#guys suddenly i love writing

[enha-stars]

hi!! i’m a little nervous because i don’t rlly do this, but i had to say something! you’re writing is like, so good. i read your ‘let me take care of you - heeseung’ fic ALL the time because it really does comfort me. also! homecoming? slayed. priorities? Slayed. INVISIBLE STRING?? SLAYED???

you mentioned that you’re writing a jake soulmate fic and !!!! i’m so excited for it. do you have a favourite sentence that you’ve written?

my genuine reaction:

anon, i’m going to SOB. WDYM 😭😭 don’t say these kinds of things mg heart can’t handle it 😭 thank you so so so much for reaching out i hope you know you made my entire week.

IM SO GLAD YOU LIKE MY WORK 🥹🥹 the heeseung fic is meant to comfort so i am so so glad it does its job. i’m ngl i still don’t rlly know what to say besides thank you and i love you.

you knowing the titles has me blushing crying throwing up actually 🤭🤭

please don’t ever be nervous to reach out to me 😭 i rlly hope you continue to talk to me because you’re genuinely so sweet and i love writing because of people like you

and yes!!! jake soulmate fic has been a bit delayed unfortunately. my fault because i keep adding scenes and build up and it’s getting long.

AND JUST FOR YOU 🫵🏽 i’ll share some of my favourite sentences. i’m afraid i haven’t written THE favourite sentence yet.

You felt sick, like everything inside your body was melting and trying to reach someone who wasn’t yours to reach.

He shouldn’t be thinking about you at all, and yet, his mind is only ever active when you’re on it.

In the confines of his bedroom, you belonged to him the way he belonged to you.

He wants you and Jake to just figure it all out, but he doesn’t know what it’s like to be in love with someone you didn’t know you could have.

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Look what we've become.

[First] Prev <–-> Next

[psychotic-nonsense]

"I'm sorry."

It's the first thing Steve says after everything.

After getting Vecna Cursed. After nearly dying. After a hallucination of Eddie saved him. After running through a looped forest. After finding sanctuary in Steve's memory of that Starcourt bathroom. After Eddie reveals himself as Eddie.

It's the only thing he can think of. It's not big enough to fit everything, but it's the only thing that fits in his mouth.

"Don't be."

Maybe that's the only thing Eddie can think of too. The only thing Eddie can bear to say.

Because don't be can't stop Steve's eyes from watering when he sees the vest in his closet. Don't be can't stop Steve's feet from dragging him to the cemetery every evening to clean Eddie's graffiti-covered tombstone. Don't be can't stop Steve from sitting beside Wayne and listening to him talk about the Eddie he remembers. Don't be can't stop Eddie's body from showing up in Steve's dreams, nor Eddie's corpse from his nightmares. Don't be couldn't keep the pain away enough, didn't stop Vecna from latching onto it while Steve was walking alone in the woods.

Don't be isn't enough for what Steve wants to hear. But even stuck here waiting, hoping, for someone to get Steve out, there just isn't enough time.

"I miss you."

"...Why?"

Eddie says it back so quickly, so quietly, like it's just unfathomable to him. Maybe it is, considering their last memories. But their eyes meet and he looks just as sad, just as longing, as Steve.

"You were my friend."

Steve can't help but say it like that. Like they were friends for years instead of days. Like Eddie was that important to him in their final moments. Like his heart really aches for Eddie every second of the apocalypse.

Can't help but say it like he means it.

"I wish we could've had more time..."

Steve's voice cracks a little there as he turns away, hiding. It's all he wants. It's all Vecna used to entice him with. It's all that's keeping him going, to finally fulfill the last request Eddie made. It's all he has left to feel close to Eddie.

The Eddie that's sitting right next to him, silent, his sight weighing on Steve's skin. Conscious and aware and the real Eddie. Trapped in Vecna's head as a backup power source, yet who still risked everything to come save Steve. Who Steve will never see again because killing Vecna means killing Eddie for good, and his heart doesn't want it, is begging for another solution...

But for once, his broken head overpowers his shattered heart.

"Maybe we did."

Eddie takes Steve's hand. Meets Steve's surprised look with his own small smile of hope. They're both suddenly tearing up, eyes glistening with life in this gray stall.

"Maybe in another world, we got a second first chance. A first second chance. Maybe even a third, or fourth. Maybe in a different life, we had everything we wanted. Because you, Steve Harrington, are too good for me to be doomed to meet just once."

And for a moment, Steve sees it. Feels it. Versions of them connected through the universe.

Little kids playing in the lake. One with bruised skin and shaved hair, loud but unfathomably lonely. One with a bruised heart and soft eyes, timid but stubbornly hopeful.

A rockstar with glittering chains, center stage in the spotlight. A set of eyes in the crowd or behind the curtain, watching only him.

A werewolf and a vampire, two cryptids of horror, meeting in the dead of a full moon night to feel safe with the only other one who understands.

A future where they won, where the only death was the one that mattered. A process of healing and learning, coming home to a family every single day.

A world without pain, without their hell, where two high schoolers found freedom from their shackles and company in each other. Hiding away together in the dark corners of the town.

Steve even sees other versions of them. Versions that he knows were originally never supposed to meet, yet forces so much greater than them pulled them together.

A metalhead drug dealer, constantly getting into trouble with one nail-bat-weilding cop.

A criminal's fugitive nature leading him to a rugged trailer park, and the dangerous owner within one such home.

An eccentric king in an old coliseum, always choosing one particular warrior as his champion.

A young programmer being pulled away from his work by sobs above his apartment, running upstairs to check on the law student that recently moved in.

Two actors, finding an easy friendship in the months of filming one season of a show that would change their lives.

In that moment, Steve's overwhelmed by the closeness he suddenly feels with the soul beside him. Falling into tears, he pulls Eddie into a tight hug, holding him so so close to convey everything he can't say. Feeling Eddie hold him back, hearing everything Eddie can't say in return.

Familiar music comes on outside the stall. Robin's voice calls out to him, telling him to come home.

And when he does leave, Steve hopes that someone out there will understand that he never can. Because here in Eddie's arms is the only place that will ever truly feel like home.

"Thank you... for everything, Eddie."

Thank you, Steve. For everything and more..."

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- List of AUs, in order, after, "Versions of them connected through the universe": Childhood Friends / Rockstar!Eddie / Werewolf!Steve & Vampire!Eddie / Eddie Survives / No Upside Down & High School

- List of Multiverse Steddie AUs, in order, after, "...yet forces so much greater than them pulled them together": Eddie x Gator / Baron x Michael / Geta x Sean / Keys x Eric / Quinn and Keery

[iinryer]

can we fucking stop assigning “ableist” to characters for no fucking reason. jesus christ. not only is it extremely boring and cop-out storytelling to just make villains out of regular ass characters to create your conflict, it’s also fucking jarring and exhausting to have to be slapped with slurs and ableist microagressions towards a CHILD out of nowhere while reading an otherwise unrelated (and untagged for it!) fic. im not normally one to get this negative on main, but if im being honest? you guys are pissing me the fuck off

[butchrindou]

i lovee loser rindou so much i don’t care if u guys think it’s ooc or something that bitch can’t talk to women for the life of him it doesn’t matter if he’s always out he just can’t unless ran literally forces him to it’s so cute to me i want to embarrass him so bad LIKE HELLOOOO

[bidisasterevankinard]

Wip Wednesday

do I have the stage where I start new wips but barely write the one's I have because I'm super indecisive and not inspired? yes. let's hope soon I will be fine and work on my wips I want to work on. Anyway meet new wip where bucktommy will have long angst in their relationship because Tommy needs to grief "what ifs" with Sal he never thought about till he sees Sal as Captain of 118 (it's an au where Sal is a captain instead of Gerass)(it's only the start of the fic btw)

thanks to nonny @racerchix21 and this song (the title taken from the song and it's "I tried to go on like I never knew you"

Tommy knows it all should be in the past. In stolen kisses in bars they knew Gerrard and the team would never come too. In usually passionate and wild - almost never tender and sweet - sex. In secrets they shared under sheets, when they both knew that the moment their fabric cover was gone they couldn't talk about those moments of comfort and vulnerability they shared. In breakfast’s Sal made for him and his nonna's lasagna recipe Tommy cooked for the man. In wild dreams Tommy knew could never be a reality. Especially not when Sal changed stations and firstly their meetups were less and less frequent until they stopped after Sal’s wedding. 

And Tommy swears he thought he was over it. Over Sal. Over dreams of the future they could never share. But one look at the man whose appearance barely changed since Tommy last saw him five years ago, staying near 118 trucks the same way he always did, while talking with Chim, and all that got back at him. All the memories of stolen love and painful hope to be happy, proud and loved. Preferably by his “best friend”. By the one of the best men he ever met even if they could be rough with each other or rude or just wrong. Sal always came back with sorry, that Tommy knew was genuine. They were so wrong together, but also so wrongly perfect. So electric. Sal made him feel how almost no one could. Only his first crush Eric from the army, Sal and …

“Hey, handsome, sorry for the delay, Hen needed help to choose a present for Karen,” Evan kissed his cheeks, smiling like thousands of suns.

If Tommy didn’t know and was pretty acquainted with Evan’s quirks and little signs of his fatigue, he would never think the man just ended his 48 hour shift.

“It’s fine, baby.”

Tommy smiles and he hopes his inner turmoil of seeing an old friend is not shown on his face.

“Have you met my new captain yet?”

“No, but I don’t need to.”

Evan adorably tits his head and Tommy wants his heart to be so fast only because of it and the taste of Evan’s lip balm on his cheek, but he swears he can feel the taste of liquor he and Sal were drinking last time they kissed. Right before Sal asked Jennifer out on their first date.

“I worked with Sal. Even more than Chim and Hen,” Tommy says and Evan for a second frowns and then hits his face.

“And they were no less inseparable as you and Eddie,” Chim says, with the loud sound of gum bubbles breaking.

Tommy doesn’t know when he and Sal got closer to them, but he would really happy if they never see that Tommy was there at all. 

“God, of course. In my defense it was so long ago I just haven’t even thought that all three of you were a team.”

“Yeah, I left the station almost a decade ago and it feels like it was in another life, so it’s fine, Buck.” 

Sal smiles at his boyfriend and Tommy wants to make as much room between them as possible. Maybe it will help him to to separate all these feelings of worry and anxiety and love and confusion from the sight of the man he had loved for years, but had never had the opportunity to own his love completely for himself, never feeling that Sal had given him his heart, and a man who he knows is step away from get into his own chest and rip out his heart with all the vessels and give it to Tommy if he just says the word. Sal would never do it even if Tommy would beg

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[uncannydevotion]

HI THERE I HAVE BEEN WANTING TO REQUEST THIS FOR SO LONG !!! Can you do a oneshot/fic of alex kralie killing a younger sibling reader (like, early 20s small age gap) who got operator sickness?

notes: the gasp i gusped when i read this request chat let me tell u. first request on the new blog kicking it off strong w a deep dive into the mind of alex kralie 💪💪 this is short and sweet and i hope u enjoy it

warnings: platonic, major character death, operator sickness and its symptoms, alex kralie kills u that's literally the entire plot, i haven't watched marble hornets in the hottest sec so sorry if i get smth wrong.

It wasn't supposed to be like this.

You weren't supposed to be involved. You were supposed to be off in college, working towards your dreams, not here. Fuck, he doesn't even know how you found him, but he imagines Jay played a part.

He had been crashing at a motel when a knock on the door of the room he was staying in set him on edge. It was one of those rare days where he was overwhelmingly paranoid. He had expected Jay.

Maybe his friend had found him.

Instead, he was greeted by his little sibling.

You had been so concerned when you saw him. He couldn't even get a word out before you were pushing yourself into his motel room, demanding an explanation on what the hell was going on.

From what he understood, it wasn't Jay who had contacted you. Someone had sent you a tape and Alex could only assume it was that hooded bastard out to get him.

Alex had begged you to leave.

Rather...

"I don't want you here, so would you just go away?" Is what he had said, his tone less than friendly.

He should've known you weren't going to listen. Even when you were both kids, you never listened to him. You always wanted to take part in whatever it was he did, even if he didn't want you to. It had been endearing back then, but now it was annoying.

Can you not understand that he is treating you this way for your own good? You needed to leave before you caught that things attention, otherwise he'll have to... deal with you.

You probably thought he was crazy, honestly.

And maybe, if he had been a little meaner to you when you were both little in middle school, you wouldn't be sticking by his side.

Or maybe you would be, because he's your brother. You always valued your family before yourself. It's something people praised about you, but now... now it's just the biggest flaw you have.

Alex tried.

He really did.

Even when you first started showing signs of the sickness, he tried so hard to ignore it, to get you to leave. You still had an out.

But then you saw it. You saw the faceless creature, and you coughed so hard you ended up throwing up, and you blacked out because of it. That was when Alex knew it was too late for you.

In a perfect world, he would've driven you to a hospital and left you there. But we're far from a perfect world, aren't we?

That's why he ended up driving you to the middle of nowhere. He wasn't thinking straight, and deep down he knew this was wrong. This wasn't right. But... he's too far gone. He's doing what has to be done.

Surely, you'd understand.

With Amy, he didn't have the luxury of killing her while she was unaware. It's the one thing he regrets. She didn't deserve to be scared. She no doubt felt betrayed, too.

But with you... he has that chance. And even in this state of violence, Alex didn't want you to see him as a monster. He's just an older brother, doing what he has to do to protect you.

The field he took you to was isolated. Not many people drove down this road because it was overgrown. Had he had the time, he would've taken you somewhere more... sentimental.

The gun in his hand had felt heavy. His head was pounding, hands shaking as he slowly raised it. You looked at peace.

Birds flew away from the surrounding trees as the gunshot rings in the air.

Your lifeless body was burned into his mind. Alex spent hours digging a grave for you, and even after you were long buried, he could still see you every time he closed his eyes.

Your death was nothing more than a tape now, one that Alex kept on his person.

This wasn't meant to happen.

It wasn't supposed to be like this.

[sammygender]

its so dangerous when you do something for fun and suddenly realise oh shit i love this. like fuck...what am i gonna do now...

[ninawolv3rina]

Me: Ok robot story is done let’s get back to long form content—

My brain this morning, entirely unprompted: Gay/trans werewolf fur trappers.

Me: … what?

Brain: You fucking heard me the first time.

[faunandfloraas]

Hello fans~❤️ G'day fans~ How are you all doing?

It's very cold these days, so dress warmly and eat delicious food ^^ I ate delicious food with my hungry youngest… Wow, I think Korean restaurants 🇰🇷 are really great.

Because it's amazing and you can eat delicious food hahaha ^~^ haha ​​While eating warm cream pasta, I suddenly remembered the love my fans have for me… hehe

I will never forget your warm support.. Thank you for your support 😊 😻🇰🇷❤️👉🍽🍗🍖🍕 180127

[incorrect-riordanverse]

im so mad that this is a side blog account and not a main account. i started this blog when i was still relatively new to tumblr and i think i was… like. fourteen years old or something. i never thought i would continue for this long, and i never knew so many people would like the content i put out here (i have over 9k followers which is literally mind-blowing, like wow….).

because this isnt a main account, i cant respond to replies left on my posts, i cant really reply to anyone unless i reblog !! i cant even follow people with this blog, it just comes up as my main blog (which is not pjo-related… rip my failed attempts at organising my fandoms to different blogs). so my avenues of interaction with a lot of you are seriously impeded.

so i just want to say i am so thankful for all of you, i read every single person’s tags who reblog my stuff, i read all of your replies and every time im crying screaming rolling around on the ground in agony over the fact i CANT REPLY!!

i know my posts are super inconsistent these days, im glad so many are still here! i think i may change some of my content eventually (never gonna get rid of the incorrect quote stuff, i’ll just be adding some other things like pjo headcanons or analyses or something), just to spice some stuff up on here.

[chibishortdeath]

I redrew something from 2022 :3! Yippie, now you guys get to see the old one and the new one next to each other heck yeah.

I’m gonna rant like absolutely bonkers length about Simon’s Quest and the endings and story under a cut for anyone interested:

The original version (the last image) had this like long rant about how I see the endings of the game, but it wasn’t as comprehensive cause I was still kinda new to things and well instagram character limit lol.

The endings of the game are a really really cool topic to me because of how ominous and vague they all are. They’re all left pretty open! But I’ve always gotten some sinking dread even when getting the fastest “red sky” ending. The game really sets up the ending with a lot of empty areas and suspense beforehand, especially with the still present but now more pressing clock still ticking ya know, and the final battle is kinda just there, but it ends off all this tense build up with

A eulogy. One definitely written for Simon too. In every ending.

The first ending (grey sky) is really vague, just a general statement that “Simon you will always be remembered for your bravery and courage” and that “Peace and serenity have been restored to Transylvania and the people are free of Dracula’s curse”. Which is really odd for what would be assumed to be a “bad ending”. This generally sounds like a pretty good outcome and it’s primarily the same in the Japanese version just slightly worded differently. Heck, it’s not even stated in the text outright if he died. But the visuals, oh man. Dreary greyscale and Simon doesn’t even appear on screen in front of Dracula’s grave. Did Dracula even get reburried? It’s some really bleak imagery compared to the otherwise pretty unsuspecting text.

And second ending (blue sky) is very interesting. Simon appears on screen with some nice bright generally cheery colors, but the text deliberately mentions his death in both versions. The English version however says something the Japanese version doesn’t: it says the curse wasn’t broken. The original text says “until a young man to fight against evils like him comes again to this world, Transylvanians will keep praying forever.” Which I guess you could assume means that something went wrong and the curse still exists, but it could also be taken as a general “there’s no cool badass vampire hunter guy to kill any other general threats, so we hope another one comes along”. So, again, it’s so extremely vague.

So far the first and the second don’t really have all that much different as far as implications go: Simon beat Dracula but he died.

So what about the third ending (red sky)? Would it shock you if I said there’s not much difference from the text of the first ending? It’s essentially just another eulogy text with nice things to say about him. It says “Simmon Belmont put an eternal period to the legend of Dracula” (yes the Japanese version says Simmon lol it happens), which is something we know isn’t true because well more games got made later. Also because Dracula’s hand pops out of the ground afterwards! Which is hard to say the meaning of, is it just a teaser like “to be continued” or is it actually meaning that Dracula wasn’t put down properly and will be back really soon? Because that still is in line with things since yeah Drac did kinda sorta come back early in Harmony of Dissonance. Anyway— But it’s just another way of saying “he killed Dracula” and probably “he ended the curse”. The last section is just “his blood and sweat have penetrated into the ground of Transylvania and will bring us full-blown flowers with happiness in next spring”. Which is, again, just a really pretty, poetic way of saying “we’re never gonna forget this guy”. And again, this ending never outright says if he lives or dies!

Which is so!!!!! Weird!!!!!!!!!!! Why have multiple endings in a game if they’re all so vague that they’re almost completely interchangeable and can all be argued to be the ending of the game? You could genuinely make an argument for each of the endings being the canon ending and it would affect essentially nothing. They’re so vague to the point that a lot of people assume that they were mixed up at some point in development, which I find unlikely coming from the dev team of the guy said to want his games to be a cinematic experience. But it’s so strange! Why!?!?!

But I think that this vagueness and sense of idk how to put it— um ya know when something builds something up to get you all excited and convinced it’ll go one way and then it pulls the rug out from under you? Like when it’s set up to where it feels like the protagonist is finally going to get something and then it just doesn’t happen completely unceremoniously? Like a hope crushing twist?

Idk what I mean is, to me, it feels completely intentional. It feels to me like the game is just ramping up the tension and the suspense and the dread just to cut it off with vague, bittersweet endings that just seem to imply sad things and don’t sit right. It’s like as if the game wants you to get the first ending, see that it’s really gloomy, try to figure out the game more and get the second ending, see that that one outright says he’s dead, then try to get something better only to run into another awkward seemingly negative ending and a realization that you can’t do anything about it.

And I was thinking about this again a bit ago and realized that it really fits with the rest of Simon’s story. Simon kinda has this general “hero goes to save the day” plot in the first one with some slight mention of Christopher before him and the fact that this is a clan and a repeating 100 year Dracula cycle right? But things go wrong and he gets cursed and presumably either struggles to figure out what to do or just puts it off for like 6 ish years. Add the general vibes of “will I ever be as good as my ancestors?” and repeating themes of being alone and then compare that with Dracula’s Curse that comes out not long later and this game is suddenly the most “power of friendship” “seeing the good in people” “together we can overcome this” kind of story in the whole series and it hit me: Simon feels like a subversion of the lone hero trope. Like this super uplifting, unlikely band of heroes story coming out right after the solitude if it were personified as a 1600s vampire hunter story feels so so so so important to me. And then The Adventure and Belmont’s Revenge come out and what are they about? Christopher goes into the castle alone and something goes wrong! And I’ve noticed how other Belmonts and protagonists in later games get companions or friends or helpers or somebody else, and oh boy does that make how alone Simon is that much more noticeable.

It just all comes together in a messed up way. I really feel like Simon dies in all of these endings. And I didn’t even get into weird symbolism discussion lol—

And maybe this is just me looking too hard into an old game from a modern used to stories in games being detailed perspective, but idk man, I love the Simon’s Quest because it never fails to baffle me. Honestly so much of Simon’s Quest genuinely haunts me (affectionate), like I’ll just be sitting around and think of another possible answer to something and it’ll end up just as vague and full of holes as any other speculation, it’s wild. This game will have you sitting around looking for answers only to consistently run into dead ends with sad or nonexistent implications. I hope any of this makes sense, this game drives me insane I love it debating replaying and overthinking it again hmmmmmmm—

[sciderman]

I did not know you wrote fics I’m truly living here

🫶

my fics are so delicious, you are SO lucky you get to experience them all for the very first time anon

[mmmthornton]

working on an absolutely nasty billford fic, just for the girlies who like it freakay.

[queenofbaws]

'Sticks and stones make shards of bones But words cut through the surface'

The movies made stuff like this look quick, like bam, you step on a thing you shouldn't've stepped on and that's it, it's done, it's over, it's all she wrote, it sinks in with one disgusting pop! of skin and the handsome protagonist falls to his knee to scream a quiet scream through his teeth - easy peasy!

Real life, Conrad was coming to find, was a little different.

"Fuck," is how it started, when he felt the first little prick against his foot, and "fuck fuck fuck," was how it continued, when he realized he hadn't pulled his foot away fast enough, and "FUCK ME, CRIMINY JIM-JAM, MR. SPOCK," is how it ended (more or less) as he toppled onto the ground, his bare arm landing smack-dab in the middle of some ancient, rusty, shit-smelling, amoeba-ridden, warm, puddle.

The movies would have him believe the rest of his friends would either, A. leave him to die and head for the hills to save their own skins, or B. immediately descend on him like moths to a flame, desperate to help him; again, real life was proving slightly less narratively satisfying.

Julia frowned down at him from her high horse, her hands on her hips and her face streaked with ghost-ship gunk as she groaned - yes, groaned, like this was an inconvenience or something! - "You didn't think to put on shoes before climbing aboard the S.S. Tetanus Shot, dingus?"

"Oh, I'm sorry, JJ," he managed to eke out as Alex, the only human member of the group, squatted down beside him, gingerly trying to pull the...whatever it was out from the ruined flesh of his heel, "next time I get kidnapped and dragooned into the world's worst game of hide-and-seek, I'll be sure to bring my fucking Skechers!"

six sentence sat(or)sunday!!!

[icewindandboringhorror]

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