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In an effort to ✨avoid reality✨ I’ve been working on the one shot and I want to post it but I keep coming up with new ideas to add.
#hahaahahaha pls help I’ve literally fucked up every relationship in my life today#it is a no bueno#and this cute love story is the only thing keeping me going today#bless y’all
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would like to send you this fanart of your fl listener, benny. i don’t think i’ll ever finish it so xd
I see
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MINE
Heheehhehehebg he’s so pretty in your style<3333333,,,…..,..,….,,,,
#there is a lot more people interested in this big guy than I thought#if I had a nickel for every time someone drew Benny fanart unasked for#id have 3 nickels which isn’t a lot but weird it happened 3 times#y’all are soNICEEEEE#SERIOUSLY I LOVE THISSSSS!!!!!!!!#HIS HAIR IN URBSTYLE#YEHEHEHEEHEHEehehehehehehshaheheheheb#redacted asmr#freggzocs#freggzartz#redacted asmr freelancer#redacted audio fanart#redacted audio#redacted asmr listener#redacted asmr fanfic#redacted asmr fanart#his eyesSSSSS#VERY GORGOUS#HAHAAHAHAHA#I am gong insane/pospospos
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@selfpres ⛧︎ cont'd
his head is swimming. whatever influence she has, it's more than psychological. it's based on more than presence. it feels... familiar, although at the moment he lacks the mental facilities to place why. daughter of hatred, she's called — and that hatred is a palpable thing. it makes oxygen feel scarce, and pierre's chest rises and falls with rapid breaths. "then what was?" he asks, a tremor creeping out through the grit of his teeth. a bead of sweat looses itself from his hairline to run down the side of his face. he has to get a grip, and he takes a deep breath, he pushes through everything in him that screams that there isn't enough good air, that he has to keep gasping for breath, and then ——— calm. the truth of the body wins out over the pressing thrall. the awareness returns to his eyes.
Lilith was able to recognize the strain she was inflicting upon the human ; it was an effect which she was WELL ACQUAINTED with. She was silent as she patiently stood, curious to see if he would succeed in regaining his composure. She had seen many fall into insanity following a few moments within her aura's sway.
A satisfied smirk spread across her lips when he collected himself despite the great strain he was under. Lilith permitted him another moment of recovery before going on, " The ONLY CHANCE of freeing the oppressed from those who wish to dominate all is to unite and retaliate. Do you not agree ??? "
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Lucy: *walking through the mindflayer hatchery after setting the trapped prisoners free and killing the mind flayers, Zevlor thankfully not among their numbers thanks to her previous efforts in keeping all the refugees alive* Right then. Let’s see where this, oh so very, very important asset of mine is being kept. *stops in front of a pod and folds her arms looking annoyed* How? HOW? Mizora?
Mizora: *still burning hot with the engine in her chest, banging on the glass of her pod in tears* Your grace I can explain everything please let me out I won’t fail you again please! Please!!!
Lucy: fine, help me get duke ravenguard to safety then. *smashes the pod and pulls her out*
Mizora: thank you! Thank you your grace! I promise you w- *shuts up as the group walks off without her* a-Ah your grace wait for me! *runs after her*
*several minutes later*
Orin: *moves to sit on Ulders back only to hit the ground instead as hellfire embers burn her ass* AAGH! Arghh?! What?! Filthy sneaky rat! Where did he go?!
Gortash: *watched him disappear right before his eyes in an uncomfortably familiar burst of flame, heart dropping for a moment thinking Raphael had come for him, or Mephistopheles* I- I don’t-
Aylin: *suddenly bursts free from her cage as Astarion sneaks by them and lets her lose* YOUR END IS NOW OATH BREAKER! YOUR HEAD WILL BE MINE!
Gortash: damn it! *turns and runs for it making a quick escape as the elderbrain begins to take flight from the colony*
Orin: no no! Fathers plan was going perfectly! How did-
“Poor. Poor. Orin the Red. Orin the inbred. Your grandfathers daughter and your mothers sister. Never Baals favourite, you killed his favourite and he still doesn’t love you. Heheh, haha! HAHAAHAHAHA!!”
Orin: No no no! Grandfather loves me! He worships me! Filthy little pig mouthed liar!! *looking around frantically as Lucy suddenly appears in front of her and kicks her off the platform into the abyss below*
Lucy: *knowing Baal will most likely resurrect her as he did Sarevok, but for now somply watches her disappear into the green fog below before holding up the gem she’d snatched from her as she pushed* one down. For now… *turns to ketheric as Aylin and the group corner him* I’m hesitant to give you a second chance… after the state you made of this land and it’s people, Ketheric. And I doubt Isobel would ever be willing to forgive you for the torment you put Aylin through… but you can side with me. *suddenly assumes her archdevil form, large, imposing, and glowing with an oddly radient moonlight sheen as her good deeds begin outweighing her fiendish gifts, and the gods begin to take notice* Or Be Annihilated…
Aylin: Make your choice Oathbreaker! Neither Shar nor Murkyl will save you from hells justice!
Ketheric: *eyes wide staring up at her, lilac skin turning a firey pink, then red as her four horns sprout a 6th pair and her tongue lulls out from her mouth with a forked point, sensing a power from her far greater than anything murkyl would be willing to lend him* … *drops his blade and surrenders*
Lucy: good. *reverts back to a regular tiefling* Hand over the stone and we’ll tal- minthara are you okay?
Minthara: let us hurry and be done with this place. I wish to ravage you as mine.
Lucy: oh-
Lae’zel: Ch’k! Stand down! She will be mine!
Lucy: O-oh-
*a few minutes later*
Mizora: *appears and proudly presents a bewildered duke ravenguard* here he is! Alive and unharmed! No tadpole no tentacles! All safe and sound my lady!
Lucy: *curtseys to him* Glad to finally meet Wylls father. You can thank him for the rescue. And me for his lack of horns. My only regret is I couldn’t grab that slimy bastard Gortash in time… he’s infected the entirety of the flaming fists with his tadpoles and corruption. The steelwatch are under his control as well. It’ll be best if you remain in my citadel as a guest until we dispatch of them or else he could risk completing his plan.
Ulder: he intended to infect me as well. And have me crown him as grand duke… the gate would have no hope.
Lucy: not true. Hope is small but she’s hard to kill.
Ulder: what?
Lucy: wha- *suddenly grabbed by minthara and lae’zel both before being dragged away* goodbye! Wyll talk to your dad don’t let him leave and do something stupid!!!
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Fredbear's Birthday Tickles (Lee Scott, Ler Mike, Ler Henry)
Summary: Phone Guy goes to Fredbear's Family Diner to check if things are going smoothly. While there, the owner discovers it's his birthday and insists on celebrating! Will he be able to relax and enjoy it or will something go wrong?
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"Oh Scottyyyyy…!" Mike's voice called from the other room.
Giggling, Scott ran behind a table. He knew that tone of voice.
Having visited Fredbear's for the third time in his life, Scott came to check out the restaurant. Even though he worked at the Freddy's restaurant down the block, it was nice to check out how the sister location was doing.
He'd discovered a boy who was crying on the floor and talked to him, finding his mom, and telling her she shouldn't bring her child here if he's scared. That he has the right to go home if he wants to. The boy looked at him strangely, like it was the first time an adult man had been nice to him, and the mom admitted he was right - that this was his father's idea. It was a little heartbreaking to Scott that the boy was forced to be here; but at least now he wouldn't have to worry. The mom took her son home, the boy looking back at him curiously.
Mike thought it would have been funny to scare his little brother, but he was nowhere to be seen. So he got a different idea. The Freddy's manager was fun to mess with.
"C-come on, Mike! It's my birthday!"
It was years since Scott had babysat him and his siblings and he'd hoped Mike would have forgotten how ticklish he was.
"Haha! Happy Birthday, then!" Mike approached him with wiggling fingers.
"Mike, please!" He squeaked, laughing in anticipation. "No! Hahahahaahaa!"
Wrapping his arms around Scott like an octopus, Mike squeezed his sides and tapped his fingers up and down them. The sounds of a grown man's squeals and laughter echoed through the party room. He hopped up and down in a funny looking dance. Kids and grown ups noticed and laughed along. Scott blushed in embarrassment.
"Hahaahaaahaahaaaa! Oh my gosh, Mike! Haahahahaahaaa! Please stop! Hahaahahaha!"
One particular grown up came over to rescue Scott. As soon as Mike saw Henry, the owner, approaching he stopped. Henry smiled.
"Have we been staying out of trouble, Mike?"
Sheepishly, he froze.
"Heh, it's okay sir!" Scott said, catching his breath. "This is just Mike's way of wishing me a Happy Birthday!"
Mike looked up and nodded.
At hearing that it was someone's birthday Fredbear came off stage, being programmed to greet the birthday person. Waving at Scott, he spoke in a deep dopey tone.
"Hey, I heard it was someone's birthday today!"
Scott opened his arms, letting Fredbear hug him. He knew he'd be safe as long as he stayed away from the head and joints. The feeling of Fredbear's hug was warm and welcoming, the robot knowing exactly how much pressure to use.
Letting go, he smiled. It really was no wonder kids loved Fredbear
And yet, Scott found that he was now stuck. Fredbear was still holding him around the ribs and back. He tried to slip out, but there wasn't enough room.
"Uhh… little help here?" he tried, looking at Henry and Mike.
"Oh, we'll help alright…!" Mike said, with an evil smirk. Henry chuckled as well.
"Sorry Scott, but rules are rules!"
"Whahahaat ruhuhuhules?!" he squeaked. Wiggling to try and get free on his own. Henry slipped his hands under Scott's armpits.
"Why, the rules of whenever a person gets stuck like this, they get tickled!"
Scott froze, grinning with his body stiffened. He wouldn't let them have this. He wouldn't.
Michael came over, smirk never leaving his face.
"Oh Scotty… Haven't you learned by now?"
He poked and prodded at his ribs. Scott let out a girlish shriek. Henry helped by softly but surely moving his index fingers around his armpits, careful so it didn't hurt.
"AHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAAAAAA! PLEEEEEHEEEEEEEEEEEEAAAAHEEEEEEAAAAAAASEEEEEE!!"
"You're kidding…?" Michael said, with a teasing hint. "No one's that ticklish!"
Scott couldn't shoot back at him, but he was SO going to get it when this was over!
"STAAAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAAAAAAHAHAAAP!" He begged, thrashing to get away from Henry's expert armpit tickles.
Mike took off Scott's right shoe.
"Alright, Phoney. Let's see if this is still your squeal spot!"
He slipped his sock off and held his ankle and top of foot tightly in a headlock. Then he tickled right under his index toe!
"EEEEEEHEHEHEEEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEEHEEHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!" Scott squealed and thrashed hard, doing his best to escape.
"Or perhaps, it was on your left foot…?" Michael thought, now uncertain. It had been a long time since he'd discovered this trick when Scott had fallen asleep while babysitting him. Mike had decided to be mischievous and had struck gold! He started taking off the left shoe.
"EEEEEEEEEEEEKK! MIKE! PLEEEHEEEEEEEEEAAAAAAHHEEEAAASE!" Scott whined. Meanwhile, Henry had managed to find a pathway for Scott to escape from. He did his best to guide him there with his tickles. He moved to tickle his sides, letting him wiggle a bit higher. "HEEEHEEEEEHEEEEEEEHEEEEHEEEEE! NOT THERE!"
"Just be glad I'm not getting your belly button!" Henry chuckled.
Scott continued laughing and squirming. "NOHOOHOHOOO PLEHEHEEHEHEASE!! I'LL DIHIHIHIHIHIIE!"
Mike overheard it, even though he was busy with Scott's toes. "You sure?"
Henry decided to skitter his fingers all over Scott's belly. He pinched at the sides every so often.
"EEEHEEHEHEHEHEEHEHEHHEEEHEEEEE! NAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAOOOOO!"
Shaking his head, it was all too much for Scott. The world felt lighter, and then suddenly he was free. Henry had pulled him out of Fredbear's grip.
"Heheheeheheeheeeh…" he laughed, feeling a sense of relief now.
"You're welcome, by the way." Henry said, giving his ribs one last poke. Scott flinched away, chuckling.
Mike gave him back his shoes.
"By the way uh," Mike said with a smirk. "Happy Birthday."
#fnaf tickling#fnaf tickles#ticklish phone guy#lee phone guy#ler michael#ler henry emily#my writing#tickle fic#just some silly fun!#lee!phone guy#ler!michael afton#ler!henry emily
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Do you even care if you're alive after this?
"HAHAAHAHAHA!!!!!"
"You for real?! Hell no! And live for another eternity with these fucks? Ha! Yea right, most of them would be willing to sell my soul for common dirt!"
"I know who I am to these people, they know me. Once I'm out of their hair everyone can take a sigh of relief in my absence. Just sucks that my shit is gonna end up in a dumpster somewhere eventually. Whatever, I won't be using it"
"Nah, my loved ones are all dead as dust in the wind, I can't trust the others to not eventually stab me in the back once all this shit is over anyways. Bunch of superficial fucks. Temporary alliances. Blah, blah, blah. Might as well go out the way I wanna go, that's my only other choice after selling my soul. Fuck'n waste of a contract too, but that's just on brand anyways. Whatever."
#truth is black and white; ic#v; unholy crusade#how to be hated in one answered ask#Yea the unity's there but the trust? Thats still tbd
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The Untamed review: Episode Five!!!!!
long intro les gooo
Why do father and father have to fight??
Hahaha, he smiles so cheekily whenever he sees Wangji
He dusted off his sleeve for him, 100% boyfriend material
"let me tell you something, I heard something-" *gets fucking snatched by his boyfriend*
off to the library pavilion I guess
So peaceful, just wait
Haha, look at how Wei Wuxian is sat
(Three minutes in and I'm distracted by ice cream)
Wei Wuxian just looks tired and bored hahs
What is this man doing, his back must be in so much pain
The little sigh and the head in his handdddd, he's just as in love, neither of them even realise
Wei Wuxian, what are you planning
You're just complimenting him now
HAHA THE FULL ON GLARE
"you can call me the same!!!" Oh, Lan Wangji wants to
He doesn't hate you, he's just gay and can't admit it
You're so pathetic, Wuxian, I love it
You sneaky little bastard
Don't place the blame on him, you gremlin
FUCK, MORE WRITING
He's so sincere leave him slone
He'd love to see you kneel WHO SAID THAT. WHO THE HELL SAID THAT?!?
His silly little giggle, and then the crying of not being able to speak
WEN NING MY SON.
WEN QING MY DAUGHTER.
BOTH WENS I LOVE YOU SO SO MUCH. SHE HAS SO MUCH PRESSURE ON HER.
They're such good siblings
Wen Ning, you little guy 😔 WHAT'S WRONG WITH HIM?!?!!
Let them just be happy, they deserve it
Bro's reading while Wuxian is giggling and having the time of his life. Don't think I'd didn't see that little glance, Wangji, hehehe
THE SMILE AAAUUUGHHH
He drew something for you, LOOK AT IT
The little glance in his direction!!!
Sobbing, they're in love, they're in love.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA THEY KEPT IT IN
Lan Wangji looks ready to pop a blood vessel
"outside, then we'll duel" "Haha! No."
He's so fucking dramatic, I love him so
EXCUSE MEEEE???? DID YOU JUST..... CURSE????
He is literally just about to go feral. Boutta cry.
Nie Huaisang and Wei Wuxian are such besties.
Jiang Cheng is such a brother
Hahahaha, "did you say my name" "I ain't no snitch"
Jiang Cheng does not want to be involved
EYO SMOKE????
Nie Huaisang is sooo knowledgeable
Bro's flicking his nose to get thoughts
Nahhh, Wangji is so ready to pop a vessel. And Xichen's grin at his name hahaha.
Just you wait buddy boy. Just you wait.
SU SHE CAN SUCK MY DIIIICK. He's fine for now though.
Oooooh, Caiyi town!!!
You ain't ready for that level of responsibility, Su She
They're soooo serious
You're not my jiejie????
Jiang Cheng grinning when Wen Qing notices him hehehe
"I'm here too 🥺"
YANLI ARE YOU OKAY??? ARE YOU GOING TO BE A HOMOSEXUAL WITH WEN QING
That's right, they're a family too
Wen Qing is getting both the Jiangs my god
Hehehehehe, you're sneaks
WEN QING IS WITH THEM!!!!!
Lan Wangji, you want him there
Lan Xichen is literally setting them up
THAT'S RIGHT, WEI WUXIAN, STAND UP FOR QING!!!!
WEI WUXIAN, YOU ARE LITERALLY THE BEST. YOU ARE LITERALLY COLLECTING PEOPLE AT THIS POINT HAHAHA
Lan Xichen, you sweetheart
"why'd you let him come? 😔" "You looked like you wanted him to come" XICHEN YOU ARE IN CHARGE OF OUR SHIP, GUARD IT WELL
"don't you want them to come?" Literal silence from Wangji
Wuxian and Wangji hahaha
Don't be mean to hiiimmmmm, he's giving you lore
"Eating humans??? Not my water spirits"
The ships sinking??? BLACK WATER SINKING SHIPS??? False alarm, wrong show 😔
The way he rushes over to chat to Lan Wangji
"you're so boring 😔😔😔😔" he's like a stroppy child. I'd sleep
IT'S BEHIND YOU, oh, he's gone
Bro is literally drinking on a case, he has no chill
Wen Qing, you're so suspicious right now
Jiang Cheng, in kind terms, is telling Wuxian to shut up
Bro, stop offering him alcohol
Now Lan Xichen is acting suspicious and even Lan Wangji picked up on it
HAHAAHAHAHA WANGJI WHAT THE FUCK HAHAHAHAHAAAA
I'd be so pissed if someone did that with my alcohol.
Bit misty, innit?
Y'all are the scariest things in the mist
Wei Wuxian, you mustn't look so eager around Wangji, it's not a good look on you
The Wens just chilling in a boat together
Wuxian, my lord!!! You saved him!!
Show offffff
He looks so proud of himself, and he immediately doesn't want to upset Wangji
SHOULDER BUMP, THAT'S FUCKING ADORABLE
Stop it with your lack of gayness, it's not fooling anyone
Ewwwww, what the fuck is that seaweed
Kill it with fire
"what's the name of the sword?" "Whatever" I love that you're trying, Wangji
HE JUST EXPLAINED IT, IT'S NOT HIS FAULT
The fog thickens
Wen Ning you're so pretty
Fucking seaweed AGAIN
JIANG CHENG WAS HURT 😔
Wen Qing so willing to help. Awwwwwwhhh.
I understand why people ship them now, it made no sense from the book perspective
Wen Qing you're so pretty
I love how Wen Ning immediately pulled his sword out
"what's good, y'all?"
EW, SEAWEED
Shit, the seaweed is smart
They're all on high alert now
I didn't even know that water ghosts did that
HAHA, THERE GOES YOUR SWORD
Someone help Su She, he's hopeless
WEN NING WHY ARE YOUR EYES CLOSED LMAO
WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH WEN NING YALL????
Woah, Wangji so smart and strong ☺️🤭
"just hold my hand" "nuh uh" they're gay
Xichen, you're the baddest bitch around
What's wrong with my son??? Is Wen Ning okay???
He's just checking up on him
Awwwww, Wuxian, you're sooo sweet
He's such a lil guy, he's so helpful
What's wrong with my baby???
Awwwwwwwwwhhhhhhhh, I'm sobbing, bonding moment
Jiang Cheng aw, what you looking for...ARE YOU THINKING ABOUT QING??? YOU SLY DOG
Wei Wuxian snacking hehehe
Wen Ning is such a little guy, look at him pointing
Wangji said that Wuxian had a point to Xichen, he's such a little simp
Nice catch, such a waste though
JIANG CHENG'S LITTLE SMILE!!!!!!
DID WANGJI JUST BUY ALCOHOL, OR WAS IT WANGJI?????
#four being a dumbass#Four's live review#mo dao zu shi#cql#the untamed#the untamed spoilers#wei wuxian#lan wangji#jiang cheng#jiang yanli#lan xichen#lan qiren#wen qing#wen ning#nie huaisang#su she
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i feel like it’s going to end with me in actual tears and needing 2-3 business days to recompose myself but, i think emphasis on THINK that oc and beomgyu will not be living happily ever after regardless of how much i want them too. i am assuming oc will finally know the truth about the past lives and that will cause a shift between her and beomgyu but, with how crazy she is for him i don’t think it will but so much of a strain. I think something is going to happen to taehyun i fear 😭. like no way does he have like dreams of his past life and then she chooses beomgyu and he is just oh well lost my chance 🤷♀️and i think he has the capability to go full original YAMQN taehyun and due to that i feel like he ain’t going down without some sort of fight . like something has to happen right ? 😭 i hope not taehyun, baby run fast and never look back. as for oc and beomgyu i think that once she knows the truth about everything the gods are going to be like oh no look 👀 they happy! can’t have that and like fucking thanos with us infinity rings snaps them back to another lifetime and have the cycle start over again but that’s just my 2:35am brain thinking as i am indeed suffering from insomnia.
can’t wait to read the new chapter. I will be rereading both these 2 stories from start to finish once it’s uploaded. i am that insane. I wish i was lying but i love this story so much i can write my whole psychological dissertation on these character especially beomgyu and oc with the amount of times i have analyzed, thought, and read about them. i’m ready for the chaos and emotional battle i will be going through 😭😂
hahaahahaha discovering gyu killed and did unthinkable things to her in a past life but then it "not putting too much of a strain" on their relationship is peak oc 😂
tyun is unlikely to take it lying down but what can he do when he's a mortal young college student fighting a literal demon 😭 poor baby the fight had always been mismatched with gyu.
the gods switching up on them as soon as they're slightly happy together is canon at this point 😭
yeah oc and gyu's relationship is rife for analysis about manipulative and abusive relationships and how they get you to still love and be attached to them and excuse them for all they've done or even blame yourself for it :') tyun by comparison is way more tame but has always also been interesting to me as someone who relates to tyun's avoidant attachement style so much 😭
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32weeksMixtape Tracklist/Song Picks All Parts (Links to each blog part) **
How/Why did I choose/chose to use the songs I did
*Full breakdown, was updated in real time (weekly) so you go through the process/journey with me!*
32. Day Dreaming x NxWorries (Anderson .Paak + Knxwledge)
Man, first off, thank you for those of you who are truly seeking out all the aspects of this project. I don't know how long the internet will last, but for those seeing this 5, 10, 15....(or even 30!?) years into the future, thank you! If my wife or my children are seeing this, I love you and appreciate you for putting up with my madness during this period. See, 32weeks was all about pushing myself to my creative limits. I took a simple concept and turned into an artform. Think about it, right now, TikTok is bursting with the green screen idea: reacting to a video, or sharing controversial info, or wholesome content, with the person in front of/on the side of/stitched in, etc and the green screen is an element blending the two visuals together. Mixtapes have been around for well, probably since the conception of Hip hop. I took both entities and came out with this. A visual mixtape, set up as a presentation, with 32 tracks, released on a weekly basis...and staying on schedule. HAHAAHAHAHA!!! That is bizarre! I was able to (almost) share how these images appear in my mind, and how I relate them to the music. I used all true stories from my life. Pieces of my childhood and adulthood that I have never really shared with others...like real talk, #20, that was something I never knew I would ever be able to talk about. And as you know, this portion of the 32weeks era is over, but there still more writing to do.
Ok, so I came across this instrumental after writing, I think the 29th(possibly) verse. I heard it and knew this would be number 32. NxWorries is the collaboration of Anderson .Paak and Knxwledge. Their "Yes Lawd!" album is soooo fire. Like real talk, I knew Anderson .Paak has some dope instrumentals. Oxnard, Malibu, Ventura, are filled with wonderful productions. Knxwledge's beats just hit different. Like, Suede, or Lyk Dis, or Livvin, or omg....H.A.N.(if you are unfamiliar...go hear that right now lol). These instrumentals have that smooth old school but modern feel. But then, Daydreaming drops. 💥Like I said, I knew this was the one. I needed to find the instrumental immediately. All I kept hearing was 🎶32 weeks...🎶This verse pretty much wrote itself. It's literally the closer. I wanted listeners to feel that excitement, the raw feeling, of a burden being lifted. We know the feeling of saying you are going to do something, and then actually following through. During the live period of 32 weeks, whenever it all felt overwhelming, I would play this song as a reminder that it is going to feel amazing to finish this. That gave me more fuel to continue on.
As a songwriter, I learned in this process that I can truly write a song about anything. Overall, I can take a feeling and put it in sound for a listener to digest. I faced the fear of my art not being good enough. I faced the fear that I may have to do somethings, hard things, on my own. I faced the fear that I will overlooked, and ignored. I faced the fear that I was no longer relative to my community (in regards to making music that matters). I faced the fear that I can't learn skills. I faced the fear of showing more darker sides of myself in my lyrics. I faced the fear of opening up to my listeners. I faced the fear of acknowledging death (still uncomfortable, but less anxiety). I faced the fear of my endurance, that I wouldn't be able to actually complete a feat a large as this. I faced the fear of comparison...that the real competition is with myself. I had to learn that I can't watch what other artists are doing and judge them or myself. That practice is dangerous to my mental wellbeing. I killed that distorted thought(and I continue to battle that distorted thought) with these truths:
1. The internet(specifically social media) can make anyone seem like they are super successful, happy, and etc. 2. Everyone's path is different and is autonomous to each individual 3. I work a full time job and found joy in creating and just want to share it with others 4. "It just doesn't matter", straight from Mac Miller's Faces/Bill Murray's monologue from "MeatBalls". I learned that whether something good or bad comes from this project, whether people hear my music or not, whether I live or die, Whether I change the world or not, it just doesn't matter. Once I remember those ideas, I kill the intrusive enemy of most humans - comparison.
Again, I appreciate you spending this time with me. I hope you enjoyed the experience. I encourage you to share the mixtape/blog/videos with people you think would love this. Or with the people that the songs remind you of. I am honored and grateful that you chose to experience this with me.💙💙💙
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33. Cross The Globe x Lil Durk ft. Juice Wrld
I'm not sure what exactly to add to this post....let's start with the instrumental. As aforementioned in the blog post for week 23: Stand By Me x Lil Durkft. Morgan Wallen I go into my first encounters of Lil Durk and his Album "Almost Healed". I state in the post that I would tell you more about my feelings about "Cross The Globe". First off I want to say R.I.P. to Juice Wrld. I was never a huge fan, but....dude slaughtered a track on the "Into The Spider-Verse" Soundtrack. I love most of the songs on the soundtrack but Juice Wrld and Seezyn's "Hide" is f*cking catchy and has high replay value. Also, they play this song in the movie at a very vulnerable moment. Miles feels discouraged and with the song in the background.... just gives me the chills. I learned pretty quickly that Juice Wrld is really good with creating those singy/catchy hooks because he definitely killed it on Cross The Globe. So when I came across this song during my re-listening to the album, that beat swooped me up. I think, that was when I knew that this song would be the one I explain myself and the reason for the mixtape. This is also around the time I knew that there would be 33 verses instead of 32. I have mentioned Dante Alighieri's "Dante's Inferno"/The Divine Comedy throughout the project. During the writing the phase I had just picked up the inferno, or was wrapping up the inferno. Trying to incorporate some of wonderful messaging that I received. The Podcast, "Dante's Divine Comedy" by Mark Vernon was/is a major asset to understanding what the hell (hell...hahaha, get it?) you're reading. Also, I was 32 years of age approaching 33, add in the literature references and you have a few metaphors/entendres. I was very inspired by Alighieri with the whole "Cantos" ideas as chapters and seeing that each verse is a chapter of my life, whether past, present or future. I think the first lines I wrote were:
"documenting life just a novel, it is written/approaching chapter 33, 33 degrees. That's a third of the perfect work, Divine Comedy. Watch the Divine work through me..."
I really wanted to highlight the fact that this project contained a lot of honesty, alot of vulnerable moments, and shame. There are many situations that I had locked in my pen, due to fear of the judgement. As an adult I was able to knock down that barrier. I know how much I have worked on myself over the years. I know that I made a lot of mistakes, and being able to share them with others will ultimately release that shame/guilt possibly helping the listener. I struggled for years wondering what to write (due to what I just stated). I don't want to be the cheesy holier than thou emcee, I don't live street life, I don't have money to ball, and I am happily married and have two kids. Limiting myself in this way really slowed my mode of creativity. I am so grateful that I finally got to the point that I can just express my cringy past, talk about the work I do on myself, and find joy in my craft! I don't know what else to say so I am going to hop off of here. If you are reading this I want to say thank you! I appreciate your time, and attention. I hope something I say/write intrigues you, motivates you, or moves you. If no one has told you today that they love you, just know that I do, and I always will.
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"His round body padding back and forth across the keyboard, when his front paws slips and missteps and he trips. The whole of his body landing with a splat across the keyboard resulting in: 'fjhgvnulrxv' spelled out across your screen."
This section of Hamster Days: Chapter 2 made me BURST out laughing - I felt so bad yet also laughed at hamsteven's misery and misfortune. I love him always - yet schadenfreude still exists. Can't wait to see more of hamsteven's adventures and also how the fuck this happened and also how it gets resolved LOL
hahaahahaha i am so so happy it made you laugh, because trust me when @thirstworldproblemss suggested it in the DMs I burst out laughing like a hyena and immediately wrote it out, i just imagine hit liddle legs waddling and slipping and tripping cause he's not used to moving around in this body!
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Wednesday Being a tickle monster for 4 chapters straight. Look at the bottom,
Wednesday x y/n:
"Come here y/n" Wednesday said as you came closer. Every step you took was like 1 1/2 inches. Not that short. But not long either. As Wednesday saw you take your final steps she pounced on you and blew raspberries into your bellybutton at full force. (HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA) You laughed until you passed out.
Wenclair tickles:
Enid was just on her couch. Wednesday was not at her typewriter this time. She was giving her GF a mysterious & mischievous look. "What are you doing Wednesday?" Enid asked the goth girl who was already stepping closer and closer to her. "What are you doing?" "Oh you'll see" Wednesday already had the ticklish little wolf to the ground and started tickling her sides. "Wenssssssssss! Hahahahahhahaha cut it out!" Enid begged persistently for mercy but it had yet to come. Wednesday was already in her tickle monster form as Enid was just watching in terror at what she was about to do. "Please don't do it Wednesday please!" Enid begged. "Too late My Ticklish Puppy!" Wednesday said as Enid had her fate coming already. "*sighs* Enid sighed as Wednesday was already on her worst spot. " HAHAAHAHAHA WEDNESDAY NOO! HAHA HAHAHA HAHAHA IM GONNA DIE!" Enid said as Wednesday was clawing and scratching at her chest. "Ok Enid. Now are you ready to tell me where it went?" Wednesday asked. Enid pretended she didn't know what she talking about. "HAHA HA WHERE WHAT WENT? HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA" Enid said as Wednesday began to tickle harder and faster at her disobedience. "My last novel!" Wednesday said and Enid then gave out the truth. "I JUST THOUGHT HAHAHAHAHAHAHA THAT IT WAS KINDA HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH INTERESTING!! HAHAHA HAHAHA HAHA! SO I STARTED READING IT!" Enid said. Wednesday then figured where it was and found it under her pillow. After putting it back where it belonged she decided to get Enid again for lying to her.
Wednesday tickles Xavier and Eugene
"Hello Xavier, hello Eugene." Wednesday greeted them very strangely. "Remember what happened yesterday? *locks all exits and entries* Now you two can tell what it feels like." Wednesday said. The two of them tried to run but eventually got trapped by her black manicured nails and her vengeful spirit. Before the two of them could even say anything they both got tickled by her. But not just her. It was her and her vengeful spirit and her sickingly cute and effective form of tickling. They both laughed their heads off and begged for mercy. Wednesday just kept tickling them until it was time for typing.
Wednesday tickles Enid:
"Hello Enid" Wednesday greeted her with a soft tone and a light tickle on the shoulder. But one light tickle turned into a dark and hard tickle. Made her laugh on and on. But Wednesday didn't stop until she got that thing she wanted. (It was a kiss she wanted)
Should I make any of these a real FanFic? Or should a make a post where Wednesday is the one being ticklish? Or should I do both? Let me know in the comments below. But anyway thank you so much for reading and I will see you next time! Bye Bye!
Wednesday: Come dance with me Enid.
Enid: With pleasure.
I can see them coming closer.
Enid: *Hugs Wednesday*
Wednesday: ...
Enid: uhh well
Wednesday: *Kisses Enid* I love you 💖
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I read the first ten or so chapters of the only ghost that matters before deciding to wait until it's completed to finish reading. I check in on it from time to time and giggle ever time you add a chapter and increase the overall chapter count at the same time. Ha! Weren't you aiming on this being 20k? Anyway, you're adorable and a gift.
Honestly I started it with much determination to make it less than 10k okay I HAD A GOAL but then I gave up writing it and only started again when I realized my word limit was what was making me not want to finish writing it hahaahahaha.
I promise it will be over soon! I’ve written the end! Thank you, lovely nonnie, for this ask. It made me smile. <3
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15 questions , 15 people
thanks for the tag @shoot-the-puck ily bestie 💗💗 i haven’t really done a tag game like this in a minute! so here i am :-)
nickname : basically it’s g! but no one has ever given me a special nickname and if anyone would i def would cry
sign : virgo!!!
height : i’m pretty sure i’m somewhere around 5”7 to 5”8
last thing i googled : i was searching synonyms to words for my essay lmao
song stuck in my head : def would be kill bill by sza (i couldn’t stop singing that yesterday)
amount of sleep : i think around 8 hours
dream job : graphic designer for the toronto maple leafs (revolving my whole life/work around the bois AND getting paid for it?????? sign me up)
wearing : pjs! so a green oversized shirt of snoopy playing baseball and comfy plaid pants. then some cute grey reading socks <3
movies/books that summarize you : pffff i have not read enough books to name one but movie wise,,,,, i would say bridget jones diary cause bridget is me fr but without two guys fighting for me and instead just lonely, chaotic bridget.
favourite song : currently,,,, idk maybe arhbo by ozuna and gims (from the fifa soundtrack)
instrument : if you play me a dirty guitar riff or solo i will be a slut for you. but also i really wanna learn the bass cause i just love it <333333 and i have a soft spot for drums (and matt helders ily)
aesthetic : it’s really all over the place cause i’m trying to figure it out. but like maybe comfy/oversized streetwear? (clothing wise). but like overall, def homebody.
favourite author : hahaahahaha bold of you to assume i read novels. but all i can think of is rupi kaur so her!!
random fun fact : my dog is turning five in march this coming year and i just think that’s really crazy cause like ummm where did the time go?????????? i feel like i just bought him and now he’s growing up and i’m growing up and ??!!!?\£|£)(7&/!:&!-?/$:&&/
tagging : i don’t wanna bug anyone especially since i don’t really know who would be comfortable in doing this so, open to anybody <333333 feel free to tag me so i can see 🫶🏼
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have you seen all her posts about how men don't yearn or long or love women the way they used to? shes like cross posted that stuff on twitter and tiktok and insta stories. she's def right about that. also she got a job recently and i wonder if maybe money or something was a point of contention for them and thats why things are playing out the way they have been.
i definitely saw her tiktoks and insta stories, she lowkey soft launched a breakup announcement hahaahahaha
i seriously wonder about the money thing too. she did speak here and there about working part time in retail towards the end of their relationship so she might of been working casually throughout? im not too sure
ALSO i feel like a lot of what she complains about men popping pussy on the gram are just la issues. idk about you guys but no men where im from are taking fit pics or selfies on their stories lmaooooo 🤣 granted the blue collar men are also not pining like they should be though 🙄🙄🙄 that parts right
ALSO x2 did anyone else find the comment that men need to go to war incredibly insensitive given whats happening in gaza and the general global political unrest atm? like girlie we seriously could be on the brink of ww3 with international wars heating up and a presidential candidate almost getting shot likeeee the men will be going to war very soon and i dont think youre gonna want that OOP
i understand she was making a joke about traditional gender norms but maybe pick something a little less tone deaf than war rn
also x3 does anyone else think its a bit ironic that shes begging men ti be traditionalists and work and support and pine over women but then beating down on trad women all in the same breath 💀 make it make sense
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JJ and Audrey have my heart bro. Love them so much. JJ is so sweet with her. However I do like seeing him get angry and I don’t know why 😂
There's just something about JJ and the way that he gets angry that draws us in, hahaahahaha. Especially when he's angry for Audrey, the fastest way for sure!!!
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