#grieving!sam

[kizzer55555]

DPxDC: Jarro Adopts an Alien

Ok, so Danny has a space obsession and a protection obsession (I headcanon that as a halfa, Danny has two obsessions like all Halfas do which makes them unique to other ghosts.) and so while he can get his fill protecting people in Amity, he struggles with his space obsession. Sure, he can look up everything he can about space and the stars on the internet. He can stay up until 2 am looking at the stars (who needs sleep? He’s a ghost, he can go days, or even weeks without sleep if he wants, same with a lack of air or food.) but it’s just not enough. He craves to learn more, see more. Just as Dani gets that itch to travel, Danny wonders. What would it be like to see the stars up close? Are they really as hot as a dragons fire breath? Hotter!? Or maybe they are so hot they are cold. What does it look like to see plasma dancing across the surface, or touch the gasses of Jupiter? Does Pluto have ice caves like the far frozen? How many planets are actually out there? What about Mars. There’s a whole species living there with a language and culture Danny can’t even fathom! Oh what he wouldn’t give to talk with martian manhunter or Superman. 

And what’s stopping him from exploring this? He can fly. He doesn’t need air. He can go intangible if it gets too hot and he’s practically immune to the cold. He wants to touch a space rock! See if they are smooth because there is no wind or earth to rub against them and erode the surface. He wants to see what planets they come from. What minerals they might have. He wants to know if there are currents in space. All of these things are right there just above the atmosphere. Surely it couldn’t hurt to take a quick peek. So he does. During a particularly bad day Danny flies as fast as he can until the earth’s gravity looses its effects. Until his hair is floating as of it’s in water even more than normal. Until he can feel when breathing no longer became a choice (still not necessary though). And it…was beautiful. To be surrounded by space. To see the earth like this. Pictures just didn’t do it Justice. He flew across the solar system and as he passed planets, he longed to fly through them. To search every crevice and learn their secrets. But he had a bigger prize in mind at the moment. The crown jewel of their universe. The closest star he could find. The sun. 

Danny was mesmerized. The plasma really did dance across the surface. Like a never ending performance of science and beauty. There were sparks that few in arcs. Danny flew down and played in them, making a game to see how many he could fly under. His ghost core purred in delight. His obsession had never been more satisfied. He spent hours out there. Just exploring what his solar system had to offer. So when he returned? He couldn’t just forget. Pictures and online science theories had nothing on the real thing. He wanted to explore some more. So he did. Every night he would go out and explore the cosmos. Flying from planet to planet. (Either the Martians were still around and Danny made friends with them, even learning their language, or he just looks at their ruins to learn as much as he can). And with both obsessions now being filled, Danny is more settled. More confident. And he can focus better. Everyone notices the change, even his teachers. They just think that he’s paying more attention to his education now. He’s even better during his ghost fights. 

But Danny can fly awfully fast. And he soaks up information even faster. Soon his trips take longer and longer as he flies further out. Sometimes he can barely make it back in time for school. And he can't go every night. Sometimes the ghosts won’t wait for daytime so he has to make sure the town will be safe in his absence. Although he’s been able to take more trips ever since Valerie joined the vigilante ranks. But still, he’s getting farther and farther from earth each night. Until one day he’s visited every planet, every star, every comet or debris in their solar system. Which would be fine. He could deal with that if that was all there was. But it wasn’t. Danny saw the stars just out of reach. He saw places the Milky Way was leaning towards. He saw just the barest hints of new solar systems with new planets and stars. And he knew of legends from lanterns that they had posted online. Heard tales from some scientists that have made better telescopes. And his core itches. It aches to know more. See more. Yet he can't go further. And this puts him in a sort of depression. Suddenly he’s back to his old self. Lagging behind. Distracted. Zoning out. Crashing into a few more buildings during ghost attacks. Yet he tries so hard to be satisfied with what he has. He can still fulfill his obsession…it’s just more like chewing on a granola bar rather than eating a decent meal. He’s almost becoming lethargic. 

So one day he goes to Frostbite to see if there’s anything he can do to lessen the effects. But the yeti just takes one look at him and gives him the infimap. And suddenly Danny is in a whole new universe in seconds. The planets are purple. The stars are blue. He’s pretty sure there are furry blob-like creatures living on one of those planets. And suddenly he gets that itch, but holding the infimap, he knows he had time, so he lets himself go. 

And for a while it’s good. great even. Since he can’t keep asking the yetis for the infimap, he goes over to Wulf to see if he’s up for an adventure. Most of the time he is and they go exploring the galaxies together. And then Wulf had the genius idea of teaching Danny how to make portals. It took a long time but soon, he could concentrate the surrounding ectoplasm enough to weaken it and pull. It took a while since Danny didn’t have ecto claws and would have to use his pure will. But this would allow him to follow his obsession anytime, anywhere. So it was only a matter of time. And once he figured it out? It was like something was unlocked. Danny had never before understood how Ellie could travel so much. But now he did. That feeling when you discover something new. When you add to your reservoir of knowledge. When the patterns in the universe just click. There is nothing Danny could compare it to. And to explore that whenever he wanted? It was so freeing. While Wulf sometimes still joined Danny’s adventures, Danny did most of his explorations by himself. 

He meets various planets and aliens. So many different cultures. He learns thousands of languages. Tries all kinds of foods (and it’s a good thing his ghost self has an iron stomach and he’s basically poison resistant.) even found a whole comet where blood blossoms grew. (Which he most definitely avoided). And wasn’t that fascinating? To find out they were from space. 

And then during his travels one day he met a space alien starfish. 

It was actually a funny story. A meteor shower was about to attack a planet of talking blue monkey creatures with 4 arms. Danny immediately started diverting them and was soon joined by some lantern corps (which his inner fanboy wanted to talk to so bad.). And a tiny starfish in a…Robin uniform? Oh and the starfish could apparently do martial arts which was interesting to watch him karate chop a meteor. He could also talk directly into Danny’s head which the halfa found more interesting. So they got to talking and apparently his name was Jarro. He seemed to be helping the lantern corps as a ‘proxy from earth’ to make better use of his skills. 

Danny would run into Jarro a few more times. Sometimes he was with Lanterns and sometimes he would just be exploring the galaxies. They started forming a pretty strong friendship and Danny would start seeking out the starfish alien to travel with him. He knew all kinds of space facts. Apparently he had an eidetic memory. When they explored, sometimes Jarro would just stick to part of Danny. Wrapped around his arm, his waist, sometimes just sticking to his back like a strange backpack. But they always had fun.

So Danny was happy. He could fulfill both obsessions and got a space pal. Everything was great!

Until the GIW caught him. 

It would probably be the worst day of his life.  There was an explosion in the lab. Something set up by them after they realized Danny frequented that place often. So they set a trap and blew it up. Thankfully, Jazz was at college during this but both his parents were home. When the explosion went off, Danny had tried putting a Barrier around them all. It took everything he had to maintain it. That’s how they found out he was phantom. Danny had a few moments where his parents said they accepted him but he couldn’t hold the barrier for long. His parents said that they loved him and then everything went green. He woke up in a lab, tired and injured. His only saving grace being that he remained in phantom form. And he was determined to remain so. 

Danny’s time at the GIW was a haze but eventually, he managed to escape. Bleeding, and tired, and still recovering from the burns in the explosion, Danny made a portal straight to Amity. Only when he got there, it was a ghost town. Streets were empty, buildings were boarded up. Even the Nasty Burger was deserted. As for his house, there was nothing but a crater left and some scattered debris. Danny looked everywhere but there was no one. No Jazz. No Sam. No Tucker. No one. and he was tired. And everything hurt, and he needed a friend. Someone he could trust. So in a daze he made a portal and tried to just project safe. Safe safe safe. Somewhere he knew he would be protected. And so Jarro got a surprise when his space buddy suddenly popped out of a green portal, bleeding green and clearly passed out. He didn't know what to do. He didn’t know how to help him. But Jarro knew someone who would. 

So with a speed never before seen from a tiny starfish, he flew to earth. Bringing his friend straight to his father. Because surely batman could help!

And with his appearance, the green blood, the knowledge of space facts. The lack of wanting to talk about where he came from (and the nightmares crying out for his parents). This is how the bats became convinced that Jarro brought them an injured alien. 

[motherrsam]

he was so mad that lucifer got inside sam before he could.

[fosliie]

Please believe me when I say I love you

[bvrialatsea]

his biggest nightmare became a reality, again and again and again

[witha-boxofscraps]

So they really took Dean in the middle of grieving his father figure and dumped a teenager dressed in a cream jacket with dark buttons that rather resembles a familiar trench coat, who’s crying because she’s run away from home because they give her orders that she has to follow to do terrible things, that she just wants to be normal, that she’s a monster that doesn’t want to be and he lets her in immediately because that’s Sammy. She’s dressed like Cas and she makes Dean think of Sam when he was younger and she’s sent to kill him and she pleads “please don’t let him hurt me” and you can see Dean’s hesitation because family but she’s a freak but she’s family and then she’s shot in front of his eyes and there’s nothing he can do and there’s nothing he can do to change it and he doesn’t know if he would change it if he could but now he’ll never know.

[bitchywillgraham]

Oooh, maybe we'll get Cip on IWTV? 🧐

This is the only MW crossover I'll accept btw.

[quietwingsinthesky]

i love when dean winchester beats his brother like he’s his wife

[chxrrywines]

I need to know more about cat dad Sam omg

instead of a dog, dean instead rescues a scruffy little calico cat and calls her miracle. he’s the one who takes her home, baths and feeds her, so it’s the end of his bed that she sleeps on, it’s him who she follows around the bunker meowing for food or to play. sam gets stared down across the room when he comes in to ask dean a question or to grab something from the fridge.

he doesn’t manage to even touch her before dean dies. dean is gone and the only living things in the bunker are sam, and little miracle.

he doesn’t even see her for a day. in that time he takes dean home, wraps and burns his body, and cries outside until he can make himself go inside and shower. it’s only when he comes out of the shower that he sees miracle outside of dean’s shut bedroom door (the one he shut so he didn’t have to see the lack of dean inside) meowing to get in. he goes to pet her but she doesn’t let him, and he gets that, so he backs off and reluctantly cracks the door open to let her run inside.

he doesn’t expect her to then follow him into the kitchen, still meowing. and he’s upset and grieving and just wants some silence so he just puts her food out in hopes of shutting her up. it works, she was just hungry, and he feels guilty when she skulks away once she’s fed. he hears her meowing outside of dean’s bedroom door later on and it makes him cry again

this continues for a few days, he only sees her when she gets hungry, and he only hears her when she’s meowing for deans bedroom door to opened that he keeps shutting when he walks past it and having to re open when she wants in. “guess it’s your room now huh?” he grits out one evening, eyes stinging and throat clogging and feeling so horrible about everything

it’s that night that he’s in bed so tired that he can’t fall asleep that his door creaks open, and there’s a little mrrr as miracle jumps up on his bed. he reaches to touch her, she doesn’t let him, so he rolls over and let’s her curl up beside him where eileen used to sleep.

it’s like that for a week, until she finds him crying in the library because he found some photos that he wasn’t ready to look at. he doesn’t notice that she’s there until she’s nudging his leg and when he reaches a hand down she lets him pet her, leans into his touch and purrs at the contact. he pets her until he stops crying, by which point she’s curled up in his lap asleep. that night she sleeps beside him, only after he’s sat and pet her again, and it’s only the next day that he leaves the bunker for the first time in a week to buy a cat collar, some cat food, and a cat bed.

she doesn’t sleep in her bed, she sleeps beside him in the spot she claimed as hers

[aliusfrater]

i'm sorry that the last time i was with him i tried to pick a fight. i'm sorry that i spent most of my life angry at him. i mean, for all i know he died thinking that i hate him. [...] i miss him, man and i feel guilty as hell. i used to be mad at him. i—i mean, i used to… i used to hate the guy but now i—i… i get it. he was…just doing the best he could. truth is my dad died before i got to tell him that i understand why he did what he did and i forgive him for what it did to us. i do. and i just—i love him. and dad made up for that how? by being father of the year?

[cianfries-stuff]

Dean has always been kind of a clown but at the start of season 13 he takes first place without even giving the other contenders a chance. Not only is he completely inconsistent in wanting to kill Jack and thinking he’s inherently evil just because he’s Lucifer’s son—when years earlier, he first refused to believe that Azazel’s blood in Sam might turn him bad, and then refused to see demon blood junkie Sam as beyond saving until the very end—but he also has the audacity to tell Sam with a straight face that his situation was totally different from Jack’s (it was actually worse). Yet this man lies knowing full well he’s lying and doesn’t feel a shred of shame about it. He’s fully aware of his own hypocrisy and commits to it with such conviction that at some point you start wondering if maybe he’s actually right

God, I fucking love him

[shallowseeker]

I know why Cas says he cared about Sam because of Dean but I don’t get why he says it about Jack? I feel like his relationship with Jack was fairly separate from Dean

I personally don’t view Cas’s statement as that literal. To me, it means less that he cared about Jack because of Dean, and more that caring about one person gave him the courage to keep opening himself up.

Love, after all, spreads like a contagion. It grows, expanding outward like a stone dropped in water, rippling further and further. Dean wasn’t the start of Cas caring about things; Cas had his own convictions and compassion long before that.

But Dean was a turning point. He became family, a kind of structural support Cas could grow with (and change with, and mess up with, and come back to against all the odds). Through that foundation, it became possible for Cas to live and love more fully: Sam, Bobby, other angels, Claire, Mary, Jack, the AU hunters, Rowena, and humanity itself.

[ariadne-mouse]

Oh god are they gonna work this into the animated intro somehow once Sam has a new character. Emotional damage all over again

[tatzelbookwurm]

I love trans Danny, but consider: Trans Danny who doesn't know she's an egg until confronted with Dani (who is the most stable of the clones because the strength of her psyche forced the ectoplasm to form her body to match her gender). Danny meets Dani and goes, "Oh, I'm feeling a lot of things about meeting my cousin, who turns out to be a halfa like me, who turns out to be a clone of me, who was made by my archenemy, and I love her already and also am feeling a lot of gender feels seeing a female version of myself. Fuck, is this gender envy?"

[bd-wlf]

Soo I wanted to write something of a different first meetings/28 days later AU with the Infamous kitchen scene from season four because I'm fucking insane and there was a kitchen scene in 28 days later so yeah lol hope yall enjoy it??

pt.1 of Get Home->

it had been six weeks, he had been in a coma for six weeks. Dean Smith had been hit by a car crossing the street trying to deliver some food to another asshole customer and missed the world ending. he had woke up to something out of the comics he read growing up, his body was weak and he could barley understand a few words other than over here! and move! so when Castiel and Sam told him that the world had ended in less than two months it didn't seem real.

after rescuing dean from an ugly fate they holed up inside of a convivence store and explained their situation to Dean while he soaked in every word,

"the radios stopped working a day after it was announced that the virus had spread to New York and there were reports of cases in Paris as well. the TV had shut down the day after, I couldn't get SpongeBob on for my daughter." he smiled at the memories.

"it killed the world in six weeks, you're the first uninfected person we've seen in five days." Sam piped up. he tossed a mars bar at Dean and Dean scrambled to get it, he didn't remember the last time he'd had food.

"so, what about family?" Dean asked through a mouthful of candy, "you said you had a daughter?" he pointed at Castiel and the taller man ran a hand through his salt and pepper hair.

"they're gone, my wife died when my daughter was an infant and my daughter..she died in the rush." he took a breath and dean swallowed the mouthful in a giant gulp, feeling bad for bringing this up.

"I didn't have any family to start with." Sam chimed in at the end of the awkward silence.

"what about you?" Castiel asked, a stern look in his steely blue eyes.

"i don't know, i hadn't thought about it until now. My dad is out in the countryside. shit, I don't know if he knows I'm awake" panic settled into the place right above his sternum. it bubbled and stirred and made him uncomfortable, his heart was beating like a stallion and then it's almost like Castiel could see the signs of a panic attack because as soon as Dean started spiraling the taller squatted down to where he was sitting and placed a hand on Dean's shoulder, grounding him instantly.

"it's okay, we can go looking for him in the morning. you said he lived in the countryside so we can start the trek tomorrow." Castiel smiled and dean felt calmer.

once they got settled in their sleeping arrangements, Dean claimed the empty space behind the register. it was hard ground but nothing he wasn't used to.

he didn't get much sleep and as the sun came up and filled the floor with light, he watched it.

they made their trek to Dean's house. it was chilly so Castiel lent him one of the jackets the group had carried with them.

"rule one, never travel at night, unless absolutely necessary." Sam told him as they walked through the desiccated city.

he nodded, feeling light headed from lack of food.

"rule two, never sleep alone, unless absolutely necessary."

"mhm"

"rule three, never travel alone-buddy system, unless absolutely necessary."

"is that all?" he was staggering, mind blank, he was crashing.

"no, don't get scratched or bitten or bled on." he finished with a twisted smile.

he nodded his head.

"try not to overload him, Sam, he just got out of a coma." Castiel laughed.

when they made it to his house, it was about three in the afternoon. if anything would come of this without thinking of the inevitable it would be a nice place to sleep.

Sam searched the downstairs while Castiel and Dean went upstairs. the closer they got to the master bedroom the more obnoxious the stench of death got.

"Dean." Castiel said sternly, grabbing his arm to try and stop him from uncovering what they all knew was behind that door.

damnit Cas, let go of me. I have to know."

"no you don't." he put it plainly and Dean knew he was right-of course he was right-but it didn't matter. Bobby was behind that door, he needed confirmation, closure, whatever the fuck you call it.

when they opened the door, the smell was undeniable. the odor of death and decay clung to their nostrils as they walked into the master bedroom.

there on the bed, lay Bobby Singer, foster parent to Dean. he was laying in a loving embrace with their neighbor, Ellen, who Dean had always thought were an item but to have it confirmed like this was beyond comical. he smiled at them and then noticed Bobby held a photo of young Dean in his death grip.

he snatched it and turned it around, on the back it read:

Dean, with endless love. We left you sleeping now we're sleeping with you. Don't wake up.

too late. he thought and turned to walk out the door bumping shoulders with Cas.

he threw up in the bathroom trash after.

once night had fallen, he still couldn't sleep, not after what he'd seen-the sleeping pills and wine on their bedside table flashed over and over again in his mind.

"they died peacefully. they weren't infected." Cas had informed him but it went in one ear and out the other.

he was watching a tape, something from when he was still a teen. Ellen had gotten back from the store one of the times she was taking care of them more than her own family, and she had handed him the old orange juice carton to drink.

he was holding a candle, he lit one for light, when it came through the window. everything was a blur. Cas and Sam jumped into action, the thing on top of him, dean realized, was a human. it clawed at him, rabid with anger and something else.

"fight it off!!" Cas shouted multiple times and Dean found a way out from under the beast that attacked him. it ran after Sam and he managed to beat it into a secluded enough spot for Cas to shoot it.

"did it bite you?!" Cas shouted and in a shock induced haze Dean checked himself

"no, I think I'm good."

"what about you?" and Sam went quiet.

"well?"

"I'm-I'm fine! I feel fine guys!" he reassured Cas as he hid his left arm from view.

"then why are you hiding your arm?" Dean squeaked out.

"show us your arm" Cas sounded dangerous.

Sam reveled his arm and they looked at a small Knick on his wrist, gushing blood.

much like the initial attack, Cas gutting Sam was also unexpected. the screams of both of them filled the room for nearly 30 minutes before everything stopped-no screaming, no spluttering of Sam's still beating heart, no noise at all-completely silent. blood splattered Castiel's white button up and navy tie as he cleaned off the machete he held.

"do you have any clothes here?" he asked calmly, too calmly for dean to be okay with it but he still answered like something compelled him to.

"yeah upstairs."

"good, go change." he looked at Dean, that dangerous glint still there. Dean stumbled as he slowly registered what just happened.

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@ihaveanaxe because you wanted me to write this lol

[hunkydorkling]

And Mommy loves you so much.

(gif version under the cut)

[noinoi10101010]

sun: * death glares serpent* "so what it is you like about my daughter?"

Serpent: "she is cute."

Sun: *raises an brow* "and?"

Serpent: "................"

Sun: ".........*loads monty's shotgun*"

serpent: "N-NO WAIT PLEASE"