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hi!! i’m a little nervous because i don’t rlly do this, but i had to say something! you’re writing is like, so good. i read your ‘let me take care of you - heeseung’ fic ALL the time because it really does comfort me. also! homecoming? slayed. priorities? Slayed. INVISIBLE STRING?? SLAYED???
you mentioned that you’re writing a jake soulmate fic and !!!! i’m so excited for it. do you have a favourite sentence that you’ve written?
my genuine reaction:
anon, i’m going to SOB. WDYM 😭😭 don’t say these kinds of things mg heart can’t handle it 😭 thank you so so so much for reaching out i hope you know you made my entire week.
IM SO GLAD YOU LIKE MY WORK 🥹🥹 the heeseung fic is meant to comfort so i am so so glad it does its job. i’m ngl i still don’t rlly know what to say besides thank you and i love you.
you knowing the titles has me blushing crying throwing up actually 🤭🤭
please don’t ever be nervous to reach out to me 😭 i rlly hope you continue to talk to me because you’re genuinely so sweet and i love writing because of people like you
and yes!!! jake soulmate fic has been a bit delayed unfortunately. my fault because i keep adding scenes and build up and it’s getting long.
AND JUST FOR YOU 🫵🏽 i’ll share some of my favourite sentences. i’m afraid i haven’t written THE favourite sentence yet.
You felt sick, like everything inside your body was melting and trying to reach someone who wasn’t yours to reach.
He shouldn’t be thinking about you at all, and yet, his mind is only ever active when you’re on it.
In the confines of his bedroom, you belonged to him the way he belonged to you.
He wants you and Jake to just figure it all out, but he doesn’t know what it’s like to be in love with someone you didn’t know you could have.
#k what if i CROED????#HEY ANON WHAT THE FUCK#IRS LIKE#2:50 AM#WHY R U MAKING ME EMO RN#I LOVE U 😭😭😭 THANK U 😭😭😭#guys suddenly i love writing#all my wips will be finished#the creative juice is flowing#anon saved me and#pls tell me if u want an emoji i hope u stick around#i’m so thankful#anon ask#enha!asks#jake x reader#jake thoughts
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"I'm sorry."
It's the first thing Steve says after everything.
After getting Vecna Cursed. After nearly dying. After a hallucination of Eddie saved him. After running through a looped forest. After finding sanctuary in Steve's memory of that Starcourt bathroom. After Eddie reveals himself as Eddie.
It's the only thing he can think of. It's not big enough to fit everything, but it's the only thing that fits in his mouth.
"Don't be."
Maybe that's the only thing Eddie can think of too. The only thing Eddie can bear to say.
Because don't be can't stop Steve's eyes from watering when he sees the vest in his closet. Don't be can't stop Steve's feet from dragging him to the cemetery every evening to clean Eddie's graffiti-covered tombstone. Don't be can't stop Steve from sitting beside Wayne and listening to him talk about the Eddie he remembers. Don't be can't stop Eddie's body from showing up in Steve's dreams, nor Eddie's corpse from his nightmares. Don't be couldn't keep the pain away enough, didn't stop Vecna from latching onto it while Steve was walking alone in the woods.
Don't be isn't enough for what Steve wants to hear. But even stuck here waiting, hoping, for someone to get Steve out, there just isn't enough time.
"I miss you."
"...Why?"
Eddie says it back so quickly, so quietly, like it's just unfathomable to him. Maybe it is, considering their last memories. But their eyes meet and he looks just as sad, just as longing, as Steve.
"You were my friend."
Steve can't help but say it like that. Like they were friends for years instead of days. Like Eddie was that important to him in their final moments. Like his heart really aches for Eddie every second of the apocalypse.
Can't help but say it like he means it.
"I wish we could've had more time..."
Steve's voice cracks a little there as he turns away, hiding. It's all he wants. It's all Vecna used to entice him with. It's all that's keeping him going, to finally fulfill the last request Eddie made. It's all he has left to feel close to Eddie.
The Eddie that's sitting right next to him, silent, his sight weighing on Steve's skin. Conscious and aware and the real Eddie. Trapped in Vecna's head as a backup power source, yet who still risked everything to come save Steve. Who Steve will never see again because killing Vecna means killing Eddie for good, and his heart doesn't want it, is begging for another solution...
But for once, his broken head overpowers his shattered heart.
"Maybe we did."
Eddie takes Steve's hand. Meets Steve's surprised look with his own small smile of hope. They're both suddenly tearing up, eyes glistening with life in this gray stall.
"Maybe in another world, we got a second first chance. A first second chance. Maybe even a third, or fourth. Maybe in a different life, we had everything we wanted. Because you, Steve Harrington, are too good for me to be doomed to meet just once."
And for a moment, Steve sees it. Feels it. Versions of them connected through the universe.
Little kids playing in the lake. One with bruised skin and shaved hair, loud but unfathomably lonely. One with a bruised heart and soft eyes, timid but stubbornly hopeful.
A rockstar with glittering chains, center stage in the spotlight. A set of eyes in the crowd or behind the curtain, watching only him.
A werewolf and a vampire, two cryptids of horror, meeting in the dead of a full moon night to feel safe with the only other one who understands.
A future where they won, where the only death was the one that mattered. A process of healing and learning, coming home to a family every single day.
A world without pain, without their hell, where two high schoolers found freedom from their shackles and company in each other. Hiding away together in the dark corners of the town.
Steve even sees other versions of them. Versions that he knows were originally never supposed to meet, yet forces so much greater than them pulled them together.
A metalhead drug dealer, constantly getting into trouble with one nail-bat-weilding cop.
A criminal's fugitive nature leading him to a rugged trailer park, and the dangerous owner within one such home.
An eccentric king in an old coliseum, always choosing one particular warrior as his champion.
A young programmer being pulled away from his work by sobs above his apartment, running upstairs to check on the law student that recently moved in.
Two actors, finding an easy friendship in the months of filming one season of a show that would change their lives.
In that moment, Steve's overwhelmed by the closeness he suddenly feels with the soul beside him. Falling into tears, he pulls Eddie into a tight hug, holding him so so close to convey everything he can't say. Feeling Eddie hold him back, hearing everything Eddie can't say in return.
Familiar music comes on outside the stall. Robin's voice calls out to him, telling him to come home.
And when he does leave, Steve hopes that someone out there will understand that he never can. Because here in Eddie's arms is the only place that will ever truly feel like home.
"Thank you... for everything, Eddie."
Thank you, Steve. For everything and more..."
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- List of AUs, in order, after, "Versions of them connected through the universe": Childhood Friends / Rockstar!Eddie / Werewolf!Steve & Vampire!Eddie / Eddie Survives / No Upside Down & High School
- List of Multiverse Steddie AUs, in order, after, "...yet forces so much greater than them pulled them together": Eddie x Gator / Baron x Michael / Geta x Sean / Keys x Eric / Quinn and Keery
#dude i dunno what possessed me#i was thinking about multiverse steddie again and came up with that “maybe in another world” paragraph#then suddenly Empty Bed by Cavetown was playing on loop and this was in front of me#so have fun with this weird mesh of steddie angst#could be platonic or romantic but either way it's requited and doomed#also shoutout the lovely 2jihiir0 here on tumblr for introducing me to the steddie multiverse i thank you immensely my friend#also also yes im still working on writing veronica harrington i promise i just keep hitting roadblocks and getting distracted i'll get ther#stranger things#eddie munson#steve harrington#stranger things au#steddie#steve x eddie#gonna try and get all the other characters and their place of origin bear with me here#fargo#gator tillman#marmalade#baron marmalade#hoard movie#michael hoard#gladiator 2#emporer geta#finalmente l'alba#sean lockwood#free guy#keys mckey#a quiet place day one#eric a quiet place day one
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can we fucking stop assigning “ableist” to characters for no fucking reason. jesus christ. not only is it extremely boring and cop-out storytelling to just make villains out of regular ass characters to create your conflict, it’s also fucking jarring and exhausting to have to be slapped with slurs and ableist microagressions towards a CHILD out of nowhere while reading an otherwise unrelated (and untagged for it!) fic. im not normally one to get this negative on main, but if im being honest? you guys are pissing me the fuck off
#taylor marisol tommy random other characters who have NEVER SAID SHIT IN THE SHOW? can you guys get your head out of your ass#even ana who said one kind of rough thing about ability. why is she suddenly an outright bigot in your fics#like. i feel fucking unwell#i get that you don’t like the love interests but jesus fucking christ get better material#it’s boring conflict. It’s a cop out. and it’s UPSETTING#i get that there are assholes on the show. But i know to expect bigotry from them.#but when im not braced for it bc the character has never been that in the show?? holy fuck dude. unnecessary and honestly? uncalled for!!#it’s annoying and bad writing <3 get better at conflict <3 also fuck you <3#sorry! do better!#iinryer talk#tbh this goes for other unfounded bigotry too but the one i keep seeing is ableism and im angry
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Wip Wednesday
do I have the stage where I start new wips but barely write the one's I have because I'm super indecisive and not inspired? yes. let's hope soon I will be fine and work on my wips I want to work on. Anyway meet new wip where bucktommy will have long angst in their relationship because Tommy needs to grief "what ifs" with Sal he never thought about till he sees Sal as Captain of 118 (it's an au where Sal is a captain instead of Gerass)(it's only the start of the fic btw)
thanks to nonny @racerchix21 and this song (the title taken from the song and it's "I tried to go on like I never knew you"
Tommy knows it all should be in the past. In stolen kisses in bars they knew Gerrard and the team would never come too. In usually passionate and wild - almost never tender and sweet - sex. In secrets they shared under sheets, when they both knew that the moment their fabric cover was gone they couldn't talk about those moments of comfort and vulnerability they shared. In breakfast’s Sal made for him and his nonna's lasagna recipe Tommy cooked for the man. In wild dreams Tommy knew could never be a reality. Especially not when Sal changed stations and firstly their meetups were less and less frequent until they stopped after Sal’s wedding.
And Tommy swears he thought he was over it. Over Sal. Over dreams of the future they could never share. But one look at the man whose appearance barely changed since Tommy last saw him five years ago, staying near 118 trucks the same way he always did, while talking with Chim, and all that got back at him. All the memories of stolen love and painful hope to be happy, proud and loved. Preferably by his “best friend”. By the one of the best men he ever met even if they could be rough with each other or rude or just wrong. Sal always came back with sorry, that Tommy knew was genuine. They were so wrong together, but also so wrongly perfect. So electric. Sal made him feel how almost no one could. Only his first crush Eric from the army, Sal and …
“Hey, handsome, sorry for the delay, Hen needed help to choose a present for Karen,” Evan kissed his cheeks, smiling like thousands of suns.
If Tommy didn’t know and was pretty acquainted with Evan’s quirks and little signs of his fatigue, he would never think the man just ended his 48 hour shift.
“It’s fine, baby.”
Tommy smiles and he hopes his inner turmoil of seeing an old friend is not shown on his face.
“Have you met my new captain yet?”
“No, but I don’t need to.”
Evan adorably tits his head and Tommy wants his heart to be so fast only because of it and the taste of Evan’s lip balm on his cheek, but he swears he can feel the taste of liquor he and Sal were drinking last time they kissed. Right before Sal asked Jennifer out on their first date.
“I worked with Sal. Even more than Chim and Hen,” Tommy says and Evan for a second frowns and then hits his face.
“And they were no less inseparable as you and Eddie,” Chim says, with the loud sound of gum bubbles breaking.
Tommy doesn’t know when he and Sal got closer to them, but he would really happy if they never see that Tommy was there at all.
“God, of course. In my defense it was so long ago I just haven’t even thought that all three of you were a team.”
“Yeah, I left the station almost a decade ago and it feels like it was in another life, so it’s fine, Buck.”
Sal smiles at his boyfriend and Tommy wants to make as much room between them as possible. Maybe it will help him to to separate all these feelings of worry and anxiety and love and confusion from the sight of the man he had loved for years, but had never had the opportunity to own his love completely for himself, never feeling that Sal had given him his heart, and a man who he knows is step away from get into his own chest and rip out his heart with all the vessels and give it to Tommy if he just says the word. Sal would never do it even if Tommy would beg
I was tagged by @tizniz @cal-daisies-and-briars @diazheartsbuckley @diazsdimples
Tagging @wikiangela @neverevan @hippolotamus @watchyourbuck @evnnkinard @evansboyfriend @evanbegins @evanbi-ckley @repressedqueen @rogerzsteven @racerchix21 @eddiebabygirldiaz @theotherbuckley @pirrusstuff @saybiwithme @steadfastsaturnsrings @devirnis @giddyupbuck @honestlydarkprincess @kinard-buckley @loveyouanyway @lonelychicago @bigfootsmom @bekkachaos @bi-buckrights @bewilderedbuckley @monsterrae1 and anyone who wants to
#I really wanted to write this idea where Saltommy were pretty toxic but not exactly exes#but Sal is happy married man who grieved that he and Tommy were right person but wrong time and moved to his happiness#while Tommy boxed his pain and thought he is over Sal#but Sal is now in 118 and Tommy suddenly faces all the pain and memories and what ifs#and his grief for a while effects his relationship with Buck#and yes no cheating in this fic#Sal is actually good guy here and wants only best for Tommy#who will self sabotage for a while while dealing with the grief of love that he lost and trying to fully embrace the one he has now#saltommy#<- the past(maybe even some flashbacks and not just overall description)#bucktommy#my wips#fic: I tried to go on like I never knew you#sal deluca#evan buckley#tommy kinard#tevan#kinley#kinkley#evan buck buckley#Spotify#salommy
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Take it, baby, it’s okay.
Eddie lets out a small whimper, his fingers tightening on Steve’s skin, and he presses his face into Steve’s neck.
Steve runs his fingers through his curls again, tugs at the roots and scratches at his scalp, closing his eyes and inhaling as Eddie’s hands slide across his scars. He plays with his hair for a while. Until the fire burns away, leaving glowing embers and the occasional soft snap.
“Have an idea,” Steve says softly, tilting his head so he’s murmuring right in Eddie’s ear, twisting the ends of his curls around his finger. “Can you wait here for a minute?”
Eddie sighs softly, nodding.
“I guess.”
Steve smiles, pressing a kiss to his temple before he gently detaches them and tugs the blanket tighter around Eddie. He kisses his forehead.
Upstairs, he flicks on lights to find his parents’ room, his eyes skimming past their untouched bed and furniture to their bathroom. They have the best bathtub, wide and deep and surrounded by pale pink tiles. Steve sits on the edge of it while he holds his hand under the running water. When it’s hot enough he plugs the bath and finds a towel.
“Hey,” he says softly when he gets back to the living room. Eddie’s eyes flutter open and he looks up as as Steve kneels in front of him, gazing up at him. “Come with me.”
“Okay.”
He stumbles slightly when he stands, clutching Steve’s hand, his other hand holding the blanket tightly as Steve leads him to the bathroom.
“I thought— I thought it would help you warm up.
Eddie drops the blanket wordlessly, squeezing his hand, and Steve exhales, smiling at him.
“You want help?”
Eddie nods. Steve smiles brighter, stepping in front of him and gently, tenderly, pulling the hem of his hoodie up, but it comes up with the sweaters, and they get tangled as Steve tries to pull them off. He can hear Eddie’s muffled giggling under the layers of fabric, and he laughs, carefully untangling him. When he appears, his nose is scrunched and his eyes are squeezed shut, his hair messy.
“There you are,” Steve says softly, tossing the clothes onto the counter. “Alright?”
“Cold.” He shivers. Steve rubs his arms before he reaches for the drawstring of his sweatpants. Eddie’s hands find Steve’s shoulders as he pushes them down with his boxers, as Eddie toes his socks off. Steve holds his hand to help him step into the water, and Eddie lets out a soft groan that Steve can feel under his skin. He kneels by the tub, running a hand through Eddie’s hair again.
“Feel good?”
“Christ. Yeah.” Eddie’s eyes are glassy.
“I’m gonna put your clothes in the dryer,” Steve says softly, his fingers gracing Eddie’s cheek. He has a scar there, rough and mangled from the teeth of demobats. “So it’s all nice and warm for you.”
“Come back,” Eddie whispers, tilting his head.
“Always.”
It takes him a moment in the laundry room to pull apart the sweaters and hoodie, the fabric stuck with static, but as soon as the dryer is running, he’s headed back to Eddie, who’s leaned against the back of the tub and slid down until his chin is in the water.
“Hey,” Steve says, kneeling by the tub and touching his face again. “How do you feel?”
“I’d feel better if you were in here with me,” Eddie says quietly.
Steve blinks, raising his eyebrows, his hand pausing on Eddie’s cheek.
“Are you sure?”
“Please, Steve,” Eddie breathes. “Need you closer.”
Steve pauses for a moment, his chest aching, before he says a soft Okay and stands, tugging his shirt off. Eddie’s eyes trail over his chest. Over the scars that cover his sides, his upper arms, his neck. Steve doesn’t even want to hide.
When he’s naked he steps into the bath, the water sloshing in the silent room, distorting their bodies. Eddie reaches out to him, his hand sliding over his arm.
“Come here.”
Steve moves closer.
Their legs wrap around each other again, and Steve closes his eyes, sighing.
“I missed you so much,” Steve breathes.
“Yeah?” Eddie says quietly. Steve can hear his smile. “You cry for me, Harrington?”
“Only every night.”
Eddie is quiet, and Steve finally opens his eyes to find him staring. His eyes are shining like he might cry, his bottom lip caught between his teeth.
“I cried too.”
Steve nods, swallowing thickly.
“Can you touch me, please?” Eddie asks weakly, and Steve reaches out, sliding his hands over his arms, his shoulders, over his chest and waist and stomach and back. The water is warm, and Eddie’s eyes are closed, and he’s swaying with the way Steve’s hands are pushing him around gently, and he lets out a soft, broken noise that’s almost a moan.
“You feel so good,” Eddie says softly, his hands finding Steve’s legs under the water, sliding over his skin slowly.
“Yeah?” Steve breathes, sliding a hand to the front of Eddie’s neck, his palm to his throat. Eddie hums, whimpering, his expression shifting into an almost-frown, like he’s going to cry.
“Steve,” he chokes. “Say it again.”
Steve squeezes his throat gently, watching Eddie’s lips part as he gasps. He leans closer, until their noses are almost brushing.
“Baby,” he breathes. He smiles when Eddie’s lip trembles and his cheeks flush pink. “Is that what you want?” he whispers. Eddie’s breaths are echoing around the room with the quiet slosh of the water as Eddie’s hands slide up Steve’s sides, over his scars. “You wanna be my baby?”
Eddie nods, his lip trembling again.
“I want that too,” Steve whispers. “Want you to be mine.”
Eddie takes a soft gasping breath, and a tear escapes his eye as he nods again. Steve smiles, wiping it away, but he just makes his cheek more wet with the bath water.
“Yes,” Eddie says softly, crying. “Yes, please.”
Steve kisses him.
It’s a short kiss, hard and lingering, and Steve’s fingers tighten on his neck. Eddie gasps when they part, his eyes opening, glassy and tear-filled, and Steve smiles at him, nodding. Eddie stares for a moment, his lips spreading into a slow smile, and he lets out a tearful laugh.
“Holy shit.”
“Yeah,” Steve agrees, laughing softly. “Holy shit.”
#me? writing sub eddie?#what a world#anyway this was not supposed to happen but i suddenly needed to write intimacy and physical contact god bless#steddie#steddie ficlet#steve harrington#eddie munson#steve x eddie#you will find that water is becoming a recurring theme for them#as is like?? bathing???#how do isay that without it being weird#anyway there will (most likely) not be another part to this i rly need to work on my wips#love u guys
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its so dangerous when you do something for fun and suddenly realise oh shit i love this. like fuck...what am i gonna do now...
#this is abt ACTING guys i cant do this shit...im literally no good except i guess i have to be at the least ok cause i got so close to#getting the part. but even if ur insanely good its like. an insanely ridiculously hard career to pursue where u cant depend on any income#and youll be poor forever which was ALREADY kind of my future considering i wanted to (and still want to) write but like there r scales.#acting is innately unreliable. and my whole life ive been like ok. u cant pursue that as a career. and im not gonna im not saying that. but#that moment when u suddenly realise u actually kind of love something that is not convienent at all. like why cant i have a vague fondness.#find it fun. just like attention. but instead nopeee i have to want to dissolve myself in other peoples characters and become them every#second of the day like girl ok. get a grip.#anyway.#personal#oliver talks
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Me: Ok robot story is done let’s get back to long form content—
My brain this morning, entirely unprompted: Gay/trans werewolf fur trappers.
Me: … what?
Brain: You fucking heard me the first time.
#to weather the wild storm#i would love to stop having ideas for short stories but unfortunately i can’t#I don’t know if I’ll even draw these guys but i can tell u i love them very much#Walter#my characters#my shit#Nina is writing again……..#you know as long as I’m writing I’m happy it doesn’t have to be super productive#it’s not like I’d suddenly be able to write friend if i didn’t allow myself to write this one#carlos olmeda#charlie olmeda
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Hello fans~❤️ G'day fans~ How are you all doing?
It's very cold these days, so dress warmly and eat delicious food ^^ I ate delicious food with my hungry youngest… Wow, I think Korean restaurants 🇰🇷 are really great.
Because it's amazing and you can eat delicious food hahaha ^~^ haha While eating warm cream pasta, I suddenly remembered the love my fans have for me… hehe
I will never forget your warm support.. Thank you for your support 😊 😻🇰🇷❤️👉🍽🍗🍖🍕 180127
#jeongin west side gangsta pasta image.jpeg#anyway felix this caption is so funny#hes always been a weird lil guy#while eating warm cream pasta i suddenly remembered the love of my fans#i like how you can always tell felix bc he writes in that distinct way yk what i mean#like he does it on bbl too....#id say sorry for all the ancient skzgram pics but im not
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im so mad that this is a side blog account and not a main account. i started this blog when i was still relatively new to tumblr and i think i was… like. fourteen years old or something. i never thought i would continue for this long, and i never knew so many people would like the content i put out here (i have over 9k followers which is literally mind-blowing, like wow….).
because this isnt a main account, i cant respond to replies left on my posts, i cant really reply to anyone unless i reblog !! i cant even follow people with this blog, it just comes up as my main blog (which is not pjo-related… rip my failed attempts at organising my fandoms to different blogs). so my avenues of interaction with a lot of you are seriously impeded.
so i just want to say i am so thankful for all of you, i read every single person’s tags who reblog my stuff, i read all of your replies and every time im crying screaming rolling around on the ground in agony over the fact i CANT REPLY!!
i know my posts are super inconsistent these days, im glad so many are still here! i think i may change some of my content eventually (never gonna get rid of the incorrect quote stuff, i’ll just be adding some other things like pjo headcanons or analyses or something), just to spice some stuff up on here.
#also! im currently writing a fantasy book rn and have been so stressed over the fact that authors are expected to have a following before—#—reaching out to agencies with a manuscript. and i seriously stress about creating a following.#so my backup plan is literally you guys. my four year old pjo account on tumblr with its silly little quotes 😭😭#and like. if that works. could you imagine. that you guys may actually save my future ??? like?? i love you guys for just following me bc ??#YOU MAY SAVE ME FROM THE CAPITALIST PRESSURES OF SENSATIONALISING ONES OWN ART FOR INVESTED SUCCESS YAYYYYYY#anyways im not going to promote it now bc its still in the first draft area. not near for me to even go thru revisions yet. i may never-#-promote it on here. i dont want to annoy people with suddenly changing tracks. and i def wont transform this blog into a self promo for me-#-thats never going to happen! i would make another blog for it but for now everything’s just an idea!#i just wanted to say thank you because this has been giving me so much anxiety especially since graduating high school. the problems of—#—trying to be an author have become more pressing and immediate for me. i hope it will happen one day but who knows#you guys give me confidence though. and i literally cannot thank u guys enough (I HATEEEEE THE CAREER ANXIETY)#not riordanverse#not incorrect either#for followers#rewriting#sorry for the whole essay in the tags ☠️
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I redrew something from 2022 :3! Yippie, now you guys get to see the old one and the new one next to each other heck yeah.
I’m gonna rant like absolutely bonkers length about Simon’s Quest and the endings and story under a cut for anyone interested:
The original version (the last image) had this like long rant about how I see the endings of the game, but it wasn’t as comprehensive cause I was still kinda new to things and well instagram character limit lol.
The endings of the game are a really really cool topic to me because of how ominous and vague they all are. They’re all left pretty open! But I’ve always gotten some sinking dread even when getting the fastest “red sky” ending. The game really sets up the ending with a lot of empty areas and suspense beforehand, especially with the still present but now more pressing clock still ticking ya know, and the final battle is kinda just there, but it ends off all this tense build up with
A eulogy. One definitely written for Simon too. In every ending.
The first ending (grey sky) is really vague, just a general statement that “Simon you will always be remembered for your bravery and courage” and that “Peace and serenity have been restored to Transylvania and the people are free of Dracula’s curse”. Which is really odd for what would be assumed to be a “bad ending”. This generally sounds like a pretty good outcome and it’s primarily the same in the Japanese version just slightly worded differently. Heck, it’s not even stated in the text outright if he died. But the visuals, oh man. Dreary greyscale and Simon doesn’t even appear on screen in front of Dracula’s grave. Did Dracula even get reburried? It’s some really bleak imagery compared to the otherwise pretty unsuspecting text.
And second ending (blue sky) is very interesting. Simon appears on screen with some nice bright generally cheery colors, but the text deliberately mentions his death in both versions. The English version however says something the Japanese version doesn’t: it says the curse wasn’t broken. The original text says “until a young man to fight against evils like him comes again to this world, Transylvanians will keep praying forever.” Which I guess you could assume means that something went wrong and the curse still exists, but it could also be taken as a general “there’s no cool badass vampire hunter guy to kill any other general threats, so we hope another one comes along”. So, again, it’s so extremely vague.
So far the first and the second don’t really have all that much different as far as implications go: Simon beat Dracula but he died.
So what about the third ending (red sky)? Would it shock you if I said there’s not much difference from the text of the first ending? It’s essentially just another eulogy text with nice things to say about him. It says “Simmon Belmont put an eternal period to the legend of Dracula” (yes the Japanese version says Simmon lol it happens), which is something we know isn’t true because well more games got made later. Also because Dracula’s hand pops out of the ground afterwards! Which is hard to say the meaning of, is it just a teaser like “to be continued” or is it actually meaning that Dracula wasn’t put down properly and will be back really soon? Because that still is in line with things since yeah Drac did kinda sorta come back early in Harmony of Dissonance. Anyway— But it’s just another way of saying “he killed Dracula” and probably “he ended the curse”. The last section is just “his blood and sweat have penetrated into the ground of Transylvania and will bring us full-blown flowers with happiness in next spring”. Which is, again, just a really pretty, poetic way of saying “we’re never gonna forget this guy”. And again, this ending never outright says if he lives or dies!
Which is so!!!!! Weird!!!!!!!!!!! Why have multiple endings in a game if they’re all so vague that they’re almost completely interchangeable and can all be argued to be the ending of the game? You could genuinely make an argument for each of the endings being the canon ending and it would affect essentially nothing. They’re so vague to the point that a lot of people assume that they were mixed up at some point in development, which I find unlikely coming from the dev team of the guy said to want his games to be a cinematic experience. But it’s so strange! Why!?!?!
But I think that this vagueness and sense of idk how to put it— um ya know when something builds something up to get you all excited and convinced it’ll go one way and then it pulls the rug out from under you? Like when it’s set up to where it feels like the protagonist is finally going to get something and then it just doesn’t happen completely unceremoniously? Like a hope crushing twist?
Idk what I mean is, to me, it feels completely intentional. It feels to me like the game is just ramping up the tension and the suspense and the dread just to cut it off with vague, bittersweet endings that just seem to imply sad things and don’t sit right. It’s like as if the game wants you to get the first ending, see that it’s really gloomy, try to figure out the game more and get the second ending, see that that one outright says he’s dead, then try to get something better only to run into another awkward seemingly negative ending and a realization that you can’t do anything about it.
And I was thinking about this again a bit ago and realized that it really fits with the rest of Simon’s story. Simon kinda has this general “hero goes to save the day” plot in the first one with some slight mention of Christopher before him and the fact that this is a clan and a repeating 100 year Dracula cycle right? But things go wrong and he gets cursed and presumably either struggles to figure out what to do or just puts it off for like 6 ish years. Add the general vibes of “will I ever be as good as my ancestors?” and repeating themes of being alone and then compare that with Dracula’s Curse that comes out not long later and this game is suddenly the most “power of friendship” “seeing the good in people” “together we can overcome this” kind of story in the whole series and it hit me: Simon feels like a subversion of the lone hero trope. Like this super uplifting, unlikely band of heroes story coming out right after the solitude if it were personified as a 1600s vampire hunter story feels so so so so important to me. And then The Adventure and Belmont’s Revenge come out and what are they about? Christopher goes into the castle alone and something goes wrong! And I’ve noticed how other Belmonts and protagonists in later games get companions or friends or helpers or somebody else, and oh boy does that make how alone Simon is that much more noticeable.
It just all comes together in a messed up way. I really feel like Simon dies in all of these endings. And I didn’t even get into weird symbolism discussion lol—
And maybe this is just me looking too hard into an old game from a modern used to stories in games being detailed perspective, but idk man, I love the Simon’s Quest because it never fails to baffle me. Honestly so much of Simon’s Quest genuinely haunts me (affectionate), like I’ll just be sitting around and think of another possible answer to something and it’ll end up just as vague and full of holes as any other speculation, it’s wild. This game will have you sitting around looking for answers only to consistently run into dead ends with sad or nonexistent implications. I hope any of this makes sense, this game drives me insane I love it debating replaying and overthinking it again hmmmmmmm—
#castlevania#castlevania games#Castlevania Simon’s quest#simon’s quest#castlevania ii#castlevania ii: simon's quest#akumajou dracula#simon belmont#castlevania fanart#art post#my art#art#fanart#redraw#ahfkshakfjsga i love u Simon’s Quest never change#Simon’s story is such a tragedy man somebody get this guy a friend#shout out to that midnight energy that suddenly compelled me to write multiple pages about an NES game again 💀💀💀💀💀💀#also hehehehe flower symbolism in this one >:3c#have fun piecing the meanings of things together hehe it was fun researching for it#the flowers included are roses marigolds anemones and some teeny tiny forgetmenots hidden in there#also the symbolism surrounding Simon I’ve noticed seems to generally lead back to martyrdom and sacrifice which is hmmmm interesting#the thorns and colors Ayami uses for him in her art of him#the hanging skeletons in the hanged man positions being a reference to him#there’s more I’m just getting sleepy and can’t think of them rn#I made a post about it a loooong time ago tho#anyway that’s just adding on to the other ominous implications of what might have happened to him aaaaa#anyway Simon is one of the characters ever#hopefully this gives somber but ethereal vibes beautiful but tragic ya know#bro puts the slay in vampire slayer like it’s giving dead but he killed it anyway—#incoherent rambling
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I did not know you wrote fics I’m truly living here
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my fics are so delicious, you are SO lucky you get to experience them all for the very first time anon
#spideycablepool fic incoming... im devoting my ENTIRE saturday to finishing her. will not be thinking of anything else.#it's fuckigng. its freaking. 12k+ words. i don't know how it happened.#i never write fics that long!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#i just had a lot to say about nathan summers.#which is hilarious because nathan summers himself doesn't have a lot to say.#but he says some things. and i feel a lot about him actually.#i kind of really want to hold 9319 nathan summers in my hands and kiss his forehead. he's a nice boy. people don't know he's a nice boy.#he is pretty shitty too (all cables have to be) but he's a nice boy. and he loves a whole lot.#i hope people get as attached to 9319 nathan as i have suddenly become. i love him. i love him.#feeling a lot about him. like a lot. feeling a lot about his and peter's differences and similarities.#him and peter have a lot to talk about. like a lot.#i really really want all three of them to lie down and sit under the stars and have a soul-searching conversation.#obviously wade would dominate the convo and talk about very strange nonsense that doesn't make any sense.#so maybe peter and nate should distract him with a shiny toy of some kind so that peter and nathan can actually have a profound conversatio#but of course they'd both just love to listen to wade babble about nonsense . they love him. they love his voice. they love his weird ways.#what a simp circle. wade surrounded by two boys who just have Heart Eyes for him#and he acts so oblivious. like these guys aren't falling over themselves in love with him.
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working on an absolutely nasty billford fic, just for the girlies who like it freakay.
#billford#gravity falls#i love writing as Ford because for a smart guy he's very stupid lol#*HMM maybe in hindsight when Bill suddenly started laying on a fainting couch drinking wine he might've been trying to tell me something...#right now only one person Knows where this is gonna go and I'm Real Excited about exposing other human eyeballs to this idea lol
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'Sticks and stones make shards of bones But words cut through the surface'
The movies made stuff like this look quick, like bam, you step on a thing you shouldn't've stepped on and that's it, it's done, it's over, it's all she wrote, it sinks in with one disgusting pop! of skin and the handsome protagonist falls to his knee to scream a quiet scream through his teeth - easy peasy!
Real life, Conrad was coming to find, was a little different.
"Fuck," is how it started, when he felt the first little prick against his foot, and "fuck fuck fuck," was how it continued, when he realized he hadn't pulled his foot away fast enough, and "FUCK ME, CRIMINY JIM-JAM, MR. SPOCK," is how it ended (more or less) as he toppled onto the ground, his bare arm landing smack-dab in the middle of some ancient, rusty, shit-smelling, amoeba-ridden, warm, puddle.
The movies would have him believe the rest of his friends would either, A. leave him to die and head for the hills to save their own skins, or B. immediately descend on him like moths to a flame, desperate to help him; again, real life was proving slightly less narratively satisfying.
Julia frowned down at him from her high horse, her hands on her hips and her face streaked with ghost-ship gunk as she groaned - yes, groaned, like this was an inconvenience or something! - "You didn't think to put on shoes before climbing aboard the S.S. Tetanus Shot, dingus?"
"Oh, I'm sorry, JJ," he managed to eke out as Alex, the only human member of the group, squatted down beside him, gingerly trying to pull the...whatever it was out from the ruined flesh of his heel, "next time I get kidnapped and dragooned into the world's worst game of hide-and-seek, I'll be sure to bring my fucking Skechers!"
six sentence sat(or)sunday!!!
#love-fireflysong#six sentence weekend#man of medan#queenie writes supermassive#lmaooooooo you guys will never GUESS who played MAN OF MEDAN again this week and is suddenly UNWELL ABOUT THEM!!!#(i got your other lyrics dont worry!!!! these just SPOKE TO ME first hehehehe)
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Hey y’all! I’m shifting into fanfic mode more and more. I’ve been writing more... just not finishing editing and posting it, lmao...
So to help me out, I’d love to give you guys full reign, to send me any hc’s you have!!
They can be about any character - or mix of them - I write for, and can be about anything; be that angst hc’s, smutty thoughts, fluffy hc’s, or just sending me “imagine: xyz”.
Long thoughts about a scenario, a quick sentence abt a hc you see as fact, or it can be the opposite, where you send in an example, and I’ll answer which character I think most fits with whatever hc/scenario/etc you’ve asked!
It could be yandere fruity four ideas, feelings on what stobin x reader would be like at family video, headcanons on how someone reacts to reader being sick, literally any headcanons, ideas, or any thought you guys have, you have full reign to share! And I’ll be responding with my own little ideas (and hopefully some blurbs bc I’d love to get a lot of them out) too!
#I s2g my ideas have been flowing and I’ve been writing and my drafts r so large it’s just the editing part that’s killing me half the time#I love love love just chatting about thoughts and ideas for these guys esp bc everyone always has such good personal ideas/thoughts!!#and then sharing them is achh <3 everyone sharing in love for ppl’s ideas 💕#my fav thing is when someone sends in a scenario and then everyone’s sending add on’s to that scenario and it becomes like it’s whole#own au/universe bubble thing.#like someone says ‘I think yandere Nancy would be the first to use knock out drugs on reader’ and suddenly#all day is spent chatting abt yandere!f4 and how robin steve Eddie and reader would react to the days events+lead up#fruity four#Steve Harrington#Eddie Munson#Nancy Wheeler#Robin Buckley#Joyce Byers#Kurt Kunkle#Chrissy Cunningham#Steddie#Stobin#Ronance#Stancy#cc chats
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i lied about removing scenes im about to drop a ~15k monster on you all
#im so fucking mad i have work tomorrow you actually have NO IDEA#i should call out sick /hj#tempted...#its so agonizingly close to being finished#like give me one full day off and its done#this shit is like 90k characters u guys r fucked im sorry#IF I DONT SUDDENLY FORGET HOW TO WRITE#knock on wood#it will be done and posted riiiight before the end of the month#i doubled the character count in a single day today so i am working mad overtime for this#love u all thanks for patience i want to scream with everyone about 0903 !!!!#lxm textposts
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hey wtf is pomade and why does it make my hair do magic actually
#guy playing with his hair properly for the first time: WTF is this stuff. have u guys seen this shit.#pomade and hair spray and mousse and leave in conditioner. and water spray bottles. are u writing this down....#ive been hyperfixating on hair care for a week send help#and I do mean that genuinely I keep playing salon for people and informing them of things they don't need to know. bc . fixated#hi i love you. did u know ur hair is super dehydrated and needs conditioner. and thats why its flat and frizzy.#did u know u can spray ur hair w/ water out of the shower and use products wet and that can help keep ur hair from losing volume from weigh#did u know u can change your hair part deliberately if its lying too flat to give those hairs/roots a break. again for volume#did u know if ur hair holds a curl at all. that means it is not Actually Straight.#And if you check in the shower you may find you have more wave than u realize.#I thought I had straight hair and I do not <3 at all <3 LMAO#went from frizzy miserable limp hair that flipped at the ends to suddenly my hair has volume and is much wavier than I thought possible LMA#anyways. oh god thts so much tags. sorry.#hyperfixation.....damn you....
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