way i was aimlessly wondering around and introduced himself to me. sorry for being rude, i'm alessandra kaminski, the new year 11 student," she introduced herself as she stood up so she could properly shake hands with oscar's friend who smiled back at her - oscar watching at how effortlessly she had just done that 

"oh, i was wondering who the new girl was, mind my arrogance for not introducing myself earlier, i'm hamish!" he smiled and introduces himself as alessandra smiled too, it made her feel like she was now suddenly making progress and it seemed as though oscar and hamish noticed that as well 

"it's totally fine, hamish! it's kind of my fault too since i'm not making any effort either! but, would you like to stay with us or did you need to grab oscar for something else?" oscar and hamish were shocked to see how kind the new girl was after all the rumours they had heard, the two smiling at each other 

"i can stay with you guys, that's totally fine! i was just trying to find osc is all as one minute i was talking with him and the next second i look back and off he's gone somewhere else," hamish giggled which made oscar's face heat up - he seriously bailed out from his friends to introduce himself to her? 

"no kidding? anyway, that's cool you can stay with us. besides, still weird that i'll only have this year and next year at this school..." alessandra trailed off as oscar couldn't help but smile at the girl that was sitting very close to him - wanting to find out everything he could about her 

"...where did you move from? and why here in london, why didn't you finish high school before moving here if it's just for your last two years?" oscar stammered out nervously, worrying he had overstepped as alessandra smiled 

"honestly? my dad's in the army. he had been stationed in australia then italy then spain and now london with some countries inbetween that i'd rather not remember so yeah. it's kind of annoying the round the world trip but, apparently they've promised that this is the last place he's being stationed at so we can actually live outside of the army living quarters so i actually live in an apartment with some friends who are at university," alessandra smiled as oscar listened and held onto every single word she had said, hamish smiling slightly 

"wow, that must be really intense. but you're not from australia originally?" hamish asked this time since oscar couldn't seem to find the words this time

"no *giggles* i'm french, i was born and raised in montmatre but left when i was around five as that was when my dad was first deployed and it was to australia. then italy throughout primary school with spain in that as well as i was in spain towards the end of primary school and the beginning of high school with a few other countries sprinkled throughout and now london for my last two years of high school..." alessandra trailed off with a smile, oscar and hamish now understanding the girl's hybrid accent a lot better than they did before the explanation 

"...ahh, that makes a lot more sense. but does that mean you're like fluent in many languages?" oscar finally found his voice again as alessandra giggled 

"ehh, kind of. my main three are french, english and italian. i'm getting a little better with spanish but not so much but, very slowly i am getting there," alessandra smiled as the bell ending the lunch break rung, signalling it was back to classes as the three teenagers sighed, slightly disappointed their conversation was cut off too early 

"well, that was a buzkill but, what class do you have next, aless?" oscar asks as alessandra smiles, his friend clearly realising the slight crush oscar was building 

"languages, you?" alessandra giggled at the irony as oscar smiled, pouting though as he noticed he didn't have that lesson but math instead 

"the both of us have math but, since it's literally two doors down from languages, we could walk you there? i mean, we're basically best friends so, because of that, best friends don't let other best friends walk to class on their own," oscar smiled shyly as alessandra nodded her head smiling as oscar helped her up from her seat 

alessandra started the walk back to the block of classrooms, turning around to see oscar and his (their) friend hamish stalling behind her, giggling, she spoke up, "you boys coming or are you gossiping about your new friend, already?" oscar and hamish paused before shaking their heads 

"we're coming alessandra!" they both shouted out which made the three of them giggle, alessandra turning around to continue to walk in the direction of the lockers, leaving the two boys to themselves 

"you are totally in love with her osc!" hamish chuckled as oscar rolled his eyes, pushing his friend as they started to speed up to catch up to alessandra 

"no, i am not!"

"just wait a year, maybe less..."

"...osc, babe, what were you thinking about?" alessandra rubs her husband's back as he smiles

"2017, when we first met in high school when you were the new kid," oscar smirked as alessandra giggled, showing the photo he had found that had been taken later that day

"holy crap, that feels like it was forever ago now!" alessandra chuckled as oscar nodded his head in agreement

"it really does, hamish really was right..."

june 2018

it was their high school graduation, and maybe one of the very last times the class of 2018 would see each other ever again since, after this, some of the seventeen year olds were moving onto university, others gap years to travel whereas oscar and alessandra were two graduates who were not entirely sure what was going to happen. only because oscar's motorsport dream was becoming more real since he was getting real good in it. whereas, alessandra, she was lost in the middle of whether or not she was going to follow oscar everywhere or if she was going to stay in london after having to move so many times throughout her adolescence due to her father's military job. at their graduation, alessandra was getting an award. of course, she had some knowledge of it but, because they didn't really tell her whether it was for academics or sports or anything else, it just kind of floated away to the back of her mind. she had a feeling it could have been a who's most likey to superlative award of who's most likely to become a couple alongisde oscar but, at the same time, she really didn't think too much of it. because, that would just throw so much more fuel into the fire because technically, that would be the wrong superlative for alessandra and oscar. the last two years, ever since they met for the first time, oscar and alessandra had grown extremely close and was rumoured throughout the whole high school to be dating since they were always seen throughout the school and outside school together. which, when it came to rumours around the high school, people were shocked that hamish wasn't trying to ruin it since it was usually him that would jokingly throw fuel into the fire about the love lives of his two best friends. but, to be funny, oscar and alessandra started to put more fuel in the fire by constantly amping up their hangouts inside and outside of high school.

for the first time this entire night, however, alessandra had walked off from oscar and their table as she had spotted hamish chatting with his older sister lois, fondling her wine since she was over eighteen. 

"...hey hamish, lois, can i sit?" alessandra asked sweetly, the grad ceremony not even begun filming or even started yet, hamish & lois' eyes moving from their glasses to the girl, both of them smiling back

"hey aless, course you can," hamish smiled, lois smiling too

 "where's osc, thought you'd be joint at the hip," lois chuckled before the three composed themselves, so as to not create too much noise

"of course you did, lois. but, nah, since the cameras aren't rolling, and before the evening starts, thought i'd just frolic around and talk to some people before the ceremony starts, ya know? just to release some nerves," alessandra smiled, making hamish and lois smile back as they empathised with the girl

they knew she was getting an award as well as her graduation certificate and they knew it frightened her. especially because technically, she could've still been named as the "new kid" since oscar and hamish were really her only best friends. after that first meeting, those three were as thick as thieves, never leaving each others line of sight. 

"fair, i mean, graduation awards can be quite stressful," lois smiled with a shrug of the shoulders since it wasn't her first time seeing an award ceremony attached to the graduation

"do you think he's realised you've left him?" hamish chuckles at alessandra, playing around with his wine that he was seemingly having trouble even drinking as the french girl chuckled

"i mean, i feel like if he had he'd be going on a manhunt right about now but, i think right now he hasn't noticed, why do you say that mr barker? you suspect mr piastri and i have a thing going on?" alessandra narrowed her eyes at the boy, bringing her hands underneath her chin as her elbows rested against the table as she moves closer to the englishman who giggles hysterically and moves back instinctively, his sister quietly giggling, the three of them thanking heaven that they weren't being filmed right now

"no, why would you think that? am i that obvious?" hamish cackles, his head flailing backwards making alessandra and his sister shut him up so no one else would hear them as they also start giggling

"sssh, unfortunately, yes, you're not as slick as you like to think you are mr barker," alessandra giggles as the three of them calm down

then, just as the three of them calmed down, the principal of the high school made his way on stage to announce the beginning of the graduation service and that the cameras were about to start filming. this then worred the crap out of alessandra, the colour draining from her face since it was the first time at any sort of 'graduation' that she'd also be getting an award outside of her graduation certificate since they didn't do those in any of the other schools in the other countries she lived in. both hamish and lois noticed this and asked the girl if she was okay. 

"...aless, you okay?" hamish questioned, snapping alessandra out of her disassociation as she smiled at him and his sister

"yeah, i'm fine, why?" alessandra responded as the two looked at each other in worry

"do you want me to get oscar or do you want me to walk us back to our table for the grad ceremony?" hamish then asked as she smiled and nodded her head

within minutes, hamish with some water had reached oscar and alessandra. downing the two drinks, the trio walked back to their tables for the graduation ceremony. 

let's just say that for the rest of the ceremony, oscar and alessandra did not leave each other's sides after the first time failed. that was until it was time for the actual moment the graduates were all called up to get their certification of graduation as well as the award ceremony when alessandra was given her award. and just as she suspected, it was a joint award with oscar but it wasn't the one spoken about earlier. it was an award that gave them the honourable "best friends forever" superlative. and, although oscar won't admit it and didn't for a few years until their eventual wedding, he got a little teary eyed and had a little cry after coming off stage after getting that award alongside alessandra. 

"...osc, do you remember when we said goodbye to one another when you left for formula 2 for the second year?" alessandra suddenly asks her husband as he tilts his head, trying to rack his brain of the memory

"i'm trying very hard, why? what happened before i left for formula 2 for the second year?" oscar questioned, leaning against the table as alessandra pointed at a photo that showed the two of them together in the middle of laughter with the other f2 rookies in the background

airport 

just one glance was all it took for alessandra to forget what she was about to say to oscar before he would leave for his second season with formula 2. leaving her to take care of their london house whilst she stayed back since she finally decided that she wanted to study paramedicine. all the whilst she happily let oscar grow to become a formula 1 driver now that he was in his second season with formula 2 and seemed to be getting closer and closer to a contract with an f1 team. 

with the other rookies and their loved ones watching, it was obvious why alessandra lost all of her train of thought and why it had taken all but one glance to do it. and oscar wasn't so slick either. the two had been trying to find words to one another before oscar's depature for at least five minutes when just as alessandra had finally thought up of something to say, one look into oscar's eyes and it had completely left her mind once again. it was obvious why it was so hard for alessandra to say goodbye to oscar. because it took her back to the days that she'd have to farewell her dad before he'd fly away with the rest of his fellow soldiers when he was in the military. and the same thing would happen, alessandra wouldn't know what to say for so long that when she thought she'd finally had it, it took all but one look between the father and daughter to have what alessandra planned to say to her dad to slip her mind. 

finally, after barely finding the words she originally wanted to say again, alessandra spoke up, "...damn it oscar! okay, for those who were wondering, the reason why i forgot what i had planned to say for that long was because of oscar piastri! we were making eye contact, like usual, when oscar just really made eye contact with me, catching me off guard and then everything just went to shit, and i forgot what i wanted to say to him. so, i apologise greatly my dear fellow rookies and rookie family members!" alessandra giggles into one of the rookies cameras since formula 2 wanted it to be filmed so it could then be uploaded to their social media, the drivers returning or joining their first season as she then turned to notice oscar suddenly get all bashful and red in the face 

laughing cause she could hear the other rookies giving him some stick, alessandra spoke up again, "now oscar's getting teased by the rookies which is the funniest thing in the world but, it is your fault, oscar!" alessandra joked to the camera as oscar shouted an apology which caused everyone to laugh again, the rookie just continuing to film 

"i'm sorry, okay aless?!" oscar shouts as alessandra and the rookies and their families laugh, resulting in the couple, nicknamed oscsandra, also bursting out into laughter

"i know, i was just playing with you, osc!" alessandra giggled as oscar let out a dramatic sigh of relief, the both of them really just teasing everyone at this point

"i take that back actually..." alessandra huffed as oscar's entire body shook in laughter, his head flying back as alessandra had a sly smirk that was twitching at her lips before she also broke

"...you wish!" oscar snickered after he had composed himself from his full-body laugh as alessandra groaned and rolled her eyes after she had composed herself from her laughter as well

"well, shit, i can't win this and, now i'm supposed to let you leave without me? how unfair!" alessandra huffed as oscar and everyone else found this entire interaction between the couple hysterically comedic

"that's because you never do, i always win these things! i would've thought you'd know this by now babe, come on now!" oscar teased, not realising that he had just outed him and alessandra's relationship on camera for the fans of formula 2 and potentially formula 1 to see

as well as the other rookies and their families, causing everyone to scream bloody murder. alessandra's eyes widening and nearly giving herself whiplash from how quickly she turned towards her boyfriend and the camera.

in an attempt to stop the rookies from freaking out over this new revelation, alessandra tried to lessen the imapct, "oscar! no, guys, calm down, oscar and i are not dating..." trailing off at the end only because she knew that there was no way this could be fixed, oscar had seriously just outed his own relationship with alessandra after keeping it private for at best, a year

"...yeah, nah, there is no way we can hide it now, sorry aless!" oscar hushed out after alessandra finished talking to the camera, the rookie completely shook, causing the girl to smile, grabbing her boyfriend's face and kissing it

"it's okay babe, i think it was starting to stress us out a little too much so, i don't mind that everyone knows now..." she trailed off as oscar's face lit up, not just in excitement but also due to the fact he was blushing

"...cool, i agree..." oscar trails off as he giggles, before pulling alessandra in for a kiss causing the both of them to giggle even more as they touched foreheads before hearing the click and seeing the flash of one of the rookie's camera's, making them giggle more

"...babe, i had never felt such fear until that moment i accidentally outed us on camera, in the airport in front of the formula 2 rookies!" oscar chuckled as alessandra giggled hysterically, nodding her head in agreement as they looked at the photo where the memory had come from

"i know! i was mortified but, by the end of it, i didn't care anymore since it did stop the internet from constantly making rumours about us just to stop them from mentioning the other f2 wag rumours," alessandra giggled as oscar nodded his head, giggling too

"honestly, at that point, i think i was too since we were so used to seeing those silly rumours in the magazines for the wrong reasons, i guess we also wanted to prevent that and how it could have potentially ruined f2's image," oscar smiled as he rubbed his hand against his wife's back before giving her a kiss on the cheek and getting up to make dinner whilst alessandra continued to look through the photo album

2023

"...wait, your full name really is oscar jack piastri?" alessandra chuckled

she was currently staying with oscar in london and right now they were at oscar's childhood home he had grown up in after moving from australia to england. she had picked up a photo frame that she hadn't seen until this moment - a baby photo of oscar that had his first, middle and last name engraved in the photo frame

"yeah...it's been like that my entire life, what about it baby?" oscar scoffed as he turned around to see what his wife had gotten into when he realised what she was holding

"why didn't you ever tell me that jack was really your middle name?" there was sort of a sad tinge in alessandra's voice when she asked that and, it saddened but at the same time confused oscar, who had placed the tea towel down and left the kitchen to check on his wife

"i...i'm not sure babe, i guess our middle names really haven't ever come up in conversation since our wedding, why are you asking that babe? i thought it was common knowledge that jack was my middle name. is there something you haven't told me yet?" oscar was genuinely concerned as alessandra scoffed slightly as her husband tilted his head

"jack was the name of my brother that uh, that was stillborn because of an illness that had developed in mum's bloodstream..." alessandra trailed off in embarrassment, placing down oscar's baby picture as she sighed heavily - oscar was never told about that and, whilst it broke his heart, it worried him more so than anything else

"...how many weeks was baby jack, if you don't me asking, when he was born still, babe?" oscar's face was genuinely a look of concern as alessandra smiled slightly as she placed her hand palm down against the old cabinet that had the old childhood photos, including that baby photo of oscar amongst other ones of him with his three sisters, scattered all over it

"at thirty-five weeks, he was also a big little boy..." she trailed off and it was very obvious to oscar that this was a thing that she rarely spoke about and he respected that but, it still hurt his heart as he never knew his mother-in-law went through something like that

"how...how did you and the rest of the family react? how did dad react?" oscar stuttered, feeling like he shouldn't have been asking so many questions but, he couldn't help it and alessandra was slowly smiling - as if talking about this trauma that she had shoved so far down was actually helping her relieve the trauma it gave her

"we were absolutely devastated over it at first. i mean, of course we were. i mean, i refused to talk to her and honestly, sometimes i still do as it's something my step-mum has trouble shutting up about at every family function even though it was a couple of decades ago now. dad was devastated. he was just excited that we were bringing in the eighth kid as we all were however,it started to become obvious that due to the illness in mom's bloodstream that it was either save the baby but kill mum or have a stillborn but still have our mum. and, obviously, we chose the latter," alessandra trailed off as oscar's face fell into furrowed eyebrows with a saddened look on his face

"wow, that...that's awful and, i bet if he was still here, baby jack would have been the sweetest little brother ever!" oscar smiles softly, placing his hand over the top of his wife's who smiled back as she nodded her head

"thanks, osc, never knew i'd reveal that especially so soon after our wedding as it isn't technically my place but, i guess it's just been weighing me down lately..." alessandra trailed off as oscar's smile grew prouder

"...and i'm proud of you my love... also, what's your middle name? you didn't tell me at the wedding so i had to stand there red-faced whilst my full name was recited out but yours wasn't,"

"for god's sake oscar, it's aurelia-rose..."

"...have i ever told you that your middle name is absolutely gorgeous?" oscar just randomly blurts out as he mashed up the sweet potatoes as alessandra giggles and furrows her eyebrows in confusion

"excuse me what?" she cackled as she went back to folding up clothes that had just been washed, oscar giggling softly as they kept an eye on the noise in the play room

"your middle name bubs, it's very pretty," oscar spoke as alessandra blushed as she giggled out in embarrassment

"awe, thanks my darling! i love it as well," she giggles softly as she places the folded jacket into the wash hamper

"who gave you your full name?" oscar then asked, his focus more on his wife's name than the sweet potato mash, making alessandra giggle

"dad did actually. he had always loved those three names, alessandra, aurelia and rose. and, of course, cause he's polish and french, he did want a traditional polish name over a french name. but he just realised that those three names all had a good flow together when he put it together with the polish last name. and, when he'd say it out loud to people to see if he and mum should really have that as my name, they all agreed saying it was just nice and satisfying to say. so, a little less than a week later, they decided to name me, alessandra aurelia-rose kaminski, with aurelia and rose being hyphenated," she smiled, shrugging her shoulders as oscar bit his lip - yeah, he still loved the hell out of his wife

"that's adorable. i love that your dad chose it, i'm guessing that gave daddy the upper hand in the department of the favourite parent?" oscar giggled as alessandra nodded her head as she huffed some hair out of her face that was starting to become red

"oh, for sure. daddy's girl from the start!" alessandra giggled which made oscar chuckle as well as he then continued on the sweet potato mash for his family's dinner

wedding day, daddy/daughter dance, 2023

it was time for the daddy/daughter's first dance at oscar and alessandra's aussie wedding and, let's just say, she was so very excited and, it was mainly due to the song choice. she had elvis can't help falling in love as a surprise for her dad as that song was the song he would sing her to sleep with every single night.

the song started and straight away, antoni kaminski, alessandra kaminski's father couldn't hide the tears that had built up in his eyes as his little girl wiped them away. instead of her father singing the lyrics to his little girl, alessandra surprised her father and sang the words to him.

"wise men say, only fools rush in but i can't help falling in love with you..." alessandra sang softly as the father and daughter duo glided softly on the dance floor, oscar watched on as he danced with his mother with a tearful smile on his face

"...like a river flows, surely to the sea darling, so it goes, some things you know, are just meant to be..." the duo sang together as they hugged and swayed side to side in tune with the music

"...take my hand, take my whole life too, for i can't help falling in love with you, for i can't help falling in with you, yeah..."

humming the melody of elvis' can't help falling in love, alessandra continued to fold clothes as oscar heard his wife, "...you alright babe?" oscar whispered, hugging her from behind as the chaos of their two kids started to filter away into white noise as alessandra smiled at her husband

"mhm," alessandra mumbled back, turning her head to smile at her husband as she then took notice of her and oscar's eldest daughter, aurelia

"aurelia! could you get your brother ready please, daddy's just about done with dinner!" alessandra called out, a happy squeal leaving aurelia's mouth as she neatly put her toys away before gathering up her brother's toys as well

"coming mamma!" aurelia calls back, herding her younger brother upstairs to wash their hands for dinner, giving the husband and wife a few more minutes together alone

"mmm, you think aurelia and jack will react well to getting another brother or sister?" alessandra announced casually as oscar's eyes widened

"what? seriously? you're pregnant again babe?" oscar gaped in shock as alessandra giggled, nodding her head

"yep, i'm five months, just short!" alessandra squealed as oscar picked up his wife in pure excitement

"WE'RE HAVING ANOTHER BABY, ALESSANDRA!" oscar screeched from just about the tops of his lungs as the husband and wife chuckled, hearing the increased pitter patter of feet meaning that most likely, aurelia and jack had heard their daddy scream

fin

okay, whilst i'm proud of myself for finally writing for oscar "pastry" piastri, i have got to say that i love this one-shot too much to not attempt to do a part two that includes the third baby and maybe the rest of the f1 grid as well as like uncles. 

[thatbuddie]

i’ve decided i want to do the spin the wheel game for 911 characters but instead of fmk it’s:

solve one problem in their life (you have to put in the tags what problem you’d solve for them)

put in prison (you have to put in the tags what crime they’re getting convicted of)

have a 3 hour conversation about only 1 topic with them (you have to put in the tags what topic you’d choose)

so go on: spin the wheel for a 911 character!!!

[kimtaegis]

an iconic look 💛 for @hobicentric

cr. namuspromised

[loupy-mongoose]

Sorry, I just... I just got onto my old laptop and was looking through old doodles and junk.

And. uh.

Lookit these dorks

I didn't mean to end up with a "Then vs. Now" comparison. XD

[ask-the-colony-tree-siblings]

Gourmand, what's your favorite memory?

Gourmand: I have two favourite memories actually! I have two wonderful kids, after all. How could I pick one?

[velvet-games]

vox making tanghulu at 3am

[moonshere]

Started playing In Stars and Time and I am having so many Thoughts about Siffrin and his past (read more for potential spoilers)

Out of everyone, they're the one whose background I know the least about, not even their home town! Everyone else mentioned theirs multiple times, what they were doing before the adventure and what they plan to do afterwards, but not Siffrin (in fact, he says that he 'didn't have anything better to do than join the adventure' and every reply to what he would like to do in the future is nothing more than what he think would make his friends laugh, not what he truly desires)

And the fact that Siffrin didn't even consider telling anyone about the time loops, was way too happy that only they died, happy to carry the burden to make his friends smile, and their moments of extreme self depreciation makes me think they're way too self sacrificial

And also! His aversion to touch! Something he was completely unaware of but his friends knew and respected. It took like, 4 loops of Isabeau's almost touch for him to finally notice and comment on it. Despite him traveling with his friends for months! (And him being oblivious to Isa's feelings?!?! I think?!?!) Idk I'm just thinking a lot what this could mean??

With their memory problems it makes me think it might be a trauma response? but I'm so curious to know what's up!! (Also, the irony of them being stuck in a time loop despite the fact that they have the worst memory is sksbjsbsi)

I'm not sure where I'm going with this, I'm sure when I continue the game all answers will be shown. But at the moment I just can't help but think about what could possibly have happened in Siffrin's past!

[lulublack90]

Prompt 19 - Memory

@jegulus-microfic September 19, Word count 121

Regulus stared at the shimmering liquid casting eerie reflections on the stone walls as he added another memory to the Pensieve. An image of James swam to the surface. He was smiling his most beautiful smile at Regulus. Regulus’s eyes prickled, and he pushed the tears back, swilling the image away with the tip of his wand. 

He added another and another and another. Image after image of James flashed across the surface. All his most precious memories were of James. He added them one by one so that they’d always be safe because what he was about to do, could put them both at risk. 

He donned his death eater robes and strode from the secret room beneath Grimmauld Place.

[emmafallsinlove]

recently i’m thinking about how both of rory’s lovers left her on her graduation day. first it was jess who literally went without saying goodbye, end up not taking her to prom and didn’t showed up for her graduation. but he was 17 and he didn’t know better. and later it was logan, who proposed and when rory had told him “i love you, i love the idea of being married to you but i can’t do it right now at this moment” literally gave her an ultimatum - marry me or else. he was 25 but acted like a literal child at this moment. and i hate it because rory worked so hard for both of these moments, especially for the second one, after having a meltdown and taken a time off and yet, her boyfriend, the person who told her “you base your decision based on what you want for you” left her because she didn’t wanna marry him right at 22 when she graduates, and it sucks.

[m1zisua]

sua, the girl who was never allowed to express her emotions and was never given joy having mizi, the sweetest and kindest person, to give her all of the love she had previously missed out on and shower her in affection and pure admiration and being the one sua was able to truly find comfort and be herself with

[beanghostprincess]

"Haha ASL Brothers haha more like American Sign Language" well, actually, YES. After the explosives that made Sabo lose his memory, he also started to have difficulties hearing and Dragon had to teach him ASL. He doesn't want to worry Luffy and Ace (he's alive. Shut up) when they meet again, so he doesn't say anything. But they start noticing he can't hear them well anymore and his fake smiles are too fake for his brothers not to notice it. So!!! Luffy tells Robin and Robin actually knows ASL?? And Marco does too, so Ace also has a teacher. Then, when they see each other again, Ace and Luffy start signing almost perfectly (almost. They're pretty clumsy and Sabo sometimes has a hard time trying to understand wtf they're trying to say). Sabo pretty much starts crying when this happens. Dumbass brothers that learned ASL for him. He loves them so much.

[amberjazmyn]

happiest memories

𝓲𝓶𝓪𝓰𝓲𝓷𝓮 - happiest memories

𝔀𝓪𝓻𝓷𝓲𝓷𝓰𝓼 - just a lot of fluff

𝓭𝓮𝓼𝓬𝓻𝓲𝓹𝓽𝓲𝓸𝓷 - all it took was just one photo, a photo from jensen and alessandra ackles' recent wedding that set off four of the couple's happiest memories together.

𝓪𝓾𝓽𝓱𝓸𝓻'𝓼 𝓷𝓸𝓽𝓮 - the photo in question will be first and then the memories will be in 'order' and in italics so it makes more sense and the present time will be in normal font. also, i decided that i need to write more for jensen cause i just write a lot for jared and misha. 

masterlist

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jensen and his wife alessandra ackles had just been rearranging their house when alessandra stumbled upon some of her and jensen's wedding photos from 2010, the photo she saw though, in particular, sending good shivers down her spine. the photo in specificity was taken as they left the church after the ceremony. jensen and alessandra had a very fancy but private sort of wedding in dallas. the photo was taken just outside the church they had just gotten married in, alessandra was taking up majority of the photo with only a slither of jensen able to be seen, alessandra smiling a big smile at her new husband as they held hands. the slither that could be seen of jensen was his hand holding his wife's and the faintest/blurriest portion of his chin that looked as though he was also smiling at his wife. a big talk of the wedding was the fact that alessandra had two separate dresses, her ceremony dress, a simple satin, silky long-line dress, and her reception dress, a short dress with sparkling fringe all over it, screaming y2k whilst jensen just changed from his suit jacket to his white button-up for the reception. 

"...wow, i had completely forgotten about this photo..." alessandra trailed off as she looked up to her husband who could only smile and nod his head 

"...i did too to be quite honest. i'm still glad even after so many years though that it doesn't show me crying *giggles* because lord have mercy, i just know i would have been non-stop heckled for that!" jensen joked as alessandra smiled at her husband, also laughing with him 

"i mean, in all honesty, i kind of wish the photographer had included you in it more. you're cute when you get emotional," alessandra giggled as jensen smiled, shaking his head as he giggled 

"i have to say though, this may just be my favourite photo from our wedding..." jensen trailed off as that intrigued his wife 

"...how so?" "you'll see," jensen smiled as he opened up a photo album that was titled 2005

2005

alessandra was currently starring in her first-ever tv show called supernatural. whilst the girl was excited, she was just as terrified as she was excited. this was something she had been dreaming about doing for ages and now at just shy of twenty-four, she was doing exactly that. whilst it wasn't the first time exactly that alessandra would be starring in a tv show, it was still the first time she was doing it as a reccuring character. 

the girl was just asked to come out of her trailer to meet the other two lead characters. however, she was slightly worried that because she was wearing nothing but a calvin klein bra and sweatpants she'd be making the wrong impression on the two actors. but, her manager and eric kripke, creator of supernatural, told her not to worry about it and that her outfit choice would not change the impression from the two other lead actors. and, honestly, she was glad that she trusted her manager's judgement because, in eric we trust, he was right. 

"...hey...umm, you're alessandra kaminski? the other lead in supernatural?" a texan accent rang out which caught alessandra's attention, looking up from her script, she smiled as she saw one of the two leads in front of her, he had gorgeous green eyes and what looked like light brown hair, looking a little nervous 

"hiya...yeah, i am alessandra and, you are?" 

"jensen...i'm jensen ackles, i'm one of the two lead actors in the new wb show, supernatural," he smiled shyly as alessandra smiled back at him as she scooched over so he could sit with her, a smile forming on his face as he quickly took the seat, ignoring the wolf whistles of a second brunette boy who was most likely the other lead actor

"oh, nice! i'm also one of the leads? i think that's what eric said but, maybe i hallucinated that actually *giggles*," jensen giggled at alessandra's quip of hallucinating her being the third lead as alessandra shared eye contact with the fellow green-eyed boy 

"you didn't hallucinate that, alessandra, you are the third lead. two brothers and their wayward best friend," jensen explained as alessandra hummed with a nod of her head with a small giggle afterwards

"ahh, that makes sense..." 

"...hey, jay, i was just looking for you..." 

"...oh, i...i am so sorry. was i interrupting anything?" another texan accent suddenly rang out, alessandra shifted her eyes to see a even taller but slightly younger texan boy who had a striking set of sunflower, hazel-like eyes standing in front of her and jensen

"oh, no, no, you weren't at all. jensen and i were just introducing ourselves to each other. hi, i'm alessandra kaminski, the third lead actor of the new show," she introduced herself as she stood up so she could properly shake hands with the new unnamed boy who smiled back at her - jensen watching at how effortlessly she had just done all of that with the most manners ever 

"hiya alessandra, i'm jared padalecki, i'm the other lead actor alongside ackles, we're the winchester brothers so, i'm guessing you're playing their wayward best friend," jared smiled as alessandra too smiled and nodded her head as she then giggled 

"well, you're not wrong there. but, jared, seeing as we're all here, do you want to sit here with jensen and me unless you needed to grab jensen for something else like a blocking session or something?" both boys were so shocked to see how poised and put together their fellow costar who was basically the same age as them was after having just met the both of them, the two lads smiling at each other 

"yeah, sure, i can stay here with you both. i was just trying to find jensen is all as one minute i was talking with him and eric and the next second i look back and he's off and gone somewhere else," jared giggled which made jensen's face heat up - did he seriously bail out from his friends to introduce himself to her? 

"oh, did he really do that? anyway, that's great you can stay with us, jared. besides, still confuses me why i'm filming today considering i can't even understand this particular scene and i have to start the filming of it by the end of the day..." alessandra trailed off as jensen couldn't help but smile at the girl that was sitting very close to him 

"...well, i...i mean, if you wanted, jared and i could help you with getting the scene? just so you can get the scene blocked by today?" jensen stammered out nervously as alessandra smiled at the offer, jared agreeing as well 

"seriously? i mean, it wouldn't be the first time i get someone raising their voice at me for not figuring something out on my own *giggles* but, if you are able to, that would be such a help, thank you, jensen and jared," alessandra thanked sweetly as jensen and jared smiled at the girl 

"it's no problem at all alessandra, jensen and i have already done our blocking for the day, it's only extras that are left in the studio so, we're happy to help you. plus, we don't want you to be yelled at again, also, i know we have just met and we're already being so nice but that's just who we are as texans. we're buddies in the show so, we'll be buddies in real life, so in saying all of that, let's help you get this scene blocked!" jared announced as alessandra smiled as jensen grabbed her arm and helped her up from the seat 

alessandra started to walk back to her trailer, turning around to see jensen and jared stalling behind her, giggling, she spoke up, "you coming boys or are you gossiping about me?" jensen and jared paused before shaking their heads 

"we're coming alessandra!" they both shouted out which made the three of them giggle, alessandra turning around to continue to walk in the direction of her trailer, leaving the two texans to themselves 

"you are totally in love with her jay!" jared chuckled as jensen rolled his eyes, pushing his friend as they walked over to alessandra's trailer

"no, i am not!" 

"just wait a year, maybe less..." 

"...jay, babe, what were you thinking about?" alessandra rubs her husband's back as he smiles 

"'05, when we first met in vancouver when supernatural was just starting," jensen smirked as alessandra giggled, showing the photo he had found that had been taken later that day  

"holy crap, that feels like it was forever ago now!" alessandra chuckled as jensen nodded his head in agreement 

"it really does, jared really was right..." 

december 2005

it was an award show, where supernatural was being honoured - not awarded per sey - when it was shown that jensen and alessandra were seen walking in together, causing a right stir to all the magazines and paparazzi that showed up for the event. making the actors giggle, none more so than alessandra and jensen, since they were shown walking in next to each other. it was wildly known within the magazines the whole year that those two had grown extremely close and was rumoured that they were dating since they were always seen out together. which, when it came to rumours around the supernatural cast, people were shocked that jared wasn't trying to ruin it since it was usually him that would jokingly throw fuel into the fire about the love lives of his two best friends/costars. but, to be funny, jensen and alessandra started to put more fuel in the fire by constantly amping up their public outings and public flirting and egging on the photographers and magazines so they could get a reaction. 

for the first time this entire night, however, alessandra had walked off from jensen and their table as she had spotted jared chatting with his old costar, milo ventimiglia who starred in gilmore girls together, fondling a whiskey. 

"...hey jar, milo, can i sit?" alessandra asked sweetly, the ceremony not even begun filming yet, jared and milo's eyes moving from their glasses to the young girl, both of them smiling back 

"hey aless, course you can," jared smiled, milo smiling too, "where's jensen, thought you'd be joint at the hip," the californian chuckled before the three composed themselves, so as to not create too much noise 

"of course you did. but, nah, since the cameras aren't rolling, and before the evening starts, thought i'd just frolic around and talk to some people before the ceremony starts, ya know? just to release some nerves," alessandra smiled, making jared and milo smile back as they empathised with the girl since supernatural getting honoured was such an interesting and new thing that had never happened before now - especially because it had only just finished its first year of airing and it was still unsure if they were being picked up for a second season

"fair, i mean, tv show honourings can be quite stressful," milo smiled with a shrug of the shoulders since it wasn't his first time seeing a tv show get honoured

"do you think he's realised you've left him?" jared chuckles at alessandra, playing around with his whiskey that he was seemingly having trouble even drinking as the texan girl chuckled 

"i mean, i feel like if he had he'd be going on a manhunt right about now but, i think right now he hasn't noticed, why do you say that mr padalecki? you suspect mr ackles and i have a thing going on?" alessandra narrowed her eyes at the boy, bringing her hands underneath her chin as her elbows rested against the table as she moves closer to the texan who giggles hysterically and moves back instinctively, milo quietly giggling, the three of them thanking heaven that they weren't on air right now 

"no, why would you think that? am i that obvious?" jared cackles, his head flailing backwards making alessandra and milo shut jared up so no one else would hear them as they also start giggling 

"sssh, unfortunately, yes, you're not as slick as you like to think you are mr padalecki," alessandra giggles as the three of them calm down 

then, just as the three of them calmed down, eric kripke, the creator of supernatural made his way to the stage after the cameraman had announced that they were about to go live. this then worried the crap out of alessandra, the colour draining from her face since it was her first honouring of a tv show she's just started starring in at the beginning of the year. both men, jared and milo, noticed this and asked the girl if she was okay. 

"...aless, you okay?" jared questioned, snapping alessandra out of her disassociation as she smiled at him and milo

"yeah, i'm fine, why?" alessandra responded as the two men looked at each other in worry 

"do you want me to get jensen or do you want me to walk us back to our table for the honouring ceremony?" jared then asked as she smiled and nodded her head 

within minutes, jensen with two glasses of vodka soda had reached jared, alessandra and milo. downing the two drinks, jared and jensen, along with alessandra in the middle of them, walked back over to the supernatural cast table for the ceremony that was moments from going live. 

let's just say that for the rest of the ceremony, jensen and alessandra did not leave each other's sides after the first time failed. that was until it was announced that not only was the tv show itself getting honoured, so was alessandra? and because of this, alessandra had to go up on stage and accept an "award" for her own honouring on behalf of the entire network and cast of supernatural. 

"...jensen, do you remember when we filmed season four together?" alessandra suddenly asks her husband as he tilts his head, trying to rack his brain of the memory 

"i'm trying very hard, why? what happened when we filmed season four together?" jensen questioned, leaning against the table as alessandra pointed at a photo that showed the two of them together in the middle of laughter with the other cast members in the background

supernatural season four filming

just one glance was all it took for alessandra to forget the next set of lines in the scene as she tried her hardest to get back on track so she could remember and keep the scene going.

to the cast and crew watching, it was obvious why alessandra forgot her lines and who that one glance was to. and jensen wasn't so slick either. the two had been making silly faces at each other until one of jensen's signature "smoulders" caught her off guard and made her forget what lines were coming next in their scene together. 

after barely getting through the scene due to her giggles, alessandra spoke up after the cut of the scene was called, "...gosh darn it, jensen! okay, for those who were concered or confused, the reason why i forgot the lines was because of jensen ackles! we were making silly faces at each other, as we usually do, when jensen caught me off guard with one of his famous "jensen smoulders" and it all just went to shit from there *giggles* so i apologise greatly for that everyone!" alessandra giggled into the camera for the eventual gag reel that this would be apart of, the crew laughing with her as she turned to notice jensen suddenly get all bashful and red in the face 

laughing cause she could hear the rest of their cast giving him some stick, alessandra spoke up again, "now jensen's getting teased by our costars which is the funniest thing in the world but, it is your fault, jensen!" alessandra joked as jensen shouted an apology which caused everyone to laugh again as the cameras just continued rolling 

"i'm sorry, okay aless?!" jensen shouts as alessandra and the cast and crew laugh, resulting in the couple, nicknamed jensandra, also bursting out into laughter 

"i know, i was just playing with you, jay!" alessandra giggled as jensen let out a dramatic sigh of relief, the both of them really just teasing the fans at this point 

"i take that back actually..." alessandra huffed as jensen's entire body shook in laughter, his head flying back as alessandra had a sly smirk that was twitching at her lips before she also broke 

"...you wish!" jensen snickered after he had composed himself from his full-body laugh as alessandra groaned and rolled her eyes after she had composed herself from her laughter as well 

"well, shit, i can't win this and, now i'm supposed to continue acting this scene? how unfair!" alessandra huffed as jensen and the rest of the cast and crew found this entire interaction between the couple hysterically comedic 

"that's because you never do, i always win these things! i would've thought you'd know this by now babe, come on now!" jensen teased, not realising that he had just outed him and alessandra's relationship on camera for the spn fans to eventually watch in the gag reel of this new season, causing the entire cast and crew to scream bloody murder, alessandra's eyes widening and nearly giving herself whiplash from how quickly she turned towards her boyfriend

in an attempt to stop the cast and crew from freaking out over this new revelation, alessandra tried to lessen the imapct, "jensen! no, guys, calm down, jensen and i are not dating..." trailing off at the end only because she knew that there was no way this could be fixed, jensen had seriously just outed his own relationship with alessandra after keeping it private for at best, a year 

"...yeah, nah, there is no way we can hide it now, sorry aless!" jensen hushed out after alessandra finished her scene, causing the girl to smile, grabbing her boyfriend's face and kissing it 

"it's okay babe, i think it was starting to stress us out a little too much so, i don't mind that everyone knows now..." she trailed off as jensen's face lit up, not just in excitement but also due to the fact he was blushing 

"...cool, i agree..." jensen trails off as he giggles, before pulling alessandra in for a kiss causing the both of them to giggle even more as they touched foreheads before hearing the click and seeing the flash of jared's camera, making them giggle more 

"...babe, i had never felt such fear until that moment i accidentally outed us on camera for season four together!" jensen chuckled as alessandra giggled hysterically, nodding her head in agreement as they looked at the photo where the memory had come from 

"i know! i was mortified but, by the end of it, i didn't care anymore since it did stop the magazines from constantly making rumours about us just to stop them from mentioning jared's silly rumours," alessandra giggled as jensen nodded his head, giggling too 

"honestly, at that point, i think i was too since we were so used to seeing those silly rumours in the magazines for the wrong reasons, i guess we also wanted to prevent that and how it could have potentially ruined supernatural's image," jensen smiled as he rubbed his hand against his wife's back before giving her a kiss on the cheek and getting up to make dinner whilst alessandra continued to look through the photo album 

2010

"...wait, your full name really is jensen ross ackles?" alessandra chuckled

she was currently staying with jensen in dallas and right now they were at jensen's childhood home. she had picked up a photo frame that she hadn't seen until this moment - a baby photo of jensen that had his first, middle and last name engraved in the photo frame

"yeah...it's been like that my entire life, what about it baby?" jensen scoffed as he turned around to see what his wife had gotten into when he realised what she was holding 

"why didn't you ever tell me that ross was really your middle name?" there was sort of a sad tinge in alessandra's voice when she asked that and, it saddened but at the same time confused jensen, who had placed the tea towel down and left the kitchen to check on his wife  

"i...i'm not sure babe, i guess our middle names really haven't eveer come up in conversation since our wedding, why are you asking that babe? i thought it was common knowledge that ross was my middle name. is there something you haven't told me yet?" jensen was genuinely concerned as alessandra scoffed slightly as her husband tilted his head 

"ross was the name of my brother that uh, that was stillborn because of an illness that had developed in mom's bloodstream..." alessandra trailed off in embarrassment, placing down jensen's baby picture as she sighed heavily - jensen was never told about that and, whilst it broke his heart, it worried him more so than anything else 

"...how many weeks was baby ross, if you don't me asking, when he was born still, babe?" jensen's face was genuinely a look of concern as alessandra smiled slightly as she placed her hand palm down against the old cabinet that had the old childhood photos, including that baby photo of jensen amongst other ones of him with his siblings, joshua and mackenzie, scattered all over it

"at thirty-five weeks, he was also a big little boy..." she trailed off and it was very obvious to jensen that this was a thing that she rarely spoke about and he respected that but, it still hurt his heart as he never knew his mother-in-law went through something like that

"how...how did you and the rest of the family react? how did dad react?" jensen stuttered, feeling like he shouldn't have been asking so many questions but, he couldn't help it and alessandra was slowly smiling - as if talking about this trauma that she had shoved so far down was actually helping her relieve the trauma it gave her 

"we were absolutely devastated over it at first. i mean, of course we were. i mean, i refused to talk to her and honestly, sometimes i still do as it's something my step-mom has trouble shutting up about at every family function even though it was a couple of decades ago now. dad was devastated. he was just excited that we were bringing in the eighth kid as we all were however,it started to become obvious that due to the illness in mom's bloodstream that it was either save the baby but kill mom or have a stillborn but still have your mom. and, obviously, we chose the latter," alessandra trailed off as jensen's face fell into furrowed eyebrows with a saddened look on his face 

"wow, that...that's awful and, i bet if he was still here, baby ross would have been the sweetest little brother ever!" jensen smiles softly, placing his hand over the top of his wife's who smiled back as she nodded her head 

"thanks, jay, never knew i'd reveal that especially so soon after our wedding as it isn't technically my place but, i guess it's just been weighing me down lately..." alessandra trailed off as jensen's smile grew prouder 

"...and i'm proud of you my love... also, what's your middle name? you didn't tell me at the wedding so i had to stand there red-faced whilst my full name was recited out but yours wasn't,"  

"for god's sake jensen, it's aurelia-rose..." 

"...have i ever told you that your middle name is absolutely gorgeous?" jensen just randomly blurts out as he mashed up the sweet potatoes as alessandra giggles and furrows her eyebrows in confusion 

"excuse me what?" she cackled as she went back to folding up clothes that had just been washed, jensen giggling softly as they kept an eye on the noise in the play room 

"your middle name bubs, it's very pretty," jensen spoke as alessandra blushed as she giggled out in embarrassment 

"awe, thanks my darling! i love it as well," she giggles softly as she places the folded jacket into the wash hamper 

"who gave you your full name?" jensen then asked, his focus more on his wife's name than the sweet potato mash, making alessandra giggle 

"dad did actually. he had always loved those three names, alessandra, aurelia and rose. and, of course, cause he's polish, he did want a traditional polish name but he just realised that those three names all had a good flow together when he put it together with the polish last name. and, when he'd say it out loud to people to see if he and mom should really have that as my name, they all agreed saying it was just nice and satisfying to say. so, a little less than a week later, they decided to name me, alessandra aurelia-rose kaminski, with aurelia and rose being hyphenated," she smiled, shrugging her shoulders as jensen bit his lip - yeah, he still loved the hell out of his wife 

"that's adorable. i love that your dad chose it, i'm guessing that gave daddy the upper hand in the department of the favourite parent?" jensen giggled as alessandra nodded her head as she huffed some hair out of her face that was starting to become red 

"oh, for sure. daddy's girl from the start!" alessandra giggled which made jensen chuckle as well as he then continued on the sweet potato mash for his family's dinner 

wedding day, daddy/daughter dance, 2010

it was time for the daddy/daughter's first dance at jensen and alessandra's texan wedding and, let's just say, she was so very excited and, it was mainly due to the song choice. she had elvis can't help falling in love as a surprise for her dad as that song was the song he would sing her to sleep with every single night. 

the song started and straight away, antoni kaminski, alessandra kaminski's father couldn't hide the tears that had built up in his eyes as his little girl wiped them away. instead of her father singing the lyrics to his little girl, alessandra surprised her father and sang the words to him. 

"wise men say, only fools rush in but i can't help falling in love with you..." alessandra sang softly as the father and daughter duo glided softly on the dance floor, jensen watched on as he danced with his mother with a tearful smile on his face 

"...like a river flows, surely to the sea darling, so it goes, some things you know, are just meant to be..." the duo sang together as they hugged and swayed side to side in tune with the music 

"...take my hand, take my whole life too, for i can't help falling in love with you, for i can't help falling in with you, yeah..." 

humming the melody of elvis' can't help falling in love, alessandra continued to fold clothes as jensen heard his wife, "...you alright babe?" jensen whispered, hugging her from behind as the chaos of their two kids started to filter away into white noise as alessandra smiled at her husband 

"mhm," alessandra mumbled back, turning her head to smile at her husband as she then took notice of her and jensen's eldest daughter, aurelia

"aurelia! could you get your brother ready please, daddy's just about done with dinner!" alessandra called out, a happy squeal leaving aurelia's mouth as she neatly put her toys away before gathering up her brother's toys as well 

"coming mamma!" aurelia calls back, herding her younger brother upstairs to wash their hands for dinner, giving the husband and wife a few more minutes together alone 

"mmm, you think aurelia and zeppelin will react well to getting another brother or sister?" alessandra announced casually as jensen's eyes widened

"what? seriously? you're pregnant again babe?" jensen gaped in shock as alessandra giggled, nodding her head 

"yep, i'm five months, just short!" alessandra squealed as jensne picked up his wife in pure excitement

"WE'RE HAVING ANOTHER BABY, ALESSANDRA!" jensen screeched from just about the tops of his lungs as the husband and wife chuckled, hearing the increased pitter patter of feet meaning that most likely, aurelia and zeppelin had heard their daddy scream 

- - - 

okay, whilst i'm glad that i've finally written for jensen again, i have got to say, this ending is not the best! in saying that though, i do like the slow inclusion of jensen and alessandra's two kids and then the ending that has alessandra reveal she's pregnant with their third. however, i'm not going to comment on that any further because i do think this is a sweet one-shot so i'm glad i wrote it again! 

ok ily bye xx

wc; 4995

[coachbeards]

something something “we accept the love we think we deserve”

[evilwickedme]

No no you don't understand. It's not about Jason being always right or the person who suffered the most. It's that he's a victim's power fantasy. It's that he's fundamentally changed. The tragedy of Jason Todd is that he was the best goddamn kid - he was kind and thoughtful and smart and passionate and caring - and that that was taken advantage of, and that's what got him killed. It's that he can't ever be that kid again because his trauma is all consuming and yet he has used that to create a new identity where he is in control. That trauma defines him. It also leaves him frozen, incapable of true character development, makes it so he can never cross that gap between him and Bruce. He cannot separate being Bruce's son from being Robin, and therefore if he is not Robin, he is not Bruce's son. He cannot move on from being a victim, not ever, and therefore he is always going to be representative of victimhood being utilized for something else. When the anger consumes you and you mourn your past self because you can never be that person again. When it's the happy memories that hurt the most. That's where his narrative is the most powerful. It would be so satisfying on a certain level to see him grow past that. But he would no longer serve his purpose, not in challenging Bruce, and not in representing that need to empower yourself after the worst thing that ever happened to you.

[biillys]

and you— you were happy.

[betryl]

It's been said a lot of times before but I'll say it again because it's true: the country house section is one of the best, if not THE best section of the book.

It's weird to say considering how "useless" it is in terms of plot (there's the Bacchanal happening in the background but of course we know nothing about it yet), and there are many parts that are way more interesting in which actual things happen. Plus, it is quite long, so a lot of pages of basically nothing.

And yet in retrospect, that's the part that stuck with me the most in the end, and it still is one of the first things that come to mind when I think back on TSH.

It was just that vivid. Maybe it's because I've experienced something similar myself so I could sympathize with how Richard was feeling too. I just remember I was totally immersed in it the first time I read it. I really felt like I was there. And even if it did last longer than I expected and I wanted to go on with the story already, I didn't feel bored.

Apart from simply ✨the atmosphere✨ and ✨the aesthetic✨ being on point, I think the main reason for this is that it really fed the illusion, and it made you FEEL like Richard. We knew from the very first page (lines!) that this book was probably not going to be a joyful one. But while they were in that country house, everything seemed fine. Richard was finally making his way into the group, they were starting to be more open towards him, they were all having a great time together, we got to see their little stupid shenanigans which made us know all of them better and me inevitably attached to all of them (Bunny throwing Henry and Francis in the water will never not be funny to be) and they even started daydreaming about the possibility of living together in that house without anything changing in the future.

It was clear even while I was reading it that all those things would have never become true, and that the illusion would have shattered soon. But still a little part of me kept on believing that maybe that could last, because the way it was narrated by Richard was... weirdly hopeful, which isn't something I can say about any other part of the book I believe. It was hopeful, and yet there was that unsettling sense of dread creeping through the lines, because you KNEW the murder was coming soon and everything would end. But just like Richard, I just... didn't care in the moment.

The country house section to me was somehow a snippet into what could have been if they never murdered Bunny- or even before, if they never had the Bacchanal at all. Could things have gone wrong at some point still, for whatever other reason? Probably yes. Maybe they weren't meant to last anyways, maybe they weren't even friends in the first place, everyone has their own thoughts about this. But it's sweet to think about. Now knowing the whole story and how terrible the situation actually got makes those pages even more painful. Those really were their happiest times.

Also I could talk about Camilla cutting her foot too but that's maybe another post for another day before this becomes way too long lol.

Also also the cherry on top for me was definitely that last couple of lines which got to me HARD and make my heart ache still:

There was a ragged burst of laughter; faint, but clear, it floated back across the evening air. That laughter haunts me still.