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Post Outbreak!Joel Miller (Hades) x F!Reader
summary: your mom, a FEDRA officer, warned you about the darkness lurking - it arrives as the underworld smuggling king and he is indeed dangerous (but oh so terrifyingly beautiful)
warnings & tags: 18+ ONLY MDNI. dark themes || dead dove: do not eat. loose retelling of the Hades & Persephone myth, canon divergent, kidnapping, hostage situation, enemies to lovers, age gap (readerâs age not mentioned but is a drinking adult & was a child on outbreak day), dubcon - power dynamics & possible stockholm syndrome, morally gray!Joel, controlling/complicated parental relationship, brief scenes of assault (not from Joel), canon typical violence (gun usage, blood, fights with infected, awful raiders and fireflies), discussion of grief/character deaths, angst with sexual tension, masturbation (f&m), smutty thoughts, finger sucking, cum eating, poetic allusions to smut, light spit kink, protective!Joel, slightly possessive!Joel
word count: 11.6k (iâm sorry)
a/n: HI PLEASE READ & BE AWARE OF THE CONTENT WARNINGS. This is my first stab at darker content for the fandom & Iâm a bit nervous, i kindly ask that if this isnât for you pls just keep scrolling - so i blame my 2014 8tracks hades & persephone playlist for this but here are are lol! this is my piece for @beskarandblasters the pedro pantheon challenge! also the biggest thank you to @pr0ximamidnight & @ahauntedcowboy for being the absolute angels & letting me scream about this lol, now to you, if youâre reading this too I also canât thank you enough âĄ
(i)
You rarely go outside after curfew, much less to a gathering hosted by smugglers.
Boston had one of the most prolific and stubborn smuggling systems across all the quarantine zones, or so from what youâve heard. Your mother and the other FEDRA officers had mentioned many times how, once the fireflies were extinguished, the smugglers were the next to go.
Especially the man in charge of the entire network.
Known as the most prolific and notorious smuggler, no FEDRA officer has even seen him.
The ruler of the smugglers, the king of the underworld.
Now, youâre here at a secret warehouse gathering apparently hosted by the illusive man.
Itâs rather impressive. Outside is a large warehouse, decayed and ancient. Inside, the old office spaces were gutted out to create a new building. Commotion radiates from it.
The underground world was painted to be something out of a terrifying horror story. The parties had been urban legends whispered around the QZ. Your oldest friend had urged you to finally sneak away to one.
âThis will be your fun night out to celebrate your new big adult job!â She had argued. âAnd besides, you need to live a little. Donât worry about your mom, just enjoy having fun for once!â
Your mom. If she knew you were here sheâd pop a blood vessel or worse.
But your friend is right. You want to experience more, donât want to feel stuck under your momâs watch forever.
Panic still crawls over you though, like at any minute your mother might walk in and scream your name catching you.
âYâokay there?â
You didnât realize youâd be dazed out for so long until a voice draws you out of your thoughts.
The accent is so strikingly thick, a drawl you donât hear often. The man standing by the mixture of the homebrewed moonshine takes your breath away.
Ruggedly handsome, with a beautiful striking nose, older and wearing the lines of age gracefully with his gray hair, he seems brewed of something fierce and wildly beautiful.
You almost feel too stunned to talk, but manage to blurt out an apology.
âYeah Iâm good, just never seen a party like this.â You admit.
The man hums a bored sort of noise before he nudges towards the table.
âWant anything?â He offers, and nodding you tell him to surprise you.
Even with a scruffy glare on his face, the manâs eyebrows raise ever slightly, surprised.
The drink he hands you is harsh, stings your nose, isnât anything like the liquor youâve drank with your mom. You even cough at its harsh taste.
âDonât tell me you never drank before.â The mystery manâs voice sounds offended.
âIâve drank before.â You fire back. âJust never anything like this.â
The manâs dark rust colored eyes survey you, actually scan you up and down, making your skin tighten, feeling strangely judged and exposed.
He takes a sip of his own drink, yet his gaze continues watching you.
âSo ya lost? Is that how you ended up here?â His words are simple, cold, and a frown tugs at your lips.
âMy friend was invited, decided to tag along.â Your reply is blunt
âYour friend,â he nods. âAnd theyâre where?â
Notorious for being a roamer, even when you were younger, youâre not surprised your friend wandered away for a moment.
âGuess just went to enjoy the rest of the party.â
âIt ainât a party.â The man says deep.
âThereâs alcohol, people enjoying half ass drinking games, this looks like a party.â You shrug surprisingly braver. Guess the home brewed alcohol did that.
This mystery manâs face scrunches up, like heâs annoyed with you. He simply just takes another sip of his drink.
Apologizing low, you also thank him again for the drink and decide to exit. The man doesnât stop you. Now you go looking for your friend peeking around the party. No sign of her.
Slightly worried, you check outside.
What you discover petrifies you on sight. Your best friend tries to leave from the shadow of the guy sheâs talking to. Before she can leave, his hands grab her arms, a dark prison refusing to let her go. With full force he slams her against the wall. A small scream escapes her, and fear drowns her eyes while the guy grins demonically.
You rush over fast. All you have is the drink on hand, but once youâre close enough you slam the hard plastic right against the manâs face.
He screams in pain at the sudden attack.
âLeave her the fuck alone!â You scream not caring youâre being loud. You scurry to grab your friend quickly.
âYou little fucking cunt!â The attacker roars and turns to you. Wild blood streams down his nose.
He swings his fist, and you try to escape the path of impact. But it still lands a solid hard hit against the side of your head. A scream comes from your friend and everything stings. You try remembering the self defense training your mom tried drilling into you.
Until a hard impact cracks in the air.
You blink into focus. Your assailant is now on the ground.
And the grumpy mystery man you met stands above with a bloody knuckle.
Heâs the one who punched the guy.
âWhat the fuck man?! Fucking bitch hit me first!â The bastard on the floor screams.
âGet the fuck outta here. Or else.â The mystery man barks.
The guy on the floorâs eyes go wide, like heâs finally taking in the man above. Even in the dark, you witness terror rise fast across the guyâs face.
In a possessed panic, the assailant snaps up and simply leaves.
Your head throbs where the hit landed, yet your eyes stay stuck on the man who came to rescue you.
A soft voice suddenly eases in, and youâre met with a striking older woman.
âCome on, letâs get you both back inside.â Her name is Tess, and she holds a sharp grace to her as she guides everyone to the makeshift kitchen.
You want to help your best friend clean up, but Tess orders you to sit down and reassures sheâll take care of your friend in one of the bathrooms.
âYou need to sit and get your head checked out.â Your friend tells you, worried.
Before you can even move to follow her and Tess, your scruffy savior waltzes in.
âSit down.â He barks at you and moves to grab a cooled bottle to hold against your head.
You hiss when the cold glass touches your head.
âYou smashed the shit outta that drink into that fuckerâs nose.â The man begins with a gruff mutter. âGot a lot more fight in ya than yâlook.â
You snort.
âI just acted fast thatâs allâŠâ you mumble back.
Turning to the man, you earnestly thank him. However, his deep eyes, almost the color of ancient rust, already stare at you. His gaze is intense, sharply piercing.
âSo why do you guys even throw parties? Does your boss know it doesnât seem safe.â You comment.
âMainly to show off the products we got.â The man explains gruffly.
Made sense.
âWait, is your hand okay?â You suddenly blurt out remembering the blood staining his knuckles.
âMâfine.â He answers and moves his hand away before you can try examining it.
Footsteps walk into the room, and Tess returns. Her eyes gleam soft.
âYour friendâs doing good, actually making jokes and everything.â
Relief floods in.
This may be the sign to head home. It would take a lot to sneak back to your best friendsâ apartment, especially this late.
âHeadinâ out?â The man asks when you return from checking in on your friend.
You nod weakly.
âDonât. Itâs late. Plus we got space in the back you two can crash in.â Tess reassures, and you graciously thank her.
âDonât thank me, Joel was the one who offered.â She grins nudging the man.
Joel, his name - itâs beautiful.
Joel glares terrifyingly hard at her. Tess simply shrugs.
So you thank Joel, even use his name. This serious but stunning man doesnât say anything and instead walks towards the other door.
âCome on.â He suddenly commands. You and your friend rapidly follow him.
Just as promised there are rooms safely tucked away. Though room is a gracious term with the stacks of various boxes and rusty cluttered furniture, but you wonât complain.
Joel says nothing, simply shows you the room then leaves.
âHeâs weird as fuck.â Your friend whispers. You had to agree.
Even in this back room space the hum of the party continues to leak in. The lights from the hallway become a sliver under the door.
Soon enough boots thump outside the door, and your eyes creak open. From the light under the door a shadow moves. Youâre worried for a moment until a darker shadow goes to rest against the door.
More footsteps, lighter ones, come.
âGonna sit there all night? Youâll get a creak in your fucking neck.â Tess.
âJust get back to the party.â Joel.
His voice rumbles back, and you feel wide awake now.
Heâa staying in front of the door, keeping watch.
You donât know this man, just met him tonight. But youâre comforted knowing heâs here. Safety is hard to find in this world. Yet soft residuals of it seem to reside buried within Joel.
When you wake up however, heâs gone nowhere to be found.
On the walk home, your best friend is thankfully upbeat.
âYou know,â she comments. âIâm actually kinda a little bummed we didnât get to meet the scary head smuggler guy.â
You laugh, a dark humored type thing.
âYeah me too, but after last night Iâm kind of glad.â You agree.
You might not have met the infamous smuggler kingpin, but meeting Joel felt precious in its own strange way.
(ii)
You run into Joel again - literally bump into him.
Trying to put all the papers and books into your bag, you step outside the school and collide into a hard body. But instead of stumbling and falling back, firm hands steady you. All your items still drop.
Something fierce constricts your throat when you focus on who you ran into.
Joel, a very grouchy Joel.
You immediately ramble out a mess of apologies while you try picking up everything. Joel silently crouches down to help gather your fallen items.
âYouâre a teacher.â He notes with a gruff low rumble.
âOh, uh, yeah. Just started this weekâŠSomeoneâs gotta teach the kids what the water cycle is.â You joke.
He snorts very faintly, and your heart jumps.
The handsome man has been in your mind ever since the party. Now heâs materialized here.
Your mom calls your name walking out of the building.
In her commander FEDRA officer uniform, you hate more than ever that sheâs wearing it.
âWhoâs this?!â Her eyes immediately flicker suspiciously to Joel as she smiles politely.
âSomeone I just ran into thatâs all.â You quickly answer.
Rapidly you turn back to Joel and politely thank him again for helping pick up your scattered papers.
Joel statically nods. But you donât miss the way his eyes narrow at your mom before he leaves.
Your mother doesnât seem to pay him any mind, not bothered by a stranger. A very FEDRA Trait.
When your first late night working at the school comes, that has your mom worried.
âI can call in and walk you home once youâre done.â She urges.
Youâre an adult. Youâve faced scarier things. After much persistence, thankfully your mother begrudgingly relents.
The sky looks beautiful when you step out of the building. You canât see the stars often from here but still feel comforted seeing a few twinkles above.
âKeep staring off like that and youâre gonna bump into someone again.â
The familiar gruff voice jolts your heart into overdrive. When your focus whips back to earth, Joel stands a few steps away.
âFancy running into you again.â You beam, feeling your heart flutter at the sight of him.
Joel shrugs. âMy way back from work came this way again.â
âMind some company?â He nudges his chin towards you and you quickly, embarrassingly fast, you welcome him to join you.
Joel falls into step besides you.
You ask about how his day went, and he shrugs simply saying itâs been fine.
âSo, your momâs a FEDRA officer.â He suddenly comments.
You had a feeling heâd mention it. You almost want to make a joke that she just stole the uniform. But itâs hard with how Joelâs gaze seems to simply pierce through whatever he sets his eyes onto.
âI promise,â you blurt. âI havenât told her about the party or anything.â
Joel nods, silent again.
Abruptly he stops walking. You do as well. The soft evening lights color the streets a dingy muted gray. The curfew call would arrive soon. Thereâs already barely anyone on the street.
He sighs turning to you. That sword's sharp piercing gazes of his makes you worried.
âThis is my stop here.â He nudges to the apartment complex across the street. âBut can walk ya home, if you want.â
You exhale relieved, even find fondness sneaks in.
âOh no, itâs okay, itâs late anyway.â You earnestly thank him.
Suddenly a hand swings across your face out from behind. A cloth covers your mouth. Before you can even scream your eyes flicker heavy.
Joel is the last blurred sight you see before darkness overcomes you.
Groggily opening your eyes, youâre now in a barren basement type room lying on a mattress on the floor. Immediately you spot Tess. Then you notice a man with a large rifle standing by the door.
âWhat the fuck happened?!â You scream.
âHey, relax.â Tess says eased. âItâs nothing personal.â
âNothing personal?! What the fuck do you do to me?! Why am I here?!â
Before she can answer you, Joel waltzes into the room. The room shadows paint him a terrifying creature who stares at you hard.
âLook,â Joelâs voice is cold, unwavering steel. âIâm gonna be straight with ya. We ainât doing shit to you. Just need your mom to make FEDRA give us what we want.â
Your eyes go wide.
Youâre being held as a hostage.
Before anything else can be said, another man steps in.
âSorry boss, but weâre getting word thereâs chatter on the coms.â The man explains to Joel.
He nods then glances over to you from his shoulder.
âYâdonât do anything fucking stupid and we might all make it out of this alright.â Thatâs all Joel says then exits.
The man with the gun nods to him almost as a sign of respect.
Even though so many thoughts buzz around in your head like angry wasps, it clicks fast.
Itâs Joel.
Joel is the infamous underworld smuggling king.
(iii)
The rest of the day is a blur. Youâre left alone and cry into your hands until it hurts. The man with the gun standing guard outside your door doesnât seem to care. Tess at one point returns with cleaner clothes, even offers you a shower and a meal, but you stay silent.
Some of the smugglers pop their head into your room, curious about the new hostage.
âAw, youâre too pretty to cry.â One of them grins.
âYeah thereâs someone else I could give ya to cry about.â Another snickers disgustingly, and you want to crawl into yourself.
Joel barks a hard loud yell.
âAny of you fuckers so much as even looks in there again or even dares touch her, youâll have to fuckinâ deal with me, understand?!â Joel commands, a god among chaos.
Itâs not entirely comforting, but itâs enough.
Not a soul walks by your room after that.
Later that night Joel comes with rations and more water.
âYâneed to eat something.â He suggests. You donât even move to touch the food.
Joel sighs, placing his hands on his hips.
âIâm doing this to find my brother, simple as that. Need FEDRA to give us a good car or even a battery at best to get us on the road.â Joel explains sharply, methodically.
All of this for his brother. The love of a family member in exchange for the love of another. You understand, even can sympathize, but you hated this still, hated him.
With thorny malice, you glare hard at Joel staying silent.
He frowns harder, and it highlights his wrinkles. Joel doesnât say anything, simply clenches his jaw and leaves the room.
In the roomâs solitude, you try formulating a plan. If you just get a gun you can maybe make your way out of this place.
Whatever this place is, itâs the central base. Itâs hard not to listen to all the commotion and talk done in the other room. The smuggling empire is terrifyingly impressive. From what youâve caught thereâs multiple routes and tunnels that operate for different means. Some smuggle in necessities like food or medicine, while others provide arms.
Joel orders and strategizes it all. Tess is just as in charge and orders commands as well.
âYou should eat.â Suddenly the guard on the other side of your open door suggests.
Youâre almost tempted to throw the rations out the door.
A sudden explosion cracks above and the ground rattles. The air stills, and everything shifts.
âFireflies!â Someone screams.
This is your chance. In the rush of the commotion and the echo of gunshots, you hope to escape.
Youâre left alone.
This is it. Adrenaline pumps through you fast as you frantically search for an exit, a gun, anything. But the chaos swirls fast. More yelling arrives underground, and gunshots fire off closer.
But your legs start buckling, and your eyes start getting foggy too. Fear comes fast. Did they maybe drug you?
No. You just realizeâŠyou havenât eaten this entire day.
Now itâs getting hard to walk.
Stumbling, barely keeping focus, you lean against the wall. Your body feels like itâs going to crumble.
âOh, look what we have here.â Someone coos. A shadow soon falls over you. âFuck didnât know the smugglers had someone this cute.â
This canât be happening.
Your lips tremble while fighting back tears, canât even focus on whoâs around you.
âMaybe we can keep her as a nice treat.â Another voice laughs, and your stomach feels sick.
A gunshot rings into the hallway. A body collides so hard and fast on the floor it makes your vision focus. Crimson spills onto the concrete. When you snap your focus aware another firefly man screams in anger until Joel takes him down with ease.
Disrobed relief spills into you. Joelâs here.
In this fucked up moment youâre about to cry grateful because heâs here.
But your vision blurs more, and your body feels light.
Then your world again goes dark.
Sunlight this time wakes you up.
Panic causes you to bolt up fast, but the dizziness hits you. Hissing, you steady yourself.
âDonât get up too fast.â Joelâs dull voice speaks from the abyss.
Youâre in a small apartment now, or the decaying barebones of one. In one small room is the kitchen and a living room. You rest on the couch while Joel sits at the table.
âWhat happened?â You ask with a croak.
Joel nudges to the small dusty coffee table where water and rations sit waiting for you.
This time you donât hesitate to snag them.
Joel explains all that happened. The fireflies attacked the tunnels for supplies, and it spilled into the base.
âUsed the underground tunnels to make it outside the QZ. Then, came here to a safe house.â He finishes.
âWhereâs Tess?â You ask.
âStayed back. Need someone to communicate to me how the dealâs going.â You suddenly notice the radio sitting on the countertop.
âSo itâs just you and me.â You mutter.
âUn-fuckinâ fortunately.â Joel replies with a hard scowl.
Your mind tries to settle now.
Youâre in a home in the middle of fuck knows where. Your hope of maybe escaping is not as bright as it was in the underground compound. So you steadily resolve yourself to accept this situation. Your mother will come. She will find a way to make the deal and youâll be back home.
When you finally glance out the window you discover youâre on the outskirts of the QZ.
Infected roam here.
âShouldnât we head back into the QZ?â You ask worried.
âAnd have you turninâ my fuckinâ ass in? No way in hell.â Joel glares at you.
âInfected are out here.â You snap fierce.
âAnd you got me. Wonât need to worry âbout âem.â He says simply.
It isnât that reassuring, but you think of how heâs proven himself already to be rather sturdy even for his age.
âSo are we just gonna wait until we hear something?â
âYeah.â Joel answers with a deadly deadpan that refuses to leave room up for any discussion.
The space stays in a tense thickness until the radio flickers to life scaring the shit out of you.
Tess over the radio gives an update. Still no word from FEDRA. Instead she goes into discussing work with Joel.
They talk in code, use numbers and different colors to describe things. But at one point they let the code slip. You piece it together easily. They work with FEDRA officers to get certain supplies. You knew FEDRA wasnât squeaky clean, even argued about it with your mom. But this just solidifies the murkiness of it all.
None of them have a car or battery to give.
Joel ends up falling asleep in the chair at the tabled hands crossed over his chest. You now snoop around the place quietly. Thereâs an extra backpack for you as well as various contraband items still waiting to be delivered.
You silently steal one of the liquor bottles and place it stealthily in your bag.
You also unpack whatâs in the bag.
The change of clothes Tess had first offered you, a few rations, a flashlight. No weapon though. You do spot flint, and thatâs slightly reassuring.
The sun starts to dwindle. You need to rest. Itâs obvious youâre not going anywhere for a while. So returning to the couch you close your eyes.
Then the howl of a clicker wakes you.
Instinctual primordial terror has your eyes snapping open wide in fear. Before you can move, you discover Joel beside you. Even in the dark you see a finger raised up to his lips.
Keep quiet.
You nod, sealing your lips tight.
The ominous clicking noise rattle outside the hall. You almost miss it with how loudly your heart hammers in your ears. The infectedâs chatter sounds fainter as it wanders down the hallway.
You exhale through your nose, hopeful this means the infected is close to maybe leaving.
Until the radio flickers to life blaring a tune.
Horror collides into you fast. The clicker roars. Joel acts immediately raising his gun to shoot the radio silent. But itâs too late. The infected screeches, rushing down the hallway with violent steps until it rams into the door with full force. You hold back a scream.
Joel fires at the door, and a loud thud follows.
âCome on!â he snaps, scrambling to get up.
More would come. You slide the backpack on, and instantly follow Joel in a frantic rush.
Heart racing, you stay close to Joel while the two of you rush to escape out of the apartment complex. Screeches of more infected approach.
The night is dark, but Joel is surprisingly keen in maneuvering the area. He leads you into another ransacked building and holds his hand up, a silent sign to stop.
Youâd be stopping here. Youâre glad. All of your body feels weak. You havenât seen a clicker up close in years. Now fear eats away at the adrenaline.
âWeâll stay here until daybreak.â Joel speaks barely above a whisper. âGet rest while ya can.â
Youâre afraid to sleep now. Donât even want to think about it.
Suddenly he says your name.
Itâs the first time heâs ever said it.
He stares somberly, seriously at you. Joel must have seen whatever fear ran across your face. You fully take in the sight of him. Standing tall, his strong rifle in hand, heâs the image of unwavering determination.
âSleep, Iâll be up.â He orders.
The distrust you hold for his man slowly is ebbing away. You know heâs simply keeping you alive for the bargain, but itâs enough for now. So you sit on the ground, try to just close your eyes and gather yourself together.
Sunlight again wakes you, and Joel continues standing watch.
He glances back to you, and with his stoic stome nature, he nods.
Time to move.
The journey through the debris and fallen memories of Boston is quiet, tense. Joel stays closer to you the entire way.
âHave another safe house just outside the edges of the city limit. Weâll be safe there.â He mutters low and you nod.
The smuggler king leads confidently. Even though youâre still petrified of infected, you take in the sights of the city. The intricate green vines, the lush landscape among the bones of civilization, itâs all a haunting sight, but you also think of how beautiful it is.
âYâever been outside the QZ?â Joel suddenly speaks low.
âOnce,â you tell him truthfully. You had been a child then and you barely remember the journey.
âSo youâve been in Boston this entire time?â Joel asks now, sounding curious.
You have. Itâs why your mom has such a high ranking within FEDRA.
âYour accentâŠwhere are you originally from?â You decide to ask questions now too, keeping the same low tone as Joel.
A part of you assumes he wonât answer or will just respond sarcastically.
âTexas.â
Youâre surprised he answered.
âYou're a long way from home then.â
He hums a noise that sounds like he agrees.
âMust have been a journey to get you all the way to Boston.â You note, now more curious about him.
Joel stays quiet for a moment, then replies with the lowest âyeahâ effectively ending the conversation.
Soon the buildings fade away. The forest creeps in denser as the suburbs approach.
At the edge of the neighborhoods, a home sits splintered off inching into the woods. It seems like the perfect secluded safe house base.
The place hasnât been touched in a while. Leaves scatter across the title floor, and dust covers so much. Youâre thankful this has more space than the small apartment. Joel immediately slings his backpack off then opens a door leading down to a basement. You follow him.
âDonât fuckinâ follow me.â He snips, yet you stay behind him. He doesnât stop you.
Instead Joel flickers on many camping lanterns and illuminates the basement. The stockpile here is barren, hardly any weapons or canned goods. Of course a radio sits on the table. Joel flickers to life, but no one answers when he sends his Morse code clicks. His face grows dark with worry.
âPlease get me if you hear anything from my mom.â You finally say quietly.
âYeah, will do.â Joel agrees somber.
Itâs enough for now.
Two days pass. No sounds come from the radio. You and Joel walk around each other on egg shells and rarely speak. Itâs suffocating. So you rummage around the house to find something to do, anything.
You find a deck of cards and it feels like a gift from above.
Quietly in the living room, you set up a lone game of solitaire on the coffee table. Or patience, as your mom loved to call it when she taught you how to play. Seems perfect to play now. You flip through the cards, placing them at the correct spots and columns.
âSolitaire?â Joelâs voice surprises you. But what shocks you even more is him moving to sit on the floor.
âYou play?â You question.
âNot in a while, play other card games like poker or black jack.â
âI play blackjack.â You perk up, and Joelâs eyebrows rise slightly shocked.
You hand him the deck, cleaning up the rest of the cards and start a new game with him.
The game is tense at first, like you and him are still trying to navigate the thick tension. You peek at your cards and he glances at his.
He wins the first game, but now youâre determined.
Eventually you and him get sucked into playing. So many matches pass that when you win Joel pouts, throwing his cards down.
You burst out laughing. It feels like itâs been so long since youâve laughed, and itâs freeing.
âYouâre a sore loser.â You tease.
âI ainât.â Joel rumbles back, scowling harder.
âMhm, yeah sure. Thereâs a candyland box nearby I can get to prove you are.â You surprisingly joke, buoyant.
Joel shakes his head.
âIâll show ya whoâs a sore fuckinâ loser when I beat your ass at poker.â
âI donât know how to play poker. Go Fish or nothing else.â You shrug.
Then, Joel snorts. Itâs not a laugh, not even anything special, but it eases the strain among you and him even more. He starts shuffling the deck and hands out the cards to you.
With the most stern of voices, so seriously Joel, he asks if you have any sevens.
You laugh into your hand.
âIâm being fuckinâ serious!â He snaps.
You laugh even harder.
In this fucked up moment, in this murky situation, this brightens your soul.
A week passes.
Over the radio you hear Tess tell Joel flat out how heavy itâs gotten in the city.
âThe fucking firefliesâŠFEDRA, everything, itâs gotten fucking insane⊠we might not get the car, or even the fucking battery Joel. We need to think of a plan b.â
Your stomach twists sick. Where was your mom? And what would happen if they decide youâre not worth the hassle anymore.
Shakily you head into the bathroom and sob into your hands trying to stay as quiet as you can.
Soon youâre a shell of yourself.
When you step back outside however, youâre resolved. Instead of the basement, Joel now waits in the kitchen, and his eyes widen seeing you.
âWhatâs wrong?â His voice picks up with a wind of worry.
âJoel.â You begin calmly and somber. âBe honest with meâŠâ
You ask him the question thatâs been haunting you.
What will become of you if FEDRA doesnât hold up their bargain? If even your mom canât follow through?
âWillâŠyou get rid of me?â You speak soft, without even having to divulge more, but the festering rotting truth lies under your words.
The silence feels sharpened.
Joel quietly speaks first.
âNo. Wonât do that to ya.â He mutters.
You donât know if heâs lying or telling the truth.
You and Joel simply stare at each other. So much hangs tangled and barbed between you and him.
All you can do is simply nod. You swear his eyes soften for just a moment.
Another week passes. No signs or commotion from FEDRA. Itâs beginning to feel like youâre in a room slowly filling with water, like youâre on borrowed time.
But you manage to pass the days with Joel through more card games. You try playing Pictionary with him, but his attempt at drawing a dog looks like a camel, and you laugh so hard at how badly he pouts.
Itâs becoming amicable now, you and him.
But supplies are running low. Joel doesnât sugar coat that harsh truth.
âThereâs another stop we can go to from here, but Iâm hoping we wonât need to.â Heâs still waiting, hoping for FEDRA to answer.
Eventually the night settles in, and youâre surprised he joins you for another card game.
Right now you and him try another game of poker. Youâve come to learn you are not very good, which is also why you think Joel likes playing it knowing he wins.
âSo how does a Texan far from home become the king of smugglers?â You try to ease the air by pushing more conversation with him.
âJust something that happened honestly,â Joel mutters, passing out the weathered cards.
âGot involved with my brother back when we started traveling outta Texas and justâŠnever stopped.â He reveals.
âYour brother, heâs the one youâre looking forâŠâ You remember.
âYeah.â Joel agrees low.
âI hope you find him.â Gathering the cards dealt to you, you mean those words.
âThanksâŠhope we can get ya back home.â A hint of sincerity leaks into Joel's voice and you appreciate that.
Youâre about to deal your hand when rustling comes from outside. Glancing out the window, you try to find something among the dark shadows.
âWhat?â Joel asks fast and low.
âI donât know⊠thought I heard something.â You mumble.
In that same breath, bullets fly through the window, shattering everything. The moment unfolds in a flurry of chaos.
âRaiders!â Joel shouts while you and him try to stay low. You crawl towards your bag.
The door gets kicked in and your heart races fast. Even as you and Joel scramble to maybe get down to the basement it's hard with the commotion rushing in.
Joel is swift with his gun, but the raiders keep coming.
Windows shatter further in the back of the house. Theyâre infesting. Time to leave. Itâs a rapid rush to get outside. Before running into the woods, you stop to rummage in your bag finally remembering something important.
âThe fuck are ya doing?!â Joel screams with a snarl.
You act fast. You rip a piece of your shirt edge, and grab the alcohol you stole along with the flint.
âShit.â Joel breathes out realizing what youâre doing.
Youâve seen plenty of these, just never believed youâd ever make one.
Cloth in the liquid, Joel moves to help you light the flint.
Then when fire sparks catches onto the strip of clothing you stand up.
The adrenaline sets you ablaze. You throw the bottle with all your might. It manages to collide against the houseâs porch. Soon the world is engulfed in a vibrant orange flame, a hellfire right before you.
Screams of raiders mix with the flames.
âCome on.â Joel urges and grabs your hand.
A rush of footsteps comes and itâs too late to react.
Something hard hits the side of your face. You cry in pain falling to the ground. The world spins on itself. Everything is disoriented. Your face throbs so bad, and you cough through the tears stinging your eyes. The sound of Joel firing off his gun again comes.
Then his hands steady you up.
âYâokay darlinâ?â He asks frantic and you nod, tired.
âLetâs go.â Joel grabs your hand again. This time donât let it go.
Even arriving at the abandoned gas station deemed safe to stay, you donât let his hand go. He doesnât yell at you about it.
Instead Joel sits besides you, flush against your side.
Against the shadowed darkness of the old building, you hold his hand firm in his and he doesnât let go either.
You wake up first this time and find your head slumped against Joelâs shoulder, resting against him now. His head also rests on top of yours.
This is new.
But then again, so was the term he used for you. You wonder if you just imagined it.
Unlike now, this is very real. Youâve never been this close to him, can smell the faintest traces of him, musky and dark. He snores. His hair tickles against your head, but you donât want to move.
If anything you close your eyes again hoping for a few more minutes of peace. Joel eventually shifts, waking you both up. Nothing is said about the sleeping positions.
Then he turns to you, and his face falls.
Immediately Joel moves closer. Delicately one of his hands moves to your chin to examine your cheek.
âDoes it hurt?â He asks gently and you shake your head.
Not as much. You know thereâs probably an ugly bruise, but it could be worse. Youâre grateful this is all you have.
âYou shouldâve seen the other guy.â You darkly joke.
Joel scoffs a small noise, maybe the echo of a laugh.
âSo⊠Should I be worried about anything else you mightâve stolen?â His dry tone doesnât sound upset.
You promise the bottle is all you took.
Joel hums, nodding.
âYou continue to keep surprisinâ me.â His words are softer than heâs ever sounded
Now you realize, Joel is closer than ever before too. His face intensely scowled up now stares directly at you.
You drink in the sight of the king of the smugglers this close. The sun spots on his face, the age lines along his gorgeous features, itâs hard to deny how stunning he is.
After yesterday night itâs like youâre reminded raw and fierce how dangerous, but gorgeous of a man Joel is.
You think of the party you first met Joel. You remember thinking how you felt the remnants of safety, of protection that Joel showed then.
You should hate him. You wouldnât be in these situations if it wasnât for him. But when you ask yourself if you would rather be in the QZ, the truth is a distorted answer you might not be ready to face.
Without a word Joel whips around and moves to sling his backpack on better.
âCome on, letâs head out.â He announces.
You stay close to his side.
You expected another silent journey. However, the warmth of the day, the stretch of houses blurring more into the woods brings Joel out of his shell.
He talks about the Texas heat and how it used to be scorching. Interestingly points out different housing structures, and you learn he used to work as a contractor. Joel even asks about your job working at the school.
âItâs a job.â You say a bit standoffish.
âYou donât like it.â Joel sees right through you instantly.
âMy mom likes it.â Itâs safe, secure, stable and away from any harm and under the watch of FEDRA.
âWhat dâya want to do then?â Joel asks surprisingly patient.
You pause momentarily, and the wind blows across your face.
Itâs such a simple silly dream you hold in your heartâŠ
Having your own house, enjoying peace, simply embracing living day to day without any worry about what to do or if your mom would approve.
âTo simply be.â You answer. Itâs enough for Joel, and you swear you see a faint grin tugging his lips.
The trail transforms into a serene sight, and youâre in awe of the beautiful landscape.
You should be scared that youâre walking away more and more from the QZ, even trusting Joel to follow him. But youâre not. The stretching trees untouched by the city, the edges of summer still peeking through the greenery, it's beautiful.
And getting hear Joel open up more, means more than you care to admit. He talks about this one mix up a couple of his guys made where they mistook baby milk formula powder for cocaine.
âNot Mister Scary Lord of the underworld getting upset over that.â You tease, and it almost feels like flirting.
Joel rolls his eyes. It adds a glowing playfulness to him, like seeing a small glimpse of the man he was before the world ended.
The further from the QZ you go, the deeper and deeper youâre drawn into this endless maze of a man that is Joel.
(iv)
You never believed a place like Bill and Frankâs existed.
Their own personal town is otherworldly. They, mainly Frank, welcome you with warm and glimmering hospitality. Theyâre both older, slightly around Joelâs age.
âSo, whatâs a lovely thing like you doing with Joel?â Frank asks jokingly.
âOh, Iâm just a hostage.â You sleepily grin. Frankâs face falls while Bill barks a laugh.
Itâs easy to melt into this new world with these two and Joel. You never expected him to have friends like this, and itâs interesting uncovering more facets of him.
Bill barks for you not snoop, but Frank winks reassuringly to make yourself at home. The hot shower is an oasis, and the comfortable bed becomes a cloud.
Well rested, the next day you wander the town. You stay out until itâs dark. No infected, no raiders, no fireflies or no worries⊠just simply you and the beautiful night sky above.
âStill not payinâ attention to where youâre goinâ.â Joelâs voice flutters in.
Along the side of the street he looks dreamy under the soft dark night.
âCanât help it,â you truthfully say, glancing back up. The stars are too lovely not to admire.
You end up wandering closer to Joel or maybe he walks towards you. Itâs too hard to tell.
âYou can never see the stars this bright even at the QZ.â You return to admire the stars even with Joel besides you.
If your mom just knew how far you were.
Joel snorts, and you realize you spoke those words aloud. Even though youâre a bit embarrassed you simply shrug.
âItâs true.â You agree.
âSeems like sheâs kindaâŠâ Joel trails off.
âControlling?â You finish, and he nods.
You understand why. Sheâs seen horrors, lost so much. But youâre an adult, a fully grown one and youâve seen a fair share of hardships too. You just want to be understanding both to her, and to yourself.
You even explain this to Joel.
âYouâre good, maybe too kind.â Joel mutters and you now intrigued turn to him. His eyes twinkle in the dark night more than they ever have. âDonât seem to see the bad in people.â
Maybe you do. Maybe you understand that people in this world contain fuzzy and hard to decipher multitudes now.
Joel snorts when you tell him that.
âYâknow youâve been traveling with a one of FEDRAâs top bad guys this whole entire time right?â
You know. Joel even calls himself a thief. But he doesnât seem as evil as you believed him to be.
Glancing at him, the way the darkness should bring out his shadows. It instead illuminates him like a faint star. You think someone this man canât be fully evil. Or maybe youâre not as good, blooming and unfolding in the mud to reveal your true nature.
You and Joel simply walk back to Bill and Frankâs in silence.
The radio also stays silent another week.
Youâre worried about overstaying your welcome, especially with how hard Bill glares at you like youâre a pest. Frank however, eagerly includes you in so many of his projects and errands.
âNot as young as I used to be.â He teases while tending to one of the gardens, and you readily help as much as you can.
You stare in awe at all the beautiful lush vegetables and plants. Thereâs even a couple of fruit trees.
âJoel always asks for fruit when he comes for trades.â Frank chuckles.
You never would have expected Bill and Frank to be a part of Joelâs team.
âI know, we donât seem like the type, or maybe I donât seem like the type to be helping smugglers.â Frank comments teasing, as if he read your mind.
You quickly stammer out that you donât mind.
âThis world, itâs not as black and white as we think it is. Surviving an apocalypse really does paint everything in a murky gray. Sometimes, itâs okay to just accept that.â Frank explains.
Youâre slowly starting to agree more and more with that.
âI knowâŠthereâsâŠa delicate situation going on between you and Joel.â Frank speaks cautiously.
âBut I want you to knowâŠthat if this is serious, and you donât feel comfortable with Joel or truly want to go return home, thereâs ways we could figure it out.â His tone is serious, truthful and sincere.
His words warm you.
But you swallow hard. In the watch of the peaceful yard you reveal a shadowed truth thatâs been building in you.
You donât know if you want to go back. You know you will have to if FEDRA and your mom honor the trade. But youâre dreading returning to your life under the eyes of the decaying QZ streets, FEDRA, your motherâŠ
And even if you do return there, you canât imagine going without Joel.
âI just want to make sure heâs safe.â You add quietly.
âYou probably think I sound awful or out of my mind.â Then you laugh hollow.
Frank doesnât reply immediately. You wait for him to judge you.
âI donât think that at all.â His hand gently pats yours. âI think youâre actually really brave being so honest.â
That brings a thickness in your throat. Frank grins warmly at you, squeezes your hand comfortingly. You soak up his kindness like a flower bud in the sunlight.
However, another day passes with no noise among the picturesque world.
At breakfast you try holding back your laughter while Bill and Frankie aruge over the Wizard of Oz.
Joel, who surprisingly slept in late, emerges to take a seat at the table.
Him and Bill immediately jump into discussion about smuggling routes and new supplies. Frank slowly slips out to the kitchen.
âWhat day is it?â Joel asks.
Bill simply tells it to Joel, but itâs like a switch is flipped on.
He shoots up out of his chair, doesnât even care that it topples over or that he slams into the table knocking everything. Bill yells at him fiercely. But Joel storms out of the room leaving everyone in his aftermath.
âWhat happened?â Frank asks, emerging back into the dining room.
âJoel, being fucking Joel.â Bill sneers.
Frank ignores his husband and turns to you. Explaining what happened, his lovely face frowns instant.
âOhâŠoh I forgot about today.â He mutters.
You ask what today means. Frank slides closer to you with his eyes low.
âIf I remember rightâŠTodayâs Sarahâs birthday.â He answers.
Confusion bubbles up, and you ask who Sarah is.
Frankâs face contorts in shock.
âSarahâŠsheâs Joelâs daughter that passed away.â
Those words take your breath away and you feel your world tilt on its axis.
Joel was a dad. Joel had a daughter.
You never would have expected. Frank must see the look in your eyes now as he places a hand on your shoulder.
âHe doesnât talk about her much. Itâs not your fault you didnât know.â
Youâre left haunted by it all though.
Eventually you get the confidence and bravery enough to find Joel.
Walking around the vacant neighbor, you eventually spot him sitting on the porch step of one of the homes.
âFuck you doinâ here?â He snaps, but thereâs no malice in his voice, only a hollowness.
Standing besides him, you inhale deep.
âMy big sister was infected on outbreak day.â You begin.
It happened after school when your mom was talking with your neighbor outside your home. You were still so little, barely remember pieces of it.
But the memories you have are sharp.
Youâre in the kitchen, laughing at something your sister says. Suddenly she starts twitching. Then your world ended. You still hear her snarls sometimes, still taste the terror when she tried biting you and how you prayed it was just a game, until the screams of your mom came. Itâs simply been you and her ever since.
Joelâs face finally turns to you and his eyes are wide, glossy obsidian gems and so open, so unlike Joel. Yet itâs like youâre seeing a true layer of him.
âIâm so sorry about your daughter Joel. That pain of loss never really leaves and I get it.â You carry your big sisterâs ghost with you now.
Joel doesnât say anything, instead clenches his jaw and blinks away the shimmering gloss reflecting in his eyes.
âIt ainât the same.â He suddenly snaps back. âYou never felt the pain of losinâ a child.â
You feel insulted.
âLoss is still a loss Joel. Donât you dare say my hurt is less than yours. What would your daughter say?â You snap back.
You know thatâs not a kind thing to say. It galvanizes Joel. He bolts up and becomes a terrifying looming force that pierces you where you stand.
His voice silence is deadly, slices through you.
Thereâs so much you want to say to hurt him, but what good will it do. You simply blink away tears and walk away, leaving Joel to his ache as you try to quell yours.
Trying to settle your emotions, you end up walking around the ghost town and spot various glorious wildflowers, blooms so vibrantly colorful. You grab as many as you can.
Back at the house, Frank brightens immediately seeing the flowers in your hands.
âI got just the vase for them!â
Frank asks if you picked these for yourself and you shake your head.
âFor those who have passed, and for Sarah.â Your answer.
Frank doesnât say anything but instead nods, a silent understanding.
You head back to the guest room to try taking a nap. You accidentally left the door open partially, and soon enough Joelâs arrival lumbers into the grand home.
âBill get those for you?â He notices the flowers.
Frank snorts. âYou know Bill wouldnât.â
He instead clarifies you did.
âFor todayâŠfor Sarah.â Frank then adds.
Joel is quiet. You close your eyes and now drift into the flickering world between falling asleep and being aware.
You swear you faintly hear the door creak open more, catch the faint smell of cedar, and feel delicate but callous fingers run across your face.
But when you open your eyes, no one is in the room.
Itâs like nothing happened between you or Joel the next morning. He even helps you and Frank outside harvesting some of the ripe new fruit.
âCan't handle Billâs grumpy ass anymore.â Joel explains.
âTwo grumpies together might just be too much.â You tease. Joel glares dully at you. Frank snickers amused.
You perk up bright seeing the lovely apples on the tree.
âGo ahead! Try one!â Frank eagerly urges and you do.
You havenât had fresh apples in years. Your eyes close in bliss tasting sweet heaven and you munch away.
Suddenly a thick thumb runs against your cheek and your eyes snap open.
âSorry. Got some on your cheek.â Joel clarifies drawing his hand away.
He suddenly draws it into his mouth to have a taste. You feel a bit dizzy but in a way that makes your stomach flip.
Joelâs eyes go wide, momentarily realizing what he did. Without another word, he bolts.
You and Frank are left staring at each other stunned.
The rest of the day Joel stays glued to the radio in Billâs workshop.
Later that night your fingers crawl silently under the sheets, under your underwear, and you imagine what Joel would feel like. This man thatâs taken you away from your home - you should feel guilty and ashamed, even horrified at this. But instead you only find an ache for more for his fingers to replace yours.
But even among the decadent desires you indulge in more and moreâŠ
Another week passes.
You and Joel share a somberness, slowly facing the harsh truth.
You may not be returning home.
âI want us to have a nice dinner tonight!â Frank must sense it too because he declares a bright order.
âSo that means new outfits and everyone taking a good shower!â Frank insists proudly showing you to the clothing boutique the town has.
You end up grabbing the softest looking sundress. Itâs delicate, fits comfortably on you and even makes you feel brand new.
Especially after taking another warm shower with the homemade lavender soap Frank gave you as another gift. Bill seems to be warming up to you. He even makes a dull joke about you taking a shorter shower than Joel.
When Joel does emerge from the shower, something shifts in you. His wet slicked back hair highlights all his silver streaks. In the new button up shirt Frank shoved at him and ordered him to wear, heâs gorgeous.
The terrifying ruler of a smuggling empire, now just a man who seems almost embarrassed, fidgets because you stare at him so directly.
Dinner is thankfully wonderful.
At some point you realize the role of hostage, of someone kidnapped, doesnât feel so barbed. You now roam freely without any fear. Laugh warmly at the stories Frank tells that makes Bill scoff and Joel roll his eyes.
You insist on cleaning up to let Bill and Frank enjoy the nice evening to themselves.
In the kitchen you gather the plates until the door creaks open behind.
âNeeded to get away from Billâs god damn glarinâ st me being the third wheel.â Joel huffs.
Smirking, you find Joel effortlessly begins putting away dishes, helping.
Itâs peaceful. In another life you wonder if this could have been a regular evening, in a house you ownedâŠwith someone you cared for.
Someone who you hate looks eerily like Joel.
You shift to go grab something just as he moves, and the two of you gently collide. Itâs nothing extreme, but Joelâs hand moves to steady you against your lower back.
âSorry.â He mutters, and your eyes flicker to him. Heâs close again. So close you can almost smell the rosemary and pine soap among a scent so deeply Joel. He doesn't move yet. Neither do you.
Thatâs when you catch it, Joelâs deep rust eyes glance away from your gaze and towards your lips.
You wonder if maybe youâre seeing things, or have something on your face. But his hand against your back feels warm, steady, like you never want it to leave. His face ever so slightly begins to pull closer towards you.
You donât want this to stop.
But Bills footsteps clamor to the kitchen. It electrifies both you and Joel causing him to scurry out of the kitchen.
That night youâre unable to sleep.
Frank always offered his collection of books for you to browse through. You decide to glance around and hope something sparks your interest.
Thatâs when a muffled groan floats out into the hallway.
Curiosity and a hint of worry has you walking back towards the rooms.
A choked out sigh comes from Joelâs room and the world melts away.
You need to go back to your room, even head back to the living room.
But you instead lean closer and find the door is slightly cracked like Joel thought he closed it but didnât.
You faintly hear it, the sound of him jerking off. His soft sighs, his hand rubbing out his cock, it makes your mouth dry and water at the same time.
Youâre no better than a creepy pervert, but you canât help it.
Joelâs hand speeds up faster and now your wet core begs for attention already.
Then his climax hits with a deep loud groan, and itâs delicious.
You shift trying to quell the heat crawling all over your body.
But Joel sighs.
And he says your name.
Itâs clear, steals your breath.
Maybe itâs been this recent journey thatâs reminded you how short this life is⊠but whatever galvanized energy it is, it surges through you to move and push into Joelâs room.
Oh heâs a sight.
Your mouth waters seeing his cock, thick, beautiful and messy before itâs covered by the blanket.
Joel scrambles up petrified. âWhat the fuck yâdoing here?!â
âYou said my name,â you whisper slowly creeping towards him while shutting the door behind you.
âYouâre hearinâ shit.â He barks low, angry and harsh.
You swallow hard.
âI think about you too⊠whenever I touch myself.â You admit barely above a whisper.
Joelâs eyebrows fly up to his hairline, but immediately he coughs as if he got punched.
âGo back to your room.â He urges, but itâs not persistent. You shake your head no, and now arrive against the side of his bed.
âWe⊠youâŠthis shouldnât be happeninâ.â He urges.
âYou say youâre a thief, that youâre the bad guy here,â you mutter posessed. âMaybe I am too.â
âDarlinââ Joel breathes out that sacred term, the one youâve prayed to hear again.
Confidence surges through you more toxic than any other poison.
âMaybe I wanna take for once,â you whisper, moving onto the bed. Your eyes glance to the wet white sticky mess against Joelâs stomach and his hand that he didnât cover.
Your mouth aches to taste him.
So flickering your gaze to Joel, itâs a cautious moment and what youâre about to do can fall apart in a minute. But your hand moves delicately, cautious. Your eyes stay on Joel, waiting for him to tell you no or react.
But he doesnât.
You grab his cum covered hand still keeping your eyes on him. Until you glance down at his hand, his calloused beautiful large hand.
He still hasnât pulled away or made a noise to stop you.
Tentatively you lick up his fingers, tasting his release.
âFuck!â Joel barks out a harsh hiss.
Youâre worried heâs going to yank his hand away, but he doesnât. He instead sits up more like heâs been electrocuted.
Itâs enough to let you indulge now.
So you draw his fingers into your mouth.
Theyâre so large. The salty taste of his cum and the taste of his skin on your tongue makes your eyes close as you clean his fingers.
âFuckinâ shit, baby.â You want to hear him say those words over and over, want to cherish how wrecked his voice breaks.
Now, very slowly, Joelâs fingers move in your mouth and you moan. He traces your teeth, drags the meat of his fingers across your tongue and plunges deeper into your mouth.
Your eyes roll back, and on instinct you start sucking.
âYeah darlinâ yeah.â Joe whispers hoarsely, and you want to get drunk on him.
Steady, his fingers plunge in and out, fucking your mouth as you become putty in his hold. His other hand now runs up your thigh, under the edge of your dress.
âWant you so bad Joel.â Even with his fingers in your mouth you whimper out those words maybe mainly to yourself, maybe thinking this is just a dream.
But the way Joel surges up, yanks his hand out of your mouth to clutch your face, and he kisses you like a parched manâŠ
This feels too good to be a dream.
You melt into it, into Joel, greedily stealing all he gives you. Just as you welcome him to steal all he wants from you, and you readily give him everything. No worries about anything else, itâs simply you and him.
When Joel slides into you, deep and wide, when his breath tickles the heat of your skin, you taste the essence of him all around - the world feels reborn.
Joel however, is slightly more reluctant.
âMâtoo old for you.â He argues after the second night you crawl into his room.
âYou think I care?â I simply say running your fingers against his warm chest.
âYou should.â
Well you donât and you tell him that.
Then the dark doubt creeps in.
Because there are other things you should care about.
âAre you doing thisâŠâ
Just to be cruel, to maybe even control you.
Joel sits up holding your hand against his chest. Your eyes met his. Thereâs steeled sincerity in his eyes as he shakes his head.
âNo⊠hate that I wanted you from the start, before all this.â At the party. That feels like ages ago.
You canât help but ask him why, why you.
He sighs, and his thumb strokes your hand.
âSaw you when ya first walked in. You laughed at something your friend said. It was so loud, so fuckinâ genuine.â
Youâre about to apologize, embarrassed, at how loud you laugh until Joel continues.
âKnew you were something fierce, something beautiful. I was gone the minute you smashed that god damn drink in that guy's face.â
He doesnât have to say anything else. So much clouds the room and it feels thick, but itâs like the thickness of a misty morning fog you want to get lost in. You kiss him tenderly, as if you have all the time in the world.
After this a new shift comes between you and Joel. His hands always seem to be on you, gently touching your arm or grazing past you closer. After your nights with him, hickies paint your thighs and you admire them in the morning.
In the dark, Joel tells you more about Tommy, about the plan he has for finding his brother. Even sometimes he reveals bits and pieces about Sarah.
You soak in every moment you can with him. Joel even stays a full day away from the radio helping Bill renovating one of the sheds. Itâs a gift watching Joel work with his hands and tools, like watching the shadow of a past still existing in him.
Your heart becomes a treasure chest holding all these moments.
But something darker still rots in you.
FEDRA still remains silent.
(v)
Summer winds down. Cooler air settles in the town, and you happily enjoy sitting on the porch more and more.
Youâd been eyeing the pomegranate for a few days. Now after Frank happily told you to enjoy, you excitedly and greedily cut into it. Joel even showed you how to earlier.
Currently you sit on the porch enjoying the soft breeze. Frank sits besides you watching Bill work on a project. You laugh at how affectionate the two are even while bickering.
Scooping out a couple of the pomegranate seeds, their beautiful ruby color stains your finger. They taste of a sweetness you never want to leave. Boots approach from behind.
âJoel! Come, sit. Enjoy the nice early autumn weather.â Frank calls and you turn to grin at him.
âFEDRA finally got in contact.â Joelâs words pop the air.
Everything stills.
When you turn towards Joel, the somber stare on his face already reveals the answer.
FEDRA denied the exchange.
The rest of the pomegranate sits uneaten on the porch.
You sit in Joelâs room quietly for what feels like years. The tears donât even come anymore.
âShe can stay here! Sheâd be a welcomed additionâ Frank urges from the living room. âWeâve appreciated all the extra help around here.â
âNo. Take her back.â Bill interjects flat.
Frank shushes his husband.
The conversation becomes low, muffled, and youâre too tired to even try and listen. You instead curl into Joelâs pillow, and let sleep take you.
A callous hand gently stroking your cheeks wakes you. The low early evening light bathes Joel glorious, and you faintly smell wine Joel must have had.
âYou gonna get rid of me now?â You mumble hollow.
Joel shakes his head no.
âToo late for that.â He says with the faintest hint of a crooked grin. âTold ya, Iâm head smuggler for a fuckinâ reason, like to keep whatâs mine close.â
You place your hand over his and squeeze it tight. But the tears manage to return.
âWhatâs gonna happen now?â While you ask, your voice breaks.
Joel exhales.
âDonât know.â He says truthfully.
Youâre grateful heâs being honest. Joelâs dark autumn eyes glance away.
âI know weâll manage, find a car, get Tommy.â He nods to himself.
âButâŠâ he adds with his voice trailing off.
âDonât wanna think about you leaving,â Joel admits with the lowest rumble.
âCanât fuckinâ handle it⊠thinkinâ about not knowinâ how youâre doing, not seeing youâŠâ he shakes his head.
âItâs fuck up. I know itâs god damn fucked up... If you want me to take you back to the QZ, Iâll do it. If you wanna just stay here, Iâd let ya.â Joelâs voice sounds strained, almost debris filled with so many emotions begging to get out.
You slide your hands around him, and he draws you closer. The world might be crumbling again all around you, but he feels like a steady rock amongst it all.
âI donât wanna leave, donât wanna leave you.â You whimper out the truth.
Joel holds you tighter into his strong warm embrace.
That night you fuck Joel like itâs the last time youâll ever see him, and a grim darkness seeping in your mind whispers it might be.
You want every piece of him. So when you open your mouth wide, without any question, Joel runs his thumb across your bottom lip and spits into your mouth. You greedily swallow.
What surprises you is when youâre seated in Joelâs lap, slowly grinding up and down on his thick cock, he weakly opens his mouth as well.
Tenderly stroking his cheek, you gently lean down and let the spit drip from your mouth into his. You feel drunk watching Joelâs eyes roll back as he swallows.
Instead of feral roughness, or a devouring passion, itâs tender, makes your heart swell. Joelâs hands map you out like youâre a cherished rare gem.
In his arms, in the quiet stillness of the room, your heart begs for weeds to start growing around you.
(vi)
From a glance out the window, the pumpkins seem to be flourishing beautifully. Theyâre your first big vegetables youâre growing, with Billâs supervision of course. But youâre proud of the progress nonetheless.
Youâre finishing cleaning the last bit of dishes from breakfast when a sturdy arm slides around you from behind.
For someone so grumpy, Joel is surprisingly and secretly a cuddly creature. His wonderful nose burrows into the side of your face.
âWanna work on the kitchen today,â he mutters.
The old house across the street from Bill and Frankâs has become the new project. While you still stay with Bill and Frank, your hope is to eventually make that empty house a home.
The autumn air invigorates you as you go to visit Frank in his sunroom.
âWill you be okay here by yourself?â You ask him gently.
Frank snorts. âYou and Bill both, such worrywarts.â
Frankâs been moving slower, coughing more. It tugs at your heart. Over the radio you now even ask Tess if thereâs other medication options for him to try.
Youâve grown to care about him, even grouchy Bill and Tess who even seems to warm up to you now.
Itâs your own carved out universe.
Frank good naturedly pats your hand, reassuring you heâll be fine. With a squeeze to his shoulder and a warm goodbye, you head across the street.
Of course Joel takes charge, and itâs hard not to jump his bones seeing how effortlessly he takes to fixing up this house.
The night you decided to stay here, Joel slid you a paper and pen.
âDraw me your dream house.â He told you gruffy.
He kept that very poor drawing. Itâs what guides the renovations. The house is smaller than Bill and Frankâs but to you, itâs a perfect size.
âYou know I can do it myself, make Bill work too.â Joel had told you when you first showed up to help.
âI know, but I wanna help. Wanna know my elbow grease went into everything too.â You told Joel with a grin.
He didnât shoo you away after that. Now you get to help around when you can. The sanded cabinets and freshly painted walls, all fruits of your labor and youâre excited, proud, seeing the house come together. Itâs breathing life into his dusty space, and you cherish it.
Eventually you head back to Bill and Frankâs.
Frank calls to you. âThe radio came on.â
With Joel throwing himself into fixing up the house, interestingly enough youâve become his stand in. Itâs how you and Tess slowly began bonding. Youâve told her FEDRA routes and patrol changes and sheâs in turn gossiped about whatâs been happening in Boston.
You miss it often, but the peace of walking to visit your pumpkins, to helping Frank at breakfast, of having Joel in your bedâŠitâs like a new breath in your lungs.
âHey.â You greet Tess.
She says your name, somber and you still.
âYour momâŠshe finally got in contact with us.â
You inhale shakily. A part of you had wondered if your mom would do something like this.
Finally managing to get a hold of a battery, your mom is offering to trade it for you.
A wave of fear does grip you. You donât want to leave, donât want to go back. But you also miss her dearly.
When Joel returns, beautifully coated in sweat and saw dust, heâs like a construction god. But seeing your face, he instantly understands somethingâs up.
In the seclusion of your room, you tell Joel youâll return to Boston, and his eyes become moons.
âYou donât have to go back.â Joel whispers to you later that night. âCan say we want more.â
You shake your head.
Your mom has been through enough, and Joel needs this.
âYou need to find Tommy.â
His hand curls against your face holding your cheek so precious. âWeâll find another battery, or hell Iâll take one of Billâs. Donât want ya feeling like youâre forced to go back.â
This has all been out of your control and now, you have a say.
Youâll return with Joel, but you wonât be fully returning to your life in Boston either. Youâll exist between these two worlds now, visiting your mom and primarily staying with Joel.
Your mom wonât be happy about this, you can almost hear her fury already. But this is what you want. Itâs the journey your path will take.
âYâokay with this?â Joel suddenly asks before leaving the gate to the town. His eyes search yours. âYou donât have to do this, especially for me.â
You understand what he means, but this is for you.
Gently you draw Joel towards you and kiss him soft.
With the smuggler king, you walk firmly into the sunlight. The early autumn breeze gently guides you forward.
#I blame both playlists I have for hades & perspjone & all the sleep token songs Iâve on repeat but again here we are lol#if youâre reading this know I really do appreciate it and me and hades Joel love you to the ends of the world#Pedro pantheon#hades!joel miller#Joel miller x f!reader#Joel miller x reader#joel miller x you#Joel miller fic#joel miller fanfiction#Joel đ€#pedrostories#cw dark content#tw dark content
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intimacy
Masterlist 11
thinking ofâŠintimacy starved characters, always listening to whatever you have to say and speaking whatever strikes their mind and heart with you, not so much lingering for your touch but when they will be able to see you again and what youâre doing if ever away, only their eyes rest on you whenever the crowds pass by or another tries to take your attention away, they know your desires and fears just as theyâve entrusted to you, a connection that runs deeper with each other than most
#critical role#assassin's creed#castlevania#trevor belmont x reader#jjk#jujutsu kaisen#headcanons#jjk x reader#dragon age veilguard#writeblr#red dead redemption 2#emmrich x rook#arthur morgan#joel miller#lucanis x rook#house of the dragon#joel miller x reader#aemond targaryen#hades game x reader#trigun vash the stampede#trigun x reader#horizon zero dawn#aloy horizon x reader#the last of us#exophilia#din dijarin x reader#matt murdock#alucard castlevania x reader#mha hawks#dungeon meshi
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Donât Look Back
Jackson!Joel Miller Angst
a/n: hi! this is my first foray into writing angstâ I thought a lot about this story and owe @slimybeth69 so much credit for holding my hand through it, helping me brainstorm and looking over parts of this for me. I was super inspired by the myth of Orpheus and this idea came to me. It might be crap, i will not be offended if you think itâs crap. I do recommend reading this lil blurb about the myth of Orpheus as it will be referenced (slightly) throughout the story. The synopsis is based on my personal knowledge and a blurb found on Britanica. There are many amazing, proper editions of this myth and I recommend reading that for more information if you are interested!
the events are not 100% canon â donât come for me okay? they do take place in TLOU 2 but they arenât perfect or factual, I just shaped it to fit the narrative of this story.
thank you to @saradika-graphics for the beautiful dividers đ€
tw: angst, death, mentions of suicide, mentions of suicidal thoughts, grief, lots of hard feelings, falling out with family, overall sadness, Minors DNI!
In the Greek myth of Orpheus, son of Apollo and Calliope, he was gifted a lyre by Apollo. Orpheusâ singing and playing were so moving that animals and even rocks and trees moved about him in dance. He then married Eurydice, the love of his life who was taken from him too soon. Bitten by a snake on the day of their wedding, she was sent to the underworld, leaving Orpheus in the world of the living. Orpheus went to the underworld to beg Hades for her return. His music and grief moved Hades so much that he allowed Orpheus to bring Eurydice back to the world of the living, under one condition: upon leaving the underworld, the couple were not permitted to look back. They walked towards the world of the living, and in celebration of seeing the sun, Orpheus looked back to Eurydice and she disappeared. Some tales say that Orpheus sat at the entrance to the underworld, lamenting and playing his lyre for the rest of eternity until the Gods took pity on him and put him out of his mercy, allowing Orpheus to reunite with Eurydice in the underworld.Â
Joelâs body groaned awake, the sneaking rays of sun gently climbing through his shaded windows, caressing the fine lines that rested on his face. With a grunt, he slowly moved out of bed, stretching his neck and back after a long night of rest.Â
Today was an average day for Joel; a simple shift at the stables, minding the horses and mending whatever was in need of mending at the barns, then a pit stop at The Tipsy Bison on his way home.
Things had been quiet since Ellie left. He hadnât quite found a way to mend the hole she left in his heart. While Tommy and Maria had initially made an effort to include him socially, or pop over for visits with his nephew, the young child reminded him too much of the children he lost. His time in Jackson had softened him, allowing that small glimmer of hope to shine in his chest that maybe, just maybe, he would see Ellie again. That she would come back to him. That she would forgive him. But hope is futile.Â
As Joel made his way outside, he noticed the weathered guitars that sat by the front, covered in a thin layer of dust, yearning to be strummed once more. Isnât that how Orpheus died? Strumminâ ân cryinâ til the gods put him outta his misery? Joel thinks to himself, turning away from the lonely instruments and heading down his front porch.Â
He could remember it clear as dayâ Sarah had come racing in the door with a new book from the school library. A tattered novel filled with Greek myths and photos of ancient ruins. She would spend hours explaining the myths and lessons behind them to Joel, a hot topic of discussion at breakfast.Â
âWhat kinda idiot looks back!?â She scolded the God, baffled how he could have failed his relatively easy and simple promise to Eurydice.Â
âMaybe he loved her so much that he couldnât help it? He had to see her?â Tommy shares as he takes a bite of his toast. Joel shot him a look of confusion, eyebrow raised and a scowl forming on his lips, resulting in an innocent shrug from Tommy.Â
âWhat! You ainât ever loved a gal so much you couldnât not look at âer?â He laughs, his words striking Joel right in the chest.Â
He had.Â
That is how he felt the moment he held Sarah for the first time. The small babe, barely large enough to fit in the palm of his hand, cradled gently into his chest. He knew from that moment that she would be the love of his life. He had never felt a love like this before, not even for her mother. Joel would go to hell and back for Sarah, make a deal with any devil, but he also knew that if she had been stripped from him like Eurydice, he would look. He couldnât bear not to see his girl. That would kill him.Â
Hell, it nearly did.
Much like Eurydice, Sarah had died knowing she was loved. In that final look back, cradled tightly in Joelâs arms, she knew he loved her.Â
Joel felt his heart ache for his lost girls. The ones he tried to save. The ones he couldnât save. He understood that bastard Orpheus now. That all-consuming grief and to have felt it not once, but twice? It was nearly unbearable. If he could, Joel too would lament forever, sitting on his porch with his guitar, letting the strings weep the tears Joel refused to shed.
Itâs moments like this where Joel wishes he hadnât flinched on that day early into the outbreak. But Joel had to keep walking. He had to. He couldnât let himself fall back into the sounds and memories of the past, rewatching them play over and over in his mind, being harshly reminded of his mistakes â his failures â his inability to save the people he loved. If that small glimmer of hope that lived deep within his chest said anything to Joel, it was that he had to keep walking. If he had any chance of fixing things with Ellie, he had to keep walking. He learned his lesson, or so he thought. He couldnât look back.Â
A stillness fell over Joel as he approached the barn, its ancient wooden structure patched together like an old quilt. There was a spark of anticipation that lingered in the air, something Joel couldnât quite put his finger on. It made his skin prickle and the gentle curls on the back of his neck stand on high alert. His heart stopped as he scanned the horizon for clickers or raiders, wondering if his subconscious was trying to tell him something.Â
As Joel rounded the corner to the barn, the only sound to be heard was the soft munching of hay and Dan mumbling to himself. Dan was a familiar face from patrol, someone who had done several shifts with Joel over the years. A fairly decent guy who just wanted to get the job done and go home to his wife, something Joel respected.Â
Commotion arose as Joel started to step into the stables. The large doors to the barn swung open with a thundering bang, sending the horses into a wild frenzy, bucking frantically in every direction. A flash of panic skates across Danâs face as he tries to calm the horse in his grip, dropping a bucket of apples in the process.
âShh, shh, itâs okay girl.â He tries to soothe the wild horse beside him, holding the reigns for dear life, as he puts his free hand out to calm another.
âWhat the fuck is going on, Dan!?â Joel yells across the barn, trying to be heard over the high pitched squeals and neighs coming from the band of horses. He rushes in, arms spread to try and tame the majestic creatures. Joel could see Dan lift his gaze towards him, a puzzled look on his face, eyes squinting at Joel before his attention was brought back to the horse beside him, a sharp neigh piercing their ears.Â
âShimmer, shhh, donât worry! Sheâll be here soon tâsee you.â Dan continues to murmur to the horse, petting her snout as he slowly coaxes her.Â
Shimmer? Sâin Ellieâs horse?? Ellieâs here!? Joelâs mind racesâ howâd no one tell me that Ellie was here?!Â
âDan! Ellieâs here!?â Joel frantically shouts over the horses again, his heart rate skyrocketing as he tries to tame them into a calmer state. Out of the corner of his eye, Joel notices his horse, Callus. Slowly approaching the large animal, hand out reached to the bucking stallion, murmuring sweet words of endearment, coaxing the animal back into a calmer state.Â
I knew ya were a good horse, Joel smirks to himself as he gives Callus some gentle pats of encouragement. He quickly focused back on the bucking mare in front of him, trying not to get kicked in the side of the head.
âDan, buddy! A lil help here!!â Joel yells back again, trying to catch his buddies attention as he puts his hand out to the mare.
âOh shit, Iâm gonna be late!â Dan hisses, petting shimmer one last time before racing out of the barn, leaving Joel with the tantruming horses.Â
âAnd Iâm the one with shit hearing.â Joel grumbles, rolling his eyes as he starts to surrender to the horses, nervously backing away from the squealing animals and towards his own.Â
âWhat happened buddy?â Joel asks Callus as if he could reply, gently petting the animalsâ long snout. Joel had such loyalty to the steed, he had gotten Joel out of many sticky situations and home safe more times than he could count. The gentle affection that Callus gave him was often the only affection Joel received these days. The horse whines in response, as if he was griping along with Joel, turning to nuzzle his head into Joelâs shoulder. At least you love me, Joel thinks to himself as he brushes the velvety fur of the large animal. He sees the other horses in the pen continuing to grow restless, bucking their legs in the air and bleating.Â
This was out of character for the horses, especially Ellieâs horse Shimmer. She knew Joel and was easily calmed by him, yet his presence was working her up even more. What in the hell is out there that spooked them? This couldnât just be because of the door?
Joel could feel the panic starting to rise in his chest, itâs one thing to control one wild horse, but an entire barn full?! This was beyond Joelâs scope, he had to call in reinforcements to get these horses settled.Â
âIâll be back.â He promises Callus, patting him once more on his back hip before sprinting out of the barn.Â
That lingering feeling continued to fill Joel with dread. He scanned the area for anyone who would possibly help him, but the area was sparse. Where is everyone? Was there something going on that he didnât know about? What did the horses know that he didnât?? Were they all with Ellie? Where is Ellie? Fuck, did something happen to Ellie?!
Something inside of Joel started to twist and turn. What the fuck was going on? Why didnât someone come to tell him? Where the fuck was Tommy?Â
Tommy.Â
That mother fucker. Whatever is going on, Tommy either knows and isnât saying anything or he should know and is completely oblivious to the weirdness among town today.
Making good on his word, Joel returned to the barn to see Callus one last time. His noble steed had moved from his resting place in the hay to a windowed spot by the barn door, as if he was anxiously waiting for Joelâs return.Â
As Joel approached, poking his head through the little window, he was shocked by the sudden calm that had fallen over the horses. What the actual fuck?
âThey musta seen a snake âr somethinâ, eh buddy?â Joel mumbles slowly under his breath to the horse, patting his snout again as he tries to piece together the odd scene that had just played out in front of him.Â
Joelâs mind was filled with questions as he walked back towards the bar to find Tommy. These swirling questions were trying to wrap themselves around the strange events of today. Today was supposed to be a normal day. He felt sick, knowing that Ellie was in town and not a single soul came to tell him. Not even his own brother. Yeah, they werenât on speaking terms at the moment after a whiskey fueled blow out a few weeks after Ellie left. Tommy just didnât know when to fucking stop talking sometimesâ there was no comparison to Ellie, let alone Sarah âand yeah, Joel loved his nephew but Tommy sayinâ that the kid could fill the gap that those girls left in Joelâs heart was dumb. And Joel told him so. In less kinder language, but he told him so. With a broken whiskey tumbler and a slammed door, The Miller brotherâs stopped speaking to one another.
But Tommy would tell him that Ellie was back? Even if they werenât speaking? He knew what this would mean to Joel.Â
Unless Tommy hated him too.Â
Sarah would be so disappointed. Seeing the two of them like this? The only family she ever knew split up and not speaking. She would be embarrassed of Joel, of his immature behaviour and hardened manner. This wasnât the kind, loving dad she once had. She would have marched Joel over and made him apologize, immediatelyâ with warm cookies! To which Joel would have mumbled something about how Tommy would probably prefer a cold case of beer, but nope! Warm cookies.Â
Joel silently promised her that once he got things sorted with Ellie, he would go over to Tommyâs and properly apologize. He may not know how to bake cookies, but heâd find something. Something of the likeness of Sarah to help bandage the emotional wounds he caused. He would vow to do better, if not for himself, but for the sake of Sarah.Â
A flash of auburn hair pulled Joel from his thoughtsâ was that Ellie?
His pace quickened as he tried to follow the girl, trying to confirm that it was in fact Ellie. She suddenly stopped in her tracks, suspiciously looking over her shoulder towards Joel.Â
Holy shit, it was Ellie.
Before Joelâs brain could register that it was her, his lungs were screaming out, hands cupping his mouth to amplify his dark, gravely voice. Without a single flinch, she kept moving, ignoring Joelâs call and entering the thick wooden doors of The Tipsy Bison.Â
Fuck, she must be really mad, Joel thinks to himself, feeling that small glimmer of hope that lived deep in his chest slowly shrivel up and disappear as he approaches the enterance to the bar. Tempted to go in after her, yet Joel couldnât bring himself to go in. Ellie needed space, she has made that abundantly clear. The least Joel could do was respect it.Â
He couldnât blame Ellieâ what he had done to her was unfair â stripping her of one of the few choices she had in this fucked up world, and then to lie about it? That was the worst thing he could have done. At his grown age, he should know this by now, having lectured not one but two daughters and a mangey brother about how awful lying is. âI canât help you if you lie, Sarahâ, âI canât get you out of trouble if you arenât honest with me, Tommyâ, âEllie, lying hurts peoples feelingsâ, âWhen you lie, I canât trust you, Joel.âÂ
He was trying to protect her. Even with the best intentions, much like that bastard, Orpheus, he fucked up. This was a possibly irreversible mistake with severe consequences, and that killed Joel. Nearly more than the guilt he had harboured holding onto that lie. Letting it grow and wrap itself around his insides like a big fat, hairy tumor with teeth. He had to let it out because Ellie deserved the truth. And while the repercussions of his actions may be the very death of him, he had no regrets. He would do it again, and again, in every life, to save Ellie.Â
The one daughter he could save.Â
If this is his penance, so be it. At least he knew she was safe and home. Maybe Tommy or Maria will talk some sense into her, help her understand why Joel had done what he had done. Or at least help her find the grace to forgive him, even just a little. And if sheâd give him the chance, he would do anything and everything to fix this. A clean slate, a new leafâ whatever Ellie needed Joel would do.
She looked older, her hair longer than it had been when she left, half up in a way that reminded Joel of Tess. He wondered what kind of adventures she had been on and how things were going with Dina. He wanted so desperately to give her the copy of Back to the Future that he had found on a scouting mission a while back, remembering their extensive conversations about it and wanting to hold true to his promise to her. Maybe Tommy could be the middle man? He thought, leaning against the rickety planks that made up The Tipsy Bison.Â
He was so lost in thought that he nearly missed Ellie leaving the bar, walking fiercely in the direction of Joelâs home, mumbling under her breath. Her shoulders were hunched over, hugging her arms close to her body as she marched forward, leaving Joel trailing behind.Â
âEllie, wait!â Joel shouts, trying to catch up to her brisk pace.Â
ââI donât even know how we even got here,â Ellie gasps out, her voice muddled and dry. It sounded like she had been crying.Â
âGot where, Ellie? Whatâre you talkinâ âbout?â Joel asks, still a few steps behind the girl, trying to respect her space. âWhat happened?â He prods softly, following her around the corner into their neighbourhood.Â
âItâs just all so fucked up! Fuck!â She sobs, kicking a neighbours mailbox, wincing gently at the impact of her foot to the wooden post. Joel felt himself grimace at her anger, he knew this was his fault. He deserved her silence. There were a million things that he wanted to say to Ellie, but he knew at that moment that the best thing he could do is shut up and listen.Â
âI donât even know what the fuck youâd want, Joel.â She sighs, stopping as she approaches the front steps of what was once their house, leaning gently on the little black mailbox that has âThe Millerâsâ scrawled across it in white paint.Â
âI want whatever will make you happy, Ellie. I will do whatever I got to tâbuild your trust again.â Joel murmurs softly, still a respectful distance from Ellie, watching her trace the white letters with her fingers, a single tear falls from her cheek as she looks up towards his house. Joel watches Ellie sigh deeply, the rise and fall of her shoulders giving her courage to move forward up the steps to their house.Â
Sheâs home. These are baby steps! This is a start. For the first time in ages, Joel could believe that little glimmer of hope in his chest. He could feel it radiating warmth throughout his body, tightening his throat as he sucked back happy tears that threatened to fall. His girl was home.Â
He followed Ellie up the steps, watching as she paused to grab his guitar. The lonely guitar that had waited so patiently for its duet partner to return, ready and waiting to be strummed once again. She held the neck delicately, blowing some of the dust off of the polished wood, her small hands holding the guitar close. Her soft grasp was juxtaposed with a sudden rigidity in her back and shoulders.Â
âIâm gonna find who did this to you.â She hisses, opening the door to the house and slamming it, leaving Joel stunned on the porch.
What in the fuck was she talking about? Who was she talking about? Confusion once again swirling around in Joelâs head for the millionth time that day. He went to reach for the door knob when the front door suddenly swung open, Ellie barreling through with her arms filled with some of Joelâs possessions; a Linda Ronstadt record, some flannel shirts, the watch that Sarah gave him and his guitar strapped to her back.Â
âWhere in the hell are you goinâ off with my stuff?!â Joel barks, furious at the thievery taking place before his eyes. The least Ellie could do was ask, she knows he would say yes! Ellie continues to ignore him, marching back towards The Tipsy Bison, rambling on and on about how she is going to get payback.Â
Payback for what?
âEllie, can yâplease just stop for a fuckinâ minute ân throw me a bone here? Yâre runninâ off with my stuff, the least ya can do is acknowledge me, damn it!â Joel shouts, his pace quickening to catch up with hers. That glimmer of hope is now replaced with sheer rage. This little punk. Joel knew he still had no business disrespecting Ellieâs space and wishes, but heâd be damned if he let her run off with his favourite things without so much as a short acknowledgement. Heâd raised her better than that.Â
She powered through, pushing the doors to The Tipsy Bison open, Joel following closely behind. The bar was quiet for the afternoon, a small group of people were gathered around a table at the back. As Joel got closer, he started to recognize them, Dan from patrol and his wife, a couple of nice folk from the stables, Maria and Tommy, and then Ellie, who was laying all of Joelâs items out on the table.Â
âIâm sorry, kiddo. I know this fuckinâ sucks.â Tommy says softly, placing a gentle hand on her shoulder. âI remember when my mom died, I was your age. It fuckinâ sucked.â
Yeah, it did suck. Dad wouldnât get outta bed and we had to do all the planninâ â wait, died? Who the hell died?!
âAre you sure you donât wanna let us handle this?â Maria asks cautiously, knowing the weight that this would place on Ellieâs shoulders.Â
âYeah, no offence, but Joel would hate whatever you guys would plan.â Ellie says with a morbid chuckle, âItâs the least I can do. I feel like I owe it to him, ya know? We were about to turn a new leafâ I was going to invite him to watch a movie with me and Dina that night.â She sighs a tired sigh, her voice sounding like she is crying but no tears come. âMaybe, if I had just asked, Joel wouldnât have been home. That this wouldnât have happened. That he wouldnât be dead.â Ellieâs voice breaks on the last word, her tears finally falling as Maria and Tommy hush her, cradling the young girl in their arms.Â
Joel felt his whole body go cold. He was dead? How could he not remember dying? How could he not remember seeing Ellie? What in the fuck is going on. This has to be some sick fucking joke that theyâre all playing, some weird April fools prank that his old heart couldnât fucking handle. God, he was gonna give it to Tommy once they snapped out of it.Â
âIâm gonna go check out the spot you guys picked. Make sure itâs not shit.â Ellie mumbles softly into Mariaâs shoulder, her brash comments eliciting a chuckle from Tommy.Â
âAlright kiddo, you know where to find us.â Tommy quietly replies, pulling out a chair to sit at the table filled with Joelâs belongings.Â
Ellieâs footsteps slowed as she approached the quiet cemetery. Joel waited impatiently for the rest of the gang to sneak up on him and spook him, or shove him into an open grave as the cherry on top of their sick joke.Â
But there was something about the solemn look on Ellieâs face that scared Joel. Her usually bright eyes were dark and sunken, red lining the amber of her eyes and her voice was raspy and aged. She couldnât be this good of an actress, her inability to hold in a giggle when reciting her dad jokes was more than enough evidence to prove that she couldnât act if her life depended on it.
Was this why everyone had been acting so strangely today? Because they were mourning him? But he woke up in his bed, like he did every day� Was this purgatory? Oh fuck, is this hell??
Noâ Joel is not dead. He canât be. He fucking woke up this morning and went to work! The way he does every day. This is a sick joke as payback for Joel mistreating everyone, some twisted version of a Christmas Carol where Joel will come out the other end redeemed and live happily ever afterâŠafter apologizing to Tommy and Ellie.
His logic made sense until Ellie stopped in front of a grave; a 6 foot abyss staring right back at her, threatening to suck her in. The dirt was piled beside the ashy grey tombstone that harshly read Joel Miller across the top.Â
âFuck you, Joel.â Ellie solemnly curses under her breath, sitting beside the heavy stone. She slowly leaned onto it, imagining it were Joelâs broad shoulder. âIâm so mad at you for dying.â She adds slowly, picking up a small rock and starting to build a pile beside the tombstone. âYou promised me so many things, and now youâre dead. All because of me.â Ellie cries, wiping her snot and running tears on her sleeve, âyou didnât even finish teaching me that stupid song.âÂ
Joel couldnât believe the sight before him. That was his name scrawled across that tombstone, matching the one his parents had, similar to the one Sarah deserved to have. He was dead and in a few short hours, his cold, dead, battered body would be buried in that hole in the ground, like the many bodies Joel had buried in his twenty plus years of living in this hellscape.Â
He felt so incomplete. He wanted to live! He wanted to live for Sarah.
There was a reason that bullet hadnât killed him! He was meant to live! He had so much left to teach Ellie. Memories to create with his small family, traditions for him and Tommy to pass along to their kids. Fuck, Tommyâ he died and the last words Joel said to his brother were so despicable that he couldnât even bear to repeat them to himself. He didnât get to tell a single one of them that he loved them, let alone how much. And selfishly? He died without hearing it back.
Joel knew that it was over, but he was so scared. Was this how Sarah felt when she died? What happens now!? His life was just starting to begin again, and now itâs gone. Itâs over.
Picking up the final rock to her small pile, similar to the one she watched Joel build after Tess died, she sighed, the look of fear and grief filling her eyes, a look Joel knew all too well. âIâm going to miss you every day for the rest of my life.â She whispers softly, her voice breaking on almost every word. In a blurred mess of tears, she places the final stone at the top of the pile beside Joelâs resting place, and with one final sob she stands up wiping her hands on her jeans before turning back to the front gates of the cemetery.Â
When that bastard Orpheus finally died, he was reunited with his love, Eurydice, who greeted him into the afterlife. But that was only a myth, a tale made up to teach you a lesson. Maybe thatâs exactly it. Maybe this was Joelâs lessonâ or punishment, for all the cruel misdeeds he committed in order to survive this hellscape they called life. He had hoped many times that if God were real, he would be reunited with Sarah when his time came. That seeing her bright, smiling face once more would ease his grief of his life ending and provide him a comfort he had desired for decades. That last look back to bring him peace in his final moments.
But this isnât a myth. Sarah wasnât here, waiting for him to appear, to hold his hand once more and help him cross over in their long awaited reunion.
No one held him in their arms as life slowly drained from his eyes, and his pulse started to slow, whispering sweet nothings into his ear to calm his fear. He was alone. Even in death, no one looked back for Joel Miller. Â
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#tessa's assets#joel miller#pedro pascal#joel miller thoughts#joel miller x reader#joel miller fanfiction#Joel miller angst#Tommy Miller#Jackson!Joel#ellie williams#TLOU#TLOU 2#Sarah Miller
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#the last of us#god of war#hades#the witcher#yakuza#red dead redemption#dishonored#ace attorney#not an exhaustive list but these r my favs!!#talking
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pairing: tommy miller x fem!reader
genre: smut, soft enemies to lovers, minors dni
word count: 3.4k
summary: when you met him the first time him and his brother was your captor, months later he becomes yours, and quickly after that he become a resident of Jackson. You've already forgiven him for his past, but he's not happy with how eager you are to excuse what he's done.
warnings: tommy having a hero complex, tommy lashing out, piv sex, time skips, oral (giving & receiving)
a/n: the format I've written this in is inspired by @littlemisspascal 's getting lost is being found joel fic, which I highly recommend by the way it was amazing, one of my favorite things ever đ
i.
The world went to shit, well joke on the world, your life was already shit long before outbreak day.Â
It wasnât for a lack of trying. Nothing just seemed to work out for you. But then all hell broke loose and suddenly it felt like you were off the hook, that you could be someone else, someone you always wanted to be. Someone that you knew you were. Before all this, you were just hurt, felt broken, but still smiled and went about your day. You tried to be good. Tried to be nice. For the most part, you like to think that you succeeded.Â
You became a guide. Somewhat similar to Charon, if you spared yourself the thought but instead of guiding the dead to Hades, you guided the living away from it. Things went smooth for the most part, you helped people where they needed to go, killed infected, shot down those who shot first. It was the oddest type of freedom that you felt.Â
But life had other plans, and life loved to point its middle finger right into your face.Â
Itâs a dad and his two kids this time, you were helping them get to the nearest QZ. You cut the fence, helped them through, you knew hunters were lurking nearby, people who survived on killing and stealingâvultures.Â
You feel a tight grip on your neck and youâre being violently pulled back. The kids look back at you with horror lingering in their eyes, the dad eager to pull them away. With a deep breath, you manage to force out a smile.Â
âGo!â you shout. âYouâre almost there!âÂ
And they run, they run as fast as they can.Â
âFuck!â you hear one of them say, a deep souther drawl heavy in your ear. âShit, they got away. They had good weapons on them too.âÂ
âAt least we got the one,â the man that holds you answers. âLetâs go back, see what this one has.âÂ
âLet me the fuck go!â you struggle, attempting to elbow him in the stomach. âYou fucking assholes. They were fucking kids.âÂ
Finally one comes into view, heâs broadâbroad enough to stun you into silence. The fear of death lurks around your heart, sucking you into a black pit of realizing that this might be it. He has a glare that could kill, a hooked nose, and, most importantly, a gun. This man, you notice, this man would kill you in a heartbeat. He gives you one last once-over before tilting his head to the other holding you down.Â
âKnock her out, Tommy.âÂ
ii.Â
Itâs late. Far too late for anyone to be awake. The embers of the crackling fire had died down, only specks of golden orange shimmering between the ash. Youâve learned the names of your captors; Tommy and Joel. Brothers, you assumed, they didnât really have to spell it out for it to be obvious.Â
Youâre not sure why youâre still alive. You remember Joel muttering something about using you as bait, or to learn more about the routes that you seemed to know. Tommy had agreed.Â
In another life, another time, you wouldâve deemed the men attractive. Especially Tommy. He had a boyish charm to him, longer hair compared to his brother (those poor dark locks had definitely seen better days), and mussed unkempt facial hair indicating that theyâd been at this for a long time. You understand, to a degree, why someone might choose this to survive. Some people just didnât know what else to do. Some people simply enjoyed it; the power, the freedom, the giddiness of not having a system to say no.Â
From what you understand, these two just had no idea what else to do. Too far off to reach a QZ, or they simply donât trust FEDRA, whatever it is they seem to have made a life for themselves neither of them looked happy to be in.Â
Your eyes fall to where Joel is sleeping, Tommyâs on watch, which makes you somewhat hopeful, you donât have the strength to piss off JoelâTommy you can take a chance with, he seemed softer. Softer like a rose, pricking you if youâre too lax and not careful enough.Â
Youâve been captured before, and due to that, it doesnât take long for you to free yourself from the hard ropes they tied you in. You hold your breath as you move away from the camp, careful not to step on any branches or rubble. You see Tommy ahead, heâs looking at you, the moonlight reflecting in his eyes. You expect him to shoot, to chase after you.Â
He continues to stare as you disappear into the night.Â
ii.
You see a lot of dead bodies by the riverbed. Some infected, some not. You think about turning around, walking back to where you came from but before you can make a decision youâre surrounded. Your hands rise instantly, not wanting to cause trouble. Multiple rifles are pointed directly at you, and you notice a cute black dog but you have an inkling you wonât be feeling the same in a couple of minutes.Â
âIâm not here to cause trouble,â you say, the cold seeping through your jacket. âJust lost. Iâm not infected.âÂ
âNaive for you to think weâll believe you,â one of the horsemen answers. âYou mind if we test that out?â
You didnât mind, but even if you did, you doubt you have any say in the matter. The dog comes forward, ears pressed against his skull, and you instinctively reach out your hand. You canât really feel the wetness of his nose, but you can imagine it as he presses into your gloved palm. A moment later he starts wagging his tail.Â
A horse, along with its rider, steps up and everyone looks nervously at the equestrian. You straighten yourself and notice that even the dog pulls away, the energy she has demands respect, and oozes power. You swallow, looking up at her with both amusement and fear.Â
"You can come with us," she says, and without hesitation, one of the men helps you up onto the horse they're riding. Your hands fumble nervously as you grab onto the horse's shoulders, trying to steady yourself.
Youâre not dead yet so you must be doing something right.Â
iv.Â
You trudge through the biting snow, your skin prickles with cold and the relentless flakes melt as soon as they touch your skin. You shudder. The cold is almost unbearable, but everyone has to pull their weight, no exceptions. Narrowing your eyes,, you spot a lone figure struggling in the snow. The way he moves is sluggish and ungainly, like a snail inching its way along a path.
With a sharp whistle, you signal to your companions to follow. They circle around the body with hesitation; itâs a man, a man that is somewhat familiar to you. The stranger groans and turns to his back, chest heaving heavily, you notice the tremble of his lips, the redness of his nose. You even notice the build-up of snow in his hair.
You know him. You have no idea how he ended up all the way here, but you know him. Getting off the horse, you shake your head. You don't know him, not really. You only know his name and what he represents.
Ian approaches, his eyes questioning as he asks, "What should we do? Should we leave him?"
âI know him,â you say, a hint of amusement in your voice due to the irony. âLetâs take him in. Iâll talk to Maria.âÂ
His eyes flutter open, a brief expression of confusion appearing on his features. You canât help but lean over a bit, hands placed on your hips.Â
âYouâre not dead yet. Donât worry.âÂ
But as soon as the words leave your lips, Tommy loses consciousness.
v.Â
Heâs alone at the bar. Heâs always alone.Â
Initially, Maria was reluctant to let Tommy stay, but for some reason, you vouched for him. You deeply believe that everyone deserves a second chance. A slightly foolish, maybe even childish, thought on your part but you canât help it. In his eyes you only see parts of a broken man, his belief in the world shattered and gone with the wind.Â
Tommy struggles with socializing. He says hi and good morning but thatâs pretty much all anyone can get out of him. Youâre the only one who knows he has a brother, what heâs done. Heâs especially annoyed when youâre around, which you think is a little bit unfair but you digress. He does what heâs told and handy with most thingsâwhich is lucky for you, you would hear a handful if he couldnât do anything.Â
You want to talk to him, you have ever since you first saw him again. Hoping that this time itâll be different, you sit near him not next to him. There are two empty seats between you two.Â
âHi,â you greet him, he doesnât look at you. In fact, he doesnât acknowledge you at all. âHow are you?âÂ
No answer.Â
âYouâre not having any issues right? You know, heating, water pressure, all that jazz.âÂ
Youâre not surprised at the least when he gets up and leave, not a word uttered. He pushes past the crowd and disappears through the door, into the cold. Unlike other times, this is the first instance where anger simmers hot in your gut. Youâve been nothing but patient. But not tonight. Heâs going to talk to you whether he likes it or not.Â
With anger in your steps, you storm out. Luckily, heâs not far. You find him staring up at the undecorated Christmas tree. Normally, you would find it a somber sight, but youâre too frustrated to think about how good he looks with snow falling around him.Â
âTommy!â you yell out, and he flinches, head snapping to you with wide eyes. âWhat the hell is your deal?âÂ
âMy deal?â he answers, voice eerily smooth and calm. âI should be fuckinâ asking you that.âÂ
Youâre standing an inch from him, the cold biting into your skin. âMy deal? Iâve been nothing but nice to you. Wouldnât wanna play that card but may I remind you that youâre fucking alive because of me? You could at least not be an asshole.âÂ
âSure you wanna go that route sweetheart? Because I could easily say the same thing for you.âÂ
That nightâthe night that you escaped, so he did see you. All this time you convinced yourself that it was your eyes playing tricks in the dark. You shake your head, wanting to dislodge the moment from your mind.Â
âThat still doesnât answer my question,â you hiss. âWhy are you avoiding me? I just want to talk.âÂ
âJust leave me the fuck alone. You shouldnât want to talk to meâ someone like you⊠It ainât normal. I shouldâve died that night. I didnât ask you to fuckinâ save me.âÂ
Youâre taken aback by the silent rage but refuse to show him the effect he has. The only indication that his words had any kind of result is when you take a step back, allowing him some semblance of space.Â
âYouâre right, you didnât,â you say softly, slowly. His gaze bores into you. âBut I did. And youâre here. I didnât save you that night to just make a point of whoâs the better person. As you said, you allowed me to go that nightâthank you by the wayâbut what are you going to do, just not talk to me? Ignore me? I donât think thatâs fair for either of us.â
You stand frozen as Tommy takes a step closer, his breath hot against your skin.Â
"What do you want from me?" he growls, his voice low and threatening.
You try to take a step back but he follows, closing the gap between you. You can feel the heat emanating from his body, a stark contrast to the frigid air around you. His lips curl into a slight sneer, and you can't help but feel a slight twinge of fear.
"You're always so nice, aren't you?" he says, his voice dripping with sarcasm. "But what do you really want? You want me to be your little pet? Fixing me up like some broken toy. Well, newsflash, sweetheart, I'm not broken. I'm just fine the way I am."
"Thatâs notâ" you say, your voice barely above a whisper. "That wasnât my intention at all. The world is shit, I just didnât want to add to it."
Tommy scoffs, his eyes glinting with anger. "But you did by keeping me alive. I did horrible things, things you canât even imagine. So don't pretend like you understand me, because you don't."
âI know the shit you did Tommy. I was almost one of your victims, remember?â
His eyes drop to the ground, the fire in his eyes finally fading. He takes a quick step back, shoulder slumped, he shakes his head.Â
âI remember. There ainât a day I donât remember the shit Iâve doneâweâve done with my brother.âÂ
Tommy gives you one last look before walking away, âI donât need your pity.âÂ
Half an hour later, youâre still standing there under the snow, completely alone.Â
vi.
Itâs a dance almost. You find different ways for Tommy to communicate with you. You unlock his anger, his disappointment, his need to be goodâthe hero, if you will. But to be fair, you canât take all the credit. It was mostly due to him, you got too close, and he got too frustrated. It was a brief moment of lips touching, then it quickly turned into a desperate ask for submission. You were eager to give, he hated that. Hated that you could when he couldnât.Â
You know that thereâs a high chance of other things lingering below the surface, things that he probably hadnât dared to address himself.Â
In the privacy of your bedroom, youâre on your knees for him. Sucking on the tip of his cock eagerly as he stands upright, his hands are firsts that are stuck to his sides. This isnât the first time, it isnât the last. By the way salty precum coats your tongue, you know heâs enjoying himself. He has to be, if he wasnât this wouldnât be happening.Â
You figure that he enjoys fighting against it until he breaks. When he surrenders himself to it, to the pleasure, to the primal need to take, he pins you down and fucks you with everything he has. All his frustration seeps into you, each stroke deeper than the next. You enjoy that heâs rough, you enjoy feeling the lingering sting on your skin long after he leaves.Â
Looking up, you swallow him further down. Heâs not overly thick but long, the dark curls at the base trimmed but still looking untouched. Tommy thrusts forward, the head of his cock brushing the back of your throat. Your nostrils flare as your lungs convulse with the need to cough, he notices but doesnât pull back. Instead, you feel two hands cradling the back of your neck, pulling you further down his length, making you take him whole.Â
Your eyes go wide and squeeze shut right after. You feel him throbbing in your throat and you swallow, again and again, which prompts him to drag his cock out slightly only to bury himself back into your throat. Your jaw aches, spit dripping down the corners of your lips as you flatten your tongue over the underside of his cock. A faint growl echoes from the back of his throat, you swallow again, he fucks your mouth as he would your wet cunt. Tears flood your lashline, you can barely breathe. Your throat tightens around him.Â
âFuck, donât close your eyes,â he grunts, the dark curls at the base tickling your nose. âLook at me. Look at me like you always do.âÂ
The Look, is something that you still donât quite understand. He says it often, telling you to look at him the way that you do, but you emphasize nothing special when you do end up looking at him. Itâs just your normal gaze. He only asks for it when heâs inside you.Â
You slowly open your eyes, your lashes wet and stuck together. His thumb smooths over the patch of skin right under your eye, his chest stutters, muscles growing taut under your gaze.Â
Ironically, he closes his eyes and lifts his head as if staring at the ceiling. He doesnât utter another word after that, your lips raw from the way he thrust forward. You feel the twitch of his cock, thick ropes sliding down your throat. You never tire of the taste of him. Not sweet, not bitter. You enjoy the brief moment he forgets where he is, that soft noise escaping his lips, the juvenile way his thighs shakeâthose are the things that make you ache for the taste of him. Youâre an addict.Â
But so is he.Â
vii.
Your palms press into the smooth surface of the bar counter. Tommy lurks behind you, cock pressing inside, fingers making dents into your warm skin. Itâs late into the night, youâre not sure of the exact time but you know itâs late. His one hand slips between your legs, he feels how wet you are, how needy you get for him. He presses a finger to your clit, the pads of the digits moving in deft circles.Â
A sharp moan parts your lips, back arching as he pounds into you, the sound of skin against skin loud, yet not enough to pierce the sound of the snowstorm outside. A dose of pleasure buzzes through your veins, electricity crackling across your skin as you feel his length press deep inside. His fingers grasp your throat, pulling you up until his lips tickle your ear. He heaves, his warm breath fanning your skin.Â
âTell me Iâm a good person,â he chokes out. âPlease.âÂ
âYouâre good,â you answer slightly out of breath. You touch his neck, the position slightly straining but worth it when he holds you tighter. âSuch a good manâand I mean that.âÂ
Your eyes widen with shock when he slides his tongue into your mouth. Tommy doesnât kiss you often, if at all, but it lights a fire under your stomach. It burns you from the inside out, the smoke of it making your mind spin. Your eyes flutter close and you take a deep breath, he grinds his hips, your insides pulsing around him.Â
âI donât care even if youâre lyinâââÂ
He releases you and you stumble forward, hands finding purchase on the bar counter once more. But you canât hold your position for long, not with the way heâs hammering into you, reducing you into a babbling mess. Your hands slide, your upper body completely falling over. Tommy doesnât pause, he doesnât even slow down. He presses you further into the surface.
âBecause I know that you are.âÂ
Tommy suddenly pulls out, a sharp gasp rips from your throat, your cunt clenching around nothing. Before you can protest, however, he turns you over and pushes you. He kneels between your legs, lips finding the tender folds of your pussy.Â
Your head falls back when he licks into you eagerly, tasting himself and your arousal. His groans vibrate against you, your thighs threaten to close, the meat of them pressing into both sides of his face.Â
His lips press against your clit, suckling and teasing it in a way that drives you wild. His tongue moves in circles as he pushes two fingers, curling them and applying pressure. Without a second thought, you fingers thread his hair, tugging him closer. Arousal pools between your legs.
Your breathing becomes labored and your body starts to shake. Your eyes roll back as your entire body shakes. Your hips buck against him as he continues to bring you over the edge, your cries of pleasure echoing off the walls of the bar.Â
Finally, after what feels like an eternity, you collapse against the bar counter, your body still shaking from the intensity of the orgasm. You can feel your skin tingling, your heart pounding and your head spinning. Tommy stands, a hint of pride lingering in his dark eyes. You continue to breathe and watch as he fists himself, the tip of his cock a shade darker when he comes thick ropes over your stomach. You hiss at the heat, the feeling of having a part of him staining you.Â
Tommy pulls up his pants, and you notice as you get dressed, heâs avoiding your gaze. Youâre too satisfied to care. He licks his lips, which you found was a nervous habit he has and offers you his arm. You hadnât expected it, but indulge in the gesture by taking it.Â
âLetâs get out of here before someone sees us.âÂ
#tommy miller x reader#tommy miller x you#tommy miller x f!reader#hbo the last of us#the last of us hbo#the last of us fanfiction#tlou fanfiction
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a/n: I started writing fanfic when I was in my teens, typing away into the night as a way to feel connected to my faves. Eventually I stopped, maybe convinced myself that I'd grown out of it, but that definitely wasn't the case. Truth is the stories have always been there, and I've always wanted to tell them. I'm happy to have found my way back to fanfic, back to the sense of community and all those other amazing fucking stories that I've read here. I've been lucky enough to have my things put on rec lists and now I want to make one of my own. I've been compiling a list of submissions, along with some of my faves and I offer them up to you, humbly. This list in no way encompasses all of the masterpieces I've read, just doing my best with the shitshow that is my memory lol. I am beyond lucky to have reached such a wild milestone, thanks for following along-please enjoy and show these creators some love!
Story recs;
Each story will have it's own warnings**
Jack Whiskey Daniels;
Under Marula Trees (Jack x F!Reader) by @deadhumourist
Cognitive Dissonance (Jack x F!reader) by @prolix-yuy
The Cowboy Next Door (Jack x virgin!freader) by @ikissdin
Javier Peña;
Learning to Live (Javier Peña/f!reader) by @wheresarizona
Fear and Loathing (Javier Peña x F!Reader) by @joels6strings
Lie to Me (Javier Peña x DEA Agent fem reader) by @iamskyereads
Mailroom Crush (Javier Peña x f!reader) by @littlemisspascal
Girl Next Door (Javier Peña x f!reader) by @babybugwrites
Teach Me Tonight (Javier Peña x F!DEA!Reader) by @storiesofthefandomloversÂ
Dieter Bravo;
Funny Girl (Dieter x F!Reader) by @radiowallet
Stay on the Screenplay (Dieter x F!Reader) by @jazzelsaur
Love Triangles (Dieter Bravo x Female Reader) by @littlemisspascal
Morning (Porn star Dieter x Porn star reader) by @write-and-buried
Dave York;
Appreciation (Dave x F!Reader) by @pedropascalsx
My Girl (Dave York x f!reader x Francisco âCatfishâ Morales) by @foli-vora
Family Fun Series (Dave York x F!Nanny!Reader x Carol York) by @absurdthirst
Rare (Dave York x fem reader) by @ezrasbirdie
Din Djarin;
Take Me to Church (Din Djarin/Reader Western AU) by @frannyzooey
Vibes (Din x F!Reader) by @mandoblowmybackout
Boxer Din Series (Boxer Din Djarin x Masseuse Fem!Reader) by @djarinsbeskar
Like a Moth to the Flame (monster!Din x F!reader) by @the-scandalorian
A Brush of Life (Hades!Din x f!reader) by @charnelhouse
Pero Tovar;
Ego & Black Powder (Pero x F!Reader) by @psychedlic-ink
The Wolf Series (Werewolf!Pero Tovar x F!Reader) by @absurdthirst
Frankie Morales;
Weeknights (Frankie Morales x F!reader) by @frannyzooey
Please To Meet You (Frankie x F!Reader) by @intheorangebedroom
Still of the Night (Frankie xF!reader) by @foli-vora
Joel Miller;
West (Joel Miller x Third Person Female) by @radiowallet
September (Joel x f!reader) by @wheresarizona
Pedro Across The Street (Calls)
Good Things Take Time (PATS x f!reader) by @oonajaeadira
Masterlists;
@novemberrain-writes - masterlist
@thisishellfire - Pedro masterlist
@foli-vora - masterlist
@wheresarizona - masterlist
@frannyzooey - masterlist
@oonajaeadira - masterlist
@psychedelic-ink - masterlist
@nexusnyx - masterlist
@wardenparker - masterlist
@loversandantiheroes - masterlist
@whiskeynwriting - masterlist
@pedros-mustache - masterlist
@writer-darling - masterlist
@mothandpidgeon - masterlist
@littlepadika - masterlist
@pedropascalsx - masterlist
@absurdthirst - masterlist
@just-here-for-the-moment - masterlist
#joel miller#frankie morales#pero tovar#din djarin#dave york#dieter bravo#javier peña#jack daniels#3k milestone#3k celebration#fic rec list#pedro across the street
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7. Comfort character to create for?
8. Most challenging character to write or draw?
Comfort character? Ooooh boy, that's going to have to be Tristan, my OC, and Tony Stark, Bucky Barnes, Joel Miller, Orion, my OC, and... um um um, surprisingly Hades.
I can't draw to save anyone's life. MANY apologies if it comes to this and someone ends up dead, but a challenging muse to write for? Hmmm. Is it an RP cliché if I say female muses in general?
@brooklynislandgirl
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Might as well do something useless with my ability to make polls. Enjoy, video game nerds.
Honorable Mentions:
Adam Jensen (Deus Ex: Human Revolution) Dante (Devil May Cry) Solid Snake (Metal Gear Solid) Vaas Montenegro (Far Cry 3) Varl (Horizon: Zero Dawn)
#poll#polls#video games#video game#games#dragon age origins#dragon age#final fantasy#final fantasy 7#resident evil#assassin's creed#assassin's creed 2#mass effect#the witcher#the witcher games#mortal kombat#the last of us#the last of us game#the last of us part one#uncharted#hades#hades game#hades supergiant
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This is the platonic list!
Platonics:
Essek Theyless (Crit Role)
Caduceus Clay (Crit Role)
Storm (X-men)
Pietro (Animal Crossing)
Laudna (Crit Role)
Alucard Tepes (Castlevania)
Syphra (Castlevania)
Julian (Animal Crossing)
Jester Lavore (Crit Role)
Familial:
Joel Miller (Father Figure, TLOU)
Eurydice (Hades Game, Mother Figure)
Ares (Hades Game, Father Figure)
Artemis (Hades Game, Mother Figure)
Jubilee Lee (Sister Figure, X-men)
Percy De Rolo (Brother Figure, Crit Role)
Uncle Tommy (Uncle Figure TLOU)
Persephone (Aunt Figure, Hadestown)
Nadja (Aunt Figure, What we do in the shadows)
Artagan/The Traveler (Crit Role, Father Figure)
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as a fellow monsterfucker beauty & the beast enthusiast, i am searching high and low for joel miller x reader, batb AU fanfics đ©
can you or your lovely followers point me in the right direction ? iâm desperate for recs because most fics i have found so far are incomplete / abandoned,,,,
a well written batb au with joel and a well written hades and persephone au with joel are truly the two niche things that would cure all of my ailments, and i have yet to find them. i would love to write one, but i havenât quite figured out a way to place him in those worlds yet that would please me.
if anyone has any recs tho, let me know!!
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Howdy there traveler! Iâm Erika thanks so much for stopping by
I am slowly starting getting the hang of being a writing blog but iâm still a work in progress so I appreciate your patience and understanding!
â ïž this blog & my writing are 18+ MDNI also - please do not repost my work onto other sites
Beyond this point itâs a multifandom desert so safe travels cowpokeâŠ
Pedro Boys
Letâs Rodeo - Fic Series masterlist
Cowboys Like Us - Headcanons
Seasons of You - Stardew Valley AU fic series
Joel Miller
âgive you something to dream aboutâ - sports bar & Texas football Joel
âyour heart, a sonnetâ - author!joel miller
âwhat the water gave usâ - merman!joel
game changer - MLB pitcher /baseball player joel
game changer: time out - MLB pitcher!Joel ficlet
graveyard heart - post outbreak Hades!Joel (dark fic)
Trick or Treat blurb
drive: roll a trope challenge
Mr. Winter - Santa!Joel
Prisonic Fairytale - Pyramid Head!Joel (dark fic)
Din Djarin
Cowboy Din Djarin Ficlets (1) (2)
âThis Tornado Loves Youâ - Cowboy!Din
âHold On, Hold Onâ- Cowboy!Din Part II
âIn the Dead of Nightâ - Creature!Cowboy Din
Modern Rodeo Cowboy / Bull Rider Din
Haunted/Spooky Cowboy Din Ficlet
Din x Naboo Queen!Reader
Mythosaur!Din
your king & lionheart - Hades!Din x Marcus Acacius x Persephone!reader
Jack Daniels
headcannons
Frankie Morales
game changer (national league) - baseball player!Frankie
Dieter Bravo
âGo Play Your Video Gamesâ - Dieter x YouTuber!Reader
âyour favorite kryptoniteâ - comic bookstore owner!Dieter
Fire Starter - Dragon!Dieter
Marcus Pike
Guardian Angel Marcus
Marcus + spooky stories blurb
cosmic love - Marcus Pike x Marcus Acacius x Reader
Javier Peña
âBendecidoâ - Javi x Fem!Reader One Shot
Husband Javi P headcanon
âpart of your worldâ - Javi x Mermaid!Reader
Lucien Flores / Lucien De Leon
this high of you & me - Drug Dealer!Lucien AU
Ezra (Prospect)
be your hallowed ground - colonial era Demon!Ezra
blood on your name - Cowboy!Ezra (extra amazing fic banner here)
Max P
all the trouble weâve seen - witch!reader x Max
Dave York
the dark dresses lightly - god of vengeance!Dave
Marcus Acacius
cosmic love - time travel AU & poly Marcus Pike x Reader
your king & lionheart - Marcus Acacius x Hades!Din x Persephone!Reader
Various
pedro guys + sports headcanons
pedro guys + monsters
Anime
JJK
Satoru Gojo:
âall of this (& heaven too)â - hades!gojo x f!reader
dragon!gojo
Jedi!Gojo x Mandalorian!Reader (2)
âin the woods (somewhere)â - mothman!gojo
âFright Nightâ - Ghost Face!Gojo
Professional Baseball Player Gojo, 2nd Drabble
Happy Birthday Gojo Drabble
God of Winter!Gojo
MHA:
A Galaxy Far Far Away - BNHA Star Wars AU tag
Mandalorian Bakugou
Jedi Shouto
Jedi Izuku
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A Twist of Fate (Joel Miller x reader)
Summary: 20 years ago the world went to hell. Now Elena is crossing the country with a man that she barely knows and with a teenage girl.
Word Count: 1,138
Note:This is my first time writing an series. So I do hope yâall enjoy it.
Chapter 1:
Elena POV:
I have been in Boston for about 10 years, since then I have probably made maybe two friends. If you made friends in this world nowadays, in a world that to hell. I met Tess about 10 years ago, the first couple of days that I got to Boston. I was on a job cleaning graffiti off of some window that the fireflies put up, we started talking, and we realize that we have some things in common. After talking to her for a couple of days, I met Joel. Joel "Grumpy" Miller. Man, if looks can kill. He doesn't like, and doesn't want Tess talking to me at all. He calls me "kid or you" or my least favorite one "little girl" I'm not a little girl. At the time we met, I was 19. I hate him. I can't stand him. But I like Tess, she is like a order sister to me, so if I want to be around Tess, I had to put up with Joel. after some time, Tess let me know that she and Joel was smugglers, and they leave the QZ. Of course my mouth was shut, but Joel wasn't happy with me knowing that secret. I've been trying to help them here and there. Tess was happy with my help, but Joel. Hell no. "We don't need a "little girl" running her fucking mouth, running to FEDRA, and ruining what we got goin on." So I only help Tess, when she ask me too. And not letting Joel know nothing about me helping Tess.
It's been this way for about 10 years now, not one time Joel tried to get along with me or get to know me at all. I probably say one or two words to Joel, all he does is look at me. I got used to it, I just ignore him, but I be trying if I don't think that Joel was a nice looking man. I know that he hates me, but I like him. So now I'm sitting in a chair in Joel's apartment, waiting for him and Tess. I didn't have any work today. Joel didn't like it when I was left alone in his apartment, but I didn't care. I look around, and its just a regular looking place. No personal items, just a chair, couch, and a small bookshelf in the living room. A kitchen table with 4 chairs, and a queen size bed in the bedroom. No special things. It's like Joel didn't want anything special. I get up from my seat, and walk over to the bookshelf, "To Kill a Mockingbird", "Blade runner", and "Romeo and Juliet." Hmmm, Joel reads this? Picture it's a raining Saturday afternoon, Joel curled up on the couch with tea, reading "Romeo and Juliet". Funny. As I look at the books, the door open. "Girl, what in the hell are you doin here?" I turn to look at Joel. Great, can someone kill me now. "Tess told me to come here. And I'm not a girl Joel. I have a name, grumpy." Joel just huffs, and walks over to his room, and starts moving the floor broad, and he pulls out a map, whiskey, and some weapons. I just stand next to the table, as Joel sits down, and pours himself a drink, as he looks at the maps. I look over Joel's shoulder, "Hmmmmm, Wyoming. What's in Wyoming?" Joel huffs, "Nothin you need to be worried about. Stop breathing down my neck." What a jerk. I went back to the living room, and sat down. "Whatever Grumpy, Tess will tell me what's going on." Man, I love to get under his skin. Joel mutters, "Like hell little girl." I just laught quietly. After a few hours, Joel got up and went to bed. I stayed on the couch, and didn't move. Tess never showed up. I just lay down on the couch, and thought, "Where's Tess? Is Joel going to be mad at me in the morning if he finds me still here?" But I was to tried to care about any of that. I listen for a while, as Joel softly snores. Now knowing that he was deep in sleep.
I didnât remember falling asleep, the next thing I remember is hearing Tess saying my name, âElena, here.â I open my eyes, and see her hading me some coffee. I smile as I take it, looking and seeing Joel still sleeping. I get up and walk to the kitchen, I gasp. âTess, holy hell. What happened to you face?â Tess just shook her head,â Robert happened. He doubled crossed us. He sold the battery to someone else. And now Joel is not going to be happy with this. So when I tell Joel, I just please Elena keep your mouth shut and donât look at him.â I just nodded my head, knowing this will be a shit show. I hear Joel walking up and making his way to the kitchen, and sit down next to me. I watch as Tess bring Joel some coffee, and watch as Joel looks at Tessâ face and gets worried. Joel moves to clean Tessâ face. Itâs weird to watch Joel being soft and caring to someone. He was always so cold to me. Like he was made of stone. I know that Tess has no feelings for Joel, but maybe just maybe Joel might have feelings for Tess. I turn them out, not wanting to hear the story about Robert again. I know that I shouldnât care, but I do have feelings for Joel. I shouldnât, Joel hates me. I watch Joel and Tess get ready to leave. Tess told me that herself and Joel are getting ready to leave to go look for Robert. Tess walked out of the door. Joel walked over to me,â If you want to, you can stay here. Or donât, I donât care, little girlâ I look at Joel, is he trying to show me that he might like me? Nah. Yeah,right. âIâll stay, Iâve been dying to through your stuff, to find all your dirty little secrets,grumpy.â Joel rolled his eyes, and leaned down and got to into my face, â Listen here, YOU DONâT TOUCH NOTHING,KID!!â I stop smiling. Joel has never been this close to me before. âFine, whatever old man.â Joel didnât move for a second, he just stared at me. I couldnât move. I have never been scared of him, but right now. I was. He stood back up, and huffed and walked out of the door, and slam the door shut.
What just happened?
#pedro pascal#tlou#joel x reader#joel the last of us#joel miller#joel fanfiction#joel tlou#joel miller x reader
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The Dead Guy Death Match Bracket Is Here!
Round 1 will be split into 4 waves of 16 24 hour polls and each wave will be posted 24 hours after the previous. The first wave will start on Tuesday the 18th of April at 3pm BST
The matchups are listed under the readmore and will be hyperlinked to the polls when they go up.
The matchups were all randomised although I did make minor adjustments if I thought one was much too unfair.
Also tagging @tournamentdirectory as I haven't already
Wave 1:
Charles Foster Kane (Citizen Kane) Vs Gavroche Thenardier (Les Miserables)
Leif (Bug Fables) Vs Queen Serenity (Sailor Moon)
L (Death Note) Vs Jonny D'Ville (The Mechanisms)
Noah Czerny (The Raven Cycle) Vs Lee Everett (The Walking Dead)
Pat Butcher (BBC Ghosts) Vs Xerxes Break (Pandora Hearts)
Captain Orimar Vale (Skyjacks Campaign Podcast) Vs Laura Palmer (Twin Peaks)
Diallos Hoslow (Elden Ring) Vs Rachel Amber (Life Is Strange)
Andrei Grandier (Rose Of Versailles) Vs Constance Blackwood (Ride The Cyclone)
Spock (Star Trek) Vs Maria Robotnik (Sonic The Hedgehog)
Kravitz (The Adventure Zone) Vs Sal Fisher (Sally Face)
Mari (Omori) Vs Ianto Jones (Torchwood)
Nate (Leverage) Vs Max (Sam and Max)
Owen Carvour (Spies Are Forever) Vs Vylad Ro'Meave (Minecraft Diaries)
Neil Perry (Dead Poet's Society) Vs Sayaka Miki (Madoka Magica)
Flapjack (The Owl House) Vs Maes Hughes (Fullmetal Alchemist)
Loki (Marvel) Vs Adam Faulkner Stanheight (Saw)
Wave 2:
Obi Wan Kenobi (Star Wars) Vs Diggory Graves (Hello From The Hallowoods)
Hugo Oak (Kipo And The Age Of Wonderbeasts) Vs Leonardo Hamato (Rise Of The Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles Movie)
Chara (Undertale) Vs Magnus Chase (Magnus Chase)
River Song (Doctor Who) Vs Micheal Afton (Five Nights At Freddy's)
Catherine Earnshaw (Wurthering Heights) Vs Tara Maclay (Buffy The Vampire Slayer)
Laudna (Critical Role) Vs Aerith Gainsborough (Final Fantasy)
Mia Fey (Ace Attorney) Vs Jay Gatsby (The Great Gatsby)
Meiko 'Menma' Honma (The Flower We Saw That Day) Vs Claire Foley (Professor Layton)
Grelle Sutcliff (Black Butler) Vs Skelly (Hades)
Ethan Winters (Resident Evil) Vs Portgas D Ace (One Piece)
Polly Geist (Monster Prom) Vs Hua Cheng (Heaven's Official Blessing)
Avatar Kyoshi (Avatar The Last Airbender) Vs Galivar Kholin (Stormlight Archive)
Pink/Orchid (Animation Vs Animator/Minecraft) Vs Lewis Pepper (Mystery Skulls Animated)
Gideon Nav (The Locked Tomb) Vs Stoick The Vast (How To Train Your Dragon)
Evelyn Hooper (Less is Morgue) Vs Manny Calavera (Grim Fandango)
Kokichi Oma (Danganronpa) Vs Silco (Arcane)
Wave 3:
Eurydice (Greek Mythology) Vs Rosencrantz and Guildenstern (Rosencrantz And Guildenstern Are Dead)
Jack Twist (Brokeback Mountain) Vs Charles Vane (Black Sails)
Howard Hamlin (Better Call Saul) Vs Jason Grace (Riordanverse)
Nora Hildegard (The Vampire Diaries) Vs Gerard Keay (The Magnus Archives)
Manny (Swiss Army Man) Vs Matoro (Bionicle)
Wen Ning (Mo Dao Zu Shi) Vs Kikyo (Inuyasha)
Yuri Nakamura (Angel Beats) Vs Simon Kain (Pathologic)
Deep Throat (The X Files) Vs La Signora (Genshin Impact)
Esmeralda (The Hunchback Of Notre Dame Novel) Vs Ursula Zandt/Silhouette (Watchmen Comics)
Nageki Fujishiro (Hatoful Boyfriend) Vs Tuba (Infinity Train)
Beetlejuice (Beetlejuice) Vs Arthur Morgan (Red Dead Redemption)
Oda Sakunoske (Bungou Stray Dogs) Vs Rose Quartz (Steven Universe)
Duncan (Dragon Age) Vs Junpei Yoshino (Jujitsu Kaisen)
Quincey Morris (Dracula) Vs Connor Murphy (Dear Evan Hansen)
Deadman (DC Comics) Vs Breakdown (Transformers)
Draal The Deadly (Troll Hunters) Vs Castiel (Supernatural)
Wave 4:
Matsuri Kanroji (Demon Slayer) Vs Midori (Your Turn To Die)
Kelsier (Mistborn) Vs Peter 'Parker' Yang (Malevolent Podcast)
Tadashi Hamada (Big Hero 6) Vs Noriaki Kakyoin (JoJo's Bizarre Adventure)
Erik (The Phantom Of The Opera) Vs Matthias Helvar (Six Of Crows)
Tigerstar (Warrior Cats) Vs Boromir (The Lord Of The Rings)
Joel Miller (The Last Of Us) Vs Pedro Madrigal (Encanto)
Rufus Emeterio (They Both Die At The End) Vs King Arthur (King Arthur)
Bunny Corcoran (The Secret History) Vs Lenore (Nevermore Webtoon)
Sliver Of Straw (Rain World) Vs Bow (Inanimate Insanity)
Chidi Anagonye (The Good Place) Vs Nicholas D Wolfwood (Trigun)
Tiso (Hollow Knight) Vs Okudera (Yakuza 5)
Koki Kariya (The World Ends With You) Vs Horst Cabal (Johannes Cabal)
Mr Boddy (Clue) Vs Garret Jacob Hobbs (Hannibal)
Eddie Kaspbrak (IT) Vs Emily (Corpse Bride)
Ash Lynx (Banana Fish) Vs Ophelia (Hamlet)
Eddie Munson (Stranger Things) Vs Kili (The Hobbit)
#tournament updates#tournament dates#round 1#tournament bracket#tournaments#dead characters#spoilers#also just like the elimination round i refuse to tag every series and spoiler in this post#but i will on the actual polls
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wip game
RULES: Post the names of all the files in your WIP folder, regardless of how non-descriptive or ridiculous. Let people send you an ask with the title that most intrigues them and then post a little snippet or tell them something about it! and then tag as many people as you have WIPs (i'm gonna do however many i want lmao)
i was tagged by my darlings @perotovar and @refined-by-fire and i'm actually gonna participate in a wip post!!!! i'm the worst with titles so these are literally all untitled and just, the characters involved lmao
dark!steve/javi/possible reader - narcos/justified crossover au
raider!joel/reader - hades/persephone au
marcus pike/reader summer camp au
marcus pike/reader practical magic au
marcus pike/reader - anthology of cases
(marcus pike might actually be the love of my life)
dave/carol york - relationship study? i'm not sure how to describe this
frankie/morales reader - what's your number au
frankie morales/benny miller - first time oneshot
all of the tf boys - triple frontier/tron: legacy crossover au
steve rogers/female oc oneshot of some kind idk it came out of the dusty depths of my drive
steve rogers/bucky barnes - shades of their relationship oneshot
steve rogers/bucky barnes - before we go au
ethan hunt (mission: impossible) - ethan's missing months
ethan hunt/william brandt - aftermath of mi: 5
ethan hunt/william brandt - shades of their relationship (like the stucky fic)
csi was my first fandom and i have some random snippets of different nick/greg fics
arthur morgan/mary linton - blackwater portrait memory
arthur morgan/reader (or oc) - untitled
i know a bunch of people have been tagged already but i'll throw some people out there: @swiftispunk @ezrasbirdie @haylzcyon @bageldaddy @softlyspector @undercoverpena
#my fics#my wips#tag game#joel miller#the last of us#marcus pike#the mentalist#frankie morales#benny miller#triple frontier#javier peña#steve murphy#narcos#dave york#carol york#the equalizer 2#tron: legacy#steve rogers#bucky barnes#mcu#marvel#ethan hunt#william brandt#mission impossible
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While I'm working on my revamp, to make things easier, below the cut is my current list of muses!
Battlestar Galactica Bill Adama Karl "Helo" Agathon
Critical Role Caleb Widogast Essek Thelyss Grog Strongjaw Lady Kima of Vord Keyleth of the Air Ashari Percival de Rolo III Vax'ildan Zahra Hydris
Detroid Become Human Hank Anderson
Doctor Who The Doctor (Nine) Madame Vastra
Fullmetal Alchemist Envy Solf J. Kimblee Roy Mustang
Game of Thrones Brienne of Tarth Tyrion Lannister
Gargoyles Brooklyn Goliath Hudson Macbeth
God of War Atreus Brok Calliope Faye Freyr Kratos Mimir Odin Sindri Thor
Good Omens Anthony J. Crowley
Kill la Kill Satsuki Kiryuin Senketsu
The Last of Us Joel Miller Lev
Miraculous Ladybug Adrien Agreste/Chat Noir Alya Cesaire Gabriel Agreste/Hawk Moth Luka Couffaine Tom Dupain
Mythos/Hadestown/PJO Hades Hazel Levesque Kronos Orpheus Thalia Grace Will Solace
Star vs the Forces of Evil Globgor Moon Butterfly River Butterfly Tom Lucitor
Sucker Punch Sweet Pea
Vampire Princess Miyu Larva
X-Men Remy LeBeau
Original Characters Irithiel Galanodel Vanessa Hunter
#⊠General || PSA ⊠Extra! Extra! Read all about it!#[it looks like so many listed out like this without any columns]
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Masterlist
Crackships
OC:
HOUSE
NCIS
DC
LOST
PERCY JACKSON
HORROR
AVATAR
TWILIGHT
SUPERNATURAL
TMNT
BAYVERSE (TMNT, TRANSFORMERS)
STAR TREK
The Last Of Us
Resident Evil Village
Legion
Stranger Things
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House:
Gregory House
NCIS:
Gibbs
DC:
Bruce Wayne
Jason Todd
Damian Wayne
Orm Marius
Lost:
James Sawyer
Jacob
Percy Jackson:
Apollo
Luke
Hades (Father Daughter Relationship)
Horror:
Michael Myers
Jason Voorhees
Brahms
Yautja (Aliens Vs Predator)
IT
Tsu'tey
Avatar:
Twilight:
Caius
Supernatural:
Dean
Sam
Lucifer
Gabriel
Balthazar
Michael
Umbrella Academy:
Five (based off of Healthy Competition by dorkdorkdork)
Resident Evil:
Albert Wesker (Yandere Romantic)
Lady Dimitrescu (Mother daughter relationship)
Chris Redfield (Platonic & Romantic)
Ethan Winters (Platonic Father & Daughter)
TMNT:
Raphael
Transformers:
Bumblebee
Star Trek:
Spock
Christopher Pike
Gul Dukat
Star Wars:
Obi-Wan Kenobi
Divergent:
Eric
Vampire Diaries/The Originals:
Klaus
Elijah
Stranger Things:
Vecna
The Last Of Us:
Billy Hargrove
Joel Miller
Legion:
Michael
#masterlist#face claim: katherine mcnamara#comfyrhyme20574 y/n#katherine mcnamara#NCIS#dc oc#dc#supernatural oc#ncis oc#house md oc#oc rp#star trek#resident evil oc#resident evil#legion 2010#legion#supernatural#horror#lost tv#avatar#the vampire diaries#the originals#transformers bayverse#transformers#twilight#tmnt bayverse#umbrella academy#percy jackon and the olympians#percy jackson#stranger things
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