#gotta get them all in yaknow

[blacklyte]

Finally got around to uploading these here :] My design takes on the AvM characters! I decided to make them fluffy mammal things as an excuse to give them paws. I had a lot of fun with this!

Feel free to use these designs just credit me please!

[pageofheartdj]

Please, allosexuals can be sex-repulsed. It's not either both or neither. You can be attracted to people and want to be intimate with them, but feel aversion to the idea anyway.

[gurorori]

I think headcanoning canonically male characters as trans women can allow you to explore identity beyond just switching the anatomy of canonically female characters. Like often when male chara gets headcanoned as transmasc people just slap scars on him and done. If you basically genderspaw a character you can focus on their experience with transition more I think

Unfortunately half of the time people go "long hair = woman" instead... I'm sorry hajime

oh 100%, undeniably there r great ways 2 explore both kinds of genderswaps/trans hcs... neither is superior or more correct over the other, but i do think it still helps 2 keep in mind it can, in *some* hands, turn somewat shallow...

immediately makin it abt enstars since dats wat we r mostly into: 2 me it still becomes mehhh when ppl will do eveyrthin in their power 2 transfemify like 3-4 specific characters who r the most aesthetically (as in, appearance n physical expression i guess) feminine while not really givin a shit abt the canonically trans woman (who is not quite the most 'traditionally feminine' image of woman herself tbh). <- m not very good at explainin things but i hope im clear. it's just interestin seein both the bias compared 2 canon rep AS WELL as the bias compared 2 like. the rest of the cast dats not shu hiyori etc

as always ppl r entitled 2 do as they wish w interpretations n all dat! i'm not one 2 give ppl shit ab stuff like this in person or rly like discourse ab this very often

i also see wat ya mean w the transition thing, but i don't think that's necessarily 'the only way', ya can focus on the transition part of the headcanon regardless of canon gender (unless im missin smth in yr words?); i guess with [canon X -> trans X] it has 2 b more of a conscious choice 2 go back in time 2 explore it, whereas with [canon X -> trans Y] it's kind of the startin point, yr gettin rite into it? i understan how dats more compellin 2 ppl, especially if they r in (pre-) transition still <3 i do think it's really up 2 ppls preference at the end of the day! it's nawt some huge political difference, just the way ppl play w the characters n narratives

[watery-melon-baller]

good news: I've collected all my data

bad news: i no longer have an excuse to procrastinate writing

[glass-trash-bab]

I can't say eepy around pre-schoolers this semester, they're gonna think it's an actual word that normal people use

[frostbite-the-bat]

welp ! thats one thing done! welp ! time to entertain myself once more .... ! funnay rain world time ! unless someboday wants to bug me then Sureio Do So (I WAUNNA BE TALKGLED TO)

[winterbirb]

(Writing this here instead of the tags for convenience)

For a couple years I've been mapping out the people in/past trajectory of the Russian government (for autism reasons) and, incontrovertibly, the defining factor of 2000-2008 (and then with a flare-up in 2011) was the fear of Western coup attempts. Dick Cheney and his crew of Nixon-Reagan officials. The Iraq War. (There was a weird dynamic where Putin was also kinda protected by... getting along with Bush Jr? Cheney did Not sound happy about it in his memoir. This isn't related to leftist theory but holy shit it's all so messy)

Right. Okay. I was going somewhere with this.

So. Russian politics. First 8 years of the 21st century (and of the Putin administration) are spent trying Very Fucking Hard not to get couped. Things are chill for a bit in the beginning of the Obama-Medvedev era until the 2011 Arab Spring. The fears end (relatively) soon enough, but the aftereffects of that panic echoed through the entire 10s decade.

The other week, I watched a documentary about Kissinger that talked about the death of General Schneider. Two things struck me about him: his personality—considered kind, cared about the law and constitutionalism, against military coups; and the reason for his death—to remove a barrier to overthrowing Allende.

He reminded me of a specific man—Khodorkovsky, who isn't dead, but was a businessman in charge of Russia's largest oil reserves who was standing in the way of a very lucrative deal for Exxon and generally supported political reform to fight corruption, promote democracy and worker's protections, etc.

I think the common conception of coups lies mainly in assassinating the leader, but had Khodorkovsky not been forcibly dragged off the political map (prison. Lmao) in late 2003, it's likely imo that the path of Western violence would have bulletted right through him. I already thought this before the documentary, but learning about General Schneider and hearing his son talk about him really drove that point home in a kind of terrifying way.

(Post-2012 is a different story, which is why you really can't understand Russian politics just with "USA bad" but you have to pay attention to US politics as well. But policy defined by Kerry+Blinken+Burns as opposed to the Cold War is a totally different post. Also, they won't be in power forever. What I see as Russia future-proofing itself is a second separate post.)

tldr i agree 🥲

You mentioned Allende being a part of your journey towards M-L; if you don't mind expanding on this, I don't know a lot about it and I was curious which element of his story/Chile's history you meant in particular? His suicide? The coup itself? CIA intervention? The situation as a whole? Why did it impact your world view so much compared to other similar histories? Thanks!

the thing about allende is that he 'did everything right', so to speak. he was legally elected under a liberal democratic system, he made diplomatic concessions to try and appease the USA, he didn't suppress his opposition or form militias--and the CIA couped him anyway and installed a government that brutalized chile and chilean socialism for eleven years. learning about the coup and what came before and after totally shattered my youthful belief that you just had to be fairly voted into power and you'd have a mandate after that. the truth is, it's a game you just can't win. even if you win, you lose.

i don't think there's anything especially unique about allende's case--he's just the first one i learned about and hit especially close to home because i'm latin american (my home country has faced two coup attempts in my lifetime lol). if i'd learned about arbenz or sukarno first it probably would have had the same effect.

this realization also fundamentally opened my mind to reading lenin & other bolshevik theorists, because with the death of my belief in the possibility of winning by the rules of liberal politics came the death in my belief in the myth of the bolsheviks as anti-democratic oppressive tyrants and an interest in seeing what they did and believed that worked.

in summary, as engels wrote:

[370005]

sollux & terezi on beforus are in the business of ruining lives (for fun and profit)

details + bonus doodles under cut

ive been in a beforus mood lately so im thinking abt what the trolls lives could have been like.

sollux and terezi are white collar criminals. i wanted to give her the seer curse of Seeing Things even though she isn't a player, so she utilizes her infinite outcome matrix analysis abilities to forsee tragedies specifically caused by negligence. there was definitely a point in her childhood where she attempted to be a mothmanesque figure, warning potential innocents of upcoming events and terrorizing the people responsible for totally preventable misfortune.

but then she grew up and realized that the people who were responsible for shoddy architecture, massive layoffs, and general societal injustices didn't have a conscience to torment. They were gaming the system for money $$$ and you had to hit them where it hurts. she used her proclivity for predicting small-scale catastrophes to predict how said ensuing scandals would affect the stocks for the entities involved. you can't make the executive heads feel bad about dropping 30% of their staff to feed their own salaries, but you can definitely manipulate the market and ruin their public perception until people are papering their hives with the company currency

sollux, who worked the BSE as their best surveillance analyst, clocked terezi as a front runner when she showed up out of absolutely nowhere and scored huge profits after two consecutive PR disasters led to the bankruptcy of like 8 corps and heavy damage to their subsidiaries. it was kind of impressive, but he had a job to do yaknow? terezi, who was immediately on the run from the beforus finance cops and had to be sneakier and meaner with her manipulation, and sollux became completely obsessed with this criminal mastermind who was VERY easy to track. she was always behind the scenes in every major upset but sloppy about it. he probably should have turned her over to the authorities the second he knew her location. but, let's be honest, can you resist a pyrope on a mission?

after a very tumultuous rivalry that swung red and black like a centrifuge they eventually join forces because it turns out terezi doesn't have any inside info. she's just acting on VERY good hunches. there's honestly not really anything illegal she's doing PERSAY. and then sollux joins the efforts and uses his forensic experience to make her a lot harder to track, as well as collecting sensitive info and facilitating scandals that will rock the bottom line of anyone they consider an enemy. terezi is very into the networking part of it, amassing a silent army of business associates who can do the dirty work for them, either through bribery or blackmail. she knows how to get people to do what she wants >:] it's a bit morally dubious but it's all for the sake of the people.

lots of fun moments with these two, like when sollux brainstorms a series of possible connections that could insinuate that a group of people have been too careless in their various embezzlement schemez and theres a big tower of cards begging to be toppled. or when terezi comes to a sudden realisation that a potential whistleblower's nerve is about to run out and they've gotta act NOW if they want to benefit from the fallout.

these two are always hiding from the 9+ cumulative life sentences they've accrued and the financial ruin theyve rained on corporate beforus. as a result, they pretty much only have each other, and maybe a handful of their most trusted affiliates. kind of hard to nourish any type of relationship when the people close to you are in danger of being implicated in your many crimes and all of your enemies are incredibly wealthy, powerful, and influential. i imagine their luck runs out one day and they're disappeared from society without a trace.

[strwbwoo]

“tryna get me in trouble huh baby?” harsh thrust with every word. his jeans -unbothered to fully take it off to fuck you- scuffing your heels, one hand on the back of his thigh tryna to keep up with his pace, and your other forearm under your forehead, “g-gyu..” fluttering around him bc hes too big, “yea baby?” he says with an endearing nickname unlike his current demeanor. “plea- please lemme cum..” your comment making him go faster, “tch. bad girls dont get to baby” slapping your already red ass, skirt down to your knees. “m’ sorry! ill be g-good..” hand moving down to your back to deepem yer arch. “f-fuck! all i wanted to do with my off days is treat my girl” nearing your high, “but shes gotta try and make everyone notice me in public..” grabbing at his jeans even harder, “g-gyu” trying to warn him, his hips stuttering and rubbing your clit “yaknow how people will react? gonna hurt ya..” fucked dumb all you do is tell him your gonna cum, “g-gyu m’ gonna-“ but your interrupted, “i know pretty, cum with me” and you two do.. warm cum -both his and yours- leaking and making a mess, “m’sorry gyu, wanted them to know your mine..” you cry. mingyu already cleaning you up, “i know pretty..”

an: mingyu brainrot again whoops

[moonshynecybin]

bezz saying they learn from marc. bezz saying marc is maestro. bezz admitting he made the mistake and crashed because he knew marc was coming behind him.

biting him like a chew toy and throwing him around i need to study his brain

yeah i was listening to the oxley bom podcast for le mans in the grocery store yesterday (#glamour) and they were talking about the kind of relationship marc has with the other, younger riders (but like SPECIFICALLY the academy boys) were theres this weird like. resentment and humiliation (and FEAR.) with marc when he beats them that all tied into this desperateeeeee need for him to RESPECT them at the same time. oh to be rated as an enemy by marc marquez. and like obviously all of that is tied into the valentino of it all, but at the same time its like. these guys all came into the sport with a bunch preconceived notions about what its like to race marc and how challenging it is and those are all kind of CONFIRMED out there on track buttttt when they start racing its during honda's flop era!! and marc is injured!! so maybe they DIDNT have a great idea of what its like to race marc marquez at the height of his powers yaknow !! thats a whole different girl on track AND off track right now!!! so now hes back and hes mostly healthy and hes on a good bike and theyre all actually and for real getting a chance to measure up against him and ask themselves. are your accomplishments worth anything or was marc's situation just FUCKED. and thats a BIGGGG question ! HUGE !

like in many ways marc is kind of the current benchmark for generational talent style success in motogp! even if they hate him, that means something.... so they DO want marc to talk to them in the cooldown room (bez) and they WILL make lunges they wouldnt normally on track (pecco) when its marc because hes the guy they actually and for real have to beat if they want to consider themselves great. AND marc's such a boogeyman at the same time that sometimes theres this hilarious undercurrent of panicked desperation when he enters the convo on track that is so funnay. like my fave part of oxley/bom this week was specifically the dissection of the SHOWMANSHIP and the INTIMIDATION marc brings.... like UH-OH marc's on your ass gotta MOVE. and bezz and pecco folded !

so yeah i think they DO consider him a maestro! they WANT to see his data! and they ARE impressed with what he does on track because how couldnt you be? especially when you PERSONALLY know how hard that shit is?? and what does that knowledge that marc may be able to do things YOU cant and pull them off do to your brain?? what does the knowledge that he will NEVER quit trying to overtake you do to your brain?? what does the knowledge that he is the craziest, hottest person in a sport entirely consisting of insane in the membrane hot girls do to your brain??? like girl hes hunting you DOWN

[pyr0-kai]

Josh Futturman x Youtuber/streamer reader

I heard this idea and was like YESSSSSS

headcannons + bad writing

Song inspo vv

So you’re decently famous, but not like pewdiepie type famous, yaknow?

And Josh is like one of them super fans, like gotta see everything you post ASAP.

❛ ━━･❪ ❁ ❫ ･━━ ❜

- You probably met Josh as you were going to the game store to pick up a new controller/gear for your setup or something

- Josh has been a fan of your stuff for a while. And now that he knows you live close by? Happy happy happy!!

- I’m on the fence if he would be the person to be all like

“Ohmygodiwatchallyourtvideosyouramazingraaaaa”

Or to just completely lock up and stare.

Probably the 2nd one.

- He’s a giant dork, but he’s cute so thats a pass

- 100% really awkward at first and thinking like

“why is someone so famous and pretty hanging out with me, system overload…” 😵‍💫

So pls bear with him

- bro is a huge simp, but such a sweetheart too.

- Supports you 1000% however he can, and whenever

- If you cosplay? He is drooling, especially if its a character he likes

- when your fans find put your dating oooooOoOoO…. They spam the comments/chat asking to see him!

- When Josh finally gets the courage to join you on a video/stream… ooo the fans call him a big dork cuz he is but they love him too!

- he gets so excited from all the love of your fans too

- All kinds of posts with him after that

- posts on stuff like instagram after dates, if you get a pet together, anything

- Streaming co-op games together is an absolute must!!!

[hel-phoenyx]

New year's Eve, part 18

A thing a lil bit shorter to put out some context and introspection before linking back all the plotlines

"Would you tell me about your family ?"

again ? This is like, the third time a shrink has asked me this question. Usually it's the moment I get up and leave, 'cause I didn't come here to hear the usual talk about "mommy issues" or whatnot. Like every psychiatrist wants to diagnose you with childhood problems.

I don't know why I don't do the same, now.

Maybe because it's not formulated like "so. Tell me about your mother".

Or because it just came in the conversation.

"Not a lot to tell, I'm afraid. I'm a third-generation immigrant, I told you. Born in Denmark from a Danish father, that gave me a Dane name and surname. Whole family followed him here in France, including the grandmas and grandpas, the aunts and uncles, and my gaggle of siblings."

"That is, actually, quite a lot to tell."

Yeah, yeah, shrinks and their tendency to overanalyse things. I know that damn well.

I don't like feeling like the circus freak.

"Sure, sure, whatever."

"You said you are siblings. Are they older or younger than you ?"

"Most of them are older. I'm the youngest."

Wasn't always.

...

Why are you looking at me ?

I hate this silence.

"Most of my sibs work blue collar jobs. Like my parents. We're not well off, exactly, so I have to, y'know, provide..."

"With a cop's salary ?"

I nod.

"Yeah. It's not much, but with the police funding in France, it's way better than most of the jobs I can do. So gotta feed all those mouths, even if they look at me with betrayal."

Because who would dare imagine a son of immigrants, born from a devout Muslim mother and a blue collar father, with a family cops would hate and persecute until they "get back to their country", join the enemy ? Islamophobia is not a new thing in France. It was there when I first came in.

I was a rowdy kid. The only thing white-passing in me were my blue eyes. So of course I knew firsthand what racism can do to someone. I still chose to join a career that promotes it.

"It's the only reason ?"

"No, not quite. I wanted to be an insider, yaknow ? Change the system. Do something."

Even if I have to betray what some people call a coven. It's what I do best, after all. Betray my family. Betray my friends. Betray my heritage.

Betray. Betray. Betray.

I am the class traitor, the race traitor, the everything traitor.

Why wouldn't I use that for my advantage ?

"You're very political, I recall. from our last talks, I remember a lot of anger about the system in you."

"Who wouldn't be ?"

Well, a lot of people are perfectly content with that. It's why I'm angry. Because I can't fathom a mind where there's no anger toward all that injustice.

Stop looking at me.

"Who wouldn't be ? It's infuriating. I see people afraid to talk back while some racist, privilegied fuckers can destroy a culture while laughing. A culture, or a person. Hell, I've been outed in my precinct some time ago, and... And..."

And I act like it doesn't affect me because I can't retaliate, because it would hurt people I care about, and because everyone is already looking at me weird. I've lost all credibility in the post now that I am the gay cop. i'm not even gay.

I don't know anymore.

Stop with those eyes.

"And now I am not even my own damn person, goddamnit ! I am back to being the token something ! First it was the token brown, now it's the token gay, hell, I'm not even gay !"

I'm aroace. I'm aroace, goddamnit. Thorfinn coined in the damn word for me after years of thinking I was broken. That something was missing. That everybody telling me brown people are subhuman was right because I was a living proof of it.

I can't even tell you that because you would tell me I am broken, too. I'm not even sure I am not.

Stop looking.

"I'm sick of not being my own person, do you fucking get it ?! I want to be myself and not the "something" of someone ! and all the people that saw me as myself are turning away from me and I am alone and I want to fix that and I need to do something so they get back at me and... and... and..."

And that something would go against everything I fought for.

Use my privilege to my advantage. Destroy friendships, expose weaknesses, attack on what people are.

Provoke a damn police descent at a family whose only crime is to be racised and related to someone I want dead.

Stop.

Stop, stop, stop, stop, stop !!!!!!

"Stop looking at me with those goddamn eyes !"

I raise my fist.

It's the same eyes

The same eyes as him

But on me this time.

Stop looking at me

Stop

Stop

"You get the fuck out of here, Fen. Now."

...

I sit back.

I can't.

He's still sat down. His eyes are not worried. They're calm. It's not him. It's not him. It's not him.

"Take a deep breath, mister Wolffsen."

I'm trying.

He's still sat down.

"You can destroy everything you want in my office, I won't mind. I'll just ask you to not redirect that anger on me, alright ? I can't listen if I'm knocked out."

I nod. can't do much more. My throat is blocked by something. I think that if I open my mouth, it will flow down in an ugly way.

Ugly.

Gross.

Like everything inside.

"You mentioned people that saw you as you. Can you talk to me more about them ?"

I wish for nothing less.

But I have no choice, do I ? I have no choice because Gustav clearly told me that if I didn't get therapy, I would lose him, and Kriss, and everything. Because Thorfinn is starting to look at me with those eyes I can't read while he once told me everything.

Because I haven't talked to Tyr since my last attempt at reconnexion.

"I... Met them in elementary. All of them. We were in different classes, but we were all singled out for a reason."

I was brown. Brynja was from the system, and entered the school in CE2 while everyone know each other since the first class. Thorfinn was "the tomboy", and they were an orphan switching families after families. Gustav was the son of a known murderer. Hector had facial difformities and an obvious Muslim surname. Aarni came from an alcoholic middle-eastern family.

Tyr was the prodigal son of rich, old blood.

"Alone people stick together. Even if... They start making other friends, in the meantime."

"You didn't want them to have other poeple ?"

"I did.... It's just...."

Deep breath.

"... No, I didn't. I was jealous. I had only them."

Them, the only people not looking at me like a freak. And Tyr, the first one extending his hand to me and asking if I wanted to play tag.

"It's still the case today ?"

... Why ?

Why would you ask me that ?

"... Yes."

"Why ?"

Shut up. Don't make me say it. Shut up.

Not those eyes.

Stop looking at me like you're listening, like I can continue talking.

"Because... They're the only ones who saw something in me."

"And now you're afraid they will leave you for people you consider better."

....

Shut up.

The shrink nods. A little smile on his face. At the same time, I hear a timer ring.

"I'm afraid the session is over, mister Wolffsen. I am sorry we reached such a conclusion so close from the end. Would a new appointment next week be okay with you ?"

"I.... Guess ?"

"Also, we will need to talk about the next step of your therapy. You have mood swings of an unusual violence, he says while writing on his notepad. I can teach you some exercices to keep your anger in check. For example, I suggest that until next time we see each other, each time you feel that rage coming, you try shifting to a more comfortable position. Keep the clenched fists in check. Concentrate on that for at least one minute. See if it helps."

This

I think this is the first time

Someone doesn't tell me to just suck it up.

"Music, too, can help. Relaxing music. Do you like piano, mister Wolffsen ?"

"never... Listened to it. It's for rich people."

Said my father.

"Not anymore with YouTube and all the streaming services. Who knows, maybe you will discover a passion."

He extends a hand.

Smiling.

"Until next time, mister Wolffsen."

[electricbathsalt]

I cant believe you were gaslit for saying Overhaul was right I'm gonna rewatch that arc cause it's my favorite I've only seen it twice and I dont remember much but resently I've fallen in love with Overhaul and Shigaraki so I need to consume their content again BUT I DIDNT KNOW OVERHAUL DIDNT ACTUALLY REALLY START ANYTTHING THERE also about the compress thing he wasn't really trying to take Compress out I dont think, he just got too close to him and he swung at him taking his arm he like got a little YO BACK UP scared I guess? Idk, SOMEBODY SAID IN A YOUTUBE COMMENT THAT OVERHAUL WAS EVIL BUT YOU GOTTA ADMIT HE HAD A HUSTLE IN MIND WITH SELLING TO THE HEROES AND VILIANS 😭 I wonder what it would be like if the LOV did actually work with the Shie hassaikai I was reading a fic where somebody did actually make them work together and its funny

Yes. For so long… they all told me… “Oh, Chisaki started it, he was talking so much shit!!” “Well, Chisaki was talking smack so he deserved it” “Chisaki was being a jackass for no reason so it’s all his fault”

And then I read it. Now I don’t know if I’m missing something, but huh??? Idk if it was like, different in the anime vs the manga, but huh??? Now okay, to be fair, idk why but I’ve always had trouble telling when people are like… being mean/harsh, especially with their words, so idk if I’m just misreading it, but to me it seriously seemed like the LOV were the ones who started shit?? Bc first off, Compress was the one who “smack-talked” (straightforwardly criticized) the Yakuza first (which Chisaki didn’t get upset about!!) and then it was Magne who attacked him first, and then Compress followed her blindly into battle. What exactly did the League expect him to do?? Stand there and let them kill him?? Listen, both sides were being assholes. But Chisaki was not the initiator.

He’s evil but he looks cool doing it (he looked good in the anime. He looked like something carefully sculpted by the gods’ own tools and hands in the manga). He did seriously have something with the whole monopoly-on-the-market plan, which strengthens his point that he was better equipped to be leader than Shigaraki at the time. Although, I do understand that it’d be disrespectful to just say Shigaraki, the successor of AFO, shouldn’t be the next leader. lol. Chisaki still made a strong argument though.

But yaknow, as much as I might give off the impression I don’t like the LOV when I talk about this, I actually absolutely adore them. I love the LOV bro, they just were not as right here as people say they were imo. 😭 I do really wish that they and the Shie Hassaikai would’ve gotten to genuinely be a team, but we know why that couldn’t happen 😔 I love AUs where they work together though :D

Btw, I love your art. Esp how you draw Chisaki. Keep doing what you do

[jaguarys]

would love to hear your thoughts on élysio! i check the légendaires tag every once in a while and it's usually crickets so to find all the posts you made about it recently was super exciting. the brainrot is real lmao

PFFTT thank you I have many thoughts all the time and I’m so glad other people are enjoying them too.

Élysio is such a fascinating character to me!!

Full disclosure that I’ve not read Chroniques de Darkhell yet. I have the first volume but I’m gonna get to it after finishing my reread of the main series! I do feel like it would be neat context for Élysio though.

But yeah… I just love how Élysio is so ENTIRELY separate. How he gets to be his own person and make his own choices. How he gets to make the choice to be Good, over and over, even once he knows. How he commits to killing this representation of what he wanted, to killing his memories and fully severing any tie to who he was... man.

I don't Love his reappearance in vol 9, I guess. I don't hate it, either, but if he was gonna reappear I wish it had fully committed, yaknow? It wrapped up his arc and the loose end from vol 4, but it also felt a bit anti-climatic.

I am personally a big Élysio/Gryf enjoyer too, I won’t lie. I just think their dynamic is ripe for a little tension. I'm also just weak for any character who can get past Gryf's trust issues hehehe

I really wish we'd gotten more interactions between Élysio and Ténébris... I think they'd have a suuuper interesting dynamic, what with The Everything. I mean... this man who's your dad but who's not your dad but who's instead everything he COULD have been?? That's gotta be a little painful. She must have such complicated feelings on him.

[bl00dngh0uls]

wh0 is the best OC youve ever created hand down and like a total list of all OCS

I wanted to wait to answer this until I had a digital artwork completed of every OC that I have, bc a lot of them I’ve only ever hand drawn (my favorite ,, I love me some good pencil to paper art)

But , I figured I’d be waiting forever, bc with so much going on, and so many other drawing projects I have in the works, this ask would be long forgotten until I saw it in my inbox months down the road and went oh fuck me ,, I forgot to do that.

Sooo , to answer the first part of the question, I don’t think I have a ‘best OC’, because I literally love all my sweet babies so much. They all have their beautiful qualities, and all have their lil garbage ones. They’re all such well rounded characters HHHH, and I want to squeeze them all to death in my arms in one giant group hug.

They would probably hate/fear me if they ever were actually in my presence because, well, I’ve put all of them through some pretty fucked up shit. Some worse than others LOL.

I will now compile a list of all my OC’s.

(I continue to ramble)

Later, I will be adding drawings of my darlings, as I so please, in whatever order, because I really want to try and make my tumblr more of a space for my OC shit. If I could someday get asks directed towards specific OC’s of mine,,,, that,.. would be a dream come true .

But, yaknow, in order to do that, I gotta get on top of actually posting art,, hhhha , that is a goal of mine for the rest of this year, into the following, and forever HAHA ,,my goal is always more art

SO ,, here we go. I’m going to list them in order of creation. (As best I can,, I started making OCs like,, fuck,, 12 years ago almost?? Some were lost along the way.. some were made so close to one another that I don’t know which came first)

1: Thomas James Burns🖤 age: 19

2: Kyle Frederick Hunt🖤 age: 29

3: Lucifer/Lilith🖤 age: n/a

4: Jehovah🖤 age: n/a

5: Esteban De La Cruz🖤 age: 37

6: Percival (Percy) Chauncey Palmer🖤 age: 21

7: Donovan Christian Bell🖤 age: 23

8: Joon Seo Woo🖤 age: 24

9: Ikeda Noboru🖤 age: 40

*Uhm also I have a bunch of OCs that were made to be in the specific stories of these characters,, so this is just a list of the ✨mains✨

Also I’m vvvvery aware that this is a bare minimum list,, just names and ages lol ,, uhm I just want to add a picture of each of them for a better description. So you can see them aaaand get a lil background info on them. I’ll probably start doing a few of those tonight~

Gonna tag all future OC posts with #MYOCDUMP so I can look through all of my own OC shit on my blog like a noob

[karda]

hi could you talk about how you see gordon & benrey's dynamic / how they'd deal w each other if/since they live together im rly curious

hiii ya sure ^_^

i dont draw tommy enough but i think he'd be the main reason they dont kill each other at first. like introducing a new cat to your old cat. gotta put them in separate rooms for a while. I like when they are assholes at first lol. not really enemies but just like "I Dont like you get the fuck out of my house. wait you smoke? ok you can stay for a minute." i think the fic im writing also fucks up canon for me though. because in my head they're already messy lmao so the thought of them hanging out outside of things makes more sense. i dont think they would live together at all, i think they would just hang out ^_^ and be weird. 

benrey has no sense of whats permanent or real, the dude can die and come back. so he probably knew Gordon would get a free hand at the end of it and thought that meant it didnt matter. i dont know jack shit about real half life or the character that gordon freeman is "supposed" to be but i think hlvrai Gordon would hate him a little less after knowing that. cant yell at a puppy for eating your shoes. didnt know any better yaknow. u can still be angry though. (and he is)

i think benrey is a mix of being blunt as hell (like straight up telling Gordon he's attracted to him, and dropping random lore about himself whenever he wants) while also being completely oblivious (like in my shotgunning art lol. Gordon has to spell out a lot of shit for him, and that is very hard for a guy who yells and cries his feelings out). i think gordon would invite him over and act like he's doing benrey a favor by indulging him, but he wants to hang out just as much. bros in denial. i think he's got the hots. they play video games in each other's shitty apartments and get high . and tommy comes over for game/movie nights . i think polyamory would fix them. in this essay i will