#guys anyone anywhere

[le-venter]

OMG HI TUMBLR I AM DESPERATE NOW I THINK

I can't believe I'm doing this, but I guess this is a call for help and advice more than it is to vent. Here we go...

I graduated with a BFA in 2D animation almost two years ago at this point. My plan ever since I was really young was to get an animation degree and learn pre-production, get a job abroad and figure it out from there. It was a plan that was doable and straightforward and I'd been working towards it since I was 15.

I was in my final (nightmare) semester when the layoffs began, and it hasn't been any better since then.

A lot of personal tragedies happened in my life that affected me and my family deeply. I was alone again since all my friends had left the city after college. I started going to therapy and got diagnosed with depression and ADHD, both of which I have been dealing with ever since (got on ADHD meds recently! I hope they work). I only just got a proper handle on my grief and am managing to now somehow move forward.

I've been job hunting for a year and a half, all applications coming back as rejections, since I'm a fresher with no experience. There are barely any jobs in my field to begin with where I live, forget the US and the rest of the world. They all don't pay much, and they definitely don't pay enough for me to move out. Illustration jobs haven't been any better.

Generative AI has been actively making things worse. I have a lot of not very nice words to say about it, but I'm trying my best to stay on topic. All the jobs that I ever worked towards and made plans for have begun to disappear and be replaced by AI, making my life even harder than it already was.

I see a LOT of graphic design jobs, but I don't know heads or tails about it even , and I have a fear that if I take those jobs, I'll get stuck in that loop and never escape. I've met older artists that this has happened to and who have been trying to break out of that field ever since. It scares me deeply.

It sucks that my skill set is all creative work, and all of that is being shut down because of AI.

Networking isn't something I'm particularly comfortable with, but I've been trying to actively go for any art, comic and animation events to try to meet people and try to make connections while meeting artists. Nothing has come from it so far.

Posting online currently is a NIGHTMARE, and as someone who never had any interest in creating an online following and has basically no audience, it's even worse since I have to start from scratch. With an AI scraping my work if I don't nightshade it. It feels like a really awful time for artists online in general right now too, and makes me want to post even LESS than I already do.

I've never wanted to be an entrepreneur or business owner, I just wanted to be an artist. I've never seen myself going into total self employment; it's terrifying and stressful for someone like me who can barely focus most of the time.

I have no interest anymore in getting into animation in the country where I live; it's treated like cheap labour at every turn, and even the people passionate about it who start companies/collectives try to keep it really closed off and exclusive. Applying to them never gets any replies and I've even had professors tell me not even bother with those studios since they're not interested in hiring, unless you're a prodigy or something.

My worst experience so far was with a director of one of these bigger studios whom I met at an event a few months ago. After waiting for hours and FINALLY getting a chance with talk to him one-on-one, I tried to ask him for advice and showed him some of my comic work. He didn't even bother to listen to anything I had to say; he just told me that my work wasn't the "cream of the crop" and that I clearly "didn't want it enough", and so he would never hire me. He ignored me for the rest of the time I was there. His head artist (who got in through connections, as she had proudly stated earlier) told me not to feel bad, and that maybe a different studio, 'studio-that-is-known-to-exploit-workers', MIGHT take me if I worked harder.

I've been disillusioned and uninterested in trying ever since.

The only reason my parents ever even let me follow my dreams in the first place is because I worked my ass off and proved to them that there IS employment and there ARE opportunities in this field. That I knew what I was doing.

I knew what I was doing for the longest time.

But now?

Every plan I ever made has been shattered. Every alternative I've tried has ended badly. All my dreams feel like they've been smashed to pieces.

I've been floating almost aimlessly for a while now.

The only option that I feel like I have at this point is to pursue a master's degree, which my mom is thrilled about. B it means going abroad, most probably to the US, which I think is pretty unsafe for me (and most people, oof) right now.

And it means scholarships. My last semester basically tanked my entire GPA since the professor wasn't interested in me or my work, and would tell me quite awful things and pass them off as jokes while grading me poorly on the side. The worst thing they told me, for context, is that I had "predicted" the passing of my close relative with my semester project. It had been 3 days since they had passed at that point.

I don't actually WANT to get a master's degree, especially right now (I always wanted to do it after I worked for a few years and on my own dime), but everyone seems so excited for it and I don't know what to do. I suppose that worst case it could delay my problems for another 2 years or so, but it's REALLY expensive and I shouldn't do it if my heart isn't in it.

But I feel like don't have any other options. My dad tells me to start my own business. My mom wants me to do my master's. I feel like a failure and everyone else I know seems to be thriving, getting jobs and doing well with masters.

I genuinely don't know what to do. I've been trying to figure out a solution for MONTHS now, and everyone I turn to has neither had an answer nor any helpful advice. It's like life is trying to get me to quit, and is making things worse and worse.

TL, DR - I got an animation degree and haven't gotten any jobs since I graduated, and now I don't see any options besides getting a master's, which I don't actually want to do.

Any and all genuine advice is great. I don't know if anyone is going to see this, but I'd be grateful for any words at all right now. Thank you.

[isjasz]

🎇INPRNT SHOP OPEN🎇

YIPPEE I FINALLY DID IT THIS TOOK SO LONG OH MY GOD. But yeah you can now buy my prints if you wish!!!!!!

Including way too many pieces from the desertduo daily challenge i did #dddaily4sherin and a whole bunch of other pieces, all requested by you guys <3 tysm to everyone who helped me select my pieces!

Giant shout out to thello sillyfairygarden for helping me out with this too, go check out her prints too💥

and now i will stop rambling GO CHECK OUT MY SHOP :D There's a 15% off sale going on too ending tomorrow! (Sept 22)

rbs are super appreciated too🫶!

[housederiva]

Bee wake up, Greg Ellis got arrested for revenge porn

What a horrid and pathetic man... if anyone else forgot who this was (like I did) this was Cullen's voice actor

[skrs-cats]

rut was really good im such a sucker for anything that just wants to be uplifting and genuine. so, here is them :3

[proudfreakmetarusonikku]

but also like. guys you don’t need to leave the minecraft youtube community bc one person is bad to clarify. like. shelby is a minecraft youtuber. a lot of her friends are minecraft youtubers. those friends are supportive and as far as we know all believe her. the vast majority of minecraft youtubers are like. fine. this shit is something that Happens because Abusers are Manipulative, going to another hobby will Not shield you from anything and you’re not immoral for liking something bad people also liked. which is. one of the biggest video games ever. like in this situation no one was knowingly harbouring an abuser and it seems everyone was supportive. this is just a case of some people being shit, not anything to do with mcyt. hell, the guy hasn’t been on minecraft in like a year lmao.

i fully understand why the content might be uncomfortable to you guys now but like, please don’t self flagellate and cut yourself off from an entire genre of media because of one guy again. i saw that happen after the dream stuff and a lot of people ended up losing important things because they made rash decisions and felt like they Had to leave. but please. take one deep fucking breath. this has happened before. this has happened so much before, and in ways far worse than this. because abusers, unfortunately, exist. you should not feel guilty for being manipulated by a manipulative abuser, don’t blame yourself. do what you have to, but please, please keep in mind that the majority of minecraft youtube is fine. it is fine to continue engaging with it. it’s fine to be manipulated by an abuser and it’s not your fault. please don’t make rash decisions and end up losing things you care deeply about and being unable to get them back. distance yourself all you want, but please be careful to not do so out of emotional self harm from the guilt. that’s something this fandom encourages far too much- even outside of this- and it’s unhealthy and anyone expecting it of you is cruel.

[forlay]

physique of a wiener dog

@titus-uno-cpa-fcpa-and-cgma

[da-janela-lateral]

As much as some of the MP100 minis are really funny I don't mention that Reigen one in which he tries to take advantage of an attractive woman that came for a massage in this blog. I don't know, he can be a selfish prick sometimes but that didn't feel like him at all.

[sleepoutro]

Cancer, Riot Fest

[michameinmicha]

If you've never watched a BobbyBroccoli Video please do yourself a favour and check him out - his videos are fascinating, well-told and look amazing

(I genuinely have a bit of an art crush on him because his stuff is so good 🙈)

Here's one of his videos about something happening in science (you don't need to know anything about physics, he explains things very well)

He's one of those youtubers i often forget are an absolute favourite of mine until he releases another video and i remember 'oh right him! i love his stuff!!!'

[rozeoverdose-main]

HOLY SHIT

[coollyinterferes]

The unmistakable sound of footsteps approaching begins to fill the air. Whoever is coming seems to have brought some company along…

They are getting closer… and closer… and closer…

…and closer…

……until..................

"Goooooood evenin'!!" Comes the loud greeting from a certain blond man. A big smile on his face and all.

"We beg your pardon for our prolonged absence. It was completely beyond our control..." Then adds the gentleman standing by his side, apologizing on behalf of both, offering a genuine smile along with the apology.

"...BUT! We're back!" And hopefully for good this time…

[thevioletcaptain]

[hibouxz]

anyone remember that one 2013 meme. its literally rinshi

[californiaquail]

anyone else feeling fundamentally incapable of adjusting to society. also just discovered there's a 30 tag limit which i can't believe i've never hit before

[criscura]

I want to get to the good part of this blastvoid thing I'm writing but i do NOT want to write the part before it and I'm procrastinating so fucking hard

Like i know what i want and it'll be satisfying but it's like the reverse of eating beef jerky, where this is the tough gross part you just need to swallow before getting to the fucking SPPIUCCE

[scribe-cas]

WRITEBLR BE PROUD OF ME.

After 5 years

FIVE YEARS!!

Of letting this

STUPID FUCKING SERIES SLOW COOK

I now

FINALLY

HAVE A SOLID PLOT OUTLINE FOR MY FIRST BOOK. COMPLETELY WRITTEN OUT.

There will be empty spaces and things to fill in here and there but by god. It's all written out. It's all there. I put enough scenes in a row and was able to reorganize them until they made one coherent plot line. I am god