#had this idea in my head for MONTHS I needed to get it out there
Explore tagged Tumblr posts
Note
kissing u for giving me this idea cause I love frat daddy as stepbro!rafe! what if reader is 18 but in her last year of high school (I know even with age of majority thatâs still kinda icky but itâs the only way this scenario would workđ«Ł) so when rafeâs away for his first year at college before the events of s1, she knows itâs wrong but sheâs always worried and jealous of what he could be doing there or what other girls he could be seeing, especially when she sees his and his frat brothersâ instagram pictures. he doesnât always get back to her texts or calls, and even though she has needs too, she feels guilty for hooking up with any of her friends or trying to date to distract herself. so when he comes home for the holidays, sheâs all mad at him and pushes him away and they get all angsty and he apologizes because you were always willing to wait for him and his approval and with him being as nasty as he is he has to remind you that you come first because âyouâre my sisterâđ« âš
â stepbro!rafe is away for his first year at college
warnings: stepcest, reader is 18 + rafe is 19, indent is a flashback, jealous!reader, mention of hooking up w jj, choking, hair pulling, spanking, mirror sex, degrading, praise, gagging, piv, unprotected sex, creampie, 18+ mdni !
a/n: i hope it's ok that i tweaked a few things such as rafe apologizing & reader graduated high school but doesnât go to college cause she isn't sure what she wants to do!
âgonna miss you,â you frown into your stepbrotherâs chest, hugging him tightly. he rested his chin on the top of your head, âiâll miss you too, but hey, iâll be home for the holidays, and iâm only a phone call away. you could call me or text me anytime, iâll make sure to get back to you when i can, alright?â.
when rafe left for college, he responded to you when he could, just like he said he would. talking to him nearly every day almost made it feel like he wasnât hours away from home. however, a month passed, and you started to hear less from him until your calls and texts were unanswered. at first, you assumed you werenât hearing from him because of how busy he may have been with classes, and it wasnât until you came across instagram posts from him and his fraternity brothers that he was too busy partying to get back to you.
it was his first year at college, and you knew you shouldnât be upset; you had no right to be. especially when it was the only time he had freedom away from home, specifically from ward. it didn't stop you from missing rafe; you couldnât help but think about what else he could be doing, and no matter how much you tried, knowing it was wrong, your mind started to wander over who he could be with.
when two more months had passed and still no communication from rafe, you sought out a distraction through jj maybank, who was unknowingly helping you take your mind off your stepbrother. the more time you had spent with jj, the less you thought about rafe and the promise of not running to anyone that wasn't him.
the promise you made was pushed into the back of your mind until one night, as you were about to sneak out of the house to see the blonde pogue, you received an incoming call from rafe. you could feel the guilt consuming you the longer you stared at his name, itching to answer. but your bitterness got the best of you, your finger tapping 'decline' before quietly leaving your house, not knowing rafe was calling to tell you he'd be home for the holiday.
a week later and yet another late night with jj, you tip-toed up the stairs, ensuring not to wake anyone up. just as you were about to reach your bedroom, you froze in your spot, looking like a deer in headlights, when the door to the room across from yours swung open. "sneaking back in?", his hand encircled your wrist, pulling you into his room and shutting the door behind you. ârafe, what are you doing here?â your brows furrow, more than confused as to why he was home.
âmissed you, princess," his hands slid up your waist, walking you back until your lower back pressed against his dresser, "if you had answered when i called, you wouldâve known i was coming home for the holidays.â.
your palms pressed at his firm chest, pushing him away when he started peppering kisses along your jaw. "what? what's wrong?" rafe asks, "donât tell me youâre upset cause i made you promise not to go to anyone else while i was away on campus.â.
âi can't be upset over that when iâve been seeing jj,â the words rolled off your tongue with ease, âi don't know why it matters anyway when you've been ignoring me for the past few months, probably too busy sleeping around with sorority girls every weekendâ.
rafeâs nostrils flared the second jj's name slipped from your mouth, âwhat did you just say?â he gritted his teeth, removing his hand from your waist to grab your throat. âwhat?â you bat your eyes innocently, âdon't act all innocent, you've been fucking around with maybank, huh?â.
"what happened to being my good girl? guess your poor, needy little pussy couldn't handle being empty for a few months, hm?" rafe snickered, "and now you wanna push me away all 'cause i've been too busy?".
your mouth gaped open to speak, only for him to cut you off, "is that why you're pushing me away, acting like you didn't miss me and your panties aren't soaking wet right now? ".
rafe spun you around to face the mirror of his dresser, bending you over. his large, warm hands slip under your skirt, pushing the article of clothing around your waist. his fingers hooked into the elastic of your panties, pulling them down to pool around your ankles. "step out of them," he ordered, delivering a sharp smack to the fat of your ass; when you didn't oblige, "don't make me tell you twice.".
rafe bent down, grabbing your panties before standing back up. his hand reached around, cupping your jaw, your lips parting when his fingers dug into your skin as he squeezed your cheeks. rafe shoved the silk material into your mouth and his lips brush against the shell of your ear, "you want an apology? fine, here's your apology.".
his free hand dipped between your legs, chuckling as he ran his fingers through your slick folds. âiâm sorry, princessâŠâ he cooed, extending his thumb to rub circles to your clit, pulling a soft moan from you.
a desperate whine bubbled in your throat at the loss of friction on your puffy clit, your heart racing in anticipation at the sound of fabric rustling behind you. rafe nudged your thighs further apart with his knee, slotting himself between your legs. his palm rested on the small of your back as you squirmed under him, feeling the thick head of his cock sliding up and down your folds.
he grabbed a fistful of your hair, yanking your head back to make you look at him in the reflection, watching your eyes roll back as his thick cock stretches you deliciously, âsorry that my poor girl was so fuckinâ needy to the point she had to run to a pogue of all people.â.
âshitâŠmissed being buried deep in this sweet cunt,â rafe groaned, "guess i gotta ruin this tight little hole; make sure you don't go runnin' back to jj, huh?" he taunted, slowly pulling back, leaving just the tip of his cock inside you.
"don't worry, by the time i'm done with you, all that pretty little head and pussy is gonna think about is how much she missed and ached for my dick," rafe sucked his teeth, your body jolting forward, biting down on the pair of panties stuffed in your mouth as he slammed himself back into your willing cunt.
your hands grip the top of his dresser, eyes barely staying open. a loud, muffled yelp forces its way through the flimsy silk fabric stuffed in your mouth when rafe harshly tugged at the roots of your hair, "did i say you could close your eyes? keep 'em open, want you to watch me fuck you like the needy little cockwhore you are.".
rafe removed his hand from your hair, snaking it around your throat to hold your head upright. he buried his face into the crook of your neck, biting and sucking hard enough to leave bruises on your flesh. he leaned forward, putting all his weight onto you and pressing his chest to your back, "this s'all you wanted, yeah? just wanted to be stuffed full of my cock again?".
drool soaked through the silk as his cock pounded into you relentlessly. you grabbed onto his arm, struggling to keep your eyes open, and your nails bite into his skin as the tip of his cock repeatedly hits your cervix. rafeâs eyes flicker to look at the two of you in the mirror, âlook at how pretty you look takinâ my dick,â he praises.
âcame way too many fuckinâ times to the thought of youâŠbeen craving feeling your pussy around my cock again since the day i left,â rafe rasped. âespecially feeling you cum all over my cock,â he groaned as he felt your walls flutter around him.
âcâmon, princess, cream all over my cock and make a mess like you used to,â he nipped your ear, holding you steady as your legs trembled. your pussy convulses around him, his hand clamping around your mouth to further muffle your cry of pleasure as you cum all over his thick cock.
your orgasm triggers rafeâs, his hips slowly pumping into yours as they become sloppy. he gives you one more harsh thrust, his hips stilling, pushing his cock deep inside you, and letting out a moan as thick ropes of cum spill into you, painting your walls white.
rafe removes your panties from your mouth, your chest heaving, small pants filling the room. your breath hitches in your throat when his hips slowly rolled into yours, âhowâs that for an apology? or you still need some convincing?â.
taglist: @oceandriveab @babygorewhore @cameronsprincess @starkeysbabygirl @bloodibambiidoll @fallbhind @sematarygirls @nemesyaaa @ilovefiction4lmen @zyafics @sturnioloshacker @heartsforvin @cxrrodedcoffin @rafeyscurtainbangs @rafesthroatbaby @jjslaybank @kisses4angels @littlelamy @rafesangelita @starkeygirlposts @drewsarms @hallecarey1 @fallrafwe @sturnskiss @blckbrrybasket @wearemadeofstardust0 @honeybunniesoobin @starkeysbebe @sabrina-carpenter-stan-account @starkeysheart @rafeinterlude @starkeyisthelastname @flvredcas @emilysuperswag @proxy-princess @hyperfixationgirl @ijustwanttoreadlols @slumnit @cl4uus @coco-cinnamon @stoned-writer
#đđđđđ àŒâ§âË.#stepbro!rafe#rafe cameron x reader#rafe cameron blurb#rafe cameron smut#rafe cameron drabble#rafe cameron obx#rafe cameron#rafe cameron outer banks#rafe cameron x you#rafe cameron fanfiction#rafe smut#rafe x reader#rafe obx#obx smut#rafe cameron imagine#rafe x reader smut#rafe fic#rafe outer banks
444 notes
·
View notes
Text
RUNNINâ OUT OF TIME!â miguel oâhara x fem reader
after countless missed dates and hundreds of text messages gone unanswered, youâd grown okay with the negligence from miguel towards your marriage. only coming to your breaking point after he missed your daughterâs birthday.
contents: angst (lol), mentions of divorce, smut, oral (f receiving), âjust the tipâ, unprotected p in v (wrap it đ«”đŒ), doggy, ass spanking (like once), orgasm denial, use of toy (m receiving), switch reader + miguel
authorâs note: so i know i said i wasnât gonna write for him (and the atsv fandomâs pretty dead) but the ficâs my baby so i wanted to repost it đ„č
word count: 11k
There wasn't a big A-Ha! moment when you came to the realization that you loved Miguel O'Hara. The words just slipped out naturally the moment he'd said them to you, like they belonged to him alone. Because in all actuality, they only did belong to him. There was no one else you could see yourself waking up to next in the morning. No one else you wanted to spend time with for the foreseeable future. Maybe it was the memories between the two of you that helped you come to the conclusion that you loved him.
From the time that he carried you back to your shared apartment
Your legs wobbled with every step you took on the concrete, the heels you had on digging into the back of your ankle and the sides of your toes. You didn't have to take the heels off to know that you were mostly likely bleeding. "Wait, Miguel. Just wait up a bit," you were trying to catch up to his long strides, failing miserably with each new sting of pain that shot up your foot. You made a mental note not to wear heels whenever Miguel suggested a 'brisk walk' as a date idea.
He looked back to see you leaning against a pole, taking off your heels for some kind of temporary relief before you continued the rest of the walk. Not that you looked too enthusiastic about that either. Though he couldn't have his pretty girlfriend standing on a dirty sidewalk, could he? With what seemed to be no effort, he took you in his arms and resumed the walk. "How bad's the pain?" He looked down at you once he was sure he wouldn't bump into anyone in a three block radius.
You opened up your mouth to speak, about to tell him that it was bearable enough to the point you could still walk, but he interrupted you by saying, "Don't lie to me because you think you're inconveniencing me. Just tell me the truth." The truth was that you were debating on staying on that sidewalk and calling an Uber at this time of night. Not that he needed to know that, though. "It's not so bad now that you're carrying me," you reluctantly admitted, looking away from him.
If at any point during the night he struggled with the task, he didn't seem to show it. He hadn't even cracked a sweat. Somehow he'd managed to maneuver the front door open, setting you down on the couch with the utmost care necessary. "I'm gonna go get you the first aid kit. Is there something else you need?" You shook your head, laying back onto the couch cushion while you waited for him to come back.
He came back, raising your feet before taking a seat down next to you. He put your feet down on his lap, getting an ointment from the box. You wondered just how many things he had in there for these types of occasions. Throughout the couple months of dating, you'd seen him pull out an ointment for ant bites, scratches, and now blisters. "Try to stay still for me, will you?" He murmured, starting to rub the ointment over the exposed skin. His touch was the gentlest you'd ever felt, barely feeling the subtle brush of his fingers.
"Si no sana hoy, sanarå mañana," he hummed as he finished applying the bandages, making sure that they were well wrapped before standing up. You made no attempt to stand up from your spot on the couch just yet, letting your feet recover from wearing those heels for five hours straight. "You need some help getting into the bedroom?" He questioned, scooping you into his arms with that same ease as before when you nodded.
"Thank you."
"Anything for you, my lady."
To the time that he begrudgingly agreed to dance with you in the rain
"Come on, just indulge me a bit," you stood in the middle of the empty road, extending your hand out to him while the rain poured down relentlessly. "I'll indulge you inside where we don't have any chance of catching a cold," he grumbled from his spot on the sidewalk, trying to appear menacing. He really did just look like a sopping wet cat, especially with the way that his brows furrowed slightly. "Mami, let's go. I'll let you dance with me inside, please. Any song you want, too."
You kept your arm extended to him, waiting. You knew that he was bound to fall for your whims any second. He let out a small groan, pushing himself off the sidewalk before walking over to where you were standing. "If you get sick, I won't hesitate to tell you that I told you so," he intertwined his hand with yours, the warmth from his body a nice contrast to the chill air surrounding the two of you. "Do you know how rare it is for Nueva York streets to be this empty?"
Usually, there was at least a mad man that would be running around the streets. Even in these conditions. But the two of you were alone, streetlights illuminating your 'dance floor.' His reluctance seemed to fade away as the two of you swayed on the street, with seemingly no rhythm whatsoever. "If you wanted to sway with me, we could've done that inside," he pointed out, letting out a small snort. "Just because I said I wanted to dance didn't mean that I promised to be good at it."
He guided you through a slow rhythm, his coordination slightly better than what you would've given him credit for. His feet moving to a silent melody in his head. "I was a chambelĂĄn at this quince, they had us practice the routine until we ended up crying or collapsing from exhaustion," he spoke up before you had the chance to ask, "But at least it's given me some pretty gnarly dance moves."
"Hey, Miguel?"
"¿Qué paso?"
"Never say 'gnarly' again. You sound older than what you are," you burst out into little giggles at the scoff that left his lips. "I'll let you know that all the scientific studies I've participated on have shown that gnarly's making a comeback."
"Hey, Miguel?" You were debating on if this was the right time to admit what had been threatening to escape your lips for a while now. All you could do was hope that he didn't think that this admission was too soon.
"If you're gonna ask me about the resources that I have for those studies, I don't have them on me now. I'll get them later, though," you could only roll your eyes at his persistence, a laugh bubbling from your chest. Even as the laugh echoed through the empty street, you weren't exactly too concerned with how loud you were being. It wasn't like it compared to the way your heart was beating against your rib cage, your hands starting to clam up in his grasp.
"No, it's not about that. Not that gnarly's making a comeback either way."
"Mark my words. Gnarly. Will. Be. Making. A. Comeback," he accentuated his words carefully, giving you a mock glare before he continued to speak, "But if it's not about that, then what's up?"
The moment of truth. Maybe this was a mistake. You could feel your throat close up, your movements starting to get a little sloppy. Just tell him. His reaction can't be that bad, right? You knew he had no reason to react negatively but every single worst-case scenario started to run through your head relentlessly. "I love you."
"I love you too," while it was the response that you were expecting, it still caught you off-guard. He held your gaze, showing no signs of regret or hesitation as he whispered those words to you. "I don't think that I've loved someone the same way that I love you," and even now, he had to top off your admission. You weren't sure how much time had passed by while the two of you danced away, all that you knew was that the cold tomorrow was probably worth it. If only to say that you got the chance at this experience.
He didn't say anything the next morning when you woke up with a cough, your skin on your nose starting to get raw from how many times you'd gotten up to wipe it. Even though you could tell that he was itching to tell you, the words practically on the top of his tongue if you had to guess. "I got you some chicken soup," he spoke up after you woke up from what seemed to be your 50th nap on the day, the faint aroma from the soup wafting up your stuffy nose.
Definitely worth it.
And even the time that he'd gone up to receive his award with your lipstick all over his face
"I need my good luck kiss, c'mon," he gently pinched your side, a small laugh escaping from your lips as you attempted to push his hand away. "You'll get my lipstick all over you," you pointed out, remembering that the Chanel lipstick you had on was in fact, not transfer-proof. Miguel didn't seem to care too much though, a grin on his face as he leaned in to kiss you. "At least they'll know that my lady loves me."
You'd imprinted the mark of your lips on his cheeks and the tip of his nose, satisfied by the work you'd done when you looked at it. Perhaps you'd gotten a little carried away. Not that he looked bad covered in your red lipstick, by any means. He was no longer Miguel O'Hara, the world-renowned geneticist with more awards under his belt than he could count. He was simply just a love struck idiot with a grin on his face. A love struck idiot for you.
"What time do the awards start again?" You wiped away the lipstick on the side of your mouth and under your lips, grabbing the tube from your purse to fix it. The last thing that the two of you needed was to hear Aaron's snide remarks about how Miguel was incompetent. You went to hand him a clean makeup wipe, but he rejected the advance. "I believe they started about five minutes ago," he responded, pulling his jacket sleeve to look at the watch adorning his wrist.
"Why are you not freaking out about this more?" You questioned him, panic evident on your voice as you pushed everything inside your purse and moved to get out the car. He put his hand on your thigh, gently rubbing it through the material of the silk dress you'd worn for tonight. "Why are you freaking so much about it?" For someone who valued punctuality, he seemed to be oddly calm in this situation. Well, you supposed there was nothing you could do now that you both were late. You took a couple deep breaths, grabbing the stuff you'd missed when you were in a rush.
While you were busy gathering your bearings, he went around the car and opened the door for you. Extending a hand out to you. He grasped your fingers in between his own, helping you with getting out of the car before he even thought of stepping into the building. "They're about to announce your name, O'Hara. Get in there," Delgato hissed as the two of you walked past him, his head craning up to look up at Miguel. "Maybe if you stopped standing in my way, I might be able to."
You could practically see the sheer anger in Delgato's face as he muttered to himself, moving out of the way nonetheless. "Now I know why you end up so stressed," you muttered, making your way down the stairs to take a seat. The room was a bit packed but the two of you managed to find some good seats in the middle. A couple people turned to look at the two of you but their attention was captured once more by the person speaking up on stage. Something about a drug slowing the speed in which some disease grew.
"And now for our next award of the night, please give a hand to Dr. Miguel O'Hara from Alchemax."
The cameras started clicking immediately as soon as he stepped onto the stage, a couple whispers of how unprofessional he was being being shared around in the audience. A couple thank you's were shared, to his lab colleagues and assistants who all simply just nodded upon being acknowledged, before he delved into what the topic of his research had been about. Well, just enough to keep the audience and you entertained. Even though only a couple of the words coming out his mouth actually managed to stick, you couldn't help but listen intently.
To the way that he described his work, with such passion and dedication. The way that he visibly lightened up whenever he got to speak about something that was fascinating to him. Even with all the talk circulating through the audience, you just couldn't help but be so proud of him. His eyes met yours through the sea of people, a smile on his face as he finished with the summary he'd gone over time and time again in front of the bathroom mirror. "Are there any questions?"
He was starting to get agitated, even you could tell from a distance. Well, it's not like you could exactly blame either parties here. The audience wanted to know why he'd shown up with lipstick adorning almost every corner of his face and he wanted to get asked questions about his research. "Any questions that aren't related to my current appearance?" He decided to ask, and it was almost comical how many hands went down. He answered the questions of those who remained, about five. But all he seemed to care about was having your attention in the audience as he spoke.
And while you'd expected him to win tonight, you hadn't expected this. Having him on one knee while you two were supposed to be celebrating his achievement. "So I didn't really prepare a speech before this or anything. But I was just wondering if you'd give me the second win of the night and agree to marry me," As corny as it was, you found yourself nodding to his proposal. "You mean to tell me that worked?" He asked, hesitatingly reaching over to grab your hand to slide the ring on.
"Yes, you idiot. You're acting like I expected anything more from you," you answered, watching as he slid the band on. It was fairly simple, a small stone perched on the middle of it. Your birth stone. "I promise to make you the happiest woman alive," he murmured against your lips, gently tilting your chin so you'd be looking at him. "You already are," it was your turn to be smooth. He let out a small chuckle, his lips gently pressing against yours.
So how did it get to this point?
To the point of having dozens of your calls and messages ignored, and if there was a response, it'd be a simple one-worded response. Enough for you to want to drop the subject all together. Dates between the two of you were a common occurrence, or at least often enough to the point where you didn't have to spend five minutes wondering when the last one had been. Promises left unfulfilled, accumulating only to be left discarded in the dust.
As much as you tried to resist it at first, you started to grow.. okay with it. It felt almost selfish to ask more of him, knowing how much effort he put into making sure that the three of you had a roof over your head. You were able to get a part-time job, giving you more time to spend with Gabriella. A nagging thought kept bugging you though. You married him for the purpose of having him as a husband, not solely a provider. Maybe you weren't as okay with it as you thought.
Your eye twitched when the last balloon was being filled up. How was it that almost every member of his family was capable of showing up and he wasn't? Even some of them came from Mexico for the week. For all the events that he'd missed, you at least would've thought that he would make some attempt to show up for Gabriella's party. You could see her looking around, with the hope of catching a glimpse of her father. It wouldn't hurt to call his work to see what was so important that he couldn't get off, right?
"Alchemax Industries. What can I help you with today?" The receptionist's bored tone came through the other end of the line after spending a couple minutes on hold, your foot irritably tapping against the hardwood floor. All you could do was hope that they wouldn't send you to another line like the previous five times.
"Hi, I'm calling about one of your employees. Miguel O'Hara. I was wondering until what time he was scheduled to work today," you answered quietly, in attempts that no one would overhear. The last thing you needed were any additional comments from his family about how you couldn't keep him around. You listened as the receptionist on the other side started typing out on their computer, silently thanking them.
"ÂĄTe voy agarrar!" You heard yelling behind you, moving to the side before you ended up getting trampled by a bunch of five year olds. "Okay, sorry about taking a while. So about the employee that you're calling, there's a mistake. Miguel hasn't-" The rest of it fell onto deaf ears, your grip on the phone tightening as you struggled to keep up your composure. "Ma'am?" You heard the receptionist ask after a couple moments of silence. The fact that the call had ended hadn't even registered until a while later.
The words kept sounding through your head as the party continued, despite how much you'd tried to drown them out. With water balloon fights in the backyard with some of the kids, karaoke with Gabriella, and the breaking of the piñata. But you couldn't. Your eyes kept darting over to the door, almost expecting to find Miguel walking in at any given moment now. Though you weren't exactly surprised when it remained shut after the first five times that you'd checked. Everyone was having a good time and all you could do was miss him.
Chatter and laughter filled the atmosphere as you made your way through the penthouse, trying to find Gabriella. She'd disappeared right after the cake was cut with the pretense that she needed to use the bathroom about half an hour ago. And while she did spend up to that in the bathroom, it was only really whenever you gave her your cellphone to play around with. And you knew that none of the kids were playing hide and seek. "Gabi!" You called out, searching for her in the guest room.
The last time you'd seen her, she was busy talking with her tĂas. Nice women, really. Just too involved in finding out whatever chisme they could get out of Gabriella without any regards towards her feelings or the setting they were currently in. You wouldn't be surprised if they brought up the topic of separation to the poor girl. "Hey, have you seen Gabi around?" You didn't even question why Gabriel was exiting one of the rooms with one of your friends, too concerned about Gabi.
Gabriel wiped some spit from the corner of his mouth, shaking his head. "I'll let you know if we find her," he assured you, trying to hide your friend with his body. Like that'd erase the suspicion. Though you guessed it wasn't the right time to go over the whole 'don't hurt them' spiel. You'd do that when you knew your daughter was safe. "Okay, thank you," you told him, going to look for her in the secret spots you knew she liked to hide. In the laundry room. The library. Out in the balcony.
You stepped inside your shared closet with Miguel, not expecting to find her inside. You only really bothered to check as a last resort. But there she was. Her knees pulled up to her chest with her head buried deep in them, sniffling that was almost enough to bring you down to your knees. You walked over to her, sitting down in front of her before gently pulling her hands away from her face.
Only then could you see the extent of her pain. Her cheeks were tear-streaked and her nose was starting to turn pink at the tip from how much she'd been rubbing at it. "What's wrong, mija?" You wiped away the tears that brimmed at the edge of her waterline with your thumb, drying it on your jeans. All you'd been trying to do was make sure she was having a good time at the party and your efforts had all but flopped.
"Why didn't he show up?" With every little crack of her voice, you could feel a piece of your heart shatter. You knew perfectly well who she was referring to her. Just like you'd been waiting for him to arrive, you caught small glimpses of Gabriella searching hopelessly around for her father. "I don't know. I wish I knew what could've been so important but I don't," you whispered, holding her close to your chest. There wasn't any use lying to her, not when you knew she'd look through it.
"Mami, me duele la cabeza," Gabriella spoke up after a couple seconds, looking up at you. You could only guess. From what you could gather, you figured that she must've been crying at least for the previous half hour. "I can't give you any pills.. but I'll read you a story once you lay down for bed," you told her, helping her stand up from her spot on the floor. Gabriella left the closet to go brush her teeth and get ready for bed, leaving you in the deafening silence of the closet.
"Party's over," you announced on your way downstairs, already imagining the flurry of complaints that would come your way. You knew that if it was up to everyone else, they would find a way to keep the party going until two in the morning. After thanking everyone for coming and sending them home with leftovers that would last them through the weekend, you cleaned up the house a bit. Picking up a couple candy wrappers from the floor and sweeping off the multitude of streamers on the floor.
You'd spent the next hour tidying up the house, cleaning up juice stains from your once pristine white floors. Well, at least Gabriella managed to have a good time. Mostly. You'd almost expected her to fall asleep by the time you went back upstairs, but you saw her peering over at you when you opened up the door. "Alright, what story did you want me to read?" You questioned, stepping over to the library she had in the corner of her room. Naming off the first suggestions that appeared in your field of vision. "Can we do The Little Prince?"
Gabriella scooted over on the bed to let you sit down next to her, listening intently as you begin to read the story. Almost like she hadn't been listening to this story for the previous two weeks. At some point, she'd learned some of the passages from memory and began to recite them from the top of her head. You finished the book, half expecting her to still be awake and wanting another book. But no. Her eyes were shut, her arms tightly wrapped around one of her plushies while her breathing slowed down.
"Que sueñes con los angelitos," you whispered, pushing a couple loose strands of her hair back before kissing her forehead. She stirred in her sleep, her grip on the blankets tightening slightly. You moved when she finally managed to still, putting the book back on the shelf where it belonged. Prepping it for tomorrow. You made your way out the room, making sure to leave her night lamp on before shutting the door behind you. At least her headache hadn't bothered her too badly.
You poured yourself a glass of wine from a trip you'd taken with Miguel to Italy, swirling the burgundy liquid around. Much how your own thoughts were currently swirling around without any clear direction. Not your usual drink of choice, you had to admit. But it was a nice distraction. The subtle glow from the moonlight illuminated the otherwise empty room, the quietness almost too much to bear. There was nothing to distract you from the thoughts running rampant inside your head, each one of them leading to what seemed to be the same conclusion.
A divorce.
Even thinking about it felt wrong, though. You and Miguel made a pact upon getting marriedâstating that no matter how mad the two of you got at one another, that word would never be mentioned. Not even as a joke. But you supposed that was made during a different time. A time where Miguel wouldn't put his family on the back burner simply because of work affairs. A time where you didn't have to come up with excuses for his behavior.
It wasn't just for yourself that you were considering this solution. But also for Gabriella. His absence was starting to affect her in more ways than you could possibly fathom. Not just today for her birthday, but also throughout the last couple months. You could see the different attempts that Gabriella had made to talk to her dad, most of them ending up unsuccessful. Only leaving her more and more confused. Leaving her wondering what she'd done wrong.
"ÂĄMami!" Gabriella called out from the other room while you were busy finishing up dinner in the kitchen, setting a separate plate for Miguel to put in the microwave. A nudging feeling that you would find the plate the same way you'd left it running through your head. You walked over to Gabi, spotting her in the kitchen table with a coloring book set in front of her. You were almost impressed by how precise she was at such a young age.
She'd managed to color in the photos without going through the lines once. She was always a bit of a perfectionist though, much like her father. It felt like staring at a reflection of a mini Miguel at times. If only he would try to maintain that relationship you knew Gabriella needed in her life.
"Yeah, what's up?" You wiped your hands on a napkin before taking a seat next to her. Looking over at the design on her book, you decided to commit the sight to memory. It wouldn't hurt to search it up later and use it as a form of gift inspiration for her birthday party coming up. "There's this parent career day tomorrow and I was hoping that you could come."
You wouldn't have expected her to ask you for help first. Given that your job mostly consisted of logistics and paperwork most of the day. The last interesting thing that had happened in the office was an affair between one of the CEO's and an intern. "You sure you don't want your dad to go instead?" Even if it wasn't by much, you figured that genetics would be more interesting than how graph analysis works. Gabriella played with her pens, avoiding looking at you.
"What's the point of asking if he's not gonna show up?" She spoke up after a couple moments, a small sigh escaping from your lips. You couldn't lie to her any better than you could lie to yourself, you knew that much. But you at least had to try. If only to stop that frown from forming on her face. "How about I present what your dad does for work? So it's almost like he's there," Except he wouldn't be. You figured it was a good enough compromise for her though. "But why can't he show up? Do we not matter to him anymore?"
The same question that clouded your thoughts while you laid in bed, arms wrapped around one of his pillows so it wouldn't feel so empty. So you wouldn't be reminded that the stupid California King was too big just for you to lay on it. "We do matter, he's just busy with work. It's how we're able to live the way we do," you answered, trying to keep your answer simple without dumbing it down. She was smart enough to understand. Smarter than you sometimes gave her credit for. "Okay. Your option sounds good."
You'd stayed up well past midnight that night, reading through a couple of Miguel's research papers in some attempt to figure out what you needed to describe. So far, all you had was talking about flasks and the basics of chemistry that you'd learned. Adorning a poster board with glitter also proved to be more work than you would've imagined, the clean-up taking longer than you would've expected. At least it didn't look too bad. Well, just enough to impress a classroom full of ten year olds.
Just the fact that Gabriella wasn't even making the effort anymore was enough to reassure the decision that maybe a divorce was necessary. Even if the thought was still painful to think about. At some level, you still loved Miguel just as much as the first day that you'd uttered those words to him. Just as much as the day you showed up on the aisle to officially intertwine your life with his. But you knew that neither you or Gabriella could be content just expecting the minimum from him.
The front door swung open, a loud groan escaping from Miguel's lips as he stepped into the threshold. His work shoes squeaked against the floors you'd just cleaned as he trudged over to the living room. "Hey, where's Gabi?" His lips barely grazed your cheek when he bent down to greet you, his voice riddled with exhaustion. He took a seat on the couch, his back slouched against the cushions. "She's asleep. Given that it's currently midnight."
You heard shuffling from his side, the bright phone screen illuminating his face. From this angle, you could see the dark circles underneath his eyes. It almost made you regret wanting to even bring this topic up. He squinted, tapping at the screen with his pointer finger to turn down the brightness. "Ah shock, you're right. I missed her birthday," Normally you would've been okay with the fact that he'd even bothered to remember the event he'd missed.
"Where were you?" You questioned, reaching over to turn on the lamp. You felt like one of those detectives in the old movies you'd watched with Miguel, the light dim enough to create an ominous shadow over yourself. "What do you mean? I was at work all day," he responded, rubbing a hand through his face. He was committed to making the lie work, you had to give him that. He even had the Alchemax lab coat and badge on. And under normal circumstances, you might've just let that slide. Like all the other previous instances.
You calmly took a sip from your drink, letting the suspense marinate for just a little while longer. "I called Alchemax. It's funny that you say that, given that their system shows that you quit months ago. So, I'll give you one more chance to tell me the truth," you told him, his eyes widening almost comedically. The silence was enough of a tell for you to realize that you had him cornered now. He managed to meet your gaze after a couple seconds, speaking almost begrudgingly, "You called my job?"
You gave him a dirty look, almost surprised that it was what he was choosing to focus on. "Right, right. Not the point," he muttered, rubbing his temples. The silence was almost deafening, the two of you trying to keep things quiet for the sake of keeping some normalcy in front of Gabriella. "She kept asking about you, you know?" You started off, setting the wine glass with a thump before speaking again, "I kept lying to her. Telling her that something at work was more important than you being able to show up to her party."
"I want a divorce." It was so quiet that you could hear a pin drop. His mouth opened and closed like a fish, and you could almost see the different wheels in his head work. The wedding ring around your finger suddenly felt too heavy, the life that the two of you built together threatening to crash down in a mere matter of seconds just by that single sentence. "The least that you could do now is tell me the truth. Because what I'm imagining right now is that you have some kind of secret family on the down low."
In your defense, what more were you supposed to think? Especially when he's made no effort to tell you anything up to this point? You picked up the wine glass, glancing over at him to see what he'd do now. You'd be lying if you said that you fully expected him to start telling you the truth. But you hoped he did. If only to make you reconsider the idea of getting a divorce. If only to let you sleep better at night.
"Okay. Fine, I'll tell you. Just please.. consider the divorce one more time. Please. And believe me when I say there is no other family," he stood up from his spot, his hands clasped together as he stood in front of you. This was starting to sound dangerously similar to the number of excuses that he'd given you before but you decided on giving him the benefit of the doubt. You stayed silent and he took that as a cue to continue, "I haven't been around because... I'm Spider-Man."
The wine in your mouth poured down your nose, the liquid have gone down the wrong pipe. You coughed, attempting to clear your throat as the words settled in. There was no way that he was being serious. But the way that he was looking at you made it seem like he was. "And I know that it doesn't justify putting the two of you on the back burner but there's a lot of crime in Nueva York and throughout the universes in case you haven't realized." Universes?
Now you were certain he'd either lost it or he was just pulling excuses out of his ass. Probably a combination of both if you had to guess. "You're kidding," you deadpanned, waiting for some kind of indication that this was all just a joke. He flicked his wrist, a string of what seemed to be a web sticking onto the lamp next to you. You reached over, tentatively scooping the substance onto your pointer finger to examine what it was. It was indeed.. a web. You were starting to wonder if you'd drunk too much wine.
Nope. Still half a glass left. You punched the side of your arm, waiting for some kind of indication that you were dreaming. All you received was a sharp shot of pain though. Now all you had left to do was actually acknowledge the situation. Accept the fact that your husband was the self-proclaimed vigilante of Nueva York.
"Why didn't you tell me in the first place?" You managed to ask after the initial shock had died down, clearing your throat. He shifted his feet awkwardly, sitting down next to you once more. "Because I've seen too many instances of this play out. I didn't want any danger to come to you after you found out," he responded, his hands reaching out to hold your own. "But please, trust me. I only have eyes for you. Every single of my absences has been for the better of Nueva York."
It all started to make sense, though. The amount of files scattered on his desk, information on previous villains. A couple comic books from the previous Spider-Man on his bedside table. The awkward disappearances when the two of you were out on the street.
"Please say something," he urged after a couple seconds of your silence, his calloused thumb rubbing small circles on your hand. What could you really say, though? It felt wrong to still be pissed off at him while he went off to save the city, and yet.. you still couldn't find it in yourself to forgive him just yet. "I know that the city of Nueva York needs you. But so does Gabriella. She doesn't deserve to be questioning what she's doing wrong as a child."
He was about to speak up but you quickly interrupted him, "She thinks she's not doing enough. That all those trophies in her room aren't enough for you to be proud of her. I beg of you to find some kind of balance before you end up losing the both of us for good." With that, you downed the rest of your wine before retreating to the kitchen to clean up the glass. You expected him to come back to bed, though you hadn't heard him come in after half an hour of tossing and turning. All you heard was the guest room door being opened.
You were awoken to the sweet scent of buttermilk, all kinds of different alarms going off in your head. The thought of Gabriella burning herself in the kitchen was starting to imprint itself in your brain. It certainly wasn't Miguel. Despite how groggy you were, you quickly rubbed your eyes and made your way over to the kitchen. Niña Bonita welcomed you as soon as you stepped inside, noticing Miguel stirring some batter with Gabriella by his side. At least she wasn't too close to the stove.
"Mi niña bonita, my dulce princesa," he hummed along to the song, gently ruffling Gabriella's hair. You stood at the doorway in silence, a small smile making itself known on your face despite how mad you were at Miguel. Gabriella attempted to push off his hands, but even she couldn't hide how much she was enjoying this time with him. "Mami, you finally got up!" Gabriella called you over once she noticed you.
"When'd you take the time to learn how to make these?" Usually it was you that took care of the cooking. "I'm not completely useless in the kitchen, I'll have you know," Miguel retorted, flipping a pancake with practiced ease. Though you knew better. You could see a couple pancake pieces sticking up to the ceiling. Just how long had he been up to try to perfect this skill for Gabriella? "Take a seat, they'll almost be done. The sous chef's been doing an excellent job helping."
"Papi promised we'd go to the aquarium today, to make up for missing my birthday," Gabriella announced as you were in the middle of pouring syrup onto your pancakes. You had to forcibly stop yourself from reacting, trying to ensure that you wouldn't be having syrup with a side of pancakes. "You sure you can handle it?" You gritted under your teeth when Gabriella went to retrieve her tablet in the living room. "I wouldn't have suggested it if I couldn't. Haven't given you any reason to but have some faith in me."
You raised your brows, waiting for him to realize just how contradictory that statement was. Not that it ever came, though. "Can I stay the night over at my friend's house?" Gabriella piped once she finished her pancakes, all too eager to grab your plate along with Miguel's. You glanced over at Miguel, seeing the resistance on his expression. "Which friend is it?" You questioned, trying to rack your brain if it was something that she mentioned before. "The one from soccer practice, Candice."
After making some calls to Candice's mom to make sure that sleepover was actually something that she was aware of, you gave Gabriella the go-ahead. She practically rushed into her bedroom after the three of you had finished with breakfast, picking out a pair of pajamas and clothes before stuffing them into her backpack. Triple checking it so there would be no reason for room to doubt her preparation. While she was in the shower, you snuck in her stuffed animal. Just as a safety precaution.
The trip to the aquarium was honestly more trouble than it was worth, in your opinion. Parking was nearly impossible, the vein on Miguel's forehead threatening to pop with each turn that he made around the lot. Waiting patiently for whatever spot would open up for half an hour before realizing that no one was leaving. Even Gabriella had started to get fidgety in the back seat, asking Miguel if you all were there yet over and over again. "Just get the valet, I'm sure it won't be that expensive," you suggested, hoping that it wouldn't add on to the frustration Miguel was feeling.
"Wait, hold on," like a beacon of hope, one of the spots opened up just as soon as you said that. Before he had the chance to park the car though, one of the newly arriving guests immediately seized the opportunity and took it before he had the chance. With one slam to the steering wheel, he relented and went over to get in line for the valet parking. "Here, you can watch a documentary on turtles," you pulled it up on your phone before leaving, not that you thought you would have to use it. And just like that, Gabriella immersed herself on what was on the screen.
Seeing the price of valet parking almost made you want to regret ever suggesting at all. Seriously, who charged $50 just for a parking spot? Gabriella let her grip on your phone slip when she was handing it to you, your brows furrowing as you already started to imagine the crack on screen just from the sound it made hitting the concrete. You quickly picked up, pocketing it up before Gabriella started to feel guilty. "Don't worry about it. I was due for a new one anyways," you assured her, holding to her hand while Miguel held her other one.
The three of you were visibly annoyed as soon as you stepped foot into the aquarium, the excitement towards this trip dying down with every single thing that kept going wrong. Not only had it taken half an hour and $50 to even enter, but now, none of the shows were even available? Even the dolphins had gone down with some kind of fish flu. Why it was even so full was beyond you. "Come on, we'll still have a good time," Miguel sounded like he was trying to collectively convince all three of you, offering Gabriella a piggy back ride as compensation.
Gabriella didn't seem to mind it too much, her head raised like she was royalty while perched on Miguel's shoulders. His grip on her legs was tight, assuring she wouldn't fall down. Given that she had a tendency to test herself and lean as forward as she could when one of the fish approached. You'd never seen her this excited about a trip before. You quickly realized the reason for her excitement. Miguel kept giving her subtle facts about each of the different species that you approached, whether from his own brain or the information board put up.
And she held on to every single word that escaped from his mouth, listening to him like he was the most interesting man in the world.
After seeing how full the gift shop was at the end of the tour, you decided to wait outside with a couple other guests. All you could hope was that Miguel would talk to her while the two of them were inside, give her some of that connection that she longed for. She came back bouncing back with a shark plushieâ one identical to the one Miguel had gotten you on a prior date. Just the sight make your resolve melt a bit. You glanced over at Miguel, seeing him give you a shrug. "It's what the princess wanted."
Exiting the aquarium was almost as troublesome as entering, a line of cars parked at the exit. Gabriella didn't seem to mind it as much, plotting a story line with her as a mermaid with the shark. It'd been a while since you got the chance to see her be so animated. Throughout the car ride, she couldn't stop talking about how the trip at the aquarium and explaining the exhibits to you in explicit detail. Well, that was until you got to Candice's house. She was quick to leave as soon as she saw her friend waiting outside, her two feet almost too slow to match her energy.
The tension in the air was thick from the moment Gabriella had departed the car but it was much more obvious now that the two of you were stuck in a room together. After making a beeline to go change into a pair of shorts and a shirtâcalling it a night, you were surprised to find Miguel still laying on the bed. Idly tapping at his phone with one finger, the faint sound of a Candy Crush! reaching your ears. You figured that he would've left to go monitor the city after spending the day with Gabriella. Maybe he was determined to make it work this time around.
No.
You couldn't start thinking that way just because he bothered to stick around for one evening.
He settled in between your legs, continuing to tap away at the screen. As much as you wanted to protest, you decided not to. From this angle, you could see him struggling with solving level 3976. How much time had he seriously dedicated to this game? Time that he hadn't spent dedicating towards you. Great. Just the thought was enough to piss you off once more. You grabbed your own phone from the bed stand, forcing yourself not to roll your eyes every time one of those stupid family channels showed up. If you had to bet, you'd guess their marriage wasn't that good either.
Miguel looked up at you from his spot in between your legs, with furrowed brows and brown irises practically boring into you. He looked so needy.. so desperate. "Please mamita, I need you. I need to touch you again," he pleaded, his lips leaving a searing sensation as he kissed up your leg. It'd been too long since you'd received any form of intimacy from anything other than your fingers and your vibrator. And while they did get the job done, they didn't exactly offer this kind of foreplay.
He moved the flimsy material of your pajama shorts to the side, kissing the innermost part of your thighs. Your fingers tugged at the strands, trying to pull him to your cunt. With every single teasing breath against the thin material, you could feel yourself clenching around nothing and dripping onto your panties. "Not yet," and the bastard had the nerve to laugh. It was the last sound you heard before you felt a small sting on your thigh, your eyes almost popping out of your skull. When he said he was Spider-Man, you'd been expecting the whole swinging around.
What you hadn't been expecting, however, was a pair of fangs that were almost the same length as your head. Just how far did the extent of these spider powers go? You were thinking of every possibility, unaware that you'd even spaced out. He regained your attention by pulling the waistband of your shorts, the elastic snapping against your skin. "Only thing you have to be focused is on me," he spoke up before you had the chance to say anything, moving to take off your shorts off. You raised your hips, your panties and shorts falling off in one swift motion.
He'd been nothing but desperate earlier, but his touch almost seemed reverent this time around. Kissing up your legs as if you were something to worship, drinking up your gasps as if they were the finest tunes he'd ever listened to. His hands pried your thighs open, leaving you completely exposed to him. Only before he got the chance to lean in was that you got the chance to see just how desperate for this he truly was. His pointer finger ran through your folds, collecting whatever slick had started to accumulate.
"You say you want a divorce but this pretty cunt's telling me a different thing," almost like he was timing itâwhich he was, he pulled his fingers out of your cunt. A loud squelch echoed through the otherwise silent room, a small groan escaping from your lips. You wouldn't give him the satisfaction of letting him hear your moans. "Let me hear you mamita. Let me hear good I'm making you feel," he prodded, his fingers moving in a scissoring motions. You bit on your bottom lip, a muffled moan escaping your lips.
"Eso, no me nieges. Te lo ruego."
Miguel pulled his fingers out of your cunt, his eyes boring into yours as he licked the glistening slick off them. Practically feining to get every single drop. He leaned in to be face-level with your cunt, licking a stripe up your folds before parting them apart with his tongue. "Oh fuck," the moan slipped out of your lips before you had a chance to think better of it, the small chuckle he let out against your cunt vibrating throughout your body. His head moved from side to side, practically engulfing himself in between your legs with his nose pressing against your clit.
Your legs trembled in his grasp, struggling to keep them open when all you wanted to do was close them around his head. You wanted him to stop. You wanted him to keep going. The constant whiplash was enough to make you into a whining mess underneath him, despite your better judgement. "Please," you didn't even make sense to yourself. You weren't exactly sure what it is that you were even begging for. "Shh, it's okay. I'll give you what you need," and yet, he seemed to understand your pleas perfectly.
His mouth closed around your clit, his eyes boring into yours as he sucked on the neglected nub. Your nails dug into his scalp, a groan escaping from his lips. Like a domino effect, that small groan vibrated against your clit which caused you to only tighten your grip on his hair. You bucked your hips to meet his lips, his grip on your legs tightening. "I got you mamita, just let me take my time pleasing you," he murmured, kissing a trail from your inner thigh to your folds once more. His tongue fell flat, licking a stripe up your glistening folds.
The tip of his tongue prodded at your entrance before the wet muscle pushed inside, your juices leaking down to his mouth almost instantaneously. If anything, he didn't seem to mind it. He almost looked like he was in complete bliss. Miguel made no attempt to continue the ploy he'd started with the eye contact earlier, his eyes shut as he got lost in the taste of your essence. "Oh, Mig, Mig, Mig-" Broken fragments of his name escaped from your lips as his pointer finger rubbed small circles on your clit, the dual stimulation enough to have your toes curling.
You reached down to play with your erect nipples, rolling them in between your fingers. The orgasm you were chasing was so close, so attainable. "Gonna cum, gonna cum," every single word from your vocabulary seemed limited. All you could do was repeat yourself and hope that he would get the picture. "That's it, you got it," he coaxed you into an orgasm, your toes curling and your grip on his hair tightening. If anything, he seemed to revel in how you were gripping him.
Every word at the tip of your tongue failed you as you came with a shudder, your release coating his mouth and chin in the process. Miguel eagerly took every drop that you had to give, even going back into your cunt to get anything that he might've missed. You practically had to push him off before he started to eat you out again. While you knew that he could handle it, you weren't too sure that you could. You let your back hit the mattress, basking in the afterglow from your orgasm.
Before Miguel had the chance to finish with unbuttoning his pants, you took the chance to clear your throat. His hands halted their movements, his eyes shooting up to you like a deer caught in headlights. "With the way you've been acting, do you seriously think you've earned the right to fuck me?" You questioned, seeing his expression visibly deflate as he removed his hands from the buttons. "Please. I'll do anything, mi vida. Es tortura tenerte tan cerca y no poder tocarte," it was a rare sight to see.
Miguel prided himself in being above begging. And yet, here he was.
"Go on and lay on the bed for me," your tone offered no room for protests, his steps quick as he went to lay down on the bed. You trailed your hand from his knee to his crotch, cupping his heavy balls in your palm. "Look at me and tell me you have the right to fuck me, if that's the case," you spoke up, looking over at him as your hand switched from one ball to the other. Giving each the same amount of attention. You watched as he opened his mouth, closed it back up again, and repeated the process until he eventually gave up.
"I can't," he huffed out, almost in a whisper. You reached over in your bedside table, pulling out your trusty vibrator. "And why's that?" You asked him, your touch featherlight when you rubbed the vibrator against the outline of his cock. Just enough to give him a taste of what he could have. "Because I don't deserve to fuck you. I know. But I'm still selfish," he admitted after a while, his words barely above a whisper. Good enough of an answer for now.
A shaky groan escaped from his lips when you turned the vibrator on, the lowest intensity almost too painful to bear. Shudders ran across his body as you rubbed the vibrator on the tip of his cock, sliding it down to his frenulum. "Ngh, don't stop," his voice was practically a whimper by this point, his hips bucking to meet your touch. Not that you allowed for that continue for long though. You pushed your thighs down with one hand, his muscles flexing underneath your grasp.
You moved the vibrator to rest against the tip of his cock, precum leaking onto the tip of it. You tentatively brought it up to your lips, swirling your tongue around it as the familiar salty taste overwhelmed your senses. His eyes were locked on yours, his hips bucking up in some miserable attempt to gain some friction. You set the vibrator back on the tip of his cock, a hiss escaping from his lips. "Turn it up."
"What's the magic word?" You shifted to grab the remote, lowering the intensity despite the groans that escaped from his lips. He looked like he was on the verge of tears, if you had to be honest. Well, the closest he could get to that point anyways. "Pl.." he couldn't finish his sentence, a choked groan escaping from his lips. He looked over at you, like he was expecting you to understand. And while you did, you also wanted him to use his words. Hear how pretty he sounded begging.
"P-Ple-nghh."
âPlea-shockk."
"P-Ay mierda."
It was a cruel game you were playing, you were aware. You kept the vibrator at the same speed, raising a brow as you looked at him. "Sounds like you don't really want it," you taunted, deciding to put the vibrator to the highest level possible. Only for a fraction of a second, though. Just as quickly as relief had come for him, it was gone. He let out a groan, trying to will the word to slip out of his mouth. Just one word.
"Please," it seemed like your little show of motivation had finally paid off. You turned the intensity of the vibrator gradually this time around, allowing him to get used to the sensation. "See what you get when you ask nicely," you decided to taunt him even further despite knowing better. You knew your cunt would be paying the consequences for your relentless teasing later in the night. Not like the thought mattered now, though. Not when you had Miguel begging and at the verge of tears just for your touch.
His balls felt heavy to the touch, almost like he was at the point of cumming. You gave both of them equal attention, rolling them in your hand. Miguel's eyes could only clamp shut, his mouth parted. "Please let me cum, so close," he begged so nicely, a couple drops of precum leaking down to your thigh. You could always be generous and let him cum. Then again, the idea of prolonging his orgasm was just too enticing to resist. Each buck of his hips became more erratic, more needy. Before he got to that point of climax, you pulled the vibrator away from his cock.
"I asked nicely," he pointed out, his voice cracking slightly. He scrambled to sit up, almost searching your expression to see if he'd done something wrong. "I'm aware," you simply responded, wiping your vibrator before placing it on the nightstand to clean it throughly later. "I just didn't feel like letting you," you added, waiting to see if he'd offer more resistance. You could see he wanted to say something, but he was holding himself from saying anything. Smart man.
Miguel set a pillow underneath your stomach, your back set in a mean arch as you laid on it. He stepped behind you, his thumb rubbing against your folds before he dipped it inside. Your wetness immediately engulfed his finger, your walls stretching out as he pushed it deeper inside. "What happened to the attitude you had earlier, hm?" He used the same taunting tone that you had, mocking you. A protest died in your throat as the tip of his cock went inside your folds, your head craning back to look at him.
"Just the t-"
"Yes, yes, just the tip. I promise," he cut you off before you had the chance to finish speaking, rolling his eyes. You were already testing his patience by allowing just the tip. He retracted, the tip of his cock an angry shade of red as precum dripped down his shaft. Your walls clenched and unclenched rhythmically, your own body betraying your resolve. He pushed the tip inside once more, keeping it inside your wet cunt. "Please, let me fuck you properly. You're punishing both of us, not just me."
And here you would've figured that his negotiations were reserved just for the state of Nueva York. You shook your head, determined to see this through. "If it's not enough for you, we can just stop here," And how you wished your voice would've come out with more bite. Now you sounded just as needy as he did. Maybe even more. "No, no, it's fine," he was quick to respond, retracting. It was almost painful how slow he was going, almost making you want to give up on this whole argument. Getting stubborn wasn't getting you anywhere.
"Please let me fuck you properly," he pleaded after a couple thrusts, his hands on your hips. Well. At least you didn't have to give in first. "Fine," you tried to sound annoyed, though you weren't convincing him any better than you were yourself. A strangled gasp left your mouth as he bottomed out, your cunt stretched out to the brim. Your walls clenched against his shaft rhythmically, trying to get used to the intrusion. Your hands reached over for the pillow above you, your grip on it tightening as he pulled out.
His skin slapped against your own with each thrust that he made, his grip on your hips tightening. "Don't stop, Mig! So, so good," he'd turned you into a babbling mess within a matter of seconds. "Wasn't planning on it," he responded quickly, each word punctuated with a harsh thrust. You craned your head to look at him, the sight having a new wave of arousal coat his cock. His head was lolled back, his face contorted into one of pure pleasure. You rocked your hips to match his rhythm to the best of his ability, your ass smacking against his hips with every movement.
"Oh shock, slow down," he was mesmerized by the sight of your ass rippling with each move that you made, one of his hands reaching down to cup the flesh. "Not gonna last long if you keep at it," he added, raising his hand before giving your ass a slap. The mixture of pain and pleasure mixed together, your own release starting to approach. "Fill me up, Mig!" You could only whine that out, a groan escaping from his lips at your words. The hand on your ass moved down to your clit, his thumb rubbing on the nub in circles. Fervent circles to match the pace of his sloppy thrusts.
You clamped tightly around his cock, your arousal coming out of you in waves. Your stomach hit the pillow underneath you, your body giving out on you. As soon as you clamped around him, Miguel knew his own orgasm wasn't too far off. With one final thrust, he shot his cum up your cunt. Filling you up like you'd asked. He pulled his flaccid cock out of you a couple moments later, his chest heaving as he tried to catch his breath. His fingers pushed back the cum threatening to drip down before he went over to get a wet towel to clean you up.
"It shouldn't take me threatening to divorce you for you to get your act together," you spoke up once you managed to catch your breath, wiping the sweat off your forehead. Not exactly the topic that you would've imagined talking about after sex. But you figured it was important for him to know that just a good lay wouldn't be enough to resolve this issue. He swiped his arm over his forehead, wiping away at nonexistent sweat beads. Something to do while he tried to figure out what to say.
"I know. And I'm sorry that it ever got to this point, I promise that I'll spend the rest of my life trying to prove to you how worthy I am to be next to you," he spoke up after a few moments, turning to face you. His hands itched to be wrapped around you, for some semblance of that intimacy that he'd neglected for so long. But he didn't make any effort to touch you. He knew it'd take a while for you to get to that point. The conflicted expression on your face was enough to tell him that you didn't believe him.
And it's not like you were looking forward to starting any issues between the two of you. But with the amount of empty promises and "I'm sorry's", you figured that you'd earned the right to doubt him. You got up, putting up your pajamas in an attempt to divert the conversation. You didn't want to voice that you were worried about him failing to fulfill his promise. "I know you don't believe me, but I promise I'll do my best to prove it to you," he whispered, pulling the blanket over the two of you before exhaustion overtook your body.
Instead of the usual emptiness that you'd grown used to waking up to, you found Miguel laying by your side with his arms tightly wrapped around your body. Like he didn't want to let you go. "I can feel you staring," he mumbled, half asleep as he begun to stir. He kept one arm wrapped around you, bringing the other hand up to his face to rub his eyes. "Just surprised you're not at work yet," you responded, pushing a couple stray hairs away from his forehead. "Well, I'm trying to prioritize my family a bit more."
His promises didn't feel as empty as the ones he'd spoken about before. He seemed determined to bring them into fruition this time around. Or at least you hoped that he would. For you and Gabriella. "I know it doesn't amount to much with how many times I've said it, but I really am sorry for neglecting you for so long. I got so carried away into maintaining the safety of Nueva York that I forgot to maintain my own marriage."
"I know you can't be everywhere at once. Me and Gabriella are aware you have responsibilities but still.. I don't want to have to feel like I'm being selfish for asking for some time with my husband," you spoke up after a couple seconds, looking over at him. Neither of you made any attempt to leave your bed just yet, too engulfed in the temporary state of bliss. "And you won't have to feel that way anymore, I promise."
Maybe things would work out for the better this time around.
#muchosbesitos âá°.á#marriage in trouble trope follows me even now#miguel o'hara#miguel oâhara angst#miguel oâhara smut#miguel oâhara fanfiction#miguel oâhara fanfic#miguel oâhara x reader#miguel oâhara x you#miguel oâhara x y/n#miguel oâhara x fem!reader
70 notes
·
View notes
Note
.. that idea on ghost coming back with his therapistâs contact is brilliant, could we get a pt2 when we do hit him up cuz,,, itâs inevitable and he pulls up in that same motorbike and actually plans a banger date?
Just for you! A part 2! Original post for anyone curious is here.
Also thank you for what I am percieving as patience, I had things to accomplish today. But it gave me time to think about this...
CW: I can't think of any.
You held onto the business card. No real explanation that would satisfy you or anyone who might have asked. And your best friend did ask. Repeatedly.
âYou still have the card?â She asked over drinks.
Running your tongue along the inside of your teeth you debate on how to answer.
âYes,â you reply curtly.
âAnd have you called the therapist or texted him yet? Do you even know his name?â She followed her questions with a sip of her drink.
âAll I know is that when I search up S. Riley I get a few hits about a brother to a home invasion that ended badly a few years ago and nothing else. No one on social media matches him and without his full name or maybe a birthday I canât find much else about someone that might be him.â Flopping back into the couch you watch your drink slide side to side as you tip your glass.
âYou donât have to call him but you have to make a decision about this soon,â she chides.
âNo decision is a decision though.â
She gives you the flattest stare she can muster. Seeing as your best friend is autistic itâs a pretty impressive flat look.
Heaving a sigh you concede the point.
âFine. I get it. I canât avoid this forever, what if he finds me at a coffee shop again and asks why I havenât called? S. Riley sure does seem like a man who doesnât know how to leave well enough alone.â
âI think you should call and tell the therapist to inform him that you would like to never see him again, but you have this whole âattracted to the adventureâ thing going on.â She rolled her eyes.
Aghast at being so well identified, it does not matter that she is your best friend, you fire off a rude gesture at her. She only laughs.
âAt least I never have to worry about not realizing I fumbled the woman of my dreams three months late,â you say with a wicked grin.
âIt was one time!â Your best friend launches one of the couch pillows at you.
âTwice.â
The purest look of concern crosses her face.
âTwice?â Comes her panicked ask.
âOnce at the bar,â she nods, âAnd then last week at the bookstore.â
Watching her eyes go wide and her mouth drops open you canât help the full-body laugh that overtakes you.
âI thought she was just being nice!â Her voice gets squeakier with each word.
You are laughing so hard you canât breathe.
âI fucking love you and am so glad we are best friends,â you manage to croak out between ab-shredding laughs.
đ đ đ đ đ đ đ đ đ đ đ đ đ đ đ đ đ đ đ đ đ đ
Your next early day off of work you pop in your headphones and call the number printed on the business card. It sat between your insurance card and your driverâs license. Those two cards didnât see much action and would keep the business card from disappearing.
âThank you for calling Healing Sky Therapy, how can I help you?â
âYes, is Anna Mortz available?â
âFor a phone call or an appointment?â The sound of clicking keys bubbles over the line.
âA phone call, I am calling to speak to her about a current patient of hers.â
âOkay, and are you a provider?â
This causes you to pause. Did you really need to explain why or how you were connected to this crazy situation? No. Bare bones it is.
âNo, I should be listed as a person who can discuss the care of a patient of hers who goes by S. Riley?â
âOkay,â she drags the word. âIt looks like I can drop a call in her schedule in about forty minutes if that would work for you?â
âThat would work great, can I give you a callback number?â
âYes, I can take that when you are ready.â
Finishing up the phone call you grabbed your grocery list and headed out the door. Your phone rang as you were transferring bags from your cart to your trunk. The number looked vaguely familiar and so you answered.
âHi this is Anna Mortz, I am returning a phone call.â
âYes, hi Anna. I am the one who called.â
âThat was in regards to Simon Riley, right? Letâs go through some information on my end to make sure that we can discuss him first okay?â
âAbsolutely,â you slam the trunk closed and return your cart while confirming all of your information.
âSo, what questions can I answer for you?â Anna started.
âLet me get settled and I will give you the rundown.â Tossing your purse to the passenger side and locking the door you get situated in your seat. You push a large breath from your lungs and start. âOkay, so this is a weird situation. The long and the short of it is that Simon had been dating a friend of mine several years back and they were not good together. He was being a pushy asshole who refused to let the relationship die and she was codependent to a deeply unhealthy level. My friend asked for help in telling him off once and for all. She tended to cave and give into having sex every time he came by to start a fight. That is where I met Simon.â
Anna made a noise of confirmation. You took it as permission to keep telling your story.
âNothing more came of that except my friend and I drifted apart, nothing major and not important to the story. I ran into Simon next at my friendâs wedding reception. I donât know if he showed up to confirm to himself that it was really over or if she actually invited him but,â you paused here eyes tracing the dash of the car parked in front of you. With a slight shake of your head, you focus back on your phone call. âThat is neither here nor there. He hit on me that night and I told him basically to fuck off and go to therapy if he wanted a shot at that conversation.â
Puffing your cheeks with air you slowly let it out, you felt like you were explaining a whole crazy situation to the principal.
âHe ran into me at a coffee shop close to probably a year later, dropped your card on the table with his number on the back, and insinuated that I would call because I was interested in him.â
âOkay, that is pretty close to the story he told me as well,â Anna speaks with kind authority. âWhat I can tell you from a clinical standpoint is that Simon struggles with C-PTSD, which is complex post-traumatic stress disorder. This basically means that Simon has been through so many traumatic events at so many points in his life that he has a hard time functioning day to day without it affecting every aspect of his life. I can also tell you that we have been working on him gaining some coping abilities and practicing social skills.â
âOkay, I guess what I am asking is that if I go on a date with him will I end up with a stalker who will end up killing me in the night if I say I donât want to see him again?â You lay your concerns bare. Sheâs not your therapist so her judgment worries you a bit less.
âWhile nothing is guaranteed,â she hedges, âI cannot see that kind of behavior occurring with the progress Simon has made. He has scheduled out appointments weekly for the next three months with me and has even mentioned he is working on some other types of therapy I have recommended to help him process his traumas further. Heâs actually doing the work to deal with his issues. I think he is here because he wants to be, you happened to be the trigger.â
Resting your elbow on the steering wheel you leaned your head into your hand.
âWhew, okay. Thank you. That is actually really helpful. How is he about accepting boundaries?â
âHe is familiar and comfortable with them in a work context but if you choose to interact with him I know personal boundaries will come up in our sessions. So, I would keep it in mind when interacting with him.â
âOkay, thank you so much Anna this call has been,â a slight pause, âEnlightening. I appreciate your time.â
âHappy to help. Have a good day!â
With that the phone call ends and you stare down at your phone. Flicking open your messaging app you add the contact you saved to it almost a month ago.
<Your therapist seems nice.
Three minutes pass as you watch the screen. It goes black once and you wake it with a tap on the screen.
Tossing it to the passenger side on top of your purse you put the text from your mind. You instead focus on pulling out of your spot. Parking lots are of the devil and you arenât even religious like that.
Five days pass before a message dings on your phone from one S. Riley.
>Canât say she is nice to me. I get a lot of mean looks from her.
Setting a timer for an hour and thirteen minutes you let the text simmer. You hope he can see that you have opened the message.
<You normally take a work week to respond?
>Only when I am on a job.
The reply comes in instantly.
<What kind of jobs keep you from your phone?
>Classified.
<Ooh big brain work then. Got it.
You snort at the eye roll emoji he sends.
>So, have you decided if I can hit you up yet?
<Iâm thinking about it. If I were to say yes, where would you take me?
>Indoor sky diving.
You read the three-word message at least six times, check out the closest indoor sky diving place near you, and then finally reply.
Starting and erasing three messages you finally settle on one.
<Would we ride your bike there?
>Unless you would prefer to talk on the drive over?
What do you talk about with a man when you had to check with his therapist that he wouldnât murder you?
<Bike sounds like fun.
>Saturday?
<Maybe. Time?
>2
<Done. Pick me up at noon and we can grab lunch?
>No, youâre going to want an empty stomach. Dinner instead.
Narrowing your eyes at the message you debate the logic of testing a boundary yet. The advice to not have a full stomach did look like a good one.
<Fine, but nowhere fancy. If I canât roll up in the same outfit I donât want it.
The only reply you get for several hours is a thumbs up on your message.
Guess you had a date coming up.
80 notes
·
View notes
Text
As always many thoughts...
You laughed at his unexpected response as he ran his rough fingers along Rose's fuzzy hair. "Don't forget about the seafood platters." "Sweetheart, I'll never forget about the seafood platters," he promised, turning to look at you as his head sank back against the couch.
Of course he wouldn't đ
"I am." His brown eyes remained fixed on yours. "I am. I told you I was. I want them close, but not too close. Like, I don't want them next door where they can hear me call you my filthy little slut or something." "Bradley," you said, laughing again as he took Rose in his hands to burp her. "They don't need to know the ins and outs of how you call me Daddy while you're gagging on my cock either." He kissed the baby on her forehead. "Sorry, Nugget. I'll teach you one day how babies are made, and you'll probably cringe the whole time."
Hahah this whole conversation cracked me up đ
You couldn't believe how quickly he shut it down. "It was just an idea," you mumbled, watching him snuggle the baby. "So you wouldn't have to miss Rose the whole time while you're away."
Ok rude of Bradley, it was just a nice thought đđ
You nodded and hummed, lips brushing the scars on his neck. "I'm just happy you remembered." "Sweetheart, I remember everything," he promised. "And I propose that we plan a trip for the three of us before the year is over. We can go anywhere you and the Nugget want."
đ„°đ„°đ„°
"We'll be fast," he replied confidently, turning off the stove burner. "You're never fast! You like to linger!" "It's a new era, Baby Girl. The mom and dad era. I'll learn how to be quick so we can finish before she wakes up."
Haha I can't with him
"Oh, I love this so much," he whined as his other fingers found your clit. "I'm not happy about making this quick. I might need more later."
Of course he does đ€
He could already hear Rose getting restless in the nursery down the hallway, her soft cries ramping up as Bradley slammed his cock into his wife. He wanted to make sure he got you off before he was done, but then you went and said something so hot, he knew he wasn't going to be able to hold on much longer. "I could always nurse you later if you want." "I take it you're interested in my offer." "Absolutely," he rasped, pulling his pants up so he could go say hi to his daughter. "If I ever say no to your tits, something is definitely wrong, Baby Girl. That would be your cue to take me out back and finish me off."
đ€đ€đ€
"When's the wedding?" you asked Jake as you dropped your tray next to his at lunch. He was eating the most delicious looking burger and a slice of pizza, and your soup and salad looked pitiful next to them. Seemingly no matter what you did, you'd stopped losing weight since the baby was born, and right now you were so exhausted, you couldn't even think about starting an exercise regimen.
Oh no, she is too hard on herself đ„ș
"We've been engaged less than a month," Jake drawled, shoving some of the accompanying fries into his mouth. "Maybe some of us can wait a little longer to get hitched than your husband could, Angel."
Oh don't act like a saint Jake, we all know you wanna marry her sooner rather than later an if Cat had a buch of trauma and needs time because of that, they would have been married already đ
Jake heaved a deep sigh, dragging a fry through ketchup. "He already calls me 'dad'. His speech was delayed, but it was still one of his first words, probably because I was around so much. I want to make sure Cat's ex doesn't get any rights, and if that means I need to hire another legal team before we get married, then so be it."
Dad Jake đ„čđ„°
Maybe you could just get pizza. But you shouldn't. But it sounded so good as you watched Jake eat his. But your hips and belly were already so big, you couldn't let yourself.
Maybe maybe there is something else going on, hmm đ€
"You look like a DILF."
He sure does đ
"Be honest, how many of these do you think I'll need?" You snorted. "Unless every night is happy hour at the Copacabana, probably none. But knowing you, I'd pack at least two."
Hahaha this is so Bradley đ
"This sucks," Bradley said for probably the hundredth time in the past hour. Standing at the curb at San Diego International Airport with a beautiful wife and a beautiful daughter, being forced to leave them for a week, was actually awful. He didn't want to go. He wanted to continue to cradle Rose against his chest with his arm wrapped around you until he missed his flight. "You need to go or you'll miss your flight. And then Mav will be on my case about it."
He just loves to be with his girls đ„°
Before he ducked inside, he cupped his free hand to his mouth and shouted, "I love you!" He watched you blow him a kiss and then pull away from the curb before he headed to the counter to drop off his bag.
đ„°đ„°đ„°Â
To his absolute delight, all he had to do was ask nicely and flash his most charming smile, and he was handed the keys to a brand new, black Bronco. It was a model year newer than your red one back at home, and he was excited to scrutinize all of the little differences as he drove it around for the week.
He is living his best life đ
Was he really that guy? Did he already miss his kid enough that he had to open up the photo gallery in his phone and scroll through a few pictures before he could drive away?
Yes, he absolutely 100% is
"Lieutenant Commander Bradshaw," she said, eyes snapping back up to meet his. "All the way from Top Gun. I've been waiting to meet you for weeks, Sir."
Oh oh this feels like trouble đŹđ«Ł
Aim for the Sky Part 27 | Rooster x Reader
Summary: Bradley is required to travel for a week, and both you and he are exhausted. He's hoping this will mean fewer deployments in the future, but in the present, he's going to need to remember where his responsibilities lie.
Warnings: Angst, adult language, lactation kink, body image, fluff, smut, DILF Roo
Length: 3900 words
Pairing: Bradley "Rooster" Bradshaw x Female Reader
Aim for the Sky masterlist. This was written to accompany my series Is It Working For You? along with a bunch of my one-shots and other series, but it can be read on its own! Check my masterlist for the reading order.
Once again, your parents extended their stay to spend more time with Rose, but when they finally flew back to Maryland, it felt strange to be on your own with your daughter. You and Bradley fell into a regular routine once more, but it took him days before he came clean about being stressed out. When he got home late from work to find you on the couch feeding Rose, you could tell by the set of his shoulders that he'd had a long day.
"Can we talk about some things?" he asked, bending to untie his boots. You'd been wanting him to confide in you for days, but you were already exhausted again from the late night feedings and had pushed the comments Bradley made to Jake to the back burner.
"What's on your mind?" you asked, secretly pleased that he leaned down to give you a long, needy kiss, complete with his big hand on your neck, before kissing Rose as she ate. It had been a few days since you and he were intimate, and your body was already responding to him as he dropped down on the couch next to you.
"Can we just move to La Jolla? Nothing stresses me out when we have copious amounts of champagne and oral sex."
You laughed at his unexpected response as he ran his rough fingers along Rose's fuzzy hair. "Don't forget about the seafood platters."
"Sweetheart, I'll never forget about the seafood platters," he promised, turning to look at you as his head sank back against the couch. "Your mom and dad are serious about moving out here."
Your smile started to fade away. "Yeah, Roo. They are. And I thought you were pleased by that fact."
"I am." His brown eyes remained fixed on yours. "I am. I told you I was. I want them close, but not too close. Like, I don't want them next door where they can hear me call you my filthy little slut or something."
"Bradley," you said, laughing again as he took Rose in his hands to burp her.
"They don't need to know the ins and outs of how you call me Daddy while you're gagging on my cock either." He kissed the baby on her forehead. "Sorry, Nugget. I'll teach you one day how babies are made, and you'll probably cringe the whole time."
You sighed and reached for Bradley, cupping his jaw in your hand and stroking his mustache with your thumb. "My parents are seriously getting their house ready to sell. So just give it to me straight."
He nodded. "I don't want them over here all the time, okay? I love them, I really do, but they take over our house when they come. And even though we finished the attic so they could have a place to stay when they're here, Rosie can move her bedroom up there when she's older. So it wasn't a waste of time since the contractor saw your tits."
"It was a photo of my tits! I didn't just whip them out for him to see!" Now Bradley was laughing as you said, "It sounds like you're worried about having some boundaries if my parents become our new neighbors."
"Yes," he replied, nodding as you ran your fingers along his jaw. "That."
"I'm sure we can have a conversation with them and address all of your concerns." Rose seemed to be done burping, and you were treated to the view of Bradley cuddling your four month old against his chest. "Now, can you tell me what else made you have a bad day at work?"
"What makes you think I had a bad day?" he asked, placing soft kisses on Rose's cheek. "I could never have a bad day when I get to come home to my girls." You sighed as he ran his nose along her hair and inhaled deeply before he met your gaze. "Okay. It's not the end of the world, but Mav informed me that I need to take a trip to the Naval Airstation in Fort Worth. I don't really have any details yet."
"Okay," you replied softly, finally voicing what had been on your mind. "Well, maybe Rose and I can come with you for a few days? I can't remember exactly how much vacation time I have left, but it could be fun. And you did say the next trip should be for the three of us to enjoy together."
Bradley shrugged and immediately said, "Fort Worth in August? Baby Girl, it's going to be miserably hot. I know you, for some reason, miss the east coast humidity, but this is going to be gross. Ask Jake about it, he's from that ridiculous state."
You couldn't believe how quickly he shut it down. "It was just an idea," you mumbled, watching him snuggle the baby. "So you wouldn't have to miss Rose the whole time while you're away."
His head tipped back as he sighed. "I'm taking this new position so I can hopefully deploy less often and be here more later on. Even if I have to start working longer days, a week or two away from home is nothing compared to five months."
You bristled. "I understand that, Roo. We've talked about this so much. But maybe try to be a little bit more patient with the idea of my parents moving here so I can have a support system when you're busy?"
When you stood and rushed toward the bedroom, Bradley was right behind you, hand reaching out to grab your shoulder while he still held Rose tight. "Are you mad at me?"
Your stomach roiled with irritation, annoyance and disdain. You hated when you got like this, because he was the one who could bring out the best and also the worst in you. "I don't know."
-------------------------------
You were kind of quiet at home. Bradley hated it. You were a bit more vocal during sex, but that certainly didn't make him feel any better about the rest of it.
"I have my dates for Fort Worth," he informed you when he strolled in from work with some yellow flowers and a new book for Rose. Today was important to him. He wasn't sure you'd remember why, but he still wanted to acknowledge it.
"When?" you asked, continuing to make dinner while he looked around for the baby. "She's napping in her crib," you added, seemingly knowing he always wanted his daughter nearby.
"Second week of August," he replied. "So, pretty soon. But just for a week." You nodded as Bradley walked closer, and he realized what you were cooking. "Marry Me Rooster?"
"Yeah." Your voice was soft as you looked at him over your shoulder. You were also still wearing your khaki uniform, and he could tell you were tired. He was tired, too, but he wanted things to feel more natural around here again. He didn't want to accept that this was just how things would be now when the two of you were taking turns getting up with Rose all the time.
He wished he hadn't made such a fuss about your parents, because he really did love them, and it would be nice to have some help occasionally. And now he felt like you were continually annoyed with him, and he had to figure out a way to fix this.
Your voice broke into his thoughts. "It's kind of a special day?"Â
You sounded unsure. Like you thought maybe he didn't remember. But a smile immediately found his lips, and he gestured to the flowers. He should have known you'd remember. You remembered everything. You just made him a seafood platter to celebrate Carole's birthday the other day.
"I proposed two years ago." You visibly relaxed at his words as you took the flowers in your hands. He stroked the diamond ring on your finger as he said, "I couldn't wait another minute after I found this in the storage unit. I needed you to wear it. I needed you to say yes." You melted into his arms, and he kissed your forehead. "Can I go ahead and propose something else right now?"
You nodded and hummed, lips brushing the scars on his neck. "I'm just happy you remembered."
"Sweetheart, I remember everything," he promised. "And I propose that we plan a trip for the three of us before the year is over. We can go anywhere you and the Nugget want."
Your eyes lit up as he cupped your perfect cheek in his hand. "I have so many ideas, Roo."
"I knew you would. Can I make another proposal?" When you raised one eyebrow, he whispered, "How about we mess around before Rose wakes up?"
He was already wrapping his arms around you, turning you toward the hallway when you said, "But what about dinner?"
"We'll be fast," he replied confidently, turning off the stove burner.
"You're never fast! You like to linger!"
"It's a new era, Baby Girl. The mom and dad era. I'll learn how to be quick so we can finish before she wakes up."
This was the closest thing to a true quickie Bradley had experienced in a long time. Maybe ever. You were pushed up against the wall just inside the bedroom, belt jingling with your pants down around your thighs. He was going hard at a nice, steady pace with his hand inside your bra. Your warm milk dripped between his fingers and along his palm as he whimpered.Â
"Oh, I love this so much," he whined as his other fingers found your clit. "I'm not happy about making this quick. I might need more later."
He could already hear Rose getting restless in the nursery down the hallway, her soft cries ramping up as Bradley slammed his cock into his wife. He wanted to make sure he got you off before he was done, but then you went and said something so hot, he knew he wasn't going to be able to hold on much longer.Â
"I could always nurse you later if you want."
When he came, his vision flooded with dizzying color. Bradley lapped your milk from his hand, moaning your name as his hips eventually slowed. Rose was wailing now as you bent down to pull your pants up, cum dripping down your inner thighs as you looked at him with a little grin.
"I take it you're interested in my offer."
"Absolutely," he rasped, pulling his pants up so he could go say hi to his daughter. "If I ever say no to your tits, something is definitely wrong, Baby Girl. That would be your cue to take me out back and finish me off." You laughed when he said, "Happy engagement anniversary. I'll go take care of the Nugget."
-----------------------------
"When's the wedding?" you asked Jake as you dropped your tray next to his at lunch. He was eating the most delicious looking burger and a slice of pizza, and your soup and salad looked pitiful next to them. Seemingly no matter what you did, you'd stopped losing weight since the baby was born, and right now you were so exhausted, you couldn't even think about starting an exercise regimen.
"We've been engaged less than a month," Jake drawled, shoving some of the accompanying fries into his mouth. "Maybe some of us can wait a little longer to get hitched than your husband could, Angel." You rolled your eyes dramatically at him, but you were fighting a smile. "I'm trying my best to make sure that everything is in order for Jeremiah, if I'm being honest."
"Like what?" you asked, blowing on a spoonful of your soup.
Jake heaved a deep sigh, dragging a fry through ketchup. "He already calls me 'dad'. His speech was delayed, but it was still one of his first words, probably because I was around so much. I want to make sure Cat's ex doesn't get any rights, and if that means I need to hire another legal team before we get married, then so be it."
Tears stung your eyes as you patted his cheek gently. You knew you were lucky that you and Bradley were together and that he would do anything to take care of his child, but right now you were just so happy for Jeremiah. "He's such a sweet kid, Jake. And you love him so much."
"I do," he replied before taking an enormous bite out of his burger. You let him chew in silence while you picked at your lunch. Right now, you really wished Bradley was here, but the chances of him showing up were slim when he was out shadowing Maverick again. He was leaving in a few days for Texas, and you were feeling pretty emotional. It would just be you and Rose at home for a whole week by yourselves.
"Well, if you're looking for a nice venue, I know a good parking lot."
Jake barked out a laugh. "There's too much sentimental Bradshaw bullshit in that parking lot. No way I'd be allowed to get married there."
Then Cat showed up, and Jake's attention immediately shifted to her. You poked your salad around on your plate, wondering why you were so damn tired. You still had four more hours of work to get through before you had to pick Rose up and make dinner. Maybe you could just get pizza. But you shouldn't. But it sounded so good as you watched Jake eat his. But your hips and belly were already so big, you couldn't let yourself.
Your afternoon was filled with checking code that someone in Annapolis had entered, and they'd done a really shitty job. When you left your office, your eyes were tired, and you could feel yourself caving. You ordered a pizza and picked it up on your way home with Rose. Then you ate half of it on the couch while you fed her. And when you were done, you really wanted to cry, because you didn't know why you couldn't control yourself right now.
"I'm starving," Bradley groaned when he walked in. "You got pizza?" he asked, shoving two slices stacked up on top of each other into his mouth and moaning. Then he dropped down onto the couch and polished them off while you switched Rose to your other side. "I need to remember to pack my dress blues for Fort Worth."
"Why?"
Bradley shrugged and reached for the next slice. "Apparently, there's some sort of reception for the aviators that are selected for Top Gun in the fall. I don't know how much sway I'll have, but I'm really hoping I can pick some good ones for the next generation of the program since I'm aging out."
"You're not aging out, Roo!" you gasped. "You chose a different career trajectory!"Â
"I mean..."
"Stop. You're not old. Don't even try to tell me you're old."
"I'll be forty soon."
"You're thirty-eight."
"That's almost forty."
"You look like a DILF."
He reached for the last slice of pizza, folded it up and ate it while he reached for Rose. Like usual, she curled up on her father. Her features looked so much like his, but he was always the first one to argue with you about that, so you said nothing while he chewed up his food.
"I need you to help me pack for hot as hell Texas. I'm thinking just shorts besides my flight suits and uniforms?"
"I'll help you as soon as Rose goes to sleep for the night."
Bradley took the reins for the rest of the evening while you tried not to fall asleep before the baby. That was much easier said than done, but at least Bradley supervised tummy time while Tramp licked Rose, and then he gave her a bath. He read bedtime stories and changed her into pajamas so you didn't have to, gently setting her in her crib before joining you where you sat in bed yawning.
"You okay?" he asked, brushing his lips along your cheek before heading to the closet to start pulling out clothes to pack.
"Yeah. I just wish I didn't order the pizza, because it's empty calories, and it probably made me feel worse and more exhausted in the long run."
"But it was delicious," he muttered, piling up some of his favorite tropical print shirts. "Be honest, how many of these do you think I'll need?"
You snorted. "Unless every night is happy hour at the Copacabana, probably none. But knowing you, I'd pack at least two."
"See, you understand," he muttered with a smile as you chose two of your favorites and handed them to him. It was strange watching him load things into a duffle bag for something other than a deployment or special mission. You knew exactly how long he'd be gone. You knew it was just for a week and that he could FaceTime you and Rose whenever he wanted to, but it still felt like you were sending him away.
"We're going to miss you."Â
He immediately tossed the bag onto the floor and joined you in bed. "Don't cry, Baby Girl," he whispered, swiping at tears you hadn't realized were already filling your eyes. "I'll barely be gone at all. And I don't even have to finish packing tonight. I can do it later."
You nodded and let him envelope you in his warmth. That's how you eventually fell asleep.
----------------------------------
"This sucks," Bradley said for probably the hundredth time in the past hour. Standing at the curb at San Diego International Airport with a beautiful wife and a beautiful daughter, being forced to leave them for a week, was actually awful. He didn't want to go. He wanted to continue to cradle Rose against his chest with his arm wrapped around you until he missed his flight.
"You have to go now so hopefully you can do this less frequently in the future," you whispered, voice shaky with emotion. You looked really tired, and Bradley knew you wouldn't get much of a break this week. That's why he'd arranged for Nat to check on you at home a few times whether you wanted her to or not.
"Count on it, Sweetheart," he murmured, placing kisses to Rosie's soft hair as her little fingers poked at the insignia pins on his uniform. "And I need you to be a perfect Nugget for Mommy. I'll call later tonight after I get settled in the barracks."
"Okay." Your voice was muffled as you buried your face against his neck. "I love you."
"I love you both," he promised, collecting his final kisses from Rose before buckling her into her car seat in the back of the red Bronco. Then he got a particularly filthy kiss from you that left both of you grinning before you started to shove him toward the airport entrance.
"You need to go or you'll miss your flight. And then Mav will be on my case about it."
Before he ducked inside, he cupped his free hand to his mouth and shouted, "I love you!" He watched you blow him a kiss and then pull away from the curb before he headed to the counter to drop off his bag.Â
He hated traveling like this, in his uniform. It felt like everyone milling around, trying to check their bags, was looking at him. He was only wearing it today, because he wasn't sure what to expect when he arrived at a base he'd only visited one time years ago. The last thing he wanted was to seem unprepared in front of an admiral, so he wore his khakis as a precaution.
"Lieutenant Commander. Where are you headed?" asked the airline agent when she looked at his pins.
Impressed, he replied, "Dallas-Fort Worth."
She took his duffle, wished him a good flight, and then Bradley slept for the entire time he was in the air. Maybe you weren't the only one who was exhausted, because the nap seemed to do wonders for him. He woke up feeling rested, and just as soon as he sent a text letting you know he landed, he was off in search of a rental car.
To his absolute delight, all he had to do was ask nicely and flash his most charming smile, and he was handed the keys to a brand new, black Bronco. It was a model year newer than your red one back at home, and he was excited to scrutinize all of the little differences as he drove it around for the week.
"Don't like the lack of a car seat," he muttered, tossing his bag onto the backseat where he was so used to seeing Rose's infant carrier.Â
Was he really that guy? Did he already miss his kid enough that he had to open up the photo gallery in his phone and scroll through a few pictures before he could drive away? Apparently he was, and it made him ache to be away from her. This was so much worse than going to La Jolla without his daughter, because right now, he had neither of you.
When his stomach started rumbling for dinner, he drove to the barracks and showed his identification, only to be told his room wasn't ready yet. So he went right back out to the Bronco in search of dinner. He knew the name of a tavern popular with officers in the area, so he typed it into his GPS and headed in the direction it told him. He had to laugh, figuring he was about to walk into the Lone Star version of the Hard Deck, but that's kind of what he wanted right now. Dinner somewhere that felt comfortable if not familiar.
"Oof." It looked like a dump compared to his bar at home, but it seemed popular, and he was hungry enough that it didn't matter. When he walked in, he took a quick survey of the space before grabbing an empty stool at the bar. He ordered your favorite beer and a sandwich and took his phone out, careful not to set it on the bar in case the owner was part of some sort of association along with Penny.
He tried reading an article, but he felt as though he was being watched. Bradley tried to ignore it, fairly certain he didn't know anyone on base here, but the feeling nagged at him while he ate. The twang of music playing on the jukebox was distracting, but not distracting enough. When he finished his food and wiped his mouth with a napkin, he picked up his bottle and drained the rest of his beer while he glanced around.Â
Then he saw a young woman in a flight suit playing pool not too far from his spot at the bar. Her bright blue eyes were focused on his face, and her lips curled into a grin before she bent to sink her shot. Her patches told him she originated from Virginia Beach like he did, and that her call sign was Indigo. As Bradley turned, ready to sign his bill and leave, he saw her approach out of the corner of his eye.
"Can I help you?" he asked, turning her way again with one eyebrow raised. She was attractive, even up close, and he remained silent while her gaze traveled from his face down to his chest where his name tag was displayed. Then she gasped in delight.
"Lieutenant Commander Bradshaw," she said, eyes snapping back up to meet his. "All the way from Top Gun. I've been waiting to meet you for weeks, Sir."
------------------------------
Well, I hope BG is having a nice time at home without her husband. Thanks @beyondthesefourwalls
@hotch-meeeeeuppppp
@solacestyles
@blog-name6996
@bcon24
@avada-kedavra-bitch-187
@katiebby04
@marantha
@averyhotchner
@abaker74
@heli991113
@k-k0129
@noz4a2
@shanimallina87
@ccbb2222
@xoxabs88xox
@thedroneranger
@cherrycola27
@fanboyswhore9
@xomrsalliej4787xo
@desert-fern
@horseslovers2016
@mattyskies
@hookslove1592
@blahehblah
@sadpetalsstuff
@local-spidey
@schoollover
@lex-winchester
@nicole01-23
@jessicab1991
@happyrebelruins
@samsgoddess
@bellaireland1981
@sagittarius-flowerchild
@mygyn
@yuckosworld
@daggerspare-standingby
@nessjo
@trickphotography2
@lyn-js
@furiousladyking
@godsfavoritebabe
@bethabear12
@halo-mystic
@sherlockstrangewolf
@theamuz
@khaylin27
@glenpowellluver
334 notes
·
View notes
Text
the bondage of freedom
noah sebastian x reader
content warnings: smut, oral (f. receiving), fingering, sacrilegious, purity, dom! noah and bulge kink
word count - 1.7k
MINORS DNI 18+
an - i have no knowledge of religion as i didn't grow up with it so i truly apologize if i offend you but this idea has been stuck in my head for a good while.
thereâs nothing wrong with feeling this way, noah told himself, itâs just a damn crush.
but he knew he had no chance with you at all, i mean you two were complete opposite of each other. while he was covered in tattoos, you had no ink littering your skin. he only ever wore dark colors, you wore bright and neutral colors. the only jewelry he wore were rings that adored his long inked fingers, while you wore a gold cross necklace along with a gold purity ring that wrapped around your left ring finger that youâve worn since the age of 15. he remembers the day he had asked you about it.
âwhy do you always wear that ring? iâve never seen you take it off or remove it once.â
âoh, itâs my purity ring! my parents gifted it to me for my birthday.â you told him while admiring it, âitâs my pledge to wait until marriage.â
he couldnât help but scoff, âyou really believe in all that waiting till marriage bullshit?â
âi mean, yeah. iâd rather focus on my schooling and career before having sex. in plus, i wanna wait for the right person who is gonna love me for the rest of my life instead of just using me for something sinful. wouldnât you agree?â you question him.
âjust because my dad is the priest doesnât mean iâm innocent. that went away a couple months ago.â he informed you and you looked away from him.
âwell, congratulations on that but thatâs not something i wanna do.â you told him quietly.
he felt bad for making you uncomfortable back then but he was just trying to prove a point. he feels bad even now because he couldnât control his thoughts when it came to you. you were sitting right beside him wearing a lilac floral cami dress with a white cardigan and black mary janes, the neckline kept you covered but for any reason if the dress was tugged down he would be able to see your cleavage and that made his mind spiral.
the service had ended about 20 minutes ago so there wasnât a lot of people left in the chapel and you said something to him but he was so lost in thought that he didnât hear you. as you stood up, he got the great idea to trip you though it was risky but he just wanted a peek and he got just what he wanted as you fell. the sight of lacy black underwear took him by surprise while his cock hardened fast though it didnât last long as you quickly tugged your dress down when you stood up.
ânoah! why did you do that?!â you quietly yelled at him, he had to restrain himself before he was a little too honest with you.
âiâm sorry, i didnât realize i put my foot out.â his false sympathy was evident in his voice but you just sighed and made your way out of the chapel into the corridor. he waited a few minutes then got up to follow you. he couldnât hold back anymore especially if he was gonna be able to get you alone somewhere.
when he saw you exit the restroom, he started walking towards you and you noticed him immediately though it wasnât hard to spot him.
ânoah, are you okay? youâve been acting weird all day.â the innocence in your voice almost made him cum right then and there.
âyeah, i just need to see you on my cock hun.â your body froze at his words, face turning pink and your eyes wide at him. âcâmon. i know youâve never done anything but do you really wanna until marriage when i could make you feel good. forget all that bullshit for once and just trust me.â
of course you found noah attractive but you couldnât imagine that he wanted you and with how much you would be on his case with not following the right path, you thought he wouldâve dropped you by now. not to mention, you have gotten off to the thought of him a couple times.
âfine, i trust you noah.â you swore you could feel the purity ring burning your skin after you spoke those words.
âgood girl. now, meet me back in the chapel at midnight. keep this dress on as well.â he told you as he kissed your cheek and walked away.
what did you just agree to?
-
you felt nauseous as you walked into the chapel, you wanted to be here but you were just nervous since you didnât know what to expect with what would happen.
âiâm glad you didnât back out.â the sound of noahâs voice startled you.
âof course i did. i told you that i trusted you.â you told him as you walked towards the podium.
when you got close enough, he made you lean back on the podium as he began kissing you but it didn't last long since he moved his lips to your neck which caused goosebumps to rise all over your body. he grabbed a fist full of your hair tugging it as he dragged his tongue up your neck till he reaches your ear then lightly bites and you let out a whimper at feeling.
noah then fell to his knees before you, pushing your dress up to see you were still wearing those lacy black underwear and he couldnât hold back a smirk as he tugged them off of you then quickly shoved them into his pocket as a trinket to remember this.
âno one can be this cute.â he murmurs to himself as he stares at your slick heavenly cunt, leaning in to start lapping it up with his hot tongue melting against you then spreading you open with his thumbs while an overwhelming ecstasy flows through your body starting from your toes all the way up to your head with hot pleasure mainly in your belly.
âoh god, noah!â you cry out as he wrapped his lips around your clit then began to suck and lick while your thighs trembled against his head and tangled your fingers in his hair.
âthereâs no god here to save you, sweetheart. just me. accept me as your god and cum for me now.â he commanded as he slid his long middle and ring finger into you. the curling of his fingers inside of you causes you to forget everything as you feel the hot bliss in your body explode and you let out a loud moan of his name. he moves away to stand back over you while sucking his fingers clean of your slick as fight off tears of embarrassment since you enjoyed the sight of him.
noah made you rest your back against the podium again as he pulled his pants down to expose himself and you immediately felt intimidated by the size of his cock.
âwanna taste?â noah asked as he noticed how hard you were staring at him.
you quickly nodded at him, he dragged his finger along his tip to gather precum and then brought it towards your lips. your lips wrapped around his finger carefully with your tongue licking his cum up, it was sweet but slightly salty and it may have been a sin but you loved the flavor of him. noah watched you with hooded eyes as he slowly took his finger out of your mouth while you whined at him and he pulled you into a kiss, his tongue grazing over your teeth which you could still taste yourself on. it was supposed to be nasty but it felt so amazing.
âyouâre so fuckin disgusting for letting me do this to you.â he groans as he pulls away from you.
âwe shouldnât be doing this in general.â you inform him as you run your hand down his body.
âitâs gonna feel amazing, doll. donât worry. i canât fuckin wait to ruin you and feel how tight this pussy is.â the sound of his voice causes you to shiver with pleasure and he removes his shirt then stuffed it into your mouth.
âjust to be safe.â is all he says as he lines himself to the slick mess between your thighs.
noah slides in with no resistance, he tries to take it slow but the feeling of your tight walls causes him to thrust into you fully and the shirt muffles your scream. slowly pulling out just to go right back in which causes your head to fall back and mind to go blank. âare you really a woman of god if i was able to convince you this easily to sin?â he removes the shirt from your mouth which lets you finally moan loudly at the pleasure of him pushing your thighs further apart letting him reach even deeper if possible.
âoh fuck, noah. iâve never felt like this before.â you whine at him as he accentuated each hard thrust against the podium, feeling the wood dig into your back.
âbecause your god canât give you pleasure like i can. i knew this is what you needed so let me be your only god.â noah tells you.
âi will.â you whimper as you cry at the feeling of him speeding up, his hand grabbed yours then made you feel your stomach and your head fell back as you could feel his cock through your stomach which caused you to clench around him harder. he barely touched your clit which finally let you cum, crying with whines escaping your mouth and moan. the rough and bruising grip he had on your thighs felt amazing as he shuddered and faltered while sucking on your neck as he came inside you.
as he pulled out and let you go, you moaned and opened your eyes only to be met with the sight of the statue of christ staring down at you as the feeling of cum dripped out of you and down your legs.
âdonât move.â noah then spoke as he pulled his phone out, snapping a picture of your completely fucked out and ruined body. dress pulled up, hair disheveled, face red with tears still streaming down your face and his cum still dripping out of you.
ânoah.â you groan out, he puts his phone away then helps you straighten yourself up and himself as well.
he gives you a soft kiss before saying, âso? am i worthy of being your god now, sweetheart?â
title comes from heaven by taemin which inspired this whole idea along with the hell i overcame mv
i already know i'm going straight to hell so don't even bother telling me.
59 notes
·
View notes
Text
All Bark, No Bite
âââââ±âĄâ°ââââ
BodyGuard!Simon "Ghost" Riley x rich girl!reader
Word count: 2.6k
Summary: Simon takes on a job that may be more than he bargained for.
Content warnings: This story contains elements of intoxication, sexual assault, and violence. If you are not in the headspace to consume this content please scroll on.
A/N: Hello folks, I am kinda getting back into the swing of things. While working on another story this idea popped into my head and I had to get it down while the creativity was flowing. Pumped this bad boy out in one day so if it seems rushed I apologize. I just wanted to get it done tonight before I have to go back to work. As usual let me know what you think. If y'all like it I may do a part two. Thank you so much for all the support! Love you guys!
âââââ±âĄâ°ââââ
At first Simon was irritated at such a small time job being given to someone with his expertise. Growing more resentful by the day as he prepares for his stay at your family's property. When he was offered a long term private security job he thought it would be more along the idea of escorting an important political figure or guarding an extremely dangerous weapon of mass destruction. He never thought he would see himself packing suits and nice shoes for a job.
He becomes a little less irritated when he is introduced to you. Seeing such a beautiful young woman greet him in the entryway of your dazzling family home he figures the next few months may not be so bad. Getting to watch a cute little thing like you all day stroll around the expansive acres of gardens and woodlands.
As he takes your delicate hand carefully in his own upon your first meeting. âPleasure to meet you maâamâ making sure to use his best manners.
 You roll your eyes. "Why would I need a bodyguard?" you scoff to your fatherâs assistant, hardly bothering to make eye contact with Simon.Â
Simon was taken aback by the rude attitude that mismatched with your sweet appearance. It is explained to you that now that you are going out on your own you need someone to make sure you're safe. After a huff you stomp off, thus beginning Simonâs first day.Â
During your first night together he can see why he was requested for this job. As soon as the sun sets you're out the door without a word. Simon scrambles to catch up as you climb in the backseat of your private car. Slipping in just before the driver slams the door in his face.
"Oh my god, are you serious?" you look at him in shock. Scooting as far away from him as possible, pressing against the opposite car door, as if his very presence was an assault. "No way this is happening. Youâre staying here,"
"Sorry ma'am. Just doin' my job," he firmly plants himself next to you and stares ahead.Â
You huff and puff the whole drive to town. Complaining that he is going to ruin your night and scare away any man who approaches. Simon silently smiles under his mask at your bratty tone.Â
When the car pulls up outside of a raging club you are quick to crawl over Simon's intruding frame and get out ahead of him. In your haste unintentionally flashing him a pretty view of your lace panties underneath your criminally short dress.Â
You get a brisk pace once out of the vehicle, rushing past all the patrons and straight to the bouncer. Flashing him a smile and your ID he seems to already know you well and you walk past barely slowing down your pace.
The bounce is quick to halt Simon in his tracks though. Makes him stop to explain before reluctantly allowing him access.
When he step inside he is momentarily stunned by the pulsing colorful lights and pounding music. His height gives him an advantage as he scans the crowd of partygoers searching for you. You have managed to mix in with the sea of people while he was held up at the door.Â
He pushes through to the bar, carelessly shoving away anyone in his path. Ignoring the excuse you's and angry swears tossed his way. He eventually finds you, sparkling in your rhinestone covered dress leaned provocatively against the bar trying to get the bartender's attention. He watches you bat your eyelashes and cross your arms under your breasts. Proudly showing off to anyone who would look your way.Â
When you feel the large presence behind you, you look over your shoulder with flirty eyes until you realize who it is. "God, take a hint," you shout over the loud music. You turn back to the bar and bang your hand on the counter top, "Hey! can I please get a drink!"Â
The bartender finally steps over. "What will it be tonight?" he greets you smugly with a knowing grin.
"Hm surprise me," you counter with a sweet smile.
He mixes a colorful drink and pours it into a martini glass before sliding it over to you. You hand over your gilded credit card, "Keep it open," you wink. You spin around while taking a sip of your drink, almost bumping into Simon.
"Look, if you're going to hang around all night you need to give me room to breathe at least." You shove your hand into his chest and push him away harshly. Though, frustratingly, he hardly budges.Â
Simon suppresses the urge to grab your little wrist in his crushing grip and show you how to be respectful to others. Instead he stares down at you refusing to break your annoyed stare. He can tell you're used to people shrinking away under your gaze.
You quirk in an eyebrow and humorlessly chuckle before breezing past him and onto the dance floor. You maneuver into the crowd up towards the DJ. Simon keeps his distance for now allowing you to dance freely under his watchful eye. He finds a high table in an unlit corner of the club at the edge of the crowd.Â
You move to the pulse of the music. Swaying your hips loosely, the jewels of your dress reflecting the passing lights. You spin and twist like a human embodiment of a disco ball in the center of the dance floor. Your free hand trails down your body sensually as you mouth the words to the song playing. You are carefree as you sip your drink quickly extinguishing its contents.Â
It's not long until a stranger approaches you from behind. Both hands coming around you to pull your hips into them. You smile and move along with them. The man ducks his head down and whispers into your ear causing you to giggle.Â
Simon hates watching this stranger run his hands along your perfect body. Smelling your perfume and touching your hot, soft skin. He knows the stranger only wants you for one reason and it angers him to watch. Simon feels a fury building inside of him but he stays put, not wanting to make a scene just yet. Waiting to see how far the exchange will go.Â
The man's hand slides up your waist, brushing the underside of your breasts. You don't seem to mind as you continue dancing, closing your eyes and bringing one of your hands up to hold onto the back of his neck and running your fingers through his hair.Â
After a few songs together and several more drinks the man is now kissing up your neck and fully groping your body. The movements are growing more heated by the second. He whispers in your ear again and you bite your lip in response. You look through the crowd until through the wall bobbing heads your eyes find Simon's through the busy crowd. Your playful smile drops when he raises his hand to wave at you letting you know he is still here and still watching, much to your discontent.Â
You spin around to meet the stranger face to face. Your movements have become sloppy and uncoordinated with the amount of alcohol in your system. You pull him down by his shirt so you can mumble in his ear once more. He smiles and grabs your hand quickly pulling you in the opposite direction. You nearly trip over your own feet following him. You look back at Simon and wave back sarcastically with a wink before disappearing in the crowd of dancing bodies.Â
Simon makes a beeline towards you but by the time he breaks through the congestion of people you are nowhere in sight. He walks along the perimeter of the room not seeing you at the bar or sitting in the lounge area. He grows frantic in his search scanning for you but finding nothing.Â
He find his way to a hazy corridor lit by strips of red lights along the ceiling. The walls lined with couples making out or smoking in the cramped passageway. He breaks apart a few offended couples to make sure it wasn't you. He canât believe he agreed to do this shit. Chasing around a spoiled rich brat was not the job he signed up for.Â
He reaches the exit door at the end of the hallway. He pushes through to reveal the dim city alleyway. Worn brick walls scattered with graffiti are lined with trash cans and dumpsters. He steps down from the stoop to the concrete ground littered with garbage. He looks back and forth, seeing no signs of life besides a few roaches scattering underneath an old can. He is about to head back inside for another look when a nearby noise catches his attention.Â
He freezes in place until he hears more shuffling and soft mumblings. He steps quietly down the alley. Walking past one of the large dumpsters he locates the origin of the sounds. Finally finding you. Youâre pressed against the side of the dumpster along with the stranger.Â
The man's hand covers your mouth and his other freely roams your body, dipping underneath the hem of your dress. You whimper out weakly trying to push him off with no avail. Your unfocused eyes widen when you see Simon walking towards you. Your muffled protests grow more persistent as you plead for help. "I said shut up, bitch," the stranger hisses.
Simonâs brain short circuits at the sight before him. It all goes red. He wastes no time snatching up the back of man's jacket and yanking him off of you. Without the man holding you up, you fall back against the metal side of the dumpster. Weak legs unable to hold you up as you crumple to the dirty floor.Â
Simon pushes the man to the other side of the alley and into the wall. Immediately bashing his shocked expression with several punches and he holds him in place by the collar. The man grunts out in pain with each hit, his cheekbone and eye socket swelling from the abuse almost instantly.Â
"You like taking advantage of girls?" Simon questions dangerously. His voice came out as more of a growl before continuing his assault. âPiece o' shit. Iâll fucking kill you,â
In between punches the man attempts to put his hands up in dense, "I'm sorry man! I-I didn't know she was yours" the words quickly tumble from his bloody lips.Â
Only infuriating Simon further he pulls his pistol from his concealed holster on his back. He grabs the side of the man's jaw harshly until his mouth is forced open. He shoves the barrel into the man's mouth. âI should blow your bloody brain out. Thatâs what I like. Killing sick fuckâs like you. Would you like that, mate?â He cocks his head in question.Â
The man shakes his head urgently. Simon shoves the barrel further into his mouth, completely stretching the man's mouth open to fit the intruding cool steel. âIt doesnât feel good, does it? Being forced to take it, huh?âÂ
The man shakes his head again looking to be on the edge of tears. Simon removes the pistol from his mouth âI-Iâm sorry, Iâm sorry! Please donât kill meâ the man whimpers. Simon pulls the man off the wall and pushes him towards you, gun now pressed to the back of his head.Â
âDonât say sorry to me, say sorry to herâ Simon demands
âIâm sorry, Iâm really sorry. I thought-â The man is cut off when Simon hits him in the back of the head with the handle of his pistol.Â
âYou thought nothinâ. Just say youâre bloody sorryâ He grits out.Â
âIâm sorryâ the man cries.Â
Satisfied that the man has had enough punishment for now Simon reholsters his weapon and leans until he is only inches away from the manâs face. Simonâs crazed eyes darted across the manâs face. âIf I ever see you again, you are dead. Yeah?â Simon's voice now scarily calm. The man nods frantically. Simon nods in return then shoves the man backwards.Â
He falls back onto the dirty concrete ground roughly. He scrambles back up to his feet and bolts out of the alley way. Â
Finally Simon turns his attention back to you. On your hands and knees sniffling as you gather several of your items that spilled out of your dropped purse.Â
Simon quickly kneels down to meet you. "You alright?" you shake your head and look up to him pitifully. Your makeup is now smeared down your cheeks. Your hair hangs messily around your face.Â
"He broke my purse," your words coming out slurred and whiney.Â
Simon's heart pangs with sympathy as you hold up your sparkling purse to show its broken strap.Â
"S' alright, we'll get you a new one," he gently takes your hands and brings you to your feet. He adjusts your dress for you, pulling down its hem to cover more of your exposed thighs and push your fallen strap back on your shoulder. As his hand brushes the exposed skin you shiver causing your skin to erupt into goosebumps. You hold your arms against your chest to combat the chilly evening air.
âHe told me he just wanted to talk somewhere quieter. I-I didnât even realize wha-âÂ
âShh, Sâ gonna be okay. You donât need to explain. I know.â Simon takes off his large coat and puts it over your shoulders, pulling it tight around you so you are totally swallowed by its dense material.
"Can we go home?" you ask shakily.
"Course, ma'am" his hand comes around your shoulders to usher you out of the alley way. You wobble when you try to walk. Simon catches you as your legs start to buckle beneath you.
Without a second though Simon scoops you up in his strong arms. He is surprised at your lack of protest. You drop your head onto his shoulder as a few tears continue bleeding into the fabric of his shirt. You mumble watery apologies, half of the words lost as incoherent slurs.
"Don't need to apologize. Just doing my job, ma'am," Simon steps out to the road and sees your car parked and waiting just across the road. The driver hops out and opens the door for him.Â
Simon carefully places you down on the seat before ducking into the car himself. When he sits you scoot closer and drop your head to lean on his bicep. Your arms wrap around his forearm, finger dancing across his skin tracing the veins down to his hand. You gasp when your blurry vision focuses on his bloody knuckles.
âOh my godâ you mumble.
âMâ alright maâam. Iâve had much worse.â Simon reassures you. He looks down to see you already gazing up at him. Even with your disheveled appearance he can't help but think how effortlessly beautiful you are.
"You don't need to call me ma'am," you chuckle and rub your damp eyes, smudging your makeup further.Â
"What would you like me to call you?" he asks. He brushes away a stand of hair in front of your eyes, tucking it behind your ear.Â
"Don't know, what do I look like?"Â
Simon takes a minute to ponder. He watches as the passing streetlights cast a fleeting light into the window of the backseat. The yellow beams illuminating across each rhinestone on your shimmering dress peeking out from underneath his jacket. Your diamond earrings and necklace frame your face, matching the rest of your glittering outfit. Simon thinks they are nothing compared to the sparkle in your big round eyes. Then he wonders when he becoming such a hopeless sap. He wonders if you will even remember this in the morning.
All that fuss and harsh words from you earlier now a distant memory as you lean against his side. You were wrapping around his arms in a vice. Legs curled up under you, one of your heels had fallen to the floor of the car. You look up at him expectantly still waiting for an answer.Â
"You look like a princess,"
âââââ±âĄâ°ââââ
Masterlist
Taglist:
@azkza @contractedcriteria @neurolept @hidden-treasures21 @Sprokat @ebodebo @thenorthernbitch @coooookie15 @ââfrom-vuka @ninman82 @talooolaaloolla @roastyyytoastyyy @boydinner13 @doingitfortheplot @Hatterripper31 @Fleurydelacoury @eternallyvenus @loversroxk @Creepingeva @taly17black @mackzack08 @nishim @Evans-dejong @Chubbgal
Click here to join the taglist to be updated about new stories!
ïŸđ¶
#simon riley x reader#simon riley x you#cod x reader#simon ghost riley#call of duty#cod#simon riley#simon riley fic#ghost x reader
94 notes
·
View notes
Note
There's not enough ii/iii/f!reader for me. I need more. đ„č Can I get a ii/iii/f!reader fic where she asks to watch them together as a birthday present but they invite her to join when she does? Love the idea that ii/iii have a switch dynamic and reader gets to watch one dominate the other but then gets the other side for herself.
Youâll be getting a bill from a neurologist because this broke my brain𫶠@adenobabe @inv3ga imagine me mushing your boys together like Ken dolls.
AhemâŠ*mic feedback*
Switch!Brat!iii x Switch!ii x Soft!FemDom!Reader
Your birthday was this weekend and you were feeling restless. You made some lowkey plans but when your besties, ii and iii, (The Boyfriendsâąïž as you called them) asked what you wanted for your birthday, something snapped in your mind.
You: Ok. I know what I want đđ»đđ» remember that little offer you two had made?
In your mind you still heard IIIâs slurred words one night as you both eyed II across the pub: âIf you think he looks good now, imagine him on top of me. Bet youâd like thatâŠwatching your two friends fuck, hm? Little freak.â At the time you laughed it off. III was such a kidder and knew not what he did when he was drunk, so what does it hurt to play along?
âOh, canât even imagine what you two get up to,â you purr, but the sarcasm saturates your words.
âWhat shit are you two talking now?â II appeared behind you silently, thus sandwiching you between him and III. The bassist loomed over both of you yet IIâs piercing blue eyes was what kept both of you in place. Lifting your chin, II appraised your cheeks. âIII, babes, what were you saying to her?â
âThat she should watch sometime,â III responded, sounding stone-cold sober. Maybe he was lucid when he whispered those filthy things. II nodded and shrugged as if to say, âshe should. Why shouldnât she?â The only thing you could do was burst into a nervous laugh which caused the boys to laugh, too; the proposition long forgotten. Or unspoken at least. But you didnât forget. That was three months ago, allowing you 90 some odd days of the fantasy evolving in your head from something simple such as watching II go down on III to being made to touch yourself while one fucked the other. You could never decide who you liked getting fucked more in your fantasy. There was something obvious about III taking II but that didnât make it less exciting. The thought of II fucking III made you giggle at first, thinking of iiiâs legs all lanky around iiâs little waist, but soon it intrigued youâŠimagining II claiming III. You felt ashamed for thinking about it even though it wasnât your original ideaâŠthe two of them literally offered themselves to youâŠyou were allowed to enjoy the thought. And more than thatâŠyou were allowed to ask for it.
ii: are you sure thatâs what you want?
iii: that doesnât mean âno,â btw, dove.
iii: just means we want to know if we should book a room or not đ
ii: stop double texting and give her second
iii:đ
You: Iâm sure. Saturday night.
ii: one more thing. If youâre up to it, we want you to join. No pressure, honestly. Even if you change your mind day of, yeah?
All week your mind was on its own little hellish rollercoaster. One minute was âyes! I WILL fuck my best friends!â The next was âno. I will watch respectfully.â And sometimes, but not too often, it was âI should call it off. I should be in horny jail.â But when Saturday night came and you instinctively pulled out your little red dress, you knew your mind was made up. And the boys knew it, too.
When you met up with them in the hotel bar, the energy crackled. There was a giddiness about the three of you, and you found yourself being more openly affectionate with them. It started out innocent enough. Pushing iiiâs hair behind his ear mindlessly, resting your hand on iiâs arm when you asked him somethingâall innocent fun. Until of course they asked if you could tie a cherry stem with your tongue.
âObviously I can. Watch and learn,â you teased. II leaned forward on the table letting his chin rest in his hand, watching intently, while iii crossed his arms.
âWhat are you even doing?â III laughed, asking what everyone was thinking. This was so much harder than you remembered. âSuch a liar.â
âI dunnoâŠitâs kind of hot. Persistent little thing,â II said not taking his eyes off you. You spit out the cherry stem, not even bent much less tied. A rosy blush covers your face as you giggle at yourself. âLook at her,â ii teases as he scoots near you, âsheâs a mess. Arenât you?â You lean into him as you laugh a little too loud. Suddenly iii looks serious.
âDoll. Before you get too fadedâŠâ
You instantly straighten up but shudder because II runs his fingertips across your shoulder blades. âWhatâs up?â
âAre you joining us tonightâŠor just spectating?â
This sobered you up instantly. You nearly forgot about the end goal here, watching them together or actually joining them. You took a deep breath and looked at them both for a second as you considered your options for the last time. Finally, you nodded slowly.
âAlright,â a wide smile broke across iiiâs face, âshall we?â
Moments later, you were being pushed into the empty elevator with them. II made sure no one else was approaching as iii pressed you into the wall opposite the doors. His wide palm thumped beside your head on the wall, trapping you. You didnât want to be completely passive tonight. You could just stand there and let him toy as he pleases, but itâs your birthday, and heâs a part of your gift. You lean up and gently tease his lips with your tongue. As he lets out an amused huff, he pulls your face forward in a rough kiss. II hums contentedly as he leans against the wall, just watching. III nibbles and pulls your bottom lip just a bit as he breaks the kiss. âThatâs a good girl,â he laughs softly. Suddenly he flings you into ii, who captures your lips with a patient intensity. IIIâs kiss excited you, but iiâs seduced you. When the lift got to your floor, iiâs pulled away, wiping his mouth and looking you up and down.
âYouâre trouble.â
You look back at III as he gently guides you to the room. âIs that a good thing for you twoâŠtrouble?â
III rolls his eyes and laughs dryly. âIâm always trouble with him, love,â he says as you enter the room. Seeing the soft lighting and comfy king sized bed helps you get in the mood but it also serves as a reality check. You are here! With your besties! And it becomes even more real whenâŠoh shit.
âYouâve got such a mouth on you,â ii growls as he pulls iii to the bed. âDefinition of trouble.â II climbs on top of iii to kiss and suck at his neck. III moans softly as ii marks him, but he reaches out his hand to you. He wants to lay beside him. Thatâs when you realize youâre staring. Gawping. You slip out of your shoes and slot beside iii with his arm wrapped around you. His hazy eyes wander to yours.
âCome here, good girl.â He whispers. III pulls you to him and your lips meet again. You donât know what to do with your hands but you remind yourself that this is your gift. Make the most of it. Your hand drifts from iiiâs chest to iiâs hair. The urge to stir the pot is too strong. You pull at iiâs hair and wrench him from the crook of his boyfriendâs neck. III breaths out a little âfuckâ as you and II make out right above his face. II licks your bottom lip playfully and nudges your noses together.
âLet me take care of him and then Iâm all yours, love.â
Loud and clear. III letâs go of you to sit up and take off his shirt; ii follows suit, still in iiiâs lap. Their kisses are rough, needy, as if they donât do this whenever they want. II grinds into iiiâs lap and moans. âFuck yeahâŠfuckâŠbite me,â ii murmurs as iii licks a long stripe up his neck. This is the hottest thing youâve ever seen, and theyâre not even naked yet. âLay back and take your pants off, handsome,â ii whispers. You bite your lip as iii lays back to shuffle out his pants and boxers, his cock springing free. Youâre desperate to touch it, to have it in your mouth, but ii beats you to it. He drags his fingertips up the underside of iiiâs cock teasingly, relishing in the way he squirms beneath him. âWhatâs wrong? Squirming away from me?â
âFuck just stroke itâŠâ
âThatâs an idea.â
âYou want toâŠcome on justâŠâ iii swipes a hand down his face and grabs for iiâs hand, but itâs slapped aside.
âHands behind your back. Now.â
III huffs and groans. âYeahâŠyeah alright. Fine.â He lifts his core and folds his forearms under his back.
âLooks you have a good boy, ii,â you murmur, finally finding your confidence. IIâs smirk makes you want to kiss it right off of him. Finally he starts jerking iiiâs cock while staring through you. Youâre under his spell, basically eye-fucking him. III is whimpering and moaning pathetically; the only attention heâs getting is ii jerking him off and he keeps looking at youâŠbegging for anything with his blue puppy eyes.
âBabeâŠbabeâŠtake that pretty dres-â
âDonât tell her what to do,â ii snaps, âitâs her birthdayâŠhave some respect.â
III chuckles breathlessly through his moans as ii slows his strokes. âSorry. Sorry, pretty.â But thereâs no love lost, youâre entertained by their dynamic. You roll closer and pepper little kisses on cheek.
âDidnât take you for a sub, iii,â you whisper. He shrugs as ii takes a little break to fetch something from his overnight bag.
III moves his face to kiss you softly, his cock twitching when you run your hands down his stomach. âI can beâŠbut so can he,â he whispers back, referencing ii. âSwitchy, like me.â
Your jaw drops, and a shocked laugh fills the room. âII? Really, hun? You like being thrown around a littleâŠtold what to do?â
âHe so does. Honestly, one timeâŠwith IVy of all peop-â but iii doesnât get to finish. II puts his hand over iiiâs mouth, muffling his mischievous snicker.
âRuns his mouth too much. Love, show me how youâd shut him up,â ii says with a cocked eyebrow.
You take your cue to slip off the bed and undress. They both watch you in reverence. If iii didnât have his brat mouth covered, it would have been agape. âII,â you purr, âtake your hand off my seat.â II moves his hand, and iii exclaims âoh fuck yes,â as you straddle his face. Since his arms are still tucked behind him, you press your desperate pussy to his mouth. Your palms press into his tummy as he laps at your clit. You canât help the slutty noises heâs pulling from you. II has slipped out of his clothes and positions himself between iiiâs legs. Heâs brought a small bottle of lube with him. âAreâŠare you gonna fuck him,â you askâŠor at least try. Itâs hard when youâve got a tongue prying at your slit and two hard throbbing cocks before you.
II squirts the liquid in his palm and pumps iii with a renewed lust. âHahâŠno, no. This cock is yours first.â Poor iii doesnât last long with your pussy gushing against his lips and iiâs deft touches. Your eyes roll back as iii moans into your pussy. âAlright, love, hop off.â You roll off and watch as the two of team meet in a hot, passionate kiss. III undoubtedly stiff arms wrap around ii and hold him like heâs the most precious thing.
âTaste her on me, babe?â iii whispers against iiâs mouth. II nods with a dumb little smile and playfully licks at iiiâs mustache. âAlrightâŠhopping in the shower.â
âAwâŠbutâŠâ you pout.
âIâll be back, doll. Donât worry.â III chuckles as he saunters into the bathroom, leaving you and ii on the bed. As if it has to be a secret, you both sit silently until you hear the shower run. II is immediately on you, groping your tummy and breasts as he kisses at your neck. Your eyes roll back as breathy pants leave your lips. Your chest heaves as his mouth greedily works down to your breasts.
âBe a good boy for meâŠhm?â Your finger gently tilts his chin up. âCâmereâŠâ Heâs a goner as your lips rub up against his. Theyâre so puffy from kissing iii. âYouâve been good havenât youâŠwaiting your turnâŠhavenât even touched yourself.â
âHeh, stop,â he saying looking away with the sweetest blush. âWhereâd this Mommy act come from, hm?â He peppers your cheek with kisses as he whispers.
âItâs not an act,â you whisper as you adjust his cock to slide in. III got you beyond wet enough for ii, so only a gentle nudge was needed for him to go in fully. IIâs head falls forward with a low groan. âLet me see youâŠâ your hand now rests firmly under his jaw, wrapped around his neck. He grins like any subby good boy would when your fingers flex. âThere he isâŠeyes on meâŠâ His eyes are dreamy and hazy as they flutter shut or roll back as his cock twitches inside of you. You squirm a little just to get comfy and enjoy teasing him as your bodies writhe against one another.
âPlease,â he whimpers. Heâs getting impatient.
âYou want to cum so soon?â You question mocking pout.
âIâŠfuckâŠI can cum again later. Just pleaseâŠ.â
His sweet puppy eyes glisten as he bites his lip, practically whining. His adamâs apple bobs against your palm but he doesnât break. âShow me how happy this makes youâŠâ He shudders and slowly thrusts. His body wants to slump forward but your grip holds him steady. âYou want to cum before he gets back in here? Hm?â II nods quickly and squeezes his eyes shut, the overall excitement from the night and your tight softness overstimulating him. âHeh yeahâŠjust for me and my good boyâŠIâm going to let go of you nowââ
âNo pleaseâŠplease keep it thereâŠfeels so goodâŠso good for youâŠâ he begs. âJust a little harderâŠâ When you squeeze a little harder, a fire lights in II. He fucks you fast and rough trying to play this little game where you have to finish before iii comes out. His lips form a little pout, dying for a kiss. You canât resist that. Instead of letting him move, you lean up and capture his lips. He moans against your mouth as the first kiss makes him lose it. You move your hand to let him breathe as he cries out against your chest.
II is still nestled against your chest, and in your pussy, when iii comes out of the steamy bathroomâŠalready rock hard again. âAlright, lovesâŠwhoâs next?â
#ask wolfie#sleep token fan fiction#sleep token x reader#sleep token x you#poly!vessels#sleep token ii x reader#sleep token iii x reader#sleep token ii x sleep token iii#ii x iii#sleep token smut
50 notes
·
View notes
Text
Fiddle Me This
Ao3 | FF.net
Hamish, former chief of the Shivering Shores, is coming to Berk and has requested Hiccup play some songs he's written over the years. The problem? No one else knew Hiccup could fiddle, and he's never performed for anyone.
The idea for this is completely self-indulgent and comes from the fact that Alexander Rybak does the Norwegian voice for Hiccup. He wrote two songs for the series, including one specifically for Toothless. I canât just sit here knowing that and NOT write a fic, I mean COME ON. Also, in the Episode with Garf, Hiccupâs song was about Toothless, and he was really enthusiastic about it, making me think he wrote it himself.Â
This is not historically accurate, but neither is the source material.Â
Set somewhere during RTTE, before Blindsided.
â
Things had thankfully been slow at the Edge. The Hunters hadnât been seen in a while, probably regrouping or strategizing. But the anxiety of that unknown was quickly pushed aside with a Terror Mail from Berk.Â
âAlright gang,â Hiccup stated that morning. âWhoâs feeling homesick?âÂ
Fishlegs sheepishly raised his hand, but the rest just kind of looked at each other.Â
âWell, youâre in luck. Weâre heading back to Berk for a little vacation! The Shiver Shores are coming in a week, and theyâll be in Berk for three days. Hamishâs oldest son Hagar has taken over as chief.âÂ
âIs Hamish okay?â Fishlegs asked, as that was the usual reason a tribe had a new chief. Â
âAs far as I know, heâs still alive. Sounds like his health is declining and it was getting hard to keep up with all the duties. Hel, itâs hard when youâre not sick,â Hiccup muttered that last bit to himself.Â
âWhen do we leave?â Asked Astrid.Â
âIâm leaving today,â Hiccup rested his hands on his waist. âDad specifically asked me to come early to help with some preparations. You guys are welcome to head back on Friggâs day. Or earlier, if you want. But Iâd like someone to stay on the Edge as long as possible.âÂ
âSweet! Unsupervised vacation!â Tuffnut high fived his sister.Â
âUh, no. If youâre staying, youâre doing your jobs. That means patrolling!â Â
âBoo!âÂ
âKilljoy!âÂ
âWhat could your dad possibly need you so early for?â Snotlout asked, insult implied.
Hiccupâs face went red, satisfying Snotlout, but the blush was for a totally different reason. âHamishâŠspecifically requestedâŠI play the fiddle.âÂ
There was a pause. âYou have a week to learn the fiddle?â Asked Tuff.Â
Hiccup sighed. âNo, I have a week to brush up on the fiddle.âÂ
Then everyone yelled in unison, âYou can fiddle!?âÂ
He chuckled awkwardly. âYeeeeep.â Â
âSince when?!â Snotlout demanded. âIâve known you since we were in diapers, and Iâve never heard you play a single note.â
âYeah, but how well did you know me before the Red Death?âÂ
âPeople talk, Hiccup. Youâre not that good at keeping secrets.âÂ
âAnd the Nightfury that spent three months in the woods?âÂ
âA notable exception.â
Hiccup awkwardly played with his hands, avoiding eye contact. âIâve been playing since ⊠well, since I was able to. My mother played. We had her fiddle at the house, and when I was little, my dad asked if I wanted to learn how to play, explaining that mom had. I was really enthusiastic back then, and so when we went to visit the Shivering Shores a few times a year, he had me take lessons with Hamish.âÂ
âWhich is why he requested you play now,â Astrid gathered.Â
âYeeeep.âÂ
âSo, are you good?â Asked Tuff.Â
âOh no, Iâm terrible. Iâm thinking that Iâll just play with the band. Maybe quietly so they drown me out.âÂ
âIâm sure youâll be great, Hiccup,â Astrid said fondly. âWhen was the last time you played?âÂ
He scrunched up his lips in thought. âFor anyone? Never. Unless you count Hamish. Or Toothless.â He smiled over at his dragon. âBut I sometimes play in my room or at the forge if I need to think something through and need to do something with my hands. I didnât take it with me when we came out here.âÂ
âSo a few months.âÂ
âGive or take.âÂ
Tuffnut snapped his fingers. âThe Fiddler on the Roof!âÂ
âExcuse me?âÂ
âWhat? You never heard the rumor of the Fiddler on the Roof? Ugh! It makes so much sense now!âÂ
âWhat are you talking about?â Hiccup pressed.Â
âOkay okay, for years people have been talking about a mysterious fiddler in the village. His music carries over the rooftops, so people assumed he was up highâŠkinda like the chiefâs house on the hill?!â Tuffnut nudged him.Â
âTh-that canât be right. It must be someone else.âÂ
Fishlegs pointed out, âno one else on the island plays a fiddle though. You said it yourself that you had to take lessons from Hamish.âÂ
âYeah, but Silent Sven plays the nyckelharpa and Sigurd plays the Hurdy-Gurdy. What if it was one of them?âÂ
âNope, not a nyckelharpa,â said Tuff.Â
âAnd definitely not a hurdy-gurdy!â Said Ruff.Â
âBesides, they play in the Great Hall all the time, we know what they sound like,â said Fishlegs.Â
âAnd itâs definitely a Fiddler on that Roof.âÂ
Hiccupâs face went even more red, and he covered it with his hands. âOh godsâŠpeople have been hearing me for years!âÂ
âThatâs the cool part, H,â said Tuff. âThe Fiddler is said to be otherworldly in nature, and some even thought he might be a spirit of music himself.âÂ
âOkay, now youâre just messing with me.âÂ
âAm I?â Tuff wiggled his fingers.Â
âLook, donât get too excited, okay? Iâll show my dad where Iâm at and he might agree to have a private performance with Hamish. I would never want to subject the village to hear myâŠâ he rolled his hand, looking for the word.Â
âScreeching?â
ââFork-on-dinnerplateâ?â
âDying cat?âÂ
âYeah,â Hiccup said flatly, âOne of those.â
âYou know, Hiccup,â said Snotlout. âI never saw you as the type to be musically inclined. But it suits you, I must say. Someoneâs gotta play the tales of my awesome battles.âÂ
âAnd the fact that you sing a solo every Snoggletog doesnât count becauseâŠ?âÂ
âDuh, because itâs Snoggletog, a season of giving. And I give the gift of my beautiful tenor.â He gestured to his throat.
âRight,â He sighed. âAnyway, Iâm going to get packed. Anyone else coming now?â
âI will,â said Astrid.Â
âMe too!â Said Fishlegs.Â
Hiccup looked meaningfully at the Twins and Snotlout.Â
âWhat?â Asked Snot. âYeah, weâll behave! Weâll even patrol! Weâre mature adults that donât need a babysitter.âÂ
âThere was only one word in that sentence that was true,â Hiccup said, rolling his eyes and heading out.Â
Tuff yelled back, âWhich one was it? Was it âthatâ?âÂ
An hour later, Astrid, Fishlegs, and Hiccup were packed and ready to head back to Berk. One last chastising for the stragglers, and they were off.Â
âSoâŠâ Fishlegs began, as their trip was underway. âCan I ask more questions about the fiddle?â He squeaked.Â
Hiccup sighed. âYeah, I guess. At least I know you two wonât make fun of me for it.âÂ
âNever, Hiccup,â Astrid assured. âI canât even sing, let alone play an instrument. I bet the muttonheads back at the Edge certainly canât.âÂ
âNot that Iâve ever heard,â he shrugged.Â
âWhat songs can you play?âÂ
Hiccup winced. âNot many. I learned how to play some traditional stuff when I was younger, and when I nailed those down and got tired of them, I started doing my own thing.âÂ
ââŠwhatâs your own thing?â Astrid asked.Â
âWell, I uhâŠI made up my own songs. Not really writing anything down, but developing a melody I likedâŠputting some words to it. That kind of thing.âÂ
âYou should perform those!â Said Fishlegs, enthusiastically. âI bet people would want to hear a Hiccup original over the same thing we hear all the time!âÂ
He scoffed. âNo, you got it all wrong. They arenât good, Fishlegs! LikeâŠI know you come up with little songs about Meatlug, right?âÂ
âYeah?âÂ
âWould you perform those in front of the tribe?âÂ
âHa! No way! Not unless Meatlug was having a panic attack and I needed to calm her down.â He laid on his dragon, giving her a hug. âThen in that case, no crowd could stop me.âÂ
âSo did you play a lot?â Asked Astrid. âYou said you would play to keep your hands busy.âÂ
âQuite a bit,â he admitted. âItâs kind of fun to play, and the music kinda helps me think. But Iâm usually not thinking about the fiddle when Iâm playing, so Iâm sure it sounds like a bunch of random notes just sliding around.âÂ
âBut if you practice a lot, it shouldnât sound that bad,â she reasoned.Â
âOh, youâd be surprisedâŠâÂ
The conversation changed then, and they talked about other things for the rest of the flight. Dragon training, the Hunters, there was even an hour long argument about who would win in a fight between three Flightmares and ten Speed Stingers.Â
Eventually, they reached Berk right before dinner. Gobber and Stoick were waiting for them and greeted them warmly.Â
âEvening son! Have a good flight?âÂ
Hiccup slid off Toothless, stretching his back. âGood weather, fun company, no complaints.âÂ
âYou knowâŠI got your fiddle out for you. Itâs on your desk.âÂ
Hiccup barked a laugh. âThat didnât take long. I thought for sure youâd wait to bring it up until after dinner.âÂ
âWell, the others want to start practice after dinner,â Stoick argued. âThought you might want a little time to make sure sheâs all ready to play.âÂ
âOthers?âÂ
âOh you know, Sven, Sigurd, Hackjaw, Frida, HildaâŠand Gobber wants to play the pan flute.âÂ
âI love playing the pan flute!â The man cheered.Â
âWell, Iâll need all the practice I can get. Iâm really hoping to just pretend to play, and let the others kind of drown me out.âÂ
Stoick gave him an incredulous look. âWhat are you talking about son? Why would they need to drown you out?âÂ
âDad, Iâm not good,â he chuckled humorlessly.Â
âAw this hogwash again? Youâre a fine fiddler!âÂ
âA damn fine fiddler!â Gobber added.Â
âThanks butââÂ
âNo buts!â Stoick interrupted. âItâs been decided. Through our letters, Hamish and I have been talking. I told him about the songs you wrote.âÂ
âYou didnât.âÂ
âI did! And heâs so excited! He wants to hear all four!âÂ
âDAD!âÂ
âI want to hear âem properly too! I like that one about the fairytale, that love song? Oh it gets me in the heart. Makes me think of your motherâŠâ he said wistfully. Â
âDad!â Hiccup grabbed his face in horror. Feeling more and more sick as the story went on.Â
Gobber said, âI asked if the one thatâs like, âcome fly with me! Oh whoa, oh whoaâ was in the line up, because thatâs the one I like.âÂ
âYou too?â He gaped at Gobber. âYouâve been listening?âÂ
âThe backroom to the forge is only separated by a cloth lad, not exactly soundproof.â
âAnd then the one you wrote for Toothless,â Stoick suggested.Â
Hiccup furrowed his brow, heâd actually come up with a dozen little songs about Toothless. âWhich one?âÂ
âOh you played it for a week straight during our first Snoggletog with the dragons! You built that tail for Toothless, and you were so heartbroken that he was goneâŠâÂ
âOh Thor, that one?âÂ
âIt was so sweet, lad! No need to be embarrassed.âÂ
âUgh! And dare I ask about the last one?âÂ
Stoick gave him this weirdly proud smile, âOh you know which one Iâm talkinâ about.âÂ
âIf I did, I wouldnât be asking,â Hiccup droned.Â
Stoick glanced at Astrid, before leaning in to speak into Hiccupâs ear.Â
Fishlegs and Astrid had to assume it was beyond embarrassing as Hiccupâs face flushed a vibrant red and his eyes went wide. âYou heard that?âÂ
Stoick giggled, âhow could I not? You sang with so much passion!â
âI think Iâm going to be sick.âÂ
Stoick patted his shoulder. âEveryone gets a little stage fright, son.â
âWhat about stage paralysis?â He asked.Â
âWeâll have an hour of music during dinner on the first night. The rest of the band has already figured out all the other music to play. Now, all they need is to hear your songs so they best know how to accompany you.âÂ
âAnd the songs that theyâre playing?âÂ
âYou know them. And you know how to make it up if you donât.âÂ
âYou, sir, are putting way too much faith in me.âÂ
âNo. You,â he poked Hiccupâs chest, âarenât putting enough faith in yourself.âÂ
Hiccup rolled his eyes. âFine, Iâm the best fiddler on Berk.âÂ
Fishlegs squeaked, âArenât you the onlyââ
âThatâs my point, Fish!â He scratched his head. âLook, Iâll see you guys around. Iâm gonna goâŠfiddle with the fiddle.âÂ
Gobber chuckled, âan oldie, but a goodie.âÂ
As Astrid watched Hiccup and Toothless depart up to the chiefâs house, âHeâs really good then, chief?â
âAye! As he is with all his artistic endeavors.â
âThe Halls of Valhalla are filled with bards that wished they played as well as him!â Gobber declared.Â
âSo why does he think heâs bad?â Asked Fishlegs. âHow can he not notice?âÂ
âWell, youâve got to look at it from his perspective. Hiccup has always compared himself to others. Iâm at fault for that, as well as most in the village. We always told him he wasnât as good as others at fighting. But heâs taken it to the level of all his skills. You think heâs talented at drawing and smithing, right?âÂ
âAbsolutely.â
âBut to him, heâs âjust good enoughâ because heâs compared himself to others and decided heâs not as good. I think thatâs why heâs so gung-ho about Dragon Training. No one else has ever befriended a Nightfury, therefore, no one to compare to.â
âWow,â Astrid said sadly. âI never thought of it that way before.âÂ
âWith his fiddle, he learned from Hamish, whoâs a fantastic fiddler. Hiccup could never quite get the technique the man had. The only other comparisons are Sven and Sigurd, and theyâre quite good too. But their instruments sound different from Hiccupâs. He canât do what they do, therefore, heâs bad.âÂ
âNow Iâm depressed,â said Fishlegs. âI never knew this about Hiccup.âÂ
âOh donât let it get your skivvies in a twist. Hiccupâs drive to find his place in the village is what drove him to Toothless afterall, right? And look at how heâs doing now!âÂ
Distantly, Astrid could hear it. Someone playing the scales on the fiddle, the notes sliding into place. A note played alone, over and over, and then the next.Â
âAh, sounds like it needs some tuning,â Stoick observed. âThatâll bother him all night.âÂ
She wanted to listen. She wanted to sneak over and just watch and listen. But that wouldnât be fair to him if he was so self-conscious. Maybe this will get him out of his shell, and heâll be more willing to share his music with her. Â
Astridâs parents were having dinner up at the Great Hall, and she happily joined them, catching up with them about all the things that had been happening at the Edge.Â
As she ate, she watched as Stoick and Hiccup arrived, bowls in hand. Hiccup wore a wooden case on his back, attached with a leather strap.Â
His fiddle.
It was one thing to have him tell them about it, but to see itâŠ
Then again, this was still just the case. It would be completely different once he was actually holding it and playing it.Â
He set the case down on a table over by the wall, where she could see other instrument cases sitting and waiting for practice. Then he went and sat with his father at the head table.Â
âYouâve been away from the boy for an hour and you canât take your eyes off of him,â Phlegma Hofferson teased.Â
Astrid whirled around, red faced, and hushed her mother. âDonât say stuff like that!âÂ
Her father laughed. âOh, like everyone doesnât remember you planting a big olâ wet kiss on him after the dragon war.âÂ
âThat was years ago!â She hissed.Â
âAnd youâve only grown fonder of him, no?âÂ
âUgh.â Astridâs head smacked lightly on the table. âYou two are impossible.âÂ
âWe are? Sure dear. But when are you two just going to make it official? You know weâre ready to pay your dowry whenever Stoickâs got the bride price.âÂ
Astrid rubbed her temples. âLookâyouâre notâŠtotally wrong about how I feelâŠbut I havenât said anything, and Iâm waiting on Hiccup to make the move.âÂ
âDear, youâll be old by then.âÂ
âGive him some credit! Heâs got a lot on his mind.âÂ
âI hope heâs got you on his mind too,â Phlegma smirked. âHave you tried seducing him?â
âMother!â Astrid damn near screamed.Â
âSorry dear, sorry. Weâll drop it for now.â Phlegma and Axel shared a smug look.Â
Astrid doubted they were done with the topic for this trip. If Hiccup was going to be busy in rehearsals most days, then sheâd have to find a way to avoid her parents.Â
Maybe Fishlegs would be up for some fun instead of spending it in the library?Â
After dinner, Astrid hung around the Hall, even as her parents left.Â
The rest of the band was setting up. Sigurd and Sven had their strings, Hackjaw had his drums, Frida had the lute, Hilda on the horn, Bard on the mandolin, Bucket had a shaker, and Gobber had his pan flute.
And Hiccup was just sitting by them, not making any move to his case. In fact, he kept glancing around to the other non-band folks in the Hall, waiting for them to leave.Â
Then his eyes met hers.
She waved and smiled.Â
He ducked his head sheepishly.Â
Astrid felt a pang in her chest. It was so heartbreaking to see Hiccup this embarrassed. It was almost like the old days, before Toothless.Â
Toothless.  Â
The dragon wasnât in the Great Hall. He was probably frolicking with the other dragons, or just with Stormfly and Meatlug. But if anyone was going to give him the courage to do this, it was Toothless!Â
Astrid got up and went to find him. Though, it didnât take long at all. He was sprawled out on the grass on the hill.Â
âPst! Toothless!âÂ
He perked up, looking at her, ears up at attention.Â
âHiccupâs inside!â She pointed.Â
He leapt to his feet and trotted over.Â
âNow,â she told him, âheâs going to be working hard and practicing music with the others inside, but heâs nervous about it, so youâre going to support him, okay?âÂ
Toothless was the smartest dragon she knew. Sometimes with the looks he gave, she swore he was going to open his mouth and speak perfect Norse. Right now was one of those times. He gave her this look, like he knew exactly what she was saying and what needed to happen. He nudged her arm with his nose and then plodded into the Great Hall and over to Hiccup.
Hiccup lit up when he saw his friend, and greeted him with a chin scratch.Â
Toothless laid at his feet, paws crossed elegantly.Â
Hiccup chuckled, and then looked over to her, still standing in the doorway.Â
Astrid gave him the thumbs up and a wide reassuring smile.Â
Hiccup returned it, though not as confident. But he did get up and go to the fiddle case.Â
Astrid decided to leave and give him his privacy. Toothless was all the support he needed right now, and anymore attention would just make him crumble.Â
A few minutes later, Hilda put a sign on the door. âPractice in session, do not disturb.â
So now it was a waiting game. Hiccup obviously wasnât going to give out any sneak previews. Though she did try to keep an eye on him.Â
â
As the week went on, she noticed happily that his demeanor had changed quite a bit. He stood up straighter when he went into practice, and he talked freely with the band, like he was one of them instead of an intruder.Â
Astrid wondered if someone had said something to him, or if just having Toothless around was making a difference.Â
The band practiced for a few hours after dinner every night. Even with the doors closed, the faintest music could be heard. Astrid didnât know enough about instruments to know if she was hearing a fiddle or nyckelharpa or hurdy-gurdy.Â
She actually wasnât really sure what those last two were.Â
During the day, Hiccup was mostly helping with preparations. She often saw him helping someone or another in the town.Â
But there were a few hours a day where he couldnât be found. He wasnât at his fatherâs house or the Great Hall. Â
âHey Chief,â she greeted. âHave you seen your son around?âÂ
âNope,â he smiled. âHeâs gone off to find a place to practice.âÂ
âHeâs really taking this fiddle performance to heart, isnât he?âÂ
âSure is,â he continued smiling, seemingly proud at the thought. âHiccupâs a viking, though he might protest. Heâs as bullheaded and stubborn as the lot of us. When he doesnât want to do something, he fights and protests the whole way. But when he finds a reason to want to do something, he dives in, head first, and puts his whole being into it.âÂ
âYeah,â Astrid agreed. âIâve seen that. And heâs good about finding a reason to do something.âÂ
âWeâre friends with the Shivering Shores, our alliance isnât in any trouble. But Hiccup knows Iâm good friends with Hamish, and he has a lot of respect for the man. I think it might break his heart if he disappointed him.âÂ
âHiccup has always valued otherâs opinions,â she supposed.Â
âAndâŠâ Stoick drawled, a keen smile on his face. âI happen to know one of the songs heâs got is a love song. Maybe he wants it just right to convey a message?âÂ
Astrid flushed red. âT-t-to who?âÂ
âAh, Iâm joking,â he patted her back, though the smile didnât go away.Â
Stoick had read her like a book. He knew there was something going on between them, even if that âsomethingâ had been in a weird limbo for years.Â
She looked away, shyly. âWell, anyways, Iâm excited to see him perform.âÂ
âAye, me too, lass. Should be memorable!âÂ
â-
Snotlout and the Twins arrived the next day, one day before the Shivering Shoresâ arrival. Despite what Astrid was expecting, they seemed to have forgotten all about Hiccupâs fiddle secret, as no one brought it up.Â
They had dinner together in the Great Hall, which was now decorated with fresh flowers and garland.Â
âSo,â Hiccup began, sitting down with a plate of chicken and veggies. âHowâs the Edge? Everything still quiet?âÂ
âYou think anything is quiet with these dunderheads?â Snotlout jabbed a thumb over at the twins. âBut as for our enemies, we didnât see anything.âÂ
âDid the twins cause anyââ
âThe answer is yes, and you donât want to know. Weâll talk about it on the way back, I already did my part.âÂ
Hiccup sighed. âWell, thank you, Snotlout. I knew I could trust you to watch the Edge while we were away.âÂ
Snotlout sat up straight at this praise and started to smile. âI did do a good job, didnât I? Hey, maybe you shouldnât even worry about coming back to the Edge. Your dad seemed really stressed and you shouldââÂ
âNice try, but Iâm definitely going back.âÂ
Snotlout folded his hands behind his head. âCanât blame me for trying.âÂ
âHow goes the fiddling practice?â Asked Fishlegs.Â
Astrid flinched heavily, ready to punch him.Â
âOh yeah!â Said Snotlout. âYouâve got a little recital coming up, donât you?âÂ
âHiccup: Live in Concert!â Said Tuffnut, enthusiastically. âIâve been thinking about it all week!âÂ
âTomorrow during dinner.â Hiccup nodded, looking sheepish. âI think itâll be okay. Iâm really nervous, butâŠI found a really good tactic to distract myself.âÂ
âAnd that isâŠ?â
âI play to Toothless, specifically. He really likes music, and almost dances to it. Itâs kind of adorable. So I just watch him.âÂ
Astrid tried not to seem too proud. After all, it was her that encouraged Toothless to join that first rehearsal.Â
âSo what are ya gonna play?â Tuffnut asked. âSilvard had a Little Yak?âÂ
Hiccup rolled his eyes, but retorted smugly, âYouâll just have to wait and see.âÂ
âDid your dad convince you to play the songs you wrote?â Fishlegs asked, again making Astrid want to hit him.Â
Hiccup sighed. âYep.âÂ
âHold on,â said Snot. âYou wrote songs?âÂ
âSure. Didnât you write a few for Garf?âÂ
âThatâs totally different,â Snotlout laughed. âI never expected to perform them for anyone. Oh this is rich. I canât wait until you see what we have in store for you tomorrow!âÂ
Hiccup felt pale. âWh-what are you talking about?âÂ
âNothing much,â said Tuff. âJust a little surprise.âÂ
âYouâll love it,â insisted Ruffnut.Â
âSomehow, I doubt that completely.âÂ
â
Great ships with black sails arrived at the docks the next day. Hiccup stood with Stoick to greet the guests, while Astrid stood a little ways away for emotional support. Hiccup had foregone the leather armor, as requested by his father, and went back to his fur vest. His hair was still a mess, despite combing it for twenty minutes. It was probably stuck in place for ever thanks to Toothlessâ saliva.
Hamish, a man as big as Stoick, disembarked first, using a cane to get around. âStoick! My old friend!âÂ
âGood to see you, Hamish! Have a nice trip?âÂ
âOh yes, very peaceful. Ever since your boy made peace with the dragons, sailinâ around has been a breeze! Of course, that doesnât hurt.â He pointed at the three dragons leashed to the ship, having pulled it. They were all getting fish and scratches from the rest of the crew.Â
Hiccup smiled proudly.Â
âAnd look at you, boy-o!â Hamish praised, spotting him. âShot up like a tree! I wager youâll be taller than your old man one day.âÂ
âWouldnât that be something?â Hiccup chuckled.Â
âWell youâve grown into a fine young man, are your fiddling skills set to match?âÂ
Hiccupâs smile faltered. âHamish, Iâm going to do my best, but I donât think Iâll ever be as good as you.âÂ
âHiccupâŠâ Stoick reprimanded.Â
âYou arenât me, lad!â Hamish said joyfully. âI could never tame a dragon like you did! Let alone smith a tail! You have a lot of skills that youâve honed over the years. Your father just said you never gave up the instrument, so I want to see what youâve got!âÂ
That seemed to relieve Hiccup more than any other words had up until now. He smiled genuinely and said, âthanks for understanding.âÂ
Hagar, the new chief of the Shivering Shores disembarked a moment later and came to stand by his dad. He was just as large, but had no gray in his beard. He greeted Hiccup and Stoick with a wide smile.
âIncoming dragons!â The lookout called, pointing out over the sea.Â
Hiccup and Astrid narrowed their eyes, looking at the two dragons coming in.Â
âIs thatâŠ?â Astrid asked.Â
âOh gods,â Hiccup moaned.Â
Before they even landed, a voice called boisterously. âBROTHER!âÂ
âH-hey DagurâŠâ Hiccup waved awkwardly.Â
âDagur of the Berserkers?â Asked Hamish. âWhat a pleasant surprise! What are you doing here?âÂ
âHamish! Youâre looking well!â Dagur and Shattermaster landed at the docks while Heather landed back by Astrid. âHow are you feeling?âÂ
âOh Iâm doing pretty good. Some days are better than others. Been having a lot of great days leading up to this trip!âÂ
âGreat to hear!âÂ
âSoâŠwhat brings you to Berk?â Hiccup asked, dread churning in his gut. He had been on edge since Snotlout and the Twins said they had a surprise for him.Â
Dagur laughed. âIsnât it obvious?! Weâre here to see your fiddling prowess!âÂ
Hiccup smacked his forehead. âThose muttonheadsâŠâÂ
âYes, Heather and I came to check in on the Edge a few days ago, and Snothat told us all about what you were doing! Why didnât you ever tell me you played the fiddle?âÂ
âHe didnât tell any of us,â said Astrid. âApparently, heâs not very good.â She smirked.Â
âSo he thinks!â Said Stoick.Â
âAlright, alright. I should have known,â Hiccup groaned. âItâs fine. The more the merrier, right?â He smiled, but it was wobbly.Â
 âAnd of course itâs always a pleasure to see the Shivering Shores folks, especially after we confirmed our alliance.â He shook Hamish and Hagarâs hands.Â
âGlad to have Berserker Island back in our good graces,â said Hagar.Â
âIt's all thanks to my sweet baby brother!â Dagur grabbed Hiccup and pulled him into a side hug. âShowed me the error of my ways. Converted me into a real dragon lover. United me with my long lost sister! Oh, such a big and loving heart! The heart of an artist and musician!âÂ
Hiccup wheezed. âYouâre too kind, Dagur.âÂ
âBrother?â Asked Hagar with an amused smile.Â
âHonorary title,â Hiccup wheezed again.Â
It seemed like Dagurâs praise reframed his arrival to Hagar and Hamish, and they looked a lot more relaxed and amused.Â
âWeâll only stay tonight,â said Heather. âTo watch Hiccupâs performance and give our dragons some time to rest. This is your vacation, after all. We didnât mean to intrude.âÂ
âTonight is the best part, anyway!â Said Hagar. âFeasting! Music! Dancing! And barrels of mead!â He gestured to their ship, where several barrels were stacked in a pyramid.Â
Stoick cheered gleefully.Â
âPerfect,â said Hiccup, âdrunk ears are happy ears.âÂ
Astrid elbowed him.Â
â-
Dinner time came around far too quickly for Hiccupâs liking, as with most things dreaded.Â
The band was setting up in front of a support pillar. The tables were arranged in a semi circle around them, with enough space in front to move around. Directly to Hiccupâs left was the head table, where Hamish, Hagar, and his father sat. Next to them, with a front row view, was the table with his friends. They all watched eagerly as Hiccup moved around and talked with the band.Â
Toothless laid at the front of the table, on his absolute best behavior. His eyes were rounded and soft, as he occasionally stuck his tongue out in excitement.Â
People were still milling around, getting drinks and sharing food.Â
No introductions were made yet, no commencement speeches, but Hiccup had his fiddle in hand and walked up to the front of the band. The players watched him, waiting for a queue.
Hiccup nodded his head, put the fiddle to his chin and started a fast paced one note sprint, literally sounding like someone was running. Then Hackjaw came in with several heavy beats of his drum. Then the rest of the band joined, filling the hall with boisterous music.Â
And to Astridâs disappointment, mostly drowning out Hiccup. He had taken a few steps back to stand with the group. He had his head bowed, and eyes clenched shut tightly as he played. Occasionally, she thought she could hear that sprinting note from him, but the song seemed to highlight the other members of the band. Frida had an incredible performance on the lute, plucking the notes and a dizzying speed. Same with each member, all having a unique solo to introduce their sound. The band played the same driving melody in the background while Hiccup stayed playing that same note.
The song came to an end, and the crowd was full of cheers.Â
Hiccup sighed in relief and shared a smile with the other players. They all gave him thumbs up.Â
âLooks like everyone has found their seats,â said Stoick, his voice booming over the chattering crowd.Â
Everyone grew silent, ready to listen.Â
âTonight, we welcome our dear friends from the Shivering Shores, and celebrate their new era with them. Hagar has shown to be a very capable leader, and will surely follow in his fatherâs legacy.âÂ
A cheer.Â
âWe honor our friendship with the Shivering Shores, and weâre grateful for the many years Hamish worked with us. As a thank you, we have a special performance prepared. Specially requested from Hamish himself, my son Hiccup will be joining the band tonight on the fiddle.âÂ
Another cheer went up through the crowd, and Astrid swore she heard people say âno wayâ and âheâs so much like his motherâ and even âis there anything he canât do?âÂ
It made Astridâs heart swell with pride.Â
âMany of you older folks may remember that my dear Valka was a fiddler. Well, as a little boy, Hiccup picked up the instrument and got his instruction from Hamish himself, the best fiddler in the archipelago.âÂ
âWeâll see about that!â Hamish laughed.Â
Stoick grinned. âHiccup has prepared several unique songs for your listening pleasure this evening. Take it away whenever youâre ready, son.âÂ
Hiccup had his awkward âI know I messed up but please donât be mad at meâ smile on his face as he shuffled closer to the front.Â
He shrugged and said, âsorry in advance.âÂ
The rest of the band scoffed.
He put the fiddle on his chin, taking several deep breaths. He glanced across the room, lingering on Astridâs face for a moment.Â
She gave him an enthusiastic thumbs up.Â
Then he looked at Toothless, and actually started to smile a little.Â
He turned to the band, and mouthed something to them, though she couldnât tell what.Â
Then he pinched his eyes shut, and set his mouth in a thin lineâŠ
And he attacked the fiddle, the bow ripping across the strings with the fervor to make sparks fly if they could. His eyebrows twitched and his nostrils flared as the notes came out rapid fire. His entire body moved with the effort, like it took every fiber of his being to make this wonderful, soul-filling sound.Â
âHolyââ Snotlout barked.Â
He briefly turned to the band and bobbed his head to bring them in, and a joyful bouncing beat filled the hall. People started stomping and clapping.Â
Then the fiddle slowed to a less intense melody, and Hiccup opened his mouth.Â
âYears ago, when I was younger, I kinda liked a girl I knew.
Thought she was mine and we were sweethearts. That was then, but then it's trueâŠâ
The music cut out, except for a few plucks of the fiddle strings.Â
Then Hiccup belted out, while continuing to play.Â
âI'm in love with a fairytale! Even though it hurtsâŠ
'Cause I don't care if I lose my mind, I'm already cursed!âÂ
He returned to that intense dance with the bow, his heel slamming back on the floor with each beat of the drum. He twisted and jerked, like he was fighting with the music.Â
And he was winning.
âEvery day, between the fighting, I could have sworn we fell in love.
No one else could make me sadder, but no one else could lift me high above!
I don't know what I was doing, she let me go, we grew apartâŠ
Nowadays, I cannot brave herâŠâÂ
He dared to smile.
âBut when I do, we'll get a brand new start!âÂ
He pulled on the strings, a high note that conveyed heartache. Astrid felt it in her chest.
âI'm in love with a fairytale, even though it hurts,
'Cause I don't care if I lose my mind, I'm already cursedâŠâ
The band cut out, suddenly, leaving Hiccup to battle the notes on his own. His fingers flew in a flurry, matching the cutting of the bow. Hiccup set his jaw, garnering the strength for the end. A few slower, growing notes, and he sang again.
âShe's a fairytale, yeah! Even though it hurtsâŠ
'Cause I don't care if I lose my mind, I'm already cursed!âÂ
Astrid had no idea he could sing like that, or even hit that note. It struck her to the core, and she sat breathless and stunned as he played his last battle hymn and ended with a flourish.Â
The hall was deafeningly loud with cheers as Hiccup finally, finally opened his eyes to look around. He seemed surprised as he met everyoneâs boisterous cheers.Â
Dagur launched from his seat and ran to Hiccup, grabbing him in a hug that lifted him off the floor. He laughed maniacally, and Astrid could hear him damn near yell, âthat was amazing, brother! The best song Iâve ever heard!âÂ
Hiccup looked kind of pale, she noticed.Â
Once Dagur set him back on his feet, Hiccup used his shoulder to stand upright.Â
âThank you!â He called to the crowd still freaking out.Â
âAlright, settle down,â Stoick called, laughter in his voice.Â
Once it got quieter, Hiccup said, âthank you, very much. I wasnât expecting that kind of reception. I uhâŠI have some more songs for you, but Iâm feeling kind of light headed, so Iâm going to sit down for a minute.âÂ
Astrid patted the empty spot beside her, she saved just for him.Â
He slid into it, awkwardly smiling. âHey, howâs it going?âÂ
âWhat the hell, Haddock?!â Snotlout shouted.Â
âAww, thanks Snotlout, that means a lot.â
Astrid giggled, and gave Hiccup a pat to the shoulder, the universal âIâll be right backâ sign. She got up and went to get him some water, so he could sit and bask in the praise.Â
The band, in Hiccupâs absence, played a reprise of his song, though it sounded really weird without the fiddle.Â
Gobber and Hilda belted the lyrics, in an unflattering harmony.Â
âI'm in love with a fairytale, even though it hurts,
'Cause I don't care if I lose my mind, I'm already cursed!â
She had been so caught up in the music, in the fact that she was finally hearing Hiccup sing and play, she hadnât paid attention to the lyrics. It was like they had been in a foreign language.
But now, she understood, and her face turned bright red.Â
Determined not to be awkward, she returned to her place with the cup of water for him.Â
âThank you, milady!â He raised the glass with a big smile. His eyes were twinkling in the firelight, and his cheeks flushed a handsome pink.Â
âYouâre welcome,â she replied, voice a little deeper than intended.Â
She sat beside him, their arms occasionally brushing in the cramped space. But Astrid really didnât mind. In fact, she had half a mind to reach over and hold his hand.Â
âI don't know what I was doing, she let me go, we grew apartâŠ
Nowadays, I cannot brave herâŠÂ
But when I do, we'll get a brand new start!â
So she didnât hold his hand. She decided that he needed to make that move. Was it petty after he sang her a love song? Maybe.Â
Hiccup finished his water, still smiling as the gang animatedly talked. No one broached the yak in the room, âhey Hiccup, who was that song about, huh?â and that was just fine.Â
Once the band finished their butchered version of his song, Hiccup patted her shoulder and got up. âWish me luck, gang,â he chuckled.Â
âYou donât need it,â Ruffnut waved him off.Â
âYeah, but Astrid might,â Tuff smirked.Â
Astrid blushed fiercely. âI donât knowâŠwhat y-youâre talking aboutâŠâ She tried to be casual, but couldnât make eye contact with them.Â
âYouâre hopeless,â said Heather, fondly.Â
âOh shush!âÂ
Hiccup had his fiddle in hand, and played a sharp note to get attention. He looked a lot less nervous now, and looked around at everyone. âThis next song is older. I started writing it while I was training Toothless, before anyone else knew about dragons, before the Red DeathâŠback then, I practiced a lot of speeches where I tried to convince everyone that we didnât need to fight them. I never ended up successfully delivering those speeches, but I did write this anyway.â He nodded to Frida, who strummed the lute, starting the song.Â
Then Hiccup came in, playing a fast tune again, though it wasnât as intense as the first. He also didnât have his eyes closed anymore. He was looking directly at Toothless and slowly walked towards him.  Â
âI have a dream, you are there, high above the clouds somewhere.
Rain is falling from the sky but it never touches you, you're way up high!âÂ
Toothless perked up, his tongue lulling out as he stood, making light little steps in time with the beats. The rest of the band joined as Hiccup continued to play and sing at the same time.Â
âNo more worries no more fear, you have made them disappear,
Sadness tried to steal the show, but now it feels like many years ago!â
Hiccup did a little skip hop to be right in front of Toothless, and sang brightly to him.
âAnd I! I will be with you every step!âÂ
The band shouted, âHey! Hey!â While Hiccup leaned it and rubbed his nose against Toothlessâ.Â
âTonight I found a friend in you, and I'll keep you close forever!âÂ
He skip-hopped backwards and sang to the room.Â
âCome fly with me!âÂ
The band echoed, âOhoohoh Ohoohoh!â
âInto a fantasy!âÂ
âOhoohoh Ohoohoh!â
âWhere you can be whoever you want to be! Come fly with me!âÂ
He was on the move again, skipping over to the table and plopping into the spot next to Astrid. He leaned against the table, pretending to be casual, but he looked her dead in the eyes as he sang.Â
âWe can fly all day long, show me the world, sing me a song,
Tell me what the future holds, you and me will paint it all in gold!âÂ
Astrid beamed at him, her face hurting from the smile.Â
âAnd I! I will believe your every word!âÂ
The audience got the prompt and stomped in time âHey! Hey!â Hiccup leaned in and rubbed his nose against hers, just as he did with Toothless, making her burst into laughter.Â
ââCause I, I have a friend in you. We'll always stay together!âÂ
He leapt to his feet, dancing in time with the beat and Toothlessâ little prancing.Â
âCome fly with me!âÂ
âOhoohoh Ohoohoh!â
âInto a fantasy!â
âOhoohoh Ohoohoh!â
âWhere you can be whoever you want to be. Come fly with me!âÂ
He played his heart out, barely containing his laughter as Toothless did this adorable little steppy-step right along with him. Then Hiccup stopped his dance, though the smile didnât leave his face.Â
âAnd IâŠI will be with you every step.âÂ
His notes were slow, and his voice was soft, like he was making a promise. He swept his gaze across the hall, singing to the village this time. Â
âTonight I found some friends in you, and I keep you close forever!âÂ
He beckoned with his head, and smiled widely as a few kids from the back ran up and started dancing with Toothless. Hiccup flipped the fiddle to his side and strummed it like a guitar while Hackjaw kept a steady beat.
âCome fly with me, into a fantasy!
Where you can be whoever you want to be!
Come fly with me!âÂ
He flipped the fiddle back onto his chin to resume playing normally, but beckoned at the teens table with his head. This got the Twins and Snotlout up and dancing with the kids.
âCome fly with me!âÂ
âOhoohoh Ohoohoh!â
âInto a fantasy!â
âOhoohoh Ohoohoh!â
âWhere you can be whoever you want to be. Come fly with me!âÂ
As he came to the end of the song, Snotlout grabbed him by the waist, lifting him off the floor and spinning him around. Hiccup didnât miss a note though, and only laughed as he was rag dolled around.Â
The room broke into cheers when the song ended, and Hiccup gave an exaggerated bow. Toothless mimicked this behavior and bowed his head, making his little ear flaps flip around.Â
Astridâs heart was full and ready to burst from her chest.Â
She loved him so much.Â
Seeing him so happy, having fun and dancing, it almost made her cry tears of joy. She smiled at him, watching as he cooed at Toothless. Then she turned back to her table mates. Fishlegs, Heather, and Dagur were all looking at her with thinly veiled giddy.Â
From behind them, she could see her parents, who were even more enthusiastic.Â
She rolled her eyes and covered her face with her hand.Â
âAlright,â Hiccup said with an exaggerated sigh. âI guess Iâll give the band a break.â He plopped down on the floor, using Toothless as a backrest. In turn, Toothless curled up and rested his head in Hiccupâs lap.Â
People slowly started to calm down, curious about what was happening next. The children that had been dancing sat down around Toothless, leaning on him too.Â
That included the Twins, who draped themselves over him.Â
âThis next song, I wrote that first Snoggletog we had with the dragons. That year, all of the dragons left a few days before, and we had no idea why. Toothless couldnât fly on his own, so I made him a tail that he could use by himself. He flew off, to where I assumed the other dragons were.Â
âI missed him immediately, and started writing this that same day. You may remember that Snoggletog morning when the dragons returned with a boatload of babies.âÂ
There were some fond âawwâs from the crowd.Â
âWell, Toothless wasnât with those Dragons. It was a lonely few days waiting for answers, but when he finally came back, he brought my helmet I had lost at sea. He had spent all that time getting back what I had lost. He gave me a wonderful gift that year, so I gave him this song. Itâs his very special song and he demands I sit on the floor like this when I play it.âÂ
Toothless warbled in confirmation.
âSoâŠhere we goâŠâ He said, without further adieu. Â
He held the fiddle up to his chin, but instead of using the bow, he plucked at the strings, playing a lullaby.Â
Apparently, Toothless knew exactly what song this was, as he let out a warm rumbling purr.Â
âIt's almost night, I should be sleeping.
But the moon's so bright, as if it's playing with me.
Round and round, I walk in circles aimlessly.
Where could you be?â
The twins, without prompting, started snapping on the beat and rocking side to side.
âThe purple skies were so inviting when we used to fly.
But the excitement slowly fades away.
Feels like there's nothing I wanna do.
Not without you.âÂ
Hiccup leaned his head back, eyes closed and relaxed, as he sang in a falsetto.
âAnd I will cry you a thousand tears the day you will return.
Tonight I swear, I'll stay right here until you will return.â
Sven picked up his Nyckleharpa, but tapped on it instead, making soft percussion. Hacksaw hit his drum ever so gently with his hand. Frida plucked the same notes on her lute, letting Hiccup go back to his bow.
âAnd every little cloud, and every single star, reminds me of just how much I miss you. And every little cloud, and every single star, reminds me of just how much I miss you.â
The band crept closer, softly harmonizing as Hiccup played his song. Toothless looked around to them, smiling, as everyone was singing his special song.Â
âAnd I will cry you a thousand tears the day you will return.
Tonight I swear, I'll stay right here until you will return.â
Then Hiccup bowed a gentle waltz, one that might be played at a wedding. A warm, happy melody. Sven harmonized.Â
âAnd I will cry you a thousand tears the day you will return.
Tonight I swear, I'll stay right here until you will return.âÂ
Slowly, the band faded out until it was just Hiccup plucking those soft notes.
âAnd every little cloud, and every single star, reminds me of just how much I miss you.âÂ
Hiccup smiled at Toothless, and just as he took his fingers away from the strings, Toothless warbled a loud âwah wah wah!â that Astrid swore sounded like he was trying to sing.Â
âYeah bud! Every little cloud!â
âWah wah wah!âÂ
âAnd every single star.â He chuckled.
Most people were too busy cooing to applaud. Astrid included. She held her hands over her heart, feeling all those warm and fuzzy un-viking feelings in her chest.Â
She heard a loud sniff, and turned to see Dagur, Snotlout, and Fishlegs crying. Fishlegs just had tears, Snotlout was weeping openly, and Dagur was bawling uncontrollably.Â
âThat was beautiful,â Dagur whimpered. âHe has the most beautiful soul.âÂ
Heather, who was only a little misty-eyed, looked at Astrid and rolled her eyes. âBoys.âÂ
Astrid chuckled, wiping a tear from her eye before joining in the remainder of the applause.Â
âAlright, Iâve heard enough,â said Hamish, standing without the use of his cane. His face was serious, and solemn.Â
âWh-what? Did Iâdid I do something wrong!?â Hiccup struggled to stand with the fiddle still in hand. âIf you didnât like those, I can play something traditional! I just thoughtââ
Hamish held up a hand to stop him. âHiccup. YouâŠare a damn fine fiddler.âÂ
Hiccup relaxed slightly. âSo thenââÂ
âIt's time for your final test.âÂ
Hiccup stared, wide-eyed. âReally? You think Iâm that good?âÂ
âFiddler on the Roof!â Tuffnut yelled.Â
âIs this not a good enough final test!?â Snotlout yelled a beat after.Â
Hamish moved his cloak aside. âItâs time for you and I to do battle. As master and apprentice.â From under his cloak, he withdrew his own wooden case, and his own fiddle.Â
Hiccup gulped.Â
Hamish smiled, good naturedly. He brandished the shiny black instrument. âIâll hold you to that last song, but now, we play Shades.âÂ
âShades!?â Hiccup yelled. âAre youâare you sure?âÂ
âYou are ready, my boy. Hagar, will you join us on vocals?âÂ
Hagar laughed. âYouâre roping me into this too?â But he stood anyway.Â
âWhatâs Shades?â Astrid asked Fishlegs.Â
âDonât look at me! I donât know anything about this kind of music!âÂ
It seemed that Hamish heard her question and answered, âShades is a piece written by my mentor. Itâs difficult, but the perfect piece to test my students with. The difficulty lies in performing it with two fiddles.â
Hiccup nodded in agreement. âBut Iâm willing to try.âÂ
Hamish smiled at him. âThatâs a good lad! Youâll take the high part.â He pulled a long note off his strings. Then he turned to the band and told them, âA Minor.âÂ
Then he and Hiccup took a stance, staring at each other. A breath passed, then two.
In a blink, they started playing a frantic gallop in time. The notes started rising, climbing an invisible ladder through the air. Always harmonizing, never falling out of sync. Hackjaw was the only one that joined in, playing a syncopated beat on the drum. Then the fiddles both calmed down to a whisper, and Hagar sang.Â
âIn a forest without any trees, where feelings and memories superimposed by an image of you are caught on the morning dew.âÂ
A duel, trading notes back and forth, taking over each otherâs parts.Â
âSwim in a lake at the first light of day, where children and swans go to play right in the wake of your perfect body and sing of unity.â
Right at the last line, they jumped it, keeping strides with each other. Like running a race, but they were matching each step for step. Hiccup kept his eyes locked with Hamish, watching his hands as he played.
âA Shivâring garden where willows grow tall, their shadows caught on a wall.
The sound of weeping so soft in the breeze, a bustle of falling leaves.âÂ
Soft notes, punctuating each line, soft swells, not distracting, just accenting. Matching tone, volume, intensity.Â
Astrid was riveted. She didnât know much about fiddling, much less any music, but performing like this without practicing together had to be very hard. Impossible even.Â
âA night has many shades. It can last for many days and hurt in many ways,Â
like the force of a rising tide when the moon floats by.â Â
The song seemed to come to an end. Slow, drawn out notes that seemed to gently set everyone down from the heights they had been climbing.Â
But then Hamish pulled a triplet, a quick back and forth of the bow. Hiccup returned it. Hamish did it back. Then Hiccup began his sprinting note, and Hamish was right there, meeting it in speed. They grew louder and louder, changing pitch, changing tempos, hitting notes at a dizzying speed of variation. Each one had to be perfect.Â
Hiccupâs eyes widened as a grin began to tug at his lips. This was the final sprint, this was it!Â
They played that final climb, hitting a high note and jumping off the ladder into silence.Â
They both stared at each other, panting, before breaking out into laughter.Â
âDid I actually do it!?â Hiccup laughed breathlessly.Â
âAye lad! Every single note! Youâve been practicing, donât lie!âÂ
âOf course I have! Ever since I fumbled when I was a kid, it haunted me. I didnât think I had it down yet though!âÂ
âOh, youâve done an old viking proud, you know. Iâm thinking of taking on more students now that Iâm retired from chiefing. Itâll give me something good to do! I might call on you to show âem how to do it right.âÂ
âOh, I donât know if I can do it like that again.âÂ
âSure you can! And next time, itâll be even better.âÂ
âWell, thanks for the vote of confidence, Hamish.âÂ
For the third time that evening, Hiccup was picked up in a hug and lifted off the floor. âThe boy has passed! I can teach him no more!âÂ
The assembled cheered, not all comprehending what exactly had happened, but happy for Hiccup all the same.Â
Hamish set him back on his feet. âAlright lad, your old man said you got one more song for me. About a girl?âÂ
Hiccupâs face went bright red and he put his free hand to his cheek. âOh godsâŠhe sure promised you that, huh?âÂ
âDarn tootinâ! Iâve enjoyed the rest! Iâm sure this will be great!â Then he put an arm around him and spoke to him so softly no one else could hear. Hiccup responded just as quiet, before Hamish burst out laughing. He gave the boy a punch to the shoulder, and exclaimed, âgo get her, boy-o~!âÂ
Hiccup gulped, and straightened his clothes nervously.Â
âWeâre doing the last one now, lad?â Gobber asked, grinning.Â
âUh oh! Is this the one?!â Stoick barked, standing from his seat.Â
âSit down, dad!â Hiccup shouted back, face as red as can be. âGods preserve me.â He looked back at the band, making sure they were all ready to go. Then he spoke up to the room. âThis is my last song for you this evening. I hope you all have enjoyed this littleâŠuh, concert? It was certainly not expected. But your warm reception is appreciated!âÂ
âWhooo! Go Hiccup!â Tuffnut screamed.
He released an awkward laugh. âYeah, thanksâŠum.â He brought the fiddle up to rest on his shoulder. âThis songâŠI wrote a really long time ago. Before I met Toothless even. Itâs uhâŠitâs still true thoughâŠâ he trailed off. He nodded to the band, getting a beat.Â
Instead of instruments, they all clapped in time, before Hiccup started singing, his face still a bright red.Â
âThis feeling lasted,
I love you, Astrid!
You're so much stronger than me,
But I don't mind!âÂ
Astridâs jaw dropped, her own face going as red as his. Hiccup began playing a jaunty tune, making Toothless pop to his feet and start dancing again.Â
âNever mind what the others say, deep inside I'm quite okay.
I may have messed up once or twice, but I really need you!âÂ
He dared to look at her.
âAnd it's not like I'm the only guy. Oh, I know how you make them cry.
So let's start by being friends and let this friendship never end.
I knew you years ago. What I want, I don't know. But letâs just say it's love!âÂ
Playing the fiddle and having Toothless prancing around gave Hiccup a lot of confidence. That, or just getting those first words out was the hardest part. But now, he was smiling, and hop-skipping around while he played.Â
âThis feeling lasted, I love you, Astrid!
You're so much stronger than me, but I don't mind!Â
Don't say maybe, just be my lady!
No need to hesitate 'cause you'll be fine!â
Hiccup could, on occasion, be extremely corny. Even now, when he was just playing, he had this faux bashful smile on his face, like he had no clue what he was doing to her. The blush seemed genuine enough.Â
âSo tell me what I want to hear,
No wait, let's just leave it there.
You know I'm not good for you!
Gods, I don't know what to do!â
Stoick had said he sang this song with passion, and he was right! Hiccup belted out the words, like he was making a grand proclamation.Â
âI liked you from the start!
You melt my icy heart!
And now it's burning hot!â
In retrospect, she always knew he was a performer. Heâd always had a streak of the dramatic. Like when he tried to tame the Nightmare during his final exam. Or whenever he revealed one of his inventions. If he was going to do something, it was going to be a grand spectacle. Why was this any different?Â
âThis feeling lasted, I love you, Astrid!
You're so much stronger than me, but I don't mind!
Don't say maybe, just be my lady
No need to hesitate 'Cause you'll be fine!â
He got down on one knee in front of her, looking up at her with big glistening eyes that would put Toothless to shame.Â
âDon't go away, you're what's left of me!
I once believed you would save my soul.
But if you saw me now crying secretly,
Would you hold my hand and never let it go?â
He flipped the fiddle to his side and strummed it like a guitar. His voice became softer, tender. Now just singing to her, and no one else.Â
âThis feeling lasted, I love you, Astrid!
You're so much stronger than me, but I don't mind!
Don't say maybe, just be my lady!
No need to hesitate 'Cause you'll be fine!â
He popped back up onto his feet, and threw his head back, making his grand declaration into the room.Â
âDo you hear me, Astrid?
I still love you, Astrid!
Iâm getting stronger now, hope you donât mind!
Don't say maybe, just be my lady
Your parents are bugging me, knowing you'll be fine!â
I love you, Astrid! How long had she waited to hear those words from him? Too long, it seemed. But this seemed worth the wait.Â
All there was left to do was wait for him to move that damn fiddle out of the way.Â
He finished his song, flushed but smiling as he gave her a little shrug.Â
Astrid bolted from her seat, flung her arms around his neck, and kissed him hotly on the lips. In a way she had been wanting to for years, but hadnât quite had the nerve to do like when she was younger.Â
She was still able to hear him squeak despite the cacophony that filled the large room.Â
Shouts of âfinally!â And âyou owe me ten goldâ were totally drowned out in the absolute satisfaction she felt, finally kissing Hiccup.Â
Someone must have taken his fiddle for him as she felt his arms wrap around her and pull her tight.Â
Finally, she pulled away, a little winded. His face was priceless. He was dazed, but had this awed and lovestruck smile on his lips.Â
She played with his hair, then declared, âI donât know much about music, butâŠ
âOoh Hiccup, I love you Hiccup!Â
Youâre such a dork, you see?Â
But I donât mind!Â
Wonât say maybe, Iâll be your lady!Â
I know youâll take care of me, and Iâll be fine!â
He smiled broadly and pulled her in for another kiss.Â
âWhat a way to end a concert!â Hamish yelled from his table. âWay to go, lad!âÂ
âI owe you a thank you, Hamish. I never would have done this if you hadnât requested it.âÂ
âAnytime, my boy! Always happy to help!âÂ
â
The Shivering Shores stayed for three days, and in that time, Hiccup spent some time with Hamish, teaching him his songs. He played with the band during dinners, and over all, didnât seem as secretive as he had been the last week. Everyone knew now, and he accepted that he was good. He was no longer hesitant, but actually allowed himself to show off.
When it was time to return to the Edge, Astrid spied the wooden case among his baggage.Â
âYouâre taking it with you?âÂ
âMight as well, might help me think while Iâm planning on how to deal with the hunters. Itâs helped in the past.âÂ
âAre you going to give us something to listen to on the way back?â Asked Snotlout. âGods forbid I have to listen to the Twins bicker for another 8 hours!âÂ
âYou want me to fly and play at the same time?âÂ
âOh like Toothless isnât doing most of the work!âÂ
Hiccup couldnât argue with that.
Once they were up in the air and on their way, Hiccup made a great show out of taking out the fiddle and tuning it. Agonizing over each note.Â
âWe know itâs tuned! Youâve been playing it all weekend! Itâs tuned!â Snotlout shouted.Â
Hiccup snorted. âAlright alright, letâs seeâŠâ He drew a long note out and sang.Â
âOhhhh I got my ax and I got my mace and I love my wife with the ugly face, Iâm a viking through and through!!â
And he was promptly relieved of entertainment duties.Â
â-
A week later, things were back to normal. The twins had done a number on the Edge, and repairs and restocks were needed.Â
Hiccup and Astrid were up to their necks with duties, busy with work and barely could find a moment to relax, let alone have some time together.Â
It was late one night when Astrid laid in bed, exhausted but unable to sleep. She kept going over her lists in her mind, making sure she hadnât missed anything.Â
The silence of the night was interrupted by the soft trill of a fiddle. No particular song, just notes floating around. Fast, slow, but mostly quiet.Â
Hiccup was also awake and thinking.Â
She got up and wandered over to his hut. His door was open, and he paced back and forth, with the fiddle on his shoulder. He was obviously talking to himself, but it was quiet and muffled by the music.Â
âBabe?â She asked, just loud enough.
He jolted. âAstrid! Oh! I didnât wake you, did I? Iâm sorry, I knew I shouldnât haveââ he went to put the instrument away, but Astrid reached out and stopped him. âNo, you didnât wake me. I was already up. And it was so quiet I probably wouldn't have heard it if I was asleep.âÂ
He sighed in relief.Â
âThen whatâs up?âÂ
âWell, I could tell you were awake, andâŠI wanted to see you.âÂ
His face colored. âYeah?âÂ
âHmmhmm. You donât have to stop what youâre doing. I kinda like the idea of my own private performance.âÂ
He shyly smiled, then put the fiddle back on his shoulder.Â
â
Fishlegs had night patrol. He opted to take Meatlug out for a relaxing flight around the island. He saw Astrid sneak over to Hiccupâs hut, but didnât say anything. It wasnât his business. He heard Hiccup playing the fiddle, a lovely little melody.Â
Then he heard a sharp, off key note, followed by silence.Â
He may be on patrol, but he had a feeling they didnât want him to investigate.Â
------
One time in Highschool, we had a talent show. Know that I went to a very tiny private school, and everyone knew everyone (20 people in my grade). There was this guy in my class, Kevin, who was pretty stoic and quiet. For the talent show, he rode a unicycle while juggling and telling jokes. No one knew he could do that. Even the kids that knew him from Kindergarten.Â
Songs: Seasoned Oak - King Arthur and the Legend of the Sword
Fairytale - Alexander Rybak
Into a Fantasy - Alexander Rybak
Return (For Toothless) - Alexander Rybak
Shades- ĂrstĂdir
OAH- Alexander Rybak (heavily rewritten, and I actually prefer the strings of the Russian version âStrela Amuraâ better.)
#fanfiction#httyd#how to train your dragon#hiccup#hiccstrid#hiccup haddock#astrid hofferson#toothless#fiddler hiccup
21 notes
·
View notes
Text
Iâll never get around to drawing/writing this BUT Hannibal Cutthroat Kitchen AU where Hannibal is the host and the contestants are unknowingly cooking people during those insane challenges. And Will goes undercover on the next season as a contestant bc he believes that TV personality Hannibal Lector is somehow behind the string of murders that have been going on in that area and the closest he can get to him is to become a contestant on the show. And Jack reluctantly pulls some strings to get Will on the show bc he wouldnât Shut Up about it and itâs messing with how efficient he is at his job. The problem is Will actually has to compete and he sucks at cooking anything but fish dishes, but for some Mysterious Reason he keeps winning the challenges okay goodnight đ
#hannibal#nbc hannibal#will graham#hannibal lecter#hannigram#Hannibal au#had this idea in my head for MONTHS I needed to get it out there#love cutthroat kitchen so bad#canât watch much of it now because it stresses me out too and đ#Hannibal becomes obsessed with Will as a contestant the same way he does in the show but itâs more subtle I think#viewers definitely think Will is cheating or smth idk đ#idc if someone writers about it or draws smth for it as like as 1) I get credit for the idea and 2) you tag me in it bc Iâd love to see it#I wonât be doing it bc my attention span is short enough đ
63 notes
·
View notes
Text
CW: mentions of kidnapping and stolen body autonomy.
Find a way in, kill the enemy, retrieve the hostages, leave. A routine of sorts that gave his life some sense of purpose to avoid going insane for the past two decades. Simon liked to believe he got over what happened in his past... truly, he did; and yet Manuel Robaâs horrors seem to haunt him no matter where how many years pass.
âCâmere.â Simonâs voice held no hostility, he made sure of it, yet your stiff position never changed. Legs angled to the right, hands folded on your lap, and eyes looking forward, refusing to meet anyoneâs gaze even if itâs been hours since your rescue. Garrick, Price and Johnny have already tried to get you to talk multiple times, all of them with different approaches.Â
Garrick was friendly, trying his best to seem approachable, a bright smile on his lips that you didnât seem to notice, too busy staring at a wall no matter how much he tried to hold a conversation.
Price seemed fatherly, never once laying a hand on you even if it was itching to comfort you, and so he settled with telling you youâre safe now, how no one will ever get you again now that they're here. His words didnât seem to do much, either.Â
Johnny was⊠something else. His first attempt was a shitty pick up line, getting a reaction out of you for the first timeâ a nose scrunched up in disgust, but a reaction nonetheless. Â
And Simon⊠Simonâs approach was different. The man was used to barking out orders and obeying them himself, not to deal with an unresponsive hostage. His behemoth frame was nestled next to you, putting a tray on the table and observing your reactions. From the way you swallowed thickly the moment the meal was presented to you, to the sound of your stomach growling.Â
âGo on, then.â Your gaze follows his movements for the first time, the feeling of your stomach rumbling makes you more aware of your hunger, so many years being fed nothing but what was necessary to keep you alive by Manuel and his associates, so many years of being trained like a dog to obey to their very order.Â
Simon can see the hesitation in your body language, too tense to allow yourself to dig in the way you wanted, yet no longer as stiff as before. There was a sense of relief at the fact that they didnât seem to want to hurt you âunlike Robaâ, yet years of non-stop brutal training canât be erased within hours.
Robaâs training was engraved into your brain, and while the sense of security the SAS blokes gave you is something youâre thankful for, nothing guarantees theyâre not working for him. Youâve seen other military men come and go throughout the years, always Robaâs friends, and always sharing the same disgusting, sadistic desires.
âEat up.â The rest of the men watch the way you move, curiosity and amusement mixing at how strange your movements seem, almost robotic. Your forearms rest on the table, elbows away from the cheap wood as you attempt to hold your own cutleryâ attempt, because it looks fully foreign to you, trying out different angles to make it work, and yet it's the first time in years you've been allowed to try and feed yourself.
Simon is the first one to catch on, having lived under Robaâs rules for long enough to know he enjoys taking peopleâs autonomy, to reduce them to nothing but a pathetic mess that depends on him. His gloved fingers are gentle as he takes the spoon from your hand, scooping up some food before holding it up to your lips. His full attention is on you, relief starting to make its way into his body as sees your rather soft lips wrap around the spoon, eating whatever he was feeding you. Lucky for you, this time it wasnât an MRE⊠or beans on toast.
His gloved thumb wipes the corners of your lips every time youâre done chewing, and heâs quick to pick up more food from the plate, nothing but patience and kindness shown in his actions, so unlike the brooding soldier he's known to be.
â... two goldfish are in a tankâŠ?â Johnnyâs loud groan gets your attention for a second, yet you quickly glance back at Simon, curious eyes looking up at him, almost as if asking him to go on.Â
âOne turns to the other and says⊠âyou know how to drive this thing?ââ You can see the corners of his eyes crinkle before he even finishes his joke, clearly trying his best not to laugh at just how awful it was. A small smile hides in the corners of your lips, and Simon takes that as a victory, ignoring the questioning looks heâs getting from his team, for now.
#I've had this idea in my mind for MONTHS#Feeding you because he knows what it's like to be starved by Roba#being patient because Roba's torture is all you've known for years#silent promises of never letting anyone else take your body autonomy again#watching with nothing but pure pride the moment you're able to eat with no assistance#listening to your voice for the first time after you start getting better??#I'm going feral for this man#I'll rewrite this later but I needed to get it out of my head RAHHH#Simon being gentle to hostages save me...#cod mw2#cod mwii#call of duty#simon ghost riley#ghost mw2#ghost cod#simon riley#simon ghost x reader#simon riley x reader#ghost simon riley#simon x reader#ghost x fem!reader#ghost x reader#ghost x you#ghost x y/n#ghost x female reader#simon riley x f!reader#simon riley x you#simon riley x y/n#simon ghost riley imagine#simon ghost x you
998 notes
·
View notes
Text
Past Fears
#this is just a stupid little idea i had in my head that I needed to get out#I just wanted to give that man some PTSD#one fear : old man getting smoked again#prohibitedwish#prismo#scarab#I meant to post this like a month ago LMAO
68 notes
·
View notes
Text
he woke up on a ship.
groaning, zuko pushed himself up into a sitting position. his whole body ached- and not just his face where his father had burned out his eye. he shivered at the reminder, trying to swallow back the scent of burning flesh that accompanied it. he looked around, trying to place where he was...
...this wasn't a fire nation ship.
it was made of wood, so it was kind of obvious. that was strange. he'd been certain that the ship his father had placed him on was one of fire nation make. how had he...?
memories came back to him in a rush.
the ship. he'd woken up to find it empty. and then...
agni. his father wanted him dead. the realization hit him like a wave, threatening to drag him under. he'd tried to- both at the agni kai, and just now, he'd tried to kill him. he really thought he was that much of a disgrace that he didn't even want him alive, didn't he? the whole mission to find the avatar had been just as much of a farce as the agni kai.
"you're up."
zuko's head snapped up in what he hoped was the direction of the voice. there was a man looming in the doorway, with a large brim hat and an iguana-parrot on his shoulder. as he stepped into the room, he became keenly aware that this man was probably a pirate.
agni. he'd been rescued by pirates.
"we pulled your sorry ass out of the ocean. we'll take you as far as the nearest port since we were planning to dock soon anyways," the pirate said, "-but that's where our charity ends, boy."
zuko slowly exhaled. well. at least they didn't recognize him as the banished prince of the fire nation. they'd had to shave his head after the agni kai- all that had grown back thus far was a faint patch of fuzz. getting a free ride to the nearest port didn't sound like a bad deal, only he had no idea what he was going to do after.
a wild idea came to him.
"let me join your crew."
ah. he'd blurted it out before he could stop himself. it sounded like a bad idea now that he'd said it, but what better place was there for someone who'd been stripped of his honor than a pirate crew?
"and why should i do that?"
"because i can use dual dao," zuko said, "-and i'm- i'm a waterbender."
the man's eyebrow shot past his hairline. zuko couldn't blame him. he knew what he looked like. he couldn't be more obviously fire nation if he tried. but the man merely poured a glass of water and passed it over to him, as if to say prove it.
so he did.
he might never have been allowed to practice his bending, but he at least knew how to manipulate water a little. the man watched him with a considering expression on his face, then slowly inclined his head. alright boy, he said, i'll give you a month. prove yourself useful by then, and i'll consider letting you stay.
he also asked for his name.
he swallowed. even in the fire nation, zuko wasn't exactly a common name. it was too recognizable. he needed to think of something else.
"kou," he said, "-my name's kou."
"well, kou," the man repeated his new name, as if he were setting it in stone, "-welcome to the crew. get up. i'll show you around."
zuko- kou- did just that.
aang: so how did you manage to track us down anyways?
kou: ...are you kidding? you fought a volcano.
aang: ...oh. uh. yeah. i guess that might give my position away, huh?
kou: a little bit, yeah.
#pirate zuko au#kou voice: kill your past self to embrace yourself new self. 10/10 would recommend#kou: father wanted prince zuko dead? sure. i'll oblige.
44 notes
·
View notes
Note
raksura for the ask meme?
YAY
blorbo (favorite character, character I think about the most) moon was designed in a lab to appeal to me personally, so. it's about the trust issues!
scrunkly (my "babyâ, character that gives me cuteness aggression, character that is So Shaped) the sky copper clutch!! traumatized children imprinting on a guy with baby fever is usually what i go to fanfic for so to have it right there in canon? incredible. i love all of frost's little tantrums and idk, just the way that she claims moon as her family in a way that has nothing to do with court politics? she's like, we're your clutch, obviously. and this is our court because it's your court, and all the other jabronis who live here are on thin ice. she's ready to throw down with moon's wife/the government at all hours of the day and she's like six years old. i love that moon has that energy in his life even though he personally is pretty confused and exhausted by it lol.
scrimblo bimblo (underrated/underappreciated fave) it's hard out here for an ember stan because he is in so few scenes relative to the space he occupies in my psyche! i need 5000% more interactions between him and moon. him and stone. him and shade. him and river. him and the teachers. him and the clutches. him and jade and balm and chime. oh my god him and malachite? him and celadon? him and delin??
glup shitto (obscure fave, character that can appear in the background for 0.2 seconds and I wonât shut up about it for a week) niran. i'm always up for a "longsuffering ship captain resigns himself to another restless night of hearing gigantic shapeshifters with incredible stamina fuck nasty on the roof of his cabin" moment. technically i have never been in that exact situation, but i feel like i can relate.
poor little meow meow (âproblematicâ/unpopular/controversial/otherwise pathetic fave) river who is CLASSIC poor little meow meow territory like yes his whole personality is being a grade A asshole and sure he tries to kill my blorbo a few times, but once you get to know him he's so sad and pathetic that i'm kind of like okay where can i sign up to defend him from the largely factual aspersions of his dozens of quite frankly justified haters? he'd hate that. the good shit đ
horse plinko (character I would torment for fun, for whatever reason) stone. every time he crankily says "why did i ever reproduce" upon finding himself entangled in yet another ridiculous clusterfuck thanks to one of his hundreds of idiot great-great-great-great-great grandchildren, an angel gets its wings. he's depressed and antisocial but he can't totally check out because he has to mediate relationship issues between his dumbass relatives. love that for him.
eeby deeby (character I would send to superhell) malachite but specifically because malachite would not be scared of superhell. she'd skulk around being invisible, maybe fuck some shit up if she felt like it, and leave when she got bored. she probably makes it like. opal night's sister city or something. and nobody in the court is at all phased. yeah that's our reigning queen who recently got back from vacation in superhell. she does that. she says it's relaxing.
#yooo thank you for asking for this one!! i had already started thinking about it because river is like. plmms of all time for me#he's the platonic ideal of a plmm in my book#books of the raksura#asks#anon#every few months i check the ember ao3 tag to see if there are any new fics and there hardly ever are. but i live in hope#the moon-ember diplomatic attache tag team would be off the chain. it's all i would ever think about#ember was raised to be an imperial consort in a harem drama and he gets there and the empress is just like.#a deadly grizzly bear with no table manners who loves children and can't read and gets his feelings hurt really easily#moon tells him a bedtime story the second time they meet and ember is like#wow i love you. i'd die for you. if you'll be my bodyguard i can be your long-lost anger translator#a match made in heaven đ„°#meanwhile moon is picking up on none of this and is like. well i guess nobody's going to want me anymore now that they have#a REAL consort. he even knows how to pour tea. bastard. but i have to look out for him because he's so young and innocent. dammit#but if anyone actually needs to be looked out for in the cutthroat world of court politics it's moon. and ember is the one who can do that#i love the idea of indigo cloud needing moon to fulfill some diplomatic function and everyone knowing that the only way#to get him to agree is to send ember to point his big sad eyes at him#ember likes to hang out in moon's bower just dressing him up like a doll. moon submits to this with resigned forbearance#if anyone else tries it he bites off their entire head
23 notes
·
View notes
Text
btw i am still alive now that i have recovered from swiftkirchen and i hope you are all doing super well this summer! i am FLYING through my reading list atm which is amazing and i am feeling more and more inspired for things (footballer!paz anyone? roommate!paz as well maybe?) so hmu in the inbox it is TIME TO THIRST
#this month has been so crazy#being an adult is constantly switching from bone deep exhaustion to fully packed calendars for social things#and i love the social things don't get me wrong but like#i need time to rot#i need time to stare out the window and daydream#and i have had the bEST scenarios come up in my head just before i fall asleep#(aka the main way i get any of my writing outlined lol)#but i have barely even opened my laptop in the past two weeks#never mind written anything down#anyway what i am trying to say is that i think this 'forced' break kind of got my muse going again#i am thinking of all the things and i even wanted to write a little bit for biker!Paz again which#let me tell you#has not happened in a LONG LONG time#also also#sarah made me the PRETTIEST BESTEST AWESOMEST friendship bracelets for calm and the one#and obv i am now thinking again of that other bodyguard!paz idea i had going in my brain that one time#cause i kind of forgot about The One???#but also did i ever tell you guys about the modern calmer au i was thinking of?#bc i had a weird/uncomfy rideshare experience recently#and nothing happened and i was never unsafe at any point#but boy oh boy do i think this would fit in that au#anyway#i know there are some asks in my inbox that i never got to so maybe i'll get to it today!#may rambles
7 notes
·
View notes
Text
Going through a straight up comical amount of irritating situations to get the stupid 4* guaranteed ticket from the welcome to sekai campaign. It Will Be Mine.
#Iâm resuming this tomorrow itâs been hours now Iâm just mad#Iâm home because my parents are moving to a different state and I needed to pack whatever was left#and for some reason we just keep old devices when weâre done with them#so I borrow an adapter to allow me to connect my ancient unworking iPad mini to my laptop#factory reset it. i have to reset an old email to access the old Apple id to fully reset it.#it wonât connect to the wifi so I have to reset the settings. i find out itâs too old to run pjsk.#i find an old phone that should work. i reset it as well. Iâm able to download pjsk & it takes 20 minutes.#pjsk crashes everytime I try to open it. i attempt to run bluestacks on my computer. bluestacks doesnât have 64 bit for mac yet.#i get a free trial of parallels and download windows onto my laptop. this takes 40 minutes.#i try to download and run bluestacks on that. m1 macs apparently canât run bluestacks 64 bit through parallels.#i go find the final old phone that I had forgotten about. it takes forever to charge because the charging port is fucked up. i reset it as#well. it canât connect to wifi. i try a hotspot on my current phone. service is too awful. i try to do wifi sharing from my laptop.#you have to be connected to the router via a cable for that to work.#at this point it has been like 3 hours. Iâm giving up because Iâve been down this route before#when I attempted to run 32 bit steam games on m1 mac#(wine64 doesnât exist for m1 macs yet -> attempt to run boot camp -> boot camp isnât a thing anymore on Apple silicon -> attempt to run#several different programs that allow me to run windows on a mac. none of them work. ->#look into linux & give up. -> attempt to implement the unfinished/unbottled wine64 code thru terminal. ->#fuck up and delete some important file & have to fix that (misery inducing) -> keep trying. i think I downloaded a Mac coding program at#some point? i realize I have zero coding knowledge and this is a mistake. -> give up and purchase crossover. game doesnât even work. ->#3 months later update to the latest OS so I can have enough storage to play psychonauts 2. find out the $60 crossover#purchase was a bad idea because âheehee crossover doesnât work on that buy the new versionâ (fuck crossover).#my toxic trait is my belief that I can figure out anything via google and sheer stubbornness. usually this is true. occasionally there are#exceptions to this rule. most of them are because owning Apple products is a mistake.#i think if I reset the router tomorrow I can solve this problem but I can also just go elsewhere with better service or wait until Iâm home#now itâs a matter of pride. and also free 4*/I have nothing better to do because Iâm stuck here until Tuesday.#<- this is all normal behavior by the way. who doesnât spend 8 hours ramming their head against a problem every once and a while. enrichment#mine#oh I forgot. i also looked into cloning the app but that would cost money for something that might not even work.#âjust log out and make an altâ and risk losing my account? Iâm stupid enough to overwrite it on accident.
7 notes
·
View notes
Text
...
#hello to anyone who happens to b interested in the saga of my life... also maybe the irl person i gave my url to... hopefully my blog#didnt freak her out too much lol. anyway so its been a busy week? 2 weeks? month? year? life? its been a lot. my parents helped me move#across the country from the desert to somewhere that's beautiful and green. my dad is so jealous of me lol its so so so pretty and theres s#so much to do. will i do any of it? that remains to be seen but im gonna try to be better about that sort of thing. try to get some help#with the thoughts in my head that keep me from doing and enjoying most things. its weird like im decorating my new room which i love. the#location and living situation seem ideal and i really hope i can stay here all 5 years of my program but i was picking a lot of bright#colors and now it feel uncomfortable. like if i wear things that r too bright or my room is too bright without dark contrast it feel weird#like if im wearing it it kinda makes me feel sick. idk what thats abt. anyway. ill try to heal my brain and im just so happy to b out of the#southwest. i was so so so excited when we were leaving thr city and even more so when we left the state. i cant believe im here. in December#it felt like a million years away and i really truely could not fathom how i was gonna survive that long. my thoughts were so distorted. but#i did and here i am. and in like a month i should b starting my phd program and my parents were telling me how excited ppl r for me and#jealous of where im living and im glad. im glad they're excited. i think i am too but its under a layer of: if i get excited it wont happen#im not allowed to b excited or it wont happen. which is irrational but ya kno. anyway so that's yeah. im so happy to have a fresh start and#the town seems super cool. a liberal blip in a sea of... not that so theyre very visibly pride forward haha and i think itll b way easier#for me to get around without driving. and im gonna try to make friends. i need someone to tell me where to get tattoos haha. so yea im happy#but exhausted and i dont wanna go back to work and so so greatful to my parents for being wonderful ppl idk how bc both of them had fucked#up childhoods. like my mum will say the saddest shit and im like bro this is y i don't wanna talk to my grandma fuck her and my dads parents#r so fucked. like my nana is the reason im so fucking control freaked out but i kno i have issues and she has no insight and thinks shes#better than everyone. anyway hopefully i can get back to drawing a posting more now. ive been drawing it its been in a sketch book#like an actual sketch book for sketching big ideas thst r gonna take fucking forever to draw đ#so that's all. just uprooted my whole life. thats all. but in a good way :-]#unrelated
34 notes
·
View notes