#had to inflict puns again I'm sorry

[gatoiberico]

a handy way to start a speedrun

[tobiasdrake]

That brings us to our elevator? I guess? Did Vivia run up and jump in the elevator before it closed or something?

Oh, you didn't know I was there. But I was present. While you were. Doing things.

That's not creepy at all!

Boy, I hope she's a ghost because otherwise that's an awkward thing to say to another human being.

He's circling the topic. This almost feels like a ghostly game of cat and mouse. Like. She's dead, but she may or may not be what's causing the suicides. Lot of people died here. No guarantee she was Jumper #1.

But if she is the source, then the fact that we're trapped in an elevator with her could be... part of the snare, so to speak. If she's the killer, this may be part of her method. Isolating the victim in the elevator, which will likely bring us up to the top floor once she's done... whatever she does to get them to jump. Manipulation. Possession. Who knows?

We are alone with the entity inside of its domain, and the entity has an M.O. If she's the killer, then she's likely walking us through it as we speak. She may even have a prepared script, which Vivia's Vivia-ness is throwing off.

And why would that be, do you think? Tell me your perspective.

That's. A weird thing. For people to complain about. In Kanai Ward.

Yeah, that's solid confirmation, I think. She doesn't know about the Forever Rain. That'd be a hard thing to miss.

The first jumper was five years ago. We had two years of jumping before Blank Week. If she's the first, she's our killer. And between her lack of knowledge about the rain and, y'know, the fact that she's even capable of dying in the first place? She's definitely not recent.

Going straight for the throat. Vivia's done playing around with what, by this point, is unambiguously a Class IV full-bodied apparition.

She's backed into a corner now. Sorry, spooker. We aren't trapped in this elevator with you. You're trapped in this elevator with Vivia. >:D

I'm not quite convinced she's the killer, though. Again, just because she's the ghost of a jumper, doesn't mean she's the one causing them to jump. This is a psychokinetic hot-spot. There could be more than one apparition around here.

He said it! He said the thing again!

That's okay, Vivia. I'm interested in her too. She's the second full-blown supernatural entity we've seen in this world and I'd love to know the details behind it.

Oh! Okay! We are supposed to ship it. I thought I was being funny about his wording, but apparently not.

Dropping the pretense. I think she's realized there's no point in disguising her true nature any longer. Vivia sees right through her, pun intended.

Okay, so it is her. But. Why, though? She was saying that all lives have value and she can't bear to see--

Oh, were they abusers? Is she a vengeance spirit, targeting people who inflict the kind of harm she would see come through her hospital as a nurse?

Vivia doesn't seem to be considering the ghost angle, which is making me doubt myself.

Though if she's a serial killer, that fits her personality even less than a vengeful ghost.

Yeah, but your M.O. is shoving people off of the roof. An enclosed space is the most harmless possible circumstance for you to find yourself in. I suppose you might have a knife on you but I've seen Vivia fight cops so that's not much of a concern.

Okay, so that's her motive. She "mercy kills" people in crisis, like a reverse suicide hotline that swiftly takes action without a struggling person's consent. That's awful and I now hate her.

Vivia, punch her in the face. If she's a ghost, we'll find that out real fast. If she's not, she gets decked for being a murderer. It's win/win.

See, shit like that is what makes me think she's a ghost. I still feel like this place is a psychokinetic hot-spot. Sometimes spooker domains have a magnetic quality that attracts people of a given mindset.

I'm not convinced that she pushes them. Physically. I think the building is a psychic magnet for people in emotional crisis, and that the Ryo apparition talks to them and convinces them that it would be better to die. Then the elevator takes them to the roof and they jump of their own accord.

We're still in her snare.

And even though we've called her out, she's still sharpening the knife.

[fortunatelylori]

Hey, fortunatelylori! I'm sorry if this question is dumb or if this is just not "your sphere of interest", but what do you think of Tyrion Targaryen theory? Well, not a Targaryen actually, since he'd be a bastard according to that theory. I feel like we were given foreshadowing in the show, but my question is - where does it go? Why do we need him as a son of Mad King? What for, what'd it affect? I really don't want to bother you with this, I just felt like you might have the best explanation.

Hey, @casualpolicepenguin! 

Your question is absolutely not dumb nor is there any need to apologize. I love talking about ASOIAF/GOT. That’s why I have a blog, after all. Also it’s nice to get asks that aren’t only about Jonsa/D*ny since talking about the same things over and over again gets stilted after a while. Particularly when there’s no new content … Still salty about that, in case you couldn’t tell. :)))

The Tyrion Targareyen bastard theory really frustrates me and I don’t believe there’s any real reason why it should have been embraced by the fandom at large with the amount of certainty that it has since the reasons why it’s so popular feel flimsy and more like wish fulfillment to me than anything else. 

So I guess a good place to start is to attempt to break it down and see what the actual evidence for it is. In case I miss something along the way, guys, please feel free to step in and add to it. I think it’s important when talking about a theory, even one we don’t agree with, to analyze all the evidence presented and not just the pieces we can debunk. 

So what is this theory exactly? 

It all seems to hanker back to Aerys “Mad King” Targareyen’s acrimonious relationship with Tywin Lannister and Tywin’s insistence that Tyrion is not his son. The theory goes that during Joanna Lannister’s visit to King’s Landing when she presented child twins Jaime and Cersei to the court, Aerys raped Joanna and impregnated her with Tyrion, thus making Tyrion the blood of the dragon. 

Based on this first assumption, the theory delves further and designates Tyrion as the 3rd dragon rider who together with D*ny and Jon are destined to save the world from the White Walker apocalypse, thus linking him to the “Dragon must have 3 heads” theory. 

Right off the bat this theory is based more on assumption than canon evidence because several things need to be true in order to confirm this theory, all of them doubtful: 

Joanna was raped by Aerys

This is based on the  Anniversary Tourney in King’s Landing in 272 AC incident, during which Aerys insulted Joanna by asking her if nursing her children had ruined her breasts, and the king refused the outraged Tywin’s resignation the next day. Aerys, being the asswipe that he was, had expressed similar sentiments regarding Joanna in the past, going as far as to compare his wife to her and find her lacking because Joanna had given Tywin two healthy children unlike Rhaella who struggled with miscarriages through out their marriage (as well as systematic abuse and rape at the hands of her husband). 

Does this mean there’s reason to believe Aerys would go as far as to rape Joanna? I don’t believe so. Aerys might have been attracted to her but the insults he piled on her were less for his own enjoyment and more towards humiliating Tywin in front of the court, because Aerys hated and feared him in equal measure. 

I think it’s safe to say he wouldn’t go as far as to rape Joanna because that kind of thing wouldn’t have gone unnoticed and would have certainly provoked Tywin into some very serious war-related action and as mad as Aerys was I doubt he would have gone as far as all that considering he could have executed Tywin the way he did the Starks and never did. 

Part of the reason why Aerys hated Tywin Lannister as much as he did was because he needed him. In fact he was dependent on him and slighting him by raping his wife would have been something that Tywin, one of the most vengeful people in this series, would have never tolerated, not only because he loved his wife but also because Tywin’s greatest fear in life is being made a fool of or for people to assume that he’s not strong enough to retaliate. 

Which brings us to: 

Tywin saying Tyrion is not his son

Should we take at face value that Tywin has reasons to suspect Tyrion is not his son? Again, I don’t think so. If Tywin had any inkling that Tyrion was not actually a Lannister, he would have killed him the moment he was born. He might have spared him had Joanna lived but since she died giving birth to him, there would have been no one to stay his hand from doing it. 

The only reason why Tyrion survived into adulthood was because despite his hatred of his son, Tywin knew he was a Lannister. 

This links back to the importance that Tyrion actually be Tywin’s son because if he isn’t, then Tywin’s rejection of him loses narrative import. 

The way GRRM has set-up Tyrion’s narrative is that he is slowly but surely turning into his father: the increasing fear and resentment of being mocked, the terrifying degree of vengefulness, his increasingly abusive relationship with Penny, his cruelty towards the sex slaves he encounters in Slaver’s Bay, etc. - they all point to Tyrion becoming more and more like Tywin. What GRRM is doing with this character is applying dramatic irony: the son that Tywin rejected, the one that was most traumatized and in fear of him, that seemingly rejected his worldview is the one that ends up resembling him the most. 

Tyrion not being Tywin’s son would take the narrative equivalent of a sledge hammer to all that development and declare it null and void. 

“The Dragon must have 3 heads” prophecy is about the War of the Dawn

We simply do not have enough information about this prophecy in order to make that assumption. We don’t even know if Raeghar Targareyen believed it to be the case or if he was pursuing the fulfillment of this prophecy for different reasons. Also considering the utter mess that Raeghar inflicts upon himself and the world, it’s doubtful that even if he believed the 3 heads of the dragon to be the solution to the White Walker threat that he did, in fact, interpret it correctly. My suspicion is he didn’t but again we don’t know anything about this prophecy aside from Raeghar’s cryptic words and that D*ny has 3 dragons, two of which do not have riders at this time.

By making Tyrion the son of Aerys, and thus the blood of the dragon, GRRM would also duplicate Jon’s narrative role and arc. In this scenario, Tyrion would be a royal bastard, hidden away for years, ignorant of his origins or his true importance. I’m sorry but that feels repetitive as hell.  

GRRM’s works with narrative foils as well as the “everything is something you have seen before” type of cyclical plotting but he’s already set up foil for Jon in this regard (Jon has several) and that’s the Young Griff. He’s the heir who has been hidden away and now sets on the path to reclaim his birthright. Except that if the Young Griff is Jon’s foil that, by definition, means he isn’t who he appears to be which is the twist in his story. 

There is no twist in Tyrion actually being Aerys’ son, but rather a rehash of Jon’s plotline. Nor can he be a foil for Jon because he’s never been set up as one.Also considering the mountain of evidence GRRM set-up for the R + L = J theory, the flimsiness of the Tyrion Targ bastard theory is even more glaring. 

Then there’s Bran’s arc to consider. His story parallels the legend of the Last Hero, the man that ended the first long night. If the 3 heads of the dragon are going to end the apocalypse, what is Bran’s importance to the narrative? It seems dubious to me that he would take a secondary role in the conflict that he’s linked to directly. 

In terms of foreshadowing in the books/show, personally I find the pieces rather unconvincing: 

Both in the books and in the show, Tyrion talks about dragons with wonder and awe and mentions having dreams about them as a child.

We do know that Targareyens tend to be plagued by prophetic type visions and dreams about dragons and fire so people assume that’s what Tyrion had as well. But I disagree. 

From the way it’s framed, Tyrion talks about his childhood fascination with dragons in the same way a kid today might talk about a T-Rex. It doesn’t seem strange to me that a kid as intellectually curious and as fond of reading and stories like Tyrion would be fascinated with dragons. 

In addition to that,  this could foreshadow Tyrion meeting D*ny and playing a role in her council. Targareyen bastard isn’t really the only option why this might be employed. 

Also, compare Tyrion’s recollection of his dreams with D*ny’s visions prior to hatching her dragons. Really not on the same level. 

In the show, Tyrion interacts with D*ny’s dragons and they don’t burn him alive 

This one is the only thing that truly gives me pause because I can’t figure out why the writers chose to include it. Partly, I assume it’s meant to show us how brilliant and awesome Tyrion is for not only figuring out that the dragons need to be unchained but also that he’s so persuasive that the usually violent creatures don’t harm him. 

It would be interesting to see if GRRM has book Tyrion do the same thing at some point since it’s canon evidence that the last person who tried to enter the dragon lair (pun intended) ended up burned to a crisp (Quentyn Martell). 

It’s not debunkable though since it’s also canon that during the Targareyen rule of Westeros, there was stables filled with dragons that were tended by people who did not have Targ blood so presumably the creatures do tolerate other people aside from the blood of the dragon near them. (as is also the case with D*ny’s entourage on Dragonstone)

my question is - where does it go? Why do we need him as a son of Mad King? What for, what’d it affect?

The short answer to your question is that Tyrion’s fans need Tyrion to be the son of the Mad King. However, the narrative not only doesn’t need this theory, it would actually affect both Tyrion’s narrative arc (him turning into Tywin) as well as Jon’s story (as the secret heir to the Iron Throne) and Bran’s. 

So why do Tyrion’s fans need this theory? For several reasons: 

It makes Tyrion special and keeps him plot relevant

Tyrion’s specialness is the reason why so many people love the character. He outsmarts everyone, he makes all the brilliant points, he plots his way out of everything. The fact that GRRM has a soft spot for him and, as such, he’s ended up having the most chapters in the story comes to enforce the idea that he is somehow crucial to the endgame. 

I tend to disagree with this. GRRM loves writing from Tyrion’s POV and he’s also utilized Tyrion as the only Lannister POV character for a long time. However, his importance has waned in recent times with the addition of Cersei and Jaime as POV characters as well as by the increase of the magic in the story. 

If the last two books are ever published, I think people are going to be in for quite a shock as Tyrion recedes more and more into a secondary character role in the narrative. His narrative importance will be taken over by Jon and D*ny. And partly that’s because he is, in no way, involved in the resolution of the White Walker threat, nor does he have the abilities or position to be a main character in the Dance of Dragons 2.0. He will be a support character, most likely, in D*ny’s storyline. Which is not something that Tyrion’s fans can accept lightly. 

But, just to reinforce this point, look at how sidelined Tyrion has been in season 7 (compared to other seasons) as well as contemplate the idea of eliminating him completely from the narrative at this point (both in the books and in the show). Does anyone truly believe that the endgame is going to be significantly affected by his absence? 

He’s not even essential in Cersei’s storyline since the most important roles will most likely be occupied by Sansa as the Younger, More Beautiful Queen (or D*ny or literally anyone but Tyrion) and Jaime as the the valonqar (or Arya, or Bran, or Euron or literally anyone but Tyrion). 

That’s not to say he won’t have a story but since he’s not essential to any of the major plotlines, he can’t, by extension, be a main character in any of them. 

If he’s the 3rd head of the dragon, on the other hand … you see where I’m going with this. 

Tyrion is a hero

Tyrion’s fans have a very difficult time accepting the fact that Tyrion is a villain. A sympathetic, traumatized, entertaining villain but a villain none the less. But don’t take my word for it. Take GRRM’s 

Interviewer: Do you have a favorite character?

Martin: I’ve got to admit I kind of like Tyrion Lannister. He’s the villain of course, but hey, there’s nothing like a good villain.

(source)

He’s molded on Shakespeare’s Richard III, for heaven’s sake. (further enforced by the Arya sample chapter in TWOW where the actors Arya is involved with stage a play that is modled directly after Richard III with the Tyrion actor giving a strikingly similar monologue to Shakespeare’s Richard’s famous speech)

He also has done the following: (there’s more but these are highlights)

1. Sexually assaulted a 12 year old that he married in order to become Lord of Winterfell.

2. Murdered his girlfriend/hired companion

3. Raped two sex slaves (repeatedly while bemoaning the loss of his wife whom he was coerced into raping by his father … another one of those pesky Tyrion is turning into Tywin warning signs)

3. Abuses Penny

4. Wants to rape his sister and cause harm to the child hostage he forced into marriage and assaulted. 

To understand just how much his fans take offence to people mentioning these canon events, I’d just like to mention that a few weeks back I posted a vid by someone talking about whitewashing characters from book to film, in which Tyrion’s character is mentioned alongside him killing Shae and how that is approached in the books vs. the show. I tagged said vid “tyrion lannister” only to get an anonymous message telling me I was being disrespectful for posting “anti” opinions in the Tyrion tag. 

Tyrion’s fans require that they be shielded not only from criticism of Tyrion but also from his canon actions. 

The 3 heads of the dragon plays right into that because it places Tyrion firmly in the “good guy’s camp” even though he has absolutely no business being there in the first place. 

Nevermind that in this theory Tyrion is the product of rape. Nevermind that it perpetuates the idea of Targ exceptionalism (all fruits of Aerys’ loins are awesome, special snowflakes - with the exception of Viserys, apparently). Nevermind that it goes against the narrative that GRRM set up. Everything is valid as long as Tyrion comes out looking white as snow, independent of how many women he rapes by the time he gets there. 

Thanks for the ask!

[omegangrins]

[Kingsmen 3: The Golden Service] Harry Hart turns "villain"

TL;DR: The Lepidopterist is the *perfect* name for a "colorfull" megalomaniac who's trying to save the world via villainy.

I've allways had a nagging feeling that Colin Firth's Harry Hart is destined to become a villain. Like Valentine and Poppy, our Hart will break.

Why do I think this? Let's start simple:

1) "I always felt that the old Bond films were only as good as the villain. As a child, I rather fancied a future as a colorful megalomaniac."

Now you could take it as face value veiled metaphor in their cat and mouse game. A game recognize game moment. Though when you look at it from a character angle, it is rather apparent that Galahad is not lying here. Look at the giddy nature in which they both talk about the subject. Almost lost in a moment of childhood nostalgia. Neither man is lying. So if Valentine tried to save the world like his younger self wanted, then it stands to reason that Harry has that childhood dream himself.

Harry even has a flair for the dramatic already. "Manners maketh man" is all about him causing a dignified scene to teach a lesson to all watching. In the Freebird church scene, you can see it BEFORE he starts fighting because of Valentine's machine.

Feels like a simple "I'm going to the bathroom" or "I'm hot and need to breath outside for moment" would have sufficed and gotten him out of there without hassle from the crazy Baptist and he KNEW that but didn't care. Arthur implies this subversiveness in their conversations about choosing candidates. Then there's the *way* in which he kills everyone there. Not just defense or trying to kill quickly but lots of slow, painful, and fucked up deaths. The killing is Valentine but the style is ALL Harry. It's part of the reasons he's disgusted. Not the enjoyment, but the ease with which he turned so gleefully. That slow motion fade in smile in the middle is proof of this. Harry *wanted* to punish those people the same way Valentine did. That's proven by what he says at the start. (Don't blame him either, just character commenting. Fuck those people.) Part of me thinks the Freebird is playing in *HIS* head. He's a bird freed by blood.

2) The Lepidopterist

I know the clip is from Venture Bros but it's meant to show how two "good guys" became bad. Kinda the perfect coincidence. But I digress... it was a shameless plug to #SavetheVentureBros. 😎😙😍

The hobbyist collecting of insects, fauna/flora, and what-have-yous has looooong been a trope of "colorful megalomaniacs".

Then there's the added bonus that The Lepidopterist sounds like the *perfect* name for a Bond villain.

Butterflies even symbolize death and rebirth and the violence inherent in transforming something for the better.

Is Harry's butterflies a set-up foreshadowing to his coming transformation from "hero" to "villain"?

"I doubt whether I'd work for anyone who drowns their employees. I want to go home. I want my butterfly collection. I want to see Mother."

3) As we know, all the best villains are ones we sympathize with and understand WHY they do what they do. Valentine was trying to solve over-population and save what he could of the species so it wouldn't happen again. Poppy wanted drugs to be legal, partially for vanity reasons but mainly for anger at global government hypocrisies (the same governments which had their heads blown up for trying to kill humanity for their own gain). Wouldn't it fit perfectly for Harry Hart to have seen the horrors inflicted by the world governments and the corruption of not only Statesmen, but his beloved Kingsmen themselves, and say "No more." What's he gonna feel when he finds out Arthur sold the Kingsmen's soul and got him killed? How long has the "shoot the dog" exercise been in practice? Why is trying to drown someone thought of as a reasonable way to help them? Does the rot go to the core? All things any reasonable person would ask after being shot for an organization that was just blown up by a drug dealer.

"When I was shot, can you guess what the last thing was that flashed through my mind? It was absolutely nothing. I had no ties. No bittersweet memories. I was leaving nothing behind. Never experienced companionship, never been in love. And in that moment, all I felt was loneliness and regret."

Who's to say what he would do or the methods he would take, but villains are merely people casting shadows in the way of the light.

4) I put this last because it's more pun than the others and because I only realized it while writing their names out loud. Valentine. Poppy. Hart. A valentine is love, poppies symbolize death, and a heart combines both (a Hart is also the name for an adult male deer over the age of five but I'm not British enough to understand what the fuck that has to do with anything.) There's also Richmond Valentine/Rich Man Love (Rich dude saving the world). Poppy Adams/ Poppy of the Earth (Death of the World). And finally Harry Hart/Harry Heart. An attacking heart. Yeah, that's the old definition of "harry". To harass. (Or Power Ruler of the Five Year Old Male Deer. This isn't an exact science 🙃 ). Honestly, as I write these out, the puns become the hardest piece of proof for me. Brits love a good wordplay foreshadowing.

"... this is not the end. It is not even the beginning of the end. But it is, perhaps, the end of the beginning."

AND what else do they have in common? They're all things associated with the color red. And what's red?

BLOOD.

Sorry, couldn't resist the touch of drama. 🤣

P.S. I know it's not really related but I also subscribe to the Poppy is a former Statesmen theory as well.

Making this an even more thematic connection. Good guys gone villain because of shitty situations.

Edits

5) HE'S WEARING AN EYEPATCH!!! How autistic am I that I missed that in my explanation. Eyepatches just seem that normal to me but they're like the ultimate villain accessory. Unless you're a pirate.

6) /u/Bespoke3 pointed out how the one thing keeping this from happening is Eggsy and Harry's relationship, and I contended that it was true. While making an interesting movie, you need a sufficient reason for those two to be on opposite ends of each other. And in rambling through comments, I found it. This is why you write shit outloud:

It's Princess Tilde!

The first movie showed that world leaders would gladly sell their souls to save themselves, Princess Tilde being one of the few exceptions. The second showed that even after those figureheads exploded (see what I did there 🤣), there was still terrible people left in charge making even worse decisions.

What if Harry's plan is to attack all of the "leaders" of the world as a way to show people they have the power to govern themselves. This would put Princess Tilde, and moreso her family, directly in the line of fire and force Eggsy's hand to intervene and choose.

Save the girl or save the world.

7) As /u/baddestmofointhe209 pointed out, Harry *was* shot in the head. That kind of thing does tend to mess with people after the fact. Maybe turning villain isn't such a stretch. Not evil, but morally grey.

7) As /u/baddestmofointhe209 pointed out, Harry *was* shot in the head. That kind of thing does tend to mess with people after the fact. Maybe turning villain isn't such a stretch. Not evil, but morally grey.

8) My wife was telling me about how Colin Firth has allways wanted to play the villain too.

"Whenever you take on playing a villain, he has to cease to be a villain to you. If you judge this man by his time, he's doing very little wrong."

“I’d never rule out a part in Doctor Who or Torchwood – especially Doctor Who, I’d also love to play a villain like Moriarty in Sherlock Holmes."

9) Thanks to some pushback from /u/The-Reddit-Giraffe, I decided to Google Kingsmen 3 rumors and stumbled on this little nugget about it, and specifically the Harry/Eggsy relationship:

"I'm really not allowed to say anything, but there is a script. It's a really neat idea."

Outside of it telling the finale of Eggsy and Harry Hart's story, we don't know all that much about the plot for the third movie.

"People will either freak out in a good way, or freak out in a bad way, but they will freak out," Vaughn teased. "We're literally finishing the script off as I speak – but they go on a journey that, if anyone sees it coming, then I'll give up."

To which I would like to thank YOU. This is why I love being shown how I could be wrong. I can't help but feel like this is EXACTLY what they're talking about. You don't have a script finished that fast if you didn't already know where you were going with the first two.

It HAS to end like this. Now I can't see any other way. Maybe The Rock is the Big Bad they have to team up to stop at the end but I will say with 99% confidence that Harry Hart will turn rogue for the first 2/3 of the movie.

10) This wouldn't be the first time I was right about something like this either.

[kamihikou]

DaiSuga HQ - "I'm sorry"

“I’m sorry.”

That was the last sentence he had heard from the love of his life. He hated it, despised it, even wanted to remove the existence of the sentence. Sugawara had left Daichi for good, and Daichi knew he would never come back, but how could Daichi possibly stop thinking about him? It was torturous. Flashes of his smile, his hair, echoes of his laughter, gentle touches of his hand on his face, Daichi could never stop thinking about the man, not even a single day, much less a minute. His mind was constantly filled with Sugawara, now that he was gone and out of his life. He really wanted to remove Sugawara from his mind, but he simply could not. So he took the pills that were prescribed from his physiologist. Daichi placed the medicinal bottle back on the table, walking back to his arm chair where he dumped himself onto it, slumping further into the already deflated chair.

To be honest? Daichi really missed him, no matter how many times he scratched out Sugawara’s face on the pictures, or how many times he cursed and sweated at Sugawara from bringing him to such a downfall, Daichi just could not bring himself to truly hate the man. He just wanted it to stop, he just wanted the pain to stop exploding through his mind, through his body, through his soul. And then Daichi thought, ‘if I can’t hate you, I’ll just erase you!’ because is it not so much more pain-free if he had just completely forgotten about the existence of Sugawara? Daichi could never possibly bring himself to blame the innocent man, deep down inside himself, he knew he was the one to blame, but if he were to say it out loud, he feared that his body might not take it and he would go into a state of dilemma.

So Daichi tried, and he tried hard. He took the unlit cigar from the pack beside his chair on the table, pressing down hard on the lighter’s button seee all times before finally getting to light up the cigar. He inhaled the first breath, exhaling the white puffs of smoke, just like how he wished he could exhale out the pain he was inflicted upon. He was at a state of loss, he swore that he would completely erase Sugawara from his mind, and yet here he was, unable to let go of the necklace that he had given Sugawara on their tenth anniversary. He watched the scene outside the window, the white puffs of smoke like tendrils curling and dancing it’s way up to the ceiling with feline grace, while the gentle white dots floated its way down to the ground, strikingly akin to a jellyfish at the moment. And he realised, that the snowflakes were just like Sugawara, gentle, graceful, loving, but also so far away. He could only pitifully watch the snowflakes dance away in the sky behind a window panel, he would never be able to touch them with his bare hands. He crushed the half-finished cigar, eliminating any chances of a possible fire break out.

Oh how I miss you, how I miss you dearly.

Daichi stood up, walking into his bedroom where he plopped himself onto the suddenly extremely big bed. It was no longer warm, and had no welcoming invitation. Daichi hated every inch of it, he decided that he would get a new bed tomorrow. Drowsiness kicked him hard in the back and he found himself yawning, he was exhausted. Reluctantly, Daichi slipped under the covers, laying down on the side of their—no, his—bed. However, no matter how tired the young chap was, he just could not get some proper rest, as each time he closed his eyes, he could see the clear vision of Sugawara’s face, smiling brilliantly bright at him. Oh just how long did Daichi have to wait, how many sleepless nights must he spend, just to see you and to meet you again?

Perhaps, tonight, could be his last night. Daichi slowly breathed in, exhaling and feeling much relief. He laid on his side, facing the empty side of the bed, and smiled. The room was greeted with silence. And so was Daichi’s mind.

Author’s note

Well, I sort of took inspiration from a song and turned it into a sad angst AU. Haha, my bad.

I feel that tone should be free to interpret this story as they see fit.

How I see my story is that, Sugawara had died protecting Daichi in some manner, and now he is constantly haunted by Sugawara. He constantly misses and thinks of Sugawara until one day he can no longer take he madness he is putting himself through and eventually kills himself. This is my own view on my own story.

You can even see it as Sugawara heartlessly breaking up with Daichi for another man and Daichi ends up losing his sanity and what not. It’s a very depressing story, end of story. (This pun was not intended haha)

[angstandhappiness]

LMAO

a handy way to start a speedrun