#handsome cant describe the beauty of this man

[latte-ella]

Aldryx my beloved 🥺

Headcanon: The boy loves to smile!

Y'all really diss on hunnii for loving this red goblin, so she gets a date and a kiss in return since he likes her too :)

[lvrxly]

boyfriend!Konig who can't help but sob and whimper under your teasing touch as you suck him off. He can't be too loud though, wouldn't want to be caught by his teammates.

"Stay still König.."

Your voice was full of authority as Konig's knees buckled beneath him as he stood, leaned against the door of his quarters. He couldn't help it. Your mouth felt amazing. So warm around his cock.

Your hands gripped his thighs, trying to keep his hips from bucking, shoving his cock further down your throat. You would be lying if you said he wasn't bigger than expected. It was a struggle trying to get half of it in your mouth without gagging.

"mein liebling— fuck.." his voice is strained as he covers his mouth with his hand under his mouth, small sniffles are audible as his cock twitches in your mouth. Was he crying?

He was helplessly writhing with pleasure as you continued to suck him off, his groans and whimper getting louder and louder. He could describe this feeling as pure ecstasy..

ʚɞ ⁺˖ ⸝⸝

boyfriend!Konig who cant keep his hands to himself after a long day away from you. He kisses and touched and loves every bit of you to death.

There you were, trying to finish up the dishes, an apron tied around your waist and your hair tied back out of your face. This would be so much easier and quicker if you didn't have a 6'10 koala attached to your back.

"König..let go babe, I can't clean the kitchen like this!" You'd whine, but your pleas do nothing to budge the man. His face is buried in your neck, kissing and nibbling on the exposed skin. His hands rest on your hips, his thumbs rubbing circles into your waist.

" 'm missed ya-" he whispers, his hands slowly sliding under your shirt, running up your stomach, his fingertip tickling your skin, goosebumps filling your tummy. As if his hands are magnets they connect with your breasts in no time, squeezing them together as he watches over your shoulder.

" 've gotten an idea. you should clean this kitchen naked, nothing but this little apron on— how bout it?"

ʚɞ ⁺˖ ⸝⸝

boyfriend!Konig who surprises you with a late date night, telling ya to dress up all pretty for this was a very fancy restaurant. But you don't like how the dress he got you looks, so he cancels the reservation just to worship every single piece of you.

"Keep yer eyes on the mirror liebling—" His voice is commanding and sultry as he grabs your chin from behind, forcing your eyes back on the mirror. You stood practically naked in front of the mirror, nothing but your panties covering your womanhood. König on the other hand was still completely dressed, his suit hugging his muscles a little too well, his hair slicked back out of his face, his handsome frame towering over you from behind.

"now, i want you ta know this..your too fuckin gorgeous to be feeling this way about yerself—" his voice is almost angry as he grips your hips, his fingertips digging into your skin, almost hard enough to leave marks.

He leaves kisses up and down your neck, until he reaches your ear where he whispers, "Now 'm gonna fuck ya in front of this mirror and show you how beautiful ya really can be..—"

a/n: thank u guys so so much for 600+ followers! i love all of ya sm!! im running out of fic/headcannon ideas though, so feel free to submit a request <33 much love honeys !

[sweetteainthesummerx]

THE LOVE LASTS SO LONG (blurb 2)

the wedding bells ring!!

series masterlist

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dior.n.goodjohn still in shock that the baddest baddie is off the market 😫 congrats to my best friend, partner in crime and the most talented woman on earth

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aubreyyang I LOVE YOU I cant wait to have u as my maid of honour

oliviarodrigo stop the last photo turned out so good!!

olliebearman who's that baddie in the first slide wow

-- dior.n.goodjohn ur so luck that she walks you like a dog

-- user1 BYEEE she clocked him w that one

aubreybearmanxx THE CONTENT WE ARE ABOUT TO RECEIVE

user2 her having the girls but also Ollies little sister in her bridal party is everythingg

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dinobeganovic_ letting the man have one more wild night (we knocked Oscar into the ocean) before being tied down forever (we confiscated his phone because he kept trying to text Aubrey)

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aubreyyang my mans devoted what can I say 😘

-- olliebearman love you babe

-- landonorris can't believe their letting kids get married

-- olliebearman ur like 5 years older than me

-- landonorris I said what I said

-- aubreyfanpage22 they went public and now they have no shame 😨

oscarpiastri anything for my brothers big night

-- user3 girl the f1 friend group is another level

user4 OH THEYRE ALL SO FINEEE

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lilymhe big day for my best girl

Aubrey, the first time I met you, you were 17 and out of your first relationship. It pained me to see someone who held so much love in their heart to be hurt. Now, 6 year later you've found the man of your dreams who treats you like a queen. I'm the proudest big sister 🤍

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user4 im crying sm they're perfect for each other the haters can shut up

morganfreeman my little girl is all grown

-- aubreyyang MORGAN THANK YOU FOR COMING

aubreyyang lily ilysm words cant describe how grateful I am for your wisdom and company its helped my relationship so much

alexalbon our daughters so old

-- user5 this is so wholesome

--pastryboii33 ever since Oscar made that joke the grid has become an interconnected weave of familial ties

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aubreyyang & olliebearman mr. and mrs. bearman

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user6 OH THEYRE SO BEAUTIFUL

aubreyyangfan1 the real ones know the soft launching days

user7 aren't they kinda young

-- olliebearmancontectts they're 24 and 26 so no not really

lewishamilton congrats!

terribearman welcome to the family!

-- aubreyyang ty mama bearman xx

user8 just watched their wedding video AND I SOBBED

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aubreyyang got married to the loml, anyways how was your weekend?

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user9 ABSOLUTE ICON

f1tracks00 the sheer amount of fame at this wedding

-- user10 who was there

-- f1tracks the whole grid, aubreys current and past costars (Morgan freeman, Michelle Yeoh, dallas liu, Mckenna grace, the whole Percy jackson cast) and like hella celebrities

charles_leclerc shoutout to LEC for catering the dessert

-- alexandrasaintmleux babe not the smalls promotion rn

alexandrasaintmelux the most beautiful bride

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olliebearman my beautiful bride

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scuderiaferrari congrats to the prince and princess of Ferrari!

-- user11 wow she is so ethereal

-- olliebearman ikr

-- user11 BYE WHAT R U DOING HERE

aubreyyang my handsome groom

ollieyangg92 the way ollie was crying when she was walking down the aisle

-- user12 AND THEIR VOWS LOVE REALLY EXISTS

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[whateverisbeautiful]

Hi! I just wanted to say that I discovered your top 30 Richonne list a few days ago and I've been down the meta rabbit hole you've so wonderfully crafted this entire week so far. I've cried and smiled so much reading them. Each post is just so beautiful.

I was reading one of your Reveling in Richonne posts this morning for episode 10 x 04 where Michonne talked with Ezekiel about how much she still misses Rick and loves him so much and that she misses his walk and now I can't get over it. Now I'm thinking about all those times when she looked at Rick walking towards or away from her pre- and post-canon where she would be thinking the man I'm crushing on, then eventually the man I love is so sexy. Is there any chance you can do a post speculating those moments where they are both checking each out specifically regarding Michonne checking out Rick's walk?

Also I cant wait for you to do a Reveling in Richonne continuation based on TOWL 👀? So excited! Lastly I just need you to know that my Richonne withdrawals have been pretty bad now that TOWL has concluded. So discovering your blog and your metas have been giving me my whole entire life and I just want to say thank you and that I really appreciate all the thought and beauty you put into your posts. You're amazing!!!! 👏🏽 👏🏽 🤩 💖

Hi @rct85 ! I'm so encouraged by your message, thank you so much. 🥰 I love that this richonne reveling rabbit hole could help with the richonne withdrawal. I’m feeling it too and really miss seeing them on screen each week. 🥲 Thank goodness we were spoiled with years of richonne content that I’ve just been playing on a loop in my head. The second I'm finally able, I'm looking forward to going all out and writing about every golden moment from TOWL. The towl thoughts and observations are abundant lol.

And I really like that thought of highlighting the times that Michonne was looking at Rick and thinking this man I'm crushing on and later in love with is so sexy. I can definitely speculate on those moments and I've placed my extra self’s speculation right below. 😊⬇

I focused on Michonne specifically for this one because if I were to make a list of times Rick was looking at Michonne and thinking this woman I'm crushing on/in love with is so sexy it would be wildly long because it's every single moment he and Michonne are on screen together. Like truly from TWD 3.06 at the fence to the TOWL 1.06 finale Rick looks like he's thinking that. 😋 While Michonne can be a little more subtle than Slick Rick, she's still head over heels for her husband and I think I pinpointed some clear moments where she was noting how fine her man is and appreciating that walk. 😏 Thanks again for reading my posts and for this kind message! 💗

Moments Michonne Was Checking Out Her Man’s Walk/Thinking Rick Is Fine 😋

Exhibit A:

It started real early if you ask me. 😌 At this point our Michonne had been abandoned by her only friend, unsuccessfully gaslit by the governor, chased down and shot by Merle, and passed out killing walkers at the prison fence. She’d been put through a whole lot in mind and body…but her eyes clearly still work just fine as she seems to be taking in this handsome stranger in front of her.

And sis is an observant person so I wouldn’t at all be surprised if she had a conscious thought that this man from the prison is attractive, even here in their first exchange. Thinking about how she described Maggie and the Governor based on appearances in this ep, I’d bet that had Michonne had to describe Rick this early, some type of good-looking adjective would‘ve been used.

(*Also the footnote for all of these bits of evidence is that Rick is absolutely captivated by her in each of these moments too 💯)

Exhibit B:

Clear is where that Richonne attraction was loud and on display from both of them. We don’t see Rick walk away in this scene at the end of the ep but uh Michonne does. 😊 And of course she likes what she sees with that lingering look and smile she gives. And all that car key shuffling - it’s giving Rick is pretty eager but maybe she is too 🤭

Exhibit C & D:

I put these two moments side by side because I love how similar they are in the way Rick walks up to her and the way Michonne smiles at him. To think one scene is during their early s4 crush era and the other is during their s7 honeymoon ep, just goes to show these two have been smitten a long long time and always will be. In both moments I know Michonne loves seeing his walk just like Rick loves seeing her smile.

Exhibit E:

As she observes Rick here, I think Michonne has a lot of thoughts going through her head, which naturally are deeper than just checking him out. On a larger level, she’s realizing that Rick has unique qualities that she loves and respects and recognizes in her own self. She saw firsthand the way Rick walks the walk when it comes to protecting his family and she’s fallen in love with him. But I think an appreciation for his literal walk can be included in those thoughts during this scene as she starts to slowly become more cognizant that she sees Rick as a lot more than just a friend.

Exhibit F (Pt. 1 & Pt. 2):

I may have forgot if this was a list of Michonne’s thoughts or mine with exhibit f lol. But I’m just gonna venture to say that she and I shared the same appreciation for Rick’s walk in that barn. It’s Season 5 Rick - of course Michonne was feeling a type of way about him. And she might not have agreed with him punching Aaron but I know she wasn’t mad at that walk.

Exhibit G:

Seeing Rick’s clean-shaven face for the first time was Michonne’s most blatant display of attraction towards him pre-canon and she was definitely noting how fine he is. And from my posts on the scene, it’s no secret how much I love this moment and it’s no secret how much these two were into each other. I also just added a later s5 moment of Rick seeing Michonne in the constable windbreaker for the first time because it gives a similar energy. It’s cute how Rick and Michonne both have such obvious attraction and intrigued reactions to seeing each other in ways they haven’t seen each other before.

(That’s also why I thought it was so funny and doomed that their plan was to pretend like they don’t know each other at the CRM because Richonne hasn’t been able to mask their blazing attraction to each other since season 3)

Exhibit H:

This is such a sweet moment and I always adore seeing the slightly bashful way Michonne can’t help but stare at her man and smile after their first night together. And the way Rick can sense her looking at him and then smiles and reaches for her. It gives me life. This had to make this list because I’m pretty sure “the man I love is so sexy” is one of the direct quotes from Michonne’s mind in this scene.

Exhibit I:

Even when injured Rick’s walk is hot and Michonne knows it. 😋 The scene above and a couple more in this episode were clear signs of Michonne admiring her man inside and out. They were both so cute and couply and in love in this ep and I’ll never get over it.

In The Ones Who Live…

Each of these towl moments deserves dissertations so I’ll wait to elaborate because dissertations are coming later on. But I still had to include them on this list because they’re prime examples of Michonne loving Rick’s walk and/or loving how sexy her husband is - with the last one being the pinnacle 😍

Exhibit J:

Exhibit K:

Exhibit L:

Exhibit M:

Exhibit NOPQRSTUVWXY&Z:

[can-of-w0rmz]

Volume III Chapter IV/V of the original 1818 text of Frankenstein lives in my brain rent free. I need to rant about Clerval’s death or I’ll loose it. (It’s late and I’m exhausted rn so my ass is NOT as coherent and structured as it could be but fuck it we ball)

“He appeared to be a handsome young man, about five and twenty years of age.” MY PRECIOUS BOY

“(…) having brought the body into her house; it was not cold. They put it into a bed, and rubbed it; and Daniel went to the town for an apothecary, but life was quite gone.” HE MIGHTN’T HAVE BEEN DEAD WHEN THEY FOUND HIM BUT IT WAS TOO LATE

“I saw the lifeless form of Henry Clerval stretched before me. I gasped for breath; and, throwing myself on the body, I exclaimed, “Have my murderous machinations deprived you also, my dearest Henry, of life? Two I have already destroyed; other victims await their destiny: but you, Clerval, my friend, my benefactor”——

The human frame could no longer support the agonizing suffering that I endured, and I was carried out of the room in strong convulsions.

A fever succeeded to this. I lay for two months on the point of death (…)” THE WAY VICTOR REACTS TO AND SPIRALS FROM CLERVAL’S DEATH IS SO MUCH MORE SEVERE THAN ANYTHING ELSE THAT HAPPENS TO HIM and it’s also an extremely interesting character study to see what happens when the only person he ever really seemed to have a mutual loving and healthy relationship with gets cut out of the picture – Victor’s had his fevers, he’s wallowed, but he always had Clerval to draw him from his wallowing and to nurse him back to health. So what happens when Clerval’s death is the cause of that anguish? THE DRAMA THE ANGST I love these silly little gothic losers to death but watching Frankenstein grieve over the passing of who was pretty much essentially his lover is fascinating to me and it SHOWS how much Frankenstein adores Clerval through the latter’s death. THE MAGNITUDE OF HIS GRIEF IS A TESTAMENT TO THEIR LOVE oml i can’t rn frfr THEYRE SO GAY AND SO GOTHIC I CAN NOT

“Why did I not die? More miserable than man ever was before, why did I not sink into forgetfulness and rest?” “I thank you; but all that you mention is nothing to me: on the whole earth there is no comfort which I am capable of receiving.” “(…)surely I should have died on the coffin of Henry.” AGAIN Victor’s absolute grief tearing himself up over it

“As my sickness quitted me, I was absorbed by a gloomy and black melancholy, that nothing could dissipate. The image of Clerval was for ever before me, ghastly and murdered.” “Sometimes they were the expressive eyes of Henry, languishing in death, the dark orbs nearly covered by the lids, and the long black lashes that fringed them.” Again what I said about his grief being a testament to their love bro, REMINISCING ABOUT HIS DEAD LOVER AND HIS BEAUTY EVEN IN DEATH WHILE GRIEVING HIM I CANT BRO

“Ah! my father, do not remain in this wretched country; take me where I may forget myself, my existence, and all the world.” HERE’S THE START OF HIM PUSHING AWAY THE MEMORY AND TRYING TO SUPPRESS IT BECAUSE THE GRIEF IS TOO SEVERE and that is SO interesting for how he shifts his tone with Elizabeth and puts up that fake demeanour of wanting to marry her because he thinks it’ll make HER happy even though both of them describe dreading the wedding, also possibly another argument for the legitimacy of reading Clerval and Frankenstein’s relationship as romantic – in order to forget him, he assigns himself to the role given to him as a child by marrying Elizabeth and gives up whatever he hope he had (possibly discouraged from Clerval being murdered as a response to Victor refusing to finish the Bride and subject her to the same fate as him and Elizabeth to the Creature, a pact made without her knowledge or consent, an arranged marriage. Where has spiting that tradition led him? Where has him standing up to the shroud of his mother’s dying wishes, hanging over him the entire novel thus far, led him, by refusing to force the Bride into an arranged marriage with the Creature, as he was with Elizabeth? To the death of the one man he truly loved. So fuck it, right? He can at least “make his dear cousin happy” and not die spiting the one thing he was meant to do – make his mother proud from beyond the grave by marrying Elizabeth.)

“the wind that blew me from the detested shore of Ireland(…)” sorry my country traumatised you bro (I mentioned to one of my teachers while explaining the plot of Frankenstein to them, as you do, that this chapter takes place in Ireland and the “god damn ok” face was priceless)

“I was deceived by no vision, and that Clerval, my friend and dearest companion, had fallen a victim to me and the monster of my creation. I repassed, in my memory, my whole life; my quiet happiness while residing with my family in Geneva, the death of my mother, and my departure for Ingolstadt. I remembered shuddering at the mad enthusiasm that hurried me on to the creation of my hideous enemy, and I called to mind the night during which he first lived. I was unable to pursue the train of thought; a thousand feelings pressed upon me, and I wept bitterly.” HE’S TRYING SO DESPERATELY TO LEAVE IT BEHIND AND TO REPRESS IT but now he’s left Ireland and he’s no longer feverish, the clarity washes over him and he can’t do anything except just lie there and cry over everything that’s happened AND MY POOR LAD HE CANT EVEN CONTINUE BEYOND THE POINT OF THE CREATURES REANIMATION BECAUSE THOSE FEELINGS PRESS DOWN ON HIM AND CROWD HIM AND OVERWHELM HIM AND HE JUST BREAKS INTO SOBS

And what happens after “the night during which he first lived”?

He’s saved from his own downward spiral by Clerval.

What’s he doing now?

Going on a downward spiral.

Where’s Clerval?

Dead.

“Ever since my recovery from the fever I had been in the custom of taking every night a small quantity of laudanum; for it was by means of this drug only that I was enabled to gain the rest necessary for the preservation of life. Oppressed by the recollection of my various misfortunes, I now took a double dose, and soon slept profoundly. But sleep did not afford me respite from thought and misery; my dreams presented a thousand objects that scared me.” And Christ above THIS LINE, not only can he now physically not sleep at night after what happened, but he’s gotten into the habit of drug use over it – which wouldn’t have been too bizarre by Victorian standards, but in the 18th century, laudanum wasn’t administered nearly as liberally and was mostly used for surgery, from what I can find, anyway. Not to mention that fact that he starts double dosing on it as the memories come back to him – his grief starts getting to the point where he’s using drug use in order to cope, but it hardly matters as his torment follows him to sleep.

“We had resolved not to go to London, but to cross the country to Portsmouth, and thence to embark for Havre. I preferred this plan principally because I dreaded to see again those places in which I had enjoyed a few moments of tranquillity with my beloved Clerval. I thought with horror of seeing again those persons whom we had been accustomed to visit together, and who might make inquiries concerning an event, the very remembrance of which made me again feel the pang I endured when I gazed on his lifeless form in the inn at ——.” THIS LINE LIVES IN MY BRAIN. RENT FREE. HOW COULD SHELLEY HAVE CUT THIS OUT OF THE 1831 PUBLICATION THIS IS SO GOLDEN DEAR LORD I ADORE THEM.

“MY BELOVED CLERVAL”

BUT ALSO AGAIN we’ve got Frankenstein trying SO desperately to forget everything, and he knows that he can’t face the people who knew Clerval or he’d break down. And I love the way this version continues on his grief to the next chapter – it’s not done and dropped, its ongoing and it plagues him, and it will plague him as long as he lives. I wonder what would happen if he did go through London, if he did meet those people again. Would things have turned out differently? Would he finally have been given a sense of comfort and clarity through mutual grief, as nobody so far since Henry’s death and for the rest of the book, except the creature, ironically, has grieved for Clerval except for Frankenstein. If he met people who took as fondly to Clerval as he did, at least on meeting him briefly, who would have sympathy towards Victor – would he finally have that space to grieve for him in a healthy way, to be comforted by people who at least vaguely understand a fraction of his anguish?

The way Victor Frankenstein BREAKS after the death of Henry Clerval is one of the most fascinating and endearing parts of the novel that completely lives in my head rent free. He spirals, he becomes ill, he becomes deeply suicidal and depressed, he begins drug misuse – and adaptations have the sheer balls to cut Clerval out of the story altogether.

…..”My beloved Clerval” HELP ME HE ACTUALLY SAID IT I LOVE THEM SO MUCH

[imustbenuts]

im free from yakuza kiwami 2. fuck the writing in this one. this was a complete mess of pulling from the most popular generic east asian drama tropes at the time of 2006 and having it be handled by a super inexperienced writer at the helm.

i went from having no expectations, got somewhat surprised, only to end up downing alcohol and laughing hysterically before the credits rolled. so that should set the mood for how i feel about this one. thought vomit under the cut, a lot of info dump about culture incoming

yakuza kiwami 2 is pure heterosexual east asian romance bullshit.

im gonna just. describe as best as i can what i know and remember from the general media coming out from the 90s to the 2010s in around this part of the world before i just start explaining why i think this story is a mess.

so. 2 parts i swear is responsible for this rubbish.

1) East Asian Beauty Standard

the general consensus for a beautiful feminine woman AT THE TIME in this sphere is the following

be willowy thin (fat = lazy and ugly)

have black hair that ISNT short (dyed = too much individuality, too much WESTERN INDIVIDUALISM, gasp how dare!)

fair skinned (bc dark = she works in the fields and is from a lower class)

young. if you heard of the term "Christmas Cake" in japan context, yeah. (ie women over age of 25 are undesirable)

be educated and refined, bc that indicates class and femininity (failing this means shes vulgar and gasp like a barbarian)

be submissive to her male peers in the sense that her authority cannot override his at least in public (for the sake of his face)

dresses feminine and not like a man (trousers and jeans are man-ish. traditional clothing, skirts and dresses are preferred. the further back the stronger this sentiment is.)

incidentally, theres a lot of classism tied to this EABS due to sinocentric culture influences. it has to do with the chinese court system and how korea and japan copied it and a lot of the culture wholesale but. anyway. thats like over 1000 years of history in there thats not really worth detouring to rn.

and also, the worth of a man is sometimes (not always) upheld by how classy and feminine this wife of his is. as of 2024 though, this line of thought is still around in the more conservative pockets. also, the education might not matter as much these days as how deep her and her parents' pockets and wealth are.

moving on.

2) media tropes

so. off the top of my head.

if you wanted a popular romance drama in this time period, the popular offerings no matter where you looked tended to offer the same flavors of tropes.

the woman always has dark hair, is fair skinned, thin and younger than her male love interest. ive never seen this broken or subverted in my time absorbing via osmosis the dramas playing on local tv growing up in the early 2000s.

everything else about her can be subverted though. sometimes she can wear fancy pants or have short hair to indicate her strong individualism. BUT, her personality no matter how strong it begins, no matter how her intro begins will 99% of the time encounter an effect where catching feelings turns her into a meek loyal woman to her love interest.

bc she cant override his authority in this culture context.

at worst, she becomes highly irrational and even hysterical in the dramas when bad things happen. this includes things like love triangle, or a fallout of family business, drama, plot or whatever. she would cry and sometimes even die.

see: sawamura yumi. sayama kaoru.

meanwhile, the male love interest can be anything. ive seen middle aged guys to young good looking upcoming actors playing the lead, with looks varying from haggardly okay to young and handsome. it. really depends on the genre.

depending on what specific country it came from, the drama would have the male either grow, become manlier (by learning honor ig), become stupid in the name of love, but he rarely if ever actually dies. the woman effectively becomes yoshi for mario to lauch off on when they're crossing a chasm

the romance is forced. a lot of the BIG LOVE SPARK ie kissing happens in tense moments bc it builds drama, but in reality comes too fucking close to sexual assault (some of the old jackie chan movies does this iirc for slapstick even)

see: sayama getting kissed right after handling her biological father's ashes less than 24 hours ago and admitting to kiryu that shes scared. this scene right fucking here.

bc in general, the scriptwriters for popular dramas tended to be guys themselves and tended to write more human dudes. and the women in the stories are reflective of the ideal societal expectation at the time: being a Refined Housewife.

so her character development is often headed in the direction of marriage and being a stay at home mom.

if it sounds a little like tradwife bullshit, it is.

Refined Housewife

(i have massive negative thoughts about this which i KNOW for a fact is a thing bc a lot of these societal culture femininity was impressed on me as a kid in a world where it was already getting increasingly impossible to have 1 spouse be a SAHP. and also i hated the whole thing about giving face to the patriarch of the house when i personally saw so much ego dick measuring from my uncles. anyway understand that this is both a bias an a lived experience, so proceed with that in mind)

there is a problem with the Refined Housewife expectation: education.

in general, education has been a good metric to judge how classy or smart one is in asia's largely on-the-surface meritocracy based culture. people will look at each other's school first and then judge them from there, and pretty hard too.

so everyone regardless of gender will be expected to study super hard. and bc having good test scores and going to good schools looks good for the family's face, parents will often pile on tuition to the child to get them a leg up in life.

bc also no good degree from good school means no future.

but then... the woman is expected to be a housewife. 🙃 meaning... the education, her accomplishments, are kinda... tossed away in this context. put a pin in this.

it wont matter how much she studied or accomplished, bc the expectation is that the woman would marry and obey her husband, and give him face/honor that way. the kids will come eventually bc having kids = being filial to ones parents in this context.

also uh. no, having adopted kids is not thought of as being filial. continuing the bloodline is.

and if you've been paying attention, then yes, ive been skirting around the backbone of sayama kaoru's writing foundations this entire time.

Her story has been butchered so clumsily i cant even...

lets just. ugh.

she fits the EABS standard, her tropes are trying to subvert the expectations of a womanly woman in this context, she has IMPRESSIVE education and career achievements. she works in a male dominated field, and is keenly aware of sexism. she is strong, stronger than her male peers, at least we are told.

by 2006s standards, its still considered a fresh take with those alone in japan. sexism there is its own flavor of crap. (if you noticed ive not spoken about LGBTQ+ stuff at all, its bc how ridiculously BINARY the expectation is at that point in time. it still is today but less so)

however, the writing has this sense of trying to copy the popular tropes at the time while not fully understanding and dissecting them, and ends up butchering sayama's character before the romance even properly began.

i mean, for fucks sake even, sayama and kiryu has a whopping 14 year age gap. when im told these are supposed to be believable people living in japan, this is too big for me to just go 'oh ok!'. and remember the Christmas Cake thing? shes 25. (FUCKING--!!!! !!)

the problem here that i see is the writer trying to apply all of those while trying to play the tropes straight. trying to imitate. trying to make a statement but then finding out theres nothing within yourself to stand by what you want to say and backtracking.

we are told:

sayama is strong yet she goes down with 1 slap by random thugs and needing kiryu to come in and body them. because romance ig.

we are told shes a yakuza hunter but she doesnt scare a single one beyond her introductory scene.

she goes from defiant and bossing kiryu around to getting her actions overridden by kiryu and ryuji, both men, towards the end

her subtext is that shes not feminine and therefore conventionally undesirable, but then kiryu tells her shes actually feminine and therefore desired, as if its all that matters.

she becomes so stricken by grief and freaked out that she runs off solo to deal with ryuji in the most out of left pocket planning ive ever fucking seen.

and then yells as she takes out her police baton to take down the big yakuza dude, drawing attention and turning herself into a hostage.

i know the writing will fumble but i didnt expect it to fumble this bad.

for all the good the surface chemistry kiryu and sayama has, its being undermined by a fundamental failure to understand tropes and then using said tropes as a crutch so much that everything here has become a bloody mess.

this failure of over-relying on tropes without understanding them extends to yumi too. sawamura yumi was young and beautiful, and became the Refined Housewife to the Not-Male-MC and ends up regretting it, and gets killed for it.

her defining trait is that she is beautiful in subtext. thats. thats what the tattoo is. in a world where the tattoo makeths the person, thats what she is and all that she is.

dear lord.

ive read up a bit more on sayama and you know what. good that she chooses her career over kiryu. the romance would have caused both of their characters to explode with the trajectory this was heading in. ffs sayama could have had her own game. she has so MUCH potential.

and also GOOD that the writer is forced to think of kiryu in the position of the Stay At Home Parent for haruka and the orphanage down the line!!! subverting the fucking traditional BS expectation! yes!!!!!

all i got was sayama and kiryu making out before the bomb went off in front of my alcohol and salad while they're like 'eh, haruka will forgive us for dying :')'

and i ran out of alcohol.

sexism? maybe. incompetence? definitely.

hhgrhgrhrghrghrgrhgr wow this got long. ugh. guhhhhhh.

[lino1vr]

BLIND LOVE ( 이희승 )

୨ৎ lee heeseung x fem!reader . g fluff

୨ৎ first post!!

i can’t seem to get over the question, “is there a such thing as true love?”

my one true love. no memories yet there’s something about him. something that i believe, no, something i think we both believe was true. every night i go to bed, every day i wake up with faint visions of a perfect man i’ve always wanted.

i could say that i walked past a few but no one has had the same impact, the same longing feeling that i feel when i see him. i paint, and paint everyday. everyday a new man but everyday i see the same face. who is he? who is that one man that i long for, that i wish to grow old with. i know he’s there, and i know who he is, just never where. i can sense his presence, always, but today has been the strongest feeling since. i can’t seem to remember but distant memories and an indefinite feeling that i am alone without him, grow.

is he there? or is he not? i can’t possibly seem to figure out. am i hallucinating? is he the perfect figure of my imagination.

i work multiple jobs just to pay for the hospital fees of my beloved friend, heeseung who had fallen into a car accident causing his blindness.

he was soft spoken, quiet, polite handsome. every day i hear these imaginative tales he tells me about his one true love.

describing her features, her lovely personality and how he longed for his vision just to take a look at the gorgeous girl he dreamed of every day, and every night. i couldn’t help but wonder who it was, he wouldn’t tell me anything besides describe her in beautiful poetry, and stories. his one prized possession, painting. although blind his strokes are of perfection, and he paints and paints just one thing. a mirror.

once many have told me that we would look perfect together but i couldn’t believe it, yet i can’t help but wonder if his one true love is me. look into the mirror he tells me and i’ll see his true love. i keep looking and staring to figure out who it is, yet i can’t seem to find out.

he says its there, he says i must keep looking for the deep meaning of the painting. maybe i’m just oblivious, maybe i cant understand but what does that mirror mean?

everyday i visit heeseung catching glimpses of him painting his art, whispering his prayers of finally being able to see his one true love. i hope that comes true for him, if it can’t happen to me.

once too did i imagine for my happily ever after, my love as i hoped ever since a young child. who is this man i dream of? i kepe being told to look in front of me. i’m looking god, i really am. i cannot recall back the memories from before. what does fate want me to see if i can’t even work out a simple wish.

everyday i know heeseungs condition is getting worse, he’s getting weaker, i can feel it. i can sense it when i stare at him and his voice. his painting strokes have gotten weaker, and his mirror fades as he stops painting. his heart rate decreases every day. thump. thump. thump. “please. anything for heeseung.”

his painting has been fading. i can see it wearing out, i can see the faint lines of his tracings yet he still tells me to look for it, i just don’t understand.

time passes, heeseung gets older, he gets weaker. and i’m just there. holding my hands i can feel myself burning up, my face is completely red. what am i? am i really his true love? did i really just recognise my true feelings? it can’t be. i’m sure of it. my thoughts are interrupted.

thump. thump. … thump. it’s decreasing, his heart rate, i can see it dropping down. his palms are shaking and i pick up the phone to call the doctor yet he chooses to push it away from my hands. “i- i don’t need the doctor, i’m happy this way.” he pulls me close, using his remaining strength to whisper to me in a soft spoken tone.

“my wish for you is for you to finally understand that your love has been here the whole time, don’t you understand?” the mirror, look at the mirror. only you’ve seen the painting, only you’ve looked at the mirror.

“don’t you get what it means?”

“my love, it’s always been you.”

[miyaheestar]

GUY HBS LIVE REACTION

i waited for fucking 156 days. this better be amazing. 👹.

guys i love guy so much and its just the intro

HE'S SINGING TO GOODLUCK BABE 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 HE'S SO CUTE 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 I LOVE HIM SO MUCH 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

"I'm fine, I'm not." me too my beloved silly munchkin sweetheart beautiful amazing handsome wonderful gorgeous spectacular husband

honestly i didn't catch what he's trying to say but it's okay its nearly 9 am and i barely have enough sleep

"what you're saying is you couldn't bear to be apart from me for a second longer" BITCH I WAITED FOR 156 DAYS OF COURSE I CANT BEAR TO BE APART FROM YOU DUMBASS

yes i admit thats what i said HONEY STFU THAT'S THE WORDS THAT CAME OUT OF OUR MOUTH OKAY LET HIM BE DRAMATIC HE'S CUTE

"also can i have a towel?" can i be your towel

HONEYBABY😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

yes baby your body is very sexy hot whatever word that can describe a beautiful man like you

its only 3 minutes in and i already yapped this much this just proves how much im in love with this silly man

I MISS HIS SILLY JOKES 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

"british people said aircon instead of ac" .. um guy i said aircon too because british people colonized malaysia- *gunshot*

HE'S SO SILLY I LOVE HIM SO MUCH

no no dont stop

HI GUY 🥺🥺🥺 HELLO 🥺🥺🥺

MWAHHH MWAHHH MWAHHH KITH

im home 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

IM GLAD YOU HAVE A GOOD DAY OFF 😭😭😭😭😭

HE'S SO SILLY 😭😭😭😭

just the casual honey smacking guy

"guess what" are you proposing to me

AWWW HE SAID I LOVE YOU 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 I LOVE YOU MORE 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

no no you dont have to get dressed guy

woo honey is wildin me too me too i am honey so i can say im wildin

IT IS GOOD ENOUGH FOR ME

50 SHADES OF HONEY COMEBACK

he's so dumb i love him so much

he can say hi honey million times i won't get tired of it

mhm mhm whatever you say baby its okay you can yap i wont judge you're so amazing i love you so much

guys have i ever mention how much i love guy?

YEAHHH LETS CELEBRATE IT 🥰🪱🍕

WHY ARE YOU SAYING THANK YOU ARE YOU GONNA DIE??? DONT DIE I JUST GOT YOU BACK PLEASE NO NO NO NO ERIK I WILL ACTUALLY MAKE YOU BALD BY EATING YOUR HAIR

you dont have to say thank you for that you silly goof you can ramble all you want i will never get tired of it guy your voice is the medicine to my depression

"i am a lot, i am aware of this but i dont feel like a lot when im with you" i actually cried at this no fucking joke i have seen people said guy is too much for the past 5 months and i keep thinking about how would he feel when people keep reminding him that he's "a lot" when actually i dont even mind about him being a lot because i feel comforted at the sound of him just rambling about something that i can barely understand

i love you very much too guy 🥹

never change you beautiful silly pizza man

BRAINROT👹👹👹👹👹

i just couldn't stop smiling i hate this i love him so much

I LOVE YOU TOO SILLY MAN

STOP PRAISING ME THAT'S MY JOB

yes guy it is a great idea baby

he's so dumb i love him

oh you know? YOU KNOW HUH CMON

BITCH I DONT WANT PIZZA I WANT YOU

ERIK👹ERIKSON👹THISISNOTENOUGH👹

[al6nst]

Heyoo can i request smut afab mayoi x top gn reader?You can just ignore it if its uncomfortable

Mayoi's self-depreciating has been a lot worse lately. Finger him, praise him and love him until he no longer looking down on himself

cries so hard i love my boy mayoi 💔 no. this doesn't make me uncomfy, dwdw!

i dont smoke, mayoi ayase

smut under read more!

sketch info : cursing, praise, self depricating/negative thoughts, no sex, comfort smut, mdni obvi, kissing, dom gn reader, ftm mayoi i suppose, cringe writing, maybe ooc mayoi(jp only😒), hand holding⁉️, ED warning ( like. not even mentioned, just described)

a/n: im bitchless but im a therapist so this is amazing for me, anon thank you!

"aah.. i look horrible, " he mumbles, staring at his chest, eyes following the line down to his stomach, to his thighs, and back up to his face. his hands come to his arms, and he feels worse than ever, he cant stop looking at every single one of his flaws, the way his bones made an appearance almost every time he breathed wouldnt please.. you. panic is evident in his voice, mayoi throws his head back, "Does yn even like me.. i- I'll just... ah?!" loud footsteps could be heard outside of the quiet and dark room..— "mayoi~.." Your soft voice rings from behind the door along with a quiet knock. his response is delayed, extremely; a long period of awkward silence before he screams. you open the door in an almost panic, eyes wide.

"Are you.. okay? Huh," he's fine, just.. in a weird position on his bed. "mayoi, baby.. come here, " you giggle, walking torwards the purple haired man with open arms. he sniffles weirdly, throat closing up; tears begin to flow down his flushed face, you smile and kiss them away, eyes crinkling in contentness. "Hey, mayoi~... What's wrong?" its a stupid question, but you know hes going to answer it well. mayois voice is even shakier than before, almost unintelligible. "im not feeling great– about me.." you huff, trying to look at him, but he just moves closer. "i dont look good anywhere.. and you must hate being with me," he continues, you could barely hear him breathe."i dont know what i would do if you left me..."

you cock your head, stepping away from him. "If i left you?.." your voice is sincere, "i dont think i would." and its hurting him. mayoi clings to you like a koala, trying to bring back his composure— and fuck, his glossy eyes looking back into yours made you really want to cry. he blinks away tears, looking up at you expectantly. "Really? you won't?" No, you wouldn't. I never even thought about it, but you can't say that, can you? You shake your head, smiling softly. "i love you, you're really great." his breath hitches, and he looks away quickly. "Listen, mayoi.. you're amazing, look at yourself!" You ask gently— of course.

he turns his head, facing the mirror for a few seconds, and then looks away, body trembling. "What do you see in me.. uuh, i dont want you to leave!" he cries, gripping your shirt like a vice. your eyes water, breath becoming labored. "You're so handsome, mayo~ my beautiful boyfriend. Your face is so pretty, and so is your body," stopping for a brief second, staring at his face for confirmation to continue. It's strange, his eyebrows furrowed, and his flushed cheeks were either from his tears or embarassment. "Your flaws are what make you.. yknow, you, and i love that." its not odd for him to be like this, but you wanted to try something different.

you crawl behind him, letting him sit between your legs. hands hovering over his thighs. "Is this okay, mayoi?" You were conflicted between just hugging him til he slept and doing this.. neither felt right. he hums, fiddling wth his fingers. you run your hands up and down his legs, stopping at his crotch. your head rests on his shoulder as you begin to speak, "You're everything I've ever wanted, mayoi." you slid your fingers between his thighs, toying with his clit. he hides his face behind his hands and grinds into your fingers, longing for your touch "youre my pretty boy, forever, i promise" he looks ethereal, his hair messy yet so clean, face tired and tear-stained. this is what makes him pretty, his emotions. "you do so much for everyone around you," you whisper, curling your fingers inside of him. "hn.. do i really?" mayoi whimpers, putting his legs over your thighs.

hes almost so engrossed in pleasure, the feeling of your voice reaching his brain, scratching the itch that had tortured him for so long. it was rewarding for him, for staying strong. "Yeah, my pretty boy. youre always worrying about everyone else" mayoi lifts his head, staring at himself. He no longer looked pathetic. sweat drips from his forehead and tears well up in his eyes, "uuh.." he whines, trembling worse than before, taking deep breaths, he follows your heartbeat. "you learn so quickly, its amazing." with his legs spread on your lap, being so close to you made him so happy, but your reassuring words and praise

mayoi grabs your hand, bringing it close to his heart. "and you spoil me so much, and i want you to rely on me too, handsome boy" you feel his heart skip a beat, rate rising in bliss. your pace speeds up slowly, fingertips reaching deep enough to push and prod at his g-spot. he gasps, shutting his eyes and squeezing your hand tighter. "fufu.. i love– oh.. ah, i love you!" he weeps, closing his legs yet still leaving them open enough for you to keep going.

he keeps pushing against your hand, desperate for his release. "mayoi~ you're greater than a lot of people i know, my favorite." you mumble into his ear, mayoi actually sobs, cumming around your fingers. you sit there in shock, worried you did anything. "im sorry.." he sniffles, kissing your cheek. you grin, removing your fingers from inside of him and hugging him tight.

for the rest of the night, the clothes he had prepared to wear were left somewhere on the floor. instead of forcing himself to go outside, you both slept peacfully.

ugmughhh this feels so wird i didnt finish it how i wanted i just didnt know how to explain it lol... welp, here you go anon, sorry if this wasnt how you wated it to be!

[penguin--person]

Actually I’ve decided I’m picking five ships. (Again you may pick and choose) I am very intrigued by Gideon the Ninth… I see you posting about it, I know one character by name… I’ll have an order of Gideon and the beautiful buff Redhead, and the Blonde with the gorgeous skeleton arm with anyone of your choosing (I find her compelling, she has a skeleton arm)

im sorry to say that gideon IS the beautiful buff redhead but i appreciate ur enthusiasm!!!! asks that make me joyously smile:) auu tbh im not rlly a big shipper in tlt so idk who to put her with? the obvious choice would be griddlehark, but, sadly enough, i dont have too interesting thoughts on them.. So, i am going to pair her w the blonde with the gorgeous skeleton arm:)!!! two birds with one stone, as they say, hehe

(tlt spoilers) theyre INSANE!!!! NOT NORMAL!!!!!! i dont think about them That Much, but they DO intrigue me!!!! thjeyre sooo. ianthe who ate babs without remorse. gideon who wanted to be eaten by harrow. There's something here.... i love that neither of them is into the other. gideon does not like ianthe, and ianthe thinks gideon is a dunce. they dont like each other and its Awesome. in harrianthe, at least ianthe is into harrow, but here? no!!! theyre both into harrow, not each other!!! their dynamic is super fun. did u know they make friendship bracelets. fucked up eughh i wonder if ianthe had eaten gideon, had it come down to it in gtn? awuhhhh. god. ianthe just sucks she sucks bad she sucks so bad i love her im obsessed w her. gideons awesome. worlds most handsome butch x the worlds most pathetic toilet paper. did i just describe griddlehark or gideanthe (?), you decide i rlly cant like. they dont like each other!!! but they might have had sex in canon. theyre both fucked up and its like just uhghhgg!!!!! they should eat each other just to see what happnens i think 👍

(more gushing about gore) btw when i say 'eaten' i mean like, 'ate her soul and a bit of her body' ! as you do.. god like. this makes me look like im putting cannibalism n shit everywhere but like . man. i dont even have a defense bc the other day i watched 'bones and all'... im not into cannibalism as much as im into gore tbh. bna has AWESOME gore !!! i think that like. if stories choose to portray cannibalism, like, a lot of them just go rlly heavy on the gore too!! it looks so realistic in bna, and in stp its drawn SO wonderfully and with such detail that it disgusts me sometimes, and tlt lets your imagination do all the work!!!!! its wonderful . shirt that says im normal about gore on the back and has stp den art on the front. like its !! so interesting to see how stories choose to portray it, yknow ?? it rlly tells smth about the story i think !! how its handled and such...

[sanguinaryrot]

10, 11, 13, 23, and 34 for the kisslings :>

10. if they wear jewelry, what kind? do they prefer silver or gold? do they have a favorite gem?

Otto has both gold and silver jewelry that he switches between to better suit his outfit but NEVER mixes. Bennett only wears one piece of jewelry, the ring Otto gave him the night they ran away together, which is gold ring with an emerald, which is, of course, both of their favorite stone :)

11. what do they have in common with you? how are they different? would you get along with them?

Bennett's backstory is really similar to my own. Lonely Weird Girl doesnt understand why she cant connect to other people until she realizes Hes Actually A Man. Bennett also has a problem with simmering in his resentment and while I've been known to do this I have been trying to get better about it. Unlike Bennett, who is quiet and to an extent calculating, I am a Loudmouth. I don't think I would get along with Bennett unfortunately despite crafting him with so much love and so much of myself put into him. Perhaps In a world Where I met him instead of Otto, he would be a different man, one that I would get along with, but i much prefer him and Otto being fucking insane at each other :3

Like Otto, I sometimes let whats going on in my head get the better of me. Unlike Otto I try not to be such a fucking cunt about it. I would NOT like to hang out with otto cause hes a rich pretentious piece of shit. Love him tho

13. what languages do they speak? how fluently?

Otto fluently speaks English, Swiss German, Italian, and French. Bennett speaks English fluently and is passable in French.

23. how would you describe their voice? can they sing?

i know exactly in my brain how they speak but i dont know how to describe it hahaha

Bennett is non-hrt so his voice isnt very deep, but he tries very hard to sound masculine. he has a problem with mumbling, especially after his accident. i think when he does speak up his voice is rather pleasant, so long as he's not being an asshole. Bennett refrains from singing, his vocal range is in an awkward place because he refuses to sing the upper register, but he cant hit the lower notes.

Otto's got a kind of husky(?) voice with a rather flat intonation. speaks very slowly, sort of melodious. and obviously he's got a german accent. I think Otto would have a beautiful singing voice if he ever trained in such a thing but he wouldnt and thus sounds amateurish and often off key. he has fun though.

34. how would your character describe themselves? it doesn’t have to line up with how they really are.

Otto would call himself a gentleman (yeah fucking right). He'd use words like "elegant," "educated" "cunning," "stylish," "extravagant." He probably thinks of himself as a Ruthless Apex Predator. He thinks he has excellent Taste, and thinks of himself as very handsome.

For Bennett, it truly depends on When you ask. These days he'd probably use words like "Oddball," "pensive," "snide," "witty," and "tech-savvy." (that last one is questionable but i'll let him have it.) He'd say he has a "good eye." He'd probably refer to himself "delicate of manner," and "small", but warn you not to underestimate him.

[pontiussy]

Chris Pontius- I Could Never Hate You

I hope you like this, love! It’s kind of just a short blurb and I don’t think it’s my best work aaaa

Warnings: none

“Y/N, you’re being ridiculous. Chris doesn’t hate ANYBODY, well, except for Ehren”, Steve shushed to his aggravated friend. “ME, Steve. He hates ME.” Y/N just didn’t understand what Chris had against her. Chris Pontius was such a joyful soul. What about her brought this agressive and bitchy side out of him? She could handle not being liked. It’s not new to her, and she could not give a shit about anyones opinions, but something about CHRIS not liking her just sent a frustration through her veins that she could not describe. It didn’t make sense, and it wasn’t fair.

“Why don’t you just TALK to him?”

“TALK TO HIM?? Steve O are you CRAZY?”

“Y/N you’re acting like an asshole. It’s not crazy to wanna have an adult conversation and be civil to your costar. Grow up!”

“Steve I’m not doing it. Just forget it.”

“Whatever”

She huffed and threw her head back grumpily. Steve O was right, but she couldn’t admit it.

“I’m gonna go outside for a smoke”, she groaned, just needing a moment away from the confrontation.

She walked outside and pulled a pack of cigs out of her pocket. She sat down criss crossed against the side of the building. She lit one up and took a long drag. So many thoughts clouded her mind. Thoughts of how Chris behaves, their work relationship, what Steve had said… Chris’s beautiful smile. That made it all the more frustrating. Y/N had thought Chris was the most handsome little thing since the moment she met him, but he wanted nothing to do with her. Not to mention the guy’s hilarious. There were so many things about him that she just CRAVED. She wanted to let go of these feelings so badly, knowing that nothing could ever come of them, but it just wasn’t happening. This asshole still lived in her mind every waking second of her day. She sees his light, long hair flowing when there’s a slight breeze in the air, his muscles when he takes his shirt off for a bit, his hazel eyes when the sun is out, and his contagious giggle almost every time she closed her eyes. It was excruciating.

“Y/N”, Steve-O called. “Jeff needs you on set for a bit in 5”. She nodded and took a few more puffs from her cigarette before putting it out. She was still frustrated by Steve-O, but that was her best friend regardless. “Ok”

She stood up and wiped dirt off her pants. She strolled toward the room they were shooting in, and to her shock, it was empty. “I thought this asshole said to come here??”, she whispered to herself. She sat down for a moment until a handsome, long haired man walked through the door. The normally smiley boy just sort of grimaced when he noticed he was alone with her.

There was a jarringly loud sound. The doors were now locked. “Hey Y/N. TALK TO HIM”, she could hear Johnny Knoxville saying from some sort of PA system. “you DICKS!!!”, she groaned. “We aren’t letting you two out of there until you COMMUNICATE. Have fun!”

The first few moments consisted of awkward shared stares. “Well on with it. What’s your problem with me?”, Pontius asked. “MY problem?? What’s YOUR fucking problem, Pontius?”, she raised her voice. “My problem is that you act like THIS! I’ve never done anything to you! I don’t understand your passive aggressiveness”. Y/N almost audibly rolled her eyes. “I act like this because you HATE ME, Pontius. You-“ “HATE you?”, he cut her off. His demeanor softened. “I could never hate you.”

Y/N was unfathomably confused. “Well you sure act like it!”

Pontius sighed and wiped his forehead. “I can’t tell you the truth.”

Y/N grew more frustrated. “WHY THE FUCK CANT YOU!?”

“Sweetie. Calm down.”

The word sent a cold chill down her spine. His unusual sweetness oddly soothed her.

“I want to tell you I just, I’m just scared you just- I don’t know.”

“Pontius please just tell me. Whatever it is. I can take it.”

“I don’t hate you. I never hated you.”

“Then why do you act this way around me”

“God I just. I’m just gonna say it and get it over with. I really adore you, Y/N. I know I act like an ass but I don’t mean to. I’m just frustrated because I know you’ll never feel the same, so I come off like this. I hate that I make you feel so frustrated, I know it’s not right. I just can’t help knowing the girl I’ve been so fond of since the moment I layed eyes on her will never be mine”

Y/N’s mouth parted in shock. She was trying to find the words to say. Mumbles and uneven breaths were all that could escape from her mouth. “I know I made things awkward Y/N but please know I don’t hate you. I couldn’t. You’re so precious and cool and hot and, fuck I’m being weird.”

“Pontius, do you know why this shit really makes me so upset???”

He frowned, fully believing he had made her uncomfortable with his confession. “I’m so sorry Y/N I-“ “you’re so beautiful, Chris. I want you to like me so badly because you’re so fucking cute and sweet and funny and I just thought that I was never gonna be enough for you. It makes me upset when you’re laughing and having a good time with everyone and I feel so excluded. I wanna make you laugh like that. I’ve always wanted you so badly.”

“You’re mocking me aren’t you”, he responded. “No I’m fucking not!!! I adore you and admire you so much, I’ve had this dumb thing for you for so long and-“ Pontius grabbed the sides of her face and placed a passionate kiss on her lips. He tasted like cigarettes and minty gum. She calmed and eased into his kiss. He snaked his arms around her and pulled her close. He kept her embraced as he pulled his face away. He pushed her hair behind her ear and looked at her. “I’m sorry we couldn’t have talked this through sooner. I’ve always wanted to do that”, he smiled. Y/N fell closer into his arms and hugged him tight. “I was immature too. Please Pontius just let this be behind us. I want more of this. I wanna experience sweet Pontius that everyone else does.” “I wanna give you more than that, sweetheart”

“Y/N AND PONTIUS SITTING IN A TREE! K-I-S-S-I-N-G!!” The voice on the PA system screamed. “YOU MIC’ED US???”, Y/N screamed back. They could hear the sounds of the guys laughing in the other room now. “You’re such DICKS!!!!”

[seobshome]

seventeen as midnights songs

notes - this is literally my first ‘customized’ post on tumblr so if you have any tips plz help me lol. I got this idea because I saw some videos on tiktok of taylor and svt cross overs and the tour dates gave me this idea. The explanations just get longer and longer and some of them don’t make a lot of sense lol.

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Lavender Haze - Joshua

I just feel like it fits him so well. I literally look at him and it reminds me of the vibes of lavender haze, he’s so vibrant and expressive, quite literally the most dreamy man ever. He’s so ethereal and full of beauty and that's how I see Lavender haze, its a beautiful song. “I’ve been under scrutiny, you handle it beautifully” I believed Shua is loyal to a fault, I just can’t describe why he’s so lavender haze but he is. 

Maroon - Mingyu

Easily it belongs to Mingyu, the song is just so him. “laughing with my feet in your lap, like you were my closet friend” sounds so him, like a relationship with him would be so intense but such fondness. Maroon to me is a relationship full of passionate love and that’s how I see this. Mingyu is literally a Taylor Swift song I don’t care, I am so down bad for this beautiful man.

Anti-Hero - Seungkwan

You cant tell me he doesn't embody it. All the hate he’s received, and the insecurities he’s talked about. Some people make it seem like a chore just to compliment all his hard work. He still pushes through it through no matter who says what on his name. Along with how the industry treated him before he made a name for himself and his. 

Snow on the Beach - Vernon

In my mind Vernon is such Lana material, he would be a Lana stan, I don’t care. How he’s spoken about his ethnicity and how he can get uncomfortable with it, but yet is still seen as so handsome in the eyes of many. “weird but fucking beautiful” his mixed ethnicity is looked down upon in Korea, but he’s so looked up to and complimented often on his other-worldly looks.

You’re on your own kid - Chan 

Everyone saw this coming, but that’s okay because its accurate. Even though he does have 12 older brothers to look after him and help guide him everyone knows the childish urge to want to do everything on your own. Everyone wants to try to prove themselves and often times it leads to them distancing themselves and trying to do it on their own, I see that in him especially growing up in the scene from a very young age. (this is me projecting btw)

Midnight Rain - Seungcheol

“A deep portal, time travel all the love we unravel and the life I gave away” quite literally Choi Seungcheol, he’s sacrificed so much of himself just to succeed and make a name for himself and the rest of the boys at such a young age, stepping up to be their leader. He has so much love for all of them and all I could hope is he looks back and sees his sacrifices have made him into who he is today. 

Question...? - Hoshi 

Honestly at first I didn’t really have any reasoning for assigning him to this song just a feeling but then the lyrics. “ It was one drink after another” made me think of him in ttt, “fuckin politics and gender roles” His duality and his style of dance is so fluid and I feel Hosh is such an open awesome guy and I just thought of him. “ Does it feel like everything's just like second best after that meteor strike” I feel he is often hard on himself and the others just from having to build themselves up from nothing and wanting the best for everyone. (idk if this one makes sense)

Vigilante Shit - Woozi

This song just makes me think of Jihoon honestly I don’t really have an explanation to my thoughts here. “Sometimes I wonder which one will be your last lie they say looks can kill and I might try”, everyone always says he the scariest when he’s mad but we all know Jihoon would do a lot for seventeen, he already does. There's just so many layers to him, and I think he defends the group much more than he lets on. This man could definitely write a diss track or something as his revenge.

Bejeweled - Jeonghan 

Obviously bejeweled is his song he’s so elegant with such a big personality. Not to mention his gorgeous looks and smile its hard not to smile at him when he’s giggling and grinning. His personality is layered though but he’s still such a sweet soul and he blesses those around him in a caring way under his mischief. Many members have talked about how they can come to Jeonghan with whatever, I just think he lights up a room.

Labyrinth - Jun

This song just suits him in my opinion “lost in the labyrinth of my mind”, we all know Jun spaces out a lot and he’s in his own world quite often which is one thing I really love about him. I cant explain it but his vibe is literally this song to me and the mixed beats and genres is just perfect. “you would break your back to make me break a smile” I just wanted to include this because it reminded me of the Jun 2nd place episode, plus seventeen as a whole love Jun so much and he can do nothing and they’d smile and laugh which I think is so precious. 

Karma - Minghao 

Nobody can tell me this song isn't Hao, he literally embodies karma. He wouldn’t stoop to anybody's level just to get back at them but he’d let the universe take care of it. “My pennies made your crown” literally came from nothing, a bankrupt company to the group its been made to today. By far one of the best dancer’s of the 3rd gen. “ ask me what I learned from all those years ask me what I earned from all those tears ask me why so many fade but I'm still here” It wasn’t an easy battle for them to get to the top either they went through many hardships and struggles and yet all 13 are still together.

Sweet Nothing - Seokmin 

I’m gonna try my best to make up a description for it but this was a no brainer between him and gyu. He’s literally one of the sweetest men ever in my eyes, and his gorgeous smile. “Outside they're push and shoving you're in the kitchen humming” this line just reminds me so much of him, he’s almost always so sweet and gentle with all the members and he doesn’t want any special treatment in return. Soft head pats, loving smiles, and laughing fits is what I imagine with dk.

Mastermind - Wonwoo

We all know Wonwoo as an intelligent man so of course it makes sense he ended up as mastermind. “saw a wide smirk on your face, you knew the entire time” that line just reminds me of him, like even if you schemed against him I just think he would know the whole time and let it flow because he wanted it too, and to see you happy. Wonwoo is a mastermind himself too so it just makes sense. (gives me debate night vibes lol)

[1hp]

giant love letter under the cut dedicated to my wife because i love him so muchies and i just gotta rant about how much i love and care for him....im yapping out of pure love..

oohhhh i love my husband so much hes my everything..,..its almost 3 am and all i can think about is him. him, him, him. hes like a brainworm...i adore him more than i can describe and everything i feel for him feels so unreal but also makes so much sense. i just think hes lovely, hes so talented and he has so much potential and skill. everything he does and creates never ceases to amaze me. hes fantastic. so funny and kind and oh...so caring...so sweet...he always makes sure im okay and makes sure i feel loved and oh man do i feel loved...im so excited to get to see him soon and to be able to see his beautiful smile and his cute face and hug him and smell him (not in any weird way i just heard he smells nice) and kiss him OHHH i get to KISS HIM!!!!!! ive never kissed anyone before, im so excited??? id love to kiss a handsome, gorgeous man like that OHHH man. oh my god. i am the luckiest person alive Like Actually. ii get to feel his facial hair against my face and i get to..,.hold his hand and hug him and kiss his cheek and his face and Oh my God i feel lightheaded. im gonna pass out and throw up Hes so fucking beautiful and i cant WAIT 50+ to see him i want him NEEOOWW!!! RIGHT NEEOOWWWW!!!! 😾😾😾 ohhh but the wait will be worth it...and even better i get to see him again after the day i see him. AGAIN!!! TWO WHOLE DAYS OF MY WIFE!!!! i want nothing more than to make him happy and cuddle him and kiss him and do everything with him...i wanna love him forever...hes so perfect to me...i want him to know ill always adore him and love him unconditionally, i hope he knows that. i always remind him. hes so lovely, i never want him getting hurt or to be upset, i always wanna help and make him feel better...the last year or so has been the best of my life, ive never felt as happy as i do with him. he just means everything to me. i hope and pray that i can love him every day. truly i do. thats all i want in the world, to be with him and to constantly love and support him forever. hes all i want. hes perfect to me. and i love him. god do i love him. hes the best boyfriend i could have ever asked for. hes my best friend and my husband and the love of my life and my favorite person in the whole wide world!!!!!!!!!!!!! i always have a blast when im with him, i truly hope i can feel this way forever, i know i will...

i dream of him often and all of my dreams consist of him being supportive of me and being so kind to me, i always smile when i wake up from these dreams because i know im living it. hes so precious...hehe i got a plushie from build a bear when we first started dating and i named him mini-michael and for the last year or so, ive been cuddling it every night while i sleep. now i cant sleep without him. god. i can only imagine how sleeping next to my wife would feel...so warm and comfortable...i want him so bad You have no idea. hes my everything. i wish he lived closer. at least hes in the same state...but alas...6 hours apart...really breaks my heart. i hope that someday i can drive out there on some weeks and spend the days with him, id love to be with him always. oh how i love him. id do anything for him and i know hed do anything for me too. i love my best friend, im so lucky to be able to love such an amazing guy...

[dojae-huh]

I am just writing this becoz I am very sad..I want to share my thought to someone..why is antis calling dy ugly...they already calling him so many things..just why dont they stick with those names...nepo baby...favouritism...nerd...everything.. ..just why calling him ugly? I knw and accept the fact that he is not in the level of other visual members of nct...still he is not even that ugly ...just why...now he is doing some fashion with what he got then how comes he becomes a threat to others whom they call as visual members? Just cant the antis just stop calling him ugly ..it really breaks my heart and getting me depressed...I dont knw now how dy can be any better for them to call him handsome?..no I dont even want them to support him just dont talk and write he is ugly where he can see that....it will only make him lose confidence he had on himself...i really hope antis dont do that to discourage dy...he is not ugly ....

Because it is very easy to hurt using the word "ugly". No need to be creative, learn new words, heh. A great trigger word.

It is also a contraposition. Beauty standarts differ. Doyoung was considered a good looking guy back in school, he was objectively not even plain looking. And now he grew up into his looks and has very good body proportions. However, Jaehyun has an official position of a visual and a frontman (he and Tae are in the centre of the 127 lineup). Therefore to elevate "the handsome", the rival needs to be called "the ugly".

Another thing. "Ugly" is not only an adjective for looks, but also for character, personality. Humans use adjectives that describe real things and real senses for abstracts things. "Awful taste" for sense of fashion or music instead of food. Antis hate Doyoung, he is someone unpleasant to them, which makes them use any negative words they can come up with, that are on the surface of their mind and in the forefront of their vocabulary.

Don't worry for Doyoung. He is a fully grown up man now, he is far into his career. The times when comments about his looks affected him are in the past with his Rookie years. He doesn't care about being compared to a bunny anymore, he doesn't care to hide his calves, he can show his bareface.

[alex-washington-rackets]

The hunt for coffee

TAGGING ➝ Alex Washington, Bree Brown @blckbarbree

LOCATION ➝ PSU Cafateria

TIME FRAME ➝ 10/17 afternoon.

WARNINGS ➝ None.

SUMMARY ➝ Alex and Bree get to know eachother

Bree Brown

[follows him to coffee] So the rest of the questions, I am from LA so been here like my whole life, I am a mathematics doctoral student and a TA for Professor Delilah Rose, my favorite color is pink unless it's purple and I have no red flags, unless you count being damn near flawless a red flag.

Alex Washington

[whilst on the hunt for coffe at bree's admission Alex stops in shock] Your a mathematics doctora student [he repeats] What! So your like really cleaver! Should i be calling you Dr Bree? [Continuing on the hunt for caffeine] Honey i am obsessed with your confidence! These are the kinds of vibes i love. So what about your ex's? Is there anyone here? Spill the tea!

Bree Brown

Clever is certainly a word I would use to describe me, and not yet. I still have about two years left in my program and then Dr. Bree Brown PhD has a very nice ring to it. [smiles just thinking about it] Shockingly, I don't hate your whole thing either. Which, actually means something because most people exhaust me beyond belief. Well, he's not really my ex anymore, don't know if you saw the handsome man in the corner hunched over a phone, but that one is mine, Jake Puckerman.

Alex Washington

As you should! And i bet your gonna boss the next two years too. [Finally finding the coffee Alex sorts them out with some] Im gonna call you Dr Bree. It fits. [Sending her a wink] You know ive made a lot of wins today but winning your favour has got to be the top. How on earth are you surviving here with so many people if they exhaust you? [Alex asks in wonder] i mean i dont mind people but ive beem going stir crazy the last few days being cooped up inside. You mean to tell me that that all drink of water brooding in the courner is your man! Honey hes beautiful! well done! [Offering Bree a high five]

Bree Brown

[has never been more excited to see coffee in her entire life] You can literally call me whatever you want now that you've found coffee. Although, I do like Dr. Bree, so that definitely has my stamp of approval. [quite frankly, she's lapping up this attention and it's feeding her soul] Oh, no, don't let the demeanor fool you, I am absolutely fourteen minutes away from chewing my way out of here, but I am trained not to o such things or indicate in any way with my body language that I feel anything less than perfect. [might have just realized it isn't people that exhaust her but rather the fact she has to put on a front every time she's around others, damn] I figured if I was going to be with a man I might as well be with one that looks good enough to compensate for the male fuckery I am sure to endure. And believe me, I have endured.

Alex Washington

[Alex laughed at her admission] Thats fair. I've always been of the mind of if you cant beat them join them. Its always kept me safe. But even i can admit that that can get pretty draining. I can totally see you knoring your way out with your sharp mouth. [Alex smiled at the crazy image. He admired Bree for her confidence. It was refeshing to meet someone who just told it like it was] Oh Dr Bree how did you train yourself to be perfect. I am anything but no amtter how hard i try. I will never be enough for my mother. [He thought ruefully on the amount of effort he had dedicated his life to his mothers approval.] Oh believe me women can casue just as much fuckery! I'm sorry to hear youve had to endure so much.