wave the pequod away from port/ and dream of dead fish/
we talked a lot/ when i was a kid/
/
we/ is a strong word/
but for all your faults/ you were a very effective teacher/
i knew from a young age/ how to nod with an acceptable amount of deference/
how to balance noises of assurance with eye contact/
even gods least-favorite little yes-men have to start somewhere
i don’t think i really understood it/ not for a long time/
that look in your eyes/ when you caught sight of me/
staring at each other through filmy glass/
i knew it was love/ because you didn’t look at your coworkers like that/
and you loved me/
obviously/
i think i figured it out before i could put words to it/
but it’s been a couple of years since i was thirteen/
and that over-grown slice of caviar had a instinct for self-flattery so deep you’d think they were trying to breathe it/
but you looked at me the way people look at wall-trophies/
so i started slipping sarcasm into answers you hadn’t asked for/
locked off whatever sense of self i could stand to lose for a few hours/
and kept my face blank when you stormed away from the open aquarium lid/
learned what house keys and petty malice sounded like/ walking up my back porch/
and just how much teeth i could use when greeting you/
before you started to suspect something was wrong/
but you couldn’t be uncouth/
you couldn’t stoop to my level/
admit to starting the game/ while i swam circles around you/ your flashing lures/
and taught myself how to hold my mouth that it was never more than a second from snapping shut/
because i understood how to win wars/
and you couldn’t bear the thought that your prize-winning goldfish was planning a coup/
much less that you had earned it/
i don’t know if it was pride or blindness/
or whatever blurring line you had dragged into the sand on your way off the beach/
something wriggling in a sack and trying it’s best to bite you/
it’s the argument i’ve always kinda wanted to finish/
to load myself with spears and fishhooks and find out how real those tears were/
because you did this to me in less than two decades
and i’ve spent a significant amount of time with my face tucked to carpet undoing it
and in the process i have discovered that i am not a nice person/
i have seen what happens to people who throw themselves after white whales/
strapped with as many weapons as can fit onboard and set off from harbor with a hunger in their teeth that would pull sympathy from Tantalus/
and in the stories i am thinking of/
the best the good captain can hope for/ is killing his whale/
in the same instance his noose runs out of slack/
that he gets to see the death throes of that great/ terrible beast/
while the rope between them sees him keel-hauled/
and i don’t know that i find the idea an unsatisfactory one
i would rather like to hunt you for sport/
with a fervor i don’t think i could pass off as casual interest/
i would display you before an hostile/ silent crowd/
huddled faces spilling across the port as i haul your corpse into the town center/
introduce myself as your murderer when i am invited to parties/
let the anger rot through me/ some last disease from your disseminated blubber/
and barring public execution/ i would like one more chance/
one more polite luncheon/
to inflict just as much pain on you as i can manage in two hours and fourteen minutes/
but i don’t think either of us should be allowed to do that to each other anymore/
if only for the sake of the wait staff/
and that withering beta fish/ trapped in whatever cup you happened to clean out that week/
has wanted to hit you in the mouth for a very long time/
and i’m pretty sure i shouldn’t be allowed to do that either/
regardless of how much either of us deserve it//
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They could have solved this sooner if any of them bothered to look at a calendar
Hear me out
Ninjago doesn't have the best track record with dates (Wu's lifetime...) and I don't expect DR to be any better at it. But rewatching the season I realized the fact that when Lloyd narrates, he mentions being "alone for weeks" and, in the carnival, recalls not being around many people in a while, nailing down how he was secluded to the monastery during those weeks he woke up alone. This is fine, typical Lloyd behavior, just that when Nya encounters Cole, he says years.
Lloyd has no reason to lie, he doesn't have to make it seem like he was less time around so if he is not lying, and he truly was weeks alone, while Cole spends years lost after the merge? What happened?
And Nya and Kai! Kai woke up early enough, and in the bounty! to be able to map and travel a big part of the new land and try to find his way back, we don't know his side, but considering he pretty much arrived and then left again, had he entered the monastery before? I do believe he was longer out, awake and traveling. Nya also mentions having traveled before encountering the cranglings-- and she was on foot, she's resilient and strong, but for how long can you travel unknown terrain without a vehicle and survive it.
The idea of time getting messed up is plausible, other than reality coming undone and messing up every physics law-Cole is hanging out with what seems to be a kid formling, whose realm is confirmed to move differently time-wise, how could two different time progressions reacted to each other? How did that affect dates? Growing rates? So interesting.
I want to know if dr is planning on going somewhere with this, if not, then it'll be one more concept I'll rotate in my brain like a skewer, its such an interesting concept to me
Its also free trauma for the ninja! Win-Win
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