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Broken Bonds-Part 28

Greg "Mouse" Gerwitz x Reader, Jay Halstead x Hailey Upton, Coparenting Jay Halstead x Reader

A rough case isn't going to stop you and Jay from celebrating Addy’s first birthday

Time was one thing that was simply dizzying to you at times. The amount of things that could change in such a short period of time. One year ago your due date was closing in, Jay was sleeping next to you most night, Mouse was still overseas and the idea of a future with him seemed like a fantasy at most. Your heart and head were doing their best to rip you in two. One year ago your saving grace was the fact that without a shadow of a doubt you knew little Miss Adeline Halstead was the absolute best thing that had ever happened to you.

Six months ago you nearly broke the hearts of both men you love when Mouse came home and yet again your heart and head went to war. You hurt them both to the point you wouldn’t have blamed either of them for walking away from you, not that Jay would have ever walked away from Addy. Yet they both dug their heels in and proved that they were in it for the long haul, one as the love of your life and one as your best friend. You managed to earn Jay’s trust back and slowly began to feel like you were worth the love Mouse had always given you so freely. Truly you weren’t sure what you would’ve done if you would’ve lost either of them. They both owned too big of portions of your heart.

Now Addy’s first birthday was closing in,Jay was in a relationship with Hailey and happy. Mouse was home and right across town at Kevin’s, seeing you daily and working out of the local Marshals office. Your heart and head had finally found a balance. It seemed the only thing that hadn’t changed in a year’s time was the fact that you still knew without a shadow of a doubt that Addy would always be the best thing that ever happened to you.

You woke up and shivered slightly. Your apartment was warm, the heater worked amazingly well but you’d kicked the blanket off your legs during the night and had fallen asleep in just a long shirt and was paying for it now. Jay had Addy the night before so he was doing drop off at daycare and you were doing pickup. You were actually pretty damn proud of the scheduling you two had managed to pin down.

“You ok sweetheart?” Mouse asked from behind you, his arm reaching out to slip around your waist and pull you back against his chest. You wiggled closer to him before saying “Someone didn’t remind me to slip my sweatpants back on before I fell asleep last night and now I am freezing” he leaned up to pull the blanket up all the way to your neck and tucked you in before laying back down behind you “That better?” he asked and you laughed “Very”

His lips lightly skimmed the side of your neck and you smiled “Why Mr Gerwitz, are you trying to warm me up?” he laughed lightly “Well Jay had baby girl last night so he’s doing drop off which means we both have a little extra time before we have to be in to work” you shook your head but leaned back into his touch. He stayed with you a couple nights a week, only on the nights Jay had Addy. He would come over the nights you had her when he could for dinner or just to watch a movie but for overnights he still kept it to when she was with her daddy. Hailey still did the same as well. They were both trying to make sure Addy was well and used to hayhay and mou before they were both there a lot. 

You turned in his arms to face him and he smiled, a little of his hair falling forward. You pushed it back with your fingers “You know you don’t have to keep it long, just because I like it” he grinned “but you like it, besides it’s not as long as it was when I first got back so I’d consider this a compromise” 

You shook your head “I love you Greg” then pulled him down to brush a kiss against his lips. He smiled into the kiss before saying “I love you too” you glanced at the alarm clock next to the bed and groaned “We don’t really have that much extra time. Why don’t we just grab a shower and go get breakfast before work?”

He grinned “Sounds good to me love” and caught your lips in a gentle kiss before pulling away and laughing lightly when you chased his lips. “C’mon Miss Kidd, I promise I’ll warm you up in the shower” 

You walked into the precinct, tugging your jacket closer around you. You and Jay both had just bought Addy a new coat and snowsuit. As if she needed new ones but you’d gone to the mall together to make sure you both didn’t buy her the same thing for her birthday and when you passed the display they were so cute so you bought the coat and he bought the snowsuit.  He’d argued with you for ten minutes to buy yourself a new coat and you’d refused saying yours was fine. He’d texted someone and later that evening Mouse had showed up with the exact same coat Jay had tried to get you to buy. Maybe those two slowly but surely getting back on the same page might just bite you in the ass on some things.

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“Morning honey” Trudy greeted and you smiled “Morning Trudy” on the way up the steps to the palm scanner. “Hey, you and Mouch are coming to Addy’s birthday aren’t you?” she nodded “Of course!” you grinned “Didn’t think trutru and ouch would miss it but had to make sure” then the gate popped so you pulled it open and headed up to intelligence.

The moment you hit the top of the stairs Jay walked past you and held out a cup of coffee from the shop on the corner. You took it with a grateful smile “Have my baby? Oh wait done had yours”  he shook his head with a laugh “Your sense of humor has not gotten any better since I’ve known you sweetheart” you shrugged “No but I do make pretty kids and I have a damn good right hook and a pretty decent strike kick so I can put that on my resume at least”

“Anyways, we caught a case so don’t take your jacket off just drop your stuff” Everyone else was slipping jackets back on so you nodded “Ok then” he grinned “Since you finally have a thick enough jacket” you cut your eyes at him and he grinned “Not like you didn’t need it” you looked over at Hailey who was putting her hat back on and waved a hand at him “Wifey!” she nodded “I’m on it”

You dumped your stuff on your desk then turned to face Kevin “Ready to roll Kev?” he smiled “Always lil mama” and bumped your arm with his.

You had to resist the urge to rub your temples as you talked to the witness. You were fairly certain you may just be developing a migraine from the stupidity of this asshole. “How much is the reward?” you looked at Kevin who blurted out “We’re just asking you if you saw anything about the damn shooting man, how the hell you think there’s gonna be a reward for that?”

“Oh then I don’t know nothing” he said with a shake of his head and walked off. “Oh that son of a bitch” you muttered. You and Kevin had been out in the cold talking to him for twenty minutes because he’d sworn he’d seen something worthwhile just for that? Kevin laughed lightly and you cut your eyes at him “You were about to smack him” you shrugged “He was so damn dumb somebody needed to smack him”

He shook his head “Come on, let's get back to my car. It’s got heat at least” you followed him across the street to where his car was parked seeing the rest of the unit head towards whatever cars they’d come in as well. This was the second shooting in the last month that had used cop killer rounds and the unit was no closer to tracking down the source than you all had been after the first one. It was fucking scary knowing that but what could you do?

You flopped down in Kevin’s car and shivered as he turned the key over and the engine roared to life, the heater blasting on high. You rubbed your hands together in front of the vent, regretting forgetting your gloves at the precinct. He nodded towards his glovebox “If you would’ve told me I had your backup pair in there” 

You grinned and opened the glovebox to see sure enough he had your grey gloves tucked to one side “Why do you tuck backups for me away?” he shrugged “I know you” you shook your head and closed the glovebox back “Well, good to know for next time” 

You buckled up and he pulled out onto the street after Voight came over the radio and told everyone to head back. Once he was on the road he cut his eyes back at you “Where do you think these things are coming in at?” you shook your head “I have no clue but I’m actually scared Kev. At the moment it hasn’t been turned towards us yet but they’re called cop killers for a reason. I have everyone here in the unit to worry about, including the father of my child and plus now the man I love is in this same city working as a form of law enforcement. It’s terrifying”

He nodded then shook his head “Change of subject, babygirl’s birthday” you nodded “You’re coming right? Because Uncle Kev has to be there” He grinned “Oh you know it” you smiled “Good. It’s just a simple thing at Stella and Kelly’s loft since they have the most open floor plan. Just the unit, Will and Nat and her son” he nodded “Sounds good to me, you know I’m always gonna show up for you and Addy” you bumped your arm against his “I know Kev. I love you” he winked at you “Love you too Kidd”

By the time you pulled up to the precinct word must have slipped around Chicago because you got a text from Mouse Heard the unit caught another of those shootings. Everyone good? You texted back Besides being freaked about those shootings? Yeah we’re good. I love you and climbed out the car after Kevin. By the time you got to the door of the precinct your phone went off again and the text read Glad you’re all good baby. I love you too

Kevin cut his eyes back at you when you walked in behind him “Mouse heard?” you nodded “No one gossips like cops” he laughed “Ain't that the damn truth” the two of you headed up so basically all of you could bang your heads against the wall for the next few hours trying to figure out anything about these damn shootings.

You shot up straight in the bed, a cold sheen of sweat already cooling on your skin. This damn case with the shootings was getting under your skin more than you thought. You scrubbed a hand down your face and picked up your phone. You hated texting Jay considering Hailey was probably with him tonight but considering you were texting her too, it wasn’t so bad. You just sent a simple text to him, Hailey, Mouse and Kev that read Sorry for waking anyone, just need a sound off

Jay: I’m good sweetheart

Hailey: Nightmare about these shootings?

Mouse:I’m ok baby

Kevin: I’m good lil mama

You wouldn’t wake up Adam and Kim but you couldn’t go without checking on those four.You sent Hailey a text back that read Getting under my skin. Sorry for waking you and Jay. Love you wifey and she sent back Love you too

You got up and decided to just go check on Addy, you would probably end up falling asleep in the living room where you were closer to her as a way to soothe your mind slightly.

You moved around Stella’s living room, laughing as she told Kelly where to put balloons. “She’s only one Stel, she’s not even gonna remember this” you told her over your shoulder and she shrugged “No, but when she sees pictures she’ll know that we have always made a big deal out of her. Same reason we made sure to take photos on Halloween and make her a good Christmas, besides you need a day off too. Your brain has been going too much lately with too much bad stuff and not enough good stuff” you raised an eyebrow and she shrugged “One thing Jay and Mouse have in common besides the fact that they both love you in some way? They come to me when they’re worried about you”

You rolled your eyes “I am not the only one freaked about the shootings” she nodded “They said that but they were both worried about you and they talked to me individually” you shrugged “It’ll be fine. We’ll figure it out like we always do”  she nodded “Now, come on. Your daughter is turning one. Jay and Mouse are back talking-ish” “Ish?” Kelly asked and you laughed “They’re not where they used to be by far but considering it’s only been six months I’m not looking a gift horse in the mouth. No more punches were thrown, Jay’s happy with Hailey. I’m content with the way things currently are”

He nodded “If you’re happy and Stella’s happy then I don’t have to get in the middle of it” you cut your eyes at Stella with a laugh “You trained him so well” she grinned “I know” and Kelly turned “Hey!” you winked at him “Hey Kel” 

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You and Jay were sitting on the floor with Addy between you, helping her to open her presents.It was mainly clothes or toys and truthfully she seemed to be having the most fun with the wrapping paper. Stella of course was taking photos, Mouse stood next to Kevin and Hailey. 

After presents the cake was next. You and Jay helped her blow out the candle then Addy dang near dove into the giant pink cake. You managed to get it away from her and cut her a big slice instead. You sat it in front of her and she dug in. “Oh my” Kim laughed when your precious little baby quickly became a pink frosting monster. “Mama” she giggled and you shook your head “No baby don’t you want dada” 

She looked towards Jay and giggled “Love you dada” “Aww Jay you can’t resist that” you teased and he took a step towards her and she launched herself into his arms. Stella snapped a photo of him covered in pink icing before telling him “You can borrow one of Kelly’s shirts” with a grin. After Addy gave Jay a big kiss on the side of his face to Jay’s delight she looked at Mouse and giggled “Hey Mou”

His eyes widened but he walked over to her “Hey sweetheart” she held out her arms so he took her and was just as covered as Jay within seconds. You covered your mouth with your hand but a laugh still escaped you as you slipped your phone out to snap a photo of the two of them with the pink frosting demon that caused the carnage. Kelly laughed “I guess you both can borrow a shirt?”

Jay looked at you “Well mama you gonna clean her up?” you shook your head “No sir. I am frosting free. Take her with you in the bathroom and clean her up when you go to change your shirt.Take one of her new outfits” he grinned “Chicken. Bring me an outfit when I yell for one please?” you nodded “Of course”

Once he walked off Mouse grinned at you and you shook your head “You’re already a sucker for her” he shrugged “She’s half you, what did you expect” you snapped a photo and turned it around to show him just how insane he looked “Army ranger, US Marshal and rocking bright pink frosting” he took a step towards you “Let me have a kiss love” you shook your head “NO!”

You jumped behind Hailey and she shook her head “Back off Gerwitz! She’s mine” he grinned “Yes ma’am” and winked at you over her shoulder. Everyone seemed plenty entertained just by you, Jay, Mouse and Hailey.

After helping Stella clean up Jay and Mouse carried Addy’s presents down to your jeep. The plan was to take everything to your place then see if there were doubles or similars to divide between houses. That was what you and Jay normally did.

You and Hailey followed them down and when you got to the parking lot you saw fresh snow was falling. “Well we were gonna get dinner but you and Jay wanna come over and we can get takeout?” you asked her and she nodded “Sure” you cut your eyes towards Jay “Should you  ask him?” she shook her head “He’ll be fine” you laughed “Ok then”

She headed towards Jay’s truck so you headed to the driver’s side of your jeep. Mouse walked over and pressed a quick kiss to your lips “We headed to your place?” you nodded so he smiled “I’ll join the convoy then Ma’am”

You climbed in your jeep and glanced down at the photos that now graced the dash. There was one from Halloween, with all of you dressed in your scooby outfits and one from Christmas none of you had even known Stella had taken. You were all relaxed and laughing with Addy asleep in your lap with her little feet on Jay’s legs. Things had indeed changed so much.

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After you all ordered and got an eta on delivery you sat watching the snow falling out the window then bumped Jay’s arm. He cut his eyes at you and you grinned “Let’s bundle up and take our daughter to play in the snow for the first time”

He grinned “I’ll grab her snowsuit, you grab her jacket” you nodded and looked at Mouse and Hailey “Baby, Wifey! We’re taking Addy to play in the snow! Get your jackets on!” they both grinned and moved to slip jackets,hats and scarfs on.

Once Addy was dressed in her snowsuit with her jacket and pompom hat that matched yours all of you were ready to go out. You grabbed her on your hip and grinned at Jay “Let’s go”

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“Look baby” you whispered to Addy right before you and Hailey popped up and landed snowballs directly on the back of Mouse and Jay’s heads. They both turned with damn near matching expressions and you grinned “Uh oh” 

Jay shook his head “That’s not fair with Addy right there” Hailey nodded “Why do you think we have her right here?” Mouse cut his eyes at Jay “She’s always been a daddy’s girl, right?” Jay grinned and squatted down “Addy, come here baby” and to your horror she ran as fast as her little legs would take her directly into his arms.He picked her up on his hip and he and Mouse both grinned at you and Hailey “Ok Kidd, Upton. You two started it”

Jay leaned close to Addy “Wanna see Daddy and Mou get Mommy and hayhay” you smiled at her “Come on baby you love mommy” she giggled before saying “Get mommy and hayhay daddy! Mou!” and you gasped and grabbed Hailey’s arm “They’re corrupted my baby Upton! Run!”

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31 for scream au from the hurt/comfort prompts!

31. "Don't look at them, look at me."

warnings: blood, death, horror film-typical violence

Jay couldn't even make himself blink while he stared at the blood on the wooden floor. Some of it was his, and if the pain was anything to go by, he was still adding to it. That probably should have been more concerning, but he was focused on everything else - like the body at his feet that had been on top of him only a few seconds before.

He wanted to move, wanted to keep running like he'd been doing all night, but he was tired. It would be easy to sit down on the ground again, to let the pain take over, to just rest while the threat was temporarily gone, or even join some of the friends around the house who would never open their eyes again.

But that wasn't an option.

A hand grabbed his shoulder and made him turn quickly, and he anticipated another knife. Maybe it would add to the wounds that covered him already, finally put him out of his painful misery. Instead, he was faced with clear blue eyes, frantic in a way that didn't match the calmness of the voice that came with them. And he couldn't even make his gaze stay there, not when the red all over the floor and the walls was so distracting, along with the limp uniformed body at the bottom of the staircase.

"Jay? Come on, we have to go." Greg, the person who had tried to stop the knife from getting to them at all, one of the only kids at the party still breathing. "Hey! Don't look at them, look at me. We have to move. There's a bathroom upstairs with no windows, and we can lock the door. Okay? Hurry, before the other guy wakes up."

He let a hand grab onto his and pull him along, to the side of the stairs that didn't have a dirty cop at the bottom of them. He saw a blonde blur only a few steps ahead of them, something that his eyes refused to focus on, but he knew what it meant. For the first time in hours, there was no immediate danger.

They were going to be okay.

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WIP Game

Thank you for the tag @drabbles-mc babe, you are always the best.

Rules: reveal the titles of the documents in your WIP folder and tag as many people as there are documents. Let others ask questions about the ones that interest them and post snippets or explain the contents as you see fit! (one of the rules was also to tag as many people as there are wips but my wip folder is too big to play that lmaoooo) - I second this - Mine is wayyyyy too big

WIP List:

The Way You Deserve (NSFW) - Bobby Goren x Reader

WorkOfArt! Series - Part Three: Jackson Pollock - Bobby Goren x Reader

Your Problem - Angel Reyes x Reader

When It Happens To You - Chibs x Reader

Date Night - Crockett Marcel x Reader

Line of Duty - Greg Gerwitz x Reader

Pillow Fort - Roy Kent x Reader

Come Undone - Creeper x Reader

The Convention - Part Two: What You Need (NSFW) - Hank Loza x Reader

Officer Down - Affair!Terry x Reader

Retail Value - Joe Velasco x Reader

Bleeding Out - Bishop Losa x Reader

The Wolf Part Three - Nestor Oceteva x Reader

Bullet Holes - Tig Trager x Reader

Teach Me - Nestor Oceteva x Reader

In Sickness & Health - Nestor Oceteva x Reader

Sign - EZ Reyes x Reader

Bad Dreams - Mike Duarte x Terry Bruno x Reader

Lethal - Mike Duarte x Terry Bruno x Reader

Nothing Left to Give - - Mike Duarte x Terry Bruno x Reader

Hurt - Ivan Dutch Hernandez x Reader

Cliche - Mike Duarte

EX Joe! Part Five - Joe Velasco x Reader

Past Mistakes 11-13 - Mike Duarte x Reader

Bondage - Nero Padilla x Reader

Puppy Love - Tig Trager x Reader

The Feeling Is Mutual (NSFW) - Jimmy Lanik x Reader

Space - Sam Abrams x Reader

Lonely Weekend - Hank Loza x Reader

WitSec!Will Part Four - Will Halstead x Reader

Friends - Jimmy Lanik x Reader

There's more hanging around in my Google Notes, it's getting a little excessive!

You have a question about any of the above feel free to ask!

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Being pregnant with Greg ‘Mouse’ Gerwitz’s baby

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Paring: Greg “Mouse” Gerwitz x Reader

Universe: One Chicago

Word Count: 2759

Warnings: mention of PTSD, pregnancy, child birth, pain, therapy, overprotectivness, fem!reader

If I forgot about anything feel free to write to me. Your wellbeing is important to me!

Summary: How your pregnancy could be when being in a relationship with Mouse and as a member of the Intelligence Unit?

You met at work. You were a detective in the Intelligence Unit and an old friend of Jay Halstead when Mouse started working there. You immediately found him very sweet, and very often, you couldn't stop smiling when he couldn't stop talking or did his tech magic. 

You spent a lot of time talking. It was common to find both of you together. When you needed a moment to calm down after a case, you hid downstairs with him. When you all talked about new evidence in the case, he would lean against your desk. When you came back from the call, he ALWAYS came to check on you. 

You became closer after Nadia's death. Being a female cop was hard. You offered to help her, and that allowed you to spend a lot of time together. Her death hit you hard. (Not so hard like Lindsay, but still.) He had seen how different cases affected you. However, he had never seen you crying so hard, like in the moment when news about finding Nadia's body reached you. You collapsed in his arms, and he held you for hours. 

You started dating sometime after that. You both knew Voight's rule about no dating in the unit. Because of that, at your request, when you were sure about this relationship, you told him about this. You were sincere about everything, showing him that your relationship didn't affect your work. 

Everybody said that you are a perfect couple. Of course, you argued, but you always tried to understand the other person. Sometimes he was a little overprotective. Sometimes you were pissed off when he shut you down. But at the end of the day, you always tried to make up. Life was too short, especially when you were a cop. 

Pregnancy definitely wasn't planned. You realized that you were late on your period, and you told Mouse about this, even if at the beginning you thought that it was because of stress. He offered to go for a pregnancy test. When you waited for results, you saw how anxious he was, so you just held his hand. The test came positive, and you watched how he freaked out. He was afraid that he can't be a good father, that because of his PTSD, he could hurt the baby. 

"Greg… I know this is hard, and I'm not ready either. But I can't… I can't abort it." her voice cracked, and she closed her eyes, taking a deep breath. "I know that you will be an amazing father. I know it because you already took good care of me. You are so caring and generous. And I know that you would never hurt them. It will be hard, but I'm sure that together we can do it, like we did with so many things. But if you don't want it… I won't force you to stick with us. And I won't be mad if you walk away. Maybe I'll be a little hurt, but I will understand, Greg." She felt tears in her eyes when she looked at him. She could tell that he was thinking about her words. And then he came closer to her and took her in his arms. He held her tight, and she let her tears run on her cheeks. 

"I could never walk away from you. And you're right. We can do it. I'll go for a therapy or support group to keep my demons under control."

She didn't know what to say, how to show him how grateful and happy she was, so she just took his face in her hands and kissed him.

You made an appointment as soon as possible. That day, Mouse called Voight that you felt unwell and he'd stay with you. You went to the doctor's office together. When they did an ultrasound, he held your hand so tight and couldn't stop bouncing his leg. You both couldn't tear your eyes from the picture of your baby on the monitor. When your doctor asked if you wanted her to print it and how many copies you want, he just said: "As many as you could give us." 

You told Voight about your pregnancy as soon as it was confirmed. Actually you called him after you left the doctor’s office to meet him. You didn't want to risk the baby's life because of your work. When you told him, he really surprised you. He was so happy for both of you and hugged you. Immediately he put you on desk work for the unit - you worked for him so long that he knew that there is no power in the universe to stop you from working. 

You tried to hide it for the rest of the team as long as you could. You wanted to wait for the end of the first trimester, and you used an old wound as an excuse. 

After you found out about the baby, Mouse called Doctor Charles and started therapy again. He really wanted to be the best version of him for both of you. You always assured him that you are very proud of him and that you see everything he'd done.  

After your first appointment, Mouse became a little overprotective. He checked if you were not hungry and drank enough water. He made sure you didn't drink too much coffee and tried to get you to give it up. 

When the possibility of miscarriage went lower, you decided to announce pregnancy to your team. It was so hard to hide your pregnancy, especially when Ruzek and Atwater's lunch choices made you sick. You also were sure that Serge Platt knew about the baby or at least suspected something. This woman always knew everything, but she never said anything. 

Y/N and Mouse came to work a little earlier that day. She was glad that only Voight was in the bullpen. Mouse put your enlarged ultrasound on board and you wrote next to it: "Backup is on the way! Baby Gerwitz coming *due date*" and then turned the board to hide it, waiting for the rest of the team. She sat behind her desk, patiently waiting for everybody to come to work and slowly starting paperwork. When everybody came, Mouse went for Trudy, telling her that they needed her help with a case. When they all were on their spots, Voight went out of his office. A few days before, they asked him for help with the announcement, and even if he acted tough cop, he was honoured. He looked at Y/N, and when she nodded, feeling Mouse's hand on arm, he got the unit's attention. 

"Listen up, we got a case." He turned the board, and three of them watched the rest of this chosen family. Trudy was the first who gasped, looking at the young detective and then quickly came to her, taking Y/N in her arms. Y/N couldn't stop her tears at the amount of love from this family. She happily accepted every congratulations and hug. When she leaned on Mouse slightly, answering Erin and Antonio's questions, she missed the proud smile that Voight, Trudy and Al exchanged.

Since that day, Halstead, Ruzek and Atwater went overprotective of you. You often found on your desk some healthy snack, they brought you something to drink before you could stand up from your chair. If you only mention food that you craved, often one of them found a way to bring it to you. If you frown because of a cramp or because the position you were sitting in was not comfortable, they immediately asked if you were alright or needed to see a doctor. If they only could, they would put you on bed rest - much to Mouse happiness. And when they were too much, and your threats to kick their asses didn't work, only one look at Olinsky or Lindsay was enough to put them in line by one of them. Trudy welcomed you every day with a big smile, asking how you and "Baby Mouse" were feeling. She always made sure that you didn't carry anything looking heavy and made one of the patrol officers bring it upstairs. She loved hearing news about the baby, and when she found out that they started kicking, she was more than happy to feel it on her hand. 

You and Mouse spent a lot of time at home. He loved holding you in his arms, caressing your belly. One of his best memories from pregnancy was when you both felt them kicking for the first time. He bent on his knees to place a kiss on your stomach, and then he felt it against his lips. He gasped with wide-open eyes, and with chuckles, he kissed it again, whispering how much he loves them.

Mouse didn't let you do anything in the nursery. Of course, you could choose everything and decide what you want it to look like, but you couldn't even wash off the dust. With help from Jay, he made everything there, and you could go inside only when everything was ready. The effect exceeded your expectations.

Pregnancy also affected your sex life, especially in the second trimester. Your hormones made you so horny, and after calming Mouse that sex is safe in your condition, you tried new positions and other ways to reach the pleasure. 

Mouse made sure to be at every doctor appointment. He loved seeing your child on ultrasound and hearing their heartbeat. He also went with you to childbirth classes. Actually, it was him who asked to go there. He just wanted to know what he should be prepared for. 

He didn't complain about helping you when you couldn't sleep at night. He would go to the grocery if you had some weird cravings. He would rub your belly, talking to the baby, when they were moving too much. He would do everything to make you comfortable. He would rub your leg when you woke up because of contraction or massage your back. He tried to be patient with you, and your moods swung. He would calm you down with a smile after you started crying at Ruzek's comment about how big your belly became. He always assured you how beautiful you were in his eyes and how much he loved you and your changing body. 

You didn't make it to maternity leave when your waters broke in the middle of the bullpen. Everybody knew that you wanted to stay as long as you could at work. It was your first child, and you were a little afraid to be alone too long, and your sight also calmed down Mouse. You were alone upstairs when it started. Very calm you came to your desk and called Trudy, who were downstairs at the front desk. When she packed you to the car, you texted Mouse to meet in the hospital.

You were already changed in a hospital gown and slowly walking through the hospital corridors, leaning on Trudy's arm. She held your hand and slowly rubbed your backs whenever you stopped because of contraction. You both talked with Maggie from ED when you saw him running in look at you. You smiled at him and leaned against him when he hugged you. 

"You alright, babe? You scared me…" he whispered in your hair.

"I'm okay. The baby just decided to come earlier. I think they couldn't wait to meet you." He chuckled, and then he looked at Trudy. 

"Sarge, thank you for keeping them safe." 

"Everything for that baby." She smiled at you and squeezed your hand. She stepped back to go to the district, where she could wait there for any news about the baby, but you held her hand. 

"Sarge. Could you... Stay here?" If it didn't feel the wave of pain that moment, you could see tears in her eyes when she happily agreed. 

He saw pain on your face and how you dealt with it. He felt so helpless, hearing your moans and grunts full of pain. He tried to do everything to ease it at least a little, but there was a moment when he felt so overwhelmed by this.

You watched Mouse, trying to breathe in the way they taught you in childbirth classes. You saw how his eyes became foggy, and he couldn't stop them at anything for more than a few seconds. You slowly touched his hand and squeezed it slightly. 

"Greg, love... Maybe you should take a walk? Go check if the unit is here or go buy yourself something to drink." 

He didn't say anything but nodded his head and then walked out to the corridor. He didn't know how he walked out in front of the hospital. Not long after this, Jay found him sitting there with his head in his arms. With a frown, he touched his shoulder. He quickly guessed that his PTSD was making itself felt.

"Mouse, something happened? Something with the baby?" 

"She's in so much pain..." 

"And she needs you right now. Y/N is giving birth to your baby. And both of them need you, man." 

"What if I lose her? I can't..."

"And you won't. Y/N is the toughest cop I know, and she will survive this just like your baby. But she needs to know right now that you are with her in this. She needs all the moral support she can get, and you are the best person for this." Mouse nodded and took a few deep breaths. 

"You're right. Y/N needs me." Mouse looked at his friend and quickly got up. He ran to your room again to hold your hand through all this. 

Since that moment, he was by your side all the time, doing everything you asked him. When you started pushing, he held your hand and kept kissing your head. He whispered encouraging words in your ear, trying to be helpful for you. He couldn't count how many times he wished to take all your pain on him. 

He started crying when he heard your baby crying. When they rested them on your chest, he watched them, carefully touching their backs. He laced a fond kiss on their head and then kissed your lips. You watched this little person snuggling to your body with an amused face expression. 

After they checked if everything was okay with the baby and with you, they put you in a room. You sent Mouse to tell your friends that the baby is already in the world, and he did it with a proud smile. He asked them to give you some time, and then they could meet the youngest Gerwitz. He came back to you and then held your child against his chest when you rested a little. 

After some time, full of watching your baby and daydreaming about their future, Mouse went for your unit family. You held the baby in your arms with a big smile when they came in. Erin, Kim and Trudy started cooing at the baby when the older of them took the baby in her arms. You watched them with a tired smile, couldn't help giggling when Mouse acted as an overprotective father. You looked up, feeling how someone squeezed your shoulder slightly, and you met Voight's eyes, who smiled at you and whispered: "Good work, kid. And don't worry. This will be the safest kid in the whole city." It just made you believe that the whole unit will have this child’s back no matter what. And for most of the afternoon, you sat surrounded by people who you choose for your family. You listened to how they promised your child what they would do together and how great it will be. You were moved how they already cared for this baby and you. You happily accepted every hug, especially the one from Trudy and Al, which were like parental for you. 

When you were left alone, Mouse couldn't tear his eyes from your baby and didn't want to put them on that cold, plastic crib. He kissed your forehead with eyes full of love and let you finally sleep. In this room was everything that he ever wanted but didn't have enough courage to dream about this. So he watched the both of you, vigilant that no one disturbs you in your sleep. It was his life now, and he swore to himself that he would do everything to keep you both safe and happy. 

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Author’s note: 

Thank you for reading! Please, let me know what are you thinking about this one! Your comment means a world for me and motivates me to work! Also, taglist is open! If you want to be added just let me know!

In advance, I am sorry about every grammar mistake and misspellings. English is not my first language.

Klaudia xx

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Let me know if you want to be added/removed.

[mrsamaroevans]

New Future

Fandom: Chicago PD.

Pairing: Greg “Mouse” Gerwitz x Female Reader.

Request: Hi! Could you write "I know there's no replacing what we've lost... just let me stay here by your side" and "I will choose her happiness over mine" from Hamilton with Mouse? Thank you in advance! 💜💜 —lovecatystuff.

Words: 950.

Warnings: Talk about miscarriage.

A/N: English is not my first language, so, sorry if there are grammar mistakes or if the redaction is poor. *Gif is not mine*

|| MY MASTERLIST ||

|| PROMPTS LISTS TO REQUESTS ||

“Hey”

Mouse looked up and saw Jay in front of him. The detective sat at his side, palming his shoulder.

“How’s (Y/n)?” Jay asked him.

Mouse tilted his head and cleaned the sweat in his hands in his jeans for the millionth time since the doctors took you away from him “Well… your brother came and told me she’s fine and she’s in her room now, but she doesn’t want to see me”

“What?” Jay frowned “Why?”

“I don’t know” Mouse shook his head and his blue eyes filled with tears “She didn’t tell him”

Mouse sighed and leaned his elbows on his knees. He could have ignored what Will have told him and looked for you in all the rooms, but he was too insecure to do it. Maybe you needed time and space, but it was killing him not being there for you.

“I don’t know what I did, you know I love her more than I have loved anyone…” Mouse said, his eyes were lost somewhere beyond them “She has me wrapped around her finger, you know I would always choose her happiness over mine, but maybe I did something wrong, maybe it was my fault, there’s not another explanation—”

“No, no, no, stop” Jay sighed and kept his hand on Mouse’s shoulder for a moment before standing up “I’ll be back in a minute”

Mouse looked at him as he passed the security and walked in. He saw him talking to Maggie and then he disappeared in the hall. And, after fifteen minutes —the longest fifteen minutes of his life— Jay came back.

“She told you something?” He asked, standing up “She accepted to see me?”

“Well” Jay sighed “She didn’t say no”

The room smelled like every single thing had been sanitized before they brought you there. A nurse came in to give you some antibiotics five minutes ago while Jay was still talking to you. He tried to convince you to let Mouse be with you, and even though you knew it was a hard moment for both of you, you didn’t want to see him. You didn’t want to face the truth.

Mouse wanted to re-enlist to the Rangers and you and Jay tried to convince him to stay in Chicago. Three days after he received the offer, you knew you were pregnant, so he decided to stay. He wanted to be with you through all the pregnancy and wanted to be there for his kid.

But the baby that was growing inside you was gone.

Most of the time, doctors didn’t really know the reason for miscarriages, and yours was one of those occasions when they didn’t have answers.

You were being careful, you told Voight as soon as you knew and started to work on the desk even though you hated it. You did everything right; you weren’t drinking coffee or soda even though the doctor said a cup a day would be fine. You were taking your vitamins as the doctor prescribed them, you stopped eating food from cans or takeaway and you started cooking… but none of that mattered anymore ‘cause the baby was gone.

And you were afraid because Mouse only stayed because of the baby and you didn’t want to lose him too.

You remember when you met him. He was a mess and you just smiled when he said to Jay that his partner was beautiful. At that moment, you never thought that he would become one of the most important people in your life. You never imagined you wouldn’t want to meet more people ‘cause he was the only one who you pictured a future with.

But here you were. Scared of losing him.

You leaned your head back, looking at the ceiling and trying to hold back your tears. You looked around the room, and when your eyes stopped in the door, you couldn’t contain your tears anymore, and Mouse had to run to you because he couldn't bear to see you like that. He wrapped his arms around you and sat in the bed, holding you tightly and pressing his lips in your head.

“I know there's no replacing what we've lost…” He whispered, leaning back a bit to cup your cheeks. You saw his blue eyes letting his tears fall “Just… let me stay here by your side, please”

You nodded, closing your eyes when he kissed your forehead.

You stayed in his arms for a few minutes until your cry eased. He didn’t say anything else, he just did what you both needed. He held you.

“You can go back to the Rangers now” you finally said, feeling how the tears came back to your eyes.

Mouse moved to look you in the eyes “What?” he asked, frowning.

“I know you wanted to, I know you only stayed because of the baby,” you told him and he shook his head no.

“(Y/n)—”

You interrupted him: “No, it’s okay. I understand—”

“I submit my application for the police academy,” he said too quickly but you understood every word.

“Why?” You asked, wiping your tears away.

“’Cause Jay was right… you’re the best thing that happened to me and you’re here” he shrugged.

“But you wanted—”

“You are what I want now… our child helped me to see what I really wanted… I want a life with you” He said and you heard the same desire in his voice that you heard when he told you he wanted to accept the offer or his unit “You and nothing else”

You smiled and accepted his lips when he leaned to you.

Four months after, you accepted the pretty ring Mouse offered to you.

|| MY MASTERLIST ||

|| PROMPTS LISTS TO REQUESTS ||

[give-her-hell-from-us-pevees]

Masterlist

Harry Potter 

George Weasley

George loving lace Headcanons 

First date with George would include . . .

Meeting George’s family would include . . .

George being strong headcanons 

NSFW George headcanons 

Keep secrets from George would include. . . 

Bringing home animals to George would include 

Fighting with George would include . . . 

Cooking with George would include . . .

Cuddling with George would include 

George teasing his girlfriend would include . . .

Helping George with Vertigo would include . . .

Being American and dating George would include . . .

Going to St.Mungo’s with George would include . . .

Quarantine with George would include . . .

Being Lupin’s daughter and dating George 

George and his S/O getting drunk together 

Being best friends with Ginny and dating George would include . . .

Fred Weasley

Cuddling with Fred would include. . .

Fred Proposing to you Headcanons 

Artistic Ravenclaw x Fred headcanons 

Fred taking care of his pregnant wife 

Fred taking your virginity would include . . . 

Fluffy Fred headcanons 

Fighting with Fred would include . . .

NSFW Fred headcanons 

Overprotective Fred Headcanons

Romantic Fred Headcanons 

First date with Fred would include . . .

Random Fred headcanons 

Breakfast- Drabble

Fred says he’s in love with his hufflepuff best friend 

Ron Weasley

Random headcannons 

Neville Longbottom

Neville being your Boyfriend would include . . .

Going to the Yule Ball with Neville would include . .. 

Being a Lestrange and forced to become a death eater while befriend Neville would include . . .

Neville x confident reader headcanons 

NSFW Neville headcanons

Remus Lupin

Cuddling with Remus would include . . .

Your period and Remus cycle syncing would include . . .

Mistakes- Drabble 

First date with Remus would include . . . 

Random Remus headcanons

I can help

Sirius Black

Losing your V card to Sirius headcannons 

Chicago P.D

Antonio Dawson

The Chicago PD boys react when they gf smacks their ass

Don’t leave - Drabble 

Antonio being submissive during sex would include . . .

Our Kids- Drabble

Mine p 1 p2

Antonio being submissive would include . . .

She Knows- Drabble

Partners- Drabble 

The team hears Antonio call you Mama

Drink 

Not Here

Jay Halstead 

Being Adam’s sister and Dating Jay would include 

 Chicago PD boys react when they gf smacks their ass

Move In- Drabble

Jay meeting your daughter’s boyfriend for the first time. (feat. Will)

First Christmas with his daughter and wife.  

Adam Ruzek 

Idiot Drabble

3 Seconds- Drabble 

How would the Chicago PD boys react when they gf smacks their ass

Being Jay’s sister and dating Adam would include 

Greg Gerwitz (Mouse)

Oorah p1 p2

Chicago med

Will Halstead 

Did you just? (Drabble)

Marvel

Bucky Barnes 

Being Thor and Loki sister and Dating Bucky would include

NSFW Headcanons 

Loki

NSFW headcanons 

Loki being protective of you headcanons 

Loki x assassin reader 

Thor

Teach Me

Steve Rogers

Dr. Stephen Strange

Peter Parker

T’Challa 

Tony Stark

[word-scribbless]

Masterlist

~Updated 1/10/21~

🌸female reader

🌻gender neutral reader/ no gender mentioned

I write for:

Hawaii Five 0

Chicago PD

NCIS

NCIS NOLA

Criminal Minds

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Follower celebration Drabble Masterlist!

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Hawaii Five 0

Clumsy - Steve Mcgarrett x reader 🌻

A Real Date 2 Parter Masterlist  - Steve McGarrett x Reader 🌸

Jealous - Steve McGarrett x Reader 🌸

Nicknames - Steve McGarrett x Reader 🌸

Cute - Steve McGarrett X reader 🌸

Babe - Danny “Danno” Williams X Reader 🌸

I Care About You - Danny “Danno” Williams  X Reader 🌸

Chicago PD

Hot - Greg “mouse” Gerwitz x reader 🌸

We Can Be Now Masterlist- Greg “Mouse” Gerwitz X Reader 🌸

Not Ready To Talk About It - Greg “Mouse” Gerwitz X Reader 🌸

Worry - Adam Ruzek x Reader 🌻

Badass - Adam Ruzek X Reader 🌸

Do You Wanna Be? - Adam Ruzek x Reader 🌸

Public Kiss - Adam Ruzek x Reader 🌸

More Than Friends? - Adam Ruzek x Reader 🌸

Your Move - Jay Halstead x Reader 🌸

Done Fighting - Jay Halstead x Reader 🌸

Took You Long Enough - Jay Halstead x Reader 🌻

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NCIS

Family Masterlist - Gibbs x Reader 🌸

Patient and Stubborn - Gibbs X Reader 🌸

Date?- GibbsX Reader 🌸

Time and a place - Gibbs x reader 🌸

Seen my hoodie? - Gibbs x reader 🌸

Oh Baby Masterlist- Gibbs x reader 🌸

Different - Gibbs x reader 🌸

Valentines surprise - Gibbs x reader Drabble 🌸

Belong - Gibbs x reader 🌸

I’ll Wait For You - Gibbs x Reader

Eyes - Gibbs x reader

Thought of you - Gibbs x reader

Slowing Down - Gibbs x reader drabble

Work Wife - Gibbs x reader

Don’t settle - Gibbs x reader (with OC reader’s teen daughter)

Drabble celebration Masterlist (has LOTS OF GIBBS!) 🌸

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NCIS Nola

Always - Dwayne Pride x Reader 🌸

Come Back To Me - Dwayne Pride x Reader

Drabble “will you be home for dinner?” Dwayne x reader

A look - Dwayne Pride X reader

You Get It - Chris Lasalle x Reader 🌸

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Criminal Minds

LANGUAGE -Spencer Reid X Reader 🌸

Hurry Home - Spencer Reid X Reader 🌸

Hiding - Spencer X Reader 🌸

Lock screen - Spencer Reid X Reader 🌻

Rossi’s Niece 2 Part Masterlist- Spencer Reid X Reader 🌸

Trying Something New - Spencer Reid X Reader 🌸

Burnt Food and Surprises-Spencer x reader (a Valentine’s Day tale) 🌸

Not A Secret - Spencer Reid x Reader 🌸

A Girl Genius for the Boy Genius - Spencer Reid x Reader 🌸

Can I Kiss You Now? - Spencer Reid X Reader 🌸

Things Are Different Masterlist - Spencer Reid X OC (Annie Hotchner) Series 🌸

Pizza Date - Spencer Reid x Reader 🌸

Dating Hiatus - Spencer Reid x Reader 🌸

Smile Again Series - Hotch x Reader 🌸

Done Being Stupid - Hotch X reader 🌸

Good Enough Series Masterlist - Hotch x Reader 🌸

Pick Up Lines - Hotch x Reader 🌸

Home - Hotch x reader 🌸

One bed - Hotch x reader 🌻

No Matter What - Hotch x Reader 🌸

Take up my time - Hotch X Reader 🌸

The text heard round the campfire - Hotch X Reader 🌸

Lucky to have you and your beard - Hotch x reader 🌸

Holding back - Derek Morgan X Reader 🌸

Impatient - Derek Morgan x Reader 🌻

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Sons of Anarchy

Tattoo- Opie Winston x female OC

[inagetawaycarxo]

It’s spooky season.

Got a Halloween request? Send it In

Genres:

Headcanons, preferences, imagines, oneshots, fics, drabbles, blurbs, smut, angst & fluff.

You can request as many as your heart desires. FEM!READER ONLY!

LIST OF PROMPTS AND WHO I WRITE FOR UNDERNEATH THE KEEP READING TAG!

Create A Candy Wreath

Bob For Apples

Scavenger Hunts

Local Psychic

Palm Reader

Werewolf Tag

Flashlight Tag

Lantern Making

Playdough monsters

Pumpkin Patch

Haunted House

Halloween Costume Party

Corn Maze

Pumpkin Carving

Matching Costumes

Trick Or Treating

Decorating The House

Roleplay According To Costumes

Tricksters Watching

Halloween Candlelit Dinner

Bake Halloween -Inspired Treats

Visit A Haunted Attraction

Go See A Horror Movie

Jump Scare

Scary Stories

Play Sexy/Scary Dress Up

Watch Scary Movies

Late Night Corn Maze

Ghost Tour

Picnic At A Graveyard

Tell Scary Stories By The Campfire

Scary Movie Marathon

Carnival

Late Night Walk In The Cemetery

Bonfire

Jump In A Pile Of Leaves

Make Candy Apples

Pick Pumpkin From Pumpkin Patch

Bobbing For Alcohol

Campfire

Camp In The Backyard

Surprise s/o With Sexy Costume

Haunted Hayride

Ghost Hunt

Costume Shopping

Smores By The Fire

Paint Pumpkins

Make Jack O’Lanterns

Road Trip To Spooky Destinations

Alien AU

Angel AU

Affair AU

Amnesia AU

Angel/Demon AU

Apocalypse AU

Assassin AU

Asylum AU

Alien Invasion AU

Alpha/Beta/Omega AU

Betrayal AU

Banshee AU

Blackmail AU

Bonnie & Clyde AU

Cabin In The Woods AU

Castaway AU

Criminal AU

Crossroad Demon AU

Cowgirl AU

Cowboy AU

Criminal And Accomplice AU

Dragon AU

Dark Fantasy AU

Demigod AU

Double Agent AU

Demon AU

Dead/Death AU

Demon Hunter AU

Damsel In Distress AU

Demon Slayer AU

Dimension Hoping AU

Dark Angel AU

Enemies To Lovers AU

Enemies AU

Fantasy AU

Fae AU

Fake Relationship AU

Fake Dating, AU

Fake Marriage AU

Forbidden Love AU

Fairies AU

Fairy AU

Fugitive AU

Fallen Angel AU

Guardian Angel AU

Ghost AU

Greek Gods AU

Genie AU

Goddess AU

God AU

Hero/Villain AU

Hanahaki Disease AU

Hitman AU

Hunter AU

Heat {also known as Mating Cycle} AU

Horror

Hunters Dating

Hybrid AU

Horror Film AU

Imaginary Friend AU

Immortal/Human AU

Immortal AU

Incubus AU

Jealousy AU

Kidnapped AU

Lost In Space, AU

Love Affair AU

Love/Hate Relationship AU

Love Triangle AU

Love Spell AU

Love Turns Them Evil AU

Lured Into A Trap AU

Lost In The Woods AU

Mob!Boss AU

Mafia AU

Medium AU

Mutant AU

Mistaken Identity AU

Magic AU

Maid AU

Merman AU

Mermaid AU

Murder Mystery AU

Merpeople AU

Mythological Creatures AU

Mobster AU

Mad Scientist AU

Mythology AU

Medieval AU

Nephlim AU

One Sided Love AU

Outlaw Couple AU

Pirate AU

Protector AU

Prisoner AU

Post Apocalypse AU

Possessed AU

Possessive AU

Roaring 20s AU

Rivals To Lovers AU

Resurrection AU

Rival AU

Reincarnation AU

Runaway AU

Reapers AU

Supernatural AU

Superpowers AU

Secret Identity AU

Secret Admire AU

Spell AU

Soulmates AU

Secret Relationship AU

Spy AU

Space AU

Stalker AU

Stripper AU

Siren AU

Succubus AU

Secret Agent AU

Secret Spy AU

Superhero AU

Telepathy AU

Time Traveller AU

Thief AU

The Little Mermaid AU

Time Travel AU

Time Travelers AU

Unrequited Love AU

Vigilante AU

Vampire/Werewolf AU

Vampire/Vampire Hunter AU

Vampire AU

Vampire Hunter AU

Villain AU

Weakness Turns On Lover AU

Werewolf

Witch AU

Wizard AU

Zombie Apocalypse AU

Taking The Kids Trick Or Treating

Fandoms I write for

WWE: 

MALE SUPERSTARS:

Adam Cole

Aj Styles

Andrade Cien Almas

Buddy Murphy

Bobby Fish

Cesaro

Drew McIntyre

Elias Samson

Finn Balor

Kyle O’Reilly

Roderick Strong

Roman Reigns

Seth Rollins

The Miz

Jimmy Uso

Jey Uso

Triple H, 

FEMALE SUPERSTARS:

Alexa Bliss

Bayley

Becky Lynch

Billie Kay

Candice LeRae

Charlotte Flair

Dakota Kai

Lana

Maryse

Mickie James

Naomi

Paige

Peyton Royce

Sasha Banks

Stephanie McMahon

Tegan Nox

Zelina Vega

CHICAGO FIRE; 

Kelly Severide

Matt Casey

Sylvie Brett

Gabby Dawson

CHICAGO MED;

 Will Halstead

Connor Rhodes

Ethan Choi

CHICAGO P.D.; 

Jay Halstead

Antonio Dawson

Adam Ruzek

Greg Gerwitz

Kevin Atwater

Kim Burgess

Erin Lindsay

Hailey Upton

CRIMINAL MINDS:

 Derek Morgan

Spencer Reid

Luke Alvez

DCEU: 

Bruce Wayne

Diana Prince

Clark Kent

Lena Luthor

Kara Danvers

LUCIFER: 

Lucifer Morningstar

Chloe Decker

Mazikeen

Amenadiel

Michael

Ella Lopez

Eve

Dan Espinoza

MARVEL: 

Steve Rogers

Tony Stark

Thor

Peter Parker

Bruce Banner

T’Challa

Loki

Sam Wilson

Carol Danvers

Mj

SUPERNATURAL:

 Dean Winchester

Sam Winchester

Castiel

Jack Kline

 Crowley

TEEN WOLF;

 Derek Hale

Peter Hale

Scott McCall

Stiles Stilinski

Malia Tate

Jordan Parrish

Chris Argent

Isaac Lahey

TO/TVD: 

Klaus Mikaelson

Elijah Mikaelson

 Kol Mikaelson

Rebekah Mikaelson

Hayley Marshall

Marcel

Davina Claire

 Freya Mikaelson

Stefan Salvatore

Kai Parker

Damon Salvatore

 Katherine Pierce

Tyler Lockwood

Bonnie Bennet

Elena Gilbert

Caroline Forbes

 Enzo

CELEBS: 

Harry Styles

Jake Gyllenhaal

Jensen Ackles

Zendaya

[crazybagelbitch]

would anyone be interested in greg gerwitz x sister reader drabbles 🤔

[harley-sunday]

Control, Alt, Arrow

Request by anon: Could you do a Mouse request where his girlfriend knows some knowledge of computer skills and Mouse finds out and is like “I’m gonna marry you someday”??

Pairing: Greg ‘Mouse’ Gerwitz x reader

Warning: mild, mild language. 

AN: Ok, so my computer skills are pretty much non-existent, and Google wasn’t of much help here either, so I took the most ‘useful’ skill I know and used it for this drabble. This also might be the worst title ever, but I couldn’t come up with anything better... Just ignore it. Either way; enjoy :)

You glance at Jay, who’s handing Mouse a cup of coffee before he sits down at his desk again and you can’t help but snicker. In your head you count down;  from three to two to one,

“(Y/N)!”, Jay shouts across the room to where you are busy filing some case files, “What the hell did you do to my screen?”

You fake innocence and bat your eyelashes at him, “Nothing?”

He throws you a look and crosses his arms in front of his chest, leaning back in his chair, eyes still trained on you, “Just make it right again, please? I have work to do and I can’t do that when my fucking screen is upside down!”

You shrug, still not pleading guilty, “Just turn your monitor upside down, works like a charm,”

He lets out a frustrated groan, pursing his lips together, which tells you he’s about to throw a temper tantrum that would even give the most obnoxious five-year old a run for its money. He takes a deep breath and turns to Mouse, who has been watching all this with a wicked grin on his face, “Mouse, some help?”

Mouse shakes his head, “Nah man, you’re on your own here.” He turns his attention back to his screen but not before he throws you a wink.

“Mouse,” Jay growls, “you’re supposed to have my back, man.”

“She’s my girlfriend, dude,” Mouse notes from behind his screen, “I’m not going against her, not for this.”

Jay shifts his focus back to you, “Does this have anything to do with me asking you to get us some coffee earlier?”

You shrug, grinning, “Maybe,”

Jay sighs, throwing his hands up in defeat, “I’m sorry, ok, from now on I’ll get my own coffee,” you throw him a look and he quickly adds, “and yours.”

“Two sugars, no milk, thank you,” you reply simply while you walk over to his desk. You gently push him aside and your fingers hit the keys needed, turning the screen back to its normal position, “There,”

“How did you do that?” Jay asks, looking at his screen in awe.

“I’m going to marry you someday,” Mouse mutters, looking at you proudly, his grin matching yours as you walk back to the filing cabinet.

[witchygagirlwrites]

Greg "Mouse" Gerwitz x Reader

So maybe you can't get your mind off your boyfriend

Smut 🤷‍♀️

You watched Mouse work across the room and rolled your bottom lip between your teeth. The ability of that man to sit there and act like he hadn’t done the things he’d done to you just that morning let alone the night before was beyond you. It was an actual effort from you at times to not get distracted when he had to wire you up for any reason. His hands on your body for any reason made your mind go to straight to the gutter.

 Erin walked behind your chair and leaned down to whisper “I will get a damn water bottle to start spraying you with. For god’s sake woman. You are in heat” you cut your eyes up at her and she grinned “Tone it down. You know how Hank is” you felt your face warm and nodded. “Sorry” she laughed lightly and cut her eyes back at Mouse who was now talking to Jay “Is it that good?” you raised an eyebrow and she laughed lightly “Ok. I’m not doubting you or your man. Just tone it down so you and him aren’t drowning in H.R. paperwork?”

You nodded and glanced back towards Mouse who cut his eyes up at you and winked. Damn him that little action sent a jolt straight through you. “Dammit” Erin cursed and grabbed your arm “Come on. I’ll get you a cup of coffee. I think you need to get out of each other’s eye sight for a few minutes”

“So what was wrong with Erin?” Mouse asked as you followed him into his apartment. You watched him strip his jacket off and your train of thought seemed to derail the moment his biceps straining against the shirt he was wearing was visible.

You swallowed hard “I’m starting to think maybe she had a point” he looked confused as you kicked your boots off and walked further into his apartment “What does that mean baby?” you turned to look at him and he’d already kicked his boots off and was pulling his shirt over his head. You whimpered lightly the moment his chest was bare. Mouse wasn’t overly muscular, no but he was built. His slim frame was nothing but lean muscle. Your body knew how much strength he carried very well.

He grinned when he saw the way your eyes trailed over his chest then down to his abs, lingering on the hair that sank below his jeans. “Sweetheart?” you blinked slowly then brought your eyes up to his “She may have said I was in heat” his eyes widened before he laughed “Are you?”

You shrugged “Before the first time I slept with you? I would’ve punched anyone for saying that? Now?” you shamelessly checked him out before saying “I’m not too damn sure Gerwitz”

He walked towards you “Oh come on now love, you’ve had exes before me” you nodded “Yeah” when he got to you he pulled you into his arms and you let your fingers trail down his chest to tease the line of hair at the waistband of his jeans “None of them felt like they were made just for me, you do” you admitted and he tilted his head to the side to look at you “How’s that?”

You felt your face warm “You fit me perfectly. You feel better than anything has ever felt. The things you do to me..” he cut you off by crashing his lips against yours. 

The two of you moved backwards to the couch and when you felt the back of your knees hit it you went down first, pulling him down on top of you. Your legs fell open for him and he grinned against your lips and he rolled his hips down against yours, swallowing the moan that you gave.

Your hands went up to his hair, tugging lightly. He broke away from your lips and leaned up to pull at the hem of your shirt “Can I take this off baby?” you nodded and leaned up so he snatched that off and tossed it before slipping an arm around you to relieve you of your bra as well. You gasped when your breasts rubbed against the smooth muscles of his chest and he smiled “Look at you, come on baby..I’m not that special”

You glared at him “Get my damn jeans off please” he grinned “Yes ma’am” and leaned back to unzip your jeans, kissing your stomach as he did so then once your jeans were unzipped he followed their path with kisses as he pulled them off your legs.

You grabbed one of his hands and guided it between your legs. When his fingers teased at your dripping core a slow smirk worked its way onto his face before you said “That’s from kissing you Greg. I’m fucking soaked. Now please shut up and fuck me” he slipped a finger into you, teasing at your clit, when your back arched he added a second “I love when you say please sweetheart”

He worked you right until that edge then slipped his fingers out of you. “Damn you” you cursed and he grinned, licking them clean. “Sorry baby. You just look so pretty pissed off” he unzipped his jeans and pushed them to the floor before crawling up your body, kissing and biting every inch of skin he could that he knew you could cover at work. You were a moaning mess by the time he got to your lips. You could feel his cock teasing at your thigh when he kissed you. 

“Greg” you whined and he laughed “Turn over sweetheart” you turned over on the couch and felt the head of his cock teasing at your entrance right before he pushed into you. Your face fell forward into the cushion and you heard him laugh lightly. Your hands balled into fist as one of his hands slipped under your waist to give him a better angle.

He gave a hard thrust and you screamed out his name when the angle meant he was slamming into that spot deep inside of you. “Damn sweetheart, if the neighbors didn’t know my name they will” he teased between clenched teeth. He found a pace that had you damn near sobbing under him because he had you at just the right position that every thrust meant not only was the head of his cock hitting that spot inside of you but he was dragging your clit across his thumb too. 

You could feel that pressure building quickly and when he leaned over to press a kiss to your shoulder that seemed to make it burst, your vision going soft around the edges. “Fuck baby” he groaned, snapping his hips forward into you. When he buried himself into you with a final thrust you felt when he came, some of it pushing back out of you and down your thighs when he draped himself over you so he could lean your head back to pull you into a kiss “I think I love you” he whispered and you smiled “Good because I think I love you too”

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Greg "Mouse" Gerwitz x Reader

Even on your worst day his touch can bring you back

The fluffiest Smut

Mouse could hear the beginning of another nightmare. He’d been sleeping on the couch, it by far wasn’t his idea but when you’d asked for space that was the most amount you were gonna get. You and him had just moved in together a couple months before that case that landed you in the hospital. He wouldn’t have abandoned you before, he damn sure wasn’t abandoning you now. Hell you’d had plenty of reasons to walk away from him over the years and never had. He’d meant forever when he first told you he loved you and he still meant it.

He threw his blanket off and walked towards the bedroom, pushing the door open. You were curled up on your side in the middle of the bed. He wasn’t sure if he should try to wake you up by touching you or calling your name. “Baby?” he whispered gently and you shivered slightly before your body started to relax “Greg?” the moment you said his name he saw your shoulders release some of the tension “Yeah sweetheart. It was a nightmare. I’m here”

You turned to face him and god just the look in your eyes, he’d do anything you asked of him to make that look go away. “Can you sleep in here tonight?” you whispered and he nodded “Of course” and walked over to the bed. You smiled softly when he slid under the blanket then curled up to his chest, your fingers trailing over the flesh of his stomach “I’m sorry I haven’t been letting you in here” your voice was so low he barely caught it.

“Don’t apologize love. Whatever you need to heal. That’s what matters” he told you, pressing a kiss to the top of your head.  You ducked your head down before saying “I need you” he smiled “You’ve got me” you were quiet for a moment before saying “No, I need you Greg” and cut your eyes up at him. He felt his heart stop at the look in your eyes “Baby, are you sure?” the two of you hadn’t come close to sex since you’d gotten hurt.

“Please, I just want to feel you love me. You make me feel good, you make me feel loved and whole. I need that” you whispered and he nodded “You’ve got to promise to tell me if anything is too much or if you want to stop at any time” “I promise” you replied and he bought one hand up to push your hair back from your face “What do you want me to do?”

“Kiss me” you whispered and he smiled before leaning closer to gently brush his lips against yours. He felt your hands move up to slip into his hair as you deepened the kiss, hands sliding down his back to dig your fingers in slightly. You tugged at his shoulders to pull him over on top of you. He pulled back from the kiss to look in your eyes and you smiled up at him, the darkness fading from your eyes just a little “I love you Greg” you spoke and his heart flipped “I love you too

You pulled him back down to your lips and he felt your tongue flick across his bottom lip so he happily gave you access and when you rolled your tongue against his, his eyes fluttered shut for a moment as he gave himself over for just a second to the feeling of you kissing him. Your hands moving across his body made him open his eyes as he looked down at you “Sweetheart, we can stop at any time” you nodded “I know” then reached for the hem of your shirt you’d worn to bed, holding his eyes as you pulled it up. He swallowed hard as you pulled it over your head, tossing it off the bed and baring yourself to him.

He went back to your lips, placing a lingering kiss there before moving to kiss across your jaw then down to your neck. When he got to your chest your fingers buried themselves in his hair when he pressed a kiss to the soft flesh of your right breast “Missed you” you moaned and christ, that was the prettiest sound he’d ever heard. 

He hadn’t gone without touching you for lack of desire, hell no he’d want you whenever and wherever you’d have him but you had to heal. Loving you was as natural as his heart beating. That involved so much more than sex but if this was what you needed to feel less broken, if you needed him loving every hurt part to remind you of just how amazing you were he would spend the entire night kissing every inch of your body in hopes that he could return just a portion of that fire he loved so damn much to your eyes.

You gasped under him, hips turning up slightly to meet his and a smile playing on your lips. He smiled and moved to the left breast giving it the same treatment, eyes going to your face to watch the little changes to your expression. Your eyes fluttered shut, lashes kissing your cheeks as your breathing got quicker. He was close enough to your chest he could hear how fast your heart was beating and he’d barely done anything yet. 

He gently rolled one nipple into his mouth and your eyes flew open “Fuck, Greg” and he grinned. There was his girl. You looked down at him, a smile on your face as your fingers buried in his hair “Feels so damn good” you whispered and he winked at you before pulling off that breast with a wet pop. “How you feeling sweetheart? Still want to do more?” you nodded “I’m good. Please don’t stop”

He leaned up to place a kiss to your lips before turning back to kiss down your body. After giving your other breast attention he continued down your body. When he got to the waistband of the shorts you’d worn to bed he looked up at you and you nodded then remembered his rule about always needing to hear your consent “Please” you whispered and he smiled, placing a kiss to your inner thigh before pulling the shorts off of you.

He settled his shoulders between your thighs and looked up at you to realize you were already looking at you “I love you” you told him with a smile and he grinned “God I love you” before he licked into you and your back arched off of the bed. He hooked one arm around your waist, pulling you closer to him. He needed to make you feel good, make you remember who you were, that you were amazing and perfect and that no one could change that.

You whimpered when he added one finger then another, curling them up to hit that spot that he knew would have you seeing stars. Your breaths were coming in gasps and your legs were starting to shake around his head.When he sucked your clit into his mouth, swirling his tongue around the sensitive bundle of nerves he felt your muscles contract on his fingers before the taste and feel of you finding your release hit his tongue. He held your hips steady as he worked you through it, staying in place until you shoved at his head “Too much Greg”

He leaned back, placing gentle kisses on your inner thighs “Are you ok love?” you nodded, eyes a little glazed over “I’m so much better than I’ve been” he grinned “I’m not a miracle worker baby” you laughed and curled a finger at him so he crawled up your body, kissing every inch of skin he could reach along the way. When he got to your lips,you pulled him down to roll your lips against his, tasting yourself on him.

“Not a miracle worker but you love me at my most broken and remind me I’m not” you whispered and reached between you, pushing his sweatpants down “Make love to me Greg” he swallowed hard then nodded, helping you push the pants off his hips. He lined himself up with your entrance then looked back up to your eyes “Are you sure?” you nodded “Please”

He slid slowly into you, eyes never leaving yours. You whimpered his name as he felt you stretch around him. Your hands went to his shoulders, pulling him closer. As soon as he was fully inside of you he moved to kiss across your neck and chest to give you a few moments to adjust since he knew how long it’d been. 

When you shifted your hips so you could hook a leg around his waist he leaned up to grin at you “Being impatient love?” you nodded “Need you” he smiled “You’ve got me” he gripped one of your legs in his hand before rolling his hips into yours. His lips found yours as a rhythm was met that had both of you gasping before long.

When he was forced to break away from your lips so you could both get some air he pressed his forehead over into the bend of your neck, whispering “Look at my girl, taking me so good. So fucking perfect. You’re so perfect baby. So amazing, so damn strong and beautiful” 

Your eyes rolled back in your head as he pushed you closer and closer to that edge. When he slipped a hand between you to let two fingers slip down to roll across your clit you felt yourself plunge over that edge as your orgasm washed over you. Your legs were shaking around him as you practically chanted his name. You knew he was close because his thrusts were starting to get just a little sharper, a bit deeper. 

Once you came down from your own high a bit you slipped your fingers up into his hair and whispered “Don’t treat me like I’m glass. Let me feel you” he groaned your name before he started to snap his hips into yours. The feeling in turn started to make that same feeling begin to build inside of you again. 

He must have known you were close and must have been close himself because this time he slipped his fingers down to your clit and didn’t slow his hips any. He rolled his hips into you at the same pace his fingers teased your clit and when you came, clenching down hard you drove him over that edge with you. Your entire body shook slightly as you both came.

He let his head fall over onto your chest, both of you working to get your breathing back to normal. After a moment he looked up at you “Are you ok?” you nodded, a smile slipping onto your face “I’m gonna be” he grinned “Good, just know whatever you need and whenever you need it I’m here sweetheart. I am yours, forever” you raised an eyebrow “Forever is pretty long Gerwitz” he nodded “Yeah well, I’m saying forever and a day because it isn’t enough to love you” and pressed a gentle kiss to your lips “I love you more than my own life” you shook your head “I love you too Greg, with everything I have”

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Broken Bonds-Part 23

Greg "Mouse" Gerwitz x Reader, Jay Halstead x Reader

Mouse goes out to dinner with Stella and Kelly then Jay ends up at his hotel room

A/N: This story is still very much in an angst place. People get (what i think) are happy endings. But not yet 🤷‍♀️

Warnings: Mouse's POV so yeah 🤷‍♀️ I feel like that's a warning in itself 😂

Mouse walked you back to your jeep, you had to go to work. He hated the part of not having anything to do really between getting home and going to Georgia. He’d done all his paperwork, crossed all the t’s and dotted all the i’s. Times like this he missed the tech spot in intelligence, not like it would go over very smoothly right now anyways.

Mendez lived in town so he could go see him, see how he was adjusting to being back stateside. Something to get his mind off the fact that you were clearly hurting, again. He hated that he was home and still couldn’t do anything to fix your pain. He hated so much of where all of you had currently found yourselves. 

The woman he loved was ripping herself to shreds, trying to spare everyone else’s heart around her and take care of her babygirl. Maybe he should’ve been stronger, turned her away..something but damn he was hers first. 

He had stayed away from her purposely because he had found out she loved Jay and didn’t want to hurt either of them but when she’d found him? When she was standing in front of him, telling him how much she loved him, had never stopped loving him? How the hell could he turn her away? How the hell could he not hold her close? If loving her was what damned him he’d welcome it. 

His best friend, well could he call Jay that anymore? It seemed weird after all this time to refer to Jay as anything else. Even after everything it felt wrong to think of him as anything but his best friend. He’d inadvertently hurt him, in the worst of ways. Jay was a good man in general, and had been a good man to you. Jay was a good father. Jay had been a good friend to him, they’d survived hell together, overseas and back home.

He shook his head and pulled his phone out to call Mendez, he just needed a few hours to clear his head. He was meeting Stella and Kelly for dinner, which was going to be interesting enough. He could imagine how the conversation with Stella was going to go, which he’d gladly take as long as she’d give her blessing for him to be around again, if you wanted him in Chicago he was coming home to Chicago no matter what it took.

Mouse pulled up to the restaurant where he was meeting Stella and Kelly. He wanted to text you and ask if you were ok but he knew you needed time. You had just told him that morning you needed to talk to Jay and the last possible thing you needed was for him to call or message you while you were talking to Jay.

At least Kelly still had that damn mustang. It was easy to spot in the parking lot and had an empty space next to it. He parked his rental and pocketed the keys. 

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He walked in the door of the restaurant and didn’t have to look around before he heard Stella’s sharp whistle she used on the truck to get everyone’s attention. He turned towards the noise and saw her and Kelly sitting on the back wall. He smiled and headed that way.

When he got to the table Stella stood up and Kelly cut his eyes at him, ok here it comes. “Greg” ok he knew Stella was the opposite of you when it came to his actual name. If she called him Greg it was something serious. “Hey Stella. It’s good to see you” she drew her hand back and open palm slapped him across the face “That’s for breaking my sister’s heart when you not only rejoined the rangers but broke up with her when that was clearly not what she wanted!”

He reached to rub his face but before he could she pulled him into a hug “and this is for loving her enough to come your ass back to Chicago despite everything for her” he looked towards Kelly who shrugged before returning the hug “I’d come back from hell itself for your sister Stella” he promised and she pulled back from the hug and smiled at him “Ok, I got that out of my system. Let’s talk and eat. I need to make sure what your plans are because if you’re only one foot in I need to know so I can figure out where I’m burying you”

He laughed nervously, looking at Kelly who shook his head “She’s half joking” “Well, nice to know” he pulled out the chair across from them and sat down.

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“What about Adeline, Greg?” Stella eyed him over her glass of wine. He sat down the water he was drinking “She’s her daughter Stel. I love her more than anything on this earth and even if he doesn’t believe me I still have love for Jay. We saw each other through a lot. That baby is a mixture of the two people who have meant the most to me in my adult life. Why wouldn’t I love her despite the circumstances? She’s innocent in everything. I respect that Jay has been amazing to Y/N throughout her pregnancy and since and I love him for it, I love that he’s a good father. As strange as it sounds I’m glad it was him over someone else that may have left her high and dry”

“Damn” Kelly muttered and Stella shot him a look. He shrugged “What? Baby that was a good answer, you gotta admit” Stella shook her head but Mouse saw the tiny smile tugging at her lips.

 “So you’re telling me, as a man, it doesn’t make you hold resentment or anger towards her that she slept with your best friend?” “Towards her? No. I made the mistake of leaving and of breaking up with her when I left but I can’t hold resentment because of Addy” “Damn” Kelly repeated again and when Stella shot him another look he took a sip of his drink and looked away like the wall suddenly interested him more than annoying his wife further. 

Stella snapped her fingers and pointed at him “Your training is eighteen weeks. She works with Jay, they co-parent. You’re not gonna be worried something may happen?” “I’ve made it clear to her and will make it clear to her again that all I ask for is honesty in that and we’ll get through it” Stella shook her head and took another sip of her wine “I don’t remember you being this fucking perfect for my sister”

Kelly scoffed “He’s been head over heels for her since the first day he started working with intelligence baby” Stella finished her wine and reached for her water instead, eyeing Mouse as she did “Ok, what if she picks Jay but still wants you in her life? Hmm Mister perfect?” 

He smiled slightly “I’ll be her friend. Whatever she wants me to be, I’ll be” “Damn” Stella was the one to say it this time. Mouse laughed lightly “Stel, I’m not saying what I think you want to hear. I love her, she’s the love of my life. Not a day that’s gone by where that’s changed. Did it hurt like hell finding out she slept with Jay and was pregnant?” he cut his eyes at Kelly “How would you feel?”

“I’d want to kill him but my feelings for her wouldn’t change” Kelly replied. Mouse nodded “Exactly. It ripped my fucking heart out but the pieces still belonged to her. I tried to move on, a couple times when we were on leave overseas” Stella raised an eyebrow “And?” he laughed “Kinda hard to do when I saw your sister everywhere I looked. No matter where I was, no matter what the woman in front of me looked like she didn’t compare to her. I didn’t even know she’d been with Jay up until the day I came home until this morning”

Stella grimaced slightly “You didn’t?” he shook his head “No, and do you think that shit didn’t hurt? To know while I was on a plane home, she was waking up in Jay’s arms telling him she loved him. What if she changes her mind when I’m gone? What if she wants him again? What if she doesn’t trust me when I’m gone… Stella I’ve went over so many scenarios in my head but the one thing that’s true is what you told me before I ever left”

“If you can’t stand to see her in somebody else’s arms then it’s still worth fighting for”  he nodded “She told me she loves me, that she’s still in love with me, that she never fell out of love with me. That’s what I’m going to hold on to. I’m going to do my best to make sure she knows whatever happens she can tell me, she can trust me. I’m not fucking it up this time Stella. I would still do damn near anything for Jay but I was hers first”

Kelly grinned and Stella cut her eyes at him “What was that about?” he shrugged “I like the fact that he didn’t claim ownership of her, he gave her ownership of him” Mouse cut his eyes at Kelly with a grin “There’s worse options then being owned by one of the Kidd women isn’t there?” 

Stella and Kelly walked with Mouse out to the parking lot. Mouse couldn’t help but feel his heart ache at seeing the two of them. They were so damn happy,you and him were that happy at one time.

“Mouse?” Stella called so he cut his eyes at her “Yeah?” she smiled “Don’t stop fighting for her. She deserves the best type of love regardless of who she ends up with” he smiled slightly “Yeah, she does” 

He told them goodnight then headed back to his hotel room. He hoped you’d call to say goodnight or maybe call him in the morning. Either way he needed some sleep.

Stella told Kelly she wanted to stop by your place to talk to you after they left the restaurant and he laughed as he pulled out onto the road, already pointed towards your apartment “However did I know?” She laughed and leaned over to kiss his cheek “Because you’re the best husband to me and the best brother in law to her”

He shook his head as he drove to your place, listening to her talk about you and Addy. He pulled into the spot next to your jeep and cut his eyes at her “Go ahead baby, I’ll just wait out here” she smiled and leaned over to pull him into a kiss “I love you so much” he smiled against her lips “I know. I love you too. Tell her I said hey and give Addy a kiss for me”

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You heard someone knocking at the door. You had at least managed to make it back up to the couch. You took a deep breath and braced yourself just in case it was Jay. Mouse wouldn’t come to your place. He didn’t want to step on Jay’s toes where Addy was concerned.

“I’m coming” you called out, wincing slightly at how rough your voice sounded from crying. You walked over and almost didn’t unlock the door when you realized who it was but what good would it do when she or Kelly could knock the door down if they really wanted to?

 You unlocked the door and swung it open, keeping your gaze down “Hey Stel” she grinned “Hey honey be…” she trailed off when she looked at your face “Who is responsible for that? Because I’m gonna kill them”

“I’m fine Stel” you tried but she was already pushing into the apartment and turning you around towards the light to get a better look at your face “Yeah cause lord knows I cry until my face is freakin swollen in places when I’m fine. Now let’s try this one more time before you have to call in favors with Voight to get him to call in favors to get me off murder charges. Why were you crying?”

“It’s no one’s fault but mine” you whispered and she shook her head, keeping her voice low because of the time and she knew Addy was asleep “Bullshit. Did Jay make you cry? Because Mouse has been with me?” “I talked to him..he knows I slept with Greg…I’m a fucking horrible person Stella..I’m fucking poison…I want them both to leave me alone”

You didn’t realize tears had started again until she pulled you into her arms “What do you mean? Honey, talk to me?”  “I keep hurting them both and they won’t hate me. Jay won’t, Mouse damn sure won’t….how much easier would Mouse’s life be if he could’ve forgotten me and never come back to Chicago? How much easier would Jay’s life be if he’d gotten literally anyone else pregnant? I can’t stop hurting them even when I try my best to keep from doing it”

She directed you to the couch and sat down with you laying against her chest “Oh honey bee..They love you..no matter the why or the how..they love you. You are the type of person who will rip yourself to shreds for those you care about, I’ve seen you do it one too many times. Don’t do it anymore. You have a precious little girl who needs her mom. You can not help what your heart wants. You are not poisonous or horrible. You’re human love, with human emotions and that’s ok”

“Where’s Kelly?” you asked and she leaned back to look down at you “He’s in the car, do you want him?” you shook your head “Do you gotta go since he’s waiting?” she smiled “Not if you need me. I’ll tell him to go grab me a change of clothes and bring em back. I’ll go with you to drop off in the morning” “I still work with Jay and share a daughter with him and Mouse is still leaving thursday for four and a half months where he can’t come home but every other weekend or so”

“We’ll figure it out babe. Sisters are ride or die remember. You’ve been there for me. It’s just my turn to be there for you”

Jay walked down the hallway of the hotel until he found the room number that was registered to Mouse. He had to talk to him. There was no other option, and actually talk. This needed a mature approach not pushing buttons and seeing what happened.

He knocked on the door and heard shuffling of jeans on carpet before it opened. Mouse looked a bit confused before asking “Do I need to duck here or what?” Jay shook his head “No, we need to talk”

Mouse stepped back and waved his arm “Come on in”

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Jay stepped into the room, his eyes flickering towards the bed before turning to face Mouse. “She told me” Mouse nodded “So is this where I duck?” Jay shook his head “You do know that no matter what, me and her are gonna have to be in each other’s lives?” 

Mouse nodded “The shared daughter and job sort of told me that” “Her and Addy are my girls Greg. I love her more than I ever meant to. I don’t want to see her hurt and more so I don’t want my daughter getting used to someone then that person up and leave”  Mouse nodded “I get that, all of that”

“Then you can see how finding out that the woman I love cheated on with my best friend fucking felt?” “Hurt, didn’t it?” Mouse asked and the two stood there staring at each other for a long second before Jay said “You weren’t with her” “No but she’s the love of my life Jay. I’d cut my heart out of my chest right this moment if that’s what she needed. There’s not a damn thing I wouldn’t do for her”

“Would you walk away if she asked you to?” Jay questioned and he nodded “If that’s what caused her the least of amount of pain, yes” “I’ve been with her for months, I held her while she brought our daughter into the world” Jay said and Mouse nodded “I know, you’re a good man Jay and a fucking amazing father. Y/N loves you Jay, she truly does. You mean so much to her”

“I wished cards would’ve fallen differently. You’re my best friend Mouse. You pulled me out of shit my own brother didn’t care to” Jay admitted and Mouse nodded in agreement “You pulled me out of shit no one cared to. I’d still do just about anything for you Jay but don’t ask me to walk away from her without a fight. I’m not leaving past my training unless she tells me to leave”

“And if she told you to?” Jay asked and Mouse shrugged “I’d tear my heart out of my chest to spare her pain” “What about Addy?” Jay asked, Mouse took a deep breath “You two have a beautiful daughter.You’ve done an amazing job raising her and no matter who she ends up with you are Adeline’s father Jay, only you”

Jay nodded and held out his hand. Mouse took it and when they shook it Jay said “Maybe one day we can actually get back to being best friends again” “I hope so”

Part 24

@desimarie12

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Broken Bonds-Part 21

Former(ish) Greg "Mouse" Gerwitz x Reader, Jay Halstead x Reader

When Jay refuses to talk about what happened between him and Mouse and begins to push you away you decide its time for you and Mouse to finally face each other, alone.

Warnings: cursing, mention of violence, (kinda cheating?) NSFW happenings 👀

You hated arguing with people you cared about. Stella, Kevin, anyone you loved you hated to argue with. Stranger? You would stand ten toes down, scream and yell until you were blue in the face but if the person across from you had some sort of place in your heart you despised arguing. The most recent development was that you hated not being able to yell in an argument nearly as bad as arguing with someone you cared about.

You stood in the center of your bedroom facing Jay who had one shoulder leaned against the doorframe. The purplish bruise gracing his face was a stark contrast to the rest of his jaw. He refused to tell you what happened. You weren’t an idiot.You knew it had to have been Mouse. There was no other option. He hadn’t gotten hit at work and besides the morning before he hadn’t been without you or Hailey at his side.

You glanced at the clock, Addy would be up soon but he hadn’t come in until after you were asleep so once you got out of the shower and he was up and dressed you started back in on the questioning. “Just fucking tell me what happened” you whisper shouted, waving a hand around the space between the two of you. He shrugged “Nothing, ok? Just let it go” you clenched your jaw hard enough you felt it pop.

“I know it came from Mouse. I’m not a fucking idiot Jay. When did you and him see each other again?” you crossed your arms and he dropped his gaze down to the floor. Damn he better be glad he was a detective because at this rate he’d be a shit criminal. If you could crack him like this you would’ve hated to see him on the other side of the table from someone like Voight or even Antonio once upon a time. 

“Like I said, let it go. It doesn’t matter” he argued and you shook your head “It does to me! I come out of the bathroom at dinner and you two are facing off then he leaves in a rush. The following morning you’re late getting to the daycare for drop off and when you get there your fucking face is bleeding and all day yesterday if you wanted to tell me anything, even about the fucking case you sent Hails with it. Really? You can fuck me but not talk to me? Really mature”

He scoffed lightly “Yeah, I’m being unreasonable here” “You are Jay! I have no clue what the fuck is going on!” you almost shouted before reeling your voice in at the last moment. He raised his eyes to yours finally “Maybe I should just stay at my place for a few days, clear my head” 

You couldn’t believe him. You had no idea what had even gone down, nor why he hadn’t told you he was going to see Mouse. Now he was acting like you were to blame? “What happened?” you asked again and he shook his head “Can I take her to my place tonight? If that’s ok, I know you and Stel wanted to see that new movie anyways” 

You blinked back tears of frustration “She’s your daughter Jay. You don’t need my permission to take her to your place. Do you want me to go with you to pick her up from daycare or not?” he shook his head “No, I’ll let you do a solo drop off and I’ll do a solo pickup” “Ok. Do you need anything for her?” you asked, trying to keep your voice steady.  He was focused on a place on the wall just over your head which was successfully pissing you off “No. I have clothes, diapers, and food. Anything else I can buy or get Will to drop off”

“Ok. Call me or Stella if you need anything” you reminded him and he nodded “I know” then turned to walk out of the bedroom door. “Jay?” you called and he looked back. You expected him to tell you he loved you, kiss you, something. “I love you?” you made it a question and he nodded “Yeah baby, I love you. I’ll see you at work”

“See you at work” you replied and watched him walk across the living room, stop to grab his jacket and keys then continue out of the door. You didn’t have time to think too hard on anything because the moment the door closed Addy started fussing. “Of course, now she’d wake up” you mumbled before calling out “Ok sweetheart. Mommy’s coming” and walked out to her room.

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When you made it into her room she was sitting up in her crib, dark curls sticking up at every angle and babbling like crazy. You laughed and shook your head “Good morning my love. Let’s get you dressed and we’ll go out for breakfast since you’re staying with daddy tonight. That sound good?” She made a oo sound in response so you grinned “oo” 

You picked her up and her hand went to the bracelet on your right wrist, playing with it as you picked her some clothes out. “Give auntie Stella and Hailey some time. They’ll get you one” you promised her, kissing her cheek before sitting her down to change her. 

Once she was ready you gathered what you needed and picked her up on your hip “Let’s go sweetheart” she made a mmm sound as you walked out of your door, locking it behind you.

OMG she is adorable!!! You’d sent Stella photos of Addy from yours and her impromptu breakfast date. She’d of course gushed over them like you expected. You loved catching mornings like this, regardless of the chaos around you. You’d gotten a solid hour of just you and Addy before you had to take her to daycare, considering Jay would have her tonight and you wouldn’t know until you asked him at work what time he was bringing her home the following day considering it was a saturday. You couldn’t very well tell him he had to have his own daughter home by a certain time. It was just weird considering this was the first time in a long time you’d been without her.

We had a mommy/daughter date since Jay wants her tonight you replied as you walked into the precinct. You didn’t even get your phone back into your pocket before she texted back ??? Since when do you and Jay not spend nights together??? You’d told her about the mystery bruise but not about Jay’s attitude change towards you, mainly for the fact that she’d come storming into the district with Kelly trailing behind her.

Idk? He came in late last night,then dropped that this morning you headed for the palm scanner and watched the bubble pop up that meant she was texting Wtf? Do you want to come over after work? You opened the door when it popped and stepped in before replying I’ll let you know. I love you she sent back Ok love you too

You headed up the stairs and your eyes locked onto Jay’s the moment you made it to the top of them before you headed for Kevin’s desk. You didn’t know what was going on with Jay but if he wanted space from you so be it you guessed. 

Kevin smiled when he saw you “Hey lil mama” you grinned “Hey Kev” and laid your stuff down before glancing towards the board “What are we doing?” he shrugged “We got a cell number? You wanna see if you can get a ping?” you held out your hand “Oh please give me something to do. I will love you forever and a day” he laughed and passed you a post it with a number. You winked at him and pointed towards the hall that led down to the tech room “I’ll be downstairs”

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You were typing on two different keyboards and running down three different cells attached to the one number that popped on your suspect. When you ran the idea past Voight he’d given his go ahead. You heard someone walking behind you but didn’t bother looking. From the sound of the steps it was either Jay or Ruz.

“Anything?” Jay’s voice hit your ears and you glanced back “Oh, you’re talking to me without Hailey as a buffer?” he shrugged “Yeah” You nodded and turned back to the screen “Hoping if I triangulate the frequently traveled location of the four numbers and find the areas hit the most we can narrow down where these idiots may be hold up” he nodded “Good idea”

He stepped up next to you and looked over at the screen. You cut your eyes up twice before saying “Um, what time will you and Addy be at my place tomorrow?” he shrugged “By ten. I don’t have anything planned, Will’s gonna come see her” “I don’t mean for Stella to hog her, she’s just able to work her schedule around more” you explained and he nodded “I know, I love that Stel and Kelly loves her as much as they do. Why I agreed on them being her guardians”

You looked back at the screen, eyes tracing the locations before saying “I still don’t understand how the civility I’ve been witness to ended up with a punch being thrown” he scoffed “I can’t understand why you can’t let it go. Isn’t the first time one of us has hit the other and that was before we were both in love with the same woman” you looked up at him “So you finally admit you hit each other?” he shook his head “I’m heading up. Call Hailey or Kev if you find something” “Yeah” you replied, turning your eyes back to the screen in an attempt to ignore the impulse to call him a stubborn jackass.

Your idea ended up paying off. By two you had the location of the safe house pinned down to a two block radius. You and Kevin were in one area, Kim and Adam in one, Jay and Hailey in one while Hank was in his SUV and had patrolmen covering the remaining area.

“On my count, we breach 'em all” you looked at Kevin who nodded. You dropped back next to him, putting a hand on his shoulder. “Take ‘em” Hank’s order came and you called out “CHICAGO PD” and nodded to the patrolmen with you to hit the door, you and Kevin going in first.

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Five arrests were made. Three of which were who you were looking for. The other two were low tier drug dealers but they still had active arrest warrants out on them. A win was a win. All in all a decent day considering the takedown was fairly calm and no one ended up at med, not even any offenders.

You sat next to Kevin, finishing paperwork when you noticed the time. “Jay?” you cut your eyes up and he looked up at you “Yeah?” you held a hand out “I’ll help Hailey with your half. Go on and go so you can get baby girl” he nodded and passed you the file in his hand “Thanks sweetheart” you smiled “Of course” 

He grabbed his stuff and headed for the stairs. Hailey raised an eyebrow before saying “If he’s fucked things up, do I get a turn?” and grinned playfully. You shook your head but laughed and knew that was her goal when she winked at you. “I’m still waiting on my ring Upton”

Kevin shook his head “Get to work” Adam tossed a balled up piece of paper across the bullpen “Y/N, are you through trying to take partners?” you cut your eyes up at him “Nope, I haven’t collected Kim yet” he shook his head with a laugh and Kim grinned at you.

Around five Stella texted you to see if you were off and when you told her you weren’t yet she told you to come over when you got off,considering the alternative was an empty apartment you sent back a thumbs up.

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It ended up being a little after six by the time you were trudging up to her door and knocking. She opened the door and smiled when she saw it was you. “Hey little sister” she opened the door to let you in.  You followed her to the couch, flopping down onto it. She sat down and cut her eyes at you “Long day?” you nodded “I had to do all my paperwork and Jay’s so he could go pick up Addy”

About the time the words got out of your mouth a text came through from Will. It was a photo of her in her scrub pjs. “Aww look” you turned the phone around to show Stella and she squealed “She is stinking adorable”

You nodded “That she is..wait why did Will send it and not Jay?” she cut her eyes at you “What’s going on with you two anyways? And what happened when you saw Mouse?” you took a deep breath and caught her up on everything from how it felt to see Mouse through him leaving the restaurant in a rush, all the way to you asking yet again today what happened to Jay’s face and him pretty much admitting they hit each other.

“I kind of just want to track Mouse down and ask him face to face what happened” you groaned and she shrugged “If that’s what you wanna do” you shook your head “I don’t know. I mean for one I’d have to illegally search to find what motel and room he’s in..”

“And?” she asked, leaving you yet again in awe at the fact of just what extremes your sister would go to in support of you. “And, I don’t know about being alone with him..” you admitted and she raised an eyebrow “Why?” you shrugged “Is that the right thing to do?” “Do you want to see him?” she asked and you laughed “Stella, you know I can be wrong sometimes, right?” she shook her head “No, even when you’re wrong…I’m backing you and bringing Kelly with me”

“I love you” you laughed and she grinned “I love you too” the two of you went into talking about Addy’s birthday and upcoming events at the firehouse. Around eight you headed home.

You sat staring at your laptop. You wanted answers. You wanted to know what happened between him and Jay. That was why you wanted to find him. Not that you craved to see him, talk to him. Even arguing with him would be better than no communication at all.

“Fuck it” you muttered before grabbing the laptop and turning it on. The search wouldn’t take you but maybe ten minutes. It was a bad idea, a horrible idea. That did not stop your fingers from moving across the keys.

The thought didn’t occur to you until you were walking down the hallway towards his room that maybe he wouldn’t be alone. What the hell would you do if he had a woman in his room? You knew what you would do..the question was, what right did you have to do that?

You froze with your hand poised to knock. Should you do this? Too late to go back now. You couldn’t let him be this close and not know, not tell him everything you needed to.

You rapped your knuckles against the door and heard his voice “Yeah, hold on a second” . It didn't take but a breath before the door opened and he was standing in front of you. He’d shaved since the dinner, a new bruise gracing his jawline as well. Your eyes were drawn to it first then up to his blue eyes that were staring into yours. His hair was down, falling into his eyes before he shoved it back with a hand “Y/N? What are you doing here? How did you know where I was staying?”

You shrugged one shoulder “Are you forgetting who taught me?” and saw a tiny smile tease at his face “Can I come in?” you asked and he nodded slowly “Um, yeah” and stepped to the side to let you in.

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Mouse watched you walk into his room, trying not to eye the way your ass looked in the jeans you were wearing. Why had you found him? Did Jay know you were here? Why were you here? Damn you looked good. What was that perfume you were wearing? Damn he wanted to touch you, kiss you.

You stopped in the middle of the room and turned around to look at him “Greg?” he took a deep breath before closing the door so he could face you “Yeah” you waved a hand around “Can I sit?” he nodded “Anywhere you want”

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You walked over and sat on the dresser, Mouse sat on the edge of the bed across from you.  Your eyes hadn’t let him one time. He was really here, in front of you. Alive and whole. The light blue shirt he wore hugged his shoulders deliciously and the color made his eyes seem even brighter. You loved his hair at this length, any length suited him but now? You wanted nothing more than to tangle your fingers in the locks.

He was barefoot, jeans riding low on his hips. Never before had you ever craved to touch someone so damn bad. The love you had for this man astounded you. Nothing had changed it. Not having Addy, not loving Jay. You still loved him just as much. It was like your heart had just expanded but he still felt like yours.

“Last time you looked at me like that was that zoom call and you broke my heart” he spoke, breaking the silence. You scoffed, meeting his eyes “Wow! Going straight at it, huh?” he shrugged “If you’re here, you’re here for a reason” “Why did you and Jay clock each other?” you asked and he laughed “and here I was thinking you wanted to see me..you’re here to check on your boyfriend”

You jumped to your feet “Fuck you Greg!” he was to his feet a moment later “It’s the truth sweetheart. You’re fucking him, you have a daughter with him. You love him. What would you call him?” “I don’t know..I don’t fuckin know” you admitted and saw him flinch slightly from your tone “Were all those times you told me you loved me a joke?” he asked and you felt your jaw drop open in shock “How dare you come here and judge me. You fucking left me Greg! YOU LEFT ME!” you screamed, tears breaking free from your eyes.

“We could’ve worked out, hell Addy would’ve been your child if you would’ve just fucking stayed! If I would’ve been enough for you. I don’t know why I wasn’t enough” you felt more tears falling and didn’t try to stop them.  “You were baby, I swear you were” he whispered and you shook your head “No, fuck that. Argue with me dammit. Yell. hate me. I love you. I love and I fucked your best friend I have a baby with your best friend”

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“I can’t fix that now, can I? I have tried to forget you and I can’t” he admitted, taking a step towards you. You took a step back “Do you love him like you love me?” he asked and you shook your head “No. I fell for him through being pregnant and having her, through him being there for us. I do love him Greg, he’s a good man but..”

You trailed off, taking a shaking breath “But what?” he asked and you choked back a sob “I love Adeline with my whole heart Greg. She’s my baby. She is everything to me but you? I didn’t fall for you because something pushed us together, I fell for you because you’re you. You’re the one made for me. You’re the other half. You know me inside and out. You’re the man I have always wanted to grow old with, the one man I have always trusted fully, the one man who I have loved wholly for so long I barely remember a time I didn’t love you. Now the possibility of facing a future without you in it fucking terrifies me because I fucking love you so damn much, I love you Greg. I fucking love you”

“I love you too baby. I love you with my entire heart and soul. There has not been a single moment where I stopped loving you. I’m so sorry I hurt you. I’m sorry for everything you’ve went through because of me, for every ounce of pain I’ve caused” he admitted, taking a step closer to you.  “But know I don’t regret your babygirl or resent her. Not for one damn second. She is a part of you. She’s perfect and nothing but the good there is in this world”

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You took a step towards him, eyes never leaving his. “I’ve missed you so much” “I’ve missed you too” he admitted. One moment you were staring at each other, the next your lips were crashing against his, a light moan escaping you when his hands went to your hips, gripping tightly. You flicked your tongue across his lips and when he parted them to give you access you deepened the kiss, rolling your tongue against his and earning you a low groan from him. 

He broke away from your lips, eyes searching yours as both of your chests heaved. “Baby, think about what you’re doing..” you smiled “I am. Greg please. I have cried so many times missing you..I don’t want to miss you anymore”

Your hands went to the hem of his shirt, cutting your eyes up at him for permission. He groaned lightly before slipping the shirt over his head. The moment his chest was bared you pulled him into you, lips finding his. You needed to tase him,feel him close. You needed to convince your head and heart that this was real, that this was actually happening.

Your fingers trailed over his chest then up his back and you felt a thrill shoot through you and seeing his eyes flutter shut from your touch. “I want you” you whispered “I love you, I’m in love..I have been for years” you added and he swallowed hard.

When he opened his eyes the light blue was now darkened by lust and need. “Are you sure about this? I can’t..I can’t have you regret me..I can’t live with that” “I’d never regret you” you promised and he took a deep breath as you walked backwards to the bed, pulling him with you.

“Kiss me” you begged and he pushed you backwards onto the bed, crawling up your body. When he got up to your face, his dog tags were dangling loosely as he held himself above you “If you want me to stop just tell me” you hooked one finger into the chain of his dog tags and pulled him down “Please kiss me love” when his lips met yours it was charged, the energy changed. He grunted, lips moving from yours to your neck. “I missed you” he whispered, fingers ghosting under your shirt.

You felt yourself freeze and his eyes flew up to your face “What’s wrong?” “Greg..I’ve had a baby..my body…it isn’t the same..” he raised an eyebrow “sweetheart..you think some stretch marks will make me love you less? That I won’t be attracted to you because you gave birth to your daughter?” you swallowed hard and he grinned, your heart flipping “I’m gonna show you just how fucking sexy you still are”

When his fingers hit the hem of your shirt this time you simply leaned up to let him pull it over your head. He tossed it behind him then leaned back to look down at you, tilting his head to the side as he looked at your body “My god, that’s not fair” “What?” you asked in a whisper. He cut his eyes up to yours “You got even more gorgeous” 

His lips went to yours as his hands slipped under you,fingers easily finding the clasp of your bra and pulling it off your body. He rolled his tongue against yours as you tangled your fingers in his longer locks, angling his head to get better access to kiss him. He smiled against your lips “I love you”

He moved from your lips down across your chin then to your neck. It amazed you that he remembered every tiny spot that pulled a noise from your lips. He winked at you when he got down to your chest before rolling a nipple between his teeth. “Fuck, Greg” you sobbed, fingers finding his hair. He grinned against your skin “You like that baby?”

“Feel so good” you moaned. He rutted his hips against yours, trying to relieve some pressure but to no avail. You pushed his hair back with one hand and gripped his dog tag chain with the other to force him to meet your eyes. He smiled lazily at you “Hey beautiful”

You grinned “Hey handsome” he moved up to press a messy kiss to your lips, hands finding yours as he gripped them both in one of his and held them above your head just so he could stare at you for a heartbeat “You are so fucking beautiful. I don’t care what I have to do. I can’t walk fully away from you”

You chased his lips with yours so he gladly met them, releasing your hands. When you gripped his back he grunted. You spread your legs, allowing him to nudge his shoulders between them. “Please Greg” you moaned and he chuckled “I got you baby”

His hands went to your jeans and you felt his fingers shaking. “Are you ok?” you whispered, brushing his hair back out of his face. He smiled “I’m just afraid I’m gonna wake up, still over there and dreaming about having you” “I’m here baby” you whispered, covering his hand with yours to help him unzip and unbuckle your jeans.

“Lift your hips love” he spoke softly so you did as he asked and felt the air in the room hit your bare body. He rocked back on his heels and anyone else on the face of the earth would’ve made you feel judged but him? He made you feel like fine art truly being appreciated for the first time. He started at your knees,kissing down to your ankles on each side.

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You were a quivering mess underneath him and he’d barely done anything. He settled between your legs and licked a solid line up your folds. Your entire body shivered and he chuckled against you “There she is” before he turned his tongue to begin to kiss you there like he had your mouth, fully and messy, Letting his tongue explore every inch and see what noises could be pulled out of you.

He added one long finger then another, curling them to find that spongy place deep inside of you. When he brushed them across it you gasped out his name and he chuckled, the vibrations pulling more moans out of you. Damn him he knew just how to pull back to back orgasms out of you, even after this much time without your body underneath him. 

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When you finally shoved weakly at his shoulders “Greg..please baby I can’t” he rocked back on his heels and grinned up at you as your legs shook. “How ya feeling?” you curled a finger at him and he crawled up your body, kissing and nipping at every inch of flesh could reach.

When he got to your lips you pulled him down by hooking two fingers into his chain. He worked his lips against yours, letting you taste yourself on him. You hesitantly broke away from his lips to drop your hands to his jeans “Take these off, please” you were not above begging.

He grinned into the kiss, unzipping his jeans and pushing them off his hips. You reached a hand between you and your eyes fluttered shut when you wrapped it around his hardened length. He wasn’t exactly a small guy.

Your legs fell open further and his head fell over into the bend of your neck “I don’t have a condom here baby” you shook your head “I have an IUD. I’m good” he cut his eyes up at you “You’re sure?”

“Please” you begged and he slipped his hand between you, fingers gracing yours before he lined himself up with your opening. He buried his face in your neck as he slowly sank into you. You felt tears spring to your eyes, not only from the stretch but from the emotional part of being gone from each other that long.

You gripped his back, pulling him as close as you could. “You feel so damn good,like finally being home” he whispered against your skin before giving a tentative roll of his hips. Your head fell back against the pillows and a moan of his name fell from your lips. He pressed his lips to the hollow of your neck “It’s ok baby, I’m here”

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When he knew you were ok, he started to move, trying to find a pace that was good for you and him both. When he hit a particular angle that made your nails cut into his back from the pleasure that coursed through your body he groaned “Fuck”

Your eyes rolled back into your head from the building pleasure, his light groans and grunts pushing you closer and closer to that edge. When his hand slipped between the two of you, fingers rubbing tight circles onto your clit you felt that building pressure burst as the edge around your vision went soft.

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Your voice would be wrecked the following day from screaming his name but you would have cared less. He was home, he was in your arms, making love to you. You felt his hips stutter and knew he was close “Come for me Greg, let me feel you” you begged, holding him close.

He buried himself inside of you with a hard thrust and you felt when he came, somehow dragging you over that edge with him. His head fell over against your chest, your head against the pillows. Your fingers were smoothing down his back,he slowly raised his eyes to meet yours and my god he looked..young and scared.

“I missed you so damn much baby” he admitted and you smiled “I missed you too” he leaned up to kiss you, your bodies still connected. “I don’t want to be apart from you anymore” he admitted and your heart ached because you felt the same.

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He slowly pulled out of you, apologizing when you hissed slightly from the feeling before laying down on the bed and pulling you into his arms. You felt safe against his chest, like for just a few moments the worries of the outside world couldn’t completely wreck your heart.

He had  both arms wrapped tightly around you “I didn’t hurt anywhere did I?” you shook your head “No” he smiled “Good”

You nuzzled into his neck,kissing the skin gently “I don’t want this moment to end. Then reality sets in, I gotta go home alone and you gotta leave in a couple days” you admitted so he used one hand to gently cup your chin and force your eyes up to his “Tell me to come home to Chicago and I will”

“I don’t want to ruin your life Greg. I want you happy” he looked down at where you were laying on him “This makes me happy. You make me happy. The rest? I’ll figure it out after training. If you want me, you’ll have me”

“If you still want me after training” you whispered and he smiled “Baby, I have wanted you since the moment I laid eyes on you. I have loved you for years. I will love you until the day they put me in the ground. I have tried, believe me I have tried, there is no other choice for me. I will never put an ultimatum on you. Just know that my heart will forever be yours”

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“What about Addy?” you asked in a small voice and he smiled “I already love that baby. She’s you. How can I not?” you pulled him into a kiss “What about Jay?” you asked, knowing that elephant was currently the biggest in the room.

“I’ll stay in contact with you the entire time I’m gone. I’ll let you figure out what you want to do and if you still want me in any capacity..I don’t give a fuck what it says about me..I can’t not be in your life Y/N..I’ll take whatever you’re willing to give” “I love you Greg” you whispered, turning to pull him on top of you. “I love you” he whispered, lips crashing against yours.

You stood at the door of Mouse’s room.You didn’t want to leave, god you didn’t want to leave but he had a point. It was seven in the morning. You needed to be home and showered before Jay got there with Addy. He still had a couple days before he’d need to leave for Glynco, Stella for some reason wanted to see him so he was gonna plan that too before he left.

He pulled you into him by your belt loops. He slipped his dog tags over his head and pulled your right hand up to drop them into it “You can wear them, you can shove 'em in a drawer. I just want to know that you have something of me. You own my entire heart. I hope I can see you again before I leave, you have my number, I have yours. We’re gonna talk and when you decide, I will be waiting for you baby”

You nodded slowly, feeling tears threaten your eyes “I love you Greg” he smiled before pulling you into a kiss “I love you too. Now get home to that baby girl. I’ll text you later, ok?” you nodded “Ok”

You were showered and changed into a fresh pair of jeans and tshirt. You stood in the middle of your living room staring at Mouse’s dog tags in your hand, running a finger over his name. After a moment you slipped them over your head and tucked them into your shirt. You wanted to have a part of him close.

You heard a knock and looked to see it was nine fifty. You walked over and answered the door. Jay stood there with Addy on his hip. “Oh, there’s my baby” you said and she cooed, reaching her hands out. Jay laughed and moved closer so she was easier to transfer. 

You hugged her tight once she was in your arms “Oh I missed you! Did you have fun with daddy and uncle Will?” Jay smiled “Yeah, she has Will wrapped around her finger” you laughed “Good”

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He stared at you for a moment before finally saying “I asked him to meet” you knew your confusion was plain on your face even before he explained “Mouse. I asked to meet. I wanted to try to explain. He pushed buttons, I pushed buttons. We threw punches” you nodded slowly “What buttons?”

Jay didn’t want to admit he hit Mouse because he had to face the insecurity of the fact that you would never fall out of love with Mouse. Nor did he want to admit that Mouse simply hit him because he’d hit first. “It doesn’t matter. We both agreed hitting each other was stupid before he parted ways. I should've told you that when you asked”

You nodded “Thank you for telling me” “You’re welcome..I’m um..I’m gonna go..if you two wanna get supper later..call me” he offered so you smiled “I will. Thank you Jay, for always being there for us both and being an amazing father to her”  He laughed “You’re welcome baby. Thank you for being there for us both and being the absolute best mother to my daughter I could ever imagine her having”

He stepped closer to press a kiss to Addy’s head.You saw his eyes flutter from yours down to your neck then back up before he gave you a small smile “Bye sweetheart”  “Bye” you replied watching him walk to his truck before closing your door and locking it.

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Addy babbled and reached for the dog tag chain, a part of your heart warming at seeing it. You weren’t sure what was going to happen next. You were fucking terrified of hurting either of them, you truly did love them both. The question was could you live without either of them or could you possibly find a way to live with them both in your life and if you did what did that even say about you?

You laughed, twirling around gently with Addy “What ya say we go get lost babygirl?” she cooed lightly so you laughed “Yeah, I knew we couldn't but can’t blame me for trying” you had no choice but to figure it out, if not for you but for her. Your heart wanted Greg, she needed Jay. You loved them both. What the fuck were you supposed to do??

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Part 22

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Broken Bonds-Part 27

Greg "Mouse" Gerwitz x Reader, Jay Halstead x Hailey Upton, Coparenting Jay Halstead x Reader

When it's Addy’s first Christmas nothing is going to stop you from making sure it's perfect. Luckily for you everyone you love agrees with that sentiment. Its fluff, pure fluff...no need to worry that's padding for something bad to happen..

You walked over and sat on the edge of Jay’s desk so he scooted his chair back far enough he could cut his eyes up at you “Sweetheart, why are you sitting on my desk when usually you’d take us residence on either Hailey or Kev’s” you smiled slightly “I needed to talk to you about something” he shook his head, his eyes widening “Um no. Last time you told me those words you were pregnant so not me!” 

Your mouth fell open and he cracked up laughing. “Asshole!’ you laughed, slapping his shoulder playfully as he ducked away from the swat. He grinned at you “I’m sorry but you gave me an opening and after you burnt the damn pumpkin pie at thanksgiving I had to take it”

“That was not my fault!” you defended and he raised an eyebrow “Hailey said she reminded you to check it twice” you nodded “She did” “So how did it burn?” you shrugged “Will came in with chocolate chip cookies from Maggie?”  that answer alone made him crack up laughing again “I swear you’re worse than Addy! I can sweet talk baby girl into eating her dinner before getting into the cookies, you’re hopeless”

“Just remember she is half me, she may very well not react to the sweet talk when she gets older” you teased and he nodded “Oh I know sweetheart, I fully expect my sweet little girl to turn into a full chaos demon like her mother at some point but I love you and have had you in my life for this long. I’ve figured out how to handle you so I already know how to handle most of the chaos, the rest of it I’ll figure out with your help” You laughed “Well damn Jay, you sound like you like me a little bit” he shook his head “Just a little”

You smiled, remembering what it was you wanted to talk to him about “Christmas!” he nodded “I’ve heard of it, rather big holiday. Santa and all that jazz”  you rolled your eyes “No smart ass, I mean with it being Addy’s first Christmas” He nodded “What about it”

You looked down at your hands, fidgeting with your crescent ring “I was thinking you don’t want to wake up without her and I know I don’t want to wake up without her” his hand came to cover yours to stop your fidgeting so you raised your eyes up to meet his and he smiled slightly “Yeah? What idea do you got bouncing around?” you shrugged “I was thinking, you and Hailey have been dating for a month or so, are you gonna spend Christmas together?” 

A light blush colored his cheeks “I um I don’t know honestly. I haven’t thought about it” you nodded “Oh, I’m sorry. I guess I should’ve thought about that. It was a dumb idea” you started to stand up but he put a hand on your thigh to hold you in place “No, you’re telling me. You had an idea for Addy. I’m sure it wasn’t dumb” you felt your face warm slightly “I was thinking if you and Hailey were gonna spend Christmas together anyways, maybe we could rent a BnB or something nearby? Me and Mouse wouldn’t even share a room or anything. Me and Stella would share and he could share with Kelly. That way we’re all together so me nor you have to wake up without her on her first Christmas and now that I’m saying it outloud I’m realizing that after everything that’s happened this year maybe I should just be happy that you and him can talk and that you and Hailey seem happy”

He shook his head, a smile working its way onto his face “I think it's a good idea. None of you want to be without her and I know if given the option Hailey would chose Christmas with you over Christmas with me anyways” you smiled slightly at that “Well I mean she was my wife before she was your girlfriend” he grinned “Want to start looking and see what we can find? I know Mouse will agree to anything you want, same as Stella” you nodded “Ok, that sounds good”

You stood up and he caught your hand “But you two can share a room sweetheart” you looked down where his hand held yours and squeezed his hand “Are you sure?” he nodded “I know like you said, so much has happened in such a short period of time. Christ, everything we’ve gone through just since Erin left..” He trailed off for a second then smiled at you “The point is, you’re still my best friend Y/N. I love you, I know you love me. We share a beautiful baby girl and we will always be in each other's lives and I wouldn’t have it any other way. Things didn’t work out like I thought but we still have each other just in a different way”

You smiled and nodded “You’ll always have me Halstead. Ride or die till the wheels fall off” he laughed “You are soo weird Kidd” you grinned “Yet you love me and had a child with me! What does that say about you?” he shook his head “Go do some work and start looking at the BnBs woman!”

It took you a few days until you found one that looked perfect for all of you. It was a two story with three bedrooms and one set up as a nursery. You sent Jay the link and he texted you back Looks good to me. What did Stel and Mouse say? You smiled at him asking then texted back They told me to pick whatever I wanted and laughed when he texted back Why am I not surprised? Ok, let’s book it. Hailey is in

You booked it and said a silent prayer to whoever was listening that nothing would happen where intelligence or fifty one was needed. You just wanted Addy to have every good occasion that you could manage. Halloween had gone off pretty well and despite the burnt pumpkin pie thanksgiving had gone pretty well. You’d taken over Kevin’s house since it was the biggest out of everyones. Hank had even shown.

Mouse would be flying in a couple days before christmas and fly back out two days after. Thankfully, he was nearing the end of his training. After he flew back he’d have two weeks and a half weeks then when he flew back to Chicago he would be home for good.  Kevin had offered his spare bedroom to him so he wouldn’t have to pay the cost of renting a full apartment, instead just split utilities.

You were excited for him to be home either way. He had to get a car but with him flying back and forth it was a little bit of a bitch. Most of his clothes were still in storage and the furniture he’d had was the furniture you had in your place considering the last place he lived before deploying was your shared apartment. He wanted Addy to get used to him being around full time before he started staying with you any so it wouldn’t interrupt her routine too much. Things like that managed to make you love him more and you could tell it earned him some respect in Jay’s eyes when he was already bringing Addy into consideration in his decisions.

You woke up to the sound of Addy saying “Dada..dada” over the monitor. You laughed lightly. That was her first word and my god did she love it. You shook your head and tossed your blanket off before walking in her room “Sorry baby girl ya got mama” she laughed “Where’s Dada” you shook your head “You wanna call dada?” she laughed “I wanna call Dada” you held your hands out “Come on” and she hopped towards you.

You picked her up out of her crib and quickly changed her into a dry diaper and clothes for the day. You could do her hair while you were calling Jay. 

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You propped your phone up on your foot and hit the video call as you started to braid her hair. It rang a few times then Jay’s face popped onto the screen and Addy squealed in delight “Hey Dada!” you shook your head “Thirty nine long weeks..how many hours of labor and yet I can’t get her ready for the day without her having to see dada”

He grinned “Sorry baby but she is a daddy’s girl. Always has been” you laughed “That’s the truest words ever spoken!” Addy swiped at the screen “Dada I seen cats” your eyes widened “That’s a new word” he grinned “It is” she turned and looked at you “Mama! I seen cats” Then looked back at the screen “Dada I seen cats” he looked at you and you laughed “Stella’s neighbor had kittens” 

He nodded “Oh, baby, did aunt Stella take you to see cats?” she nodded. “Aunt Stel taked me to see cats”  you laughed “See? Stel taked her to see cats” She was picking up on more and more words and more and more names. You were waiting to see who or what was next. You got through with her hair and said “Ok baby tell Dada bye so Mama can get ready we’ll see him in a few minutes at your daycare” “Bye dada..” 

“Bye sweet girl” he told her then winked at you “See ya there sweetheart” you hung up then looked at her “Wanna help mama find some clothes?” she nodded so you picked her up on your hip “Come on”

The plan was for Jay and Hailey to come to your place and you, Mouse and Addy would follow them to the BnB and Stella and Kelly would meet you five there.

Mouse had packed the presents you wrapped along with his, yours and Addy’s overnight bags in the jeep while you fed her lunch. He walked back in the door and you heard him make a noise from the cold and laughed “Baby Girl listen at Mou” she giggled as he walked around the corner “What’s so funny little miss?” she grinned “You” he laughed and ran a hand over her curls before pressing a kiss to your lips “Everything’s packed mama”

Addy laughed “Not you mama” and he winked at her “I’m sorry little miss Halstead” then looked back at you “Everything’s packed sweetheart?” and Addy nodded. You felt your heart flip at seeing them interact like that. She was getting used to him and he already loved her. 

You checked your phone to see Hailey had texted her and Jay would be there soon. “Well babygirl daddy and Hayhay will be here soon. Let’s clean up” she laughed and held out her plate. 

You started cleaning up and heard her jabbering at Mouse who was doing his best to keep up with what she was saying and considering he wasn’t around her on the daily he was doing pretty well. You heard a knock at the door and said “Addy! There’s dada!” she grinned “Dada!” and held her arms up to Mouse so he picked her up and put her on his hip to walk over to the door.

When he opened it Jay smiled “Hey man” “Hey” Mouse greeted before Addy started trying to squirm out of his arms to Jay “Want dada!” he laughed “Hold on little Miss” and shifted her to hold her out to Jay “There ya go Miss Halstead. Your dada” she wrapped her little arms around Jay’s neck “Dada!”

Hailey laughed as she walked in the door behind him and spotted you “We’re making them share a room so I can have you right?” you raised an eyebrow and smirked “Well I mean you are looking mighty pretty there wifey” 

Jay and Mouse both turned to look at you two and shook their heads. “Can we have a little normal from you two?” Jay asked and before you could respond Mouse laughed “Those two? No,no we can’t”

You laughed “Well Jay, grab her jacket from the closet and I’ll go grab mine then we can get a move on” he nodded and turned into the closet so you headed towards your room to grab your jacket.

The BnB turned out to be even better because they had it decorated beautifully and it had a gorgeous wrap-around porch. “What do you think?” you asked Mouse who shrugged “I told you what ever you wanted” Jay walked past you two, carrying Addy and shook his head “You don’t have to agree with her all the time”

You couldn’t say what you wanted to in front of Addy and he knew it so he looked over his shoulder and smirked at you. You shook your head and reached for Mouse’s hand. Mouse leaned up to whisper in your ear “That’s nice to see” you cut your eyes at him “What?” he pointed towards Jay “You and him teasing each other. You’ve worked hard to find your way back to being partners like you were and I don’t mean at work. I’m glad and not just for Addy’s sake”

You smiled at him “You’re unbelievable Greg” he raised an eyebrow “How’s that?” you waved a hand “How many men would be spending Christmas like this?” he looked confused for a minute “With the woman they love?” you rolled your eyes “And her baby daddy who happens to be his kinda best friend and the said baby and the women he loves’ sister and brother in law and the baby daddy’s girlfriend”

He shrugged “Not long ago I didn’t think I’d get you back in my arms. Besides I’m good with this, chaotic or not this is family”

You laughed lightly “I love you” he smiled “I love you too”

The plan was to go out for dinner then come back for christmas movies, meaning you and Stella were making everyone watch christmas movies and drink hot chocolate and you’d bought pjs too. Everyone had a pair that sort of matched.

Currently all of you were waiting on Addy to wake up from her nap so you were hanging out on the porch, playing with the camera Kelly had already given Stella. She got annoyed and handed it to Mouse “I’ve seen what you can do, set it up!”

He fiddled with it for all of six seconds before he snapped a photo of you and smiled at the screen “Gorgeous as always” and showed you the photo. You shook your head then held your hand out “Show me how to work it?” he gave you a quick crash course and Jay shook his head “Don’t you dare” but you’d already snapped a photo of Hailey smiling big for the camera and was pointing it at him “It’s for Addy” he shook his head but smiled.

Stella laughed when you turned towards her and Kelly and pulled him closer for a photo. She then held her hand out “Come on, I got Halloween photos let me get a Christmas one” Jay raised an eyebrow “It’s Christmas eve” “Don’t be a grinch” you and Hailey warned in unison and Mouse laughed “I’d say just smile for the photo”

As soon as she snapped the photo Addy started calling for Jay over the monitor and he grinned “Saved by my babygirl!”

You grinned when Jay came back into the living room with a scowl on his face “Y/N…you know I love you but” you shook your head “Oh come on Jay! Kelly didn’t even complain!”

Kelly shrugged from where he was sitting on the pile of pillows on the floor with Stella laid against his chest “They’re actually pretty comfortable” Hailey piped up from next to you “Plus we all match Addy!” Jay shook his head “Fine” and took his place next to Hailey so you could start the movie.

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You were watching how the grinch stole Christmas when Addy got up on her feet in front of you. You held your hands out to steady her but noticed she wasn’t wobbling “Jay!” you called lightly and his eyes flew up.

She locked eyes with him and took a tentative step then another. A broad grin split his face and he held his arms out “Come on baby, come to dada” the room was silent as she practically ran the final steps from you to Jay’s arms. He wrapped both arms around her and grinned at you “She walked!” “I know! Let’s see if she’ll do it again!”

The movie was quickly forgotten in favor of getting Addy to walk back and forth between you and Jay. When she finally flopped down and wouldn’t go again everyone clapped lightly for her and she giggled.

She crawled from you over to Hailey. When she got in her lap she tugged on her sleeve to get her attention. “Hayhay” Hailey’s eyes got comically wide when she looked at Addy “Yeah baby?” Addy grinned “Hey hayhay” then laughed like it was the funniest thing. Hailey teared up then and there “Hey baby” you smiled where you were now leaned back against Mouse’s chest. Yeah Hailey might not be completely in love with Jay yet but she was definitely gone for Addy.

The next morning you were all sitting around the tree, wrapping paper spread out in all directions. Addy had gotten, well more than a not even one year old should’ve. She particularly liked the stuffed bluejay and stuffed mouse that you bought her. Jay had bought her a stuffed honeybee and grinned at you when she opened it.

Jay tossed you a small box across the room and cut his eyes at Mouse “I hope it’s not weird I got her something?” Mouse shook his head “Of course not” you grinned at Mouse then opened the box. It was a necklace with a full moon pendant on it. Jay shrugged “You’ve got the ring for you and Stella, Addy was born on a full moon” you took the pendant out and turned it over to see the back read “Stay safe mom, love Addy” and smiled at Jay “I love it. Thank you”

Mouse had gotten you a mother’s ring with Addy’s birthstone and when he slipped it onto your hand had whispered “Next ring will be a diamond” you had to bite your cheek to not grin at his words. You’d gotten Jay and Hailey both new leather jackets because theirs had gotten ruined on a drug bust a couple weeks before.

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You all were sitting around in the living room, waiting for the food delivery guy because no one wanted to cook so the extra delivery for it being christmas was worth it. You and Hailey were sitting next to each other while to your surprise Jay and Mouse were sitting across from each other and Addy was walking between them.

Addy stumbled walking towards Mouse and he jumped to catch her before she could fall and she laughed “Silly Mou” his eyes got big and he looked back at you “Did she say Mou?” you nodded and Jay laughed “Yeah silly is one word for Mou baby” 

Addy laughed and shook her head “Mou silly and dada silly” then stood up to walk towards you and Hailey. The grin on Mouse’s face was big enough his dimples were on full display. When she got to you and Hailey she plopped down in your lap “Hey mama” you smiled “Hey baby” and grinned at Mouse.

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Jay caught your eye “Merry Christmas sweetheart, it’s turned out to be an amazing one” you nodded “It really has”

Part 28

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Greg "Mouse" Gerwitz x Reader

You told him you would be waiting and you meant it @desimarie12 ♥

You stood there staring at the bags that were next to Mouse’s feet on the floor. You two had just moved in together not six months before. You were worried it was too soon. You didn’t want him to feel rushed, pushed but he’d been so excited. How happy he’d been to tell Jay that you and him were getting a place together and now he was leaving you? “I can’t do this to you” he whispered and laid his key in your hand.

You swallowed hard, trying to keep your voice level as you spoke “I don’t know where your mind is Greg or what it’s telling you but just know whenever you’re ready..whenever you can let yourself be loved I’ll be waiting..no matter how long it takes..I’ll be waiting” you saw the tears in his eyes as he gave a small nod then turned and walked out of the door.

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Mouse could hear you crying the moment the door closed behind him. He wanted to be the man you needed but he couldn’t be, he was too broken..there was too much of him he’d never be able to fix and if he ever let that darkness touch you? If that ever dampened the spirit he fell in love with he’d never be able to forgive himself. You’d told him you would be waiting but time would show you that you were better off without him,he already knew it. 

You could remember the day you met Greg “Mouse” Gerwitz. You hadn’t even wanted to go out that night. The truck had gotten beat all to hell on a rolling warehouse fire. Everyone got out ok but you were exhausted. You barely made it to your truck before you heard Kelly’s voice across the parking lot “I know you don’t think you’re escaping without letting me buy you a beer”

You turned to face your loud mouthed lieutenant as he walked towards you “C’mon Severide I wanna go home” he grinned and shook his head “No, you did one hell of a job today. Come out and relax with us. One drink. The crew from the twenty first will be there too” you rolled your eyes “Fine, one drink!” and he grinned victoriously. 

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You followed behind Kelly, Matt and a few other people from fifty one. Molly’s was already packed, bodies lining the bar waiting for their orders. You groaned under your breath and Kelly cut his eyes back at you “Oh hush. I’ll get your drink go find Erin and Kim to bitch to” you raised an eyebrow at him and nodded “I’ll do just that” and started to work your way towards the corner where intelligence normally took up residence when they made it out as a group.

You spotted Kevin first and smiled. When you finally made it to them you started to greet them but stopped when you realized there was a new face. He was about five nine, a few inches taller than you. His light brown hair was a little on the shaggier side but it somehow suited him along with the bright blue eyes that seemed to light up when they met yours. He smiled and those damn dimples pulled a smile to your own face “Damn you’re cute” you blurted out without meaning to and the entire table cracked up laughing. 

Jay slapped a hand on your shoulder “Y/N this is my buddy Greg Gerwitz” you held a hand out and he slipped his hand into yours “Nice to meet you but everyone calls me Mouse if ya want” you shook your head “No, I think I’ll stick with Greg if everyone calls you Mouse, I’d rather make an impression when you hear me call you”  Jay laughed “Mouse she’s one of fifty one’s finest. Holds her own against Severide and Casey” you shook your head “Jay’s being nice because I always calmed down bullshit with Casey and Voight” 

Mouse’s eyes never left you “I’d believe you’re one of their finest” and a light blush graced his cheeks. About that time Kelly appeared over your shoulder and passed you a beer “You still pissed at me?” you cut your eyes up at him then looked back at Mouse “Naw, I think I’m glad you dragged me out Severide”

Mouse cut his eyes up when the radio on his desk crackled to life “Structure fire..fifty one responding” He shouldn’t have hacked fire’s frequency but that was the only way he had to make sure you were ok. 

A couple months had passed since he walked out. He wasn’t sure why it had started again, Jay said it happened to him too. When he started getting close with Lindsay, the worry that everything he’d done would somehow damage her but Jay had always landed on his feet easier than him. What if he relapsed? No, he wouldn’t do that. Even if he wasn’t strong enough for himself he would be strong enough to not disappoint you.

The thoughts, the getting overstimulated at everything. It was too much. He couldn’t risk hurting you with it. You were better off without him. It was getting better with meetings and the shrink Erin had helped him get in with, the problem was he knew he’d lost you. The sounds of you crying still haunted him every second of the day. Your words drifted through his head “I’ll be waiting”

His heart nearly leaped out of his chest when your voice cut across the radio “Cruz! Where are you? Call out honey!” a smile slipped onto his face. You always checked on your crew in a fire. No matter what or who. That was why the house loved you like they did. You were so damn kind hearted and brave as hell. Beauty and strength rolled into one. Everything good in the world, you were. 

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He missed you more than anything. Every day without you was torture. When Intelligence worked an arson case a few weeks before with fifty one a part of him wanted to beg Voight to go in the field just to get a glimpse of you. He knew it was a bad idea because with any arson case there was never just one fire and he wouldn’t risk distracting you, did that stop him from asking Jay how you looked? Of course not. When Jay just shrugged and said you looked like you did that stop him from in turn going to Erin to ask? Of course not.

He just wanted to know you were ok..no that was a lie. He wanted to know if you still wanted him. If there was a chance he hadn’t lost the best thing that had ever happened to him. The only woman he’d ever truly loved and the only woman he wanted for the rest of his life.

A knock on the open door made him glance up to see Jay standing there. “Yeah, what's up man?” he asked and Jay nodded towards the radio “That’s illegal” he shrugged with a tiny smirk “Gonna arrest me?” “Naw, you’re pathetic enough kicking your own ass daily” Jay replied with a laugh.

“Have I ever told you how good of a friend you are?” Mouse asked, voice dripping with sarcasm and Jay grinned “Yeah and I’m here as that good friend with some advice” “Which is?” “Talk to her, get her flowers. Go home and ask her forgiveness. That woman loves you Greg. Don’t fuck it up because of the past” Mouse raised an eyebrow and Jay shrugged “Me and Erin may have been talking about the situation” he laughed lightly “I don’t deserve her” Jay shook his head “Maybe you need to quit saying what she deserves and let her decide?”

“Hey, how ya doing?” you cut your eyes up at Stella as she lifted your boots then slid into the chair you had them in and propped them in her lap. You gave her a small smile “I’m good” she stared you down and you laughed “Some days are better than others..I just..I’m still not used to him not being there” 

She nodded “I get it, have you talked to him any?” you shook your head “I don’t want to call him and push anything. His mental health is more important than my broken heart” she rubbed your ankles lightly before saying “If he loves you anything like you love him, it’ll happen honey”

“Thanks Stel” you replied and she winked at you “Any time” Kelly walked in about that time and waved a hand “Dude, are you stealing my girl?” you grinned at him “She came to me Severide”

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You walked into your apartment, kicking your boots off by the door and dropping the duffle you carried to your shifts. The photo sitting on the table just inside the door made your heart ache. Kim had taken it at Adam’s birthday. It was Jay and Mouse sitting side by side and they had pulled you and Erin down in their laps right before she snapped it so all of you were laughing and looked so damn happy. “If you ever change your mind, I’m still waiting” you whispered to the photo before locking the door and heading to the shower.

Mouse walked down the hallway, the roses in his hand felt like a shallow gift compared to the pain he’d caused you. He just had to see you, see if you still looked at him like you used to or if you were lost to him. He desperately wanted to come home.

He stopped in front of the apartment door, flashes of the day you two moved in, playing through his mind “Greg, are you sure about this?” you’d asked him a dozen times and each time he smiled and told you “I’ve never been more sure of anything” 

He raised his hand and knocked twice. “Hold on” you called out and he heard your footsteps getting closer. When the door opened you froze with your mouth gaped open slightly “Greg?” his name fell from your lips in a tiny whisper. He smiled “Baby, I know I fucked up. I never should’ve walked out. I should’ve talked to you. Let you know what was going on inside my head but is there any way you would ever consider taking me back?”

You were silent for several heartbeats before you shook your head “No” he could feel his heart hit his feet. He deserved this. He’d hurt you. He hadn’t appreciated you. “I’m sorry” he spoke and turned to walk away but you grabbed his arm “Greg!” he looked back at you and saw you had tears in your eyes and a smile on your face “Taking you back implies you ever lost me. I was just waiting on you to find your way back” 

He felt his heart start beating again “Really?” you nodded “I told you I would be waiting” he dropped the roses and pulled you into his arms, both arms wrapped tightly around your body “Thank you baby. Thank you. I love you so damn much” you pulled back from him just enough to look up at him and smile “I love you too” then you pulled him down into a kiss that was so damn gentle it made his head spin that anyone would treat him like that. You pulled back and laughed “Get in here. We can go get your clothes from Jay’s later.You’re not letting me out of your arms right now though”