#guys I'm being so for real right now it doesnt matter and i don't care

[sameasieverwas]

Can people please stop telling me Kendall Roy technically didn't kill someone. Girl?? As if I care????

[falil]

So

I had this idea

The Miya twins

being brothers yk

forgot their first names so it'll just be blondie and gray except they're both actually brownhaired here since they're like 13 yo or smt (bare with me 🙏)

basically the prompt is "Gray : How can I be homophobic, my bitch is gay

Blondie: I'M NOT!!?"

They both share pretty much the same taste in girls, okay

Like every time Blondie sees a pretty girl at school, he'll tell Gray and if Gray finds a hot actress/female singer, he'll tell Blondie...and it kind of became one of their things.

But as he grows up Blondie slowly realizes that he also finds this guy from their volleyball club kinda pretty 🤨?

Okay, boys can be pretty too so what? It can't be that big of a deal 🙄

And oh, well, the lead actor in the movie Gray just put on on their shared laptop was also pretty hot 🤨?

Blondie was reeeally trying to focus on the lead actress- which is the reason they picked this movie in the first place- but was the scene where the lead actor rip off his shirt really that necessary🤨🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈??? NO he think the fuck NOT

Of course he wasn't going to discuss it with their parents and certainly not with Gray because he would tell their parents, so he did what all teenagers his age do at that age.

Googling it.

The twins have to share a computer at the moment since Gray spilled fcking Sprite on his... and that's how he found out about Blondie's search history (cuz that dumbss forgot to erase it and seems like he doesnt know about private browser mode neither)

Gray: omg ya so gay!!

Blondie: wtf-

Gray (showing the history) : I'm so going ta tell ma and pa!!

Blondie: What?! No, ya won't!! (he was really starting to panic and tried to get the computer back)

Gray: Damn, relax dude, I'm just messing with ya- ya can tell me, ya know that right? I won't judge ya.

Blondie: ya literally judging me, right now!!

Gray: Yeah, right, I was just saying, cuz like- actually how do they do that? Seems like a real pain in the ass -if ya know what I mean, huh 😏

Blondie: SHADDUP, I'm not gay!! and why did ya just watch it? Maybe ya the one who likes these kind of things!

Blondie: I'm not-

Gray: Well I'm certainly not the one bothored about it and who looks like he's about ta burst into tears

Gray: yeah whatever, I dont care

He was already moving on so fast, watching the stupidest video on ytb, eating popcorn

Blondie (with a pout) : Seriously, does it really not bother ya? at all?

Never did he really care what others thought of him. but maybe his brother's opinion mattered. A little.

Gray (already forgot the subject, mouth full with popcorn): what?

Blondie: urg. the gay thing.

Gray: Like I said, whatever. I don't care

Blondie: and... ya won't tell da parents?

Gray: Why should I

Blondie: I don't know... I thought ya would want yer revenge bc I snitched on ya, about the cookies and all

Gray: oh I am going to get my revenge. but not now. not with that. besides, I think ya're bi, not gay

Blondie: by?

Gray: yeah, like bisexual. it means ya like both men and women

Blondie: How do ya know all that 🤨🏳️‍🌈?

Gray (shrugs): Stuff I read on da internet. Ya know. when ya know how to use it.

Blondie: Oh fuck off! (pushes him aside to sit and watch the video with him)

So they did kept their thing of showing each other someone they personally find attractive.

turns out they do not share the same tastes in guys at. all.

Fin.

[sleepless-in-southlands]

I mean I get the feeling of what you mean with tongues & teeth, but who am I to pass a chance to ask -taz

guy who hasn't stopped thinking about the post since they reblogged last night: good being taz please imagine i am gesturing unhingedly at the conspiracy wall while you read this

bc i mean the main most obvious bit of it is. well. they Are all mob bosses (*and right hand) who do kill and torture and commit crime so yeah the blood on hands is pretty clear to see they are not hiding that

the fun part is the way it applies to all the dynamics just in different ways/to different extents

mumbo and scar probably have it the Least because like. theyre both bosses, they both know what they're doin, scar has a thing for blood and all of them have a thing for torture, honestly this is like flirting to them. mumbo says i have blood on my hands and unfortunately this makes him irresistible to scar

mumbo and grian have it but in a funny like, almost reverse way? i have a different post that kinda touches on this already and it's pretty well established in the fics that they Do Not Care what crimes/evils the other is committing, but they both deep down wish the other Wasnt in the business™. not because they want them living a life on the str8 and narrow, but because they want the other to be Happy and Safe and things you cant be in a literal killer of a workplace. but despite the fact that either of them would immediately quit and abandon the South the second the other did, they both have this thought process that. the other doesnt want to leave, so it would be cruel to ask them, and of course neither will leave the other so theyve sorta deadlocked themselves in a situation that doesnt really exist. i need you, i need you to be safe, i want you to leave but i cant ask that, i want to stay with you whether that's here or there or the ends of the earth, i cannot overemphasize how ridiculous it is that these two will do Literally Anything for the other yet neither ever seems to put two-and-two together that that could also include things like Being Safe and Saying I Love You

none of that paragraph made any sense but the feeling is there . ok

now . scar and grian . boy oh boy. putting this one under a cut bc a) gets a bit long b) technically touches on stuff that hasn't yet (but will!) come up in the fics themselves so like. idk if anyone cares about slowly written fanfic spoilers but yknow youve been warned

just. to Start. as very recently established scar has a Too Close thing. anyone getting too close is a threat, for scar and also themselves. scar (accidentally) lets mumbo get close and now it's all I Trust You And Because Of That I Don't Trust You I'm Sorry, scar (accidentally) lets grian get close and now he is not beating the allegations from bdubs

but GRIAN. oh he's the real one of all this with him and scar

see this is the thing i havent got too much in fic but the main reason grian obviously knows he likes scar and vice versa but wont do anything Real about it is like the epitome of the post. in grian's view of self, Everything he is can be summed up and finished at 'mumbo's right hand'. mumbo and scar, they can be somewhat normal, they can be something outside of the business (ignoring all their torture dates), but grian- he cant

grian is mumbo's right hand; mumbo will always be his number one priority, no matter what. he cant- and wont- give anyone else an equal amount of time/care/etc. grian's a facade and sharp edges and the Essence of the business and it doesnt matter what he thinks of scar or what scar thinks of him, that will never change

(this isnt a problem for grian, he prides himself on being Mumbo's Right-Hand as his entire identity, but he knows what it costs the one other person who might want to get close to him)

(this also isnt a problem for scar, as we will later see and have already kinda seen, bc scar has no problem with sharp personalities and he's arguably much too onboard with being mumbo and grian's third, he's just in denial about it)

but. Despite. Despite that. grian does want scar close. he already kinda is by default, given he's dating mumbo, but he wants to be close past that too even tho he knows (he thinks) they cant be, that it would only be cruel to scar. he sticks by mumbo and refuses to drop the professionalism and Mr. Chronos but also he sees scar struggling and he goes

im going to Get Close, and that's a Threat, and i know you know that, i know you know the danger, but you're still letting me and i wont stop myself. cant i want to get close? say no, you're saying yes, you think ill kill you and i Will, hand on your neck i could kill you right now, are we enemies? say yes. say yes and let me stay here anyways. i dont want to hurt you but i want you close and this is a contradiction. i will continue to make our relationship oddly tension filled until whenever we reach the point that i realize you Do Not Care about any of the warnings i have been trying to give you. why do i always write scarian like this

anyways. i think that was a lot of me saying nothing but still do you understand. how they are all making things harder for themselves then they need to be

[fruitmagazine]

ok oversharing story under this because i need to let out this and i have no one to told about and this is my diary😋

ok so the other day i had a "fight" with my mom and i mean it wasnt even a fight but all started because she was LIKE ALWAYS telling me story and with her narrative has to use to most hurtful adjectives against EVERYONE and at one point she was telling me how she stopped being someone's friend because they had an abortion and she told be how against she was about abortion and whatever she has made it so clear in the past so i didnt care much but then she started to talk about her OWN sister using again the most horrible adjectives against her and calling her a slut ans so and i was like 🤨🤨 but then out of nowhere she started to compare MY SISTER (HER OWN DAUGHTER) to my aunt and saying how she isnt her life right and god forbids one day she gets pregnant because it's obvious she is gonna abort and this is when i got MAD FOR REAL and i told her really careful because i know her and i know you can't really dialogue with her that all the things she was saying were not nice and i even told her that i KNEW she wasnt trying to be mean on purpose but she needed to stop saying things like that about my sister because she has hurt her before and even if she wanted to have sex with everyone it was her life and wasnt nothing wrong with that and even on that situation didnt meant she was gonna get pregnant and if she did WELL ABORTION IS NOT A SIN and omg....OMG BESTIES she acted like ive told her to kill herself like she told me that basically she couldnt tell us ANYTHING because we always judge her and she is from a different generation and we had no patience with her and AGAIN i try to really be careful with my words and told her that I KNEW and that she sometimes needed to also be more flexible and try to change her mind, be nicer about what she says and i told her that she in the past has told me and my sister terrible things and she doesnt even realize and thats fucked up but whatever AND SHE SNAPPED AGAIN lol she told me that nowadays she couldnt say anything and we were immature for talking things so PERSONALLY and that we needed to GROW UP AND MOVE ON 💀💀💀 she kept talking but at this point i was like about to cry and scream so i just looked at her and she told me "AND DONT LOOK AT ME LIKE THAT MICHEL (she never calls me that 💀)" so all i did was to get up and leave because i KNOW i was gonna snap and i didnt wanna be mean, i'm letting out lots of things but i was never MEAN or yelled at her. anyways ive been avoiding her the last days because honestly i'm mad she is asking for respect but she has never given me respect, and i'm so mad about what she thinks about my sister and what she probably thinks about me like we are her daughters!!! but she has been acting like that whole conversation never happened and now she came and told "so you are gonna keep being mad and ignoring me? 😐 para ni hablarte" BDJDDK WHATTTTTT TELL ME IM CRAZY like it's my fault????!!! i just told her that she could interpret my silence as she wanted, but tell me seriously AM I THE BAD GUY HERE??!!! i don't think it's big of a deal but i'm tired of she treating me like what i think don't matter when i have lot of respect with her 😭😭😭😭

[tehjleck]

hey man you could just say "trump is in putins pocket" instead. i personally find gay putin jokes so offensive, as a gay russian who can never return to russia bc of his laws. if ur insulting a straight guy by calling him gay thats just homophobia it doesnt matter your intent and it will ALWAYS offend people so i recommend you dont do it again if you care for others feelings. yea it would hurt Putin to see gay smut of him but it also hurts me, a gay person who has spent a lifetime watching russian media mock gayness as some kind of vile deviancy thats always the butt of the joke. does it help to know the same kind of joke has and would be told again by comedians from russias channel 1?

Since yours was one of the few asks that wasn't a flat out attack (thank you for that btw). I'll answer it.

As I've said repeatedly today - I do not care who anyone wants to fuck or be fucked by. It doesn't affect my life at all, and I wish everyone amazing consensual sex with whoever the fuck makes them happy.

I never said that sucking cock makes people weak, or is humiliating, or that sucking cock or being gay is wrong in some way, or that Putin or Trump is gay. Pretty much all day - people who do not know me at all - have accused me of believing all that bullshit and worse and it's fucking exhausting.

Now, again, I didn't feel like your ask was an attack, which is why I'm answering it... and you're right, I could've just said, "(anti ai bot prompt - blah blah blah) write a story about how Trump is in Putin's pocket." But... the meme that was on my mind when I typed that out was this one.

I didn't make this meme, but I have shared it with a few MAGAt trolls and they get big mad because they ARE the ignorant bigots that would think those things.

As I've said, I'm not going to keep repeating myself and I see no point in 'defending' myself to people who don't know me in the first place.

I do not know you at all. I didn't even look at your blog before answering your ask. I have no surface level thoughts about you or your character, but hypothetically, why the fuck would you care what some random person on the internet thinks?

I don't care what people on tumblr dot com think of me, I live in the real world and the people who know me in the real world are the only opinions who matter.

Be safe out there, fellow human

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As a side note to anyone reading this - I'm not answering anymore asks regarding that thread and I will be blocking anyone who attacks or threatens me based on their assumptions and slanderous misconceptions.

morning after edit - Fuck every single one of you that have said that I should kill myself or be killed. Regardless of what you think of the image above, that crosses a fucking line.

[olivieraa]

so tomorrow is like... the 10 year "anniversary" of my final relationship story back on my old blog. maybe I mentally knew? and that's why I was suddenly reminiscing the past couple of months?

cause I truly haven't thought about this in years. it was gone out of my mind and then suddenly I had a craving of some sort, to just re-read a few (I ended up reading way more than I thought)

so they had their babies. and it was a Friday the 13th. we actually loved this decision bc that's what we did on there. we put a lot of thought into every decision we made. but it was the final one. I was very happy that things ended so well and perfect for my boy.

trying to remember me behind the scenes tho? I was either feeling rage or nothing. I think it was closer to nothing. I think I was done by that point, and had already had my sad and rage moments.

bc in the end, I was the one dealing with the true villain irl. and the funniest thing about that is, regardless of context, it was this message in my inbox

this was an odd thing for me to see the day I saw it bc I actually think I saw it a year after it was sent. cause I had that account blocked. and I think when I was erasing porn blogs from my blocked list (for some reason), I obviously unblocked this account and then saw these messages in my inbox, which also included

I guess the funniest thing overall, or maybe the most anger inducing? is this idea that she doesn't see herself as the bad guy, but villains don't know they're villains, do they?

but in the end, its now been 10 years. I've a vague idea of what she's doing with her life currently. but no matter how much she has changed, literally no matter how different a person she is right now, if you don't make up for past mistakes in some way, then you're still the bad guy.

if you dont care about hurting someone you cared about, and years pass and little messages like these are the best you can do, then you're still the bad guy. whether 10 years has passed or not.

she never actually tried to be forgiven bc she didn't actually care who she hurt. and not caring that she hurt the person she claimed was the best thing in her life, is truly despicable.

but y'know, I'd actually forgotten I did this. I forgot that I messaged one or her real life friends to ask them to keep me up to date on her if anything bad happens to her, bc despite my anger, I didn't just stop caring. but its when 2 years passed I think it was, I deleted her friend and wanted nothing to do with her.

the "glad you're still alive" hits different when I look at it now. it sounds... so empty. this was 2 years after we stopped being friends. imagine a message to me now. could it even get emptier than that message? a 10 year check up message? I actually doubt it, that one already sounds heartless.

but here's the thing... I am the most forgiving person. I'm the definition of "I'll forgive but never forget". I've too good of a memory to forget things. if she ever wanted to talk, I'd talk. and prob forgive her despite how much she hurt me.

I actually did it sort of recently. I forgived a guy who had been out of my life for 3 years. he hasn't even been apologetic about it, he's been OVERLY apologetic about it. and I've told him I forgive him. we talk almost every day. I had sleep paralysis the other night and he comforted me. but will I ever forget what he did? no. will we ever be like we were? no. but I forgive him. bc he apologised and meant it. it was heartfelt. that's all I've ever asked for.

but with her? I legitimately dont think she thinks she did anything wrong. I think she's gone on with her life believing there's no loose ends from her past. I think if I died, she'd feel absolutely nothing from it.

and this is regardless of if she agrees with my current political and feminist views. she could be super anti-radfem for all I know, Ive no idea. but that doesnt matter, bc even if all these feminists posts weren't here and she knew none of this about me, I still think she'd feel the exact same.

but anyway, I obviously moved on with my life. again, I think my never-forgets brain just knew that this year was 10 years. cause the craving to go back and re-read was weirdly strong and super random. and she's obviously moved on too. and I hope she's happy. I used to not care if she was happy or not. but now I do. I'm too now old to bother with a 10 year grudge. the situation is "ah well". that's how I see it now. whether she sees this or not, who knows. I never know if she's watching.

my final message before I stop talking about this forever would be:

I'm willing to talk. We shared something for a few years of our lives and tho it may have only meant something to you in the moment, it impacted me for years afterwards until I eventually got over it. The last time I would have thought about it was 4 years later, in 2018. I was with my new best friend, and she was holding me on her lap, and we were drunk, at a college party, and I went into reminiscing mode bc it was Feb 8th. And she comforted me. But that was the last time.

I dont know how different you are now. But I do know, even when we were friends, you were hard to talk to. You "ran away" a lot. I'm a "lets fix the problem" person, you were a "lets just bury the problem" person. Never wanting to see it through to the end. Just, forget about it and move on. I'd only be willing to talk if an actual talk was going to happen, and we got it all out.

But like I said before, I dont think you even know you're the bad one. I dont think you think you need to be forgiven. So its up to you, if you actually acknowledge what you did and want to finally move past it. That or you truly already have, and a talk with me is something you couldnt give a damn about, bc you dont think anything needs to be forgiven and you've changed too much in 10 years to ever bother returning to a problem you dont believe existed.

But yeah, this is the last time I'll talk about it. Its officially 10 years as of tomorrow. Lets see if my my brain remembers the 20th anniversary. Only time will tell.

[the-woild-is-y-erster]

I'm going to bed soon, but I just want to say (as an adult that dropped outta college and then went back) that your education is not final. It's not be all end all.

It'll hurt for a while, everythin hurts for a bit, but either you'll tell her or you won't, and that's okay. Your choices are for you, and we all care about you man. You're not stupid for jus like? feelin feelins. All that shits totally normal and valid but you hafta stick with life nd with us or whoever you ends up spending life with. I can't help much nd I ain't gonna pretend I can (<- on the aroace spectrums) with the whole love thing, but jus know that it's ALWAYS better to write your thoughts out then keep em inside. That way you can come back later and look at them nd see your thought processes nd stuff. Or you can write em out nd delete it if that helps.

Life might suck right now, but it ain't gonna suck forever. The only way that it WILL suck forever is if it's cut short, so don't let that happen, y'know? If life tries to kick you down, throw mfing hands and take your time and get back up when you can. It don't matter when you do, just that you do at all.

I dunno. I dunno if this helps, but I'm jus tryin to say that you're not alone and youse cared about nd also jesus christ my typing style help god please not the newsies the infection (/lh). Stay safe man. - Jack

fuckyou im sobbing now/lh

i just

i grew up being taught that showing any emotion besides Happy or Neutral is Bad!™️ so its really difficult for me to like

deal with anything? because i was taught to push feelings down and stick it out, and my parents have made it all worse by never showing emotion either. i didnt see my dad cry in front of me until i was fourteen, and the only time ive seen my mom cry was when i got a bad grade, so its all fun and games here. and my pa is literally bashitbonkersoutthewazzoo. like he's a conservative (we live in the south us for context so its even Worse!) and he taught me to shoot a gun at the ripe age of three! and theres a gun in every room and he's a. he reveres ben shapiro and jesse kelly and those guys, and i spent the entire quarantine listening to him talk abt how the election was faked and how covid was either fake or brought by the chinese (he couldnt decide) and hes severly racist!!! yippee!!/s so feelings arent a big thing in my house.

added onto the fact that i was raised christian? the first time i looked at a girl differently, or the first time i realized how uncomfortable i was jn my own body was horrifying to me. im atheist (ish? it's complicated) now so it doesnt matter to me, but i still have all that internalized crap abt liking her.

and i have severe pain in both of my knees like literally 24/7 and ive had it for YEAAARS but my ma didnt believe me until super recently and so i only just got an appointment with an orthopedic doctor! because the first general doctor told me i was faking it<3

and!!!!!!! the real fukcing kicker!!!! my parents have blatantly refused to pay for my education!!!!!!! like outright and several times!!!!!! only because i wanna get my bachelors in fine arts in theater!!!! they said it was a stupid degree and that i would get nowhere<3 so ive got that ahead of me too. and the last time i got a bad grade, i got grounded for two months. and it was a 79.5 on a minor quiz.

so we have fun here.

but i have all these plans!!! and dreams!!!! and places i want to go to and food i want to eat and languages i wanna learn!!! so i know that i'm not gonna off myself, but sometimes.

sometimes it seems reaaaally tempting.

but i really genuinely appreciate you, and riff, and toff, and dave, because you guys are so much nicer and more sympathetic than anyone i know irl.

so like.

love you/p <3

[system-of-a-feather]

I guess I'll settle with this soundtrack for now. But honestly the whole autism diagnosis came up because we were trying to pass by one of our long term confusions by which is just how extremely low personal understanding and motivation to be "part of a group" or to gain approval or maintain attachments and just this general deeply rooted social instinct and all that people seem to have that we just really don't. Cause it goes beyond just trauma and dissociation on the account that we literally don't have a part that expresses grief over our parents neglect or abuse in the sense of being loved, nor do we have a part that clings to an abuser nor have we ever really been motivated to try to make someone like us beyond how we were taught to "pick people that needed us to be our friends cause they'd be more loyal" (its fucked in practice we know). We just have this huge subtype of alter like completely missing in our system and have little reason to suspect they are there. We have this large adversion to molding to someone else's standards or joining a group someone else made because we don't innately care about JOINING anything and those that we do, we have a horrible tendency to dominate and take it over and co-opt the group under us cause we don't change for our environment and peers, we change the environment and peers for us or leave

And we keep it in check and shit, but every few months our subsystem especially (minus XIV) sit here and try to figure out what is wrong with us (not derogatory, cause we dont care if something is "wrong" or "broken" its whatever, it just is an INCOMPLETE picture and mystery we cant solve) cause in every trauma space, DID space, AuDHD and all space we go into we always just get hit with the realization that we REALLY don't understand or relate to what seems to be this innate need and drive and desire for belonging and how most people experience love, cause we have parts that exudingly love people and things, but even then we still look at it and go "well we could live without it at any point"

So its just always baffled us. NPD and ASPD kinda explained shit but not really, and Autism kinda explained shit, but not really and C-PTSD, DID, and attachment styles explained shit but not enough that it felt like the right piece in the puzzle

And honestly I think its a combination between what our therapist called one of the three main types / theories of autism which is the "doesn't differentiate between objects and people in terms of empathy and attachment" combined with disorganized/dismissive attachment and the autism + excessive trauma and neglect + attachment style issues + the amount of crisises we faced at a young age and survived ended up just creating this stupidly absurd independence and sense of self agency that we just kinda completely missed this whole... social support thing cause we just jumped into creating social systems and organizations before ever being part of one

But thats a lot of hogwash, cause really we still never got a clear issue or fully pieced together answer as to What the Fuck is with us, cause with however much we've hung around in mental illness communities we really havent found many people with the sheer level of deep rooted hyper independence and deep inability to understand the need to fit in like, at all.

Its weird shit honestly and it really doesn't matter to us in practice or how we see ourselves as we have zero intent to fix it anymore than we already keep an eye out to keep it from being maladaptive - XIV everytime we spend time pondering this always goes "for real guys who TF cares it serves us like a god" - but Riku and I sit here with our hands on our chin cause we know it doesnt mean shit but we really like to have our completed webbed visions of how shit works internally and with the world and thosr around us and this thing is just a black hole in our understanding of ourselves as a whole and our relation to others.

(Btw im a gatekeeper so I'm allowed to do this and give Riku the pass to do this, I've been greenlit by Ray as well so dw /hj)

See the thing in our system thats annoying about being a fragment is that unlike the more developed parts that have a musical signature and natural draw to music that the system then intentionally conditions and gives rights to - I just don't have anything that stands out and I'm like "You know maybe I'll be involved more, I kind of like how things make my brain work, I should try to set up a means of contact by finding my music signature" and I just don't have it or any clue what it would be

Like yay. This is helpful

-404

[writingforatwistedworld]

Phantom bride event-Player is their last option Pt. 4

Characters: Cater Diamond, Azul Ashengrotto, Rook Hunt

Self-aware au

I do not take any responsibility for you reading this no matter which age group you are from!

WARNINGS: Yandere themes, obsession, possessiveness, imprisonment, death, unhealthy mindset, unhealthy relationship

We know chatty Cater, always positive Cater, backstab ing-mood Cater but have you already met silent Cater?

Like, the scary kind of silent....

BUT there is one thing that is for certain

He is planning to get rid of her right now

I mean, my man is pretty obsessed and there is no way he would let some danger close to his person of obsession

It's a tough life as the overseer, I know I know.... always being the center of people who plot others demise as soon as they come too close, I know I know....

Cater wishes he could have his phone right now

Not because he wants to take a pic (ok maybe that as well...)

But rather because hello, can someone call some sort of protection agency??! LIKE THE MILITARY OF THE QUEENDOM???! MAYBE???!!!

Silent, brooding Cater... idk about what scares you but that is just dangerous

I mean, his dream is breaking in two right in front of his eyes and then you are also in danger

Mutates within a millisecond into Sebek 2.0 Heartslabyul version

You get why I'm so scared?

The only difference is that is that he doesnt know how to handle a sword but he also does labour by taking care of he garden so there has to be some strength in his arms

So yeah... I would recommend hiding behind Lilia because after this is over and you don't have a shield made of meat then he will 1. Pick you up, 2. Take you to his room and 3. Look you into there until he garduated

It's just for your protection! Don't you understand??!

His mood swings scare me (no, for real)

The moment you eternity full on crying the sea out of his eyes

And... why is no one entering after you??!

Are you seriously taking her on all on your own????!!!!!

Suddenly all that sadness is thrown from the ship into the sea (I know, bad comparison) and left is a angry, protective, obsessed, murderous octopus

He is screaming like Ursual when she was... uh... you know what

But oh no, not because he is also... that... but rather from rage (ok maybe a bit on the inside but that is a different kind of Sushi)

At first he is screaming profanities at the blue annoyance

And then he “sober up” and starts trying to make deals with the guards

“Make me move and you will have wonderful hair in no time” -Azul, Dorm leader of Octavinelle, desperate

Uh no... I would like to think that he knew that people won't agree to such a thing when you screamed just seconds ago...

He is just so scared that you might die!

Suddenly he has the urge to stuff that cake into his mouth...

Stress eating.....

But again, please hug the octopus afterwards! He needs it!!!

And also empty that bucket of water over there over his head... that body temperature of his can't be healthy.....

What am I supposed to say? The guy is ready to end their second stage of existence when you were just in wedding attire

Ok but let me think... uh... Panic! Yes, panic!

He was there, one of the last.... and then he got fresh-frozen

You ever wondered how a speechless Rook looked like? Now you know it

Madame over there just killed something in him

His heart rate is also way too fast to be considered healthy

Par ta perfection, tu es tellement en danger!!!

All that training, all that hpunting is for naught as soon as you face danger and he isn't able to do anything

But then again, does that mean that he is worthless? (No Rook you... and he doesn't listen....)

He is such a disappointment!

How could he ever dare to step close to you again??!

Usually I would say, run, don't turn back and start a new life after getting your face and name changed

But now... how about hugging him?

He really, really needs it

Bu after that take your distance again

We wouldn't want to find you imprisoned after all! Right, ma chère perfection?

[chubearr]

jwcc s5 predictions??

mainly my take on daniel kon and if he could be the actual next villain in the next season...

its just bc i think kenji's dad being an automatic "good guy" is just too easy.

we know he was the one who told kash to keep going with the dino fights and was really strict with him. the guy legit runs mantah corp— or at least is one of higher ups (don't remember which, either way, no good). and from what we can assume, mantah corp is super greedy.

they're probably the reason why kenji's family got so rich and was able to live so lavishly— esp in the dinosaur department. so even if daniel kon was a nice guy, he's definitely not going to turn sides so easily bc he bascially owes MC everything, and could lose everything if he betrays them.

let's say he really does care abt kenji like a normal dad, but since work makes him rarely around its like "a sacrifice he is willing to make" so that his son can live a rich life. that could work too, and maybe all of this IS for kenji, even though he has 0 clue it's doing more harm than good.

i saw fans saying kash is going to plan something or get daniel killed, and that could be a possibility i guess? i mainly think kash is all talk, and since his boss is physically here its too intimidating to try something.

but ig it could go something like:

daniel kon still wants to continue work but with the kids in the way he makes BRADXs keep them confined, kash would rather just get rid of them but obv boss isnt gonna kill his own son, over time and some talking kenji manages to convince his dad to change sides, last minute kash betrays daniel using the BRADs and gets him killed.

like i could see it, but thats super dark for jwcc. i mean obviously we've had so many deaths, but they were never actually connected to our kids— other than darius's dad, but his was a past event —so killing off daniel kon, right in front of kenji, the season where he's barely having the spotlight, just wouldn't seem right. i wouldn't put jwcc past it and it would be something new, but i don't think itd be allowed (also thats so dark wth)...

if anything the same thing above ^^^ happens, but daniel doesnt die and instead fights along side the kids and we get some father-son bonding finally (and i want daniel's take on kenji's new girlfriend hehe), that would be a better way to go.

however, no matter what, considering when he's revealed in the last ep— his first lines in front of the kid +co who were ruining his work:

"You shouldn't leave important devices like this around."

it's such a villain intro. Kash starts him off my saying 'Boss' and you just know its the real big-bad. and the way Mr.Kon casually walks in basically taunting the kids, letting them know they made a mistake, is just so intimidating itself (and i'm pretty sure he was the one who came and bailed Kash out and then made this whole plan to trap the kids. like intellect +100)... whatever he plans for this kid and his helpers are unknown bc hes a new threat and that's whats scary. at least with kash we know he is crazy, but stupid crazy (like he's actually a genius but as a villain he's dumb)

"They could fall into the wrong..."

then he sees the kids, and not only that but his own son.

so when he first appeared and kash was freed, he says 'its no wonder you got outsmarted by a child'. singular. child. so we can assume they knew there (was darius, but had no clue who the helpers were, maybe mae but last time they knew she should be dead). so they don't even know there's other kids.

when kash sees them, its not an impact bc hes crazy and down to kill kids anyway.

but then daniel kon sees them. he could either be in shock that it's just more kids, or just bc its his own son— who he thought died back in nublar (also add maybe because of kenji's death he decided to just go off and do whatever the heck MC needs bc now he has nothing to lose, which is sad asf).

so i think it can go this way:

- mr.kon continues with work but keeps the kids confined so they dont interfere, but they eventually find a way and try to stop this whole project for good. daniel gets redeemed by his own son and kash ends up being the villain still because of his control of the BRADs (his ring was super foreshadowed this season, so i think the focus will be to get it or destroy it next season).

but what if,

- mr.kon continues with work but keeps the kids confined so they dont interfere, but they eventually find a way and try to stop this whole project for good. he is the actual villain and takes kenji by his side, wanting him to inherit his place for when kenji is older. this divides the kids and kenji, whos torn about choosing his dad or his real found family.

EITHER WAY kash is gonna die next season bc we havent had a death in so long, and he's the perfect candidate.

him and also maybe mae, bc shes been alive for too long knowing this show.

maybe her death could even make daniel reconsider his life choices? but also consider the fact when she fake-died and kash relayed the message to daniel, it didn't seem like he was bothered (it could also be bc his depression over his son's death— again maybe even the whole reason he was doing these terrible things).

tldr, i want daniel kon to be a villain in some way no matter what— they could do so much angsty and heartaching things with him.

and look at their reactions... next season is gonna hurt no matter what.

save my son pls.

[urban-unease]

Interview with the Vampire Thoughts!

Spoilers Abound!

After a second, drunker viewing of the pilot, here be my drunk thoughts. More sober thoughts may or may not come. IDK:

When I first saw the shots of Lestat at dinner with Louis' family a few days ago I immediately thought about all the ways smart writers could convey this scene. My favorite idea was if the writers conveyed Louis' family as almost immune to Lestat's charms. It would make so much sense! As a black person, I can say that groups of black folks are not easily won over by white people no matter how supernaturally charming lol. The bar is high for us to let our guard down particularly when a white person you dont know is in your personal space. I love that ultimately even Lestat could recognize that Louis' family was not having it and was not the least bit amused by him.

It's amusing and concerning to me how many people don't know/understand that the "French White" thing is not a IWTV specific thing. I mean this EXACT joke was in a Wanda Sykes special a few years ago.

Lestat is a "I'd vote for Obama a third time" kind of white and this very appropriate for his character.

I've seen complaints about the show talking about Louis' blackness too much and I'm just ?????? I mean, he's telling the story of his life and what it was like to live at that time, so yeah he's gonna talk about the hardships of being black at that particular time. It's the only the first episode and their setting the stage. and lestat is a tactless bitch so of course he's bring up Louis' race in the most grating way possible lol. It's a dog whistle y'all. don't fall for it.

I'll be honest - I never understood what was so special about Book!Louis that Lestat was so obsessed with him. But here I totally get it! Show! Louis is a gay black man out of place, in the margins, struggling to make a life for himself. He has these hidden depths that he cant share with anyone, like his gay identity and his love of the opera. An Jacob Anderson is so captivating. It makes sense to me that Lestat would want him as a companion.

Along these lines - the main reason why Book!Lestat is so attracted to Louis is because he reminds him of his ex. So does this mean show!Nicki is going to be Black? That could be interesting, but also fetishistic and weird on Lestat's part if it's not handled well.

On the note of tact - I dont expect to show to be some thoughtful and deep mediation on race. They're trying....but you know....white people....At the end of the day this a trashy show about vampires and I'm fine about that.

The levitating "sex" scene was vey silly and not as a erotic as I thought it was gonna be (though it was very fun). It was just a gay naked cuddle in the air. To call it a sex scene is hella reaching. But I appreciate the show getting weird.

that being said I want a proper sex scene because it would be an incredible waste of the chemistry between these very hot actors not to have them bone.

Daniel's personality feels on point to me. This feels like the same sassy guy that called Armand an immortal idiot. IDK

Louis' modern apartment feels accurate to his personality. He's one of the view vamps that doesn't care that much about aesthetics and I think the show did a good job of designing a home for him that combines luxury with austerity (I know that doesnt make sense but I cant think of the word right now). Its a cold gray cinder block with gray and wood furnishing. there are pops of red and gold here or there but ultimately it feels like a largely empty space only filled with the most necessary furnishings and space decor.

Grace is wonderful and adorable

rip to Lily. a real one.

I dont think Lestat pushed Paul to suicide. I think Lestat is just classless lol

The show does not do a good job of setting the stage for New Orleans culture for an audience that might be unfamiliar. IDT that Louis' thinking that Lestat's powers are just tricks is that weird when you consider that New Orleans has long been a hot bed of voodoo, witchcraft, and supernatural happenings. New orleans is a place where someone like Marie Laveau could make a name for herself in society as a Voodoo practitioner. It wasn't uncommon for folks of all classes to turn to magic for help with illness, love, and other life matters.

A big mainstream show that dresses and lights black people well - what a concept!

I have more thoughts but my hands are tired 🙃

[omglr]

patiently momming the shit out this fuckin' potential serial killer...

You're now chatting with a random stranger. Say hi!

You both like feminism.

You: hi

Stranger: hi

Stranger: asl

You: 33 f

You: canada

You: you?

Stranger: m22 canada

Stranger: feminist?

You: yes

You: you?

Stranger: fuck no

Stranger: feminism is sexism and hatred of men, why would I support it?

You: meninist?

Stranger: not really

Stranger: just knowing the truth

You: where do you get this information from?

Stranger: online

You: ok

You: have you considered.... reading a book?

Stranger: no

Stranger: because with the ability to be anonymous online people will say the truth without fear of being outed for it.

You: interesting

Stranger: yeah

Stranger: Feminism isnt about equality, its about hatred of men and female superiority

You: ok, if you say so

Stranger: how is it now?

Stranger: not*

Stranger: women demanding a safe space free of men is seen as just fine

Stranger: a male only space is seen as "sexist"

You: uh, do you think their aren't men only space though?

Stranger: feminism cries about male dominance in politics and management positions , but when it comes to male dominance in jobs like trucking, mining, construction etc, feminists dont say a word

Stranger: there is men only, and to feminists thats seen as sexism

You: you seem a little worked up

Stranger: I mean, Boy scouts of America now allows girls in... wtf its the BOY scouts, girls want to be a scout? there is a thing called girl scouts of America too

You: yeah girl guides is a much better organization anyway

You: they also accept boys

Stranger: LMAO wow what guy would joint girl guides.

You: idk, a kid who likes camping and cookies

Stranger: I do like cookies

You: yeah, cookies are great

Stranger: yeah

Stranger: women are also entitled and selfish and think they should get stuff just because they are a woman

You: i think the word entitled gets thrown around a lot to describe people

Stranger: women expect a man to pay for the date.

You: but its mostly about folks asking for respect

Stranger: but I thought you bitches wanted "equality" oh wait...

You: like millenials are real entitled

You: for wanting jobs that pay a living wage

You: says boomers

You: who dont want to pay a living wage

Stranger: yeah

Stranger: but you NEED a living wage

You: yeah, we all need a living wage

Stranger: but women are entitled and think they deserve only the best of the best of the very best men who will do whatever she says and wants and no matter what shes always right

You: this seems like a narrow focus on what women are like

Stranger: its the truth

You: like, this is a pretty shallow stereotype that might be true for like 10% of college girls

Stranger: lol its true for all girls

Stranger: girls are shallow

You: but i guess if thats who you put on a pedestal, shallow girls

Stranger: all girls are shallow

You: mmmm, i mean, you might be misinterpreting women's intentions

Stranger: how so?

You: like if i saw you at a coffee shop and over heard you talking this conspiratorial feminist is evil game, i wouldn't be interested in you

Stranger: Im not 6'0 or taller, im not ripped af and I dont drive a BMW, your not interested in me

You: eh, again, i didn't say that

You: i'm not interested in cars or money or height

Stranger: sure

You: or muscles

Stranger: sure

Stranger: so your a lesbian?

You: but i can tell a dude is a self loathing weirdo pretty quick

You: i'm bi

Stranger: ok

You: women are easier to date

Stranger: sure

Stranger: im 22 and still a fucking virgin

You: for me anyway

You: yeah, that happens

You: some folks are late bloomers

Stranger: LMAO no, women are shallow

You: alright, well if you want to believe that that's up to you, but your world view determines your world

You: so if you can't open your heart and learn to trust women, you'll probably keep thinking worse and worse thoughts about them

Stranger: well im not good looking so...

Stranger: LMAO trust women... that is horseshit.

You: and find yourself in more situations where you can prove yourself right

Stranger: women are nothing but cheaters and liars

Stranger: let me tell you something?

You: ok

Stranger: I met a girl on here 2 yrs ago, shes down in Tennessee, we kept in contact on skype, became friends, fell for each other, admitted our feelings, fell even more for each other, hoped to meet one day, have our first times, maybe end up married and be forever. She met another guy and threw me away.

You: so, you were 20 years old and an internet girlfriend ruined your life forever?

Stranger: nope

Stranger: it just proves how unloyal and unloving women are

You: idk, that sounds kinda stupid

Stranger: plus my 3rd ex cheated after a month, not to mention other BS she did, I'll share if you wanna know,

1st and 2nd ex never even liked me

You: like, i'm being pretty patient with you here

You: this self loathing rap is pretty pathetic

Stranger: lol its hatred of women

You: yeah, its called misogyny

Stranger: and feminism is misandry

You: eh, not really

Stranger: sure

Stranger: women are hypergamous whores

You: eh, i mean, if you and i were the only people on the planet, i would say men are toxic dudes who have little self awareness and say abusive bullshit with so little life experience its kinda tragic if not a little dangerous, and that women are extremely patient and nurturing even to weirdos who don't deserve it

Stranger: sure.

Stranger: if you think im ever going to trust a woman again your insane

You: i guess it was more advice for your sadness but its up to you

Stranger: im not sad

You: eh

Stranger: I just know the bitter truth of life

You: i mean you sound angry, but its obvious where its coming from

Stranger: yeah

You: lol, what is the bitter truth of life?

Stranger: that women are nothing more than shallow unloyal unloving whores who only care about themself, love isnt real. together forever doesnt exist

You: are your parents divorced?

Stranger: never married, dont know my father

You: what's your relationship with your mom like?

Stranger: its fine

You: does she love you?

Stranger: yeah

You: is she loyal to you?

Stranger: i guess. im her only child

You: would she give you her kidney if you needed it?

Stranger: idk, shes not in great health herself tbh

You: would you give her your kidney if she needed it?

Stranger: yeah

You: well that's good

You: have you heard much about internet feedback loops and how it can hurt your self-esteem?

Stranger: yeah

You: i kinda think you should look into your online peer group and figure out if thats who you want to be?

Stranger: Im not on any forums or anything like that

You: like... behind the "women are all cheating selfish shallow whores" is like "a woman would never be loyal to or love me or find me attractive"

Stranger: that is true

You: and that says something about you that isn't true

You: that you aren't unlovable

Stranger: Im not

You: eh, you probably are, or could be

You: just maybe chill with the incel stuff

Stranger: im not. for one im not anywhere near cute. That alone keeps love away.

I have huge trust issues. A short temper,

You: have you considered seeing a therapist?

Stranger: no

You: i've been seeing therapist for like 6 years, they are pretty great

Stranger: well I dont need one

You: what about the trust issues and the short temper?

Stranger: you cant fix those.

You: yeah, that's what therapists do

Stranger: and all it takes is one asshole to come along and destroy it

You: they help you work through those things

Stranger: honestly, I rather just blow up when im man

Stranger: mad*

You: eh, again, you do you, but this is real good advice honestly

Stranger: im fine

Stranger: as for trust issues, I tried to get over it, just to be fucked over again

You: eh, yeah,

Stranger: so I will stay single

You: i have had shit come up in cycles through my life too

You: its hard

Stranger: yeah

You: anyway bud, i should go, but take care of yourself, enjoy this summer :)

Stranger: yeah, but you know whats painful

Stranger: ?

You: what?

Stranger: seeing a hot af girl at the beach in a bikini and knowing I'll never get to smash that

You: dude, just see a sex worker

Stranger: I dont wanna pay for it

Stranger: or get aids

You: eh, don't be cheap and use a condom

Stranger: I am very cheap

You: ok, well, put a fuckin tin can in your room, and everytime you think to yourself "I'm unlovable" but a dollar in it

You: or what ever mean things your brains says to you

Stranger: I've got a peanut butter jar of like $400 change in my room. just because why not

You: yeah, well $400 will get you a good looking woman

Stranger: yeah.. or it can sit here and be mine.

You: or like half an xbox

Stranger: ok

You: ok, good luck

You have disconnected.

[strigoithing]

Chat with Talonius on Chantango

Warning a bit ex-rated. hahaha

talonius (8/17/18 12:55:58 AM): so much potential in a friendship but unfortunately it seems feeling superior to another is more important to you. I dont have to prove what I have or havnt done. I wish you the best of luck in your search, and hope it doesnt eat you.

talonius (8/17/18 12:58:23 AM): ps clearly you've not been around many empaths if you dont shield you create some pretty nasty feed back loops....I'd recommend you look into that.

anamassien76 (8/17/18 1:12:04 AM): I have a headspace so yes tons of empaths. I am a cold one. I don't shield so you cant feed on my energy. I am unliving. a revenant look it up. and you are an idiot when it comes to sex and bondage and only want to take from your partner. I would whip your ass, and small penised freak fifty shades of shit asshole if you thought you could fuck me. You are a virgin son. lol I have trust with my partner when I engage with them in play. You on the other hand just want a quick nut. go home scared boy.

talonius (1:20:12 AM): if your so empathic why cant you read me, theres only one thing you said that bothers me at all because the rest is clearly just anattempt to hurt my feels with a shotgun of insults ment to harm guys. apparently I've upset you in some fashion that i cant quite parse. I get your hurting and feeling superior to a random dude on the interwebs helps fill the hole in you but so does having relationships with people you can share with. either way blessed be you and I wish you the best luck in your journey

anamassien76 (1:20:59 AM): I don't care about your hangups buddy

anamassien76 (1:21:37 AM): I don't want to read you, its not worth it. you think what you want to on spanking and whatever you said drum kit play... there is no such thing as that.

anamassien76 (1:22:16 AM): not in bdsm anyway I mean officially anyway you are free to call it kink i mean everyone started somewhere

anamassien76 (1:23:03 AM): spanking a woman or doods ass takes away from their orgasm they won't arrive right. but then again your a jarhead that does not care about that

anamassien76 (1:23:58 AM): I mean I can wrap panty hose around my hands and get my man's dick off with lube that way and call it scroogling but its still not an active term

anamassien76 (1:25:25 AM): you think i will blush and duck my head and run away... oh that ana massien she's really a prude you hear mr chatango to hurt me too. and no one cares a damn about you and your shit

anamassien76 (1:25:33 AM): erriiicc and todddd

anamassien76 (1:26:22 AM): I am kinky because I have a free mind. But i am not gonna fuck a 5 inched dicked dood who thinks he knows shit because of fifty shades of shit. that is not even a real bondage film

anamassien76 (1:27:02 AM): there is no official voice on bondage its anyones kink and anyones guess, tho the queers, the sunshine queers of france can tell you whatever you wanna know about it.

anamassien76 (1:27:31 AM): they pride themselves on being called sunshine queers too so I am not being against gay folk

talonius (1:27:43 AM): it's kind presumptuous of you to assume everyone orgasms the same way....did I ever insinuate that I had any desire to fuck you....clearly your head isnt on straight you clearly have alot of sexual hangups for someone who labels themself as asexual

anamassien76 (1:28:34 AM): I don't just because i have not fucked you (and I doubt this changes btw) does not mean this is a sexual hangup but you would want me to have hangups because of...miles

anamassien76 (1:29:17 AM): You would not talk to me if you didn't want to fuck me this is chatango aka lets screw chat lol

anamassien76 (1:29:50 AM): everyone does orgasm the same way internally...not outside themselves the same but it works the same way

anamassien76 (1:30:17 AM): I am asexual because I am both male and female energy.

anamassien76 (1:30:56 AM): Honey I have been getting off since i was age 3

anamassien76 (1:31:41 AM): sexual hangups means I would not have come back in this chat to give your foogy ass hay a piece of my mind

talonius (1:31:48 AM): I've clearly seen more woman orgasm than you, because your simply wrong on that. since you believe this is fuckme chat, (i dont feel that way but meh) clearly you want to fuck me which honestly I'm not interested

anamassien76 (1:32:17 AM): I do not want to fuck you. lol I can see you don't last that long

anamassien76 (1:32:42 AM): how do you know they really got off?

anamassien76 (1:32:52 AM): because they moaned?

talonius (1:32:52 AM): because I ask

talonius (1:33:01 AM): because they come back

anamassien76 (1:33:13 AM): lmao a woman's upper body will flush red when she comes

talonius (1:33:26 AM): because I take the time to figure out what triggers them

talonius (1:33:32 AM): every woman is different

anamassien76 (1:33:40 AM): like a sweet blush lol oh because mitchell left me you think he hasn't come back? lmao

anamassien76 (1:33:54 AM): well thats crazy talk sir. I still have the semen in me right now

anamassien76 (1:34:23 AM): You take time in sex to see what triggers your partners orgasm? lol

talonius (1:34:45 AM): yes I do, I know your used to Male orgasms, those are easy.

anamassien76 (1:34:50 AM): I take matters in my own hands I know how to grip my guys dick in my pussy so I will come

anamassien76 (1:35:13 AM): yes I like when they keep spurting rather than pull out and worry

talonius (1:35:23 AM): so what your saying is you choose guys who dont care if you cum?

anamassien76 (1:35:44 AM): they always care usually i come three or four times before we have intercourse

anamassien76 (1:35:51 AM): they go down on me

anamassien76 (1:36:00 AM): they like blood and secretion

talonius (1:36:20 AM): why would they need to do that if your gripping their dick so you cum?

anamassien76 (1:37:03 AM): I said with my pussy. you don't know what i mean apparently. I am riding him or he's fucking me so I grip his dick with my kegels and come that way

anamassien76 (1:37:22 AM): I know how to move my body as its impaled on my man's cock.

anamassien76 (1:38:39 AM): never had a girl do that with you?

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A Really Important Chapter

CaraBanned:

So let's see...how did the last dream end? With Kysme jokingly saying "that totally makes me wanna kiss you" and Liyah just going "Well, why haven't you?" not so jokingly...

I assume there wouldn't be a real action taken right now? Instead, Aaliyah just...turns her head back towards the sky, silently. "I kind of mean it, Kysme. Why haven't you kissed me yet?" And there was silence, or at least a certain type of white noise in which you know somebody is talking, but the words fall on deaf ears. (I imagine Kysme replies dumbly, "What do you mean", or a variation of that)

" Actually, no, I have a better question- do you think there could ever be anything between us? I don't mean anything casual or like friends with benefits sort of shit. Could you see us being more than friends, the meaningful way?" No white noise, only silence. Aaliyah probably huffs, her face feeling kind of hot on account of being embarrassed. She shouldn't have brought this up, but oh well, it's already up. She might as well continue. So she does. "You don't gotta lie to me or anything, coddle my feelings or some shit. I just wanna know! And I'm not trying to force anything on you, because I don't really know how I feel about you either. I know that I care about you at least, and sometimes i mix feelings up within myself. I just want things to be clear. So..." She'd blow a strand of hair out of her face with a sigh. "Yeah."

There, she said it. Now all she has to do is wait.(edited)

And that's when things got unclear because how the fuck am i supposed to figure out meaningful dialogue for kysme by myself-

Memphis-Rex:

My girl.

//Clutches chest

CaraBanned:

LMAO MEMPHIS

Memphis-Rex:

SHE JUST LAID IT OUT STRAIGHT AND BARE IN ONE SHOT.

The bravery-

CaraBanned:

GOD YEAH tbh I think the whole journey of this dreamscape just...came from that talk a long time ago? Me asking you if you think that kysme could toy with the fact that the two could be something more? (Rightly named in the blog "something more") basically just liyah putting her heart out on her sleeve all vulnerable and what not and trusting kysme to be serious with her for a second.

if only I could be like that in real life tho, shitttt

Memphis-Rex:

I feel serious Kysme would be silent a lot since he's actually taking time to chew over his words before spitting them out. So yeah those silences are something-

CaraBanned:

Oh gosh, glad that was right on the mark then. Don't take too long though, Kysme. Liyah might start feeling real silly, getting up and trying to brush it off like

Memphis-Rex :

And hmmmm. I feel like he might counter with a question first. After a tense moment he relaxes back into the grass, staring at the sky as well. "I don't know. I don't usually feel this way about people either. Am I even worth a genuine effort at something more? I fuck up so easily."

In that brief moment his tough guy persona slips aside, and you can see his own insecurity of losing things he cares about and his fears of being emotional.

Maybe, for once, his voice sounds gentle.

Kysme is fully aware of how shitty he can be. Sometimes he can't help it. In a way, he doesn't want to be the one who hurts her.

Would he be able to forgive himself for such a thing.

CaraBanned:

Oh, hey Memphis?

Fuck you???

This hurts more than it should?? Vunerable Kysme????ouch???

Lmao you can sleep now though if needed, you'll be rewarded a nice piece of HC. Thank you for your efforts.

CaraBanned:

His response would make liyah do a double take-turning her head to watch him again, her face obviously surprised by his change of tone. Wow. Just wow. Imagine her mouth opening to form words, though not being able to really say anything at first. Just studying his face.

"You're worth it."

Not a general, safe, 'everyone is worth it', or a shrug and wishy-washy kind of deliverance. It would be said with a quiet kind of conviction, like she actually means it. Because she does. And she smiles a bit at that, fondly. "Trust me, Kysme. I've been through the ringer a couple times with this kind of shit. Fucking up comes with the playing field- don't be so hard on yourself."

And I can see her doing something sweet, like reaching out and grabbing a hold of kysme's hand, gently so. Something to know that she's there, that she hears him. "But someone else's words probably mean nothing when your mind is convinced. Maybe you have to convince yourself that youre worth it, yeah?" She'd sigh, still her hand on top of his, a comfortable sort of silence.

Memphis-Rex:

There's gonna be a pause as he relishes the sensation of her hands on his. You know with how often he takes her hand jokingly to stare at its glistening surface, it's probably the first time she held his hand of her own accord. He'd bite his lip, say something like "I'll work on it." Another moment. Then, a careful movement as to not crush the arm that was previously holding his hand, he rolls over to lie on his side, closer to her, propping himself up on one elbow. There's this intense look in his candy colored eyes as he gazes down upon her face, and this time he doesn't hide it (recap-- the time he'd get distracted looking at her while she talks about movies). He's just taking it all in, up close, straightforwardly. "...But we can change one thing first." He says, referring to the earlier question of why he hasn't kissed her yet. And---

(ok if Aaliyah isn't down with this we can always change it XD)(edited)

Memphis-Rex:

Pt. 2--- Hypothetically speaking, if they do indeed get together, I feel nothing too much will change about their dynamics? They still have their silly banters and teasing, but finally they're not repressing their feelings so it feels more..liberating? To show some act of affection.

And I'm not saying Kysme becomes perfect boyfriend material immediately. He still makes her eyes roll to the sky with his stupidity. ("Shit, he's the biggest dumbass in the world but he's my dumbass" suddenly crosses my mind)

But there are some subtle changes in the way he acts now.(edited)

Is she going to feel bothered by his habit of occasionally sleeping with strangers (seeing her past with another pretty boy cough cough)? Cause I think the amount of times he fools around will dwindle if he's in a relationship but habits/hobbies die hard...He would try to be transparent about the matter though.

CaraBanned:

(I FUCKING FELL ALSEEP WAITING FOR THIS. GOD. FUCKING. DAMNIT.)

(First of all aaliyah is down yes of course the fuck you think memphis //still reading/)

Memphis-Rex:

(HAHAHA)

(And you woke up?! Now?!)

(also doesn't hurt to double check lel)

CaraBanned:

(LOL my body must have realized that I was missing straight up PERFECT QUALITY HCING)

(And true! Okay hold on while I respond something good.)

Oh gosh, your respond to the HC kind of like, feels like the perfect end already, but I will add on one thing to it- the idea of Aaliyah's heart thumping faster and faster as she realizes what exactly kysme is about to do. A loud thump, thump, thump pounding against her ears. Her eyes growing wider and her heart jumping at her throat, because holy shit...is he really gonna do it? Is he really going to do it? and when he does do it, its like something clicks in place with her head. Something nice and tender and a little scary. She'd close her eyes and sink into the kiss almost immediately, moving her hands up to cup his cheeks and hoping to god that that burning sensation comes soon- it would be safe to assume that she herself has been guilty of wondering how it would feel on her lips, sue her. (If it does come soon then she's probably left breathless and panting and if kysme asks if she needs a second she just goes "Fuck no." She was waiting for this kiss, even if she didnt think she was ever going to get it. (stay tuned for pt.2)

And I was gonna say that too, tbh! Like...they didn't need much to shift at all- theyve always been pretty comfy with each other and to the outside viewer it probably doesnt look like anything at all has changed unless they spot some nuances (like couch hand holding, aaliyah not complaining when the guy touches her, even if he grabs her by the waist or something, her sitting on his lap while watching a movie, etc) It just kind of...comes naturally. Liberating, as you say. Just...everything is right for once. (Also don't mind me but I totally wouldn't mind if this became non-hypothetical, if ya know what I mean, hueh hueh. //rubs my grubby raccoon hands together/).

The stupidity becomes endearing in a way, exactly as you say ("my big pink dumbass").

No, I don't think she's going to be bothered by it if he's honest about it (and as long as he saves his sweetest parts for her, you know? Like don't go confiding in strangers when you have a perfectly good girlfriend here to cuddle with.) The issue that destroyed her and Samael's relationship, besides the politics, was the lying to cover the hookups and the using and emotional abuse. It wasn't the fact that Sam was sleeping around, its the fact that she was the last to know, usually through other people. And what a shitty feeling is that. So even if he still has trouble with the deep conversation portion or the relationship, as long as he isn't lying to her face on petty shit, she wont make a big deal about it. Maybe even jokes about it when he tells her. ("Oh, cool. So is that the one you were talking about organizing the threesome with?") And that is to say that although she herself isn't someone to sleep around, I could see her branching out herself, once or twice. Lol (also speaking of which if we are going down this road she 'll likely tell him about that whole relationship fiasco, get ready for that can of worms kysme)