#haha we joke but exam season is killing me!!

[twisted-tales-told]

Oh wow a terrible hole opened up inside my chest & is pulling everything in I wonder what happens next

[a-crimson-lion]

Katsuki Bakugo And Minoru Mineta Are Funny For All The Wrong Reasons

In this essay I will

No, but seriously, this is a problem. Spoilers and all that jazz. Let's start with the obvious.

Minoru Mineta

Minoru is the poster child for this topic. He's a complete scumbag, but is kept around because he's funny, when in reality he'd probably be expelled somewhere down the line.

While he does have some funny moments, there's only a small amount that don't come from his perversions, which is highly concerning.

His brand of humor isn't particularly inspired either. Let's go through some of his moments.

Hero Costumes

Minoru flashes his thumbs up when he looks at Ochako's uniform, stating that he loves the school. This is less funny and more unsettling, but it gets a pass 'cause Minoru is still relatively new to viewers.

USJ

Minoru grapples onto Tsuyu's breasts twice. He gets dunked on the first time. He gets nearly drowned the second time. We laugh... but it's not because Minoru is funny. Seriously, dark humor is one thing, but Minoru's actions are just plain creepy and borderline sexual harrassment. The fact that he nearly has to die to get us laughing doesn't help matters (he's scum, but scum should face long lasting consequences, not temporary bouts of comedic violence).

Changing Rooms

Almost forgot about this one. Minoru tries to peep on the girls. Kyoka notices and skewers his eye. We laugh. Not because Minoru's funny, but because we're suppose to enjoy his suffering. Imagine if everyone DIDN'T bash him upside the head! (There would probably be content apathy if there wasn't at least a small outcry for reprimands, to be honest.)

Obstacle Course

Minoru clasps onto Momo's gym uniform to pass the Obstacle Course, and he has a nosebleed. Momo calls him the worst. Again, relying on the fact that "Minoru sux" in order to get a laugh. That's sad.

Class Rankings

Mina says it best: guys like Minoru are only endearing when they're stupid, or something along those lines. If they're stupid, that lowkey implies that he has the potential to learn better. But Minoru already knows a lot, which os MORE unsettling than the alternative. Now, common sense doesn't equal intelligence, but the fact that Minoru is considered smart when he continually makes the stupid decision to try and get some in horrible ways is just... the worst.

Swimming Pool

Minoru and Denki collaborate on getting a view of the girls in swimsuits. (Before you bring it up, yes, Denki is also a perv character, but unlike Minoru, he actually has more going for his personality instead of just having a running gag joke define 90% of his character. And the most Denki's done on his own is attempting (and failing) to flirt with other girls.) Denki and Minoru are shocked when the rest of the boys show up, and Denki is disheartened to find that the girls are wearing school-issued swimsuits. Minoru, of course, finds the scene nice nonetheless. This is less of a "HAHA!" moment and more of a "*groan*" moment.

Hot Springs

Minoru tries to violate the girls' privacy just so he can see them naked. Luckily Kota is there to stop him. He swats Minoru off the wall, leading him to fall pathetically back to Earth. And we never speak of it again. You see a pattern with his stunts yet? Also, Tenya did not deserve what he got at the end of that scene.

Provisional License Exam

Granted, this is where Minoru is at his least perverted, but he still finds a way to be annoying. "The hierarchy is falling!" Oh gee, it's not like you had a tragic backstory and underwent actual character growth which helped you grow as a person, Minoru. You being smug is doing nothing to help your character.

Before The Interview

In the anime exclusive season premiere of Season 4, Minoru starts creepily talking about a potential female reporters breasts, before he gets restrained by Mr. Aizawa. While most of us thank him for stopping the pervert's actions, keep in mind that this is the one of the few times Mr. Aizawa ever tries to actually do anything to curb Minoru's behavior. Then again, since Horikoshi likes Minoru and Katsuki, they basically get immunity from Mr. Aizawa's actual character.

Joint Training Arc Aftermath

Sometime during the JTA, Minoru ricochets off of Mina's chest. Mina (rightfully) calls him out at this, and we're later treated to a scene with Minoru in a straightjacket with his eyes forced open while Mina keeps an eye on him. Physical punishment will do nothing to Minoru; at this rate he'll develop an immunity. What he needs are concrete consequences that will actually get him to think about not being perverted.

Izuocha Reaction

This moment is... admittedly tame. After Izuku and Ochako share a fist bump in Chapter 256, Minoru makes this weird gremlin face while asking himself what's going on. It's harmless at first... until you remember that Minoru is a shameless pervert who has a vain physical infatuation with most girls, Ochako inclued. Minoru's reaction is basically an entitled Lv. 1 gamer looking at an experienced Lv. 50 and going, "Why the hell isn't that me?"

Of course, there are other moments where Minoru is perverted, but it isn't funny, a la he hopes to see Eri again in 10 years or something like that. I've heard he's been mellowing out a bit more in recent chapters, but I'll remain cautiously optimistic for now. The fact that his main shtick is that we should despise him, and therefore laugh at his karma, is... kinda sad. That type of thing could work for a villain or a really unlikable character, but the fact that Minoru is a supporting character who we see progress with his classmates with very little growth in his character? What a waste... Moving on, then.

Katsuki Bakugo

Ah, King Explosion Murder. Most of you will know how I despise him. And unfortunately, part of the reason is similar to why I don't like Minoru:

His AnGeRy BoI tantrums get old really quick. Let me explain.

Catchphrases

"DIE!" "I'LL KILL YOU!" "EXTRA!" If you've been paying attention to Katsuki, he says these things s lot. He's been letting go of "extra" recently, but he'll still spew the first two comments without hesitation. He probably doesn't mean it literally, but that doesn't warrant his excessive aggression. It's one of the worst character traits I've seen in a while to be honest, and it's heavily concerning that a 15 (now 16) year-old has this kind of mindset. The fact that it's played for laughs ("DIE!" or "GO TO HELL!" while Izuku states deadpan off to the side) isn't any more assuring.

Gremlin Face

Katsuki will do this for a multitude of reasons. His base appearance treads a fine line between pretty boy and disgruntled madman, but when Katsuki gets more pissed then usual, he goes full gremlin. The faces are somewhat funny out of context, but they're kind of petty in context.

Bus Ride

The kids call out Katsuki on the bus ride to the USJ. This is basically a way to tell the readers that Katsuki isn't much of a big shot anymore, but the fact that it ultimately holds no water later down the line is... disappointing. Within several chapters, people will be flocking to him, regardless of his garbage personality.

Eijiro's Analysis

Eijiro brings up how Katsuki should be all "DIE! DIE! DIE!" while they're fighting villains, to which Katsuki ironically responds in kind. It's a "Bakugo sux LOL" moment, but the fact that this is how likely most students see him and they STILL flock to him is just... wut? Plus, Eijiro was originally skeptical of Katsuki after the Battle Trial, and his sudden support of Katsuki here is... half-heartedly executed. And while Katsuki has shown that he treasures the relationship he has with Eijiro to a degree, it's pretty clear that Eijiro holds it in a much higher regard.

Less Than The Best

Gremlin face returns when Katsuki gets 3rd (and therefore not 1st) in the Sports Festival's Obstacle Course. Katsuki screams when he gets 2nd (and therefore not 1st) in the Cavalry Battle. It's "funny" now, but I fear for the day when this guy has to regularly do interviews and doesn't get the Number One Hero spot for the first few months (if he ever gets it at all).

Sore Winner

This is probably the one joke I can say is the least funny. Everybody remembers the whole Katsuki in bindings and acting like an animal bit, right? Yeah, no one is sane in this universe... And even if Katsuki's desire to reject the first place medal is understandable, he isn't exactly cordial about the whole thing (I mean, I'd be miffed if someone had be bound like that, but I doubt more growling is gonna get him out... the teachers need help). And then we still see him with the medal in his mouth sometime later, and Gremlin face show up when the class is talking internships. Where's the therapist again?

Teeth

Katsuki telling the germs in his mouth to die as he's brushing his teeth. It's only funny because of the absurdity of the notion. In reality, telling microscopic organisms to straight up die in such a threatening manner is hella concerning. See "Catchphrases" for why I still don't think this is okay.

Knife

One of the more tame jokes. Katsuki's good with knives, Ochako brings it up, Katsuki is offended. Honestly, I'd prefer more of this type of humor compared to... whatever Katsuki's doing right now.

I'll Kill Him

It's an exam, Katsuki, AN EXAM! This moment during the Provisional License Exam is only funny for a moment, because when you think about it, the purple dude has a point (even if he's still a stuck-up elitist) and Katsuki would have failed if Eijiro and Denki didn't follow after him. Still, does he think he can get away with saying he'll kill villains in the actual Hero world? Good gravy...

Stop Being Nice

This is a trend we've seen post-Deku vs. Kacchan 2. Izuku complements Katsuki or makes a remark about him. Katsuki proceeds to tell him to back off in some or fashion. If it's his winter costume, Katsuki will chew the speech bubble. He'll reflexively tell Izuku to get out of his way. When Izuku mentions Katsuki's technique, Katsuki will tell Izuku to stay away from him. I know some of Izuku's habits are borderline-stalking, but he's not being overtly creepy. And in a narrative where Izuku and Katsuki are supposed to be "good friends," this does a poor job of showing it.

Ninja Star

Katsuki looses his temper when Izuku brings up Blackwhip, and throws one of his head pieces at Izuku like a ninja star. Izuku gets injured, but the entire thing is played off like a nice joke. Except it isn't. Izuku wasn't about to spill anything about OFA when he talked about Black Whip; Katsuki's just stupidly jealous and annoyed when anyone like Izuku talks for too long about their achievements. It's basically telling readers that Izuku's gonna get shoved around for having pride in himself. That sucks...

I Win

The latest incarnation of Gremlin face, and Katsuki's stupid winner's complex in general. I've already talked about it in this post, but Katsuki's assertions in Chapter 257 were highly immature and disrespectful. All Might tells the boys about the OFA users and their short lives, how they weren't chosen ones but were still entrusted with the Quirk, hoping to pass it on and hoping to beat AFO. What does Katsuki say about them? They had lame Quirks; they were a bunch of nobodies. He goes out of his way to tell Izuku he'll lag behind while mastering the next Quirk while Katsuki ensures his victory. All if that "character development" and he still pulls stuff like this. How do I put this?

A few steps forward followed by long periods of regression is not character development, that's bad writing.

Katsuki's seemingly humorous outbursts would be terrifying in the real world. He's got serious issues and he needs help. His anger is no laughing matter. It'll hurt him, or rather, continue to hurt him. It's already hurt other people, and continues to do so.

TL;DR Katsuki and Minoru's one note humor is damaging to the narrative and to their characters, and unless it's properly addressed, it will continue to do so. Thank you for your time.

-Crimson Lion (19 January 2020)

[mintlystudyz]

tips for exams?

i am… not the best person to ask for that, but I’ll just tell you my usual routine when its ~exams season~

1. I usually try to study when it’s least a month before exams. Not like, all out study, I just try to finish all my review materials; which take a while to finish. I make a list of the subjects and arrange them by my prioritization. World History is usually the top of my list.

But then..I’m not always able to keep this up because of projects that cram two weeks before exams, so I make it a point to remind myself not to slack off because boi..I can the aftereffects flashing before my eyes.

This is just me though, if it’s your style to study like the day before, do it. But remember that time management and prioritization is key.

2. Take breaks when you need it too, because your brain needs a rest and it’s not gonna cooperate when you’ve literally been studying 2 hours straight. Don’t do that.

3. Ask help. From your teacher, ridiculously smart classmate, your dog(?). Ask for help when you can’t comprehend your lesson. You might not be able to grasp it immediately, but at least the road to understanding the concept is much more clearer now. I called my friend for help and she taught me the whole lesson. (sometimes vice versa haha)

4. Memorize what you think you need to memorize. Understand concepts.

Sometimes you’ll need to memorize everything,sometimes you won’t. When I’m studying for longer tests, I memorize but understand/comprehend as well. Most the time, I can’t really retain info if I just memorize. Comprehension makes me more confident about my knowledge about a topic. My history teacher actually just recently told us that during tests, he wants to know how much we have understood about the lesson. Meaning, questions won’t be easy as “Who killed Napoleon’s dog?” or something. Comprehension+Memorization really works for me but then…you do you. Memorize the whole textbook(you are my idol).

5. Calm Down before the test. Put those reviewers down 5 minutes before you start and contemplate..Joke. I mean, don’t overload your brain before the test. That’s a bad idea. Relax. You’ll be able to think better. Also,,don’t sleep late before the test.

Thats it omg.

[teenwolfratings]

It’s Teen Wolf Rewatch Time

Rewatching Teen Wolf, Season 1, Episode 4. Here we go…

(this episode took forever to get through. Mostly because my brain was all over the place)

¤   Kate. I think I would have liked her better if she had remained dead at the end of the season. Not like like, but more "oh yeah, Kate, villain of season 1. I hated her, haha! Thank god she's dead."  

Oh yeah, Now I hate her like that annoying mosquito you can hear around your head when you're trying to sleep, just DIE ALREADY YOU STUPID BLOODSUCKER, LEAVE ME IN PEACE!

¤   Once again Stiles is asking the relevant questions, like if Derek isn't the Alpha, who is? If Derek didn't bite Scott, who did? Scott doesn't want to hear it, or even think about it, and tells Stiles to stop with the questions.

Like, dude, I know it's overwhelming, but not dealing with it will only make it worse.

¤   Getting their exams back. Looks like someone's good at school!

And someone else, not so much.  

Probably to illustrate how much Scott's been distracted by werewolf life, and how it's affecting his regular life in a bad way. The stress of trying to ignore what's constantly in your face is taking its toll.

But then, Stiles is Scott's best friend. He doesn’t have to deal with it on his own. If it feels like too much, just ask Stiles to look into it and he will! Give him a focus and he'll commit to-. Wait, he does that anyway, doesn't he? Scott's lucky Stiles is his friend. This story would have ended very badly otherwise. He would have killed someone (Allison?) in ep 1, and then been killed himself by Mr. Argent.

I wonder what had happened to Derek? And how would Stiles and Derek have met? Would Stiles be trying to solve the case, because "things don't add up, dad!". And while out looking for clues, by himself, because his dad does not agree with him, he runs into Derek, who is also out investigating, trying to find the Alpha. *brain happily frolics away into new sterek AU territory*

¤   I have this feeling that Scott is used to getting a bit annoyed/exasperated with Stiles at the regular. He's mostly really patient with Stiles (probably way more than anyone else has ever been with him), but it only goes so far, then he snaps. Especially when Stiles keeps going and going, like his brain is in it to a 120% and won't let go, while Scott's already dropped it, yesterday, and don't want to hear it and "god, Stiles, just shut up?! Stop, please?" (quotation from my brain, not the show)

¤   My poor Derek

And Jackson got a claw to his neck.

I'm blanking on the significance of that.

¤   It hurts me.

Scott: "Why would I help you?!"

Derek: "Because you need me."

Scott: "Fine. I'll try."

I find it so tragic that he has absolutely no one to help him, so he has to go to Scott, and although he's dying, he still has to persuade Scott to help him, with the "you need me" argument. It's all the value he (and Scott) think he's got. *sobs*

¤   So here is the first person who actually helps Derek, even though he doesn't need him.

Now, Stiles has a big mouth that can say... a lot of shit. Especially when he's stressed, worried or scared. Covers it up with jokes and morbid humour. Stiles says a lot, but it is what he does that tells us way more about who he really is. Where he really stands.

Stiles sticks by Derek's side through all of it, till he's healed again. He's even ready to cut his arm of if it will save Derek's life. So I'm thinking this is why Derek goes to Stiles instead of Scott later on, when he needs to hide from the law. Stiles, whose father is the Sheriff. It doesn't make sense, unless it's because he knows that Stiles is more likely to help him than Scott. Stiles has shown him, through his actions, that he will help Derek if he can.

¤   And then there's Scott. They're on the phone.

Derek: "If you don't find it [the bullet], then I'm dead, all right?"

Scott: "I'm starting to think that wouldn't be such a bad thing."

Derek: "Then think about this. The Alpha called you out against your will. He's gonna do it again. Next time, you either kill with him or you get killed. So if you want to stay alive, then you need me. Find the bullet."

Derek is definitely getting better at knowing how to get Scott to do what he tells him to do. Reminding Scott that the Alpha can control him against his will? Now that's how you do it.

And yes, we get it. Their relationship is built on the fact that Scott needs Derek to survive. That's it, nothing else. Got it.  

It has me wondering though, at this stage (season 1) in their relationship, would Scott have been willing to kill Derek, if that was what would turn him human again?  If someone, say Deaton, had told him that "there is one way. According to a myth, you can become human again, if, as sacrifice, you kill the werewolf who first interacts with you after your transformation (or some nonsense like that)".  

Because I think he would. If it would "fix him"? He's never liked Derek anyway, maybe because his brain already knew, somehow, that Derek's a bad person? I can see Scott going all in to convince everyone, including himself, that Derek's a bad guy, so it would be the right thing to do. In the end it would mean one less bad guy in the world, and what's wrong with that?  

Oh, but how would Stiles react to this? *brain giggling like a five year old, twirls away into, yet another, sterek extravaganza!*  

¤   I call foul play! This is how it looks when Scott translates something from French to English

But when I try to translate stuff NOTHING MAKES SENSE.

¤   Oh Derek. "Because I'm gonna die without it." He's said it like five times by now! Why do people still look surprised. Lol! We do get a zoom in close up of Stiles worried face, so that makes up for it.

¤   Oh, the condom scene! Do you remember? Kate accuses Scott of going through her bags, being a thief, and then Allison's all like "twas I who stole from you" and pulls out the condom she took. Love it!

Wait, they changed the music? I swear I remember the song, sorta, that played because the tune/melody of it enhanced the scene? (goes off to look stuff up)

The original song: "The Wolf" by Miniature Tigers

On the DVD: "Find a Way" by Above Envy

I HATE when they do this. It's one of my pet peeves. I bought both seasons of LIFE (with Damian Lewis and Sarah Shahi) mainly because I loved how they had used music gorgeously in the scenes, and the director(?) had talked about how important the music was for the show and how a lot of thought went into picking the music. Guess what. They had changed EVERY. SINGLE. SONG. I got so upset I almost (ha! I totally did) cry, and I went down to my storage unit where I threw them into a dark corner never to be seen again. So mad! Anyway. Moving swiftly along.

¤   What.

Scott: "Okay, we saved your life, which means you're gonna leave us alone. You got that?"

Let me interrupt you right there, Scott, because we just went over this. You keep him around because you need him, remember? That's why you agreed to get the bullet in the first place. Or did you mean "if we need help, fine, but if YOU need help, even if is to stop you from dying, don't turn to us". I'm feeling the love. I really do.

Scott: "And if you don't, I'm gonna go back to Allison's dad and I'm gonna tell him everything."

Pretty sure he already knows. Also, everything? Like, that you're a werewolf? A werewolf who's dating his daughter?

Derek: "You gonna trust them? You think they can help you?"

Scott: "Why not? They're a lot freaking nicer than you are!"

Scott trusts the Argents more than Derek, after that dinner? Did I miss something, or is this just more of Scott being in denial? (Goes back to watch the frickin' dinner scene again.)

¤   Scott must have the biggest dissociation with the fact that he’s a werewolf. He still hasn't accepted it, and can therefore still view werewolves as the enemy. Probably why he connects with Mr. Argent somehow, but then don't seem to realise that as soon as the Argents finds out he's a werewolf he’ll become their enemy. The disconnect people.

¤   And it just keeps happening! Conversation in front of Peter.

Scott: "Is he like you, a werewolf?"

So "like you" not "like us". And then:

Derek: "Six years ago, my sister and I were at school. Our house caught fire. Eleven people were trapped inside. He was the only survivor."

Scott: "So, what makes you so sure that they set the fire?"

Derek: "'Cause they're the only ones that knew about us."

Scott: "Then, they had a reason."

Derek: "Like what? You tell me what justifies this. "

You have a lead character, who is supposed to be the good guy, the guy we root for, who's first reaction to finding out eleven people were murdered goes "the murderers must have had a reason". What?  

Now if he grew out of this attitude, of always trying to fit reality into his own biased narrative (even when it makes him seem like a horrible person from outside his narrative, which is the point-of-view a lot of viewers will have, with dialogue like this in the show) then okay. But he doesn't. And from the feedback I've gotten from my rewatch, it doesn't change in later seasons either. Why give your lead character this flawed trait if you are not going to fix it by having him grow out of it? I just don't get it.  

¤  Derek explaining how hunters apply their code...

Derek: "They say they'll only kill an adult and only with absolute proof. But there were people in my family that were perfectly ordinary in that fire. This is what they do."

… a couple of scenes later the Argents are discussing how they're going to hunt down the Alpha and its pack. How great would it have been if these scenes came one after the other? From Derek's emotional world filled with hurt and injustice, to the Argents cool headed and detached planning on how to kill them. It would have been pretty great, I tell you.

¤   I'm loving how overt the signs are of who set the fire.

They also make it super clear that Chris follows the code, Kate doesn't.

The show's telling us stuff so we can be part of the journey, and then we can feel gratification when what we know proves itself in how the story plays out.

Engaging the audience, even the casual viewer, in this way. When did they stop doing that? From what I've seen, nonsensical clues that don't lead to much is the thing now, which means that sense of satisfaction won't be there, because things don't add up in the end.

Well that's it folks. I knew there would be a lot of sterek moments in this episode, and was looking forward to those, but the Scott-Derek stuff got my attention and dragged my mood down. Now I'm all gloomy. Blah. Let me make some screencaps of Stiles and Derek to cheer myself up.

and let’s end with the classic “hey, they’re almost the same height!” shot

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[horrible-monstrosity]

Hero no Macademia Nuts, season fucking two let's get the fuck on with this shit

1 This recap makes me remember questions I didn't bother to ask earlier. So after the first magic baby was born, reports of quirks "popped up" apparently in grown people... but nowadays quirks pop up neither in infancy nor adulthood, but most in kids around 4, and if you're significantly past that there's little chance you'll gain a quirk in adulthood. Bitch, what? Plus it's been shown/implied that quirks are genetic, which doesn't make much sense with that origin story either unless glowbaby bathed the entire Earth in mutation-inducing radiation. and the narration randomly spews some shit about collective consciousness. karl jung maeda would be twirling in his grave if he heard this shit

this cold open fight betta deliver good

"he may not have had a plan when he acted" he did have a plan. throw things. it was a page of his notebook remmeber so who did al mite write this letter to, and how do they feel about him having had his stomach surgically removed or whatever? tell me how heroic sacrifices affect the people around them. tell me how your bland, blind ideals fall apart once they're subjected to just a bit of scrutiny

We're told handsy is a "spoiled brat manchild who was never told no" to make us immediately hate him (show don't tell would be spinning in its grave if it saw this shit) but that really just makes me ask questions. Like... why is he this way? We're told he bad because he treated birdbrains like a "pet", but for all we've seen... Birdsy is just a brainless (haha) monster that can't even speak, what was created to fufill a certain purpose. How the hell else is he supposed to treat the thing? Nobody is like this for absolutely no reason, but MHA wants us to hate on an empty homunculi with no origin because they said he was horrible. or maybe it's so terrible I just want to be contrary. - and then the principal calls his students manchildren by proxy lol ok

school was closed after the attack... which happened on like the second day of school. the kids only got like two, three days of class before the school got fucking shut down lol apparently for only one day too as far as we saw. absolute kek

"uh, I'm sorry but why not (cancel it)? it's just a sports festival..." Grapes-kun's quirk might be his grapes but his true superpower is being fuckin reasonable apparently this fucking school's sports festival is bigger than the olympics or some shit. it's the fourth day of class and already the kids' future careers are on the line.

earplugs girl is still shitting on electric guy and I still hate her. meanwhile floatzel loses her shit and goes out of character because nothing matters - construction company hasn't gotten work in this society where superfights destroy buildings. how - floatdad basically ruined her by telling her to focus on her own dream. becoming rich by joining a top-level agency is so much harder than her just helping the construction company with her powers. And it still doesn't make much sense, because if she was hyped up over catching an agency's attention she should be more hyped up over training exercises since getting an agency to notice her is worthless if she's not good enough to interest them.

And then we get another one of those things that just seems *weird* to me but I just can't put my finger on why- AM decides that the reason punching birdman didn't break Beku's arm is because... his body subconciously put the brakes on to keep him from killing a bitch. Which... oh man, what? First off-  the implication is that Beku fucking threw down to kill. Which... is actually reasonable, since he's facing an inhuman monster that's trying to kill other people, which makes the fact that he supposedly stopped himself from killing questionable, but on the other hand we're talking about some kid fucking trying to kill a bitch. And then there's the weird implication that what stopped him from killing wasn't morals but an inherent reflex, and without it birdbrains would be a fucking red mist. Not because Beku thought for himself that killing was wrong... because his heroic body just auto-decides that for him. He never has to worry about the morality of a situation, just throw punches and don't think about it. I- I don't fucking know, it's just... fucking weird. And then AM calls this "some kind of progress" because he's made absolutely no other kind of progress except... this.

oh look, we get the designated gril ed credits right off the bat. sell that waifu merch

2 Beku is entirely right. The sports festival is useless for Beku right now, both as a chance to sell himself and as a way to fix his problems with his powers. He needs actual focused training if anything, not random skirmishes, and there's no point in trying to show off when he can barely do anything. But it's being sold to us that because he had the heroic passions once he needs to be as retarded as possible, just charge ahead with whatever's presented to him never thinking of how to get the most out of his time. Hell, he'd probably get more out of skipping the festival entirely and just meditating in a cave somewhere instead. This is just... indescribably dumb. Besides, with all the villains gunning for AM just because of his status, it'd be way better for him to keep his civilian identity a secret... which means showing off as a student is pointless.

have we ever even heard of the other courses before? and this just makes things even more contrived, that the one class that was already despised for ~spotlight camping is the one that got targeted by real villains and survived unscathed because plot armor so now everyone else just happens to hate them even more. What was the point of this? Like, it's a competition, but you need to make the entire rest of the school even more competitive against specifically this class because... why? It's just so cheap. it's not the hero course it's just the main character course

We skim over even more month because it's either the most clusterfuck of a single day possible or absolutely nothing. "a bunch of villains did just break in"- just? I thought they just skipped over months of training.

... why aren't they using their costumes now?

icyhot randomly shows up to bitch and dickmeasure at beku about how he's totally going to win... just why? this is such a cheap and empty way to attempt to raise the stakes and drama. why did he even single out Beku? Everyone still thinks he's kind of shit. Hell, why is Icyhot the only one making declarations like this?

baguko gets up on stage and does exactly what he usually does, acts like an overblown asshole, but Beku tells us it means his character's changed. if you have to explain it to us then it means you've failed. The way Bakugo acts here tells us just about nothing, it's just more of the same shit we've gotten so far from a character I sure fucking don't really care about but his samey bullshit is still being shoved down my throat. It's boring.

oh look only the students we know whose powers we know get ahead. we already know their powers, so this is boring. no one else matters. nothing matters. at least grapes-kun gets to show off. Like, no, really, I've been wanting to see him do some shit for a while now. In the entrance exam (or the test they did on the first day of class? whatever)- I don't remember where he ranked, but he was at least above Midoriya, who had just his normal strength and the one finger blast to rely on. (probably second last lol) And his powers, while useful for... some things, couldn't have helped all that much. So he must have some kind of physical prowress to have made it in this school. Which makes him interesting, that this dopey little joke character is at least presumably competent. And in the landmine race he's shown being both somewhat physically adept as well as quite cunning. oh look, it's "the zero-point robots from the entrance exams" !!! man, remember that? check out them recycled cels and reused models, we don't need to design a new thing ha ha hwt the fuc beku mom is just watching the festival and crying because she thinks her son is going to fucking die. what the fuc did she think was happening at the school this entire time?

- the preview has bakugo acting like a psycho asshole again and contradicitng what beku said before so that's not even legit apparently. ha ha what's character growth and things happening

[nuttmegg]

This is Jeremy, This is also me feeling it. I promised my friends that I wouldn’t hold it in, I wouldn’t pretend i wasn’t hurting and that I would let my heart feel it. So this is me, trying to feel it. The way I do that is through writing. I guess right now is the perfect time too, I’m vulnerable. My friends who know me, know that “feelings” aren’t my strong suit. It’s currently 3am and Im just getting home. I went out for a drink with friends and instead of going straight home I drove to my grandpa’s ranch(he doesn’t own it anymore so technically I was trespassing). I sat on the hood of the car and just watched the stars and I cried my fucking eyes out. Not just for Jeremy but for literally everything that is overwhelming me. But more about that later in another post. 

So I met Jeremy on tinder, Go figure right?! I honestly found him so extremely handsome, and thought I was being catfished so I put off meeting him for probably a whole month, lol. When I did finally decide to meet up with him, it was spur of the moment too. I was about to start my fantasy football draft, but something told me to go. So I told my cousins I was auto-drafting because date was greater then draft, haha. I meet him at the beach and we walked and talked for a good two/three hours, the sun went down on us and he kissed me on the beach. I was a good first date, we had a lot in common, football, sarcasm, etc, He even helped me finish my fantasy draft, and then got mad at my for avoiding him for so long. He told me how he was desperately looking for another person in his league and I would have been a perfect addition. “A cute girl, who can talk shit and knows football, you would’ve been perfect.” So after that football was our thing, we made a couple bets on the season and swore we would hang out once a week to set lineups, watch football or just talk shit on each others teams. And we did, maybe not every week, but we did manage to talk FF lineups and strategy every week.

We hung out a couple times in public but he was always so worried about his ex seeing him that it just complicated. I think I always kept him at a distance because I knew he wasn’t over her, and I didn’t want to be anyones rebound. I already told the story about how he ran around my apartment pretending he was getting ready for a fight, that night I watched Superbad with him, it was the first time I ever watched that movie. He gave me so much shit for it too. After that, any time he wanted to hang out he would text me “super bad and chill?” It was a joke between us, because i would sent it to him on occasion, I pretty sure we both knew what we were to each other. But we’re people with feelings as much as we tried to hide them, every time we would hang out he would stay longer, he would talk more, or when I would get up to leave he’d pull me back to him or tell me to spend the night. I only did once, that night I woke up to him wrapped around me. Mind you, he was 6′3″ and I’m 5′2″ he was literally suffocating me lol. I remember trying to be so quiet about leaving but I woke him up anyway, he told me as i was leaving “Stay with me kid, just once, don’t go to school.”  I think that was the same night he asked me if i loved him. I think that was when I started pulling away from him too. I begin seeing him less and less. That obviously didn’t stop him from bugging me constantly to hang out.(as per the snaps above) 

I got a text or snap from him pretty much every day. Even when I was in Vegas he bugged me. Thats the “you’re in love with me” snap. I remember being super drunk and responding with “you wish,” and he wrote back in a text saying “just you wait kid, you’re gonna fall in love with me.” I didn’t write back to that. I remember why too. I think after Vegas I saw him once, we went out for coffee and he told me how his ex was spreading rumors about him again. He talked to me about how he didn’t know where he wanted to move to but he wanted to leave, he even joked about following me to LA when I leave in December…”I’ll be your roommate kid, It’ll be great” ha. He seemed so lost that time I saw him, lost and heart broken. I didn’t know what to do, when we left I remember his hug hurt. It was one of those vulnerable hugs that last a long time and you can just feel it. That was the last time I kissed him. 

A couple days later The Hipster asked me to be exclusive, oh have i not mentioned that yet? The Hipster and I are exclusive! The last time I saw Jeremy was the day I was suppose to go to the Halsey concert. I didn’t go because I had been studying for exam and was on like 3 hrs of sleep, so I didn’t want to  to drive to Oakland by myself(its a 5-ish-hour drive). I walked with my lab partner to his house to hang out for a bit. I knocked out in his room, while my lab partner and him hung out. I woke up to Jeremy and Prince(his dog) making a bunch of noise. He was so sweet, “you knocked out kid! want dinner?” We ate dinner and I told him about the Hipster. He looked a little sad but sat across the table from me and asked me questions about him. He was teased me a little, tried joking about still “hanging out” even used air quotes too. Then took it back and said, “Nah Kid if you’re happy I wont fuck it up.” That was night I took my friends dog for a run, because he(my friend) was in a study group and Duke(the dog) was being an ass. lol. After my run I asked Jeremy if he could give me a ride home cause I was beat and my friend was still in class. 

He pulled his TC to the back of my apartment complex and when I was about to get out of the car he pulled me back in and hugged me. Again it was one of those hugs that you feel, like your soul hurts. He kissed my cheek and said “stick around kid? I want you to be happy, but we get along. Lets stay friends yeah?” I looked him straight in the eyes(something told to look him straight in the eyes), i didn’t realize then that was the last time i was going to see his green eyes and said “promise, promise.” I meant it too, I would’ve stayed his friend, we had even talked about being gym buddies. 

The next night I slept at the Hipsters and I woke up at like 2am from a text from Jeremy saying “wake up!” I didn’t respond cause I was with The Hipster and it was 2am! Not going to lie I was a little annoyed with him, I honestly thought i was a booty text. The next day in class I wrote back to him telling him that no one is up that late, he told me i should have been. I asked him what was up and he said he couldn’t sleep and just wanted someone to talk to. Then he asked me if I wanted to go on a hike………..I couldn’t I was in class. 

That was the day he…oh fuck I cant even type it….that was the day. He fucking went hiking and slipped off a 60ft cliff, survived the fall only to get swept away by the god damn ocean. They still haven’t found his body. Fuck this I am mess……if this is what feeling it is suppose to be. I don’t want to feel it. I could have been there!! Everyone keeps telling me that I cant blame myself, and I don’t but what if!! Im afraid of heights, i wouldn’t have let him climb up there, I wouldn’t have let him get so close to the edge. I could’ve convinced him to go to a different beach. And people keep throwing the word suicide around still, that he did it on purpose. What if me telling him about The Hipster was the straw that did it. I knew he was lost, I could tell, but I just thought he was lost becasue he was still a little heartbroken. 

And you what kills me even more! The fucking guilt I feel for grieving! Like you have no idea how stupid happy the Hipster makes me! I care about him so much, way more then I ever thought I was going to. I’ve been away from him for 5 days now and it hurts because I just want to be around him! I want to lay next to him, I want to study while he draws. I want to hold him and just breath in the mixture of smells, smoke and coffee. But how?? How am I suppose to grieve over another lover when, for lack of a better word, my boyfriend is laying next to me?? Some one please explain to me how I’m not suppose to feel guilty about that!!!!! Like Jeremy and I were never going to be a thing, The Hipster was always going to be the better man for me, but I still cared about Jeremy. He was right when he said we got along, we did. I just don’t know how to grieve without feeling so guilty. I don’t want to hurt the Hipster with my grief. Jeremy was someone I talked to almost daily, theres a void there now. That void hurts. 

I know its going to hurt for a while, but since Im home Im gonna let it hurt me. Because Night Hawk was right, I don’t want to hold it in and then have it come crashing down on me during finals. The one thing I keep wishing for is, I hope they find him. I have this spiritual connection with the Ocean, and I just cant feel the same way about it when it still has him. Just give him up, his family needs him. Everyone keeps telling me that I shouldn’t feel guilty about grieving with The Hipster around, that Jeremy would’ve wanted me to be happy. I know this, he told me himself the last time I saw him. I think the only person who can ease my guilt is The Hipster, and I’m never gonna tell him so I just let time heal that wound too. 

Oh so the pictures, the first one is a cropped picture of him after practice or something. Its one of the first pictures he sent me.  The second one is this one I found on his FB, and I think its perfect, it shows his silly nature. The 3rd is another one he sent me when we first started talking(he sent me a bunch but the rest are not really appropriate so those stay off the interwebs, not gonna lie I’m probably gonna delete them) Its also his contact photo lol. The last one is of course the save msg on snap. The 1st msg is him being hella aggressive becasue I kept turning him down. I have pictures of the rest of the things he sent me, he was actually being funny about it, said he would develop a stutter if i kept avoiding him lol. I already told you the “youre in love with me” story. And the last one had me rolling laughing when he sent that to me!! He had sent me a picture of him totally scene kid from HS right after that. I couldnt help but laugh. Thats the kind of friendship we would’ve had, more nonsense of that sort. 

So This is my story about Jeremy. This is also my way of grieving. 

This was Jeremy 

[docandprof]

Can I Just Sleep Now?

How you doin’ ;)

SO yeah this has been a SUPER busy week, hence the late post (again). I think I have a bit to talk about? But we shall see how it all plays out as I delve deep into the depths of my oh so dark soul...haha nah let’s keep it light here. As a note to start this post out, I feel very businessman-like as I sit here in the midst of my flight from Knoxville to Newark, sitting in my window seat as time and countless unknown lives take their course miles below me. I am also listening to some good old Hamilton, but I digress (which is all we ever do) so let’s go, shall we?

Last week may have been one of the worst, yet fun, yet college life, yet emotional weeks in a long while. As you know, last week was midterms and I had 3 exams, and 2 full papers due; one major grade for every day, no joke. On top of that, I was cramming/studying every waking moment that I wasn't sleeping or in class. I probably averaged around 4 hours of sleep a night (nothing compared to our wild DJ). I feel like things went pretty well, as well as I could hope. I must admit, I feel bad about my English paper. I know I will get a pretty good grade, hopefully a solid A, but I know that I could have done much better on it. I didn't even get to send it to you because I was busy studying for everything else, leaving no time to write/finish that paper. I turned it in like 4 minutes before the due date on Friday. The only good thing is that I have one opportunity to this semester to do a rewrite on a paper, so if I don't get the grade I want on it, I will probably refine it. So yeah, moral of the story, study early and often so that you have time to do the crappy homework assignments professors still give you during midterm week.

Now for the good things I have experienced since my last post. One of my friends here (I would consider him one of my closest friends here) got a visit from his girlfriend from back home over the weekend. She was really cool and even though one would think that they would want to spend their time alone, they were really cool with hanging out with all of us. But the thing I want to tell you about is this AMAZING burger place that I will take you too someday. Write this down and never forget it, it is called Burger Republic. You are going to LOVE this place. MILKSHAKES, BURGERS, AND TATER TOTS OH MY!!!!!

Later this week, some friends and I created a fantasy baseball group and drafted our teams. I know you could care less, but there are stakes to this one. One of our friends has no idea what he is doing and knows nothing about baseball, so to get him to play with us, we made a bet with him. Now when I say “we” I mean myself and another friend who is as much into baseball as I am, so we know our stuff. Now the bet is that if our friend beats me at the end of the season, he gets to shave my head, and you know how big of a deal that is for me! And for my other baseball friend, if he loses, then our “dumb” friend gets to put any tattoo of his choice on the other guy’s body, in any spot! The only stipulations are that there cannot be any profanity and it must be clean enough for his mom to be able to see it and not be offended. Now you have to admit this is gonna be pretty fun to watch!!!

“I come back with more guns and ships...and so the balance shifts...” <------ the Hamilton quote that was just sung. Just thought you would like to know.

Back to the week! I have created and installed a few new Olympic events. Well really some events for the nonexistent Olympic games back at school amongst my friends. They are the Eraser Toss (gotta make a whiteboard eraser onto the whiteboard ledge, super hard but I am surprisingly good at it), the Shoe Toss (fling your shoe off your foot and into the garbage can from across the room), Footsie Marker (this one would kill you bud, let me explain. The competitor places a dry erase marker in-between his/her toes and then kicks his/her leg up as high as it can and make a mark on the whiteboard. I almost broke my toes when I tried to jump/flip and get a really high mark. I fell straight on my back and it was really fun), and now my personal favorite....THE TABLE LUGE!!!! (It stems from a mini game a friend and I were doing which involves an industrial sized Purell bottle and pump and trying to see who can squirt it the farthest. The Purell got all over the table, so we flipped in over and rubbed the top all over the carpeted ground to clean it, but I discovered that these tables glide very well over carpet, so I made a suggestion. The goal is to see who can ride the table the  farthest after pushing it a certain distance and then hoping on as you ride to glory and fame). As you can see, things get pretty idiotic at school as we try to entertain ourselves.

And now onto my final news of the week. IT’S SPRINGBREAK TIME!!!! So I just spent this weekend in Gatlinburg/Pigeon Forge/the Smokie Mountains with friends. One of my friends lives here so we crashed at her house Friday night after driving like 4 hours. Fun fact: her family owns a hotel...Suite Life of Zach and Cody am I right?! Funner fact: she has a pet bunny named TRIXIE!! Man I miss that smelly old dog. But I did something you will be supremely jealous of on Saturday. I went hiking in the Smokie Mountains and I got some great pics, but man did my buns burn! (Yeah, buns and thighs.) It was gorgeous and I wish you could've been there with me. Maybe the most beautiful sight I have ever seen. We hiked to this lookout called Charlie’s Bunion. Then we got hibachi and checked into our AirBnB place. If you ever wanna travel somewhere but don't wanna stay in a hotel, check out AirBnB. 10/10 would recommend. All this while, I have still gotten all but like 3-4 hours of sleep on pull out beds and giant bean bags and recliner chairs.

Hamilton update: “Thomas Jefferson’s coming hoooooome!!! Lord he’s been off in Paris for so long...”

I am super pumped to just hang out on the beach and read some MacBeth again for my writing class (miss having English class together). But more so, I am glad I get to see my parents again. On another note, I just wanna say how proud I am of you and how happy I am for you. Nothing makes me happier than knowing my best friend is growing in his relationship with God. It isn't something that we talk a lot about in our friend group back home, but it makes me happy to see people who can understand another level of me and what I grew up in. Some day I would love to pick your brain about it all. But in the meanwhile, keep it up and know you are always in my prayers.

Now to answer your question, “what do I look forward to in life?” That is simple, family. When I say family, that includes more than my blood family, it includes you and Lysssssss and your families. I look forward to having an amazing wife that is way better of a person than I am and someone who deservedly can be called my better half. I look forward to seeing my kids run around, figuring out life and who they are, what interests them, and just watching them grow. I look forward to living by my best friends and seeing how we all go on vacations together and are kids develop relationships like we have, although I think what we have is special and REALLY weird. I look forward to bringing my kids to my parents house where I grew up and complaining to my mom about how much she spoils my kids and seeing my dad turn from my dad into grandpa, or pappy, or papa for my kids. I look forward to seeing my brother get married and start his family. Gosh I'm starting to cry as I type this. The person next to me must be wondering what is going on with me ahaha. So yeah, that’s what I look forward to in life.

Hamilton update: “Lord, show me how to say no to this....” love this song even though it is so sad.

Question and recommendation time!!! Let’s see what I got this week, if you could do anything with any superhero, what would it be and who would be your superhero? Recommendation for the week, go out and lose yourself in nature. It really hurts physically, but feels amazing and you get to see the fruits of your labor (haha accidental nature pun!). So I hope you have a great week before spring break and sorry this got so long. Hope you enjoyed it. Love you man.

Hasta la vista baby,

the doc

[bayouolive]

Olive’s Thoughts About the Bachelor- spoiler alert

As per ush, here are my stream of consciousness thoughts about the premiere of the gazillionth season of The Bachelor starring Nick threepeat Vial.  This time expanded to include commentary on pre- and post- limo entrance segments. That’s right, doing big things in 2017. Tune in next time to see if watching this foolishness forces me to break my sober January resolve.

Pre-Limo Montage

Just gonna put it out there if Nick was interested in pursuing true love he'd probs date in real life like a real person rather than go on these shows

Three words to describe are, not three words to describe is

What sort of fashion boutique does one operate in Hoxie?

"Very serious business woman"  ... also i'm sorry the Nanny is for who? For her? Wut. 

Oh here come the dolphins

OH SNAP JADE'S MAID OF HONOR

 Limo exits

Danielle- Nail biz, really pretty, rocking the cleve, he looks in to her.

Elizabeth- Marketing manager, Texas, I’m sorry that is a wedding dress.

Rachel- Dallas attorney, nice fantasy reference! But didn't seem to be much chemistry. Also he def checked out her ass.

Christen- Dress is way too yellow and fan was weird. Also he like can't make eye contact with her. B/c she is being a creeper.

Taylor- She's super cute, omg awkward awkward awkward why would you say that. Ugh that was disappointing.

Angela- "Model", way too much lipstick. But cute dress.

Lauren- Hussy, so weird. He seems so not in it.

Michelle- Lemonade comment, she's super cute.

Dominique- Fourth times a charm yawn.

Ida Marie- Her shoes are awful. Trust fall. Cuteish.

Olivia- Eskimo kiss and fur coat seemed a bit much and also what the hell is he sposed to do with the coat. KILLING THE NAME AGAIN.

Sarah- Okay running is stupid b/c then you get sweaty. But he seemed okay with it.

Jasmine- "Done this before a million times." Oh god this is so weird. Omg omg omg. No rings.

Hailey- No underwear girl. No. Never. No. By the way it sounded like she said underwear sex. Also another Canadian trying to channel the Caitlin.

Astrid- German girl. Wow so weird. So weird. No no no no.

Jade's maid of honor- Omg he is like frozen. HE DOESN’T KNOW WHO SHE IS WHAT.

Corinne- Nanny biz owner girl, pretty but SO YOUNG. Hug token yawn.

Vanessa- Special ed teacher. V. cute.

Danielle- Neo natal nurse, boring french toast convo.

Raven- Arkansas girl. I feel like her hair color should be a little less dark. Also stupid pig call.

Jaimi- Chef. Yeah NOLA. Also great hair. Shoes are intense though. Okay that balls comment was so weird and also the nose ring was dumb.

Brianna-Yawn shirt-off joke.

Susanna- Pretty but beard massage is so weird and not a thing.

Josephine- Omg bad face job bad bad bad bad. Bad extensions. Omg the hotdog makes me want to vom.

Brittany- So pretty. But omg that exam was so effing strange. 

Jasmine- Flight attendant. Okay yes I'm sure he knows it’s a flower. [Side note: ahaha holy red dresses]

Whitney- Pilates instructor, boring. But super pretty dress.

Lacey- Camel. Wow hump jokes.                                                         [Side note: I love that they are just calling him a slut to his face and also that everyone was in on the camel.]

Alexis- Left shark costume. Does she think it's a dolphin costume? That is def a shark.

 30? Somehow I missed a girl...looks like it was Kristina, Dental Hygienist....yawn?

 Post-limo

 Rapidly losing interest so commentary may be sparse

Yawn at everyone being annoyed someone cut in. Of course they did. Find a new bit for the cocktail party ABC, this is old.

We've got our first crier, Jasmine!

Hahaha the shark catching the treats was funny

Haha I like that she was basically just like duh you idiot I work at a hospital

Oh snap...who will get the first impression rose...

 Who hates flowers?

 AH RACHEL!!!! yay! [first impression rose]

 Guys i hate that I really like him but I do

Rose Ceremony

Montreal girl, Danielle [nail girl], Kristen [weird yellow fan], Astrid [german girl, bleh], OKAY WE DON’T NEED TO HEAR CORRINE WORRY OUT LOUD WE GET IT, Corrine [eye roll], Elizabeth  [wedding dress girl], Jasmine. 

Okay I’m also super annoyed by the dental hygienist girl b/c I didn't even notice her in the limos. 

Brandi, Arkansas girl, Cristina [STOP YOUR WINING YOU GOT  A ROSE], Danielle [neo natal nurse], Sarah [runner girl], Josephine [yawn], Lacey, Taylor, Shark, Haley, Whitney, Dominique, Jane, Brittney.  

NOTE: I may have missed a few because at this point I was experiencing my second food delivery fail of the night and flew into a blind rage.

 This Season On. . .

"MY HEART IS GOLD BUT MY VAGINE IS PLATINUM."

Mic.drop. I don't think anything more ridiculously amazing could be said.

 Thank you Bachelor gods for the gem that is Corinne.

--

Olivia Singelmann

J.D.

Georgetown University Law Center